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animeyanderelover · 6 months ago

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Can I request the pregnancy HCs with female Darling and characters from: D.Gray-Man - Millennium Earl (human form), Tyki Mikk, Komui Lee, Kanda Yuu, and Allen Walker; BSD- Mori?

Tw: Yandere themes, obsession, possessive behavior, delusional mindset, clinginess, manipulation, baby-trapping, pregnancy, birth

Tags: @shumidehiro @leveyani @izanami78

Pregnancy Hc's

Mori Ougai

🍷Fom only observing the way Mori interacts with Elise you have always known that the Mafioso has a weak spot for doting on a little girl. He adores buying frilly dresses and cute outfits and even you aren't spared from being dolled up in the clothes that he wastes a lot of his money on. There has always been a hint of fear within you, a wriggling anxiety that comes alive within you whenever Mori muses during tea and cake time that he adores the thought of having a sweet baby girl of his own. Elise's jealous reaction and the way your body stiffens are always sights that he enjoys to observe but he has never gone further than voicing those little fantasies of his. The decision that he wants a little baby of his own is something Mori makes all by himself without telling you at all. You are left within the dark, ever so slightly skittish and anxious and this is exactly the position that Mori wants you in. With a mind ever so sharp and with eyes always watching you he notices the first symptoms before you do. Only when you're hunched over the toilet and empty your lunch within the bowl do you finally realise the situation you are in all whilst Mori cooes gently at you, a thrilled grin on his face.

🍷Every little grain of freedom you might have had vanishes in front of your eyes just like that. Used to Mori's normally possessive behavior your utter and complete isolation this time around is partially fueled by his protective instincts. Confident yet not cocky, Mori always calculates the possible equation that something might happen, no matter how insignificant that chance is. Absolutely no information about your pregnancy is shared as only Chuuya and Kouyou find out about it from Mori himself, tasked with keeping an eye on you, especially if he himself can't be with you. Their lips are sealed tightly as they share those news with no one, not until Mori himself should decide that it is time to announce the joyous news. Kouyou in particular is someone Mori has a lot of faith in and her calm yet firm exterior proves to be very effective when your hormones get the better of you. Chuuya is a little hothead, unfamiliar with pregnancy and on how to deal with a pregnant woman yet he wouldn't let anything or anyone touch you if Mori tells him to protect you. Weirdly enough you do appreciate his short temper as it feels refreshing from Mori who always seems to be ten steps ahead.

🍷It is painfully obvious that Mori wishes feverently for the baby to be a little girl. He would adore nothing more than a little princess he can spoil and cuddle and dote on as much as his heart desires. Still, he knows that mere wishing will not give him a daughter so as soon as it is possible he determines whether the baby will be a boy or a girl. He cannot deny that even he feels the anticipation getting the better of him as he waits for the results. The moment he figures out that the baby will be a sweet, little girl he is unable to keep his giddiness contained. Creepily excited giggles escape his lips as he smothers you in kisses, his gloved hands eagerly rubbing over your belly which will swell over time with the daughter he cannot wait to see and hold. Within the same day where he has the biological sex confirmed he starts preparing the nursery. Now that he knows for certain that it'll be a girl he decorates the entire room as girlish as possible. The walls are painted pink, ribbons are hung up everywhere and he buys an entire amount of cute plushies for the baby. Elise complains about it to him, wants some plushies too and whilst Mori does buy her another one, he never gives her those he has bought for his baby.

🍷As a former military doctor there is some knowledge about the human body that Mori already possesses. Most of the times he is the one overlooking how your pregnancy is going as the thought of letting someone else that close to your stomach and touching it fills him with seething envy. It is only his privilege to rub your belly and feel the little girl within moving and during every medical check-up he is far more touchy than necessary, his hands never leaving your belly. You have always considered him as someone who has a hard time keeping his hands to himself before you were pregnant but now it feels especially exhausting and annoying. He doesn't want to miss the first little kicks of his baby, doesn't want to miss the way your belly will swell with his daughter so Mori is pretty much glued to your hips. Every time he has to leave you he laments dramatically about the absence between him and his two princesses, spends minutes smothering you and your belly in kisses before he leaves and even though he may only be gone for a few hours he acts like he'll be gone for months. You try to get the most out of those few hours before Mori returns, touch-starved as if he hasn't seen you in forever.

🍷He cannot get enough of the way your body changes during pregnancy, his heart always throbbing within his chest when he looks at you. The clothes he has you wearing during pregnancy are meant to enhance those changes within your body, especially from your babybump he can't get enough. One of his hands is always caressing over the stretched skin without fail, every little movement from within adding to his growing anticipation. Elise is disgusted yet jealous of the exaggerated attention and affection that baby receives despite not even being born yet, childish glares thrown your way though she would never dare to do anything. He reacts with the same giddiness when he feels her kicking around as he did when he first felt her moving, every movement from his daughter special to him. He's brainstormed for names already the moment he knew you were expecting and has an entire mental list with names for his girl by now. It is hard for him to settle for one final name though as all the names he has chosen sound cute and it is perhaps the only time during your pregnancy that he lets you decide something as he asks you for your opinion on it.

🍷The closer your due date crawls the more visibly fidgety Mori grows like a child on Christmas Eve waiting for its presents. To his greatest sorrow the little girl ends up being a few days overdue, painful hours he has to spend waiting for her arrival. Already his little princess seems to test him. When your labour pains finally happen 5 days after the estimated due date he glues himself to your side, unable to keep the grin out of his face as he knows that soon he will finally hold his precious princess in his arms. Your birth is the only time he allows a few other doctors around you, all women as he would undoubtedly slit a man's throat open if he were to let another man see you in such beautiful agony and let another man hold his daughter for the first time. He is sickeningly sweet throughout the entire labour, encouraging you to keep going and that it'll soon be all over. He is visibly shaking with giddiness and adoration when his princess is finally born, immediately taking her out of the nurse's hold the moment he knows that she is healthy and cleaned. A wet shimmer in his eyes as he cooes sweetly at her, already willing to burn down entire cities to keep this precious bundle safe.

Allen Walker

🔴Poor Allen is not exactly the wisest when it comes to recognising the signs of pregnancy when they start appearing but to be fair, neither are you. Children have been a topic that the both of you have discussed a few times already with both of you arriving at the conclusion that neither one of you would mind but you have never specified when exactly the two of you were planning on having a baby. When your appetite starts increasing Allen is mildly baffled but quickly starts embracing your new surge in hunger, gladly sharing his food with you. It's eventually you who realises that something seems to be different as your period has been missing for quite some time now. You make the mistake of mentioning your suspicions to Allen whilst he is eating, causing the poor man to nearly choke to death whilst Timcanpy flatters around his coughing form clearly panicked. When he has finally stopped choking he just looks at you with wide eyes, the shock and surprise written all over his face. His brain needs a few moments to process your words, the silence only making you slightly nervous before he asks you with teary eyes if you're sure. The moment you confirm he starts shedding tears.

🔴Allen is elated with the news that he is going to be a father yet at the same time there is another part of him which is terrified as the realisation sickers in that he is going to have a child. He has left the Black Order, a Noah lives inside of him and he has currently more enemies than he has friends. How is he going to give his child a happy life? If there is one thing that Allen has always wanted for his own child is the innocent and happy upbringing that he could have never had yet now that future he has envisoned for a baby of his own is threatened and it fills him with guilt as he can't help but feel like he has already failed. Still, he decides to let none of that show when he is with you as he doesn't want you to think that he doesn't want this baby with you. His clinginess and his desire to protect you increase the moment he knows about the fact that you are expecting which leads him to never let you out of his sight as the two of you wander through the cities. There is a ball of stress and anxiety coiling within his chest as he has to watch out for so many threats all at once which could all harm you or the baby. Over time Allen becomes almost hyper-aware of his surroundings, always on the lookout.

🔴Despite the overall cluelessness that he has though all of your struggles are met with nothing but sympathy and understanding. Allen is far too enamored with you, especially as you grow heavier with his child. Whenever you get mad as your pregnancy hormones get the better of you and you let part of your anger out on him even though he has done nothing wrong he just sits there quietly and allows you to express your frustration and rage, a warm glimmer in his eyes. When you start crying for no apparent reason he does his everything to cheer you up even if he has to make a fool out of himself. Your appetite only increases as the months go by and he never once utters as much as a single complaint about your seemingly bottomless stomach. He knows very well that he has no right to talk, realises that perhaps it is because you carry his child that you experience his hunger which is why he encourages you to eat as much as you want. He even gives you portions of his own food so that you can eat more even if he has to eat less. You come up with some pretty interesting food combinations during your pregnancy but he always tries them with a smile on his face.

🔴I always like to imagine that due to Allen and Nea both existing within his body and mind that the Noah has also developed an obsession with you or perhaps it was even he who got obsessed first and dragged Allen into it. If Allen is the bright side then Nea is the dark side as both of them are essentially like Jekyll and Hyde. Allen despite his increased need to keep you close and protected tries to give you still enough freedom so that you can be happy as well. Nea always attempts to interfere with such decisions as he desires to keep you right next to him, his whispers constantly attempting to influence Allen or to even take over. It may happen that there are a few moments where the Noa takes over, Allen's grip on you suddenly tightening as golden eyes seemingly pierce through your soul, his hands gingerly caressing the curve of your tummy as a smug and satisfied look appears on his face. From all potential dangers which might happen to you Nea is the one Allen is the most aware of and it always spooks him when the man resurfaces and seizes control of his body. To Allen this baby is the physical manifestation of your shared love. For Nea it is a claim of possession of you, a way to control you.

🔴It becomes very obvious that you are unable to walk a lot of distance the further you are along as your body tires more easily. Whenever Allen notices your exhaustion he simply starts carrying you, muttering an apology into the crown of your head as he searches for a good place for you to rest. He knows that he needs to find a place for you to settle, a place where you can give birth and recover from it afterwards. He needs an experienced doctor and nurses just as much as he doesn't know how to help deliver a baby. There is no expectation within him that me will find a place where neither the Black Order nor the Noah family will find him but he at the very least needs a place where he can have you rest for a few months after you have given birth. Both of you find shelter in a small village within a forest where an elderly couple allows the both of you to stay in the room that used to belong to their child. Nea obviously distrusts, doesn't want other people around you but Allen wills himself to ignore those whispers as he accepts the offer gratefully, helping the couple in return as a way to pay them back whilst you rest for the final weeks of your pregnancy.

🔴The older woman actually recognises the early signs of labour within you and the moment she mentions that to the two of you Allen is practically already out of the door to retrieve the midwife. He panics, anxious since he left your side as he urges her to walk faster and at one point he is that close to simply lift her up and carry you to the house so that he can be quicker by your side again. When he returns Timcanpy is circling around your head, his wings flapping fast as an indicator of his own nervousness. Still, the golden ball tries to encourage you in his own ways as he rubs against your head to emotionally support you. Every time the pain gets too much for you and you let out a hiss or a scream Allen winces, increasingly light-headed and dizzy as the hours pass. He would never forgive himself if he were to faint here though, especially since you are the one in pain right now and not him. His heart is in his throat, his palms clammy by the time the baby is finally born and his shoulders sag visibly with relief when he hears that you and his son are both safe. He insists that you hold the baby first as you have done all the work, eyes shining with unshed tears as the boy is laid on your chest.

Kanda Yu

💙Yu has never really talked about his dreams with you before. Perhaps because he has never deemed it as necessary in a business with such a high death rate or because he simply doesn't have any visions for his future as he onl focuses on killing Akuma. His only real desire is for you to stay with him, emotions far too irritating and unneeded for someone who is normally as calculated and cold-hearted as he is. He is keenly aware that there is something that you are hiding from him. He senses the nervous glances you give him whenever you believe him not to notice, picks up on the way your body nervously shuffles around when the both of you are alone. Believing it to be nothing too urgent though he simply decides to wait for a while to see if you'll gather the courage to talk to him as he doesn't always want to be the one who has to force you to spill everything as it can be annoying at times. From everything that you could have told him though he didn't even consider the topic of pregnancy, blue eyes fixed on your nervous form before slowly trailing down to your stomach. The silence is thick and painful but even more is his exit as he doesn't utter a single word.

💙A child is something which Yu has never even considered before as it has never been something he saw himself desiring. Children are loud, annoying, take patience and understanding to raise. Qualities which he doesn't believe himself to possess. Even though he isn't going to be truthful about it, Yu is actually questioning how good of a parent he could even be. He has sacrificed people around him all in the name of slaying Akuma as for him it has never been much about saving people but more about ridding the world of the greater evil. Now suddenly there is his own child present in his mind, his memories resurfacing of times where he couldn't save a child's parents or even the child itself as he instead chose to focus on killing instead of saving. Memories that have never haunted him much before suddenly weigh much more than he can remember, dragging him down into the inner hell of his own thoughts. Yu finds himself deeply buried within his own mind the following days. He doesn't even say a single word about your pregnancy as he acts like you never told him this and it secretly torments you on the inside as you wonder if he doesn't want this child.

💙Still, you seem to know better than to pester him about this. So you let him sink into the depths of his mind where he spends a lot of time in. It's not an easy decision for him as he spends a lot of time doubting and second-guessing. Even so, after the initial shock passes Yu finds himself much more protective around you. He always seems to be somewhere in the shadows, unwilling to appear as overbearing yet at the same time unable to let you leave his gaze. He approaches you eventually though after he has finally managed to sort his own emotions and thoughts out and asks you how you are feeling about the situation and what you want to do. He listens to your own opinion and he even confesses his own thoughts about the pregnancy, clarifies to you about all the potential hardships that may arise, especially since he is lucid enough to know that his love isn't something you are comfortable with. The final decision he leaves up to you though and he is actually surprised when you decide after a lot of consideration that you want to keep the child. He masks that shock very well though and gives you a sharp nod, silently acknowledging that this is your decision.

💙Yu doesn't plan to tell anyone within the Black Order just yet about your pregnancy. He can already estimate how people like Allen, Lavi and Lenalee would react and the last thing that he needs right now is a bunch of annoying brats pestering him about the pregnancy and cornering you. No, he takes the time after you have made your decision so that the both of you can figure things out and come up with a stable plan on how to proceed in the future. Neither one of you planned for this baby so both of you are utterly underprepared. Komui is the first person who finds out about your pregnancy and even he isn't able to hide the brief hint of surprise on his face. Yu ignores any cutting snark that he would like to give when he notices the amused twinkle in Komui's eyes. He's here to plan for a few days of break around your estimated due date and not to get into a petty fight that would leave him undoubtedly with a headache. Komui agrees to his requests, promises the Exorcist to see it through that Yu won't have any assigned missions to allow him to spend some time with you after you have given birth. A few curtly words of gratitude is all he receives in return though for Yu's terms that is a lot.

💙If there are missions assigned to him during the following months Yu still completes them but there is a sense of urgency to finish them that has never been there before. He's a lot less tolerant of any bullshit his assigned team members may commit and he ends up hurting someone's feeling when he lashes out on whoever stalled the mission unnecessarily because they couldn't pull themselves together. When he isn't on missions he spends most of his time with you, his protective feelings growing alongside with your belly. He's usually always trailing behind you when you decide to take a walk, sharp eyes observing everything within your surroundings and the moment an unfamiliar face approaches you he appears behind you. You're kept away from his friends as much as possible simply because Yu is not in the mood for them to crowd around you and pester him and you both with their congratulations and questions. You may tolerate that but he surely won't. Over time he does warm up to the thought of the child but he is far from feeling like he is ready to be a father. The thought of having a family of his own still seems so unreal yet with every week that idea gets closer to becoming a reality.

💙The closer you get to your due date the more he seems to be filled with a sense of unease. When he is excused from his work for a while until you have given birth Yu initially doesn't even know what to do with himself. He knows that he is very close to being a father and that thought fills him with many negative but also some positive feelings. When your water breaks and you are in the throes of labour he sits stiffly by your side, allowing you to clutch his hands tightly as he monitors the midwife and her every move very closely. He has never been the best when it comes to comforting you as he usually sucks it all up and locks it away which he knows you cannot do. So instead of saying something which may only hurt your feelings he decides to say nothing, only occasionally asking the midwife how everything is processing and how close you are to giving birth. The tension doesn't leave his muscles even after you deliver your son safely, blue eyes alert as he inspects the midwife closely as she handles the baby before handing the little boy to you. The reality of the situation still needs a couple of moments to settle in before he finally releases a long breath he has been holding in, finally allowing himself to relax.

Komui Lee

👓It is perhaps easy to forget that hidden beneath that lazy and whimsical attitude is a person who is not only the Chief Officer of the Black Order but also the Branch Head of the European Branch. Truly, with Komui's downright maniacal behavior it is sometimes hard to acknowledge that he is a man with such a high position, especially for newbies. Yet there is a very different side that Komui reveals when the time calls for it and it is in such moments that even you are reminded that there is far more hidden than the goofy facade that he often exhibits. In itself Komui doesn't have anything against the thought of having children. A part of him even wants it actively. Another part of him is terrified though. What if his children grow up to be Exorcists? What if something happens to them? There would be no greater pain than having to witness the funeral of your own child after all. Life isn't that easy sadly, not with the Akuma and the Noah family and even the unethical methods of the Black Order who sacrifices the lives of other Exorcists for the greater cause. I do not believe the pregnancy to be an accident though as Komui is too careful for such a thing to happen without it having been planned.

👓There is no spontaneous path that leads to you expecting a baby of his. In fact preparations have begun weeks before you were even confirmed to be pregnant as Komui and you had rather long discussions with each other where you found yourself exposed to a sober and serious side of him you very rarely witnessed. He's very vulnerable and see-through with you during such conversations as he admits his worries to you. A lot of things have to be weighted, a lot of plans are crafted before before both of you make the mutual decision to still try for a baby even if the world isn't quite as safe as it could be. That only serves as a motivation for Komui to work harder to create a safe environment for his child as soon as it is officially confirmed that you are expecting a baby. The fact that both of you have been planning for this for such a long time allows him to just fully embrace his happiness and joy instead of dwelling on doubts and fears of all the risks since he has already confessed all of it to you before. His reaction is as quirky and dramatic as everyone is used to as he actually gives the doctor a tight hug with tears in his eyes. Safe to say, everyone in the building hears his shouts of happiness.

👓If you are an Exorcist it is safe to say that all missions for you are cancelled for a very long time and if anyone dares to object to Komui's decision they will get a short glimpse of his very protective and serious side which is sure to leave them baffled and shocked. Lenalee has most likely already known about the fact that both of you have been trying for a baby so the news aren't necessarily a shock for her but she is still happily surprised when she hears it. She quickly searches for the both of you and congratulates you for soon being parents. The poor girl has to endure having her ears talked off though because as soon as she is with Komui he instantly starts rambling about you. He has a very bad habit of gushing to everyone he works closely with about you and your pregnancy but Lenalee gets the most of it. During a scan fairly early in your pregnancy it is actually revealed that you are expecting twins and those news send Komui straight to the floor, his hands clutching his heart as if he has gone into cardiac arrest. His body twitches as incoherent mumbles leave his lips and it takes Lenalee literally kicking his ass awake for him to return to his senses.

👓His poor co-workers have to essentially become professional hunters from that day on as Komui constantly tries to escape all the paperwork to spend his time with you. They have to chase him down whenever he attempts to flee to spend his time with you and his growing twins and one time he got extremely silly and tried to crawl through the ventilation shaft to reach you only to get stuck halfway. It is a story no one in this order will ever let him live down as it took five Exorcists to pull him out of there because he absolutely screamed in terror when Kanda stoicly stated that he'd just cut the wall open with no regards of whether Komui would come out unharmed or not. To tame his silly antics you start to help him in his office to keep you busy somewhat now that you can't go on any missions anyways. Or you just spend your time talking to the phone with him though that actually only distracts him more. Additionally he is like a waterfall as the words never stop pouring out of the speaker to the point where you sometimes walk away to do something all whilst he continues to ramble. It takes him minutes to realise that you aren't there on the other side anymore.

👓He grows very touchy as soon as the bump starts to show. His behavior perhaps isn't quite fitting for the position that he has been given but whenever someone scolds him for his sappy antics he cries out that he is just human. He misses the first kicks of the babies due to being busy with work and it is your mistake to tell him this when he gets back home. He acts like he has been robbed of his most precious treasure, pouts the entire week after and cries to everyone who is unfortunate to cross his path that such a special moment has been stolen from him all because of the papaerwork he has to do. As foolish as Komui may look, he has a very detailed plan for you and all the medical check-ups that you need during your pregnancy as well as maternity leave and even the midwives who will assist you during birth. It's because he has already planned out all the important details and has scheduled everything thoroughly that he can allow himself to be so sappy in the first place. He sucks at choosing names though. It's not like he doesn't have an entire list of names he has thought about but he is just so utterly unable to choose that you have to step in and even let Lenalee help you to pick two names.

👓The closer you get to your due date the more antsy Komui seems to get. He tries to soothe his nerves by drinking coffee but unfortunately this only has the opposite effect as he gets even more squirrelly as a result. He can barely focus on his work by now as he needs to read everything twice to let the words sicker in, his mind filled with you. When your water breaks he rushes so fast to your side that he actually trips and lands flat on his face only to wave all worries off even though his face is red from landing on the hard floor. He's experiencing a surge of adrenaline that has him forgetting all about the pain in that moment. It's comedical to see how hard he is trying to comfort you all whilst he is trembling like a leaf in the winds of autumn, his palms growing sweatier the longer contractions last. It actually helps you through the pain as his jittery exterior amuses you as it creates the impression that you are for more composed than he is right now. He is unable to stop gushing over the little girl and boy as soon as they are out of you, rivers of tears flowing down his cheeks that won't stop no matter how much he rubs them dry with the sleeves of his uniform.

The Millenium Earl

🎃As patriarch of the Noah Clan the Earl already has a big family with which he spends all of his time with. A life with him is rather unique as it is since his Noah form and his human form are so jarringly different to each other. His Noah form is very likely to frighten you a tad bit since it looks less human-like and every sweet word of his almost sounds like a honeyed threat to you. In his human form you feel better. As Adam he is softer, sweeter though also far more clingy and even more obsessed with having you close to him. There is a level of trust and vulnerability that he reveals to you as Adam though, something other Noah tend to criticise him for as they don't think that he should hand as much of his heart to you as he does. That's why you are very aware of Adam's wish to have a little child with you, to create a new life in this new era where all of them have been reincarnated in and have reunited once more. He would never force you but at the same time he is ever so slightly desperate with the thought, his heart longing for a baby to raise and cherish with you. Subtle pressure from his pleas increases when you are around other Noah who all seem to expect from you to fulfill his wish.

🎃All members of the Noah family seem to share a very special connection with their kin. That's why I like to believe that they're able to sense the new creation of a being that carries their blood in its veins inside of your womb long before you are even suspecting anything. You are slightly shaken when you notice how they start to peer at you, especially at your stomach. It isn't until Adam himself slowly goes down on his knees, tears in his eyes as his fingers reverently run over your stomach as he senses the new life that your body will nourish and grow. His voice is thick with emotions as he glances up at you, thanking you for the new life that your body is bearing and only then do you finally realise what is going on and why everyone has been staring at you so much as of lately. Now, as much as other Noah may dislike you due to being a human, the moment they all know that you are expecting the Earl's child they all grow very protective of you and the little thing currently developing within your body. People like Road are much more amicable to you though. She's the first person from the Noah that actually walks over to you and congratulates you for being a mama-to-be.

🎃The little freedom that you have fought so hard for slips right through your fingers. Everyone is against the idea of you being supervised by yourself and whilst Adam is not as strict with his words it is very obvious that he still shares the same mindset as everyone else in this family. He is terrified of anything happening to you as well as to the little baby within you that he already loves so painfully much. Considering that Adam is able to sense the sorrow of other people he is especially prone to being affected by your emotions and as pregnancy proves to make you especially emotional at times he seems to suffer alongside with you. It doesn't even matter how silly whatever it is that you are sad about he is emotionally right with you. It is slightly annoying but also weirdly comforting in a way to you as he supports you through your sorrow and tries to cheer you up with whatever methods he can think of. Often he resorts to using Lero as a way to cheer you up as he knows that you are rather fond of his golem. It is rather amusing though to see the flabbergasted reaction of Lero when he is told that you are expecting Adam's child as he is the last one from everyone to find out.

🎃All of the medical attention that you receive is from someone within the Noah Clan. Overall no one would trust a human to assist in your pregnancy as well as your birth when it comes to a child from the Noah family, especially since it is the Earl's child that you are carrying. Wisely turns out to know surprisingly enough as he always inherits the memories of all of his previous incarnations and Road knows the one or other thing too considering that she is one of the oldest despite her young appearance. Even without any previous knowledge regarding pregnancy everyone from the Noah family always seems to know roughly whether or not the little one growing within you is healthy or not though and all of that because they can tell through the connection that they share through their blood. It makes you very susceptible for criticism from their side though as soon as they should sense that the baby isn't feeling well though one soft warning uttered from the Earl is usually more than enough to make all of them shut up. The Earl is even able to perceive the sadness of the baby at one point. His baby is always sad when you are as well as if sensing the sorrow of its mother.

🎃Adam adores the way your body changes in order to nurture a new life within your womb. He makes it a point to constantly tell you just how beautiful you are right now, fulfilling a miracle by bearing his baby. He gets very emotional whenever he feels the baby kicking within you, his palms rubbing with tender eagerness over your baby bump to feel the movements of the baby. Technically he can sense if the fetus is healthy or not but feeling the pressure of their limbs from within is a tangible proof that tells him that his child is happy and healthy within you. He converses a lot with your belly as he wants the baby to get used to his voice, to remember it from their time within your womb after you give birth. He even sometimes reads to you and the child on nights when the little one is especially active and keeps you from getting the rest that you need the further you get. It works though. The baby within you starts to recognise his voice at one point, soothed by the loving and gentle tone of his words as they stop their uncomfortable kicks and movements only moments after Adam starts talking to them. Witnessing how much they love his voice has his heart brimming with love that he can't wait to give his baby.

🎃Every member of the family gifts you and the baby something. Road for example gifts you and the baby matching outfits she has sewed herself as well as a little plushie for the baby, also handmade by her. When your due date gets closer, Adam starts gluing himself to your side. His heart is filled with a mixture of anticipation, excitement and silent fear. He knows how painful labour is for a woman and even though it is the natural order of a new life to enter the physical world his heart is aching nevertheless for you. His grip on your hand is almost equally as tight as yours when contractions finally start and remember that he even holds his strength back as otherwise he might shatter every bone in your arm. Tears are in his eyes as he watches you endure the pain of delivering his child, his lips constantly pressing kisses against your sweaty face as he whispers praises and apologies against your ear. The tears start rolling the moment the shrill cry of the infant fills the room and Adam starts sobbing quietly when he sees the face of his little daughter for the first time. So small, so fragile and so precious that he is terrified to hold her at first, afraid to hurt the little love of his life.

Tyki Mikk

🦋Tyki himself has never indulged much in the thought of children before and neither has his Noah Joyd but all of that slowly seems to change the moment you stumble into the picture. You see, the Noah are the true Apostles of God and for that deep down there lies an innate desire to repopulate so that the world will be filled with the original humans. It's a slumbering desire that awakens over time within Joyd who desires to have you bear his child and it is Joyd's downright feral desire that forces Tyki to be aware of the lust of his Noah side. It's very hard to balance those desires out though as Joyd gets especially feral once he has your quivering body beneath him and purrs in your ears about his desire to see you carrying him a baby. It's hard to ignore those words of his and he knows that it will spook you out so soon after those previously slumbering urges have awoken Tyki decides to confess to you about the nature of his Noah. He confesses to you that he doubts that those desires will ever go away and though he himself wouldn't want to force you into giving him a child he is honest enough to admit to you that he doesn't know how long he can stop himself.

🦋It is with a great amount of reluctance that you agree after a while to the idea of carrying him a baby. You may not understand everything about his family but you are smart enough to understand that Joyd is an ancient being that you cannot stop by yourself. The moment you have made up your mind Joyd instantly has you pressed beneath his body, golden eyes gleaming with lust and hunger. His dedication coupled with his stamina soon lead you exactly where he wants to have you. You're pregnant with his baby, his Noah blood sensing the little being of his flesh and blood. Smugness and satisfaction are all visible on his face as his golden eyes focus on your belly, a purr rumbling through his chest as his fingers dance over your belly. His brother is delighted when he hears the news and congratulates Tyki for his incoming fatherhood. Road ends up stealing you away whilst Sheril gives his brother some advice on how to be a good father though Tyki probably isn't buying anything. Road herself is quite excited since this baby is going to be her cousin but she seems to also understand that the circumstances that have led to this pregnancy aren't exactly something you expected.

🦋Tyki has expected that his possessiveness would definitely receive a boost but perhaps even he underestimated just how much more possessive he would grow of you now that you are pregnant with his baby. He always wants you within sight of him, golden eyes always following you like a hawk whenever you move around the room. A desire he has always carried within his heart to care for you and protect you only blossoms further, thick vines that hold his heart in a chokehold. He starts doting on you and his baby growing within you a lot long before you even start showing. The entire family finds out soon after and whilst some members are more iffy about the thought of a human bearing someone of their bloodline as soon as the Earl chirps his congratulations no one would even think about voicing any criticism. Seeing his family react overall so positive definitely fills him with a sense of pride, at least from his Noah side. Tyki makes it a point to be as involved as possible in everything though. He builds the nursery, he helps to choose a name for the baby and he sees it through that he takes care of you as you grow heavier with his baby. He loves taking care of you as you grow more reliant on him.

🦋It's undeniably Joyd speaking so clearly out of him whenever he confesses in a smooth voice to you that he adores to watch you growing less mobile which in return forces you to rely more on him. There's nothing more precious and beautiful than caring for you all whilst you bear him his lovely child. When he is Tyki things are more casual and occasionally even awkward as he finds himself a tiny bit overwhelmed at times when your hormones get the better of you but he never once strays from your side. He gets you the food that you want and even though he may give you a perplexed look when you combine some... unique flavors together he never criticises you for it as he's worried that he might hurt your feelings which are already all over the place. He isn't necessarily very strict when it comes to the stuff you eat during your pregnancy but he still sees it through that you consume the meals that he prepares for you, more nutritious and healthy for you and the baby than what you may consume otherwise. The moment your bump starts showing one of his hands always finds a way to your stomach, his fingers gingerly tracing over the growing curve as a low purr escapes him.

🦋Your comfort is Tyki's priority and once the pregnancy starts putting a strain on your body and the little one starts getting more active within you he pays more attention to you than ever. He constantly offers to massage you the moment your body starts aching from the weight of your pregnancy, draws baths for you to allow you to relax for a while and he even allows his Teez to keep you company. They would never hurt you but they so nib playfully at you. They do possess more awareness than you might have given them previously credit for though as they often place themselves over your stomach in an almost protective manner. Almost equally as your physical comfort to him is your emotional well-being though. Especially Joyd needs you to realise just how beautiful you are at the moment for nurturing a little baby that will be all his and all yours. If he should sense any hint of insecurities within you due to the unfamiliar changes that your body goes through he would be more than willing to prove to you just how pretty you currently are in his eyes. You're nothing short of stunning as the sight of you swollen with his baby is absolutely lovely and delectable.

🦋The process of birth would be interesting mainly because his abilities would technically allow him to pull the child out of your womb without you even having to go through any painful contractions. However, I do think that this is a situation where Tyki and Joyd would sort of clash against each other. Tyki is a human and even though he is no woman he still wishes to spare you from painful hours. Joyd is his Noah though who wants to see you go through the painful but also beautiful process of giving birth to a new life and unless it is an emergency he refuses to use his abilities on you. Let nature take its course like it has done for thousand of years now already. This could honestly end up either way depending on who ends up having the stronger will though if other Noah are present during birth they will most likely also insist on you giving birth the natural way unless complications should appear. The pride and joy that he feels dwelling up within his chest the moment his son is delivered is the same either way. Golden eyes are filled with affection for you and for the little boy, a deep purr rumbling through his chest as he wraps the baby and you protectively within his arms.

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1nsan1tysan1ty · 3 months ago

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Tim AU where he’s dead as hell

Tim Drake died at age 10 while chasing Batman. Tim Drake dies to a gunshot wound to the abdomen from a bullet gone astray (that goon can honestly die with him cause that was such a bitch move).

He wakes up at home, cold and alone. He blinks, confused. He doesn’t feel dead although he’s…cold. His camera is still hanging off his neck and the high ceilings of the Drake manor offer no explanation.

“Okay,” Tim says, “okay.”

He stands up, head dizzy and body aching. His abdomen in particular hurts quite a bit and when he pulled his shirt up, there was a circular shaped scar. It was rigid and a little red on the edges.

Tim, being a ten year old, simply shrugged and went about his day. He continued school even though the people around him ignored him. He still did his work and the confused look on his teachers face was always a little weird.

And after a week break, Tim leaves the house to stalk the bats again. He finds that when he hides in the shadows (he learned from watching the bats do this) he basically disappears. Like, literally disappears! It makes snapping these pictures so much easier!

Then, the day his parents return from their dig, Tim is very startled the weirdness of his parents. They’re sniffly and just barely holding it together. They keep ignoring Tim when he tries to ask what’s wrong too!!

And suddenly, when there’s a gala held in his own name and the whispers of condolences, does he realize what’s happing.

“Okay. I’m…dead,” he nods as he stares at his sobbing mother, “dead-dead.”

Tims eyes wander to Mr. Wayne and watches as the man frowns and tries to comfort his grieving mother. It’s a bitter sight.

///cutaway segment where I yap///

Now, I’d assume that Tim is…a little numb. He accepts being dead weirdly well and just decides to live as normally as possible(he’s in denial). This time, he pretends he’s alive but he doesn’t actually interact with living beings and their world.

Okay, here’s a new thing

Because Tim is dead, he can wander Gotham with zero issues and thus, starts spying and listening in on rouges. He captures photos still(of course) and suddenly, he stumbles upon a big plan that would kill literally everyone. It’s set to happen in, let’s say, a year from when he finds out

Queue Tim finally deciding to do something that could actually help ppl. He prints the pictures he took(how? I’m not sure. He’s just built different I guess) and he starts leaving them in Batman’s, Nightwings, and Robins patrol routes.

One day, Tim just goes “fuck it” and shows up to the manor. He hides in the shadows and subconsciously allows himself to blend in with them. He’s nervous okay??

Dick is walking down the corridor, photograph in hand and Tim is just so excited! He’s also worried and stressed and dead which he totally forgot about. He scares the shit out of Dick which in turn scares the shit out of Tim and he scurries into the shadows again.

Later, Dick tells the others about the encounter

“Its eyes were glowing pure white!! With really sharp teeth and holy shit—“

“Language.”

“—and holy cow it was terrifying!!”

While Tim is a little sad that Dick(his Robin!!) called Tim, a 10(11?) year old, scary, it does spark a new idea.

Thus, Tim decides to play into the exaggerated narrative Dick had set in motion. The shadows like him and play along with his trickery. He leads the bats with glowing, blinking eyes and soft whispers.

And finally, three days before Gotham is to be exploded, Bruce figures it out and the Batfam save the day.

Happy ending! Yay!

Tim probably haunts them and because he’s been dead for so long (and as a child), he literally doesn’t know how to live anymore.

