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Not this fucking poolverine fic making my disabled ass fucking sob because whenever I look in the mirror all I see is a dying and unhealthy body
But no matter how broken this body is it’s still keeping me alive and it’s beautiful for that.
#like I think my body is okay but like…#it’s beautiful for keeping me alive#my disabled ass is still crying#cat rambles#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#deadpool#disabled#disabled representation#ig#disability#chronic illness#chronically ill
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I can't keep being fundamentally changed as a person by animated movies, it's just not sustainable.
#animation#animated film#animated movies#across the spiderverse#across the spider-verse#spiderverse#puss in boots#puss in boots the last wish#puss in boots 2#nimona#nimona film#yes i'm posting this specifically because i just watched nimona and am feeling all kinds of things but really these are all PEAK TIER#the fact they have ALL been released within 7 months of each other...like...woah we are thriving right now#stylised animation with its own unique style reflecting the movie i love you forever kissing you on the mouth#films that make me ferally rip up any and all art blocks to shreds#and that's just the animation side of things#i won't get started on the plots. they also make me want to bounce off of walls#hugging all these close to my chest#as well as all the other great animated movies that exist because animation wins all catergories for me always#(let's not forget anime movies either; y'all are beautiful too! keeping 2d animation alive and i'm so here for it)
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One of the things I realized when I watched Fury Road directly after Furiosa:
Furiosa doesn't treat Max like she treated Jack. She treats Max like Jack treated her.
There are so many parallels - the way they meet, their conflict with each other that quickly turns to partnership, their journey to The Green Place (and how it fails)...
But where before it was Jack reaching out to her, now it's Furiosa who is asking Max his name, teaching him the kill sequence for the rig, trusting him to have her back in a fight, giving him everything he needs to leave (even when she wants him to stay).
Furiosa doesn't see Jack in Max, she sees herself. Everything from the muzzle to the nightmares to the fact that he barely speaks is a direct parallel to what she was like when she met Jack, and Furiosa knows it. And so as someone reached out to her, she reaches out to him, this feral, half-mad Wastelander. She reaches out and offers him hope, just like Jack did to her when he came back for her on the Fury Road.
And together, they find some kind of redemption
#mad max#mad max fury road#furiosa#furiosa a mad max saga#furiosa movie#maxiosa#furyjack#yes i ship them both#this parallel hit me HARD when i was rewatching fury road#cuz the furiosa we see there is so different than the feral praetorian we so adore#and obviously she's older and more settled in herself now#and it's truly beautiful character growth that is wonderfully realistic#but it struck me when she asked max his name that there must have been a conversation like that between her and jack#and then the parallels just kept popping up more and more#but now it's furiosa that is the one reaching out#and i really think it's beautiful#and maybe in a small way a way she's honoring jack#keeping his memory alive if only within herself
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Headcanon, theory, prediction, whatever you want to call it,
but I think the reason that the universe Miquel hijacked collapsed, and not Miles, despite them both being “anomalies” is because Miquel was trying to change someone else’s story, as opposed to Miles who inspires other people to change their own stories.
Like, Miquel tried to force himself into a universe that wasn’t his. He took the place of his counterpart and pretended to be him, he was playing a part that wasn’t meant for him, he was changing a story that wasn’t his. And the universe rejected that.
Whereas Miles inspires people to change their own stories. His universe didn’t collapse because that’s HIS universe. It’s HIS story to tell, and sure the plot changed along the way, but he’s still telling it.
The same with 42-Miles. His story was drastically changed because he wasn’t bitten by that spider, but his universe isn’t collapsing because he’s the one still telling the story. He’s still shaping his own future.
And like how Miles inspired Peter B to have Mayday at all. Without Miles, Peter wouldn’t have gone back to his and he wouldn’t have had Mayday. But his universe isn’t collapsing because that’s a decision PETER made. No one forced him to make up with MJ and have Mayday. But Miles gave him faith and inspired him to go back and give life another try. (Don’t even get me started how Peter would have literally DIED if not for Miles. He was going to stay in Miles dimension. He was fully ready to deteriorate. He literally would have died if not for Miles saying “NO BITCH YOU GOTTA GO HOME” much less inspiring him to have Mayday, I’m just saying I’m just saying.)
And the thing is I don’t think Miquel realizes that. He’s so caught up in his grief and anger that he’s completely consumed with following canon and my never disrupting ANYTHING. He doesn’t realize that that universe collapsed because he tried to change someone ELSES story. He tried to become someone else to live their story. He didn’t try to make his own and that’s not how it works.
Idk just thinking thots tonight, And ATSV is always at the top of my brain
#i May just being delusional and rambling#but idk#it makes sense to me#im excited to see how the third movie ends#the conclusión#I WANT ANSWERS DAMMIT#gimme gimme gimme#also I think we collectively brushed over the fact real quick that Peter would have literally DIED if not for Miles#like i jusr think about that sometimes#Peter was in such a low place that he was okay with sacrificing himself in Miles’ universe#sacrificing himself to an INCREDIBLY painful death#but Miles saved him and inspired him to keep living and now he has a beautiful daughter and a beautiful wife#and he couldn’t have a better life if he tried#all thanks to that amazing kid who made him feel alive again#im deep in the feels tonight fam#i don’t know what else to say#peter parker#spider-man#miles Morales#miguel o'hara#Spider-Man 2099#ATSV#ITSV#atsv spoilers
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Lately, I've been feeling fine...
Totally fine...
Completely fine...
Going-about-my-day-with-a-smile-on-my-face fine... (yes, I do smile even though I'm an ice queen...)
I didn't skip while I walked or hummed melodies, but I've been fine...
I'm a certified ice queen, so I've been feeling absolutely fine...
Well... Until I didn't...
And everywhere I turned...
Everywhere I looked...
They made a liar out of me...
I'm such a fucking liar...
A lying fucking punk ass bitch liar...
I don't know what's been going on lately, but I love it here.
#these beautiful shows keep calling me a liar every week#what a great fucking fucked up time to be alive#let free the curse of taekwondo#love in the big city#every you every me#korean ql#korean bl#korean series#thai ql#thai bl#thai series#my shit
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sometimes, only sometimes, i think back to the moment when scanlan came back to vox machina — and they had their first night in the scanlan's magnificent mansion after a long while — and scanlan played cards with vax while catching up on things that happened during the year they've been apart — and vax said i am happy and it took scanlan by such surprise he asked again as if he wasn't sure he had heard him right.
the last thing he remembered of vax was him on a really low point, mirrored by his own, filled with pain, guilt, fear and a myriad of unknown troubles atop of that. and then he left to fix himself, find his own, and vax had a moment to do this too, it seems, and scanlan was so happy for him. so happy and so sad he wasn't there to witness it. yet, still happy.
and to think, as i do sometimes, that scanlan wanted vax — now healed, happy vax — to live, to have more time and yet, was forced to choose in a matter of moments between the whole world and a little percent chance of saving his friend. it's so cruel that it happened to be him to make that decision.
it's so cruel that it's sam who had to give up a ninth level spell to stop the mad god and not to save liam's character.
sometimes i just think and sometimes i think i shouldn't...
#tiktok edits keep hurtin me with edits of this particular moments#and i legitimately keep crying#it's just so#hard not to#i miss vax so much#and i am so heartbroken by what kind of life he didn't have#and yet it was a beautiful ending to an impactfull story#and i wouldn't trade this heartbreak for the world#it keep me living#the way it seems sa's c2 character tries to keep liam's c2 character alive#these two#fucking hell these two#vax'ildan#scanlan shorthalt#liam o'brien#sam riegel#vox machina#critical role
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its so crazy how 3L is literally not that serious. but It Can Be. if you use your beautiful mind
#thats where all the fun is at....#i'm haunted by desertduo thoughts sorry. whyd they do all that#3L grian makes me want to chew on plaster the entire thesis of his character ca n be interpreted as him hopelessly trying to atone for a si#that he will ultimately never be forgiven for & that will ultimately become his own downfall!#like the finale of 3L is just this beautiful karmic parallel like this insane manifestation of his guilt coming back to eat him alive#to finish the job! to Make Him to finish the job!#& i think 3L desertduo has this weirdly beautiful capacity to read as a larger metaphor for dealing with the loss of a loved one#internalizing it as your fault; trying to atone for your own guilt; doing whatever you can to keep what little of them is left alive#but in the end no matter how hard you try reality remains reality and the truth remains clear:#one of you is alive and the other is not. and nothing can change this. nothing is going to ever change this#you have to let them go. and it can feel so torturous. it can feel like you're murdering the memory of them all over again#but theres only one way that this can end#something about sand castles not being made to last something about dust and memories slipping in between your fingers#sorry. i feel normal about this i promise
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Day 3:
Lauren! The sand witch!
Wonder what's she up to after the trials?
(Previous day)
(Next day)
(masterpost)
I love her design! The mismatch colors just look so gooood <:
Also on her card the sandwiches turn into sand and I found that a very cool detail!
The design has a lot of patterns I really like that about it! Gives great theming and it's just an appealing .^.
