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3 am mods are asleep post ¿Quieres? House MD.
#nightmare blunt rotation invitee right here#house md#gregory house#cannot be the first person to do this#it's literally 3 am i cant sleep#if i cared more i could have photoshopped that shoulder better
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ohhh my friend came over and we somehow ended up watching the entirety of tpn season one and ray still makes me so fucking sick. im goig to tear apart steel beams with my teeth
#skye's ramblings#THOUGH IM ALSO JUMPING AROUND SOO FAST BC SHE LIKED IT. shes like my only irl friend shes known abt my illness since the start#i take my ray plushie when i sleep over at her house she calls him my little guy. i genuinely didnt think it'd interest her much#we were literally just bored and she randomly picked up v1. 2 pages in she was like 'oh this is really addicting can i borrow this'#FELT AUTUSM KICK INTO MAXIMUM OVERDRIVE. said we could watch the anime n after ep1 she was like oh this is really good#cant describe how much i am jumping off tge walls in my mind. shes never been able to get into anime till now. i think i just won at autism#of course w the excitement comes escape arc ray once again hitting my brain with hammers god i love him so fucking much guys. i'm nauseous#it'll be 3 years since my first watch soon btw i wonder if ray emotions will ever stop making me physically ill. ifuckng love yuou raaay...
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do you ever just sit there thinking about your favorite ocs while violently shaking. god. clenches fist. They're So.
#every time a song from their Joint Playlist comes on i go fucking feral#the betrayal the refusal to Let Go the haunting the persisting love the renunciation the resentment the abandonment the resignation#the overwhelming desire to do good vs the fear of admitting you were wrong vs the two people you love most tearing each other apart#AGHHHHH FUCK FUCK FUCK IM SUDDENLY DEEP IN THE ORIGINAL SAUCE#five seconds i was Normal. scribbling welcome home#then One Of The Songs Came On and now im losing my fucking marbles#perceived betrayals leading to real betrayals....#going too far and now its too late you're Committed you cant go back#he came to you thinking he could make you understand and you could work together to make things Better#and instead you ripped his heart out and left it bleeding on the floor for everyone to see#THEY MAKE ME MORE INSANE THAN LITERALLY ANYTHING#absolutely unprompted#the oc Unwellness comes and goes in waves but its the only true constant obsession with my life#god those three... my dearest darling Trio.... how old are they turning this year?#is it year eight of having them? year nine?#one of the two is for sure how long ive had My Specialest Boy Light Of My Life The Reason I Am Still Alive#the other two came after... maybe only mere months after but he was the first and he is just. i love him so fucking much#he is so so personal to me. he has a permanent place carved out in my chest#he sleeps on my ribs <3#the other day i was reminiscing about his development over the years. his changes his different Versions#and fuck... he's really changed with me huh??#his past selves are echoes of my own self over the years#like he is Very different from me but at the same time. i created him with little pieces of myself sewn in#we hold the same views the same beliefs. im not him and hes not me but we're Kindred yk yk#i think i need to go listen to his playlist.... how long is it now... let me check... 15 hours 13 mins... 228 songs...#my gay 5'2 powerhouse of a guy. him <3#maybe 'them' too he's played fast and loose with gender over the years. holy shit wait#his development echoes mine... i characterized him as 'fucks with gender norms' long before i realized my own gender fuckery#god damn. i love him even more now. i didnt think that was possible. im going to cry. hes so important to me#he has been with me through my worst years... and will be with me through all the hard times to come <3
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#SHAKING CANT BREATGE EVERYONE WAKE UP NOW#literally just about to go to sleep (3 am lol) but i had to do my daily routine#typing 'rohan campbell' in google n hitting 'latest' on the images#these are from his imdb btw 🙏🙏🙏#rohan campbell#adding my tags later gn everyone 🥰🤭
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cant sleep … plagued with thoughts.. overstimmed… also starving… time to scroll tumblr till i have to go to class :,((
#my thoughts#i slept like 3 hours but my roommate kept moving and it bothered me where every movement made me irrationally angry#and i keep waking up and having immediate brainrot lfjkfnfjnf so its fun but also not bc im literally SO drained pleasssseee shut up brain#like baby i have a presentation tomorrow at 8:30AM and i have to do a whole reflection paper#go to fucking sleeeeeeep#and the worst part is i FORGOT to eat . before bed . cuz i was too tired and said fuck it ill eat in the morn#which is horrible bc now im like. starving and gross bc i also didnt do anything i kinda just collapsed JFKDNDKDN#but i dont wanna get up. because. um. four am and i dont wannnnaaa eat.i waanaa eat in the morning#so ive just been holding stan bunny close and thinking thoughts while actively trying to sleep JFKDNFKDJD#anyways. Im a functioning human person!#: D !#GggfrRRRAGGhggh#so annoying bc i usually can sleep on command like its nothing lmfao#but i have too many things on my frickin mind i cant shut it up pensive#anyways THIS IS A LONG TAG THING NSJFJDKFJD UHHHHH runs away#DELETE LATER????
