#it's gotta be bait man

[dovewingkinnie]

i attempted a redesign cause this thing fascinates me this character is something an alternate universe version of myself would make

[revenantghost]

Hey, I’m just here to say you’re extremely missed and that, even though there’s probably not much I could say to make any of the bad things less awful, I’m hoping for an easier and gentler future for you soon. Take care, ok?

Oh man, thank you so much for sending this, and I'm sorry it's taken so long to respond (and to the other person who sent me an ask, too—I'm not sure when I'll get to it but please know it was seen and means so much). It has just been. So awful. I won't dump on the public at large everything that's happened, you don't need that novel, but it feels like every day life's falling apart more and more.

Just, seriously, thank you for sending this, and to the couple of people who checked in with chats (again, I'm sorry if I haven't responded yet, spoons are just very limited). There have been a lot of times throughout this where I get overwhelmed by everything going on and some truly horrific people I've met in the fandom and I've considered deleting everything permanently! Very often!!! Tbh I'm still struggling with that VERY intense urge while writing this. I feel so unsafe, and scared, and run down.

And tbh, it's really hard to believe anyone could care about me when I feel so awful and worthless, I feel like it must be an obligation, or I somehow accidentally manipulated people, but I'm trying to cling to that being the brain demons talking. Because I really appreciate the time and effort anyone's taken with me. And I really miss fandom and fun, even if it's weighed down with some significant trauma—I still love the stories and the characters and, most importantly, the amazing people I've met here. Outside of any fandom I've poked around in, the wonderful people I've met matter the most, and I'm trying to cling to that.

I really enjoy talking with everyone, running little projects/events, and for the first time in years actually writing again. (I've been slowly plucking away at that AU I mentioned a few times and I want to start posting for an event this month but! Ahhh!!!) I would like to try and be active again, and I'm so sorry for just being such an absolute goddamn mess. I feel like this is all too much to even say, but I do want to just be honest about all of it. Still, again, thank you so much for reaching out <3 And I'm sorry this is so ridiculously long even though I don't feel like I'm saying much and nothing important, I didn't intend for this answer to be a word-vomit update, just. Things suck, but you guys are good, and I hope things are as okay as you can be on your side of the screen <3

[kaiserposting]

I hate those poststhat are like "Rb if youre against suicide" "Rb if you support men crying" etc "IM SIDE EYEING ANYONE WHO DOESNT REBLOG" I' m scrolling past I encourage suicide and hate men who cry they are pussies who gives a shit. sut da fuck up

[sparkles-and-trash]

I hate the culture of pushing having to advertise our fics on social media with so much fuss.

I miss just writing it, posting it on ao3, maybe give a mention to followes and/or friends with a simple post, and moving on.

[mustbethursdayy]

[ravensofcedar]

Dude, I thought König’s season 2 skin was a joke. I seriously thought everyone was just kidding around, but no! I looked it up, and that’s actually real! This goofy motherfucker is going into battle with his gear like he’s about to go fishing! How’s it feel to get shot down by a 6′10 outdoorsman wearing green rubber gloves and a fishing net over his head?

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

"At least Persona 5 isn't very political, unlike Metaphor"

My dumb bitch, the fuck are you talking about???? TT0TT

[crimeronan]

having so many girl blorbos at once is like. i'm going to get a good grade in being really obsessed with shit that only 3 other people on earth care about enough to have established headcanons, something that's both normal to want and possible to achieve,

[robocracker]

casualty twitter account dropping a preview clip of ryan advising cam to try mirroring jodie to get close to her and ryan and cam are literally mirroring each other as he says this, i swear to god if this tedious excuse for a love triangle doesn't end with ryan and cam getting together i'm gonna start a riot

[thegoldenghost4]

Gotta love my netflix and disney+ sitcoms with that one gay male main character. I obess over the relationship between him and the gay male side character who is his boyfriend for the duration of the time I am watching this show and that time only. And the other questionably straight main characters are always so protective over their precious gay bestie.

Plus, I love my gaydar being like correct during the first episode when they're introducing the characters. It's always right

[edgepunk]

I don't even know where to start with this

[tabzanite]

sometimes it genuinely escapes me that i have an identity that no one else has

i am me, yknow

[floralovebot]

maybe don't go on twt for a while cause i just saw an uncensored video of liam payne falling to his death... and pictures of his body afterwards. it's not gory or anything but if you don't want to get slapped in the face by someone dying on camera, you should probably avoid twt rn

[hasarmsandlegs]

first they tempt me with shiny badges. Now this...

...hmmmmmaybe just one more

[take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar]

Well, I had hoped to do some writing today/tonight— but so far my head has just been too heckin empty— so guess we’ll see if anything pans out before I try and sleep lmao

[maliciousmace]

Audrie..... I don't even know you but this post speaks volumes

Yeah well it shouldn’t be.