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sonofsin · 1 year ago

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actually it'd be great if an asthma attack would kill me about now

#so the main system has somewhat of a friendship with our neighbor who is. well we don't feel particularly safe with him tbh #he's lowkey a transphobic conservative but we didn't find that out until we'd already hung out multiple times #he's also a stoner and works at a local dispensary #so we see him pretty frequently and it's not exactly like we can back out. it's not a wonderful situation but it's what it is #well. most nights I come outside and smoke on our floor's back deck. I sit right outside our door (corner unit so we have one)#there's only one door for the rest of the floor which is on the other side of the deck from our door #he's out here. I have NEVER seen him out here this late. it's 3 AM.#I do NOT want to talk to him or engage with him at all. I don't want him to see me #I'm lucky he hasn't yet.#the only reason he hasnt is because the light on this side is burnt out and it's pretty shadowy where I am #but I can't keep smoking or he'll notice #and I can't get up to go back inside or he'll notice #he's literally right across from me like 15 meters away #it's 3 AM!!!!! go back inside!!!!#he won't. I know he won't. I'm fucking trapped #please. please kill me.

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marciaillust · 1 month ago

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I added some colours to her :)

#digital art #character art #character design #marcia #discworld #discworld fanart #angua von uberwald #bro i need to get weirder i need my art to be weirder i need the shapes i need the colurs i need to not play safe i need to be a freak #2025 goal become an even bigger freak i can never stop #i really like how she turned out #i never used such muted colours before i kinda like how murky she looks #a true ankhmorporkian #still making my way through men at arms they just found the clown #i am fascinated with the river that is running through that city #it makes me think of Bristol uk <3 #going back to angua i like to think the armour they gave her was already all beaten up #hello and welcome to the nightwatch. have the nastiest underfunded gear we could find this side of the city #also i like to think that the official colours of ankh morpork are greenred #two colours on the opposing sides of the colour wheel but they are forced together to coexist #ankh would be green morpork would be red #and now everyone and their patrician just gotta cope #worldbuilding through colour would be fun : )#ohhh the inside of the palace could look quite cool because it would have to utilize both to celebrate the union #but then you go into the city and across the river you can sorta see the divide #not that all the houses would be one colour or whatever thats a bit predictable #but through fashion statements or exported goods or family insignia #and then you could incorporate it further for example vimes the guy of the city would want to take on the whooole thang. thats his city #some criss cross apple sauce checkers quilted mismatched mumbo jumbo #and then in contrast to that you would have his wife-elected suit and tie getup that distances him from his duty and kills him #so many options i tell you

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yukipri · 12 days ago

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feelin kinda sad so eating an obscene amount of pasta

#YukiPri rambles #it's nothing serious #just have had a stream of unfortunate disappointments #nothing major and each time i'm like well ok that could have been worse and i'm glad it wasn't #but the cumulative result is just me kinda feeling droopy inside despite trying to continue lookin chipper outside #'wilted' i think is best descriptor for me rn #trying to tell myself that retail therapy isn't the answer here #In case folks are curious #the disappointments are:#1) dad was in a car accident and no one was hurt but gave me a huge scare #2) was given a day off at work in exchange for working a weekend and was looking forward to both #but they asked me last minute nevermind come in instead and i had to cancel all the plans i'd made and couldn't reschedule #3) movie i wanted to see on said day off is no longer playing in local theaters so it's either convince mum to drive an hour or give up #4) had an afternoon tea planned with mum and her friends and was looking forward to it for a month and only eating out this month #had reservations and outfit picked out and everything #but then a few days before landlord scheduled repairs for that day and wouldn't listen when we said we had plans #so i stayed home so mum could go and i'm glad she could go but sad #5) went to work this morning and there'd been a flood in the office from a customer leaving the bathroom sink running #and the torrent of water came down on my desk specifically ruining all of my books/personal stuff #i got reimbursed but it's just really sad bc some of those things were free/gifts that i can't get back and i hate throwing out books #especially ones i never got to read but they were completely drenched through and unsalvageable...#6) had an outing planned this weekend i was really looking forward to but we probably can't go bc weather is bad #i think there were a few others but that's most of the big ones #i am wilted and just want to curl up and not move

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bookwyrminspiration · 6 months ago

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#shitpost #this is a great reaction image but also just an excellent visual representation of my mental state #every day I can physically feel in my chest the string inside me pulling tighter and tighter #and one day I’ll snap #but not yet! ohoho not quite yet!!#so back down it goes. shoving it away because I do not! wanna! deal with that!!#it’ll make me one day. when it snaps. but that’s not today!!#I’m not at the point of reckless tattoos #and I already cut and dye my own hair so that’s got no catharsis in it #but I am mere inches away from getting a bunch of piercings #I’ve been wanting to for a while. why not now?#go for the septum too while I’m at it even though I wasn’t sure yet?#I need to break something #<- dead serious #because I’m legit inches away from starting a fight #but I am putting on a nice face for everyone :3

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ryuseitai · 4 months ago

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its come to my attention that i cant get my nose ring. out of my nose.

