#it’s the little victories and trying
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lately i haven’t been mentally good enough and haven’t had the energy to do a proper skincare routine in a while, and im so happy to say i finally did one tonight
#skincare is my top self care thing#and I just haven’t been okay enough to take care of myself#lately it’s been cleansing wipes with a toner and moisturizer then call it a night#but no I finally cleansed properly#took my time#DID A MASK#I feel so nice#I got dry skin so I feel so hydrated#I feel a bit embarrassed admitting that I’ve been struggling to even do skincare#but that’s just the part of it sometimes#it’s the little victories and trying#angel talks 💕
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Charles has always left Edwin little notes slipped between the pages of his favorite books, in his science equipment, places he knows Edwin loves. Just silly things—post its that say “hi Edwin :)”. doodles of Edwin with his nose stuck in a book. reminders to stock up on wolfsbane. but.
Then, post canon, Edwin tentatively starts dating people. And it’s ridiculous, because Edwin’s right there, all the time, but Charles..misses him a bit. And his heads a mess, and he can’t sort out what the hell he’s feeling most of the time, and whenever he tries to say any of it out loud it comes out rubbish.
So. He writes down some of the shit he can’t say right, and because he’s a coward, hides them so he doesn’t have to see Edwin’s face when he reads them.
then Edwin starts writing back.
Neat lilac blue little envelopes appear in Charles coat pockets. In his bag. Once, in his shoe? Some nights, Edwin will clear his throat and mention something from a letter, offhand, like they’re just picking up conversation, and Charles can pretend they are. That they always have talked about the basement, the belt, the nameless fear that chokes him every time Edwin walks out the door with someone else on his arm.
Sometimes he can’t. The words get stuck in his throat. Edwin’s not mad, he’s maddeningly, stubbornly kind about it, which is worse.
Some nights they trade. A secret for a secret. Charles learns about the novels Edwin used to hide under his mattress, about all the lonely years before Charles got there. About Simon.
Meanwhile, Edwin is losing his mind, because Charles has accidentally stumbled onto what was a fucking courting ritual in his time. Love letters were something engaged couples treasured for years, kept and reread over and over. (Edwin does. keep them in a special box, will take one out and trace the words, tuck it in his breast pocket for courage).
Edwin would rather have to reattach a limb again than lose Charles trust, all the dark and beautiful things he shares with Edwin only. He knows—knows Charles doesn’t mean to make him fall more in love with him.
#payneland#dbda#dead boy detectives#charles rowland#edwin payne#mini fic#charles x edwin#chedwin#fic#anyone is welcome to write this!#maybe I will eventually once I crawl victorious from the mountain of my 10+ wips#either way I’m a strong believer in the 2 or more cakes principle#would love different peoples takes on this#UGH BUT JUST IMAGINE… Edwin being scared to date & try new things#reading over and over how Charles is scared too how he’s faking being brave most of the time.#keeping the letter over his heart for courage#(I do think Edwin should date people for a while because like. he’s hot! he never got to be a teenager!#let him kiss cute boys for a bit! realize there’s nothing wrong with him! become more confident! more centered!#maybe it makes Charles a little crazy! proud and possessive and confused horny!)#they have time! :) & sometimes you need to go on your solo journey so u can then become more freakishly codependent with your#work bestie husband ride or die twin flame in the future. yk
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walk with me... “you’re the one holding the knife” ... what if i said that shauna was always the more powerful one in the relationship? on one level because even back in the high school world all of jackie’s “successes” were hollow. her captaincy is undermined by tai and shauna scheming behind her back. her best friend feels stifled by her and secretly resents her. her picture perfect boyfriend has been fucking the aforementioned best friend on the down low. and what’s the common factor? SHAUNA. shauna is the literal shadow agent who is actually living out jackie’s successes. (of course, they’re kind of hollow successes for shauna too, cause pretty much all of them blow up in her face eventually. but still, it’s about jackie thinking those successes belong to her when shauna is actually benefiting from them)
and then there’s this whole other level that’s just between the two of them and relates to their power struggles specifically. at first glance it looks like jackie is in charge and shauna is just at the mercy of her whims. the classic popular girl and dorky sidekick dynamic. but if you look a little closer it becomes so obvious how dreadfully insecure jackie is and how totally devoted to shauna she is. what if jackie actually envies shauna more than shauna envies jackie? what if jackie would do anything shauna asks of her because she loves her that much? what if shauna is actually the leader and jackie is the follower? what if shauna was always the one holding the knife?
