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#i swear if i get my period on monday i am going to cut a bitch#my period likes to inconvenience me as much as possible and will fall on my vacations 70% of the time#it's almost without fail now#tomorrow is the latest it can start where i won't be mad but i just KNOW it's going to be monday or tuesday because i can't catch a break#24/25 days is average but it depends on stress which i've had a lot of lately so i guarantee my vacation week is going to be a bloody mess#pun intended#if it starts later on wednesday or even thursday (which is pushing it for me but still in the regular range) i would be fine with that#my main problem lies in the fact i love swimming and i hate tampons#so i'm going to be super pissed#just a fun update for y'all you're welcome
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full on feel like pjo tv s2 is not gonna hold up so they need to drag as much attention to the series as they can by using nico as a sock puppet w tsats2
im fully expecting the show to go the way of the movies. it doesnt help Sea of Monsters is almost unanimously the least favorite book of the first series. People frequently forget it even exists or what happens in it, especially more casual fans.
Heck, just look at how little fanfare the second season has gotten so far as compared to the build up to s1. I wouldn't be surprised if s2 totally flops. It would be a little funny.
#pjo#riordanverse#pjo tv#pjo tv crit#tsats 2#Anonymous#ask#im still sad theyre beating every dead horse in the franchise they can EXCEPT for the graphic novels#the poor graphic novels arent getting advertised AT ALL and the BoO one got cancelled#like. the graphic novels would actually be probably one of the best advertising avenues!#like. hey! you dont need to write a whole new book! just remind people of previous books and give them a way to refresh on it#and given how the first couple of graphic novels were a different artists i could totally see them doing a second version#just to make them all consistent. thatd make sense and be reasonable.#the show has also already kind of trapped itself in a corner in a couple of ways#for one they kind of screwed themselves over failing to plan for the actors. yknow. ageing.#Walker is already taller than like. most of the cast. Percy's gonna be TOWERING over Luke by TLO#i think the main trio is all like almost 16 already? and we're only on s2. its gonna be rough. they didnt think about it. they didnt plan.#also with how theyve been messing with plot and characterization theyre VERY quickly going to start running into hurdles#because they dont seem to understand the more you change earlier on. the less the later stuff will work without also needing change#because. it's dependent on what comes before. so we will very quickly be requiring either MASSIVE canon divergence or a lot of retcon#and retcon in the show is going to be VERY OBVIOUS#though i stand by itll be so funny if they solve too much too quickly in s2 just like the movies and it just ends on#''wait. crap. what are we going to do for s3 now. we solved too much too early. they have nothing to do''
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idk if it's just my usual inability to handle heat or if T is making me run even hotter than before, but i'm gaining a new understanding of the Wearing Shorts In Winter crowd
#BOYHOOD IS SWEATY?????#it's not even hot outside today. it's 18C. outside is fine but inside building??? warm. to me#it's funny bc as a small child i used to cry when i was too cold at school outings in the winter#i would almost always without fail get Too Painfully Cold like an hour or two before going back#but now????????#opposite problem#makes one wanna swim in a river all evening long#(hi guess who's full of mosquito bites)
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What’s with the trend in comics of Jason going on this long, insightful rant on Bruce’s behaviors and shortcomings only for B to respond like “but murder bad” and that’s considered a valid counter argument?
#jason todd#bruce wayne#dc#this happens to some degree with a lot of villains#but it is particularly pronounced with these two dumbasses#like#Bruce clearly has no deeper understanding of Jason or his choices beyond a very basic profile#and it’s to the degree that it almost feels intentional#he doesn’t understand Jason#(he doesn’t understand ANY of his kids really)#and one’s left feeling that Bruce resents Jason for existing at all#like he’d rather be left with just the memory of a kid that loved him#and really I think it comes down to the idea that he feels he failed Jason#and he sees Jason now as just the embodiment of that failure rather than a living person#but is also unwilling or simply doesn’t know how to properly confront or fix his mistakes#so he sets this arbitrary metric for Jason to fail to meet#so he can focus on that rather than any meaningful self improvement or reflection#and all that is without even acknowledging that Jason is more than this failure. he’s a person who’s ended up stuck in a trauma cycle#both of them have
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thinking about the fact that if Neil had died in Baltimore, literally none of Andrew's family would even know he was broken as much as he was by it. Like they saw him choke Kevin, but even after Baltimore, Nicky assumed it was just a fling.
