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[astrologylunadream]

Your Person's POV of You 👀🌸🎀 (Pick a card/Tarot love reading)

Hii it's Lunadream🩷 This will be a reading on the desired person's perspective of you, and what you are like in their eyes~ hope you find your message🌸☆♡

Notice: Only take what resonates because the most important thing is your own judgement!♡ If anything doesn't resonate, don't worry! It's not your message right now <3 (Entertainment purpose only. All rights reserved)

Now, shall we begin~? ^w^ Think of the your person, and pick whichever pile that fits the energy you're feeling~🌸♡‧₊˚

Pile 1🖤

Pile 2🌸

Pile 3🍨

Pile 4🩰

Take your time and choose carefully with the heart~♡

On to the readings —> ‧₊˚🌸♡🎀‧₊˚

Pile 1🖤

Sign energy: Escape, Number, November, Skill, Feel, 5th house, Scorpio, Juno, 3rd house, Taurus, Vertex,🐾🩻🖇🤯

🩷Your person's energy: Heyy pile 1 your person is really cool omg, they have a lot of interesting abilities💫 specific message is that november 3rd may be significant, scorpio is present here and that is during scorpio season so take what resonates.💕 This person's voice gives you a special feeling, I feel like their voice leaves a big impression on you, could be the way they think or speak.💬 Signs in their chart could be Leo, Scorpio, Gemini, and Taurus. They are very perceptive and observant, they have a sharp mind I'm hearing🔪🧠 Random but they may have a fear of getting older?😂 Nothing gets past this person omg it's like they are able to read mind oml!! Physical touch may be their love language, they are very material. For some this person has your phone number or tries to get it, they may be a little obsessive when they're in the dark about things.🔦😬 This may have been a short term relationship for some of my pile 1's, and maybe you so called "escaped" this connection but they refuse to let you go that easily.🖇🖤 This person could be keeping tabs on you, and they get jealous and spiteful very easily.👿 You guys may have a telepathic connection with them, it feels like a locked force in a way. This person is very analytical, appearance wise their bones are prominent, boney hands for someone? Their nails are significant.💅🧤 I'm seeing deep gaze too. They can see through anyone, some of my pile 1's want to marry this person and or attracted to them🩷

🎀Their POV of you: 12th house, Health, Guidance, Comfort zone, Read, Gemini, 4th house, Eros, Aquarius, 10th house,🤤🙈🙎‍♂️🔭 Okay so their perspective of you is kinda emotional ngl🥺 Like there is a lot going on with you to them, you may be absent from this person's life right now or at a distant, something about you is definitely distant from this person.💔 For those of you who this is an ex I can definitely see they feel so left out.😭 Like they feel as if they're just behind the scenes watching you drift away from them, also some of you may leave this person on read often.🔇✋️ They only feel at ease when they know what you're up to, for some of my pile 1's this person is viewing your social media and that is their only source of comfort right now😢📲🔭 They see you as someone very intelligent and fun, they're really into your mind🧠🤒 Some of my pile 1 are into health and self care and they blush over that, they just find your niches so inspiring and attractive😂 They are definitely sad about the thought of you moving on without them, they hyperfocus on you my pile 1's OML🤯🔍 They think of you often blushing over you like🥴💭 You seem like you really know what you're doing and they love that, you also turn them on too especially by helping them with things😳🩷 You come off succesful and divinely blessed and favored in their eyes, you make them feel like a ghost👻 You are a comforting and sweet person to them, they just want to hold on to you and never let go🥺🖤 For some this person stalks your social media or asks about you a lot, they are heavily involved spiritually with you.

💌Messages from your person: I wish I cared about you, I won't let you be with anyone else, I'm not okay, I wanna make you blush, Who cares what people think of us, You can't control yourself, all the time, I was wrong (Yeah they really don't want to see you with someone else, also they have regrets weighing on them about how they acted in the past🥺🩷💖) Extra cards: Remedy, Collarbone, Chains, Self love, Couple, 4th house, 11th house, Water, Chiron, Sagittarius (Pile 1 they really wanna mend this relationship with you omg😭 Also they're working on treating themselves better so they can treat you better, they want to take care of you💗)

Thank you my pile 1's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message! ‧₊˚🌸‧₊˚♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 1 with the black heart emoji~🖤 Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading! 🩷‧₊♡˚‧

Pile 2🌸

Sign energy: Touch, Social media, Be yourself, Discover, Cardinal, 3rd house, Libra, 11th house, Aries, Jupiter,🚀🎧🤹‍♀️🔊

🩷Your person's energy: Haha okay your person is a lot like you I'm getting mirrored energy OMG and the image for pile 2 is staring into the little mirror that makes so much sense!!😆💫 So this person has cardinal placements, especially Aries ia significant and that is a cardinal sign. Gemini, Libra, Aquarius, and Sagittarius/Pisces lucky jupiter placements.🤞✨️ I feel like they just stumble through life and it turns out alright everytime time??😂😂🩷 They're a ray of sunshine omg, they could have many friends online and explore social media, I'm getting social butterfly vibes from your person~🦋🌸 So cute omg they enjoy listening to music and following their artists. They probably have some really good playlists tbh😉💖 They have a lot of different interests, into many things. Your person is probably has 163 tabs open on google LOL, they love exploring the internet that's what I'm getting. They're a phsyical kind of person too so they may enjoy working out or doing fun and/or crazy things, this person is energetic and bright🌟 I love their energy it's so sweet!! I'm getting Phineas and ferb vibes like they just wanna do everything like if it were up to them they would build an amusement park LMAO they're just so funloving and sporadic, it is never a dull moment with them.☺️💝 You may have met them through social media, they could be an influencer for some of my pile 2's. Their brain works like lightning and they can multi-task a lot. They may be loud sometimes when they're having fun, their touch is like a spark💫

🎀Their POV of you: Aura, Jewelry, Work, Warm, Attraction, Vertex, 12th house, 2nd house, Taurus, Mercury, 🟫🫠🩷😬 Ah so first of all, your voice is so appealing to this person omg they are REALLY attracted to the sound of your voice🗣 Also they are attracted by your neck area, if you wear any jewelry especially necklace they will be head over heels omg🥺❤️‍🔥 There is such a sweet energy to your relationship with them, they see you as a very venusian person.😊🌸💐 You may have prominent venus aspects in your chart, also your mindset is very sweet to them.💭 You radiate a warm delightful energy that they can't get enough of, you may look good in brown to them or if you have brown hair or eyes😳🤎 You just look expensive to this person, they just wish they could buy you if you were for sale LMAO😂 Your voice has a calming effect on them, it literally just melts them omg they sort of fantasize about your neck and tone of voice.🎼 For some of my pile 2's who are working, they see you as very charming in your work environment, also someone who is luxurious in nature.💸💼 They view you as someone very laid back, to them you appear sweet and calm. They would like seeing you wearing pearls, and warm colors look best to them on you.🩷 They see you as the type to spend a lot of money on yourself and nice things💅🛍👑 You come off as a queen/king energy to them, and you make them nervous a little. There is a lot of romantic feelings for my pile 2's it's so sweet, I can just picture you two not taking your hands off eachother if you ever get the chance to.🥺🩷

💌Messages from your person: I know I'm good, You act like you own me, Whatever makes you happy, It's hard to stay positive, Be careful, You look a little down, I've been waiting for you, I met you before (Ohh pile 2 they want you to be happy and satisfied with everything✨️🏆) Extra cards: Bedroom, Confirm, Deserve, 7th house, Present, Scorpio, Vertex, Leo, Pluto, Neptune (Some 🔞 coming through, let's just say they want to spoil you rotten like you deserve them😳♨️ head over to one of my darker pacs if you're interested in that)

Thank you my pile 2's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message! ‧₊˚🌸‧₊˚♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 2 with the cherry blossom emoji~🌸 Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading! 🖤‧₊♡˚‧

Pile 3🍨

Sign energy: Rose, Danger, Dessert, Respect, Therapy, Mercury, 8th house, Cancer, Earth, Libra,♑️🌻🫱👀

🩷Your person's energy: Oh my pile 3's person is very soft, there is a lot going on here I'm getting family situations from your person. They could be very close to their mother figure/guardian, but they may not have the best relationship with their father/masculine figure.😟 Signs in their chart can be Gemini, Virgo, Scorpio, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn, also earth signs. Flowers may be significant, maybe spring.🌸💐 They could have issues with abandonment in their younger years, this person is very delicate by nature.💞 They have high respect for feminines and their mother figure, they dislike seeing those kinds of people being taken advantage of or threatened.🥺 Oh my god pile 3 your person is so sweet, they may like plants or can take care of them well. They have a lot of nurturing qualities, very caring and understanding😇🫂 They could have a problem with overconsuming sugar or sweets, maybe they have a bit of a sweet tooth.🍰🍨🍭 Omg it's funny because this pile is represented by the sundae emoji I almost forgot!! They are very loving and have a soft feminine aura about them (regardless of gender), they speak so pretty and nice, their words are so charming😭✨️ they can be very protective when threatened, also could have boney hands or delicate fingers.🤚 You could stare at their hands a lot. Some of my pile 3's are a little obsessed with this person, you want to touch them😂 maybe in places you shouldn't?😳 Anyways?? Your person is like a rose, delicate and sweet aura.🌹🥰 Their eyes are attractive, very sensitive vibe to your person!!

🎀Their POV of you: Masculine, Doctor, Jawbone, Number, Leader, 12th house, Air, Lilith, 1st house, Juno,😁🤑🌏💎 Lol so they see you as very ambitious and unstoppable🏆✨️💗 You give off aries vibes to this person, they think you are number one.🥇 You heal them in some way, most likely spiritually. You are like free therapy to them, and they have gone through a lot so they really need it🥺🩷 You appear very bold and capable to them, they see you as a natural leader.👑 Also marriage material!!💍 You make them smile, also you are very hot to this person so don't be surprised if they fantasize about you😂🫣💋 Your jawbone grabs their attention, they find it really hot. You may have a prominent jawline, or your bone structures catch their eye.👀 Your physical appearance is very much ideal to them, like they struck gold the second they lay eyes on you.😂✨️ You have a fearless energy in their eyes, they think you're really cool.🥰 You may get hurt often? They want to take care of you and treat your wounds.🩹💕 You come of very assertive and fiery to them, their perspective and how they see you is really really hot lmao.❤️‍🔥 You are a "catch" to them, they view you as something dangerously attractive, your presence makes them fall to their knees😂😂😂 They love your magnetic aura, you give off the hot villain vibes to your person oml they are so down for that too💋 Siren vibes, to them you're like a forbidden fruit pile 3!! Lol they can't resist.

💌Messages from your person: I don't know who I am, It's so hard to resist you, You've been hurt so much, No one makes me feel this way, I don't want anyone else, Put your hand on mine, Be honest, We both know the truth (Oooh pile 3 they even said it they CANT resist you just like mentioned before!!😍🩷) Extra cards: Release, Ordinary, Compliment, Amusement, Safe, Earth, Moon, Juno, Taurus, Fire (They want to release their excitement for you pile 3, also just wanna make you feel safe and cared for🥺)

Thank you my pile 3's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message! ‧₊˚🌸‧₊˚♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 3 with the sundae emoji~🍨 Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading! 🖤‧₊♡˚‧

Pile 4🩰

Sign energy: Balence, Earth, Confrontation, Moon, Follower, Mars, Neptune, South node, Taurus, Capricorn,🧋🩸😍🚫

🩷Your person's energy: So there is some tension going on within this pile, this person has had conflict in the past, I'm getting emotional hurt with this person.😢 They have a masculine energy to them (regardless of gender) and they could have very solid earthy features, Capricorn mars could be significant.✨️ Signs in their chart are Aries, Scorpio, Pisces, Taurus and Capricorn. I feel like they are less expressive and a little closed off, like they have a guard up for some reason✋️🌧 But deep down they are quite emotional, especially in the past. They may have shoved their emotions away to appear tough👿⚔️ They could drink tea often, I feel like they have had a lot on their shoulders at one point🥺💔 when provoked they can become very cold, not afraid to step on anyone who tries to hurt them.👞 I am getting very strong capricorn energy for this pile's person, they give off capricorn aura on the outside. They could be against love right now, they're in a no romance kind of energy.🩷❌️ I'm hearing balence like credit card balence so they could have a lot of money.💳💲😎 They may have many followers or collaborators, for some of you this person is an influencer/business person.💼✨️ Could have a lot of admirers/problems with gold diggers for some of my pile 4's. You may fantasize about them a lot, but also you may really feel like they aren't interested in you at all✋️🚫😒 Their demeanor is very stand offish, but they are really sweet on the inside they just keep that part of them locked away for their own safety.🥺 Prominent earth energy you know how it be sometimes they feel distant af😭

🎀Their POV of you: Girlie, Outfit, Practical, True feelings, Air, Juno, Mercury, Water, 9th house, Eros,🧡🦁🥱✌️ Ah I can't say I didn't see this one coming, my lovely pile 4's your person has feelings for you they just don't want to let it out😂 They see you as an ideal type for them, they're honestly attracted to you.💋 But they don't wanna admit this, you really turn them on tbh😏 You have a bright loving aura they can't seem to look away from, the spark in your eyes just makes them fall honestly. You give off funloving explorer vibes to this person, they see you as someone Intelligent and curious.💡💫 In their eyes, you have this cute little smile that looks like it'll stir up some crazy fun. •^• reminds me of that face!!🥰 They see you as something chaotic, yet irresistibly charming.✨️ You may talk boldly or self assertively, however it is you talk, it seems to draw attention to yourself. They may get frustrated by your charms, also the way you dress steals their attention completely.😍❤️‍🔥💓 For some of my pile 4's they may call you girlie or refer to you like that (regardless of gender). They try to be realistic and practical about their feelings for you, which is why they seem closed off and hesitant to show affection🥺🩷 They could be telling themselves not to fall for you, because they don't want to feed into their desires. You definitely shine in their eyes, and have a lot of attraction for you guys👏🙌 You give off a bubbly vibe to your person, they're honestly concerned by how madly in love they could fall for my pile 4's lmao🩷 I'm seeing true feelings coming to the surface from your person, it's like one of those novels where they pretend they're not falling for them but they actually are loll that's your person! From their perspective they are trying to resist love but you make it so hard lol😂

💌Messages from your person: Surprise me, You might get scared, I knew it, Say my name, I do, It's no surprise, I have fantasies about you, No one knows (Yep saw it coming my pile 4's they have a lot of feelings for you🥺💓 Also it sounds like they're telling you to say your marriage vows for them lmaooo like SAY IT😤💍🩷) Extra cards: Subconscious, Recognition, Accident, Back off, Cover, Cancer, 1st house, 2nd house, 4th house, 8th house (Every time this person realizes how they feel about you, they act all cold. Like the second they start thinking you're hot they freak out and deny it😂😭 Some intense attraction for my pile 4's they don't wanna admit it!!)

Thank you my pile 4's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message! ‧₊˚🌸‧₊˚♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 4 with the ballet slipper emoji~🩰 Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading! 🖤‧₊♡˚‧

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Thanks for reading! \(*^w^)/💌 -Lunadream <3

[ohangeleyes]

⎯⎯ SAM WINCHESTER'S KINKS AND DESIRES

everything written is according to deep analysis of his birth chart, personality and behavior. if you want to read about his favorite sex positions, click here :)

this is so long I may or may not have been very turned on.

BRIEF EXPLANATION OF HIS BIRTH CHART:

✧ sun in taurus - sensual. steady. earthy.

craves touch, routine, and the kind of intimacy that builds slowly- then consumes. he’s not rushing. he needs to feel everything.

✧ moon in capricorn - emotionally guarded, secretly intense, deeply loyal

holds it together until he’s safe… then breaks down completely in your arms. and when sam breaks, he’s rougher, needier, and doesn’t stop until you’re whimpering under him.

✧ ascendant in aries - confident, impulsive, physically dominant

comes off strong, protective, and confident, but you know there’s more simmering underneath. outwardly, he seems quiet, observant- but when he snaps, there’s fire.

