#it'd take much more than that to make him spill the tea

[deiaiko]

#20.9 Heads up

"I have some news." Agni swirled the water in his glass as if it were wine. "Recently, I have officially taken Bam's friends' team under my wing."

Bam perked up but said nothing. His expression indicated that he wasn't surprised, so Khun or Grace must have told him at some point.

"So to make things efficient, I decided that I will arrange a game for us next week, so we can get to know each other better."

"By beating their asses?" Novick huffed a laugh, looking excited.

"If that's how you see it, sure." Though Agni wouldn't bet that his team would win against them. "Just keep in mind that you shouldn't underestimate them."

Novick folded his arms in front of his puffed chest. "We'll see about that."

Bam looked a little concerned, but Agni couldn't be sure who he was concerned for.

Agni decided to move on. "I need you all to promise that you will treat everyone equally and do your best in the upcoming game." He addressed everyone, but he said it especially to Gyetang and Dan. He already felt a headache coming from thinking about their fanatic behavior toward a certain princess. 

Dan raised his eyebrow, "Don't we always?"

"Why is this important, cluck?"

Agni mustered his best glare, pulling his lips into a thin line.

"Alright, alright." Dan and Gyetang raised their hands in surrender. Everyone else followed by voicing their agreements.

"Good. I will take your word for it. No going easy, especially not for Endorsi. Got it?"

Dan and Gyetang screeched at the same time.

"Whaaaat?!" "The princess Endorsi, cluck??" 

"No wayyy!! Are we going to meet her in person?! Oh my God!"

"I could never harm her, cluck!"

Agni rolled his eyes, having seen this coming. Really, what did they see in that barbaric woman? "If that's the case, then I will put you two on cleaning duty that day, so you don't have to participate. I believe Grace and I would be enough as a substitute."

"That's even worse, cluck!"

"He's right! I want to see Princess Endorsi in action. It will be so amazing!"

Agni felt his eyebrow twitch, thinking back on the spar he did yesterday with her. Her moves got clumsier the more he riled her up, and that was how he defeated her in less than five minutes.

"I hope you won't be disappointed." Grace replied, to Agni's surprise. "She's good, but she can be a little cold."

Agni saw a hint of sadness in Grace's eyes, and he knew why. She was powerful and had a lot of potential, but it would be a waste if she went down the same path as last time. The news of her betrayal from his own timeline still left a bitter taste in his mouth, and he knew Grace was still haunted by it now and then. It was hard to keep a neutral view on her when he knew what she could become. But if there was one thing he learned, it was that people could change. For better or worse he couldn't predict, but a chance for change was all that mattered for him. With it, he would be able to decide if her future self was worthy of forgiveness or not.

"You're worried over nothing!" Dan replied cheerfully. Soon they began to gush over Endorsi, then slowly devolved into the game brainstorming and strategy.

Bam was mostly silent for the whole ordeal, only talking if his opinion was asked, but he was smiling and listening intently. However, Agni noticed that Bam often glanced at him, specifically when Agni was not talking. He decided to ask Bam about it, and Bam answered that the way Agni used chopsticks reminded Bam of someone. Agni had a good guess on who that might be.

After they finished dinner and said goodbye to Bam, Agni and Grace decided to cuddle in bed for the rest of the night, leaving the others to entertain themselves in the living room. As Agni made himself comfortable under the blanket, Grace paused, not yet turning off the light as he was about to do.

"Oh right, I forgot to tell you yesterday."

Agni raised an eyebrow.

"Master finally agreed to have a spar with me. It's in two days." Grace looked a little sheepish, but Agni knew he was excited. Grace had told him that he wanted to build up his stamina, thus he was looking forward to going all out with Jinsung. "Are you free that night?"

Agni mentally sighed. He would not wish any harm upon Grace, if he could help it. But he couldn't talk Grace out of this, knowing that Grace had made up his mind. At least this time he will be there when Grace needs him. "I can always make time."

"Thank you." Grace smiled and turned off the lights. He joined him under the same blanket, resting his hands on top of Agni in an embrace. "I'm glad that you're here with me."

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[cursedkeyboard]

PAY ATTENTION ● Older brother Suguru & Younger sibling!Reader

what happens when suguru's cute younger sibling, who'd usually talk his ear off and cling to him, suddenly starts to... do their own thing?

Pairings: Platonic Suguru Geto x Younger sibling!Reader

As we know, Suguru is a rather mature teenager

He carries this air of elegance, always putting on a polite smile and spilling pleasantries past his lips like sweetened lies

But we also know that Suguru can be childish around the right people

So it's not a surprise to anyone close to him that when his younger sibling, you, stops following around like a lost puppy, Suguru immediately starts to sulk

You're only three years younger than Suguru, fourteen to his seventeen

You two always had a close relationship, closer than most siblings tend to have

Suguru loves spending time with you, to him, you're easily the funniest kid he knows

It's hard for him to ever calm down completely since he's constantly stressed with the sorcerer world

But every day when he goes home and you're in the living room or in your room, it's like he can finally breathe

Because before Satoru, you were Suguru's only friend

His little mini-me, partner in crime, best friend

You two clicked and moved like one, so in tune with each other he always marveled at how most siblings tend to hate each other

Of course, the two of you do fight sometimes

Over who gets to take a shower first, who ate the leftovers, who gets to watch what on TV

"Did you use my shampoo?"

"The one you keep hiding from me? Yeah."

"You little– That's expensive."

"That's why I used it, Suguru."

You two are siblings after all, what kind of siblings never fight?

But he never felt the kind of animosity and distrust so many brothers and sisters feel around each other, the kind that made them roll their eyes whenever they even got close to their siblings

To Suguru, you're his little sunshine, someone he'll protect until the day he keels over and dies

Not that he'll ever tell you that

(number one rule of siblingship: Never be too touchy-feely)

So imagine his surprise when the little punk who usually follows his every step, always under his elbow, asking him to hang out or help with homework, stays glued to the phone even when he sits in the same room

Like.... what?

You barely greet him, a half hearted "Hey, you're home." falling from your lips without even looking at him, and he's offended and hurt at the same time

You're fourteen, sure

He knows you'd start pulling away from him now that you have more than a couple of friends, more subjects to study, and... uh..

Puberty

But he thought it'd go away after a bit, that you'd go back to being his cute little sibling once you realized he is so much cooler than the kids your age

He'd walk past your open door multiple times a day after coming home, trying to see if you were going to invite him to hang out

He'd make tea with a mouthwatering fragrance, put on your favorite show, talk to your parents about going to a very trendy and fun place you'd surely want to go with

Damn, at some point he'd probably even talk to Satoru on the phone, loudly, because he knows you're curious about the pretty white haired teen who always teases you whenever he sees you around Suguru's home

But even then, nothing

Nothing at all

Suguru feels like he's watching the baby he helped learn how to walk turn into an adult and leave him behind

And as a big brother, he's upset, a little petty, and worst of all;

Sulky

Of course, Satoru and Shoko definitely notice, because although Suguru is quiet, he's not staying in a corner looking out of the window while listening to sad music and reminiscing quiet

And of course, they both make fun of him when he explains the situation

"And here I thought Gojo was the unreasonable one."

"Hahaha! I– I can't believe! You're sulking because the little brat isn't talking to you?!"

"Shut up, Satoru, and don't call my baby sibling a brat."

"Hah! You're such a loser, Suguru!"

Needless to say, when Suguru comes home and you're still glued to your phone in the living room, he's not in the greatest of moods

You barely look up when he drops his bag on the table

"Welcome back, Susu."

And because no one ever made a law saying Suguru can't act like Satoru sometimes, the teen flops on the couch and hugs a pillow, not answering you

That, you notice

Your brother always talks to you when he comes back home, even when he is all banged up from whatever they do at school

The sight that greets you is... something

Embarrassing, endearing, definitely pathetic for your big brother

Suguru is pouting, looking down at the pillow his strangling to his chest, his knees pulled up to make himself smaller

Not that it works, he's built like a bean pole

His shoulders brush yours, because even though he's mad, he still misses his cute– annoying little sibling

"Suguru?"

...

"Mr. Suguruuuu....?"

...

"Hey, what's wrong?"

He turns his face away, his hair slapping your face, and pushes more of his body against yours

"What the– Dude, you're squashing me! Suguru, what's wrong with you?!"

Suguru still says nothing, silently letting more and more of his weight to lower on top of you until you're smushed against the couch

Once you're a baby sibling pancake, Suguru finally opens his mouth

"So now you're paying attention to me, huh?"

... Huh?

"Huh?"

Suguru huffs, his hair all over your face, body much bigger and heavier than yours not allowing you to move an inch even though you struggle, and squeezes his pillow

"No, it's fine. Go ahead, ignore your big brother all you want. It's not like I helped mom and dad raise you."

"... Are you kiddi–"

"Yeah, keep your eyes glued to your phone, don't need to talk to me or don't hang out with me– actually, don't even look at me at all, since I'm sure you'd much rather look at your phone."

"You're being such a chil–"

"No, no, by all means! It's not like I miss you or anything."

You sighed with some effort, because Suguru is still on top of you and he's not a lightweight, and thump your head against the soft couch

Sure, you know you've been a little distant from your big brother

But, hey, you're fourteen now!

You have your friends and stuff you wanna do without your brother around

And, really, Suguru is a hypocrite

Ever since he started high school he wouldn't stop talking about the white haired cutie

Which you understood, if only visually because Satoru would often call you pint-sized Suguru

But he also spends time with other people!

"You do know I have other friends."

"So I don't matter to you anymore, is that it?"

"No, I'm just not gonna hang out with you all the time!"

"Well, you haven't been hanging out with me at all."

"Urgh!"

"Yeah, urgh."

God, you really wish more people knew about how pouty and clingy your big bro can get

Maybe they'd stop thinking he was this mature and chill guy

You groan against the couch and your brother presses his back down, pushing the air out of your lungs

"You're so annoying!"

"You used to say you wanted to be just like me when you grew up."

This guy...

You sigh, relaxing and surrendering

You're supposed to meet up your friends this weekend to watch a movie, but two of them can't make it so everyone gave up on it

Might as well use the opportunity

"Fine– I'm sorry, okay? Do– Do you wanna watch a movie this weekend? The one that just came out?"

Suguru stops for a second, letting some of his weight off of you and allowing you to breathe properly

He mutters the name of the movie and you confirm it

"Hmm..."

You can hear the smile on his face and you scoff, the exact same smile pulling at your lips too

"If you promise you'll pay more attention to your neglected older brother, then yeah."

Oh, you so want to take it back

But then again, now that he brought it up, you also miss him

If only a little

Like, a smidge

"Fine, I won't ignore you anymore. Happy?"

Suguru took a moment to answer before turning around to press a loud and gross older brother kiss on the back of your head

Now you have to take a shower

"Very happy."

He sounds smug and satisfied, finally a little more relaxed

He really did miss you so much

You're his baby, okay? Growing up too fast will only give him heartaches

And now Suguru can tell Satoru that you don't hate him

Everyone wins

...

"Hey, can you get off now?"

"Hmmm, no, I'm comfortable."

"Well, I'm not! Get off, Suguru!"

"Don't feel like it."

"Suguru!"

[snek-disappearedagain]

Hii :) would it be possible to request a Ruggie x Reader? Maybe where Ruggie is sick or something and he acts super needy? Anything would be appreciated....thank you!

Ofc!! I made this a oneshot because I feel like it'd be better written as one, hope you're okay with that!

Notes; Fluff, Gn!Reader, Reader isn’t referred to by any name. I haven’t written or read much Ruggie content, so sorry if I don’t really capture his character all that well! (I also finished chapter 2 in like 1-2 days so I hardly remember anything lol) Reader has no specified dorm

Character; Ruggie

Warnings; There is *one* swear word at the very end

Writing under the cut!

What if Ruggie was Sick?

When Ruggie didn’t show up to class, you just assumed he was either skipping or taking care of something (rather, someone). What worried you is when he didn’t show up to lunch, and he didn’t come and find you once school was out.

Concerned, you decided to visit him in his dorm. You lightly knocked on his door- just in case he was sleeping.

“Come in,” Ruggie answered, his voice sounding more raspy than usual. You came into his room, only to find the hyena curled up in bed- looking very pale. You shut the door and went over to Ruggie, sitting at the end of his bed.

“Lemme guess, you’re sick?” You asked, although it was more of a statement than a question. Ruggie nodded, looking up at you with tired eyes. You sighed, getting up to go get him some tea.

“Wait! Please don’t go, I want you to stay.” Ruggie asked, coughing. You were a little confused, usually Ruggie was pretty independent. Right now though.. He acted as if he wouldn’t live if you left him. It was kinda cute, so much so you let out a small chuckle.

“I love you Rugs, but I need to get you something for your sore throat. I’ll be back really soon though, don’t worry.” You said in a reassuring tone. Thankfully Ruggie was reasonable enough to realize that yeah, maybe you making him something for his throat is a good idea.

You jogged back to your dorm, knowing you had saved some nice tea bags for whenever your friends (or in this case, your boyfriend) were sick. After arriving, you found your stash in the kitchen and chose a lemon tea bag. You made the tea as fast as possible, then put it in a container and jogged back to Ruggie’s room.

When you arrived with the tea, you watched Ruggie’s face light up with joy. You smiled, too, because seeing him smile had that effect on you. You grabbed a cup and poured the lemon tea, the smell was so strong it immediately filled the room. That would probably clear up Ruggie’s sinuses, you thought, handing Ruggie the cup.

Ruggie took the cup with shaky hands, so to avoid him from spilling it you didn’t let go. Guiding the cup towards his mouth, Ruggie took a sip of the hot tea. He smiled.

“Tastes good, you’re good at making tea.” He said, coughing shortly after.

“Thanks, now why don’t you go back to sleep for a bit- And I promise I won’t leave!” You added when Ruggie frowned. He pulled you into a hug, surprisingly you.

“Snuggle with me.” Ruggie asked in a whisper, although it was more of a demand than a question.

“I love you Rugs but I’ll get sick.”

“Please?”

“Ruggie-“

“Pretty please?”

“Fine.”

And so, you slipped into Ruggie’s bed and hugged him, making sure he didn’t cough or sneeze on you. Soon after, Ruggie fell asleep. Afraid you might wake him up, you didn’t leave the bed. You also ended up falling asleep however, a smile on your face.

~

Bonus:

You laid in bed, looking pissed as Ruggie poured you some tea. You were now sick after laying with Ruggie while he was sick, which angered you beyond belief.

You told him you would get sick, but he just had to insist. Curse him for being cute when sick and curse you for having such a soft spot for him.

Thanks for reading!! I know this is incredibly late but I was a wee bit busy- Hope you enjoy nonetheless :D

[sylvctica]

“...Sylvie.”

Their name, which often rolls off his tongue so naturally, felt heavy—poised hands settling down his tea which he has been taking long, tentative sips from. “May I suggest holding a funeral?”

Silence.

"..."

“For Foras…and you.”

He continued, straight to the point and leaving no room for doubt on what he meant. Sylvie is Foras, and yet in many ways…they’re not.

Not missing the way their eyes flicker with apprehension, fingers twitching in a cold sweat—he reaches to cup his hand over theirs. “...Forgive my forwardness, but this has been weighing on my mind for quite some time. Since the Rite of Parting, I've deeply pondered if I could offer the same to you.” The sincerity in his eyes was nothing short of good intention.

…of course at a glance, the deceased in question is still very much alive—talking and smiling as one does. But for those like the Archon who lived through countless millennia, he knew they were a dead God walking. Very few could recall them as Foras, God of Trees and Forests. Otherwise, little traces of them remained in the world. They bled into the casualties that were forgotten and buried in war. If people mourned and searched for them, they would not know it.

So as a consultant—but most importantly as their partner—there was no one better fit for this task than him. Though it is many years late, he believes every being has a right to be preserved in name and memory. Death by nature is cruel, but nothing is more cruel than a forgotten and silent death.

In addition, it would allow some closure for him as well...a time to properly mourn.

In the tides of war, where grief and vulnerability were not allowed, the weight of their death had not dawned on him until it was far too late. And though it all rests in the past now, feeling Sylvie’s essence slipping between his fingers, their own words assuring him in their time of peril ( oh, they were always so selfless, down to their last breath )…it still felt very much real when he thought back to it.

It wasn't hard to miss the weight behind his voice, though his body language long gave away that something was sitting heavy on his thoughts. Sylvie's smile flickered and faltered for a moment as their focus shifted towards him and their teacup came to a rest upon the table they sat at; it was rare for him to initiate serious conversations without prompt.

Although there was no way to predict what he was to ask—never would they expect him to bring up a funeral.

For them.

Something cold spilled through their limbs, like ice sinking through their stomach and leaving an empty hole behind—and it was the gentle touch to their hand that brought some warmth back to the present, though their 'heart' was beating like a fearfully caged bird.

Their tongue nervously darted out to lick at dry lips, mind lost between racing and having absolutely no coherent thought, as if it were frozen.

They know Zhongli means well, it'd be stupid not to after knowing him for so long … so what was this fear within them? That part of their past—Foras—was long left behind, one they've stopped really associating themselves with since that day they woke up from their death, buried behind what was now 'Sylvie'.

So a funeral is thematically fitting, yes.

So why were they so scared?

Perhaps it was the finality of saying goodbye to 'Foras' that scared them more than holding a funeral for their own death. But they wanted that and have wanted to snip that past for a while, so why did it make them want to cry merely thinking about it?

Why did it feel like it was asking to tear themselves in two?

No easy answer came, just waves and waves of emotions that seemed to tear at the seams of their heart, torn between wanting to release, and wanting to hold 'Foras' closer (even if their eyes are closed).

(You wish to know why? It's because a funeral is a finality. An acknowledgement to let go of the memory of 'Foras' they've quietly carried for two-thousand years, buried between their ribcage. To acknowledge, 'Foras' is dead and forgotten to history.)

(A fear.)

(A fear.)

(A fear.)

But, this is not only about themselves.

They know this is for him as well; Zhongli has not had time to mourn, has not been able to afford to do so, not with Liyue on his shoulders. And as years passed, those opportunities dwindled as the feelings slowly eroded and washed away like rivers over stones, dulling them down into something they can shelve far, far behind.

Memories flicker, of the anguish and hurt on his face as he held their body within a dying dreamscape, of the apologizes spilling out amongst sobs they could never imagine leaving him, shaking his body, of the regrets he's had over so many years. When has he ever had time to mourn? For them? For lost friends and companions? For the people of Liyue who had died for him?

They cannot be selfish and hide in their fear, when this was for him too.

Wide eyes moved from staring a hole into the table, to slowly look towards the other god. Their lips parted, then closed as the words seemed to wither in their throat.

"No it's ... I think it might be worth ... the um ... no, it's a good idea." Their voice was quiet, meek, lacking any of their confidence. "Please be slow with me, I ... I want to, but the idea scares me. Silly as ... I feel silly for being so scared of ... burying myself. I'm scared, but I trust you. I trust you."

They trust him to put Foras to rest; the glory of the God of Trees had long come to an end, and it was long overdue to say goodbye to what is now the past.

[keefsteef]

AIN'T TALKIN BOUT LOVE - EP. 1

Citizens of Vanhalenville, WELCOME to Ain't Talkin Bout Love - a pile of rambling that I'm pretending is my podcast, where we talk about ANYTHING but love for our creatures 👺

Just kidding... obviously I love them down lmaooo. This'll be a lighthearted situation type deal. To get this disclaimer out the way, I am not anti David anti Sammy or anti Gary, I'm pro them all, so if I happen to be ripping into Samuel (which I will be 🤣,)that is not a testimony of me believing in David superiority blah blah blah, they're all gonna GET THE SMOKE if necessary. (Especially DAVID 🤣)

🙄. The fact I even have to disclaim that makes me chuckle but you know how it e-is , you always get a select few that suddenly possess all-knowing oracle powers and can tell you who you hate or don't hate 🔥🧠🔥‼️

ANYWAY let's get this shitshow on the road, hello I'm Raeyeon, call me Rae...or if calling me keefsteef tickles your tingle fine🤩... whatever works🤩...

TODAY, we'll be chatting about one of the possible reasons for the notorious "Alexander doesn't speak to Samuel" ordeal that quite frequently makes blog cameos in the form of some snarky joke. But really, it's hard to chuckle at as a citizen of alexanderopolis, because that just means he'll keep hiding from us 😭 kiss seeing him playing drums in the sun GOODBYE, BELOVED...

So to briefly recap it if you aren't aware, Samuel wants to do a reunion (yes, I know without Edward it'd be extremely bittersweet, but nonetheless still a nice tribute) but Mr. Alexander Arthur Van Halen is NOT DOWN FOR IT, and will not return any emails or calls.

I know we can easily put grieving at responsibility for this,which at this point I'm sure is the case, but correct me if I'm wrong, Samuel hadn't been keeping in contact with Alexander even when Edward was still around. I knowwww obviously the drama over the leaving of the band has a huge role, but here are MY PERSONAL SPECULATIONS 😩‼️

Samuel, beloved...I'm not delusional enough to think you'd read this, but talking in the pov that you are...there's plainly things you KEEP TO YOURSELF when you expect to keep a friendship.

The majority of us are probably aware of his book called RED where he spills tea (a bit too much tea in my opinion 😩) and what not, the extreme of it regarding Edward and his drug usage. I also saw the way he went about it to be quite insensitive, it almost felt like a haha let's laugh at this crackhead type of storytelling than a "gee eddies far gone and I feel bad".

