#it was worht it though

[papierboa]

do not spend 8 hours learning how to model and rig in blender oh my god kill me

[mossy-paws]

could you draw the new vinestaff skin?? :)

Here ya go!

[happyyft]

Wazzappp

[bootlegramdomneess]

I have some rambling thoughts so I will share...

Carmy knows what he is doing. I mean this in the sense of going for the star. All his strategies are the right strategies. He has so much experience. He has worked in multiple michelin star restaurants. Was the CDC for one of the best restaurants in the United States and was able to maintain those stars. He looks insane to an outsider, but technically he isn't insane. He knows what the standards are and what it takes to get a Star. Techincally...he's not wrong.

which is why Sydney goes along with it. "I'm your accomplice." is true. She knows this is what it takes to get the star. She wants that shit so badly, but not this way, however she goes along with it because she trusts Carmy even still. Even thought this is harming her, she is still willing to trust him and do this.

Even though she lets him know...i don't want to do it this way. She goes along with it. I find it interesting how much she finds all this worth it. How much she finds carmy worht it to endure all of this. Outside of all the connections she has made being at The Bear. Carmy is at the center of her reason for enduring it all.

There is such a depth to Sydney's character. There is an entire world inside of her that we haven't seen and I know would explain why she is still here and I can't wait to find out. Will she stay? will she go? I think if she tells Carmy she is considering leaving it could activate something inside of him. The ball is in his court because Sydney keeps saving his ass and I know he knows it.

Carmy and Sydney are both doing things that are unfamiliar to them, I think. Sydney is leaning on him. Trusting him which is, if I could guess from the crumbs they've given us, hard for her. Carmen is trying to take a genuine interest in who she is as a person. outside of being a Chef. I don't think he has EVER done this while working in the kitchen with other humans.

Sydney gave him a peek inside, but closed up for, i think, obvious reasons. Yet, he still persists. Staring, watching, learning....

"You like to make people happy." is not something she told him outright. He has observed this from watching her and listening. These two are transforming. Have transformed each other in some way that we have not yet seen.

and when she tells him she tasted that Hamachi dish. whew.

[c-kiddo]

hehehe yes i like the 'worth their salt' moment. he says it so much. it makes me happy : - ) !! like, cad repeating it and fjord being like "are you just taken with the saying?" and cad replies "its worht my salt!" akjnfkajnfka autism win forever. its from episode 42, 45:35. here is transcript screenshot though:

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[heph]

Hi \o/ tumblr recommended me your blog presumably bc I reblogged a bunch of your yugioh fanart but now that I'm seeing it's currently House MD hours. Oh boy. I watched this show obsessively and finished 4 seasons in about 6 weeks but the season 4 finale made me too Insane and I just Stopped watching it. Looking at your art made me want to continue it again though they're sooooo. It's such an insane show

YESSS PLEASE CONTINUE ITS WORHT IT!!!!

[chushanye]

I finally caught up to dndads after not having listened to it since June, so in order to not make a 1000 posts I will make one mega-post of all my reactions.

35 -> anthony made a reference to him being married b4, leading to me googling it, leading to me finding out there's a "at least im not anthony burch" 4chan meme

out of al the "new" epsidoes (for me) this one is still the funniest

FUCK, the goddamn convo between Normal and Hero you can't just do this to me. you can't just give me sibling dynamics and expect me to be normal about them.

36-> this ep was spoiled form me start to finish so no particular reactions but I will say Anthony is super clever for managing to spin that prophecy to come back around

37-> the contrast of the teens experiences this episode was astounding

ONE PIECE MENTIONED! 👒🏴‍☠️

"you whirling dervish of homoeroticism and pizza" is SUCH a sentence.

38-> god this episode did so much for Scary I fucking love her. "she is holds so much anger but is one of the most loving people" what if my heart bursts from the weight of it all

39 -> in my notes I just have "RONNNNNN RONNN UR IN HEAVEN BABGGIRLLLL I LOVE YOHJHUU."

40-> Freddy's bully character. Will and Freddy's syncing on that joke and screaming about it. Will going "I'm a little turned on rn I'm not gonna lie." Anthony going "Roll for Kinsley scale." all of that almost put me in an early grave.

