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saymio · 2 days ago

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Dae-ho headcanons | (NSFW)

Pairing: Kang Dae-ho (player 388) x Fem!reader

Genre: headcanons, smut

Warning: uhh daehho is rlly needy, kinda sub dae ho, idk TBH he's too normal for warnings LOL,

A/N: not proof read. I tried my best:( I'm used to writing darker stories with elements of dub/noncon, manipulation, etc..so hopefully I did his good personality justice.

kang dae ho, the man couldn't keep his eyes away from you the second he caught a glance of you. his eyes following your every move inside the room that everyone had just woken up in.

kang dae ho, the man that blushes like he had just been caught doing the dirtiest thing on earth (staring at you). getting somehow redder when you giggle at his 'confidence' crumble like a failed sand castle.

kang dae ho, the man that cant believe his eyes when you stand up from yourself and your group against men that were clearly bigger than you. showing immense confidence even when you could easily be overpowered.

kang dae ho, the man that always finds his gazes linger a little longer than they should. watching you closely when you stretch, feeling himself get hard at the sight of your stomach peeking past the shirt and soft noise you make when you stretch.

kang dae ho, the man that invites you to his team after the second round. finding you all alone after your teammates left you to die to form their group and getting fatally shot during it.

kang dae ho, the man that offers his milk to you. telling you that its "no big deal" with a shrug. even if he goes a little more hungry than usual.

kang dae ho, the man that will look at you for approval of something he just did. giving himself an internal fist bump when you tell him he did great.

kang dae ho, the man that will slip his hands into his pants and get himself off while he watches your sleeping form. he just thinks you look too gorgeous while the lights of the x and o illuminate off your face and rest of your body.

kang dae ho, the man that feels so bad for imagining what your delicate body looks under your clothes .. but cant help it when you just look so hot

kang dae ho, the man that will sneak into your bed at the middle of the night and cuddle you... feeling himself get a hard on at the feeling of your soft skin under his arms

kang dae ho, the man that will slowly start rutting into you in the middle of the night. waking you up surprised but not upset.. his moans and whines filling your ears to the brim

kand dae ho, the man that will fondle your tits n make out with you like a feral dog. as if you were his first girlfriend since 8th grade.

kang dae ho, the man that will cover his whines and moans with his hands while your jerk him off under the thin covers. trying his best not to make too much noise and wake anyone up..but there was probably that heard him either way.

kang dae ho, the man that will lick his fingers after you came all over them like a starving animal. savoring every drop of it that he can pick up with his digits.

kang dae ho, the man that decided to join the shoot out with the other guards in hopes it could get you out of this mess. even if you begged him not to go.

kang dae ho, the man that felt nothing but relief and warmth when you hugged him and held him in your gentle arms when he had a panic attack and couldn't get himself to go back

kang dae ho, the man that want nothing more but to spend the rest of his life with you.

A/N: this was rlly rushed n lazily made, I'm sorry :( I was out all day so I didn't find time to finish/continue my long fic but I still wanted to make something T T I think I might just stick to writing for characters that would more likely do darker things, I felt this was too boring :// sorry...

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possamble · 9 months ago

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Do you have any headcanons or thoughts about Falin having a crush on Marcille pre-canon? Especially during her later years at the school/the years she was with Laios.

Just full on "awkward and slightly gnc teenage lesbian has a massive crush on the touchy-feely girly girl straight best friend" tropes everywhere. Even better bc it's the "best friend is also the popular girl while lesbian is the slightly ostracized quiet one" dynamic in school. Falin gets so so so good at not having a heart attack every time Marcille gets in her personal space. But she's so resigned to never saying anything bc why would a girl as blinding as Marcille ever like her back. She also doesn't make an effort to get over it either, she's just content to be trapped in that stable dynamic of silently being in love with Marcille while getting to enjoy CLEARLY being Marcille's favourite person. She gets so used to it that it's almost just background noise most of the time-- it would have to be, unless she wanted to be freaking out 24/7 bc Marcille is so goddamn affectionate.

Her feelings also definitely change throughout the time that they're in school together-- at first it was this "whooaaah pretty older girl" puppy crush that you can clearly see developing in the flashbacks we get (I think she doesn't even like... realize her fixation on Marcille is romantic at all until years after it starts, when she's 12-14 ish and all the other girls around her are talking about crushes). But then they get closer, over the years Marcille starts getting really attached and letting down her guard, and Falin gets to see the ridiculous side of her. She gets to calm her down from her tantrums when experiments don't work out, or help her clean up when something explodes in her face. I feel like the progression of her feelings from "schoolgirl infatuation" to "unrequited love" probably almost exactly corresponds to how slowly Marcille goes from trying to keep Falin at a polite but friendly distance (like she does with everyone else) to her facade completely eroding as she becomes her cheerful and ridiculous self again for the first time since her father died.

That's probably the saddest part: Falin knows that she's clearly Marcille's favourite person on the surface level, but she doesn't quite fully grasp the enormity of what that means to Marcille. She doesn't get that she's the person who made the world colorful again for Marcille, that she is the first person outside of Marcille's family to really and truly make her laugh. She just thinks she's the beloved but dinky little short-lived sidekick, one of many that Marcille has had and will have.

Part of it is that, despite Marcille becoming such a clingy and affectionate best friend, I think her initial demeanour already did its damage. You see Falin being super adventurous and weird at first, bringing Marcille berries and other stuff, only to be rebuffed by Marcille exasperatedly saying she's working or looking kind of put off by it. And by the time you see her a little older, shes already quieter and better at masking -- and I'm not saying that that's entirely Marcille's fault (being the weird girl at an all girls academy for almost the entirety of her teenhood must have been brutal, my god) but she definitely learned that she's a potential nuisance to Marcille if she doesn't tone herself down. She learned that Marcille most likely sees her as a weird little kid following her around bc she has no other friends. And for the most part, she was never given any reason to unlearn any of that.

And that all very very smoothly transitions into Marcille being her "first love that was never meant to be anyway" when she leaves the academy. Chapter closed in her mind: she loved and pined from a distance and that was that. Every now and then she'll see another woman with Marcille's build or her shade of hair and be like ":( I miss her..." But then just kinda move on with her day. Same with when she's going through her own spellbook and finds a note that Marcille left her/correction that she made-- she'll smile fondly and reminisce about how much Marcille doted on her, and then move on.

Sometimes she thinks about contacting Marcille but convinces herself that it's too late (she spent too many months focusing on getting Laios healthy again and didn't mean to go no contact, but ah well). It's only when she has a practical reason to be reaching out that would also benefit Marcille ("Marcille is studying dungeons and we need a trustworthy mage to go with us to the dungeons") that she feels like she's allowed/that it wouldn't just be 100% a nuisance.

I almost think she didn't expect Marcille to reply at all, only to get a telegraph (or some in-universe equivalent of express mail, maybe magical pigeon carrier) that's like. EN ROUTE TO ISLAND. LETTER TO FOLLOW. and she freaks out like AAAA LAIOS SHE SAID YES WE HAVE TO CLEAN UP NOW.

I do think getting a response accidentally sparks a little hope in her, judging by the way she acts in the chp 57 flashback-- she's pouty that Marcille sees her as a kid, gets really worked up about being presentable, and then tries to play it cool when she actually meets Marcille (as if she didn't freak out and force Laios to shave while rambling a mile a minute about Marcille). She's an adult now, really and truly, and she's seen and survived things that her 18 yr old self would have never even imagined-- then all of a sudden, the person she was in love with since she was ten years old appears, and she's so desperate to be seen as mature and competent. She's trying soooo hard to impress Marcille with her newfound combat and dungeoneering experience...

Only to fall right back into their old dynamic. RIP. At least she gets the girl eventually, even if it takes dying twice and being the core catalyst behind an almost-apocalypse.

#asks #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #dungeon meshi #farcille #marcilleposting #kinda #the irony is that for me she DOES succeed in impressing marcille #its just that its so gradual and marcille is so so good at repression that neither of them notice it #marcille just sees her reacting so confidently to dire combat situations #easily throwing up protective spells even when they get ambushed #and seeing her become an expert in her field of magic that marcille would even consider an intellectual peer or equal #as well as a competent healer and combatant who also grew up a lot to take care of laios herself #changes marcilles feelings surprisingly fast i think. i think shes down bad in love with falin for the majority of the year before canon #the absence made the heart grow fonder but the feelings more mutable and its almost like meeting a new person when they reunite #anyway. you guys have to stop reading my mind and asking about major themes from my wips #yes the next chapter of a little creature touches on this a lot.#stop making me give away my takes before i can properly write them into fiction form fjsjjdf

