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don't let go
hi! this is a part three to my Frontman series.
thanks for all the love on this series so far!!! I've been loving writing it so I'm super happy that people are loving reading it!
here is a link to part one and part two if you haven't read them yet!
"(Y/N)," Player 001 quietly called your name, he'd awoken twenty minutes ago and had been enjoying the serenity of having you sleeping in his arms.
At some point in the night, you'd rolled over and were now facing him, your face nuzzled into his neck. Your slow breaths tickling his skin in the best way. He hadn't felt such a profound sense of peace around him in such a long time. This was a bad idea, because now he couldn't stand the thought of losing it. Hope was something he'd let go of, but there you were, right beside him with the face of an angel, you'd quickly become his ray of light at the end of the dark tunnel he'd been stuck in for years.
Last night after he had helped you calm down and knew you were fast asleep, he'd fallen asleep in your little bed too. He hadn't intended to, he knew if people saw - whether it be the other contestants or his guards - the two of you would become a talking point. Luckily you'd managed to find a bunk that was pretty hidden away, but he didn't want to draw more attention to you. Over his time of being the Frontman he'd come to learn that attention in this place usually meant you were more of a target.
It was very early, most people were still asleep, he wanted to get up before everyone started to wake up. But he just had to talk to you first, today's game was going to be the most brutal yet. He knew that, because he planned it. He knew it was going to be tough to get through, physically and emotionally. He was terrified of what it would do to you.
He moved his head, his cheek grazing yours so he could whisper right into your ear. "(Y/N)," he repeated your name, you mumbled in response, still very much closer to still sleeping than waking up. "You need to wake up, angel." He moved his face back and brought a hand up to caress your cheek, he dared to rub his nose against yours, hoping to rouse you more from your slumber.
"Hmm.." You briefly opened your eyes, only to wince and shut them tight at the sudden onslaught of light. In-ho laughed, fighting the urge to lean in and kiss you at the sight of your bottom lip pouting. "I'm sleepy." Your voice came out whiney.
"I know, (Y/N), but I need you to listen to me."
"I can listen and sleep. I can multitask."
He sighed, rubbing his thumb over your cheek. How badly he wanted to give you whatever you wanted. Soon he would be able to let you rest for as long as you desired, he just had to get you to survive this hard part first.
"This is serious, come on pretty girl, open your eyes for me."
Butterflies. You felt them explode in your stomach. He had your attention. You listened and opened your eyes, it took you a few long blinks to be able to leave them open, and a stretch that had you arching your back more into him. He had to fight off the way that movement turned him on.
"There she is, good morning." Player 001 greeted you.
"Good morning." You smiled so sweetly at him, he was so warm beside you, so comforting. You could get used to being his little spoon. There was already minimal room in the bunks but with how close the two of you were right now, it seemed you didn't need much room, anyway.
"May I ask, why did you come here?" This question hadn't left the front of his mind. He had to get this answer before bringing up the game.
"Well, I was told I could play some games for money, I won Ddajki right away. I thought it would all be that easy." You paused and took a breath. "I have a big debt I need to pay."
"But you're so young, how could you owe so much money?"
Yours eyes danced back and forth between his. You hadn't told anyone why you were here, you hadn't really planned on doing so, either. But you trusted this man, he looked at you so sincerely, he held you so tenderly, he looked out for you. "My mother, she had been sick since I was 11. There were so many medical bills building up, she couldn't pay them because she was too sick to work. I worked odd jobs when I was old enough around school, but never earned no where near enough to pay them all back." Tears started to well in your eyes. "She died when I was 19."
"(Y/N), I'm sorry." He pressed a kiss to your forehead. You shut your eyes, enjoying the intimacy in his comfort. "What about your dad?"
You clenched your jaw and spoke with venom. "He left when I was 14. He met another woman. We never heard from him since."
In-ho was piecing you together. The twisted side of him had just discovered the reason you felt drawn to him - an older man. The dark side wanted to kill your father for abandoning you during such a tumultuous time, causing you to be here right now. The gentle side you'd brought forward was going to immediately pay off all those debts for you the second these games were over.
"You had to look after her?"
"Yeah."
"That's a lot for a young girl to go through. You didn't deserve that."
You shrugged. "I can't change it now. Death is a part of life." You said so simply. "Not in the way people are dying here, though."
That guilt he hadn't felt over any other player consumed him again.
"Anyway, I've been trying to pay the debts back since, I just can't. It's so hard. I've worked full time since graduating school and still, there's so much left to pay."
"You've been on your own since she passed?"
"For the most part." You answered honestly. He started to realise you had been living with the same loneliness he had.
He shouldn't have been surprised to find out you weren't here for greed. It wasn't even your own debt to pay back, just one that had unfortunately been left to you. Of course his good girl wouldn't be like the rest of the selfish people who compete in this contest. He wanted to scoop you up and get you out of these games now, but people would see.
Holding your eye contact, his gaze was serious. "I need you to stay by my side in the next game, okay?"
You frowned. "What if I can't?" You questioned, remembering how you got split up playing the six-legged game, luckily both your teams survived.
"You must," He paused, moving his hand that was on your face to grab one of your hands instead. "I won't drop your hand, don't drop mine."
You looked down to where his hand engulfed yours, squeezing your fingers around his, he mimicked the action. "It could be a solo game, right? What will we do then?"
How could he tell you he knew what was coming? How could he tell you he designed this next game to be so deadly? How could he tell you he knew that carnage would take place? How could he without ruining what amazing thing was forming between you both that he so desperately wanted to hold onto?
