#it’s 5 am I’m having thoughts

[sienna-sketches]

Hot take

[xrenyaa]

[based on the statue „génie du mal“ by guillaume geefs]

sukuna being the fallen one is the one thing that will never leave my brain

[gods-favorite-autistic]

The fact that Riz would most likely have no stress tokens if it weren’t for the fact that he is the only character who can take on stress tokens for others im going insane

[sunflowersand-bees]

can I just say that I love the way arcane portrays grief. specifically when we refer to powder’s breakdowns in season one act one. when vi tells her to stay behind and then the confrontation between her and vi after the explosion. because it’s ugly. it’s not pretty, it’s not watered down.

and it’s real. that’s how I cry. when I was little and now. if I’m angry and having a breakdown, that’s how I cry. I scream and I yell and I hit myself and I bite myself and I make a mess. our emotions aren’t pretty. and they don’t try and make it pretty.

[idontmindifuforgetme]

I’m happy for the little life I built for myself

[pixiishi]

i love many things about the raven cycle, but having just finished it, i think one aspect i love most is the hope. hope fucking prevails. to tell you from the very beginning that there will be tragedy, that is is unavoidable, and that despite everything, all the pain and loss and nightmares, the inextricable love a group of friends has for each other, defies the very nature of that fate.

a king and his magicians. a boy and his friends. the story of someone who did not want to die, but was willing to do so for his found family. knowing they would truly live, believing his death would at least matter. but he underestimated just how much he matters to them, too.

they will rewrite fate for him. they are fucking magicians. they are made of dreams and light and darkness and hope and love and grief and they will not let him go that easily. they will dig their claws into each others backs and bleed together. he died to save the world, and they would give the world to bring him back. and they do. they fucking do.

is this an elaborate way of saying friendship is magic? yes. yes it quite literally is. but it is true. the connections we make in our own lives can make all the difference. they save us. i sure as hell know my friends have saved me. and that is its own kind of magic, is it not?

[anthonycrowley]

can i say something. i think unironically one of the reasons straight women are having such a bad time with men a lot of the time is that so many of them think it’s a red flag for them to be friends with other women. first of all it’s such a weird reductive thing to be like men and women can’t be friends. huh? what? i have guy friends! i always have! are they never supposed to find partners because of me? insane thought imo. and second of all to be honest why do you want to date someone who is only capable of seeing an entire fucking gender as sex objects? i would rather date someone who is friends with women, even if i KNOW he’s attracted to them on some level, because i know that a guy who’s capable of being genuinely friendly with girls will probably be more likely to respect me and treat me like a person. idk. maybe it’s the bisexual in me talking so it feels weird to exclude an entire gender from friendship based on your attraction to them. but just saying. there’s large groups of girls out there ignoring great guys because they’re the type who could be invited to a girls night??? could never be me

[itsslivernotsilver]

hi guys does anyone wanna hear about the dichotomy that mist and maddie form in reference to that god damn tomato from the og short stories. ok great here i go

pantheon definitely expands a LOT on the differences between the two sisters but ken liu’s bit about the tomato has always stood out to me and i’m kinda sad they didn’t keep it in the show but whatEVER!!!!!! anyways it’s such a perfect symbol for the glaring differences between mist and maddie and i’ve been thinking about this for almost a year now so i gotta get it out there

like. it’s so simple. it’s just a tomato.

🍅<—tomato. round and red 👍 (also i love that little interaction so much holy shit)

anyways it’s so simple in it’s design but the connections that each sister has with such basic object like this are so drastically different it’s crazy

maddie approaches it from a deeply emotional and human perspective. to her, a tomato means the taste of one, her grandma, her family’s garden, her family’s dog, and just like. general childhood memories. in the show, she represents the side of humanity that wants to stay physically in the real world. she’s obviously friendly with UIs and CIs given that like. yk. and she expresses curiosity in mist and her whole deal!!!!!