I'm SURE he meant it to be more of a feel bad situation, but he's human, humans fuck up and make mistakes.

This was a big fuck up lmaooo. We KNOW Alexander loves his brother, and I personally think that he's well enough of a grown man to not hold a silly grudge over leaving...quitting... kicking out, whatever drama. (I've already shared my THOUGHTS on that fiasco 😭)

I think he's refusing to contact Samuel, because he's probably hurt about the way he aired Edward out.

I would be too. I wouldn't want to talk to anyone that seemed to kick my blood when they were down. Samuel is an INTELLIGENT MAN, so every time I hear him go "lol idk why he won't call me back"

BELOVED 👺👺👺👺🔪🔪🔪🔪, DON'T ACT DENSE!

Obviously...I am a stranger and obviously this is my observative opinion, Samuel could've apologized to Alexander already and in Taurus fashion he pulled a "forgiveness granted, trust and friendship denied" move, but if that's not the case...

SAAAAMMMUELLLLL needs to stop trying to force a music reunion, and instead needs to invite Alexander to Cabo and talk things out man to man. (And maybe take selfies for vanhalenville 😩😩🤩💅🏽🤪)

Neither of them are getting any younger, and it just saddens me to think of the possibility they'll never talk again. But yeah, I see that Samuel has quite the tendency to enjoy opening his mouth and sharing stories...but he really needs to have a bit more awareness about the type of stories he shares.

I'm sure there's things to talk about without getting all down and dirty and personal. Take notes from Michael Anthony 😩‼️

Anyway...this was quite a WAY TO KICK OFF WASN'T IT 🤣. I've been wanting to have a little chitter chatter about this for the longest time, but I wanted to sort of establish myself as a blog first so I wouldn't get "you hate Sammy" accusations 😭

I loooove Mr. Red Rockers curly headed self, but he for real needs to quit playing these games and make things right. An apology, if he's already given it, means nothing when you continue to do what you apologized for.

THANKS FOR TUNING IN 🤩❤️, NEXT we'll talk about Mr. Diamond David Gigolo Tarzan Atomic Punk Whoever Whatever Lee Roth!

I've got some interesting things to expand on about him...word in the STREETS is on the 1978 tour, he was really just a cute cozy little bookworm and all that hooping blabber mouth persona was just that... A persona.

MUAH!

[snowieluna]

So we finished Attorney Woo last night, and wow. It's got me reflecting back on when I worried I might be on the spectrum. Honestly, I don't know if I am neurodivergent in some way. I was thinking for a while it might be ADHD. There are a lot of things that click for both. I wonder if there's some other third option. There are a lot of little things that I've been used to for so long.

I've always been horrible with eye contact. Dad used to complain that it looked like I wasn't paying attention or didn't care.

My reaction time is terrible. There have been times something's spilled and I'm like stuck where I can't move until someone gets angry. Also why I hate team sports.

I feel like I'm always in the way.

I'm terrible with weird food textures. If it's too chewy, I feel like I'll choke and I get anxious. It's what made me not like steak in the past because Mom overcooks it. Mushrooms feel wrong and not like food.

I used to freak if my food was touching, but I've calmed down with that a lot. Same with making food a certain way. Like only circle pickle slices could go on burgers, and they preferably have to be in a flower shape so they take up the most surface area. Long pickles go on sandwiches. Any spread that goes on bread has to cover the whole piece, edge to edge. I can't do sesame seeds on bread. I rip off the crust or pick them off. Tea needs just enough milk so the colour lightens. Cereal needs to enough to be wet - a thin layer at the bottom of the bowl. I can't do pulpy drinks or strawberry ice cream. The frozen seedy chunks are gross. Same for chia or if a powdered drink hasn't completely dissolved.

I'm bad with processing my emotions or understanding what I'm feeling. When I was younger, it was easier to just say I was neutral because also! It's hard to know if I'm feeling the correct emotion. Like what do you want me to be feeling right now? Is it too much or too little? I get overly invested in fictional characters more than real people. I cry so easily.

If I'm feeling too much, it's like I go numb and shut down. I used to hurt myself more when I was overwhelmed. When I was younger, I'd hit my head against my wall because I was upset but felt unallowed or unable to express it. In arguments with JM over something I did wrong again, I'd start to feel like I was floating above my body and that'd worry me. So then I'd press my fingers hard into the edge of my keys, or my nails into my hand, or I'd pick at skin imperfections. Now I'm realizing I was trying to ground myself, but back then, he just thought I was hurting myself, and that made him more upset, which made me feel worse. I'd try to focus on what he was saying, but it would be on small details that I felt I could process, but I was still wrong because I wasn't seeing the whole picture to him. (I still do this when I'm super upset/overwhelmed/whatever.) I wouldn't remember after what either of us had said, only that we were both upset and that it was probably my fault.

I used to hold my breath unintentionally while crying. I think trying to hold back the sounds, but it'd feel like pressure was building.

I can't focus much on stuff I don't care about. I feel like I was only good at school when I was younger because I was a perfectionist and needed good grades. Parents didn't even put that much pressure on me, but once I was doing well, it feels like that's the norm, so I have to uphold that standard. I could memorize enough for tests, but unless it was about specific things I liked, poof it's gone. Do well on tests, be quiet but also social. But not too social! Follow the rules. Be well behaved. Try to be good to make up for the fact that I'm not charismatic or athletic.

I'm really bad at multitasking or doing things in a way that doesn't seem logical. At the lab, I'd get mad because I had a plan for that day. I was going to get x done, but now they want this from me instead. Or I'd have a bunch of samples ready to go with a certain mobile phase. Then a day later, get another that could've gone with the first batch. So I have to wait until I have enough to test together, or it feels wrong. If I'm cleaning at home and in the right mood, I need to get as much done as I can before the energy's gone.

Which leads to me not eating consistently. Because if I'm in the middle of something, I don't want to stop. I'll eat later. Yeah my stomach feels so empty, but I gotta finish. Yeah my meds alarm went off, but I'll just take them later. Gotta keep going before I get distracted and lazy.

I'm not great with time management. I don't know how long I'm going to take unless I break it down. And even then I sometimes underestimate because I feel like I'd be keeping people waiting too long, or just because I need more sleep. Then I space out or stuff comes up, and oh I'm late now. Or I get overly anxious about being late that I'm way too early, or can't focus on anything else but being on time.

Sleeping early has always been hard. I'm convinced part of why I was so depressed in middle school was from sleep deprivation. I couldn't sleep until midnight-ish, then be up by 5:45am/6am. At night, I wouldn't have enough time to decompress in between homework, eating, showering, and planning for the next day. When I got to college and could take afternoon classes, it was such a relief. But the change in environment was it's own form of stress.

I guess this whole rant started was because I saw a post on how Young-woo struggled with the revolving door potentially due to vestibular and propioception issues. It got me thinking of when I go down stairs and it feels like I'm going to miss one and fall. (Plus the anxiety of potentially being embarrassed or hurt if I fell. And the anxiety of I'm backing up traffic and look like an idiot who can't use stairs.) Or the dizzy feeling when I've tried VR or watched 3D movies. Like I need to hold onto something for dear life. How I hate the dropping feeling in my stomach on big bumps in the road or on roller-coasters. (I had an anxiety attack on the last big one I tried. I thought I was going to die.) Trying to visualize a car in the center of the lane has thrown me off so much, so I'm still scared of driving. (Even though I want to try again this year. I'm super scared of trying to park.) I can't ride a bike or rollerblade because I couldn't get the hang of balancing and moving at the same time. (And more of the embarrassment of falling and not getting it right away.)

I can't swim because the idea of water getting in my eyes, nose, ears, or mouth makes me panicky. But goggles, ear and nose plugs feel uncomfortable. The goggles get blurry and I can't see. The nose plug hurts my nose. Ear plugs I can deal with even though they make my breathing and heart beat sound super loud.

Senses are weird. I can't do super bright lights or loud sounds. The sounds if I'm not ready make me feel like I'm drowning. (But weirdly enough, if I'm particularly moved by music, I can feel like I'm drowning, but in a good way. I guess it's like a firm hug as opposed to a crushing squeeze?) Smells don't bother me too much unless it's fish. It can make me nauseous. If a room is too hot and the humidity is off, I feel like I can't breathe. It feels like my nose is stuffed with cotton or like I'm breathing through a straw, and it scares me. I love hugs because they feel safe. My hair being played with is so nice (or pulled if in a spicy setting. Same for spanks.) I like holding hands, but mine get so sweaty. I love dancing when I don't have to think. I love feeling textures on skin, except sometimes I pick without meaning to.

I've run out of steam and I wanna eat something.

[sunnydayjackass]

Chamomile

The brainrot is real also this song makes me think of Jack

"Nobody will understand what we have."

You remembered Jack telling you that before and sometimes it bothered you more than other times. You'd thought you'd resigned to yourself that this just was a thing that simply...was. Whatever you could call this. Inwardly you called it a relationship, the levels of intimacy the two of you had started diving into.

And truthfully, it'd been some time since you'd felt so loved, so safe, that Jack was so caring and compassionate to you. Always checking on you, careful not to cross any of your boundaries, always prioritizing your comfort and feelings. And it felt incredible, the warmth that he brought to your life. Even now, while you were curled into his side on your bed in the cover of night.

But when you stepped out into the world outside your apartment door- nobody else could see him, see him with you. Nobody could hear him speak and you couldn't always answer-running the risk that you looked out of your mind and maybe you were? No. This...JACK, was real. Tangible under your fingertips now that dared to brush a tuft of cerulean from his forehead. You lamented you couldn't take him on traditional dates or hold his hand- not that it ever stopped him from slinging an arm around your shoulders or waist.

You weren't sure if life was blessing you or cursing you. A caring and loving boyfriend but...

"...mmngh...Sunshine...? Are you okay?" Jack groggily rolled over, large arms pulling you closer to nuzzle into your hair. Your hands immediately moved to embrace him back. To hold him close as though to ground yourself. He's here, beside you, warm and solid against you. A soft kiss is pressed behind your ear as Jack sighs and you swallow thickly.

"Y-Yeh...I'm alright. Just...kinda got in my own head, couldn't sleep." Your murmur softly, turning your head to get a better look at him, or attempt to in the moonlight that spilled through your curtains. You kiss the bridge of his nose sweetly in return and it pulls a sleepy smile to his lips before he gives a sharp inhale.

"Something bothering you?... we can talk about it." Jack offers, dark doe eyes opening slowly to gazd at you fondly. He's just so sweet and considerate...you feel your heart clench and warmth bloom in your chest. A smile tugs at your lips as you reach to guide him down for a lingering kiss and Jack's forehead rests upon yours.

"No...no I'm alright."

"If you're not, it's okay. You know you can tell me anything and I'll always be here for you no matter what." It's his turn to brush some hair from your face before pressing a kiss to your forehead, "It's easy to have your thoughts go late at night...why don't I fix you some tea?" Jack offers, propping himself up and already prepared to venture into the kitchen for you.

There's a soft sound of protest from you, almost akin to a whine at the slight absence of his warmth. You flush, a little embarrassed--oh god what if you're being needy?? Or clingy?? Fuck, there goes all those wild thoughts running in a few different directions that make you deflate slightly. Jack notices this, as he notices all things about you- he knows you like the back of his hand. "Oh, Sunshine..." he coos, craning his neck down to steal another kiss, "How about this-- we both make some tea, we put on that movie you like so much, cuddle up on the couch...and when you fall asleep, I'll tuck you right back in."

He's been pretty firm with not sleeping on the couch from the jump. It's sweet but you've slept in worse places or positions.

But the offer is genuine, focused on helping you clear your head and feel better from the hole your own brain has dug of doubts and self worth. There's no judgement to be seen on him, just that same warm soothing smile of Sunny Day Jack. You could almost cry, almost but you don't feel that bad about it anymore. How could you with such an enticing offer and Jack's abundance of affection? You nod and push yourself up from bed, peeling back the covers to pad into the kitchen, Jack's hand in yours in the short walk and your fingers laced together. Or rather more your hand engulfed in his.

But it feels nice. The gesture is comforting even if you can't do it in public. In this moment- you feel whole. As you often do in the private moments with Jack.

As tea is prepared, your preferred blend and choice of additions added just the way you like, Jack walks with you into the living room. You waste no time bundling back up in blankets with him, seated on his lap with your head against his chest, cradling a warm mug between your hands. The TV flickers to light as Jack fumbles a little to toggle over to the correct platform to watch your comfort show before his arms rest securely around your form. Your body relaxes against him and a hand rubs soothing patterns on your back, tracing the curve of your spine up to the nape of your neck as you release a content sigh. A warm chuckle reverberates through Jack's chest. "Feeling better, (Name)?"

You nod your head and give him a far more convincing smile. "I don't tell you enough but...I really appreciate you, Jack." The clown seems to melt at your words a little, blush dusting over the apples of his cheeks. "Thank you." A kiss is placed to the sharp curve of his jaw and it isn't far after Jack carefully catches your chin between his fingers. Carefully angling to kiss you proper and not spill the hot drink in your hands. The kiss is slow and with purpose, proclamation of unbridled adoration and love that he feels for you every moment of his existence.

"I love you, Sunshine."

[allaboutthedongs]

Tell me you don’t love me | 18+

☆ Pairing: Idol!Doyoung x Actress!Female reader Mentions of Taeyong, Jaehyun and Johnny.

☆ Genre: A little angst, a lot of smut, cringy fluff at the end.

☆ Word count: 7.6 K (Sorry not sorry)

☆ Warnings: Dom!Doyoung, oral sex (f and m receiving), guided masturbation, fingering, unprotected sex, rough sex, soft sex, hair pulling, choking, dirty talk, a bit of alcohol consumption, cursing. Just filth, tbh.

☆ Prompt: You had a beautiful relationship with Doyoung until your company forced you to break up with him, so you did even if that meant having to lie and breaking his heart into a million pieces.

☆ A/n: OH-MY-GOD! I'm so excited because this is my very first time writing something on Tumblr, but foremost because I would've never imagined it was gonna be mainly smut!. Also, I guess I just got carried away a little bit too much(?). Please, have in mind that English is not my first language so there might be some grammar/spelling mistakes, but I'm pretty sure you'll still get the whole idea, okay? Since this blog is brand new, feel free to leave feedback, requests, suggestions for upcoming posts, questions, like, reblog, etc. Everything is welcomed (except hate, of course).

You felt a little bit nervous while doing your makeup, but taking a look at yourself after finishing the last touch ups, you were satisfied with what you saw in the mirror, feeling beautiful and confident with that gorgeous burgundy silk dress that hugged your curves just perfect, making you feel sexy but also elegant and sophisticated, first of all, because it was a fancy ass birthday party at your beloved friend Taeyong new house and second and most importantly, because your ex boyfriend Doyoung, was going to be there, it was his best friend birthday, after all.

It was a couple of months ago since you saw him for the last time, one day before you broke up with him. At first, you thought you could deal with the pressure of dating an idol as popular as him, and everything was fine the first eight months until your boss demanded to immediately talk with you at his office. Dispatch happened to be following you and your boyfriend for three months already, taking pictures of you both at your late night dates, him leaving your apartment in the early mornings, and already having lots of proofs that you were definitely dating, they were threatening your company to unveil your relationship to the world since it was easier to threaten and scare a small company than SM Ent.

You couldn't let that happen, at least not now that NCT 127 was having a highly expected comeback and their North American Tour was just around the corner.

Having a dating scandal at that moment would ruin not just your rising acting career, but his career, and one way or another, it'd definitely end up affecting all his members, your acting colleagues, and the staff of your upcoming drama too.

He has always cared way too much about his fans, his idol image and being very careful about never doing anything wrong that could make them feel disappointed, having such a big fandom was a heavy weight on his shoulders and a huge responsibility, but your chemistry was amazing and you both loved each other so much, that for the first time in his life he put himself and his feelings first, so after some casual dates he asked you to be his girlfriend.

But now, you couldn't be that selfish at dragging innocents into your mess, so you "agreed" with your boss that the company would bribe Dispatch for them not spilling the tea and if somehow any rumors came to light, they would flatly deny them all, even threatening about taking legal actions for spreading malicious rumors, but in return of saving both of your asses, they wanted you to break up with Doyoung right away and focus only on your job, no more dating for you.

It was a cold night when you realized that you could not delay the inevitable anymore, you had to break up with him even if that meant that your heart would shatter into a million pieces.

Doyoung was everything you've ever wanted, you just couldn't ask God/the universe for more. Always so lovingly taking care of you and willing to fulfilling all your emotional, physical, and sexual needs. You felt like the luckiest girl in the world for having such a wonderful man like him by your side. You loved him so much that you could feel a million butterflies in your stomach by just simply thinking about him and his adorable gummy smile but, for his own good and all of that love you felt, you knew you had to go separate ways.

You even managed to convince yourself that it was the best for everyone.

Anxiety started building up in your chest while taking your phone into your shaking hands to call him.

"Hey babe, how are you? I've been missing your lips so much all day long." He answered and as soon as you heard his sweet voice, you felt a lump forming in your throat, you could tell he was smiling on the other side of the phone, unaware of what was going to happen next.

Looking up, feeling like already losing the battle of not letting your tears fall, you took a moment to collect yourself before speaking.

"Hi Doyoung, we need to talk. No, I mean, I just have to tell you something." You said in a cold tone, worrying him.

"Y/N, what happens? Are you ok?". He was now panicking, thinking that perhaps you were hurt or something worse.

"Yeah, I'm fine. It's just that..." you gulped hard, "I want to break up". Tears slowly fell down your cheeks. There was no way going back at this point anymore.

"What?" He almost choked on his spit. "Is this a joke, honey? Because, let me tell you is not fun at all."

You wanted to tell him that it was a bad joke and apologize for scaring the shit out of him, but you knew that you couldn't.

"No, Doyoung, I'm being serious, I'm breaking up with you". This was being way harder than you thought.

"Wait, but why?!" You didn't reply. "Did I do something wrong? Y/N, you know you can tell me anything and if something is bothering you, just tell me and we can work on it, together." He sounded desperate.

"No, there's nothing to work on and you didn't do anything wrong, I just can't do this anymore." It was taking everything on you not to cry out loud.

"But why?! Just tell me a fucking reason. What happened, what changed?" He ran his fingers through his hair in exasperation.

"My feelings! My feelings have changed, Doyoung. I thought I was in love with you... but I'm not. I'm so sorry that it took me too long to realize that."

Doyoung felt his heart skipping a beat, it was getting harder and harder for him to keep breathing. "No, no, no! This can't be true! Listen, are you at your apartment, right? I'm coming, we need to talk about this in person."

It hurt you beyond words can describe the way he was trying so hard to understand and get a proper response from you, but all you could do was push him away.

"No Doyoung, don't come over! I don't want to talk or see you anymore. I just have said all that I had to. Please, leave me alone and forget about me!" You said almost yelling at him and hanging up.

Then you proceeded to block him on your phone and all your social media, leaving a desolated Doyoung, feeling like his soul left his body, crying alone quietly, his back against his bedroom door overthinking, asking himself Why did you leave him so suddenly? Wasn't he enough for you? Was it because you were already seeing someone else?

A million questions without answers ran through his head.

The following weeks were hell for Doyoung, it was like the time had frozen and he was living in another dimension. Of course, he had to keep doing his job and keeping up with his busy comeback schedule but he felt like a zombie. He couldn't sleep or eat well, and having to keep smiling and taking cute selfies for his fans as if everything was perfect, was truly killing him inside.

Doyoung had zero interest in attending any party, two months had passed since you broke up with him out of the blue and he already felt like the life and all the energy had been drained of his body, but it was Taeyong's birthday and he couldn't let his friend down on this, besides, he had insisted him a lot about going as it was the perfect excuse to finally have some fun and get distracted from his recently miserable life, even just for one night.

He was chatting listlessly with Taeyong and some other friends in the living room, taking a sip of his drink when he saw you at the entrance.

You were walking into the house, smiling happily at Jaehyun and holding his arm. At that moment he felt as if he had been poured a bucket of ice water.

"Why the fuck did you come to the party with Jaehyun?" he thought. His hands were tingling and it was hard to breathe but he wasn't sure if it was because of the jealousy of seeing you so happy with Jaehyun or because you looked absolutely stunning, like the most beautiful and perfect woman in the world.

Jaehyun and you looked over where Taeyong was standing, greeting him from afar, walking towards him to congratulate and give him his birthday gifts.

As you were approaching the birthday boy next to Doyoung, he panicked and wanted to run away, but all he could do was turn to look at his friend in despair.

"Okay, this is unbelievable. Didn't you say that I could get distracted and have fun tonight? So, why the fuck did you invite her?! Do you even remember how she just dumped me, giving zero fucks about my feelings? I thought you were my friend and you were on my side." he mumbled trying to look calm as possible.

"I'm always on your side, Doyoung. You'll see, I swear." Taeyong said with a chuckle and patting his shoulder, leaving his friend confused as he walked to meet you halfway, hugging you warmly.

"Happy birthday, handsome boy! I bought you a little something, hope you like it." You said with a bright smile, "Also, your new house is huge and beautiful, you have such a good taste. I love it! Show me that painting over there..." and walked with him across the room with an intent to avoid having awkwardly greet Doyoung.

The night was going by without a hitch, everyone seemed to be having a good time, except for Doyoung who was drinking alone, being consumed by jealousy, looking at you with anger from the corner of the kitchen. Never thought he would be able to feel anything like this, but seeing you talking, smiling, and having a good time in the company of other guys rather than him, was making him lose his mind. Besides, he couldn't understand why his friends kept being so nice and friendly with you despite them knowing how bad you hurt his feelings not so long ago, feeling hurt again and betrayed by them. Everything seemed surreal to him.