41-> Freddy making up dumbass plans and the getting way too excited trying to explain them leading to him being out of breath and yelling and making very little sense while everyone else is trying to cut in to tell him how dumb his plan is only for him to roll ridiculously high makes up 90% of this podcast nd I will never get tired of it. also this episode solidified that Taylor is the best character to me.

42-> I hate this.

43-> Marco is way too fucking chill beung on the Titanic I'm gonna need a bit more shock and confusion from this man. like this jist makes me think he like KNOWS everything already.

44-> the next two were my favorite episodes out of the bunch and I have a like lahes worht of notes on them and I couldn't pick my favorites so I'm gonna make seperate posts for the two of those. but in the meantime:

does the ambulance driver's accent count as slavic? cause if so first slavic dndads character lmfaoo

I feel so sad for Normal because we saw thus arc coming from a mile away. I remember listening to episodes and bejng fristrated with how other characters were responding to Normal cause I KNEW it was making this worse in his mind. and like I get them too they're all going trough heinous shit but like...fucking ouch man this was so preventable

45-> Terry Jr and Glenn competing for the title of "most polite swordfight singe Ingio and Westley in the Princess Bride"

I had seperate notes for how much I loved the charactarisation for Terry Jr, Nick, Taylor and Normal so to sum it up the cast brought their A-game I was so fucking delighted.

Freddy's habit of tling over NPC's is so fucking funny. COMPLETELY disregarding the DM is hilarious when it's not happening to me.

46-> good to see Mat being a menece for once.

somebody PLEASE fucking tell me there is fanart for Abe Lincoln from this episode PLEASE.

I know I'm a tween bow at heart because Lincoln being cool again made me so fucking hyped even though that's not the point of his charactarisation 😭 agent Schmegan just brings out the cool dude in him

Hermie's death was way less dramatic than I expected it to be but rhis is only because the amazing artists in this fandom shot my expectations through the roof with the stuff they drew

BONUS: WHODADIT -> Beth is fucking SHINING in this god every joke landed.

Anthony quickly going: "nochinamenmayfeatureinthestory" everyone else going "WOAH" and Mat going fucking "FREDDY?" as is Freddy needs to explain himself???? 😭😭 please

[kagami--uchiha]

🥁 (& optionally 🖤)

🥁A Battlesong for my muse

Hnnnn... HNNNN oh oh mhhhh my my my! :D *vibrating with it*

The first one I'll give you the live version.. Because oh it absolutely gives me the chills... Just imagine him on the battlefield, thedarkness of thunder rolling in from far back, rain is approaching to the lands and then-.. A red Mangekyo flashes before he dashes in for his attacks.. Every hit is followed with a flurry of moths... Close your eyes and imagine that while you let that one play out <3 Worht every minute!

Another song by Woodkid (I love that man's music.. it makes my brain go brrrrr). I see him somewhere in the midst of battle here, blood already staining his face, his hands, his robe.. He faces still mroe and more enemy coming his eay and yet he stays steady and strong for what he wants to protect, even though his bones are already weary, his heart already heavy with the comrades he has seen fallen.. The lyrics describe him so well in this I just-.. I can't.

There would also be a third one that.. Kinda fits? Though it seems also not to fit fully, because here it is mostly just the sound and the beat of it that draws me in - less so the spoken vocals of the woman. It is about 10 minutes long.. but what it really does for me is the change between the calm parts and the more dramatic parts that make me imagine him so-.. so beautifully with his Nekomata Anbu-mask.. Just going in for those kills... while being one with the shadows mostly.. This one is purely optional because I am not *fully* on board with it, but I thought I'd add it as a treat.

🖤 A Song for our muses ship

Let me dive into it with Woodkid yet again.. And this is.. maybe the lyrics are self explanatory XD <3

But also thinking about how in our normal/canon verse it took them so many years to finally *get together* I feel like this is often how Kagami felt about it.. Since he didn't want to push it but yearned for it whenever he looked at her.

Phew!!

Gave you quite a treat here!! :D I hope you enjoy all of them!!! <3

[yumeyleo]

i love my pookie! being alive is a wonderful thing even though i dont see meaning in it!!!! its worht it cause i love my pookie!!!

