#it’s getting fucking exhausting
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the way my body just refuses to fall asleep any night before im back to work after 2+ days off… why
#I’ve never had insomnia in my life#and now it’s like I worry I won’t get enough sleep to feel good for work the next day so my body reads that as anxiety#and I can’t fall asleep the entire night#it’s 6am and i just laid in bed with my closed drifting in and out of dreams since 10pm#that’s such bullshiiiiiit#like I’ve tried cbd to help with this#I fucking bought melatonin gummies#but nope#without fail the one night a week I will now never sleep on is Sunday#or in this case last night cause I was sick and had to take the last two days off#even keeping a consistent sleep schedule on the weekends doesn’t help#it’s getting fucking exhausting#the last time I slept for even a few hours on a night like this was bc I sobbed out of frustration and that made me tired enough to pass out#that ain’t good lmao#anyway idk what to do I’m probably going to quit my job soon because of how it’s affecting me outside of work#I actually love my job believe it or not#but I need to sleep#I’ve slept like a fucking baby the last like 8 nights too#so it’s literally just when I have to work the next day after I’ve been away for a couple days- weekends included#STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID#anyway I hope I’m not totally miserable today running on zero hours of proper sleep#happy wednesday#rant
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>Join a union
>Hear people constantly complaining that the current union leadership is super corrupt, it's all just the same ten guys making all the decisions in secret and nobody else in the union ever gets to know what's going on
>Go to the monthly union meetings that are completely open to all 1200 union members
>The only attendees are the same ten guys every month, giving detailed reports about everything that's going on
#anyway this is why i'm the way i am about politics and people who advocate against 'participating in the system'#i am on my way to becoming one of the ten guys and frankly? it's fucking exhausting#i chatted with the union president afterwards and he got this haunted look in his eye#and was like 'i'm glad to see you getting involved but remember you can say no. you can always say no.#don't let anyone bully you into doing more than you want to. make time for yourself. YOU CAN SAY NO.'#which was good and much appreciated advice! but also. ominous
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in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off
EDIT: reblogs are STAYING OFF. op was right and correct and i have never regretted making a post as much as this one. if you want to reblog my art you can reblog something else from my blog. or commission me, lord knows i deserve financial compensation for the nightmare this post has put me through
#art#i had to block multiple people because of this post and i easily could have blocked more#do you guys have any idea how exhausting it is to hear 400 people make the exact same unfunny joke each thinking they're being original#or worry that another person might get harassed over a post i made because of the way people are talking about them#or be harassed/insulted YOURSELF because some people don't know how to fucking behave#you guys don't get reblogs back. you should be grateful i'm leaving the post up at all.
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“My vote doesn’t matter (so I’m gonna sit it out/vote third party/put a write-in protest vote)!”
Unfriendly reminder that Al Gore only lost Florida (and subsequently the entire 2000 election) by only 537 votes. Your vote absolutely fucking matters.
If y’all really, truly don’t want Trump/Republicans back in control than you better get out and vote down the ballot, especially if you live in an even remotely purple/swing state.
The MAGA voters will absolutely get out and vote, don’t let them out-do you.
#the defeatist bullshit I’ve seen on the left is goddamn exhausting#vote blue#get out and vote#LESS THAN 600 VOTES WOULD’VE SAVED US FROM BUSH BEING IN OFFICE#vote biden#fuck trump#fuck the gop#us politics
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Would you like to find out what you would be the god of? Take my new uqiz to find out
#uquiz#have fun with it please#assigning the 30+ results was fucking exhausting#you can get#spins wheel#mascots#emojis#longing#microelectronics#and so many more!#quiz#tag game#etc#mine#callisteios#i will add more answers. when I have inspiration and or energy#muted
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Idiot moron dumbass forgets to eat and sleep for like three days. Passes out like a stupid fuck
#never need an excuse to draw Astrid bridal carrying Hiccup#httyd#how to train your dragon#realistically there is no way he didn’t constantly work himself to complete exhaustion#FUCK I need the riders doing an intervention for him cuz they’re all getting really worried as a fic NOW#hiccup#hiccup haddock#art#digital art#my art#my artwork#httyd hiccup#artist#Astrid#astrid httyd#astrid hofferson#buff astrid#buffstrid#astrid x hiccup#hiccup x astrid#hiccstrid#biblically accurate hiccstrid#astrid rtte#httyd astrid#hiccup httyd#hiccup whump
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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I'm so tired of feeling like this.
