#it'll get better eventually

[confinesofmy]

hey so with my parosmia a lot of ingredients that are essential to all my recipes taste yucky disgusting now so am i supposed to:

a.) completely change how i cook everything, resulting in a lot of energy (and money) spent, a lot of disappointment as i discover new ingredients that taste like shit, and a lot of food waste when i can't eat the "weird" "foreign" food i cooked and no one i know is willing to even try it, nevermind take it, especially when i can't honestly answer a question like "is it good?" in the positive because, well. it tastes like sewage to me. :/ but also i'll find new safe foods, probably.

or b.) just keep cooking the recipes i always have but taint them forever with the memories of having to air out the house after i sautéed the onions and garlic so i wouldn't THROW UP. while also receiving the nice balance of nutrition i'm accustomed to without a bunch of finagling which triggers my ed symptoms. with the added benefit of not further affecting the monthly grocery bill in any way during our current grocery prices crises. also maybe i'll get used to eating stuff that tastes rotten? idk.

[bl4ckbox]

there's an assumption I think that detransition allows you to regain the social standing of someone who has never transitioned when in fact it makes it twice as difficult to navigate any world as you find yourself set apart from both trans and cis communities 👍

[vibinwiththefrogs]

can i just say, ur about me/description thing made me instant follow because 1) learning languages is one of my fav things but 2) im a grad student now but i used to be a farmer so the fact that you are into ag stuff made me so happy

Welcome!! I feel like we're a strange breed. At least where I am, ag people aren't interested in other languages or countries or cultures. But then people into history and languages aren't interested in anything physical labor related. So it's a strange cross. I'm not a farmer or from an ag background, but this was my idea of taking action with a background in environmentalism and history. I felt like maybe I could have more impact by getting involved with food systems rather than going for a general environmental science or ecology degree. It was a very strange decision honestly but I feel like here and there I've helped educate people about ag who previously wouldn't have even thought about it. I'm still in undergrad and have a lot to learn though.

[soupedepates]

POV you probs had an other episode™ yesterday cuz there are an empty bottle of vodka in your flat, new scars on your arm and cryptic messages on post-it on your wall

UWU OWO

[hlizr50]

STOP YOU'RE SCARING ME SO FUCKING MUCH!!! is the next 5 chapters just pain or is there comfort somewhere in between?

Well.... I'm trying to think. This coming chapter has a little comic relief. Then toward the end of the week it's going to get... worse.

So... no not a lot of comfort, sorry....

I'm a monster.

[wasyago]

not drawing for others. not drawing for myself either. playing video games. okay? yay

[sentrysapper]

learning how to sfm. decided to make my first posters engiespy.

[kosmogrl]

very personal post but I was walking and thinking about something that has been driving me crazy lately and it hit me how much ocd has damaged my life and it makes me so upset.

[avoidmint]

Careful Infinite, this is a one way ticket to him just putting you in the cute little white dress I did my playthrough of him in.

[milolovesbmc]

Sometimes I will be drawing Whizzer and I'll be like "Oh this looks terrible" but then I remember it could be worse. I could be making him look like a twink.

[mamath]

I've been interested in block printing this year so I made a two colour lino cut print for my Xmas cards this year. It was hard work!! I made a lot of mistakes (including...cutting my second layer backwards...) and didn't have a good way to align my two colour layers lol so there was a bit of guesswork involved. I managed to make about a dozen decent cards to send to friends and family at least! I think it turned out cute and I learned a lot! Feels like it's been forever since I made my own cards... I used to do it every year though. ^^

Merry Crimbas!

[camels-pen]

the difference between zosopp and sanuso (romantic OR platonic) is that Usopp is Zoro's specialest little guy and Zoro is someone Usopp hangs out with and looks up to and hides behind when things get scary, but Sanji and Usopp are best friends. They horse around, they beat each other up, they confide their worst fears trying to one up each other. Usopp hides behind Sanji sometimes, sure, but idk, Sanji's weaknesses are more obvious (bugs, fighting women, etc) so there are times when Usopp has to stand in front of Sanji too, yknow?

