#it’s all ironic gid

[vampiric-succulent]

OUAW EP 15: Coalecroux wedding!!!

Even though it wasn’t as much as I thought it was gonna be, their dance scene is so cute!!! Such genuine caring from Gid (plus Kremy’s work-around of his Truth curse, getting sneakily married to Gideon and keeping on trying to get Gid to bring it up)

Love them this will be good I think

[scrawnyghstts]

chewin on this like a dog on a bone I'm sorry this could SO goes both ways

op asked to go town on this I might as well,,, but this is just my ramblings and how I personally interpret this

2 angsty coalecroux hcs on how they'd betray eachother. and one fluffy one that's the opposite because I'm sorry for the angst

my immediate thought was Gideon though, I think maybe because Kremy is so focused and careful about his reputation, the angst of ruining it is writing itself... it upsets me because I see Gideon as a deeply loyal person to his closest friends so I'm not sure about this scenario UNLESS we consider Gid got hexed maybe? or schemed into some other contract against Kremy,,, also the spilling guts part, I know it's Agwé the lavish, sinful town, but I'm thinking in terms of ancient greece y know or is that silly, like "it's only bad if you're a bottom", because I don't think people would care much about being lied to, that's expected, but if Gideon starts digging up the flith and details, as he watches Kremy scrambling to hold his image together, trying to keep a good face while he likely openly and publicly humiliates and betrays him-- nope i cant ouch

if we take it as Kremy's pov it pains me even more, the idea of giving Gid so much warmth and love just to strip him of it completely and humialte him, like the ptsd that'd surely trigger-- I don't even want to analyse this now 😭 also with how Kremy is, if we're assuming this as angst and that he's going against Gideon, I'm sure he wouldn't just spill his guts, there'd be lies and gossip, to the point of driving Gid off the streets, lynching him with whispers and strange looks so that he's all alone again and everyone turned against him and--... i'm not doing this anymore

the third, and my favourite, perspective I have on this is just total fluff with the last lyrics not referring to the previous verse but to the anxiety of trusting someone you love with the deepest most intimate parts of you; more like looping it back to the beginning, and it's again Gideon speaking to Kremy but this time reassuring him, that even though he knows everything about Krem, including all he could say to ruin his image and status, he won't do that because he loves him; I think this goes both ways too, it's them helping and teaching eachother that's it's okay to let go and trust someone completely, that neither of them is in danger now, they can rest, let the other take their worries away

This gives me coalecroux vibes tbh

[sweet-reaper]

Flowers - Pt 1

 “Hey Gid?” Kremy asked.

“Yea?”

“What’re your favorite flowers?” 

“Oh—uhhh. I liked the red 'n black ones. Had ‘em at our weddin’.”

Kremy started. Hearing Gideon call that insanity of a night 'our wedding' and not 'the pixie wedding,' made him feel a lot of things.

Because, yes, it was where they got married. Ironically, at least. But it was also where they married three other people. It wasn’t quite the happiest memory Kremy had; he had been in tears for a good part of it. Still, it sounded nice in that Yona drawl. Our weddin’.

Gideon looked over at him when he didn’t respond. “In my suit. All tucked in. What’s that called again?”

“Boutineer,”

“Yeah, yeah. What was that flower? Somethin’ to do with fire, I recall?”

“I think it was a fireblossom. Some call ‘em fire lilies.”

“Yeah! Yeah. Mighty nice.” 

Kremy nodded, a self satisfied grin at the edge of his lips. He had thought so. “Hm.” he hummed lightly. He looked over at Gideon, meeting his eyes. There was a pause.

“Well, don’t you rush to ask me what mine is! Mine’s—”

“WAIT!” Gideon got up and was halfway across the room. “Wait… don’ tell me.”

Now Kremy was pissed. “What d’you mean, don’t tell you? What in all nine hells, Gid? First you’re all ‘Kre-meh nevuh tayls me nuthin’.” he imitated Gideon’s drawl. “And now you don’t care to know what flowers I like!?”

“‘Course I wanna know! But I don’t wantcha t’ tell me.” Was Gideon blushing? Why? The man of no shame was embarrassed about flowers?

“I wanna…” Gideon's voice dropped down, and so did his eyes. “I wanna give you flowers till I end up givin’ you your favorite one. See if I can guess.”

Oh. That sounded nice. 

“And... what happens when you find out what they are?” Kremy was happy to hear his tone come out as cool, almost disinterested. Dammit if this man couldn’t get under his skin. It would be too damn easy to let himself unravel into a puddle.

