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How do I get others to understand I'm not trans because I enjoy extensive femininity. I'm not trans because I absolutely abhor masculinity (I mean, don't get me wrong, not a fan of it, but its just a part of life, know what I mean?). I'm not trans because I need to feel special or have special treatment. I'm not trans because I think I'll look better as a girl. I'm not trans because I'm bi. I'm trans... because when I look deep inside and I think of myself as a man I feel like dying, and when I think of myself as a woman I feel like life is worth living. I'm trans because I'm more comfortable thinking of myself and being seen as a girl. I'm trans because I feel more at home in the "roles" women exist in on this world. I'm trans because I do prefer femininity to masculinity, even if I'm not extreme in that preference. I'm trans because I feel at home when I can be a woman. I'm trans because I want to live a life worth living, and for me, that means being who I want to be; and who I want to be is Madison.
#lgbtq#gender queer#queer#transgender#lgbt+#transfem#trans#mtf trans#protect trans kids#mtf transition#traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns#traa#transfeminine#trans woman#im rambling#i just needed an outlet#honestly#it's getting hard to hide#but it's scary to consider being honest and open#I mean I live in the bible belt for fucks sake#I just#i just want to be happy#i just want to be a girl#is that too much to ask#am i asking for too much?#thoughts#emotions#existence#life#femininity
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second batch of yttd doodle requesties
#kostik draws#in very variable styles!#joe tazuna#jou tazuna#rio ranger#keiji shinogi#fanart#yttd#your turn to die#kimi ga shine#mr policeman yttd#i guess#colouring these were all nightmares in different ways but i think i learned a lot#thank you for requesting!!#can you tell this is the first time ive drawn keiji or joe. yes? aw man#not the first ranger at least. hes been a fave since 2020. i have a cosplay of him i made myself :3#but yaa. silly guys#cant think too hard about ranger or i start going crazy#joe is also so. hrgh. what were you hiding#i loooove his blank face#i didnt depict it but you know the sprite i mean#starts pacing#anyway i should go get groceries#this is the last of them for the moment but i might open requests again in future. stay tuned
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Blanket Fort 2.0
#ed i love you so much#hiding under blankets when things get hard#ofmd#our flag means death#edward teach#ofmd s2 spoilers
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Who put these kids here?
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan sizhui#jin ling#jin chan#lan wangji#wei wuxian#ouyang zizhen#nameless red disciple#Congrats Jin Chan on your second and likely final appearance in this comic series.#Him turning into a yellow lump in the final panel is shorthand for 'I gave up. drawing is hard. Lump mode activated.'#Or - maybe they turned him around last minute to hide the evidence. It's up to reader interpretation!#I did skip a lot to get here but it is all in the effort of hitting key points and not dragging this season on.#Wen Ning lovers don't worry. He'll be back soon.#I do love how LZH turns to violence and joins in on kicking jin chan alongside the others.#Even more so when you remember they are all tied up the entire time.#Just...What a scene to walk in on as an outsider. And then to not fully comment on.#To be honest: That's kind of how it goes with teens. They know you know. You know they know you know. We won't unpack that.#It's been ages since we saw all the juniors together! They are as silly as ever B*)#I split this comic into two! So there are two comics left of the season!