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I woke up in a feverish haze thinking about nothing but bearded Kyle kirkwood amen
#i am so sick right now i can literally only sleep in like 3 hour intervals#i cant breathe my head us pounding but ...*sighs dreamily* bearded kyle kirkwood....#my thoughts
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its me and my inability to compromise against the world
#i hate it when plans are changed i fucking hate it so much#i desperately need to rant about this im having an awful time ..Augh#my dad lost his job and is selling his house. we have at MOST 3 weeks to get out of here#so wrre moving to the house next to my moms. my grandpa owned b4 he died. HOWEVER#i hate that house its dirty as hell. i cant live with my mom theres barely 2 rooms there and i currently sleep on a couch in the living roo#there are 3(?) bedrooms where my dad is moving and they are SIGNIFICANTLY smaller than. literally everything#so well have. not a lot of space. not to mention that all the rooms are shaped so fucking weird. shitty old house bonus#literally everything has the fucking landlord special cause my mom used to rent it except all of the tennants were jerks#so the house has A Vibe. /neg. and its a weird combo of dustu and sticky#Im getting off topic.#i was allowed to choose my room a while back and we all agreed on everything and made plans and thought everything was set in stone#the room i was supposed to get is small asf and has slanted walls. (attic room ig) but it was fine#but my mom was like noo! actually! your older brother is getting that room! we never agreed on anything!!#whicj is AWFUL#i HATE CHANGE#AND. i wish you could see the room im supposed to have now but im at My dad's rn#its so fucking small. the water heater is in there. there's a low hanging fucking duct pipe or whatever right by the door#its pink#it smells like shit#ots right next to the washer and dryer.#there is no light. i hate it so much#ITS SMALL. AND JUST FUCKING SUCKS#i might sound like a dick but everything is so stressful rn i dont want to move school starts in 2 weeks i dont know my schedule i don't#have anyone to talk to. we're all fucking broke as hell and my mom refuses to help my dad because. i dont even know why#sorry. btw#i need someone to talk to so bad#they won't get me a therapist because 1 its not covered by insurance and 2 my dad lost his job and said insurance#i can't get a job because i can't drive and am so mentally fucked up and its so hard for me to do literally anything#i cry at the most insignificant situations and im always on the verge of tears#i get overstimulated so easy i can't fucking do this
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Me looking at my posts after I've slept 8 hrs
#im literally just a girl#I have a horrible sleep schedule whats new#just so you guys know- I always post at like 12-3 am SIGHHHH#I CANT HELP IT BRO
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bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost 🙏
#i did get thr laundry done didnt fold it didnt take a shower#so thatll hopefuly be tmrw#i hope im able to do an activity with somebody tmrw.... the kids will be back at school so umm. no risk of weeman asking for my laptop in#the morning. or maybe me n lamp could play aa... idk#i feel like such a loser i go 1 day without bothering my family and im like wahhh im lonely. Can you shut up ..... we r better than this.#but wtvr. thats also a mean thought and i shouldnt be idolizing the way i lived last year. We were taking spongebaths and eating#1 bowl of soup a day crying ourselves to sleep every night and literally going weeks on end wo talking to our loved ones. so why am i like#We need to go back ! well i know why its bc i cant just let myself heal and move on bc of my stupid complex#and tbf i was very efficient back then. i ws able to do my spongebaths at least every 3 days and i did my laundry every week right on#schedule and i had a job....all it took was literally not being a person in any meaningful way FJFNGJGN. idk#it was very simple. its still very simple perhaps simpler (#no job) but instead i just feel guilty