The bats have to coax him out of his cryptid, lurker like mindset and now they have 10(is he 11? 12? Maybe 15 now?) year old Tim Drake whose now permanently family.

End lol

Note:

This was VERY rushed and just an idea I had to write down

If anyone would like to expand their thoughts or ad don pls do!! Comment or reblog or whatever lol

I would highly appreciate it!!

#batfam #batman #fandom #ao3 fanfic #batman fandom #batman fic #fanfic #incorrect quotes #jason todd #tim drake #bruce wayne #dick grayson #cryptid #ghost #ghost au #cryptid au #no fanfics that ik of #sorry guys💔

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etherfabric · 1 year ago

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How the Universe provides for you + Songs

Choose a pile by which picture you resonate with the most.

If your mind is too busy to clearly decide, take a few deep breaths, and use the finger of your non-dominant hand to hover over the images. One will give off the most subtle yet prominent signals, like tingles, a magnetic pull, or temperature. This is your pile. Multiples are also possible.

You are the ultimate authority over your life. I merely provide my perspective. Sometimes the Universe lines you up with something that doesn't resonate with your truth, so you have contrast to find out what does. Never give away your power.

Pile 1

Strength, 3 of Pentacles

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You have loyal allies in your challenges. A lot of unforeseen inconveniences you can't seem to avoid are in your energy, but this time, you feel the support - be it physical incarnations of kindred spirits, or those from the other realm connected to you. Yes, your heart is pounding and your knees are shaking, and these instances definitely aren't what you would've put on your wish list in a million years - but you surprise yourself with your bravery amidst it all. You thrive in collaboration with likeminded people, even in the face of your antagonists. The Universe is sending you storms so you can see how well you build your structure, and feel like the badass boundary expert your past self dreamed they could be.

This was a test, and you passed with flying colors. All your hard inner work is tangibly paying off, and you feel elated and proud - rightfully so.

Pile 2

Queen of Pentacles, The Fool

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You finally stopped caring so much. You figured out where (or with whom) you lose the energy you so desperately missed all this time, and despite the struggles of letting go, you are now light as a feather. But in contrast to the past, where you were simply too scared to attach fully, so what else is there to do but float... you can now fall back on and draw from the deep roots you grew in fertile ground. Nourishment tailored to your needs is in constant supply, and plenty of opportunities to extend that generosity onto are emerging on the horizon. But this time, you know what to look for to have it reciprocated.

There might be people you still deem generally lovable you had to leave behind, and trust that hearing their criticism or seeing the effect of your absence on them will never truly stop hurting - but you know your worth and needs better than ever, and are determined to ultimately look ahead to the promising future. The Universe provides for all, and not just through you.

Pile 3

7 of Wands, 7 of Pentacles

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The Universe is fueling your fierce protector side. You respect your own time more than ever, and see the value of patience with yourself. Your vulnerability is no longer a source of shame, it has become your most precious inspiration. Outside disturbances can't faze you out of your serenity with your true self. You worked hard for where you are, and you are not letting anyone counterproductive get close to it. Take the various toxic coping mechanisms projected onto you as the compliments that they are - you trusted in your balance, followed what felt right, and are reaping the rewards, while others still cling to the very same mindset that starts itching once you are around.

You understand the delicate relationship between healthy aggression and egotistical overkill, and are a role model for those wanting to follow you. The blessings you have already received are shining brighter than ever, and it's only the beginning. Isn't it so worth it being seen as the bad guy? Your people love you for what you are doing for them. No one can take this away from you, because you know how to keep it - becoming more authentic every chance you get.

Pile 4

2 of Swords, The Hermit

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I can imagine you clicking on this particular reading with a kind of scoff. "Oh yeah? Providing for me? I see fuck all." Dare I recommend to expand your understanding in which ways one can receive...? I see you clinging onto promises you kind of already know aren't very, well, promising. But for some reason you only want it that way, almost to try to prove a point no one even challenged you on. Your idea of what you need and what you want have no space for differences inbetween. This might not sound pretty or comforting - I feel awfully confrontational saying this to you actually, and my Cancer Mars is shaking like a leaf - but I see the Universe providing you with an ultimatum.

Drop the rope if you truly want happiness (and not just validation for how great all of your ideas are), or be stuck in the frustration eating away at you. Look at what you already have. Yes, it's not the ultimate dream, but you have to first step inside of you to be able to receive. Because inside of you is where you will feel the love that's on its way to you - not craning your neck out as far as you can, desperate for a crumb to roll by.

#tarot reading #pick a card #youtube

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kinardsevan · 6 months ago

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so i'm one of those who is really of the mindset rn that this fling needs to be with Josh, and living in that mindset, I wrote this:

Evan glances up across the coffee house with a smile on his face, laughing at Josh’s comment on the petulance of some first responders.

The relationship that has developed between the two of them recently is interesting, to say the least. He never really saw his sister’s coworker as someone he’d know any deeper than as an acquaintance, but after Maddie was kidnapped by that serial killer, Josh had somehow found a place in his life.

Initially, it was because of they were in such close quarters while Maddie was missing. Josh could tell he was still going through it after Tommy, and then there was the issue of Eddie leaving also weighing on him. Maddie getting taken was the cherry on top that had nearly broken him, and somehow the other man being there as a shoulder in the midst of it all had been more meaningful than Evan could express. So a few late night coffees after Maddie had been found turned into a hookup, and then one hookup turned into two, and suddenly it had been a few weeks.

Granted, they were both clear on what was happening between them. At best, they were friends now with some really stellar benefits. He really liked Josh, could maybe see something else growing between them if his heart wasn’t still basically smashed potatoes all over the ground. Plus, being around the other man had given Evan the clarity of the fact that his attraction to men wasn’t solely tied to Tommy. If anything, it was simply that the intensity of his attraction to Tommy is what had finally shoved his bisexuality out of the dark and into the open. Hanging out with Josh, hooking up with him from time to time, helped him understand better that pursuing a relationship with another man wasn’t all that different than trying to pursue one with a woman.

“Tell me I’m wrong,” Josh laughs, bumping into Evan’s shoulder as the blonde picks up his coffee and danish from the order counter.

“I’m not disagreeing,” Evan states, lifting a hand in surrender. Josh grabs his things after Evan, and they head towards an open table. Evan has his danish shoved between his teeth and he makes a face with it.

“Oh that’s priceless,” Josh states, pulling his phone from his pocket. “I need to send a picture to your sister.”

Evan rolls his eyes, but he turns towards the other man, still walking backward towards the table as he makes the face again while Josh snaps a few photos. He’s still moving when he stumbles into someone, suddenly stepping forward and whipping around, letting the danish fall into his hand as he stammers that he’s so sorry and looking up-

right into those blue eyes.

Evan gulps as the amusement on his face sinks away. All at once, he feels his heart hammering in his chest as though it’s trying to take flight out of his body and physically attach itself to the other man.

“I’m so-…E- Buck.”

It feels like someone’s twisting a fist around his stomach, hearing Tommy say his nickname. There’s no particular intonation. It’s just the fact that he’s called him that at all. It hurts just as much as it did the first time.

Right at that moment, Josh decides to make his presence known, and he steps forward, shoving a hand out and giving a warm smile to Tommy.

“Josh Russo,” he states. Tommy blinks a few times before he realizes what’s happening and he shakes Josh’s hand.

“Tommy,” he answers, his voice soft. There’s the flash of something in his eyes as he glances at Evan, but he releases Josh’s hand a moment later and rubs his own over the leg of his jeans. Evan can’t help but glance over at Josh, who smirks at the gesture.

“We were just getting coffee,” Evan says, and he doesn’t know if he’s trying to make an excuse, or if he thinks Tommy would even care. Either way, Tommy only smiles in response, a small one at that, and nods.

“That’s- that’s good,” he replies. He moves to step around them toward the counter. “I have to grab mine, actually.”

Evan turns toward him, mouth open like he wants to say something, but the words don’t come, and he turns back around.

“Should we sit,” Josh asks after a moment. Evan doesn’t so much respond as he just finishes crossing the cafe to the table they’d been headed towards, and they sit down.

He doesn’t know what to say, and in that moment, he’s silently thanking God that Josh keeps talking about his entire point he’d been on before their disruption, because Evan isn’t sure he could focus if he tried. As much as he knows its rude, he can’t stop himself from glancing back up in Tommy’s direction, taking him in. It feels like torture and like coming home all at the same time. Seeing him again calms something inside of him, if for no other reason than being able to know that he’s still alive and apparently safe. At the same time, he’s astutely aware of the darkness under Tommy’s eyes, the way his cheeks are more sallow than the last time they saw each other. He doesn’t know the story there, but he wants to.

He watches with intermittent gazes, glancing over and then away quickly whenever Tommy seems to be looking in his direction. Still, the entire period is over far too quickly, and then his ex-boyfriend is crossing back through the coffee house quickly, walking out with his coffee order.

“You should go after him.”

Evan snaps out of his reverie as the door slides shut and glances back at Josh, shaking his head.

“Huh? W-what?”

Josh nods, a friendly smile on his face. “I mean it. You should go after him.”

Evan furrows his brow at Josh. “He broke up with me.”

Josh lets out a soft laugh and shakes his head at Evan. “So, when I asked all those weeks ago, did you ever actually tell him you’re in love with him?”

Evan’s jaw goes slack at the question, unsure of what he means. “In love…?”

“Oh my god, okay,” Josh replies, still chuckling. It’s almost off-putting to Evan. “I recognize the look, Buck. From every time I had to listen to your sister talk about how much she missed her husband when they were split up before Jee-Yun. And newsflash?” He points out the window in the general direction of where Tommy headed off in. “He’s got the same look, and it’s like everyone knows it but the two of you.”

Evan gulps, considering Josh’s words. For all the things he’d thought about in the time after the conversation at the dispatch center, after deciding to ask Tommy to move in with him, and after the breakup, he’d never rethought the whole “in love with him” question. Still, if he has to quantify the feeling inside of him, make comparative notes to other times he’s known himself to be in love, the only person who even comes close to comparing—and even then it’s a long shot—is Abby. And as he pieces that together in his head, it’s almost too much to bear.

He loves Tommy. He’s in love with Tommy.

Josh nods as he watches the realization cross Evan’s face.

“Like I said. You should go after him.”

Evan pushes up from the table suddenly, only to stop halfway up, feeling bad about the sitaution.

“Listen, I didn’t-..”

Josh laughs again. “Oh, sweet, sweet, baby Buckley. I have known what this was from day one. I was just wondering how long it was going to take the two of you to pull your heads out of your asses.”

Evan snorts at the comment, rolls his eyes again but still gives Josh a smile.

“Besides,” Josh adds. “We can still be friends. I have to imagine the beefy one has gay friends he can introduce me to.”

Evan laughs. “I’ll see what I can do about that for you.”

“You better,” Josh replies, lifting his coffee to his lips. “Now go get your man.”

Evan doesn’t wait a moment longer. He rushes out so fast that he leaves his coffee and bitten-into danish sitting on the table. On the street, he whips his head back and forth, and it takes him a moment to spot Tommy as he starts to round the corner onto the next street.

Evan bolts after him, crossing the distance between them swiftly on his long legs. Still, when he reaches Tommy a minute later, he’s only a few feet from his truck. His coffee sloshes as Evan turns him around, and when Tommy’s eyes meet his, he has that same sad look in them.

“Buck, what?”

“First of all, don’t ever call me that again,” Evan states quickly, a bit breathless. “And second of all…” He settles flat on his feet, looking back and forth between Tommy’s eyes for a moment. Something in him keeps thinking back on Tommy’s obsession with romantic comedies, and the fact that there’s nothing quite more ‘romantic comedy’ than stopping someone on the street and just kissing them.

So he does. He steps into Tommy’s space and wraps a hand around his head and pulls him in, kissing him with enough passion and determination that if he could shoot actual sparks, they’d both be on fire. For a moment, Tommy doesn’t respond, and Evan isn’t sure if it’s because of the surprise of it all or because he doesn’t feel the same way, but after a moment, he feels Tommy melt, and open his mouth to Evan’s request for access, kissing him back fully.

Who knows how long the kiss goes on for. All Evan knows is that when he finally breaks away from Tommy, he’s breathless, and so. Fucking. Happy. He presses his forehead against Tommy’s, stroking his thumb down the back of his head.

“I love you,” he states softly. “I’m in love with you. Maybe it doesn’t matter, but that doesn’t make it any less true. I love you, and I’m going to keep loving you, no matter what you think I need to do to sew some wild oats.”

“Evan,” Tommy murmurs back. His expression is still pained, and Evan can see the conflict in his eyes.

“You, Tommy,” he counters. “You. Not someone else, not a different option, or a different life. You. Only you.”

“You could-..”

“I could do a lot of things,” Evan states. “I could die on my way home today. I could have an aneurysm tomorrow. I could live sixty more years, all without you because you’re too afraid to give in. I know who I am and what I want, and I know I’m not going to find it anywhere else because the way I feel about you? No one else has ever come close.”

Tommy stares at him with those sad, expressive eyes, and the want in his expression is so clear that it makes Evan hurt for him. He watches as Tommy’s adam’s apple bobs as he swallows. He’s quiet for another moment before taking a breath.

“I’ve been back in therapy,” he says softly. “Trying to work through it all. I thought you were moving on-..”

“I’m so close to not moving on that I can still see the starting line in front of me,” Evan tells him. He lets out a soft huff. “Josh- he- there was a thing. With Maddie. He was there through that, a-and he’s queer, so he’s been a good friend recently.”

Tommy stares at him skeptically for a moment, as though he’s questioning what all of that means. Except, there’s also the part where he told Evan that he was still figuring himself out and basically needed to see other people, and from that standpoint, there’s not a lot he can do or say, especially when the man is standing in front of him telling him that even after spending time with another man, nothing has changed for him.

“I don’t want you to feel like-..”

“I don’t,” Evan cuts him off, gesturing between them. “I’m clear on this. On you. And I think if I was going to change my mind, that would’ve happened by now. The problem is that I kinda can’t stop being in love with you.”

He watches Tommy gulp, sees him nod. A smile tugs at the corners of his mouth as he rests his forehead against Evan’s.

“I kind-of can’t stop being in love with you, either,” he replies softly. “Much as I’ve tried.”

Evan lets out a small laugh and then leans into him, kissing him once more.

Tommy’s arms are tight around his back this time, keeping him close as he sighs into Evan’s mouth. There’s so much to say, so much to work through from the past few months, so much to be considered in the midst of it all. But love hadn’t been a factor in the breakup, and with it on the table, it’s not something either one of them can turn away from.

When they break apart again, Evan laughs again, and Tommy laughs with him. They remain close for a moment before Evan finally realizes the back of his sweatshirt is wet. He turns his head and glances at it, spots the coffee stain quickly.

“Shit, sorry,” Tommy says, turning toward his truck and then back towards Evan. “I uh, I have-…” He blushes. “I have one of your hoodies in my duffel, if you want to change.”

“That would be nice actually,” Evan responds, a smirk on his own face. Tommy nods and they cross the few feet over to his truck. He opens the back seat and pulls his duffel bag up, retrieving the blue hoodie and offering it to Evan. Evan tugs the wet one over his head, revealing a navy t-shirt that’s sinfully too tight. He swaps pieces of clothing with Tommy, who rests the wet one in his backseat before turning back to Evan. Evan’s smile is wider as his head comes through top of his hoodie.

“Smells like you,” he states. Tommy’s own smile falters a little.

“Yeah, I know,” he responds wistfully. Evan steps forward as he tucks his a hand into the pouch of the hoodie, uses the other to curl his finger around Tommy’s chin and pull him into another quick kiss.

“I can solve that for you, if you’d like,” he states. Tommy is quiet for a moment and Evan is smiling at him again. “You free?”

Tommy rolls his eyes, unable to stop the smile on his own face. “Yes, I’m free.”

Evan nods, gesturing back towards the coffee house. “It’s a little early for a beer. Coffee?”

Tommy glances down at the cup in his hand and then back up at Evan. “Considering half of this one is on your sweater, sure. You still owe me a drink anyway.”

#bucktommy #tevan #kinley #firepilot #firebeast #the ally and the beast #fic #mini #ficlet #my fic #buck x josh #josh russo

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nowimjustastranger · 4 months ago

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I am absolutely loving your sctmo au! It’s just so interesting. And I don’t know if you’ve answered this before, if so please feel free to ignore this. But what would sctmo Ford do if he came across a Stan that was in danger of dying at another Ford’s hands but it’s because that Stan is trying to kill his Ford and that Ford is just trying to survive?

Like, this other Ford had wanted to reconnect with his Stan and had invited him into his home. But this Stanley had become extremely resentful and hateful of his Ford getting him kicked out. So when he got the invitation he took it as a chance to get payback or something.

That's certainly a messy situation. But in these circumstances, I can see Ford defending himself a little too well. Maybe he shoves Stan too hard and he trips, braining himself on the corner of a sturdy table on the way down. Maybe he hits Stan over the head with something, forgetting his strength in the panic-fueled adrenaline surge. Either way, Stan's fate is to accidentally die by his brother's hands during this confrontation.

First, Watchdog Ford would restrain Stan, so he could question both of them about what was going on. They'd both shout at him, angry with each other. Watchdog Ford would open a wormhole under Stan to drop him off at a nearby safehouse in the multiverse, partly to keep Stan out of trouble and partly to test Ford.

When Ford asked where Watchdog Ford had taken his brother, equal parts wary and curious, Watchdog Ford would answer dismissively.

"Does it matter? He attacked you. He won't be a problem anymore."

