#guys dw im not religious—

[whorbidmore]

me horny posting ab a fictional man as if I didn't literally do communion at church earlier today 💀

[clitbiter]

the church on ruby road makes me so excited and gives me so much hope for doctor who going forward because not to put RTD on such a high pedestal but what he has tackled within the four specials he’s been given so far have been so beautiful and well crafted and well done and that is both on him and the actors. obviously dt and catherine tate bodied it as they always do but ncuti and millie are PERFECT!!! i adore them. i’m so excited for them as characters and i am so excited to see them on my screen may cannot come faster i am just so joyous about doctor who again like a kid and it is wonderful that it feels like a serious sci fi show as well as a kid/family show again

[tamarisbiggestfancanon]

i had a random idea so uh what i think your favorite ghost and pals song says abt you and rating you by your fav song!!!!!! (including qualia automata songs)

Candle Queen

- You're either a animation meme kid, theater kid, or just love a classic

- Either haven't rlly listened to Ghost or just a newbie

- I'd say you're a 7/10 :3

Perfect Nothing

- You're either really chill or really chaotic

- How many times have you listened to perfect nothing exactly?

- Most likely listen to game OSTs on repeat, which I respect.

- I'm gonna say 8/10, you seem rlly cool

Honey I'm Home

- Religious trauma?

- You probably can't look at a spider without going "OH MY GOD IT'S CHARON!!" (me too buddy, me too.)

- You've probably either cosplayed Norman or Charon or you have thoughts about cosplaying

- You're probably theorizing the song 24/7

- 8.5/10, you're really awesome :3

Reckless Battery Burns

- IM IN LOVE WITH YOU.

- You probably own a Tamari plush or have a Tamari obsession (ME TOO!!!!!)

- How was your Adventure Time/Steven Universe/SpongeBob Squarepants phase?

- You're probably neurodivergent. I've never met a neurotypical Tamari or Reckless Battery Burns fan.

- Parental issues?

- You probably either want to cosplay Tamari or have

- ♾️/10, I love you so much.

End-World Normopathy

- Hand in marriage please?

- You've probably theorized the whole Qualia Automata lore

- You definitely freaked out seeing Tamaris first appearance

- You're probably a Mariyam fan (which is understandable, life laugh love Mariyam)

- 10/10, ily

Rotary Dial

- STAY AWAY FROM ME. /J

- Narcissistic mother?

- 6/10, I'm kinda scared of you

BLACK & WHITE

- Henry Elsner fan (mad respect)

- You've probably cried over Henry's death

- You love Ray or hate him, no in-between.

- 10/10, you seem so sweet aaaa

Housewife Radio

- Communications (hyper)fixation is all I gotta say.

- You probably know how to sew or crotchet

- I'm gonna assume you love tea

- You wish that Ghost would continue communications

- 9/10, we get that you love Communications.

The Things I Deserve

- Get some therapy. Please. (I'll pay for you dw)

- Idk what else to put but I'm concerned for you..

- 8/10

Amygdalas Ragdoll

- ANIMATION MEME KID.

- You're rlly chill but when you're comfortable around someone you go COMPLETELY FUCKING BALLISTIC.

- "Almonds? Is that an Amygdalas Ragdoll reference?"

- You're either scared of fire or love it

- 9.5/10, please get some therapy, I'll pay for you.

Star of the Show

- THEATRE KID.

- You were scared of clowns as a kid

- Hate loud noises

- Hate being the center of attention

- You're probably a sweet tooth

- 6/10, I don't see many Star of the Show fans sorry but I'm pretty sure you'd b sweet

Two of a Kind

- OHHHHH MY GOD I LOVE YOU

- Probably sad that the songs so underrated

- Had a galaxy phase or still in it

- Astonomy expert I'm guessing?

- 10/10, I love you so much

The Distortionist

- Christopher simp,,,,, or you absolutely hate him

- I'm concerned..

- You probably make theories

- I have a feeling you had a Bendy and the ink machine phase

- Probably love his design!

- 8/10, some of you scare me.

Happy Days

- SIT DOWN. WE ARE HAVING A THERAPY SESSION. RIGHT NOW.

- You probably relate to Slurpee (me too buddy it's okay)

- BPD I'm assuming?

- Most likely think Happy Days is the better version of Candle Queen

- You're probably a hot chocolate person

- 9/10, I love you but please get help

Appetite of a people-pleaser

- You don't need to change for anyone, you're perfect how you are.

- Eating disorder? And people pleaser?

- Sweet tooth most likely

- You had an UwU phase, convince me otherwise.

- Probably use emoticons

- 10/10, that's all I gotta say :3

Spider on the wall

- I'm scared. 2/10.

In Iolite

- I BARELY SEE YOU GUYS?????? WHAT????

- Probably get chills listening to it

- TV girl fan?

- 10/10 ^_^

part 2 maybe.. :3

[crossover-enthusiast]

HEAUHUIHFG YOURE A GENIUS oh my god those shipnames go hard

ALSO YEAH CG TRIED TO TAKE ON BOB

AND ALSO

AN ADULT WOMAN. THIS GUY!?