i guess. sbt everything#which i ws doing last year but again i was too out of it to rly dwell. i just cried at work a lot abt it#but now its like. i dont have a job to go to to focus on. my interests/hobbies can only distract me for a few days maximum b4 they become#nothing 2 me. and then im just back in limbo again and it feels pointless#and even when its a 'good' phase of something actually keeping me distracted from everything its like. not. all it does is ruin my sleep#schedule again yk. ik im literally the timeloop guy so u think id loveee Everyday being exactly the same over and over and over but well i#dont. bc they arent actually the same day theyre just reminders that everything does keep fucking going but im stuck. which is the opposite#of what i want. and what id have if the beautiful timeloop would simply rescue me. wtvr tho.... she doesnt even know i exist 😥#little joke. IDK. like i said its better ig than having a truly miserable day but. man. i wish everything was better#i ws gonna say like it used to be but. yk. ive been depressed since i was like 7 its not like. idk. i wish i was born different and i wish#my head worked and i wish none of it had evrr happened. but itis ok. i cant think of a funny cutesy alternative to put here so we will just#say nothing. yay
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ough....the laughingstock In My Head... im unwell....
#its 3 am im tired cant sleep live laughingstock love-#laying in corpse position staring at my glow stars#playing through the Elaborate lore... the plot... howdy redemption arc....#its very funny bc for this whole Plot i have.... literally everyone is aware of the Drama Unfolding#except for frank / julie / poppy#theyre just vibing and the. the rest of the town is sooooo Involved with barnaby & howdys bs#eddie is out here wingmanning both of them. sally has one sided beef with howdy. wally has unlocked the Protective emotion#home is listening to wally update it on the newest Hot Goss every night#home has very dtrong opinions that wont be heard#absolutely unprompted#oausgdhsbdjsnxms#barnaby: im so over him i swear (lying)#hard cut to howdy sobbing behind the counter with a bottle of his strongest root beer#theyre both handling the failed confession like champs!!! im Lying!!! theyre both disasters!!!!!#if i had it in my id... id write a fic.... might outline it for funsies#because ohadudhhdnfjsnxms#THERE IS NO LAUGHINGSTOCK FANFIC RN#except for the delectable delicious crumbs in Stamps by Indigopoptart gofuckingreadit#ohhhh and the scrumptious sensational crumb in the latest installment of Imaginatorofthings' fantasy au series gofuckingreadit#i reread both all every crumb all the time#i need a pickmeup? crumbles <3#like the cinnamon crumbs on streusel... the best part....#BUT i crave a full meal and i may have to provide for myself#i shall create the laughingstock fic i want to read in this world#if no one else will do it!!!! i will!!!! maybe. dont quote me on this <3#oh to be a great enthusiast of a rarepair... agony and pain and yet such delicious delight#i do not recieve much but what i do get... more powerful than any mainpair (idk what the opposite of a rarepair is) creation#tis not just a treat on my table#tis the heavens opening to shine glorious rays of sunlight upon my withering crops and my cold skin... something to Bask in....#but a full fic's not gonna happen any time soon so im gonna roll up my sleeves and do it myself
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Theres something wrong with me I've slept in until like 9 seven days in a row :(((((
#i just want to get up at 6 am like normal!!!#im only awake like 12 hours a day now. i do NOT want to be spending half my time asleep. i have things i want to be doing!!!#itd be FINE if i could stay up until 3 am but NoooOoooOoo SOMEONES (me) gotta be in bed by midnight#or it'll literally stay up ALL NIGHT#im SO pissed off and people are always like. Oh nice you got to sleep in!! :)#and im like. sigh. yes. its So Nice.#but its not and im tired of pretending it is. i woke up at 6 am every day for like a year. and now i just. cant.#well i do actually. every day. to feed the cat#and then i go back to bed. and i ALWAYS regret it >:[#(op is a hater of being asleep and wishes it wasnt a thing people had to do to survive)