#Like Bee and Renee might have the most knowledge#but how likely is it that Andrew would just shut them out anyways after that?#I think Wymack. Kevin and. in fact. Aaron would have SOME idea#but like I'm just saying#most of them had that Baltimore reunion to sorta solidify how important Neil was to Andrew#and if he'd died they wouldn't have that#all they'd have is Andrew choking Kevin out after the riot#I think Aaron had a good idea of it BECAUSE of the Baltimore reunion#which is why he was able to so quickly realize that he could trade Neil for Katelyn#and I think Kevin and obviously wymack knew before that#but still.#without that reunion scene it's just Andrew having adopted another stray that he'd now failed to protect and I'm just#listen..... I read another MC death/canon divergence fic and then just here I am#thinking about the fact that Andrew would be 100% wrecked by that and almost no one would even know exactly how messed up he is about it#it's fine I'm fine#aftg#Andrew Minyard#Neil Josten#Andreil
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If season 2 were about El and Mike fighting to get back to each other they wouldn't have had El almost not come back.
If it were about Mike and El fighting to come back to each other, it wouldn't have been a decision whether or not should we would.
But she almost stayed in Chicago. And they made a point of her saying she went back for all of her friends, not just him, and for Hopper. She went back for Mike, Lucas, Dustin, and Hopper. It was played as big and loving. But it wasn't played as romantic. That wasn't her reasoning and missing Mike wasn't enough to bring her back in the first place.
In the first few episodes of the season, she fights with Hopper about not being able to see Mike. But as the season progresses, we find it isn't about that. It's about not being able to leave. She goes to Chicago and almost doesn't come back. There is a full stand alone episode about her maybe not coming back and she ALMOST STAYS.
If it were some big romantic payoff of their reunion, they would have simply had an obstacle they had to fight to overcome - like Hopper or the monsters or something. But instead, Mike was hoping she was alive and El was considering letting him come to terms with her death and living out her days with her sister in Chicago.
El almost never saw Mike again. It was a very close decision. She changed her mind last minute. It's valid and it remains loving, but in trope simply put...it isn't romantic.
"I almost never came back to you but I changed my mind" in the context of being separated against your will? Isn't romantic.
And similar is true in their separation in seasons 3 AND 4. She does not reach out after her time with Max. Granted maybe she would have, it was a short time, I will give that. But then she didn't get back together with him until the end of the epilogue to our knowledge. She did not run back to him in grief in need of comfort. She did not get back together with him for the familiarity even in that, she got back together with him to keep a piece of Hawkins. Her priorities would not have been the same of "wait and see if he says it" - and he could have done that in a relationship too, as we saw was an arc for him in season 4. Once again, she waited until the last minute - even almost walking away and leaving for Lenora - before coming back to him at the last possible second.
In season 4, then, she did not include him in her plans when escaping NINA. She only noted Max and her friends. Really, this re-established her priorities from season 2. Her intention was to return to all of her friends, to return to Hawkins, and to help her loved ones out of danger. Not to return specifically to him. When he was out of the equation, he was skipped over. She and Mike had a bad fight. And she still loved him just like she still loved her brothers who were also not mentioned, but her focus was only verbalized as being on Max and Hawkins. The original intention of her leaving was for Owens to take her back to Hawkins. She had zero knowledge that her family and Mike (and Argyle) were coming to get her. She thought they were back at the house in Lenora and that she was going straight to Hawkins and would call them once it was all finished. We have no knowledge that she was going to make a pitstop - unlikely given the stakes and distance between Nevada and Lenora.
In season 2, El almost stayed in Chicago. In season 3, El almost stayed broken up with Mike. In season 4, El almost went back to Hawkins without them - this decision being out of her control when it was changed.
Each and every time they are separated, El only makes the decision to reunite with Mike last minute after seeming to have intended to stay apart from him. Their reunions are always so sweet. But they are never her goal.
She came back for Will.
She came back in her grief over Hopper and leaving Hawkins.
She came back for Max.
The key question ever time she reunites with Mike is: does the story stop there? Or does she do something very important next?
Mike always a sweet stop on her way to her goal. He is never "the point". He is a part of her life as many other people are. But he is not her life and he is not why she comes back.