#witchcraft smp#laurenzside#sand witch#art#fanart#keeping the fandom alive!#btw her design is my favorite!#it's nothing like her skin#but that's the beauty of it#one thing that annoyed me about the design how they just slapped on the pattern onto the apron#it makes sense#i would have done it too#no hate to the artist#it's my favorite card#daily witchcraft smp#wcsmp
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if you call himmel pathetic i'm throwing hands at you. himmel showed the purest form of love for frieren and you guys think that's pathetic? what's pathetic is not respect other people's feelings or boundaries and acting like people owe you anything just because you like them. himmel was happy to have a friendship with frieren within her own conditions just because he genuinely enjoyed her as part of his life. he was happy to wait for her for his entire life is he had to but he also never stopped living for himself. that's fucking beautiful. loving someone so much you are able to let them go, not wanting to change who they are or impose anything on them? unconditionally, nonetheless? that's the point of life.
#either platonically or romantically having people genuinely appreciate you and having genuine connections with people is what makes life#worth living#frieren is a beautiful show about loss grief and how people change you just by being present in your life how they add to your life how#your true friends inspire you and how we keep each other's memories alive how love is timeless despite the finality of our human condition#and you tell me himmel is pathetic?#what a joke#i'm biting himmel haters like an enraged chihuahua#infection you with the power of love so you understand that loving makes the world more beautiful#besides frieren not understanding her own feelings at the time she always cared for himmel and the others as well#she just took more time to learn how to reciprocate and demonstrate the importance they had for her#because she isn't humans which is normal#a big part of life for everyone is having regrets and wishing it wasn't too late#frieren explores that perfectly#the friendships in that story are so pure and well nurtured#it's a shame internet culture rotted your brains so much that you think there's something inherently wrong with having unrequited feelings#and being okay with it#it's a shame you reduce such a genuinely good character who proved his will was above anything mystical to a 'simp'#anyways. himmel stays winning.#he put a ring on it too like imagine thinking he's losing when frieren is having dead wife flashbacks of him the entire show
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Ace...?? they cloned my beautiful wife...
#ace if he was born with his mother's hair but without freckles.......#this 3d intro... damn they spent their coins here but didnt age that well xd#i love how there is nearly a movie for every character that joins since usopp.... sanji got the last one. chopper has one i havent seen#and robin now.... i mean its not their movie but you know what i mean#zoro and nami on the same wavelength i miss you.... my fag and hag sisters....#robin old design i miss you.... her and nami look so different.... not like now....#I MISS CHOPPER OLD DESIGN HE LOOKS SO SILLY!!!#the goofy scenes are too good..... 'luffy what are you doing''nothing just a fight' 'okay dont get lost'#also sanji with robin and nami while the others fight... the girls AND sanji#this guy looks like ace with his kinds long middle part hair and eyes.... and luffy likes seeing hum fight#i am seeing things where there are non but my beautiful not dead yet wife keeps haunting me once again#seeing luffy talk about how if he dies fighting to be pirate king then so be it and like HE DID!!!! AND THAT DIDN'T STOP HIM!!#kids with guns TUN TUN kids with guns TUN TUN#robin made a gigantesco mano.... this was visionary#ROBIN giving back the gun to the child so he shoots luffy and he can bounce it back.... luffy enabler num 1.#nami threatening a child with zoros sword.... i needed this so bad.#shryer.... your drip too hard.... your swag too different.... your smoke too hot.... they will kill you#NOOOOOOO the clone of my beautiful dead wife died just like him.... face down...#the old man is dying and zoro knows....#shryer is alive who woulda thot.....#'be serious' 'im always serious... didnt i get out?' this is him. omg#sanji with the cooking hacks for the fight.... i am sure of it... also sanji spy come back to me....#THE BOY IS THE SISTER??? AND THE OLD MAN AND ACE CLONE ARE BLOWN UP???#it is flour lmao they got their ideas from the fight with crocodile#everyone is alive and well 👍🏻including the hat#that was kinda beautiful with that plot twist and everyone wanting to live and all....#nami strangling zoro!!!! more!!!#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies
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Friend asked me who was the girl on my lockscreen (Jodie) and haha that was her fucking end bc I started explaining who Jodie was and 13th Doctor and start searching for pics to show her
#im just a girl#who loves Jodie very much#she told me she was cute and beautiful#AND I WAS LIKE YEAHHH HELL YEAH SHE IS#friends who keep my interests alive 🫶🫶 >>>>#like yeah thank u for listening rambling about a woman I love#anyway love Jodie do crime SHES gorgeous#and that pic on my lockscreen ufffff#sasa rambles#jodie whittaker#13th doctor#thirteenth doctor