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skrunksthatwunk · 6 months ago

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actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.

he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.

a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).

but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.

and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.

he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.

and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal

#i had a really big fundie snark phase a year or two ago so that's part of like. this. but im still not used to actually talking about #religious stuff so if it reads kinda awkwardly uhh forgive me orz idk #maybe it sounds dumb but i like that the message isn't 'religion is evil'. it easily could have been. but i think the show's points about #how fundie wasp culture in particular treats christianity and itself and others would be less poignant if they were like. and jesus sucks #btw >:] like. this feels more nuanced to me. i guess there's probably a way to maintain that nuance with an ultimately anti-christian #piece of media but i think it'd be like. wayy harder and it's difficult for me to imagine that bc i think a lot of it would bleed out into #the tone. + why focus on only These christians when They're All also bad? so you'd get jokes about them in general #and i think that's kinda less funny than orel and doughy screaming and running from catholics lsdkjfldksj #i think the specificity makes it more unique and compelling as comedy and as commentary. but that's just me #like moralton represents a very particular kind of christian community (namely a middle class fundie wasp nest)#you're not gonna be able to get in the weeds as much if you're laughing at/criticizing all christians. but they accomplish it so thoroughly #and WELL in morel and i think that's because it chose a smaller target it can get to dissect more intimately. anyway #moral orel #orel puppington #(OH also when i say wasp here i mean WASP the acronym. as in white anglo-saxon protestsant. in case the term's new to anyone <3)#maybe it's also relevant to say that i'm kindaaaaaaaa loosely vaguely nonspecifically christian. so there's my bias revealed #i was never raised like orel but i like to think i get some of what's going on in there y'know. in that big autistic head of his #but it's not like i can't handle anti-christian/anti-religious media/takes. i'm a big boy and also i v much get why it's out there yknow #christianity in specific has a lot of blood on its hands from its own members and from outsiders and people have a right to hate it for tha #but religion in all its forms can be positive and i appreciate the nuance. like i've said around 20 times. yeah :) <3 #(<- fighting for my life to explain things even though my one job is to be the explainer)

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thesillyexpresser · 3 months ago

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Redrew that one Fire Punch panel with Murderbot because I just got the Fujimoto vibes

OG panel (+bonus doodle because why not) below

Bonus doodle ^

#“Erm ackshully Muderbot walked into a theatre with a documentary already playing” ☝️🤓#“And the seats formed a circular shape around the display not like a tradition theat-“#I’m going to boil you /affectionate #Oh yeah and I’ve got to get this off my chest #But I really REALLY thought Mensah was gonna pull a Makima #like come on #Preservation was just kinda too perfect and (in my head) had a demenour that was kinda Makima like #Plus with the whole pet tidbits scattered in there #Plus I thought the who was a “bad guy” and who was a “good guy” was WAYY to clean cut for me not to doubt #im so sorry for doubting you girlboss I’m just traumatized from csm😔😔#but even then I was still thinking about Fujimoto when reading this for some reason lol #art #artwork #doodle #character art #artists on tumblr #illustration #manga panel #fire punch #the murderbot diaries #murderbot fanart #murderbot #secunit #Imagine Mensah as a Makima type character tho that would’ve been so cool #Still love you girlboss

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cpcposting · 2 years ago

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Probably one of my fave things about CPC is the fact that Gwen genuinely isn’t conventionally attractive, she’s not just some girl who *gasp* wears glasses and has her hair in a ponytail or something X_X The amount of ”””ugly””” characters I’ve that seen that fall into that trope bruhhh. But as the comic goes on, like Frederick, you get used to her appearance and come to appreciate her as truly beautiful bc of who she is <3

#cursed princess club #rambling #ig shes like fiona from shrek in that way??#who in the end stays as an ogre despite her princess form #and shrek loves her like that yknow #oh no another shrek reference #aerial was so real for that fic ngl #honestly i could compare cpc to true beauty as well or something #bc that comic also deals with ugliness kinda #but its different shit yknow #its more focused on love triangles XD #heck even lookism addresses it a bit #but that comic is kinda traumatic for me to read at times bc of the fatphobia and such lol #so id say it deals moreso with body image compared to cpc #which is more about the impact of words rather than the appearance itself #the literary compared to the physical #lookism is so fucking brutal fr #like you think frederick's bullying was bad???#lookism mc would be jealous of him #uhhh ive gone on a whole rant i apologise