(art credit still Zleepy we love her /p)

people rooting for op rad before everything gets revealed makes me giggle. bc im just thinking of "wow this guy is cool will he come back" if he was... real pelo would be like "...yep :)))) dw man he comes back :))))))))" HEAH thats so random im sorry

ALSO costume guy being a villian whose face is technically never revealed, like the intro with the house just shows his feet walking to the mirror and the back of his head as he puts on the mask but we never see his face idk just. neato.

would it be dumb to come up with names for the opposite au episodes.... is.. that dumb. bc hollow sorrows could be called... Risen Sorrows. or something that sounds..... religious IDK

auh im tired hehaeha

YEAH I'VE SEEN THAT IMAGE! It's also just really funny to me because like. Bob can't get in the police car because he's too big to fit in the window. CG doesn't have that issue, but he's still rocking the car and trying to stab them through the roof just to be a little shit and terrify them?? Which I love??

Also YEAH. Pelo would absolutely troll people like that. Honestly would not be surprised if OP Rad had a kinda Jax situation where people assume he's a jerk with a soft spot but no. He's just Evil.

But also ohh??? That's so cool?? And a bit more of a sendup to a lot of horror movie villains, I like it

My immediate first thought for a new name for OP SM 6 is just Frozen Over, since y'know, it's still about religion and demons, Moloch's an ice demon now and the phrase "hell has frozen over"

[iamtheoneandonlyever]

2, 6, 23, 34, 63, and 69 (noice)

for the questions game thingy

HI ANON TY FOR SENDING THIS!!

2. Who did you say your last "i love you" to?

Definitely @totheidiot before i went to sleep, a couple days ago. HI ARI :D

6. How do you want to die?

OH I LOVE THIS ONE! okay so i know most people want to die in their sleep or painlessly, and i want to die peacefully too, but i just want to know that im dying when im dying, bc i dont want to die thinking i have another day yknow? Really want to revisit my favorite memories and such right before i die

23. Do you have piercings? How many?

I do not have piercings! Sorry to dissapoint you anon lol <3

34. Who/what was your last dream about?

I only half remember my dream from last night so I'll tell you abt the one i vividly remember (dw its recent) so there were some terrorists at a school where my schoolmates gave an exam? It wasnt our own school tho. Anyway, it was nighttime and there was shooting everywhere, so later, me, some other people, the principal, mike wheeler, a guy from a show i watched with my parents, we all go to the terrorist leader and he asks us for 5 million, but the principal says NO we will gove you 5 billion :D bc apparently there were a billion people on campus so everyone just had to give 5 bucks lmao. Its one of my favorite dreams

63. Would you change your name?

Yes, actually. You see, my name has never truly felt like my own. And also its a religious name while i myself am atheist so thats a big *nervous laughter* right there. I do already have a chosen name (Jay) but i dont know if i will ever legally change my name 🤔

69. (Noice) Do you believe in soulmates?

I do not! I think that you cant just have someone who is ✨️the perfect person for you✨️ because the perfect person for you is the person you have a very strong bond with, and you cant just do that with everyone. But now that im typing this, i guess i have two answers, no, if its pre-destined for two people to be soulmates, and yes, if you choose your soulmate, as in you establish a bond strong enough that nothing can pull you apart :D

TYSM AGAIN ANON FOR SENDING ME THIS, IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!

[stardustsomewhere]

can we get a fruit cult saga recap :0

yes sorry it took me so long to reply!

my ex gf (lemon) got me into the cult because she was like oh theres this funny groupchat im in can you join so a few days after she joined i did. at first it was all really funny and sweet and any red flags seemed like ill timed jokes? like they had a groupchat called THE PIT they would send you too but it felt so silly i didnt notice it was weird.

anyways after a few weeks i suddenly checked the gc at work and saw they were egging my girlfriend on who was on the roof of her office building. for context shes deathly afraid of heights. they kept telling her to jump or to scream at people down below and call them slurs. i was sure it was a bad bit until she posted photos and then i left work to go get her. i found her in the stairwell having a panic attack and talking about the "angels" and how she was hearing voices and stuff. genuinely terrifying stuff

i was out of my element so i just called my mom and asked her what to do and she said hospital ASAP so i drove my gf there. they didnt really take her seriously but kept her for about 72 hours but when they released her she dumped all her medicine and refused to take it. i forced her to for a bit but she was still acting weird so i gave up and was planning on leaving

then one night i ate some mushrooms she had forged and went CRAZY and ran out the house. i didnt get too far before my body rejected it and i puked and passed out. my gf thankfully had enough sense to take me to the hospital and we both had to get our stomachs pumped (awful, do not suggest) turns out for a while she had been misidentifying mushrooms and i had avoided dishes with it in it cause i hate mushrooms and never noticed.

so it seemed like really good at this point! we were dedicated together to making sure nobody else got hurt and we were going to transition the group chat into a much safer version with everyone getting help and such. i wanted to stop apple from hurting herself and others. then apple demoted lemon from her stupid rank (top rank was ring) and lemon LOST HER MIND. she was so upset it was all she talked about

then she threw another member under the bus to get promoted again and started acting really distant and weird. we stopped talking about how we were going to help them see the truth and get out of all the brain washing and more about if we believe in the fruit god (im an atheist and she knows this. this is important to me as a physicist too plus religious trauma)

then is started getting sick and after a few days i started acting and doing erratic stuff. i was fully aware it wasnt normal and called off work for a few days to figure it out. i was about to go to the dr when someone told me to check me food on here and lo and behold, the mushrooms again. she had been putting it in my food ON PURPOSE THIS TIME

the next morning after sleeping the shrooms off as much as i could i opened my phone to see she decided our apartment was OPEN TO ANYONE IN THE CULT. she was having the leader come LIVE WITH US! i had been given no time to know let alone consent. i paid half the rent and most the bills (she helped in other ways dw it was very 50/50) and i was just so upset and scared that i just said its over. i took my cat and most my stuff (left my furniture, there was no hope of moving it) and just moved in with a friend. thank god she had a spare room for an office she was willing to rent to me.

bcs i left now everyone in the cults really mad at me so i honestly just got overwhelmed and shut my phone off. i dont wanna text them for a few days tbh. it was just too much. especially this one guy called fig, they were just always so mean to me it made me cry several times. they kept trying to find ways to hurt me, including some ableist stuff about how i should do drugs even if i medically cant. some of their friends (shrimp and plum) also went out of there way to attack me and try and physiologically torture me. i felt so bad i just shut my phone off

honestly at this point idk the benefit to trying to be anyones friend in this cult. idk why im even trying to help them. i feel used and abused. i feel VERY abused. i dont know. lifes hard

[dem0nguy]

RAMBLETIME 2 (the electric boogaloo)

I’ve decided to ramble about what I headcannon these sillies religions to be.

Why?

Honestly idk im just bored

Sheriff - He was raised Christian, but sometime in between moving to the army base and the Big Fart happening, he lost his faith and now he’s atheist.

Shooter - He’s Jewish, still is. Why? Idk I just think it fits him. (He celebrates Christmas with La Résistance bc spoiler, none of them are actually Christian and they just celebrate it as a token to the pre-apocalypse world. Everyone else also celebrates Hanukah with him :3)

Brutux - Agnostic and has made offerings to every God in existence at least once. (Did any of them work? We’ll never know)

Dr. White - Has religious trauma from Christianity so now he’s atheist XP

Vegan-Su & BP - White raised both of them to be tolerant of all other religions, but didn’t raise them to believe one in particular. So Vegan-Su is atheist and BP is agnostic.

Apocalipsis & Katani - Both actually have a canon religion, not sure what it’s called but they worship the Cat God of Marshal Arts.

Valley Claire - Christian, but shes one of the good ones dw guys

[skeelly]

GIRL DW, XANDER HAWTHRONE IS MY BESTIE. IM TALKING ABT THE GUY I RELIGIOUSLY LIKED QUITE A WHILE AGO

why'd i even like xander, he's mid asf

[little-candy-store-of-horrors]

"You should see the other guy" - Archangel Michael

Alt expression/details:

[snapdraqons]

god, nahyuta…. nahyuta man… sorry this is gonna be so incoherent bc i wrote this on the bus and im not sure if i can fully say all the thoughts i have about them bc theres just so much on my mind but yea theyre such an interesting character to me bc theyre so complex that its almost confusing and their grey morality is just absolutely off the shits??? theyre not fundamentally bad but theyre also not fundamentally good either, and you find yourself questioning a lot if it’s ok to actually side with them bc on one hand, they’re severely traumatized and cast into a life that they didn’t ask for (not just the part that they got branded as a criminal at a young age for something that they didnt do, for a crime that isnt even real, but also being given responsibility of a regent for a country that detested you and your side of the family for years sounds more like torture realistically rather than a happy ending) but at the same time…they also have so much blood that they. willingly got on their hands, and i get that they didn’t really have the power to do anything about it at the time but…. also ?????

what makes me so so SO mad though is the fact that the game barely acknowledges it and nahyuta was just kinda reduced to be this super religious haha funny weirdo pretty guy, and it’s like, “come on yall, you guys are gonna write a character- no a whole game but dont even bother to develop them??” theres so much more to them behind the scenes but the actual character and the whole turnabout revolution arc just ends up falling flat and unfinished and it really doesnt help that its competing with other loosely-made plots in the game

AND YEAH I ABSOLUTELY AGREE, it would take more than a couple of games to actually fix and expand on everything that aa6 (barely) established so even though i desperately want to see nahyuta back again, i fear that theyre just gonna fuck them up even more, so it’s this weird cycle of “aa7 would be nice” and “you know what? i think it’s too much to hope for at this point”😔

UR ABSOLUTELY RIGHT and dw about being incoherent I answer most my asks in the early morning between sleep lmao

Nahyuta is a character with so much potential. I feel like theyre closer to Edgeworth or Franziska than the post-trilogy prosecutors in terms of plot/backstory complexity. And the reason why THEY worked so well is because they both appear in multiple games in both the trilogy and spin-offs. However the execution is more on par with aa5 :/

With how the games tend to work, idk if aa7 would be the best for nahyutas character since each mainline game introduces a new prosecutor. I could see them potentially getting development in like. An Apollo Justice 2 in which theyre a secondary recurring character like edgeworth in aa2/3. I also feel the same about Klavier, though I think his botched character development would be easier to fix than nahyutas.

I don't even know where I'm going with this maybe I just need to write a case fic.

[shoezuki]

I just wanna say real quick, as a system with two mcyt introjects, the current twt/Tumblr movement is /terrifying/. Every day we get nervous the more we see twt stand moving over BECAUSE of their eagerness to be absolute assholes to systems and psychotics. We have to worry about being accused of being -kin and/or having posts become copypastas. It's terrifying for them. They both worry about having a vent post and it becoming the next "Hey wilbur" meme. No one wants that, no one wants to see their stuff broadcasted everywhere and made fun of. Not to mention that there's enough hate against us in the normal system community too, there's very few places we can actually hang out without fearing an influx of hate.

Also, as a system who's friends with people in the -kin community, the way people treat -kins is fucking disgusting and I could make a whole other rant abt it. Tl;dr: A good majority of them are religious -kin and it's part of their religious beliefs. (Often accompanied by belief of multiple timelines, lives/reincarnation, and worlds) its heartbreaking seeing this on the side and watching friends deal with this shit too, because it's literally their /religious beliefs/ y'know?

Alright, that's all. It was a lot so you don't gotta post it if there's anything uncomfortable or smth here dw.

i feel for u anon like ya i like. i can never Get it yknow cuz i can never experience it n therefore i Cant imagine the kinda fuckery ppl treat yall w like. it IS bullshit like how fucked up ppl get towards yall when they Really have no right or reason to jus. be such assholes? if they dont Get It they can stay in their lane too n they SHOULD. I Really hope u guys dont ever get that kinda treatment from ppl or that mockery n im sorry thats such a prominent worry cuz. ya i see that shit on twitter a lot

i HOPE so hard we dont get any a that to come over either like. the disregard for other ppl n their experiences n Who they Are is such fuckery that i never want to leech over this way

[fortunemars]

Dnsnsn Aphmau gives the Gays their rights, yes because she cares and wants them to be happy, but also because she is SO GLAD they're gay and they aren't hounding on her anymore <⁠(⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)⁠↗

She's just like "Irene, finally these bitches got their own hints!" I bet she was tired of them using her in their gay little arguments to explain why they're doing weird shit instead of just saying they're GAY

"I do all of this for aphmau! I risked my life to protect you so you can help her when im not enough!"

"don't you get it?! I need you with me too, I can't protect our lady without your help! I can't lose you because you're too stupid to see through that metal bucket on your head that you're important too!"

Aphmau, biting a big chunk off of a loaf of bread, whispering to herself: "now kiss..."

(gar and Laur are like cats when they fight... Forehead to forehead, spitting out insults and hisses. Aphmau likes dogs bc of this...)

Time to rant lol

Also would aphmau say Irene in that context? Is it weird for a goddess to use her own name?? Would she just say "oh god!" Or like,, would she say another divine warriors name? Would that be weird too cause Garroth and Travis and ,, technically Aaron have the DW relics? And maybe other characters but I don't remember?

Ngl it's kinda funny to think of her starting to say "dear Edmund! What happened here?!" After she got out of the Irene dimension knowing she's,, got Irene's relic at least,, and keeping it up until Garroth gets out and finds out and he goes ಠಿ⁠_⁠ಠ bc 1- that's not the name most people say, and 2- that's HIS funny religious name

Alt idea: aphmau and Garroth worshipping each other [separately] for actually several reasons now that I think abt it.

So like in this context I mean that aph probably doesn't wanna say her own name (or own god-name cause it's confusing) in that way cause it's strange. It's like saying "oh Kyle!" Every time something scares you. So she'd want to substitute it and she thinks that Edmund is the best option so she starts using his name instead.

(I don't have a good reason bc I! Don't remember ANY divine warrior lore! But I'm pretty sure Edmund is an admirer and is also Cool) (Also bc shad is. Stinky poop man.)

And Garroth is very devoted to Irene in general, I don't think he'd even think of changing the name bc why would you... Unless you were Irene. He hears aph say Edmund and immediately goes ???? Bc that's His Name and also WHAT

BUT there's actually a lot of this happening in canon. Or at least... Canon through my funny "ignore the bad writing" glasses.

Garroth is obvious, he worships Irene, a lot of things about him are related to his relationship with Irene and how he views his worth tied to her. But he also acts the same with aphmau (pre and post relic finding). He loves her, obvs, but he also speaks really highly of her, he never lets people talk shit about her, he believes she's all that is good and is thankful when she appears at the village because she fixes everything up, doesn't immediately believe what the other villagers say about him, and also,, actually makes the village aware again.

He looks up to her a lot and I think it's a really interesting thing to look at. Imagine dedicating your life to this woman as her head guard, basically worshipping her and doing everything she needs without her asking, doing THE most. And then BAM she's actually the god you've worshipped your whole life no big deal guys!