“Then I’ll mostly give you those, when I can get ‘em. I can switch it up, though. If you’d like.” Gideons voice was a little rough. He was blushing properly. No finer sight, in Kremy’s eyes. 

“Well, okay then. You can do that... if it pleases you.” Kremy said, a little haughtily. He had to keep up the appearance of an upper hand between them, at least occasionally. 

“I wanna please you, darlin’. If y’know what I mean.”

Fortunately, Kremy does know.

He walked over to the much taller man and ran a thumb over his cheek, feeling the heat that had built. Gideon looked down at him with that goofy expression of his and leaned in for a kiss. 

Kremy wondered how long it would take Gideon to bring him fire lilies.

Read Flowers pt 2 here:

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In honour of my first Kremy Wednesday, here's a little snippet from a chapter I just wrote for my second Coal-Leroux fic. I'll start posting it regularly (daily?) in Jan 2025 on AO3 :)

Read it here, or read the completed first one here

[journal-number-3]

What the LOA Too Many Games live show was like from someone who was there, in no particular order:

-there was a Sarnax cosplayer in front of me (nails and all). When I complimented their cosplay they gave me an 'offering' (lifesaver candy)

-the whole story was about saving Gideon, an obvious riff on the fact that Mace wasn't there.

-Part of Kremys introduction was that he's ironically married to Gideon. Happy pride.

-Torbek tried to break a mirror with mind powers. Andy screamed for a solid minute I think. Torbek canonically burst a blood vessel.

-Kremy just breaks it with his cane

-Shout out to the pair in front of me who had muffins (delicious) and balloon animals (pictured below)

-There was very loud music playing from the other room and this was referenced in character by Mikey. "It sounds like they're airing a trailer for the next fast and the furious"

-My mom thinks Torbek sounds like Roz from Monsters Inc

-They went to a fortune teller, who (among many things other things) told Torbek he was going to die in Ye Olde Arby's in Ye Olde Columbus Ohio

-Nikkie: You hear Gideons laughter-

The boys- *immediately begin imitating Mace's laughter*

-Theres no other way to say this. Frost and Torbek have sex in the tunnel of love

-the man behind me was very excited for Chuckles. Love that for him.

-Shout out to a well meaning parent that was clearly dragged by the rest of his family and at one point was on the Avantris wiki. I love you.

-There was another body swap. Poor three voice Derek got stuck trying to chuckles again

-Kremy: Gideon once told a joke like "What's the difference between three cocks and a joke? Kremy can't take a joke" I still don't get it.

-Kremy, later, while they're all cursed to laugh: Oh I get that joke Gid said now hahahah

Everyone: *laughs too*

Kremy, while still laughing: it's true though haha

Everyone: *looks to Kremy in shocked silence*

-Derek: *does a popping sound effect*

The audience: *many popping sound effects*

-Andy full on climbed in Mikey's lap

-Gideons laughter was literally being bottled up and sold for a profit (everything comes back to making fun of Mace)

[genderqueerpositivity]

TW: medical/surgery talk and dysphoria

I am officially one step closer to my hysterectomy.

After nearly 10 months of effort, I have the support of my primary care doctor, my therapist, my psychiatrist, and the doctor who will be doing the procedure.

I've also gone through the pelvic exam and the transvaginal ultrasound that my doctor requires of patients seeking a hysterectomy; and to be absolutely clear, I would not have agreed to the ultrasound if it weren't a requirement for the surgery.

In spite of all of this, of course, there is still my health insurance company to convince of the necessity of the surgery. I should hopefully know more in the next week or two.

Every step of my medical transition has been blocked by some barrier at one time or another. I'm lucky to have even made it as far as I have.

This is why I want to laugh and cry when certain folks try to claim that it is too easy to medically transition. Every single step of my medical transition has been undertaken as an adult well over the age of 25, paid for with my own insurance or out of my own pocket, with the support of multiple mental health professionals along the way. And still, each step has been difficult.

I've been required to do everything from talk explicitly about my sexual experiences and physical dysphoria for my initial GID diagnosis to having a cold ultrasound wand poked and shoved around inside of my body until I bled. And still I have to do more, still it is not enough.

I want to be excited right now. And on some levels I am! I've been hoping for and looking forward to this for so long! But I am also so fucking tired, I've been so afraid all year of hitting some unnecessary roadblock and having to start this process over. And I am still so so so afraid, because I know now that this probably isn't going to get done before January 20th, and after that who knows if I'll be able to have it done at all.

Also, also? We do a massive fucking disservice to part of our community by not highlighting how difficult it is to medically transition as an AFAB person.