A week had passed since you broke up with Doyoung when one morning you happened to meet Jaehyun in a cafe. At first, he had every intention of coming to you to tell you a not-so-nice thing or two for breaking his friend's heart, but as soon as he saw you, he realized from your eyes swollen from crying too much that something else was going on and that you weren't having a quite good time either.

A few minutes after you're talking to Jaehyun, trying to avoid his questions, Taeyong came in and saw you biting your lip, hands shaking and trying hard not to cry in front of his friend.

When you heard the door opening, you turned around and looked him in the eyes. At that moment, even without you telling him a single word, he knew that you were suffering a lot and needed their support too.

As much as you wanted to keep the secret of what really happened, you had no choice but to tell them everything, how you felt like the biggest piece of shit in the world, how much you still loved Doyoung and how much it weighed on you to have hurt such a wonderful man like him, but not before making them swear that they would not say anything, to which they reluctantly agreed.

It might have looked like you were having fun just like everyone else, but in reality, you found it harder than you thought being in the same place as Doyoung with every passing second. You felt the urge to go to him, to talk, to ask him how he was doing, although you could easily tell just by looking at him that he was as devastated as you, only you were much better at hiding your emotions than he was, you were a good actress after all.

The music was loud and the laughter in the background was bothering him too much as if making fun of him, reminding him of how miserable his existence was. Just when he thought his night couldn't get any worse and even considering going home, he saw you dancing with Jaehyun a little bit too sexy for his liking and him being a little handsy with you that he couldn't take it anymore, feeling his blood boiling with rage.

Tired of sitting around faking a cool demeanor, you made it to the dance floor with Jaehyun as your last attempt to get Doyoung's attention or at least have some fun.

Jaehyun had always been a really great dancer, so you lost yourselves into the music, swaying your hips back and forth, his hands placed on your waist. It was all fun and games, having a great time with your friend and for the first time in what seemed like ages, you felt like all your worries faded away for at least a brief moment.

Carelessly leaving his glass of wine on the kitchen counter, Doyoung walked over where you and your friend were dancing.

"Hey!" you heard Doyoung's voice, then felt his arm wrap around your waist, pulling you towards him.

"Care to explain why the fuck are you dancing like that with Jaehyun?" He asked you in an angry tone.

Surprised, you raised your eyes to him and the way he was looking at you, his jaw clenched, eyes dark and serious, sent chills down your spine.

"I have absolutely nothing to explain to you, Doyoung. I'm a free woman, and I can dance with whoever I want." You replied to him, trying to collect yourself and sound confident.

"Hyung, calm down. It's not what you are thinking." Jaehyun tried to explain but Doyoung cut him off.

"Shut up, traitor! This is between Y/N and me." and pushed him back.

"Let's go, we have a pending conversation." He said reaching your hand.

"No, I'm having fun with my friends." you protested.

"You still owe me an explanation." Doyoung pulled you from Jaehyun and dragged you straight towards the staircase.

"Doyoung!" You yelled at him.

He said nothing as he led you down the hall, his hand tight around yours and his steps almost too quick for you to keep up with, pulling you into a free bedroom and slamming the door behind you.

Smiling, Taeyong watched in awe the whole scene, proud that his friend finally grew some balls to fight for his girl. The plan had worked out perfectly.

"What the fuck are you doing?!" You told him once he locked you both in the bedroom, taking your hand away from his, harshly.

"I'm the one who should be asking you that! Why out of all the men in the world, you have to come to the party at Jaehyun's arm? And why were you dancing with him like that, just in front of me?" He was really pissed off.

"That's none of your business and I don't have to give you any explanation. Let me remind you that we are over."

"Is Jaehyun the reason that you broke up with me? Are you fucking him?"

"What?! Oh my God, Doyoung, are you drunk?." You were shocked, how could he think that? Jaehyun was your friend and even as a brother to him.

"Answer me! I looked the way he was touching you! Is he fucking you better than I did, by any chance?" He had already lost his mind at that point.

"No! He's not the reason and of course I'm not having sex with him, either. Stop saying bullshit!"

"So, why did you suddenly dump me as if I was a toy that you just got bored of?"

"I already told you. I thought I loved you but then," you paused for a brief moment, looking at your feet. "I realized I'm not."

"I don't believe you." He snapped back with a light chuckle and you gulped.

"Actually, I don't care if you believe me or not."

"Look me in the eyes, and tell me you don't love me." He demanded you, a cocky grin on his face.

Looking away from him, you kept silent. You couldn't do that, not now that he was just a few inches away from your face looking at you with such an intense gaze. Doyoung took a step closer and his hands found the hem of your dress, sliding them down the silky material along your thighs, up to your hips and waist. You tried your hardest not to show any reaction, but feeling your breath quickening inevitably, you only closed your eyes shut at the sensation of his warm hands setting your skin on fire.

"If you don't love me, why are you trembling at the slightest touch of my hands on your body?" He said seductively taking your chin in his fingers, forcing you to look into his eyes.

Suddenly, he smirked while remembering an advice Johnny gave him when you two made official your relationship to your closest friends.

"Man, now that you're finally in a relationship, I'm gonna give you a life-changing advice because as your hyung, I care a lot about your happiness, so listen carefully. A well fucked woman never cheats or leaves you."

At first, he thought Johnny was kidding, being the horny asshole he usually is, but now his words were making a lot of sense to him.

“Doyoung, please stop.“ You said almost like a whine feeling unable to take his gaze on you anymore, but your words were cut off as Doyoung leaned over you, his lips slowly getting closer to yours.

"I guess I'm gonna have to remind you who you belong to." He whispered in your ear and before you could figure out what was going on, he was pushing you against the door, pinning you with his own body, his lips pressing into yours hungrily, trapping you.

At first, you wanted to pull away from him, pushing his chest with your hands but you missed him so much, so it only took you a few seconds before giving up, wrapping your arms around his neck, kissing him back with all your love.

You missed his plumped soft lips, his taste, the warmth of his mouth, the way he ran his tongue over your lip before he nipped it, the feeling of his tongue against yours fighting for dominance.

The kiss was messy and needy, all tongues and teeth. Meanwhile, his hand was working its way down your still covered cunt, his fingers tracing circles around your clit, making you moan softly on his mouth, then pushing your panties to the side, he slid one finger through your slit.

"Fuck, you're already wet just by kissing you. So fucking wet and only for me, baby." Doyoung's expression went from surprised to amused in a matter of a second as the corner of his lips lifted in a proud smirk.

"Yes, only for you." You said biting your lip.

Trailing kisses down your neck to your shoulders and making the straps slide through them, his hands reached behind your back to unzip your dress letting it pool down your ankles, leaving you just in heels and a lace thong in front of him.

His eyes went straight to your breasts and he made a noise deep in his throat, almost a growl, his mouth watering at the sight of them. He took your left nipple with his mouth as if he was starving, nibbling and sucking at your flesh while his hands were roaming all your body, making you moan.

You slid your hands down his body to his belt buckle until you were able to cup your hand on the bulge in his pants, earning a moan from his lips, you quickly undid his belt and zipper as you desperately began massaging his cock.

Letting up a sigh, he pulled out from your breast, dropping to his knees, he removed you one shoe and then the other, his fingertips trailing down your skin playing with the waistband of your thong for a while and then pulled the lacy garment down your legs torturously slow, helping you to step out of it. His eyes were glued to your center as soon as it was revealed to him.

He brushed his lips all over the sensitive skin of your abdomen, kissing every curve.

"Doyoung." You whined.

“What do you want?”

“I want you.” You felt pathetic begging and being so needy for him.

“Oh, really? With the way you were dancing minutes ago, I guess you would rather be with Jaehyun.” He snapped, licking his lips.

"I don't want him. I want you and only you, Doyoung. I'm sorry." You bit your lip and rubbed your thighs together to get some friction.

"Open." He told you when his face was level at your hips.

He propped one of your legs up on his shoulder and your head fell against the door as you stared down at Doyoung attaching his pretty lips to your cunt.

He had you melting into the door, whimpering and harshly grabbing the hair at the back of his head. The harder his tongue worked into your clit, the more you arched your hips towards him, desperate and begging for more. But it's Kim Doyoung the one we're talking about, he really wanted to tease you and drive you crazy, so of course, he wasn't going to give you what you wanted right away. He abruptly stopped and stood up when he sensed that you were about to come on his mouth.

A frustrated whimper leaving your lips. "No! What the -?" You could hardly talk, breathe or even think at all.

"Come here." He took your wrist leading you across the room to an armchair in front of a huge mirror, sitting on it, he just patted his lap and unbuttoned his dress shirt, your eyes tracing over every inch of his abdomen.

"Sit down and spread your legs for me." He commanded while his arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you down, your back leaning against his chest with your legs spread and locked by his.

“I want you to look at yourself in the mirror and do what I say." Doyoung whispered seductively in your ear, nibbling a little on it, one hand making its way down your body.

You nodded eagerly. “I’ll do anything you want.”

He looked awfully pleased with your answer, and you couldn’t believe how hot it was the whole situation. He’d always been cocky about the effect he knew he had on your body, and that was turning you on both so much.

"Good girl. First, I need you to get your fingers nice and wet. Use your pretty mouth.”

You slipped your fingers into your mouth, making sure to keep eye contact.

“I want you to slowly slide your fingers down to your stomach.”

You did as you were told, letting out a sigh and feeling skin on fire.

“Tell me again, who do you want?” Doyoung asked once more, teasing you.

“You, Doyoung.”

“Slide your fingers to your cunt and show me how much you want me. Let me see how you touch yourself.” He challenged with a cocky smile.

You had never done such a thing, but you obeyed him right away crazed with lust and desire, otherwise, you weren't sure if you would be capable of letting him see you touching yourself. You began with slow circles on your clit, biting your lower lip to suppress your little moans.

The contact of your fingers in your heat felt so good, but the way Doyoung was looking at you through the mirror, was the main reason you were turning insane.

"Please touch me, Doyoung. I need you." You were desperate, needy. You wanted him to bring you to your climax, not yourself.

“Stop,” he told you listening to your pleas.

A silent moan slipped your lips at the feeling of his slender fingers entering your now dripping cunt so easily, stretching your walls while his other hand cupped your breasts massaging them.

He moved his lips to your neck, switching between running his tongue over your warm skin to kissing and biting. His fingers curled up inside of you, hitting your g-spot making you gasp hard, leaning your head back and closing your eyes shut.

"I told you to look at yourself in the mirror." He told you with a deep angry voice through his gritted teeth while staring straight into your eyes through the mirror.

His hand left your breasts to grip hard at your jaw to make sure you stare at yourself and what he was doing to you, knowing you were enjoying it because he could feel you clenching around his fingers and getting even wetter than before.

He always loved watching your pretty face all screwed with pleasure while he fucked you, but now watching himself pleasing you just hit different to him. Getting to see the entire picture like in a porn film and knowing that you were also watching him getting off while pleasing you, made things 10 times more kinky but intimate at the same time.

He kept thrusting his fingers inside your pussy at a fast pace, his thumb rubbing your clit mercilessly.

The view was extremely hot and dirty, but addictive. It didn't take you much to begin feeling your orgasm building up again, his skilled fingers working wonders on you.

“Why are you so quiet, baby? Let yourself go, moan for me." He told you biting your neck, his hand let go of your jaw to keep cupping your breast, pinching your nipple, and that was all you needed.

You squirted all over his hand, your body convulsing in pleasure, screaming and gasping, curses, moans and the lewd sounds of his fingers still thrusting inside you through your orgasm filling the room.

"God, you have no idea of how fucking hot you are." He praised you while pulling his fingers out of your soaked cunt and up to your mouth.

"Taste yourself, babe." And you did it, letting your head rest against Doyoung’s shoulder you sucked them clean.

Then, you turned around to look at him and before you could tell, his lips were on yours again, kissing you hard.

"I really need to properly fuck you or I will go insane." Doyoung said making you both stand up from the armchair.

“Please, Doyoung, use me however you want.” You plead to him.

You would have done whatever he asked right now, no questions, willing to let him fuck you as hard and deep as he wanted to, so he pulled you into the bed letting you in all fours and got rid of his clothes.

Excited to be able to feel him inside of you again, you rested your head on the mattress and lifted your ass up to give him a good view of your swollen, glistening cunt.

You heard him cursing at the sight and pumping his length a little before grabbing your hips to line him up to you. He rubbed his tip at your entrance, lubing it.

"Don't tease, please." You whined.

"I'm not teasing you, I swear, baby. I've been wanting this since the very first moment I saw you at the front door". He admitted.

As he finally sank into you, you both let out sighs of pleasure. You thought you were already used to his size, but given the months you were deprived of feeling his cock, you felt him stretching you out like it was the first time, also, he was far from the term "small".

Doyoung set a fast and deep pace inside of you and it had you moaning every time he bottomed out, oversensitive. The way his cock filled you was perfect as always, hitting all the right places.

You grabbed a pillow in a desperate attempt to muffle your moans but before you could even realize it, Doyoung tore it away from your mouth.

“I don’t think so, honey.” He told you reaching around you, relentless with his thrusts and grabbing both of your hands. He pulled both of your arms behind you until he had your wrists linked behind your back, clasped underneath his palm.

"I want you louder, let them all downstairs know I'm fucking your pussy so good like no other could ever do.” He demanded you, leaning forward to whisper in your ear.

It was almost too much, the sound of your juices and his ballsack slapping against your ass were fueling your pleasure that had been built up so much to this point, you knew it wouldn’t be long until you reached a second orgasm.

Feeling you close, already clenching around his dick, he fastened the pace of his thrust even more.

"So tight. You always take me so well, baby." He said between moans, feeling he was about to lose his mind out of pleasure.

Taking a handful of your hair, he pulled your back up to his chest, so you were both kneeling upright. One hand kept grabbing hard at your hip while the other was now around your neck, choking you as he fucked into you insanely hard. You wanted to tell him that you were about to come again, but you couldn't even think, let alone talk. You were an absolute moaning mess.

You leaned your head back in pleasure. The noises he had you making, were louder and dirtier than anything that had ever come out of your mouth.

He was right, indeed. No man in the world could ever fuck you like he was doing and you were absolutely loving every fucking second of it.

The hand that was gripping your hips before, was now rubbing circles on your clit.

“Be a good girl and come for me again." He whispered near your ear, squeezing your neck a little more and that was all it took you to come around him, making him moan loudly as well as he kept fucking you faster and deeper, helping you to increase your high, testing all your limits.

It was the most amazing and mind blowing but also the most terrifying orgasm you had ever had in your entire life.

You cried out in pleasure, your eyes rolled to the back of your head, your whole body trembled, core pulsing hard around him with each intense wave of bliss. You swore you were about to die right then and there, or at least to pass out. So you did.

The one thing you were sure about, was that he got what he wanted. You had been as loud as Doyoung wanted as you could feel your throat raw once you regained consciousness.

Doyoung was close to his own release too, but knowing you were way too oversensitive now to keep taking him, he slowly slipped his cock out of you, making you whimper at the empty feeling, turning you around and placing you down into the bed, letting you rest on your back, but you still wanted to do something else for him.

You got up a bit, so you were resting on your elbows, opening your mouth and sticking out your tongue.

His hooded eyes looked down at you with lust, looking at how you were so screwed but eager to take till the last drop of his cum in your mouth.

His hand jerked his cock harshly, grunting with every stroke until he spilled his cum all over your mouth and breasts. You still dared to pull him closer and lazily suck this cock clean, until you had him begging you to stop.

Letting up a satisfied sigh, Doyoung moved closer to you, cupping your face in his hands, kissing you passionately, still having a taste of himself in the kiss.

"Are you ok? I'm sorry if I was too rough, I guess I just got carried away a little." He asked breaking the kiss, now hovering over you. His usual soft gaze got back again but he looked as exhausted just as you felt.

You nodded at him, smiling. “I love when you fuck me rough, when you just take from me what you want. Is so fucking hot.” and kissed him again.

This was a whole new side of Doyoung that you didn't know before this night.

He always was a good boy, cute, funny, charming, a bit sassy, responsible and hard working. A true gentleman, to say the least.

I mean, is not like you two hadn't fucked a little hard before, but it was definitely nothing compared to this, and you were already willing him to fuck you like an animal again.

"Okay, I'm gonna keep it in mind." He said with a small chuckle, getting off the bed. "Waint a minute, I’ll be right back." and he disappeared in what you supposed was a bathroom. When he came back, he had a wet washcloth and a glass of water that he placed on the nightstand before gently beginning to clean you up, like the prince he is, making you blush.

After he had finished, he discarded the washcloth and settled back on the bed, laying on his side to face you.

“I'm sorry for being an asshole to you tonight. I don't know what happened to me when I saw you with Jae.” He admitted.

"No, don't be sorry. I'm the only one who has to apologize, I..." He cut you off with a soft peck on your lips.

"Shhh, don't say a word. I really don't want to ruin this perfect moment with you. We can talk later, now let's sleep." He told you with his eyes closed and his forehead pressed into yours. He was afraid that you might end up arguing again.

You just nodded at him, letting him get you both into the covers, cuddling. Then, you let yourself fall into slumber with your face on his chest inhaling his sweet scent, while he was caressing your back and kissing the top of your head.

The next morning you woke up with him spooning you and letting soft kisses on the side of your neck and shoulder.

"Good morning, beautiful," said when he noticed you were already awake. His deep morning voice that you loved, making you shiver.

"Good morning, handsome," you replied happily, turning around your head to see him and you found him looking at you with a wide smile and a spark in his eyes.

You couldn't help yourself but kiss him.

He kissed you back, slowly biting your lower lip and sucking at your tongue making you moan. This time the kiss was still heated but gentle and not hurried at all. You both had always enjoyed way too much just kissing each other.

God, you were in love so fucking much and didn't want this moment to ever end.

You felt his fingers sneaking between your legs, and he groaned satisfied noticing your wet folds.

"I can't believe you are already soaking, baby." He said moaning into the kiss, spreading your wetness with his fingers all over your slit.

"It's all your fault." You said boosting his ego.

He kept playing with your folds and clit, still kissing you, determined to drive you crazy once again, but you had other plans in mind.

"I want to ride you, love." Feeling in your ass his cock growing hard, you told him making him stop his magic between your legs.

He sat up, his back resting against the headboard. He licked his fingers before reaching for your hips. Once you were comfortably straddling him, you spit on your hand and slid it down to wrap around his dick that was pressed between your bodies, squeezing it a little.

He swallowed hard at your touch, reaching up to gently brush a strand of hair out of your face. Your hands began to slowly massage his dick, your thumb swiped over the head, causing him to shudder and fasten his breath.

His head tipped back in bliss, feeling like he was about to combust, Doyoung lifted your hips, so you sat up further on your knees, holding yourself above him. After brushing his tip against your entrance a few times, you finally lowered down on top of him.

As you sank down over his dick, you both sighed as he filled you inch by inch. You stayed still for a while, still a bit sore from the last night, but you kept him deep inside.

You slid your arms around Doyoung’s shoulders, holding him close to you. You cupped his face, looking him in the eyes, your thumbs caressing his cheeks lovingly making him smile before your lips found his, again.

He moved his lips from yours to your jaw, then to your neck, sucking a little on the crook, and finally down to your chest, spreading wet kisses all over your breasts, massaging them softly.

Closing your eyes, you arched your back upwards wanting to feel more of his mouth over you. Doyoung slid his hands from your back and hip, to grip into the softness of your ass, helping you to slowly move your hips, up and down in circular movement.

You kept bouncing and rolling your hips, clenching every time you pulled out a bit, really wanting to make him feel at least a fraction of the immense amount of pleasure he had given to you last night and it seemed that you were doing a great job, given the way he looked and the sounds escaping from his lips. His moans were the most beautiful sounds ever alongside his singing.

The slow, soft morning sex with you was his favorite way ever to start a day.

His head tilted back in pure bliss, his black hair falling on his sweaty forehead, his cheeks slightly flushed, his beautiful lips parted open moaning your name softly and his eyes slightly open, just enough to keep looking at you.

You were grateful for the daylight, allowing you to see just how flawless he was, from head to toe.

"I love you, Doyoung," you told him feeling a tear roll down your cheek. It was being too much, so many emotions at the same time and you just couldn't hold them all anymore, feeling overwhelmed. "I love you so much." you said again.

Doyoung snapped out of his pleasure trance at hearing you say that and pulled you closer, wiping your tears away with kisses all over your face.

"I know, baby. I love you too, so fucking much." He assured, hugging you lovingly.

“Hold on,” Doyoung whispered. His hands gripped onto your hips again, lifting you up. You only had a moment of rest before he began thrusting his hips up.

“Fuck,” you practically shouted, your hands slamming up against the headboard behind his head. It took you a little to react and start to move again, meeting him in the middle.

As much as you wanted to keep up with the thrusting, your thighs were exhausted and Doyoung noticed it.

So he flipped you onto your back and he was hovering over you, propped up on his elbows as he continued fucking you.

He made you feel so wanted and loved. The feeling of his delicious cock inside of you was always heavenly, he fitted in the most perfect way, hitting all the right places every time as if your body was made just for him.

Doyoung moved both of your hands so he could lace his fingers with yours over your head. The look in his eyes was so intense, telling you so much without words.

