#it was just a family thing amd i had to be there for emotional support basically

[whorbidmore]

me horny posting ab a fictional man as if I didn't literally do communion at church earlier today 💀

[lazyneonrabbitt]

Gallzatto x Reader request please.

Maybe something angsty with hurt/comfort and a little spice?

Scenario - The girls are in preschool, and they get made fun of by the other kids for “having two different dads”. The parents at pickup judge Reader for being with two men. Lip and Carmy comfort their girls, they let the twins know how much they love them and they’re both their dads. Once the girls are asleep, Lip and Carmy tell and show (spicy scenes ensue) Reader how much they love her and how much she mean to them and their family.

If you’re not comfortable with this request, it’s okay and I apologise in advance.

I had a lot of fun writing this one, even if it took a while to get through some more rough patches, but I thank you for the challenging request! ♡

Enjoy this emotional rollercoaster that is the Gallzatto family! This ends in 🔞🔞 mdni!

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Two dads and a mom

While the family accepted it immediately and the doctors being as supportive as they could when it came to your relationship with Lip and Carmy, when your little girls started going to school a whole new hell opened up.

The board was confused the first time the five of you showed up and were leaning a little too close to demanding to know who the biological parents were so they could have the entry paperworks all done correctly. It took all your energy to sent yoir boys out of the office with your daughters so they wouldn's cause any further problems and you could fill in the paperworks on your terms.

After they all finally gave up on the questioning they were very eager to start shating their concerns with you. All "for the benefit of your daughters." they said, feeling that a relationship like yours had higher chances of jealousy induced fights, favoritism and whatever more bullshit they shared with you.

The closer the start of the school year got the more excited your little girls became. You all had your work sceduled matched up with the school's and each had your pickup days.

Lip dropped them off every morning as yours amd Carmy's jobs started too early amd Lip's garage was quickly on letting him start an hour later for his kids.

Pickup was either one of you three and where the parents first happily welcomed you as newcomers, you quickly caught their changing looks and stares, mumbles and judgements.

"I hate that bleach blonde mom with her shitty Lexus.." Your frustration came out with a huff as you threw yourself onto the couch, over the laps of your boys. Every time you picked up your girls from school this week you felt the stares and and judgemental whispers but you kept a strong front for your girls.

"What are we doing wrong?" You let out a shaky breath as the frustrations started to boil over, sniffling as you turned onto your side, away from your boyfriends.

"Hey, what's wrong sweetheart? Did she say something to you?" Carmy's hand was on your shoulder, pulling you onto your back so they could look at you shaking your head no.

"Wanna tell us what's bugging you then?" They were worried about you. They had noticed the change in behavior as well, the friendly greetings and oftentimes flirty comments changed to distant stares and huddled whispers. Mothers quickly ushering their kids away when they'd walk out with your daughters.

"Does this have something to do with the staring lately?" Lip knew he was right. He had been getting the same questionable looks at dropoff every morning and he has tried to put one and one together and the only thing that came to mind was the three of them being called mommy and daddy by the kids weirded out the other parents.

You nodded your head and sobbed into your hands now, not being able to shake that gut feeling of what was gonna happen if this got worse. What if they started talking bad about you three to your daughters, make them believe them having a mom and two dads was somehow bad or wrong.

"Baby, we're not doing anything wrong. We're just different." Lip spoke softly as Carmy carressed your cheek, pulling you back to the now instead of lingering on the stares that haunted you all hours of the day. "We love you, baby, and who gives a fuck what those stuck up bitch moms think?"

Carmy's sigh caught both your attention. "I recognised some dinner cancelation names as parents who booked the first week of school."

You talked each other through the insecuritied this whole thing caused and debated if you wrre gonna have to sit down with Rose and Lily to explain to them some people might find their parents strange.

It was the worst feeling ever to even have to think about having to do something like this. It was one thing having to explain being gay and translate that to child speech, but having to explain the concept of polyamory to a child in a way that they can makd it clear to other kids that it's normal was a whole other thing. You soldiered through another week and slowly the drama started dying down with you all not responding to any of it and all the weird stuff had been said already. Over time you picked up some of the weird rumors going on. From cheating on either one of the three to either of the boys being sugar daddies, mom being a surrogate mother for the boys. But you’ve also heard mothers call you a straight up whore. When you heard that one you cried all night, not even finding comfort in your partners’ embrace as it made you feel like you were proving the others right. It took you two days to recover from that one, Carmy and Lip being supportive from a comfortable distance. You slept on the edge of the bed those nights, feeling like you needed a chance to escape if the closeness got too constricting.

You were glad when fall break arrived. Getting a break from all the bad attention did you all good and you spent some perfect time with your little girls.

Thst was until they heard they had to go back in two days and they suddenly got all mopey and sad. You couldn’t for the life of you figurer out what was going on until Lip managed to bribe them into talking to you.

“I dun wanna go. Ewic says two daddies is weird.” Lily sulked on the big lounge chair while Rose dangled over the armrest of the couch. “Girlies say two boyfwiends is bad.”

They told you how the boys laughed at them and the girls made rude comments and how no one wanted to play with them anymore because of their weird parents.

“Do the other kids make you sad, sweeties?” Carmy’s soft voice had the girls nod at him. You couldn’t get yourself to look at them right now, your fear of your children being bullied because you had two partners was coming true right in front of you and you didn't even know what to do about it except let the dads tell them there’s nothing wrong with living who you love as long a everyone involved is happy.

On the last day of their vacation you all went out to the toy store to let the girls pick out something fun for themselves and get a large serving of ice cream after at one of Carmy’s favorite places. During the whole trip you felt on edge, hearing every person that looked your way judge you in your head.

On the first day back you all went to drop off your girls together. You sat in the backseat in between them, going over the things you talked about during the weekend and how they shouldn't let other kids make them feel bad. At dropoff the three of you walked your girls up to the school and made sure to all give them kisses and hugs and all the love they needed to get through the day before an older girl came up to them to walk them to their classroom. "I talked to Richie and Eva was very happy to get the girls to their class and give any bullkes that scary look of hers." Carmy felt proud of his little stunt and he was surely gonna get a call later to hear his cousin update him about today.

On the trip back to the car you were visibly shaking, Carmy put his arm around you in comfort while Lip snarled at some mothers to speak up when he saw them staring and whispering. Carmy looked at Lip who took a quick turn towards them so he simply steered you around and followed him.

"Got something to say, ladies?" He was angry. And it was clear to the mothers as well as they stuttered out some sad excuse. "Yeah, that's what I thought.."

As the ladies tried to excuse themselves to leave Carmy spoke up. "Keep our names out of your mouth or I'll let people know who got you that luxurious car of your because we both know it wasn't your husband." Je turns to the other woman. "And don't think I don't know about you sleeping with the headmaster so your brat can stay in school." The way he stated it all was so matter of factly that you both immediately believed it before even seeing the shocked faces of the mothers. "So, my husband asked you a question. Got something to say to us?" Hearing Carmy call Lip his husband make your heart skip a beat.

"We'll talk to people- to our kids." Carmy hit them where it hurt, and it wasn't even his idea. He had been in such a foul mood at work that Richie pulled him aside to talk during the early hours of prep. Carmy complained and spilled everything until he ran out of words and Richie simply asked a few questions to determine which kids and parents were the worst.

The next day he got back to Carmy's office with a list of parents and their secrets he had gathered over time through Eva, who loved to snoop around the teachers and listen to gossip, and adults talking amongst themselves at the restaurant tables when they thought no one neard them. But Richie always heard everything because that was his job.

On your way back home Carmy told you all the details and you were amazed, reminding yourself to tell Richie thanks later and buy Eva some of her favorite snacks.

Lip had texted auntie Sugar to pick up the girls and habe them stay with her for dinner and a movie so the three of you could have some alone time. Carmy knew but they made sure to not tell you. You needed to be comforted and your boys exactly knew how to do just that. After taking you out to get lunch at your favorite spot that wasn't The Bear they took you home and made sure you were taken care of properly.

They took turns making you come on their tongues before folding your legs over your shoulders so they could both get to you. Their tongues lapping at you like you were the most delicious meal ever, which to them, you were. You were being held in place by two sets of hands until you were sobbing, begging for them to stop because you were so overstimulated.

"Mmmfuuuckkk please--"

"Please what, bunny?" Lip's hands loosened their grip on your leg before Carmy's did and let you roll onto you back and let you breathe, but not for long before Carmy pulled you on top of him and slid his cock inside in one quick thrust, pushing you up off his cock becore pulling you down harshly and setting a rough pace, having you and himself come fast and hard. As soon as Lip saw Carmy was done he pulled you off his cock, keeping you on all fours over him and pressing himself between your leaking folds and fucking you as deep as he could bury himself. One hand pressed you down, chest against Carmy's with your hands in his hair and moaning into his neck. Lip's other hand found its way between your legs and rubbed at your clit just as you liked it, playing with you in the way that had you cumming on his cock and crying into the pillow. Carmy's hands found purchase on your ass and tits, kneading to his heart's content as Lip bred you like you were the last woman on earth. Carmy pulled you up his body so your tits were at his face and took one of your nipples into his mouth, sucking and biting harshly. "Fuck-- I miss your milky tits, baby.."

His confession and Lip's skilled fingers pushed you over the edge once more, squeezing hard around Lip's cock. His thrusts becoming sloppy and after a few more thrusts came as well.

When they had you sat down in the tub, soaking in the bubbly water Carmy's phone rang, showing Sugar's name on the screen and answering quickly. "Hey, Sug. What's up?"

"Well, your kids aren't anymore. They fell asleep during the movie an hour ago. When were you planning on picking them up?" She sounded a little annoyed, but not as much as usual so he apologised and promised to get ready for pickup.

"You go get the girls, I'll get this one to bed in a bit." Lip reassured him it was okay to leave and with that he was out the door.

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A/N: The next chapter for their timeline has been written already and is planned to be posted on Sunday!

[tiniest-puppy-around]

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Caregiver Larissa Weems & Regressor Wednesday Addams

Requested by Annonymous

Headcanons, Moodboard and Oneshot!

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Soo this request was a request of Caregiver Larissa Weems and Regressor Wednesday Addams.

It was originally an anonymous ask but i accidentally deleted it while editing (I'm super clumsy, very sorry about that), so i really hope it will still reach the person who requested it😢.

I also got a bit carried away and ended up writing a whole Oneshot😅But since the request was for Headcanons i made sure to include some!

Hope that's still ok and you'll enjoy it and find it dear requestor!

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-Weems found out after Wednesday slipped from being upset and overwhelmed while being scolded by Weems after she got caught investigating again.

-Larissa Weems knows about age regression from her own time at school because she had a friend who'd regress, so she already has some experience as a caregiver.

-Wednesdays parents know about her regression and support it

-Wednesday is embarrassed of regressing so her and her family don't really talk about it and she doesn't regress infront of them unless she has 0 control about it

-both love cats and love looking at cat books together, mostly books about cat breeds or their behavior

-Though hesitant to accept, Wednesday also likes the cat themed picture books that principal Weems will bring from time to time

-Little Wednesday chews on her hair a lot which principal Weems doesn't like

-She encourages Wednesday to use the teether she got from Enid.

-She brings it with her but is still to embarrassed to use it in front of her

-They drink tea together while Principal Weems tells Wednesday about her and her parents time at school

-Principal Weems got a Sylvanian families silk cat which sits on her office desk

-Wednesday let's her little black and Principal Weems silk cat "hangout" while doing something else with principal Weems.

-Physical contact isn't a thing between the two, it's mostly just them keeping each other company amd talking about their mutual interest in cats.

-after THE events with a comatosed principal Weems (as the author i decided i don't have the heart to let her be dead) Wednesday ended up secretly missing her

-Enid took her to principal Weems office so Wednesday can get her little Silk from there to take care of it for her

-Since she has trouble expressing her emotions she usually shows her emotions through her little cat

-for example, if Wednesday says her cat is upset, she usually means that it's her who's upset.

-so when Wednesday told Enid that her kitty is worried about principal Weems and misses her, Enid could feel her heart breaking

-Wednesday got a get-well card with a cat on it for Principal Weems and wrote a get well message with Enids helps (though she of course only wrote the card because of her kitty!)

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Wednesday has always kept her regression a secret, it's just something she does by herself, which really only changed once Enid found out.

Her Family knows about her regression but she's not really comfortable doing it in front of her parents. They know about it and support the fact she regresses but it's not talked about. While her regression helps her a lot, she's still embarrassed of needing it.

So when principal Weems found out she was very embarrassed.

It was discovered by Larissa Weems after Wednesday once again got in trouble for investigating. They were in principal Weems office and she was loudly scolding her for not listening to her again and just playing detective anyway.

Wednesday, who was already stressed as it is from the eventful investigation, was both very upset and overwhelmed by the scolding.

Her principals loud words made her feel both angry and sad, she was just trying to help, why can't she just see that?. The noise level of principal Weems voice was also getting even higher the more upset she got with her, which made Wednesday desperately want to cover her ears, runaway and scream. The combination of the harsh scolding with the overwhelming amount of noise just made the girl feel smaller and smaller. This left a distressed, slipping Wednesday standing infront of an angry, pacing principal Weems. Her hands where itching to move to cover her ears but instead she just tensed her body and pulled her shoulders up to her ears, looking at the ground while trying not to show how upset she is. Wednesday was just desperately trying to keep her composure and not slip even further. And this was working quite well, until Principal Weems snapped at the girl, who to her seemed to just be staring of into space.

"Miss Addams! Are you even listening to me?!". This sudden rise in volume was the last straw for the girl. Her hands quickly flew up to cover her ears while a whine left her throat. She quickly rushed away into a corner of the room, trying to escape the source of her distress, where she curled up into a ball, lightly rocking back and forth while still covering her ears, leaving behind a stunned principal Weems.

While at first paralyzed from shock at what she just witnessed, principal Weems slowly started approaching the distressed ball of Wednesday.

"Ms Addams? Wednesday?"

she spoke softly, crouching down next to the younger girl, who just continued to cower away from her. With a sigh the principal continued talking to her,

"I didn't mean to upset you, I promise I am not mad, I was merely worried for your safety".