My hormone therapy is a controlled substance that I cannot legally stockpile in anticipation of gender affirming care bans. I was only able to begin hormone therapy in the first place because the requirement of an in person appointment for an initial prescription of a controlled substance was still waived in 2021 due to the pandemic, so I was able to see a telehealth provider. Only this year have I able to begin seeing a primary care doctor willing to take over managing my HRT.

My barriers to a hysterectomy exist both because the procedure is gender affirming care AND because of my sex assigned at birth. Having to repeatedly reassure everyone else involved in this process that I am certain that I do not want to ever experience pregnancy or childbirth is exhausting.

I think I'll be excited and extremely relieved when this is finally done. And then, then, I can finally start thinking about next steps, potentially top surgery...but that will be next, in whatever reality I find myself living in after January 20th.

It's ironically fitting that today is New Year's Eve; it's been a long year and all of this has been a long time in the works. I can only hope that I'll get to start next year off by finally getting this hysterectomy done.

[muovipalikka]

G. So they shared 2/2

Kremy wasn't regretting asking Gideon if he was coming to bed, but he was anxious. He had heard Torbek loudly asking if they had "Consumated their marriage" from Frost. Kremy tried to act like he hadn't heard anything and started putting on his pyjamas.

Gideon had for a moment thought that Kremy was finally done asking if their marrige was ironic, but he could practically see him wating to turn his back to Gideon in order to ask the question. Gideon wasn't gonna take it. He looked Kremy straight in the eyes and asked "Our marrige is just ironic right Kremy?"

Kremy hesitated for a while, just looking into Gideons sad brown eyes before aswering. "No. I'm not sure if it ever was" He said with all the honesty Kremy Le Croux was capable of.

"You know gid I was cursed to fall in love with you on the day we got married" He said almost laughing.

Gideon felt his heart drop "What do you mean?" he asked trying to cover how hurt he was. Was it all just a curse? Gideon had been in love with Kremy for so long now and he had just been cursed to love Gideon.

Kremy didn't really know what to say, but it didn't mean he wasn't gonna try. "Like right before the wedding. All the emotions that I later realised had always been there just, bubbled up and I just started feeling so jealous that you weren't marrying me!"

Gideon looked so hopeful and Kremy melted right there. "You know I kinda like sharing a bedroll with my husband"

"Me too, Kremy"

They laid together into their bedroll. Kremy snugeled to gids side and he felt the genashis' warm arm wrap around him.

"You think we could ever like re-new our vows gid?"

"Sure I'm just happy were non-ironically husbands now, right kremy?"

"Good night my non-ironic husband" Kremy said with the smirk that Gideon loved.

"Love you my non-ironic husband"

"Love you too Gideon Nathaniel Coal-Le Croux"

"While I love what you did with our last names. How dare you put my full goverment out there!"

They could hear Gricko chuckling outside of their tent while Frost tried to shush him and Torbek was trying to ask what was so funny. But neither of them felt any shame.

previous part

[ouaw-facts-i-just-made-up]

Gideon has anemia from not eating properly on the train (an more importantly as a trans man and his period (and becauseI have this too and I want someone to suffer with me)). During his period he bleeds heavily and that leads to him loosing too much iron and thus he over heats but is actually really cold (for him at least) to the touch.

Kremy discovers this while traveling and Gid almost collapses because he doesn't realize what's happening. Kremy almost doesn't either until he realizes that they skipped a hearty breakfast that day and assumed he was just weak from a lack of food, so Kremy made a meal plan prioritizing nutrition, adjusting it along as they need eventually getting something that has tons of iron. Not that either of them notice.

They only learn that the lightheadedness and weird cold-to-touch-but-feels-hot thing was because of Gid's Iron-deficiency once Gideon trusts the rest of the group with knowing he's trans. Frost puts two and two together (this is because I headcanon that the school frost went to had a very comprehensive health course (frost also asks why he didn't realize this sooner because this sort of anemia caused by your period brings incredibly painful cramps. Gideon just says it wasn't any pain he wasn't used to)

This is a true fact.

Me transferring all my period pain to the Krew but then reading this ask and feeling a little bad about it so i give it all to Kremy instead.

I imagine that his fire genasi blood (aka burn through food twice as fast blood) doesn't help in that regard either. Also the pain would be harder to get rid of I'd think cause when you have dysmenorrhea usually you get heating pads but, well, he is made of fire. He can't get much hotter than that.

Kremy definitely learned a lot though about finding foods that seemed to lessen the pain or at least the other symptoms. After getting to talk with gricko and frost he learned about different plants that he could include to help soothe the pain better. And you know, maybe he picks up some chocolates too. Dark chocolate specifically, he heard that it's good for you and also a common craving. Even if he doesn't really understand that, being unable to eat it without feeling sick.