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damn I miss playing wolves in my friend's back yard .... rb to play wolves with your mutuals in their back yard<3
#just blahs#i dont really think this needs any other tags sbhsjsjs#but i am going to kinda vent in the tags still feel free to rb this tho :]#i miss my friend tbh#she was my best and only real friend for like 3 years and then she moved away and now we only talk 2-3 times a year#and i dont.... know how to change that#i just want my best friend back#but i dont want to seem clingly because what if shes moved on ?#what if shes gone and shes doing just fine where she is now and she doesn't miss me like i miss her#what if shes perfectly content with me just being someone that she talks to a few times a year#meanwhile i have nights that i literally cry myself to sleep because i cant just go see her#she doesnt know that i want so badly to turn 18 just so that i can move to the same state and maybe live near enough that i could see her#and i dont think i can tell her that because what if she doesn't care that much.#what if im being ridiculous and i should be over our friendship that should have ended the moment she moved years ago#that i should have just moved on and it's weird that i haven't#anyways sorry for the vent in the tags of my silly goofy post#mutuals come play wolves with me in my backyard <3
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ok so maybe its just a crazy 3 am thought but
dick grayson and portgas d ace have the same vibes
#3 am ramblings#text#ignore me im losing it#but fr tho#1) eldest brother#2) loves their younger sibling(s) sm would literally kill and/or die for them#3) literal feral angry children#like u cant look at young dick and then young ace and tell me they dont got the same vibe#which leads to 4) polite young man when grown up#BUT ITS ALL A LIE MAN#dick 'theyll never believe u' grayson vs ace 'hes so much more polite than luffy' portgas#theres probably more but#my brain hurts lmao#i need to sleep
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Aaghaj
#went to sleep at 6 20 am and its 11 33 and im at the doctors office#went to sleep too late bc wag#i cannot stop after i begin something and its liek. harmful#bc i literally cant stop#cant do it#spent 3 hours attaching and needling my new patched onto my fav clothes#3 am almost. hadnt taken my meds#then i start attching rhinestones and its 4 20#ah fuck#then reading#literally wtfff girl#rare rambling
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FAR GALAXIES (2/6)
She didn’t answer. Instead, she pulled out her PADD from her coat, slow enough that Nico only slightly twitched. Jason’s transmission was loaded up on the screen—at the bottom, their signature tag was spelled out. “Guardians of the Galaxy. That supposed to be a joke?”
“More like an aspiration,” Jason said.
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Space, the final frontier. Or whatever.
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13k, solangelo.
ao3
#solangelo#nico di angelo#will solace#space fic#im going to SLEEP#sometimes you post something and you're like. well! that's legally writing i guess!#cant do better than some technically considered writing!#whats the vibe this chapter you ask ????? ehhh lets do with pining with a hint of flirting and a note of teasing and literally nothing else#ALL THE ACTION GOT SHOVED TO CHAP 3 OK IT WAS ALL SUPPOSED TO BE TOGETHER BUT NOOOO ROSYS TOO GOOD FOR 30K CHAPTERS NOW IG#i am yelling at myself in a mirror#in third person#goodnight
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DAMMIT ASTARION im trying to romance gale rn!!!
#baldurs gate 3#bg3#bg3 astarion#how am i literally incapable of avoiding astarion romance#maybe it's because i sleep with him every time but i cant just NOT#im so upset i dont want to have to reject him he doesnt deserve it#but i must#i am not romancing astarion this time!!! I am not!!!!
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