This seemingly reassured her enough to lightly uncurled herself, still not looking at her, but it became visible that she was chewing on one of her braids, which Larissa Weems furrowed her brows at.

"Now, why dont we get out of this corner and somewhere more comfortable?"

she suggested. Wednesday seemed to like this and hesitantly let the principal lead her to one of the comfortable chairs in her office where she sat her down across from her.

"I'm sorry i was so loud, you didn't like that, did you?"

she gently asked the small girl. After a few moments she mumbled an short answer around her hair while looking at her feet

"scared me".

This, plus her overall demeanor quickly made the principle realize what was going on with the girl.

"That was quite scary wasn't it? I apologize for that. Now, my dusty old office probably isn't a place for little girl such as yourself. Is there someone who knows about this? Perhaps a friend?"

Weems asked, looking at her kindly. After thinking for a bit the girl hesitantly mumbled

"Enid?",

both suprised and glad that there seemed to be no judgement coming from the older woman.

"Very well then, let's go see Miss Sinclair. And just so you know Miss Addams, if you ever feel like this again and you need some help, my door is always open for you"

she replied before escorting her to her dorm and leaving her in the capable hands of a suprised Enid. The whole situation was a shock to Larissa Weems but it also strengthened her urge to make sure the girl stayed safe, despite all the trouble she'd put her through.

Wednesday at first avoided being around principal Weems, but after a while of warming up to the idea, quietly started wandering into her office while regressed, usually with her small cat in hand. At first Larissa Weems didn't interact much with the regressed girl, worried that it'd scare the girl away, who usually just seeked her company. Eventually she took together all her strength and approached the girl, who was just quietly sitting on a chair, looking at a small black object in her hands, which uppon crouching down next to the girl she realized was a flocked black cat figurine.

"I like your little cat Miss Addams"

she kindly smiled at the regressed girl

"Thank you, i got her from Enid"

Wednesday quietly replied.

"That is quite nice of Miss Sinclair. Did you know i like cats myself?"

Larissa Weems told the girl.

"Really?"

Wednesday asked.

This started a regular arrangement of a small Wednesday wandering into principal Weems office and them looking at books about cats together. Be that books about all the different breeds of cats, their anatomy, behavior or once in a while a picture book about cats, though Wednesday is more hesitant accepting them.

At some point Larissa Weems purchased a small sylvanian families Silk cat figurine because it reminded her of the time she spend with the younger girl. When she showed it to Wednesday the girl seemingly got a bit excited. She showed it to her with the words

"I have small cat friend now too Miss Addams. Maybe our little cats will become good friends don't you think?".

Now whenever a small Wednesday visits principal Weems, she puts her little cat figurine next to principal Weems silk cat so they too can spend time together while they look at books.

Wednesday continues to chew on her hair but upon principal Weems encouragement she occasionally brings her bat teether along, though she is often too embarrassed to use it around the older Woman. In the rare moments when she is missing her parents and feels comfortable enough to come to her with it, principal Weems will tell her a bit about their time at school, though she's pretty reluctant when it comes to Wednesdays father.

After THE events, with Weems comatosed in the hospital (with my powers as the author i decided she's not dead in this, but instead just comatosed) a regressed Wednesday found herself secretly missing the older woman quite a lot.

Enid took Wednesday to principal Weems office after she asked her to, so she could get the little silk cat from her office. Wednesday told Enid

"I need to watch it for principal Weems, she'd want me too".

One evening Wednesday actually went a bit teary eyed, which till now only happened after she'd had nightmares about one of her friends getting hurt, and asked Enid if she thinks principal Weems will be ok because "Her kitty misses her a lot".

A heartbroken Enid reassured her that she thinks so and that she'll be glad to hear that her silk cat was in good hands until then.

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Alright! I hope y'all like it :) Was a bit rushed since i wrote it this morning after a spark of creativity (caused by the lack of motivation i had for studying).

And it did end up being more of a Oneshot than Headcanons (sorry about that).

I love seeing your feedbacks and hearing what you think about it!

So feel free to leave a comment or leave an ask (which i hopefully won't delete this time😅sorry again!). I'm soooo happy that you guys are leaving requests!

If you have a request or want to share your own Headcanons I'd LOVE to hear them!

[thewingedwolf]

@lovecolibri WAIT RE: YOUR TAGS ABOUT INJURIES bc that drives me up the WALL in ls how often someone will be horribly injured and then never discuss it again. at least in the main show, you usually get a small b plot the episode after that delves into it - buck most noticeably tends to get an episode or two arc whenever he gets injured, but we see it frequently with eddie and bobby, and sometimes with chim and hen as well. like, yes they heal way faster than anyone realistically would OR there’s a small time jump and they’ll kind of comment on being back at work again. meanwhile, carlos AMD marjan straight up almost die and then they’re back at work like it’s nothing the next episode?? like, marjan’s lil side quest was excellently done imo (and honestly, tying it back to Marjan’s own belief in her strength, her faith, and adding in a reminder that she’s gotten this far because of the love and support of her family, that is the sort of story i’ve wanted for her, and the one [1] thing i will give the writers on both shows is that they clearly listen to feedback from the actors on their characters and imo that almost always leads to a richer storyline) but she was banged the FUCK up at the ending and then next episode she’s just. hanging out. still firefighting.

WHAT. WHY. chim in the og gets that treatment the worst (imo anyway. hen doesn’t really get arcs like that but that’s bc hen is not nearly as impulsive or accident prone as the entire rest of the 118 lmao, so she usually just doesn’t get injured as badly) but even chim gets an episode or two to deal with his ptsd after Maddie’s ex nearly kills him! buck gets at least one arc a season where he’s injured and has another quarter life crisis, bobby has had to chill out a few times after injury or a wobble in his sobriety, Athena was benched for like half a season after being injured, even Maddie will get b plots (or even main plots!) where she’s dealing with the emotional if not physical fall out of her job. Marjan’s car gets flipped off the road, she spends an entire day running through the woods bleeding and injured, and is then SHOT and KILLS SOMEONE and it’s just a shrug. We haven’t even heard from Iris since Carlos’ story wrapped!! The OG isn’t perfect at continuity or at, like you said, the kind of circular storytelling where something is brought up several episodes in a row as a b plot, then resolved as a main plot, but when you compare it to ls, there’s a clear disparity there that I find annoying. but rob lowe’s kids are in the writing room so Of Course they care more about Rob Lowe doing shit that has nothing to do with being a first responder (like, he’s not even going for ride alongs with Carlos or something! he’s just jogging around Austin and getting into shenanigans) than actually paying attention to the story they’re telling

[ifeelallwrite]

Let’s talk about Hospital Playlist. (KDRAMA REVIEW)

note: does contain spoilers

When people ask me what is my favorite Korean drama of all time, with no doubt, IT’S HOSPITAL PLAYLIST. This drama has the comic relief, the emotional scenes, realistic characters-just to name a few. No toxic relationships and petty revenge fights. Nothing else will stop me for saying that this is the ultimate feel good drama.

SYNOPSIS: The drama shows insights into the daily lives of doctors and nurses working at Yulje Medical Hospital. It focuses on 5 doctors who have been friends since medical school, who also play together as a band.

This drama encompasses so many elements and characters so bear with me yo this might be real long 

Hospital Playlist is produced/written by the Shin-Lee PD and writer pairing, whose previous works were the renowned Reply trilogy and Prison Playbook (which are *chef’s kiss*) I really like that all their dramas really highlight humanism, and puts emphasis on creating a heartwarming and realistic series. There isn’t always a major conflict to be resolved, but instead it showcases how different people-in this case mostly those in the medical field-go on about their daily lives.  I also liked their reasoning to produce a medical drama which was that hospitals were where the most dramatic moments occurred, for example during births, deaths or sickness. And since we are still in the Covid-19 pandemic, it ties in greatly to be paying homage to all the medical personnel saving lives. Hence, props to those who were involved in this meaningful masterpiece <3

The drama is not the usual 16 episodes, but has 12 episodes for each season (SEASON 2 IS COMING SOON YAAS) Good thing is I felt that they were still able to weave a dynamic storyline in the first season even with lesser episodes. The writing was just top-notch with the witty humor bits. Additionally, the music is AMAZING. I love the concept of the main characters being a band and playing different songs every episode too.

Okay, now onto the characters. I thought that every character in this drama was well rounded. Starting of with the main five characters, also known as The 99ers, whose distinctive personalities and natural chemistry make all of them extremely likeable. All main characters are professors of different specialties, and I find the male OB-GYN (Seokhyeong) and female neurosurgeon (Songhwa) very refreshing. Also, I like Shin-Lee dramas always have characters that might be realistic yet hardly seen in other dramas or films. For example, Professor Ahn Jeongwon. Despite being a chaebol (inheritor/heir), he isn’t depicted as a spoilt brat or a cold character, instead as a warm Pediatric doctor who uses his wealth to secretly support patients in need. However it makes him stingy to his friends LOL

To be honest, I really thought I was gonna dislike Junwan due to his cold and tsundere nature. I pretty much believed that he was going to be the party pooper type of the bunch, but with the writer being a master of character development, he turned out to be really sincere and hilarious at times. Same for Ikjun, who apart from his enthusiastic and happy go lucky exterior, cares the most about the people around him. Although Seokhyeong seemed detached and introverted, he shows a emotional side to his friends as well as his mother. Songhwa is literally a girlboss though haha she’s smart, capable and gets along with everyone well. And she’s the most sane out of the bunch. 

With all the main characters, we have the relationships. Junwan is the first to date seriously with Iksun (the dog or Micky? jkjk) who is Ikjun’s sister. When it first happened I was like not again Jung Kyung Ho (bc he dated his best friend’s sis in prison playbook too LMAO) I think their relationship was realistic and open. It also showed a more sensitive side to Junwan who would do anything for her. I especially liked how he said he didn’t need access to her phone because he trusted her. Yet as all couples do, they have their fair share of ups and downs. Like conflicts on getting married and a long distance relationship as Iksun moves overseas for graduate studies. I don’t really know how to take the ambiguous ending for these two, as Junwan receives the returned box (that has the ring he sent) I really hope nothing bad happens to these two though.

I’m sure we all love Wintergarden couple though, tbh they’re kinda my OTP at the moment 🤣 It was pretty much a ‘will they won’t they’ relationship with a relatively slow build. I think Gyeoul turned out to be one of my favourite characters. Shin Hyun Been did a good job at portraying her as a straightforward but innocent Resident, who is pretty much openly crushing on Jeongwon. The scenes they had together were adorably awkward (and the scene where he gives her chocopies omg) And when Jeongwon battles his inner conflict to become a priest, the final decision where they kiss was beautifully shot, with the actors both showcasing their emotions extremely well. 

Then we have Chihong who pursues Songhwa, his professor. Midway through the drama, it is also shown that Ikjun and Songhwa might have had romantic feelings for each other. Songhwa ends up rejecting Chihong’s confession. In my opinion, Chihong was quite a interesting character but I didn’t really like him at the end. (I like the actor though) He did a real jerk move during drinking games, insisting on Ikjun to confess his feelings towards her even though he is already trying not to put Songhwa in an awkward spot. Although his character did end up making a cool exit and when I thought about his incredible story of soldier to doctor, I kinda regret disliking him that much. As for IkSong, In the final episode Ikjun confesses to her one last time, and we are left waiting for Songhwa’s reply. As much as I love this pairing, I don’t think that the ship will sail or maybe not as quickly as we think. I believe Songhwa would meticulously consider the sacrifices to their friendship or other aspects and might not be able to bring herself to it, but I hope it’s otherwise. 

Lastly not forgetting Seokhyeong and Minha, another Professor+resident pairing. This one’s a bit ambiguous though, mainly because there hasn’t been much romantic development. To me, the most impactful scene came from Minha who had been irritated by continuous night shifts and was on the verge of a breakdown. She ended up remarkably saving a patient, starting off surgery on her own for the first time. Oh man Minha was such a lovable character, I remember feeling so bad for her but extremely proud of her for her accomplishment. Although Seokhyeong seemed a bit aloof and distant (which was intentional bc he’s an introvert) I think the backstory and all the hardships he faced with his family really made me feel for him. I hate to break it to you, but I’m not so sure if the ship will sail because of the phone call from his ex-wife and Minha’s somewhat rejected confession. But who knows, they might pull off a twist 👀

Apart from all these characters, there are more characters HHAHAH However, I think this is the killing point of ShinLee dramas. Unlike typical dramas which usually focuses on a main character and 2-3 side characters, they like to cast a diverse range of actors (especially those from theatre/musicals and lesser known drama/movie actors) while actually give their characters personality or a reason to be there. I’ve seen many dramas where extras or side characters were kind of irrelevant thus making me feel that they weren’t needed to build the storyline, yet ShinLee dramas hit different y’all. Every role, no matter how small, holds significance to the drama. It really seemed like a collaborative work that shows off every actors skills (and not forgetting staffs) and teamwork.

Anyways because there are way too many characters and too many scenes for me to mention them all, I’ll just talk about some honourable mentions heheh

1. Sunbin and Seokmin confession scene (ahh so cute)

I kinda sensed that they liked each other at the start but I didn’t know Seokmin would ask her out on a date at the end. Even though it’s kinda awkward that they are dating and working with each other though (both are in the same department) but hey the confession was cute and awkward and just warm and fuzzy 🥰

2. MAMA ROSA IS THE QUEENN

I think we all (would) love Mama Rosa because she’s a real one ☝️ (probably the coolest mother ever) She’s feisty, hilarious and kind to others. Plus her friendship with Ju Jong Su was just adorable and super wholesome. The scenes where they were supporting one another through tough times and hanging out with each other when they felt lonely always put a smile on my face. Oh and how Mama Rosa treated Gyeoul was extremely sweet. (as well as Seokhyeong’s mother) Despite her tough exterior, she’s a likeable character for being a strong but caring woman.

3. Just Do Jae Hak

I seriously love this guy so muchhh omg he’s so funny

Do Jae Hak has a funny amd clumsy personality, though it’s clear he’s been through a lot and is strong willed person. From admitting his indecisiveness to counselling Jun Wan on his love issues, there’s literally nothing to hate about him.

