#it’s just the way I perceive them

[im-out-of-it]

JUST AN OPINION ABOUT ARI AND ANNA BEING UNDERDEVELOPED AND HOW I THINK THEY ARE BOTH WRITTEN POORLY (it’s just my opinion and no one has to agree with me) (and if you’re a huge fan of Ari and Anna you may want to skip this) (I’d honestly just skip it lmao)

I don’t talk about Ari a lot but I wish we could have seen more of her story. I really resonate with her because I too was adopted and I as well kinda lost both families. I’m not sure what Ari felt after losing her first family and then possibly not feeling good enough for her second. I’m bisexual but neither of my two families would approve, so possibly in a way I feel this with Ari

Ari feels she has to be the perfect daughter to please her parents. I can’t remember if her biological parents died and if no one else wanted her, but that’s also another huge thing to digest. feeling that alone and knowing other family doesn’t want you. it’s a hard pill to swallow. it’s very heartbreaking to throw away one culture (or feeling that you do) all in favor for another. I get sad for ari because if she wants to stay there, then she has to “forget” she’s a lesbian. oh how awful mrs and mr bridgestock!!!! the girl you adopted likes other girls, oh nooooooooo how dare she get her own personality and how dare she have her own preferences!!!!!! HOW AWFUL FOR YALL. I just don’t see it actually being discussed or dived in how this truly affects Ari and how she feels about everything (I could be wrong and maybe I’m being overly extra again)

her arc gets thrown to the side. I 100% believe that CC is incapable of writing any heavy topic or anything with trauma where she can’t possibly make it about a love interest. (she’s seriously incapable of it.) I’m not an Anna hater or Ari hater (I truly love them both) but the writing is not doing it for them. like ari’s whole thing becomes all about her feelings for anna. Ari gets villainized in a way for choosing Charles as a safety route even though she has feelings for Anna. at that time, it wasn’t safe (and in most places still isn’t) to be with who she wanted to be with. we also have to remember that Ari wants kids.

I get that Anna is heartbroken and it’s very valid that she is but I hear many people say “but what if Anna were a man and behaving this way?” because she does date women and then breaks their hearts. I wish Cecily and Gabriel would’ve pulled her ass to the side and had a real conversation with her. because no way would they have approved of that. the writing falls short on Anna too. she’s not a focus and this is my opinion but I don’t think she actually matured or grows.

Anna goes from “I’ll never stand for a commitment or allow you to hurt me ari” to”well we are in a war so let’s skip the hard stuff and just be together” but there’s no discussion, no heartfelt talks, no action. I feel it’s severely underdeveloped.

but anyways, I got distracted again 😭 I wish we could have read more about how Ari feels about everything. not just Anna and we hardly get that but her whole life. but at the same time, I don’t trust CC and don’t want her attempting to write about orphans, adoptions, because I don’t need to see a mockery about a trauma I personally had. (and the way she wrote about grace’s orphan related story- hard pass, no thanks) it’s not that serious for me but CC is careless and doesn’t care about 98% of her characters. you can tell she didn’t care about TLH.

all in all, she should’ve had some moments with Alastair. they have sooooooo much in common and would get on so well. honestly so many of these characters and their arcs deserved better. I’m not hating on their ship, I just don’t think it was written well

[thehealingsystem]

if you ever wonder why I don't interact with the traumagenic community as a traumagenic system this is why

[terrorgirls]

Armand + "Bad Faith"

Sartre explained: From bad faith to authenticity, David Detmer // Interview with the Vampire // Being and Nothingness, Jean-Paul Sartre

[part one]

[citrusai]

taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

not enough discussion about the gavins' complicated relationship with feminine-coded/beauty products, i don't think.