Now, depending on Ford responded, Watchdog Ford would either return Stan to his brother or relocate him. If Ford displayed an unwillingness to simply let a random stranger have his brother (even if said brother had tried to kill him), then Watchdog Ford would bring Stan back and get them the help they needed to purge the bad blood between them (basically, lots of therapy and communication).

However, if Ford was perfectly fine with his brother being taken fuck knows where by a stranger, Watchdog Ford would simply tell Ford that he wouldn't have to worry about his brother coming for him because he'd never see Stan again. And if that information still didn't set Ford straight, Watchdog Ford would simply leave a recording device with a few rough moments from Stan's time of the street to put things into perspective for Ford before leaving.

The next problem would be explaining the situation to Stan, which would be painful because Stan's hurt at what was essentially the second time that his brother turned his back on him would clearly be buried under a substantial amount of anger. The tears would come eventually though. Watchdog Ford would console him as best he could considering Stan doesn't want to feel better, wallowing in his rage and misery.

"That particular Stanford might not want you, but I know one who does."

Watchdog Ford broaches the topic or relocation expecting another explosion of anger, so imagine his surprise when Stan simply says he doesn't care, sounding so utterly defeated that alarm bells go off in Watchdog Ford's head. Not caring is a dangerous mindset for a Stan, because all they did was care. It's what they did best no matter what they might say on the contrary.

Now Watchdog Ford has a new issue to address before Stan did something irreversible.

#gravity falls #side quest #somebody to call my own au #ford pines #stan pines #stan and ford #stan twins #ask box

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tarotnoob · 5 months ago

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First half of 2025 (general reading)

This is for the first 3 to 6 months for you in 2025. Please choose a pile and scroll for your reading.

Pile 1: Hongdae magnet

Pile 2: calico cat

Pile 3: Fox and blue flower

Pile 1

What a nice pile! I think the energy of how this pile went matches the cards pretty well. The cards just sort of like hopped out of the deck. So, I think for the first 3 to 6 months of this year, you're going to be taking some bold steps, kind of throwing yourself into things, literally taking leaps with your career or some kind of skill or hobby. I see a lot of returns for your efforts. There's a lot of potential success and recognition. Again, this looks like it's particularly going to have to do with work, a skill, a hobby, or something that you're studying in school. Some of you may even graduate with law degrees or something in some kind of social justice. So probably yeah a lot of you might be graduating in around May or June.

I see a lot of you upgrading your skills in regard to if you play music, or you are a writer or some kind of artist. Because of the practice, practice, practice category I definitely think it's reinforcing you putting in the effort everyday or every week doing whatever it is you're doing, and then eventually you're going to see rewards from it. Again, this feels more like in the form of promotions or a new job where you make more money or is more suited to your skills, or graduating with a degree or certificate especially in a particular field. This isn't so much like graduating with a general liberal arts degree though there's nothing wrong with that, but this feels like people who are studying something more particular whether it's arts or science.

This makes even more sense with the open up to change new moon in Aquarius card. Aquarius is often about information, technology, communication. So I'm seeing more like science or law driven people and then some of you will just have very specific things you're doing with the arts like it would have to be specific widths instruments like you play the horn or you are specifically studying digital art. So I see a lot of success with that. There's a lot of clarity coming through as well. I think some of you are going to embark on some life changes in the next 3 to 6 months and you'll have more clarity about your future and what you want to do and where you want to go and probably job offers will come in if you're graduating.

Also again the art of Life card with this door that is blue with a star on it, it says there's no sacred light in the aura of an invisible life be bold in your skin let your love dance in sight. So again I think confirmation for those of you graduating with art degrees or upgrading your art skills. It's also reinforcing that idea of being bold and taking leaps and sort of carrying that full energy into the first half of the year. I think this also harkens back to the idea of clarity as well. So lots of things will start falling into place for you kind of like a puzzle. And I feel like it's just going to go step by step by step. Very normal chronological events. Like you do the work, you graduate, you get the job either before you graduate or shortly after because you have all the skills you need to get it. Or even if you're just getting your bachelor's degree and moving on to graduate school or from graduate to PhD. Everything seems to be lining up fine according to how the energy is now. Again as long as you are still putting in the effort and having a positive mindset and being goal oriented.

With affirmations, it says to lift up your thoughts and energy, and to attract what you desire, use positive affirmations. Again I think this is being very clear-minded with your goals and your choices and as long as you follow that path, you'll get exactly what you want. I'm not necessarily seeing a manifestation card, but this is what it feels like. However the logical side of me is like well of course it's going to come because you put the work into it and had clarity and a positive mindset about where you're going. So that just makes sense right. When you put the directions into an app, more than likely it's going to take you where you need to go because you get on the road and you take the turns that you're supposed to and you clearly know where you're headed. As long as you carry that mindset, it will be fine.

In terms of colors, I see quite a lot coming through. The predominant one for me are the purples and the blues and then greens and yellows. So a lot of clarity in terms of mind and communication, spiritual effort is going to be necessary. Like I said having a positive mindset and doing the affirmations. Green is going to be your heart, doing something that you have passion for. The yellow would be doing it with confidence or building your confidence through repeatedly doing whatever it is you're doing. Like if you want to be an actor, you are already performing in plays on stage or taking the acting classes. If you want to be a scientist or researcher, you're working in the lab and getting hands-on experience at school.

So, this feels like my very logical, goal-oriented people or at least people who are super confident in where they are headed. I also sort of wonder if you might have a bit of luck during this time. Almost like things will be on your side for the most part. But again I think that has to do with mindset and having a goal and putting in the work.

I don't think there's much to say. I find this pile pretty clear. But we can talk about the numbers. You have a six 11 or two and then an eight... So maybe June could be especially significant like June 11th or June 2nd or June 8th. I think the Justice card in terms of what that card usually means besides indicating maybe an area of study or work that you're going into, is just the suggestion that you're going to be rewarded for the work that you put in. It's giving like that karma energy. So whatever you put in you're going to get out and you're going to get recognized for, you're going to earn skills, and be acknowledged for your hard work or abilities. Some of you besides wanting to become a lawyer might want to become a judge or a social worker or PR or philanthropy especially. And again I still feel like a lot of science and research happening as well. And the arts.

Some of you could have legal situations and you'll find success. Something very specific would be a thing like workers compensation or receiving professional development from your job, having opportunities to travel to go to a conference something like that. Although there aren't really any travel cards here. Specifically during late January or February, you might have opportunities for change. This could be planning more during this time about your graduation or having job interviews etc

I don't see much in the way of romance at least that's not what the cards are focusing on for this time. I do at least see you in the presence of friends and colleagues. There are people who admire you for your skills and abilities. I think you could be generally well liked and popular even. Some of you. I see a fair amount of self-reflection as well, but this is going to be geared toward your goal and your future and what you want to do. The advice I can give is pretty much to stay on the course you're on, be confident in yourself, make both choices and bold decisions, try to keep your eye on the prize is what I want to phrase it as. I already feel like most of you are pretty well focused, so I want to say just stay focused at least until the 6 months are up and get where you're going. If there are any turbulent times ahead for you, if it's not really showing up. The only place that it kind of could exist is in this Justice card because Finn looks pretty well beaten up. But I think this is more whatever hardships you go through, something will come out of it. Because six of wands indicates success for whatever you're going to do or put the effort into.

In terms of confirmation of astrological signs if you need that. Libra and Aquarius are really the only ones showing up. So that could be your sign or you could have a mentor of that sign. It's not a romantic indicator here. It is cute how you have a horse in the practice card and then a six of wands has a horse in it. So you could have a friend or a family member who has been significantly supportive and loyal to you, especially in regard to you fulfilling this role. Somebody who's kind of helped carry you to this point, so as long as you're also very appreciative of that person in your life.

That could be part of your affirmations and showing gratitude. They both even have a little pink scarf around their necks or will one has like some flowers. Okay fine so maybe some of you if you did have a spouse or significant other that has supported you through your studies. It's not necessarily a love match but I feel like it's more showing appreciation for people who have supported you along your path. Like if they listened to you play your instrument or came to watch your shows or listened to you talk about your dissertation. Or maybe you even had a close friend or colleague that you're graduating with from your studies. But mostly I see it as support. It could even be a spirit guide if you're into that. Somebody who kind of had a hand in it on your way to make sure that you got the success that you deserved.

Okay well rather than keep repeating the same things. Very cool oriented group, success at least halfway through the year, moving on in terms of studies and career, potentially upleveling any kind of skill that you've been working on, being surrounded by supportive people, a real focus on the future and goals and making sure that you keep telling yourself no matter what happens that you're going to get there because you're doing the work. I don't see a lot of doubt or I should say I don't see there's a lot of room to have doubt. As in it's not going to help you get to where you want to go so just throw it out and be like okay. This is my destination, these are the routes or steps I need to take to get there, and that is literally all I need to focus on. I don't need to focus on any BS. That doesn't mean you can't have a personal life, it just means that this is something that's your priority right now. And because that goal is so clear in your mind, it does seem very attainable and real. So good luck!

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Pile 2

Where to start? Let's start with the tower and destiny card because both cards talk about and indicate change. I also think that having the spring card as well indicates that sort of change in transformation. I can't tell you whether this is going to be a difficult change, just that there's really nothing that you can do about it and that it has that very traditional the tower card meaning of something toppling down because something new wants to come in, usually that indicates something with the stronger foundation. Tower changes can be any kind of thing, they could be something like losing a job, or ending a relationship, or a loss in the family. I don't mean to sound scary, but it's more than just simple transition or transformation, then maybe we would have gotten the death card. This can be a more forceful type of change or it doesn't have to be a really dramatic or sad event filled with loss, but it tends to be something that shakes you up a bit and feels uncomfortable.

It also falls in line with the timing. We see that it says spring, so for some of you around the end of March could be an indicator of the timing. I know spring doesn't really like come until maybe you think of April but perhaps it will be a warmer year. Because I'm feeling more Aries energy so I guess that is March and the beginning of April.

So that definitely indicates timing of when you can expect maybe some type of event, change, upheaval. It does possibly involve people, as in a relationship, friendships, family. I say that because you have two Court cards. You have the Queen of wands and a king of cups. This could also indicate a specific relationship where the Queen of wands energy is perhaps an Aries. This could be a romantic relationship or a friendship or whatever. Because the king of cups is here. It could also indicate two people. If somebody is a water sign or water dominant and the other person is a Queen of wands type person. There could be some type of friction between these people or some type of significant change in this relationship or that person in this relationship could be causing some type of change for you in your life or going through their own change sure. I don't think the cards always have to indicate that this is about you. It could be about somebody in your life going through this type of change and then it having effects on you or you need ing to be aware of what's going on with them.

Again to get specific, this could have to do with literally if you have a daughter or niece or a younger person around you. I don't want to really give scenarios for that kind of situation. A pregnancy could be a tower moment. Not because it has to be negative but obviously it indicates huge change in your life and maybe uncomfortable moments or conversations if it's unexpected. The daughter card could also indicate your inner child or something that you've been wanting to do or pursuing or going through since you were young. It could be indicative of an event, particularly in the spring, that involves a child's birthday or communion or baptism or a birth in the family so a lot of you could experience or your family could experience an unexpected announcement of a child or an adoption or something along those lines.

The spring being more about birth too I'm more inclined to say that this is about a pregnancy and not necessarily like a death in the family or if it were it would be like you lose somebody and then you have an announcement of somebody being pregnant or something. But I'm not really seeing death here sorry. Not to freak you out. But I just have to go through all of the potential possibilities for calamity. The destiny card again tells me that you know whatever happens is meant to happen. Same with the purposeful card. When I see the practice gratitude card for last quarter moon and Sagittarius, I also think this is a message of being thankful for what you do have, being appreciative of the people in your life, of those moments of peace that you have because life isn't always static and peaceful. To get to those moments you have to go through change and being uncomfortable and even pain and struggling sometimes.

But putting that aside because we do have to talk about the tower in that way. We could just talk about timing and you may not encounter anything negative. This is just about things happening around Aries timing you could be reunited or meet somebody during this particular time. Again I gave you the characteristics. You could be the king of cups and they could be the Queen of wands or vice versa. I wouldn't sort of be surprised if some of you were drawn to pile one because in that pile, I felt like there was somebody in some people's lives that was the support and sort of admired them for their skills. And I see this again here with the daughter card and the little cat and king of cups kind of like looking up with adoration. So you might be mentoring somebody or you might not realize that somebody is looking up to you. You could be a teacher or work around kids and people might be looking up to you for leadership during some type of event in the spring.

In terms of other things I guess I feel like a lot of not solitary energy but somebody who's a little bit of a quiet hero or martyr type of energy. There's a lot of feminine energy here as well. I see somebody who's interested in spirituality and higher learning. That there's a lot of time for reflection and maybe questioning what your purpose is or what you want to do or why things are happening the way that they are. Not just in your own life or other people's life but maybe the state of the world.

These three tarot cards could actually be a bit of a combination of your personality. Somebody who's a little bit bold and creative like the Queen of wands, somebody who's a bit how should I put it like a bit self-sabotaging sometimes or sometimes like has these mood swings or just has a lot of feelings all at once, but also somebody who is extremely sensitive and would be a good listener and really genuinely cares and is super empathetic maybe to the point that saying bad things happen has a huge effect on you. I see you as again I'm feeling people who are drawn to work with children in some way. Teaching, social work, pediatrician. It could be an anniversary for some of you who maybe have lost a child and that anniversary or their birthday is in springtime.

I think the best message comes from the destiny card, which says one door closes another opens for you let the plans of destiny unravel true. And the door makes me think of Thailand or like a Buddhist style door. So like with that Sagittarius card, a lot of focus on spirituality. Like coming to terms with something internally that has to do with events in your life or the world and sort of rectifying those feelings that you're having. But a super empathetic type of personality. I do feel like internally troubled but like affected by external events. It might be a good time to really focus on healing whatever like childhood wounds or things that are affecting your feminine energy. You could be in survival mode and not being able to really rest and have that time to like heal exactly. Some indicators of advice are just the practice gratitude card. Being mindful probably. Remember to stay in the moment and when you get worked up maybe start thinking about things that you have that you can be grateful for or how you can have an impact on somebody else's life. Some people when they feel bad or they don't feel like jae deserve goodness or good things to happen to them or don't really like focus on themselves, can take that energy and put it into helping other people.

So I guess specifically becoming a mentor or maybe doing Big brother Big sister or considering adoption etc those are things that are coming through. I kind of want to pull another tarot card.

Ton of cups and death. So you did get that death card! So, I feel like such a downer when I read stuff because I have to read it two ways. I have to read it literally and then I can read it spiritually and whatever. So just because I read the most negative aspect of card doesn't mean that's going to happen to you.

What I get from this is again what I talked about in terms of the Tower and causing change. There could be a loss in the family, there could have already been a loss in the family. That's one possibility for a tower experience in the spring. And especially when you have ten of cups which can represent family as well to me. That's the most negative possible way to interpret it. But I already talked about some of those things. It can also be about an anniversary of a death. It could be like a global thing that's affecting you in terms of death.

But overall, also it could be that this king of cups card is specifically going to be a Scorpio. So maybe there's a lot of Aries and Scorpio energy that's affecting you during this time or the people involved could be in the Aries and Scorpio or you could be somebody with a fair amount of Aries and Scorpio in your chart or as your main signs. In that case this whole pile is just trying to analyze you in terms of your personality and what kind of person you are. So maybe that means the focus during this time is more about you figuring out yourself. Not a specific goal but just some type of transformation that you are experiencing that will develop who you are meant to be.

In general just death means spiritual transformation, or a cycle being fulfilled. Ten of cups is usually about happiness, whether it's about romance or family. It's about emotional fulfillment. So it can be some type of cycle come while like thinking back to what life was like a year ago and what has changed in terms of the things that have satisfied you or fulfilled you emotionally. Or that could be the cycle that you are working on now. What do I need to do to feel emotionally satisfied or happy or those are the things that you'll be thinking about during this time. Like there's a lot of emphasis here on just the cycle of life and death. So you're probably thinking a lot about those things right now. What's the purpose of life? Why am I here? Why do I have to endure these things? When am I going to meet my soulmate? Like why is everything so difficult or why does it take so long or why isn't my person here yet? Those times aren't wasteful or indulgent in our life. It's part of the process of figuring out who we are especially for people who are very intellectual and empathetic and affected by bad things that happen in the world or in our lives. Sometimes people take a little bit more time to push through that kind of spiritual sludge.

I don't know why but coming back to this spring event like a birthday or something significant with a child or daughter or whatever. It doesn't have to be a thing that is upcoming in the spring, it's just reiterating this cycle of life and death. But it's almost like some significant event around a child or childhood, has had a real impact on you and is now like causing this sort of internal what is going on. Kind of like a catalyst for change. Forcing you to change the way you think or to think about things more broadly or to change things that are happening in your life or something about you really. It's not really an external change I'm feeling. It's feeling more like an internal change that came about from some sort of catastrophic or sad event that either directly affected you or indirectly because you saw it on the news and it's just happening. So it's making you think about life and the purpose and things that you want or are lacking. There's nothing wrong with having reflective moments like that. And that's usually how people describe a tower moment anyway.

So a lot of spiritual navel gazing. Again practicing gratitude and focusing on the small pleasures in life as well as the small things that you can feel grateful for. Like looking at the bees on flowers or walking by and enjoying pretty things in a window display. I think things like that will be grounding because maybe I'm projecting but I feel like just a lot of frustration and a little bit of anger and resentment and trying to navigate through some of those feelings because really all you want to do is be happy but then you can't really be happy so it starts up this whole cycle of okay what am I doing wrong and what do I need to do and so on. But you're not a bad person. You're clearly a very sensitive and empathetic person and those people tend to end up having days where they feel bad about everything or sad.