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Reporter asking to the room if anyone has more questions but they don't wait for the answer 😭:
they have places to be 👀
#i can analyze this somany times but#max looking at charles right after had no business... charles smiling like its hard to hide a blush...#biting lips to hide the grins... getting up together while carlos just sits there#they [redacted] after this i just know. austin 2022 style#charles leclerc#max verstappen#lestappen#austin gp 2024#gifs*#edit i meant austria 22 in the prev tag excuse me confusing it 😭
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Milo got his own mini couch
#i love cats#Milo#that last pic is SO good#he’s very photogenic though so it’s not hard#he’s passed out on it all curled up now lol#I think he likes it#his haircut does give him what we call a ‘pea head’#but disregard that#it’s so cute it came with its own mini matching pillow#but that’s gonna get snatched away and wrecked ny Ivan dog immediately#so I gotta hide that#by*
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little doodle to celebrate going into 2024!!! 🎉 idk what's coming but may we make the best of it :D
#idk about you guys but i'm Exhausted... i'm gonna go sleep.... zzzz#the amazing digital circus#tadc#pomni#my art#okay hiding sappy stuff in the tags#thank you guys for the warm reception over here!! idk if you know my 'lore' but i hadn't drawn much the last couple years#tadc and you lovely folks have helped me get back in touch with this passion of mine and it feels great to be actively making stuff again#okay enough emotions look at this cat partying hard 🍾🐱🎉
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choke you back like fingers
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#sukuna#ryomen sukuna#fanart#jjk fanart#hides face in hands by talos this cant keep happening........#throws arms up IDK IM SORRY HE GETS AWAY FROM ME EVERY TIME#hina dress chars normally challenge failed once again gomen#i actually benched this piece for a while . came back to it. COMPLETELY retconned th vibe and now he looks like this#im sorry?? you're welcome???????? take ur pick#i kno that tf sukuna has the stomach mouth instead of the tattoos but i couldnt b bothered also i worked hard on those abs >:(#also i think this is the nicest hair ive ever given him but idk how on model it is fhdssgdjf OOPS#its part of the fit it goes with the crop top#also pls listen 2 burn the witch its such a vibe#chants theres blood on the walls theres spirits in the dolls theres blood on the walls theres spirits in the dolls
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For the sake of the experiment, I'm I right
no worries he's fine
#i manifested epic too hard for this and somehow got a headache that targeted the same side of epics eye LMAOOO#epic sans#epic!sans#epictale#epictale sans#toffeesdoodles#I love drawing suffering expressions if you can't tell#cw blood#epictale gaster can SUCK IT!!!#yknow i think he should get headaches too#that he hides of course#because he is the way he is
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merlin’s secret being a visual thing. when he is around arthur or gwen or leon or morgana or [insert whatever character here] merlin seems pale and thin, almost like a ghost or an apparition. when the sun lands on him he reflects it like a corpse, he eyes seem dark and dull. he has this ethereal beauty to him, this otherworldly visage that leads many to believe he is of fae blood. he just doesn’t seem to be 100% human. but when he is ONLY with lancelot or gaius (cough or gwaine bc gwaine DEFINITELY knew) merlin is heartachingly human. merlin shines in the sunlight, colors are brighter and more vibrant around him, and his smiles are wide and his laughs are boisterous. he takes on color and leaves everyone wanting to know him. but when other join in or interact with the two, merlin shifts before their eyes so quickly and suddenly that they aren’t sure whether or not what they saw was a trick of the light. the idea still leaves them wanting more and wanting to see the merlin who is just so full of life but that merlin only appears for a small select group of people. merlin who has a guard so high that it has an effect of other’s perception of him.
#arthur is absolutely steaming about this btw#he so desparately wants to be in the golden bubble around merlin in those moments#but his mere presence seems to pop it#hes fuming#its not until after the magic ban is repealed that everyone gets to see the glowing golden merlin#and they finally realize what the trick of the light was#merlin who is magic incarnate who (no matter how hard he tries) cannot fully repress what makes him him#arthur who finally gets to be in the golden bubble and its so much better than he ever couldve imagined#merlins magic is finally able to roam free the way it only could with a few people#merlins magic who absolutely adores arthur and is constantly reaching out for him even if him and merlin arent in the same vicinity#lmao arthur bringing up how merlins magic likes to card thru his hair and ease any sore muscles he may have#and lancelot and gwaine going ‘wtf? what about my muscles and hair?? merlin hates me?? merlin is playing favorites???? jail.’#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#merthur#subtle magic my beloved#visibly Strange merlin my dear#idk i was thinking about pre-magic reveal!arthur watching merlin and lancelot talking and then pouting and going#‘why doesnt he smile and look at me like that? :(‘#and then post-magic reveal!arthur having a moment of realization and going#like ‘oh hes hiding a huge part of what makes him him. i only know half of my best friend.’#and then setting out to know ALL of him bc arthur and merlin are soulmates and in love and two sides of the same coin and best friends and-#im going thru my drafts and finding so many banger posts#idk why i never posted them LMAOO
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how long do we think Mulder was workshopping "FBI's most unwanted"? and how dorkily thrilled do we think he was when he got to debut The Bit to his pretty new coworker
#i love quickwitted mulder but i also love mulder who thinks long and hard abt possible quips and hides his glee when he gets to say them#that man is a LOSER and IM IN LOVE#txf#the x files#fox mulder#dana scully#mulder and scully#txf text posts
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I've been musing over a few thoughts inspired by this ask about a mafia-ish style of Apex Polarity without it being too close to Pearl Eye, and after watching a few videos of Orcas hunting their prey (which included dolphins), landed on a sort of Mafia inspired Apex Polarity AU
Also not to add another Y/N to Orclipse's growing collection but this Y/N is a white-beaked dolphin. Look! They're so beautiful!