but she clearly has her biases and those are shown through her wants for her son and how upset she gets when he advocates for uploading (even though mist practically raised him too but whatever i’m not gonna get into that rn). anyways my point is that she’s approaching this tomato conversation with her experiences regarding physicality, nostalgia, and other “human” feelings

but mist doesn’t have any of those!!!!!! she doesn’t have any human experience at all. she approaches a tomato from an extremely technical and factual perspective. she brings up the species categorization, court cases, genome info, etc. she even decides to mention that, logically speaking, she knows more about tomatoes than maddie does (which is like??? girl????? a little unnecessary but true)

in the show there’s the conversation about nostalgia and her line about having the code for nostalgia but not being able to execute it because of a lack of memories fucks me up sooo bad

she loves maddie and everyone around her because she’s kinda just an actual embodiment of love but she can’t help but feel alone in a world where everyone moves so slow and nobody really gets that she can’t understand a lot of “human” emotions. it’s why she’s so ecstatic to introduce caspian to the cloud and why she’s so passionate about the drive with all the CIs who are just like her. but in this moment she tries her best to connect with maddie but ultimately can’t because of the sheer lack of similar experiences

they just can’t understand each other fully and they never will. they’re forced to agree to disagree over something as simple as a tomato and god that tension keeps me up at night

another thing that i thought was super interesting was how the maddie’s interest in mist was flipped in the show if that makes sense???? like in the stories, it’s clearly maddie who wants to learn more about mist. she tries her best to bridge the gap and it’s her idea to give mist a body. but in the show, it’s mist that seems “more obsessed” (heavy on the quotes) with maddie. she’s reaching out more and she asked for a body herself and maddie lashes out when mist does something while trying to help (don’t even get me started on caspian and his whole deal this season i’ll fucking kill someone)

ALSO i feel like this post is getting too long now but i wanna at least mention the quote at the beginning of the chapter cause holy shit man

anyways that’s it for now i think. i might make another post about the quote and the other stories and some other details i really liked for the nonexistent people who’ve seen this show 👍

[caramellles]

"as time passed, we gradually began to feel that the worst was over. we still had to heal our physical and mental wounds, but we really started to come back to life."

[raiiny-bay]

before & after :-)

[cattons]

emerald fennell will get on her zoom and say [posh voice] Nooo no darling the rich people are the worrssstt. You’re supposed to side with the povvo. referring to the 130 minute film she helmed in which a family of prejudiced but loveable aristocrats are murdered and usurped by an upper middle class lunatic

[sunmisbf]

WAYV CONCERT TOUR LET’S FUCKING GOOOO‼️

[devilsskettle]

actually it does kind of bother me that people don’t want to talk about how margot verger is a poorly written/poorly adapted lesbian character because we want to like her so bad given her sympathetic circumstances and tentatively happy ending/happy marriage. also because it’s hard to parse if she’s a more or less offensive depiction of a lesbian in the book because she’s a “stereotype” (butch) and it’s implied that she’s only a lesbian because of abuse at the hands of her brother (not an implication they reverse in the show necessarily) and because the writing is both a product of its time (the 90s) by a writer who has previously written transphobic/homophobic tropes (see: the silence of the lambs, which the show does not adapt, which i think was a smart move tbh). but low key wouldn’t it have been cool to have a butch lesbian get a (tentatively!) happy ending in a mainstream horror tv series

[mylittleredgirl]

starting any new medication with intended or unintended mental effects is so weird. it’s not exactly like waking up with a whole new brain but it definitely feels like my mind got reformatted. this latest nervous system one is doing some what it’s supposed to physically (thank god) but it’s definitely doing… something to my thinking patterns and emotional responses. i’m not sure what. it has some overlap with the symptoms of an early manic upswing in the sense that the “regard for consequences” segment of my brain is sending an out-of-office message, so i thought it was that at first, but that’s definitely not it. but. something.

[hanafubukki]

Talking with a friend about the knight of dawn ueueue 😭😭😭

You deserved so much better OTL

[willowfey]

starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal