#it’s so fucking annoying in the System cause like. you are so dumb. why do you work in MH

[jinglejanglemornings]

nothing pisses me off quite like people who work in mental health and just have less than zero awareness around obsessive compulsive disorder

[f1goat]

mistake(s) x lando norris + part eight

In which you keep making the same mistake over and over again by fucking the boy you hate the most.

masterlist - playlist

part one part two part three part four part five part six

warnings: smut but with a plot, 18+ | english is not my first language fem!verstappen reader x lando norris

“Maybe we should stop this,” you say softly. Lando is laying down on to bed next to you. Not even ten minutes ago you had one of the best orgasms of your life caused by Lando. You feel a lot more sober then before, but the alcohol is still in your system. 

“What do you mean?” Lando asks you. He knows what you mean. It’s hard to miss. You’re talking about stopping this thing between the two of you. You don’t want to fuck with him anymore. He sighs. He still wants you to tell him himself, he still has a small bit of hope left. Maybe his brain is fucking with him. Maybe you mean something else? He hopes so, but he knows deep down that it isn’t the case. 

“This thing between us,” you explain, “the meet ups to have sex with each other.” 

Lando feels disappointed. If he only had a bit more time. He actually thought things could work out in his favor. He actually had a bit of hope that you would fall for him. But this shows enough. You didn’t fall for him. You’re done with him. 

“Why?” Lando asks. 

You don’t reply. You know your answer. It’s because of your feelings for Lando. Tonight showed you that you can’t ignore them anymore. It’s laying on the tip of your tongue to tell Lando about everything. The only reason you don’t tell him, is to save yourself from the embarrassment. Lando doesn’t like you back. You know that for a fact. And Lando will probably be around you for the rest of your life cause of his friendship with Max. You don’t want him to remember you as the dumb sister of his friend who he fucked a couple times. 

“Did I go too far before?” Lando asks you, “I didn’t mean it. I don’t think you’re a slut.” He rambles a bit. 

You interrupt Lando, “No you didn’t. I liked it.”

“Then what is the problem?” Lando asks you, “We both like the sex, so why stop?” 

You didn’t even notice the tear rolling down over your cheek until Lando wipes it away with his hand. His sweet movement causes your more tears. You let out a soft sob. Lando doesn’t say anything, he simply takes you into his arms. He softly caresses your back while waiting for you to say something. 

“I’m trying so hard to hate you right now,” you sob. 

Lando can’t suppress a confused look. What do you mean with that?

“You don’t have to hate me,” Lando softly tells you, “Maybe you can just like me?”

“I’m afraid I already like you too much,” you confess. You feel how more tears are rolling down on your cheeks. You’re afraid you’ll leave a mascara stain against Lando his shirt, but when you try to move away from him he only pulls you closer back to himself. Softly you let out another sob. Lando rubs your back. 

“Maybe I like you too much too,” Lando says after a while. 

“Don’t,” you sigh. 

You don’t like Lando his fake confession. Of course, he doesn’t know what he is doing. You’re talking about falling in love with him, he is just talking about not hating you anymore. It’s annoying and confusing. Just like he is himself. 

“Still Lando, I think it’s better to stop this,” you softly say. 

“If that is what you want,” Lando gives in with a sigh, “Then we stop.”

You don’t want it, but you know you need it. You need this thing between you and Lando to stop before you will lose your mind over it. It’s impossible for you to continue living like this. It’s not healthy to think about Lando for almost every second of the day because of your feelings. You need to forget about him and you can’t do that while he’s still giving you mind-blowing orgasms. 

“Not want,” you confess, “but need. I need this to stop.”

“Can’t you tell me why? If I did something wrong I want to fix it,” Lando asks.

“It’s not you,” you simply state. 

“It is,” Lando replies.

“No,” you reply back quickly.

“Do you think I’m stupid? You don’t like me,” Lando asks you frustrated. He doesn’t know where his frustration is coming from, but it’s getting words out of him without even thinking. He knows only one thing for sure right now and that is that he doesn’t want things between you two to stop. “And now you’re done with me,” Lando continues, “just be honest about it.”

“It’s nothing like that,” you reply annoyed.

“I’m not fucking stupid,” Lando bites back, “There isn’t any other reason for you to stop with this. You’re simply done with me.”

“I’m not done with you,” you blurt out, “but I do want to be.”

“Fuck,” Lando curses, “Why do you want to be done with me?”

You don’t answer. You can’t tell him about your feelings for him. Lando keeps looking at you. Your silence is annoying him. He wants to know your reasons. He wants to know if he still has any chance. What if this is about something dumb that he can change? He needs to know. He can’t just lose you like this. It annoys him that you don’t respond anymore. His frustration is getting more present in his face. You notice it clearly.

“I can’t tell you,” you sigh after a while.

“You’re fucking selfish,” Lando grunts annoyed. 

“Selfish?” You ask surprised. 

“Yes,” Lando simply replies, “Fucking selfish.”

“Huh, why?” 

“You showed me how it’s suppose to be.”

“I don’t get it,” you say confused.

“I’ll never feel like this with any other girl. You’ve fucking ruined it for me.”

“I have ruined sex for you?” You continue to ask.

“Not only sex. You have ruined everything for me. I’ll never experience this again with anyone else. You are fucking selfish for ruining me without telling me why,” Lando finishes. You notice his bitter tone. 

“Don’t act like you’re better. You fucked every girl around Monaco just to ignore them afterwards,” you bite back annoyed.

“Don’t,” Lando growls, “even go there.” You notice how he seems more angrily. 

“What? Was it any different?” You ask annoyed.

“Yes!” Lando almost yells out you with frustration. “It was fucking different. I told them before and afterwards that it would be a one time thing. And it was just fucking sex!” His last sentence comes out way too soon. He yells it. It almost feels relieving to say it.

“I told you as well,” you say matter of factly. 

“You came back,” Lando replies, “You came back every time. And you haven’t said it lately.”

“Not this time,” you confess, “I can’t come back anymore.”

“And you’re not telling me why,” Lando completes your sentence annoyed.

You hold your silence. You knew Lando wouldn’t be pleased with ending this thing between you two, but you didn’t expect something like this. He actually seems mad at you. You’re pretty certain about him being mad. Lando is looking at you with his eyebrows all furrowed, he keeps sending you annoyed glances. It’s obvious. He was yelling at you before. 

“Tell me why Y/N,” Lando orders you. 

“No,” you reply annoyed. Who does he think he is to order things like this from you? 

“I swear to god, tell me,” Lando says angrily.

“No,” you reply again. 

“You’re so fucking stubborn,” Lando tells you frustrated. “Don’t you think I deserve to know why you don’t want this anymore?” 

“This isn’t some sort of break up,” you tell Lando, you start to match his angry tone. “It was just sex and that stops now.” 

“I feel so stupid,” Lando sighs frustrated. He walks towards the door. It’s clear to him you won’t tell him your reasons. It’s no use to keep trying. He can’t stop the following words from coming out of his mouth. “I actually thought it was a bit more than just sex,” Lando confesses. Before you can reply to his words, Lando already walks out of your hotel room. He slams the door behind him. 

What did he just say? What does that mean?

Did Lando think about it as more as well?

Fuck. You just fucked up literally everything. 

+++

Days are passing by slowly. You haven’t seen Lando anymore since your last conversation with him. That conversation didn’t went well. He hasn’t been around at Max his apartment as well. You have texted Lando multiple times, but he didn’t respond once. You feel guilty. In fact, the only thing you’re feeling lately is guilt. It’s affecting your social life and your study. You can’t focus on learning anymore. It’s useless. 

You tried speaking to Max about it, be he has been gone a lot. You’re guessing that he spends his time with Lando and training for the next race. You could use some advice from your brother, but he isn’t around much lately. You texted him this morning, hoping that he would have some time today to talk to you, but you haven’t had any response yet. You also texted Lando again. He didn’t respond either. Not that you’re surprised by that. 

His last words to you have been repeating themselves inside your mind since he said them. You think about them the whole day and at night - when you finally fall asleep - you dream about them. I actually thought it was a bit more than just sex. Those words are haunting you. 

You spend all your time thinking about what Lando meant with them. What does he mean with a bit more than sex? Did he mean friends? Or maybe did he mean more than that? You can only hope so. Not that it matters. You already fucked things up. 

Later that day you’re finally talking with Max. You were right, he has spend his free time at Lando his apartment. But now, he’s home and you can talk to someone about everything that happened. You’re taking a seat in front of him. Max doesn’t wait for you to start talking, he starts himself. Something you’re kinda glad about, since you didn’t really know how to start the conversation, but when you hear Max his words you’re less happy.