(Also friendly reminder to people who get periods, your pain shouldn't be debilitating! You shouldn't have a major increase in depression or wooziness or anything like that! Defo bring it up with your doctor!!)

[blak-pawed-stuffed-lion]

I've been browsing some slight fanfic and I've noticed a lot of people have been making Gideon like super soft on Kremy and already open about his feelings, while Kremy is the one avoiding his feelings, but I feel like it's more of an oposite situation. Like OBVS Kremy isn't flat out saying it, but when Gid had the faye curse to fall in love with Kremy his entire personality flipped 180 where he got super soft of Kremy and supportive and worried. He was doting and soft and sweet. Obviously one of the key things that I've seen pointed out in comics is that Kremy doesn't change really at all when he gets the faye curse for Gid. So to me, that speaks to Kremy being closer to love, or at least in it and just unwilling to admit it, while Gideon is obliviously just being his himbo self. If he is in love with Kremy it's something he'd only realize later, long long after Kremy suffers in silent worry convinced it's entirely unrequited. Hence the "well it's just ironic." OBVS started as funny bit, but the more Kremy says it the more it feels like he's trying to convince himself, not Gideon. Gid is fully aware it's ironic, it all goes over his head, whilst Kremy has a small freak out whenever it's brought up in a way that makes it seem less ironic. So what I'm saying is, I need more content of Kremy being the one worrying about Gideon's feelings instead of Gideon trying to get Kreny to confess.

[lemon-natalia]

Harrow the Ninth Reaction - Chapter 46

oh Gideon’s died three times from these freaking Heralds?? even with Lyctor level healing powers i feel like thats traumatising. 

ahhh i love how the whole ‘cavalier controls the body while the Lyctor is in the River’ thing was mentioned so many times but i still never saw this coming 

also i was too busy freaking out over Gideon being back last chapter to note this, but i love the narration choices made here!! the combining of 2nd & first person and how Gideon is actually the one narrating Harrow’s perspective is a really creative way of showing what it would be like to be in someone else’s body

‘had a hunger only thumbs could satisfy’ Carl, is that you? 

‘I’d touched your intestines, which is usually what, fourth date’ these guys went immediately to something like seventh base, and skipped the first six

awww the way that Gideon is trying so hard to take care of Harrow’s body. not just in not dying/being injured, but trying not to do anything that she knows would make Harrow uncomfortable 

LEMON-MOUTH PRIME. what better description of Mercy could exist

and Mercy was very very scared of Gideon-in-Harrow (hah), thinking she was someone else who ‘never could act human’, before realising she wasn’t. i have a feeling she’s referring to the Locked Tomb body, she’s been described as a ‘monster’ before after all

Mercy stabbed Harrow?? as a form of, well, mercy i suppose 

‘What the fuck are you talking about’ oh this being from Gideon’s perspective is so fucking funny, she is absolutely clueless and has no idea of any of the Lyctor soap opera drama that might help make sense of any of this

gideon: okay jesus christ, i don’t know what’s going on here 

ok, now Mercymorn’s talking about … Someone called the commander, who og!Gideon was having an affair with, and then immediately moves onto talking about Gideon Nav’s mother. is og!Gid Gideon’s dad then, i was fucking joking when i said it was ironic he had red hair?! but he was also sent to kill said Commander (possibly Gid’s mother)?? like i said, Lyctor soap opera

and Cytherea’s body, being possessed by Someone apparently, has a gun rn and shot Mercy ok!!! and then didn’t shoot Gid for some reason?? ‘what the fuck is going on’ you and me both Gideon

[guy-equivalentoffriday]

Inner Confessions of a Metal Toy, Atop A Mushroom Person's Shelf (2122 words) by Migayangelo Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Legends of Avantris (Web Series) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Gideon Coal/Kremy Lecroux Characters: Gideon Coal, Morning Frost (Legends of Avantris), Gricko Grimgrin, Torbek (Legends of Avantris), Kremy Lecroux Additional Tags: OOooooooh this bad boy can hold so much inner turmoil in him, more a character study than anything, Honestly mostly a means of picking Gid's brain during the Skabatha Arc because really What The Fuck, Starring Kremy as Sir Barely Appearing in this Fic, TBH the Coalecroux of it all can be read as platonic, but it certainly ain't straight, Fellas is it gay to feel guilty and scared for not being able to protect your ironic husband, & thinking of the good times together to cope?, Angst, Hurt No Comfort, eh kinda, Canon Compliant, again kinda, like do I think Gideon would be that introspective? Perhaps not., But like you know they do turn into dolls, brief mention of - Freeform, Suicidal Ideation, Again canon compliant l'Appel du Vide Summary: It was eating him alive that Gideon couldn’t Toy Soldiers this bitch. - Or: Gideon feels pretty helpless. This isn't a position he's used to.

