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gin, we need your critical opinion about megalopolis. was it really that bad?
i mean.
is it unwatchable? no. but also it is not good for sure. would love for it to be a case of "so bad it circles back being somehow good", but unfortunately no, becasue in order to achieve such a thing coppola should have gone camp and embraced the style instead of taking himself too seriously.
there are. ideas. that considered by themselves sort of make sense if you are desperate to find sense in this insanity of a movie, but whether within or without context for the large part they remain disjointed. and are anyway very cringe at core. i don't know how to put it kindly but the script just sucks. and choices were made.
#continuing in the tags because i'm embarassed lol i am no expert at all and just like watching movies#before and after watching it myself i read and listened to opinions coming from both sides as one does and#listen the movie ain't that deep#what moves some people to call it a masterpiece is essentially the same that moves other call it a disappointment: - this constant quoting#(both in the dialogues and in the visuals) something else something cool#without paying the due attention as to whether each quote is coherent to the context in which it is being used or adds any value to the#general narration#- but also this. delirious. thing with lights and cgi (it should have been practical effects!!) and. editing. that wants to be something bu#it's genuinely just outdated‚ ridicolous‚ i found it kinda offending even lol#i appreciate a genuine homage to the arts as the next guy but citations aren't enough#this movie created some talk about the duality of cinema as a form of art and entertainment which isn't entirely out pf place but if you#watch megalopolis you will easily see the entertainment aspect isn't there because the movie sucks‚ and that the art aspect is shallow#anyway i forgot all the million things i wanted to add so very quickly:#director: gave himself five stars on letterboxd. bad#writing: bad#editing: bad#photography: okayish#music: don't even remember it#acting: there's only so much an actor can do when their characters are unflattering#set & costume design: i don't understand why the future utopia looks like 10s fast fashion clodius and wow are the only ones who get it. ba#sorry for the nonsense hope my answer is at least more enjoyable than watching megalopolis ha-ha (':#gin answer
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The narrator and the ugly ahh protagonist [Blank Scripts AU/non-canonical]
#tsp blank scripts au#non canonical art#shitpost#this is fr how people be drawing narrator and stanley.... narrator being way too handsome and stanley as a background character naahh..#honestly i just drew him like that because it was funny but then i got too attached to it like an idiot aghh#The Narrator (Black) is an entirely different made-up species originating from the ancient Arctic north#long before the Crystal Empire was even built.#The old one's tail only ever wags whenever Stanley is around. You can clearly tell who the favorite pony is#Imagine Black showing Stanley courtship behaviors like rolling on his back#showing his stomach to him#sliding his wings on his chin#trotting like a dancing mare around him#and generally just showing off to show Stanley that he's interested in him...#But because of the species difference (and because Stanley is one airheaded fella)#Stanley doesn't understand what Black is doing other than he looks beautiful while doing it.#the narrator (Black) can read Stanley's thoughts btw#so he knows what that silly guy is thinking about :)#tsp au#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#mlp#my little pony#mlp oc#my little pony oc#tsp#tspud#tsp narrator#narrator tsp#stanley tsp#tsp stanley
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aro culture is imagining yourself as a personal advisor to the protagonist in self-insert dating simulators
ooh i like that, where's an otome where you're literally the tutorial guy?