“So, it’s safe to say that you didn’t figure it out,” Max comments. 

You think back about the two times Max told you that you needed to figure it out on your own. The first time after your ‘date’ with Lando in Australia and the second time after you told Max you were afraid Lando would be done with you soon. 

“I didn’t,” you sigh. You still have no idea what your brother means. 

“For someone with grades as high as yours, you can be quite dumb sometimes,” Max jokes. 

You don’t laugh. If there was time to think about anything else, you would be worried about your studies right now. You haven’t touched one book the last days. It worries you. But it doesn't worry you more then you do about Lando. 

“I think I can say goodbye to those grades,” you tell Max honestly, “I didn’t study in days.”

“Why didn’t you study?” Max asks surprised.

“I can’t focus on anything else,” you confess.

“Anything else then?” 

“Lando.” You say it so soft that it comes out as a whisper, but you know Max heard you. His expressions tells you enough. 

“Fucking hell,” Max mutters annoyed, “You two are idiots. Why did you stop things if you can’t stop thinking about him?”

“You’re the idiot,” you tell Max annoyed, “It’s pretty obvious. Lando doesn’t feel shit for me. I fell for him, so I needed to stop so I could forget about my feelings.”

“And how is that going?” Max asks you.

You love and hate your brother at the same time. You know this is what you deserve and maybe even need, but why has he to be this direct? 

“Like shit,” you confess.

“And why do you think Lando doesn’t return your feelings?” Max asks further.

“Why would he?” 

“Hm, maybe it has something to do with his speech? I mean I even understood it and it wasn’t directed at me,” Max says harshly. “Something about how you ruined everything for him? How he would never experience things like this again with anyone else. Rings any bells?”

You’re not surprised Max heard it. Lando his words were loud. 

“I thought he was talking about sex,” you mutter.

“Do you think he changes his whole behavior for someone he just fucks with?” Max asks you. 

“What are you talking about?” 

“Don’t act dumb. We both know Lando changed from some rude, spoiled boy to the man you fell in love with. He didn’t do that for me,” Max explains. 

You feel tears rolling down your cheeks. Max lets out a soft sigh, he quietly takes a seat next to you. He pulls you closer by him and tries to comfort you. 

“I’m sorry Y/N, but you wouldn’t believe me if I would sugarcoat it. It has never been just sex for him,” Max tells you softly, “Just like it’s not for you.”

“How can I fix this?” You ask Max. 

He shrugs. “I don’t really know,” he tells you honestly, “I’ve never seen him like this before. But you can at least try to talk to him. I believe you know pretty well where he lives.”

part nine

[atlasdoe]

no bcs i think dumbles was a trash headmaster and i would've had him stepping down from the headmaster position OR solely focusing in that bcs i feel like he was biting more than he could chew (then again the british educational system has always sucked and nobody gave a fuck about kids so can i? entirely blame him? not truly), BUT blame him for everything???? EVERYTHING???? people are sick. or too young. and need to read more.

yeah i realllg don't understand how people truly believe that Dumbledore is the root to all evil. I swear people are more mad at him for certain characters deaths more then they are at fucking Voldemort.

The thing with Dumbledore is that he's morally grey. He's not the perfect mentor that we're led to believe he is but that doesn't make him a full blown villain. He is not responsible for every bad thing that's happened in the series

and it's SO ANNOYING cause it's taking away everything that made these characters interesting. Like acting as if everyone in the Order was manipulated into joining takes away so much from them.

And as for the Death Eaters don't even get me started. Evan and Barty in particular died because of their own actions. They committed crimes, they were supposed to be arrested but they resisted and instead were killed. Dumbledore has literally no hand in that because he's not apart of the justice system and has never shown any signs of wanting to be

And as for the people who died during the Battle of Hogwarts blaming Dumbledore is just plain dumb. Dumbledore was literally already dead at this point and speaking of Remus and Tonks as if they were fully adults doing their job (as part of the Order and in Tonks case literally her job. It's her fucking job to fight bad wizards. It's what she gets paid for. She's a fucking auror) with the kids it's more McGonagalls fault if anything for letting the kids fight in the battle to begin with. But the fandom love McGonagall so they'd never admit it. Either way Dumbledore was already six feet under and played literally no part in the battle or had a say in who fought it (HE WAS LITERALLY DEAD)

Also while we're here let's talking about everyone else

James and Lily Dumbledore literally put in hiding to protect them "but he took the invisibility cloak" no. James gave him the cloak. We don't know why but considering James and Lily were in hiding and their lives were in the hands of their best friend Peter it's not hard to imagine that they deemed themselves safe enough to hand Dumbledore a cloak that wouldn't have fitted all three of them anyway

Cedric Diggory died because of three people and their names are Peter Pettigrew, Barty Crouch Jr and Voldemort. Maybe at best i'll give you that Dumbeldore wasn't looking into the odd things happening at Hogwarts (like Harry being chosen) enough but then you'll have to be prepared to blame every other teacher as well

Marlene, Dorcas, Pandora, Alice, Frank, and practically every other marauders era character had very little cannon information about their death but none of their deaths mention anything to do with Dumbledore. How tf is Dumbledore to blame for Pandora experimenting with spells???

Regulus is the same with Barty and Evan. That man went into the cave by himself because of something Kreacher told him about Voldemort. IF DUMBLEDORE KNEW THAT REGULUS WENT INTO THET CAVE AND KNEW ABOUT THE LOCKET THEN WHY THE FUCK WOULD HE TAKE THE LITERAL CHOSEN ONE WHO HAS TO BE KILLED BY VOLDEMORT INTO A DEATH CAVE TO GET A PHONY LOCKET??????????

As i've said I don't even like Dumbledore like that but this fandom is killing me with all of this frankly stupid nonsense and it's killing my braincells

[rulerzreachf4n7]

I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATE THOSE ANNOYING ASS PARENTS (SPECIFICALLY CHRISTIAN ONES, no offense to y'all, just learn TO FUCKING MIND UR BUSINESS AND USE COMMON SENSE) SAYING AND YAPPING ABOUT "erm guys, you uhm, shouldn't take ur kids to watch inside out 2 🤓👆" LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP KAREN AND LISTEN TO MY DAMN REASONS NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT

Reason number one- you're five year olds aren't the targated demographic for this movie

Yes come at me all you fucking want but this isn't like the first movie where it's much more innocent and doesn't handle heavy topics like having an anxiety attack and puberty, I'm sorry Karen but you're two six year old kids won't be needing to learn about what puberty is, TRUST ME THAT IS GOING TO SAVED FOR ANOTHER TIME, and it was obvious this movie is targated for teens, especially the ones born in 2010 cause like half of y'all (including me) are 12/13 years old already, and just because it's a Pixar film doesn't mean it can't be mature it was definitely not targated for people under puberty

Reason number two- take a fucking hint and stop being homophobic

Personally me, RILEY X VAL IS A HILL I AM WILLING TO DIE ON, I WILL DEFEND THAT SHIP LIKE MY LIFE DEPENDS ON IT, but from a more...different view...just because two girls are interacting and holding hands DOES NOT FUCKING MEAN THEY'RE DATING TAKE A FUCKING HINT YOU TRUMP SUPPORTER, sure Riley x val may not be canon due to obvious homophobic people complaining, and a kinda underrated one where people think the age gap is too big given that Riley is a freshman but I think Val might be a sophomore? Not sure it's never like mentioned but calling val a super senior is fucking weeeird bro, and also Disney is a SHIT at writing gay couples and probably would stereotype them is more to add of how bad it'll make them look

Number three- surprisingly there's racism???

Not really a big one but I've heard some people complaining about Val's hockey team, saying it's "too diverse"...BITCH WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN " TOO DIVERSE " YOU WANT EVERYONE TO BE AS WHITE AS RILEY??? not much to speak on here but it truly is infuriating

Number four- Riley's belief system makes her a bad person??