You might pursue more spiritual self-care to help with that healing. You could consider therapy. With the daughter card, things that are just like indulgent in a child-like way. That type of joyous activity is really going to be beneficial for you. Especially really silly and immature things. So if you're feeling down, watch a silly cartoon or anime. I would recommend rather than watch anything negative or dark or heavy, to try and push yourself to read or watch positive or uplifting things. During this time, I would suggest limiting your time on social media or any kind of scrolling of the news. If you need to spend time alone, do that. I already see you focusing a lot on yourself anyway. But I do think you would benefit through volunteering or any kind of activity where you can help other people. I just don't think maybe intellectually and spiritually are going to be a little bit listless for the first half of the year. Restless way. Frustrated at times.

I don't necessarily see an outcome in particular by the end of 6 months. If anything this is more like a temporary time or sort of transitory time. You might see more results or more change or something happen around next fall and winter. Given that we have Scorpio and Sagittarius. Of course you could read this at any time as well. This can be a timeless reading. But for those of you reading early spring or spring or whatever well actually it's not timeless if it's for the first half of 2025. But that doesn't mean you can't read it later on in 2025 and reflect on what's happened. Point being just for this pile in particular, it does seem that next October to Sagittarius could be significant in some way. Again as well as the timing around Aries. It could even be a cycle where maybe something or some event happens in March or early April and then another effect happens from that or related to that in the winter. That can be a cycle of its own I don't know is that long enough to have a baby as well. From March until December yeah. So again some of you might get pregnant or know somebody who gets pregnant. Gets pregnant around March and then is said to have a baby in December.

It could also just be reiterating that there's a strong focus about the life death cycle. And how those are subjects that you are thinking about and affecting you right now. These things would definitely affect your mental health areas and relationships. So it's not really saying a lot in terms of specific events with this reading but just acknowledging and validating what you can expect to feel and think and go through during this time and that that's okay. And that it's just part of the cycle of not just life. Legitimately like if a death or something happening in the world is affecting you and it is concentrated particular around that subject of life and death. But also potentially just part of that internal cycle of spiritual transformation and how there's an actual public process involved with that. Where you have to do deep reflection and think about things and if that serves some kind of purpose in the long run. I feel like I've been in that type of stage for a very long time and I'm not sure what the final outcome is. The only thing I know is that you are supposed to go through it and it's a natural. And you aren't alone in having those feelings or feeling like okay life isn't really like going one way or the other. What do I need to do and that's part of the frustration. Lots of people feel like that.

It could be a breakup that kind of affects you or it could be the anniversary of a breakup. But again that's just the most negative to read it. You could always read it like hey during Aries months I meet this Scorpio or I meet another Aries or I meet this fire sign or this other water sign. And maybe you meet that person shortly after a breakup. And that's part of a cycle of one thing ending and another beginning and it being for the best. The only kind of solace I can provide is that like everything is happening in course and everything that ended either was part of a plan or was a component necessary to push you into a direction that is more stable for you. Like perhaps leaving a relationship that was abusive or just neglectful or just wasn't completely 100% and then moving to a relationship that fills the gaps that the other relationship couldn't. But you would never know that you needed those things in the new relationship unless you went through the relationship that made you understand what was lacking or what you did need. And then you can apply that lesson if you don't have any type of relationship and don't want a relationship to some other area of life

Like you lose your job or you want to quit or whatever and then you end up at a job that fulfills you in ways that the previous job couldn't but losing the job itself caused a lot of conflict and stress and you weren't exactly sure of the outcome. Sometimes I think people get lessons in different types of ways. I don't know why that is. I don't want to say it's easier for some people but it certainly feels like that whereas some people get pushed off a cliff. And you think what did I do to deserve this? But in my experience it's been like those are the people that would have been slower to let go of an experience or situation that was negative for them so in order to get them out of that situation the universe gives them like a really rude kick in the pants. That feels very hurtful at the time but it is what it is is all I can say.

And in terms of looking at the little calico cat as the item that you picked. You know it's looking very cozy. You don't really know its situation either. Is it in a box because it was abandoned? Is it safe and cozy in a new home. Does it not want to venture outside it's cozy little box because the world is scary? I think that reflects a lot of what this pile is like is like a lot of people are having different types of experiences. But they seem to be stuck in a box and the universe is working very hard to try to shove you out of it in different ways. You might be very set in your ways or feel comfortable even if things aren't exactly as ideal or as happy as you wanted. So life is like well I think I'm going to have to force you out of this box. It's also interesting that I mentioned feminine energy and my understanding is that calico cats are mostly female because it's the sorting type of genetic thing. So again there's an emphasis on feminine and energy, pregnancy. This doesn't have to apply to gender or anything it's just the energy of receiving and self-love and empathy. So that's why I think a lot of the root issues have to do with empathy and compassion and sensitivity and feelings. Lots of people in their feelings in this pile. I could do a psychological profile and say probably there were interesting traumas in their childhood or traumas around sexuality or relationships or intimacy or love or whatever. And so there's a part of you that just needs to be handled with care. As if you were a baby or child.

You need to be very careful with yourself and how you talk to yourself and how you treat yourself. So that's why I say a big emphasis on self-care like massages or taking care of your general health like going to an OBGYN or whatever related to your gender and health health. Doing things that make you happy that are small and things that you would expect would make a kid happy. Like watching your favorite shows or getting a coffee or an ice cream or going to an amusement park or getting a stuffed animal or getting something that makes you feel pretty. All in all, it's giving that typical heal your inner child wounds focus on those things. So if you like to listen to YouTube music, find some videos that center around healing childhood wounds and healing wounded femininity or whatever.

Follow that type of course in terms of healing and I think you will probably see results in the fall where you start to feel better or you recover from that significant change or you see that you can look back 6 or 7 months later or 9 months or whatever from March and be like oh I see the progress that I've made or I see why it happened that way or I see why I needed to go through that or have those thoughts or think about those things. I think it's a very slow progress type of energy. But it's essential and it's happening and it's valid. And this isn't to say that nothing is going to be happening in your life. It's just that it's not focusing on any specific events outside of a potential event in the spring. It's just that during the next 6 months or even this whole year, after events in life are going to happen and it's going to impact that internal life you have going on. You could have a whole slew of things that happen in the next year but that's not really the point

The point is more about this internal and spiritual transformation that you're on now and that you will continue to go on through the next 6 months and maybe even until the next year. And it's going to be not a super easy row. Maybe nothing significant happens but you're just feeling really depressed this year or anxious or whatever. And you working through that. Or maybe something upcoming will happen and put you on that kind of path as well. Or maybe by spring you'll have recovered from some type of event that happened year before and it's taken you that long to get to this point in the journey. So a lot of people having different experiences in this pile and possibly following a different kind of timeline where spring could be an end to something for some but a beginning for others and so on. It would make me think that it's possible a lot of people who read this particular pile are from a specific generation. Like a lot of gen z or a lot of millennial and so on. Because it's giving that sort of Pluto energy of being a generational feeling. Like a whole bunch of people going through this transitory period one time and being drawn to this particular pile.

So what can you expect? Lots of thoughts and feelings. Watch adventure Time. Go back and watch the shows that you used to watch that are nostalgic for you and made you laugh or feel good. Don't go back and watch Arcane for the thousandth time or even squid game. Like don't watch violent and heavy media. Literally put the limits on your social media scrolling. Go to the settings and make sure you aren't on Instagram for more than a couple hours a day.

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Pile 3

This pile is really all over the place. And that doesn't surprise me given the way it shuffled and the cards fell out. Like the Earth card sort of fell out because three of those Oracle deck cards came out and I was like that's too many I'll just take these but then when I peaked to see which one it was in case it came up relevant it had the fox on it so I was like oh well that's weird giving the sticker but I put it back anyway and then later on I was like no maybe I should include it maybe it was important. And then multiple cards came out of the other decks and then there were only two tarot cards and I was like clearly this is for the pile of people who are going to have issues concentrating or focusing.

Some readers say that when that happens it's also the pile that gets chosen by the most people. But let's just see.

I think the issue is that for the next 6 months there's just going to be a lot of different things happening. There's going to be opportunity for travel and adventure, there's going to be opportunity to try and work on your goals, there's going to be opportunity to do your spiritual practices, there's going to be opportunities where you can be a leader or organize some type of event or work on yourself and become more authentic. There's just like a whole lot of s*** that the universe is throwing at you at one time. Something that is kind of interesting is this walkabout card which says you discover your path in sacred walk about the trees are your people the Earth is your tribe in indigenous lessons you find the will to survive. This card has a lot of things that tie into other cards that you got like Earth and then in this manifest card she actually looks like a tree and with the adventure and even the guy in nine of wands with a stick it kind of makes me think of somebody walking or hiking. And then the be real card also has trees and stuff and the Earth card talks about being respectful of the planet so that makes me think of the word indigenous as well

I wonder if there are a lot of Earth signs or like earthy water signs for this pile. In terms of manifesting as well this 11:11 card with the synchronicity and spiritual numbers or whatever make me think about manifesting and the magician card is number one so there is an element of working on or working toward and being able to manifest certain things in life. But what are you manifesting well the perfect timing card says this is the right time for you to move forward. This matches the adventure card, it matches the nine of wands, step up and lead and so on. So a lot of the messages coming through are about finding your authentic goal and stepping into your power. I know those are kind of buzz words which I hate but just to give you an idea of it's almost like you are being set up to become a type of person or be put into a position where you become a leader.

This can be a lot of things like becoming a manager, becoming a graduate assistant, becoming a counselor and so on. It's like if you experience challenges or have experience challenges you are being set up to be put in a position where you could potentially help others. But it's also a feeling of not just being a cog in the machine like you would have your own spiritual practice or your own therapy practice or you would start your own blog to talk about travel or spiritual stuff. Like it's you literally taking the lead almost like a business person.

See the bigger picture as well like I just imagine somebody getting ready to prepare a small business and coming up with a business plan. And that doesn't have to be literal it can be an example of what to expect like you are being prepared to do this thing where you will have responsibility and it will take planning and organization and imagination. And then you also have to get real. As in like not just about just being authentic here but like it feels more like get real. Like be practical, see the bigger picture, like what needs to be done to start this business. Like what are the legal things that you need to go through, how do you figure out what inventory you're going to have. The universe is definitely asking you to put your big boy pants on

And I think that message is coming because generally you might be somebody or you've gone through something that's distracting you. But the universe seems to think that you are in a very unfocused and distracted energy so it's like hey button down okay it's time to like get it together and figure out what you're going to do and like realize that if you keep going in this direction then this thing probably isn't going to happen. Like a goal or something. So you really need to like strap in here. Because honestly I feel like the manifest, Earth, adventure cards are like all of these distractions. Sort of like all these shiny things that are keeping you off task. Like oh well I would do that but you know I want to travel or oh I would do that but like I want to go to this fun party or oh I would do that but like I want to do a lot of different things so I don't know where to start.

And that might be where the seven of wands and nine of wands are kind of coming in. Because the seven of wands can kind of make you feel like you are backed into a corner or you have to defend an idea about something and nine of wands is also that kind of like having gone through the ringer or like needing to defend something as well so there's a lot of defensive type of energy or potentially some blockages. But I personally think the blockages are the things that are distracting you. For some of you that could just be that you are a lazy or easily distracted. For some of you it's just been like non-stop events or like bad luck.

Even so I do think it would be a good time for you to travel. To be able to experience new and different things so that you can gain perspective about how things could work or how things are different from what you're doing or even just to clear your head. But like you can't spend the entire year traveling. But I do definitely think that doing interesting and intellectually stimulating things for you will give you perspective and maybe help you kind of like see that bigger picture. Some people like when they get bogged down with life might go stay by the ocean or like go take a trip to New York or something. And that allows them to kind of put space between the things that are muddling them down at home. So I think the universe is saying that is an option for how to kind of clear your head so you can start thinking about other things that you want to do or need to do

You know what's interesting is the second pile was a lot about those people who picked that pile were extremely focused so if you could befriend people who chose pile two they could probably help you with your goals. Maybe some advice would be like to write down lists of goals and the steps it would take to get there. If you have issues with time management which would not surprise me here like I don't think a lot of you would be very strong project managers or if you are it's just like become so much that you are sort of overwhelmed and you can't coordinate your personal life.

So I really think you know forcing yourself to think about goals and writing them down step by step or doing things we're like okay what do I want. Even if that changes each day, maybe writing down in a journal what do you want to achieve today, what do you want to achieve this week, what do you want to achieve this month and then take it even further like okay what do I want to achieve in a year or even 5 years from now. I think something like that will really help you to picture what it will take to get there and to really have a concrete idea of what the hell you're doing.

Like maybe you think I don't know I don't know what I want to do so I'm just going to do a lot of everything. Which is fine because that's gathering information to figure out what you like or you don't like. So maybe you're in that kind of stage but I'm still feeling like okay you can play around for so long but then what are you going to do. And it might even be that you have pressure from family or friends that are like okay you did all this stuff now like what are you going to do. Almost like as if you are at this stage where maybe you're like in your early twenties or late teens or something and you have kind of been living this life as a kid still and now people are like okay you're getting older so you need to be able to handle responsibility and you're going to start being treated like an adult so you can't just faff around all the time

I mean looking at your sticker even it makes me think like the fox is sort of distracted by this pretty little flower and it's nice to have little joys in life but eventually the fox has to like prepare for the winner and find a den or like find a mate or do something. Like you don't really have to grow up and there's no natural way of becoming an adult or being an adult because no matter how old you get you're not going to feel like the age that you are. But you do need to kind of think if you are taxing other people and relying on other people instead of taking responsibility for yourself and what you need to do then the universe does want you to grow up a little. Like at some point you do need to become responsible and mature so I think the universe is saying something like okay you're ready to push forward and move on to the next step. No more just having fun. You do actually have to like find a purpose and have a plan.

Again I'm seeing a lot of travel or journeys. Maybe more slow than with other people because a lot of these images show a solo person or animal. So like with all the piles there's going to be some solo reflection. And yeah I basically think you are the group that is going to learn most through travel or like experiencing new things. It's definitely Sagittarius energy that's coming through the most. I can understand the Aquarius and Capricorn as well. Because Capricorn is kind of like that good organization and like practical skills that you could use in school or at a job.

There's this idea of learning more and having like a higher perspective of things that comes through this Sagittarius energy and then with the Aquarius it's a bit of that traveling down your own path I guess. Figuring out your specific identity which may be to do that you need to go through different experiences. It might also be a message to if you are a person who constantly needs to rely on other people or has codependency issues to experience more things just by yourself. Like maybe when you go out to dinner you'll only go out to dinner if friends are going and only go to see a movie if friends are going and like the idea of doing things on your own is scary. Well if you constantly rely on other people then you can't really figure out things about yourself because you haven't ever like been challenged to be on your own.

So yeah I think opportunities to have more Independence and be more self-reliant and make your own voices and do your own things is going to be what happens for the first 6 months of the year. Backpacking somewhere would be good hiking would be good, especially being close to nature makes sense for you. So if this is like going surfing or visiting destinations that are more focused on the geography or look of the place.

Because I do think nature and landscapes are the things that are going to have the biggest impact on you and how to kind of stimulate that thought process you need to become more independent and mature. It's almost like you're fighting growing up or being responsible or feeling like you have to get a job and do these things. Again I'm just feeling like it's somebody who just thinks they can play around for forever. Or even if not that just a sense of getting more organized. It doesn't really mean becoming more boring or anything. It just means there's something that you are purposely distracting yourself or are naturally distracted but it still feels like a defense mechanism. Like you don't want to look at yourself and you don't want to be serious and you don't want to do these things but it's coming from a place that seems to be like fear of change

people might consider you a bit naive maybe or sheltered. I get that from the white figures that keep coming up it makes me think of somebody like computer and innocent and youthful and a little immature. So I just think there's a lot you have to learn about yourself. And you're going to do that by doing more things by yourself. I think there will be a lot of figurative and literal exploring that happens. And again I feel like strongly will benefit from being in nature. Taking a walk through the woods. Like in a safe way. Taking hikes. Doing spiritual practices related to nature., as in like using things from the earth if you like to do any kind of witchcrafty like things. Like using sand, using leaves, using flowers.

You might have particular experiences around Aquarius time, Sagittarius, or Capricorn which is almost a year from now. I wasn't going to go that far. But like the previous pile there could be some type of cycle where something will begin in Aquarius and the cycle will last until next January. That could be like something happens at the end of February and you decide that you want to plan a trip for next December. Or maybe you graduate next winter so you still feel like you can kind of be young and a kid and then you don't have to get serious until you graduate but really you should probably be preparing to grow up even before then. Or maybe that's just something you're grappling with now is I do want to just enjoy this time until I have to get serious so I can still dick around a little bit. Which is fine. I'm not telling you either one way or the other if it makes sense to have fun and it's not burdening anybody. You know like when you lose track of time and you have a roommate but you don't pay rent on time and then they get in trouble for it. Or you stop turning in assignments or you aren't returning calls.

There's kind of like a flaky type of energy that's existing here as well. So that's something I kind of see. Like a very spacey, distracted, unfocused person. And not in a cute way. Like maybe you think it's cute but I think other people in life find it frustrating or immature. So I do think there's some growing up that will happen in the next 6 months or at least that's what the universe wants to happen. Whether you do end up focusing I'm not really sure. But as long as you travel and experience new things at least you'll be doing something. Red and orange kind of seem like significant colors for me in this this pile. That's like your root and sacral. So you might listen to those type of sounds on YouTube. You might wear those colors. That's kind of on par with the idea of being responsible and being more grounded and practical and potentially even taking the time to explore things so you can figure what you're passionate about. Because that sacral energy is usually about passion and creativity. So I think maybe you need to be inspired. Maybe you get bored easily and that's where it's coming across as unfocused and kind of flaky. Like you need to have people entertain you but it's like you know sometimes you have to be the source of your own inspiration. You can't be reliant on other people or other situations to entertain you forever.