[shittyclive]

m dove what is

this thang. doesnt have PL on it though. not worht it

[maddestmewmew]

Just woke uo from a dream that felt like it lasted 50 ysers where I had a whole life and family in another world and now I have 50 years worht of memories in my head while I make breakfast. Woag. Wouldve been better with breasts *a tumbleweed blows past because it's arizona* (sent on anon even though I know it's you) (for the ask game thang)

OHHH MY HOD SHUT UP. THIS IS TRUE 👆

[pumakaji64]

i suffer from this annoying problem you see-

i want to do more, i really think i do- but i just feel so confined by my current living situation where i am consantnly around my family- you see in 2020 my father mother and eldest sister had to move in with my older sister and i because of covid costing my parents their jobs- i wasn't exactly doing stellar before this but i was feeling like i was starting to get a handle on my life and starting to figure important things out- but since the move i feel like ive had to put that all on halt......

i stopped going to online therapy because i have no privacy to do so and feel safe because if i wanted to get any real progress id have to talk about my family and my childhood whici i do NOT want any of them hearing about and i cant go physically because i cant drive and i dont want to waste more gas and the time of the others- i stopped drawing because i have no privacy to safely express myself without their eyes unless if i lock myself in my room which they will judge me for and now my dominant hand is permanantly injured making it painful to draw unless im careful about it- i am confined downstairs in the living room most of the time because i need to watch my dog (this is on me though I can accept that) so i feel like i have no space for myself and when i take leisure time feel nothing but guilt everytime my family comes by- they love teasing me over the dog too saying i dont do enough i dont know how much theyre joking i already feel like shit all the time so i dont really appreciate the jabs- being on here is the one consistant thing i can muster up enough energy to do- but even so not without constant guilt- most days off dont feel like much of anything.

its hard even to engage in my interests anymore- dont have the time, dont have the energy, dont have the privacy, dont have the intelligence, dont have the confidence, idk... just been tough lately i guess.

not even my room offers much respite- my parents room is right across and they love to keep their door open- i feel them watching everytime i go in

i feel stuck

i feel like im wasting my life

i feel like i will never get out of here

i do not know what to do

i dont think theres even anything waiting for me even if i can

tw suicide talk

i cant go back to school because i have no idea what i want to do with my life- theres so much pressure for me to be succesful and each day i feel like more and more of a failure- and i know if i try and fail again i might end up trying to kill myself like i did last time

but to be honest i know i cant even kill myself because i know the cost of a funeral wont be worht it and because im too much of a coward to do so

but staying alive isnt much better when you feel like a constant financial drain and worthless layabout all the time

and everytime i think i find some sort of plan or some way out its like a carrot on a stick thats tugged away from me like a joke

it's so funny- i was openyl gushing about how hopeful i felt and now realitys crashing back down once again! there's no getting out of here.

to make it all worse this year has been terrible for me healthwise- im falling apart in so many ways and i feel even worse about being a waste of money-

i dont feel like i can talk to any of them about how awful i feel- most of the time any attempt to do so ends poorly and even when it doesnt nothing changes- i dont know where to make heads or tails of it all- i know im to blame for a lot of my own issues i know i overreact and take things too personally- i feel like i paint an unfair picture of them sometimes but eveyr day feels harder to keep on going- i already struggled with doing basic shit to take care of myself but recently it feels impossible

they did always say i just dont care enough- either its always been true or at some point became it.

i dont want to go to my stupid fucking job that bores the shit out of me- but i have to- i have to be of use somehow- i didnt sleep last night- i dont want to go to work because when im at work i just think about all the things i could be doing- actually useful or fufilling things i know i wont do on my day off despite how badly i wish i was while at my job

but i have to- it's almost time- so i guess i will.

whats the point of writing all of this- a cry for help maybe? pity seeking maybe even if i try to deny it over and over- i guess im just nearing my breaking point- something about these ast few months have been really grueling lately- again probably to do with all the suddent medical issues and the fact that my 20's are halfway done and i have nothing of worth to show for it- i dont know what to do i dont think im ever escaping this place and maybe thats for the best

I’m not a good person- I have all the same horrible traits they do. I just hide it on here to appear more likable.

im 25- its too late- ive wasted my entire life- it was always going to end this way everyone whose ever knwon me could see it thats why they all gave up on me- i did too. theres no point in prentending i can be fixed and wasting any more money. i feel like a ghost in this house watching life pass by. i feel like a stupid child trapped in an adults body.

i dont know what to do anymore-everything feels like sawdust.