Another small one but still very annoying people complaining that Riley's not a good person and has a bad belief system but even though she considers herself a good person but makes mistakes it doesn't matter because God isn't in it and that alone apparently makes her a bad person...SHUT THE FUCK UP, I'M ALL FOR RESPECTING RELIGIONS BUT THE PEOPLE I HATE MOST ON EARTH ARE FUCKING CHRISTIANS LIKE TAKE A FUCKING HINT WHAT HAPPENED TO LOVE THY NEIGHBOR??? SHIT WENT OUT THE WINDOW SINCE ADAM AND EVE SINNED

And number five- peoples ever decreasing media literacy

Every since the movie came out people have been complaining over Anxiety and saying she's "the villain"...im going to take your hand while I'm saying this...DO Y'ALL NOT KNOW WHAT FUCKING ANXIETY IS SHE LITERALLY EXPLAINS IT HER FUCKING SELF WHEN SHE'S FIRST INTRODUCED YOU DUMB BITCHES, " B-But she made Riley have a panic attack🥺🥺 " first of all It's an ANXIETY ATTACK second, people were saying "w-why was anxiety making Riley over think and worry so much? 🥺🥺" TAKE A LONG WILD GUESS IT'S IN HER FUCKING NAME, I'm convinced people who went to watch it, saw thirty minutes of it then left cause they didn't even know what anxiety is and what it causes, half of the people watching don't understand anxiety's motives CAUSE Y'ALL HAVE NEVER HAD ANXIETY, coming from someone who has anxiety and social anxiety I get where she's coming from (and maybe secretly rooting for her at the end, like fr let her cook) and y'all wouldn't have acted like this in the first movie cause everyone HAS experienced sadness, everyone HAS HAD sad moments so it's no difference with anxiety, except this time only a certain amount of people will get it

Also am I the only but I fucking HATED Riley's friends like they were SO GODDAMN ANNOYING 💀💀

[sapphichymns]

I’ll admit, I’ve been thinking about Kerblam a lot due to the rise of AI and how it’s used as a gotcha about the politics of 13′s era being actually conservative and not ‘woke’. So basically, Kerblam is a really annoying fungi in the fandom wank.

Here’s the thing, I know what the problem with the episode. It’s the word System. System is only ever used to describe the AI. Never was used to describe the way Kerblam uses the capitalist system to operate in Kandoka. Of course, it wouldn’t really raise eyebrows for a script editor, it really isn’t contradicting anything that came before. But when the Doctor says:

DOCTOR: The systems aren't the problem. How people use and exploit the system, that's the problem. People like you.

It somehow automatically became about the capitalist system Kerblam operates on. If it had been:

DOCTOR: The AI isn’t the problem. How people use and exploit the AI, that's the problem. People like you.

the fandom wank about it wouldn’t have ever reached this level of political jerk off (I swear I didn’t want to reach this level of the metaphor but I did).

The episode is not about capitalism in space(!), it’s about automation anxiety. How Kerblam is using an AI to replace jobs from people to maximize profit and it does cause an issue to the people of Kandoka.

KIRA: I was terrible too, my first week. I'm amazed the System kept me on. But now I just take a deep breath at the beginning of every shift and tell myself, Kira Arlo, you can do this. Sometimes I almost believe myself. DOCTOR: What I don't understand is, why does Kerblam need people as a workforce? These are automated and repetitive tasks. Why not get the robots to do it? KIRA: Do you not watch the news? DOCTOR: We travel a lot. RYAN: A lot. KIRA: Kandokan labour laws. Ever since the People Power protests, companies have to make sure a minimum ten percent of the workforce are actual people, at all levels. Like the slogan says, real people need real jobs. Work gives us purpose, right?

The people of Kandoka were indeed holding Kerblam accountable for the push of automation, even the way the episode ends is a continuation of that.

SLADE: We're suspending all operations for a month, pending review and while the TeamMates are rebuilding Dispatch. JUDY: All our workers have been given two weeks' paid leave, free return shuttle transport. And I'm going to propose that Kerblam becomes a People-Led Company in future. Majority organics. People, I mean. We're always looking for good workers to join our management team. DOCTOR: Er, thanks. We're strictly freelance.

(Note: Charlie did not  care about the people who worked at Kerblam. He only cared about Kira and only because, it affected him directly.)

I understand Oxygen is more popular because the Doctor says capitalism sucks and it’s basically abolished by the end of it but not every story needs the Doctor to just show up and somehow solve a systematic issue. Some times, talking about the importance of fighting little by little to make things better is just as important. It’s a recurring theme in 13′s era.

I don’t even think Kerblam needs a medal for effort or its issue is somehow some big moral failure. It just happened. It’s common for this show (or many others) to have its moment where it trips on itself. It’s just the conversation around it is so fucking dumb.

[starkilightz]

YODEL LOST MY TWENTY ONE PILOTS MERCH!!

GIRL OH MY FUCKING GOD IM FUCKING FUMING!!!!!!!!

this is a long rant post cause fuck Yodel, If yall had issue in the UK can yall say cause i need to know if its just my area that Yodel are fucking dumb in, thanks :)

First it was meant to be delivered on the 25th May ( at my workplace WHICH WAS OPEN AND OPERATING at the time) but apparently they couldn't find the building (bullshit, we are the only ones on this road that's straight of the high street fuck off you couldn't find it) but whatever. i knew it prob wouldn't get delivered on monday (27th) as it was bank holiday. i check the tracking and it said that 'We need some more information about your address. Please chat with us' but all customer service was down as it was bank holiday. So i waited till tuesday (28th) for when their customer service to open and i contacted them about this address thing but they couldn't find anything i needed to add or change other than the option to add a 'Leave with a neighbour' option but seeing we are the only one on the street we don't have neighbours so we got that squared off. Then the customer service agent said now that done, it should be getting delivered, with no issue. But before i could ask would that be today or? the chat got cut off.

So, (like the annoying bitch i am) i when back onto the live chat and got in contact with another agent, just to ask what the possible delivery date or time would be as we operate on business hours (7am-5pm) and yodel stays delivering till like 9pm so i just wanted to know if i would have to wait around for it. and she stated that she'll check my tracking and it was currently waiting to go out with the driver for delivery and i was like oo perfect that's great i might get it today at some point, so i ended the chat and waited (this chat was at like 9am on the 28th May). after all day of checking nothing got updates on the tracking or anything. Told myself i'll wait till today 29th. So this morning i got on a chat with another agent and asked hey is this actually going out for delivery today cause yall said that it would yesterday and this is what i got in response:

'According to our tracking, your parcel has not been scanned in our network since 25 May 24 13:57:. I do apologise for the delay in your parcel's delivery. So that we can get it moving again I will need to request that your local depot conducts a search for your parcel. To make sure that we can do this as quickly as possible could you please tell me the contents of your parcel so that I can share this with our team? Kindly confirm that the email address is the correct one to receive the notification.'

Like hey what do u ment you've not seen it or had it in your system since the 25th. i asked the customer service agent like does this mean its lost or what like??? AND HE JUST ENDED THE CHAT ON ME!! like huh!?. so at this point im starting to get really annoyed cause what why am i being told different things.

So i hop on the live chat AGAIN. this agent was actually super nice and helped me (sort of) . i told them i was sent that message and the chat was cut off, that i was confused on what's actually happening. he was like it might not be lost it might be misplaced. like girl THATS JUST ANOTHER WORD FOR LOST THE FUCK? so i was like whatever like what's going to happen now and they were like we will contact your local depot and have them do a search and you will get an update hopefully within the next 24 hours.

i predicted this would happen i made a post on like the 23/24th May that i hated yodel and literally have never got it right losing shit or delivering it to the wrong place or sayings it delivered when it wasn't. like im so close to emailing the TOP online store to be like why use yodel it's the worst rated one in the country. like why not use royal mail or evri like i would actually celebrate if they did evri and they are also the fucking worst.

i work in customer service like its my active job to help customers with shit like this yall are actually badddd, anyway if i don't get an update or its not delivered by the end of the week(Sun 2nd) imma contact the TOP shop and see if they can push them on the business/corporate side as they obvs don't care about the customers.

[fizzigigsimmer]

Nerd!Steve but lets make it fun. Steve comes from a family of brilliant people. His dad’s a super genius who married another genius and they’re both off winning awards for cultivating life on Mars or whatever, meanwhile there’s Steve the “dumb” one. The disappointing son with his weird interests in the paranormal whose inventions never seem to quite work and his job as an IT tech. “Have you tried turning the system off and on?” Steve and his friends (Enter Dustin and the scoops troop) have been convinced for years that the Russians are developing some kind of supernatural super weapon, and it turns out he’s actually right.

The Russians have been working on opening gates to a parallel dimension and as a result freaky shit keeps leaking through and causing death and mayhem that the government has to sweep under the rug. Most of that cleanup falls to the CIA’s Stargate division. Billy is a top field agent with a reputation for getting the job done no matter what the stakes. Unfortunately for his operations team, keeping up with his maverick tendencies is almost as much of a headache as the operations themselves. His life tangles with Steve’s when a machine of his actually works and he and his friends end up in the cross hairs of Russian agents who happen to be targets in Billy’s latest mission. Shit goes sideways and Billy ends up needing their help to complete his mission.