Sirens are cunning, brutal, and take everything with teeth and claws. The strongest kill and maim at a whim. As a siren who's not particularly strong, though incredibly agile, with a tail streamlined and dark gray with white patches, fins curved and mostly black, you're somewhere at the bottom. You're doing your best to survive and avoid trouble. You pick your battles and you pick your escapes, and most importantly, you stay alive.
But then you do something really stupid: you venture where you shouldn't have.
You don't usually swim so far up north but you're hungry, and the thought of a few tasty squids distracts you from the silent waters and vast, blue emptiness. You realize a bit too late that you're not the only one hunting.
You catch the first orca siren in the distance as a dark figure, and then another. Two who immediately cut through the water, charging straight for you like shadows. Though you turn tail and bolt, you quickly spot them in the corner of your vision. They easily keep pace, their size and strength overwhelming as they flank you on both sides, wide grins flashing their deadly teeth. You can hardly look at the mismatched color of their eyes as you dodge and weave, diving down only to be cut off by one with midnight blue colors at the tip of his flukes, and shooting off to the left just to almost be snatched by the black-bone claws of a siren with bright yellow fins framing his head.
They're toying with you. You know that for a fact in how they just barely keep back, corraling you onwards, draining your already spent energy, and picking at your panicking pulse. You have no choice but to avoid the edges of their jaws and the tips of their talons, and swim in the direction they want.
You near a field of ice floes floating on the water, and though you cut into the jagged structures dipping into the sea, the orca sirens never lose you. A desperate need for air pushes you onward. One small drop of hope still burns in your chest. Despite the aching of your muscles, you steal a gulp of oxygen and dip back down once more, charging away—
Only to run smack into a third orca siren.
This one grabs you, his burning red and orange colors filling your vision. The other two orcas join to help their kin keep you in place long enough for you to truly regret ever venturing here. Between the three of what you can only assume are brothers, hands hooked over you shoulders, claws clutching your wrists, and palms pressing into your hips, you're a fish caught in a net.
You brace for a voilent end. It never arrives. Instead of digging into your sweet meat, the sirens offer you a deal. The tips of sharp fingertips trace your jawline and the soft inside of your arms and down your slick tail while they explain.
You keep watch for human ships and report back when they're getting close, and in exchange, you get the best food you can imagine, the entire Arctic Ocean to swim, and anything else you'd like. The best benefit? You're under their protection. Of course, they expect utter loyalty from you. You are no one else's. Failure to devote yourself to this work and the brothers would mean a grisly fate, but hey, you're nothing if not eager to not be torn apart. So you agree.
You have a few questions about this whole arrangement, struggling to understand why they, powerful orca sirens, bother with a smaller fish like you when they could rip you limb from limb and be done. What's with the human ships? Why task you to this? Are you just fodder so they can keep their fins nice and unscabbed? They reassure you that they'll explain in due time (the sunny one booping your nose, much to your chagrin), but for now, all you know to know is that the human ships are a problem, and you are their solution for it. You've never really encountered humans before, but they've never really encountered sirens, or so you thought.
The burning red one lets you go, but you don't slip away too far before he tugs on your flukes and tells you to follow him. It's not a request. The darker blue one leaves for a moment, jetting away as the other two guide you to a nice resting place on an icy shore. They introduce themselves, and then their brother reappears with a squid in hand, half dead, and an insistence that you eat—they could tell during the chase that you didn't have all your energy.
And that's how you unwittingly join a very powerful pod of orca brothers who may or may not be teasing and taunting you simultaneously.