#aro culture is#aro#aromantic#actually aro#actually aromantic#ask#mod phoenix#this reminds me that uhhh arcade spirits iirc had the option to be aro and also you could befriend your friendly narrator/tutorial person#i think also date them#i only played like half ish of it at best cause it was a college dorm group playthrough and they#uh. well they were being lowkey very like. 'girls are inherently better guys are always sus' and they were mean about a character#that was just. like straight up he was just autistic in my interpretation#so i stopped going to that#i was like okay no thank you no weird sex/gender essentialism or ableism or general bullshit for me thank u
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guys I got so inspired by y’all’s pieces of the dtiys that I drew a dtiys of my own dtiys
anyways combat duo >>>>
#undertale#mun art#frisk#ut ask blog#chara#undertale ask blog#act x: memories.#im still recovering from a trip so im giving myself one (1) day to chill ADHINCSI#anyways. chara is v observant during fights actually#im tryina give subtle nudges to the way they seem to narrate combat during no mercy run —-#succinct and to the point.#they were not this blunt back when frisk first fell underground. but like#after 11 years of slow EXP and many morally questionable choices a person tends to change lmao#they’re both quite numb to violence! both due to LV and life in general#mmmm vibrating to draw another fight scene fr (will regret saying this)
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when the god was made in the image of a man who infiltrated the mind of said god and in doing so made himself intertwined with the form that god took while also being the cause of that form creating a infinite feedback loop of what caused the god and his creator to evoke the very image of the death the creator feared through the form of an animal representing that concept, and the god has faint, undeniably human characteristics given to him by his creator while his creator retained none of it. fuck
#slay the princess#quiet is absolutely a corvid in draconic packaging#but theres traits of him that cannot be detached from his construction to aid humanity#his hands and arms in particular. and his uncomfortably human teeth but mostly his hands and arms#bc his hands are very birdlike yes but the general anatomy is completely detached from anything that could be described#as avian or draconic#whereas the narrators almost completely played straight as a crow but with teeth#and its so specific and maybe im reading too much into it#but his teeth are extremely NOT human-like#the narrator is extremely not human even though he once was#did he give his humanity up in creation of the long quiet and the shifting mound?#in his last moments before he became countless echos did he put all of the humanity he had and give it to them#in order to make the long quiet understanding of the concept of mortality in an attempt to sway him on slaying the princess#and in order to make the princess capable of death just as humans are?#was it his own plot to save humanity through the creation of gods that he stripped himself of his own humanity and handed it to said gods#making them resemble living mortal humans far more than he ever could after he gave it to them?#was the gift of humanity that he gave the concept of reality in two distinct ways the exact reason why his plan failed?#why his giving of that gift came back to destroy the construct he created?#that in deciding it to be his duty to act effectively as a mortal god he gave up his own humanity#and made two gods that were more human than him?#anyway narrators got sharp teeth and is a bird except humanity is mentioned. so this man became a bird. metaphorically. after playing god#sorry you tried to destroy death and your creation and you too became symbols of it!#its only symbolically satisfying and fitting i hope you understand
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Cover art for Lovebug!Narry’s Spotify Playlist!
WARNING: This playlist has some EXPLICIT SONGS, so if you’re not comfortable with that, please do not indulge or just block em
#Funny how his LB Playlist has a cover before his general one 💀#Also I guess this is the debut of his Lovebug design huh XD#I Dont think I showed it anywhere else aside from Discord#🤔#the stanley parable#tsp#tsp narrator#stanley parable#the narrator#tsp fanart#paraverse#tspud#lovebug#illustration#digital art#oc#kind of#InSomniphic’s Art#Spotify
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as much as I love 141 medieval au's here the reader is a noble lady saved from her marriage or some lone townswomans rescued by the group of knights (looking @ my own nun!reader in this) I do love the notion of a lady knight.
A badass woman with no name or backstory that's taken up the life of a sellsword- who scoffs at the notion of "honor" when spilling blood on your blade- death is death. Honor means nothing for God or king.
Her hair is cut close to her scalp, because it's all too easy for somebody to grab a handful of those soft locks and be at the perfect position to slit her throat in a fight. Covered in scars and carried by aching bones that broke years ago but never quite healed properly.
Maybe Price is a king who sees this helmeted figure fighting at a tourney for his name day and asks for their name- their noble house only to learn you have none. Simply a desire for the money awarded to the winner.
Maybe Gaz is beloved prince who often sneaks out from his guards nose to mingle with the common folk- who enjoys sitting in a tavern with others and singing songs while drinking ale with a pretty little thing on his lap until he's walking back to the palace and finds a blade at his neck in a dark alley as you warn him that noblebloods should never walk unaccompanied- it makes the job far too easy.