4. Uju and his dadd

The father and son chemistry between these two is so good omg. The scenes with these two are so adorable and heartwarming (not to mention hilarious) It’s amazing to see how Ikjun cares so much for Uju despite his hectic workdays while going through infidelity issues with his ex-wife. Uju is matured for his age and shows his love and appreciation for his dad too, making their interaction a great portrayal of a healthy family relationship💞

5. the food stealing the show🥘

Who doesn’t love food and when a show has great food scenes? Some of the best scenes are definitely when the 99s gather to eat. It really showcases each character’s personality with the tiniest details as well as highlight warm delicious meals. Just don’t watch this when you’re hungry at 2am in the morning guys you’ll be drooling all over your screens HAHAHA

Of course there are way more aspects, like Hongdo and Yoonbok, Ikjun and Iksun’s pigeon jokes and raps, or Jeongwon drunk crying in the chicken shop with his brother (who was his coach in Reply 1994 when he played Chilbong LOL)

Most importantly, I think it is the themes and messages that you get from the drama that really create such a lasting impression. Not only does it hit you in the feels with the hardships of hospital patients, or the hardworking doctors+nurses who are working long shifts saving lives, it also tackles topics of friendships through the possibilities of platonic and friends-to-lovers relationships. However I think the biggest lesson for me came from Seokhyeong, who learns to live his life doing what he want, with the people he treasures. Although the drama might seem slow at times (mainly because there isn’t really a main plot line/conflict occurring), but this drama would still bring you on a journey where you would laugh, cry and finish the series, begging for season 2 ✌🏻

[organic-guacamole]

showtime

episode 211 let's go

ok first of all, this is the second to last episode guys... I don't even wanna think about how much pain I'll be in after next week's episode

mr mazzara doing the recap-

this is so weird to me and I don't know why

WHY DIDN'T YALL JUST ASK BENJAMIN FOR HELP, THATS LITERALLY HIS THING

is Nini giving out the cards a callback to season 1 when Natalie Bagley said that Nini gave her a card or something on opening night of another musical?

STEPHY AS THE ENCHANTRESS OMG YES

Ricky in the crown gives me Harry styles in that photoshoot vibes

he's so pretty.

ok but why did we never see Ricky and Ashlyn interact before? it's been like 5 seconds and I already love how they bounce off each other and it's just so natural

OH THEY REALLY DON'T HAVE ANY UNDERSTUDIES-

well that explains a lot...

so Ricky fell on top of Ashlyn and all that broke for both of them was their wrist-

insert Jake Peralta *coolcoolcoolcoolcoolcool no doubt no doubt no doubt*

of course howie was amazing as the beast, were we expecting anything less??

Ricky is so beautiful and I will not shut up about it....

let me enjoy this before the makeup crew slaps mud on his face.

Nini and Ricky talking to eachother? in a civil manner? wasn't she avoiding him just in the last episode? hm ok

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH THEY CANT EXPRESS THEIR FEELINGS JUST LIKE ME HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS HILARIOUS, WHATS NEXT? THEY CUT EVERYONE OFF CUZ THEY CANT HANDLE EMOTIONS? ...ha

yes Kaden and Rico, my favourite east high boys 🥰

I mean....where's EJ?

THERE HE IS

EJ AND GINA IN THE BACKGROUND... doing something idek

KOURTNEY'S MOM IS BACK YAY

Howie is a shining star, ofc ofc

the smallest fOrk

can't wait to see the fork burst into song about how she deserves more than to be used to eat salad😌

the duster and the bluster.... ok😃

hi Gina!

hi- oh wow I didn't know Robbie Rotten was in this show!!!!!

the portwell look.

that my friends, is a married couple's look✋

GOSH EJ WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU

aww Gina's so excited for this

D word?

Die?

Delicious?

Dom Toretto?

"good, clean fun all alone with someone I dig...a lot"

sir that does not sound very clean to me

SEBLOS

Seb looks so cute standing there next to pope Carlos

DID THEYEY REALLY LIGHT ANTOINE ON FIRE-

I NEED TO SEE THAT

Seb's reading Carlos better than big red read the script in episode 102, this is great development after the "fight"

Kourtney really just made the best outfit for herself and let the rest of them suffer

the way Gina immediately goes to hold on to EJ after the announcement

"tonight we're going to put the U in UTAH"

...

"hey where are you from?"

"TAH"

SEB'S SINGULAR CLAP KILLED ME-

he's officially salt lake city's resident thanos

just wity clapping because for some reason I have a feeling he doesn't know how to snap his fingers...don't ask why

Ms Jenn do you mind encouraging your leads before the show? idk just an idea

pepto bismol product placement smhsmh

those flowers are bigger that big red himself-

*bops along to the opening theme*

that whistle at the end slaps everytime

WHY IS THE AUDIENCE SO MASSIVE

I guess they're all here to see Ms Jenn go on as a fork after Nini decides to *go her own way*

wow i am so funny

so they couldn't do many group scenes cuz of covid, but this 300 person crowd is cool? nice

OO THE VIOLIN GIRL FROM EPISODE 6 IS IN THE ORCHESTRA

HOWIEEEEEE

"Mr Caswell", he said, in the loudest voice possible while backstage at a show that's about to start.

Mazzara what are you trying to pull-

I usually like Benjamin but I don't like his tone

"iS yOuR wHoLe FaMiLy HeRe?" LIKE YOU DON'T ALREADY KNOW THATS A SOFT SPOT FOR EJ

"we've had some good conversations these past few weeks"

right so what's going to happen after you graduate?

what does he think of you not going to Duke?

what did he say about you giving the sweatshirt that's been in the family for 3 generations to a girl you're not even dating?

good old Mr. M

therapist Mr. Mazzara, they all need it.

start with Ricky though.

"Michael Bowen"

dude why did you shave, now you look less like "hot lumberjack" and more "creep at the gas station"

OH-

does she not like Mike anymore?

why does it sound like jennzzara started dating and now they just sit back and talk smack about everyone in their freetime

break the fourth wall-

uhhhh im scared

why am I scared

he's scary

hehe flowers for Ricky, obviously for Ricky, ObViOuSLY

oh boy poor Michael

this man is in love, rip

why does Ms Jenn always look at people with her eyes open so wide

LILYYYY

I'm only excited because I really like the idea of lily and Ricky being friends, nothing more.

ha this guy's got jokes

a MOAT AROUND THE SCHOOL

wheeze

also he's very pretty.

"the wolves and very talented humans"

how dare he forget to mention the very talented wolves and normal humans, smh erasure

"being nice, what a concept" ted talk by Lily who still doesn't have a last name

did she just say lol out loud

same with the hug emoji last episode-

go touch some grass babes

the way he didn't say no, but said he didn't know how the east high kids would react-

not saying he does want to date her but that's an interesting thing to think about, also another thing to write an essay analysis on just to leave it in my drafts for a few months

awww lily genuinely trying to help him

sorry guys, I've been taken by the Lily charm (didn't know it existed until now but oh well)

REMEMBER WHEN I SAID I'LL NEVER SHIP PORTWELL?

just look at me now

the Lily wink I can't she's so cute-

HELP ME I'M BEING HELD HOSTAGE BY LIL-

David Attenborough?

oh nvm it's Benjamin narrating the show in a really weird British accent for some reason.

STEPHY GOT MORE LINES YAY GOOD FOR HER

also is this to show that Nini doesn't care about being the star of the show anymore? the way she's supporting everyone else even though she's a fork?

I would pay for a special of the full musical ngl

OOO THE TRANSFORMATION WAS SMOOTH

shockingly

yo where did the makeup come from

man I wish I was a theatre kid

THIS IS STEPHY'S EPISODE NOW IDC✋

my girl is starring

"needs an X-factor"

Simon Cowbell creeps in

"it's a yes from me"

and them boom, he takes Nini and mistreats her horribly and then she comes back to theatre after deciding music isn't for her👍

"I thought she just hog-tied him?"

don't ask sebby, it's better if you don't know.

imagine they spotlight the wrong person and this dude is just some random person that likes writing down stuff during shows.

Ms Jenn just let them do what they rehearsed (at some point we never saw) or else this is gonna end horribly wrong

"help"

same Carlos, same

I love how seb is just his translator rn

I thought he said "great displeasure" instead of "greatest pleasure"....help?

big red coming out from throwing up to see his girlfriend star is the cutest thing in this show.

Ash and Gina dancing is so fun

I'm imagining them practicing at night at their home, watching the movie for the 100th time and making sure their one dance together is perfect

KOURTNEY YES

HOWIE IS IN LOVE AHHHH

I LOVE HOWIE SO MUCH

SEBBY

THIS SCENE HAS SO MUCH GOING ON I CAN'T KEEP UP

THIS IS SO GOOD

HOW???

no because I'm actually crying

I'm dead serious.

we need this musical released as a special

big red is so proud and I love to see it

Natalie: "if you do not by at least 20 dollars in concessions, you do not support art"

rando in the audience: "but I pay for ad free Spotify"

Mr Mazzara clapping in the distance

Gigi, the guy you like is talking to you, complimenting you and hyping you up

YOU LUCKY LITTLE FEATHER DUSTER

aw EJ teasing her about the chocolates in a way that doesn't make her feel bad? take notes Richard

JORDAN FISHER

there is no rest of the show idc Jordan is it for me

THE WIG CAP ON RICKY OMG

they look like they're high and having "deep" conversations on the floor

THE MEAN GIRL WITH THE EYES-

@sunshine-julie-molina YOU HEAR THAT

Natalie really just be coming for them all

Howie what is happening rn

I'm scared

"did you enjoy it"

"very much"

dude wants a kiss so bad

ASHLYN OMG

NO DON'T DO IT BECAUSE OF LILY, PUT YOUR OWN TWIST ON IT

I want a Jordan autograph please

just keep swim- oh pushing...

Gina is literally a giant next to him and I live for it

am I about to cry for the 3rd time in this episode?

yes.

Ricky's leg kicks under the table makes me so happy aw

the portwell glances will kill me.

ah yes, mashed potato snow

Mr. M.... I'm not a theatre kid but even I know you can't have your phone on backstage.

Howie please just do it

CHIP'S BIG LINE I CANT

I LITERALLY HAD TO PAUSE IT AMD SCREAM INTO MY MASK FOR A SOLID 2 MINUTES (I'm not at home rn) HES SO CUTE

oh ok bye Jordan

oo tea

NOT HIM BEING STARSTRUCK BECAUSE HE'S MEETING HIS FUTURE BROTHER IN LAW-

"we're all just glad Gigi has a big brother figure in her life"

excuse me for a few thousand hours while I laugh hysterically

THE CAMERA ZOOM ON EJS FACE AND EVERYTHING-

STOP EJ LOOKS LIKE HE'S GONNA CRY BUT I CAN'T TAKE HIM SERIOUSLY WITH THE STAGE MAKE-UP

someone else said this already but I think it's hilarious that they had to bring in 2 guest characters to create some portwell angst

omg this really is Cici's episode, found family is their thing

elevator music lol

I'm gonna bet that big red took the harness for his surprise for Ashlyn without realising what it was

did Ms. Jenn just....tell her most mentally unstable student....to commit suicide....on a disney show...was that....I'm very....well....what the actual-

oh and there she goes running off instead of trying to make it right

oh wow Nini's the hero, she's gonna save the show 🤩

😐

the judge is doing a sudoku

honestly if I went to the hsm show as well, I'd come prepared for this one too

Lily why are you looking like that-

I WAS JUST STARTING TO LIKE YOU DON'T MESS THIS UP

wow ok, there goes that.

omg

what if Howie was acting weird because he knew what Lily did and wanted to tell Kourtbut Lily threatened him so he was scared to-

anyways see y'all clowns next week when we all simultaneously lose all motivation for the week without Fridays to look forward to.

[lostonehero]

Can I please uh get mom Groundon and mom Kyogre

Maxie and Archie awaken the legends and they are female and automatically take Maxie and Archie in respectfully as their children

Background

Maxie had a very bad father who severely abused him his growth was stunted hence why he is so short his father also killed his mom

Archie had a great family but just with a single dad had all the support he could need or want

The legends give there blood to the respected men the consequences of which is them being turned to kids as there bodies try to compensate with the bodily changes

And they automatically adopt the two

Just because they are kids doesn't mean they forgot everything

Maxie is a mess because he panics that he is small again and everyone can see his scars again and he isn't strong enough he panics enough that he passes out as the legendary beast turns into a beautiful woman who picks up the little 5 year old body his admins are helpless and have no idea what to do but bring them back

Same thing happens with Archie however he doesn't panic and is annoyed amd screaming "I don't care what you are my God or not put me down." Amd he just pouts as Kyoger carries him amd his own team laughs at the absurdity

Now to the two legends they are the best moms but also they are extremely competitive

Tabitha and Courtney are trying to help Maxie but Maxie is too ashamed to be seen and hides to the point groudon herself is panicking

Archie being dragged there by kyoger finds Maxie hiding

"You have more scars them me and my scar on my face from Bruce is gone." He gives a scowl on his child face that seems out of place but drops it actually looking over Maxie. "Is this what you were like when you were little?"

"Yeah why? Going to make fun of me you pirate brute." Maxie hisses trying to curl into a tight ball

"We're suppose to be the same age you look like you're three.... oh " Archie seems to answer his own question. "Shit I didn't know probably shouldn't of made fun of your family."

Maxie sighs "leave me alone."

Archie scoffs "hell no we are stuck with legendary beasts who want to be our parents and we are also stuck in children bodies so no I think this calls for a truce."

Maxie already dissapeared without Archie realizing it.

"Maxie?" Archie realizes he is alone he finds out quickly that even though he has an adult mind his emotions are about as strong as a child's and he starts to cry.

This causes kyorger to find him and soothes him.

Groudon eventually finds Maxie who fights constantly to break free but is unable and just gives up by passing out from exhausting.