#finally have a dolphin y/n (i know orcas and belugas are dolphins but this one is more 'traditional')#anyways#eclipse: join our aquatic mafia#y/n: and if i don't?#sun: we'll finish what we started#moon: and eat you :)#y/n: ...hard to say no to an offer like that#mostly it's the boys flustering y/n relentlessly because they think it's funny and you're just so cute when you try to hide your blushing#and not totally because they're catching feelings#they're all menaces your honor#y/n is just trying to get by and now they're stuck (protected) here#apex polarity#freaking idk what to call it#let's just go with#sleeping with the fishes#<<< au name let's go#also sun and moon are here! They're not babies this time!#naff writing#dolphin!reader#orca!sun#orca!moon#orca!eclipse
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creatures
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#nene kusanagi#tsukasa tenma#queuing this for like 6 in the morning dont let me fool you into thinking i woke up this early#im sorry posting at like 7pm feels so wrong. people are up at 7pm. dont like that#'why didnt you draw rui' Well why is rui so hard to draw. Anybody ever think of that.#I still havent finished that wxs nene gaming art i used as an example in my comms sheetbc i dont wanna have to render rui#Yes wxs are all my favorites. Yes that includes rui. Yes im tiering 3k in his event rn. No i wont figure out his hair#get that glowstick of a woman out of my face. He needs to het an alt hairstyle i cna draw.#sorry what was i tagging again. um. Whatever aHiiiii#WAIT#emukasa#YAAAAY#im a polyshower but theyre the only ones i drew together so enjoy yuri#i found a cute blog theme that also hides tags under a hover so i can say as much as i want and nobody can be annoyed#If you choose to look at my dastardly tags after i hid them away thats on you
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Terra Kingdomhearts is literally the story about an oldest son born with something Wrong inside him and his whole family expects him to outgrow it, or ignore it, or defeat it, and then he gets bigger and he is still Wrong. Terra Kingdomhearts is the story of being isolated and sheltered from anyone willing to acknowledge the Wrongness inside you and so when he finally, finally meets someone who treats the Wrongness as no big deal, not a Wrongness at all, it's instantly a lifeline to this poor man and he will do anything to learn more about how he is not Wrong forever, actually. It's a story about how if you live your life with no community for the Wrongness that lives inside you that your very first lifeline can be used to strangle you. Do you understand what I'm saying
#like don't get me wrong I love a good Terra Is Stupid joke as much as the next person#but sometimes I think a little too hard about Terra holding his father in his arms#and realizing that the only person in his entire life who told him he doesnt need to be scared of himself was just using him actually#and the people who told him to Hide and Be Ashamed and Be Better were right.#if there are ten terra fans I am one of them. if there is one terra fan its me. if there are no terra fans I am dead.#Terra isn't stupid he was isolated and scared and had lived for two decades trying and failing to Be Good Enough and he wanted peace#kingdom hearts#kh#kh terra#terra#terra kh#terra kingdom hearts#kh bbs#bbs#birth by sleep#kingdom hearts birth by sleep
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hello today my thoughts are consumed by Spite flirting with Emmrich and Lucanis to rile up Rook. Even better with a Rook without Spirit Sense, so they can only gauge what's going from the occasional lapse of Lucanis' control over Spite and the blushing, near-stuttering messes they become. Especially during meals with the whole Veil Guard. Spite learning some sense of subtlety through osmosis, so he starts with compliments. Granted, Spite's "subtle" compliments are typically ones without expletives, so they are still intense and heated and, if they catch Emmrich at the right time, enough to make his voice stutter.
He starts by stating the things Lucanis already likes about Emmrich. Things that they both hold in high on the list of things they appreciate about Emmrich. Flirting on Lucanis' behalf, if you would. "Lucanis loves your hands, professor," paired with just enough power exerted to force Lucanis' head to tilt in the direction of Emmrich's hands, baring his throat just enough that Emmrich can see it bob in a swallow as Emmrich finishes cutting himself a bite. "He would very much like to see those hands wrapped around something else. He made a new set of choking cords just for you. Did you know that? He made them in Mourn Watch colors."
Spite letting Lucanis retreat into his coffee, purring lowly as Emmrich's face starts to flush. Waiting until Lucanis is almost done with his drink to say, "He likes your boots better, though. He would very much like to be under them." Emmrich and Lucanis having to wave off concerns of the other Veil Guard members as they both choke, Rook glancing between the two curiously. They might not be able to hear what's going on, but they've seen the signs before. They settle more comfortably to watch the display like a sporting match.
And when Spite starts complimenting Lucanis, oh, the man nearly has to excuse himself to run his head under water, he's burning up so badly. "I like how I can feel every muscle working when we're in combat together. I like seeing your blood bead on the little cuts I make for you. I love the thudding of your heart, the feeling of your adrenaline. I like the way your brows scrunch and then get soft whenever you smell coffee for the first time. I like when you eat sweet things for me."