Maybe a beautiful noble lady is sent to stay under the eye of a royal family in discussion for marriage- when the house offers to gift her one for their personal guards of the 141, she insists she more than happy with her own- you. The silent armor-clad figure standing close to her side. (yes I miss domentzia. she's my wife and always will be).
#TJ talks#anyways. idk where I'm going with this#listening to my knightcore playlist for this one girlies#I have a lot more of these stored in my brain if anybody wants to hear more#thinking about Sandor clegane's monologue from the got narrations of 'what is honor' and that's the vibe were going for today#141 x reader#john price x reader#Kyle gaz Garrick x reader#Simon Riley x reader#can't see Simon as a noble blood unless he's like. new generation#in the same way of sandors family where his dad was named a house after saving a Lannister from being mauled by a lion#he would be a recent nobility that was gifted to him after accidentally helping some royal or something of that nature#anyways#I love period pieces so so much
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like man the parallels between stan and bill are so so so so so fascinating to me ough...... the most obvious thing is that they speak so similarly, often using the same terms and i can't help but wonder how intentional it all was on the part of the writers. biggest one being "eenie meenie miney you" to me, it's so specific.
it could simply be bill picking up stan's mannerisms through ford's memories to further appeal to ford (is that canon somewhere? i don't actually know but i see it mentioned a lot) but some of these are things bill still says and does even when ford is absent. for a being that's lived for trillions of years would terms he picked up only a couple decades ago cement themselves in his behaviour so much?
(also, has anyone ever brought up dreamscaperers' deleted scenes where bill summons a paddleball in the mindscape? stan does the same thing in his own mindscape in the finale. again, that's so specific i can't help but wonder how intentional it was or if it was just a coincidence. i know deleted scenes might not be the best to point to as evidence but i think i've only ever seen someone allude to in one fic and nowhere else?)
i havent read tbob and haven't really kept up much with the new info from it but i have seen the poem about stan and gosh like. it really does seem like it's being consistently hinted at over and over that there's something there with specifically bill and stan. the axolotl's poem was already eyebrow raising with how much of it could be applied to stan and now there's even more..
#idk what im trying to say lol im not smart enough to analyse shit#again i havent read tbob and havent really kept up much with the show's external media.. idek what's in the journal lol#picked up a lot solely through other people's fics and posts ahahha#gravity falls#same coin theory#sure ill tag it.. spare me if im stupid i kinda dont know where to look for the deeper lore stuff without buying the books myself lol#and all the videos i find are so like. idk. i dont like them. i dont like Overly Scripted Generic Narrator Voice it's grating to me#irritant irritant
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• Give Up
Chapter 1 Start
Save the Hero!
#okay i'm going to do at least the build up to the Dreamer#slay the princess#save the hero!#3rd talks#next post may just me more general info#like the original post this au#stp princess#stp narrator#stp voice of the hero#3rd's art
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orv's usage of symbolism is interesting because it rarely has symbols As Simply Symbols. a good 95% of the time, its symbols are often primarily plot-related mechanical stuff, like the fourth wall, or unbroken faith. they are things that move the plot along and are used as tools in-universe to solve problems. one of the genius elements of the skills/stigmata system is that those abilities do INCREDIBLE heavy lifting for characterization, by both being talents the characters can apply in ways that reveal who they are as people, and by being symbols that reveal aspects of a character by the mere fact of the character possessing them.
this is very unlike a lot of other stories! most of the time, if something exists in a work to be a symbol, the symbolism is its primary narrative function, and any other plot-moving functions are secondary or nonexistent. and most of the time, that's totally fine. orv has symbols that work that way too: the white and black coats (and by extension white page/black letters) and the squared circle. they're images that serve to inform the reader about integral ideas to the story.
but it's brilliant for a story that is primarily fantasy-action-adventure to take its mechanical plot items or skills, which are incredibly necessary to the progression most fantasy action stories, and then have them be incredibly symbolic. it's not new ground to break, either. this is something a lot of fantasy stories do. but it feels very unique because of how symbolically charged nearly EVERYTHING is, and how in-depth the symbolism often is! especially for the really major plot mechanics (fourth wall as ultimate example) they often serve as metaphor for a number of things simultaneously. it makes for a reading experience that is very engaging because there's always so much going on, and it often makes the reader feel clever for noticing it!