(alt vibe: imagine the resentment he feels towards her when he finds out she's Irene and Irene herself could save him. Ik logically she COULDN'T but man with severe religious anxiety and PTSD coming out of a horribly traumatising experience will not be thinking calmly and clearly and I'd like to see him act out for actual reasons and not,, pissbaby "you chose someone else" and "you're not listening to me!1!1!!!" Reasons)

Anyway back on track, aphmau is kinda similar in this way! She's bright eyed and very socially awkward, doesn't know a lot in general bc she! Has no memory! So when Garroth, a man who knows a lot and also has authority but is still kind and welcoming to her when others aren't, shows her compassion and treats her like a person even when she doesn't feel like one? This is the closest thing she knows to look up to, she knows she wants to be strong and smart and capable and Garroth knows how to do that.

She'd praise him for being a good guard all the time, she risked her life to go on a bunch of random missions to get him the only magic doctor they knew that could heal Garroth and she felt DEVASTATED when the lord (Burt?) Couldn't help. She was prepared to go out and find any way she could to save Garroth because he was all she knew! And like thank Irene the lord had a stupid potion somewhere but ! She was ready to risk everything because she wanted him to live.

All of this to say: aph and Garroth have praise kinks and I will not accept otherwise. CLEARLY Laurence is made for them both and this is where I push my garrencemau propaganda /j

Fr tho I'm always staring a little too hard at the interpersonal relationships in my blorbos shows (because I must begrudgingly include mystreet... For the three pieces of content I like xD) and I love making stupid and frankly "too out there" connections between random things. Fear, for the fools who underestimate my autistic ability to connect two very un connected things will suffer the consequences (aka having to read so many long rants like this)

@panicataphmausinsanity okay so Zane HC's LETS GOOOOOOOO

Before we start trigger warning for like, child abuse and torture and shit. Seriously this gets dark. Zane redemption must come at a price >:D

So. Something interesting to me in regards to Zane is how in MCD, He's like, this evil, terrible human being, but in Mystreet, he's like, a semi functional human being who can be a NOT bad person and NOT do bad things. And so I got to thinking.

I don't think Zane was born a bad person.

Personally, I kind of hate the way Jess wrote Zane. Like, yes, evil for the sake of evil is great and all, but like. In season one and two, Zane was this overarching antagonist who was always one step ahead of the cast and plotting and having a good time being a paice of shit.

And then season 3 comes around and now he's a shadow knight, on the run, has PTSD...

Look, I'm not knocking the guy for having PTSD. I'm just saying that the way it's portrayed kind of makes him seem like a whimpery coward. AGAIN, NOT KNOCKING PTSD!!

I think the position that Zane found himself in season 3 was a PERFECT set up for a redemption arc and it makes me SO MAD that it didn't happen.

So I guess I have to do it myself apparently -_-

I've been thinking a lot about Zane. I don't want him to stop being evil. Not right away. So we keep what happened in the first two seasons the same. He's a cackling maniac that has killed a shit ton of people and is on his father's payroll.

And then he dies.

(skill issue lol)

Anyway, Zane is dead. But he's also Zane, so of course he weasels his way out of being dead. And then he gets tortured and is subjected to the same suffering he condemned so many others to yada yada yada PTSD bleh.

Everything seems to be the same so far.

But then he breaks out if the nether. Still, we're on track, right?

He gets captured, he gets expedited to Phoenix Drop, he gets interrogated, it's all the same.

But here we find a canon divergence. Instead of being absolute dumbasses, they don't bring him into the nether. Let's scrap that plot point entirely.

Instead, we're going to let Zane bake in prison for a while!

Here are the main issues that make Zane irredeemable.

1. He's killed like, a shit ton of people, for funsies ig

2. He killed Vylad.

3. He destroyed Aaron's village.

Let's keep those things in mind.

So he's in prison. While in prison, Garroth starts to visit him (along with Travis but shhhh we'll get to him another day) and just. You know. Be angry.

Garroth has seen Zane as a spoiled brat his entire life. He's always been their father's favorite. He's always had everything handed to him on a silver platter. He's always been willing to do whatever it takes for power. He's greedy. He's psychotic. Garroth hates him.

But Zane is Garroth's brother. And Garroth is the type of golden retriever, gold hearted, kind type of character to still love his brother even if he hates him.

That doesn't mean he goes in and is like, nice to him though. Nope. Garroth goes to visit him and nine times out of ten it devolves into a screaming match where Zane antagonizes him the entire time and Garroth yells at him for being a shitty human being.

And then one day Phoenix Drop is attacked and Zane escapes.

They track him down eventually. When they find him, they strike a deal with him. Due to Irene related shenanigans they need his expertise as a scholar of Irene to figure out some more stuff for Aphmau. In exchange, they'll protect him from the Shadow Lord (who he pissed off by stealing one of his soul fragments lol Zane behavior).

Eventually they're able to establish a rapore with Zane. Garroth still gets a migraine whenever they have a conversation. Vylad still refuses to speak to him (oh btw he's visiting from his nether revolution vacation just so u know) and Aphmau still wants to tear out his guts for killing the love of her life or whatever, but he becomes manageable. They can like, stand him. A little bit. Slightly.