Basically they are like poor babies

Team magma and team aqua are now having a truce and trying to come up with more absurd excuses on why Maxie and Archie aren't there

Eventual hardenshipping

[wildflowerwattpad0217]

Avenging Riverdale: Riverdale x Avengers/ Sweet Pea x OC!Tony Stark’s Daughter. My Reaction After Completing it and A Year Of Working On It.

This will include spoilers to my fanfic her is the link if you want to read it:

Avenging Riverdale

Masterlist

One paragraph is one chapter.

(not a chapter) Im going to be honest, in my mind their are two sections of Avenging Riverdale. Before my Brain Surgery and after because if you have read my fanfic all the way though, Author Notes and all, you know that I had to stop writing Avenging Riverdale for awhile so that I could focus on healing from that.

A trigger warning, good. Two part cast. Prologue. Tally is in deep shit. Steve picked her up and took her hungover ass to the living room. To Riverdale she goes. The horrible fake screenshots. I stopped doing that though because I couldn't find one for a group chat. Her and Tony's fights are rough. She snuck out to a soup kitchen. I feel bad for abandoning that. Cap found out. Tony put a tracker on her. Wtf but they are getting along. Now the Avengers are worried tho. They are shook they are getting along. After her dad became Iron Man things went downhill in her life.

Welcome to Riverdale. 'Murcia is Cap's group chat name. Short Stark is Tally's and Deadpool just got in it. His is World's Biggest Cry Baby. Peter's explanation of how he knows Deadpool is the most Gen Z thing ever. MJ is Tally's Slut. Tally is MJ's Bitch. Hello Cheryl Blossom.

Bucky has been eating Tally's cereal. She's acting betrayed. Veronica is surprised she didn't kill him. She heard someone mispronounce her name. She corrected them. Betty Copper. Kevin Keller. Kevin is fan-girling. She has blueberries. Jade Keller. Jade is trying to hate on her and her family. Cat Andrews. Jade is dragging her by the wrist while Cat is acting like this is a completely normal thing. Andre Clayton. Jade and Tally would've made a great couple. God damn my crush on Malachi and Sweet Pea. Andre is questioning why Jade just kidnapped Thalia Stark amd why she's at Riverdale High. Tally is questioning why there are so many redheads.

Betty warning Tally about Jade. Song writing with her new friends, Jade, Cat and Andre. She's allergic to roses. She doesn't want to talk about her family problems. The Welcome Back Dance. Archie Andrews. Jade and Tally are dancing together. I swear to god my gay-dar is broken. She rejected Reggie Mantle.

MJ being possessive on insta. Thalia punched Reggie Mantle. It's so weird looking back and seeing Tally not know what's going on her mom. Bucky trying to be a supportive boo. The first mention of Nick St. Clair. Her telling Jade what happened. Jason Blossom's body being found.

Omg, I published chapter 5 for 100 reads. That seems so long ago now that the book is almost at 45k reads. Tony and Pepper are getting married.... I didn't get them married until Endgame. Tony and Tally are going to Pop's. She is not at liberty to answer the question of whether or not she jacker War Machine's suit just so he would do the macarena without a lawyer. Bucky, it's her job to make you feel old.

Hydra nightmare. She's talking to her dad about the nightmare. Then she was like now that we had a hard time going down to the basement to tinker. Whether she wants to admit her or not I wrote her a lot like her dad. Malachi. Malachi obviously cares about Tally. Malachi knows that Nick St Clair hurt Tally. They had sex. I'll be honest with you, I wasn't sure if in the end she was going to end up with Malachi or sweet pea at this point I was still debating it. Malachi kept her hair brush.

Tony just apologized to her for pushing. Jade just stole her for a minute. Malachi left hickeys. I love Tally and Bucky's relationship. Tally is Pepper's maid of Honor. Tony's cooking?

Jade now knows about Malachi. Veronica brought roses in his school and Tally starred sneezing. Tally telling Reggie I don't need the Avengers to kick your ass.

Kevin knows about Malachi now. Nat as chasing Bucky. I love how tally is a moderator for these little fights. Tony is going to spar with Tally, he's going to get his ass kicked so hard. Bucky that $50 on tally. Cap betted $50 on Tony saying that her emotions would get the best of her. Tally won. But Tony is blowing it off like oh I let you win. Thalia Stark got a pep rally who would ever see the day. Tally thinks her dad's hiding something from her. Jughead expected her to have a stick at her ass. I love tally I really miss writing her. It's because of lines like Tony Stark is my dad, iron Man's just suit that just really make me miss her.

That was really sweet and it almost made me cry I forgot I wrote that part. Cheryl just got arrested for lying. Tally proving her genius. Reggie asked her on a date.

The Avengers just found out she's going on a date, they're not exactly happy well, the male Avengers aren't especially since she punched the guy in the face. Pepper is getting emotional. Cap answered the door. Mantle is shook. After the date, he dropped her at home and closed the door before he had a chance to kiss her.

Reggie mantle trying to slut shame tally. She is pissed, she ran into that boy's locker room. She's threatening to expose his dick pics. Which he thinks that it matters that she's not in New York anymore when she's the one with all the security clearance and she's Thalia fucking Stark. The extra points she got just because Reggie met The Avengers. Everyone keeps reminding her murder is illegal. Tally wants to destroy his car, Nat is like go for it and everyone's like Nat, no do not influence her to do this. Rhodey it doesn't think Tony should be supporting her in this. She got her revenge. Mantle is pissed, just actually wanted it. Her dad had a screaming match with the principal.

Malachi is starting to miss her. Toni Topaz. Sweet Pea. Fangs Forgarty. FP Jones. Beck Oliver. And Sweet Pea's nickname is born, Sunflower. Toni loves her. Mantle tried to apologize, but it was a shit apology so she blew him off.

The drive-in is being bought. Malachi wants me to come over after school. Malachi asked her out. He's giving her time to think about it. Family dinner.

Really bad nightmare. Then she had a panic attack because of the nightmare. Tony got pops burgers for breakfast.

Malachi and tally are officially in a relationship. The meeting of the New York friends and the Riverdale friends. Her dad's wearing an iron Man onesie. Steve is wearing Captain America pajamas. Clint is wearing a big bird onesie. Her dad is leaving from New York tomorrow to present an invention and wants her to go.

She is staying in Riverdale. Her dad asked her to stay away from The lodges. Tally you telling off Cheryl. Steve you fucking snitch. Talking about Tally's pranks. Peter is worried about her.

The accords. Tony wants her opinion on it. She thinks it's the most stupid idea ever. The governor wants her to sign it but she's refusing to. He doesn't want her to sign it either. She knows more about her mother than he's talking about. Honestly it is so weird looking back at this and having her mom not being revealed like this.

The accords meeting. Tally just walked out of school to be there. Tony knows he fucked up.

Rest in peace Peggy Carter my queen. Yes Nick, help her stop the fight in a Target parking lot. Tally is such a mom. When tally even bosses the King around, threatening to reveal his internet browser history. She just compared them all the toddlers. She just met Ant-man. Ruby Lodge is her mother.

Ruby Lodge also happens to be Hiram Lodge's little sister. Tally was born in Riverdale. I really abandoned the UN plot line.

Her and Jade are going to sing at the variety show. Take A Hint for the audition tho with Mantle in the crowd. Josie wants to talk to her alone. Veronica is pissed she didn't her they were cousins. Dinner party at the Pembroke.

Deadpool. After the variety show her and Deadpool are on the roof eating chimichangas. She's helping Betty look for her sister. She's going to go clubbing with Veronica, Kevin, Jade, and mantle. Cap is really easy lie to. Malachi is there and he's cheating on her.

She called Malachi a dirty mouthed whore. She just got a package from the Ten Rings. PROJECT INTERMISSION. right now she's thinking Hydra in the 10 rings are working together. She can't go to Polly's baby shower because she's doing some investigating of her own.

Soup kitchen talking to the serpents. Tony just asked what's the tea. Tony has so much faith in his daughter taking over Stark industries it's so sweet. Her and Cheryl are starting over because tally gave her some really good advice about being a female daughter getting ready to become a CEO.

Another letter from the 10 rings. Chuck is back. Jugheads surprise party. I forgot I put Cat's bibble addiction in here. The ones that watched Victorious will know what I'm talking about. I think Tally's birthday present is the best one he is received for a while. Cheryl wanted to know about the scars on her back during the game of secrets and she even it was like exposed herself basically she really didn't care though. To the Southside with Sweet Pea.

They really want to challenge Tally at call of duty. They're playing never have I ever. Toni knows about what happened.

Her mom was a serpent, and she went to the serpent's for help. Everyone is surprised that tally is a serpent by blood.

Her father told the truth. Jade scares Joaquin. That's cute, Sweet Pea thinks he can be tally in a game of pool.

She won. And sweet pea is confused why she is open about almost everything but her ex. They had sex. Tally is saying that they can't date because of everything that's going on and she doesn't want to put him in danger. Tally is in deep shit.

Tony and Tally had a big fight. Tony's kind of suspicious of tally right now because she's been acting off. Steve heard something about project intermission. Tally is terrified that Hydra is going to kidnap her.

They're still asking about project intermission. FP was just arrested for the murder of Jason blossom. They're holding an intervention for tally because they're worried about her. Malachi what are you doing there I don't remember this.

He regrets cheating on her. Malachi can read her like an open book. The blackmailed him into cheating. Tally just save Fred's life I forgot that's how she gets kidnapped. Alice Cooper is Thalia's godmother. She's dead. I wrote this and I'm about to cry. Someone stole the body. Project intermission.

Tony freaked out at the mention of the 10 rings. She's alive. The Avengers are finding out what happened with Nick St Clair.

Jade really just spilled everything to them I mean I would too if meant getting my best friend back but still. Tony went to go see Malachi. Malachi said he was more afraid of tally than he is of Tony. But he's still told him a lot.

Tally has powers. Thalia is so sarcastic I love her. Tally was able to send a message to them. By the time they got there the Hydra base was in flames and she was walking out of it. They forced her to go to the hospital where everyone was waiting. Tony tried to keep her in her in the hospital room but she was like no❤️.

The sexual tension between her and Sweet Pea tho. Interview by Sheriff Keller. Welcome home party. The Whyte Wyrm. Sweet Pea wants a slurpee. Toni accidentally ate a weed brownie.

Fangs has skittles in his jacket? FRIDAY you sassy AI. Movie night code red. Tangled vs The Conjuring. Nat has Thor in a choke hold. I always forget that Rapunzel's name translates to Lettuce. They all suggest movies and fight it out. First one is Sweet Pea vs Tally. I FORGOT I BROKE THE FOURTH WALL. Tally won. Tony is having a talk with Sweet Pea. Tally doesn't think Hydra is done. Imma be honest I don't remember most of this because the close it get to when I had my surgery the more fucked my memory became.

Reggie is calling her the walking dead. Swalia date. This is going to be adorable.

The memes tho. They ended up watching Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Things got heated then Tony texted tally. Her and her dad ended up working on the Impala when she got home. Tally told Reggie to fuck off. Her adoption papers came in so that she will legally be Pepper's kid. Archie's an idiot.

I love Pepper. Sweet Pea and Tally are officially dating. Jade and Kevin are freaking out. Her dad is freaking out not like Jade and Kevin. Cat is pissed at her brother. Bulldogs and Serpents showed up. Jade, Cat, Veronica and Tally stopped the fight. She headed to Sweet Pea's.

My fake insta posts were the best. Beck, Fangs and Sweet Pea just got arrested. Nick St Clair is coming to town. Mantle vandalized her locker. Apparently the same thing happened to her mom. She's not going to talk about Nick St Clair.

Tally telling Archie to keep an eye out for Nick St. Clair. Date night with Sweet Pea. He took he took her their hideout. She's contemplating filing a police report on Nick St Clair. They had sex in a treehouse.

Nick St. Clair is back. Veronica doesn't know shit. She finally told her dad. She going to report him. She told Veronica. Veronica confronted him at the party and now everyone at the party knows. She went to SVU. Then she went to MJ's.

They are going to arrest him at the open house. He has been arrested.

No more secrets? Holy shit. She now knows Alice Cooper is her God Mother. Really Tony? Why did you call her out in front of everyone? You could've just talked to her. He wants her to see a therapist. St Clair had a bail hearing. No bail. Southside High was raided. When he only like Sweet Pea because he's taller than Cap. Tally didn't realize it. Drag Race. Malachi vs Tally. Bucky is so chill about it.

(So Chapter 47. Is the where you guys find out that I am having surgery) Sweet Pea finds out about Malachi. Sweet Pea feels betrayed, angered. They're having a fight. Sweet Pea is afraid that because she kept this one secret EX from him the next thing you know she'll be cheating on him. Tally just told him I don't want anyone else. They said I love you. The drag race. Tally won fair and square but Malachi still thinks she cheated. Tony scheduled the appointment.

Apparently you can't teach Thor how to cook. Tally isn't allowed in Asgard. Tally just called Vision a toaster. And in response Tony said don't call your little brother a toaster.

Family dinner. Everyone is there. Sweet Pea just got there. Thalia is the moderator. Nick Fury scares him. They are grilling him. Mario Kart tournament. Cap won.

Sweet Pea sending her bad pick up lines. MJ approves. Jughead asked for a favor. FP is getting out of prison.  Sweet Pea and Tally are talking about their future. (This is the last chapter I published before my surgery)

FP's retirement party. Tally inviting Sweet Pea to the Avenger's Christmas party and New Years Eve party and everyone else.

Her first appointment. Afterwards she went to the Wyrm. FP wants to talk to her. Tally has a spare key.

Social media special.

Trial of Nick St Clair. He lost.  Southside High has been shut down. Jade's period is late. Jade is pregnant. Welcome to Riverdale High Southside Serpents. Mantle being a dick.

The uniforms. Message from Hydra, her mom is alive.

She's known. (Srry, this is when my short term memory was hell so I don't remember it.) Her mother is a hydra agent and was using Tony. She even talked to her when she was kidnapped. FP isn't happy that Ruby lied to them all.

Sweet pea trying to stand up for tally when Jughead was trying to use her Fame for peaceful protest now that's awesome but Tally's okay with this because it's a peaceful protest and something she agrees with and told him it's okay. They bugged his trailer. They have the tesseract from Odin's Vault testing against Tally's blood panel. It keeps calling her name.