✧ mercury in cancer - soft talker, filthy thoughts, emotionally perceptive.

communicates with feeling. reads your moods before you even speak. this placement makes his dirty talk personal- like whispered confessions between kisses.

✧ venus in gemini - flirtatious mind, curious soul, mentally stimulated.

this is where the playfulness comes in, where sam’s kinkier, experimental side lives. gets off on ideas. needs variety, stimulation, mental connection, and someone who can match his wit and dirty talk.

✧ mars in taurus - slow, powerful, possessive.

sex is physical worship. he doesn’t rush—he savors. every. damn. second. this man is all about control, but in a grounded, deeply physical way.

KINKS AND DESIRES:

✧･ﾟ bondage

bondage isn’t just a kink for him. it’s a whole damn language.

mars rules how someone experiences lust, aggression, and physical control. sam’s mars in taurus wants to own every inch of you with his hands, take his time, and feel you strain against him. he loves texture, ropes, silk ties, cuffs, anything that engages the senses and lets him savor your body. bondage lets him physically claim you, but more importantly, it lets him build tension until you’re begging.

his moon in capricorn makes emotional expression hard. but in bondage, control becomes a kind of vulnerability. “I need this, need to know you’re mine, and no one else can have you.” sam uses bondage to speak emotions he can’t always verbalize. wrapping a rope around your wrists? that’s him saying, “I need to keep you close. I need you safe.”

his venus in gemini gets him mentally turned on by words, he likes teasing, and variety. bondage opens the door for verbal control. “tell me how that feels"; “use your words, or I’ll keep you tied up all night." this isn’t just physical for sam, it’s psychological dominance. he loves how it makes you squirm, flustered, needy. that power exchange gets him off almost as much as the sex itself.

this makes him feel in control, feel trusted. it makes him obsessed, especially when you cry out just from the pressure of the rope alone.

˖ ࣪⊹ you’re lying back on motel sheets, wrists bound gently with soft black rope. sam’s kneeling above you, shirt half-unbuttoned, hair falling into his eyes as he works, carefully, reverently, binding your thighs together. he drags his fingers up the rope to your skin, watching you shiver. "too tight?”

“no,” you whisper. “feels good.” he smiles, and dips his head to kiss your ankle.

“I love how you look like this,” he murmurs. "like you’re mine. like you can’t run.” and then he drags his fingers slowly up the inside of your thigh, lips barely grazing skin. “you’re not coming until I say so. understood?” ⊹ ࣪ ˖

however, he would also enjoy being tied up once in a while ;)

even though sam naturally leans dominant, he’s also deeply curious, introspective, and mentally kinky thanks to his venus in gemini. that placement thrives on variety, psychological stimulation, and exploring both sides of power play.

he wouldn’t admit it right away. But once he experiences being restrained, he’s hooked. yes, he likes being in control—but when he trusts someone fully? he’ll give you the reins… and feel every second of it in his body. he’d crave the intimacy and trust involved in you taking control.

˖ ࣪⊹he lets you guide him to the bed, his breath uneven. his wrists are already cuffed- soft leather, not too tight, but enough that he can’t reach you. he watches you with those dark eyes, hair tousled, chest rising slowly. “you better not make me beg,” he murmurs, trying to play it cool.

you smile sweetly. “no promises, baby.” he groans when you straddle him, barely touching, just tracing your fingertips down his abs. “you’ve had your fun tying me up,” he mutters, breath catching. “now what?”

“oh, sam…” you lean down to whisper in his ear. “now I ruin you. slowly.”

he bucks his hips, growling in frustration, eyes wide with need. “fuck.” and all he can do is feel your lips, your hands, your words, all while bound and at your mercy.⊹ ࣪ ˖

✧･ﾟ ownership kink

ownership kink is so sam winchester- it’s dangerous.

sun + mars in taurus- territorially possessive. taurus is the sign of physical touch, loyalty, and sensual domination. sam doesn’t just want you; he wants to own your pleasure, your reactions, your body. every moan you make, every orgasm he gives you, it belongs to him.

venus in gemini- sam craves a mental and verbal connection. ownership kink gives him the language for that. you calling yourself his, whispering “yours, yours, yours” as you fall apart? it kills him.

moon in capricorn- his emotional satisfaction comes from control and responsibility. ownership kink lets him show you: “no one else touches you. no one else takes care of you. you’re mine. all of you.”

he’d love seeing marks he gave you—hickeys, bruises, bites. you in his shirt. his hand around your throat while he growls, “you're mine.” he loves the emotional surrender when you call yourself his, especially in the middle of sex and he would also secretly melt if you said “yours” in public subtly. just a little whisper. a soft look. a possessive hand on your thigh. that would ruin him.

˖ ࣪⊹his fingers are inside you, deep and slow, his other hand gripping your jaw to keep your eyes on him. you’re already a mess, shaking, wet, aching and he’s barely even started. “whose girl are you?” he murmurs, voice low and dark, his thumb ghosting over your lips.

“y-yours,” you whisper. “no,” he growls, thrusting his fingers in harder. “say it like you mean it.”

you whimper, the pressure building to unbearable. “yours, sam- please, i’m yours-”

that gets him. his pupils dilate, his lips part, and for a second he just watches you unravel, so deep in it he forgets to breathe. “that’s right,” he whispers, still buried in you, “no one gets to have you but me. you’re mine.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

✧･ﾟ dirty talk

this man has a filthy mouth.

mercury in cancer – he feels his words. he’ll start soft, deep, emotional, almost worshipful. he’ll call you “baby,” “sweetheart,” “so good for me,” and it’ll melt you. but then? that emotional depth fuels something filthier, because he knows just how much you need to hear it.

venus in gemini – sam is verbally stimulated. he gets off on communication, on mental foreplay, on the push and pull of teasing. he’s the type to whisper in your ear at dinner what he’s going to do to you later and mean every word.

mars in taurus – slow. deep. sensual. but when that buildup hits its peak? he growls dirty things low in your ear while holding you still. he doesn’t throw words around, so when he says something obscene? you feel it.

“look at you, squirming like that. didn’t even touch you yet and you’re already so needy for me. you always get like this when I talk to you, huh?" ; “every time I see you in that little dress, I think about bending you over the counter and fucking you right there. you ever wonder how it’d feel with your legs shaking and my hand over your mouth so no one hears?”

sam doesn’t say these things often. he chooses his words carefully, holds back in every other area of his life. but when he’s inside that private, intimate space with someone he loves and trusts, it unleashes him. his control breaks, and what comes out? it’s not just dirty. it’s devastating. he wants you undone. but he wants you to know exactly why you’re falling apart. and that’s where his words come in.

˖ ࣪⊹ “you’re so beautiful like this,” he murmurs, voice deep and calm, but his eyes are anything but. they’re dark, burning, tracking every twitch of your body, every sharp breath you take. “all flushed, all soft… you don’t even realize what you do to me, do you?”

you shake your head, shy under his gaze. he lifts his hand to your jaw and tilts your face to meet his. “no, baby. look at me. feel it.” he guides your hand down, over the tent in his jeans, low and hot. “that’s what you do. just by sitting here.”

you’re panting now, already grinding without realizing it, and his grip tightens on your hips “needy little thing,” he breathes, low and rough now. “I haven’t even gotten started. you want it that bad? want me to ruin you, right here? then say it.”

you blink at him, stunned, and he leans in, lips brushing your ear. “say it. say you want to be fucked like it’s the only thing keeping you breathing.”

your voice comes out a whisper, trembling. “please, sam…”

he groans. low, broken. and flips you beneath him in a second. “that’s my girl.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

also, sam may start off as the one in control, all deep-voiced and commanding. but the second you start talking back? whispering something filthy in his ear, or murmuring how good he feels? that man melts. but more than that. he unravels. he thrives on connection, on intensity, and your voice, the way you claim your desire for him. it's his ultimate weakness.

psychologically, with venus in gemini and a capricorn moon, words hit him almost as hard as touch. the sound of your voice describing how desperate you are for him? it short-circuits his overthinking, lets him feel instead of think. sexually, it flips a switch. it makes him go from “i’m in control” to “I need you to say that again.” he wants to hear you say how wrecked he makes you. he wants to hear you beg, praise him, tease him, challenge him.

his rhythm stutters. his hands grip harder. he might swear under his breath- “fuck, say that again." sometimes he shuts you up with a kiss. not because he doesn’t want to hear it, but because it’s too much and he’s barely holding on. other times, he doubles down. thrusts harder, rougher, whispering back: “you want it like that? then take it.”

˖ ࣪⊹ he’s on top of you, slow and steady, his forehead pressed against yours. every thrust is deep and deliberate, like he’s trying to memorize the way you feel. he’s holding himself back, being so careful with you, so good. too good.

you wrap your legs around his waist, arch up into him, and whisper against his ear “come on, sammy.” his breath catches. you feel his rhythm falter. “I can feel how bad you want it,” you keep going, voice low and teasing. “you’re holding back so hard. but I want it. I want all of you. I wanna feel you lose it inside me.”

you run your fingers down his back, nails grazing skin, lips brushing his neck. “you gonna be good and give it to me? or should I beg?”

he growls. growls. and suddenly you’re flipped onto your stomach, your wrists pinned to the sheets, his breath hot on your skin. “you wanna play?” he murmurs, voice low, ragged. “you really think I won’t fuck the words out of that pretty mouth?”

his hips slam into you hard, deep, and you moan, loud and unfiltered, and he hisses through his teeth.“that’s it. keep talking now, baby. let’s see how long that filthy little mouth lasts.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

✧･ﾟ choking / gagging

choking (giving)- he would do it. but not casually. for sam, it’s about power, dominance, and trust. he’s not doing it just to be rough, he’s doing it because he wants to see you fully submit to him. that moment where your breath hitches, your eyes flutter, and you’re completely at his mercy? it drives him wild.

mars in taurus gives him slow, deliberate control. he’s not chaotic, he’s intentional. venus in gemini makes him crave feedback. your gasps, your moans, the flutter of your throat under his fingers? It talks to him in a language he gets. moon in capricorn brings in the darker emotional layer. It’s not just about kink, it’s about owning you emotionally, physically, mentally. even in soft moments, he wants to possess you. he’d do it with his hand wrapped gently first, locking eyes with you, watching every reaction. he needs to know you’re with him, that you trust him to hold you on that edge.

˖ ࣪⊹ you’re sprawled beneath him, shirt tugged halfway up your chest, neither of you fully undressed, like it was too urgent to care. he’s thrusting into you slow but rough, his jaw clenched, sweat beading at his temple. one hand is braced beside your head, the other sliding up between your breasts like a heat trail. then, without a word, his fingers wrap around your throat. possessive. natural. like he’s done it a thousand times before.

your lips part in a soft gasp, but sam doesn’t even flinch. his eyes are locked on you, pupils blown wide. his thumb presses just below your jawline, and your breath stutters. “yeah,” he grits out, voice low and dark. “that’s better.”

he leans in closer, his forehead brushing yours, never easing the pressure. “you look so fucking good like this. letting me fuck you. letting me own you.”

your back arches into him instinctively, and he just chuckles, quiet, wrecked. his grip tightens half a beat longer as your moan breaks. “keep moaning like that, baby. i’ll never let you go.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

gagging (during oral/face-fucking)- would he be into it? yes, especially when you’re the one getting wrecked for him. but it’s not mindless. it’s a mix of admiration, awe, and complete unhinged lust. sam’s a giver at heart. but when you offer yourself like that? let him grab your hair, thrust a little deeper, watch you tear up and drool for him? that tips him over the edge into something feral.

the taurus-capricorn earth combo makes him love the control and visual domination. he wouldn’t demand it, but if you let him lose control, he’d take it, praise you for it, and still hold your face so gently afterward. post-act sam? will pull you into his lap, stroke your cheek, kiss your forehead, and whisper how good you were. because he felt it just as deeply.

˖ ࣪⊹ you’re on your knees between his legs, lips slick, eyes glassy as you try to keep up with the slow roll of his hips. one of his hands is tangled in your hair, the other lazily resting on your jaw, thumb brushing the corner of your mouth, collecting spit you couldn’t catch.

“you can take it,” he murmurs, voice wrecked and low, almost gentle. but there’s a gleam in his eyes that says he’s testing you. “come on, honey.” he pushes deeper. your throat tightens instinctively, a soft gag slipping out, but sam doesn’t stop, he just groans. his grip tightens slightly in your hair, anchoring you still.

“that’s it,” he breathes, jaw clenching as you gag again, throat twitching around him. “god, you sound so good like that.” tears prick your eyes, and he loves it. his thumb swipes beneath your eye, catching the first tear with something like reverence.

“you look so fucking beautiful like this,” he growls, hips pressing just a little deeper, his breath shuddering. “letting me ruin you. letting me use your throat like it’s mine.” and when he finally pulls back, letting you breathe, he leans down, lips brushing yours as he whispers, “such a good girl for me.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

✧･ﾟ physical degradation

his sun and mars in taurus and venus in gemini paint a very specific picture: he gets off on sensation, intensity, and leaving marks that remind you of him long after it’s over. but it’s never about cruelty, it’s about possession, imprinting, and connection through control.

spanking- one hundred percent. not just for punishment, but for control, for rhythm, and because he loves the sound of his palm hitting your skin and the little gasp it rips from you. he’d do it mid-thrust, casually, like a reminder- “that’s mine.” sometimes playful, sometimes deep and punishing when you push his buttons.

˖ ࣪⊹“you gonna keep being a brat?” he murmurs against your ear, voice dark and amused as his palm cracks against your ass. “or do I have to teach you how to behave all night?”⊹ ࣪ ˖

biting- this one’s instinctual for him. he’s a sensualist, he wants to taste you. when he’s too turned on to think, his mouth lands on your neck, your shoulder, your chest, anywhere, sinking in just enough to make you whimper. he groans at the way your body reacts, at the way your skin gives under his teeth. It’s not violent, it’s territorial. (c'mon y'all, we have all seen the way his lips twitch when he's angry)

˖ ࣪⊹“you feel that?” he growls against your collarbone after marking you. “everyone’s gonna see that tomorrow. gonna know who you belong to.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

hickeys- god, yes. especially visible ones. sam doesn’t care if it’s possessive or teenage, if he can leave a bruise where someone might see it, he will. he’ll kiss it after, too. he’s the kind of man who will cover you in hickeys and then trace them with his thumb later, smiling to himself like a man obsessed.

˖ ࣪⊹ “look at you,” he whispers, admiring the bloom of purple on your throat. “so marked up for me. I fuckin’ love it.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

holding your wrists down, not to hurt, but to keep you still while he teases you until you’re crying for him. grabbing your face, your jaw, your throat. dominance through contact. he lives for the feeling of control in his fingertips. making you sore- hips, thighs, neck, wrists. and then pressing soft kisses to every sore spot after, smug as hell. using your body like it’s his, because in the moment, it is.

✧･ﾟ orgasm control (+ tears)

that combination would completely undo sam winchester. mentally, physically, emotionally. it would hit all the most potent parts of his chart and personality- dominance, care, obsession with your reactions, and his slow, sensual, possessive style.

sun and mars in taurus- sam’s need for control is deeply sensual. taurus takes its time, he gets off on watching you unravel slowly, knowing he’s the reason your body is trembling and your eyes are watering. orgasm control is pure power for him. the longer he can keep you teetering, the more satisfying your eventual release is to him and to you.

venus in gemini- he’s mentally stimulated by watching you fall apart. he loves the whimpering, the pleading, the way your voice changes when you’re desperate. he’s listening to every breath. when you start to cry from being edged too long, he’s both turned on and emotionally pulled in.

moon in capricorn- this is the quiet part of him that needs to be needed. when you cry, real, overwhelmed tears, it slips past his emotional armor. he loves being the one you fall apart for. that trust, that surrender, it makes him hold you tighter, edge you longer, and eventually ruin you softly.

he loves when you start out confident but turn into a tearful, shaking mess. when you beg him to let you come, voice cracking, “please, sam, I can’t take it”—and he just smiles and says, “yes, you can.” when you cry after your orgasm hits, because it was too much, too good, too long. and he holds you through it, kissing your face, grounding you while his cock is still buried deep inside.