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YOURE NOT BEING LAME ABOUT IT AT ALL your posts have me on the verge of crying again too cuz now im just thinking about his final thoughts being about that and it’s about to push me over the ledge…… HEY GOD IF UR LISTENING IM FINISHED. IM OVER IT. TAKE ME OUT OF MY MISERY
logan i'm literally sitting here with dried tears all over my face because this chapter makes no sense and did nothing but hurt me and others
like the part about gojo being forced to be the monster and how no one seemed to care of all his responsibilty just broke me
genuinely, did satoru ever really feel appreciated?? did he ever feel like he was more than just the strongest?? when he was on the ground did he have any thoughts that werent about the plan the group agreed on?? im just so sad right now all i can think about is angst lo, i cant do this
imagine being gojo's spouse and hearing about his passing but also knowing about the plan and just being so devastated knowing that satoru's last thoughts might not have even been about you because you know he's so used to thinking and planning constantly on how he needs to protect everyone or how his body would be used for the fight
imagine realizing gojo might've died without knowing just how loved he was, i just cant fucking breathe rn its so over
#🍀 ━━ logan.#genuinely gege sucks#people say his writing is good but i dont think it is bc of how he sets stuff up#AND THEN DOES NOTHING WITH IT#yuki's words to choso#satoru coming back and his 'nah i'd win'#the anime did beautiful with nanami sadly#nobara hasn't been mentioned in forever#but fucking meimei the predator is alive#୧ ‧₊˚mutuals˚⋅☆🥞#theres this person i talk to about jjk and they keep saying gege is so great at writing#and i try to point out the flaws but they always shut me down and it makes me SO UPSET#im so fucking sadddd#jjk spoilers
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it's just that "i was half-convinced i'd waken, satisfied enough to dream you" is such a delicate declaration, yet so ardent. if perhaps you aren't real, if you are something my own mind has concocted, that's enough. (come back to me, even as a shadow, even as a dream.) the mere gossamer thread of fantasy would be enough to fill my heart, would be real enough if you don't exist in this waking world, i'll bring you into it, i'll find you in a dream. "happily, i was mistaken," and have never been so glad to be wrong. you do exist, some miracle of fate led me to that window, and as long as you are real, there is hope to hold onto. that love could be realized too. anthony is the only person in the story who still believes in anything, and it's love. my heart has followed a winding path, and that you exist is enough to persist. in the cracks of light, i dreamed of you. it was real enough to get me through. 'til i'm with you, then i'm with you there.
#anthony hope#johanna barker#sweeney todd#sondheim#and we'll sail the world and see its wonders#me talking to sondheim: did you know you wrote the most beautiful love songs of our time#sondheim: that wasn't what---#me: shhhh. you did though. you did.#it's also how anthony is a foil to sweeney not only in his innocence and impatience#they both fantasize but utterly differently#the point of anthony's johanna is that she is so vibrantly alive and all he wants is a chance for them to be together#to open the bars of her cage and take her hand and flee together#but sweeney's johanna has to keep her distant and a child and frames her in death. he cannot rescue nor embrace her#he's lost the ability. he could put the revenge aside and save his daughter instead but it's impossible#anthony is intent: i'm with you there#sweeney is resigned: we learn johanna to say goodbye#they are poised on the ends of the spectrum of life and death. another bright red day#rising and setting#and the only way to achieve balance in this is for both anthony and johanna to be shadowed by the end#it doesn't mean it's a fool's hope. but the hole in the world touches everyone#anyway yes i'm still on about this like i have been since 2005#i've had almost no sleep because they decided today was the day to cut all the bushes and slam into the building#and my windows for hours 😩#but this thought popped into my head (one might say) and i needed to write it down. regardless of coherency!
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looking for one of those chunky metal water bottles for shits and giggles, might get one might not, but just read something in a review praising a certain product because that type of sippy straw "doesn't cause lip wrinkles" and i'm fucking seeing red does anyone want to come with me to the forest to rip a tree out of the ground with my bare hands and cartoonishly smash things
#bluebird.txt#cradles this reviewers face in my hands. babygirl. you will get old. it will show. that is a beautiful thing.#nothing is forever bestie my bro notbing is forever including you andbit shows and thats FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!#WHO GIVE A SHIT ID YOUR WATER BOTTLE WHICH YOU DRINK WATER FROM TO KEEP YOU ALIVE GIVES YIU WRINKLES!!!!!!#YOU WOULD SEE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WORLD IF YOU STOPPED WORRYING ABOUT THE MOST MINUSCULE#THING#AND THATS COMING FROM ME$!!!!!!!!!!!