#IS THISSSS ANYTHINGGGGG??????#are these the deranged ramblings of a madwoman?#it probably needs to marinate a little more...consider it a first draft#also im sure a lot of this is derivative and im not the first to bring it up#like about jackie's victories being 'stolen' by shauna#or jackie being more devoted to shauna than shauna is to her#like i know im preaching to the choir lol#but i just wanted to try to bring it all back to that quote#yellowjackets
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his sassy little thigh shift with his hands on his hips like he did something (he didn't) (the only one who rlly helped was laserbeak pretty much LOL) and then awkwardly going back to join the celebration just so he can stand there awkwardly and continue to do nothing
#he just stood like that while everyone celebrated even before soundblaster and his gang showed up to freeze time like#he is so 😭😭😭 awkward#but he can at least try and get away with it by looking cool#or by being mean so ppl see him as this one-upping bully and not the lame nerd tryhard jock he rlly is#hes so cute to me#i like how no one started cheering until he played victory music like they just snapped back into reality what the hell is going on#oh look soundwaves doing a gay little pose. maybe this mean-(stupid music plays) YIPPEEE!!!!#he looks like a proud mother and Is a proud mother. actually#he didnt rlly get his lick back personally but at least he still has his glorious thighs i guess 😭#soundwave#tf cyberverse#cyberverse soundwave#transformers#maccadam#massive magnitude cuntquake
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my personal concept of roadrat: they dont rly have insecurities that need to be patched over w labels or obvious affirmations. they sleep together, they heist together, & are never apart; yet if u ask either of them if theyre dating theyre like 'doesnt sound very anarchy to me.. idk' their relationship transcends the common dating lingo THEY WILL NOT BE CONTAINED!
#i like everyones ideas tho :]#roadrat#txt#when ur focused on surviving & blowing up other ppls lives all the time i dont imagine u stop to think abt what ur relationship means aside#from what just sorta happens when ur alone together or the occasional back-cracking victory snog#i imagine that hog & rat's 50/50 agreement ends for whatever reason n hog goes 'hmph' n starts walking into the sunset but rat goes 'WAUT!?#SO YUH JUST GONNA LEAVE LITTLE OL ME?!' 'grumph' 'fine.. *sniffle* get gone then yuh big lug! *disgusting wet hankey nose blow sound*#but then hog returns 2 camp one night & rat could hear his bike purring from a mile away. hes trying 2 contain his excitement by acting ang#y until hog sighs & opens his arms to him for an instant big boney & metal limb-stabby hug
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Nikolai is the cutest ever, and nobody can change my mind
#bsd#bsd spoilers#i guess???#bsd nikolai#bsd nikolai gogol#he's just a silly little guy#'roar fourth hymns of victory!' i absolutely adore him#and the fucking confetti i CAN'T#is this what he was doing while fyodor and dazai were trying to kill each other#he's just sitting out there. cutting confetti and humming.#choosing to focus on how silly and adorable he is now than what he will soon feel
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lmao why does SEGA keep pushing the sonadow agenda
I mean, I'm not complaining but ???? 👁️👁️ I know what you are
#in hysterics#Tails going from a little sonadow hater to a full on supporter look at him go#and I can SEE that in a way the intent here is for them to solidify their 'dead-serious rivalry'#and they'll have them acting perfectly on point to serve that purpose but then three seconds later you hear more gay ass flirting#rinse and repeat. It gives me whiplash#is this on purpose?? are they trying and failing miserably to avoid shippy interpretations??...................... is this on purpose??????#although they're still leaning into Shadow being grumpier than necessary. But what he lacks in friendly characterization Sonic has in spade#he's carrying the whole thing at this point.... but admittedly Shadow also plays into it#the MOMENT they appear and start talking I'm like 🤨🏳🌈?#'I don't know... I think my *magnetic* personality is quite.. *attractive* 😏' SHUT UUUUUUUUUP#💀💀💀#make out already fr#sonadow#victory for Tails#it feels like SEGA is aggressively giving it their all this year#what a pain#CAN I GET A BREAK
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Does Prime hate Donnie? i mean donnie did try to control the technodrome
The thought of Prime just going "ew who is this and why is it in my ship. GET AWAY PEASENT"
the answer is this:
[quote from the most popular girls in school]
#imagine a little toddler trying to show off to you and you're not into it so all you can is ''...cool...''#and by the next hour you forgot about it#that's basically prime towards donnie#they have no opnions about this guy whatsoever#the only notable thing they can say about him is that it was surprising that he was able to merge with the technodrome#but that was a very short victory once subprime found out. and prime's attention was directed somewhere else#rottmnt#tmnt#my art#sonny draws#sonny answers#prime leo au
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oh
oh no
i'm starting to need a timeline for my wip fanfics. why am i writing stuff in the SAME universe/chronology????