Even though they told her not to tell sweet pea she did. Peaceful protest. The statue had no head the next day and tally woke up with a fever, despite the super soldier serum. And she has a fever. Bruce thinks it's because of the tesseract because they have similar energy they're fighting dominance. Next day she's feeling better, and is being questioned by the sheriff.

Foreshadowing much. She's realizing that she was born to her mother just become hydras soldier. Tally's idea is that well her mom's playing chess they have to play poker. Sunnyside is getting evicted.

Her mother is at the Wyrm. Hello Ruby Lodge. That was intense. Tally just thanked Pepper for being her mom. FP trust her.

Veronica's confirmation. Jughead and Betty found the head. Back at the Wyrm. Tall boy was the one who did it. Going to Lodge Lodge.

I think that's an accurate description of Cheryl. Jughead had to reassure them that everything was fine. The Jughead Veronica kiss. They get to stay in Sunnyside trailer park.

Hiram Lodge bought the Riverdale register. The break-in. They decide to go after tally instead of Veronica because you know she's a Stark. That was a mistake because they isolated her and her room and she was able to overpower one of them and take their shotgun away. She also paged her dad. Hiram Lodge owns pops. Ethel dumped a whole strawberry milkshake on Veronica. Reggie being a dick. Ruby Lodge broke into sweet peas trailer talk to him.

Ruby wants to make a deal. Basically what happened with Malachi where he cheated to protect his sister. Ruby said she wants to make sure her daughter is dead inside. Cheryl's missing. Sweet pea has been distant. Sweet Pea is drinking away sorrows. And he cheated to protect his little sister and his mom.

Jade slapped him. Tony is there. Fangs sent her a photo of Sweet Pea cheating. She's questioning everything. The Avengers want to kick his ass. She went to his trailer. Swalia is over until they get their shit together. Carrie The Musical.

She went to Malachi. She went there for help but they ended up sleeping together. They agreed to be one time thing. The plan started, Malachi would pick her up from the musical the opening night. Ruby stopped them, saying she would kill Malachi if she didn't go with her. into which Malachi admits that he still loves her. But she loves sweet pea. The tranqed her and she woke up in a chair. 5 months later she was in Sweden by herself safe and sound. What you saw an article about Archie Andrews being questioned for a murder. And she thought she might have evidence for it or could get it so she's going back to Riverdale. Then flashback 5 months ago Tony's point of view, Malachi showed up to the school after Midge was murdered. Tally is prime suspect right now. She killed a hydra agent. Then 5 months later. Tony is a pops when he sees his daughter walk in with blonde hair.

She got lectured from Steve about running off for 5 months. She wants to tent city. Her and Sweet Pea had a good to talk. Ruby Lodge.

She just wants to talk. Ancient Norse prophecy. Tony asked Thor and he gulped. There is a prophecy and Thor and Loki believe it to be about Tally. Odin agrees. In the final battle she dies. Thornhill.

Ghoulies. Malachi questioning Penny Peabody's motives and then putting the fear of Tally. Jughead wondering what that was about. The iCarly reference though. "If you ever do that again you're grounded for... Till college." "For till college?" "For till college!"

(So the reason I kind of stopped doing the Instagram post was because after my surgery I kind of just lost all creative initiative to do it.) The video tally turned in was ruled of questionable origin. Thalia Stark is under arrest. I don't remember this plot line. They don't have a very solid case. Matt Murdock, Tally's lawyer, wants to push the case to New York. Charges were dropped thanks to Nicholas fury. Archie pleaded guilty, Malachi is leaving. He wants to see her before he leaves. Tally told him he would hold a special place in her heart. Riverdale high, next day.  They want to get Hiram Lodge arrested.

Sweet Pea and Tally are talking about what happened and Tally finally said what's been running through her head. Thalia is Jade's child's godmother. She told Jade about the prophecy.

Tony is acting weird at The mention of a game that hit Riverdale. Ghoulie hideout with Penny and Ruby. She scared the shit out of Penny Peabody. Veronica's grand opening. Tally is willing to let Sweet Pea try to earn her trust back. They kissed... No, they had sex. The manual.

Flashback episode. Secrets and sins. tally roasting her father. Ruby and Hiram arguing. The Ascension party. Tony basically explained everything to his daughter.

Sweet peas playing the game that Tony told her not to and she asked him not to. She said if you can please playing the game the deal is off so he said well done the deal is off and walked out. She's heartbroken. Archie prison fight club. Since tally is the closest thing they have to a trained doctor she is the one that's going to be at the bunker ready to patch Archie up. sweet peas apologizing. Starting Hiram lodges case.

Swedish Mafia. Sheriff Minetta grilling Tally. Casino night. Sweet pea and her hooked up again. Sweet Pea asked her on a date. After good advice my father she accepted it. When he came to pick her up Tony threatened him saying you already cheat on my daughter again I'm going to kill you which I think is Fair. After a good date he asked tally to be his girlfriend again. She said yes.

Cap wanting her to join RROTC. Not tally paying for Fangs mom's hospital bills. According to Pepper Starks are caffeine dependent insomniacs. Tally had cancer. Thor smashing a toaster. Cheryl the bitch.

Tally helping Sweet Pea study for SATs. Hiram got shot. Fangs is back in the Serpents. FP is Sheriff. Ruby Lodge. Half-sister Alicia von Strucker.

Sweet Pea is worried. Alicia meeting Sweet Pea. Jade's water broke. Thalia regrets not being there for Jade. She gabe her sister a nickname. Captain America Fitness Challenge. To the hospital to see her god child. Violet Thalia Oliver.

Alicia is 100 percent Ruby's daughter. Josie tried to ask sweet pea to go to her mom's wedding with her, Sweet Pea denied. Thalia defending her sister to the Avengers. The Pretty Poisons beat up Sweet Pea and Fangs. Tally rushed over to the Jones trailer where she had a run kn with Jughead's mom. She doesn't like Starks. Jughead now knows about her prophecy. Tally meet Jellybean and calls her an adorable human being. Jellybean fangirling. Jughead trusting Thalia with his life.

Jughead's mom being skeptical af. Tally didn't trust her. Chemistry Lab break in. Jughead asked her to help deal with it, as a favor. Kurtz just called her Malachi's ex-bitch. Sweet Pea is pissed but Tally's got it. After a little violence. She's going to go call Malachi. He gave some food advice. She made Jughead promise something. She caught Kurtz trying to kill Fangs. Jughead made her let him go. Sister bonding time.

Alicia's life story. The Gargoyle King sent her a message. Tally is keeping it a secret from Sweet Pea. FPs 50th.

HEATHERS PART 1. Call from Detective Benson, telling her Nick St. Clair is getting released because of 'overcrowding'. The Avengers are pissed, so is Sweet Pea. Tally is playing Veronica Sawyer. Alicia came to see her sister at rehearsal and brought her a red bull. Party. Okay, I'll admit that was a bad pun. Big Fun. She was tipsy for a second because of Asgardian beer. She steps outside, Ruby is there. She threw up on her biological mother's shoes. Tbh I tried to put more references to the musical in here. Dead girl walking. Practice next day. Everyone finding Nick St. Clair got released and them being pissed. Cheryl wants to castrate him, Reggie agrees. Que Nick St. Douchebag's entrance.

HEATHERS PART 2. When I published part 2, Chadwick Boseman passed away. Rest in Power. Sweet Pea and Archie holding her back but everyone who know exactly what happened was ready to beat his face in. Nick called Tally a ticking time bomb. He mentioned the prophecy. Tally threatening him. Tally has some explaining to do. Her going to Sheriff Jones to get a restraining order. Tally shading Steve. Seventeen. Dr Stephen Strange saved her life. Alicia texted her to meet her. She gonna blow up the school. Alicia cuffed her in vibranium cuffs, she called Shuri. Dead Girl Walking Reprise (What a bop tho) Kevin met her at the door she told him to evacuate the building as silently as possible. Boiler room. The fight for the gun. Alicia was dead. She was able to deactivate the bomb. She went outside where everyone was waiting and trying to calm Sweet Pea and Tony down. Then she saw Ruby and saw red. FRIDAY record the convo. Tally just said it's over amd told her mom to fuck off. Ruby is pissed because it's not her ending. Tally just walked away and kept walking. I'mma be honest these are my favorite chapters.

Since the funeral, tally isolated herself in a depression. Now she has a text from an unknown person to meet her at Sweetwater River. Chic. Malachi came to see her. They had a good talk, he made her realize some things.

Cheryl preaching the farm agenda to tally who's just trying to grieve her sister. So she gives Cheryl a verbal SmackDown. Toni being pissed about it. Tally doesn't want to go to prom, so instead she wants to take sweet pea on a date in New York. Betty's dad's prison bus exploding. Veronica being confused on why they would miss prom. I'm telling explains it she's like well I know when that used to be your preferred choice of setting. He's asking him to move on after the prophecy is complete and she's dead.

Veronica's Pop deed is fake. Veronica wants Tally to fight her father. Tally is unsure about it, she could kill her dad with a single punch. Toby agrees the best bet us Tally. Archie taking the ring with Hiram, could possibly get Archie killed. Fight night. He broke her nose. Tally did more damage to him of course. Hiram Lodge has been arrested. When her family and sweet pea find out that she was the reason Hiram Lodge got arrested in the first place. They were starting to get ready to go into business together and tell you didn't want Lodge industries to fuck over Stark industries. When she figured out moves from Avatar to last Airbender and legend of Korra. Her mom escaped from prison.

Avengers discussing protection for tally. Package for tally. Thalia Stank. It was from the gargoyle King but she played it off in front of the Avengers and just left. To go to the hunting cabin of the blossoms. Her mom is there. Time for the final quest. The first one is for Archie the grizzled beast. I love tally. Because when Archie says oh crap, she says I think you're allowed to say fuck in this situation. Archie wins though. Tally had to play Russian roulette to get her in with the swedish Mafia. The next task is for Veronica. All the chalices were poisoned so Betty and Veronica are both poisoned.

Tally's turn. The assassin card. Battle of Blood. Biological mother vs daughter. Thalia killed her biological mother. Jughead's turn. He had won. And finally Betty's turn. She shut off her dad's fingers. After Penelope give the order to kill them all Thalia made a giant barrier with her powers. The farm ascended, leaving Kevin behind. The Avengers were shocked about what happened.

Filler chapter. Therapist appointment. Pop's with her dad. Tally remembering. Sweet Pea checking on her. Sweet Pea wants to run away with her, maybe run away from all of it but tally knows she can't. Then the next week tally knew the prophecy would be complete.

The beginning of infinity war. Dr strange. Wong knows about the prophecy while doctor strange doesn't. Tony just trying to protect his daughter. Tally got knocked unconscious. Bruce woke her up, Tony and Peter Parker are in space trying to save Doctor strange and keep the time Stone out of thanos's hands. At the compound talking about what to do. Tally knows someone.

Tally dreaming of the infinity Stones and seeing Thanos. Shuri. Things have entered the atmosphere. Tally's iron daughter suit. The fight has begun. Cap saying fuck. Thanos is coming for vision. Telling us what's happening to the stones right now. She bloodbended Thanos but the Avengers couldn't get to Thanos quick enough to get the glove off so he snapped. They lost. Tally is gone and so is half of the universe.

Nat is regretting not getting to Thanos quick enough to get to the glove off of him while tally bloodbended him. Tony found out that she's able to bloodbend. Tony passing out. Going to go kill Thanos. Nat and Thor explaining Thalia to Rocket. Thor went for the head.

5 YEARS LATER. Natasha's point of view. Meeting, Barton murdering people, Steve stopping by. She's remembering tally, reminiscing with Steve. Scott Lang. Quantum realm. Tony's point of view. Morgan Stark. Them telling the plan to Tony. Him thinking it's risky. Tony is salty about the fact that if they were close enough when tally bloodbended than Thanos they could have been done they could have won but they lost. Scott's trying to play with his heartstrings, mentioning tally, his first born daughter.

Bruce banner/hulk talking about the time travel thing . Tony's POV. While washing dishes he looks at a photo thinking of his daughter, tally. He decided he has to do it to see her again. He figured out time travel. Pepper finding out you figured out time travel. He's going to do it. Natasha's POV next morning. Scott time traveling going wrong. Steve POV. Walking outside seeing car pull up. Cap getting his shield back. But there's something Tony has to do before he gets to work.

He went to go see Malachi. He want to let Malachi know that there was hope. Malachi gave him a flash drive of Tally's research guy she entrusted him with five years ago. Clint testing the time travel machine worked. When Tony opened the flash drive he realized that a lot of it was mapped out for him already. Tally made a video titled if we lost. Time travel time. New York 2012. Time Stone.

Tony's POV, then Steve's POV. Not Steve saying hail Hydra. Tony's POV. Scott giving 2012 Tony a heart attack. Tesseract sliding to Loki. Steve POV. "That is America's ass" I think that's all I have to say for that part. Bruce's POV. Him telling her that Strange gave it away. She gave him the time stone. Tony POV. Deciding to go to New Jersey.

1970. Tony's point of view. Tony seeing his dad and getting the tesseract. Steve's point of view. Getting Hank Pym to run down the hallway. Tony's POV. Talking to his dad. Avengers compound. Natasha was gone. Grieving Natasha. Making the gauntlet, Thor going to stop his fingers then stop him Bruce snapping his fingers. It worked. Then disaster struck a missiles blew away the Avengers compound. Thanos sat waiting for the Avengers. Thanos vs Steve, Thor and Tony. Tony getting knocked out. Steve POV. Picks up Thor's hammer. Everyone is back. Tally is back.

Tally POV. Tally and Tony reuniting. Female team up without Nat. Tally took the stones before he could snap."You are so fucked." She turned to dust. Tony's POV. She started glowing. He grieved. Sweet Pea is at Stark Tower. He found out she sacrificed herself. The funeral. Tally is alive.

The scene with death. When Tally woke up she didn't remember anything. Everyone is shocked. Wanda jogged her memory. She explained everything. She met Morgan.