Billy’s team is used to his antics. Heather has betting pools going about how quickly the next “Bond Girl” will show up and whether or not Billy will fall into her web before she trys and kills him when it’s inevitably revealed that she’s been working for the enemy the whole time. Seriously the guy wouldn’t know a healthy relationship if it walked up and volunteered to pay for his therapy. No one was counting on the nerds or how Billy would respond to one of them in particular. It’s insane, but also hilarious AF watching Billy struggle to keep the bumbling civilians alive, and don’t think she hasn’t clocked how he can’t leave the pretty one with the glasses alone. It’s like watching two little boys in a sand pit. He’s always in Steve’s face and pulling on his pigtails, you’d never know this was the man of mystery who has left a trail of broken hearts on seven continents. If he can just pull his head out of his ass maybe she’s not going to have to start setting him up on blind dates after all.

Steve thinks Billy is the WORST. He’s pushy and arrogant and won’t stop touching Steve’s tools even though he’s made it clear he has a specific system for them!!! He gets that Billy is trying to annoy him to death as payback for ruining his operation, but none of that was Steve’s fault and Billy should really be a lot more grateful that Steve and the others are here to help; because they never would have known what the Russians were up to or had a chance at stopping it without them. So what if Steve can’t win a fight, he’s about to save the fucking world so give him some credit! Billy could at the very least stop teasing him with that ‘Pretty Boy’ crap. Steve went to high school okay, he knows he doesn’t compare to guys like Billy.

Billy is pretty sure Steve is the best and worst thing that has ever happened to him. He’s not sure how he’s still alive when he attracts disaster like a magnet, or how someone so brilliant can be so dense. The fact that Steve thinks he’s dumb though like genuinely baffles him and he kinda wants to punch everyone who ever made him feel like he was less than just because he didn’t meet their expectations. Kinda wants to punch something every time he looks at Steve honestly. Billy’s used to beautiful people throwing themselves at him constantly, so can someone explain why his favorite thing all of a sudden are the little folds in Steve when he’s concentrating, and the way his eyes light up all ‘Aha!’ right when he thinks of a good comeback to one of Billy’s jibes? He is not this guy! He doesn’t do attachments for damn good reason. So Why does he want to listen to Steve and Dustin fighting over what the CIA is hiding in Area 51 and why does he get such a kick out of how they collectively lose their minds when he hints that he’s been there.

Billy’s not attached, but if Steve wanted to sleep with him he’d be down. They’re hot and tommorrow might never come and all that. But hey, if it does he’s hinted a few times that the teams Digital Targeter Daniel has been talking about retirement. It’ll be hard finding a replacement you know, cause Billy is picky and he doesn’t just want someone who knows tech but someone who isn’t afraid to be in the field with him.

Steve’s like, “oh man, I can see what you mean. Good luck, I really hope you find someone”.

[aciddaffodil]

Summer 2024- What I Dropped

Wistoria : Wand and Sword

I was so here for this anime; the animation is stellar and magic society interesting. A very simple concept of MC wanting to be with his childhood friend but doesn't have a lick of magic. Cool- until there's no likeable characters and it just feels like its showing off flashy sakuga fight scenes. Not to mention the fucking fantasy racism with the dwarves which is just...gross? Who knows, I may binge the rest of it once its fully out? I definitely want to try watching it again.

No Longer Allowed to Live in This World

A Dazai-like Sensei character does not successfully die by double suicide with his beloved and is reincarnated into a fantasy world. He constantly uses his power of negativity and absorbing sleeping pills/poisons as his ability against monsters. Everyone fawns over him, and he can offer some good advice...on occasion. I just didn't see the point to keep watching it and dropped it after 5 episodes.

Failure Frame

The Isekai(?) Overpowered MC who is dark and edgy and wants to cause ruin upon the Goddess who brought him to this fantasy world, and most of his classmates who abandoned him to die as a "low" ranker with skills that cause harm. What bothered me most was 1) the 3D CG shots just don't blend and make all the monsters look awful and its BLAUGH and 2) having to hear about men npc's wanting to rape a female npc character just is annoying and gross.

Plus-Sized Elf

I think the only thing noteworthy is all the workout advice in it- of which I won't retain anything of it and the plus-sized fanservice exists. I personally just didn't want to waste my time with it anymore even though the episodes are short.

2.5-Dimensional Seduction

It was a cute nerdy experience of them first meeting but honestly, I did not vibe with this show. I'm sure this show is enjoyable, as people have compared it to Dress Up Darling and like it.

The Ossan Newbie Adventurer, Trained to Death by the Most Powerful Party, Became Invincible

I gave this like 5 episodes? But finding out the dude is actually super over-powered and not just trained to death...was disappointing. For a trashy fantasy series, it was pretty good and fun to watch. I just have a habit of rage quitting if something frustrates me or if you listen to how cheesy and horrendous this opening is, that will do it as well lmao. Rick and Raenette's friendship is really sweet. I think him having the same dream as these S-tier adventurers is cool and I do hope they achieve their goals by the end of the series.

Why Does Nobody Remember Me in This World?

I attempted to watch this 3 times, but it kept putting me to sleep so I dropped it.

Narenare Cheer for You

The only P.A. Works anime I've ever dropped. It was because of how irritating the line art is in color and how ALL the outlines of literally everything is in color. And when it comes to specific scenes, it gets muddled and that's why I couldn't stomach it past 2 episodes. I'm sure it's a cute cheerleading anime but the style of it was awful to me personally. WHY CAN"T THERE BE CRISP OUTLINES WHYYYYYYY.

Tasuketsu- Fate of the Majority

Ah yes, death games premise and where deaths aren't permanent cause you can ask a question and have loopholes which take away from the emotional impacts some character deaths have. I.e., the protagonist's best friend who came to life again with no reasoning behind it. The rules are so dumb but the power system interesting, I just didn't care to keep watching.

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It is frankly terrifying how much anime I'm keeping up with this season...my count is at 26 and even the most mediocre I have brainwashed myself to not give up on cause they all have some sort of redeeming factor. CURSES.

[bonesandthebees]

Then there’s Tommy. I’m going to assume the nightmare was a past near-death experience. I’m sure he has lots of trauma. It’s also very telling about Wikbur as a person that he gets annoyed that a nightmare has more effect than anything he does, so he starts being annoying, but the second he learns it’s a nightmare, he backs off. It’s just clear he has his own weird slightly fuck value system he operates by. He will try to get on Tommy’s nerves when he’s in a bad mood, but the second he get a, by his standards, valid reason as to why Tommy is upset, he quits.

Then there’s also the idea that Wilbur’s visions give him anxiety and panic attacks. It’a the pressure of his role as Pythia. It’s having to interpret them correctly and hope Schlatt listen. The visions themselves are probably overwhelming too if they are just flashes. Like the first vision was very disorienting with people screaming. And if Schlatt asked if he saw people die in the vision, then maybe that’s something that happened before. Then tnere’s also the fact that his normal dreams can be nightmares too. Boy has trauma. Boy also has no parents and lived on the streets for a bit. Cause of trauma? Possibly.

Anyway, I think that Tommy can tell that Wilbur isn’t a bad person. Sure he can be mean and he says dumb or hurtful things, he tries to be purposefully annoying, but Tommy has seen how scares he was at the idea of having to face the Deathlings. I don’t think that’s something he’ll easily forget. Tommy has seen the most of Wilbur’a vulnerability without trying to force it out of him like Niki accidentally did.

Tommy also saw Wilbur’s reaction to choking him, which I feel like the moment they learned Tommy was hurt, the other Deathlings stopped paying attention to Wilbur or his reactions. Last chapter I said that they treat him like a human being, I was kinda wrong, they treat him more like a human than he’s used to, but still not like they treat each other. I feel like they did try, but the second they nave one bad conversation why him they start writing him off.

That’s not entirely their fault, Wilbur is so used to being dehumanized and so stuck in dehumanizing himself that some of it must care over. He doesn’t have a name or a story to them. They’ve never seen his eyes either and he’s being a prick. It’s easier to write him off as the Pythia and try not to think to much about him than it is to try and see things form his perspective when he’s giving them nothing to work with. Like you said, they planned to steal a religious symbol and now they are stuck with a pisses and very traumatised human being and they have no idewhat to do with him.