He brought his face closer to yours, letting his open lips hover over yours breathing each other's breath keeping eye contact. He slightly brushed your lips, before capturing them in a passionate kiss as he kept pleasuring you with long, slow, deep thrusts, just the way you both liked.

“Fuck, you feel so good." Speaking on your lips between kisses as he moved his hand to hold your hip.

"You too, baby. Ah! You feel just perfect." You said moaning, making him smirk on your lips. "Faster Doyoung, please."

Quickening his thrusts as he lifted your right leg and let it rest over his shoulder, hitting you faster and deeper. He knew he was hitting your g-spot with every thrust with how you were reacting, your walls pulsing around him, squeezing tight his cock.

“Oh my god, yes! Right there. Fuck! Keep going.” You said moaning with eyes shut closed.

He couldn't believe that someone as beautiful and perfect as you loved him, feeling the luckiest guy.

"So pretty. Still can't believe you're mine, baby." He said caressing your cheek.

"Yes, Doyoung. I'm yours, all yours, forever." You replied him moving your hand to the back of his neck, sliding your fingers through his hair, and pulling his lips back to yours, letting your tongue glide along with his.

"I'm almost there. Where do you want me?" He said breaking the kiss.

"Inside, I wanna feel you cum inside me. I'm close too." You really craved the sensation of his dick twitching inside you and his cum filling you up.

It only took a few more thrusts for you both cum together and you could have sworn that you were in heaven. His body jerked slightly as he spilled inside of you with a deep, low groan, his head buried into your neck.

Later, Doyoung pulled out of you and rolled to the side, collapsing next to you, watching you in awe as your body still twitched with the aftershocks.

"Beautiful. I want to make you come like this every day, for the rest of my life." He said kissing your forehead softly, making you smile and feeling that your heart could explode with so much love and happiness.

After a long, quiet moment where you both just kept looking in the eyes at each other, you finally talked.

"Doie, I really want to apologize for being such a bitch to you."

"No, you don't have to. I only care about here and now." He tried to cut your apologies off again.

"No, please. Let me finish." You said sitting up facing him and taking his hands. "You didn't deserve what I did to you. I was forced to break up with you by my company and somehow I thought it was the best for us, but I just didn't know how to do it, so I figured talking to you on the phone was the best option as I hadn't to look at you, but you were making it harder than I expected... and I treated you so, so bad. I'm so sorry, Doie. Please, let me make it up to you, even if it takes me a lifetime, I know it's worth the try." Tears began to roll down your face, but you kept going.

"I really meant what I told you minutes ago. I love you Doyoung, I love you so fucking much that it hurts, and there are no words in any language that can explain what I truly feel for you."

Doyoung pulled you closer to hug you tight, feeling tears of joy begin to pool in his eyes.

"Forgive me for being such a coward, for taking the easy way out, and not fighting enough for our love, for taking decisions that concern both of us without consulting you and messing with everything." He had you practically sobbing in his arms, caressing your back, and spreading tender kisses all over your face.

"I have nothing to forgive you for, my love. You're right, you should have told me what was happening then, so we could find a solution together, but I don't blame you because I know you only wanted the best for us. Now, the only thing that matters to me is that you love me as much as I love you. More than ever, I'm sure that you are the love of my life and I will never let you go, okay?

He was so considerate that you didn't understand how could you deserve such an incredible man.

"I love you Doyoung, I love you and I will keep telling you till my last breath, I swear." You told him smiling at him, still with tears on your face but this time, they were of pure happiness.

"I love you more, my dear. Forever and ever." Said smiling you back, wiping your tears away with his thumbs.

You were lying naked in bed for a while longer, cuddling, kissing each other lovingly as if the world was about to end.

"Hey baby, as much as I love being like this with you, I'm starving. We should go to the kitchen downstairs to grab something," You just nodded at him, placing a kiss on his temple. "but first, we should take a shower. We are a little sticky." He said scrunching his nose, faking disgust.

Doyoung helped you to stand up from the bed and took you to the bathroom lifting you on his arms on bridal style. He always loved being such a show off with you, and you couldn't help but laugh.

Being in the shower bathing each other, you felt that you weren't just getting rid of the dirt and sweat, but the water also washed away all your concerns, making you feel lighter than ever and excited for this fresh new start, with new illusions and hopes for the great future that awaited you, together.

[oxygenbefore1775]

AoT Warriors' Comforting Methods

cuz lord knows i need my comfort characters to comfort me (here's some sunflowers cuz they're happy flowers)

Annie

as a person who very much values her personal space Annie would never try and force her comfort on you, only if you would ask her

doesn't cross your boundaries and doesn't get too imaginative with her consolation — she would only do things that she knows for sure would relieve your stress

Annie prefers actions over words so expect her to bring you your favourite food/drink or take you to your favourite place in the city to un-wind there

doesn't say too much and prefers that you talk at her rather than to her about the reasons for your distress

and if she talks, it'd be short snippets of encouragement, urging you to continue

giving a piece of advice is a big no-no for Annie — she doesn't want to restrict you with her opinions

Bertholdt

don't seek comfort from Bert — he wouldn't understand what you want from him exactly

Bert cherishes you and if you are stressed out, he would try to solve the problem that puts so much pressure on you (even though you didn't ask him)

as your friend, it is his job to support you so he would try and show his dedication to you via problem-solving — but in the slightly off-putting way

so he would arrange a whole case-study for you — presenting you with the worst case scenario to your problem and assure you that there's nothing to be worried about and if there is, Bert would be there to help you

Bert is trying to comfort you but to him problem-solving is the way to comfort you

he's not very eloquent with words so the most comforting phrase you would hear from him would be "it's gonna be alright"

Colt

an absolute joy to be around whenever you feel down

there's no need to confide in him — Colt is able to pick up on your distress right away

would make it his mission to make you feel as comforted as possible by using words of affirmation

but his eagerness to put you at ease may end up a bit agressive — Colt would shower you with kind words of how talented, brilliant, amazing (etc.) you are without giving your ears a break

with that praises you would immediately feel better and gain confidence and energy to go through your day

Pieck

if anything, Pieck's comforting methods combine words of affirmation, a piece of advice and un-winding together

Pieck's first call would be to distract you from your worry by offering to do some other activity so that you are cheered up

after that, she would try to comfort you with her words in an attempt to put you at ease

on this day Pieck would like you to feel as happy as possible

but her comfort is a double-edged sword because after that pampering session she would want you to gather your strength for the last push

Pieck is not that comforting, she's more of an inspiring type

Porco

turns into a total chatter-box/gossiper when he's comforting you and lends a sympathetic ear to you

a cafe would be a perfect spot for your comforting session since you can also indulge yourselves with sweets there

Porco wants you to spill all the tea about your day and things that've upset you — with all of the juicy details

Porco is your personal (slightly toxic) cheerleader, swallowing your every word and praising you for even the slightest display of self confidence

"Yes, you tell them!" Porco would yell out occasionally while listening to you, "They don't deserve you. You're the most brilliant person alive and you must know that!"

there's not much of advice to his words but at the end of the day you would feel like the most valuable human being that has ever walked this Earth

Reiner

being a huge cuddle bug that he is, Reiner is all about the touch

even he is not too skilled with words, a warm embrace (especially if it's coming from Reiner) is worth infinitely more than words of affirmation

so Reiner would comfort you with his big bear hugs or just by holding your hand — the main thing is, Reiner would make sure that you can feel his body heat radiating on your skin

you two may indulge yourselves to a movie night — your favourite film set on TV, the couch littered with all sorts of snacks, and you, warm and safe in a cradle of Reiner's arms

no matter what challenge is posed against you, Reiner has infinite amount of faith in you and your inner strength

Zeke

concept of comfort is foreign for Zeke — all throughout his childhood his inner turmoil was ignored by the adults and he learned to deal with his problems by himself

so it comes as a surprise for him once you come up to Zeke seeking his piece of advice and comfort

but Zeke learns to love helping you — the fact that you deemed him qualified enough to ask for his help is extremely flattering to him and his cognitive capabilities

comforting is still not his cup of tea — the timing doesn't come to him naturally and you have to let him know about your distress

Zeke prefers words over actions and while comforting you he would still aim for actually trying to solve your problem instead of offering words of encouragement

[hillbillyoracle]

Old Lammas Honey

With the bees doing better, I was hoping the honey stand would be restocked and planned to buy some for possible ritual use on Sunday in Sun hour while the sun is in Leo. This aligned nicely with @graveyarddirt 's Old Lammas Weekend suggestions. While I'd originally planned to get it during the second sun hour as I normally sleep in, I crashed around midnight and couldn't get more sleep after 4am. So when the sun was up, so was I.

I anointed my hands with a solar perfume from Sphere + Sundry named Good Health and, as often happens for me with magical workings, spilled some extra as I was applying it. I scooped it up and used it to anoint my feet as well - why not?

Pulled the money to pay for the honey out of a ritual prosperity box I have, hoping it would bless the bee keeper and hopefully help him keep his bees.

It's a gorgeous morning here. Cloudy but the sun still piercing through. I was spacing out a little when I heard a loud crunch and was greeted by one of my parents' donkeys trying to debark an overturned log. Not mentioning because it's magical, just real cute.

Said hello to the bees who were already up and working hard at the bee food station. It'd been dragged closer to the driveway since I last saw it so I think the bee keeper had been by to refill it on his way to work.

I figured on my walk over that just attempting to get some honey could suffice as solar devotion even if there was none to buy. But as I got closer I saw it had been fully restocked! I grabbed their biggest size - a pint Mason jar. It was slightly lighter than the others in thr box so I'm interested to see how it tastes.

I paid for it and very excitedly walked it home for a photoshoot with the hops vines.

I anointed it and the candle with the solar perfume and set it up to burn down in consecration with my rosary (bought Mercury day, Mercury hour; for magical workings like these) and my grandmother's Mary statue. I found it in her old room when we were hiding out there from not one, but two simultaneously tornados that struck the county the day after we moved in. It brings me a lot of comfort. It's also sitting on the ledge under my grandparents giant sun mirror which I didn't realize until I stepped back to take a picture. I've loved that thing ever since I was little and it feels nice it's watching over the little honey jar now.

My hope it to use it mostly for general workings for good health but I also want to try making a solar scrub with it to use for purification around solar eclipses. I don't have a bathtub in the house (not sure what my family's beef wiyh bathtubs is lol) so I can't do the baths I was doing. Thought a scrub would be a good addition I could still rinse off in a shower.

Also plan to use it through the winter in teas and treats when I feel like I might be coming down with something or seasonal depression sets in a little too strong.

But we will see. I'll try to report back on it if I manage to use it for things.

But just getting it was a lovely experience. I don't do much solar work but it's always a treat when I get the chance.

ETA: we don't drink any more but I had some spiced rum I'd been keeping tucked away for an offering. Saw it as I was taking the dog out, realized it was narrowly still sun hour, so I poured it out by the lemonbalm patch and thanked the Sun. Didn't want to be a mooch you know?

Probably won't be buying any more alcohol for ritual use but I'm glad the last bit finally found a use after 2 years of sobriety.

[astaroth1357]

AYE requests briefly open you say? Then here ya go: MC (female or gn) turns into a child for a day courtsey of Solomon (maybe around 5) with the Brothers. I think it'd be adorable, what with finger painting on spell books and things, but there ya go!

The MC is Now Five Years Old, Thanks Solomon...

Oh boy…. A little kid in Hell sounds like a train wreck admittedly, but at least they'll have some pretty strong guardians right? I heard It'll Be Okay by SMLE & Helen Tess and decided that was JUST the feel this sort of request needed.

Intro:

Solomon really doesn't mess up spells often. He's been doing this for a while (at least as far as my headcanon is concerned) so he's gotten pretty damn good at magic over the years. It takes a looot to make him mess up. Like say, a natural disaster, an unexpected surprise… or a whole-ass MC getting knocked into what sigil he's using at just the wrong time. Yeah. That'll do it.

How in the world is he going to explain this to the brothers…?

Lucifer

His anger toward Solomon is quite severe… tempered only slightly by how utterly adorable kid!MC is. (Well all know he's got that soft spot for cute things 🤭) It reminds him so much of his brothers at that age…

The man basically reverts back to being Dad!Lucifer sooo fast.

He's the one tying their shoes, checking on them throughout the day, making sure they're not running with scissors… that sort of thing.

Weirdly enough he's not that bothered by it… In fact, his brothers find it a little unnerving just how at peace he seems when he's keeping track of kid!MC doing this or that… It's like he's just put on an old pair of gloves and found out they still fit.

Speaking of his brothers, Lucifer can't turn off "Parent Mode" so it starts spilling over to them too...

When he started telling Levi "It's bedtime" and used a napkin to wipe Beel's face for him in public, they decided to hold an informal intervention. They're grown demons now, damnit!! 😖

Mammon

The first thing kid!MC did when they saw Mammon was fling themselves at him while screaming "MAMMIE!!!" at the top of their lungs… Regardless of his confusion, the man could probably die happy now.

He only gripes a little bit about being saddled with babysitting duty… Because everybody knows he's not the babysitter now. He's the playmate.

"Mammie, I wanna play House!!" "I ain't playing House with ya, kid. How 'bout Tag?" "No way, you're too fast!"  "Hide'n Seek?" "Luci said we can't play that no more…" "Well don't hide in the oven again!" "You didn't find me!!" "That was the problem!!!"

Pretty much the Man-Child/Actual Child Duo. He's perfect for keeping up with them and they'll whine incessantly when they can't find him for too long...

Totally the brother to take them to the amusement park or really any of those super fun places kids love. He will be just as excited as they are to be there, too.

It's not uncommon to find Mammon passed out on a couch or something with an equally exhausted kid!MC sleeping on his back. The two can really wear each other out…

Leviathan

He's probably the least perturbed by this change. Sudden de-aging of characters is a pretty popular anime trope, after all...

He's not all that taken with kid!MC though to be honest… Largely because he's too worried about keeping his stuff out of their grubby mitts. 😖

"Levi, what's this?" "GAH! Don't touch that!! That's my limited edition Ultra☆Rainbow Witch figurine!!" "I wanna play with it, though!" "It's not a toy!!" "That's not fair! You have nothing but toys, Levi!! You need to share!!" "NO I DON'T!!!"

In those times where Lucifer forces him to share, Levi goes full neat-freak. He handles all the discs and games himself, everything gets practically sterilized, and kid!MC HAS to wash their hands before they touch ANYTHING (especially the game controllers). He ain't risking any random kid-gunk getting on his precious possessions… 😰

He does enjoy playing games with them well enough, at least. No one's going to pass up a game of Devil Kart after all!

Sometimes he'll let them win just to see how happy they get… Though, then they start getting a big head about it so he has to remind him who the actual gamer is with another string of losses... Sucks to suck, kid! 😌😏

Satan

… You know, five year-olds ask a lot of questions… A looot of questions…

"Satan, what's that?" "An umbrella. You use it so that rain doesn't get on you." "Where does rain come from?" "Evaporated water collects in the atmosphere and-" "Is rain like the sky peeing?" "...." "Satan? Does your face hurt?... Satan?"

Please Lord, they may not be on speaking terms, but someone has to have mercy on his patience...

In truth, Satan's kind of charmed by how curious kid!MC is, he just wished they'd listen more to his boring explanations…

"Satan? Why does everyone listen to Diavolo?" "Lord Diavolo is like a king to us demons." "Where's his crown?" "He doesn't wear a crown." "Oh… You don't wear a crown and people listen to you. Are you a king too?" "I mean, you're not wrong… 😏" "Satan, get back to work."

Eh, maybe having a little MC isn't all that bad. They don't lie, after all. 😌

Asmodeus

OMG he hasn't seen a child this cute since the twins were in diapers!!!!

If Mammon isn't around then Asmo takes over babysitting duties (like an actual babysitter) and he's more than happy to do it. It reminds of him of taking care of baby Belphie!

If kid!MC has any interest at all in makeup then he's happy to foster it. He won't give them the good stuff of course, but he'll show them how to do blush, eyes, lipstick, nail polish, whatever!

He also dabbles in a bit of facepaint so do they want to look like a kitty, panda, or dragon? He's got them covered.

Asmo just likes to let them be creative in all forms, really. He's going to be the one to break out the paint and markers and just the kid!MC go to town! (hopefully not on the walls…)

Takes pictures of whatever they draw, good or bad, and happily displays them to everyone. There's not a big enough fridge to hold all the art he's going to collect (and zealously protect).

Beelzebub

Playmate #2 right after Mammon, but he's the less excitable, more responsible one.

"Beel! Beel! Watch me jump off this slide!!" 😰 "Please don't… You could hurt yourself… You slide down slides. That's why they're called that." "*GASP*... That's right! You're a genius!!" *sits back down* "Not really, but thank you." 😊 *waits for them at the bottom*

If the MC is with Beel, they're doing one of two things. Either they're playing together or gorging themselves on junk food.

Beel actually likes "domestic" games like House and Tea Party because it's an excuse to raid the kitchen. He'll play "house-husband" all day as long as he gets to actually eat at every imaginary dinnertime.

He'll play active games too, of course. Especially action-oriented ones like "Cops and Robbers" or Superheros. No one's better at roughhousing than Beel! Though he'll go easy on them, cause they're small and all… 😅

Everyone can always tell when Beel's in charge of them because he carries them around on his shoulders. He's the tallest one of the family so it's like getting to be a giant!

Belphegor

Belphie was introduced to kid!MC when they started crying during one of his naps. They couldn't wake him and they thought he was dead… Followed directly by them declaring their tears were magic when they noticed his eyes opened.

He proceeded to close his eyes again and purposely play dead just to get them all worried again. It was the smile creeping up onto his face that eventually gave him away… 😏

He likes to play with kid!MC and Beel but he's not going to let it get in the way of his nap schedule or anything. When they play "Knights" he gets to take the role of the world's laziest dragon… Rawr.

Kid!MC will only settle down for naptime if Belphie joins too since he'll read them a book like he used to do with Lilith.

Satan's usually the go-to guy for storytime, but Belphie's a close second (largely because he just imitates what he remembers Lucifer doing for him, voices and all 🤭).

He deals with their myriad of questions by just making shit up and pretending he knows what he's talking about. It's around the time that he told them that little men live inside the freezer and shave ice cubes to keep things cold that Lucifer started getting on his case about it… Killjoy. 🙄

[angstyaches]

you asked for fluffy boys and seratonin, and i know you meant the cats, but i have come to bring fluffy boys in another form… and shayne is basically a cat, isn’t he? anyway, mmm, i love the idea of shayne bundling post migraine charlie into a hot bath and just washing his hair and massaging his scalp while charlie dozes. he’s so tired and muzzy that he doesn’t notice shayne draining the tub until he feels the soft tickle of fingertips brushing his cheeks and hears shayne’s voice telling him he needs to wake up long enough to get out. he stands dripping wet on the cold tile and shayne wraps a towel around him just as he starts to shiver in the cooler air. shayne dries him off and helps him into a tshirt and underwear and tucks him into bed with a kiss on his forehead. he sleeps for a couple of hours and when he wakes up and shuffles into the living room, shayne pats the spot next to him on the couch and passes over the cup of tea he’s been sipping on. he asks if charlie’s hungry because he knows his tummy is empty but isn’t sure if it’s settled enough for anything solid. when charlie says he can try something, shayne brings him a package of plain biscuits and they snuggle up together, limbs and spilling out from under a throw blanket that’s too small for one person and much too small for two. charlie finishes shayne’s tea and nibbles at a couple of biscuits and shayne plays with his hair absentmindedly while they murmur to each other, charlie fondly reassuring shayne that he’s alright. they fall asleep like that and the tv continues to play in the background, volume low and subtitles still blinking along the bottom because shayne hadn’t spared a thought to change it after charlie woke up.

God, this is so beautiful, I've read it so many times and I have so many thoughts.

shayne is basically a cat, isn’t he?

Yes, very much so lmao

Ahhh, the way you described the whole bath scene was so perfect. I love the idea of Charlie being so out of it that Shayne has to do all of that for him. It'd probably kill him to just leave Charlie alone in bed after all of that, but he knows from past experience that having somebody crowd him or unsettle the mattress might just trigger a whole lot of nausea, so he leaves the bedroom door open and goes and sits downstairs.

passes over the cup of tea he’s been sipping on.

(Off-topic, because my brain is always wired for Shayne whump, but: Shayne being so restless and worried about Charlie that he starts feeling knots in his own stomach, and that being the reason he went and made himself some tea?)

he asks if charlie’s hungry because he knows his tummy is empty but isn’t sure if it’s settled enough for anything solid.

This is so cute and would probably involve Charlie's stomach making some kind of ambiguous gurgling noise while he takes a few sips of tea, prompting Shayne to ask him if that was because he's hungry, or because he's nauseous. Even in his still-woozy, spacy state, Charlie would feel a little bit flustered about it, but he'd mostly just feel very loved and taken-care-of.

charlie fondly reassuring shayne that he’s alright.

I think what I love most about writing these two is how they're constantly more worried about the other than about themselves. Charlie can't help noticing the way Shayne's eyes keep glazing over as he looks at him, the way that he keeps forgetting what they were talking about.

"Hey," he'd whisper pointedly, waiting for Shayne to make proper eye contact. Then he'd give him a half-smile, looking incredibly tired but also incredibly Fond™. "I'm okay. I promise."

and shayne plays with his hair absentmindedly while they murmur to each other

they fall asleep like that and the tv continues to play in the background,

This. Just. ALL OF THIS.

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P.S. Anon sent another part, following on from where I wrote “Hey”...