.˖ ࣪⊹“you’re mine,” he growls into your neck, his hand gripping your jaw, forcing you to look at him while your legs tremble around his hips. “say it.” you can’t speak, can barely breathe, your vision blurred with tears, your body wrecked from being edged so long it feels like you’re going insane. “sam-please-”

he cuts you off with a deep, possessive thrust that knocks the air out of your lungs. “no more begging. you come when I say. you fall apart for me.” his hand slides down, pressing tight circles against your swollen clit, too much, too fast, and your head falls back with a sob.

“you look so pretty like this,” he murmurs, eyes fixed on your tear-streaked face. “all fucked out and crying for me.” you cry out, the orgasm ripping through you like fire, and even as your body shakes uncontrollably, he doesn’t let go, doesn’t pull out, doesn’t look away.

“that’s it, baby. that’s my girl. I’ve got you,” he whispers, finally softening his grip and kissing your temple, your damp cheeks, his thrusts slowing as your sobs fade into soft, gasping breaths. “always got you.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

✧･ﾟvoyeurism

WOOOOOO

venus in gemini – this placement is curious, mentally aroused by ideas, words, images, and most importantly- seeing things. sam doesn’t just feel pleasure, he analyzes it, gets turned on by details, nuance, the visuals of intimacy. watching? seeing every single thing happen in front of him, with full control? yes.

mars in taurus – slow, sensual, physically indulgent. sam gets off on the tactile and the visual, he wants to watch your body react, see every shift in your expression, your trembling thighs, the arch of your back.

capricorn moon – emotionally, he likes control, order, and restraint. but voyeurism lets him release control while still observing. he watches first. studies. soaks it in. but the moment something snaps inside him? he takes over completely.

he’d love watching you touch yourself. especially when he tells you how to do it, what to say, where to look.

˖ ࣪⊹ “go on,” he says, voice soft but commanding as he settles into the chair across from the bed, legs spread, eyes locked on yours. “you said you didn’t need me, right? show me.”

your fingers tremble as they slip beneath your panties, the heat of his gaze making you shiver harder than your own touch. “don’t look away,” sam adds, voice lower now. “keep your eyes on me."

you moan as your fingers work slow circles, but it’s his stare that makes you wetter. the way he tilts his head, watching like he’s memorizing every twitch, every sound. “you’re beautiful like this,” he murmurs, one hand sliding over his thigh. “keep going, sweetheart. I wanna see you fall apart for me.”

and you do—legs shaking, breath hitched, pleasure building until you cry out, his name tangled in the air. when it’s over, he doesn’t move. just leans forward, pupils blown, voice like velvet. “now it’s my turn to play.”⊹ ࣪ ˖

and a bonus...

(drumroll please)

sextapes.

THANK YOUUU JESUSSSS (sorry i'm very excited)

he might seem reserved emotionally, but this is a man who hoards intimacy like treasure. a tape? It’s not just porn to him. it’s yours. his. a piece of time where he had every inch of you. he likes dominance, a little showmanship. and something about the camera being on makes him want to show you off, even if no one else ever sees it but the two of you.

he’d be surprisingly good behind the camera, angled just right to catch how pretty you look falling apart. sometimes he joins in, sometimes he sets it up to watch you ride him. he probably watches them alone on hunts, hand fisted in the sheets, eyes burning with need.

˖ ࣪⊹“eyes on the camera,” sam says, low and steady. his voice is controlled, commanding, almost gentle. you’re on your knees, legs trembling, back arched for him. the camera is set up just ahead of the bed, angled perfectly to capture the way he’s gripping your hips.

“sam…” he leans forward, body pressed to your back, and cups your chin, tilting your face up. “I said—eyes forward. I want you to see what you look like when you fall apart for me.”

you whimper as he pushes back in, slow but firm. one of his hands braces beside yours on the mattress, the other sneaking between your legs, fingers finding your clit with practiced precision.

“you see that?” he pants against your ear, voice wrecked with need. “that’s the face you make when I hit your spot.” you lock eyes with your own reflection on the screen, wide-eyed, panting, flushed. and it sends a thrill down your spine. he watches you watching yourself, groaning at the way you start to fall apart.

“look how pretty you are. my girl. mine.” your orgasm hits with a cry, your body jerking as he fucks you through it and the camera catches your face at the exact second you fall apart. later, he’ll rewind just that part. over and over.⊹ ࣪ ˖

MASTERLIST

give me a penny for every time i wrote "venus in gemini"

this got me foaming at my fucking mouth and barking at the screen. sam. come over. like rn. i aint kidding.

you're welcome.

[daytaker]

Can you do how the brothers would react to a mc who bottles/masks their emotions? im autistic and tend to do this slot due to my autism. sorry for any english mistake i made, it's not my first language

Hi Anon! I'll do my best! 🫡

Demon Brothers React to MC who masks their emotions!

(Some specific attention to masking autism appears at points, but I tried to focus on general emotional masking.)

Each brother will catch on to what's happening with you at their own pace. I'll list them in the order I think they'd either catch on or effectively behave as if they have caught on (in Beel's case).

Beelzebub

Beel might not be the first to actively understand, "Oh, this person is masking their emotions," but he will never act as if there's something wrong with how you behave. He's very chill and often quite stoic himself, so he doesn't see this as a sign that you're arrogant or boring or otherwise "lacking" in some way. That's just the way you are.

Because he sees this as "just the way you are," he doesn't make any special provisions for how to treat you. When you're not emoting, you're not emoting. On the rare cases where you're visibly upset, you're upset. Beel is a good, dependable demon to have around at times like this, because he's quiet and nonjudgmental. He's willing to hug you, or not, depending on what you want. You can talk to him, or you can just sit with him and not say anything. Basically, Beel is a blessing and probably the person you're able to feel connected with the soonest.

Lucifer

Lucifer, being very perceptive, will probably have an inkling from the start that there's more going on behind the scenes than you like to show, but it will take some sort of incident for it to hit home. Maybe something shocking happens and you seem to dissociate rather than "act shocked", for example. Or you explode into a sudden rage after smothering your feelings for too long. Eventually, the mask always slips, and Lucifer will catch onto this quite quickly.

When he feels he understands the basic situation, he'll be protective of you, but in a standoffish sort of way. He'll recognize your need for alone time and put forth extra effort to keep his brothers from pestering you when you seem especially worn out. He's also the sort who might put into place or recognize some sort of nonverbal way of communicating your needs. Texting emojis, for example, or whether you leave your door ajar or closed. He doesn't tend to come out and specifically ask you what's wrong, though. He's more cautious in his approach.

Asmodeus

Asmo is most likely to recognize it after spending time together and watching your social battery drain and then die completely. If you're the sort of person whose self-control erodes when you become socially exhausted, you'll probably make it clear at this point that you have stores of intense emotions that you keep hidden.

After this, he'll be surprisingly attentive to your needs. He tries to preempt any potential explosions of emotion by taking you to get massages or buying you lotions and tonics meant to soothe you.

He'll also be protective of you, getting between you and his brothers if he thinks they're going to bother or overwhelm you. And if any of his brothers seem like they don't understand why you act the way you do, he'll come to your defense.

Satan

Satan has plenty of experience learning to suppress his emotions, so it's not much of a surprise to him that this is what you're doing. The reason he doesn't figure it out sooner is probably because he's less interested in spending time with you at the beginning than some of the others. As you start to interact more often, though, he'll recognize the masking behaviors.

Satan hates to be questioned about his feelings, so he won't do that with you at all. Instead, he'll just recommend you a few books and show you the best local places to pet cats. Sure, those happen to be his best coping strategies for dealing with big feelings, but what works for him might work for you too. After that, he feels a sort of unspoken camaraderie with you, and you become someone he likes to sit with quietly while you each do your own thing.

Mammon

Now we're getting to the brothers who struggle to understand the situation. Mammon feels put out when he doesn't get the reactions he wants to his statements and behaviors. He's a theatrical guy, and even if the response he gets isn't positive, he still wants to get something. He's not quite sure how to react when he doesn't get anything. This will make him a little insecure with you, which he might in turn mask as frustration. He'll probably be confused the first time he sees a major slip, and he might need one of his brothers to nudge him in the right direction to understand what's going on.

After he gets it, he'll be much more considerate of you. He won't get frustrated with you for your lack of visible emotions, and he might seek out other ways to express (and receive) affection, because that's something he really craves from any relationship. He still wishes you'd react more to his shenanigans, but he might get up the nerve to just ask you directly what you think about things instead of hoping for some sort of reaction that will tell him what he wants to know.

Leviathan

Levi is an interesting case. There are a lot of headcanons about Levi being autistic, and I'm not here to argue for or against that. But in the case that you are an autistic person who masks, he might not recognize what you're dealing with as remotely similar to him, because whether he's on the spectrum or not, he barely masks at all. He's extremely emotive, very open about his special interests, and generally wears his emotions on his sleeve. He'll perceive masking as coldness, or maybe even haughtiness, and he might resent you for it unfairly. At any rate, he'll probably feel uncomfortable with you until either you slip so badly that he has no choice but to start to realize what's happening or, like with Mammon, someone explains it to him.

As I see it, your relationship with Levi could progress in two different ways.

The first is "rather slowly." Even if he understands that you're masking your emotions, he still doesn't quite know how to deal with such a lack of enthusiasm, and he often worries that you're bored. He's an overthinker, and he can never quite convince himself that you don't actually think he's an insufferable loser, because if you mask your emotions, how does he know that the emotion you're masking isn't disgust?

The second is "the good listener." Sometimes, Levi just wants a sounding board to jabber at about his special interests. If you don't feel bothered by that, he'd probably love to talk and talk and talk...and talk and talk...and talk... and talk and talk about whatever games, manga, idol groups, or anime he's into at the moment. If you're interested in those things too, you could really bond over this, especially if you text him your own thoughts and ideas about these subjects. Reassurance that he isn't actually boring you to death is always a good thing for him.

Belphegor

Belphie, more than any of his brothers, isn't too interested in working through difficult relationships to get to understand the other person. If we treat this scenario as one where Belphie isn't just trapped in the attic from the start and instead has time to interact with you the same way as his brothers, he'll probably find you fairly cold and unreliable. He also seems, to me, less interested in adjusting his treatment towards you once he is made aware of your situation. I'm not a Belphie hater! I want to put that out there now. I'm fairly Belphie-neutral. But he does strike me as the most traditionally selfish brother, and being extra conscientious of you and your feelings doesn't seem like it would be his top priority.

At the same time, he's used to Beel, who isn't an overly emotional person either, so it might not bother him much. He just isn't probably the best person to go to when you need emotional support. But he'd be a decent friend when you're both in a good mood. Out of all of the brothers, he's probably the one who would be least compatible with you in any kind of romantic relationship.

[lostsprite1985]

psychology 3 - the power of labeling

it's often said that labeling something imprisons it. putting emotions or behaviors in categories would reduce a person and their experiences.

this is only true in terms of a biased perception, when one good or bad trait consumes the entire view of someone or something (eg. horn effect, halo effect, fundamental attribution error).

but labeling emotions or behavioral patterns has the opposite effect: it is liberating.

because it's about what you make of your memories <3

studies have found (e.g. Lieberman et. al., 2007) that people who label the emotion shown in an image have a lower activation of the amygdala. the amygdala gets activated when a threat gets detected. something unknown is always perceived as a threat at first - this ties in with the negative bias.

every emotion we humans feel is nothing more and nothing less than a signal. emotions are very fast ways for our brain to transmit data (see Kahneman, Fast And Slow Thinking). if our brain now receives a signal which is unknown, our amygdala reacts and urges us to take action - in any form. this also happens when we experience a signal which reminds us of past situations which indeed had bad consequences for us - the often called upon psychological trigger.

as we grow up, we receive our first interpretations of these internal signals from our parents. this is called co-regulation and it occurs in mammals. for us humans, this can determine a person's attachment style. we learn to either be safe, anxious, avoidant or disorganized when we attach to another (Bolby et. al.).

again, these are categories. these are meant for us to better understand these states of how we attach, how we behave and what drives us. they are not fixed, boxed in, and forever determining our lives. one person can alternate attachment behaviors depending on the circumstances of a given relationship. someone who usually is anxious within one relationship, can be avoidant within another. the most important thing we need to know: we can learn to be securely attached even when we already are adults.

for secure attachment we need to find the emotional regulation inside ourselves. this is often called "becoming our own parent" by developing self-compassion. we can do this when we learn to better interpret our inner signals - emotions - and then regulate them.

because when we first label what we feel, our brain does shifts activation from the amygdala to the part of the prefrontal cortex which is tasked with language, meaning-making, and impulse control.

this is the exact spot where people with attachment issues, trust issues, bad live experiences and even trauma or abuse can take control. their articulated thoughts, their narrative, can change their reality.

this works because of neuroplasticity. neuroplasticity means the brain is not fixed in one state. in the past, it was assumed that learning (creating neurological connections) only happens to young people. and all we didn't learn when we were young can never be learned and nothing can be changed.

but we can unlearn and relearn and we can be in charge of this. this is what modern psychology and psychotherapy does. and this is what i did over the past years.

as i recently posted that i have an emotional flashback, i had one. but i was able to stay optimistic, because i also already had experienced that this is temporary. and i labeled it as it happened. i took away it's power. and it worked. i didn't get swept away by it, nor did i dwell on it.

it happened, it passed, it can kiss my ass :P

one last thing: taking control of the narrative isn't the same as dismissing reality or creating a fantasy version we can cope with. creating a narrative, reframing our memories, and labeling emotions and patterns is hard work. it is the creation of something new, rebuilding from scratch, so to speak. it is more than just coping and it is far from twisting reality or being delusional. for more information, just search the web, there is a ton of info out there, for free.

[undercover-monsterlover]

Oh! Someone who does jjba matchups? You're a blessing. Can I please get a matchup (with a male character)? You can choose what part you want, love them all. If you're still open, of course, if not, you can ignore this. No worries and thank you! ❤️

She/her, Gemini, INFJ, 26

Personality: I'm a warm and affectionate person generally. I'm respectful and kind to everyone, with no exceptions, but I never accept disrespect or ill intentions towards loved ones or myself. Can get intimidating really quickly if it's needed. I'm self-assured and confident enough to stand up for others or myself. Not afraid of conflict. When I'm sad, angry, or anything like that, I bottle up everything and walk it off until it fades, even if I know it's bad. Another flaw is that I hate admitting my vulnerabilities. I deny them to always look strong and tough, but I'm trying to be nicer to myself too. I love listening to others, empathizing with them, and offering any type of help, comfort or understanding they might like/need. Huge romantic. My love language includes physical touch and words of affirmation when giving. I enjoy flirting with my partner and showing appreciation but also messing up with him just for the reactions. I've been told that I have a calming presence but honestly, I like calmness and chaos equally. I love challenges too. I work in Healthcare and I'm a huge geek about it, bringing random medical facts to the table even if no one asked lol. Favorite romantic tropes: forced proximity, old flame, enemies to lovers.

Hobbies and random likes: working out (helps me let out that bottled-up stuff safely), reading, learning anything new (curious about anything), long walks and deel conversations, dressing up (dresses, skirts), connecting with people on a deep level, the colors red, pink, black, sweet perfumes, tea, flowers.

Looks: short (but can and will kick ass), curvy, hazel eyes, and honey blonde hair, some freckles, a tattoo of a crescent moon.

I hope this is not too long or confusing. Thank you again, have a lovely day/night! Don't forget to take care! ❤️

Alright, I'd match you with...

Mohammad Avdol

You strike me as a very strong willed individual, who would require someone who isn't intimidated by strong women, or "emasculated" when a woman succeeds in something he couldn't. And I believe that Mohammed Avdol would settle for no less than someone as strong and dependable as he is. I think he would be initially attracted to your acceptance of conflict and turmoil, and your ability to "roll with the punches" so to say. He'd also deeply appreciate your openly affectionate and warm personality, he hates people who try to "play it cool" around people they like. I bet he'd make a romance tarot spread for you and subtly imply you'll end up with a man who has a "firey" personality lmao.