I feel like the idea that he would try to escape hasn’t even crossed their mind if no one was guarding the door. They just let him roam free a d maybe expected him to get used to it. I don’t think he’ll get to roam free anymore. Which is what he wanted right? To be treated as a prisoner? Anyway, everyone's reactions will be interesting. I’m also interested to see how the Deathlomhs deal with new near-death experiences and how big of a deal it will be. One thing is certain, Tommy could guilt trip the fuck out of Wilbur, but is he going to? (also, is he petty enough to get a tattoo of Wilbur’s face?)

(3/3)

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oh yeah glass!tommy has a lot of trauma :)

wilbur might be a petty bitch, but he's not a cruel person. he knows what nightmares are like, and he sympathizes with tommy when he hears that's what kept him up all night. he backs off because he knows what it's like to be in tommy's shoes.

ohhh yeah the visions can be extremely overwhelming, and there's also so much pressure on him to make sure he interprets it correctly. poor boy has been having panic attacks about his visions since he first got the job as pythia. he's also seen people die plenty of times in his visions. it's not a pretty sight. he definitely has trauma from multiple sources

tommy understands wilbur better than any other deathling in the temple. that's just because he's seen more sides of him than anyone else. including wilbur's reaction to choking him, which wasn't anything malicious or cruel, but instead pure fear and panic. also, he apologized before running off. tommy will remember that a la telltale and all that

even though the Deathlings respect him more than the palace did, they still saw him as a tool first and foremost. his entire position as pythia is designed to dehumanize him. they can't see his eyes, and he doesn't act like a normal person because he hasn't been treated like one in 10+ years. this definitely affects how the Deathlings view and treat him

okay clarification, he wasn't allowed to free roam. he had to trick tommy to get out of his room in the first place. he was only allowed outside of his room if he had tommy with him, because tommy was his prison guard. sure, they had no one guarding the big door to the main entrance of the temple, but that's because it's a huge door with a giant lock on it. he wouldn't have been able to get out even if he got to it in time.

guess we'll have to wait and see how tommy reacts to his new near death experience

[madcatdaderpydrawer-blog]

Today on Monty: The aftermath of last lore episode.

Foxy wakes up in a jail cell. An unlocked one.

Eclipse has just been sitting around, waiting for him to wake up.

The prison is in the middle of space. He stole an entire jail just for this.

Extreme temperatures can cause system failures, so Foxy can’t leave.

Eclipse keeps talking about keeping Foxy safe. Apparently Foxy dying leads to futures Eclipse doesn’t like.

Foxy does not give a fuck about his own life, and is willing to die to spite Eclipse. Eclipse threatens to torture Monty if Foxy dies.

Eclipse claims he’ll send Foxy back to Earth once it’s safe.

Foxy asks for a computer. Eclipse tells him it’s in a hidden room that he’ll find eventually.

There no door in the prison, and Foxy can’t reach the windows. The only way out is teleportation. Eclipse also made the railings too tall to jump over, just to make absolutely sure Foxy can’t kill himself.

Foxy dying pushes Monty clean over the edge, straight into killing everyone else. Eclipse also looses “a couple of things” if that happens. So, he’s nudging the timeline in a more preferable direction.

Eclipse rerouted the teleporter Monty installed in Foxy to right outside the cell he woke up in.

Eclipse bluffs about wanting to torture Foxy. When called on it, he makes excuses.

Foxy gets the whole prison to himself, the hidden computer room is somewhere upstairs.

Eclipse is keeping him here until an unspecified event happens. He won’t clarify because Foxy can still contact Monty.

After asking Eclipse what the prison is made of, Foxy tries to bash his skull open on the wall. After reminding Foxy that he’s not letting him kill himself, Eclipse boops his snoot again.

Foxy would rather not be involved in any of the Eclipse stuff. At all.

Eclipse offers to give Foxy his memories back. Foxy is not interested. He’s happy with his life. Eclipse and Foxy find eachother confusing.

Eclipse is going to scrub the internet of any information regarding Foxy’s creation, since he wants to find that information himself.

Foxy has figured out that Eclipse is lonely and wants friends, and it annoys him. Eclipse dodges the question and wonders why Foxy would even pick Monty over him in the first place, considering Monty’s everything. Foxy avoids that question by calling Eclipse a lying liar who lies.

In one possible future, Foxy turns into a dolphin.

Foxy just wants to live his future instead of being shown it.

Foxy points out Eclipse’s whole avoid self-reflection at any cost thing.

Eclipse claims that, for Foxy, helping him just entails Foxy having a nice happy life.

Foxy asks Eclipse how he determines the futures. Eclipse admits he peeks into nearly identical dimensions that are further along. Foxy points out that those aren’t this dimension and none of them were guaranteed here. Eclipse cites multiverse theory and branching possibilities in response.

Eclipse claims this dimensions is getting dangerously close to a future he refuses to let happen. Foxy accuses him of being dishonest, which he denies, and he accuses Foxy of being paranoid.

Foxy roasts Eclipse and tells him to fuck off. Eclipse fucks off, but warns Foxy that he’ll be back with a piece of Monty. Foxy does not take him seriously.

There’s no cell service. Foxy is only worried about how he’ll do videos now.

Foxy: What the hell’s the matter with you, where the hell am I?

Eclipse: Oh, there’s quite a lot of things wrong with me, Foxy, let’s be honest.

Foxy: I can tell.

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Eclipse: I can change where that goes to next. Do you want to be tortured?

Foxy: Yeah, sure, go ahead. Change it.

Eclipse: Aww, Foxy, much as I’d love to do that, not this time.

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Eclipse: You seem confused.

Foxy: No, this is, actually just dumb.

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Foxy: You’re really bad at making friends.

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Eclipse: I, need the time to think of words, idiot.

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Eclipse: Stay sane down here, Foxy. A place like this, you can hear things at night.

Foxy: That’s great.

Foxy is so fed up with Eclipse

[nightmare-foundation]

I keep seeing and impulsively checking the blog of an old fairly toxic friend of mine n I just.

Man. Why do YOU have to be doing well. Why am I the only one who looks back and ends up feeling awful.

Not that I want him to suffer. It's better he doesn't. But like,, I'm always the one on the chopping block between the two of us. It's been 4 YEARS and one month since we've completely ceased contact. Yet my dumb ass STILL can't not think abt him at random

Like,, I'm sure I wasn't completely innocent. I was a really weird 13 year old who never had a genuine friend before, not to mention my mental illness and trauma I had yet to uncover. Yet the only person who never communicated nor seemed to care about our friendship was him. I could be pushy at times, yeah, but I always backed down if told no and whatnot.

Not only that, but I'm still annoyed that he straight up LIED about me and what I was like. One of his (ADULT) friends had contacted me in late 2018, claiming I was, and I quote, "manipulative, misgendered him, and used him as an emotional dump truck". I was 13 years old, and my only friend besides one other person had blocked me for no reason.

Literally for that WHOLE month, I was terrified. I had panic attacks and was anxious as hell. And I'll admit I was a little dependent on him, but I was still fucked from that experience.

Once we started talking again and boundaries set up. He SORT of apologized, but always insisted he was an awful friend, so I ended up having to comfort him instead. I always made excuses and everything for him, convinced that I was awful. And literally like,, there was no effort put in from his side after that. Aaaand then April 2019, I was suddenly messaged and blocked, and that was the last time we talked.

I was hurt obv but like. After that. I kept on being targeted by his adult friends (we were both 14, the friends were at LEAST 23+). Deadass I still don't know what the hell was said abt me but I KNOW it wasn't good. Bc before I knew it I had someone call me a pathetic bitch while I was having a panic attack over feeling guilty for shit I didn't do, then I was banned from like 3 system servers for "interacting inappropriately with a minor". Cue me literally being 14 at the time, a csa survivor, with no evidence even when I asked repeatedly for it, with literally no access to anyone younger than me bc of discords TOS.

The stress from that LITERALLY made us split several times and caused us to switch hosts. Sammy, the alter who was host at the time, is likely STILL dormant. All of that happened in practically the same year.

I'm still fucking baffled by it, angry, and hurt. It's been 4 damn years and I'm 90% sure he doesn't even remember us now.

Like,, christ I still can't interact with the undertale fandom for long bc it makes me remember him. I can't even look at art styles resembling his bc it makes me sick! I am TERRIFIED of venting bc I'm scared someone will lash out at me or accuse me of dumping all of my trauma on them. I'm scared I'm doing something wrong without knowing it and that tomorrow I'll wake up to having no friends bc they all blocked me.

Hell, I have issues trusting people who use the same name as him! I avoid a whole GROUP of people because I'm terrified they'll recognize me and start drama with false claims. Anyone who may have been so much as NEAR him I can't completely interact with besides a couple reblogs here and there.