And then Zianna gets kidnapped or whatever. So they go rescue her. But when they get back to Phoenix Drop they forget to mention the fact that Zane is like. There and in the wild and not currently killing entire villages worth of people.

So Zianna rolls up to Phoenix Drop and gets jumpscared by her youngest son and also, notably, Zane is NOT happy to see her. He shuts the front door in her face. It's hilarious even though Garroth doesn't think of it that way.

So, now we have our key players all in one place. Garroth, Vylad, Zane, and Zianna.

Let's say they have to all go find an artifact toghether or something and they need Zianna there because it's related to something she knows and they need Zane there because of Irene lore reasons. they go on this mission. One day, they sit and set up for the night, set up bedrolls, whatever. They're lounging around the fire and talking when Vylad eventually mentions his time as a shadow knight in the nether and something about torture.

Zane blinks, and, having not been included in the conversation initially, buts it to say,

"Oh, please. Don't tell me getting tortured by those amatures was DISTRESSING for you. I would have thought father's methods would have given you thicker skin."

The others bristle and start scolding him, of course, because Zane is like, the reason Vylad became a shadow knight in the first place. But Vylad himself, who is very observant and hard to antagonize, latches into something Zane said.

"Methods? What methods?" He says. He says it sharply, too.

Of course, Zane doesn't pick up on this. He just rolls his eyes.

"Don't tell me you forgot. Father had a whole floor dedicated to torture and loved collecting new methods from around the region. I think he even had a historian employed who would research for him..."

"What?" Garroth says, stunned out of his anger.

Zianna has gone silent. So has everyone else, and now they're watching with baited breaths.

"So what? What would that have to do with me?"

And for the first time that they've ever seen, Zane looks... Puzzled.

"What, did he go easy on you? Didn't you talk back to him all the time? Once, after just asking him a question, he had two of my nails pulled. Shadow Knight torture was child's play in comparison," he shrugs, then takes a bite out of his stale price of bread.

There's silence.

Zane looks back at all of them, confused and now kind of pissed off. He looks like he usually does when he feels like he's about to be scolded for saying something crass. Except, that's not what happens. Instead, Vylad looks him in the eye for the first time since Zane killed him, and with the most emotion they've ever heard from him, says,

"What?"

Zane hums.

"Come on. Don't play dumb. He hated you. Im sure he must have sent you to the "torture basement" at least once. You got on his nerves constantly,"

Garroth makes an aborted movement, like he's going to stand up and rush him, but Vylad stops him with a flick of his hand. And then Vylad starts doing what he does best. Interrogating him.

So remember that list, right? Let's reframe a few things.

Zane was not the favorite child. Garroth was.

Garte was a paice of shit. Garte hated Vylad. But he also hates Zane. Why wouldn't he? Vylad was his wife's affair child, sure, but Zane, Zane was Zianna's spitting image.

When Zane was little, he used to take snails and out them in the grass after it rained. He uses to clamor for his mother's pastries just like his brothers. He was a normal child, and he was NOT born a psychopath.

But Garte had a thought, one day.

Wouldn't it be funny... If he made his wife think he WAS one?

Wouldn't it be funny to punish her that way? Wouldn't it be funny to turn Zane into a terrible person, and have her think it was for no reason? Make her think that she birthed a psychopath? How much would it hurt her? How much would she weep?

Garte used to punish Zane for Vylad's joy. One of Vylad's laughs would equal one slap to the face. One side remark in defence of their mother would equal one hour locked in his father's study closet in his office.

Garte turns Zane against himself brothers. And the best part in his mind?

He makes Zane believe that they know about all of it.

He tells Zane that his mother knows about it. That his brothers don't care that he's beaten. That Vylad does things so he gets punished on purpose.

Zane grows up thinking that his brothers probably go through this too. He grows up thinking that his mother just doesn't love him. And so he doesn't say a thing.

Garte starts having him tortured instead of superficially physically abused? He says nothing.

Garte makes him become a priest of Okasis even though the consequence of failing the academy is death? He says nothing.

Garte would encourage Zane to blugeon animals to death and bring them to Zianna and laugh at her horrified face from afar. Garte encourages Zane to say psychotic things while they're eating dinner, and watches as his family becomes more and more convinced Zane is a monster.

Until Zane is one.

But this reframes a few things.

The people Zane killed? It was under orders. He eventually became his father's right hand man. Most of his overarching goals have been in service of his father.

For Aaron's village, we'll stick a pin in that one, but long story short, Aaron's village had been planning a coup that night under his wife's orders. Zane had them killed under his father's orders so they could eliminate them as political neighbors. He let Aaron live out of pity.

And Vylad.

Basically, remember when I said that Garte used to punish Zane according to Vylad's actions?

One day, Vylad gets into an explosive argument with Garte defending Zianna. And Garte, again, without the other's knowing, has Zane tortured. Except this time it's for a WEEK STRAIGHT.

So when Zane gets out. He's. Very unstable.

And then he comes across Vylad in a semi secluded area.

And Vylad is acting like he did nothing, and all he's ever done is make Zane suffer, and Zane hates him hates him HATES HIM--

And so he snaps. And he kills him.