"We'll just have to see when we get in the arena."
You nodded and suddenly your mind was whirring. You were trying your hardest to think of what was to come today, your breathing got shallower. In-ho noticed your overthinking kick in, and he once again squeezed his fingers around yours.
"Hey, I will keep you safe."
"What if you can't even keep yourself safe?"
"I will be fine."
"How do you know?" Your eyes shot back to his, worry was written all over your face. You were worried for yourself, but now you were worried for him, for the people you'd grown closer to over the past few days here.
He didn't have an answer for you, at least one he couldn't admit to you. Not yet. So you spoke again. "I don't want to compete anymore, Young-il."
"I know. I don't either." That was honesty, he really didn't want to, especially not anymore now that he had you to think of.
"I wish we could escape." You sighed.
It was his turn for his mind to whir. He started having an internal battle then, over if he should confess who he was and get you out right now before too many people woke up.
"We just need to get through this next game and then surely we'll win the vote to leave." He decided against confessing. You still knew him as Young-il, not even his real name - In-ho - how could you handle everything else there was to learn about him?
"You really think we'll make it through?"
"Yes, I won't let anything happen to you."
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The curtains opened to a colourful room, a big round platform stood in the middle of the room. As your eyes darted around the room, anxiety started to fill you.
That was when Player 001 grabbed your hand, giving it a squeeze.
"Remember?" He said, you turned to look at him, nodding quickly. Knowing he was talking about not dropping each others hands. He could already see the terror written across your face. Guilt started to fill him.
As you were all walking towards the platform, the announcement was made over what the game would be. Mingle.
255 was displayed. The amount of players currently. "If they're displaying the contestant count, that must mean a lot of us are going to die, right? They want us to see that number go down." You said out loud, the group of players you'd grown closer to who were all standing around you, turned towards you. They knew you were right, it was a dark truth.
"No matter what happens, we must stay calm." In-ho spoke up, directing it to the whole group but he gave your hand a slight tug.
The platform began spinning. Your chest went tight, so did your grip around In-ho's hand.
Ten.
Everyone started forming groups, the lights were flashing. You knew you needed four more in your team to make the count. "Player 120!" You found your voice, spotting that they were a group of four.
"Run! Green door!"
It all happened so fast, but it also felt so slow. Your heart was thundering. But you were inside and the door was locked, you'd made it, you were safe.
At the sound of gunshots you jumped and turned towards the direction the noise had come in, only to met with the horrifying sight of all the contestants who hadn't made it into a room being shot to death through the little gap in the door. The colour started to drain from your face.
"Don't look." In-ho's commanding voice sounded out as he pulled you into him, placing his hands over your ears to block out the noise of the gunshots for you as much as he could. You squeezed your eyes shut.
Time seemed to move extra slow being in that room, and you knew it was because they had to move all the dead bodies away. There was enough that it was taking so long.
That was when the announcer started listing off the players that had been eliminated, the door was unlocked and you all started to exit.
You froze as a squelch noise sounded out under your shoe as you took a step. You made an audible gasp at the giant pool of blood on the floor underneath you. It was enough that you could see your own reflection in it. "Young-il." You squeezed his hand, he still hadn't let go of you.
"Look at me." You lifted your head at the sound of his voice. "You made it through, you're safe. We'll make it through again." He was so calm for you, you were so grateful.
Four. Was the next round.
168 was the amount of players left. Almost 100 people had died only after two rounds.
Three. Was the next round. This was when people really started to turn on one another, pushing, kicking, punching each other to form groups to survive. Pulling people out of rooms so they could have it, leaving the others to die. Player 001 and Player 456 made sure you got into a room with them.
You weren't doing well by this point. You couldn't take in a full breath, you were so overwhelmed. You'd never heard so many gun shots, you'd never seen so much blood, so much death. You were trying your hardest to keep a clear mind but it was feeling nearly impossible.
"I can't do this anymore." You said out loud.
In-ho and Gi-hun turned to look at you.
"I know it's hard, but you have to, (Y/N)." Player 456 said as he placed his hand on your shoulder.
"There's only likely to be a couple more rounds." Player 001 spoke this time, he knew exactly how many more were coming. "We've made it this far, we'll get through the next rounds. Remember, just keep hold of my hand." He spoke very clearly wanting to make sure you heard him, it was visible on your face that you were struggling to remain present.
Six.
There was seven of you. Everyone frantically looked around the circle.
"Should we split up?" Player 390 suggested.
"Is there enough players left to do that?" You questioned.
"I'll go." Player 001, spoke, you turned to look at him so fast your neck made a crack.
"No."
"I'll be okay." He assured you, placing your hand into Dae-ho's despite the jealous monster inside him wanting to snatch it back right away. You didn't know it but he was putting you first, he would be okay sneaking off and hiding in a room on his own, the Frontman wouldn't get killed. You wouldn't make it trying to form a new group now. "Don't let go of her." In-ho commanded him.
"Of course, sir." Dae-ho responded, quickly grabbing your hand tight.
Before you had a chance to protest, he was gone. He'd left you.
"Young-il!" You called out, but you'd already lost him.
"We have to hurry!" Player 456 yelled out, all of you moving quick towards a free room.
You turned your head over your shoulder to see if you could spot Player 001. That was when you were lifted up, your hand being ripped from Dae-ho's as you got dragged away.
"Sorry, we need her more!" Thanos held you tight in his arms, pulling you to a different room.
"No!" Dae-ho yelled out, but he was already being pulled by Jung-bae.
"Let me go!" You tried to fight against Thanos, but he was stronger.
You were pulled into a room at the last second and the door was locked behind you. As the men you were in the room with cheered, you cowered into the back corner.
You didn't know if any of your friends had made it, what if the five you were supposed to be with didn't find their sixth?
What if Player 001 hadn't found a group to go with?
What if you were truly on your own here.
You slid down the wall, you felt like you wanted to pass out. Your body trembled, your face went white, your head felt heavy and your body felt light. You were having a panic attack.
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"Gi-hun!" In-ho called out upon seeing him exit a room. He had a smile on his face.
Gi-hun didn't return it.
Player 001 watched as everyone else left the room. When the sixth person wasn't you, he panicked, but his panic showed with rage.
"Where is she?!" Instantly he lunged at Dae-ho, grabbing him by the collar.
"I don't know! I'm sorry! I had her hand but someone just grabbed her and took her so fast. Time was running out, I'm sorry Young-il!"
"I told you not to let go of her!" He shook Player 388. What he really wanted to do was snap his neck.
âLooking for your girl?" Thanos interrupted, bouncing over to the group like he was having the time of his life. "She's in that room over there. Sheâs having a full mental breakdown. Baby girl canât handle it!â
Just as In-ho began to make a move towards the room, an announcement was made.
âAll remaining players must return to the platform, immediately.â
Guards moved to usher the players towards the platform, one stepped into the room that you were in, In-ho surged forward. A guard stepped directly in front of him.
âLet me help her! Iâll get her out here with the rest of us!â He yelled, his calm demeanour completely shattered at the thought of losing you.
âJust kill her! She wonât make it through the next round anyway.â Someone from the platform yelled out. In-ho turned to see who it was, knowing he'd want to remember that face. He was going to pay.
âItâll be more money for all of us.â Player 100. The eldest man here joined in. If In-ho didn't have you as his top priority, he would have grabbed the guards gun and shot them both dead. These were the disgusting, evil, selfish displays of humans that made him keep the games running.
"Let me get her, she doesn't deserve to die for being scared." He commanded, his voice strong, still angry but more balanced. Finally the guard stepped to the side.
As In-ho approached the room he heard you begging the guard, âJust kill me, please kill me.â His heart broke.
Instantly he dropped to his knees before you. "(Y/N)," He cradled your face in his hands, angling your head up to look at him. It pained him to see the state you were in. So much horror showed on your face, he knew today was going to leave with permanent emotional scars. He'd spend his lifetime trying to heal them.
"Young-il," Your eyes went wide, you looked at him in disbelief for a few moments before you leapt forward, swinging your arms around his neck. "I thought you died."
He wrapped his arms around you so tightly, holding you against him. "I'm here, I'm sorry for not staying with you."
"Don't leave me again. You let go of my hand. Don't let me go again."
"I won't, baby. I promise I won't." He could feel your body shake, he could feel your quick and uneven breaths. He'd never second guessed being the Frontman until this moment. How could he have put you through this? "You're okay, you're alive. We're almost done, then I'm getting you out of here."
You nodded against him, your face buried in his neck.
"Put your legs around me, okay?" His hands landed on your thighs and he aided in wrapping them around his hips. "I'm going to hold you through the next round. Keep your limbs gripped strong, can you do that?" You nodded. "I need to hear you, (Y/N), I need to know you understand."
"Yes."
"Good girl. Alright, one, two, three-" He grunted as he stood up, taking you with him, his arms were wrapped tight around you, holding you in place. Your had your arms locked his neck and your legs locked around his hips, clinging to him out of pure terror.
Running to a room was going to be hard like this. He turned his head away from you, whispering directly to the guard.
âIâm going to run towards the yellow door, make sure it is locked until I'm right by it, then unlock it." His voice was very quiet, but the coldness in his tone was unmissable.
âBut-â The guard began to respond.
âDo it. Nothing happens to her.â The Frontman cut off his guard. This was a demand that was non-negotiable. Once he was walking back towards the platform, he could feel the eyes of the other contestants locked onto the two of you. A few gasps sounded out, a few muttered comments. He blocked them all out. You were his top priority in this current moment.
âYoung-il, are you alright holding her? I can take her from you if you need.â Dae-ho asked once you were back on the platform, in Player 001's arms. You dared to peek your eyes open, spotting Dae-ho and everyone else, relieved they were alive.
âIâve got her. Iâm not letting her go.â In-ho kept his gaze forward, fighting the urge to call him an idiot for suggesting such a thing when he couldn't even keep ahold of your hand last round.
Two.
Chaos started, this was the worst people had acted yet. As In-ho immediately took off in a sprint, you watched over his shoulder in horror as people turned on one another. You tightened your grip around him, and he did on you in response.
Player 001 managed to dodge most of the frenzy taking place, it was almost a clean run right to the yellow room. He reached out his arm towards the door handle, his hand was almost touching it when someone slammed into the two of you. You flung out of his arms and crashed into the floor with a thud.
In-ho watched in rage as the same player then tripped over you, kicking you in your side as he fell over. If he didn't have to get you in the room so quickly, he would have killed him.
"Come here." Adrenaline surged through him as he swooped down to pick you up again. You groaned, your ribs in so much pain from the fall and kick. Tears filled his eyes, a range of emotions swirled through him. Rage for what you were going through, guilt that he was the reason this was happening to you, frustration that he couldn't just free you from it right now.
Finally, he carried you into the room, he placed you down on your feet, and turned to shut and lock the door.
"Young-il," Immediately he snapped his head around to see what had caught your attention. It was him, the man who first said to kill you. He must have snuck in when you fell to the floor.
Rage. Rage. Rage. It was all the Frontman felt as he neared the man.
"(Y/N), close your eyes and cover your ears."
You did as he said, part of you knew what he was going to do already, but part of you wanted to act like it wasn't real. With your eyes squeezed shut and your hands clasped over your ears, your tried your hardest to ignore the snapping sound, but it still made you flinch.
You flinched again at the feeling of bigger hands being placed over yours that were still pressing down on your ears. "It's me." Player 001 assured you. "Keep your eyes closed for a little longer, I'll tell you when to open them, but you made it, you're okay. The game is over now."
"Young-il, did you..." You let your voice trail off, afraid of an answer you already knew anyway.
"I did what I had to do to keep you alive."
#lee byung hun x reader#lee byung hun#frontman x reader#player 001 x reader#frontman#player 001#squid games#squid game#writings#my writing#my writings#writing
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#alek art#td duncan#td mal#total drama#total drama all stars#(if i want to get technical)#2024#duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16#ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different#duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt#scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it#duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here#i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a#gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because#i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though đ i dont#see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo#but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it#duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his#privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in#juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike#is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon#madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together#duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault#mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a#lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he#knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt#matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify#had me messed up
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i took a cool shower this morning and brushed my hair and i feel good now. i feel soft
i think im probably a little too hard on my self in terms of appearence, idk why im so insecure of the way i look all the time.. i was looking at myself in the mirror from sorta far away and thought that i looked nice. id probably like myself a lot more if i was looking at myself as a different person
#i was gonna say something else but i forgot#oh yeah i bought new shoes a few weeks ago so i no longer feel insecure of my 8 year old shoes that looked like crap#i still really want new pants though its just so hard to find jeans that fit me that i like#im like stuck in this trap of wearing skinny jeans forever
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#Nothing to see here folks!#Just an old bitch whining and being annoying about stuff - move along! Pay no attention to the hater behind the curtain!#Wrestling is Bad Actually#*Heavy sigh*#I miss wrestling#I really do#I miss watching it and enjoying it and getting excited about it and writing fic about it#But I just can't do any of that anymore. Tony Khan ain't letting me LOL#And I have boring real life adult problems and wrestling used to be my escape from all that but NOT ANYMORE!#It's just really hitting me today how much I'm in Fandom Limbo#I stopped watching AEW months ago because - to put it as diplomatically as possible - it is very much Not For Me anymore#And everything I've seen and heard since then has only confirmed I made the right decision there#But I don't currently have another hyper-fixation to fill the void#So I'm just stuck here desperately waiting for something else to come and save me from this nightmare#And I don't want to be a hater! I used to fucking LOVE AEW and I take no joy in how much I think it sucks nowadays#And I don't wanna be a party pooper either - I see everyone else squeeing about the Bucks or Junglecorpse or MJF and Ospreay or Bryan#And it's just like...I'm glad y'all are having fun - really! But GOOD LORD does none of that appeal to me in the slightest#Most of my faves aren't getting booked - let alone pushed!#And the few that are are even worse off because Tony's booking is SO BAD it makes me unable to give a shit about wrestlers I used to love#I feel like Lieutenant Dan on New Years - everyone else is having a grand ol' time while I'm just sat here like đ#I feel like I'm going through the fives stages of grief in regards to fandom at the moment and it is not a good time let me tell ya#So yeah - don't be surprised if I stop being a wrestling blog the second the new Dragon Age game comes out#Save me Bioware! You're my only hope!
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Lucifer doesn't care how the labcoats say it works; he knows there's no such thing as a clean break from a drift the minute the plug is pulled. Instead, Michael goes from a second consciousness beside his own to being dragged out of Lucifer the further Lucifer gets from him, both of them gripping tight to the connection until it slips, until it snaps, with a violent recoil that knocks Lucifer's brain out of alignment and reminds his legs that they don't work. His next step falls too fast, too heavily, and refuses to take his weight. It's only Michael, now only a voice outside of Lucifer's head yelling his name, catching him from behind that allows Lucifer to collapse to the floor with his dignity intact.
#is this more than one sentence? yes. yes it is. because tumblr deleted this post once and pissed me off.#i had so many tags about lucifer already and boom. gone.#anyway. tfw you see your boyfriend get severely injured during a battle and this makes you panic so bad you manage to make it a few meters#which is a lot for a guy who can't actually walk.#lucifer's got a whole Situation. turns out plugging a guy's brain up to a giant robot is not without its bugs.#especially when said guy was one of the first to be stuck inside the giant robot with his brother. and testing was a lower priority due to#everyone wanting a faster solution to the Giant Fucking Monsters. so lucifer's brain got overloaded and can't send signals to his legs#anymore to move right unless he's hooked up to a mech. technically when this first happened the doctor told him 'well if you stop doing mec#shit you can walk again.' but 1) he's not doing that. and 2) that was years ago. just because that recommendation is still on a file#somewhere doesn't mean it would actually work for him. or even that it would have back then. it's still the official answer for 'fixing' hi#because that's better optics than the truth. which is that he can't walk.*#(technically. technically. if he was left disconnected from the mech for a week he could walk. it would also be exhausting. and painful.#and slow. this is not something lucifer considers to be helpful information when he moves faster and with more ease in his chair.#this is something other people like to point out about him that makes him want to start hitting them. and it's not even really true anymore#the 'a week disconnected' thing. again. was a long time ago. it would take over a month for him to stand nowadays.)#(v few people Get all of this but like. michael is one of them. he's in lucifer's head enough that it would be weirder for him not to get i#add to that him being one of the few people who has seen lucifer walk nowadays and focused more on 'hey he looks like he hates that'#than praising it. and he gets it. and is also the requisite amount of annoyed when lucifer *runs off* before michael can help him into his#chair!! not the first time this has happened and will not be the last. michael's used to catching him.)#ask#oh my god that was so much rambling. this isnt even the point of the fic btw. this is just. backstory. worldbuilding.