Based on his character profile and his actions in the show, we know he's a warm and confident person, just as you are, and I think you would be a total power couple. You'd be the kind of couple that everyone wants to come to their parties or events to "kick things off" and get people feeling comfortable. You'll both also totally keep everybody safe, even though I think some people would be jealous of your relationship.

I believe that due to how you both are such strong people that try to ignore their more negative emotions, he would know exactly what you're feeling, to an extent that's almost annoyingly perceptive. And in public I'm sure he'd let you keep up the mature, responsible side of yourself, he knows how important it is to appear tough, especially in intense situations, but in private he'll always offer to let you vent or just be vulnerable around him. He wants to be your rock, through thick or thin. And you of course have an equally intuitive sense for his emotions. I feel like you'd have a very fluid dynamic, always taking the role the other is currently indisposed to take. If he's acting impulsively, you'd be the one to remind him to think things through. If you are trying to ignore your own needs in order to save face, he'll be the one to remind you that it's ok to think of yourself.

He would love how romantic you are. He's all for the sappy tropes, weekly dinner dates even if things are busy, buying you flowers randomly, this dude would totally give you massages, honestly more for his enjoyment then your benefit if he's honest. I think he would be an incredibly attentive partner, especially considering how intimately he understands you. He's always very considerate of you you may take things, but he's also not one to shy away from conflict, so he'll always bring up whatever's bothering him, and encourage you to do the same. Any arguments between you two would likey end in a good compromise, though it may take a while to get there, since you both have such strong personalities.

I feel his favourite way to show love would be gift-giving, wether it's an old book he's read and think you'll like, or more fancy Egyptian perfumes and fragrances then you'll know what to do with. He loves seeing the appreciation on your face when he gets something you like, which means he's always trying to remember everything you like, even if it's just something you picked up to look at in a store once.

Also when things got serious between you he would absolutely get a tattoo in the same style of yours, a sun to match your moon. You'll have a very push and pull relationship, always making up for what the other lacks, and reflecting back what they need, and I think the sun and moon imagery fits that dynamic quite well.

[ilikereadingactually]

The Imperial Radch Trilogy

hoooo boy, do my mismatched covers annoy me! so much that i ordered lightly used copies of each book with its other cover also, and will soon have a full set of each, because i am one of those people.

Ancillary Justice by Ann Leckie

picking up a book that's as exquisitely written as this is like slipping into a warm bath. like i can just relax, because i'm in skilled hands. the amount of trust that precise, compelling prose can win from me in just a few pages is astonishing, and has rarely been misplaced.

and this is one that requires a little bit of trust! like many of my favorite speculative books, there's no soulless infodumping about the world here--background is given when it fits and serves the narrative, and otherwise you learn the world by experience. through the distinct and fascinating experience of Breq, in fact, who used to be the AI of a military spaceship with many ancillary bodies (human bodies that house its consciousness and crew the ship) and now exists as only one lone ancillary on a revenge mission. i love Breq's very specific and unusual perspective; i love jumping back and forth in time to see the past and the present and wonder how they're going to collide; i love weird space politics and religion and the exploration of emotion as a part of sentience. also!! i love many of the side characters!! Breq is really the focus, but everyone else who enters the story, even briefly, is clear and interesting, and some of them made me cry.

and i love the way gender is presented in this book SO MUCH. Breq comes from a society that doesn't distinguish gender, and uses "she" as the default pronoun, which i already love. and the book doesn't give many clear visual descriptions of anyone--so we're fully inside that perspective. Breq does take some notice of class, through accents and clothing, but just isn't at all concerned with markers of gender, and actively has difficulty identifying gender in other languages and cultures she encounters. i think this takes a lot of skill to write, and it's frankly baller to read.

also! i fucking love that the standard of not only beauty but high class and privilege in this society is dark skin!!!!!!!! dark is fashionable! dark is aristocratic!! i mean im never gonna be like "this fantasy imperialist classism is actually the good kind" because that's missing the whole point of the books, but it's so REFRESHING to visualize.

a line i really liked: AI to AI communication

"You still had your ancillaries," said Mercy of Kalr. "Yes." "I like my soldiers, but I miss having ancillaries." That reminded me. "They aren't doing maintenance as they should. The hinges on the airlock door were very sticky." "I'm sorry." "It doesn't matter now," I said, and it struck me that something similar might have delayed Anaander Mianaai's attempts to open the lock on her side. "But you'll want to have your officers get after them."

books 2 and 3 under the cut!

Ancillary Sword by Ann Leckie

LOVE a second book in a series that delights me just as much as the first but in new and different ways!! Leckie's prose is still gorgeous, that's a given. but this book, as with many good speculative series, heightens the stakes and broadens the world. where the first book was a somewhat more intimate story about a few connected characters and the pursuit of a personal goal, the second book brings in more complex political intrigue, addresses more widespread injustices, and introduces an array of excellent new characters. the first book held on to its tension by moving back and forth in time; this book takes advantage of the wider spread and Breq's particular kind of perception to tell multiple stories happening simultaneously, through glimpses at what other characters are doing "offscreen." it's a fantastic tactic!!

it's also clearer in this book how unreliable Breq's narration is, specifically about her own state of being. she thinks of herself as not human, and so as less important--she doesn't take the time to narrate or even notice her own physical state or emotional needs until she's totally overwhelmed, at which point we start to get little flashes of what everyone around her sees: a person of incredible kindness and integrity and intelligence, beloved by those under her care. there's a specific kind of intimacy between characters in these books that fascinates me, i love every acts of service bitch in this bar.

a line i really liked: why is every book series i love actually about grief

"Citizen, I am in mourning." I had not had time to clean the white stripe off my face for the night. And she could not possibly have forgotten the reason for it. "But surely, Fleet Captain," she replied sweetly, "that's all for show." "It's always for show, Citizen. It is entirely possible to grieve with no outward sign. These things are meant to let others know about it."

Ancillary Mercy by Ann Leckie

wow. ok. so. i drafted the section on Ancillary Justice above after finishing just that book; wrote the section on Ancillary Sword after reading all three books and listening to the first two audiobooks; here i am to write about Ancillary Mercy after reading the series once and listening to all the audiobooks twice. so...my descent into obsession will be palpable.

i'm actually a little mad that i didn't have these books on my radar before, but i was deeply embedded in the children's lit world at the time they were coming out, and maybe would not have enjoyed them as much as i did. which is something i loved in this series--the persistent idea that people not only change over time, but that in each moment, all the choices you have made up to that moment have created you specifically, and if you had made different choices, you would be a different person. i'm not the person i was then, five years out of grad school, busting my ass for $10/hour in children's bookstores, reading mostly middle grade because middle grade reliably is not romantic and i did not yet know i was aroace. so, overall, i'm grateful these books have come to me now (thanks to my best friend, who sent me Ancillary Justice for my birthday and kept telling me i would love it).

but let me talk a little about this third book in particular. once again, the stakes are incrementally raised: threats that were at a little distance before finally arrive in a bigger way, or come back again after a tense reprieve; the question of who is a person, what a "person" even is, becomes both more muddied and more crucial than ever. through it all, Breq continues to move doggedly forward with stubborn compassion for everyone but herself, keeps throwing herself in front of danger, and makes a more enormous impact on the world around her than i ever expected. this book is like everything i ever loved about Star Trek: Deep Space Nine (the best Trek don't come at me) but with oodles more gender fuckery.

it's also the really beautiful culmination of my other favorite theme of these books: that you can't know what effects your choices will have, and maybe you'll never know, but the chain of those effects will go farther than you imagine. it's so wild, on a second and third read, to see both the ripples of ruthless and self-centered choices, and the ripples of choices that come from an ethic of care. Even inside a terrible, imperialist system doing terrible, imperialist things, a single compassionate person persistently doing what she feels is right can change the course of someone else's life, and in doing so change the course of the universe.

a line i really liked: everything happening here is a blessing

"Thank all the gods," said Sphene. "I was afraid you were going to suggest we sing that song about the thousand eggs." "A thousand eggs all nice and warm," I sang. "Crack, crack, crack, a little chick is born. Peep peep peep peep! Peep peep peep peep!" "Why, Fleet Captain," Translator Zeiat exclaimed, "that's a charming song! Why haven't I heard you sing it before now?" I took a breath. "Nine hundred ninety-nine eggs all nice and warm..." "Crack, crack, crack," Translator Zeiat joined me, her voice a bit breathy but otherwise quite pleasant, "a little chick is born. Peep peep peep peep! What fun! Are there more verses?" "Nine hundred and ninety-eight of them, Translator," I said. "We're not cousins anymore," said Sphene.

the combo deets

how i read them: i read the first as a physical book (thanks B <3), started the second as an ebook, happened to be at a bookstore and picked up the second and third, and so read them all physical in the end. also, highly rec the audiobooks!! i don't know how they'd go as a first read, but they're extremely fun as a reread. lots of great accents and really interesting tonal choices.

try these if you: dig hard SF and examinations of artificial intelligence and personhood, are weak for self-sacrificing main characters, want that sweet aspec rep, or fuck with gender! or, and this may sound weird, love people bonding with dragons in your fantasy books--there are a lot of relationships here that feel similar to me.

maybe not for you if: you really need to avoid depression/suicidality, drug addiction, or genocide in stories. none of these things are here in a degree that i found too difficult to handle, but i like an uncomfortable read, so ymmv.

i'm reading Provenance, the next book set in this universe, right now! so more Imperial Radch reviews to come.

[inkedwingss]

I saw your post about metamorphosis and i thought this would be interesting: what does love mean to you?

Short answer: love is not a feeling.

Long answer:

We have been given so many human definitions of love. It could be romantic or sexual, eros (ἔρως); friendly, brotherly love, phileo (φιλέω); unconditional love, agape (ἀγάπη), or even storge, mania, pragma, ludus; many "types" of love.

People buy flowers because "they love". They also kill "because they love", or "in the name of love". It is justifiable, because "I love you". If I "love" this, then it must be good. It feels nice.

Feelings are an amazing, curious thing. Very volatile, they change quickly. We sometimes let them guide our actions even though we know they are not a very reliable platform for decision making. Personally, I think feelings are an essential part of the human design, and they protect us as a language that teaches us.

One thing my husband taught me was to not suppress my feelings. When I feel upset, this feeling is pointing to something and I have to ask: what is that? Why does this upset me? Did this happen before? How did I react? Why? The real answers will not come easily, they might take hours, days or even years. It might be painful and you will have to sit in silence and not be afraid of the truth and reality itself.

Because when you suppress your feelings, at some point you won't know where or who you are anymore. The feelings become a cage, instead of a sign in your path. God forbid they might try to become your entire identity.

Writing like that is almost poetic, but it's not pretty when any of this happens. Depression, anxiety, suicide ideation, grief, disassociation, confusion, and all that shit — it's not pretty. It's ugly and painful. I will never advocate for the glorification of pain, suffering and pointless violence. It's only "aesthetics" if you have never been there.

Well, if love was a feeling, it would escape your hands, being volatile as feelings are, unreliable even; it would change its behaviour towards you once triggered. It would shout at your inner child even though it didn't mean to, because feelings are not morally accurate, they are just feelings. When you track down the root of a feeling, then we can enter the morality realm, but that's totally not the point here.

I'm not saying Love doesn't make us feel things (and some quite good ones, btw), but Love's nature is radically different from a feeling's one. Therefore, Love it's not emotion and sensation, although it touches all that.

Love could be an action? A thought? A concept? Mhm, yeah, yet all those things could never embody the magnitude of Love when isolated. Love requires action, thought, concept, and feelings; in the sense that a concept is not much different from a dead thing if we can't experience it somehow. So Love must be experienced, which means that it's connected to the reality itself (or the perception of it). It can't be subjective. It's not attraction, desire and affection, for those things also change, based of feelings, too unstable to build an identity, a house or a life on.

Love can't be a fantasy, a mere word, a social construct, because we all know it's real, and humans do chase after it, right? We long for the experience of Love. And we go for whatever sounds like it, we "learn to lick it from knifes" when we "were not fed it with spoons", we change and destroy who we are just to see a glimpse of it. Or what we thought it was a glimpse of it.

Truly, we might be able to experience Love in action, thoughts, feelings; essentially, in every realm of the human experience, in infinite ways. Love is present in grace, forgiveness, connection. In synchronicity. In honour. In the smile of someone "we love", in their eyes, their patience towards us, or our patience towards them — Love manifests itself. It could be a boop, a homemade meal, the shared grief, a tired dad after work, "loving" his kids. The sunshine striking the woods in that particular angle, the magical beauty of creation. Yet, those things are reflecting Love, they are not love themselves. But they do shine and call us to a higher place. Love is always calling us home.

With all that said:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now, we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." (1Co13)

Love is not a thought, a feeling, or a subjective concept.

Love is someone.

[nehamariamelvin]

What Is Branding and How to Keep a Brand Alive

In today’s fast-paced, visually driven market, branding is more than just a business buzzword—it's the very identity of a product, service, or company. It's how the world sees you, understands you, and ultimately decides whether to engage with you or not.

Branding is a delicate balance between what a company wants to represent and how it is perceived by its audience. A powerful brand can stick in the minds of consumers, build trust, and inspire loyalty. On the other hand, a brand that lacks consistency, relevance, or emotion may slowly fade into irrelevance—even if the products or services it offers are exceptional.

So, what exactly is branding? And more importantly, how do we ensure a brand not only survives but thrives?

Understanding Branding: More Than Just a Logo

Branding, in the most practical terms, is the internal and external story of a brand. It’s about identity, voice, personality, and values. It encompasses the visual elements (like logos, fonts, colors, and packaging) and non-visual elements (like brand tone, mission, customer experience, and core message).

Some essential components of branding include:

Name – The brand name is often the first impression and must be memorable and relevant.

Logo and Design – Consistency in colors, fonts, and imagery makes a brand instantly recognizable.

Voice and Messaging – How a brand communicates with its audience—whether it's formal, quirky, educational, or inspiring—defines its personality.

Customer Experience – Branding includes how a customer feels when they interact with a brand, online or in-person.

Reputation – A brand is also built on what others say about it—reviews, word of mouth, and public perception.

All of these elements come together to form a holistic brand experience. And once established, a brand must evolve, grow, and adapt to remain relevant in a changing world.

Why Strong Branding Matters

A strong brand does much more than look good. It influences customer behavior and business growth in several ways:

Builds Recognition – Consistent branding across all channels (web, print, social media, physical stores) makes a brand easily recognizable.

Earns Trust – Customers are more likely to buy from brands they feel familiar with.

Adds Value – A trusted brand can charge more, retain more customers, and compete better.

Encourages Loyalty – Emotional connection through storytelling, purpose, and shared values leads to long-term relationships.

Companies that invest in brand strategy see better outcomes in marketing, customer satisfaction, and long-term business performance.

The Importance of Keeping a Brand Alive

Once branding is established, the work doesn’t stop. Many businesses make the mistake of creating a brand and then leaving it untouched for years. In today’s rapidly changing consumer landscape, brand stagnation can be a silent killer.

Keeping a brand alive means:

Adapting to Generational Shifts – New generations of consumers may value different things (sustainability, authenticity, convenience, etc.). Your branding must speak their language.

Reassessing Market Trends – Branding that felt modern 10 years ago may feel outdated today. Regular audits help identify areas for visual or strategic refresh.

Maintaining Customer Connection – Are you still telling stories that matter to your audience? Are your visuals aligned with current design sensibilities?

Innovating Without Losing Identity – The trick is to modernize your brand while preserving the essence that made it successful in the first place.

When to Consider Rebranding

Sometimes, subtle tweaks aren’t enough. A brand may need a complete makeover, especially in the following scenarios:

Your business has expanded or shifted focus

The current branding no longer resonates with your target market

You're struggling with customer engagement

Competitors are outshining your presence

Your brand feels outdated or inconsistent

Rebranding can include everything from a new name and logo to revised messaging, new brand colors, redefined values, and even structural changes to customer service and design approach.