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is episode 8 the domitian arc ? more on this and EVEN MORE narratives i’ve been ignoring that the show said “actually,,,” about in 5
#hermes staying domitian’s hand… hermes’ face a flash of discomfort when he was torturing tenax… hmm. character growth.#WHAT WAS THAT HERMES. WHAT WAS THAT LOOK. NO GIRL GET BACK HERE I CANNOT ALSO DO THIS NARRATIVE OF YOU NO LONGER ABLE TO PULL HIM BACK FROM#THE BRINK OF HIS CRUELTY WATCHING HIM CHANGE AND SEEKING OUT SOMEONE ELSE IN HIS NEED AND FEAR AND ANGST. NO BABY GIRLLLL#I DON’T WANT TO WRITE A HERMES POINT OF VIEWWWW OF THE SIX YEARS HE SPENT WATCHING DOMITIAN BLOOMMMM INTO HIS POWER AND CORRUPTTTT because.#correct me if i’m wrong but in that very first scene that was a young hermes in the white right he watched domitian give his speech and saw#his father to truly see him the whole time as hermes has seen his brilliance.#NO I ALSO SAW THAT GUARD’S HEAD FOLLOW HERMES oh i hate it here. you know what i also hate? i need domitian to be successful for tenax#but also i do kinda like titus… NOOOOOO NO KILLING TITUS DOMITIAN I JUST SAID I LIKED HIM!!!! DOMITIAN!!!#oh. ohhhh no. OH NOOOO okay listen we can redeem this. we can have the whole turning point of the narrative be domitian’s mercy of hermes#the ultimate staying of his hand. proving he’s not entirely gone that hermes & his love still means something. do i think this will happen#no absolutely not. before he can kill his brother domitian has to kill the only other living person he loves perhaps more than titus if he#could ever realize it. (a brief interlude to yell LET’S GO LESBIANS LET’S GO HI IRIS) domitian… please spare him… OH WAIT HELLO THE BLOOD!!#ALSO a brief interlude to say i knew it was coming but ELIA’S SPEECH ABOUT LOVING INCITATUS??? I WAS ON THIS INCITATUS SHIT WITH THE LITTLE#NOD THEY HAD WHERE SCORPUS CALLED HIM TO BEAT XENON OH MY GOD I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS!!! elia’s going to crush him. incitatus won’t listen.#scorpus is going to die twice once when they call elia’s name instead of his and then the second time when the scorpion bites him again#(he kills himself and tenax finds him. sorry to give everyone absolutely maximum damage here but uh. that’s how i can see it going down)#or alternatively worse: after killing titus who at times he loves and hates in equal measure (if y’all don’t think I have some UNHINGED#brothers quotes. we’ll keep mum here about why but suffice to say it is. relevant to other fandoms. and thus i have a Collection) the last#thing domitian has to do is kill hermes. and this one is both out of betrayal but also love because I think somewhere in here titus’ queen#berenice plays a role because domitian’s hatred of the jews probably comes to play a role and I think titus would show up and protect her#like Domitian engineers some kind of a situation where in theory titus could escape alive or beat him but he can’t do that & save berenice#and so of course he saved berenice. or she dies in his arms and he goes mad with grief and any way you put it berenice is the trap & titus#happily crawls into the lion’s mouth to save her for love of her etc and domitian sees him die for it. he gives titus every chance to come#back to him to work with him to be what he wants him to be and he always chooses himself he chooses love and domitian can’t understand even#when it makes him weak. and then he sees hermes dirty and emaciated and still terribly terribly beautiful and feels such a pang of longing#and love that he decides he has to die because he (domitian) cannot be weak. he cannot have any of it. also giving domitian worse paranoia#than he already has because if you kill your brother the one person who should always love you—support you—who can build me a new brother—#you’ve gotta generate some MAJOR issues. namely trust issues. and if he kills hermes they’ll be even worse. so like ideally To Me domitian#wouldn’t kill him but i do very much see the symbolism of cutting off his last earthly tie & desire to ascend to the divine imperial throne#those about to die
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idgaf i will dickride a character so much sometimes that i will genuinely hate their tormenter on a personal level and not wanna fuck them like everybody else just because they are attractive or fuckable
#people that wanna fuck griffith u do u ig but imma keep u and that shit away from me idgaf 😭#casca and guts are so important to me i do not care if he is beautiful i have hated that evil satanic twink since day 1 LMFAOOO#no amount of beauty will ever make me want him he is the worst person alive and thats that to me#u do u but unlike u im not weak and im happy to express that 🙏#sora.txt
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