And like,, I'm sure he's doing completely fine. That he's entirely unaware of the damage he caused. And, yeah, good for him, he's not suffering like I am. But also,, I'm painfully envious. I wish I was left pain free.

It's so stupid. It was 4 years ago. I really need to get over it.

[petrovaaaae]

Winter White Wolf

CHAPTER 1

​To be in this new world, living a life outside of his brain-washed state. It was just going, great. After the events of the flagsmashers he was promoted to the team. Great. Did he want that? Well, what else would a semi-stable 106-year-old man do with his time? Nothing. Absolutely, nothing. Bucky spent his time walking around Brookyln, trying to piece together his memories. It was either that or spend time with Alpine, the cat he rescued. Why did he get a cat? Good question. Raynor had told him it was good for therapy, heck, he didn't mind the cat - all it did was sleep. He had somewhat gotten a hold of them nightmares. Now he was just a ghost. A Brooklyn ghost. Boo.

There had been a term that was used for him, some kid called him an emo. What the hell was an emo, you say? Well, Bucky did ask what it meant, not the kid though - he asked Stark. Stark only laughed and said it had something to do with the fact that Bucky looked as if he was either ready to murder someone, or that he was done with life completely. Those were apparently the only two emotions he showed. Bucky had emotions. Bucky simply did not like showing emotions. What else did people expects? For ninety years he was used as a fucking murder weapon.

But here was, on another darn mission with the team. Now that the flag smashers were gone, they were tasked to clean up the mess they made. Did Bucky agree with it? It depended. But what was consistence was Sams constant annoyance. Bucky often wondered how much easier would it be if he returned as one man, without him. Then he thought about the fact that Sam's sister, Sarah, would kill him and have her friend Carlos hide his body somewhere. Maybe if that comms system hadn't of went down he would have heard Natasha's warnings, and then they wouldn't be in this predicament they were in of being surrounded by people who wished to murder them. Maybe, just maybe Sam wouldn't have gotten his dumb ass shot if he had of went right, instead of left - like Bucky had said. But low and behold, whatever Bucky planned, no matter how much he planned ahead, it never worked out.

"Get out of here man." Sam said, groaning as he held a hand to his side, covering the obvious gunshot wound, trying to at least stem the bleeding.

"What? No. As much as I would love to leave you, Sarah would kill me." Bucky said, annoyed as he crouched down beside Sam.

"Its good, man. Honestly, its just a scratch." Sam claimed, which Bucky knew to be bullshit, and his thoughts were confirmed when Sam moved his hand, causing a fresh stream of blood to flow "Huh? Okay, maybe its not a scratch." Sam said, paling slightly.

Sighing, Bucky got to his feet, carefully glancing over the counter of the market, which was now, thankfully, clear of civilians. They had been unfortunate and unlucky to be caught in the crossfire that unsued. Thankfully, the members of this certain organisation had been bad shots, pretty shit shooters. Well, apart from the one that got Sam, that is.

​What he wanted was for these god damn comms to come online again, so Natasha could at least tell them what she could see from the quinjet. Would it not be easier for Nat to simply shoot these dicks? Yeah, it would have bee. But apparently they didn't do, easy. But they weren't supposed to be in Romania, in fact if word got to the states that the Avengers were here, they would be in a shit ton of trouble. Which was why they weren't suited and booted. But, some mad scientist was trying to create his own drug, one that would mutate a human and give him some sort of, power? Why would someone do that, you ask? Who the fuck knows. Bucky hated the future and everything that came with it.

"S-am, -uck, ......" Nats voice was broken as it came through on the comms.

"Not sounding very good, Nat." Bucky told her.

"Inco-.....extr-....coming." Nat said, and Bucky looked over at Sam.

"What the fuck did she jus- Behind you!" Sam groaned, and bucky turned to see a man coming his way.

They fought and Bucky took him down easily but the hairs on the back of his neck tingled as someone moved behind him. Turning, he was met with the bruised face of a woman, wearing the same suit that Nat usually wore on her missions, a belt clinching in her waist. Her chestnut hair was shoulder length, but it was a bit dishevelled - as if she had just been in a fight. He launched at her with one of his knives, which she blocked easily, taking out her gun which he quickly deflected, knocking it from her hand before she got the chance to use it. Quickly picking it up, he pointed the barrel at her head, causing the woman to tilt her head, an almost smirk pulling on her face. She didn't back down, instead she lifted her hand, an instant force hitting him in the chest and knocking him back. What the hell was that?

​When Bucky sat up, he was shocked to see his knife that he had previously tried to use on the woman in the knife of one of the men who was previously attacking them, causing him to collapse on top of Sam, causing him to spew out a string of curses. As another man approached the woman, she turned towards him, waiting for him to approach before she blocked each blow he made, hitting him repeatedly in each pressure point, before she made a snake-like movement around his body, bracing him in a choke hold position with her legs as she floored him. As another approached, instead of fighting, she lifted her hand, causing him to fall back - the same thing this woman had done on Bucky.

Standing up, he lifted the gun she had previously tried to use on him, pointing it at her. As she turned, she studied his face. Who the hell was this woman?

"Put your hands up." Bucky shouted towards her "Wait, don't put your hands up." They did that thing.

"Nat, I don't think they got your message." The woman spoke. Her voice had an Eastern European twinge to it, it wasn't strong but he could still hear it. As he slowly approached her, he patted her down for weapons with a single hand, whilst he kept the gun pointed at her.

"Wait. Alina, is that you?" Sams said, he knew this woman?

"Christ, Barnes, shes part of the team. Back down." Nat said over the coms. She sounded disappointed.

"Will one of you please get this dead person off me!" Sam pleaded, slumped in the corner. Bucky gave the woman a glare, telling her that he was in fact, keeping the gun as he touched it into his waistband.

"He dropped like a bag of bricks." Sam groaned as Bucky rolled the man off him, easily.

"You know, a little warning would have been nice, Romanoff." Bucky hissed into the comms

"I did warn you! I literally said there was incoming, that I was sending an extra pair of hands. Its not my fault this place has shitty signal." Natasha defended.

"Its these buildings, this place. Its old." The woman said, glancing around at the place before her gaze landed on them both "Samual, a pleasure as always."

"Irina, I would say the same but..." Sam moved his hand away from the gunshot wound and this woman, nodded her head slowly.

"Follow Irina, she knows where I am parked." Natasha's voice came through, and Bucky picked Sam up, throwing him over his shoulder.

Carrying a downed team member was never easy, even for a super soldier. But, it was faster than Sam trying to hobble his way back. Getting out of that place meant they were breaking cover, leaving themselves open, making leaving a little more difficult. Gun shots rang out as the rest of the men who were after them, began closing in. This woman turned, reaching behind Bucky to where he placed the gun in his waist band, offering him a smile as she done it, completely unconcerned, she then turned back, firing at those men. Apparently, he was not allowed to keep the gun.

As they walked, she worked, aiming her gun and firing. As soon as the ammunition ran out, she turned, tucking the gun back into Bucky's waistband. So, he was keeping the gun? Before turning, and just as she had done with him, she let her hands do the work, knocking the men back with a single movement of her hand. They seemed to have lost them, or did she just kill them? Because they were walking through a busy market street, the locals were giving them weird looks. They entered a house, passing a very confused family, headed down a flight of stairs into a basement and out a door through a backyard out to a densely forested area, and out of nowhere a ramp appeared.

The three of them entered the quinjet and Bucky set Sam in one of the seats as Natasha started take off procedures. They were in the air without delays and once they reached a cruising altitude, Natasha turned on the autopilot to check on them with a mediket. This woman, had already taken Sams shirt off, examining the wound as if she had done it many times before. She wore surgical gloves as she dug her fingers into the wound.

Meanwhile, Sams face was stuck on the one expression ; pain.

"Irina, do not touch that." Sam warned, causing her to look up.

"Im sorry, its in a really weird place. Its like, do I press against your liver or press against your intensines ; you know?" She told him, clearing her throat.

"Two fingers in and you can feel all that? I don't know if I should be amused or down right concerned." Sam half laughed, as the woman looked up at him with a smile.

"What would hurt the most?" Bucky asked from his seat

"Would you like me to try it on you? So then you can be the judge?" The woman asked, turning her head to look at him, raising her brow. Bucky rolled his eyes, looking away. He could hear Sam's laughter.

"Getting shot is bad, but getting repeatedly stabbed is worse." Natasha admitted, moving to hold Sam's hand

"I have been shot, and stabbed. Getting shot is better." The woman said as she finally pulled the bullet out, examining it before dropping it into Sam's free hand with a smile.