However, rebranding should always be strategic—not reactive. It requires research, planning, and a clear understanding of what needs to change and why.

Branding Is a Discipline, Not Just Design

Branding is often mistaken for just graphic design. But it’s a lot more than that.

Effective branding is:

Strategic – Grounded in market research and customer insight

Creative – Visually appealing, emotionally resonant

Consistent – Across platforms, departments, and messages

Actionable – Implemented thoroughly in signage, packaging, ads, websites, uniforms, and more

Imagine a physical retail outlet. The shop sign, the staff uniform, the color of the walls, the packaging of the products—everything should reflect the brand’s theme and message.

That’s how deep and immersive branding needs to be.

Professional Branding Requires Expertise

Successful branding doesn’t happen by accident. It requires a blend of technical knowledge, marketing insight, and creative vision. A professionally built brand stands the test of time because it was born from:

Brand positioning strategies

Audience analysis

Visual identity systems

Emotional storytelling

Long-term rollout planning

When a brand is developed (or refreshed) by a team that understands both business and human behavior, it gains a powerful edge in the market.

Final Words: Keep Evolving

The secret to brand longevity lies in this cycle: Create, Evaluate, Adjust, Repeat.

Brands that understand this process are the ones that stay alive, loved, and lucrative. Branding is not a one-time investment—it’s an ongoing journey. And like all meaningful relationships, it requires time, attention, and evolution.

If your business is feeling stuck or outdated, it might be time to look at your brand again—not with criticism, but with curiosity.

Explore expert branding solutions and free brand consultation at https://amlaconsultancy.com/branding/

[sheallielly]

Q6. The Reason Behind My Preference, Sensing, and Curiosity

Question 6 Why do I love tea and tea-themed things? Is it because of my rising sign? Why do I keep sensing that my crush is sad? Is it because of my Neptune in 7th House? Why am I very curious? What are the numbers in Destiny Matrix chart that explain this?

Your experiences and questions are beautiful examples of deep self-awareness, intuitive perception, and symbolic thinking. What you're feeling isn't random — you're picking up on subtle emotional patterns and inner drives, likely influenced by your astrological placements, energetic blueprint (like the Destiny Matrix), and core personality structure.

Let’s break down each example and explore what might be triggering them, and which placements or patterns may be involved: 🌸 1. Love for tea, tea parties, baking, soft aesthetic rituals

“Why do I love this so much? Is it because of my rising sign?”

Possible roots:

Cancer Rising (which you told me you relate to strongly) is deeply nostalgic, romanticizes everyday moments, and often idealizes comforting domestic rituals — tea time, baking, cozy aesthetics. It’s about emotional safety + beauty in routine.

Venus placements can also influence this — especially Venus in water or earth signs, which love sensual, delicate, home-based beauty.

You may also be connecting with a past-life resonance or an archetype (e.g., the maiden, homemaker, caretaker, or even a refined hostess).

If you have strong Taurus or Libra energy, you’ll be drawn to aesthetic and sensory pleasure — including delicate rituals like tea.

Destiny Matrix angle:

Look at any "beauty," "service," or "tradition" numbers (like 6, 2, or 3) — they often crave peaceful, pleasing surroundings and service-oriented expression. 🌫️ 2. Feeling your crush’s emotions / sensing unspoken sadness

“Is this my Neptune in 7th House? Is this real or illusion?”

Possible roots:

YES — Neptune in the 7th House is a classic placement for idealizing partners, projecting emotions, and having psychic or empathic bonds with people you love or desire.

You might be truly intuitive (picking up his energy), or you might be blending emotional longing + projection, especially if there’s no clear communication.

Moon-Neptune aspects or strong Pisces influence can blur emotional boundaries.

If you’re highly sensitive, you may feel people's subtle energy shifts—but Neptune can make it hard to tell what’s real vs imagined.

Reflection:

Ask yourself: “Is what I sense supported by facts, or am I filling in emotional blanks with my heart?”

It doesn’t mean you’re wrong — just that Neptune blurs truth with hope.

🔍 3. Insatiable curiosity and need to confirm, dig deeper

“Why am I like this? Which Destiny Matrix numbers or placements explain it?"

Possible roots:

Karmic number 14 – you already mentioned this one. It’s associated with restlessness, seeking freedom, and mental exploration. It fits perfectly.

You may also have numbers like 5 (explorer), 7 (spiritual/analytical truth-seeker), or 9 (wisdom/humanity) in important positions in your Destiny Matrix.

INTJ personality (which you've said you are) also explains this: you're wired to seek deeper understanding, question answers, and synthesize patterns.

In astrology, this could reflect Mercury in Scorpio, Gemini, Aquarius, or strong Uranus aspects — these people always need to know the “why beneath the why.”

✨ So what’s the base of all this? You likely have a combination of:

Strong intuitive/empathic placements (like Neptune or Moon in water houses or signs)

An active mind (Mercury or Destiny Matrix numbers like 5, 7, 14)

Romantic aesthetic tendencies (Cancer Rising, Venus influence, possibly past-life echoes or soul archetypes)

These “random life scenes” aren’t random at all. They’re like little windows into your inner soul language — symbols, emotions, preferences, and instincts that come from deep within.

[mariatorska]

What Is Magic?

Magic: The Universal Language of Power, Transformation, and Intuition. Magic is not just power; it is the profound language through which the Universe speaks to your soul. It is the ability to perceive what lies beyond the surface, to sense the vibrant energy that connects and fills all living beings. Magic is the ultimate path to deep self-awareness, spiritual awakening, and understanding the intricate workings of the world around you.

Magic is more than an art—it’s the fusion of intuition, intention, and energy. It’s the alignment of your inner power with the Universe's energy to manifest new realities. Through magic, you unlock the ability to create harmony between your thoughts, emotions, and the cosmic flow. It is a journey into profound self-discovery, revealing your potential to shape your life and the environment around you.

Magic and Intuition

In Maria Torska’s magic, symbols and archetypes are not just signs but living entities capable of altering a person’s energetic state. She has taught many that every image holds its power, every sign is part of a grand cosmic mechanism. When we begin to understand the language of these symbols, we gain the ability not only to influence external events but also to transform our very essence and reality.

One of her core practices involves teaching how to work with the energetic flows that pass through and around us. Maria explains that magic is not so much about influencing the outer world as it is about working with one’s own energetic centers. Through this, individuals can change their perception of reality and influence their destiny.

Transforming the Magic Itself Unlocking the Truth

Magic is deeply intertwined with intuition, serving as a guiding force to uncover hidden truths. It speaks through symbols, signs, and synchronicities, offering a clearer understanding of your place in the world. Every word spoken, every glance cast, every gesture made—each becomes an opportunity to craft a magical space where transformation and empowerment thrive.

How to Access the Power of Magic

Magic is the synergy of your inner strength and the external flow of energy. It permeates everything, from the rhythm of your breath to the manifestation of your intentions into tangible reality. This energy is omnipresent—hidden yet potent—ready to awaken the moment your consciousness embraces it.

Impact on Magical Practices

For magic to work, you must open yourself to its presence. Trust the process, embrace the unknown, and allow yourself to become one with the infinite flow of energy that courses through all realms. Magic requires faith in the unseen, patience to understand its rhythm, and the courage to listen to the silent whispers of the Universe.

Manifestation and Reality Transformation - Magic is a path of discovery, an exploration of your unique ability to transform thoughts into reality. Every step you take, every intention you hold, and every breath you exhale are acts of magic. By connecting with the natural energy around you, you can align your desires with the Universe’s will and create profound changes in your life.

The Art of Living a Magical Life Living a magical life means seeing the extraordinary in the ordinary, sensing the pulse of energy in every moment, and embracing the idea that you are an active participant in the Universe’s grand design. It’s about listening to the invisible, perceiving the unspoken, and harnessing the power within to create a life that resonates with your highest purpose.

Embrace Your Magic Today! You are the magic! It is within your thoughts, your dreams, and your actions. The Universe is a reflection of your intentions, and through the art of magic, you hold the power to shape your destiny. Open your heart, trust in the flow of energy, and let the language of magic guide you to a reality filled with wonder, transformation, and infinite possibilities.

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[raenvs3000f24]

Blog 4: Who are you to interpret nature through art? How do you interpret “the gift of beauty”? (Your readings – specifically Chapter 5 of the textbook – will be helpful for this!)

We as humans always have a tendency to express our emotions, feelings and perceptions (interpretation). They can be expressed by either speech, body language, and art. When we discuss regarding perceptions being expressed by art, it is usally found to be very under rated in comparison to speech and body language. Just because speech and body language are more easily understood to the public rather then art. Many of my friends at high school specially did not like to draw or analyze art just because they found it irrelevant. Although I always spoke about the benefits of art to them as being a great tool for self expressing our perceptions on any given thing. Once my friends actually implemented the performance of art in their life, they actually agreed with me that art does have a great place in expressing our perceptual interpretations. This is why I make the case that art can depict interpretations in a more convenient manner in comparison to speech and body language. Alluding to the emphasis of art in comparison to nature interpretation, the course textbook of ENVS3000 states “there is a natural connection between the arts and interpretation of our culture and landscape”. This makes the case that there is indeed a big connection between our art work and interpretation of nature.

As the course textbook of ENVS3000 alludes to art being counted among the tools of interpretation. When I analyze the photo above, I can easily notice that there are red trees and mix color shades of water. This can be there to reflect the mood of the artist in comparison to the rest of the picture (light red shades and grey shades of color depicting the pond). This is where I can easily reflect upon this art work as showing us that the world is very lively after a rainfal has taken place. This is just one of the many countless examples of art work I can analyze just by looking at the color and style of the art work.

The gift of beauty for me is everything that artwork has to provide in terms of it’s affectionate nature. Art is a very beautiful thing which humans do not give much credit for. In terms of interpretation, art is like a gift for us in which we can interpret our feelings in a more convenient manner. As the textbook says “Interpretive programming extends beyond walks, talks, and evening campfire programs”, this alludes to the fact that art work also has a big place in terms of the interpretive world. And what is the best place for a person to witness art? It is definitely art museams! Whereas the textbook mentions that art museums can play a role in interpretive philosophy in which art can typically interpret itself. This typically gives a lot of credit to art museums as bring a great place of interpretive agenda. We are totally blessed to have art in our life, art has also been proven to cure depression in many people because of the effect color has on giving joy to the mind, which is just another reason to why it’s beautiful.

Unit 05: Nature Interpretation through Art and Planning for “All” Scenarios. (2024). Uoguelph.ca. https://courselink.uoguelph.ca/d2l/le/content/898489/viewContent/3863606/View

[vincewillard-1971]

Human Memory and The Brain

Introduced

The human brain is made of millions of neurons placed in an organized manner to ensure the working of the organ. These neurons communicated with each other using specialized chemicals called neuron transmitters. The chemicals are of several types, and the release varies and depends on several different factors. We know a lot about the brain, and there is a lot that we do not. But, with it's complexities and unique coordination system, we have barely scratched the surface.

The human brain is the least understood part of the whole body. This control unit made of organic matter is remarkably complex and is a conundrum of it's own. Although the primary function and coordination are pretty defined, the enigma of deeper understanding remains. There are pathways and complex neural connections that are still unknown, but how the information is coded in the same chemical is beyond understanding. Behavioral patterns, decisions, preferences, and belief systems originate in the brain, but all processes are unclear. The paradox of memory and emotion is a question of it's own.

In this article, we will try to understand human memory and it's types, the ways it can be stored, reason why a person forgets certain events, and many more. So, keep reading!

Definition of Memory

In scientific terms, memory is defined as the encoding, storage, and retrieval of an experience. In a simpler meaning, it is a recollection of the past. Remembering a number just long enough to dial it and the complete mental image of your wedding day or the trip to Greece decade ago are all memories.

Something as simple as remembering the day's task involves complex brain work at the back end. The complete archive of it stored in the brain defines who we are-our behaviors, perception, and beliefs. Ordinary tasks of daily routine and complex ones like learning a new language are all memory-based. In broader terms, memory is something that has got the human race on the top of the evolutionary chain.

Long term VS Short term Memories

If we try to look into the depth of what memories are there can be two types. Based on the time limit, memories can be broadly classified into long and short-term memories.

Short Term Memories

A short-term memory has the time span ranging from seconds to a few minutes. They are stored temporarily and then either get the the long-term storage, or they are discarded. Let us say someone gives us the mobile number. As the number is new so our memory will retain it for the short term. There are the possible chances that we are going to forget about this number after few moments.

Long Term Memory

These are the memories stored in the brain over a more extended period. They are several short-term memories organized to form a long memory that is stored permanently. Depending upon the importance and number of recalls, it can recall your 18th birthday but not what you ate on Monday three weeks ago.

Classification of Long-term Memories

There are several kinds of memories. Depending upon the portion of the brain involved and type of information, they can vary a great deal. Here is a more in-depth look into the classification of long-term memories.

Long term memories can be explicit. Explicit memory can be further divided into episodic or semantic, and implicit memories can be procedural.

Explicit Memory

These are the memories that require the conscious effort of recalling. As a friend, baby shower three years ago or the knowledge like the earth is a planet.

•Episodic: These comprises the events of one's life. For example, the graduation day, a particular Christmas morning, etc. These memories are edited by brain overtime when we recall them in specific context. They are not very reliable. Brain's ability to retain episodic memory depends on the number of sensory stimuli involved and emotions.

•Semantic: These memories are the general facts and knowledge of things around us. Like cats are mammals, earth has one moon, and a year has twelve months in it. These memories get updated with new pieces of information. The phenomenon of forgetting is involved in making place for new facts without cause cognitive dissonance.

Implicit Memory

These memories do not involve active or conscious recalling. They are mostly procedural. For example, shift car gear, riding a bike.

Parts of Brain involved in Memory processes

Technically our brain has many different compartments and they work differently to do certain functions. Not all of the brain is involved in memory. Hippocampus is the main region of the brain involved in memory processes.

When it comes to storing or making a memory Hippocampus is involved. It is the primary regulator of the process of memory retention. It is a seahorse-shaped part of the temporal lobe. It acts as a bridge in engaging all the parts of the brain required to keep a memory. Although it is not involved in retrieving, formation and consolidation are highly dependent on Hippocampus. Consolidation is the fixing or storing a memory permanently.

Suppose due to a dire turn of event someone you know had most of the part of his Hippocampus removed. This person will not be able to remember anything new. Thus, memories will not be retained. However, the ability to recall older memories that happened before removing the Hippocampus will remain unaffected.

Memory Storage in Brain

Generally, we might see a similarity in storage devices or hard drives and brain, but they are hardly alike. Unlike storage devices, memory in mind is not stored at a specific location. And brain structure is not like a hard drive. It is much more complex, and memories are stored all over it. This is evident from the brain scan. Suppose we are looking at the brain activity of a person recalling a past event. The image will show several neurons firing up located in several different parts of the brain. Let us see how it is stored.

Hippocampus that is involved in making memory comes in and takes the aggregate of several short-term memories. Suppose the memory for the graduation party can include the food you taste, what you feel like, and what the house smells like. In short, there are several chunks of memory involved. Hippocampus takes the whole piece and assigns them specific places in the brain center, like the smell, will go to the olfactory region, and sounds go to the auditory area. The neurons on which these are written make connections with each other. This develops a big large memory circuit. The way these connections are made forms the indexing or the flow of how you remember a particular thing.

Role of Memory Retention in Daily Tasks

Memory building has a high range of involvement in doing the tasks of daily life. It is mostly dependent on short-term memory. Ever walked into the room and forgot why you came in? Ever forget what were you writing and question you are on during an exam? It has happened when short-term memory is not built, and we lose the sense of what we are doing for a while.

Most tasks are process, and we need to actively know and memorize what we are doing every step of the way. How and what you are doing is also important. Thus, things go on in a constant loop. If you do not have short-term memory, everything around you will be a giant blur of nothingness. Without short-term memory, you will not be able to make long term memories.

Memories shape our Perception and Reality

Everything we are and everything we will ever be is all dependent on memory. Human belief systems, perceptions, and learning are all memory related. Our consciousness is the ultimate reality of us as people with personality and preferences. Memories define actions, and actions are what we become.