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hi, esme! thanks for the ask :)
hmmm, some facts about me?
my favorite romcom is Only You
i've seen the northern lights
i have a little plastic foot named Murphy
i hope these random facts were fun/ interesting!
#some commentary in the tags for these#i love only you partially because one year on valentine's day my dad was out of town for work so my mom got out all our cheesy romcoms#that we had on dvd and bought each of us our own tub of ice cream and we had popcorn and made heart shaped cookies#it was a few years ago but it was something that really stuck with me and i've loved it since#i also watched it with my best friend recently and she absolutely loved it too#seeing the northern lights was seriously one of the most incredible life changing experiences ever. i think about it all the time and how#fucking COOL it is that i was lucky enough to go up to Alaska for xmas one year#murphy was a christmas present a few years ago and he has gone with me on all my trips since. he's a great travel companion!#murphy is a tiny sasquatch foot and i love him#maddie lore
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apparently "oh, that's alright, the noise means it doesn't hurt at the moment" is the wrong thing to say to your dentist after your jaw cracked dramatically each time you opened your mouth
#i've never seen them so concerned#i mean i get it this hasn't been an issue before i left for uni#and not much of a problem since i returned until maybe five weeks ago#so it wasn't exactly on their radar#asked me if i was having problems so i said that my jaw was being a little iffy atm#and then it promptly did That#and all hell broke loose#sure it's Not Great but i've been living like this since 2020 so i only care if i'm in pain or not#(well. maybe why tf i'm constantly feeling like i've got something stuck between my molars even though there's nothing there)#(which is new and not very fun)#so i just sat there like ???#it's all good now they gave me physiotherapy#which is all i wanted when i brought it up in the first place since that has helped immensely#when it was really bad a few years back
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i donât think iâve really been present mentally at all today. iâve started to think i just zone out of everything way more often than i realise because there are moments where i do zone in and actually get a bit distressed because suddenly iâm so present and am not used to it at all. but today has just been especially bad with my sibling being a bit sick because suddenly i feel like a lot of the work iâve done to not be on guard all the time is just gonna be gone. today barely felt real though like i was just going through the motions and wasnât even thinking anything because my brain just wasnât present
#still doesnât really feel real#a lot of days are âgoing through the motionsâ days but im not usually zoned out to the point where iâm just not even thinking bc iâm so#checked out#iâd be more concerned if I wasnât just stuck in apathy about everything#i need to see a therapist. iâm not talking about it to many people because if anyone even tries to joke and go âfinallyâ or something like#that then i know i will put it off another six months to a year bc thatâs what happened literally half a year ago#i just need someone whoâs gonna work with me bc i have gone in the past and it just doesnât do anything#not that theyâre not doing anything itâs that they tell me things iâve already figured out while i just want to function#I know grief comes and goes. how do I stop myself from going offline every time someone near me coughs#vent tw#these past few days have been. rough#I think i need a good cry too. I almost had one last night but i was driving
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thinking about jack who likes to play dress up when heâs little, getting a necklace from his cg thatâs just a subtle reminder. itâs very comforting to wear when he regresses alone, because if he gets scared or spirals he can hold the pendant and know heâs not alone, that his cg will help hhim.
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Ëâ§âżâŕ¨ŕ§âYou're Such A Bratâ Ëâ§ŕ§âď¸ľâ§ Ë â
Âť pairing: arrogant!sunghoon x bratty!reader
Âť summary: since high school, park sunghoon has been the absolute bane of your existence. youâve always viewed him as a stuck-up snob, and he has always seen you as a whiny brat. you arenât sure why your mother still thinks of you two as friends, you can hardly stand being in the same room as each other. while at home from college one night, your mother surprises you with news of a work event she and mrs. park will be attending. the catcher? mrs. parkâs nightmare of a son is going to be forced to spend the evening at your houseâŚ..
Âť warnings: college au, lots of arguments (both are toxic af), lowkey manipulative on both ends?? t e n s i o n, one scene depicting choking, unprotected sex (WRAP IT UP), extremely rough sex, enemiesâŚ.toâŚ?, lil unserious in the beginning, reader and sunghoon genuinely detest one another (but isnât that the bestđŤ) mean!dom sunghoon, bratty!sub y/n, oral sex (f. & m. receiving), degrading kink, teasing, heavy/aggressive make-outs, breasts play, masturbation (f. - reader masturbates to fake scenario), humiliation kink, dirty talk, reader used to be affiliated with p.sh, orgasm denial + fingering, ass + pussy slapping, slight mentions of lee heeseung & sim jake...
Âť w.c: 11.5k (no wonder why it took forever!)
Âť a/n: would like to apologize for the delay!! but, it's finally here. please let me know if i should do more enha works.
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"Why do you have to leave?" With a droopy face, you annoyingly complain- yet again -to your mom about her rude decision of abandoning you.