[izzystizzys]

it’s canon to me that anakin skywalker and marshall commander fox are archnemeses of a shakespearean nature to eachother

why? well, fox’ life is a tragedy of galactic proportions. he’s a slave at best and straight up non-sentient property at worst, caught at the crossroads of being the face of the republic’s most corrupt establishment to his brothers who resent him for being forced to bear an authority he has no actual control over, and being the closest and easiest target for that very authority’s ire. made to enforce the rigged and deeply unjust laws against his own oppressed peoples, and no one understands better than fox how much coruscant truly despises them. the chancellor at the heart of it all, and anakin, the favored pupil - taken in by the flattery and empty promises like all the rest of them, the jedi most intimately connected to the senate who yet cares so little to know the clones who shed their blood in it every day that he never sees beyond his own very nose. no one asks the guard what they think, and fox despises them all for it, but the jedi who play at caring more than anything. it’s an impersonal, distanced dislike for the most part, but with skywalker it burns all the brighter for how often fox sees him walk the halls of the senate and never think to ask.

also fox cut anakin off in traffic once and he never forgave him for it

[mollysunder]

The biggest tragedy of Jayce's raid on the shimmer refinery wasn't just that he killed Renni's son, it's that that kid died slowly without any sort of comfort or aid. That boy was alive and wheezing by the time when Jayce and Vi slowly (kind of reluctantly) made it down to the ground floor and was still alive enough for Jayce to look directly at him as the light left his eyes.

What's worse is that he died surrounded by shimmer, a single drop could have saved his life! Anybody at the refinery that could have helped him, even in theory, was held at gunpoint by the Enforcers Jayce and Vi brought and could only watch him die. And then his body's just left there for his mom, Renni, to see. This boy was the kid that pulled the alarm on the Enforcers in the first place, he absolutely knew why shimmer was so important to their operation and once Piotover got involved he's deprived of it's aid.

[speedinlikealonso]

Please tell me you guys can see what I’m talking about

[mellosdrawings]

OOOOOO CAN I ASK HOW WOULD THE N2 SQUAD REACT TO EACH OF THEM DYING?

What have you unleashed?

(WARNING: Angst, allusions to death, all that fun stuff. Nothing graphic tho, don't worry)

Jamil

He shouldn’t be surprised.

Well��� He isn't surprised. Jamil Viper doesn't get nice things. Not for more than a few months, anyway.

Every once in a while, life takes pity on him and throws some nice, agreeable news his way. Just enough so that he lets his guard down. Just enough so that he allows himself to think maybe things will get better. Just enough so that he can pretend he isn't chained to a fate he will never escape.

A letter to NRC, a plan that goes a little too well, a couple of upperclassmen who seem to genuinely love him for who he is and not who he pretends to be.

So of course it doesn't last. Life gives and life takes.

Kalim follows, Octavinelle gets involved, Leona and Vil-

Well…

He isn't surprised.

Jamil Viper doesn't get nice things.

Vil

They look at him like they expect something from him. Horror, anger, ugly tears maybe. Just a reaction. Anything. Anything at all.

Vil doesn't give them that. Doesn't give them an opportunity to pity him. Doesn't give them food for gossip. Doesn't give them any material to make this topic last for any longer than it has to.

He knows how it works. Someone snaps a pic of him at his lowest, someone records his voice breaking during an interview, someone catches his lips tremble for but a second, and everybody will start talking about it again. And again. And again. For as long as there is a reaction from him. For as long as the topic attracts views.

Suffering brings more views than success.

So Vil doesn't react. Doesn't say a thing. Doesn't acknowledge the topic.

Better to be a cold asshole for a few weeks than to hear about it for years.

And in the darkness of his own room, where there is no camera, no eyes, and no ears to witness his grief-

Vil cries himself to sleep.

Leona

It’s just sand.

Only sand.

For miles and miles, further than the eye can see, nothing but sand.

Ruggie had the clever foresight to send all of Savanaclaw packing when Leona got the news. They would be sand too otherwise.

Who cares.

Who fucking cares.

He could turn the whole world to sand and it wouldn't be enough.

