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Various Plants and Gardening-related Gifs by Animation Factory

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Webcore Pngs ☆★ From PicsArt . Don't Credit Me

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a printer error is an attempt from god to get you to kill yourself but you must be stronger and you must must must beat the printer to death with a large object like object

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Deep nature Stamps!

Requested by my bestie @krakebar!!!!!! No need to credit | Likes, shares and reposts are really appreciated!

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♱ MISCELLANEOUS WHIMSIGOTH PNGS ♱

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Emergency comms open

Hello. I am opening more slots for my commissions as i cannot cover the costs of the rape kit i have had to take recently.

despite me being a teenager, the responsibility of paying for it is being dropped on me.

i do not think i can legally give more information on this as the case is ongoing, so i apologize.

i have paid 80$ out of the 170$ on my own already, but i do not have a job and have no way of making more money currently.

you can find my commission info here, and my ko-fi here

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how can you be gay, bi , pan and lesbian at the same time

I'm playing 4D chess with gender and orientation babeyy

Serious explanation:

This ask has been sitting in my inbox since the beginning of June, when I posted this. I always wanted to answer it, I just needed to be in the right headspace to type out a genuine response.

I like gender. I like the expectations we have of people to present themselves a certain way when they say they are a certain gender, and I like playing around with that. (Online, anyhow - offline, I'm only fully 'out' to my partner and two close friends). But I don't feel comfortable being forced to comply with gender expectations. I feel comfortable being perceived as a guy, but only when I couple it with she/her pronouns and faggy jewelry. I feel comfortable being perceived as a girl, but only when I couple it with he/him pronouns and dykey shirts. My ideal self is a contradiction, my ideal transition is salmacian, and I don't enjoy being easy to predict, box in, or capture. I feel most free and most like myself, when I know no one can box me in.

I think a lot of people feel the same, though most of them probably express it through hobbies or fashion or speech patterns, rather than gender roles.

Many other people like being perceived correctly every time they meet a new person - they don't find it limiting, the way I do, they probably find it comfortable and safe. When you know how others perceive you, you can rest more easily.

But me, I feel trapped when others see my outfit or mannerisms or body and assume I'm [assigned gender]. And I don't doubt I'd feel trapped if, once I finally come out and start transitioning, people assume I'm [other gender] based on all that superficial stuff. I want to be allowed to play around with all gendered things, from appearance to pronouns to social roles, without being boxed in. I want my usage of she/him to be a protest against the she/her or he/him that everyone expects me to be. I want my he/him to be motherly and my she/her to be fatherly. I want my he/him to be feminine and my she/her to be masculine. I want to tell the world I'm a man while dressed like a queen, and vice versa. That's freedom for me. People tell me male and female are opposites, and I don't believe that. But if they are, then I'll gladly be the walking contradiction, made up of opposites.

The same is true of sexuality. I just... can't limit myself to one label without feeling like I'm suppressing myself. I've been with several people of several genders, and even when I look back on my days as an egg- when I think about being with a man or woman, back when I thought I was [assigned gender], I still feel like my love was gay. When I'm with a woman, I'm a lesbian. When I'm with a man, I'm gay. And yet, at the same time, the gender of whoever I'm attracted to always feels like an afterthought. It barely makes sense, but emotions don't have to make sense. And it doesn't help that 2 of my 4 exes became bi and 2 of them got new genders after dating me. Was it gay or straight of me to be with a transfem when she thought she was a guy and I thought I was [assigned gender]? The answer is yes, no, and it doesn't matter. All at the same time. It was gay and it wasn't and it doesn't matter. It was straight and it wasn't and it doesn't matter.

I can tell people that I'm a fem into fems, and that's good enough for most. In parades I wave the pan flag or the genderfluid flag, depending on mood (and how safe I feel - the pan flag still feels safer). I like the lesbian label. I like "bi lesbian" even more. Gaybian is good too. Mostly I'm a fem of gender looking for fems of gender. What gender? Yes.

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Why isn't "too scary" a good enough reason to never drive a car

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Fluid (1996)

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this is how my grasp on identity feels in my luteal phase

(sidenote: am in my luteal phase rn, so...)

George Condo (b 1957) [USA] - ‘Female Portrait with Blue Eyes’, 2013. Acrylic, charcoal and pastel on linen, in artist's frame (139.5 x 118 cm).

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omg the nostalgia i just got

totally blanked this guy out

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crystalsS (◜𖥦◝ ) web graphics

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