She rolls eyes- yet again -at your antics and continues to put up the last bits of groceries, "It's a simple work event, Y/N. I'm not sure why you're being so stubborn right now. Plus, you used to love when Sunghoon and his mother came over."
You shudder at the mere mention of his name, "That was before he became such a stuck up fucking prick-"
That line earns yourself a disapproving, 'Y/N!' and in turn you retract your statement with a couple of half-assed, 'sorry, sorry'.
Though, in your head, you knew you held back from saying worse things.
Your mother sighs deeply as she finishes shoving the last few items into the fridge before spinning around to face you, "I'm not asking a lot from you, just entertain the boy or something while we're out. Is that really too difficult?"
She lets her question hang in the air for a second, then proceeds to move from the kitchen to the living room. However, if she thought she could escape you, she would be dead wrong. Because you're not far from her in step.
"Okay, new question." You propose which earns another groan from Mom. You stop in place when she leans over to dust the couch off with her hands, " Since you and Mrs. Park are carpooling to the event, I understand why she's coming here. But does he really have to come too? Why can't he just stay at his own damn-.....d-dang, house?"
When she straightens herself out, she bears a look of plead in hopes that this is truly the last of your inquiries, "His mother is the one who suggested it. And if we're being truthful, you and Sunghoon used to be so......" she pauses, looking for the right word, "....so cute when the two of you were close."
A hand flies to your mouth as you internally gag at your mother's words. Cute? Maybe 10 years ago, when you both were still in elementary. But that was before he had the chance to grow into his unbearably horrid of a personality.
Granted, you partly blamed his high school friend group for his abominable transformation. While, yes, you did agree that Sunghoon just naturally held the asshole gene, you were also certain that hanging around and slinging dicks with stupid Sim Jake and stupid Lee Heeseung, surely wasn't going to help this fact either.
Disgusting pricks. All of them.
You lower your hand slowly, "Please don't remind me of that time."
"For the love of-" She excuses herself from your vicinity and struts back into the kitchen, "Honey, I don't understand how you could be acting like this. I thought once you two went off to university together, things would be different by this point."
Oh. It's different alright.
Instead of the harsher stares he used to simply give in high school, Sunghoon has upgraded his abrasiveness to terrible comments directed towards your character. Any chance possible, the two of you would butt heads even more than your previous encounters. On campus, in passing, at parties; if you saw him anywhere, you just knew something would be said.
On top of that, it also doesn't help that his buffoon bunch of friends followed him to the same college as you. And, you had to see them everywhere.
You figured once you came home, you could enjoy a week of internal peace. Free from the many stressors that come with university. Now, your mother seems to disregard any of your warnings and wants to let the main stressor inside of your house?
"Can I add as well," she speaks up in the absence of your voice- you had been too busy pouting- "I know the two of you share the same English class, and according to his mother, he's been excelling at his papers."
At the insinuation, your mouth drops agape, however, she disregards the reaction and continues on, "You can ask for some pointers from him."
"Absolutely not." There was no way that could've been an option. Firstly, you would never hear the end of it from Sunghoon: âOh, you want help from me? I didnât realize you were so awful at this,â and then it probably wouldâve been followed up with, âWell, I canât say Iâm too surprised. Youâre not theâŚbrightest person Iâve met.â
Annoying bastard.
He would never let you live that down, and frankly, you didn't want to give him anymore ammo to shoot you in the face with. Henceforth, that couldnât be an option. Not if you wanted to keep your sanity.
Your mother regards you intently, and slowly begins to shake her head. She couldn't do it anymore, didn't know what more to say; a wall has clearly been put up and you are as strong as steel, not letting anything through. As she's left puzzled on how to refute your statement, a ping from her phone catches her eye briefly.
She casts her gaze downwards, keeps it there for a few seconds, and then she's looking back up at your contorted face.
"Well, sweetie,â a strained smile begins to spread, âYou should probably fix that attitude of yours. They just got here." The doorbell ringing acts as a nail in the coffin, confirming your mother's words.
âYouâve got to be-â
She interrupts your complaining to tell you to get the door, so she can run upstairs and grab her purse. You're quick to bellow out a groan, but she's even quicker to shut that down, and instructs you to do it immediately while half-way up the staircase.
Once she disappears, you amble sluggishly towards the front, and as you're about ready to swing it open; a long, harsh breath is exhaled from the other side followed by a grumble.
"You better be nice to her or I swear Sunghoon...."
It's Mrs. Park, who's voice seemed to have a combination of both sincerity and aggression laced in it. Your eyebrows furrow, listening harder.
"Yeah, yeah. Be nice to the brat, I heard you the first 4 other times." He finishes with his own irritated huff.
Your expression goes wide at that. Is he fucking serious? Did he really just call you a brat? You. A brat? You're mind relishes in disbelief.
"Sunghoon!" His mother responds with, and more indistinct talking arose. However, while their voices grew quieter your annoyed levels skyrocketed. You begin to think that it's quite plausibleâŚ.someone might die tonight.
"Y/N! Did you grab the door yet?" Your mom yells from her bedroom.
You do a double-take as you match her volume, "I'm doing it right now!"
Unbolting the locks, you pull back the piece of wood to reveal a very eager Mrs. Park, staring at you with smiley eyes. Sweeping your gaze right, there stood the ever straight-faced and stoic Park Sunghoon.
Even as you do a once over at his appearance- black hair fringed on his forehead, hands shoved into his long, sleek coat, and black sweats that barely poke out from underneath -you find it so, incredibly jarring that this came out of the always cheery Mrs. Park.