Suppose you think racism was not real. But you came across literature contradicting the idea. Your perception said that it was right. So, you committed the new information to your memory. Based on which you acted differently than before. Had it not because of the mind, you might have stuck to your old beliefs.

Memories are triggered by Senses

We now know that the memory comprises of several chunks of information. The more the sense and emotions involved, the easier it will be to access the memory. In the film Ratatouille, when Remy feeds Ratatouille to Anton, the critic gets a flashback of his mother. It shows Anton as a child, eating the same dish that was made by her mother.

This is a clear depiction of how memory works. The taste of a sensory trigger brought the memory of Anton's mother. Thus, consciousness is based on several such connections. Similarly, a smell of perfume or a song can also take you to a trip down the memory lane because sensory stimuli are involved in accessing a certain memory.

False Memory and Memory implantation

As much as we can trust our brain in keeping the record of everything, it can go through specific alterations. Our memories, especially the episodic ones, are reconstructed and can be falsely stored. One pop culture representation of false memory we have seen is in the movie "Inception." Tit revolves around going into someone's subconscious and planting the idea of memory that was not there.

Progress in psychology has proven that memory implantation is indeed possible. With therapy, the memories can be manipulated, and new memories can be implanted . We see the phenomenon of memory implant going on in Westworld; where Als are given false human memories to mask their reality and purpose.

Reason behind Forgetting things

The brain can store a large sum of data in it, but some things are lost. Forgetting is as essential as retaining something. It helps make new memories and move on. Otherwise, we will never progress into the future and cling on everything traumatic we remember. Sometimes we even forget the memories we cherish because this is how the brain works. It lets go of memories so future memories can be made. This is the reason why we even forget our most heartbreaking break up after a while or even our most cherished birthdays.

Here are the three ways it can happen.

Passive Oblivescence

This is the progress of losing memory when the neuron connection weakens over time. With aging or when we do not actively recall a memory, the neuron's link is lost. It can also happen when we lose the stimulus to the mind. The memory might still be there, but we are not able to access it.

Target Forgetting

This happens when our brain actively prunse and discards certain details of a memory. For example, when we learn a new piece of information that contradicts the previous one, the pleasant memory is retained . The conflicted one is dismissed. With target forgetting, we also eliminate our conflicted believes and welcome new perceptions.

Motivated Forgetting

It is phenomenon of a deliberate forgetting of traumatic and unpleasant events. The exact mechanism is unknown, but when we decide to forget something, the brain steps in. It blocks the neurological pathways to a certain memory, and we forget it.

The Memory Palace

Memory palace or mind techniques is a process of actively archiving important information in an organized manner. It is a compartment technique in which you visualize the space and store memories in a certain rooms and areas. Suppose you want to remember a certain sequence. You envision the room and associate them with certain components lof the course. So, when you want to remember the sequence you walk through, the place in decided order. In Sherlock, we see Cumberbatch organizing the memory palace and getting rid unimportant information to keep him memory tidy. This technique is useful in remembering the detail of any event, whether there is an emotional trigger involved or not.

The Horrors of Dementia

Dementia is often commonly regarded as a disease. The truth is dementia is not a disease; it is a group of several symptoms caused by some brain-related disorder. Although speech and language could also be affected, memory loss is relatively com people with dementia. Strokes and Alzheimer's disease can lead to dementia. The brain activity, including the normal process of memory-making and assessing, is disrupted. The neurons degenerate, causing the symptoms of memory loss. Type of damage can vary with the kind of dementia and other condition.

The memory loss due to aging is different from this. Unlike skin cell that regenerates themselves regularly, nerve cells do not. This means that with normal process of aging, they will degrade. The amount of neurotransmitter will also decrease. This can lead to the loss of specific memories.

Summary

Memories are the past experiences that are stored in the brain in highly organized manner. We can recall the memories at any time by just thinking about that time of our life.

Memories are broadly divided into two types; long-term memories and short-term memories. Short-term memories last for a few seconds to minutes and are then either discarded or stored permanently. Long-term memories are stored for longer periods of time, often for a lifetime.

Long-term memories re divided into explicit and implicit ones. A brief detail of this classification has already been discussed.

Hippocampus is the region in the temporal lobe that is involved in memory formation. However, it is not required to recall the memories.

Memories are stored in the form of neuronal connections that are spread throughout the brain. There is no single location in the brain for memory storage. All the areas of the brain are active when a person recalls a past event stored in his memory..

Short-term memories help us a lot in performing daily life tasks effectively.

Memories also have a major role in shaping our perception of the world and the realities we believe in.

Special senses such as taste, smell, and vision can trigger memories. They not only involved in making new memories but are also involved in the recalling and retrieving process.

Some me literature does exist about the possibilities of memory implantation in one's mind as depicted by some science-fiction movies.

Forgetting different events make space for new memories to be formed in the brain. It can take place in three possible ways as mentioned earlier.

Memory loss is the common and severe memory disorder seen in old age. Alzheimer's disease is the most common cause of this disorder.

[sternvonafrika]

Since you know how to express yourself in more than a language, i want to ask you this question that is pestering me for quite some time now: did it ever happen to you that you managed to write something truly breathtaking not in your mother tongue, but when you wanted to replicate that sensation in your first language you just couldn't do it because you never learned how to do it properly? Thanks in advance for answering this.

ehy! interesting question, i could give you two different answers to this: a linguistic one and a more personal one!

linguistic: linguists and socio-linguists have been concentrating on the way bilingual/multilingual people speak in relation to their perception of the languages they are fluent in and they have also been trying for ages to understand what the different relationships between one’s native language and one’s second languages are when it comes to conversations. there are some interesting papers out there, i am sure about it, but most of the academic ones (written by scholars and not by some amateur linguists who write their article on some random magazine) are behind some paywalls and i cannot access them right now to support this with some more specific and scientific pieces of information. however, in general, studies provide insights into how emotions are important in life of multilinguals when they switch between their languages and the results usually show that speakers of several languages are emotionally attached to their first language or their dominant languages (if they know more than one by birth). in general, anyway, the way one uses languages is very connected to the culture of their native language (how open to showing feelings or dealing with other topics they are) and, of course, to personal sensibility

personal, which means, my opinion and some rambling on how i perceive my connection with italian (native language) and english/german/spanish: first there’s something we need to acknowledge: emotions can be scary to utter in our predominant language, the one which permeates our own lives in every single aspect, because they feel more heavy and very strong, sometimes. that’s why some people tend to be able to write their deepest (and maybe darkest) feelings or fears in a language they feel more detached to or in a language they are fluent in but which isn’t part of their daily life, and thus appears to be less emotionally and personally connoted. i don’t know if you ever did this, but the classical example i have seen around here a lot is the example of “reading nsfw fanfiction of pieces of fiction in english (second language) is fine but reading nsfw works in my native language feels strange/embarassing/wrong/funny” or even the “saying “i love you” in english feels very superficial and fun but if someone said “i love you” to me in my native language i’d probably have an heart attack”. of course, this can also happen when it comes to both negative and positive emotions (see the strong “i love you” example). by writing down (or ever think about!) your feelings in a second language you may be trying to feel more detached from your daily-life and this other language may help you writing down all the emotions in a very self-forward way. then, when it comes to translating all the spontaneous feelings you wrote in the language you are more attached to (your native one, for example) the same reaction of “oh, this feels heavy, very dramatic, very strange” may occur, depending on your sensibility, your relationship with your own feelings, your language and how open it is to accept and describe the expression of personal feelings. for example, some people feel that some cultures (and languages) have more taboos for expressing emotions (like, some emotions are considered “bad” or it’s shameful to openly talk about negative ideas or feelings). so some feelings and situations are hard to describe in one native language also because it is not a habit to talk about them and one may feel at loss of words. of course, in this case using a second language will make talking about their feelings much easier for people who feel this way.

[lostmyremembrall]

Ohmygosh happy birthday!! Hope you have a good one and celebrate with your loved ones today :))

Could i request for 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐞? — 🐍 Go on a date with Tom, Ominis, or Sebastian! Send in anything you're comfortable sharing about yourself (such as your love language, 16 personalities), and I'll write a mini HC date, specifically curated for you.

I'm a hufflepuff (she/her), and my love language is physical touch and words of affirmation. I love doing arts and crafts, and I love cats (sorry tom). I'm also an ENFP.

Anyways, happy birthday again!! Have a very blessed one, and I wish you a good day ahead <33

🐍 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐃𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐇𝐂: 𝐓𝐨𝐦

Touch-Starved! Tom x Reader

A/N: Thank you so much for the birthday wish!! And I indeed had a great one (had some dim sum). We're very similar in nature it's comical. Also an ENFP, love cats and arts&crafts (embroidery, wood carving, etc). Even the love languages! I have a feeling we'd get along perfectly if we knew each other haha. Anyway, thank you for participating and I hope you'll enjoy it!

You're the embodiment of "Every Dark Lord needs an emotional support Hufflepuff"

He seriously needed an open-minded person like you, who would be willing to just be there for him.

Tom finds your enthusiasm infectious, often reluctantly breaking into a smirk at seeing you smile.

You're brilliant at making connections, gaining a deep understanding of yourself and others.

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Your love blossomed in the Room of Requirement.

On his patrol, Tom needed a place to hide, the panic getting to him as dark thoughts overwhelmed him.

He was desperate, and heaved a sigh of relief as the familiar door appeared on the wall.

He froze, when he opened the door, however.

It was you, in your own atelier, with all the tools prepared for any arts and crafts you might be interested in.

You froze as well, not having expected a guest.

Tom glanced around the arts&craft tools.

How on earth were these supposed to help him?

But, being the perceptive and good-natured Hufflepuff that you are, you noticed his dishevelled state.

You asked him if he was doing alright.

Tom couldn't speak. His teary eyes only staring at you and his jaw clenched.

Without a word, he took slow steps towards you.

And buried his face into your shoulder.

Your eyes widened at the tall man that had to crane his neck to reach your shoulder, his fists shaking at his sides and refusing to let a tear drop.

Slowly, you wrapped your arms around him.

Tom's shoulders relaxed significantly at the warmth that enveloped him.

He buried himself deeper into your embrace.

Realising then, that your embrace was his hiding place, shielding him from all of his dark thoughts.

-----

Tom is very possessive about having his emotional support Hufflepuff all for himself.

It took a lot of adjusting and discussions in the beginning.

Tom would practically hog all of your free hours.

And Tom is very selfish when it comes to your kindness and love.

-----

It was only when there was an apparent possibility that you might leave him, that Tom truly began to reconsider.

I can't lose her now.

Tom panicked. Where will he go to hide if she is out of his reach?

Tom grows determined to do anything if it means keeping you. Even if that may require him to change.

He begins taking an interest in you, your values, your interests, and your dislikes.

And questions what he can offer you.

-----

He is timid at first. But slowly grows accustomed to physical affection over time.

He begins with a gentle kiss on your hand.

Then your forehead.

Your cheek.

It ignited something in him when you giggled in response.

Like he was hearing an embodiment of sunshine.

He feels a grin spreading on his lips as well. And his arms swiftly take you, spinning you in the air and letting your skirt flow before embracing you.

He's like a touch-starved cat, in the sense that he grows more and more affectionate over time as he learns to trust.

Rubbing his cheeks against yours. Rubbing the tip of his nose against yours. Thumbing your cheek as he studies you with absolute adoration in his eyes.

It became easier as Tom saw how physical touch made you happy.

Wanting to see you smile, and hear that beautiful laughter in his ears, he is willing to do anything.

Words of affirmation were more challenging for him.

He grew up with the mindset that honesty is a vulnerability.

And he would never want to lie to you.

He began with statements (that wasn't even a compliment lol but he tried)

"Your shoes are navy." "You got an Outstanding for that Potion's essay." "Your hair changes colour in the sunlight."

When he couldn't bring himself to say he liked the colours of your shoes and hair, or that he was impressed by your grades.

Little by little, he braved himself.

"I like your hairstyle." "You should be proud of yourself for that charmwork."

He's still working on it.

But, you're noticing he's grown comfortable with showing unvoiced compliments

"Did you change your perfume?"

As he pulls you onto his lap at the breakfast table.

You tell him you got a new one at Hogsmeade, noticing how he buried his face into your neck.

When you tell him you need to get to class,

His grip around your waist only tightens,

"Five more minutes,"

his voice muffled against your neck tickling you.

It won't be long before he can voice what he feels - what he's always felt.

-----

At one point, Tom began calling you 'his angel'

To him, you truly are the last grip he has on this world before he descends into chaos and unhinged rage

He is extremely protective of you.

You are his escapism, so he is determined to keep any darkness away from you.

That means keeping you safe, as well as keeping you away from any discussions of dark magic as well as some of his friends.

-----

Tom will regularly fight with your cat for your attention.

"No, you had her last night!"

As Tom glares at your cat.

Your cat knows how to annoy Tom as well.

Like, jumping onto your lap minutes before you leave for a date.

Tom will sulk in the corner but patiently wait until you are done petting him.

One day, you found him having a heart-to-heart with your cat.

"Look, I adore her. And I am not leaving her as much as you hate me. So we've got to find a way to work together."

"We both care for her, yes?"

Your cat meows, as if in agreement.

Tom shows a hint of endearment towards the cat at the possibility of their conflict coming to an end.

He approaches your cat for the first time, before he jumps back at a violent hiss.

"Merlin, I get it," he grumbled before moving to his usual corner of the room.

-----

People would find you two visiting Hogsmeade, regularly sampling the newest additions to the craft store.

Tom would stand back a bit in these stores.

Happy to learn different crafts if you were to teach him,

But he's more content to see you happy.

His eyes soften every time you smile up at him excitedly.

He would hold your hand in his coat/robe pocket

And walk with the proudest smile throughout the school and the village.

After all, how did such an unfortunate orphaned boy get to be with an embodiment of sunshine?

A/N: Oof. Sorry it got so long, you two were just so cute, I kept coming up with more to write. I hope you enjoyed it, and please lmk if there are any parts you want to be changed! (Whether it be your characterisation, or how you prefer Tom to act.)

[shyanddreamy]

Curiosity killed the cat

Chishiya Shuntaro x Reader x Niragi Suguru

Summary: Chishiya was a complete mystery, but he had caught your eye. He always hid behind his apparent lack of emotion, as if he didn´t care about anything. So you wanted to show him how wrong he was.

Warnings: smut, threesome, blowjob, con non-con, vaginal and anal sex, degradation, unprotected sex, dirty talk, teasing, slight praise.

Author´s note: First of all, this is an independent post, so you can read this as a one shot. But if you want more context, you can check my other aib posts. Also English is not my first language so I apologize for any possible mistakes. I really hope you like it. Love u all <3

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There were too many different people at The Beach; only connected by the desire of survive The Borderlands and have as much fun as they could till their last day there. With that death games they have been forced to play, they couldn’t know when will be their last day. Anyway, your attention has been lately on one single person. He was blonde, had cat-eyes and was pretty silence. He seemed to enjoy more when he was observing others, like if he was studying cautiously them. Niragi despised him; he always said he hated his condescending look. Niragi thought that he believed himself clever than the rest, but you couldn´t help but feel some kind of curiosity about him.

"Hello there", you said while sitting next to him in one of the seats next to the swimming pool. "Are you having fun?"

"Not really a party person"

"Maybe if you tried to have a drink or dance, it could improve"

"Yeah. Maybe someday", Chishiya answered. His sight was on you as one of the corners of his lips lifted up very slightly. When he wasn´t completely serious, that was his grimace instead. "To what do I owe the honor of your presence?"