Keep in mind, though, Zane thinks this is all normal. He doesn't realize that killing his own brother has traumatized him. He doesn't realize that he's a victim of abuse. He doesn't realize that what his dad did is not okay because he THINKS HIS FAMILY KNOWS WHAT HAPPENED, and if they didn't contradict his abuse, then this must be normal. He thinks that Vylad has probably been tortured too. He thinks Garroth is their father's favorite because in his mind he's determined that Garroth not receiving any attention from their father is a GOOD thing because ATTENTION EQUALS TORTURE to him.

And this reframes a few things. His constant bid for power? It's not greed, it's DESPERATION. Power makes him feel safe. Hurting others makes him feel powerful because that's how his father had power over him.

His highly volatile and violent personality? It's l he's ever known. Do you have ANY idea what torture could do to a child? He has severe PTSD. Like, severe and repressed and his outburst are more common when he's uncomfortable or anxious or experiencing any negative emotion, which is often.

Garte took Zane's empathy from him. Turned him against his family. Made him into a monster. With these types of characters, I imagine it would probably be very difficult for them to redevelop their emotions and empathy because if they do that, they would have to face their whole mountain of trauma and the guilt of all the lives they've ruined.

I think eventually, after a lot of work, Zane does eventually regain his empathy. It probably finally sinks in during a small gathering. His mother makes her famous cake. Zane has long gotten used to being excluded during these sorts of things, but then...

His mother slides a plate of cake right in front of him.

Strawberry.

His favorite.

And she smiles at him.

This is probably after they found out about Garte being a peice of shit. Maybe a few months.

All Zane has ever wanted is to be loved. Maybe he didn't know it, but when he takes a bite of his mother's strawberry cake for the first time in decades and the nostalgic taste registers in his brain, something snaps.

And he becomes human again.

And he realizes:

Oh.

I'm a person.

I'm a murderer.

I'm a monster.

LMAO WAS THIS COHERENT SORRY PANIC I TRIED MY BEST I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS ONE OSIBWIBDIBSIBU

[ywjaeha]

helo budz i’m ayn and this is my cityslicker jaeha! he’s 26, city boi, and brand spankin new to yangwon. currently filling in as a veterinarian until he finds a long-term replacement! :’) he’s a pretty chill dude, just rly shy so like. u know. is he against making friends? not really. would he rather befriend the stray dog that keeps trying to steal his zucchini? yea. ANYWAY ! ! ! more info and wanted connections below the cut and also here!! if you’re interested in plotting ! please like this post and i’ll im u! i also have a discord (heunjeok#6758) if that’d be more convenient zz

TL;DR (but not rly bc i ramble lol)

born and raised in the big city! only kid, grew up pretty well-off. his grandparents moved to yangwon when he was a lil baby and lived the rest of their lives out there until passing. he’s visited yangwon a few times (every week every summer through middle school! and then every now and then for a day—sometimes less haha—high school onward) so he’s not Brand New but it sure feels like it :’)

he’s a...... veterinarian. just like his grandpa! finished his post-vet school internship a few months back and he was abt to sign a contract to work in seoul when his grandparents passed. 

originally he just came to yangwon to help tidy up his grandparents’ affairs but ended up committing to filling in as the veterinarian for a year max until a “more suitable replacement” could be found for his grandpa. 

so now he’s living here. in his grandparents’ old house on mugunghwa (neighbors where u at). hasn’t unpacked completely and probably never will bc at this point (he's only been in yangwon since september!) he’s still pretty set on going back to seoul asap. 

still he kind of ! likes it in yangwon ! even tho he won’t admit it! 

generally he’s a pretty polite, even-tempered dude. comes across as a little cold and stilted @ first bc he’s reallllylyyly really shy and it kind of manifests as stiffness instead lmao. that being said, he’s not too great at pretenses and when he smiles/laughs, he rly means it!!! so !!!!! pls dont give up on him he needs friends lmao 

seems kinda like a pushover but he’s pretty str8forward about things he does/doesn’t want to do. like for example when ppl try 2 flirt with him he’s like Im not interested [and then after a pause] but thank u!

internalizes everything bc he’s a grownass man who never learned how to cope w/ his emotions

probably cried watching old yeller but did u not? u heartless b*tch?

some random facts and tidbits: spends way too much time watching reality television (think trashy shows like love island) but is way 2 ashamed so it’s like a dirty secret and he’ll die if anyone finds out. has terrible vision but he’s wearing contacts these days and they’re so gd THICK sometimes his eyes start watering and it looks like he’s just having a bad day and crying it out. he’s super duper fond of kids and animals. likes 2 garden (he’s maintaining his grandma’s garden atm). uhhhhhHhhH he was engaged to a long-time gf but she broke it off maybe one? almost two years ago and he’s #okcool abt it (but not rly, genuinely he’s very exasperated w/ the idea of romance rn). has the tastes of an old lady (his fave snack is yanggeng). and. 

idk what else man. 

he’s (vague hand gesture) really just trying his best. 