#el hopper#anti milkvan#stranger things#el's independence#SHE. ALMOST. STAYED. IN. CHICAGO.#once again all the ga needs to do is let go of mike's desire for HER#hers has been flexible for a long time#he was waiting for her and she was contemplating staying in chicago. he was waiting for her and it was up to HER to take him back. he was#chasing after her and it was up to HER whether she forgave him or not#every single time without fail and every time the reaction i see is#he has to find or earn her back and if he doesn't it is her right to do what she wants#but he wants her so bad that if he wants her and she's indifferent then the story dictates they stay together#but if he doesn't want her#they're cut loose from the story as a couple#only one thing holds them together and it's something they've planted the distruction of for years.#as i've said in other posts#it's something that was set up to be broken down from the moment she said goodbye the first time. you didn't think so but he was becoming o#ay without her in certain ways too.#'el would be heartbroken if he left her for will' historically WRONG. all the ga needs to is to know that MIKE wouldn't be heartbroken if#they broke up. she was heartbroken from their fight but she was fine by the time the decision was just whether or not to stay apart#willel#platonic elmax#the hopper byers#the party#el and her boys#(they belong to her now she claimed them in season 1. she did the will byers thing where she was just so endearing to everyone she met that#they're hers forever now)
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vashwood week day two- names
#trigun#trigun stampede#oof my art i guess#vashwood#vashwood week#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#this is directly inspired by the one and only time wolfwood calls vash stampede in tristamp#I just think it’s so interesting that he chooses to use that nickname in ep 5 to be like that’s a corpse stampede#moments after vash failed to save someone he cared about Again bc it immediately reinforces this idea of vash being a destructive force#and like the fact that his name has been turned against him and made into this like warning almost is so fucked up#like blorbo can’t even call his name his own#which is what makes wolfwood calling him other sillier nicknames so important#it detaches the legend from the person and allows him to just Exist without being labeled by someone#I also think the idea of reciprocity in their dynamic is really fascinating#it’s a mutual pining between them For Sure they don’t give much but when they do it’s equal exchange#hence the mutual first name basis at the end of my silly lil comic#this took so much time and I put wayyy too much thought into this for a daily prompt I’m like two days behind now but it was Worth It
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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.
i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.
[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!
also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]
#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch#on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or#old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing#and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me#even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me#housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong#(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display#outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in#some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt#my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's#only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then#disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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tagged by the fabulous @cordiallyfuturedwight and @jimin-gaon <33 here's the december list
apologies for being late again new year same me: @aprylynn @jiminsproof @pauls-mccharmly @thvinyl @visionsofgideontheninth @btsbs @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @eoieopda @monismochi 💜 and anyone else who feels so inclined MWAH p.s. please do tag me anyway if you've already done it
#superfluous commentary in the tags as per usual:#i feel you - ADORE THIS TRACK i can't even explain what it does to my psyche except that it initiates a beach episode.#noso is a phenomenal queer artist and you should check them out#smoke and mirrors - ms faith back in action on the rotation i loved this album in 2009 and it still hits. for the love of GOD take me back#loving you - i am a paolo nutini stan if nothing else. exceptional#love is all around - i am in my frazzled english woman era hence the romcom soundtrack#and tell me who could possibly embody that frazzled english spirit better than four weddings hugh grant#boys don't cry - it's the cure by name and the cure by nature for one listen and i am FIXED!!!#she's always a woman - now billy joel is a great name for a cat or hamster but i digress. the stranger album of the year 2023 (again i fear)#little bird - was annie lennox in the last one?? i still have this on repeat.#googling the lyrics and it thinks i want the jonas brothers and it makes me want to sit right down and cry cry cry i'll tell you that much#jenny - paolo again can you blame me? i cannot express how much i adore his entire discography.#these scottish italians... deadly combination for my mental health. peter capaldi sit down#white flag - dido save me.. save me dido... my jihope anthem because i WILL go down with this ship#eternal flame - banger after banger it's almost as if i made this playlist myself!! can you feel my heart beating??? i apologise#as for the artist list#norah jones and jamie cullum christmas albums on repeat lord forgive me for i have listened to jazz#hozier and abba seem to make it without fail every month. for those who aren't familiar hozier is like if abba were irish. and bitchless.#NOW I'VE SAID TOO MUCH#the rest of the artists are fab of course but does olivia dean know i would die for her?#anyway. insert closing statements#tag#receiptify#MWAH