Graduation. Tally's POV. She was the valedictorian. She's going to MIT. Sweet Pea proposed. When she graduated, taking on Stark industries, she made sure it was clear the weapons will never be apart of Stark Industries again. When Sweet Pea and Tally got married she found out she was pregnant. Sweet Pea's name is this is Nathan Mantle. In the end they had 3 kids. Nick St. Clair got killed by the Swedish Mafia. She is the Iron Daughter.

Overall, I'm going to admit I don't remember writing half of this story because of my brain surgery and I was working on it during this. I love this story, it is my first time reading it all at once but I am partial to it because I worked on it for almost a full year and is the first Riverdale x Avengers crossover fic on wattpad. There is somethings I was contemplating, like who she was going to end up with, if she was going to die in the first snap or not. I was also going to do a part where she goes into hiding with Harley from Iron Man 3 and works as a waitress in a little diner as a cover, saying she's Harley's cousin, wearing a wig and contacts but I felt that'd make the story too long. But there are a few things I'm iffy about so 9/10.

[theladylovingcrow]

Forever (Sanny)

Author (As known on Various sites): Lady Lover- Rockfic, Luluthechoosingcrow - AO3, theladylovingcrow - Deviantart and Wattpad, @sammy_bluebells - Instagram, @imacrowcawcaw - main Tumblr, @theladylovingcrow - writing/art Tumblr, @insannywestan - Sanny shipping Tumblr

Fandom: Greta Van Fleet

Pairing: Sam Kiszka/Danny Wagner

Length: about 2.7k

Warnings/tags: hurt/comfort, getting together, first kiss, mild angst, very sappy, happy ending

Summary: "He knew his neck was glowing like the coals of their nightly summer bonfires, but Sam's eyes matched the elation he felt at the prospect of being best friends but so much more. His bestie, his beloved Sammy, the holder of his heart - they were entering a new chapter of their lives going forward from this moment."

Author's Notes: I have been working on this piece for awhile, slowly building on the events of the story within it's hour timeline, but also working on my style as a writer; I think I finally have something worth sharing here. Its short, and similar in a way to the lovely story ("Beautiful") my dear friend @satans-helper posted, but I am very happy with it and I hope everyone enjoys. And thank you, Zara, forever (ha) my bro, my writing peer, an incredible force of imagination and inspiration improving me and my work. For you, dear!

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Danny dropped everything and opened his arms when Sam came running to him.

His face was a blur, half obscured by his curtain of hair so Danny couldn't discern his expression, but the air around him eminated a grey sadness. Sam breathed out and wrapped his arms around him, clinging like it was the end of the world; face buried in his neck, only nestling further when Danny asked him what the matter was.

So Danny held him close, stroking his hair and his waist, determinedly, as if he could protect Sam's thin body from whatever he was running from with his own. He swayed them in a gentle motion, shooshing Sam and hopefully comforting him, while he ran the list through his head of whom he might have to kill.

After a while, Sam seemed to let loose some of the tension he had been holding in his shoulders. Danny asked him again, "What's the matter, Sammy? Are you okay?"

"Nothing's wrong, I just wanted a hug," Sam said flatly, pulling back.

The lie was palpable, even more so because of his ragged appearance betraying the turmoil inside. Sam's eyes were downcast and rimmed with red, focusing on the shoulder where his nose had been resting moments ago instead of Danny's face. Danny noticed his drained palor, as if all the life and joy that usually eminated from Sam was replaced with lead. That lead seemed to travel to his own stomach, smoking stack puffing out a concern that filled him to the brim: his Sammy was hurting.

"Nothing needs to be wrong for you to want a hug. But, are you okay?"

Sam sighed. He looked as if he was debating whether to tell Danny his problem, but, the matter was decided on its own when Danny gently brushed his hair behind his ear and tilted his head up, catching Sam's sad eyes.

"She left me, Danny. I don't know why. I went out to get us dinner - Vietnamese, and when I came back she was just in this- this rage. Something about me always being distracted and thinking about other things instead of her, but I don't know what I did. I just... I don't know what it was that I did."

Sam looked like he was about to break, both his heart and the wall holding his tears back cracking like old, brittle porcelain. Danny hugged him again, letting Sam sag against his chest as he shakily breathed out, obviously fighting back the waterworks.

"She said that I needed to prioritize her and our relationship more," Sam's voice came, muffled from his shoulder. Unproportionately large hands tightened around his hips. "I spend too much time with other people, and too much time with you. She says I'm obsessed with you. She thinks that- I'm in love with you! And that it would be better for both of us if she just left since I obviously don't love her enough. So she did."

Sam was crying in gasping sobs, finally breaking down and letting the waters flow without concern. Danny held him through it, calming and supporting him while pondering all the while at the situation; Sam's girlfriend had just dumped him because she thought Sam was in love with his male best friend instead of her, that being himself.

Still holding a sniveling - and now shivering - young man in his arms, Danny moved them over to the brown leather couch in the corner, trying to sit down with Sam heavily leaning on him. He wanted to manipulate them so that Sam was sitting next to him with Danny's arms around his shoulders, but Sam didn't budge, basically going down on top of Danny when he sat.

Danny decided to let him stay there, pulling Sam onto his lap more so he wouldn't fall off; it wasn't like he minded, all things considered. Sam needed comfort, so he was going to provide it the best way he knew how.

"Why didn't you want to tell me?" Danny asked, hesitantly, after awhile.

He wasn't trying to interrogate Sam, or seem offended, but he was desperately curious; this situation was bringing up old emotions Danny had always pushed away before. The thought of having Sam like a lover had skipped across his brain several times, but there had never been anything remotely serious or seemingly plausible about it. Until now.

Sam sniffed and lifted his head, looking at Danny with large, cool, brown eyes. He ran his hand over Danny's shoulder, worrying a lip inbetween his perfectly aligned teeth.

"Because I'm scared."

"Of what? You know I'll always support you and be here for you."

Sam's face twisted slightly, as if to say 'You don't know that, and I don't think I can believe it.'

Despite the heartache at the disbelief being expressed, Danny tried another angle. "You'll find another girl, one who really loves you and encourages your life like I know you tried to encourage her's. And she'll be so, so lucky to have you."

"Will you really stay with me, forever?" Sam asked, sounding almost like a child asking for love.

Danny nodded eagerly; an eternity with Sam was the only heaven he could ever desire.

"What if I told you that I don't want another girlfriend?"

"Then you don't need to get one. That's not gonna make me leave you. Nothing will. And why would I leave you for being single, that's ridiculous!"

Sam sat up straighter, looking Danny directly in the eyes with some sort of terrified fiercness that made him sweat with the intensity.

"But I don't want to be single, either. What if I said that I think she's right? What would you do?" He pressed, advancing on Danny until their foreheads were an inch from colliding.

Danny furrowed his brow and tapped his hands against Sam's shoulder bones, mulling it over. He understood what Sam was trying to convey to him. The essential question was, what did he want? Was he prepared to pour the last few drops of his love that were not already watering Sam onto him, and to have that returned?

The sentiment still stood strong, like he knew deep in his soul it always would.

"I'm not leaving you. We'll work it out together, and everything'll be okay."

Sam started crying again, shoulders drooping. He leaned forward onto Danny, clinging to his arms and sobbing into his sweater. Danny kissed his temple and let Sam ride it out; he was in obvious need to process the abundance of emotional events occurring in this short hour of his life.

It was an exhilarating and surprisingly welcomed notion, the thought of Sam being in love with him. Or, as much as he could be certain of in the moment, Sam having an attraction that was strong enough to be noticed by his now ex-girlfriend and tear them apart.

He hadn't thought that any other human would have been able to interfere with their dynamic; but, perhaps, he owed a thank you to this particularly catalyst who had managed to wedge herself into one of the few openings in the Kiszka-Wagner stronghold and then tear herself out again, gluing it closed behind her. Then again, she had made Sam cry more than Danny had seen in years, so, in all likelihood, he was never speaking to her again.

Danny knew that he and Sam had always been close, closer like all of them were closer than most brothers or best friends. After all, what siblings chose to spend every second of their lives in each other's presence years after not being obligated to? Not many. The love they all had for one another was what drove them along the road just as much as the music; it bound them together as a family deeper than blood or circumstance. It was written in the very essence of their beings.

Danny loved Josh and Jake more than anything: they truly were his brothers and his best friends in the whole world, and he would be completely lost without them in his life.

And, yet, Sam and Danny's relationship was different - somehow running even deeper, it sometimes seemed. Sam was very much so his kin, but also more. They understood each other at such a basic level that they had soaked each other up, built a bridge spanning from one chest to another, and, the pieces of Danny's soul that Sam now possessed, he could never get back - it was perhaps why it pained them to be apart for long: the gaping, desperate feel of incompleteness that couldn't be remedied until their partner was back at their side, putting each other back together.

Sam was Danny's brother, true. But he was also his rock, his muse, his soulmate and his heartbeat. Then was it any wonder to himself that Danny wasn't bothered by Sam being supposedly in love with him? That Danny would be more surprised to find he didn’t feel the same way--more surprised

to find he didn’t love Sam--than he would be if he were told he could make love to Sam

tonight?

It felt right to him, in this moment with Sam on his lap. It was right, the most correct amd true thing in the world - as it surely felt that way to Sam. They belonged together like they always knew, just maybe more intimately than anticipated by their younger selves.

Danny started speaking - slowly, at first, sharing his thoughts on the matter with Sam. He spoke softly and continued petting Sam the entire time, treating his other half with the tenderness he deserved, especially in the situation. The revelation that the lurking feelings which had resided in himself were, apparently, reciprocated might have come and swept them both away on a tidal flood of love, but the fact that Sam had just been rudely dumped was also still present in his demeanor.

Though, much of the fog had lifted, Danny was glad to observe; Sam was practically glowing, even the tears still in his eyes glittering like diamond rings. He had his hands hooked around the back of Danny's neck, underneath his hair, lightly pressing his fingertips to the pulse on the side of Danny's neck and matching his breathing to it.

Danny watched Sam's skinny chest rise and fall against his shirt, slowing to a calmer, steadier beat as the last of the sniffles subsided. He stroked Sam's cheek with the back of his hand, wiping away the sad residue still upon it and smiling when Sam nuzzled into the affectionate touch.

"I've always loved you, you know that?" Sam opened his eyes and smiled softly at Danny, tenderness shining out every pore of his already glowing complection.

Danny nodded and cupped Sam's face, studying him. He was glittering with love and satisfaction, not even dimmed by the deep tiredness that often resulted from crying one's heart out, though it showed in the bags beneath his eyes. Sam was perfect; crystalline beauty painted onto the vessel that housed Danny's own soul, that had full access to his heart and mind yet never mistreated the power.

"I love you, too. Since I first met you. I'll love you until forever."

"Forever," Sam repeated. "Sounds nice, doesn't it? You and me, together."

He shifted on Danny's lap, twisting his torso to fully face him. Sam tugged lightly on the hair at Danny's temple and grabbed the back of his head, bringing him closer until their skulls were touching.

"I hate to admit it, but she was totally right. I think about you a lot."

Sam blushed high on his cheekbones and rubbed his fine-boned nose against Danny's, lashes fluttering closed against his pink skin so he couldn't make eye contact. Danny knew, now that his tears had dried and the emotions had been hashed out, that Sam would revert back to a slightly more 'Sam-like' manor; more fiery and less contemplative, more bold action and less heartfelt words, needing some prompting from Danny to open up.

Danny wasn't bothered by Sam's nature, though. He knew now that Sam loved him, had even known before when Sam would make some brash joke and flick his eyes back to Danny to see if he liked it. Sam's affection was in his small touches, his attention to details, his fierce loyalty, and how he gave himself up completely, heart and soul, to what he loved, though he was loathe to admit it.

Danny was his opposite; attracted to Sam's absolute confidence in themselves and everything he knew, as opposed to Danny's own careful, almost too gentle nature. It was why they worked - in every sense of the word - so well together, and why Sam opened himself up to Danny despite his dislike of being vulnerable.

"This is gonna be fun," Danny grinned, squeezing Sam's thigh with one hand.

Sam raised an eyebrow, silently asking for elaboration.

"I mean, we're already together, like, all the time, and I always have fun cause I'm with you. Now we can do all that, but then we can, like, cuddle in bed and kiss at the end of the day and stuff. And I'm happy, since we get to do this now. Together, like you said."

He knew his neck was glowing like the coals of their nightly summer bonfires, but Sam's eyes matched the elation he felt at the prospect of being best friends but so much *more.* His bestie, his beloved Sammy, the holder of his heart - they were entering a new chapter of their lives going forward from this moment.

Danny wasn't scared of the coming changes; he was looking forward with barely contained glee. He didn't know what forest the path of his future forged through, but he did know that, as long as Sam was walking next to him, he could hike up the highest mountain and come out unscathed.

"Danny...."

Sam called him back to their mutual plane of existence with a soft breath of his name and a slightly chilled hand on his cheek. He rubbed their noses together again then tilted his head to the side, gently squeezing Danny's face as two soft, tentative, parted pairs of lips met in a sweet first kiss.

That small contact - so close to many things they had shared before, and yet, so breathtaking it shattered everything they knew - it opened the door to places within Danny that had been locked so long, he hasn't even realized. His blood rushed like a newly un-dammed river as his heart tripled in size, throbbing with elated desire. His fingertips hummed with the electric current being conducted from their points of contact on Sam's thighs, and his eyes, despite being closed, flashed with violets, golden sunshine, and glittering panes of glass like glancing at a castle atop a hill on a sunny day; Sam, the keeper of the key to his soul, had finally turned the key.

They attempted to break contact several times, but each fresh breath of air felt like an ocean of desperation filling their lungs to the brim, drowning them in it's anguish. Sam cupped the back of Danny's head and kissed him with all of his might, thumbs sweeping along his jawline and tongue licking up every drop of Danny's flavor as if he would never get the chance to again.

Finally, after Danny could scarcely perform higher thinking from the mass of delicious attention, Sam pulled back. His lips were shining in the low light coming from the windows, grinning around hurried gasps for air. He loosened his hold on Danny's face and curled his hands around his shoulders, adjusting his position on Danny's lap.