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harlequinoccult · 5 months ago

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after drawing cold, i started thinking about how much they resemble eyeless jack, but the canonical version.

was this on purpose?? 😭

it wasn't lmao, eyeless jack, laughing jack, ticky toby and the like god i hope im getting those names right were a bit after my time in terms of creepypasta. by the time they were popular i was more so on r/nosleep. i don't know a whole lot about the """new age""" spooky spaghetti admittedly

#slenderman. the rake. smile dog. lavender town.#im more familiar with early 2000s creepypasta #there are exceptions to this obviously #a lot of them are edgy early 2000s-2010s horror or are like. the proto form of mascot horror in that the spookster in question-#is conventionally attractive person that Has Something Wrong With Them #and no shade to that at all because i know what I'M writing but at the time a lot of those stories were kinda dogshit #a la jeff the killer #you ever read the og jeff the killer story? its bad! it suck ass! the image is doing the heavy lifting #anyway that was my TED talk #what the fuck do i even tag this as.

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viperwhispered · 10 months ago

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Some angst thoughts with you/Yuu after Jamil's overblot (with an extra dash of snake phobia because, uhh, personal experience):

Jamil thinks he knows why you avoid meeting his eyes - he doesn't realize you're still working on getting used to his presence in general, trying to keep at bay those memories of his overblot that seem so deeply ingrained in your mind.

In the right situation, just hearing Jamil's voice seems to take you back.

Seeing him from the corner of your eye isn't much better: those braids really look an awful lot like something long and slithery when your mind's primed for it, your mind anticipating the hissing snakes darting towards your face again.

You find it difficult to sleep with your bedroom door closed - it makes you feel too confined, with no way out.

Not that the new nightmares help your sleeping situation much, either.

Kalim keeps on inviting you over to the dorm for yet another get together. You know it would do you good to go, eventually, but you're not sure you're ready yet. So you come up with another excuse.

#twisted wonderland #jamil viper #kalim al-asim #ner writes #basically I would have a very bad time dealing with Jamil's overblot form because sneks #so I'm kinda just extrapolating from there and thinking how I'd do in Yuu's shoes #and alright canon Yuu did not spend that much time actually interacting with him iirc but anyway #not sure how much sense these make but like kidnapping mindcontrol and snakes?#yeah I would be shook for sure #ngl now I kinda really wanna read a nice fic of reader/Yuu and Jamil slowly building a connection after his overblot #sure the other overblots were traumatic too but the captivity just makes scarabia extra fun

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aroaessidhe · 9 months ago

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2024 reads / storygraph

Lord of the Empty Isles

sci-fi/fantasy

set on a supposedly utopian planet recovering from a climate crisis, where bonds between people are able to be seen and manipulated (by some people)

follows a young man whose brother was cursed and killed by an infamous outlaw 5 years ago, and he’s finally able to curse him back - but it rebounds, as he’s somehow fatebound to the outlaw

to find a cure and save them both they have to team up, and he quickly finds out that the resources the outlaw is stealing go to the thousands of people neglected on prison planets, and he has to go against what he thought was right to help them

no romance, aroace MC, focus on platonic relationships

arc from netgalley, out june 6

#Lord of the Empty Isles #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #I enjoyed this quite a bit! But I think it could have gone a bit further in places.#It has some interesting concepts and a great cast of characters and yay no romance #I do have a lot of thoughts and little critiques...#it's p obvious where the plot is going and what's going to happen #There’s clearly a lot gone into developing this bond system but to be honest I still don’t entirely get it?#It seems to emphasise that the bonds just reflect connections between people rather than predetermine anything; but also the plot kind of #hinges on Remy and Idrian having a predetermined bond? There are a lot of explanations of intricacies but a lot of it didn’t sink in idk #It’s promoted as QP but to me it reads as a general platonic relationship. I generally expect a depiction of a QPR to have like..#some form of acknowledgement/depiction of the form of their relationship being a particular (undefinable?) kind #with some specific level of commitment? I’m being picky maybe they mean queerplatonic themes/vibes rather than saying it’s a qpr #specifically. the centred platonic relationship is good! it doesn't seem like a qpr to me; at most what could one day be that #also things are solved quite quickly and easily in the end - both the curse and the downfall of the bad guy.#I feared it would go down the route of blaming things on the person in charge rather than emphasising systemic issues which it kinda does….#It’s impossible to ignore right now just how deeply people are willing to believe dehumanising propaganda - and how 'telling the truth'#and exposing the person in power as bad doesn’t actually do anything so that happening here made me go…… oh okay. well.#there is room for a sequel that maybe will explore this tho. idk #complaints aside - I do recommend this! It was fun and pretty unique.#aroace books #no romance