#narrates#orv#i could rattle on for a while about how well orv bundles up multiple narrative purposes and thematic ideas in relatively small spaces#for a novel this long it is SHOCKINGLY good at conveying a ton of information in not a lot of words#given its length and subject matter it is Absolutely acceptable for it to meander. thats what you generally get in a long fantasy novel#but nope. its pretty to the point. it just has a fucking lot to say and a lot of fun shit it wants to show you
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"And he also feels a tenderness such as he had never known before surging up in is heart, he wants to weep, he wants to do something for them all, so that the wee one will no longer cry, so that the blackened, dried-up mother of the wee one will not cry either, so that there will be no more tears in anyone from that moment on, and it must be done at once, at once, without delay and despite everything, with all his Karamazov unrestraint."
what a beautiful passage.. and if i'm not mistaken this is the first time that we're led to believe being a karamazov might not be so much of a terrible thing after all...
#the narration calls mitya stupid for asking in his dream why there must be poverty and misery#but with intent to frame his feelings as generous and beautiful#mitya isn't a thinker in the way his brothers are but here you see that his inner world is as rich as theirs is#and isn't it a good thing not to be able to rationalize suffering away? even if it makes you stupid?#the brothers karamazov
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Narrator Grey reference.
↓ [down below are the individual close ups of the outfits in chronological order (past to present)] ↓
The Stanley Parable Demo does not exist in this AU.
#WAAA his reference is finally out!!!#I'm so excited to share more content about his and Stanley's lore!!#I've honestly yet to think about Stanley's lore#but their general plot is pretty much set in stone#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp#tspud#tsp au#tsp achromatic loop au#tsp narrator#narrator tsp#my drawing museum
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"the General's unjust interference, so far from being really injurious to their felicity, was perhaps rather con- ducive to it, by improving their knowledge of each other, and adding strength to their attachment"
I was thinking about this quote. Did Jane Austen mean by "adding strength to their attachment" that Catherine and Henry's attachment was not a strong one before the Colonel's interference ?
Colonel seemed more involved in Henry's "courtship" of Cathy than Henry himself. And her feelings for him seemed more like infatuation or teenager crush than a real steady love. Add to that that line about Henry being interested in Catherine because she liked him. And the proposal seemed to me more due to him feeling guilty for leading her on and making fall in love with him and taking responsibility for his father's obvious hints about a wedding. You know the " honor bound " thing. I mean he did mean it and he liked Catherine well enough.
Do you think that Austen meant that their relationship became strong after the Colonel delayed their marriage ?
To understand the last paragraph of Northanger Abbey, you have to remember that this is a satire and Jane Austen is being a bit more blunt than usual in this last bit. I will highlight the jokes:
Henry and Catherine were married, the bells rang, and everybody smiled; and, as this took place within a twelvemonth from the first day of their meeting, it will not appear, after all the dreadful delays occasioned by the General’s cruelty, that they were essentially hurt by it. To begin perfect happiness at the respective ages of twenty-six and eighteen is to do pretty well; and professing myself moreover convinced that the General’s unjust interference, so far from being really injurious to their felicity, was perhaps rather conducive to it, by improving their knowledge of each other, and adding strength to their attachment, I leave it to be settled, by whomsoever it may concern, whether the tendency of this work be altogether to recommend parental tyranny, or reward filial disobedience.