"Yeah. Tell that to the guy you stabbed in the throat back there." Bucky said from where he was sitting, looking at them.

"You stabbed someone in the throat?" Natasha asked, looking at the woman.

​"Barnes stole my gun. Wilson was about to get killed by that guy." The woman offered, giving a slight shrug

"I didn't know Romanoff had back up onboard." Bucky reminded them.

"She actually wasn't...onboard. What were you doing here, Irina?" Natasha asked, looking at the woman who simply shrugged.

"Enjoying the country." The woman said, earning her a look of disapproval from Natasha because it was obviously a lie.

"Well, Barnes, this is Irina Petrova. You would have met in passing at the battle for earth." Natasha mumbled, her gaze staying on Irina.

"Yeah, were I was literally trapped and nearly DROWNING. You are all lucky I finally figured out this whole...vibration thing." Irina said, looking at her hands. Vibration thing? So that's what that was?

"I had a lot going on that day, Irina. There was no way I was able to get you out of there myself. I was getting Bruce to help get you out. Plus, Fury helped in the end too." Natasha said defensively.

"Yeah, so did several wakandans and a fucking wizard. Like I said, lucky I figured out the vibration thing."

Bucky kind off remembered, not that he wasn't occupied himself, but he did remember. She had a done a run with the Nano-Gauntlet herself and gave it to Barton. The archer said she got trapped when the compound collapsed. He didn't think it was a hulk-sized task, but like he said, he was occupied himself during that time.

"Drowning or not, you did a good job, Petrova." Sam smiled.

"Don't boost her ego." Natasha said instantly

"Don't listen to her, boost my ego, Wilson." Irina joked, a smile pulling on her features.

"You know, shirtless and fingering are both kind of like....a second date thing. I think you owe me a drink, Petrova." Sam said smoothly, causing Irina to laugh, shaking her head.

"Yeah, I don't think so." Irina whispered, looking down.

For the rest of the flight, Irina and Sam talked quietly. Bucky couldn't help staring at her...he thought she at least looked somewhat familiar. Yes, he remembered her from that day against Thanos, but felt as if he knew her from before then.....but he couldn't place her anywhere in his memories. After waking from his brainwashing, he couldn't remember all the names of faces of those he met. It also didn't escape his notice how Irina didn't even so much as look in his direction.

Instead, Irina gave Sam painkillers which eventually knocked him out before she went and sat with Natasha in the cockpit. Bucky, being Bucky listened to their conversation as they spoke in hushed tones, something about a special assignment. Natasha asked her about some guy, to which Irina told her it was over, and she asked Natasha about you know who, to which Natasha grew frustrated. Was Bucky wanting to be nosy? Perhaps, Or maybe he wanted some insight to this woman who subdued him. Him, a supersoldier with a vibranium arm.

Irina made him uneasy, that was for sure.

Relief finally washed over them when they reached the compound, escaping her company by taking Sam to the medic bay to Banner and Doctor Cho to receive proper medical treatment. As he stood at the window, he watched as Steve hugged Irina affectionately in the courtyard below, with Natasha smiling beside them. It seemed the team knew this woman. Bucky didn't realise how tense he had been since this woman showed up, and when he watched her leaving he felt oddly...satisfied. Silently relieved that, perhaps, he wouldn't have to see her again. 

[r3stingangel]

Jesus😭– WILL YOU TAKE YOUR RANT OUT OF THE X READER TAGS???? It's ALSO NOT an x reader. Why do you mfs who always complain, always do the same hypocritical shit you hate others seeing?

"well it's mentioned as x reader!" Is it a fic? I don't think so😭. At least the "dazai/oc" is written as an actual fanfic. Your rant is not only clogging up the tags, but you're ABUSING the tag system as well.

I also saw your last response to that other anon.

"I was actually tagging properly, I was bringing to light an issue present in those spaces. Hope this helps :3" No tf you weren't 😭. It's not actually an issue that horribly affects anybody (just an annoying trait that is passed along these platforms), hope this helps you! You're turning a small thing on fic platforms into something bigger. Like, you're in your every right to complain about stuff like these, but what you shouldn't be doing is complaining about the mfs doing something you hate- while doing the same exact shit as them.

"(Also I am a fucking hypocrite, but not about these types of things so get it right)" Nah. Nah bro the other Anon is right. ANYONE who mistags their things automatically falls into one category; tag abusers. And your rant was filled with it. A bunch of "x reader" up in there.

Exactly like the "dazai/oc" thing you saw, you just wanted attention/to note fish like the fic 😭. C'mon lil bro, you could just admit that part at least. No need to showcase a know-it-all, narcissistic act as a response. So yeah? You're not a different hypocrite by wanting to "bring light to this problem", you're the same type of person who lacks a huge amount of awareness 😭 insane honestly.

"Oh did I strike a nerve? 🤓☝️" Yeah you kinda did and I didn't wanna subpost about you, so take this rant about you in your inbox directly.

It's also the way you COULDNT tag your shit properly either. Don't just slap your mfing vent tag on there without using cw rant/tw rant or something similar 💀. "I was actually tagging properly 🤓" And you go ahead to NOT tag your shit as rants so other people didn't have to see it. Remember! Not everyone follows you- They wouldn't know that you got a vent tag! So they'll see it anyways cause they can't filter it! Oh my goodness! I hope this helps 🙏!!!!!

(Most people see it through reblogs as well, which is up to the reblogger to tag it accordingly. But hey! At least it'll filter through the x reader tag if you actually cw/tw it accordingly like you should've!)

Oh btw you can delete this little rant of mine from your inbox if you're just gonna formulate another dumbass response to me like you did the other Anon. Just tag your shit as cw rant/tw rant at least, that's the least you could do if you wanted to be "different" from other tag abusers😐.

Sometimes i wonder if people realize that I'm a teen before they get all cranky at me... I'm a dumb teenager, plus im autistic so something that might come as basic knowledge to one, might not be basic knowledge to me

I'm still learning, I'm just a teen, I'm still just in highschool, I'm going to make mistakes in my understanding of things, its human nature

Also if someone is gonna get triggered by a rant, they should gtfo the Internet/gen

Flashing lights, i get, r*pe/sa, p*dophilia, I get, but a rant? Words on a screen? Im not gonna treat the Internet like a child.

[pixelkip]

Ok I'm not usually one to air my weird technology grievances on the internet, but it seems like the only way to get answers about anything on the internet is to be mad about it ig!! And literally nothing else has worked to solve this and it has been driving me insane ever since I started trying to use utau or even do anything involving Japanese text on a computer ever

Why .

CAN WINDOWS 10.

WITH THE LOCALE SET TO JAPANESE.

WITH THE JAPANESE IME INSTALLED.

NOT INTERPRET JAPANESE TEXT.

WHY

I am trying to load a UST (for those who aren't familiar, utau script file. Contains all the notes and attatched lyrics for an utauloid to sing) that has Japanese characters in it. I load it in utau

Japanese program

On a Japanese locale computer

With Japanese ime enabled

The lyrics. Are fucking gone. they're there in the file! But windows freaks out and can't load them, so my ust full of Japanese lyrics is entirely empty.

I can't even copy and paste Japanese text

Lemme repeat that

I CANT COPY AND PASTE

COPY AND PASTE. ONE OF THE MOST BASIC FUNCTIONS HAVING TO DO WITH TEXT.

DOES NOT WORK

ALL BECUASE ITS IN JAPANESE

I don't understand how a wholeass language just doesn't work half the time in literally one of the most used operating systems.

If anyone knows how to fix this please please tell me I'm so goddamn sick of anything using Japanese text in windows just straight up breaking. Maybe I'm missing something but I've tried every option I can find with getting Japanese to work with windows 10. Cause as far as I can tell it's a massive extremely annoying oversight in how the os handles text.

I literally cannot express enough how confused I am that this is even a problem.