#actually mentally ill#depressing shit#mental health#sorry for being depressing#anxi4ty#cw vent#i cant take this shit anymore#im going to kms#im losing it#ready to kms#depressing life#kill my life#why am i like this#i wanna kms#kms#i want to kms#what is wrong with me#i hate this#what the fuck#i dont get it#i hate everything#i dont care anymore#fuck everything#mentally fucked#i have no mouth and i must scream#woke up feeling more lost and out of touch with myself.. my surroundings and my partner all in the span of a night.. what the hell..#mentally exhausted#im a horrible person#mentally unstable#bed rotting
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#motivating quotes#life quotes#inspirational quotes#relatable quotes#depressing quotes#relationship quotes#inspiring quotes#quotes#motivateyourself#get motivated#motivation#motivación#motivating myself#it gets better#tw depressing stuff#tw depressing thoughts#depressing shit#positive mental attitude#mentally exhausted#mental health#book quotes#quoteoftheday#books#mental illness#actually mentally ill#disordered eating mention#mentally unstable#mentally fucked#mentally tired
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Ngl I’m curious as to how many fans of HDG would, if given the opportunity, sell out all of humanity to the Affini, and how long would they take to make that decision.
#human domestication guide#floretposting#hdg#I know I would do it in less than a second#I’m so fucking exhausted of being exhausted all the time#and at least under the affini I get to exist as myself#affini#floret
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pedro pascal doesn’t owe you shit.
it is absolutely fine to be disappointed by his absence at cannes. i am too. but he does not have to be there.
for whatever reason he’s pulling away from the attention. the esquire article talked about how guarded he is and his socials have really slowed down. maybe he’s unprepared or overwhelmed by all the tlou hype. i mean his follower count went up by the tens of thousands the day after the premiere. that’s insane.
but some of you have lost the plot. the ones wearing d*ddy’s little girl shirts in fucking public and yelling d*ddy at him at events and trying to convince everyone whether he’s queer or not and complaining there isn’t an explicit scene of him fucking in the strange way of life. it’s not a gay porn made for your fetish. ‘oh but narcos!!’ that’s called characterization. read literally any article from almodovar and understand why sex isn’t the point.
interacting with paparazzi content and making cute little edits - jfc. that’s creating demand and supply and paparazzi know no fucking boundaries. man’s got anxiety and no doubt the paps and fans watching his every move are probably making that worse.
let him make movies and rotate through his four shirts in peace. pedro pascal doesn’t owe anyone shit.
#pedro pascal#sex being the whole point is what fanfic’s for#i’m not getting into an argument over ‘he loves it!! he calls himself daddy!!’#that was a joke you all took way too fucking far#what’s he going to say?? ‘stop i hate it’#you’d all turn on him in a second#and make it worse being like ‘idc i’ll still do it’#this is exhausting#this is why i backed off in 2021#when that livestream with his friend was just inundated with people asking about pedro#he could have lost a friend over that bullshit#she speaks#well rants but eh
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wade and logan being so protective of each other not because they can't die but exactly BECAUSE of that. because no one else thinks they need to be protected when really that's all they want, and this is something that only the other person fundamentally understands
#user: gossippool 😝#like they will always be the protector in any other relationship#they are the people that no one else has to worry about and that gets sooo fucking exhausting physically and mentally#god imagine how it feels to finally have that in each other FOREVER#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#deadpool#wade wilson#wolverine#logan howlett#just woke up lmao
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I originally had typed up a whole ass angry rant about how fucking awful some of the takes are about Oppenheimer (it seems primarily from people who haven't even seen the fucking film), but I decided against posting it (and then I wrote this which now that I'm reading over it, still ended up being a bit of an angry fucking rant so oops).