#It. Should not be this hard surely..#bruh i swear if its like #bc i got my nostril pierced same time as my ears and all 3 were pierced w the same stud and #One of the earrings would NOT come out bc the earring literally wouldnt come apart and i ended up pulling the entire stud thru. to get itou #NOT on purpose iw as just trying to take it apart and it was easier for it to GO THRU MY WHOLE EAR than for the stud to come apart the way #its supposed to But the other ear was fine.. and once both were outt i tried just taking them apart and putting together outside of anythin #so there was no resistance anywhere #and yeah the one that came out weird just doesnt come apart. i have it now and its like GENUinely stuck together maybe i could get it apart #with like Pliers b ut #but the otehr one is so smooth to take apart and put together #SO IM SAYING #IF THE ONE IN MY NOSE. IS LIKE THE FUCKED UP ONE. IM GONNA BE SO MAD. GET OUT OF MY FUCKING NOSE #whatev i dont need to ttake it out right this instant but #i bought a hoop Like ia ctually want for it and i was just trying today #to take the stud out and put it back in so ik how to do it when i get the new jewelry #But well #I looked up a tutorial and everything but if its just like the stud itself is crooked inside and tahts why it wont come apart WTF am i #supposed to do in that situation #<- go back to the piercer #But i dont want to.

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nonsensechemicals · 11 days ago

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crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It

#my version of them is centered around their blog version with the ‘personality’ of their steam review and like a bunch of HC #i developed them with the implication that they’re Real but i’m a bit iffy on it #because all my friends have theories about how they’re from the narrator’s consciousness which is sick as hell #and i’m unsure how to actually structure everything or if i should go the same route so i can get approval from them </3 #my friends r the real reviewer fans even though they dont plague themselves over them every day and im so sad that i don’t know anythinggg #gggggggggggg #like im p sure they genuinely hate the stuff i make about cookie9 and im just. scrumbles myself. sorry im Trying :( i’m not smart #or good at writing or even media literate #whatever that term means #all i have is love in my heart for them i don’t know anything at all #ouhghghhg they hate It so much but i cant do anything else and it’s all i have #like all my cookie9 stuff works on the ‘what if their blog self Was Real’ but i’m not actually sure how to fit it all into my actual parabl #stuff because i still havent worked out how my parable itself works #and people probably don’t think i know enough and i don’t think they’ll approve if i try. so i Don’t #tempted to blame this on my like. general crushing lack of intelligence caused by both physical and mental reasons #but i want to believe i could do better if i try? but that’s incredibly hopeful #i’ll be stuck here forever i think #<-guy who. whenever Anything wrong happens ever. just goes back to ‘oh yeah its because im dumb as fuckign rocks. due to the Incidents’#i am very scared of the possibility that it is possible for me to be anything more because that implies that i’m stupid because i didnt try #even though i’m trying very very fucking hard and every time i get something wrong way more than anyone else i’ve ever known #and they hate me for it . MAN!!!!!!!!!#<-brain is lying 2 me i think nobody hates me or . whatever. it still feels like it though im just saying this because i dont want anyone t #think people genuinely hate me for being stupid. i mean. people DO. but not my friends ☝️#man i can’t even get into the buglivia crap either because she is so abstracted from her actual review #girl w identity issues and also the general normal Changing A Lot Through Time. i scrumble her. around #her Self during 2018 would in fact be in character for the review.i want to draw her during that time. she took everything so seriously </3 #tbh my version of her does react well to TSP humor but at the time she felt like she wasn’t allowed 2 Do Her Thing and tried to seem #more professional and Normal and it seeped into EVERYTHING for a bit #cookie9 though just genuinely found the narrator annoying and patronizing. its just not his thing and thats fine #<-random nonsensechemical reviewer bits hidden inside the vents. SEND POST.