He might as well turn his own heart into sand.

It would hurt less.

[kagoutiss]

does anyone. share my vision

[vultures-and-scavengers]

dont @ me but i 100% think cullen needs reading glasses.

i have nothing to base this on besides the fact that i think old-timey spectacles would improve his look and also he is sitting reading in an office 24/7 and you expect me to think this man still has 20/20 vision? lol.

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

So, I broke down and made a meme version of this post.

(Alt/cleaner ver under the cut)

[turtleblogatlast]

I’ve gone on and on about how Leo wants to be who Splinter finds is the ideal person (which just so happens to be Splinter’s ideal version of himself) but I have yet to really touch upon how Donnie is the one who most directly parallels Splinter himself to an honestly shocking degree, Raph’s taking from Splinter’s teachings and parenting has resulted in an unhealthy mixup in the different dynamics of a family versus a team, and Mikey is the one who is simultaneously the most focused on family and the most intrinsically himself which both leads to his better grasp of mystics and honestly what just might be the healthiest dynamic with Splinter.

[codacheetah]

The start of the Loop segment of the Siffrin & friends twitter QNA, and the message that flipped Loop's answers from silly to dodgy and blatantly upset.

Loopchat from speaking to Loop 20+ times.

Certified Loop dysphoria post

[huginsmemory]

I think whats so compelling about Sanji is that he's so terribly self conscious about being masculine that anything that performs masculinity better than him (ie, Zoro, obliviously, minus the women-fucking part), or skews masculinity, is a threat to him. Which makes him rampantly homophobic and transphobic. And as he also believes masculinity needs to be focused around being horny for women makes him also rampantly misogynistic cause he can't actually see women past them being a sexual object. Anyways it all culminates in you the audience being fairly certain that this man cannot be straight due to this terribly obvious fragility around his masculinity, and that if he ever got dicked down, it might solve all these issues.

[qprpbj]

cw about ponyboy and his suicidal thoughts/ideation under the cut re: deaths at my door/throwing in the towel staging and my lil opinions!!!!

tonight i am thinking about how the staging & connotations of deaths at my door vaguely implies pony contemplating suicide/having suicidal thoughts (or. idk that’s how i read it anyway) particularly provoked by the lines like “i swear that [death] it’s following me / death’s shadow is long and it grows all around me ” “you should move on / you’d be better off without me” etc and how he fiddles and stares down with his open switchblade the entire song, held tight in his hand till the end when johnny convinces him to close the blade and finally hand it over, finalized by johnny holding pony’s hand/shoulder and grounding him

this is Particularly insane to me because not five minutes later, the next time we see pony, it’s him still upstage singing the final verse to throwing in the towel with darry and soda, the highest harmony, which reads like “this is the darkest hour of the darkest night / looking overhead, you don’t see no light / […] there ain’t no letting go” and “that’s what love is all about […] / there ain’t no throwing in the towel”.

pony’s night of contemplating suicide in deaths at my door is his literal self-proclaimed “darkest hour of the darkest night” but it’s his brothers and family — johnny who talks him down, and soda & darry’s spirit he can still feel within him — that save him and convince him not to “throw in the towel”. which, of course, is directly paralleling soda talking darry down from doing the same damn thing (i could talk for Ages about how parallel of characters pony and darry are, but that’s. an entirely different Thing).

idk i just think it’s SO interesting that they have pony sing this verse with both of them right after DAMD bc that literally quite WAS his “darkest hour of the darkest night”, in fact it very well could’ve been his final hour of his final night, but he was talked down and convinced by family and love and brotherhood that he fuckin needs to be here still. that he’s got people who love him, people who need him, and he can’t give up on them and leave them alone because they never gave up on him, not even when things got unimaginably hard or when they felt like “giving out” with their “heads full of doubt” etc. yk. idk sorry this is probably sooo incoherent but. idk i just have so many thoughts about ponyboy ughhh