Green: Austen jokes about this delay earlier, "The anxiety, which in this state of their attachment must be the portion of Henry and Catherine, and of all who loved either, as to its final event, can hardly extend, I fear, to the bosom of my readers, who will see in the tell-tale compression of the pages before them, that we are all hastening together to perfect felicity." So the joke is that we, as readers, know it will end happily and we know it will end happily soon, because there aren't that many pages left.
Blue: It is extremely common in fiction for the protagonists to be brought closer together by interference instead of being torn apart by it, so General Tilney, in opposing marriage, strengthens the probability of it happening. He plays his stock character part very well in this story. It's a meta joke because it is so inevitable in this sort of narrative that it makes his actions silly.
Purple: Novels in this era were supposed to have a moral, but Austen jokes that her moral may be interpreted as "disobey your parents" or "be a tyrant to your children" to come to the happy conclusion. Obviously, that's not the real moral of her story, but what a cursory reading may lead someone to think.
To understand Henry and Catherine's love story, you need to know that at the time, men were supposed to have feelings first and women second, developing them as gratitude for the man liking them. So the "proper" order is:
Man has feelings
Man expresses feelings
Woman develops feelings in gratitude
Now this is extremely silly, since it's not like a girl won't develop a crush on her own. Austen is mocking this particular order of events. She's not saying that Henry Tilney doesn't love Catherine, he does, she's saying that the love happened in a wrong and scandalous order.
She was assured of his affection; and that heart in return was solicited, which, perhaps, they pretty equally knew was already entirely his own; for, though Henry was now sincerely attached to her, though he felt and delighted in all the excellencies of her character and truly loved her society, I must confess that his affection originated in nothing better than gratitude, or, in other words, that a persuasion of her partiality for him had been the only cause of giving her a serious thought. It is a new circumstance in romance, I acknowledge, and dreadfully derogatory of an heroine’s dignity; but if it be as new in common life, the credit of a wild imagination will at least be all my own.
That is why it's harmful to Catherine's dignity, because she DARED to have a crush. And obviously, Austen knows this happens all the time, which is why she jokes about it.
I hope that answered everything.
#question response#northanger abbey#catherine morland#henry tilney#general tilney#Henry really does love Catherine#the narrator is just having a lot of fun here
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this is your reminder to make ur cringy n self indulgent art bc cringe is dead and you gotta live life (I say, despite the fact i still feel a bit cringe but im being so brave abt it)
lettin myself post n do more art for myself so apologies for the more selfshippy art than usual
#artswin#tsp narrator#tspud narrator#selfship#oz rambles#in the tags oz rambles go brrrrr#been hyperfocused on the numbers for a while recently which is why ive been pretty low if uve seen sdkhf#but im starting to feel better so in an effort to let myself feel better im doin more self indulgent art#with these types of things i usually make myself as a generic gray human instead of my sona (or recently my sona fusion)#(the sona fusion has my white swoop but black irl hair)#but making this made me remember how much i love drawing myself with narry n i dont wanna get rid of that#i only made the generic gray human art just bc i wanted other ppl to insert themselves which i still wanna do#but at the same time *I GOTTA LET MYSELF BE CRINGE MAN THIS IS MY OLD GEEZER I CAN BE CRINGE FOR HIM*#anywho if yall havent seen my updated intros recently. i selfship with the narrator (specifically virgil) in a bff/qpr way#so it might look hella romantic and couply occasionally were just a couple of besties /pos#gonna tag it with a selfship name tho just so i can access my posts on it easier#n so if yall wanna block me n my cringe for any reason then feel free! /gen /nf#naroz#digitalmuse#(or smth idk ive seen ppl have pretty cool selfship names so i wanna try smth similar but who knows it could change) :P
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Amethio.