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milfbrainrot · 4 months ago

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i am enjoying this show but i do think it's a good case study in how... not to worldbuild jlskdfklj.

i know it's not trying to be that deep, so it really is fine, but it's been kinda interesting to me picking up on things i don't think makes sense with the hidden connective tissue for what each society is supposed to be like and how they have developed from the present?

like everyone in most cultures thinks girls are fine and equal to men (ex. the moclan baby situation) and even if it's through an alien acceptance lens they're fine with gays (bortus and klyden) and even maybe chill with trans stuff ("ur kid can decide when she's old enough" in theory) etc.

but there are also so many jokes that stem from inequality that you wouldn't really think about unless you really considered it, like the Standard Straight Marriage Jokes you get with ed and kelly dependent on marital gender roles or alara having trouble with boyfriends who don't want a gf who's stronger than them (even though maybe the issue is her just being scary strong generally, it does come off like her super strength was almost created for the sake of "haha strong woman you would not expect it from" and to then make jokes that would hit with a modern non-introspective audience) etc.

if society has developed and done the work to actually get to a place of equality in these areas then those jokes and casual attitudes would be much less likely, and it makes sense to me that the guy behind family guy would not understand that or care because he is trying to appeal to a very standard modern audience the only way he knows how (uncreative jokes stuck in an outdated status quo).

#TO tag #not a ton of examples bc i honestly just roll my eyes and let the joke go in one ear out the other but i think the vibes come across #PARTICULARLY with ed and kelly #and honestly there is almost something meta funny about watching these people in the future talk like they're from 2012 #but when it is the whole show it means it is not supposed to be funny on that level but within itself #i think i just wish i could get space sitcom without... the 2000s sitcom jokes yknow?#i am grateful it's not as bad as i expected in those attitudes and i am also still enjoying the ability to just get a lighter scifi vibe #bc as much as i love hard serious scifi it does get exhausting sometimes #i just think i need to go back to my w359 relisten #ignoring that i think i left off somewhere at the point they did start getting big serious haha #or mourn inside job again #HONESTLY THOUGH i think i have been lucky that a lot of my favorite scifi has had typically mindful people behind it #or it took place in a time where it made sense and still kept itself at bay (thank u amanda tapping for self advocating <3)#so im sure honestly there is older serious scifi that still does the 'women amirite' bs esp Big Military Propaganda For Men ones #but for something more recent i would still expect a lower level #of it ingrained in advanced human society

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seventh-district · 8 days ago

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw negative #cw health issues #‘You’re such a heartless and hateful person.’ well have you ever considered that i’m not really a hateful person and i just hate You #like. call me whatever you want to i guess. im definitely selfish and probably heartless but hateful? idk abt that.#i only feel like i hate people that have given me good fucking reason to. sorry i dont have an infinite supply of tolerance & forgiveness??#but im a wee bit fucking stressed so you’ll have to forgive me for being a bitch. well no one Has to forgive me. do whatever you want #‘That 10-day old pasta salad is making me feel sick.’ MF that was made TODAY. IT’S FRESH AND THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT #if you feel sick how about you look down at the fifteen empty beer cans on the floor next to you and ask them what they think did it #dumbass. whatever man i have bigger problems than your self-induced tummy ache #i feel sick too but i know it’s my fault so i’m not bitching about it. i gave you fresh food while I ate the old stuff to keep from wasting #food. because you act like you’re fucking allergic to leftovers. and yeah it had probably gone off and that’s why I feel sick #but what you ate tonight was fresh as could be so we’re sick for two Very different reasons. and i know how to admit when it’s my fault #everything is my fault. my teeth and gums hurt and that’s My fault for not taking care of them. apparently 3 root canals wasn’t enough #for me to learn my goddamn lesson. i never do. so i’ll have to spend more money on that soon and thats My fault. the dog’s teeth need #cleaning too and that’ll come out of my pocket and i guess that’s My fault for not taking care of him either #i think i have another goddamn UTI and that’s definitely My fault so another $100 trip to urgent care it is i guess!#my Random Nerve Pain has moved to my hands so i can’t use them too much or it fucking hurts and i guess that’s my fault???#my neck pain is back and thats my fault for not clearing my bed off enough to sleep in a comfortable position #my eye keeps twitching and i guess that’s my fault too. i don’t know anymore i just wanna throw in the towel man im so tired #god the UTI tests i wasted money on are arriving tomorrow and if they’re packed in a way that shows what’s inside then i’ll have to explain #That to whoever brings in the mail. great great something else to worry about all night #the living room floor is caving in so now there’s Two room’s floors that need fixing so that’s super fucking fun! 😃#i need to talk to my bank and i need to talk to a tax professional and i need to learn to drive and i need to get an autism diagnosis #well i don’t Need the last one but i want it so bad. but im scared. that i’ll go to all this trouble and they’ll say i don’t qualify #and god it’s NYE now. Besties i’m not gonna get that NMbD NYE fic ready in time. i just can’t make myself write these days. i’m sorry.#i doubt anyone is gonna be That disappointed but I Am. in myself. 3 fucking years now i’ve failed to finish it. w h y. i Want to write but #there’s just too much on me rn. but when is there Not. sigh. idk what i’m gonna do but something needs to change. in my life. soon.