How did no one making this stupid operating system at any point ever go "hey, I noticed even basic text manipulation freaks the hell out in literally this whole language, maybe we should fix that so people who use that language can actually use our operating system! Especially because to get it working to where it DOESNT always completely garble the text beyond comprehension before you even TRY to go so far as to copy and paste is ALREADY A WHOLE ORDEAL"

Ok that's enough ranting I just really want anyone else to understand how dumb this is and maybe see if anyone knows how to fix this

[traumadragon]

feels dumb to post about adhd and autism here but I don't really have anywhere to scream (gently) about it

we literally cannot be diagnosed with autism because of how much neglect and abuse we went through, and the way i was tossed around my family constantly makes it impossible for anyone to have known me at critical times long enough to know if I have the childhood history of it other than my acting out + not getting attached to people.

we were finally diagnosed with ADHD recently through our psychiatrist letting us get on ritalin again last fall after we hadn't taken it since we were 7. our family that raised us after we were 8 found out i had been given it before they got me months after. the mother figure was very angry about it. they spent literal years teaching me how to manage my ADHD and I was severely hyperactive until on the autism side of things I developed an extremely strong interest in computer programming, which combined with the hyperfixation aspect of adhd with bouncing between different languages and different things to make with code.

now we are so burnt out, even when our burnout was decreasing, that it doesn't *look* like we have adhd. but in our brain? when the Ritalin wears off? it's like thinking with heavy fog and loud static getting in the way. our system doesn't communicate as well because our thoughts just cut off or jump suddenly and we can't locate where the original thought was. we started working on an essay for grad school on last Thursday, but our brain, even though we'd taken ritalin, used the Ritalin to focus on literally anything else super intensely. we couldn't get the focus, when it was there, to go on the paper. the day before we needed the draft turned in, we were up from 8 am to 11 pm working on the paper, and it was barely enough done to be enough of a draft for the professor to give feedback.

but we've started having meltdowns more easily again. when we manage the autism related stress well enough, people around us DO notice that we are *different*, that we don't communicate the same way they do, but it isn't an outright "you have a developmental disability". but when meltdowns get triggered more easily for us, it's the start of a huge spiral. if we don't do something to decrease the demands on us socially, sensory wise, etc, it will get worse. it's part of our burnout symptoms. we just recovered from the last burnout from the autism side of things in mid 2021.

but our body had already been warning us. we've been spending at least half of the day several times a week, and at least 6-8 hours the other days, nonverbal, brain refuses to communicate vocal cords and mouth movements and trying to think through it causes panic because we don't understand why. we accidentally started turning our work tasks into ways to use our interest in programming. we spent 3 days super intensely focused on that for the whole day, researching what was needed and trying to work with the limitations of the work computer. that made us get super far behind on the general tasks of our job on top of what we were already behind on. we aren't able to keep up with tracking social cues and the body language we've memorised very well. the only time recently we've be able to identify body language that registered as not neutral was in a meeting with two coworkers. i still can't tell what it means. I'm hoping it was just the look between two people just being annoyed with the conversation and one of the co-workers just telling me it was a yes or no question was the whole thing it was part of. anytime one of our interests comes up we don't remember to keep quiet and only give responses instead of talking about it more.

it feels stupid to be upset about it because I'm literally capable of living on my own, though I really can't keep up with hygiene and its always a problem, though I struggle to eat because ARFID+trauma fucks up what food i can cope with eating, but other than that, I'm able to exist with generally no difficulty, I'm in a field that is accommodating for the autism symptoms i have, its tolerant of my adhd. but I've gotten people accustomed to me being able to put a huge amount of effort constantly into just communicating in a way they understand.

it feels wrong that i wish i had been allowed to exist in a way that is comfortable to me. I'm too scared to use AAC instead of talking. I'm too scared of allowing myself to chew on things around people because I've been yelled at for it. I'm scared of talking about things I actually care about because people get frustrated with it. I'm scared of not doing a ton of math and observing tons of tiny things during a conversation just so people won't get mad that I can't figure out what they mean when they talk about things outside of visual context. I'm too scared to use ear plugs or ear defenders even though they would really help. I'm scared of anyone see a meltdown so I'm scared to let it happen if I can interrupt it at all, and I can generally interrupt it from starting by dissociating, but then when others are gone, I'm too scared to not just interrupt it and try to dissociate again because I almost break things i care a lot about a lot of the times with the trigger for them. So it just piles up over and over and eventually turns into a shutdown that confuses the people around me, that i am not so scared of, but it only delays an actual meltdown. I live in fear of when I won't be able to stop it anymore.

And I'm lucky I'm able to stop it. Even though it's because of abuse.

but no one sees the full picture of how bad it is.

I'm able to keep my autism symptoms being noticeable to me at a very low level instead of obvious. but every time burnout starts becoming obvious, it's harder and harder to not notice it.

and I don't know how to fix it because of how terrified I am of anyone noticing anything different than what they know of me.

and my therapist has literally said to me that I can't be diagnosed because of the way Aspergers was merged with ASD in the DSM5. Which is basically the therapist way to say that I don't suffer or struggle very obviously or in a way they notice so therefore it doesn't count. I know I manage it really well. But every person I know, online or offline, that knows me on a regular basis, if there's any concept of me being autistic in the conversation, the reaction everyone seems to have is "oh wait is that why you -" with a ton of random things like social cues and stuff I say regularly.

If people know what autism looks like outside of autistics that are nonverbal 100% of the time or struggle with gross/fine motor moments or other things that just aren't seen in autistics that get to live independently, they always register me as autistic. I can often tell if they do because they change how they talk to me even after just talking to someone else in their normal way, and I've read so many people with the form of autism that's similar to me getting upset about it... but I actually prefer it because they are clear, direct, and don't try to say so much at once.

If I stopped being so terrified of how people would react and let myself gradually just stop trying so hard, I don't know how my therapist or other people that know me would label me. It's so ingrained in me to do so many things socially as automatic responses, even though it's pretty common for a response to be incorrect, but people don't care if you correct yourself or apologise. but I don't know if anyone knows the real me, even online. i dont think i even know the real me. I just know the ways to interact and communicate and do things that I've been taught.

[lucymelonbun]

I do! Multiple kinda. One entirely original work that I plan on turning into a comic and a few that are collective oc filled fan-fiction with some friends that honestly could be it's own thing at this point if we took the time to scrub out the borrowed setting and bits of history.

The wholely orginal one is a post-apocalyptic-ish setting. Everything is fucked up with both magic and weird tech but people are dealing with it, society still kind of exists most of the power grids are back up food supplies are stabilizing its chill, "indomitable human spirit, people are generally kind when given the ability to be, ect, ect"

the story (sort of) follows a little found family of varying origin (magical beings, robots, humans, formerly humans) as they get to know each other on a sort of road trip across what used to be the Midwestern United States.

It starts out with just a kid and a monster bc I'm a sucker for big spookies with hearts of gold. The kid wants a home, the monster wants a purpose, they decide to travel together and find what they're each looking for. Along the way they meet other people who are trying to find their own place, as well as a good chunk of less friendly encounters. There's a boy being haunted by voyeuristic demon for so long that he hides his paranoia with jaded annoyance at being perceived, a mysterious doctor with a sadistic sense of justice and pension for theater, a giant who can heal from any injury by bursting into flames. I don't wanna give everything away though so I don't loose motivation.

The world has a kind of loose magic system but what makes it interesting the way it can interplay the other fantastic elements.

Like a lot of times in comicbooks there's Magic, advanced technology, and more "natural" powers (mutations, training, alien species) but they don't really interact. Like sure the magic wizard might team up with the mech guy to fight the guy with superstrength, but it's still all seperet magic is magic and science is science, and superhuman feats are not magic or science.

Well I think that's dumb and annoying.

Some people just don't get magic, it's too chaotic and hard to use if you lack intuition for it, technology just makes more sense for them, but they can use technology to manipulate magic,

and magic users might not have inate power or the physical strength to train their bodies to the limit, but magic can reinforce those shortcomings if you apply it right, make you stronger, faster, even change the way your body works at least temporarily.

And just because you're not a tech genius doesn't mean you're getting left in the dust, you can train your reflexes to be just as good as a security system, you don't need a big blaster to get through a locked door, enough finesse can unlock anything or if your pressed for time good run up and a sturdy shoulder will be more than enough. Some folks are even beyond that having abilities and unique features that others can only try and mimic.

If you want actual lore about the world I'm still working on that but the basic run down is that magic used to be very common up until good few centuries ago, but human society was increasingly unwelcoming even to other humans let alone magical beings and the more unique mortals so as the world industrialized magic became more and more hidden eventually almost entirely withdrawing from the mundane. Eventually technology got advanced enough that humanity "rediscovered" magic and in attempts exploit it caused the magical world and normal world to suddenly and destructively crash back together into one. That and the subsequent chaos are why the world is technically in a post apocalyptic state.

I'm sure I have a lot more to say but it's 4am and I've been typing for a while and I'm very sleepy but like, I enjoy talking about my project so if this was even remotely non-boring I'd love to ramble at you even more after I get some sleep!

Woman here, should I info dump about Bionicle, TES lore, one piece, my own writing project or the wild card (whatever I've most recently fixated on when on at the time of answering)

omg u have ur own writing project... tucks hair behind ear