#thinking about the fact that we'll probably get to see him in the preview at the end of this week's ep#and maybe he'll even get to narrate the preview? that would be neat#sango and onyx narrated the pv for ep 80.. so who knows#maybe amethio will voice the pv for ep 83#i'd like to know the scriptwriter for ep 83 too.. i need to know what i should focus on depending on who is writing it. pls tell me-#very excited about the rayquaza confrontation this week and the events that will ensue#but also. a little bit insane about the ep airing ten days from now-#no idea what direction amethio's arc will take. not knowing makes it exciting though#and the layers this story has given that gibeon and crave are around.. making it more complex#there are whole worlds to explore depending on which generational bond you focus on. i want to peel through it all. what happened.#also. can gibeon talk soon. i can't live like this-#hz083#episode notes
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Julian wasn't certain why, exactly, he was pulling away from Garak, but ever since their return for the gamma quadrant, that was definitly what he was doing. He'd never minded Garak's small, discrete touches before - in fact, he'd courted them: a hand on his back, the brush of their shoulders - but now, he found, he couldn't stand them.
Having no explanation for why, though, he took to avoiding the Cardassian entirely, rather than risk facing questions he could not answer. He ignored the growing guilt, too, for whatever reasons Garak would be coming up with for this new turn in their relationship. He was just taking time, he reasoned to himself, and that was fair enough, wasn't it?
On the other hand, Julian knew exactly why he was avoiding Miles. While he wondred if he was maybe overreacting, his friend's comment had cut him deeply, and it was obvious that Miles hadn't even thought twice about it. So it was logical, really, for Julian to take time off from their darts evenings and holosuite sessions. If Miles had found him difficult to get along with before, what would he make of this new Julian that had returned from the camp, who seemed to have had any light, positive thing ripped out of him by the Dominion?
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His closest friends shut off from him, Julian found his refuge in Jadzia. Not purposefully - he'd assumed, with Worf's injuries, she'd be looking after her partner - but the Klingon, seemingly, hadn't wanted to be doted on, so Jadzia had found someone else to be her target. Namely, Julian.
He wasn't going to complain. Her hugs were warm and her smiles were soft and Julian could let his guard down, a little, around her. Not completely, of course - there were more than a few things he didn't want getting back to the captain, lest he find his leave of duty extended even further - but enough to allow him to feel truly relaxed, at times.
Quite quickly, it became normal for him to spend the evenings in her quarters, not really doing much, but not needing to do much, either. Worf often joined them— although, really, on those nights, Julian felt as though he were joining them, and wondered how much the Klingon resented his constant intrusions into his and Jadzia's alone time. Jadzia didn't stop asking him over, though, and Julian couldn't bring himself to refuse, no matter what Worf's unspoken feelings might be.
As it happened, he was mistaken, anyway. One night, Martok appeared for dinner, greeting Julian loudly and immediately taking the seat next to him. Julian stiffened, fearing the resurgence of memories from the camp, or that inexplicable urge to withdraw, that Martok's presence might bring out. Neither came, though, and he didn't even flinch when Martok brought a heavy hand to land on his shoulder. The evening all but flew by, and when it was time to leave, Julian surprised himself by accepting the Klingon's offer to walk him back to his quarters. He was quiet company - despite Julian's best efforts, he was still not good company, after the camp - but Martok was kind enough not to point this out.
The general became a regular guest after that, to Julian's muted delight. Muted, since in reality, it was more a dim awareness that Martok's presence pleased him, more than anything else. But even more than it did Jadzia, an unmistakeable sense of safety emanated off the large Klingon, and Julian could hardly believe that he was invited to share in it - and more, that all three of them seemed willing to put up with Julian, evening after evening.
He would find out much later that it was Worf's orchestrations that had brought Martok to their table - Worf the pragmatist, the romantic - who was already looking forward to the day when Jadzia might agree to join the House of Martok, and saw in Julian an opportunity to smooth the way. Jadzia laughed as she told him how her husband had hoped that Julian's admiration of Martok would rub off in her, and that his fondness for her would influence the general in return - and how apparently, Worf's plan had worked! Julian laughed too, glad to discover that he hadn't been quite as useless a guest as he'd imagined himself to be at the time.