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me: *opens my laptop to write*
my stomach: *growls dramatically*
#rambles.#it happens without fail almost every time#LIKE BRO I FED YOU ICE CREAM EARLIER CAN YOU NOT BE HAPPY??#LET ME LIVE!!!!!#i’m just now getting my groove on but my body is being a drama queen 🙄
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Realized a deeply embarrassing OCD thing I do which is have an intrusive thought, NOT do a compulsion, and instead of mentally congratulating myself, I think “If I REALLY had OCD I would’ve acted on it. If someone’s watching me rn they’re gonna think I’m faking it. Oh god I’m totally faking it” and then THAT intrusive thought is what makes me do the compulsion lol
#like almost every time without fail#at least I’m consciously aware that they’re compulsions and that I shouldn’t do them?#wackyposting#ocd#I need to make an OCD-specific tag but that one will work for now
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richard's relationship with money is so interesting to me despite/because of how vague and nonspecific it is in canon. which only makes sense because the show isn't interested in richard's backstory at ALL and, it being an audio medium, it can't exactly give many context clues like wardrobe/style or what his apartment/house looks like. but it's like......... he doesn't have interests, he dabbles in money-making activities. i am practically forced to assume that his mention of being good at pool also = a side hustle. his estranged dad up and left him a house and a paid ride to college. at this point he's way better off than he's ever been -- after 18 years of living with two separate conmen and a mother who doesn't care about him in mediocre apartments, he's suddenly on his own with his future out in front of him, and....... he STILL takes very risky grade-changing jobs for money? like he bypasses getting a regular college job and goes straight to petty crime? and apparently "far worse" crimes??? it's such an interesting balance between craving the security of Having Money and being pathologically unable to get it in a "normal" "safe" way. he doesn't even do anything with it in canon, he just GETS it. he isn't even buying lucy's drinks himself!!!! obviously even richard has bills to pay (which is. very funny to me. sorry that i think 19-year-old college era richard is the funniest person to ever exist, gremlin who's only ever lived in an apartment with his mother, sister, and mother's rotating cast of boyfriends, suddenly has a whole ass house dumped in his lap on his 18th birthday in exchange for his whole ass father's wholesale abandonment of him, has to figure out how to pay utility bills on his own, maybe thinks about getting a barista job or whatever kids did in the 80s, record shop clerk job?? and then nopes past it and picks "exploiting a child genius" as a career path instead. what a fucking legend. i also think he murdered people for money a couple times but that's just me) sorry i've lost the plot of this post thinking about campbell county community college computers richard. imagine being the people at the 5 Cs in charge of hiring STUDENT COUNSELORS and seeing richard maxwell strut into his interview and thinking "yes this 18-year-old suspiciously home-owning kid who talks like a john hughes movie antagonist and is currently his kid sister's very much illegal guardian is the perfect fit for our emotionally and socially fragile 11-year-old resident genius. what could go wrong" and then they have to pay for nicholas adamsworth's therapy sessions for the next 5 years because richard maxwell was what could go wrong. fuck. "waylaid in the windy city" maybe be my personal favorite richard but pre- and mid-"eugene's dilemma" richard is definitely the weirdest and funniest
#richard maxwell#aio#richard goes home deliriously exhausted from his college classes and 14 illegal side hustles and has to help rachael with her math homework#'why does he talk Like That' because it was the 80s and he's a single father next question#no wonder he genuinely likes lucy she's a Good Kid who doesn't need him she just likes him#despite everything that's probably the most straightforward relationship he has#unfortunately on lucy's end she also requires several years of therapy after her category 5 richard maxwell moment#like EVERYTHING about eugene's dilemma richard makes simultaneously more and less sense#when you realize that he's got the background radiation of 'my estranged mom showed up out of the blue to make me take care of her/my siste#'and then she left me alone with my sister and no way to contact her if i needed help'#'and then my sister got taken away from me because she got busted for shoplifting several times in a row so now i'm alone again'#'i canonically hate myself for failing her this way'#'also someone almost kidnapped me in a creeper van the other day'#the fact that fotf created the Most Character of All Time without meaning to or realizing is so fucking infuriating to me#at the very least richard maxwell should have been a supernatural character. he could have shone there.#instead. here we are.
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idk what they put in Hurricane to make it Like That. cocaine i think
#ive NEVER found a song that like. on almost every level should be a song i should dislike#but i absolutely love it and its consistently put me in a good mood without fail#like you put it on and ben schnieder just goes woe! joy be upon ye!#lord huron#maybe johnnie's energy is just like. it infects his music#thats what im going with for now. its either that or cocaine
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feel free not to publish: i'm a dirty lcf reader, and i wanted to let you know, the anons there have pretty much confirmed your obsessive anon is exactly who you think it is. she's for some reason incapable of disguising her typing style, it's the same here as it is there.