♦

Gonna toot my own horn here real quick because I am proud of this one

[vampiric-succulent]

OUAW EP 26 (shorter bc I started writing this halfway thru):

FROST BECOMES A PROUD NUDIST AND DEREK’S COMMITMENT TO THE BIT I CANNOT

Oh god Gideon’s fey curse is so sad bc I was really hoping he’d play it no different but bc Richie played it no different Kremy is still in love w Gid and he’s gonna go through such a rollercoaster of emotions and events in the next bit oh no oh no

Ykw actually because Mace is playing it as physical attraction and bc of the “I like how you looked before” comment im gonna say this is Gideon being attracted to Summer Eladrin Kremy but still being in love with Kremy, which doesn’t necessarily make it less complicated but does change things

Where was this level of analysis when I still had to write papers for English classes?!??? Come on

“I am just so glad we are married” “oh the whole ironic thing! Right!! It’s totally ironic” NO GUYS COME ON KREMY IS SAYING THE IRONIC THING TO NOT BE HURT AND GIDEON IS GIDEONING SO MAYBE THATS THE SAFER OPTION

“We should probably get rings” AAAAAAAAAAA

“God I love you” HOLY SHIT HE SAID THE THING

“oh like ironically! You’re my best mate!” SAFEST OPTION SAFEST OPTION OH MY LORD

“Ironically, literally, there was a ceremony…” “ironically, just best buds right”

AND NOW MACE ISNT PLAYING IT ANY DIFFERENT. HES. HOLY SHIT HES JUST PLAYING IT LIKE IT WOULD BE IF GIDEON ALSO LOVED KREMY. AND MACE IS SCOOTING NEXT TO RICH I am going to cry

EVERYONE IS STRIPPING AGAIN WHAT IS GOING ON (atp this is just another Tuesday for these guys but THE CHARACTERS AND HISTORY INVOLVED SPECIFICALLY)

This is so well engineered to happen like this. It’s moments like these when I think the dice know.

Somehow Chuckles being here is not the most chaotic thing right now.

“Kremy. Kremy, lemme just say, I *loved* your previous form” SCREAMING. CRYING. HEAD IN MY HANDS. THROWING UP. SCUTTLING AWAY TO HIDE IN A CORNER.

He’s still trying to say it’s ironic whAT WILL IT TAKE. WHAT WILL IT TAKE FOR THEM TO BE HAPPY.

Gideon trying to protect Kremy from the “were-Twig.” That’s all.

Chuckles is becoming the most chaotic force again, the balance is returning

TWIG BEING THEIR DAUGHTER

Back to your regularly scheduled chaos :)

LIVE GRICKO REACTION TO POST NUDIST FROST IS GOLD oh I love these guys

Wow Mikey that is a Face to make

Love when Nikkie just forces them together she’s literally taking the characters and going “now kiss”

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

COALECROUX DOMESTIC BLISS MOMENT WAHOO 🫵😮🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️

Derek’s little face aww

KREMY. IT IS NOT IRONIC. KREMY SHUT THE FUCK UP AND CONSIDER THE POSSIBILITY OF BEING HAPPY

Love and hate how Donkey Torbek is just Eeyore. Poor little guy :(

Nope. Nope. Nope. Nope.

“You feel your consciousness almost leave you with the force of Torbek’s growth— oh that sounds awful” “SOMEBODY QUOTE THAT RIGHT AWAY” on it 🫡🫡🫡

Not the shants 😭😭

No come on keep the Gideon love come on please Nikkie :((((((

Seriously tho it’s very sad that Frost’s robe is gone. That was his old master’s robe and I’m pretty sure the only memory Frost had left of him. Damn.

“You have made……no progress.” Sorry Nikkie :(

Frost’s robe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Bag of Holding :)

Andy’s donkey bit is so fucking perfect I love that it’s infecting others. The donkey mnemonic contagion spreads

Oh no, they have to go over a water crossing. That historically has not gone well.

The RagnaRoss and RagnaRachel fanart request…………… guys 👀👀

Love Derek being salty about his roll

Not the frog heads 😭😭

Okay I’m really hungry so I am gonna stop typing now if anything else happens there will be another one

[dawktorsylum]

HIBYES U HAPPY NEW YEAR I MADE AN AU!