Like, how do I say this, all the crewmates are equal- Usopp and Zoro are equals- but with Sanji it feels like more... comradery? Zoro's a rock in a terrible storm- even rocks tend to get weathered and chipped and worn down, but they overall stay strong and steady. He has trouble being vulnerable and there are times when the burden he's placed on himself to keep the crew safe is crushing his chest. Usopp would help with that and be very understanding, but the point I'm trying to get with that is that those moments are few and far between. So I feel like Usopp, especially after Water 7, would take Zoro's lead on something like that, and keep most of his worries to himself or only talk about them sparingly unless they're really bad and/or he can't hide them.

Sanji is like a tree in a storm; he can be strong, yes, but it feels like he bends and sways with the storm, and has more obvious breaking points. He can relate more to Usopp's struggles rather than resorting to blunt honesty that might border on callous like Zoro. And while, with Zosopp, I tend to think of scenarios with Zoro being blunt like that as a good thing- because sometimes when you're spiraling, it's nice to have someone say exactly what's great about you and shoot down all your worries with straight facts that you can't argue with- I can also see this as being a bad thing. Anxiety can really twist up your brain sometimes, you know? And despite the words, the tone could still mess someone up if they're already feeling like a burden on others in some way.

With Sanuso it's a lot more understanding and thoughtful words. It's distractions and comfort food and patience- the kind reserved for Usopp- until Usopp talks about whatever's troubling him. Compared to Zosopp, it doesn't take as long for Usopp to open up, since he's done the same thing to Sanji at times and it's more familiar to him to talk and commiserate with Sanji about his worries and doubts and such. However, there are times stuff like this has absolutely no effect and Sanji will end up at a loss, no idea what to do or how to help over the course of several days with Usopp being quiet and keeping his distance, and he'll end up working himself up about it which will only serve to make Usopp feel worse and. yeah. bit of a vicious cycle with them.

So it's like. Usopp can be weak with both of them, but since I see Sanji as the type of guy who'd be more open with his worries (at least compared to Zoro), there's less of a need to 'perform' and be his best self around him. He's comfortable around Zoro, yes, but he is constantly wanting to show that he won't be a problem to him. On the other hand, while he's more open with Sanji, and Sanji with him, they tend to relate a bit too much with each other and they both have issues with causing trouble for others and being 'deserving of love' so failed attempts at consoling one hurts the other and creates an unpleasant cycle of misery and avoidance before some other crewmate (Zoro) tells them to quit being stupid and just fucking talk to each other.

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

trying to psych myself up to finally do oc refs by doing fandom-related refs instead: volume 1

wanted to update my yuma from whatever tf this au is so he was a bit more unique... takes inspo from a lot of different things while also trying to be its own sorta thing? which is fitting given the au ;)

bonus chibi now that i'm also figuring out how tf to do chibis lol:

[icecreamchick45]

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Allison Argent, Theo Raeken, Liam Dunbar, Mason Hewitt, Corey Bryant (Teen Wolf), Nolan (Teen Wolf), Scott McCall (Teen Wolf) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Teen Wolf (TV) Season 6B, Resurrected Allison Argent, Allison Argent Lives, or at least, now she does, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Body Horror, in the sense of reserection being painful, Canon-Typical Behavior, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, i wanted to make a no beta we die like allison joke, but this was beta read, shout out spikeface, Resurrection, The Nemeton - Freeform, Attempt at Humor, Canon Compliant Summary:

The last thing Allison sees is Scott. She’s looking him in the eyes, pleading with him to understand what she was saying. It’s silver; the way to kill the Oni is with silver. He has to tell her dad, or they will all be dead.

Like her.

That last thought must have made the universe laugh.

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Allison is brought back. She just doesn't know the how or why. All she knows is that it's way more traumatic than it looks for all parties involved.

[themeeplord]

It's difficult to draw again,,

[tangledinink]

Something that's scaring me is that, most of the posts that I've seen of Swanatello are like STRAIGHT OUT THE OVEN. Like barely today- And I'm also scared to read it thanks to the surprise angsts that's been popping up on my feed

I am the world's most horrendous baker and im sorry for what im doing.