He didn't even try to smile, unlike you who beamed out a grin towards them, "Hello Mrs. Park! It's been so long since I last seen you.â
Dissimilar to her son, Mrs. Park is ready to envelope you into a warm hug. She extends her arms out and the two of you intertwine in a genuine and comforting embrace.
"Oh! Y/N! It truly has been a while," when she draws back, you watch her scan your face with an affectionate smile, "You just get more and more beautiful every time I see you." At the last second, she peeps over towards her son for encouragement, "Right, Hoonie? Doesn't she look lovely?"
His impassive eyes regard his mother, then ever so leisurely does he drag them onto your stature. The moment eye contact is made, you shift anxiously. Because why the hell is he looking at you like that?
You start to play with the hem of your oversized hoodie, which flowed nicely into your oversized sweatpants. Anyone with eyes could tell youâre not dressed for company. Hair messy from laying around, hardly any make-up on.
Clearly, you werenât expecting anyone today. Nonetheless, someone who took so much pride in his appearance. You almost felt jealously from it. Like heâs somehow proving the point that heâs better in almost every way- clothing included. Itâs infuriating.
With a single look up and down, Sunghoon cocks his head slightly before giving his answer, "No."
Intense bickering between mother and son start up, and you're left standing with a twitching eye of vexation as already you sense your patience running thin. Your fingers curl inwards to form a fist. It hasnât even been 30 seconds and you feel like punching him.
"I am so sorry about him, Y/N. I don't- I don't know what his problem is..." She stops midway to address another mumble from the boy. The two have a minor quarrel this time, and then sheâs back to focusing on you, ".....ah, may we come in?"
It takes your full strength to squeak out an, 'absolutely', despite your innate feelings. With a step back, you widen the door to appear more welcoming and the two of them step inside of your house.
Mrs. Park instantly calls out to your mother, with her shouting back at Mrs. Park, and when it's Sunghoon's turn to walk past, you couldn't help but notice the somewhat aggressive breeze he emits as he pushes through you.
A part of you couldâve sworn you also heard him mutter something in passing, but regardless, you decide to let that go instead of calling him out. Taking in a deep breath and exhaling, you hope to soothe the ever growing nerves thatâs been caused so far.
Remember, self-control. Right, that is a thing and you are more than capable of exhibiting it. So, keep your cool. Try not to blow up. At the very least, if not for yourself, then for the sake of both your mother and Mrs. Park.
Yes, for them. You can do this for them. Just simply donât engage and all will be well.
You repeat this to yourself a few more times as you close the door. All will be well if you let it be. Now feeling better, you flip around to see your mom make a descent back down into the living room, a purse now dangling from the crevice of her elbow.
She sashays up to Sunghoonâs mother, and the two women squeal in delight as they engulf one another. Itâs admirable how much they care for each other, proving why they became such good coworkers then friends. You also find it adorable how similar their outfit choices are, with both of them sporting a dark blue dress.
Once they part, your mother turns her attention over towards the previously brooding boy. Though, you find it interesting how Sunghoon seems to have an easier expression now.
"Sunghoon, you're too tall! How am I supposed to reach you?" She gushes while brining him in for hug. A light chuckle dances out of him, and after a brief second they're pulling back from one another. Mrs. Park jumps in on the conversation about her son.
They begin to go on and on about all of his accomplishments; 'Oh! Sunghoon I heard you're doing excellent in your courses,' and, 'You are so involved with the community, itâs wonderful to see that someoneâs trying.â Itâs sickening to see the immediate chokehold he has on the women, you observing the conversation emotionlessly.
After their near 20 minute rant (or what felt like it) finally your mother remembers your presence and decides to rope you in. She ushers you to come closer, and after a hasty back and forth, you scoot only mere inches into the circle, closer to him.
"You've been scoring well on your essays, Sunghoon, isn't that right?" Your mom starts and you want to scream right then and there.
He affirms her question with a swift nod, "Yes. I have."
"I don't think he's gotten below a 91 on his papers." Mrs. Park chimes in, and you secretly curse your mother for where this topic is about to go.
Your mom's eyes brighten as she looks over to Sunghoon, "That's amazing to hear. Actually, I think Y/N could use some tips on a few of her past works. She's been getting marked off on nearly every single one of them and could use the help!"
He hums in amusement, raking his eyes until they rest on your scowl. You feel his stare on you as you cross your arms and side step away from him, "Was that necessary to bring up?â
"Oh," your mother waves a dismissive hand, "Nonsense, sweetie. I'm sure a few pointers from this one will help raise that C- you have."
"Mom!"
Before you could object any further, a gasp leaves Mrs. Park's mouth and quickly sheâs pulling your mother off to the side. She just remembered some news from work. While the two women chat, youâre left to stand idly, eyes darting off to the side while a wave of quietness engulfs the air. Sunghoon remains silent, as well.
You sure as hell hadnât planned on talking to him and if that meant silence would be bestowed, then so be it. Itâs for the better, anyways. Youâre trying a new approach at things, and if you're forced to converse with him, youâre afraid itâll lead to someone getting choked out. Not you, by the way. SoâŚto avoid conflict, silence it is.
A short sigh from Sunghoon interrupts your thinking. You do a quick glance up at the..irritatingly tall boy, and see his gaze is turned all the way left, side-profile on display for you. He mustâve picked up on your hostility, which is why he has not said anything, you believe. Good. He should know better than to get you riled-
âYou have a C- in that class? Are you serious?â
Perplexed, you raise your eyebrows from the sudden outburst, âExcuse me?â
Is he really trying to start this right now?