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lesbianphan · 1 year ago

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Dan: local man who clearly loves his partner claims love isn't real Phil: local man pretends he didn't just imply he loves his partner by including his friends awkwardly to sound nonchalant about it, making it sound much weirder than it had to be

#yep they've nailed it alright #dnp #phan #read love platonically or romantically but like #just saying you don't buy a house with a person you don't LOVE in some way shape or form #anyway Dan's energy was all kinds of off this video I felt bad he looks tired and kinda done #idk if it was just gamingmas but probs not hope he's doing alright!#and I'm not even talking about the existential speeches cause same lol #the video was really fun as usual I'm not complaining just like hope they take a longer break if they need it we'll complain but be fine

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alaskan-wallflower · 5 months ago

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(vent in the tags and under the cut. don’t read if you don’t want.)

sometimes i wonder if people would care if i was gone. there’s just no point anymore tbh.

#tw sui ideation #its honestly just been going through my head for a while #the past two weeks my parents haven’t talked about anything besides my brother #i kinda just feel like i’ve been forgotten in a way #i just feel lonely i guess #and i hate it #it’s just one of those days where i feel lethargic and just numb frankly #and i’m tying to keep posting because it’s not fair that others who don’t give a shit have to read my vents #but i just can’t do this anymore #i’m going through a lot rn #between yesterday and my dog being sick and school starting and my grandma getting surgery and having to move in with my family #it’s all just a lot rn #and sometimes i just think about it and i just hate it #i hate having dark thoughts like this #i’ve been my only therapist because i can’t talk to my parents #i can’t talk to them about this stuff or they’ll just give me the “you can be sad but you can’t pack up and live there” bullshit #I DIDNT FUCKING ASK FOR THIS #that pisses me off so bad #i didn’t fucking ask to have suicidal thoughts?#sometimes i’ll just choke myself with my dog’s leash as a form of punishment because it just makes me feel good #atp i don’t care if i go too far because it’s not worth it anymore #it just doesn’t feel like life’s worth living #there’s nothing to enjoy or look forward to atp #i just need a friend #i’m so tired of being there for people and then having to turn back to myself when i have an issue because im too cowardly to open up #i’m scared #i don’t have it bad like i don’t know why i feel like this #i have a good life #i’m just being a brat #i dunno

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girl-bateman · 8 months ago

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Went to the beach, took a cold swim, dried in the sun while reading Crime and Punishment and drinking iced coffee. Walked back home. Ordered a copy of Eroticism by Georges Bataille. Checked my bank account and realised I have enough money to spoil myself with a new perfume. Made plans with friends. Felt better.

#i know eroticism is free to read online but i prefer to have things in book form when i know i want to read the entire thing #morning swims are making me feel so much better btw !#i think being in nature helps me have a wider perspective on things #its sort of the opposite of my body? if that makes sense #everything happening inside of me is so terrifying but outside of myself everything keeps living and thriving and thats kinda nice #when im at my lowest the world feels suffocating but being out on the water surrounded by greenery and peace makes everything big again :)#i still feel very bad and wrong. but im doing my best to find moments of joy and peace #for once in my life i am absolutely certain that whatever is wrong with me is not my fault #and that conviction makes it easier to take good care of myself in the best way i know how

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ginkovskij · 3 months ago

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gin, we need your critical opinion about megalopolis. was it really that bad?

i mean.

is it unwatchable? no. but also it is not good for sure. would love for it to be a case of "so bad it circles back being somehow good", but unfortunately no, becasue in order to achieve such a thing coppola should have gone camp and embraced the style instead of taking himself too seriously.

there are. ideas. that considered by themselves sort of make sense if you are desperate to find sense in this insanity of a movie, but whether within or without context for the large part they remain disjointed. and are anyway very cringe at core. i don't know how to put it kindly but the script just sucks. and choices were made.