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eebie · 7 months ago

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um. hi decapitated mouse on the pavement that wasnt there 10 minutes ago…..

#my rambles #i feel like i know who the culprit is 😞#he isnt our cat tho #so we cant keep him inside #he was out till 3:00 am last night Idk why he didnt go back home #my dad had to let him in #literally saw a coyote run out of someones backyard yesterday And made sure they knew #idk why they still let him out #animal death

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months ago

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Misc. photos from the past year or so ~

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that --#1. napping bapy boye sneeping on his own foot as if it were a pillow #2. The little primrose that I have seems to bloom sporadically all year around as long as I bring it inside and don't let it freeze #in the winter. This was a flower that came up randomly like mid november lol #3. Rainbow where you can see a little bit of a second rainbow near the bottom of it :0 #4. CHILDREN.... love to see them.....#5. Halloween Candy ranking tierlist. not important enough to post on it's own. so throwing it in with one of these I guess lol #I am also not really a candy person at all and prefer bready stuff like cakes rather than chocolate bars (if I even have to have sweets #at ALL which usually I prefer savory food). I suspect the apple is controversial but.. I do love apples .... huzzah #actually am having applle and peanut butter snack right now as I'm writing this lol #6. Various bowls/cups/etc. that I got from a store at COMPLETELY different times like.. years apart from each other #yet at some point realized that they all mostly match in paint color and seem to be part of the same pattern #But I totally didnt make that connection until a few years ago when I was putting up dishes. I just bought them all invidually because it's #like 'oh cool! a cat' *1 year later* 'oh cool! a cat!' etc. lol.. I guess it must be a popular design if it's been around being sold that #long.#7. carne asada burrito and matcha bubble tea... oughhgh.... again one of my very rare meals where I actually go and get something..#probably my favorite meal currently. Something about the Chronic Anemia makes me crave beef burritos madly despite only having one #maybe twice a year or so ghjbhj.. plus the beans.... onions.... many of my Diet Forbidden foods... Also of course the little aishas #are there.... somehow they shall split the meal together even though it's like 10x bigger than their bodies.. they are also hungry #and vastly anemic... huzzah to them...#8. I've had this shirt for a long time but it fits very weird so I can never find a way to use it in outfits?? But I recently had #an appointment where a doctor needed to be able to look at my back and it's one of the only actual Shirts that I have (mostly i just own #long robes or tunics or jumper dress type of things that would be hard to lift up or etc. like... I dont even own a single normal 't-shirt'#or anyting aside from one giant tshirt that I sleep in in the summer lol.) So I wore this there.. I forget how much I love the pictures on #it.. how pleasant... little hummingbird... AND I think one of the flowers is supposed to be columbine ... !#photo diary

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eveninglottie · 1 year ago

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so. I think I wrote a book.

#it's 3 am and I feel dead inside but I finished the epilogue of this book #I still need to go back and flesh some things out but there's a beginning a middle and an end #wowie zowie fam

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crossbackpoke-check · 3 months ago

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re last answer: please don't stop, being very unhinged about these two pretty white boys is helping distract me from the sharks losing streak rn so bring it on

https://www.tumblr.com/bondedpairs/764566430180147200?source=share

(sideblog woes but there's the link for you) anyway in the vid they talk about going over to each other's houses to have dinner and things and while that is a delicious example of their codependence i love it bc through an rpf lens there is definitely some old man ******* going on. they can have the dilfs and each other.

(someone else mentioned kept boys which i could write an essay on but i fear being Perceived™️)

anyway if you have anything to add to this please do, if not ignore me and i will hide under a rock until the stress-related insanity has worn off and i am a functioning member of society once more 😂

- @bondedpairs

ty for the video!!! and please, WRITE THE KEPT BOYS ESSAYYYY i promise i will read it with my hands over my eyes if you don’t want to be perceived. do it scared!! do it anyway!! we’ll all love you for it!!!