[shmaptainwrites]

Ok so im a bubbly person and I laugh a lot I laugh at pretty much anything. I was wondering if you could do steve x female reader oneshot where steve cracks jokes or does things just to make y/n laugh, because he loves to hear her laugh. If that's not to much to ask because I'm in my soft feels please and thank you

yeah i could do a little blurb for this :) super cute prompt 😫

Steve loved a lot of things; he loved sitting by the ocean, his mom’s grilled cheese sandwiches, watching nature documentaries narrated by David Attenborough, but something Steve loved more than anything was the sound of your laugh.

He’d never tell you how much he loved it, no, he’d spontaneously combust before that happened.

But that didn't stop him from doing everything in his power to hear it.

Little did you know when he'd say,

"Hey (N/N), I have a joke here for you,"

All he wanted was to make sure he'd hear that gorgeous sound.

"Alright Steve what is it this time?" you asked, sitting down across from him and you could already hear him chuckling underneath his breath as he looked on his phone.

"My friend thinks he's smart. He told me an onion is the only food that can make you cry, so I threw a coconut in his face,"

You snorted, almost spitting out your tea, not expecting that turn and such a quick punchline to the joke.

"Steve," you wheezed, placing your mug on the table so you didn't spill your drink. Placing a hand on his shoulder, trying to catch your breath from laughing. "Oh God that caught me off guard,"

"It was a good one wasn't it?" he chuckled.

"Yeah a really good one."

You weren't aware that whenever he'd ask to watch comedies with you, or even the stupidest videos on YouTube, or these things you'd told him were called Vine compilations it was all just to hear you laugh.

Soon you started to just relate being in Steve's presence with that warm and fuzzy feeling you got when you were happy, because that's all he seemed to want to make you feel, happy.

So one day you decided you wanted to repay the favour.

"Steve, I think I've got something for you," you said.

"Really? Paperwork?" he asked, assuming it was work related.

"No, a joke," you grinned.

"Oh really?" he smiled, leaning forward on the kitchen table. "Alright, show me what you've got darlin',"

"Okay, wanna hear a funny joke from the 1930s?" you asked with a cheekily raised brow.

"Sure as hell," he nodded.

"The Maginot Line," you said simply, pursing your lips, hoping he would make the connection.

And for the first time you really paid attention to the sound of his laugh, often to engrossed in your own happiness to admire the deep baritone sound, but you loved every second of it and for a minute you wondered if maybe this was why Steve told you all these jokes, watched all these things with you.

Did he like your laugh as much as you liked his?

"Hey Steve," you smiled, still taking in that wondeful sound.

"Yeah (N/N)," he nodded. "That was a good one,"

"I thought so too," you chewed your lip. "Hey do you... Okay this is a weird question, but do you like making me happy?"

"Of course," Steve nodded without hesitation.

"Well then why don't I give you a hand," you suggested coming closer to him. "It'd make me ecstatic if you kissed me,"

"Well then I have to do it don't I," he responded with a very appreciated bit of cheek.

"Oh yes, of course," you nodded vehemently, wrapping your arms around his neck.

He leaned down carefully, pressing his lips to yours, a helpless chuckle escaping your lips, but he didn't mind. It was his favourite sound afterall.

[planetdream]

HI BESTIE I'M BACK

Literally the moment I wake up I was so fucking horny 😭😭😭 but I had to attend classes 😃 so now I'm just holding the horny back until I can go back and properly deal with it 😌

Also hi how was fucking a few people with Scorpio placements spill the tea pls huehuehue (it's absolutely sacrilegious but I'm a Scorpio Dom and I'm turned on 24/7 but never had sex before ☠️)

*Jolts down Scorpios x breeding kinks for research purposes* I mean I sadly don't have enough Scorpio friends to interrogate so ☠️☠️☠️ but good to know 👅

NO RIGHT. LIKE THAT MAN. I'M SORRY BUT I CAN SNIFF THE SCORPIO FROM HIM LITERALLY A MILE AWAY. Like I usually associate us with a cat because we're just so unpredictable and ✨mysterious✨ so him being a literal cat dad is just perfect

!! Yes exactly! Seungmin is 100% the type to do something and say another and he'll enjoy watching you be so confused while melting in his hands because there's nothing in that brain of yours, huh? Even though he's full out degrading you his hands are just edging and overstimulating you so you're confused, and he takes advantage of that to give you a command but because you're so fucked out you didn't answer and as punishment you don't get to cum

Meanwhile Minho is just more mean in general. I feel like that man's main goal in life is to make you cry in sex and it sounds so fucked up but honestly what a Scorpio thing. Like crying in sex?? With Seungmin it'd be because you're overstimulated and tipped over the edge and it's just overwhelming for you, but with Minho it's because he's been using you so rough for god knows how many hours and he fucks your mouth so well the tears gather in your eyes

Ooh yes confusing their baby sub and be like 'oh you think you can take advantage of us baby? Well too bad the game doesn't work that way' hehehe

My mind is ✨amazing✨ omg yes that's a blessed image to have 😫😫😫 also 2min?? More like 2mean

- ♏

hi bestieee <3

waking up horny should be illegal tbh like it happens to me so much 😭😭

so here's the tea: i've had both sexual and romantic relationships with people that have very (and i mean very) similar natal charts/placements as a few of the idols i talk about on this very blog (and a few idols that i haven't spoken about lol) and idk i find that so funny.

but on the topic of scorpios I've had relations with... unfortunately one of my favorite scorpios didn't have a spit kink :( but he does have a breeding kink and was very adamant on coming inside of me lmao. scorpios are rlly good at dirty talk too, they just know exactly what to say. a lot of the scorpios (and the libras!) that i've fw also do not like sharing like.. at all. but overall, very fun sex. tiring but fun. scorpios are just rlly rough and idk sometimes i'm a fragile bitch and i like to be held 💔💔 (which is why i be with libras so much lol)

and 2min!!! (love 2mean lol) you said it better than me bestie !! they're so mean but it's just so right ya know?? i think they definitely complement each other and i need them so fuckin bad 💔💔 but yes !! they both like to see you cry !!

[kyosohmastan]

Can you by chance write a fic on where Tohru experiences jealousy when someone is flirting Kyo? I think it'd be interesting for tohru to feel that emotion 1st hand and not knowing how to deal with it and feeling guilty about it. I've seen so many fic where Kyo gets jealous, but very few where it's Tohru. You don't have to if you don't want to, I just thought I'd ask

I like that idea! I came up with this so I hope you enjoy!

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She was hit with a heaping sense of nostalgia when they got to Shigure’s house. She hadn’t seen the place in about a year, and along with it, so many memories came to her. She’d never seen it like this though, with all of their old classmates there.

It was a reunion party for her class, and she had been looking forward to it. Yuki had organized the event with Shigure on his property, even though he couldn’t be there because of college exams. She was just happy to have a chance to see the house again, although the party was deeper into the woods. She only saw it at a distance.

Additionally, she was happy to have an excuse to see Arisa and Saki. They lived so far from each other that it was difficult to meet up. She had missed them so much.

They greeted her with hugs when they saw her while Kyo stood beside her awkwardly, only nodding his head toward them as a form of greeting.

“It’s been too long. You gotta fill us in on everything!” Arisa said, holding both of Tohru’s hands in her own. Her thumb ran over the ring on Tohru’s finger. It was small but beautiful just like her. “I still can’t believe it.”

“Me neither, honestly,” Tohru said with a bashful smile. She wrapped her arms around Kyo’s lean bicep and leaned against him. The tension left him as soon as she did so. “I guess the next time I see you guys will be for the wedding.”

“No way! We’ll visit you sooner to help pick out the dress. There’s no way we’re missing that,” Arisa said sternly.

“That’s right. Her dress must meet our approval,” Saki added.

“Ah, if you guys can help me, then please!” Tohru replied, excited for that day to come.

Arisa nodded. “But in the meantime, Carrots has to help you with the rest of the wedding planning since we won’t be there to do it. Although, it’s hard to picture him contributing to such an event with a lack of masculinity.”

Kyo clenched his jaw. “It’s not like I’m going to let her go through all that work alone. Of course I’m going to help her, stupid Yankee.”

“Excuse me,” Arisa muttered, her almost non existent brows drawn together. “I can still whoop your ass if I wanted to.”

Tohru giggled nervously. It was great to think that nothing changed between all of them, even though she wasn’t all for such violent threats.

“Hold up!” said a boy that she recognized as Hiroshi. “Did I hear wedding?”

“Yes,” Tohru answered, a blush tainting her cheeks. “We’re engaged.” Her arms left Kyo’s arm and she held his hand. He looked down at her, blushing as well, but the softest smile was on his face.

“No way!” Yusuke said, now joining their circle. “I knew you guys were close so I should have expected this but...I guess it’s just hard to imagine Kyon-Kyon getting married.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?!” Kyo growled, releasing her hand and clenching it in a fist.

“Just teasing...” Yusuke laughed. “You still get worked up so easily.”

“I do not!” Kyo snapped. But to Tohru, he was being contradictory. She didn’t mind. She found him adorable even when he would get irritated. Not that she wanted him to...

“Whatever,” Kyo mumbled. “I’m getting a drink. You want one?” He asked Tohru.

She nodded, giving his clenched fist a squeeze. “Iced tea, please.”

He smiled briefly, kissing the top of her head before he left to the food and drink table. His kiss was tense, and she knew it was because he was timid when it came to being affectionate in front of others, but she appreciated the effort of the gesture anyway. Overtime, the PDA had gotten easier for them.

“Let’s go mingle. You should join us, Tohru,” Saki suggested.

That sounded appealing to her. She was sure Kyo would catch up to them. She followed alongside the girls, stopping when they reunited with a group of their old classmates, and she greeted all of them.

She saw Kyo out of the corner of her eye getting their drinks, but he wasn’t alone. Three girls flocked to him, and she recognized them. They’d never taken fondly to her, particularly because Kyo always liked her and ended up choosing to be with her. She recalled the scrutiny she got from them soon after they started dating. She knew it was out of jealousy, and it’s not like she didn’t expect it to happen. Kyo was handsome...more than that, he was beautiful. And though most of the girls at their school had their eyes on Yuki, she couldn’t help but notice how a few of them also acknowledged Kyo.

She wasn’t surprised that was still the case. He’d gotten prettier in the past year, bulking up quite a bit due to all the martial arts classes he’d been teaching at Kazuma’s dojo. She wouldn’t have been concerned about girls taking notice of him. She would never want to control who he sees or talks to. It wasn’t like her. However, it was the way the girls acted around him that made her feel uneasy.

One of them put her hand on his forearm, the touch soft enough to not count as evasive. For a moment, Kyo just froze, paying attention to the girl who was chatting with him, until he slowly drew his arm away from her and seemed to pretend like it never happened.

Tohru sighed to herself. At least he didn’t seem to cave to her advances. Not that she would think he would. She knew he was loyal to her, he promised he would be since the day he proposed to her. She was grateful for that.

Still, the nausea she felt seeing such beautiful girls dote on him didn’t fade. It was similar to how she felt when she thought her dad was stealing her mom away from her. Maybe not as severe, but it wasn’t a good feeling nonetheless.

She felt the need to intervene, even though she wanted to give him space and room to talk to whoever he wanted to on his own. She didn’t want to be that type of girlfriend...or fiancé.

She sucked in a breath and went to him, instantly intertwining her fingers through his. “H-hi,” she said to the girls timidly.

They examined her, or rather leered at her. She felt completely vulnerable.

“Oh, hey, Tohru. How have you been?” One of them asked. Although, it didn’t sound like they cared.

“I’ve been well. Especially since I’ve had Kyo-kun beside me. It’s been nice.” She felt the need to mention that last part. But it really just slipped out.

“Yeah it’s been...really great,” Kyo added, looking down at Tohru and finally smiled.

Moments of silence followed, and she couldn’t ignore how awkward it had gotten. The girls clearly still had crushes on him, so Tohru was the bad guy. It wasn’t a pleasant feeling.

“Anyway...we’re going to walk around. It was nice seeing you again, Kyo-kun,” one of them cooed, leaving with the other girls.

Tohru felt the tension leave her. But her feelings still confused her. Was that really jealousy?

“You seemed really tense there,” Kyo mentioned.

She straightened, cringing. “Was I? I didn’t mean to.”

Kyo handed her the iced tea that had been sitting on the table scattered with all kinds of appetizers. “I felt you squeezing my hand. Are you okay?”

She slowly sipped her drink. “Yes. I’m fine. I’m just nervous to see everyone. It’s been a long time.”

“If you’re nervous, then I’m terrified,” he said with a roll of his eyes.

She giggled. She loved her shy kitty. She moved her toes up and kissed him, momentarily forgetting that they weren’t alone. But once she remembered, she didn’t mind that. In fact, she hoped the girls were noticing them, and she couldn’t figure out why.

It wasn’t until later, after they got off the subway and were walking the remainder of the trip home, that she still felt unsettled. No matter how hard she tried to conceal it, Kyo would look at her with perplexity.

“Something’s up. And don’t lie to me,” he stated.

She frowned. “I don’t want to bother you with this but...I can’t get it off my mind.”

“Spill it.” He walked closer to her, his elbow bumping hers. “You can tell me.”

And she did because she felt like she could tell him anything and it wouldn’t sway what he thought of her. He’d proven that so many times. “When I saw how those girls acted around you, it made me...uncomfortable.”

His walking slowed as they reached the door to their tiny home that resembled a cottage. He didn’t open the door, but just stood there without facing her. “So that’s what this is about,” he said just above a whisper. “Really? Do you not trust me when it comes to that?”

“No! Of course not,” she said quickly. “I didn’t think you’d give into them. It’s not about you actually.” She wrung her hands together, scrambling for words. “It’s just that...those girls are so pretty. Much more beautiful than I am. They seem like the type that would fit better for you...” She hadn’t realized how much she felt that way until she said it out loud. She found herself so plain. It stemmed from the amount of comments she got from her family about her being boring and dull physically. To a big extent, she thought it was true.

Kyo finally looked to her, his brows creasing together. “What the hell are you talking about? You are insane if you think I don’t find you attractive.”

Her heartbeat picked up. That actually meant a lot, especially coming from him. “I am?”

His expression softened. “You are. You’re beautiful. And yeah, those girls are hot, but I’ll never fall in love with them the way I fell for you.” He took a piece of her hair bound together by her ribbon and tucked it behind her ear.

She smiled as he held her cheek. “You make me feel beautiful, Kyo-kun. Thank you for telling me that everyday.” She held his wrist, as if she was afraid of him pulling away. She really didn’t want that. “I’ve never been that jealous before. It’s kind of embarrassing.”

“But it just means you love me, right?” He leaned down so his face was at her level. “Not that I deserve it.”

She shook her head while grinning and met him halfway in a kiss that she hadn’t intended to get so intense, but he took it there, holding her waist and pulling her close until her body was pressed firmly against his own.

When she broke away to breathe, she found him smiling so big that it took away her breath more than the kiss had. “You have my word that I won’t leave you for anyone else. You’re my first love, and you’ll be my last.”

“I’m holding you to that, but I don’t think I have reason to worry. I trust you completely, Kyo-kun.” She opened the front door, pulling him in behind her by his hand with her mind officially set at ease.

[punkscowardschampions]

Janis & Jimmy

Janis: [Okay, so coach ride to the school trip moment, JJ sat together 'cos who else are you gonna sit next to tbh, all the flat whites are here and we're making Grace feel like crap in all the ways, starting with having a loud, extra phone call with Pablo rn and making Grace hear and look at all this on facetime, but literally the whole bus is bearing witness, have you no shame Mia] Jimmy: [I like to think Ella and Asia are sitting together and Ella wants to die cos Asia's so dumb and Hollie's just on her phone watching tiktoks or whatever living her best life] Janis: [a mood but not at all, lmao] Janis: [okay, so my vague idea of something JJ can do to take attention away from Mia, piss her off, but without everyone else being as anti-them as they are anti-her rn, is for Janis to text Grace like come here for a sec, but that confuses Grace (obvs) so then Janis gets up and is like I NEED TO TALK TO YOU so she gets Grace out of this hell but also Mia will be PISSED she has, let's say there's a free seat in front of JJ or whatever where they can sit and then have a whisper sesh where we pretend we're talking about Jimmy but in actuality, we're not saying much beyond, you're welcome and, go along with it] Janis: [then once this has happened, all the flat whites will be 👀 WHAT DID SHE SAY etc, and THEN JJ can be couply cute like snuggling etc now they know they're looking] Jimmy: [I stan your mind boo] Janis: [so, Mia has been pissing us all off for time but it's when she's like, forcibly trying to get Grace to talk to Pablo, Janis visibly stiffens and is like, nah] Janis: If you do me a favour right now, I'll do you two Jimmy: Alright Janis: [inact this Grace moment for a plausible amount of time for a girly chat you simply NEED to have RIGHT NOW so sorry Mia, that's probably 10-15 minutes at least you two have to sit together and talk so, if you wanna, you can be Grace for a sec and we can '-' or we can just say roughly what they'd find to talk about lol it might be amusing potentially] Jimmy changed name to Grace Janis: [after the text, coming over with such a clearly but purposely fake apologetic face like oop sorry to barge in on this phone conversation you're having so publicly 'Grace, can I borrow you for a sec?' with a kind of serious but also excited tone, like, the just-NEED-to-talk-about-this-NOW vibe] Grace: [Grace just like 'oh yeah, sure, babes' in a tone that's lowkey like anything for you anytime because 1. it'll annoy Mia 2. she literally would die for Janis and we know it, making her body language and face as excited but serious like she respects this TRUST, fuck you Mia, before throwing an apologetic look at Mia as they go so she knows it's a deliberate afterthought] Janis: [smiling at Jimmy as you sit back down, opposite/in front of him, which she doesn't smile a lot at school/ever obvs so that itself would be so strange, everything from this point essentially in a whisper/no more than a murmur so no one else can hear, which is fine 'cos object of your affection is RIGHT THERE so everyone understands the vibe without needing to hear anything 'she's a cunt' gritted teeth 'cos we're fuming about this phonecall shenanigan but then switching to a #conspiratorial 😏 look, peeping at him between the seats as if to really drive that home 'i'm gonna shit in her bed' with a grin] Grace: [so effortlessly following this that would be concerning except that we know she's living a fake life every day so it's just standard to her by this point which hurts my heart but okay Gracie 'so is he' because she's having some emotions herself about the Pablo and dad situation but we can't let them show 'totally a match made in hell' holds her face/fans it like whatever Janis is saying is making her blush and giving her like an OMG look before likewise peeping at poor Jimothy but deliberately less subtly because everyone expects her to be that bitch/the friend who turns around when you tell 'em not to 'IOU if you need a lookout or whatever, but I'd hate to tread on barista boy's toes so' looks at him again and smiles herself] Janis: [nodding, really to agree with that sentiment, but making it look as if she's admitting to something like okay, you got me and hiding her own face in her hands like we're so 🤭 'hope he knocks up Asia' when you've said it just to be a bitch and because you're angry but the obvious parallel to what Caleb and Drew actually did to Ali and Carly does not escape you so you shake your head now and then lean in further, saying 'WELL-' at a louder, potentially overhearable volume, as if you're about to spill the ACTUAL tea 'nah, don't worry about it, long as she gets hers'] Grace: [when you sigh because you're so sad and over everything tbh and the reminder of both deadbeat dads doesn't help but you turn it into an excited gasp before it's even out of your mouth properly because that's something you're used to with all these shit lads, likewise the fake facial expressions are so on point as you pretend you're getting that tea and say something loud like OMG because you're obvs so excited you can't help it and do a fake look around like oh I hope nobody heard that 'he's already given her an STI, but you obviously didn't hear that from me' spills actually tea because we're sad and mad rn like] Janis: [giving her a half-genuine smile/look of appreciation that gets overtaken by an OTT 😍 one about your current situation before you'd barely have chance to clock it, giving her the expected playful-slap-on-the-arm like what are you like? at least you can use the actual snort at this news to pretend you're so amused about anything but Mia getting the clap 'very romantic' letting your voice raise again on any word that would help sell your story, actually covertly looking over to the flat whites 'she's hung up now, of course' 'cos what's the point if you can't torture Grace] Grace: [when you're doing a whole apology moment loud enough to be heard by Mia cos will annoy her because you never apologise to her sincerely but also as your chance to actually be like I'm so sorry that our lives are like this and we don't talk anymore because all this comes out when you're drunk but before jj fake date when are you two ever at the same parties, you just aren't and you're having enough emotions to accidentally go there 'he's literally such a dark horse, I can't even' looking at Jimmy and again loud enough to be heard even though you're shading Pablo and Mia because duh, doesn't look over at the gals cos she doesn't need to, we know the drill by now 'duh' but her voice is like a dead version of her real one and thus in such a whisper because the most genuine thing she's said lowkey in forever 'he doesn't care how her day's going and what can she say anyway' cos we all know he only wants to hook up and her life is boring and basic] Janis: [when you can shh her because not that deep and we're so close and sisterly rn but it really 'cos this makes you so uncomfortable like stop 'I know' when you have to force the enthusiasm into your voice on that one 'cos we all know Pablo is an unavoidable dickhead even before this and you're grieving too rn boy but still, Mia, of all people, ew, 'I can't believe it' when your overall demeanor and tone projects that you feel so #blessed but the reality of the words is literally the opposite 'daddy issues, right' clutching your hand to your chest like you're talking about something SO cute he did but the 'awh, bless' is all for that tragic hoe] Grace: ['same' and likewise your tone is the opposite as it also is when you nod in agreement to the daddy issues comment cos that hits close to home obvs 'this trip is gonna be so' loud enough that people can hear that too even though you also mean that in a please kill me way not a I really ship JJ way] Janis: ['Yeah...' and a sigh that is SO wistful and not at all exasperated at all the shit Mia can and will try to pull, going back to the #conspiratorial 😏 look 'I've got plans' and winking 'cos have, getting up like better get back to it 🤭 and giving her a one-armed hug as you stand to go, purely as a fuck you ladies, turning back like oh! just remembered and handing her your phone 'downloaded that album you wanted to listen to' at normal volume, so she has an excuse to stay put and put headphones on] Grace: [making your own song and dance of forgetting something too purely because you're dying over the hug like I'm so dumb I'd forget my weave if it wasn't glued in and passing her something between the seats once she's sat back down with Jimboy, honestly fuck knows what it even is but it'd drive everyone crazy trying to guess] Grace changed name to Jimmy Janis: [gonna lowkey need that phone back but it can easily be passed back via the seats so that's no issue, just not looking at him yet 'cos can't 'cos that was so OTT for you (obvs) but you can have a bit of 😳 before you commit to this part of it] Jimmy: [playfully nudges her and passes her his phone (oh the trust ladies) and takes a headphone leaving her one cos as far as everyone knows Grace has hers and he knows everyone is looking at them and what is going on and that's his way of telling her he's keeping up with it] Janis: [when you a mvp, nudging him back and it means far too much to be decipherable like sorry, thanks and more all in one gesture, leaning in figuratively and literally for this headphone moment, which makes resting your head on his shoulder that much easier] Jimmy: [we know he's softly playing with her hair for the first time ever because we can pretend he's playing along but really he's wanted to do that since day 1 baby] Janis: [when you do put some music on so you can have some vague distraction but you put it on pretty quiet, so you could still whisper to each other 'alright?' like, asking if he is, if that was, if this is, again, too many potential ways to mean that] Jimmy: [when you just say yeah at a normal volume because use that to your advantage] Janis: ['yeah?' back in what can only be described as low-key saucy, like oh really vibes but like, oh really lol] Jimmy: [gives her the first LOOK ever and nods because we can both play this game gal] Janis: [when the fact that that shook you works to your advantage so you don't have to worry, turning this into more of a snug than it was, putting your arms around his waist and loudly whispering 'I'll make it up to you' 'cos gonna pay off that debt but take that as you will people] Jimmy: [when you can just be 😏 cos it works but you're wondering how she reckons she'll do that and you know she knows that] Janis: [okay, using his phone to type back and forth 'cos that'll look cute and keep up the lie] Janis: how does she look Janis: scale 🥺 😢 😭 😤 😠 😡 🤬 🤯 Jimmy: 😡😡😡 Janis: not bad Jimmy: but will it do? Janis: got three days to 🤯 Jimmy: if you need 'em Janis: that a challenge? Jimmy: does it sound like one? Janis: 👌 Jimmy: [takes her hand to write ok on it because it looks like they're holding hands so challenge accepted vibes] Janis: 🦐 is 😢 Jimmy: duh he's got resting 🦐 face Janis: [loling 'cos hohoho so funny babe but part of that was genuine] Jimmy: [when you gotta give OTT 😍 cos she's got a cute laugh] Janis: do I need to put 🤢 on the scale Janis: or is that purely 💀#1 💀#2 Jimmy: they would reckon that's #ultimategoals Jimmy: a lad who triggers their gag reflex Janis: 🤮💘 Janis: GROSS Jimmy: [little lol] Janis: [😍 for the fans] Jimmy: [don't think about how bad you wanna kiss her boy, you can't risk being the new Mia of this coach] Janis: [you gonna have to chill but it won't be that much of a journey wherever you're going so don't worry lads, in fact, close your eyes and pretend you gonna have a lil nap on him] Jimmy: [just doodling on her with your fingertip really softly I like to imagine he's drawing out the scale] Janis: [love that, we must skip though] Jimmy: [so okay, activity time, we having Grace on JJ's team cos suck a dick Mia and a boy she can flirt with, then some random] Janis: [it should be a girl Mia has beef with, for some ridiculous reason, like bitch has deffo not done anything lol] Jimmy: [yasssssss I love that] Janis: [yo y'all better win or at least beat her team] Jimmy: [wouldn't be hard to beat her or loads of the others even if they don't win but ngl I'd love it if you did] Janis: [do it we're writing it fight us they're competitive and they're dying 💀#1 💀#2 so bye] Jimmy: [fuck it nobody would be expecting any of yall to win or care so I'm about it] Janis: [hohaha start as you mean to go on tbh] Jimmy: where on the scale now? Janis: 🤬 Janis: definitely heard her name followed by bitch Janis: my review even less favourable Jimmy: [picks her up and spins her round like he's so buzzing they won] Jimmy: that'll help Janis: don't put your back out Jimmy: I ain't as old as I look Janis: [😏] Janis: that's what they all say Jimmy: you been to catholic school, girl? Jimmy: I get why they all wanna crack onto you now Janis: rude you didn't get it before Jimmy: wouldn't wanna make your head any bigger Jimmy: touch and go picking you up as it were Janis: not my fault you're short and I ain't 💀 Jimmy: piss off am I Janis: no need to 🤬 Janis: we 🏆🥇 Jimmy: What you trying to make me 😭 for then? Janis: awh, babes Jimmy: leave it out Janis: 🤐 Jimmy: 👍 Janis: hmu when you wanna make a cracking bridge again then Jimmy: don't sound like me, that Jimmy: 😎🔥 Janis: I get it, IOU rn Janis: 💭 on Jimmy: I have had the one Janis: yeah? Jimmy: this is working, yeah? Jimmy: shes at 🤬 you said Janis: it's making this trip worthwhile, yeah Jimmy: nowt to do but crack on with making it more worthwhile Jimmy: neither of us can move for 'better' offers, can we? Janis: Literally gonna rip out my own 👀 or everyone else's if they don't calm it down with the sexts Janis: so, you wanna 🤯? Jimmy: want is a bit strong Jimmy: but if we're pissing about performing for her, might as well clear our DMs of dickheads while we're at it Janis: yeah, it makes sense Janis: may as well use it to our advantage any way we can Jimmy: while we're stuck here doing this bollocks at least Janis: kills time, keeps us from killing anyone Janis: I'm down Jimmy: Alright Janis: how are we gonna do this then Janis: like, exactly Jimmy: How do you wanna do it? Janis: We'll have to go some for people to calm down, obviously Janis: people have no problem being hoes Jimmy: I know Janis: so like, full 😍 then Janis: ? Jimmy: 🥇 or nowt Jimmy: won't be that hard, people have no problem believing we're #fated either if all those likes are owt to go by Janis: they're idiots and I'm well convincing Jimmy: yeah alright, Julie, I'll collect your oscar for you on my way out 'cause it won't be for long either Jimmy: I'll piss off soon and no dickhead's expecting us to keep going at being that starcrossed Janis: 'course not Janis: they'll forget about you in a week or two Janis: makes sense for this trip, as you said Janis: everyone's tryna get off with each other and it gets both of us an easy out Jimmy: mine or yours tonight then, my dear? Janis: I'll come to yours Janis: then Grace can have then over and they can 👀 I ain't in Jimmy: you're on to a real winner today, girl Jimmy: not just a big head Janis: that's the spirit Jimmy: 👻 Janis: specifically no 👻ing Jimmy: What about 🥃? Janis: DUH Janis: you got some? Jimmy: not very #goals to have to bribe you but Jimmy: wouldn't come here empty handed Janis: obviously I've only got eyes for you, Casper Janis: oh, who are you rooming with? Jimmy: Dunno, man bun, deepest of v neck t-shirts? Jimmy: only got eyes for his vape Janis: oh Janis: yep, I know who you mean Janis: 🎨 description Jimmy: ain't saying I could be an undercover 👮 or one of their informants but if Mia's dad goes down I will take the 🏆 Janis: 🐀boy can be your new name Jimmy: tah, sweetheart 💕 Janis: yeah, well couple goals that Jimmy: that'll be why I propositioned you Janis: is propositioned a sexy word? Janis: it sounds a bit 👮 report Jimmy: Busted, I'm 45 and faking being a real #lad an' all, the 😎 hide my crows feet Jimmy: can't have any secrets between us, like Janis: gotcha Janis: makes sense why Mia is 🤤 Jimmy: and sir Janis: you wish Janis: devvo he ain't here Jimmy: alright, put down the 🧂 babe, you'll give me a heart attack Janis: 🙄 Janis: yeah secretly so jealous of our fat, balding 🤓 of a teacher Jimmy: DUH Janis: 💁 Jimmy: while we're chucking tea about, I weren't on that teen soap, so warn us if you're gonna show up to my door naked Janis: not my plan Janis: reckon we can scandalize without going there Janis: soap and romcom tropes would be our friend though so let us down there Jimmy: soz, I were #blessed with the accent and the IQ for that bollocks but none of the emotional range Janis: leave off Janis: your 😍 were solid Jimmy: save the compliments til my room's full of dickheads to overhear Janis: just don't mention the part where I fake it like a pro Janis: not an idiot Jimmy: easy to say you take it like a pro instead Jimmy: nowt to worry about Janis: lovely Janis: are we fucking or are we 💘 Janis: important distinction Jimmy: reckon we can have it all, Juliet Janis: alright Jimmy: I know it ain't just for 💀👑 now but nowt'll piss her off more Janis: right, she's incapable of any of the finer human emotions Janis: oh, her boyfriend gave her an STI Jimmy: lovely, that Jimmy: which one? Janis: which boyfriend or which STI, yeah Janis: the one I'm related to, by all accounts Janis: 🤞 chlamydia so I don't need to cuntpunt her Jimmy: sounds a bit like the name of a kid fiddling island her dad does his business lunches on Jimmy: works on loads of levels Janis: 😏 Janis: he will be SO proud Janis: though, probably casually racist which is what makes him the ideal candidate for a boyfriend Jimmy: 🤞 his secretary ain't related to me if her dad's caught it off her Jimmy: turned down that teen soap for a reason Janis: 😱 Janis: goes all the way to the top Jimmy: 🏆🥇 Janis: was slightly concerned you were saying you fuck your cousins or something but as I only need to fake touch you Janis: you do you Jimmy: I ain't got any cousins, soz if that's pissed on your ultimate kink Janis: I'm not fucking 'em, new boy Jimmy: 👌 Janis: you don't vape, do you Jimmy: what kind of fucking question is that? Janis: a valid one 😎boy Janis: 'cos that shit gives me a headache Janis: not gonna sit in your cotton candy cloud Jimmy: you've had a 🚬 with me, dickhead Jimmy: did that taste 🍧🍦🧁🍰🎂🍭🍬 🍫 to you? Janis: might mix your vices Janis: but nah, you're old school 😎 good Jimmy: I can 💀💀💀 buzzing, grinning in my ⚰ over knowing you reckon I'm 👍 Janis: obviously Janis: 🍀 you Jimmy: 🥃 give you a headache an' all, you want a 🍹 instead, Jane? Janis: piss off Janis: 1. offering shit you can't provide unless you've brought mixer and ice with you too 2. being a dickhead Jimmy: 1. someone'll have brought a 🧃 it's a school trip 2. you're being a dickhead Janis: 1. you a barman and all? 2. save it for your roommates, lover boy Jimmy: 1. find out in a bit, won't you 2. I don't have a vape pen, remember, fucked the foreplay right up Janis: your idea of foreplay is worrying Janis: fake or otherwise Jimmy: bit late to spread that about, we're committed to being #goals not what were it Mia said, weird freaks or some bollocks Janis: can tell she's not an artist Janis: words not her strong suit Jimmy: what is? Janis: ♙ Jimmy: if that ain't nerd flirting, I dunno what would be Janis: seeing she can control mindless idiots ain't 😍 Janis: if I wanted to be surrounded by those kind of people, I could do it easier Jimmy: the game though, all that eye contact and pissing about Janis: find us a board and we'll give 'em foreplay then Jimmy: [draws her a pisstakey flirty board] Janis: 😂 Janis: lemme practice not blinking Jimmy: in a bit then Janis: alright Jimmy: 👍 Janis: my line Jimmy: Alright, go on Janis: I already said it Jimmy: you wanted the practice Jimmy: have another crack at it Janis: I'll say it when they can hear Jimmy: 🤞 you'll say a bit more than that Jimmy: they're idiots, you already said an' all Janis: idiots need visuals, I'm aware Jimmy: you've got something going on behind them unblinking 👀 I'm aware Janis: 💘 Jimmy: 😘 Janis: [skipperoni to showing up in your PJs, a bold move] Jimmy: [when it's a lewk and his jaw hitting the floor isn't fake at all] Janis: [we just pretending we don't even know Oli/anyone else is there, soz boy] Jimmy: [at least he can shamelessly check her out like 🤤 cos they are though] Janis: [we asking for the drink] Jimmy: [thanks for that Ian] Janis: [I hope you're bottom bunk if not enjoy the view everyone whilst you climb up, like] Jimmy: [for that reason alone he has to be top] Janis: ['I was bored without you'] Jimmy: ['you better stay for a bit then' obviously joins her up there because was making a show of looking out to check for teachers and all that nonsense 'at least til you ain't bored'] Janis: ['sounds like a plan' and a LOOK under the pretense they're probably standing about so can see, 'cos y'all ain't gonna be on the bottom bunk together are you] Jimmy: [a LOOK back before you open the bottle for her because gentlemanly not cos you're stalling nope] Janis: ['Slainte' and taking a shot whilst maintaining that ♙ eye contact] Jimmy: [does the thing where he takes the bottle from her but instead of taking a drink he pulls her into him but I'm gonna say that her hair is down so they can't see what he's doing because the truth is nothing yet even though it looks like he's kissing her neck or whatever because he's a good boy and he wants to know it's okay first so a LOOK which is actually an unspoken question lol] Janis: [taking the bottle back and putting it down on top of the wardrobe or whatever in reply like yeah, let's go for it, partly to prove you're down for the plan and not scared and also 'cos you know Oli will get too awks and make them all leave if you actually do anything so it won't have to be a Thing for ages, like] Jimmy: [goes in for the first kiss and it's obviously EVERYTHING goodbye] Janis: [rip you two, it's DEFINITELY continuing after they out the door, even if for a hot sec, you are that blatant, like, just in case they forgot something or whatever] Jimmy: [duh it'd ruin everything if they forgot their vape and came back and you weren't still going] Janis: [just dedicated to the act, alright] Jimmy: [he doesn't know they're related so lowkey surprised they left so fast and of course gutted we know but acting unfazed by having that drink finally] Jimmy: [bit rude cos that makes it seem like you hated it but okay boy] Janis: [not about to bring it up before or after, just hopping down like ta-da and looking at the window so casually] Jimmy: goes to the window and 🚬 out of it cos still offended she asked you if you vape] Janis: [sniffs like she seeing if it's 🍧🍦🧁🍰🎂🍭🍬 🍫 or nah] Jimmy: [blows a smoke ring at her but in a sassy way not a Harley aggressively blowing smoke at Ro back in the day way] Janis: [still wafting it away like we're Mia levels of disgusted but 😏 'cos not] Jimmy: [turning back to the window but obvs amused, we're all 😏 rn] Janis: ['they'll tell everyone, Nathan has a big mouth' looks around the room like 'what are we gonna do for at least 15 minutes, so you don't get THAT rep'] Jimmy: ['does look a bit like if Mick Jagger fucked some local lass and weren't feeling the need to shout about it for obvious reasons' looks at the bottle wherever he left that and back at her with a shrug 'fancy a game of chess?']] Janis: [snorts 'we'd all know about it anyway, no one 'round here can keep a secret' follows his eyes with hers and nods 'alright'] Jimmy: [IRL 🤞 and checks his phone we know he's checking on Cass and Bobby but it looks like he's checking if people are saying shit yet so, picks the bottle back up, takes a swing and passes it back to her] Janis: [when a thought #hits and you get your phone and as you're taking your swig you do some searching and put some sex sounds on and put your phone under a pillow to convincingly muffle it and 🤫 at him like speak quiet if you're gonna] Jimmy: [🙄 but also nod because it's a good idea] Janis: [nudges him as she walks back to give him the bottle 'you want me to be -' mimes 🤐 '-or you expect me to sit here and do it myself?' pointing at the phone like no thank you] Jimmy: ['I get it, everyone's so desperate to fuck you or know what it'd be like they've got their ears pressed to the door'] Janis: [shrugs like yes, your point?] Jimmy: [gets back on his bed and gets comfy so she'll have to get on either Ollie's bed below or his if she wants to talk to him cos shh] Janis: [🙄 and a dramatic sigh but fake is sexy but you're 😒] Jimmy: [texting his sister for a while but then his phone is blowing up because people are scandalised so he chucks it at her so she can see] Janis: ['phase one complete' shaking her head as she reads a bit but then chucking it back like a hot 🥔 'probably have to eat dinner at the same table'] Jimmy: [nods but when he's thinking about everyone watching them his own idea hits and it's the lovebites so he gestures for her to come here] Janis: [climbing up this bed again like ugh, excuse me] Jimmy: [I think to think she's as far away as she can be so he's like 'come here' but we whispering of course so it's accidentally hot] Janis: [assumedly, and we are questioning this but we also aren't 'cos we do come closer, obviously] Jimmy: [reaches out and touches her hair, moving it away from her neck and looking at that as yet unbruised skin and we know he's thinking if she has her hair up everyone else will be seeing that too so he looks at her and you know it's meant to be a look like do you see where I'm going with this but it's shamelessly just a LOOK] Janis: [when you automatically bring your hand up to move his away like oi, excuse me but you catch up with this being part of the plan so then you're just holding his hand there 'good thinking' when again, you have to whisper so it all just sounds so much hotter and #intoit than it would if you could just speak but soz, you can't] Jimmy: [looks at her phone under the pillow still playing those saucy sex sounds 'could just google how to fake 'em' cos you know people have blatantly done that but then he's looking at her again and licking his lips and generally being hot af] Janis: [shakes head 'that's more effort' taking the phone and turning them off, like, how suggestive like are you gonna be making the noises now too or what 'meant to make our lives easier, yeah?'] Jimmy: [holds her hair out of the way which is also lowkey hot soz not soz and goes in cos unspoken challenge accepted on getting her to make better noises than that] Janis: [we out here doing the most] Jimmy: [god bless] Janis: [know we giving him some in the process, only fair, not like we need to] Jimmy: [there's no hiding behind your hair boy and that's the only flimsy excuse we need] Janis: [and we need to be THAT obvious so everyone knows, duh] Jimmy: [like she said, gotta make both of their lives easier not only make one of 'em look swag, very much mutual and both #goals thank you] Janis: [exactly, we're fucking off and over the flat whites and co, not each other] Jimmy: [thank god she turned off the sounds because there's no stopping him from making any and we need to pretend it's OTT fake at this point instead of him being THAT into it already] Janis: ['you're a good actor' 'cos you said you'd say it] Jimmy: ['you're -' we're not finishing that because he hasn't said it loud enough to style it into a fake compliment] Janis: [biting his bottom lip 'cos you weren't kissing for long enough so you simply gotta so they're more bruised] Jimmy: [I love that you could've just bitten your own but more fun for everyone like that because you know he'd follow suit and do the same for her] Janis: [we need to be thorough here, that might not be enough] Jimmy: [hence just lowkey making out now but I think we should have a teacher catch them cos Mia or Ella snitched to cockblock because in the OG they had that punishment to clean everyone else's rooms and they stole their shit and I think we should still do that cos it was a mood but in the OG they had that punishment cos they snuck off to the pub which they don't need to because Ian's stash is a thing this time] Janis: [agree fully because a. they would and b. the teacher can be so shame-y and then everyone will hear if said teacher is going off and then bitching about them to the other teachers] Jimmy: [yeah it's a much better idea and an actual decent way to cockblock so they don't just hook up rn] Janis: [I'm with it, 'cos we can steal someone else's booze if theirs also gets confiscated for bonus scandal points] Jimmy: [love that] Janis: [okay, so dinner after we've been bollocked and everyone is shooketh, not allowed to sit together so] Jimmy: [oooh we should say Grace is putting make up on her love bites for her because that is a way to draw even more attention to it cos lowkey in the midst of dinner here] Janis: [gets out kit lmao] Jimmy: [exactly and a reason for her to be like Grace you need to sit with me so Mia is seething] Janis: [what did you think would come of this really, Mia, there's only so much 'trouble' they can get into and they don't care] Jimmy: [and like if you thought Grace would be embarrassed and that would drive a wedge you haven't considered that 1. she's a hoe 2. so much worse shit gets said about the cali fam as standard] Janis: [it's gonna get worse if they come in your room later in this trip so like, blow your load now alright girl] Jimmy: [which needs to happen because that was the fake injury moment and was iconic] Janis: [mhmm] Janis: OI DICKHEAD REMEMBER TO LOOK 😍 WHEN YOU READ THIS 😘 Jimmy: [does a real little lol and then looks at her IRL with fake longing] Jimmy: Alright? Janis: 👌 Janis: No one is gonna think it's over this food, so yeah, it'll do Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: bit rude they're trying to poison us before we do it ourselves Janis: tell he's the maths teacher Janis: not following the plot here Jimmy: might 🔪 the messenger if he's going that hard with the Shakespeare but alright Jimmy: I'll obvs die for you Janis: the bruises aren't that bad Jimmy: they look 🥇 from here Janis: [a LOOK from across the room] Janis: done the job, like Jimmy: [one back of course that's really lingering to really make the point] Jimmy: as they go, pissing about with you for a bit's not as bad as cleaning 🚽 Jimmy: don't get a massive head over it but Janis: unlikely Janis: generous and forthcoming with the 🥇 compliments as you are Jimmy: Oi, don't forget my 🥇💡 Janis: you got your recognition Jimmy: piss easy to get more Janis: obviously Janis: but what next Janis: aside from all this nerd flirting business Jimmy: Depends Janis: ? Jimmy: how you feeling? Jimmy: you look a bit cold to me Janis: [looks down at nips lmao] Jimmy: [he wants to lol but is 😏 cos he comes over to her and puts his hoodie on her, like enjoy the show everyone] Janis: alright, fairplay Janis: [snuggling in like full smug suck it everyone] Jimmy: check the pockets 🎁💕 Jimmy: [has drawn her something and written a little love note for the added brag] Janis: [making a big show of being extra secretive and trying to look at it privately so everyone on the table is 👀] Jimmy: [he made sure it was extra thankfully in case they can see and didn't write like oi dickhead] Janis: I'll 📸 it later Janis: was 🤞 for some 🚬s Jimmy: I've kept hold of them Jimmy: find me later Janis: very see me after class vibes Janis: alright Jimmy: if you wanna stick your uniform on for the 📸 go ahead, mate Janis: 💔 I didn't bring it with Janis: could wait but Jimmy: 💀👑 will be, mad for a uniform, her Janis: so I've heard Janis: what is it then, little apron Jimmy: [sends the CG instagram cos he won't have random pics of himself in his uniform on his phone] Janis: very Janis: starbucks lite Jimmy: they'll be 🎻💔😭 Janis: delete this comment 'fore I hit send Jimmy: already @ed it to 'em Janis: 🐍 you are Jimmy: got the fang marks to prove it, you Janis: now she's punched us with a brush as well quite sore tbh Jimmy: poor baby Janis: yes you're very concerned Janis: Mr Lucas is Jimmy: gutted he can't kiss you better is what he is Janis: idk, maybe he's 🎻💔😭 'cos you've ruined me Jimmy: very old school, that Jimmy: you're alright, I got no STI's Janis: @him Jimmy: what's his @? Janis: @virginsonly Jimmy: did he used to work at the local catholic or what? Janis: just to the point and selective, I think Jimmy: now I'm 🎻💔😭 Jimmy: why ain't I good enough for you sir? Fucking LOVE me, like Janis: and scene 🎬👏 Jimmy: Hang on, I need to be standing on this table Janis: 😏 Janis: love that for him, you fully crack after what, a month or so of bumming Jimmy: when you know you know, mate Jimmy: what we've got is SO real Janis: of course it is Jimmy: speaking of, what are we doing in a bit? Janis: having a 🚬 Janis: you said Jimmy: I mean are we 🎻💔😭 apart like 🤓 or 💕 together like 😎 Jimmy: how do you want the 🎬? Jimmy: can do loads with socials either @ or with Janis: whatever she says Janis: or fucks Janis: 🤓 is how she actually kicks it so Janis: 😎 is better Janis: what can they do, send us home Jimmy: 🤞 Janis: pay for my cab 'cos not gonna get my mum out here Janis: starcrossed love is the way to go, so, max sneaking for 💘 Jimmy: Alright Janis: you don't give a shit, right? Jimmy: about what? Janis: potential trouble, this trips' educational value, etc Jimmy: What kind of question is that? Janis: just making sure Jimmy: [comes over to her again and whispers in her ear 'there's your answer' cos he really gives a shit about absolutely nothing rn and the teachers would be fuming cos stop it boy] Janis: [when the 😏 is real 'cos likewise, cares about nothing and is so bored of everyone and everything but obvs the quick kiss is to piss 'em off further] Jimmy: [when you turn it into more a kiss ™ as if you can't not because you can't get enough of her but not so much that you're Mia on the coach about it] Janis: [know people are gonna be highkey anyways like why not lads] Jimmy: [exactly and loads of 'em are putting it on their stories etc blatantly so] Janis: [#exposure] Jimmy: [I feel like the teachers should make either him or her go to their room because the kind of bullshit that achieves nothing like are you gonna make sure they stay there or what] Janis: [literally, like oh, without supervision, at least you've been smart enough to just send the one but still, it should be him I think] Janis: 🍀 Jimmy: [sends a pic of him on his bed really comfy like but if anyone sees it looks like an I wish you were here kinda thing instead of rubbing it in lol] Janis: twat Janis: i've got to stay here and do fucking 'fun' team building bullshit Jimmy: if you can't get yourself sent out, then you can't, babe Jimmy: if any dickhead were capable of 🥇 you wouldn't need me Janis: 😒 Janis: they aren't gonna send us both out, even they aren't quite that thick Janis: rude Jimmy: they can't stop you going for a piss, even Mia's dad would win that case and he is that thick Jimmy: you don't go back and what? Janis: they definitely go to our rooms Janis: so where are we going? Jimmy: where do you wanna go? Janis: wherever, far away enough from the windows and we'll be alright Jimmy: Come on then Janis: post that pic whilst you're waiting Jimmy: [does obviously] Janis: [posts his doodle in the comments of people saying how cute he is like IKR] Jimmy: you're a good actor an' all Janis: Take my bow as I make my escape Jimmy: head that big, ain't an easy feat not to topple over Janis: what I'm hearing is, you think I'm well impressive Jimmy: didn't realise you were deaf, my little brother will be chuffed to bits Janis: not gonna fake meet your family Janis: calm yourself down, boy Jimmy: weren't asking you to Jimmy: steady on, girl Janis: mhmm, what was that? Janis: my selective hearing couldn't make it out Jimmy: [sends a voice memo but instead of calling her a dickhead or something because he doesn't know where she is rn and who might here it's like I SAID COME HERE] Jimmy: [*hear I cannot type today at all] Janis: 👏 Janis: I am omw Janis: please make sure you are decent Jimmy: as an actor? 👌 Janis: was thinking don't open the door naked either Janis: but maybe those two can't coexist Jimmy: stop thinking about me naked, Judith Janis: you started it Jimmy: Calm yourself down, so bloody extra, you Janis: oh sorry, didn't know I was in a groupchat with the GALS Jimmy: 😱😱😱 Janis: prepare to be that #shook Janis: [turn up to collect him] Jimmy: [does an IRL equivalent of 😱] Janis: ['come on, kev' 😏] Jimmy: [we out of here] Janis: [go for your smoke lads 'so what #content are we getting out of this?'] Jimmy: [they should do the sexy blowback thing purely for #content obvs] Janis: [purely, mhmm] Jimmy: [and I vote she should sit on his lap for the first time cos casual 🚬 photoshoot happening] Janis: [gotta make sure you're in shot, all of this is well necessary] Jimmy: [you wouldn't wanna be out of frame and have to take these pics all over again oh no] Janis: [that would just not be on brand, arty boy] Jimmy: [I love how extra you two are immediately, it's literally my fave thing] Janis: [fully could have stayed in your room and been like ha soz but no] Jimmy: [you should wanna be caught but we know why you don't] Janis: [the tea, the pretense of taking videos and pics is so flimsy but at least you tried and didn't just go to makeout] Jimmy: [and at least there will be actual #content because anything that annoys Mia gives me life] Janis: [exactly dr phil you're allowed] Jimmy: [what else can these little rebhogs do?] Janis: [maybe if the teachers are looking for her again, and now him 'cos checked their rooms, they can come back in together and be like, it's not fair to leave Jimmy out 'cos not and then just be couply af whilst doing whatever evening activity 'til bed] Jimmy: [I'll allow it because their teachers are clearly shit and like they've already given them their punishment to clean up everyone's rooms tomorrow so as far as they are concerned job done] Janis: [can't stop teen hormones and didn't come on the trip to be in his room so yolo, then Mia will be annoyed again 'cos no one is getting in trouble] Jimmy: [yeah she'd be trying to cause shit in this activity no doubt, ooh maybe that's when she or Ella gets hurt and makes a meal of it so it's not even the same day as Janis they are just trying to milk it that hard] Janis: [a mood, can also put an end to everyone's fun low-key, tah ladies] Jimmy: no oscar for her Janis: How is she that bad at it when she's faked every boy she's been with is Mia? Janis: poor show Jimmy: brb I gotta @ my dad to tell him my brother ain't the biggest cry baby going and pour bleach into my eyes and ears Janis: bit insensitive on the ears but yeah Janis: 🙄 Jimmy: *🤢 Jimmy: 💀#2💕💀👑 Janis: it has been a few hours since they last purged probs Janis: explains everything Jimmy: tah for another lovely visual Jimmy: SUCH #couplegoals them Janis: your toothbrush is my toothbrush, babe Jimmy: I were thinking if you come round early enough in the morning without waking Gracie when you do we can make it look like you stayed and we're sneaking you out when the dickhead I'm sharing with wakes up Janis: That's a good idea Janis: she gets up early, so it'd feel more like late night but still works Janis: they should all be up to, even if their end result is more 'natural' Jimmy: be piss easy to make sure enough of 'em see you then Jimmy: me an' all when I walk you back Janis: right to the door Janis: well gentlemanly Janis: less so if I invite you in for round two but that depends who's seen and who's still watching, obvs Jimmy: 💰 on Mr Lucas from the bushes Janis: 🤞 Janis: nice to know he still cares, like Jimmy: it's all #bants til he comes out of the shrubs with a 💍 Janis: 😬 Jimmy: soz mate, bit rude to get your hopes up Janis: now you can't read facial expressions 😎boy Jimmy: never said I could Jimmy: just lips, and I ain't looking at yours unless the rest of the dickheads are 👀 at us Janis: facetime goodnight would be a little much Jimmy: unless 💀👑 is tucked up with Grace while her missus is in sick bay Janis: thankfully not Janis: can't come in without being invited Jimmy: you'd know about that vampire girl Janis: says you Janis: very tender, as I previously mentioned Jimmy: I did say it, yeah, and I previously mentioned how sympathetic I was an' all Janis: not your most convincing work Jimmy: 💔 Janis: yeah, you should feel bad Jimmy: for which bit? Janis: your shit performance Janis: obvs Jimmy: Oi Jimmy: I ain't given a single shit performance Janis: your sympathy just seems very disingenuous to me Jimmy: Baby, I'm so sorry Janis: more like it Janis: believe you've done this before now Jimmy: done what before, said sorry or left a lass needing a 🩹? Janis: had a girlfriend Janis: soz Mr Lucas Jimmy: no need to @ him Janis: another secret to keep? Janis: I dunno Jimmy: the secret that I ain't gay is already out, mate Janis: devastated Janis: gay bff is probably well more up their street than boyfriend tbh Jimmy: probably not too late to go for that Jimmy: if you really wanna Jimmy: come round and I'll plait your hair or some bollocks Jimmy: you already know my crushes Janis: 🤢 Janis: is what I think to that suggestion Janis: 💘 easier to fake Jimmy: for you 'cause I'm well fit and mysterious Janis: for me 'cos I don't have to talk to you half as much this way Jimmy: you can be the strong silent type any way we play this, Jasmine Jimmy: it's alright Janis: nah Janis: as I said, the straight girls will be more up on you, if anything Janis: and the gay boys would actually be 💔 from the queer bait so probs don't Jimmy: #whenshecaresaboutsparingyoudickpicDMs Jimmy: I get it, I don't deserve you, sweetheart Janis: don't have time to count all the ways you're so lucky to have me Janis: cataloging all these dick pics Jimmy: be a #goals tweet though Jimmy: hang on fans, I'm so lucky I ran out of characters Janis: have that for free Janis: need to up my cute though Janis: not my fault I can't draw Jimmy: yeah you can Jimmy: that 🎨 of Mia and her dad cracking onto each other was a top masterpiece Jimmy: [is tweeting about how lucky he is to have her obvs] Janis: you're a sick, sick boy Jimmy: came from your 🧠 girl Jimmy: I just appreciated it, what you do with #art Janis: never said I weren't as well Janis: have to admit they might have us both beat though Jimmy: true 💕 Jimmy: nowt we can do to compete with owt that real Jimmy: or that twisted Janis: unless you are 45 Janis: little bit of tan and we could sell that you're my dad Jimmy: Northern 45 is a southern twat's 95 Jimmy: dunno if black face is the way to go though, mate Jimmy: ain't worked out brilliantly for loads of others Janis: you wanted twisted Jimmy: but the deal is, when you want me 💀💀💀 you do the deed yourself Jimmy: don't need Bill rising from ⚰ pissed off about another rewrite Janis: alright, pair of spoilsports Janis: how you wanna go out then Janis: 💣 🧨 🪓 🔪 🗡 ⚔️ 💊 💉 🪒 Jimmy: lasses first, would hate to ✔ your fave Jimmy: loads you missed an' all Jimmy: 🏑🏏🏹⛸🔧🔨🛁 Janis: 🤔 Janis: probably 🔪 Janis: or 🔨 maybe Janis: most personal Janis: how about you? Jimmy: Depends Jimmy: are we gonna do #matching or different? Janis: You only get one Janis: I'll kill you any way you like Jimmy: hot Janis: 🔥 Janis: but I won't be cuddling up to your crispy corpse Jimmy: Fuck me, I forgot one an' all! Janis: I mean, possibilities are endless Janis: but 💏 🤵👰 🤰 👶 is boring and not worth mentioning Jimmy: don't try and make me feel better, baby, fuming I am Jimmy: and now I dunno if I want 🔪 for the wound 🎨 or 🔨 for the 🩸 splatter 🎨 Jimmy: fuck's sake Janis: I'll stab you but not let you bleed out Janis: take some #aes photos and then 🔨 final blow Janis: there you go Jimmy: that's the cutest thing I've ever heard, you don't need to work on nowt Jimmy: 🥇 you Janis: I'd screenshot asap then, if Mia wouldn't call the 👮 like the concerned Karen she is Jimmy: [writes some actual cute shit that everybody will eat up] Jimmy: type that out and screenshot it Janis: nice that you 💘 yourself so much that you can think of all that 😏 Janis: [does though] Jimmy: piss easy when they don't know who I am Janis: yeah Janis: don't need to tell me Jimmy: 🤐 Janis: it's the shit they do know that's unavoidable Janis: like Mick Jagger being my dad Jimmy: bit rude he didn't teach you nowt about how to perform but I'll carry us both til you figure it out Janis: got the opposite in writing somewhere in this convo Janis: don't be bitter 'cos I'm 🥇 without having to do as much Jimmy: You're only that good if you can do his hip move Jimmy: and there's not gonna be any evidence of that about anywhere Janis: not that committed to the bit, rat boy Jimmy: there you go then Jimmy: take 🥈 and piss off, bad blood Janis: you piss off, dickhead Jimmy: or what? Janis: I'll smack you Jimmy: go on Jimmy: hit me hard enough and I can get out of doing our bollocks punishment Janis: I think not Janis: I'll go to the sick bay and you can carry cleanup too as you're so smug Jimmy: I get it, you miss El Jimmy: she is a fucking delight Janis: it's like she's constantly on the blob, which is ironic Jimmy: she's given 💀👑 her 🩸💦 and 😥 today Jimmy: if anyone's smug it'll be that pair Janis: unacceptable Janis: especially after I made smoking the opposite of GROSS Jimmy: we've done alright Janis: it'll be 🤯 come morning though Jimmy: you reckon? Janis: don't you? Jimmy: I reckon she needs to 👀 it for herself to be 🤯 Janis: maybe Janis: she's got form for being that bitch Jimmy: if we can't guarantee she'll be about in the morning, we'll have to do something when she is later Janis: yeah Janis: no need to put out the 🔥 before this bullshit trip is over Janis: even by their standards, not a good look Jimmy: right Janis: after that Janis: not got to think about them or that shithole for three weeks so Jimmy: you're decent at pillow talk, Jenna Janis: 👍 Janis: how do we end this Janis: in a way that still fucks them off somehow Jimmy: How do they get chucked? Jimmy: just do the opposite when you decide to bin me off Janis: when? Jimmy: Dunno when I'll be pissing off out of 🍀 yet Jimmy: but 🤞 you won't see me back at school Janis: I get it Janis: we used to move around a lot, when we were younger, I don't remember it much Jimmy: if Ian's still being a knobhead and I am about, do it then Janis: alright Jimmy: alright, give me a bell when you're on your way back to my door, I'll get you in without waking him Janis: he's a heavy sleeper Jimmy: how do you know? Janis: my cousin Janis: used to be closer, when we was kids, sleepovers n shit Jimmy: you should've said Jimmy: wouldn't have made you put on a show in front of him Janis: I don't care Janis: why he left in a hurry though Jimmy: do you want me to meet you at yours in a bit instead? Janis: can do Janis: more guarantee of seeing them then Janis: come to vet her outfit or whatever Jimmy: what time's Grace up? Jimmy: I'll be there an hour before, still give me time to get in and us set up if she wakes any earlier Janis: Our first thing is at 9, yeah? Janis: if she's having breakfast, 6.30, if not, 7 Janis: 6 should be fine Jimmy: 👍 Janis: get some sleep Janis: not enough you don't look shagged out, of course Jimmy: how you were going on earlier I thought she were gonna get up before the sun bothered Janis: I forgot Janis: school's earlier and our bus takes even longer Janis: she has to go to bed like a 👵 Jimmy: bet that goes down well with the lads Janis: dunno Janis: that's what weekends are for, right Jimmy: Dunno Jimmy: my ex near enough moved herself in Jimmy: very #goals obvs Janis: she don't last long enough to do that Jimmy: didn't need to Sherlock that Jimmy: goes without saying or sleuthing Janis: 🐇🐇🐇 Jimmy: shut up and get to bed Janis: rude Jimmy: is it? Jimmy: or is it thoughtful and 💕? Janis: put out a twitter poll if you like Janis: I'll be here not sleeping Jimmy: Alright, sod you then Janis: sweet dreams Jimmy: never said I were sleeping Janis: tell me if we're posting it and I'll fake enthusiasm at whatever you're doing instead Janis: don't want the sexts to be one-sided Jimmy: we should probably be together by now far as the fans know Jimmy: you're alright Janis: true Janis: mutual masturbation less of a flex Jimmy: Save it for the LDR Janis: you're alright, won't make you do it when you get home Janis: find a new fake boyf to keep them off my dick Jimmy: you can't dump me the second I do one, wouldn't be #goals Jimmy: starcrossed is our brand, mate Janis: awh, babe, you'd do that for me?! 