Its a poly Wotchlight au :3

The work in progress story is that as the krew make their way through the story. They slowly start to gain feelings for each other some built off past relations others just general romance from being on the run. But its kinda angst and a lot of backstory where i do more hurting pf the characters then loving....

But shhh

Anyway, sharing some head canons as to make my future pain seem comical

rah poly witchlight upon ye

Polylight HC's (where all of the krew is dating)

- Kremy is usually always the first to wake up, followed by frost, Gideon, Gricko and lastly torbek

- Gideon likes to pepper kisses on all of his partners, just its different for each person (aka he always kisses kremy on the snout or shoulder, frost on the lips, Gricko on the forehead, and Torbek on the hands)

- Kremy has all their favorite foods remembered

- ironically Frost is the one who goes all out on valentines day (or the equivalent of valentines day)

- Gricko has little charms to represent each of his partners, he's craved them all himself

- Hootsie's favorite is toed between frost and torbek (gricko is always first this is just second place)

- Gideon likes getting back rubs from Frost because sometimes the tiger started kneading on gids back with his nails

- Gricko loves messing with everyone's fur/hair/scales. He will gently rub his fingers over any of their skin/hair

- Torbek gives the best cuddles because he can wrap around them

- Gid is the favorite in winter obviously

- Kremy often will ask to practice his makeup skills on the other

- Frost likes to curl up in laps

- Gideon likes to have the others sleep untop him, the pressure just feels nice

- Gricko and Torbek sleep together because they both fight in their sleep and its awful for everyone

[gourmet-gator]

'Dear Kremy,

Firstly, ya gotta send me more goddamn letters, ya reopen ya Carnivale AND get me a grandkid and ya don't be sending a fucking mountain of em?

Secondly, speaking of that, how's that girl doing? Guess I shoulda guessed with a son like you I'd end up with a grandkid that's already dead, huh? Like ya could get close enough to a woman to make an egg, pff.

Oh, and thirdly, how's ya hubby doing? And how come I ain't met him yet? Like quit clowning around with this fucking 'ironic' bullshit, ya as straight as the fucking crossroads!

Love, ma'

*As hateful as this appeared on the surface, Kremy knew his mom more than well enough to know this is just how she talked; her love language was berating/swearing like a sailor.*

(Happy Mother's Day!)

*Kremy had been stressed lately, to say the least. He had buried himself in his work, hiding paranoia and a need for a distraction under the guise of productivity. He was working on documents for the carnival when he found that letter in between his papers. His eyes immediately fixed on that familiar handwriting, and he couldn’t help but smile.*

*He put down the documents and instead pulled out a pen and an empty paper, and started to write.*

‘Hey Ma,

Sorry I haven’t been sending ya letters as much as I’d like. Shit’s been busy since opening the carnival that I couldn’t really get the time to sit down and actually write to you.

As for your grandkid, her name’s Magnolia. She’s a strong kid, love her to death. Probably easier to take care of her compared to raising me back then, haha. I’ll be bringing her over whenever I visit next time, I’m sure you’ll love her.

And… Gid. I’ll get him to meet ya someday, Ma, just… once we figure out what the fuck “we” even are. You know better than me how long it takes for me to sort all this feely shit out, despite how much I refuse to say it out loud.

…I hope he can wait for me that long.

I miss our talks, Ma. I promise I’ll write to ya more, when shit clears up over here.

I love ya,

Kremy

[actiongrrl]

|| Family Matters

-- Sam's immediate family consists of her dad, her mom, and her brother (Plus pets Rudy, and Rin Tin Tin). However, that is not her living situation. When she was about 12, her parents divorced and Sam chose to live with her dad and brother. Her mom relocated to Malibu, while her dad moved to Topanga. Overall, she has a good relationship with all of them- Despite being more similar to some than others.

-- Scott Giddings is a Professor of Sociology at UCLA, teaching Spirituality & Social Justice classes (A Plus as she gets a tuition discount going to Berkeley). If Sam had to pick a parent that she took after the most, it was certainly her dad. While her dad borders hippie, Sam tends to just have feet in the 'Crunchy' side of the ranking. Upon a quick observation, it's not hard to see that Sam takes after Scott in ideals, interests, love of nature, Vegetarianism, etc. And speaking of interests! Scott used to be quite an accomplished boulderer and taught Sam everything he knew. However, an accident that injured his lower back and hip ended that hobby early. Sam was 13 and quickly had to grow up and mature to learn something about care giving. His injury left him reliant on mobility aids (Cane and a wheelchair depending on pain and mobility level that day). In order to help his independence, Scott has a service dog named Rin Tin Tin (Or Rinny) to help him with certain tasks. Certified Good Boy.