#continuing in the tags because i'm embarassed lol i am no expert at all and just like watching movies #before and after watching it myself i read and listened to opinions coming from both sides as one does and #listen the movie ain't that deep #what moves some people to call it a masterpiece is essentially the same that moves other call it a disappointment: - this constant quoting #(both in the dialogues and in the visuals) something else something cool #without paying the due attention as to whether each quote is coherent to the context in which it is being used or adds any value to the #general narration #- but also this. delirious. thing with lights and cgi (it should have been practical effects!!) and. editing. that wants to be something bu #it's genuinely just outdated‚ ridicolous‚ i found it kinda offending even lol #i appreciate a genuine homage to the arts as the next guy but citations aren't enough #this movie created some talk about the duality of cinema as a form of art and entertainment which isn't entirely out pf place but if you #watch megalopolis you will easily see the entertainment aspect isn't there because the movie sucks‚ and that the art aspect is shallow #anyway i forgot all the million things i wanted to add so very quickly:#director: gave himself five stars on letterboxd. bad #writing: bad #editing: bad #photography: okayish #music: don't even remember it #acting: there's only so much an actor can do when their characters are unflattering #set & costume design: i don't understand why the future utopia looks like 10s fast fashion clodius and wow are the only ones who get it. ba #sorry for the nonsense hope my answer is at least more enjoyable than watching megalopolis ha-ha (':#gin answer

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proudfreakmetarusonikku · 3 months ago

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people need to realise tone policing and respectability politics are literally not at all related to people not listening to you because you're being hurtful. there’s a difference between being angry and loud and aggressive towards people who are causing you harm and just downright cruelty, and even if you’re making the best points in the world no one will listen to you if you do so in a cruel and demeaning manner because they will not trust you’re acting in good faith! and that is not their fault! if you’re not trustworthy and you're throwing innocent people under the bus, how can an uneducated layman know if you’re talking about an actual problem in an extremely unhelpful way or if you’re trying to justify that cruelty? especially since On This Website we have had frequent examples of terfs using bullshit concern trolling about ace people or bisexual people or nonbinary people to try and groom vulnerable queer people into their ideology. people aren’t naive and if you act like one of those people aren’t going to risk you being another wave of them. this is not to say people who act like this are inherently evil or terfy a lot of the times i see people doing this i agree with their central point.

like, for example, there’s been a lot of posts in this nature about transphobia i 100% agree with but also i cannot engage with bc they are deliberately and repeatedly misgendering me and other nonbinary people by reducing us down to our genitals and mocking us for not fitting into the transmasc transfem mould they automatically decided was inclusive when it really isn’t at all in the slightest then forcing us into it anyway. i am not going to reblog posts calling me slurs, even if i think they’re factually correct, because that’s cruel and bigoted. but that’s just one example. one i see brought up and thankfully avoided a lot recently is misogyny towards white women being used in discussions about white women and privilege. white women do have white privilege obviously and that is worthy of discussion. but it is Not okay to mock abuse or spread literal incel rhetoric about the dog pill (like, that is Literal incel forum shit, and they use it against women of colour too why are you normalising it) that’s just violent misogyny. or a lot of self proclaimed “leftists” who can critique capitalism super well but can’t stop throwing around the r slur and spreading eugenicist rhetoric. and the list goes on and on. people will not listen to you if you are racist or homophobic or misogynistic or whatever even if you are totally 100% correct bc people aren’t going to be reading to the end of your post to see that if you sound like blaire white they’ll just block you immediately and even if they do people who don’t know enough on that topic- so, presumably the people you’re trying to reach while doing activism????- will genuinely have no way of knowing if you’re fucking with them or not bc that Has happened and people who do know enough haven’t learnt anything and have just spent the last half hour being called slurs which means you’ve just been an asshole for no reason.

there’s a difference between righteous anger and impoliteness (very fair and understandable) to downright being a cruel bigot to people (which makes you look like a shit stirrer at best) and that needs to be noted. being angry is fine. but being a rude asshole to people bc they’re a minority- even if you are one yourself, even if you’re “more oppressed” (which is really fucking hard to quantify anyway bc believe it or not different things are discriminated against to different degrees based on a wild number of topics especially since america is in fact not the only place with bigotry and bigotry like everything culturally upheld can vary wildly in expression even if it’s the same bullshit deep down)- makes you literally completely indistinguishable from some edgelord troll to people who are trying to learn and just insults people who know enough to deduce you’re correct.