Shocking, I never would have expected!
#denied and called me delusional and 'the most hated person on radblr' implying I get hate anons from a lot of people#but it literally couldn't be more obvious. like I almost feel sorry for her that she lacks the capacity to chill out for a sec#rather than immediately showing her whole ass every time she types a single sentence.#it's kind of impressive lowkey how epically she flubs it without fail. like it's every single time. I'd think statistics alone would've won#out by now lmao like luck give this woman even one win. she clearly needs it.
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Adhd will be like “you’re not dyslexic, you just don’t read the whole word. Good luck with math you dumb fuck”
#emma posts#there is more to dyscalcula and having trouble remembering how to spell long words#but these sure aren’t helping#me. learning Norwegian. reading the sentences and or putting words together to make one ‘I’m so fucking good at l this’d’#okay. now spell the word for ‘difficult’#me crying on the floor because I know it. I can read and hear it. but the letters blend together in my mind#it’s bad enough trying to do this with English. which is my FIRST LANGUAGE#but then it’s like ‘spell complicated words you are learning in another language’ and i feel like smashing my head on the carpet#I can’t speak it for the life of me though. which is actually getting frustrating#without an actual person to explain how to pronounce the words I’m failing so badly#but the primary reason I’ve been learning since April is to read it anyway#and listening is good too. harder though#I’m going to be so fucked up when I start taking Swedish lessons#the word means the same thing and also sounds almost the same (to an English speaker)#BUT THEY SPELL IT VERY DIFFERENTLY!#and with whole new letters#I’m going to write the Norwegian spelling and fail#I will admit that my plan to learn Norwegian first has been working otherwise though#them using fewer unfamiliar characters and being slightly more similar to English really is making it easier to learn#than Swedish first would be. maybe I’m just biased because I’m doing decently at Norwegian#but now when I learn a Swedish word it feels easier because i have two Germanic languages to compare the words to#and one of those languages is even another Nordic language! I dread finding Icelandic lessons though. but it will probably be several years#before I even attempt that! I am doing this because I want to be able to read old family records and objects but learning about#the linguistics of the language family both are in has been super fun and made it actually easier to learn Norwegian!#Spanish is the other language I want to learn but I’ve been putting it off#because it’s more for day to day utility and I can’t fixate on it the same way. I’m terrible at concentrating on it#plus. I’ve already had four Spanish classes so I figure I’ll at least have something to start from! I think I even kept my highschool notes#it’s been really frustrating figuring out which ‘the’ to use. having everything be masculine or feminine has probably been my biggest issue#when making sentences in it. also having had teachers from totally different dialects has been hard in the past#Mexican Spanish can be very diffident from the South American one my highschool teacher taught
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Quirky representations of dementia should go die actually
#pardon me my friends i know I'm in a Good Mood today and will probably continue to be once I've taken some time to be mad/sad#but god the other night our ex-neighbour was obvs trying to comfort me#by talking bout a lady with dementia she knew who was onviously sick but in her mind she went out and did things and danced#and i was at the dinner table with my own sick lady#and therefore could not say honey. good for her i guess.#but my mum is almost aggressively trapped in her here and now#she doesn't know how to exist without us#her safe person is the husband her marriage was failing with#if we go out for five minute she panics and scratches at the door#she is sad and confused 95% of the time#content and confused the other 5%#and i can barely even visualise her as my mum anymore#because the mum who raised me would've killed herself if she knew this was coming#(like she used to tell me that. frequently tell her small child she'd rather kill herself than be unable to look after herself)#(which had a very normal impact on me I'm sure)#anyway. I'm a huge hypocrite and will still go and listen to marbles by the amazing devil and think it's the loveliest most romantic thing#and maybe some people do get lucky and find some joy in their minds when they have nothing else#but i have to just watch her brain fester and decay every day and there's just nothing quirky or beautiful about it#and all i can think is about how there's those mums who don't like raising small kids but enjoy parenthood when the kids are grown#and how that was supposed to be her#for a little while it was her#for a brief window of a couple of years she and i were each others best friend#and now she's this sad scared anxious thing shaped like my mum#who doesn't trust me as much as the man she was maybe a year or two out from leaving#and she's trapped in her brain and swiftly rotting#and it's just not cute and it's not funny#anyway#it is what it is#mr. bees speaks
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