-- Angela Masters is a financial analyst in Malibu and LA. Sam often describes her mother as a ‘Finance Bro’, with how dedicated she is. While she loves her mother, Sam did often say that Angela should have had adult children out of the womb. They got along well enough, but her mom was always the type to throw herself in her work and was dedicated to it. The dedication to climbing the corporate ladder didn’t really leave her mom with very nurturing tendencies. But as Sam has gotten older, she’s appreciated her mom more, seeing as the woman’s ambition directly benefits herself and her brother. Though, when she was younger, the differences in personality tended to leave the two at odds.

-- Cody Giddings is Sam’s brother, and her senior by about 3 years. When they were younger they did tend to torment each other but grew closer after their dad’s accident. Sam looked up to Cody a lot and still does. She wishes that she was as easy going and unbothered as her brother (Or, more accurately, as unbothered as he seems). When not at school and helping out their dad you can find him surfing at all sorts of Southern California beaches. He also hikes, swims, and plays soccer still, usually to help Sam practice. However he’s a nice mix of both his parents, definitely leaning crunchy himself, but going to school for Accounting at Angela’s urging (Combining his math abilities with financial security).

Fun Facts;

Scott and Cody gave Sam her nickname of ‘Bird’ because she would flit about with energy when she was younger.

Sam’s hair is naturally curly but she doesn’t like it (She, in fact, doesn’t know how to take care of curly hair) so Angela would help Sam curl her hair with a curling iron every day until Sam started doing it herself

Angela’s best friends are actually Chris’ parents

Cody makes fun of Sam for dating the ‘Class Prez’ but he likes Mike.

[ammonitetestpatterns]

In you, still not knowing, spun in mere impressions. Effected more by blood than by beauty, more by distance than reflection, seeing still. What is what? Hope, in your preciousness content. Has your energy been usurped, if only for love or its promise shying? No wisdom to impart, is its depth instilled? A friend, ever-searching, and in your presence healed.

the gulf of spezia folded me under, made my skin into a sieve and needled my pores. not long ago i was bouncing through an electronics store and looked to the resistors, thinking aloud how they should be used for acupuncture or as a component in a type of electrical therapy that introduces a current to your cerebrospinal fluid. the impressions often come from above, everything else gives way courteously, almost cradling the fallen vessel. for a moment, your words were linked together, iron whorled to a feather anchor that miraculously saved me in a dream. the sky's unfolding sigh, light flipping over the book of a glade, you made it clear in a kind razor flash, undid the weight as my ankles dangled from the chevalet. more than my energy has been usurped, i keep searching for the chainlink gauze, an insulation that could fortify the chambers of what's been lost and make sense of its black mold crawling at the corners of this inwit, i am usually my own robertsman. a palace at the bottom of a blood lake, the nubile star at the center of a kwao krua tube bobbing at the surface, a train of open palms lacerating the sands that go to the end of the world. the idea that words are deceit, that the body is the truth at the bottom. a sister of the sentiment, "you don't understand music, you hear it. so hear me with your whole body." somehow i didn't get the jeff moore line, "why must you die for happiness like a flower in the snow" for a while, it passed by, rock parting, every time until the current finally crashed. i want these words to wrap around me and become my cartonnage. a carnation crossed with the ash from an herbal cigarette, crushed and scattered into a blizzard's deadly dance, a highway lady lost to a wilting velvet nightfilm, cast down with some judgment on the brink of flight. she was waiting to become the queen of the sun. i want my judgment day already but it's never coming because i want it. there's simply a lot of work waiting for me, as i try to temper the erasure that's been showing up in my somatic fray, tugged between naivist directness, the secret garden beyond service's gate, and the desperate calls that creation draws into a chorus, promising collective understanding as much as it risks misleading you from what's important in the world. if bread is the rawest image of hunger, then a child's smile is the potential for unthinkable loss. proverbially taking it a day at a time and trying to pick out myself in the establishment of form, a real routine. i am lucky to be given time with someone who gets at curing my heart with gentle sternness, sharing with me in daily labors and honesty. vein, path, whites outlining a future in coffee grounds. crinkled letters from an exile working to work, something to see in the dark spots of each fold. it's supposedly my jupiter return right now, down to the degree, running up to kiss chiron. maybe i will see god stop the sun and set my fortune cookie on fire. in little gidding, "the dove descending breaks the air, with flame of incandescent terror, of which the tongues declare, the one discharge from sin and error. the only hope or else despair, lies in the choice of pyre or pyre, to be redeemed from fire by fire." i am held up in your offering, a hand in bloom, an awareness worth every emotional grain of sand stirred from a lonesome, gummy sleep, where only dreams could pull back the flashes of reality testing the medium to be made. the nonsense whose smoking edge whistles when you lose control, to be flayed out of choice and eaten by flame. we must all be prepared to burn and hope our core stands among the rubble, chastening glory. who then devised the torment?