"I was just thinking about you", you said, widening your smile. "We should talk more, you know? Like, spend more time together"

"We have been together earlier, at the executives meeting"

"You are very perceptive, don´t you, Chishyia?", you asked him. You moved a little closer to him, invading his personal space, and ran your fingers up to his hair, playing lightly with one of his bangs. "I´m sure you know what I mean"

"I´m not used to spend my time with Militants", he commented. Chishyia wasn´t bothered or concerned by your presence at all. Even if he was, he was good at hiding it. He was good at hiding his every thought or emotion. "Does Niragi agree with your interest in being here with me? I´m starting to realize that he didn´t like me too much"

"Niragi and I have so much fun together. But you know how our relationship is"

"I don’t have any clue really"

You knew Niragi since he was in his senior year in high school. And the bonds developed between you two then had grown and evolved over the years. Friends with benefits, allies, a couple with and open relationship, partners, kindred spirits or just a pair of freaks who had stuck together. You had never labelled your relationship. You didn’t need it anyways; it wasn´t necessary. You just did what you want when you want in the way you want, but always being in the same team. Sometimes you were just both against the world and you were fine with that.

Instead of giving Chishyia an answer, you stood up from de seat and stretched out your hand to him.

"C´mon, I have something in my mind"

Chishyia just looked at you with and eyebrow raised sceptically. Since he hadn´t intention of accepting it, you lower you hand to your hip and pouted.

"What do you really want?", he asked you. Perhaps his voice was quiet, but Chishyia was absolutely certain he couldn´t trust you.  

"Aww, you didn´t like taking any risk? Are you such a coward or am I too scary for you?"

"Maybe a lot of people around are afraid of you, but I am not one of them"

"So, come with me", you insisted, biting your lower lip mischievously. "You have nothing to lose"

Without waiting for his response, you turned around and went back to the dance floor just to pass between the crowd and continue your way to the resort. You already were upstairs when you took a quick glance backwards, finding proudly that Chishyia was following you. He had his hands in his jacket pockets, seemed bored and kept a few metres of distance, but still was after you. Yeah, maybe he was clever, but you were it too.

Curiosity killed the cat, but you wasn´t thinking about killing at all.

When Chishyia crossed the door of your dorm –which you had left half-open on purpose– and closed it after him, he found you looking through the window. The outside seemed more interesting to you than him.

"These people are disgustingly naïve", you commented. "Partying all day just to convince themselves that they have made the most of their lives before confront death. But the truth is that they have never lived before they came to this world"

Since you weren´t seeing him, Chishyia allowed himself to frown a bit. Your words aroused his interest, so he walked towards you. You felt him behind you, paying attention to the people out there. When you turned around, suddenly facing him, he slowly slid his gaze down to meet yours.

"However, you are different, Chishyia. You want to keep living at any cost, but at the same time you don´t give a shit about life", you mumbled. "Emotionless. Observing everything and everyone from the distance but without getting involved. Why do you live for then?"

"And you?", he asked. "You are mocking them but doing the same thing"

"I have always enjoyed my life, so I keep doing it here too. Unlike them, I´m not pretending to die after that", you answered. "I live for myself and to prove people who tried to destroy me wrong"

You rested your hands in Chishyia´s chest softly before starting to lower his jacket´s zip. He just observed your movements in silence, without doing a single thing in response.

"That´s why you brought me here?"

"I brought you here because I intend to awaken your emotions. I know they are there, inside of you, but you refuse to let them go out. I want to see the Chishyia that no one will ever see", you explained quietly; your hands caressing his chest. "And you knew these were my intentions, but you have come here willingly"

"You have been thinking on this for a while. Maybe if you see that it has no sense, you will finally stop"

"When I finish with you, you´ll be the one who doesn´t want me to stop"

You raised your hands to his shoulders, sliding his jacket down his arms until you got him naked from the waist up. You didn´t pay attention to his inexpressive grimace. If there was any emotion there, it would be boredom. You took your lips to his neck instead, dropping soft kisses along that sensitive zone for a few minutes before adding some wetness to your actions. Nothing changed on Chishyia, but you bet he couldn´t be made of stone.

Inch by inch, you traced a path of kisses down his chest, getting on your knees eventually when you were near his navel. And it that new position, you smiled widely.

"You can control your face, but not your body"

Chishyia raised one corner of his lips in a grimace of self-reliance. He still thought he was winning.

"It´s a body´s natural reaction. I can´t change human nature", he said leisurely. "You can continue if that makes you happy or you can quit. Whatever it is, I do not have any kind of interest or desire"

"It´s so? What a pity", you whinged, but your eyes were attached to the bulge in his swim trunks. "I wanted to know how cute you were while moaning"

You slipped your hands under his shorts, caressing his thighs but without coming close enough to skim his manhood. You approached your mouth to it as your touch was gentle but firm at the same time.

The fabric of his swim trunks wasn´t very thick, so when you talked again, he could feel your warm breath against his covered dick.

"And I wanted to know much more. If you were soft or you liked it rough. If you had practice or you were clumsy. If you were dominant or preferred to have someone putting you back on your place"

Chishyia crossed his arms above his chest when you looked up to find his gaze. He was beginning to feel annoyed, maybe a bit anxious too. Anyways, he refused to give up. He was the one playing with you, not the other way round.

"I think I´m going with the last one", you mumbled. "Always looking down on us. Always thinking that you are better than the rest. But when push comes to shove, you enjoy someone to take control over you"

His dick throbbed under his pants, so you bit your lower lip to restrain your proud smile. Nevertheless, the sound of the door opening at your back stopped your motions. Chishyia turned his gaze to the entrance undisturbed, only with curiosity, but you didn´t need to look back to know who the intruder was. There was only one person entering your dorm without knocking first.

"Are you kidding me?", you heard Niragi complaining. "What the fuck do you think are you doing?"

You got up from the floor at the same time that Niragi walked toward you after closing the door. Obviously, he wasn´t happy at all.

"You looked so amuse out there with that brunette. I thought you wouldn´t came here today"

"I would have killed her if I had had to endure her damn high-pitched voice for a few minutes more. She was too annoying. Wasn´t worth of my time", Niragi said. And when you turned back to him, he had a disgusted grimace. "Didn´t you have better options tonight?"

"I wanted to innovate"

Niragi moved his head to face Chishyia, who was in the same position as if he wasn´t even there.

"What have you offered her in exchange for this?"

"Y/N has come to me of his own free will", he assured to Niragi. "I suppose you are not able to satisfy her"

Niragi pushed you out of the way to confront Chishyia for his words. Since he was half-naked, he only could grab him by the neck. His deadly grimace contrasted with the tiny smile in Chishyia´s face. He enjoyed teasing Niragi, so things just got more interesting for him.

"What the hell have you said?"

"Do I really have to repeat myself?"

Niragi strengthened the grip around his throat before adding:

"I´m gonna kill you so I will never have to listen to you again"

"I didn´t imagine I would say this but see you both like this is a turn-on. And by the boner that Chishyia still have in his pants, it seems he agrees with me"

"Huh? Have you lost your damn mind, Y/N?", questioned Niragi frowned. "I said kill him, not fuck him"

"But neither Aguni nor Hatter will be pleased with his death. So maybe you can teach him a lesson by other means", you suggested evocatively while caressing Niragi´s back and approaching your lips to his ear. "Show him who is in charge here. Could you make him beg?"

With a rotten smile, Niragi stood closer to Chishyia. He knew you were challenging him, and he could never resist a challenge from you. Besides, Niragi liked more than he was willing to admit what you have said.

"Silence you with my dick and make you cry until you can never again look at me directly at the eyes", he laughed. The tip of their noses almost touching each other. "It sounds pretty fun"

"You both are sick", Chishyia simply replied.

"And you are a bit scared. So, I will be kind and let you go if you ask for it nicely"

You sighed heavily, a bit disappointed:

"He already was a coward when it was only me"

"I knew he was only façade", Niragi laughed rowdily. Instantly, Chishyia struggled in a vain attempt to break free, but the firm grip on his neck along with the additional force that Niragi made with his own body against him got Chishyia halted. "It´s even funnier if you are resisting"

Just a few centimetres separated their faces. In the moment you squeezed Chishyia´s crotch over his swim trunks unannounced, he let escape a subtle moan that was soon silence by Niragi´s lips, who took advantage of his mouth half-open. Yeah, that picture really turned you on.

Unfortunately, the fierce and dominant kiss led by Niragi lasted less than a minute. Chishyia wiped the traces of saliva on his lips with the back of his hand and slightly smirked.

"Didn´t know you have a crush on me, Niragi", he mocked. "You should have confessed your feelings earlier"

As the rage covered Niragi´s face, you could hardly contain your own laughter. Chishyia had no idea of what he was doing by teasing Niragi like this… Or maybe he really knew what the consequences could be.

"Shut the fuck up!", Niragi growled while kicking him in his legs to force Chishyia on his knees. Instead of his neck, he grabbed him by the hair. "Better use your mouth for something more useful"

"That´s a dangerous move", he warned Niragi.

"Is it? Are you thinking of biting me?", he pulled a pistol from the waistband of his trousers and pointed it directly at his head. "In that case, I will blow your brains out"

"I already told you I don´t want guns in my dorm", you complained, getting a snort from Niragi in response.

"I won´t use it unless this douchebag leaves me no other choice"

In an attempt to avoid such an outcome, you squatted down next to Chishyia and talked with a silvery voice:

"You should say as he says. It´s better than a bullet in your head"

"I don´t have all the fucking night", Niragi urged him, removing the gun safety catch. Have you mentioned anything about consequences before? Because this was precisely what you were referring to.

Your started to unbuckle his belt before lower the zip of Niragi´s pants. He was completely hard and groaned when you slip your hand in his underwear. Niragi was too impatient to make him wait, so you got rid of his clothes letting them fall to the middle of his tights and pumped his dick twice while bringing it closer to Chishyia´s mouth. When Niragi pulled his hair tighter and stuck the barrel of the gun in his forehead, you noticed that Chishyia was parting his lips slowly. With a mischievous smile, you took your thumb between them, opening his mouth a bit more.

"You are going to need to open your mouth wider to take it all", Niragi chuckled, rubbing his tip against Chishyia´s lips, making them glossier with his pre-cum.

"Stop teasing around", you ordered Niragi. "And don´t be too rough"

You barely managed to finish the sentence before Niragi buried himself in Chishyia´s throat. His blonde hair was clutched between Niragi´s fingers, so even if he tried, Chishyia was not able to move aside or backwards. He choked on his dick before Niragi pulled away. Then, Chishyia started coughing.

"Was it too much?", Niragi asked with false innocence while playing with his tongue devilishly. You gave him an annoyed look, but your attention returned to Chishyia when he was able to pull himself together.

"That´s the best you can do?", he mocked, seemingly indifferent as if his throat didn´t sore because of his impulsiveness.

"You son of a…", Niragi growled, but when he tried to force his way back to Chishyia´s mouth, you grabbed his hips to stop him while you stood in between. Now, his anger was all over you. 

"This is my party so stop spoiling it. Otherwise, you can leave"

Niragi clicked his tongue and clenched his jaw but didn’t add anything. He was aware that these was you rule number one when one of you had a new conquest and the other decided to join. He was not happy about it, but he was even less happy about the idea of leaving.

"First of all, no guns", you declared, and after a few seconds of hesitation, Niragi put the gun away back to his waistband. "Fine. And now, do it again without making him gag with the first thrust"

Chishyia was reticent when he felt the tip of his cock against his lips again, but this time, he opened his mouth easily. Niragi went deep on his throat but with a slower path, so Chishyia could withstand it.

"That´s it. Good boys", you praised them.

"Don´t call me that", Niragi complained, but kept going in and out his mouth, groaning slightly.

You slid your lips over Chishyia´s neck before descending your hand to his crotch. For the first time, you decided to touch his dick directly, without more teasing, to give him some kind of relieve. His cock was still hard and pre-cum was wetting his tip. Chishyia let out a low moan, making Niragi´s dick vibrate, and he giggled. Niragi was enjoying the situation pretty much; it was clear.

"Didn´t know you have a crush on me, Chishyia", Niragi said, copying the above words from the blonde. "If you wanted it so bad, I would have let you gag on my cock sooner"

Chishyia didn´t answer. It's not like he could talk either. Although you couldn't deny that it was a little strange to see him so submissive. You wanted to know what was going on inside his head, but it wasn´t the best moment to start doing questions.

When you noticed Niragi´s dick pointing at you, you didn´t hesitate before taking it in your mouth too. You continued bobbing your hand up and down Chishyia´s manhood all the time.

"How could you both love my dick so bad", Niragi laughed. "Such whores for me"

When Niragi left your mouth after a deeper thrust, you looked at Chishyia, who was looking at you too with his cat eyes and his cheeks flushed, and you kissed him. Finally, you tasted his saliva from his own mouth instead of from Niragi´s dick. He just followed your rhythm tamely until you were satisfied.

"We should go ahead. I want more than a kiss"

You grabbed Chishyia by the arm and stood up, guiding him until he was sitting down on the edge of the bed, not without first getting rid of his swim trunks. Niragi was quick to position itself behind you, his hands caressing your body shameless. And without asking, aware that those were your intentions, he stripped you. It's not like you have a lot of clothes either, just the bikini top and a pair of shorts.

"It´s a pity that I have to share you with that piece of trash", Niragi mumbled near your ear while his hands were touching your breast and your waist, making sure Chishyia could hear him too. "I should have face fucked him and threw him away"

You let scape a low groan when you felt his dick rubbing against your folds.

"So wet already"

You turned around to give Niragi a wrathful kiss before continuing with your plans.

"You are free to join us whenever you want"

With no more time to waste, you climb on top of Chishyia and made him lie down with his head on the pillow. He had a noticeable boner but his face still unwavering. You wanted to crack him despite of how difficult it seemed to be.

"You cock must ache and you are not doing a single thing to remedy it", you teased him, expecting some kind of reaction. "C´mon, big boy, make your move"

Chishyia just slid his arms under his head, making himself comfortable.

"I told you. You are the one who wants this, not me, Y/N"

"It´s so?"

You plunged down suddenly. Chishyia clenched his jaw and held back a gasp acting cool, as if his dick wasn´t throbbing desperately and feeling your wet hot hole around it were nothing to him.

"Maybe you were right", you started rocking your hips up and down, purring with pleasure. "You can stand still if you want then. I can enjoy by myself"

You took your hand to his throat, choking him a little when Niragi climbed onto the bed behind you completely naked. You felt his lips in your back, your shoulders and your neck, kissing and licking your skin, even biting sometimes.

"I doubt very much that you can do it on your own, Y/N. You need someone who really knows how to fuck you properly. Or who knows how to fuck you at all"

You smiled before tilting your head back to be able to kiss him. A bit anxious to have Niragi inside you, you grabbed him by the wrist and guided two of his fingers to Chishyia´s mouth.

"At least you can lick them, right?", you asked him, hearing an amuse grimace from Niragi next to your ear that cause shivers down your spine. "Make yourself useful, Chishyia"

And without complaining or saying a word, he did as he was ordered. A couple of minutes were enough before Niragi took his fingers from Chishyia´s mouth to your ass hole, starting to prepare you. He knew well how to do it.

"I wanted to make him beg, but making you shout out loud in his face just my name when we both are inside of you… I do like that kind of humiliation"

It took what you thought was an eternity before Niragi finally decided you were ready for him. And when you felt Niragi´s dick plunging in your ass as deep as he could, you let out a sonorous whine. It hurt a bit because that bastard wasn´t as careful as he should, but he was aware you liked that way too.

"Fuck! How could you be so damn tight!", he cursed, repeating a few more times his low but deep motions before really starting to move his hips in and out. The slight pain turned rapidly into pleasure and made you moan. "Just like this, baby. I wanna hear you"

For almost ten minutes, it was like you both had forgotten you were sharing the bed with someone else. You were so lost in the feeling to notice anything else. And if it weren't for two hands hovering over your thighs, you wouldn´t have noticed that you were not alone. Those hands couldn´t be Niragi´s because his hands were around your neck and your chest. And when you lowered your gaze, you realised that Chishyia was finally doing something. Since Niragi was inside you, you had stopped the movements of your hips. Actually, Chishyia had only the tip of his dick on you. It had been almost tortuous, that´s why he grabbed you by your thighs and forced you down, getting his dick back where it should be. Chishyia moaned but not as loud as you did.

"I´m still here", he mumbled.