But I’ll be fine… I’m numbing it all out. I don’t feel enough to want to hurt myself this time. like i said i have to go to work soon

im going to go downstairs and my mother will see my horribly messy hair and she'll make some annoyed comment about me needing to brush and ask me to run my fingers throught the tangles and we'll go to work. and i'll tell stupid jokes to try to make her smile because its the least i can do.

despite it all i love them still- but some days i wish i could love them from a safe distance.

im tempted to delete this like i do with all my breakdowns that i post on blogs that arent my vent blog but i think i'll keep this one up- because deep down i think i do want some advice or help or something- i cant keep living like this. i dont know what to do to stop. i just wish i had more to offer in return.

or maybe i just need to yell- whatever- doesnt matter- i'll go back to my usual postings on both of my active blogs regardless of whatever happens after this post-im sure i'll regret it later and try to just ingore this and hope you all too but it's like 4 am so whose even gonna see this lol

[fagziraphale]

y'know random musings but Maggie is renting a lot she uses for her record store from Azira right? I do wonder, he doesn't seem like he'd really enforce rent (and considering he casually forgives months worht of rent for a record) so what if Maggie decides to really just not pay at all? do you think he'll just decide to exchange a new record every other month he remembers?

i hate that neil would make aziraphale a landlord so yeah anything i can do to mitigate that. like he says "it's my fault for not collecting the rent" so i want to think he just. doesn't collect it. but like if that's the case wouldn't nina's parents and grandparents tell her that? idk

its still a weird situation though, like why not just give her the shop or be up front about letting her have it. well whatever sometimes you cant canon compliantly headcanon your way out of bad canon snd instead you just have to be like fuck it im ignoring that lol

[sobredunia]

I am going to get bullied when spring break is over, I have impulsively put six mlp stickers andfive dsmp stickers on my water bottle, it'll be worht it though

if anyone recognises dsmp content nowadays you can hit them with the biggest "what were YOU doing at the devil's sacrament" in history

[eyepatchrose]

“Same as usual or do you feel like mixing it up?” Hands already started on Samira’s drink as she walked into the bar. Even though it wasn’t often, Kengou still remembered her order of one of his most expensive bottles.

"Is there anything you think is worht mixing it up?" She asked simply wtih a laid back expression as she settled into one of the bar stools.

[this-user-has-been-erased]

listen to the album "carousel" by robin guthrie pls its so good kind of ambient and doesnt have lyrics but its sooo dreamy and amazing. if you want lyrics listen to "heaven or las vegas" by cocteau twins but its in english and i know english songs suck but its still good. really chill for when you're superrrrrrrrr drunk and cant tolerate anything more than dreamy shoegaze-esque music. and if not that then listen to "skiptracing" and/or "going going gone" by mild high club which are two veryyyyyyyy fgood albums i love them with all my heart. can you tell lol im drunk as shit right now and this is the only time i can genuinely post my thoughts (ily avpd /s). and a film i watched today the battle of algiers really enlightening in terms of current events like whats happening in palestine.. definitely worth a watch its like 2h long but its worht watching once at least. i had to watch it for a class but i enjoyed it.

sorry for rambling i just like to get out as much as i can while my brain allows me lol. i love the arts in case you couldnt tell. im a little bit "woke" (using that term 10000000000% ironically lol nothign wrong with being woke). its almost over so i feel like i can just. post whatever i feel on my own tumblr blog rn and its fine nothing will happen anyway. thank you for being witness to my thoughts, whoever reads this. its rare for someone to genuinely listen to me. itll be over soon but for now i'll try my best to appreicate what life hands to me. this alblum "carousel" by robin guthrie - especially, because first of all its so good, second of all it was recommended to me by someone on discord and i appreciate it so much im so in love with it. music is such an important thing to me. i dont want to come across like one of thos "music is my life" people but tbh music is one of the most important things for me that i cant lie it does save me a lot when im feeling low. unfortunately at this point im feeling so low that it csant entirely save me. but for today at least its fine.

i love tumlbr i love it so much one of the only sites where i find people who are like me, who are genuinely like me. who i can relate to and who might be able to actually understand me. mostly people who are autistic and who have hyperfixations and who understand sort of how my mind works, though maybe not 100%. i love you all (besides ofc conservatives and TERFs lol go fuck yourselves) and ty i hope you know you made my life experience better <3 people i can relate to and resonate with <3 its not over yet thoguh. we;ll see how long it lasts lol