I hope that doesn't sound too harsh. There's nothing wrong with having fun. But I do think there are people who take advantage of it especially when they are young and then it kind of laffects other people in your life because they're ready to get serious and you're really not and you don't get why other people are so serious. And I mean you aren't obligated to keep people around who can't handle you as you are now. Like if they think you were flaky or inattention seeker or like lazy or something then maybe they're just wound a little bit too tight and you aren't compatible. Everybody explores things at a difference scale and on a different timeline and not everybody knows who they are or what they want to do right away. Some people know from a young age and some people have to figure it out throughout their life and I think you guys are the latter.

So if you do want to be more focused I would suggest grounding activities and grounding spiritual practices that will help you focus more. Doing those other activities that are like making lists. So that you don't forget about things. If you need to get groceries write it down. If you have important dates use Google calendar and different practical ways of reminding you. I would also suggest like the previous pile maybe putting a limit on your social media scrolling because maybe you get bored and you scroll for hours at a time and then you have wasted a lot of time and you didn't do your assignment and now you have to go to class and you have to ask someone if you can copy and that's a burden on them because they did the work. Or your teacher is like okay so for the fourth time you haven't brought in your work. Like do you see where it's not okay all the time to be freestyling life completely. Like if you do it on your own and it's no bother then that's life man. But yeah

Other advice could be you know a rabbit or cats or a fox could be your spiritual animal or totem or an animal that you kind of relate to. Foxes are very clever and bunnies are very quick so you might actually be very witty or funny people. You might have the potential to write really well. Some of you might actually be kind of athletic or have an athletic ability or used to when you were younger. Like you used to run track but you don't really do it anymore. Or maybe you're the type of people who will start a lot of activities because they interest you at first and then you get kind of bored so it's hard for you to stay with one thing for a long period of time. You might have recently or will in the next few months or later on have small Petty arguments with people around you. Again this could be about your laziness like if you live with somebody you don't pick up after yourself, you don't do the dishes, you don't take out the trash and the people you live with will be like how come we always have to do this and you don't ever do it or your parents are like how come you always sleep until noon and stay up until 4:00 a.m. looking at your phone. You might notice more people doing that and that might be the universe's way of being like are you getting the hint now.

And also you know if you had ideas for big changes even if they feel impulsive the perfect timing card does suggest that that's fine. If you have an impulsive trip planned, that also is fine. Anything that will help you discover something about yourself and embolden and give you confidence and teach you about responsibility, I think those are good lessons for you to learn for the next 6 months or so. The moon also seems prominent in these cards. So I think you are also a group that relies a lot on intuition. You might be able to read people really well. You might have a lot of emotional experiences or deep emotions or deep feelings about certain specific topics. I do feel like you follow things that call to you.

So maybe there's not always a lot of things like a lot of thoughts happening in the skull sometimes and you're just like well I'm just going to do whatever I feel like doing. Not to say that you're self-absorbed or selfish or anything I just think that Sagittarius energy is coming through. Like you just do whatever you want because you just like feel called to do that thing at that particular moment. Which I can see where that would frustrate people in your life. I'm not saying that's valid that they are frustrated but I'm seeing it in a way that I get what they are frustrated about. But you also can't surround yourself with people who are constantly going to make you feel like you aren't enough or that you're always wrong in what you're doing. People have different ways of doing things. And that's okay like if that person is super rigid then maybe they need to be around other people like themselves. And maybe you need to surround yourself with people who are a bit more open-minded and creative and understanding and empathetic.

That will have patience with you. So if you have a lot of people who seem impatient or like hot tempered. Although you yourself may be hot tempered as well but maybe that's a message because it keeps coming to me is that you need to start thinking about your circle and Fu have the healthiest people around you. Like I almost feel like maybe you usually surround yourself with people who are a little shallow. Like really concerned with the latest fad or what influencers have to say and because you are too lazy to find enough for friend group or you just have been attached because you've known them for so long it's like well it's too much work to actually find better friends. But like why do you want to be friends with somebody who's always saying mean things to you. Like why did you get that tattoo it's so weird or why did you get that piercing it's so weird or why did you dye your hair that crazy color like come on or why are you wearing that that's like so 2 years ago.

Or you might have people who do make you feel bad about not knowing what you want to do or not being serious. And that's not really okay. Now if it's your parents and it's coming from a place of concern as long as it's not completely toxic then okay. And if you are being a slob and you have roommates then yeah you need to work on that and they have valid points. But nobody should be demeaning you to the point that they are making you feel bad about yourself and causing even more delay and confusion about who you are and what you want to do. So I don't feel like you should become complacent in this energy of like it's fine to not do anything because people don't expect anything. Or it's fine to have this friend group because like yeah they're mean sometimes but like we have fun when we go out. Like you don't have to put up with that. You could probably make friends easily and if you just apply boundaries with relationships like that then those people will kind of fall away and other people will come in that are much better for you.

Very specific message but some of you would be really good at comedy writing. Whether this is fiction or non-fiction or literal sketch comedy type stuff I think a lot of you would be really good at that. I just feel really strongly that a lot of you could be good writers. And that you're funny. Like maybe even a little quirky. Some of you might have an interesting clothing style. Like specifically like to shop at vintage stores or consignment stores. Some of you might be a bit on the alternative side in terms of your style. But anyway I think you get the general idea so yeah you should grow up a little bit but at your own timing and however you want to do it and not how somebody else tells you to do it because that's the way society is. Like you'll have your own timing as long as you're mindful of other people. And remembering that you don't have to settle. That it's okay to do things on your own. That doing things on your own doesn't have to be scary and growing up doesn't have to be scary and learning things about yourself and the world doesn't have to be completely scary or intimidating. Also my final suggestion is to read more.

Like not fanfiction but like think about reading books and listening to podcasts and finding a bunch of different mediums to learn as much as you possibly want to learn. If you want to watch YouTube videos. Maybe that's why you're staying up so late though but like I feel a thirst for knowledge. But also laziness like not reading physical books I think that would be really good for you though. Or if you can't even do that if you're a person who runs or travels in the car a lot to listen to audiobooks. I guess I think maybe those activities will ground you as well and calm me down a little bit. So especially if you do go on a walk through the woods why not also listen to a podcast. Or maybe you should just do one at a time maybe that's too overstimulating for you guys. And maybe that's what you do already and I should actually be telling you to unplug from that stuff and just enjoy the sounds of nature. But it doesn't really matter because I don't think you'll listen to what I have to say anyway LOL. Because there is a bit of stubborn energy here okay well hopefully that helps bye!

#tarot #pick a card #General reading #2025 predictions #spirituality #Tarot reading

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barmadumet · 1 month ago

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I did it. I went.

That’s me all the way in the back center; there was only nine of us, and that was nice. It was what I needed.

Bulleting my thoughts in this post really helped, and I appreciate everyone who offered insight 🥹 That also helped very much 🫂♥️

One thing in particular that really stuck with me was the suggestion to go in with a positive mindset. Yesss. I was worried about all these negative things that had the potential to trigger. So, I thought about what might make the experience more positive, and I remembered I had heard there were some theatres that had seats that vibrated to sound, and I thought that might make it more fun and different - and really put my focus on the movie and not allow for my brain to overwork.

Having that idea on the pros list, I was still thinking a lot about whether or not I wanted company, and when my husband told me he would be out of town for the first half of the week, my first thought was, “I can go see ROTS one night while he’s gone.” and it became apparent to me that this was something I wanted to do on my own.

So, I looked up showtimes, and discovered I would have to take off a couple of hours of work one afternoon in order to get the seat-vibrating experience… SOLD! Ditching work makes for a very positive approach 😂

And overall, it was indeed a positive experience 🥹

I was nervous going in. And I got really overwhelmed once the lights went out, and by the time the 20th Century logo appeared, I was crying lol. But then, I was ok! I was surprised how okay I was! (with the exception of having to go the bathroom twice 😫 I don’t have the same bladder I had 20 years ago)

Over the years, it has not been often that I’ve given this movie my undivided attention from start to finish, despite the DVD playing constantly. It was amazing to do that, and I was sucked in, just so invested in THEM - the characters that I love so dearly. I also thought about all the media I’ve consumed over the last 20 years that tied into this film so beautifully - the gap-filling novels, comics, and even fic! I also thought about some of the profound posts I’ve seen here over the years with exceptional character analyses and thought-provoking theories. All of these things made this theatre watch even more enjoyable than the first one; it was basically the coveted extended cut running through my mind simultaneously with the film. It was incredible, and by the time I got to the end, I was overwhelmed for different reasons from the ones when I had begun.

These weren’t the types of memories I expected to come into play, and when Padmé said, “There’s good in him,” I did think about that epiphany I had back when, but only in the aspect that I was SO unbelievable grateful for where my life is now, even taking all the recent hardships into account. Because I’ll always have this. And this has become something much more precious than I ever imagined, and I sobbed with overwhelmingly positive thoughts all the way until Luke made it to Tatooine.

(contented sigh) I have a new ROTS theatre memory now, and I am so glad I went ❤️‍🩹 I feel as if I’m ready to start playing it on repeat at home again. I believe I needed this reset. Clean slate! 🙌

I brought him, too; he’d never seen ROTS - he did good 🥰

#I won #suck it triggering thoughts #I cried beginning and end yes #but also when the troops turned on Aayla #I guess I’m never getting over that #I had a big smile for Boga #💙 💚#one of my pee breaks was when Padme shares her pregnancy news #it is what it is #only one other person stayed all the way through the credits #we were both standing up and it felt like a standing ovation #oh and those vibrating seats were nothing special at all #🤷🏻‍♀️

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fun-k-board · 1 year ago

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AAAA YOUR REQUESTS ARE OPEN!!!! :3333 could I maybe request CG Storm and CG Rogue? Maybe them and a little reader who’s a bit on the fussy/ tantrum-y side?

Thank you!!!!! ^^ (u probably know who this is but I’m too scared to come off anon 😭)

X-MEN '97 - Little reader who's fussy and tends to have tantrums

SFW INTERACTION ONLY!! AGE REGRESSION IS NOT A KINK!!

Note(s): HEHHE I KNOW!! It's alright tbh I'm terrified of coming off anon too (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠)

Powered through writing this because you're cool as hell and I like you! 💪 I don't and didn't really have the most idk 'attentive' family, so I'm not the best judge on how to take care of kids or people in a kids mindset, I may be a little bad at writing for caregivers and age regression in general because of this.

ANNA MARIE DARKHÖLME / ROGUE

'Hey, hey now sugah, let's calm down, you don't want to go in time out and I don't want to send ya. Explain to me why you don't like the food, I'm perfectly alright gettin' you somethin' different, there ain't no need to get upset.'

Anna can sometimes tell when you're about to have a tantrum or become more fussy than usual, even if you tend to take a while to throw a full fit, she'll watch you carefully and try to prevent one from fully forming. Gently kissing you on the forehead and brushing back your hair, asking what's wrong with a worried look on her face.

The moment you start yelling, kicking, or even crying, maybe after ignoring her question, she finds it hard not to just fold and give you what you want, after all, you're just so cute. However, her sense of responsibility and care for you overwhelms her need to coddle you.

Anna will say your name firmly, getting you to pay attention to her, and only her. She'll get a tissue for you and wipe your tears away, and ask firmly what you're sad or angry about and if you could possibly explain it to her.

If you can't verbally, for whatever reason, she'll give you the opportunity to write it on paper or she'll play a guessing game with you, the guessing game is only for when you're extremely upset and need cheering up though.

If you explain, in whatever format you need to, that you're upset because of an issue that's causing you distress, maybe food triggered sensory issues, someone was mean to you, etc, then she'll let you off the hook because you clearly didn't mean to cause any harm and you were just acting out.

Rogue will give you a bit of a talking to, telling you that crying and throwing things makes it difficult to help, but that's about it. Given it's not your fault she isn't actually too mad, she just wants you to understand that she won't know how to help if you're kicking and screaming.

If, however, your outburst was because of a silly reason, say you don't like the colour crayons and you throw them at her, she won't be as quick to accept it and move on.

She's still very sympathetic and won't ever raise her voice at you, even when you've done something especially terrible for no apparent reason.

Anna is very lenient and her 'punishments' usually just include a minute or so sitting in the corner, maybe withholding drawing from you for the day, but she always makes sure to explain in detail why you're being punished and it's usually only a last resort.

Rogue is very sweet even when she's being stern, her eyes can't help but go soft and her tone slips from that firm scolding one she uses when you're being bad, to a sweet almost coo-like baby voice.

Afterwards she comforts you like there's no tomorrow, telling you that she didn't want to hurt your feelings by taking away something or sending you to the corner, but you just need to learn some manners and how to handle yourself.

If you're fussy in terms of only liking clothes of a certain colour, food cut or made in a certain way, or things being done in a particular order, she absolutely doesn't mind doing these things for you! When it comes to cooking Rogue tends to ask for Gambit's help, she's not the worst cook in the world, but she can't do it like Remy can.

When it comes to removing parts of food, maybe you like to remove the crusts of bread and have them separate or not at all, she'll happily cut them off for you and maybe even eat the crusts while talking to you.

Sometimes she matches clothes with you! After all, 'If you like these clothes, they must be the best ones they got!' She says with a grin.

ORORO MUNROE / STORM

'My child, it's important to remember your manners when speaking to those around you. I am not angry, but you must tell me what is wrong if I am to correct my mistake or you are able to grow.'

The moment she notices you starting to throw a tantrum, which is fairly fast even if your signs are just a deep frown, asking you if everythings alright and most of the time avoiding any tantrums before they begin.

However, sometimes you refuse to tell her what's wrong, perhaps you go straight to throwing toys or food, pouting, yelling, in replying she will simply hold a gentle hand on your shoulder and kindly repeat her question on what the matter is. Her tone is gentle and her face is one of genuine concern.

Like Rogue, if you're in distress because of something that's not your fault, or maybe you're just overwhelmed, she will never hold it against you at all. If you're comfortable with it and it's something you need to calm down, Storm will pick you up and give you a tight hug, if not, she's alright with just holding a hand on your shoulder, or even removing her hand and only speaking to you.

Ororo will get on one knee, bending down to speak to you in a hushed whisper, she'll tell you that it's all okay, that she'll help you and make it better, give you different food, turn off the lights, whatever you need, she can give it to you.

However, if you're just being fussy to perhaps get a reaction out of her, she'll raise her brow in an almost amused action, as if she finds your attempts to be aggravating as cute as a cat nibbling on its owner's hand. If you're throwing a fit just to throw one, she will definitely tell you sternly that you cannot do such things, at least not in her care.

I don't think that Storm is the type to use the corner or naughty step as a punishment, after all, she has her own fear of tight, dark places, you may fear loneliness, or abandonment, she does not wish her own troubles onto a mind like yours.

Instead, she talks to you, more importantly, she'll help you figure out what you did wrong, how to improve next time, and reflect on her own actions to see if the trouble was caused by a mistake on her part. It won't be an in depth conversation, she tends to use stuffed animals as an aid to show you an outsiders perspective.

If you're struggling with saying your words out loud, never fear, she has tons of paper and crayons, or pencils, pen, markers, etc if that's what you prefer, just for you! She keeps them in her room for whenever you regress and want to keep near her when doing so.

Ororo will advise you to draw your feelings, maybe even write a letter if that's more what you're comfortable with. She doesn't mind bad spelling or handwriting, she's quite good at deciphering even the most atrociously unintelligible handwriting.

At most, and only if you've been really bad, she'll lead you to your room, or hers, just to make sure you don't get embarrassed and act out further. Storm will tell you what you did wrong as firmly as she can so that you'll understand. It's only a light scolding though, she never ever raises her voice when you're around unless you need or want her to.

If she ever does raise her voice and it startles or frightens you, she will apologise, regardless of if you've done something wrong or not. It's never her intention to harm you, you've entrusted her to care for you and she will do anything in her power to achieve that goal.

If your fussiness is about certain clothes, textures, toys, etc, she absolutely doesn't mind exclusively getting you certain clothes or toys, and she won't be angry at all if you throw a tantrum over texture or taste, because she's fully aware it can be distressing to have an unfavourable texture of clothing of food.

Ororo will always ask questions about something before she gets it for you, after a while she knows pretty much all of your likes and dislikes.

She's a great cook and can switch the taste or texture in something with just a flick of her wrist, something she doesn't mind doing, especially if the food she's already making is something that causes a lot of stress.

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makeila04 · 3 months ago

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1930, crisis & Woods…

A History Lesson.

Disclaimer: Sorry if the tone of this post is too blunt, raw, etc. I cried while writing this, but I couldn’t help it. I really wanted to write this because my curiosity and love for history mixed with one of the characters I care about most and his context. And yes, it brought out a lot of things from within me that I didn’t even know I had.

Although I had learned and read about this event since I was a child—something often mentioned in my country as a constant reminder of what to avoid—studying it as a child, as a teenager, and now revisiting it through a particular character (or several) is completely different...

Please don’t take this personally, beautiful person <3. Here, we’re only seeking informative purposes in this post.

So, read it at your own discretion because this is going to start off strong.

I feel like NO ONE is taking into account the HISTORICAL CONTEXT of ALL the Black Ops characters (Not necessarily here, but in different media).... Adler was born in 1937... Weaver in 1936... Woods in 1930...

Damn, even the official wiki states that Woods was born in 1937 in Pennsylvania and that as a child, he ran away from home and wandered the streets until he joined the military at 18, or maybe even earlier. It wouldn’t surprise me if he lied about his age to enlist sooner because WE’RE TALKING ABOUT FRANK WOODS BEING BORN DURING THE GREAT DEPRESSION OF 1930!!!!

“Frank Woods was born on March 20, 1930, and grew up in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. He ran away from home as a young child, forced to rely on street smarts and his instincts. Woods quickly learned to be completely independent.” Text quoted from the wiki.

Did no one read about how families literally had NO FOOD to feed their children???? Did no one read about how families SOLD their children to avoid having so many mouths to feed? Was I the only one who saw those photos??? Where mothers cried and covered their faces IN SHAME for having to SELL their CHILDREN who weren’t even 5 years old. Well, in EXACTLY THAT CONTEXT, Frank Woods was born and raised…

I think many people aren’t considering, or aren’t taking into account, the historical and social context in which these characters grew up. They’re judging them with a 2025 mindset, without stopping to think about what it meant to live in the 30s, 40s, and 50s.

“In the coal fields of Pennsylvania, three or four families crowded into single-room shacks and survived on wild herbs. In Arkansas, families were found living in caves. In Oakland, California, entire families lived in sewer pipes.” Woods was born in the midst of the Great Depression (1930), a period of brutal extreme poverty. Families literally starved to death, and many sold or abandoned their children because they couldn’t support them. The fact that Woods lived on the streets from a young age makes sense in this context. He likely never had a real family, and that explains his personality: aggressive, independent, with a survivor’s mentality. Enlisting in the military at 18 (or earlier, lying about his age) is completely logical for someone with his background.

“More than 200,000 vagrant children roamed the country as a result of the disintegration of their families.” And Woods was one of them.

Adler and Weaver, on the other hand, were born in the midst of World War II (1936 and 1937). This means their early years were marked by a world entirely at war, with resource shortages, constant fear, and an uncertain future. Weaver wasn’t even born in the U.S., but in the Soviet Union, which endured HORRORS during the war. And let’s not forget that his childhood wasn’t just shaped by the war, but also by Stalin’s dictatorship, which brought repression, purges, and fear even within families themselves. Most players have no idea about the real historical context, and I DON’T blame anyone for not knowing, because these are character details that don’t affect or influence the plot. But for me, at least, I don’t like to overlook them. Some see the characters as "action heroes" and not as men who grew up in brutal contexts that shaped their worldview. They don’t ask what it means to have been born in 1930, 1936, or 1937. They don’t think about how war, poverty, dictatorship, and the Cold War affected their mentalities. And the worst part is that they judge them with today’s mindset. Of course, in 2025, we think differently about relationships, trauma, and life. But in the 50s, 60s, 70s, and 80s, when these characters grew up and lived their youth, the mentality was completely different. You can’t expect them to think or act like someone born in 2000 or 2010 would.

So, getting back to the topic…

✨Express history lesson with the Black Ops crew✨

1930s: THE GREAT DEPRESSION AND SURVIVAL (1929-1939) When Woods was born in 1930, the U.S. was in its worst economic crisis in history: the Great Depression. The Wall Street stock market had collapsed in 1929, and millions of people were left without jobs or homes. Values and mindset of the 1930s in the U.S.:

Survival at all costs: There was no time to think about emotions or trauma; the priority was getting food. People hardened because they couldn’t afford to be vulnerable.

Extreme self-reliance: The government didn’t help much, so everyone had to find a way to survive on their own. If you starved, it was your problem.

Strong machismo: Women didn’t have real labor rights, and their role was to "take care of the home." If a man couldn’t provide for his family, he was seen as a failure.

Extreme racism: Racial segregation was the norm. Black and white people couldn’t share bathrooms, restaurants, or public transportation.

Impact on Woods:

He grew up on the streets, without a stable family or protection. He learned from a young age that no one was going to help him and that he had to be strong on his own.

He most likely experienced extreme hunger and violence. He became a natural fighter out of necessity.

"Tough guy" mentality: Back then, expressing emotions was seen as weakness. Woods learned that to survive, he had to be aggressive and self-reliant.

1940s: WORLD WAR II AND PATRIOTISM (1939-1945) When Adler and Weaver were born (1936 and 1937), the world was at war. The U.S. entered World War II in 1941, and society changed dramatically. Values and mindset of the 1940s:

Hyper-patriotism: The war made sacrifice for the country the most important thing. Men were pressured to enlist.

Strict gender roles: Men went to war; women stayed home or worked in factories to support the war effort.

Paranoia and espionage: The war created constant fear of the "enemy," especially after the U.S. discovered concentration camps in Germany and later dropped atomic bombs.

Children grew up fast: There was no normal childhood. Kids saw their parents go to war, heard news of bombings, and learned that the world was a cruel place.

Impact on Adler and Weaver:

They learned that violence was normal. From a young age, they grew up seeing soldiers and weapons everywhere.

The enemy was real. Adler, growing up in the U.S., absorbed from childhood that Nazis, Soviets, and Japanese were "the enemy."

Weaver, on the other hand, was born in the USSR and lived under a dictatorship. As a Soviet, he grew up in a world where anyone could betray you, where the KGB spied on its own people, and where a simple rumor could send you to a labor camp in Siberia.

1950s: COLD WAR (1945-1959) After World War II, the USSR and the U.S. entered the Cold War, a power struggle between communism and capitalism. People lived with constant paranoia, fear of nuclear war, and hatred between the U.S. and the USSR. Values and mindset of the 1950s:

Structural racism: Racial segregation still existed in the U.S. (separate bathrooms and restaurants for Black and white people).

Political paranoia: People were afraid of being accused of being communists. Being a communist could ruin your life.

Fixation on the "perfect family": Television and advertising portrayed the American dream as getting married, having kids, and living in a house with a yard.

Impact on Adler and Weaver:

Weaver, who emigrated to the U.S. during this time, likely faced a lot of racism and discrimination. He was seen as a "Russian communist," even if he wasn’t.

Adler, raised in the U.S., grew up with the mindset that communism was "the great enemy."

Work was everything. The CIA, the military, or the war were more important than any personal relationships.

As a small personal note, I’d say this is where we can clearly see the power of propaganda over the general population in a society and how fear intensifies everything.

1960s: VIETNAM WAR AND POLITICAL VIOLENCE By this time, our characters were adults and starting to work as soldiers or agents. Values and mindset of the 1960s:

Vietnam War: The U.S. sent thousands of young men to fight in Vietnam. This traumatized an entire generation.

Distrust in the government: Corruption scandals and the assassination of JFK made many stop believing in institutions.

Impact on Woods, Adler, and Weaver:

They were sent to war. They experienced brutal things and had to kill without question.

Adler and Woods saw the brutality of war and understood that the government lies.

1970s and 1980s: EXTREME COLD WAR AND TOTAL CYNICISM By this time, our guys were veterans and had seen it all. They no longer trusted anything or anyone. Values and mindset of the 70s-80s:

Total cynicism: People realized that governments lie and manipulate.

Emotional detachment: No one wanted to form lasting relationships because life was uncertain.

Appearance of success: The 80s glorified money, image, and power.

Impact on our characters:

Adler and Weaver, as CIA agents, learned that everything was a game of betrayals.

Woods became even more skeptical and hardened.

Adler focused more on his career and left any personal life behind.

Conclusion: You can’t judge them with a modern mindset These characters didn’t grow up in a world of social media, equality, and therapy. They grew up in a world of war, hunger, and betrayal. Their values were shaped by these events, and what seems "normal" to us today wasn’t for them. That’s why Adler might be distant with women, Weaver might be a womanizer, and Woods is aggressive. It’s not because they’re "bad," but because that’s how life was in their era, and according to these contexts, I consider possibilities—more or less realistic—based on everything they lived through and absorbed in their early years.

I’m not saying we should justify their actions, but understanding their context helps us see them as more than just action characters. Adler, Woods, Mason, Hudson, Weaver—ALL of them belong to the Silent Generation (people born between 1928 and 1945). The term was first used in 1951 in an article by the American magazine Time, and it stems from their supposed reluctance to express their political opinions. Some attribute this attitude to the fact that, as young adults, these individuals grew up during McCarthyism, in a climate of surveillance and persecution of dissent in the United States and much of the Western world.

When the Silent Generation began to mature after World War II, they faced a devastated social order, within which they would spend their early adulthood, and they found a new enemy in communism through the betrayal of postwar agreements and the rise of the Soviet Bloc. Unlike the previous generation, which had fought to "change the system," the Silent Generation sought to work within the system. They did so by keeping their heads down and working hard, thus earning the label of "silent." This fits perfectly with our Black Ops crew, as it reflects everything they had to live through and, in part, what we witness in their stories.

As a final detail, I want to dedicate this, especially the part about Woods, to a particular friend, because, as he once told me, "I’ve known Woods for 15 years," since he’s his favorite character, and I know he would love this, given all the years he’s been playing this incredible saga.

Una clase de historia

Disclaimer: Perdón si el tono de esta publicación es muy brusco, crudo, etc.

Yo misma lloré escribiendo esto, pero no pude evitarlo, realmente quería escribir esto porque se mezcló mi curiosidad y gusto por la historia junto con uno de los personajes que más quiero y su contexto. Y sí, sacó muchas cosas de mí y de mi interior que ni yo misma sabía que tenía.

Si bien desde niña había aprendido y leído sobre este evento, algo que se suele nombrar en mi país como recordatorio constante de lo que hay que evitar, una cosa es estudiarlo de niña, otra de adolescente y ahora, revisionarlo a través de un personaje en particular, o varios...

Por favor, no te lo tomes personal, personita hermosa <3 Aquí solo buscamos fines informativos en esta publicación.

Así que leelo bajo tu propio discernimiento porque esto va a empezar fuerte.

Siento que NADIE está teniendo en cuenta el contexto HISTÓRICO de TODOS los personajes de Black Ops... Adler nació en 1937...Weaver en 1936... Woods en 1930... (No necesariamente aquí, pero si en distintos medios).

Carajo, hasta en la wiki oficial ponen que Woods nació en 1937 en Pennsylvania y que de niño se escapó de su casa y vago por las calles hasta que a los 18, o quizás antes, entró al ejército, aunque no me sorprendería que haya mentido de su edad para entrar antes, porque ESTAMOS HABLANDO DE QUE FRANK WOODS NACIÓ EN LA GRAN DEPRESIÓN DE 1930!!!!

“Frank Woods nació el 20 de marzo del 1930 y se crió en Filadelfia, Pensilvania. Se escapó de su casa cuando era un niño pequeño obligado a confiar en la inteligencia de la calle y seguir sus instintos. Woods aprendió rápidamente a ser completamente independiente.”

Texto citado desde la wiki.

¿Nadie leyó sobre cómo literalmente las familias NO tenían comida para alimentar a sus hijos????? ¿Nadie leyó historia sobre cómo las familias VENDÍAN a sus hijos para no tener tantas bocas que alimentar? ¿Qué acaso fui la única que vio esas fotos?? Donde las madres lloraban y se tapaban las caras DE VERGÜENZA por tener que VENDER a sus HIJOS que no llevaban ni a los 5 años. Bueno, en EXACTAMENTE ESE CONTEXTO nació y creció Frank Woods… Creo que muchos no están considerando, o no tienen en cuenta, el contexto histórico y social en el que crecieron estos personajes. Los están juzgando con la mentalidad de 2025, sin detenerse a pensar en lo que significaba vivir en los años 30, 40 y 50.

“En los yacimientos de carbón de Pensilvania, tres o cuatro familias se apiñaban en chozas de una sola habitación y vivían de hierbas silvestres. En Arkansas, se encontraron familias que habitaban en cuevas. En Oakland, California, familias enteras vivían en tuberías de alcantarillado.”

Woods nació en plena Gran Depresión (1930), un período en el que la pobreza extrema era brutal. Las familias se morían de hambre literalmente y muchas vendían a sus hijos o los abandonaban porque no podían mantenerlos. Que Woods haya vivido en las calles desde niño tiene sentido en este contexto. Probablemente nunca tuvo una familia real, y eso explica su personalidad: agresivo, independiente, con una mentalidad de superviviente. Entrar al ejército a los 18 (o antes, mintiendo sobre su edad) es algo totalmente lógico en alguien con su trasfondo. “Más de 200.000 niños vagabundos vagaban por el país como resultado de la desintegración de sus familias.” Y Woods, fue uno de esos.

Adler y Weaver, por otro lado, nacieron en plena Segunda Guerra Mundial (1936 y 1937). Esto significa que sus primeros años de vida estuvieron marcados por un mundo totalmente en guerra, con escasez de recursos, miedo constante y un futuro incierto. Weaver ni siquiera nació en EE.UU., sino en la Unión Soviética, que sufrió HORRORES durante la guerra. Y no olvidemos que su infancia no solo estuvo marcada por la guerra, sino también por la dictadura de Stalin, que traía represión, purgas y miedo incluso dentro de las propias familias.

La mayoría de los jugadores no tiene idea del contexto histórico real, y NO culpo a nadie que lo ignore, porque son detalles de los personajes que no afectan o influyen en la trama, pero que al menos a mí, no me gustan pasar por alto.

Algunos ven a los personajes como "héroes de acción" y no como hombres que crecieron en contextos brutales que moldearon su visión del mundo. No se preguntan qué significa haber nacido en 1930, 1936 o 1937. No piensan en cómo la guerra, la pobreza, la dictadura y la Guerra Fría afectaron sus mentalidades.

Y lo peor es que juzgan con la mentalidad de hoy. Claro, en 2025 pensamos diferente sobre las relaciones, el trauma y la vida. Pero en los años 50, 60, 70 y 80, cuando estos personajes crecieron y vivieron su juventud, la mentalidad era totalmente distinta. No puedes esperar que piensen o actúen como lo haría alguien nacido en el 2000 o 2010.

Clase exprés de historia con los chicos de Black Ops: AÑOS 30: LA GRAN DEPRESIÓN Y LA SOBREVIVENCIA (1929-1939)

Cuando Woods nació en 1930, EE.UU. estaba en su peor crisis económica de la historia: la Gran Depresión. La Bolsa de Wall Street había colapsado en 1929 y millones de personas quedaron sin trabajo ni hogar.

Valores y mentalidad de los años 30 en EE.UU.:

Sobrevivencia a toda costa: No había tiempo para pensar en emociones o traumas, la prioridad era conseguir comida. La gente se endureció porque no podían permitirse ser vulnerables.

Autosuficiencia extrema: El gobierno no ayudaba mucho, así que cada uno tenía que encontrar la forma de sobrevivir solo. Si te morías de hambre, era tu problema.

Machismo fuerte: Las mujeres no tenían derechos laborales reales y su papel era "cuidar el hogar". Si un hombre no podía mantener a su familia, era visto como un fracasado.

Racismo extremo: La segregación racial era la norma. Negros y blancos no podían compartir baños, restaurantes, ni transporte público.

Impacto en Woods:

Creció en la calle, sin familia estable ni protección. Aprendió desde niño que nadie iba a ayudarlo y que tenía que ser fuerte por sí mismo.

Lo más seguro es que vivió hambre extrema y violencia. Se convirtió en un luchador nato por necesidad.

Mentalidad de "hombre rudo": En esa época, expresar emociones se veía como debilidad. Woods aprendió que para sobrevivir, debía ser agresivo y autosuficiente.

AÑOS 40: SEGUNDA GUERRA MUNDIAL Y PATRIOTISMO (1939-1945)

Cuando Adler y Weaver nacieron (1936 y 1937), el mundo estaba en guerra. EE.UU. entró a la Segunda Guerra Mundial en 1941, y toda la sociedad cambió radicalmente.

Valores y mentalidad de los años 40:

Hiperpatriotismo: La guerra hizo que el sacrificio por el país fuera lo más importante. Los hombres eran presionados para alistarse.

Roles de género marcados: Los hombres iban a la guerra, las mujeres se quedaban en casa o trabajaban en fábricas para apoyar la guerra.

Paranoia y espionaje: La guerra generó un miedo constante al "enemigo", sobre todo después de que EE.UU. descubrió campos de concentración en Alemania y luego lanzó las bombas atómicas.

Los niños crecían rápido: No había infancia normal. Los niños veían a sus padres ir a la guerra, escuchaban noticias de bombardeos y aprendían que el mundo era un lugar cruel.

Impacto en Adler y Weaver:

Aprendieron que la violencia era normal. Desde pequeños, crecieron viendo a soldados y armas por todos lados.

El enemigo era real. Adler, creciendo en EE.UU., mamó desde niño que los nazis, los soviéticos y los japoneses eran "el mal".

Weaver, en cambio, nació en la URSS, y desde niño vivió en una dictadura. Siendo soviético, creció en un mundo donde cualquier persona podía traicionarte, donde la KGB espiaba a su propia gente y donde un simple rumor podía mandarte a un campo de trabajo en Siberia.

AÑOS 50: GUERRA FRÍA (1945-1959)

Después de la Segunda Guerra Mundial, la URSS y EE.UU. entraron en la Guerra Fría, una lucha de poder entre el comunismo y el capitalismo. Se vivía con paranoia constante, miedo a la guerra nuclear y odio entre EE.UU. y la URSS.

Valores y mentalidad de los años 50:

Racismo estructural: Todavía existía segregación racial en EE.UU. (baños y restaurantes separados para negros y blancos).

Paranoia política: La gente tenía miedo de ser acusada de comunista. Ser comunista podía arruinarte la vida.

Fijación con la familia "perfecta": La televisión y la publicidad mostraban que el sueño americano era casarse, tener hijos y vivir en una casa con jardín.

Impacto en Adler y Weaver:

Weaver, que emigró a EE.UU. en esta época, debió haber sufrido mucho racismo y discriminación. Lo veían como un "ruso comunista", aunque no lo fuera.

Adler, criado en EE.UU., creció con la mentalidad de que el comunismo era "el gran enemigo".

El trabajo lo era todo. La CIA, el ejército o la guerra eran más importantes que cualquier relación personal.

Como pequeño punto de mi parte, diría que acá podemos observar el claro poder que tiene la propaganda sobre la población común en una sociedad y como el miedo intensifica todo.

AÑOS 60: GUERRA DE VIETNAM Y VIOLENCIA POLÍTICA

Aquí nuestros personajes ya eran adultos y empezaban a trabajar como soldados o agentes.

Valores y mentalidad de los años 60:

Guerra de Vietnam: EE.UU. mandó a miles de jóvenes a pelear en Vietnam. Esto traumó a toda una generación.

Desconfianza en el gobierno: Los escándalos de corrupción y el asesinato de JFK hicieron que muchos dejaran de creer en las instituciones.

Impacto en Woods, Adler y Weaver:

Fueron enviados a la guerra. Vivieron cosas brutales y tuvieron que matar sin cuestionar.

Adler y Woods vieron la brutalidad de la guerra y entendieron que el gobierno miente.

AÑOS 70 y 80: GUERRA FRÍA EXTREMA Y CINISMO TOTAL

Aquí nuestros chicos ya eran veteranos y habían visto de todo. Ya no confiaban en nada ni nadie.

Valores y mentalidad de los 70-80:

Cinismo total: La gente se dio cuenta de que los gobiernos mienten y manipulan.

Desapego emocional: Nadie quería formar relaciones duraderas porque la vida era incierta.

Apariencia de éxito: Los 80 glorificaron el dinero, la imagen y el poder.

Impacto en nuestros personajes:

Adler y Weaver, como agentes de la CIA, aprendieron que todo era un juego de traiciones.

Woods se volvió aún más escéptico y duro.

Adler se enfocó más en su carrera y dejó de lado cualquier vida personal.

CONCLUSIÓN: NO PUEDES JUZGARLOS CON MENTALIDAD MODERNA

Estos personajes no crecieron en un mundo de redes sociales, igualdad y terapia psicológica. Crecieron en un mundo de guerra, hambre, y traición. Sus valores fueron moldeados por estos eventos, y lo que hoy nos parece "normal" para ellos no lo era.

Por eso Adler podría ser distante con las mujeres, Weaver podría ser mujeriego y Woods es agresivo. No es porque sean "malos", es porque así era la vida en su época y acorde a estos contextos y considero posibilidades, más o menos realistas, en base a todo lo que habrán vivido y mamado en sus primeros años de vida.No digo que justifiquemos sus acciones, pero entender su contexto nos ayuda a verlos como algo más que personajes de acción.

Adler, Woods, Mason, Hudson, Weaver, TODOS, pertenecen a la Silent Generation. (personas que nacieron entre 1928 y 1945).

El término se empleó por primera vez en 1951, en un artículo de la revista estadounidense Time, y se debe a la supuesta reticencia para expresar sus opiniones políticas. Algunos relacionan esta actitud al hecho de que, como jóvenes adultas, estas personas crecieron durante el macartismo, en un clima de vigilancia y persecución de la disidencia en Estados Unidos y buena parte de Occidente. Cuando la generación silenciosa comenzó a madurar después de la Segunda Guerra Mundial, se enfrentaron a un orden social devastado, dentro del cual pasarían su temprana edad adulta, y encontraron un nuevo enemigo en el comunismo a través de la traición de los acuerdos de la posguerra y el surgimiento del Bloque Soviético. A diferencia de la generación anterior que había luchado por “cambiar el sistema”, la generación silenciosa trataba de trabajar dentro del sistema. Lo hicieron manteniendo la cabeza baja y trabajando duro, ganándose así la etiqueta de silenciosos. Lo que encaja perfectamente con nuestros chicos Black Ops, ya que es todo lo que tuvieron que vivir y de lo que en parte, nosotros somos partícipes en sus historias.

Como último detalle quiero dedicarle esto, especialmente la parte de Woods, a un amigo en particular, porque, como él mismo me dijo una vez “A Woods lo conozco desde hace 15 años” ya que es su personaje favorito y sé que esto le encantaría a él por todos los años a los que viene jugando a esta increible saga.

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hadleysmis · 2 months ago

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I have heard and read many interesting and thoughtful reviews of Les Misérables about how the themes and characters being deeply rooted in racism. However, I barely hear anyone really talk about the explicit stance the book takes in being pro-colonialism.

I don't really have the interest in re-reading the book to every chapter because of long essays such as the Argot one, where Victor Hugo paints a very negative picture in Frenches which differ from the standard form.

Now, this isn't just about Standard French, but also any linguistic children of it, because Hugo explicitly talks about the usage of Creole. To make his stance clearer, even one of the members of Patron Minette is 'Créole'.

We can't have depictions of mixed race or non-White ethnicities in books like this without colonialism being the foundation of it. I feel like sometimes people will happily call something racist, and then move on without talking about how topics such as colonisation is thought of and expressed.

I think one of the villains here is the colonial mindset. If we aren't taught about colonialism and the effects and horror from the said atrocities and beyond harmful psychology, then we will read pages and pages of content, and only reduce the conclusion to: "Ah, racism."

When we think about the criticism of class, hierarchy, social inequality, court procedures, justice, religious morality, perceived equality, and so on, we got such a deep analysis of it from Hugo about France.

At the same time, he proceeded to be explicitly pro-colonial inside the book, within his other books, and in real life statements as well. It isn't equal or excusable that Victor Hugo, and historical authors alike, can analyse their own country in such detail, combing through their thoughts on the matter, while sweeping generalisations such as 'France has a right to colonise Africa because we bring civilisation to it' is being said.

How come some societies are given the luxury of having the nits and grits be explored and criticised, while other societies are given willy nilly thoughts? Surely, one isn't expected to understand all the doings around the globe. So then, why discuss it in one's book?

Sure, old books— and even contemporary ones— from places born from privilege, having pillaged and colonised in unwelcomed spaces, will inevitably reek of the colonial mindset. That is a given. The main difference in contemporary books is that there is effort to erase that mindset, which can be admittedly difficult to do, if all your life, you had been groomed by the education system to be pro-colonialism, or at least unempathetic to it, or believe 'it isn't that big of a deal.'

When we are thinking about adaptations of Les Misérables around the world,— and in my case, around Asia,— there is an element of charm or fascination in how artists in different countries interpret the points, messages, and arguments presented in Les Misérables.

Especially for countries victims to colonisation, and those of which who continuously suffer from the consequences of it; I don't think there is near enough talks in the anglophone side of the fandom (I don't know about any other side, I only know the anglophone side) about what it means to restructure and reimagine the arguments presented by the book.

In particular, when we see countries who were victims to French colonisation, like Vietnam, where we get to see 'cultural resistance' against the effects of the oppressive French policies portrayed in their most famous retelling of Les Misérables; there isn't much talk about the political statement in the act of translation and adaptation alone has.

Here, in these adaptations, the stories are being handled most likely by those who are native to the lands, cultures, and languages, and they get to choose what political opinion the adaptation is going to have now, whether or not that is something we would personally agree with. The power is given to the people nevertheless.

Therefore, we no longer get sweeping generalisations or a willy nilly essays of thought about language use or ways of society of the 'uncivilised countries', and instead we get to see insightful criticisms of their own injustices through the adaptations of stories such as Les Misérables.

I don't mean to romanticise the adaptations, because of course there's flaws to them as well. The main point is that, the people who would not have a voice are giving themselves it, and they can insert details the oppressors would've never been bothered to consider.

The themes of Les Misérables are very flexible, and therefore applicable to many injustices in nations not even touched by France. To learn about countries and national pride from peoples' thoughts and artwork relating to Les Misérables sure is an odd way of me exploring world history and politics. I do admit it's a funny of mine.

But as a fandom, or as a collective of shared interest, let's not dismiss obvious colonial thoughts that a lot of Hugo's points sprouted from.

Let's also not forget that European empires aren't the only empires to exist, and other adaptations can fall short in representing the themes of Les Misérables most likely it being largely influenced by their own biases.

All in all, let's give adaptations more love, and address the political implications of it as well as the literal racism and pro-colonial mindset the book argues for explicitly.

#idk I got distracted halfway through writing this and got demotivated #but eh I said what I said #les mis #I wrote this mainly because I remember texting someone about the Argot tangent #and I said that I was reading from Denny's translation #In which the response was only #“Don't trust Denny's translation”#And not about the observations and criticisms I made #No hate to the person I DMed #It just made me think about how the fandom brushes things up like this #or simplifies it by only calling it 'racism'#colonialism is one branch off from that #and yeah #they coexist #but it would be nice if we could explicitly discuss colonialism #without being pushed aside

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mr-payjay · 4 months ago

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An essay on Clover :)

after having rewatched s3 in full again, i find that i finally understand the details of clover that had confounded me since forever. i didn't go in trying to study her, but a lot of my nickel analysis actually led me around back to understanding clover. she has a lovely story to her about kindness, generosity, and doing good things with purpose. i am pleased to have finally caught it (i have a few criticisms on the execution of it though, which i will address too). this isn’t a fancy essay, i’d say (i’ve been calling it a “freestyle essay”), but im just trying to summarize what i've talked about with friends and to put together some of my thoughts to present here.

Overview

so, an overview of her development. clover comes into the show, and she is… oblivious! she is self-centred and unaware of her surroundings (mind you, “self-centred” might sound like a negative word, but this is a neutral statement). she walks away from cabby’s presentation in snapshot showdown in the middle of it, not listening to her. in the same episode, she falls into some of nickel’s traps without even noticing, lost in her thoughts. she isnt a particular help to her team for a while. clover doesn't really think about other people or really get them, even thinking that nickel must've been following her around to admire her (self-centred, assuming only positive intent and a positive idea of her). only in tragedy at 60 feet, after box dies, does clover start to feel very self-conscious of her role in people’s lives. nickel specifically blames her, telling her that “what's lucky for her is painful for others”, and she Believes this. in try not to laugh challenge (the next episode), clover is trying to avoid people. she has realized how she can affect others and does not Wish to hurt anyone. nickel only makes this worse by continuing to remind her of it (“awful box-killer”). she refuses to look at the funny note at the beginning and gets awkward when [bow]bot tries to make her laugh, saying she doesn't deserve it. in the episode after that, best served cold, we see clover feeling guilty again after goo saves her when she falls, thinking that the luck had forced him to do it. for whatever reason candle agrees with this (kind of funny. why are you making it worse candle). through all of this, she does retain some of her classic optimism, but it is still very dampened by the guilt and discomfort shes going through now. and out of body experience is where this arc ends. clover starts off happy, telling nickel to stand next to her for a picture (he responds by saying her luck will knock him down a hill, and leaves). she idly goes to wish for an award, before silver spoon stops her, saying he wishes she wasn’t like this. she agrees (“Me too, Silver… Me too.”). and though we only find this out later, that’s what kickstarts the death of all the contestants and the subsequent bodyswaps. clover is overjoyed at losing her luck once she swaps with test tube! she tests out lots of things she could do before, reveling in losing her privilege. she’s comfortable again for once. she isn’t afraid of hurting others anymore and can go back to her regular, self-centred, oblivious mindset. no more Worrying. but then nickel realizes later on that the bridge collapse happened because of her and her wish to be “not like this” (to not have luck), so her luck, ironically, is what gave her this lucklessness. he blames clover for everyone dying, calling her a murderer as he yells about his frustration with her luck. as hurting people like this was clover’s worst fear—something she had been Vigorously avoiding for the past few episodes—she breaks down crying in guilt and runs away. there’s only one more scene before clover is eliminated. it’s when test tube goes to confront bot at the beach, where clover is.

she has calmed down on her own by now, but it’s only when she listens to test tube telling bot she’ll give them whatever she can offer to help that clover finally learns the lesson she was meant to. she forgives herself and finally lets go of that comfortable self-centred world she was living in. once we get to elimination, clover directly allows herself to be eliminated, now having realized she is in control of her luck. she has choices! she knows that now. nickel, still feeling remorseful from earlier, tells clover that her luck is the problem, not her. she responds by saying that the problem with her luck was that she was the only one benefiting from it. now, she realizes that she should put goodness into action, instead of trying to avoid doing something Bad. and she gives nickel the luck. she also tries to give everyone luck after that, but he stops her, insisting in a panic that it’s a curse. i think it’s interesting that she chose nickel for this first before anyone else, such a miserable, self-centred person. im surprised she figured it out so quickly, but they really do have their similarities, living in a self-centred mindset and pushing everyone away. though their situations are quite different, they both need to learn the value of community and supporting others to take the next step. she isn’t afraid of nickel. she isn’t angry at him. she wants him to learn the same lesson she did, which is why she tells him he’ll learn to “share the wealth” too, even after he freaks out on her again. and she remains this way, generous and kind, for the rest of the season. this was her arc.

Critique (constructive!)

i do have some criticisms on how her arc was executed. i think that her storyline is a wonderful lesson to teach children (as inanimate insanity IS a show for kids), and that once you can grasp it, it’s really beautiful to watch her mature. However. i do not think it is particularly clear. i think my biggest issue with it lies in out of body experience, after she runs away when nickel says it’s her luck who killed everyone. we only see one more scene with her before the elimination, where she is silently listening to test tube talk to bot while making little expressions about it. it is not clear what she is getting from this unless you sit down and Think about it. multiple of my friends actually said they thought clover was a stand-in for test tube because they had bodyswapped and that she was just reacting in general, not to signify anything about her story. i didn’t even remember her being here at ALL until i rewatched this episode specifically to find clover scenes. and ive watched s3 multiple times!! i should know she's there! i think the problem is that she is entirely quiet and that there are a ton of other scenes playing between her running away and the scene at the beach, which sort of fill your head and make you forget why she’s even here. bot really overshadows her too, their story reaching a very important point in this episode. and i think (with input from friends) that it would’ve made for a more harmonious episode, solid storyline, and well-rounded character relationships for clover to have been friends with bot. clover only has one interaction with bot before this (as far as i remember) while they are still very much bowbot, in try not to laugh challenge. if we had had an actual friendship between the two of them, their stories could’ve converged smoothly in out of body experience, instead of bot accidentally taking the spotlight and clover being relegated to a silent bystander listening to test tube’s speech. it could’ve led to them comforting each other (which fits into clover’s story as it’s about learning to help others) and providing clover with a connection to another character that isn’t nickel. clover and nickel’s stories are very interesting together, but the fact is that nickel isn’t really a friend to clover, even now. he’s her miserable therapy patient now, which is not friendship. i believe clover deserves someone who is truly her friend in canon to have helped her development come to light (ie a scene with her talking to someone would be much more memorable and comprehensible than her smiling at test tube and bot). it wouldn’t have to take away from her self-isolation either, it could add to it. bot trying to cheer her up and her awkwardly declining it in try not to laugh challenge is a great example of that. i’d love to have seen more of that. i can’t say for sure if this would be a flawless idea (as i do not know the process of writing the other storylines either), but i think it’s fun to ponder either way.

Clover’s perspective on Nickel

so i did learn how clover worked through understanding nickel first, as once i got what was going on with him, i could see through her eyes. for ages, i could not fathom WHY clover is so nice to him after he hurts her over and over, WHY she chooses to give him the luck, WHY she gets him to open up in blue buried and gives him advice. but now that i know him, i get why she has no hard feelings towards him. i lost all resentment towards nickel after analyzing him (even as a long time nickel fan, he still used to make me mad sometimes!). once you really grasp him, you realize that he is just… sad and scared! he acts like he’s constantly trying to survive. like a typical very traumatized and mentally ill person, in fact. clover, after learning that she can make her own choices and that she can Choose to help others, matured enough to understand him. she is not afraid of him or upset with him because she realizes that he feels helpless and like he isn’t able to change, like she used to worry about. he is self-centred like she used to be until she understood that she can make the choice to help. so she sympathizes. she tries to help him learn the same lesson. nickel never apologizes to clover, but she forgives him anyway without resentment, because she is above this now (note: completely different situation for suitcase, im not saying anyone and everyone should forgive nickel otherwise they’re immature, im just highlighting clover’s agency when making this choice). she recognizes that he is emotionally immature and approaches him with gentleness. i really love her persistence in trying to help him (even if i have qualms about the therapy thing). after nickel gains and loses her luck without learning the lesson she hoped for, clover doesn’t give up on him! she pushes further in blue buried, really trying to get him to understand this. she continues to give, to be kind, to help. she’s dedicated to her cause. it’s sweet.

going back to the therapy thing, my issue with it is mostly the part in the interview where nickel implies he’s having continuous therapy with her. i would’ve preferred if it was a one-time thing in the episode itself, though i think it should’ve been presented a different way. as i don’t… really like that she’s a girl giving therapy to a boy and taking on his emotional issues as a whole job. rather than just someone helping another who’s in need. you know. a random act of kindness. and when it becomes a continuous thing (as mentioned in the interview), it feels like the wrong connection for them to have. they can be friends, but not a therapist and patient. that changes things a lot. i also don’t like the way it reduces clover to being a Literal therapist taking care of the emotions of someone who’s hurt her over and over in the past. yes, she is allowed to choose to help him even with what he’s done to her, but once it’s repetitive… it does feel kind of exploitative, if that’s the right word for it. more than a therapist friend, an actual therapist to someone you have personal experience with (which is also an issue for the therapeutic relationship, as you are Not supposed to take on a client you already know personally, even casually). i may be taking a one-off line a bit too seriously here, but where would i be without driving myself crazy over every single little detail in inanimate insanity that i could possibly notice? i sure wouldn’t be writing this essay!

i did start writing more about nickel and the luck and how clover affects him, but im going to put that into a nickel essay. this is about clover. and i love her! she is someone who started off with no bad intentions but a lack of awareness, who learned how she affects others around her and decided to use that power to be Good. putting Effort into being good, Choosing to be good. she is intelligent, kind, optimistic, and has shown great maturity through her development. i think she is a wonderful gem of a character.

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