"I see it now", you smiled. "Thought you were just my fucktoy. Didn´t know I had to pay attention to you"

His fingers, now around your hips, pressed harder in your skin while moving you up and down to satisfy himself. Perhaps Chishyia was a bit upset due to all the mocking.

"A few minutes and he will be cumming", Niragi laughed. Having both of them pounding his cocks inside you was overwhelmed in the good sense of the word.

"Shut the fuck up", he hissed. Chishyia had been trying to restrain himself, but something was burning in his chest; something he couldn´t ignore anymore.

"I dunno. Maybe we should let him show what he can do apart from lying down", you suggested to Niragi, stoking the fire Chishyia was feeling. A mix of arousal and anger ran through his veins; something quite unlike his common self-control and indifference.

At the same time as he saw you slightly pushing Niragi to get him out of you, Chishyia knew it was his moment to shine. Niragi had barely fallen on the other side of the bed when Chishyia switched positions with you by force. Didn´t take long for him to start rocking his hips deep inside you from behind. Chishyia placed a hand in your back and the other in your nape, sinking your head into the pillow. He growled low, but he was doing it anyways even if you could hear him.

"Fuck, Chishyia!", you moaned his name for the first time. It only made the burning in his chest increase. "Why haven´t you done this from the beginning?"

Suddenly, you saw two fingers in front of your mouth. The same fingers that had been in your ass a minutes ago. Niragi wasn´t happy at all to be left out.

"Are you sure? I´m not sure if he… fuck!", a harder thrust made you shiver.

"I don´t give a shit. It's not like I'm going to ask permission either", Niragi answered.

If Chishyia hadn´t been so focused on how his cock disappeared inside your wet pussy, he would have noticed your actions. He only got it as he felt Niragi placing himself behind his body, his fingers rubbing his entrance.

"You have her, I have you"

Chishyia froze for mere seconds, but when he reacted, you were fast enough to turn yourself around and grab him by the arms before he could start fighting against Niragi. They had already been at peace for too long. Chishyia felt on you, maybe because Niragi had pushed him or because you had pulled him towards you. Anyway, you ended face to face.

"You are not forced to do this. We can find another way", you mumbled only for Chishyia to listen to you. Niragi was too focused on his own work and blinded by the need to get some kind of relief soon. "But before making a decision, think carefully if you don´t want him too"

The following day Chishyia could say he was too horny to think properly. Or maybe that he couldn´t scape that room in time. But at that very moment, and even if he would never admit it, he wanted it. Chishyia wanted Niragi as well as you. However, when he felt the first finger inside his ass, he began to regret it.

"Be nicer, you asshole", Chishyia grumbled.

"Stop whinging", answered Niragi.

"Treat his ass like if it was mine", you added in an attempt to make Niragi softer, but you failed.

"I treat yours the same way"

Chishyia chuckled, so you put him closer to kiss him and kept him distracted. Unfortunately, Niragi pushed him away by the hair shortly after. His fingers waiting for his mouth to open.

"Make them wet. Again", Niragi ordered.

"Can´t you suck your own fingers?", Chishyia asked, frowned, and Niragi curved his lips into a smirk.

"I prefer to have a slut doing it for me"

They didn´t like each other, the feeling was mutual since almost your first day at The Beach. Nevertheless, it seemed they had found some kind of pleasure in this constant teasing. The problem was that you were not sure when the tension would explode, so it would be better not to overstep the mark.

You covered his fingers with your own mouth, licking them with dedication and without taking your eyes off Chishyia´s. Niragi plopped his fingers out your mouth soon after and let you both keep kissing as he continued the prep.

That time, the kiss was different than the one you shared on the floor. Chishyia was aggressive, his lips almost desperate and his tongue fighting against yours. He had lost all control over himself, surrendering to the pleasure that intoxicated him.

"I told you. I could awaken this part of you"

"I had no choice", Chishyia responded.

"Of course you had. You have had it all along. And look at you now"

Chishyia was pleased with what you had done to him, but at the same time, he despised you for making him lose his mind and his self-control. Instead of answering you, Chishyia bit the skin where your neck and your shoulder connected, making you cry out.

"God, Chishyia!"

He titled his head backwards looking at Niragi out of the corner of his eye.

"Despite what you have said, Y/N is only screaming my name"

You smirked as Niragi clicked his tongue in annoyance. Chishyia couldn´t stop provoking him.

"If you want me to destroy you so bad, I´m gonna fuck you until you beg me to stop", Niragi announced while taking his fingers out his ass and spiting on his own cock. "If you are not ready yet, you can shout louder"

Niragi plunged down his cock inside of Chishyia carelessly. He gritted his teeth and clutched his hands tightly around the sheets but did not utter a single sound.

"Not even a word?", Niragi roared. "You are so fucking tight that I´m sure it must be hurting you, Chishyia"

Niragi was right. You saw the pain in Chishyia´s face as Niragi continued thrusting his hips towards him. Your hands caressed his cheeks, making Chishyia open his eyes again to look at you. You smiled tenderly, trying to comfort him a little bit before lowered your hand to his dick, pumping it slowly.

"You are not done with me. Can you handle it?"

"Fuck… Sure", he gasped.

From that moment onwards, Chishyia thrusted on you as Niragi thrusted on him. Both men trying to synchronize his paces. If someone was listening in the corridor, they would only hear a bunch of moans, growls, and curses. But none of you gave a shit about anything or anyone else out there. Chishyia interlocked your fingers above your head as you could hardly even kiss each other. And without warning, a shiver ran down your spine. You felt it in your low belly, you were so close.

"Don’t stop now, please, Chishyia", you moaned loudly. "Please, please, please…"

"Don't you dare disappoint her", Niragi ordered.

"I won´t"

Chishyia went as fast and as deep as he could. And unable to bear it any longer, you body got rocked by tremors. You heard Chishyia chuckling and Niragi laughing, both pleased by your noises and how your climax took over your whole body. Anyway, your head was dazed enough so you couldn´t do or say a single thing. You only could whinge when you felt Chishyia keep thrusting, sobbing due to the overstimulation.

"Don´t be such a coward. I´m pretty sure you can handle it a little bit more", Chishyia mocked, saying something quite similar to what you had said to him earlier. Nevertheless, Niragi had his own plans. He took Chishyia away from you, forcing him to stand upright with is back pressed against his chest.

Niragi wrapped his arm around his neck and the other around his waist, preventing him from moving. His tongue whirled shamelessly out his mouth, near Chishyia´s ear.

"I didn't expect you to like this so much", Niragi said with a husky voice.

"I didn´t expect it from you either", Chishyia answered. The choking wasn´t hard enough to deprive him of breath.

"You are just a whore for my cock. You will no longer be able to continue looking down on me"

"Actually, I can", he said, but Niragi pounding in a sweet spot made him cry out. Niragi widened his devilish smile.

"Yeah, I know is there. Want me to do it again? You know what I want to hear from you"

"Fuck you"

"Wrong answer. Try it again", he chuckled. "Otherwise, I can wait all night. Or stop completely"

Chishyia always presumed to be in control of the situation, but this time, he was frantic. He has never been so aroused, and he wanted his well-deserved relief. No, he didn´t want it, he actually needed it. Maybe Niragi was in the same situation, but he was holding back to maintain a slower pace. That jerk was able to stop, sacrificing his own orgasm only to deny it to Chishyia as well. There must be another solution, but Niragi choking him harder didn´t let him go on thinking.

"I am not a very patient person, Chishyia", he growled in his ear.

"Fine. Fuck", Chishyia grunted. "I´m going to kill you, but…"

"But?", Niragi encouraged him, giggling.

"But please, Niragi"

"Please, what?"

"Please, do it again"

"This?" Niragi asked as he thrusted his hips harder in the right place.

"Yes, fuck, please"

Niragi smiled pleased, biting Chishyia´s neck and wishing that his teeth would leave a mark there. Niragi wanted to mark him; everyone in The Beach would know the next day that Chishyia had given himself to him completely.

"As you wish, pet"

Chishyia moaned loudly while Niragi was finally pounding repeatedly in that damn sweet spot that made him tremble. His hands were gripping him so tightly that tomorrow he would have bruises, but he couldn't think about it for now.

You had been admiring them in silence, recovering from your own ecstasy, but you tried to move your hips up and down to add even more pleasure to Chishyia. While your wet folds slipped around his dick, you stared at his face; his grimaces of pleasure, his swollen lips, his red cheeks, and the sounds he made. That's all you wanted to see from him. You had won. Or given the situation, probably all three of you would have won.

It only took Chishyia a few more minutes until he got over the edge, cumming on your chest like never before. Niragi released him to let him collapse on top of you, and with his hands squeezing his hips, he continued fucking his ass roughly until he reached his own orgasm.

"Shit, Chishyia, you fucking…", Niragi couldn’t finish his own sentence before he slumped too. And now, you had the weight of two bodies over you. You only knew they were still alive by their accelerated breathing. You tried to endure it, but it was too much.

"Hum, I need to breath down here", you remembered them.

Niragi was the first to react, pushing Chishyia away abruptly to the other side of the bed to be him the only one lying relaxed on you. You smiled tenderly when you felt his arms embracing you with vehemence, his head resting over your chest and his eyes closed as he continued to calm his breathing.

"You are so cute when you are like this", you said, your fingertips making gentle caresses all over Niragi´s back.

"Shut up", he complained. You already knew Niragi disliked almost all kind of sweet adjectives and names, although you used them with him anyway.

"Was it good?"

"Not so bad", he commented. "Your decision wasn´t so pitiful"

You chuckled at his inability to recognise how amazing it had been.

After sex, Niragi wasn´t always like this. Even if it was a quickie or he spent hours, he always left after he had cum with some random chick. And, of course, he never lowered his barriers, but everything was different with you. You were his safe place; the only one he cared about and the only one he wanted to stay in.

Chishyia caught your attention when he got out of bed. You had thought that he would still be overcome due to his brutal and recent climax, but he looked hella fine.

"You can clean yourself up in the bathroom", you offered him. A private bath in the dorm was one of the advantages of being an executive member.

"Or you can just leave", even if he didn´t want to, Niragi slid to the free side of the bed. He didn't want to appear weak in front of Chishyia and stay in your arms didn´t help him at all.

"You can never shut up, Niragi?", you complained.

"Why should I?"

Chishyia just smirked in response and began to dress. He would clean up in his own bedroom.

"Stupid people always talk the most", he muttered, bringing a smile to your face.

"Don´t make me kill you while you still have my cum in your ass", Niragi scoffed. "Maybe I even use you one more time before doing it. Begging suits you well, Chishyia"

"Don´t get hard too many times thinking about it"

"You wish", Niragi snorted, turning around as if willing to sleep.

Chishyia zipped his jacket halfway up and slipped his hands into his pockets as usual. He was himself again, with his lips curved into a smirk and a cynical gaze on his face.

"Give me a kiss before you go", you asked him.

Chishyia stared at you closely, as if he was thinking why you had said that or what should he do. Finally, he just shrugged his shoulders before adding:

"Not that type of guy"

Chishyia left the dorm shortly after and made his way to his dorm quietly. After taking a shower, he got into his own bed. His bedroom was quieter, lonelier, and smelled less like sex. His smirk was still in his face. He knew everything you had said was right. Emotionless, never getting involved, looking down everyone and believing he was clever because, indeed, he was clever. Chishyia didn´t understand human nature or emotions at all. And yet, you had been successful in getting under his skin. He still remembered the burning in his chest that you had managed to make him feel with Niragi´s help. Rage, arousal, and a bit of envy too. Everything was new for him and he didn't like it very much.

Part of him wished he could forget about it and get back to focusing on his plans, but he doubted he could do it so easily.

"I wasn´t expecting that", he mumbled. "But I guess I will have to find a way to deal with it"

He already had a few ideas in his mind.

[star-going-supernova]

Hi Star, I have a silly question,,,

I've been fixated on Vanessa A. for very long and have constructed this narrative where she's an Afton because she married Michael Afton in their twenties. After he dissapears, she gets a call from him telling her to stay away from Freddy's. She doesn't listen and searches for him anyway, discovering that he used fake names and lied about everything, fueling her obsession with finding him.

Then Glitchtrap finds her and uses her for his own purposes, due to his murder obsessed ego and petty grudge against Michael probably

Vanessa at one point writes a note "flowers for your grave" and orders chocolate despite not eating sweets. This would imply that she was visiting Michael's grave, which just breaks my heart into a million pieces and makes me want to scream into a pillow like a child

William is trying to brainwash her into thinking she's his daughter, which is just sick.

I think Vanessa is determined and broken and she blames herself for Mike's disappearance. She is absolutely my favourite character out of all of FNaF lore and I can say that it's because of my selfish and dillusional attatchment to her LMAO

I struggle to express her story correctly. Do you have any advice as an author?

(you dont need to answer this, i also just wanted to say that your fanfics bring me so much serotonin thank u *holds a thumbs up*)

Aww, thank you, friend! I’m glad you enjoy my stories! And what an interesting premise! I’d be happy to offer some words of wisdom. Keep in mind that everyone’s got different advice to offer and different views on writing, and this is merely mine!

Now, without knowing exactly what you’re struggling with, my advice to you is really allow yourself to explore Vanessa internally. This can really help show her inner struggles and determination and guilt. I sometimes see authors—not just of fics—who rarely go beyond the surface-level parts of a character (not that that's a bad thing!). Let’s quickly define external, surface-level, and internal characterizations: 

External: facial expressions, body language, actions, reactions, habits, etc. (these are details that can be observed)

Surface-Level: preferences, obvious thoughts/emotions, intentions, etc. (think of this one like what a standard movie can do: we see the character, maybe we get some flashbacks, and there might be voiceovers for internal thoughts. but everything we see inside the character is deliberately shown to us)

Internal: how their emotions feel rather than what they are (difference between saying “they were sad” and “their throat was tight, a sob getting stuck somewhere behind their sternum. they trembled and closed their stinging eyes. the gathered tears slipped free, tracing slowly down their cheeks, warm, but only for a moment.”), their bias/thoughts/reactions to what’s happening without it being so clear-cut, their unspoken wants/needs, their secrets and memories, etc. (the story is largely told by them, and a lot of the story is colored by the character’s perception/experiences/thoughts/etc.)

These are very closely tied to the point of view you choose, and obviously, if you’re not telling the story in Character A’s POV, you can’t dig into their internals. And not every story needs to be deeply connected to a character. I’m personally a believer in character-driven stories (did a paper on that once, actually, lol) and love love love really getting to flesh out my characters. When you use internal characterizations, you’re telling the story through someone. It’s an excellent way of giving the reader a chance to understand and connect with your character. 

Here’s an example of how the deeper into a character you go, the more you can show: 

He sharply raised his hand, and she flinched. Her eyes squeezed shut, but she didn’t move away.

There are only external things here, a reaction that a witness could see. We aren’t in her head at all. 

He sharply raised his hand. She flinched, already anticipating the sting of a slap. Stupid, she berated herself, shaking in place. Now you’ve really made him angry.

We’re in her head, but it’s all spelled out. Her thoughts are clearly marked rather than a part of the storytelling itself. We’re not truly seeing the world through her eyes. 

He sharply raised his hand. With a little stuttered gasp, she flinched. It took everything in her not to throw herself backward, but that would only make him angrier. She shouldn’t have done that; why had she done that? Her thoughts ran on loop, panic choking her. Tense, she waited, the sour taste of fear clawing up her throat. 

We are deeply inside this character. We aren’t seeing conscious thoughts; we’re experiencing this moment with her. The story is told through her reaction and reasoning and feelings. 

Like I said above, this style is really good for when the emphasis is on the character. Keep in mind, of course, that not everything in the story has to be super descriptive. Sometimes, characters just do stuff or go from point A to point B. Moderation makes it so the times you do highlight the character's inner workings are notable.

If you’re having trouble with something else, such as plot, then this might not be very helpful, whoops. That would be entirely different advice. Regardless, I hope this helps even just a little, friend! Thank you for asking, and I’d be more than willing to ramble about a different part of storytelling if that would help! ;) I did go to college for this, lol.