"Forever. We get to do that forever," Sam said, as excited for the development of their coming relationship as Danny was, he knew.

Danny smiled back at him and pulled him in for another kiss, welcoming their love and all that would come with it with open arms, much like Sam had taken him in all those years ago when they were still children, and just an hour ago when his love was in need if his help and comfort. Danny wrapped his arms around Sam, knowing that with each other - entwined with each other, body and soul - Was where they were always meant to be.

"Forever," he agreed.

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[firemama]

Extremely long rant about SU Future, ft the diamonds and the symbolism they feature

the thing about su diamonds was always their representation. and we call that quickly with yellow and blue- respectively, body/physical health and emotion/emotional health. further proven, when helping gems heal, yellow diamond could help a gem find a body they liked and were comfortable with, or fix broken things in a physical form, while blue diamond helping others was just to make them happy, or to make others grieve sadness when everyone around her often ignored their sadness.

the other two diamonds were more abstract through the series, and it was relatively hard to name them, but i think i've finally grasped the base concept in one-word answers, and the health factors they represent:

white diamond was very hard to give a word until after i had watched future. for a while the only name i could give her concept was The Ego. Now, i've come to a more final conclusion: Identity/Personality health. specifically, in the aspect of the personality, id day ID health. its a much more difficult concept to format ID health into an explanation, so lets start with Identity- something we can all agree White Diamond had an unhealthy view of.

Like yellow having an obsessive need for physical and performance perfection in every gem including herself, and blues unhealthy obsession with her emotions to the point of ignoring other's emotions in favor of her own grief, sadness, or happiness. White followed suit with her example of extremely unhealthy Identity issues for herself and others; White Diamond was incapable of recognizing identity at all. She saw herself not as a Diamond but as light itself, therefore everything, everywhere, and as NOT a person. she saw all gems- creatures of projected light- therefor as herself. she was incapable of acknowledging individuality or identity.

she improves in future by facing her unhealthy views, like the other diamonds, by reversing her powers. yellow abandons her own opinions on what is a perfect body in favor of helping gems achieve bodies they want- her crutch is that Yellow is still making gems better, more correct, such as removing deformities from corruption- but she is improving by subjecting changes to approval and desires of her patients. blue abandons her need to make others face their emotions, her emotions, head on and forceful as she one did (quite litterally); she uses her powers now to make people feel happy, feel better, because when you feel less miserable your more likely to make better choices to improve yourself and your situation, much like medication- her crutch, however, is that she is still MAKING gems feel something to try and help- but she is improving, by acknowledging that making others feel miserable is wrong, and by taking the time to listen to how others are feeling and then attempt to make them happy, rather than ignore others feelings as she often did before in favor of wallowing in her own grief.

White abandons her unhealthy views of identity in the most opposite way her powers will allow. rather than make herself everything, and that everyone is just an inferior piece of herself- she lets them be everything. to do this she must acknowledge each person she connects with as an individual- as not her. she acknowledges everything they are in order to do this, and takes in every imperfection as it is, and allows it to enter herself. the crutch here is that white has not changed HER OWN identity. white diamond's taken upon herself the identities of others, to understand them, to help people "be heard," and to acknowledge their identities. she does this by erasing herself, as she has not yet come to find her identity. this is where ID Health comes into play and can be a little more complicated. the 3 facets of personality can be denoted by Superego (or morality), Ego (external personality, or the face you show the world and acknowledge yourself), and ID.

ID is most easily described as Instinct, but the reality of it is still more complicated than Instinct. it is everything subconscious, everything inherent to an animal, everything inherited from your ancestors, it is the compressed concept of function. there isn't right and wrong in ID- that is Superego. There isnt debate or awareness, thats Ego. ID is essentially invisible information, "bottom of the iceberg" of the personality. White diamond has essentially ignored and set aside all ID, shut away and suppressed it, in an effort to maintain "Perfection." her ID, her innate needs, innate emotional connections, innate acknowledgment of her own body and mind, have been ignored and put aside for Superego- morality, laws of an empire, what is right and wrong with the universe- and Ego- her display of Perfection and her Entitlement and Superiority. ID health is very difficult to care for, and can be a major factor in personality disorders. White diamond is the culmination of Identity Issues and an unhealthy ID, but like her fellow diamonds, while she has work to do on herself, theyre making improvements. and theyve started with how they affect others foremost- which is good, especially since theyre are authoritative figures who have hurt many already. 

pink diamond was the Mind/Mental health, which seems obvious in hindsight, but her powers were of a wide variety, which leaked into other places- like real physical healing, with her tears. this is a good metaphor for how mental health has its fingers in everything. It is affected by emotion and can cause extreme or minute fluctuations in a person's emotions without external stimulus; it is effected by body chemistry and can have detrimental effects on ones health and ability; it is effected my acknowledgment from others in the Ego, it is effected by morals and judgments from the self in the Superego, and changes the weight of the ID on the personality.

pink diamond often had extreme problems with her mental health- irrationality, emotional instability, frequent rejections of herself that eventually lead to new identities, which only made such problems exacerbated by immersing herself in further strain and responsibilities she took upon herself- such as trying to "fix" her dysfunctional family. like the diamonds, pink had a need for perfection, and like the diamonds, this was both for herself and for others. when she failed to be perfect, she took extreme hits to her mental health. when her immediate family and primary interactions, the diamonds, acted with poor emotional health responses, she tried to fix them herself, with her own hands- her powers didn't always necessitate this as easily as the fellow diamonds, so her tactics were to entertain them to get them together, to throw balls to ease tension, to make jokes and to sing and to get angry when she was ignored, because you c a n t ignore your mental health or it will scream at you to pay attention to it. Herr powers did allow her to connect to other minds, things we see in steven- to enter others dreams and share his own, to travel mentally to where others are, to speak with them directly into the mind. but both pink and steven struggled to handle these powers ; possibly because mentally, they were not healthy enough to grasp them, and mental health can ruin every aspect when not cared for- if mental health can damage the body, the personality, the mind, the emotions- then surely it can disrupt magic powers.

i think that pink made her change, just like her fellow diamonds did, as rose quartz. while the diamonds did full immediate 180s and turned their powers in reverse, pink diamonds change took time. at first even her rebellion was a desire for herself, to save only earth and to be not a diamond- yet another new identity, another attempt to run as she often did from other problems. and i think her change started just after Garnet appeared, when the rebellion stopped being (only) about earth, but also about Gems. rather than kick every gem off earth, it became free gems who wanted to be freed. it became not fixing her colony, not maintaining perfection or her secrets once earth was free. to be the true opponent of mental health, you need change, and you need growth, and you need support. pink diamond never found and of these things, but rose quartz did. rose quartz made her 180 with the support of the rebellion and the rebels and the crystal gems, made the hard change to finally abandon trying to be perfect like a diamond, and eventually started to grow on earth when the war and the turmoil was over.

her crutch, though, was that she never did stop running. she lived a lie, faked her death and blamed everything on her old self who she detached from, and never faced this music, and instead left everything to be dealt with without her. in the end pink diamonds crutch was to run and to abandon her problems, even while she improved, but because she lived a lie and never shared amd faced her biggest secret, she stopped growing. these traumas were inherited to Steven in turn- he was given remnants of her old life as pink diamond, memories of her anger and haunting nightmares of a neglectful home and eroding mental health that she never was able to acknowledge, because she abandoned them and never faced them again. while rose made improvements, using her powers to try to help others take care of their mental health and to grow, her crutch just like white diamond's is that she did not approach her own. 

so to summarize a very long post:

Yellow Diamond: The Body, Physical Health

Blue Diamond: The Emotions, Emotional Health

White Diamond: The Identity, Personality Health

Pink Diamond: The Mind, Mental Health

[girlwithptsd]

I just realized I forgot to tell you all I am no longer feeling suicidal

and am positive I never will again.

I had a dream where I was talking to Death, or Morim. She told me I am NOT PAYING ATTENTION to my dream around me (I am SUPER into dream inerpretation) and I think therefore, my purpose. She was pointing things out to me in the dream and asked specifically why people were wearing black, why was I dreaming about waterfalls? I told her I knew water meant emotions, and then she asked me about people wearing black. An elementary school friend of mine, JS and E? was wearing a black cape and a mask with huge eyes. JS/E? pushed my head to the table and started painting my face and I said, "I'm wearing a mask!" and then everyone stopped what they were doing and left me be to talk to Morim. I said I keep saying I'm a Coloradoan, but I'm a New Englander. Long story short, I am using Colorado as a mask/safety blanket and by avoiding my PTSD triggers and having suicidal thoughts I am avoiding my true emotions and therefore, purpose.

At one point, she looked like an Egyptian goddess dressed in all sapphire, which happens to birthstone, and is connected to wisdom and the third eye.

I asked her her name and said I understand if she didn't want to tell me. She took a piece of white paper and wrote,

"Morim

Would you not ought to be who you ought to be, than who you not ought to be or death." Which I took as, wouldn't you rather be yurself thank not be yourself and die? To me, the dream was HUGE in changing my thinking.

If I am not going to be suicidal, then what do I do when I feel negative emotions, or any emotions? I realized through talking with my therapist I NEED to let myself cry, I NEED to let out my emotions, and I told my boss that and that is when she told me I am safe, I am locked into a family I see more than my own amd they want to support me.

I am doing 1000% better now! And I feel great in my journey to expressing all of my emotions because they are just as worthy as the rest of me! ❤

[sassypotatoe1]

On loss:

So the last month or so, a LOT of what I've been struggling with has been cleared up for me and I got meds to deal with a MAJOR cause of my issues, and am better able to understand why a lot of things in my life are the way they are, but one thing I couldn't figure out (and watching a memorial episode for an actor in a series he played in and crying my eyes out the whole 45 minutes triggered the thoughts about it) was why I struggle so much with grief.

Now grief is a weird as fuck thing, and I looked for answers in a lot of places, figured it out a couple times before realizing nope, that ain't it, before finally talking it out with my therapist.

Grief is weird, and no one deals with it the same way, but it's pretty difficult to deal with when you don't seem to be dealing with it at all.

When my grandpa died, I was kinda shocked, and suddenly really focused. I was really fucking annoyed when my teacher tried to make me feel guilty for not attending a school event even though I couldn't attend because my grandpa's funeral was on that day. A lotnof things suddenly seemed like they didn't matter anymore. My grandpa was my idol, and you'd expect I'd be crushed by his death, especially since I cried myself sick over the death of a duckling, and over not getting to go horse riding even though my dad promised me, and over the almost-death of an animal in a movie. All at around the same age. If I could be that damn sad over such little things, why couldn't I be sad over my literal idol dying, the one person in my life that got me and completely supported my every nutty endeavor and whim.

I felt so guilty. Did I just not care? Was I only pretending? Was I a psychopath? Was I crazy? What is so wrong with me that I can't seem to mourn my own grandpa? Am I selfish? Inhuman? Why don't feel sad?

Now it should be noted that I struggle with depression and anxiety pretty frequently (due to some undiagnosed things fucking up my life and people continually telling me I was just lazy, there's nothing wrong with me, I should just try harder and me burning myself out trying my absolute fucking hardest but never being enough) and that at the time of my grandpa's death (who had been getting worse and worse for months due to cancer) I was stuck in the worst depressive episode to date, and actively having suicidal thoughts.

All that contributed to this massive numbness I continually felt in between random bursts of complete and utter rage, but when I got the news, I was talking to a family friend about why I wanted to be an actress and actually doing my homework for once half an hour later. For the first time in my life, I felt NORMAL, and it was right after the most important person in my life died.

How could I feel so okay with it? Why was the only thing even remotely making me feel something the pain other people experienced at his death, people who almost definitely didn't idolize and care about my grandpa nearly as much as I did? What was wrong with me? WHY WASN'T something wrong with me?

It took months before I actually felt ANYTHING about his death, and even then it was some sadness and a general fear of death for the 6 minutes it took to listen to a song about a departed mother and tell both my parents how much I love them. After that I all but forgot about my grandpa. I missed him sometimes, I missed him when we re-did his house to put it on the market, I missed him when I ate eclairs (toffee with a chocolate paste center if you don't know it) for the first time after he died, I missed him when I had orange flavored baked pudding (he gave it to me every year on my birthday and though everyone says he baked it himself, including him, the container he bought it is is a clear indication of the fact that he bought it instead) in my first year of university and again when my friend invited me to her house because I couldn't go home for my birthday and her mom baked me oramge pudding. I miss him now as I type this and every time I hear arrie wadetchi (probably some really twisted version of some germanic greeting but he used to say it every time I went home from a visit and it was eventually shortened to arrie warrie) which is not extremely frequently but surprisingly still being said. I missed him when my grandma (his divorced wife) married again, and when she started getting sick too. I missed him when my dad put up his coffee grinder in the kitchen, and when he took it down a month later because everyone kept walking into it and getting nasty bruises and the most swear words my childhood home ever heard occurred in that month. I miss him every time I see a station wagon. In between though, I don't miss him at all. And I couldn't figure out why I can mourn small losses so welk, but big losses just don't seem to affect me the same, or at all.

At first, I thought maybe I am a sociopath. Maybe I'm just so good faking emotions I fooled myself. Turns out that's not it, so maybe I'm healthy, and actually capable of dealing with my emotions, like one article suggested between the millions of articles calling me selfish. Nope, if I was good with dealing with my emotions I wouldn't be in therapy having someone else explain to me why the idea that everyone hates me is an irrational thought, and suggest I actually ASK people what they think of me if it bothers me so much. Maybe it's because I feel so damn deeply about everything amd had a pretty shitty fuckin life, and I'm so used to dealing with shitty crap that another shitty thing is just another inconvenience to add to the pile.