💕 Jimmy: and myself, fuck all's gonna change when I leave here Jimmy: not just being racist against paddys, like Janis: if you go back, won't you have all your mates Jimmy: and what? Janis: well, you won't be new boy Janis: no one needs to follow you about and generally be a massive tit, like Jimmy: home's got bigger tits Jimmy: if that's where we go, and if not, new town, same bollocks Janis: well, LDR even easier Janis: can drop you an OTT caption whenever Jimmy: that'll be why I propositioned you again, my dear Janis: what does that mean? Jimmy: you said it, this is about making our lives easier Jimmy: wouldn't force you into an LDR if it were some 🎻🎻 hardship Janis: yeah Janis: alright Jimmy: what? Janis: I meant when you first asked, for now Jimmy: You wanna know why I asked? Janis: yeah Janis: me, specifically, I know why we're doing it Jimmy: 'cause I could do Jimmy: and we're both fit and mysterious, duh Janis: 👌 Jimmy: Go on, why did you say yeah? Janis: 'cos I'm fit and mysterious, why else Jimmy: 👌 Janis: forget I asked Jimmy: Why? I reckon it's what you'd call a valid question Janis: 'cos you didn't tell me anything I didn't know already Jimmy: everyone knows how fit you are Janis: not all wearing 😎 Jimmy: there you go then Janis: bed now Jimmy: save telling me what to do for when there's loads of dickheads about to see and hear how well I do it Janis: it's a polite way to tell you to shut up Jimmy: northern, not that thick Jimmy: take the compliment, dickhead Janis: don't need it Janis: my head is massive as is Jimmy: What do you need? Jimmy: 🚬? Janis: couldn't hurt Janis: what the packets say, right Jimmy: Close enough, come here Janis: [show up] Jimmy: [we know the drill he's lighting up for you gal, god knows how long you've been out there boy dealing the drama that is Ian looking after his own kids for an evening] Janis: [we smoking in silence] Jimmy: [what a nice throwback to the PE moment that started all this] Janis: [Ella stay away] Jimmy: [everyone leave them be tbh] Janis: [when so much drama has gone down already like the levels of not expecting this] Jimmy: [we are so rude soz lads] Janis: [we all know who's fault it actually is, and also that you're about it so Jimmy: [even if neither of you expected to be this about it and are now shooketh] Janis: [hence what is lowkey an awkward silence but both of you usually are so you can play it ain't] Jimmy: [so casual so fine] Janis: [again, not as if you've chosen to spend time together when you don't need to] Jimmy: [makes me lol same as all these convos you're keeping going beyond needing to, but we should say he takes a pic of her under the pretence of like hm idk when I might need this/ we can use it to pretend you're with me if you're not at some point etc but it seems so rude like oh this is just a job every second I have to be doing something I deffo don't wanna spend any time with you just because] Jimmy: [but we know she really just looks beautiful and he's an art hoe] Janis: ['could've warned us, where was my two hours?'] Jimmy: [😏 and offers to take it again with a gesture but you know he's not deleting that OG pic ever] Janis: [🖕 like have that] Jimmy: [😘 like he did to sir when he left] Janis: [wiping her cheek like it hit her] Jimmy: [does a really fake look around for fans lurking] Janis: [raising brow like you know its just us] Jimmy: [shrug cos it's so casual so fine] Janis: [shrugs back but OTT like one up you] Jimmy: [lights a new 🚬 because 1. he's been out there ages so he would've been nearly done when she appeared 2. to prove that he don't feel awks at all and could stay here all night] Janis: [puts her hand out like gimme your lighter] Jimmy: [does but with a raised brow of his own] Janis: [just playing with it 'not suggesting arson, s'boring'] Jimmy: [💔 mime for the first time] Janis: ['poor baby'] Jimmy: [pouty little lip like baby me] Janis: [loling but reminded so 'I'll bite it off next time'] Jimmy: [irl 🤞] Janis: [🙄😏] Jimmy: [gets a snack of some kind out like better eat this while I still can then] Janis: ['did you not eat enough at dinner?'] Jimmy: [🙄😏 but chucks some at her] Janis: ['too busy staring, I remember'] Jimmy: ['bit busy getting chucked out 'cause you don't know owt about being cute'] Janis: [😒 'yeah, that's why'] Jimmy: ['gotta keep it goals if you can't, yeah'] Janis: ['fuck off'] Jimmy: [looks down at his 🚬 which he ain't done with like no shan't] Janis: ['do it by yourself then' 'cos done enough with yours to throw it like good day] Jimmy: [just looking at her like bye then] Janis: [👋 '6 o'clock'] Jimmy: [when you get right in her grill and it's really hot but then you just take your lighter back] Janis: [making an 'ugh' sound] Jimmy: [hasn't moved away so is still very much in her grill and just zipping her hoodie up which is actually his like it's such a long cold walk back when it's neither because you gotta prove that 'cute' comes that effortlessly to you obvs and she sucks but it's just hot because the tension] Janis: [pushing him back, not really hard or anything but enough to ramp up that tension] Jimmy: [when you say 'piss off then' but you're saying it like a challenge not to] Janis: [just looking at him like nah] Jimmy: [LOOKING at her] Janis: ['stop it' but again, a challenge] Jimmy: ['stop what?' because I dare you to acknowledge that something is happening here, gal] Janis: ['you know' 'cos likewise] Jimmy: ['you'] Janis: [points at him] Jimmy: [signs it] Janis: [gonna assume she knows what he's doing but not what he's saying here 'hardly fair'] Jimmy: [scoffs because nothing about any of this is fair or what he signed up for 'playing to win, not fair' but shows her how to do it and what it means then adding whatever he needs to add to change it into 'you're a dickhead' signed which makes me lol imagining what that probably is] Janis: ['alright, Mia' but 😏 and going with this impromptu lesson here] Jimmy: [having a lovely time as if all of that didn't just happen] Janis: [tralalalalala] Jimmy: [it's literally an immediate headfuck, well done lads] Janis: [lmao how could it not be tbh] Jimmy: [if it was actually all fake but we know it never has been or could be cos he chose her for a reason] Janis: [you could've chose someone well below you and just played 'em] Jimmy: [thank god you didn't sir because that wouldn't have been as fun on any level for any of us] Janis: [you aren't that sort of boy is the tea] Jimmy: [my softest in my army of soft boys is the tea] Janis: [mhmm, and you wouldn't have said yes, even though it does benefit you too, if you didn't think he was hot and intriguing so] Jimmy: [anyway teach her the sign for goodnight and then do one please Jimothy or else I won't be able to stop you from doing something which only works if someone appears or you think they have which is unlikely] Janis: [literally got to see each other in a few so time to go lol] Jimmy: [let's skip to him showing up at 6] Jimmy: Oi Janis: [letting him in as a response 'cos obvs up and ready, likewise gonna make you be top bunk so you have to do the most to be quiet] Jimmy: [we know if he's slept at all it's barely so that'll look legit, casually stripping so you can leave your clothes on the floor for Grace and Co to see which means he has to climb up there in just his pants lol] Janis: [likewise, especially after-all that tension but always really, casually looking away so dramatically as if you don't have to get in that single bed with him now] Jimmy: [looking at her while she's looking away because she hasn't gotten any uglier since you saw her last and you're like well fuck this is gonna be interesting] Janis: [oh lads what have you got yourselves into, coming up and casually giving yourselves as much space as you physically can 'cos not as if they're gonna burst in the door any second now and this is just casual, taking off your top so you're in your bra and shorts moment] Jimmy: [when you don't wanna stare at her doing that so you're looking down and it hits you that you're topless too but there's not a single bruise anywhere there so you're like ! and your hand automatically goes to your neck but your foot nudges her] Janis: [turning 'round like excuse me 'cos think he's just being annoying but then you look and then look some more 'til you're like 'oh' everything whispered as per, so then you look down at your own body like, yeah] Jimmy: [to casually avoid following her gaze down her own body because ofc you don't wanna look don't be silly looking at her hands to see how long her nails are, like are back scratches too far or wtf because this is the life we're living kids] Janis: [pretending you think he means he wants you to choke him and going for the throat 'cos cannot be serious about this rn] Jimmy: [so 😒 because she caught you off guard with that and you nearly said something along the lines of oi or piss off at normal volume so you're mad at yourself for being an amateur] Janis: [gently pushing his shoulder like soz but also come on 'you can go first then'] Jimmy: [pushing her down onto the bed slightly less gently but obvs not hard lol and going for it  because if you start to think or say something you'll be like this is too much wtf is my life rn and then you're look like even more of an amateur] Janis: [when once it's happening, you can bite your lip all you like but you didn't expect the push down so you can't stop yourself from making the noise] Jimmy: [don't worry gal because that noise would have got to him as much as the push got to you and you'll be able to get your own back soon] Janis: [when you don't wanna tell him to stop but that's purely 'cos you need to prove you got this, not that it's enjoyable or anything, nah] Jimmy: [I'm loling because he's really just going to town on her as if anyone's looking that closely even Mia ready to be like I don't think you really hooked up because there isn't a love bite there, I'm so sure a few would get the point across boy but okay] Janis: [like, the state of undress you don't need to be in April cannot be overstated, the teachers are gonna be fuming at the state of you two lmao] Jimmy: [also you don't need to have your hands on her in any way whatsoever while this is happening but you clearly do] Janis: [we doing the most to stay quiet here, like low-key shouldn't you make a little noise so you can be caught but nah, eventually you gotta blurt out 'come on' but do you mean stop or hurry up or more, we'll never know] Jimmy: [when you take it to mean hurry up like she's so over this because there's a big part of you that thinks she's totally faking this, thanks for those issues parentals so you do hurry up/stop losing yourself how you were for a bit there and go back to treating it like a job] Janis: [we can feel the difference and we're, surely not sad, no, who cares, not you babe, in fact, 'my turn' and flipping him so you on top now] Jimmy: [wasn't expecting that after what she said and how he interpreted it so 'fuck' escapes and we know it's not in an angry way] Janis: [just gotta go in on it too 'cos can't be thinking about that or this will go even further right now] Jimmy: [time to bite your own lip really hard jimothy because not only is this gonna feel incredible but when she's moving you can see at least some of the ones you've given her so] Janis: [we're going so much lower than we need to, like they can fill in the gaps without you doing a hickie on his hip like] Jimmy: [RIP this boy cos he's got no clothes on and nowhere to hide] Janis: [soz for the blueballing] Jimmy: [great way to start your day you won't be 😒 at all] Janis: [when it could lowkey be an hour 'til they wake up like what are you gonna do] Jimmy: [not gonna be able to casually nap after that lads] Janis: [have to find a way to fill the time] Jimmy: [we know what you wanna do but no no, gutted that you can't even stress smoke in case you wake her up by going outside] Janis: [lmao drag this out for as long as you can without turning him totally purple] Jimmy: [at least you'll have an excuse to do more on her if she's gone harder on you so you don't have to awkwardly sit there] Janis: [we know you're just making out without making out, like, 'cos no excuse for that] Jimmy: [shameless] Janis: [truly, then we just laying here like, 'cos can't even wake Grace up really 'cos need the others to see too so] Jimmy: [we all know she's not the real target audience, so just awkwardly stare at the ceiling and calm down kids cos it's too risky to look at each other rn] Janis: [or say anything, not just 'cos volume] Jimmy: [mhmm but when you feel up to it Jimothy you can take a look at yourself in your phone camera because DO NOT look at her like it's just a job and you're checking out how well she's done] Janis: [when you force yourself to look in his direction finally, 'cos you don't want him to potentially infer anything from your silence,  so you watch him do this, and then position your body is a mid-fuck kinda position like, go on then and mime 📸] Jimmy: [at least he can throw himself into the technical aspects of this photoshoot moment like a nerd so he doesn't have to think about how good she looks or how lowkey hot it is that you've gotta just move her around] Janis: [we're all pretending this is purely business, taking our own 📸 of him above you with his] Jimmy: [casual excuse to actually kiss for the 📸 which you think will make this tension better but actually makes it worse] Janis: [so 😤 on the low like thanks a lot] Jimmy: [such good practice for when you have to keep making out and breaking apart in the future as the flat whites go to and fro and a flex that you're so unfazed by any of this that you can stop whenever you want because it's SO fake but such agony actually] Janis: [just staying on your phone like this is casual and you have other things to do] Jimmy: [when I'm gonna start a convo purely because he wants her attention lol] Jimmy: nowt we've forgot is there? Janis: don't think so Janis: go down and get your t-shirt for me to protect my modesty once they get here Jimmy: 👍 Janis: you think you're such a pro at cute, suggest away, like Jimmy: can't bring you a ☕ much as they'd think that were #ultimategoals Janis: missing your steamer? Janis: s'nice Jimmy: have to get steamy in the 🚿 when they show up instead then Jimmy: won't be as cute 💔 Janis: don't put yourself down just 'cos they replace serotonin with caffeine 💘 Jimmy: thinking of you having to put up with me in another confined space Janis: I'm not actually getting in the shower with you Jimmy: [really fake shocked face like what??!] Jimmy: tah for clearing that up, mate, could've been a bit awkward Janis: [pushing him like 🙄] Janis: shut up Jimmy: [mimes 🤐 as he pushes her back so that's lowkey sexy excuse you boy] Janis: [turning your back on him like boy bye but there's 0 way that's not a spooning situation so] Jimmy: [living for the excuse to touch her hair because it's in your grill] Janis: you reckon we should Jimmy: ? Janis: 🚿 Janis: or was you joking Jimmy: don't you want a bit of time behind a locked door? Janis: in an ideal world you wouldn't be there but yeah, 'course Jimmy: forget I am Janis: easier said than done Janis: 😏 Jimmy: 👻 Jimmy: shouldn't be no challenge in it Janis: you leave marks Janis: poltergeist motherfucker Jimmy: [does a there there pat on her back] Jimmy: should've stopped me if I hurt you Janis: [kicking back] Janis: yeah right Jimmy: [retaliates like oi] Janis: [playfight 'I'll hurt you'] Jimmy: ['go on' because we're forever one challenge away from going too far] Janis: ['it doesn't count if you ask for it' but we LOOKING at him] Jimmy: [LOOKING back at her because always 'weren't like I said please'] Janis: ['where are your manners?'] Jimmy: [leans way further in than he needs to for whispering 'not that good of an actor' okay we get it Jimothy you think you're so 😎 and a bad boy but you not okay deal with it] Janis: [when you 'ha!' at practically normal volume such is your disbelief at this, sir] Jimmy: [putting a finger to her lips like shh because why just say it when you could be saucy as hell] Janis: [biting said finger as if this will actually hurt and not just add to this vibe alright] Jimmy: [pulling her hair by that same logic] Janis: [matching that 'fuck-' energy of his from earlier but adding '-you' in any vain attempt at saving face as you take his hand from your hair and pin it above your heads] Jimmy: [1000% is allowing this and is about to kiss her so we're gonna have to say that like Grace's alarm goes off or something to remind y'all what you're meant to be doing here] Janis: [when it's fine that the 'shit!' comes out 'cos it's showtime anyways] Jimmy: [pretend to be asleep kids that way you can take a sec and a deep breath] Janis: [lowkey hiding under these covers rn] Jimmy: [#mood cos Grace is gonna be so shook that Jimmy is here] Janis: [like soz girl] Jimmy: [run to the bathroom gal, it's fine he's not looking at you] Janis: [just don't run out screaming tah] Jimmy: [do we wanna say that the flatwhites all assemble here to get ready so they have to put on more of a show or say they show up in a bit so they don't?] Janis: [hmm, oh, maybe for the drama they show up later like let's ride 'cos obviously they don't KNOW this has gone down so then Mia will be really pissed off with Grace like um why did you not tell us so then they'll be being dicks to her again moreso?] Jimmy: [okay I love that, makes Grace get changed because she's mad, fuck you fashion police] Janis: [something even more unsuitable, lucky you don't break a leg she's already clumsy you know this] Jimmy: [also OMG you know we said they should see Mia cheat on Pablo it should be the boy that Grace was flirting with when they won that activity] Janis: [deffo, like that's what you get] Jimmy: [but for now she's in the bathroom getting ready with music on so like enjoy your awks alone time JJ] Janis: [at least you can get up, 'cos you know she'll be ages, and open the window to get some air] Jimmy: [lowkey just waking your siblings up for school like oi don't be late without me there or sort you out] Jimmy: [*to] Janis: [putting his top on for now, even if it's purely to whip it off when the flat whites arrive 'cos that effortless ladies, cry about it] Jimmy: [like you could put your trousers on boy but we know you won't] Janis: [like makes sense for your purpose but it's so distracting] Jimmy: [clearly you hope it is cos you're still dying over everything that happened and don't wanna be the only one] Janis: [we know you both are but keep doing the most to hide it like that's even possible god bless] Jimmy: [just casually making himself so comfy in this bed she got out of like everything's fine] Janis: [shaking her head] Jimmy: [a look like what?] Janis: [quieter but no need to whisper fully 'do this often?'] Jimmy: [says the 'what?' this time] Janis: [eyes in the direction of the bathroom like, let's not give the whole thing away, yeah 'you know'] Jimmy: ['what kind of question's that?' because imagine if that was the life he was living just fake girlfriends everywhere lol] Janis: [shrugs 'you look very at home'] Jimmy: [🙄 as he makes himself even more comfy, like there's no way he could actually get any sleep til the flatwhites come but that's what he's pretending] Janis: [tuts 'my bed, you know'] Jimmy: [eyes closed and a fake yawn 'not a very #goals attitude that, meant to be about what's yours being mine, as my missus'] Janis: ['yeah, well, I'm meant to hog the covers, not you the entire bed'] Jimmy: ['come here then'] Janis: [human equivalent of ?] Jimmy: [makes space for her and pulls back the covers like you heard me] Janis: [you know this isn't a good idea but look weird if you don't now, like sure let's totally snooze mhmm] Jimmy: [deliberately chucking all the covers over her like 😏] Janis: [cocoons self 'thanks, dick'] Jimmy: [pulls them back off and you think he's gonna start a playfight or be a dick in some way but he just takes the t-shirt off her and throws it back on the floor as if they are actually gonna fall asleep and miss the flatwhites arrival in any way, we see you boy, how intimate and suggestive of you] Janis: [just staring, shooketh 'I might've been cold'] Jimmy: [tucks her back in cos you're a soft boy and you have to make sure she isn't just in case she wasn't joking and snuggling into her because 1.warmth 2. you don't know how long Grace takes in the bathroom 3.lack of space doesn't really give you a choice but to spoon] Janis: ['so weird, new boy' but soft and letting it all happen, obvs] Jimmy: [shhing her but even softer because their weirdness is meant to be a secret if they are gonna be goals and also duh it's sleepy time™ except not at all] Janis: [pressing back into him and turning your head back purely to whisper 'and rude' like gurl] Jimmy: [making a sound because of that movement that we can try and pretend is an exasperated sigh but obviously isn't] Janis: [shhing him like 😏] Jimmy: [writes some kind of insult on her with his fingertip than she won't be able to make out because it's the first time basically] Janis: [excessive wriggling like don't tickle me] Jimmy: [DYING rn so he can't even say anything or do anything but try not to die] Janis: ['shell be forever, you know'] Jimmy: [me just like oh no how am I gonna cockblock this and it's literally been a day lol] Janis: ['your roommate won't be up, is what I'm saying, if we've got any chance of getting a shower today'] Jimmy: [just looking at her because the last thing you wanna do rn is move unless it's closer to her but she obviously can't see you looking at her so you have to say something boy 'you don't reckon that might wake him up?'] Janis: ['I don't reckon he fancies you so much he'll get out of his pit just to 'catch' you in the shower, no' pausing for a bit before shrugging 'it was your idea, like'] Jimmy: ['my idea for when we had an audience' but shrugs back] Janis: ['I'm going then, before we do, be right back' getting up] Jimmy: [obvs going with cos he doesn't wanna stay here on his own] Janis: ['can take it in turns, I weren't saying-' gestures like you know, even though you definitely were you've taken his response as a message to cool down, getting your toiletries and heading for the door] Jimmy: [following her as soon as you've got enough clothes on] Janis: [sneksnek] Jimmy: [take a cold shower it's very much needed] Janis: [let you go first boy] Jimmy: [please don't take forever or she's just there watching her cousin sleep] Janis: [bit weird lmao] Jimmy: [imagine how awks when he comes out and she goes in and they just do that switcharoo that'd be weird too] Janis: [hope you've put more clothes on, you definitely haven't] Jimmy: [soz not soz] Janis: you can go back if you want Janis: or go, if you're over it Jimmy: over what? Janis: waiting for them Janis: we've done shit they'll see still regardless Jimmy: are you saying you're over it? Janis: I'm saying you don't need to sit there whilst I shower if you don't wanna Jimmy: I don't need to do owt I don't want to, and I don't need you to tell me that Jimmy: if you're gonna be ages like your sister, say so Janis: 🙄 Jimmy: don't get your hair wet unless you wanna fake some weird kink, we're meant to be asleep Janis: now you wanna tell me what to do, cam down Jimmy: you started it Janis: God, I was just saying Jimmy: just leave it out instead Janis: whatever Jimmy: it ain't my fault they ain't about yet Janis: it's not mine, either Jimmy: and I ain't being a dickhead to you about it Janis: 1. I weren't, I was literally saying go if you're fed up, how is that anything but polite? 2. hate to see you being a dickhead then Jimmy: 1. Bollocks weren't you, you're saying go 'cause you're fed up which ain't polite when we've got a plan and if we weren't gonna stick to it I wouldn't have bothered to show up at 6 when we could've just pissed about during this punishment Jimmy: 2. yeah, you would Janis: That is not what I'm saying, I'm saying I'm having a shower, that's it Jimmy: if you'd cracked on instead of getting a mard on, you'd be done by now Janis: shut up Jimmy: you Janis: I'm serious Jimmy: me an' all Jimmy: stop pissing about Janis: I know how long she takes, you don't Jimmy: I don't care Janis: then I don't care how long I take in relation to you Jimmy: 👍 Janis: [obviously taking longer than you would have but nowhere near Grace levels of long 'cos just not that bitch, casually walking past him back to your room like let's get this done] Jimmy: [follows her again] Janis: [has got hair wet, suck it, got to pretend we had that steamy shower sesh we didn't have there] Jimmy: [is 😒] Janis: [likewise, we'll let the flat whites show as you're drying off said hair like 'good morning ladies'] Jimmy: [at least you can pretend you're 😒 to see them] Janis: [making some joke about morning coffee as you go over to him and hold his face, really like, get it together but fake loving upon him 'cos just so cute] Jimmy: [taking the excuse she's given you to kiss her because you've wanted to for an age] Janis: [enjoy, they're stunned silent rn anyway so take your chance kids] Jimmy: [we know that's why you're really 😒 Jimothy so it'll be an amazing kiss that Mia will just love to witness] Janis: [being so vocal in her disgust 'cos massive snitch and wants them to get caught again] Jimmy: [and not at all casually knocking on the bathroom door cos raging at Grace but she assumes it's Janis so she's like excuse you] Janis: [telling her where the nearest loo is, 'if you're that desperate, like' and smugly reclining on Grace's bunk so the rest of you have to stand around awkwardly in this room that is not big enough for all these people remotely] Jimmy: [Grace doing such an affectionate eye roll at JJ cos you know they being coupley af like she ships it so hard cos 1. she do 2. she doesn't fancy jimmy she's just not a dick to people who serve her coffee and 3. fuck you Mia] Janis: [just cuddling on this bed like y'all not even here and we're just having a moment] Jimmy: [whispering flatwhite shade that you can pretend is sweet nothings cos they'd be so annoyed they can't hear what you're saying] Janis: [giggiling in such an un-you way but it is funny, obvs] Jimmy: [Grace I'm calling you out for not knowing this is fake after hearing that except I'm not because you're not that invested and are just getting ready like a normal person] Jimmy: [shoutout to Jimmy for drawing yet more attention to these lovebites by touching and kissing them in a really soft way like oh I'm so sorry I've got no chill, I hope it doesn't hurt lol lol lol] Janis: [maybe that's how she be with boys, you don't know, let you off gal] Janis: [when you acting like oh my god, gotta hide them but in that LOOK kinda way] Jimmy: [I think Mia should be trying to get Ella or whoever to dob them in for Jimmy being there and Grace is just like chill so they're lowkey having a row in the bathroom] Janis: ['wanna go for breakfast?']