Spite having a little tally going, one on each thigh, for every time that he makes Lucanis and Emmrich stutter or pause during the initial flirting phase. Low little murmurs of, "That's another one," and "Oh, that one got Emmrich good." Emmrich realizes what the count is for soon enough and tries to focus more on paying attention to conversation at the dinner table, but if Spite hates anything, it's to be ignored (though he does appreciate the set of the professor's jaw, and the thudding pulse of Lucanis' heart, the heat in his blood).
If Emmrich is going to ignore him, then he'll simply up the ante. If Emmrich doesn't want to listen to all the things that he and Lucanis want him to do to them, then they'll talk about their collective favorite subject: Rook. "Look at their mouth--isn't it pretty? It'd look better full of our fingers. You should let me take over, Lucanis--I'd have them begging for it faster than you could blink. Do you think they'd lay in our lap again? I liked when we did that. Oh, maybe they'll sit in it. You liked that idea, I felt it. Emmrich, what do you think? What position do you like Rook best in? We like the sight of them on top of you. We want to see it again. Don't you want to see it again?"
Lucanis and Emmrich slamming their hands on the table, the same conclusion reached in equally frantic manners. Neve asking with a teasing smile if something is the matter, or did their conversation about Dalish alchemy really bore them to tears? Emmrich and Lucanis gritting out in the same breath, "It's Spite."
"Just tell him it's not his turn. Works for us." Taash comments, though they're grinning. They can smell how worked up these two are, and was placing bets with Davrin and Harding about which one would crack first.
"Spite," Rook scolds, but it's all grins. Their eyes are shinning, leg bouncing underneath the table. "You know you can always talk to me if you want something. No need to bully poor Emmrich and Lucanis."
"Do not encourage him," Lucanis begs, knuckles going pale from where they grip the table. Emmrich is truly struggling to regain his composure, trying to assemble anything resembling a calm front. But Spite takes the opportunity to take over, forcing Lucanis' body to relax. Digging his hands into his thighs instead, feeling Lucanis' body shudder with the ache. "I was simply telling Lucanis and Emmrich how much I appreciated them." Deceptively coy, but the sharpness in his grin gives it all away. "How much we appreciate you."
"Get a room already," Taash yells, sweeping the pile of coin she earned towards her plate.
"Well, Rook? Shall we get a room?"
#welcome to my mind palace shit is getting good here#I JUST THINK SPITE COULD BE AN ABSOLUTE MENACE (POSITIVE) IN THIS POLYCULE AND I WANT HIM TO BE#HE KNOWS EMMRICH CAN HEAR HIM WHEN HE'S CLOSE ENOUGH. SO IF LUCANIS WON'T LET HIM YAP TO ROOK HE'LL YAP TO EMMRICH INSTEAD#as for the betting party davrin despite all his bickering with lucanis thinks that he'll hold out the longest every time#taash eventually gets banned because they deem their improved sense of smell as cheating so they're the ringleader who takes a cut#Neve is also betting but she and Bellara have something called Class and do it subtly#Bellara is just internally writing the dialogue and is going to publish the spiciest serial that's ever been seen once this is over#Harding tends to support Emmrich because he is much better at hiding it#But sometimes he'll make that surprised pikachu face and she'll start sliding coin to taash#emmrich volkarin#emmrich x lucanis#emmrich x spite#emmrich x rook#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis x emmrich#lucanis x rook#lucanis x spite#rook x spite#headcanons#dragon age the veilguard#davg#veilguard
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what I think shinsou’s search history looks like after izuku tells him about OFA and how shinsou’s quirk helped him meet the vestiges and get his powers under control:
2:24 AM: can your quirk be connected to someone else’s
2:37 AM: are soulmates a real thing
2:39 AM: can you still get a lobotomy if you want one
2:43 AM: what does it mean if a guy cries and smiles at you and tells you how much you’ve done for his personal growth and also the world
2:45 AM: how to tell if a guy likes you back
2:58 AM: diy lobotomy safe
#feelings are hard shinsou it's okay lol#my personal favorite hc is shinsou having the biggest most embarrassing crush on izuku and just being so mad about it#he HATES having a crush lmao#he honestly hides it p well he's just embarrassed in his own head lol#shinsou feeling giddy when izuku smiles at him: humiliating and gross <3 make it stop <3#shinsou @ himself when he gets nervous seeing izuku in the hallway: cringe#shindeku
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