#and I want to say this isn’t unique to any side or whatever it’s a pattern I’ve noticed #this isn’t me calling out a specific group you’re in then I’d kinda just be doing the same thing #I have listed Examoles but they’re far from exhaustive and k tried to keep them broad #but no. don’t use this to hate on The X you’re missing the point. this is a shitty form of online activism shit I’ve noticed with everythin #and like. mate you are not helping people learn. which presumably. is why you’re doing activism #to like. get people onto the side of your cause and to apply pressure to get things to change.#so what is the point? taking your pain out on other disadvantaged people bc it’s safer than targeting the system?#it’s understandable I suppose but it’s completely unproductive and cruel #and people not listening to you isn’t their fault if they have genuine reason to believe you’re coming in with bad faith #bc you’re literally indistinguishable from alt right assholes #regardless of what you are btw. bc again we are talking about people Learning. they do not know the concepts you’re bringing up yet #you can’t get mad at someone learning to read for not immediately writing an essay on war and peace #that’s just. not how things work at all.

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bitegore · 4 months ago

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baru cormorant seems to me to be a series that suffers miserably for me having read machineries of empire first. unfortunately everything BC is doing strikes me as something MoE did better and more believably and with much a greater and more grounded eye for how systems, complex system interaction, and oppression like. work

#red rambles #also i don't like the writing very much so I'm not having as much fun with it as i did with MoE #but YHL straight up writes with the exact approach and methodology *i* write - the narrative frame is extremely close. the lines are punchy #the description is sparse the info we are delivered is typically in short wacky one-off chunks that tell us not only something about the #world but something about the narrator who is also the main character whose head we're in #the timing. so on and so forth #someone told me that seth dickinson is transfem but i cant find her (?) pronouns anywhere so if anyone knows where to see them i'd #appreciate a link if only to complain that i don't like her (?) writing that much in comparison because it is a lot less.... rewardingly #entertaining i suppose. when compared to the way yoon ha lee structures his. there are much fewer twists #and of course the major huge twist of Baru Cormorant was hidden from the reader which i just think is *bad form* when it comes to intrigue!#when yhl will lay all the moving pieces of the plot before you openly and say 'hey. isn't that a funny side tangent. anyway look to your #left; something is exploding' and then as it keeps unfolding he goes 'and here in small scale is how it is being used! isn't that #interesting to see how these pieces move? now look to your right; something is exploding' and then at the very end it all comes perfectly #together #the way i felt around the middle/end of Raven Strategem when i understood the spy network the first time is something that BC cannot do #you aren't trusted with the pieces and you don't get to play the game of understanding that you weren't *told* literally everything #i'm reading monster baru cormorant today as i go about my errands and I kinda don't think it's what i want because i want it to be the kind #of working awful poisoned bloodstained empire as the hexarchate and i want it to be a complex contradictory overlapping system like the #hexarchate's army and i want the banal cruelty of perfectly decent people condemning strangers to awful awful bloody deaths because they're #'not like us' instead of the petrified horror *everyone* has of the Social Contagion Agents because i just do not BUY the construction of #dickinson's Social Hygiene Offices and their place in the world #but i cant just read the MoE books any more. i'll get bored. i'm already kind of bored of reading them over and over

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snowstories · 5 months ago

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Also for the record I think the way Skyward Sword handles its theme of destiny is lame and I really don't care for it. However refusing to engage with it in analysis of canon seems silly, so I'm willing to put my personal opinion on that theme aside to engage with the story on its own terms, like a proper literature nerd.

#I don't necessarily thing you ALWAYS need to engage a story on its own terms #Like Ganondorf in OOT is obvs one-dimensionally evil but he's also a racial caricature #OOT's terms for the Gerudo and Ganondorf are racist #So I think reading against the text at least a little bit when dealing with them is like. Kinda necessary #But in general it's bad form to read against the text when analyzing characters #And 'destiny' isn't exactly an axis of oppression irl so literally it's just personal opinion #My posts #Loz #Skyward sword

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thecherrygod · 8 months ago

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