WANTED CONNECTIONS

people he met when he was way younger and visited yangwon! chances are he won’t recognize u and u won’t recognize him but maybe once u get to talking some gears will shift and something will click! even if it’s been a longass time since he was last in yangwon, he’s pretty desperate for any semblance of familiarity he can anchor himself to ha ha ha

have a pet? or just a ton of animals? as long as they’re not seriously injured/in need of surgery or specialized attention (in which case he’ll reroute the case to haesan, but dw! he’ll make sure the transition goes smoothly!), he’s ur dude :’) 

he’s watching this show called heart signal (it’s a reality show abt finding love) RELIGIOUSLY and u catch him and he’s humiliated but maybe ur a big fan and now u guys have viewing sessions and it’s honestly embarrassing at first but now he’s just glad he has someone to talk to about it

ur mom/dad is seriously concerned that a single dude like jaeha is living on his lonesome in a house built 4 a FAMILY and keeps sending u to check up on him with banchan in tow. it’s really fucking awkward at first! but maybe a rapport develops somewhere along the way ...! 

u think he wants to be friends with u but in reality he just thinks ur kid/dog/cat/literally anything that isn’t an adult human is cute

catch him tearing up in the middle of a conversation bc of his contacts and ur like holy fuck i just made this newcomer CRY and jump to conclusions before jaeha can explain (haha no it’s just my eyes- wait- why are u apologizi- uh-) and now ur dragging him around and going out of ur way to be nice to him in penance and he’s just standing there awkwardly like I’m Never Wearing Contacts Again 

U step on his only pair of glasses and break it to SMITHEREENS! it’s fine but it’ll take a couple of days to get a replacement so it’s chill.... he’ll just walk around........... Hopelessly lost............. vision obscured......... nbd.... 

doesn’t usually drink bc he’s hella #cleanliving but also hella #lightweight so idk... drunk shenanigans... he’s so embarrassed he trips into a bush the next day trying to avoid eye contact w/ u 

only child!!!!!!!!!! but he’s always wanted siblings so idk? maybe a younger sibling figure :’)

ok im [steam comin out of my ears] running out of ideas but we’re just generally looking for some friends! acquaintances! people who were familiar w/ his grandparents! ppl he might have met before! anyone! Anything! let’s go find a wendigo together!

[buildingnothingoutofsomething]

im not sure where that last person lives, but I've lived all over the US and I have only once run into a home that wanted us to take off our shoes. Most Americans do not take off their shoes indoors. It is a religiously-based practice though, so I can see that making sense if the last asker lives in a predominantly religious area.

????? so i wasnt that stupid after all... dw guys i have brain left

[chickenkooks]

It'll be horrible if you end up writing tra feeling miserable and not motivated and excited doing it. Please don't write if you don't feel like it. I personally will enjoy it more if I knew you woke up one day, did your things and suddenly felt like writing, all relaxed and pouring the best you can in that story. This been said, enjoy your time and don't feel bad for anything tra/tumblr related.

oh dont worry about that guys!!!! im touched whenever u guys send me messages like this but i definitely would stop if i didnt want to write tra anymore. i still enjoy the story and dont mind writing it at all!!!!!! i know that as a writer i cant FORCE things. i can write a basic outline but if theres no soul in it, its garbage. thats why i feel so good about it so far because there IS soul in it

[fuckigngh]

as a lesbian, i would:

not mind dating an asexual girl

not mind dating a girl who is mentally ill (if i never experienced it before i would obviously ask about it and look up certain things)

not mind dating a bisexual girl

not mind dating a trans girl

not mind dating a girl of color (unlike my own, which is white)

not mind dating a girl who is shorter than me

or taller than me

not mind dating a girl who lives far away (in consideration, of course)

not mind dating a girl who has only dated guys before hand

not mind dating a girl who is still confused about her sexuality

not mind dating a girl of different religion

not mind dating a girl of different ethnicity

Not Mind Dating Any Girl!

also:

i would not mind having many friends of many different walks of life

trans guy? bust buds

trans girl? besties forever

enby person? bestest of pals

religious? my best friend is an aspiring nun and sends me jesus memes on the daily, I'll still love you forever regardless (as i do for her)!

not religious? cool! we can spend every sunday being best friends (im in the middle with religious belief but idc!).

gay, bi, lesbian, trans*, ace/aro, etc? y'all are great! be what you want b!

theater nerd? teach me your ways

a smart fellow? literally teach me your ways

crafty? lets do crafts together! my mom would love to help!

got some personal shit going on and need assistance? im always here for you!

on the contrary...

homophobic? bye tf

transphobic? adios

racist? begone

sexist? lmao bye

a fucking pedophile? prison.

rude? sorry but ima call you out some how

xenophobic? bland. boring. bye forever.

don't like who i do? tell me why.

don't support what i do? again, tell me why.

harassed/bullied people? stop that and apologize, fess up etc.

a douche in general? why doe????

don't like using a fork for your mac and cheese? who are you!!!! forks>spoons

using a knife for your mac and cheese? sentenced to life in jail who the fuck does that.

so basically,

i try my best to be a good person. i try to include everyone and support them as best as i can. if at any point do i not feel as comfortable around you I'll probably tell you, and that takes a lot, so dw!

love u all, have a nice week, etc. 🕺🏼😀