But what I will say is that the film does not glorify the bomb or what it was used for. So please shut the fuck up about that. Also, this is a story about J. Robert Oppenheimer. The bomb is a large part of the story because it was a huge part of his life. But the focus is on him and his emotional journey through the film. They are trying to pack about 600 pages of dense material into three hours. There is simply not enough time to go on a side quest to address a lot of the things many of you are insisting be addressed. Especially when Oppenheimer himself was not directly involved in them.
I've seen many people say that this story should never have been told. And, kindly, fuck you. We live in an age where people are constantly trying to change, discredit, or dismiss history. We desperately need more people to become engaged with it again. Prior to this film, there were a whole ton of people who had been so failed by their history classes they had no idea who J. Robert Oppenheimer even was. People still know alarmingly little about the bomb and the scientists who worked on it and if this film allows them to be more interested/educated in that topic, that's a win.
This film brings to light more than just the bomb. It's a discussion on morality and the relationship between scientists and the government.
Also, you don't get to say that a piece of art shouldn't be made just because it makes you fucking uncomfortable. Don't consume that piece of art, then. But you have no right to say someone shouldn't make something, or others shouldn't consume or enjoy it just because it makes you uncomfortable.
#fucking people istg#it must exhausting needing every piece of entertainment you consume to be morally pure#why do i feel like i'm about to have a whole bunch of people getting very angry in my inbox#just let people enjoy things jfc#oppenheimer#lily babbles
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i still want another season
#personal tag#thats all i wanna say im sorry lmfao#LIKE I GET IT ITS WRITTEN FOR TWO SEASONS ONLY BUT I RLLY WISH WE HAD MORE TIME TO COOK#i still love the show though!!!!!!!!!! it is so fucking beautiful#i also want other runeterra regions but gah….. im not ready to let it all go#IM NOT READY TO LET IT ALL GO!!!!!!!#also yeah i dont think i have the energy to reply to messages im kinda exhausted from it all and i wanna no brain and make gifs
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more designs! these are all sold. really struggling with the ipad color difference as of late (my settings are right it's just the screen itself, and I hate it)
#my art#adoptables#for others#designs#anthro#feral#bugs#taurs#kinda.#cws:#spiders#centipedes#really not satisfied with my art recently. just fucking exhausted#getting the feeling that ill need another blood transfusion + hysterectomy wait after approval is half a year#and living here is killing meeee <3 we stay silly#ANYWAYS whatever these are $10 i cant let myself grouse over them#(proceeds to do so anyway)
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people always talk about edwin being an older ghost, and he technically is, but he doesn’t have any more experience being a ghost than charles. he was in hell from the moment he died to the night he met charles. he died at 16 and then did not get a chance to go through any growth or learn anything in hell other than torture—he lost those 70+ years. functionally, neither of their afterlives start until they meet, and they have to (get to) learn how to be ghosts and how to exist in this form on earth together every step of the way. anyway, what are you procrastinating right now? i’m procrastinating an essay that was due 4 days ago AND an essay that’s due tomorrow 🤠
#dbd has been bad for my procrastination from the day i first watched it#i have some spins that are worse for my productivity than others and this is a baaaaad one#but it’s the fucking rush from the hyperfixation that only nd people could possibly get#every time i engage with a post or a fic or anything related to the show i get 10 straight shots of dopamine through me#i’m literally in school to become a therapist and i’m like or i can be mentally ill instead of doing my work#good for me (bad for me)#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#revive dead boy detectives#payneland#painland#paineland#paynland#hate that there are so many spellings of their ship name it’s exhausting all#chedwin#charles x edwin#charles rowland#edwin payne#edwin paine#yeet my deet#yeet my deebd#dbd4ratch#dbda#dbdshow
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