[muovipalikka]

G. So they shared 1/2

Kremy had noticed himself asking Gideon more and more often to confirm that their marrige was ironic. Especially since they had started sharing a bedroll. Gideons bedroll had disappeared somewhere. Kremy was sure that Gricko had something to do with it he just hadn't found the evidence yet. Anyway Gideon was without a bedroll and Kremy was a bit cold so he told Gideon to get over there.

Gideon accepted even if sharing a bedroll with Kremy made his stomach itch in an odd way, but he didn't want to sleep on the ground. Getting in the bedroll he jokingly said "Wasn't this supposed to have happend on our weddin' night" Kremy let out an anxious cackel and turned on his side not facing Gideon. Welp' that coud've gone better Gideon thought, but it was too late now.

He just laid there on his back waiting for sleep. Until he heard Kremy quietly ask "Our marrige is just ironic right gid?" Gideon didn't know what he was supposed to do, but say yes. Like Kremy wanted him to. So he did.

It had become a habit him asking Gideon if their marrige was ironic. Kremy probably asked him every time they went to bed. And every time Kremy would hear a simple "yea.." over his shoulder.

They had gotten some rastions today. Gideon had avoided the shelf with camping gear on it. Hopin' that Kremy wouldn't mention it and he didn't. He never did. So they continued sleeping together. Their bedroll was a little to small for the both of them and that was surely the only reason for Gideon waking up in the middle night with Kremy snuggled up against him.

Saying Kremy was a little embarrassed the first time it happend was a gross understatement. One morning he woke up with his face pressed to Gideons neck his hands around him. Kremy had succeeded at getting up without waking Gideon and continued to do so every morning after that. So what he was cold blooded, he got cold easily and Gideon was warm. He was just glad Gideon woudn't notice anything since Kremy always woke up first.

It had been weeks now since Gideons bedroll had gotten lost. Kremy had thought about getting him a new one. It wasn't like there hadn't been opportunities. They had even gotten Frost a new one. They just hadn't gotten gid a new bedroll and gid seemed to never be looking for one so they shared.

Until one morning Gricko and Twig had uncharacteristically woken up first and were hungry so they had sneeked into the tent that Kremy and Gideon now shared. Just as Gricko was leaving. He heard Twig go "Awww" then he noticed the two "husbands" cuddled up together.

Gideon woke up to Twigsy not so quietly whispering to Gricko "See I told you" "It's not ironic!" Gideon now leening on one elbow still holding kremy to his side. Tried to shush her. When Gricko tripped and dropped everything he was holding.

Kremy woke to a crash he was holding tightly onto Gideon and seeing that it was Gricko he was mortified and then he turned his head to see Twig exitedly telling Gideon something. But Kremy was too embarrased to hear anything. Gricko and Twig had seen him cuddling Gideon and since Gideon had woken up before him he had also seen it.

So Kremy deatached himself from Gideon as quikly as possible trying to save something of his immage. He didn't look at Gideon simply picking up his pots and pans from where Gricko had tripped not helping the goblin up. He quickly started on breakfest. Noticing Frost and Torbek peeking out from their tents. He thought "great everyone knows, now I'll never live this down"

Gideon was a bit confused at Kremys sudden exit, but maybe he was just irritaided at having been woken up he thought until he focused back on twigsy who had practically climed on Gideons chest still prattling on about how she knew about the two of them and then he realised Kremy was embarassed.

It was evening now and Kremy had avoided him all day. Gricko was preparing Hootsie for bed and Gideon was in his old tent which now belonged to Twigsy. She had made sure he tucked her in every night. Gideon was concidering asking her if he could sleep here tonight. Since Kremy had been avoiding him.

Gideon hadn't come to their tent yet and Kremy was worried he woudn't come at all. Kremy gathered a bit of courage and walked to Twig's tent. Seeing Gideon there tucking her in made his heart swell.

"gid you coming to bed?" Was all Gideon needed to hear to practically jump up and say goodnight to Twigsy. Smiling at his husband.

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Ok I started writting this last wednesday and it just isn't stopping so it's gonna be two chapters.

⇩Here are some of my other ideas if you wanna cheak em out!⇩

I guess I write now so I think I'll be making a poll so look out for that

Thanks for reading!