Or maybe, and this is what my therapist suggested, I was just dealing with so much emotional turmoil, and depression, and social anxiety, and having adhd but not knowing, or having meds, and constantly trying to accomplish the impossible feat of being perfect, and I just didn't have the emotional capacity to deal with it then, so my brain was like "yo, let's fix your other shit because this shit warrants your full attention" and am only able to deal with it now because my mental health (though not anywhere near perfect) is about 700% better than it was then, and I have the emotional capacity to deal with it. Which I did, I finally actually GRIEVED my grandpa's loss. I cried about it, remembered why I love him, I took about 17 minutes of the session just trying to process the fact that I'm human and can apparently actually experience grief, I just needed to figure out how. For the first time in my life, I felt for the death of my grandpa what I felt for the death of a damn duckling I knew for a day, and I have a lot of grief and loss to catch up on and work through, but at least now I know I'm not a sociopath, I just process things differently, which I always knew but never realized stretched as far a grief. I'm going to be okay, and not feeling sad for a significant loss right away is okay, and not feeling or expressing grief the way that's expected is okay. And if you can relate to this at all, I hope my story helped you figure it out, because by damn it took me about 7 years.

[iamwickedlovely]

Cody Fern x Reader [Sweet Love, Sweet Escape]

- Part One-

Request and plot from: @del-rcys

Genre: Drama | Romance

Synopsis: Y/n is an upcoming singer and decides to take things slow as her career starta to kick off. One night, after performing at a local bar, she meets a guy there who goes by the name of Cody. Y/n talks to him about her alcoholic doesn't support her, but she wants him to get better. Her mother is the only one that seems to be supportive of her daughter's career at the moment. Soon, y/n and Cody hit it off, and an epic journey begins through passionate love, romance, family, and of course... music.

Warning: May contain foul language or sexual content.

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I am sorry if I went deep in the beginning, or something. I'm now writing out part 2. I hope you guys will like it! I'm up for advice and requests! :D Thank you, guys! Wait, so I suck at poetry, but I threw in something, though, lol. 😅

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You were at the age of ten when you picked up your first guitar at a music store. You held onto it as if it were magic, and you ran your fingers on the strings just to hear the sound. It filled you with wonder, and you started to dream. Your heart ached for this instrument; it filled you with desire and happiness. You even giggled when you continued to stroke on the instrument.

Your mother noticed your fascination with the guitar, and it warmed her heart, and she gave a soft smile that never reached her eyes. Her eyes was full of sorrow. Your family was broken up and poor, but despite all that, you grew up to be a sweet, young thing. You showed compassion and kindness to anyone who was hurt, especially animals. You even shed tears when your hamster died, or finding a dead bird on the lawn. One thing your mother never saw, was watching you smile. All she ever wanted was for you to live life to the fullest, and to be filled with love and laughter. Your mother made it her life's mission to put money on the side, from her job as a waitress, to buy you the guitar you've played in secret.

Two years have passed since then, and you were twelve with two sisters. You were the oldest, and your father expected more out of you to set a good example. In short, he was the hardest on you.

Christmas day came around the corner and the family couldn't afford much. Your mother continued as a waitress, and your father lost his job as an engineer technician. The company he worked for ran into financial issues, and they had to lay off the majority of workers, including your father. This led him to binge drinking on alcohol at the local bar, in turn, he became an alcoholic. It was not pretty, because he was an angry drunk. He would come home to argue with mother, occassionally striking her with bare hands. You and the sisters would hide in your rooms. It went to the point you guys would even lock yourselves inthe closet, and cover the ears while holding onto a favorite stuffed animal.

One evening, your mother knocked on your door, to reassure you that your father left. You pulled your blanket, it covered you, down to peak to look at her face. Evenugh you were twelve, you understood how your mom recieved the bruise, but you decided it was best not to question it.

Your mom cleared her throat, and gave you a big luggage for you to open, "Oh, my sweet baby, I wish you had a better life than this," She started to tear up, and stroked your hair to calm you down, "I love you, and I want you to chase your dreams. I brought a surprise, I remember seeing you play with a guitar, so I just," She handed the case to you willingly, "Please open it."

You blinked, and felt a tad excitement stirring as you took off the blanket, and hovered your tiny fingers on the case. You asked quietly, "How do I open it, mommy?"

Your mom gave a slight, saddened grin, amd opened four lockets on the side to reveal the guitar you played at the music store.

You stared, trying desperately to comprehend. You gazed at your mother's eyes to ask, "Is this mine?"

She nodded, choking up, "Yes, baby, yes!" She planted a kiss on your forehead, "It's best if you don't speak to your father, or sisters. Let it be our little secret," she winked.

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[Years Later]

You sat in a spotlight at a local bar, with a guitar on your lap, and a microphone in front of you. You were on a bar stool, and you were ready to play, but you also felt nervous. You were too hard on yourself, so you were anxious, wondering if you were any good. You cleared your throat, and your voice began to escape in a mellow, soft tune. It was slow, and you touched the strings of the guitar with grace. Tears struck your eyes, because you bottled you're feelings for too long,

"I can't express my feelings well,

no matter how much I try.

You've told me not to dwell,

No matter how much you've made me cry."

The song was about your alcoholic father, of how much pain he caused you throughout the years, but you still loved him dearly. The audience stared in silence. Most of them had to take out tissues from crying.

Once you were done, the room remained quiet, since the people on the seats were trying to process the song. A few minutes after, they clapped and cheered for you. Then, you ended up getting off stage to take your leave. You honestly didn't feel like staying longer, because the song took a lot of energy out of you.

However, a guy, with blonde hair, kind of wavy and short, stopped you from leaving. He stood over you, and he talked in an attractive accent, "Beautiful song, a bit emotional. I loved it, mind if I buy you a drink?" He furrowed his brows, and smiled lightly, "You look like you're in need of it."

He's right, you thought, what did you have to lose? He seemed polite, and you fancied his voice, so you nodded, "Okay. Thank you, what's your name?"

He chuckled, "Right," he offered you his hand to shake, "I'm Cody Fern. Pleasure to meet you."

You tilt your head, where did I hear that name before? Your eyes widened, "Oh my god. Oh my god," you tried hard to contain yourself, "Shit, fuck. Ah, sorry," You pinched your nose bridge in embarassment, "You're the new cast on American Horror Story! I love your character. Haha, goodness." Breathe, [y/n], just breathe.

His grin widened, he was feeling amused by the reaction,"Ah, so you've heard of me. I feel flattered," He offered his arm so he could lead you to a couple of stools, "Can I escort you, mi'lady?"

You couldn't remember the last time you enjoyed yourself, especially being around good company, "Absolutely, sir!" You held onto his arm, and the two of you walked together.

Once you two sat on a couple of stools at the bar's counter, he glanced at you in question, "So, sorry, but I never did get your name." The bar tender gave you guys a couple of cold beers that seemed to be overfilled. Cody mouthed a 'thank you' to him.

I pressed the rim of the glass to my lips, and sipped, blech, why didn't I go for wine? Your nose wrinkled in distaste. You blinked up at Cody, "Oh, right, I'm sorry. I'm [y/n]."

"That's a beautiful name. Has a ring to it, if I say so myself." He winked, and took a swig of his beer.

You couldn't help, but notice he still carried an accent, so you had to ask, "Uh, can I ask where you're from?" He is a damn good actor, you thought admiringly.

He laughed, "Australia. Down under," he paused to drink more of his beer, "I can't believe I'm saying this, but this tastes a little funny." His lip made a pout. He definitely disapproved the drink.

You grinned, he is too cute. You agreed, "I actually thought the same thing, must be the beer. Hey! I can propose a better idea," your eyes flashed wickedly at him.

You managed to pique his interest, "Anything in mind?" He wondered.

"Hmm," you tapped your chin with an index finger, "Pizza and wine, then walk around on sidewalk under the moonlight? Maybe tell stories?" You hoped he would jump at the opportunity, because you found yourself enjoying being around him.

He quirked his eyebrows, "So, a date, then, and we didn't even exchange phone numbers yet. Count me in!"

You both exchanged smiles as you two left the bar, leaving a good enough tip on the table.

[grnfog]

Ok so this post is related to the sensory overload one i rebloged just before but its not exactly essensial to understand this. This is pretty much just a splurge of personal facts to try n sort them for myself

I wondered if neurotypical people got sensory overload n google is largley implying that no it is not a regular thing for neurotypical ppl (ie all the articles are info about the autism spectrum or on how not be a dick to someone having an overload)

Now i have an appointment at the "local" mental health place 1feb cause i asked to be recomended about adhd

and just have a hell fuckton of imposter syndrome about it and hove doen for the last um...5.6.college.uni.college.college jfc SIX years(?!)

After a teacher asked if i had dyslexia or something cause i just couldnt process his simple af name to write it down. I looked up dyslexia amd asked one of our support department adults for help figuring it out (never hesrd from them about it again after askiny). N eventualy came tot the conclusion that its not that. Letters occationaly teleport to the wrong place before righting themselves but not often enough id consider it irregular.

Next was other simple more obvious things like the numbers one since i remember bieng super behind in maths exept i was actualy really good at it when i could do the work. So not that.

I made the jump to maybe just like "minor" autism cause ppl where adameny my little brother was on the spectrum because of stuff he did exept that stuff made perfect sense to ms even if it wasnt behaviors i shared like his oversensitivity to food texture.

N then a friend in mh college first year turned out to be autistic too which i didnt learn till after id had debates abput how thinking and emotions work and i was told i was thinking too much like her or something n again things she did that other found odd made sense.

N i spent like 3 years looking into that. And ask a dr about looking into it proffessionaly the second year but was just told "well thats usualy caught in childhood and there isnt really anything we could do to medicate it or anytbing sk theirs no point" i didnt want to medicate it i want reassurance im not just stupid and that theirs a reason im like this. If i have that i can start working on managing myself around and with it to get arpund stuff like memory lapses and overstimulation.

It wasnt till this year, my 4th year out of highschool my mum mentioned i WAS suspected of having adhd by a teacher frkm when i was like 6. Like heavily suspected. Exept i kno for a fact the headmistress had something against our family (she sent social serveces to my home while we where at school because my parents sent 1 of us to school in a short sleeved coat in winter......the 1 with said coat is my sister....who lacks arms! No mention of the older 2 kids in long sleaved coats to cover their existing arms. They even asked "and whos child is this" regarding my damn baby brother cause he clearly was not bieng neglected as this headmistress had told them my sister was) so it wpuldnt surprise me at all if she had discouraged the teachers from reporting it or just blocked the reports if she could.

N i have done looking into adhd istead and that all fits. Problem is prettymuch all of it also still fits into the autism boxes. And ive stilll got that hellton of imposter syndrome. So i dont really know what to do at this apointment

Beside say look something isnt right. here is my closest two guesses from info i could find but u r a proffessional so please help me so i can start accuratly managing my life like a functional adult ?

[ghostsmiky]

Im feeling down so im going to share an angst headcanon I have

Fluttershy and Zipper dont understamd eachother, Fluttershy was one of the youngest to have her CM on her family and maybe she was the number 8 of her class too.

Zipper got his CM pretty late in life, and its kinda why he still is figiring out things out while Fluttershy not only had more tine to figure it out but also had the Sonic Rainboom to give her a pretty big boost.

When Fluttershy was big enought to move out of hers and Zippers parents house she fought tooth and nail for her cottage, she is a very hardworker despite her social anxiety. And things only got better for her aftet she became friends with the rest of the mane 5 (pre Twilight).

Zipper however is just as insecure amd anxious, but is not a hard worker at all. He may put too much attention to what he *thinks* is his "true calling" just for him to givr it up as soon as he face a new challenge. His lack of friends due to his obnoxious/cocky behavior leave him without a support system, ehich in constrast with his sister, never gave him the confidence he needs to grow up and improve as a independant adult.

This lead (specially around the time Twiñight became a ruler) to a strain on their relationship be she became busier and busier the more her duties not only as a member of the mane 6, or a teacher but also with her sanctuary. She worker so hard for the things she has that when her brother got fired (*again*) time after time, she got less and less time to look out for him, until they both had a fight about it, which lead into our socially awkward pegasus into raising her voice agaisnt her lil brother, attacking directly towards his lack of discipline to maintain a job, and his self sabotaging behavior.

Zipper was left speechless, not only those words hurt him deeply but it was also in that moment he realize his sister was correct. However, with the swirl of emotions and the fight still in pfogress he didnt knew how to respond or act so he just left.

And their relationship only got worse, they barely spoke to eachother unless they were borh visiting their parents house for a family dinner. It wasnt until the death of their parents their relationship improve a little. Zipper finally realize he meeded to push himself to his limits, the present he lives in is always changing and the only pony who needs to worry about his wellbeing is himself, he shoulnt rely on others for everything.

Zipper invited Fluttershy to eat out and talk, a talk which was filled by both happy and sad tears, laugh and cry, but also s lot of apologizes, Zipper felt terrible for what he made fluttershy go throught, and fluttershy saying she already forgive him long ago because she knew he needed time.

[hi-my-name-is-quiet]

Resting 07/30/18

I've been so busy the past few days. So today will be a good time to rest. I forget a lot of the time how important it is to do so. I've had a difficult week last week. Then I had work all weekend and that was super stressful. People can be so cruel for no reason.

One good thing did happen this weekend! My parents' longtime girlfriend- let's call her Princess- moved in awhile back to officially join our family. So her mom came to visit this weekend. Let's call her Gramma Queen. She is totally like your typical cookie baking, sweet gramma. She talked to us about how she relates to my trans brother- we'll call him JC- because she herself is a lesbian. She told us that she already loves us just as we are. Gramma Queen is so sweet. I can't help but love her already. She just has this aura of calm kindness. Just like Princess. Though, Princess has a lot anxiety mixed with hers. Maybe in time she'll calm like her mom.

I'm happy for the reassurance. After my grandparents told my parents that they don't feel a connection to JC and I, I felt angry and sad. Mostly in JC's defense. He's just a kid. He needs our support. And I don't understand how they don't feel an emotional connection to me. Sure I don't normally talk a lot. But, I always use my manners. I tell jokes and respond when spoken to. And I think it goes without saying that I love my Grandpa Song. That's what I'll call him. Grandma will be Prima Donna. I think most of this is Prima Donna being fussy. I'd never believe Granpa Song could feel this way.

I don't know what to think and ultimately, I am just sad amd frustrated. So, today will be for rest. I won't worry about these things again today. I'm just going going to play videogames and sleep. I hope wherever you are, you remember to rest too.