#poolverine#deadclaws#poolverine fanfic#poolverine fic#owen rambles#strandedtoodeep rambles#but im happy bc i've write 600 words#yep it's not much but im so tired it's a little victory for me hehe#still trying to do the poolverine week thingy but im so slooooow
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#dandy's doodles#bfdi#battle for dream island#bfdi teardrop#bfdi td#bfdi flower#kin#why do i keep making teardrop comics? who knows#but yeah sorry for the bad quality and general doodley-ness. this was all very gestural. just trying to get a feeling out y'know#teardrop has been mean for the sake of competition... but now...#well. she never would've thrown lolly or gelatin under the bus because she was already so close to them#flower wanted to be friends - but wasn't. so td was willing to use her friendliness to her advantage...#i'd imagine after the fact that teardrop would feel kinda bad?#like oh maybe i am doomed to be self-serving and hostile and antisocial forever?#there's something to be reconciled here. between teardrop's desire for friendship and her desire for competition/victory#td will always want to win. they always want what's best for themselves#but now that bfb is over the competition with those folks is gone. there's no winning over them anymore#so perhaps in that little timeframe between the end of bfb and the start of her time in tpot td has the choice to be friends?#also at this point teardrop would totally have massive respect for flower for winning. so that's another point for flower-td friendship#and y'know... somebody just learning to listen to people... somebody just learning to be listened to... oh it's beautiful is it not?#and i don't know. i just feel like these two really would want to be friends but they each have these barriers#for flower: oh! i've been so pushy! i've passed her boundaries! i've presumed we're friends when that might not be true!#and for teardrop: oh! i've been so mean! i've taken advantage of her! i've made her think i don't want to be friends at all!#sorry i don't really know how to put this relationship into words but yeah. yeah :)
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summery vibes
#oc: victory bell#vantavp#cbp2077#cyberpunk 2077#cp2077#fem v#female v#virtual photography#got a little carried away trying to take mod pics. oops
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ok…. well. i am thinking abt the positives ! cause it was beezer’s 300th game and he got an assist, and jamie got his first goal as a flyer, and yorkie batted a puck out of the air and into the goal, and frosty got two assists so 😌
#😌 < in denial of the 3 game loss streak#no but rlly.. they did try so hard all the way to the end#still painful but hey i’ll take the little victories#flyers lb#morgan frost#joel farabee#jamie drysdale#cam york
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First time to a store in like 4 months and managed to walk 20 minutes before my legs gave out! A new record since my back surgery! I’m paying for it now pain wise but got something as a little reward at homegoods 🥳
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Saturday afternoon I ran into Gibernau in the paddock. "I heard that tomorrow HRC are having a press conference," he said. "That's right, just after the race," I replied. "You'll say you're staying at Honda, won't you?" he asked. "No, actually. I'll announce I'm moving to Yamaha," I answered. I saw a flash in his eyes. First astonishment, then happiness. I could tell he had done some quick thinking and figured that it would only be good for him. He reckoned that I wouldn't do much on a Yamaha. I could read it on his face, just as I later could read it in the faces of so many other people who doubted me and my choice.
Valentino Rossi in his 2005 autobiography, What if I had never tried it
#brr brr#//#sg15#vale's autobiography is unsurprisingly circumspect about the details of that relationship and how and why it deteriorated#but the little details we get are so interesting#vale always wanted to prove people wrong. endlessly aware of people's expectations of him. always willing to play with them to subvert them#literally he wanted to do 'call an ambulance but not for me' like that's one of his career go-to's. he loves being the comeback kid#it must be endlessly frustrating that he came so close to pulling off the greatest trick of them all and fell just a little bit short#i think you always have to be quite careful with him when you're talking about his 'desire to win' as if it's that straightforward or pure#of course he wants to win but it's also about what he's trying to SAY when he wins. what he's trying to do with it. what's the statement#it's what a lot of the celebrations are about at their core - sending a message. symbiotic relationship b/n victory + expressing identity#leaving to go to yamaha in 2004 was done with the full awareness that a title that year was unlikely. that it might take at least a year#if he stays at honda he sleepwalks to a title. but he just can't do it if he feels like the victory is being claimed + defined by others#ten is just a number. but when nobody thought you could claim it? then it's the most precious number of them all#curse tag#clown tag
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quite truthfully my very personal highly self indulgent interpretation of the life series & it as a timeloop specifically is like. entirely 10000% shaped by orvs metanarrative so if you want access to this specific interpretation that like maybe 2 or 3 total people globally hold you will unfortunately have to read 551 chapters of a korean webnovel that only exists in full via awkward fan translation. but it sounds tempting does it not
#sorry whenever i try to bridge the gap of explaining even a modicum of my interpretation of the life series timeloop#i just turn into a shameless shill for orv LOL#im just.. very very attached to the concept of the watchers and how they are a direct analogy for us as fans of the series#& the idea of us (me! & you reading this!) being responsible for all the events that transpire..death as entertainment! tragedy as beauty!#and just. the horrible wonderful messy thing that is the act of storytelling as a preservation of life#we live on through story......... can a watcher continue to exist even if they have nothing to watch......#though they try to paint themselves as villainous as story gluttons as puppeteers and masterminds and bloodthirsty monsters#though they try to run away to drown themselves in the story to watch and watch and watch to become something else for just a little while#its just...#its all only ever because they loved the story.... they loved the story so much they brought it to life...#who else will be there to record their victories? their deaths? every little mundane thing?#who else will ascribe meaning to the minutiae-- to the things that were never supposed to hold meaning in the first place?#hand in hand together we make a tiny world#we watch it die over and over again#and we watch it slowly come back to life.......#maybe we can feel alive this way too....
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yes huntlow beating destiel is a beautiful feat but WHAT ABOUT RAEDA DEMOLISHING STEVE X BUCKY FOR THE LOVE OF GOD IM SO PROUD💀
#im trying so hard not to be a little pissbaby abt huntlow losing in round 2#but like#:(#small victories tho#huntlow#huntlow sweep#raeda#raeda sweep#best ship competition
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