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After the debacle with his parents, and the discovery that his life hadn't actually imploded, Julian finally went to confront Miles. He couldn't quite figure out how he felt about the way Miles had been so supportive two nights before, but the fact was that Miles had been overwhelmingly supportive, even if Julian had only realised afterwards how much, once the shock had worn off enough for him to start thinking about anything other than his own feelings.
So he went to the chief's quarters and rang the chime, and Miles welcomed him in with a worried smile and an assurance that Keiko and the kids were all out and so did Julian want to talk? Are you alright?
Julian faced him bravely. "Do you think I'm difficult to get along with?" he asked.
He wasn't sure what he'd expected, but it certainly wasn't for Miles to straighten with a scowl, vibrating with anger, demanding, "Are people giving you trouble about your enhancements?"
Julian wasn't sure how to answer that, because yes of course some people had, but it wasn't that big a deal, and besides, that wasn't what he'd been asking. So he shook his head, backtracking.
"I meant— You said, the changeling was easier to get along with..."
In an instant, Miles' face had shuttered, falling completely. "Shit," he said, looking for all the world like Julian had just punched him in the gut. "Is that why you've been avoiding me?"
Julian nodded uncertainly.
"Fuck," said Miles, wiping a hand over his face. "Shit, Julian, it was a joke, it was— I never thought you'd take it seriously. If I'd have known... I'm sorry, Julian. God. I'm sorry."
A joke. Of course it had been a joke. That's what he and Miles did, joke and jibe and pretend their feelings ran no deeper than that. He really had been overreacting.
"Well, I don't know... it's pretty difficult to get along with someone who avoids you for weeks over a joke," he tried quipping, but his voice came out devoid of humour, and he winced as Miles' face fell even further.
"God, no, that's not what I meant at all - it was a stupid thing to say, I should have known that. You're not— that's not— You're my friend, Julian..."
Miles trailed off, seemingly unable to meet Julian's eyes. It was strange, his words should have made Julian feel better, but Julian wasn't sure that they had. His chest was still thrumming with anxiety, he still felt kind of tight and sick and damn it, earlier he'd known why Miles made him feel like that, but now— now he didn't.
"Fuck. It really upset you, didn't it?" Miles asked quietly. "But why— why tell me now? After all this time..?"
Julian shrugged. "I had to know," he said. "After my parents... you know. The other evening, some of the things you said - they just, I don't know. Seemed like something a friend would say—"
"Fuck," Miles said again. "Fuck, Julian. Shit, if you feel like that, I—"
He broke off, his face lighting up with an idea. "Julian?" he asked, quickly. "The research Zimmerman did on you - do you think he still has it? Do you think we could hack into it?"
"I-I don't know," stammered Julian, the sudden change in topic putting him at a loss. "Why?"
Miles shook his head. "I'll explain if I manage to do it," he said.
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The next day, Julian got a message from Miles. I hate sending you this, it said, but I definitely couldn't do this in person. Attached was a audio clip, which, when he clicked on it, played Zimmerman's voice, then Miles'. This was the answer the the hacking question, then, Julian presumed.
He ended up playing it on repeat, feeling quite awful that he'd ever doubted his friend.
"...the truth is he's an extraordinary person. A real sense of honour and integrity, great sense of humour, warm, caring. You're sure he's not going to hear this?"
#julian bashir depressioncore#tbw you're flat and depressed so your writing comes out flat and depressed#sorry julian#still#i'm writing something and i definitely didn't expect to actually get words down when i was thinking about this in the shower#so even if it's not a thing i'm enturely pleased with#it's still a thing#unreliable narrator julian bashir#oh how i love him#and his mental gymnastics#julian bashir#jadzia dax#worf#miles o'brien#general martok#also i'm sorry this feels unfinished and i did mean to round it out with garak at the end#but i'm so done with adding things to my drafts i never post#so sorry#this is maybe not done but ti's done for now and that's gotta be enough i think#<3 <3#andi writes#my trek musings#wsb
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