He keeps his head faced away from you, then at the last second he twists it back and you see a new expression dawns on him. That of complete arrogance, âEnglish Literature is a stupid easy class. Iâm surprised to hear youâre doing poorly.â
As you open your mouth to shut up him, he proceeds further with his berating, âThen again,â he lets out a dry laugh, âI guess I shouldnât be so shocked that you need me. Youâve always fell short when it came to academics.â
Sunghoon watches your face morph into pure anger, and as sick as it may be for him to admit it, this is where he finds true enjoyment. In the reactions you always give in the moments you feel wronged.
You do a short shuffle as you feel yourself releasing the chains of self-control. You knew he would act this way. He always does.
âOkay, so Iâm not doing well,â you state matter-of-factly, âSo. Fucking. What? Iâd rather have a shitty grade in this class than beg some snobby prick for aid.â
You tried to hold back.
At the sudden drop of name calling, a bitter grin erupts onto his lips, âLike you deserve my help.â
âFor the record, I never asked for it,â you throw a hand up as new found confidence starts to build up in your core, âBut trust me. If I really needed you, then I would make you fucking help me.â
His eyes widen from your accusation, âYou really think I would tend to you? Knowing your unruly attitude?â Disbelief switches onto his face, his thick eyebrows creasing together uncomfortably, âGod. Youâre such a brat.â
And just like that, you hit a snapping point. Without wasting another second, you begin to hurl every insult in the book his way, your rage boiling past whatever containment you thought you had. Heâs ready to argue back at you when a light shriek stops both of you mid sentence.
"Oh, we need to get a move on it. I didnât even realize the time. Itâs about to be 7.â Your mother comments and you almost retort it with a snide remark on how inquisitive she's been about Sunghoon's life.
Mrs. Park trots her way towards the door, saying her final goodbye to her son along the way. Your mother shares her own words of departure, though it's mixed with your protest on her leaving.
"Alright kiddos, we'll try not to be too long." She speaks with one foot out the door, "Y/N, please treat our guest kindly."
You give the boy, who's now walked up and standing to the side of you, a deathly glower, "Get him the fu-"
"Y/N. Kindly, please." She reiterates with a sweet bite, and to that you could only sigh defeatedly.
Mrs. Park is not far behind your mother as she twists to address Sunghoon one last time, "Honey, please be-"
"Be nice, I know." He finishes in a sort of annoyed tone. Though after that, being nice is the last thing she would need to worry about.
With more reassurance, the two women give each other a passing glance, and soon after another round of goodbyes, the door closes shut.
Leaving you trapped here with your absolute nightmare.
With a deep groan, you stagnantly turn towards Sunghoon just as heâs twisting his body to reluctantly face you. Peering up through your eyelashes, you make absolutely sure he feels the unwelcomed signals radiating off of you as you go to speak.
"Stay the fuck away from me."
His eyes roll nearly out of their sockets as he starts to slip off his coat, "What happened to being kind to your guests?"
He mocks the words that were handed to you, and your eyes narrow while watching him hang the jacket on a nearby rack.
You notice his shirt of choice- now on display -is a tight black T-Shirt, curving and outlining all of the spots you hate the most about him. God, you think you just got even more annoyed.
Turning your nose upwards, you start to inch closer towards the staircase, "I couldn't care less about that, if I'm being completely honest." You do a full twirl so all Sunghoon can see is your back, "Hereâs what you can do: either entertain yourself in the living room or get the fuck out. Choose whatever you want as long as it doesnât involve me.â
He goes tight-lipped. You are just the epitome of an ungrateful little brat, holy fuck. Sunghoon shoots his vision away with a brief head shake. Despite his growing emotions, he knows it will be better to not engage. He really didnât feel like fighting with you right now. Like how you both always manage to do.
Clearing his throat, Sunghoon begins to walk slowly towards the couch, his upper muscles flexing with every step, "Whatever. I'm not dealing with you tonight."
That makes you halt in your tracks. Dealing with you? What? Like you're some untrained puppy?
"No, I'm not dealing with you tonight,â you sneer back then scoff, retreating upstairs once again, âJust fucking stay down here and we wonât have any more problems.â
His back hits the couch cushion with a flop as he starts to call out to you, âRight. Itâs not like the problem isn't taking itself upstairs at the moment!"
Oh, that touched a nerve. So much so that you find yourself shouting from the second story, having made it up there a few seconds prior, âYou shouldâve just stayed at your own fucking house!â
"Do you ever stop fucking talking?â He raises his voice back at you; maybe not quite to the extent of your screaming, but nonetheless you could hear him from upstairs.
Upon entering your room, you slam the door shut with all your might. You swear you even felt the floor shake from the force. Pissed doesnât even begin to describe your emotions currently. Youâre at a whole new level.
You're fuming. Chest huffing, fists clenched, ooh- you've never met someone who irked as badly as fucking Park Sunghoon had.
Why? Why? Why did he have to be in your home right now? Why did your mother think this was a good idea? And why did he have to look so nice with his stupid shirt and black joggers?
You begin to pace around your room.
He's messing with you, clouding your head with complex thoughts. If there's one thing you loathed most about the boy downstairs it's his ability to turn your brain to mush.
It's like all thoughts and rationality fly out of the window, and instead is replaced with....just nothing. Nothing but anger, resentment, and a tiny bit of something else however you're willing to suppress that for the time being.
You bring a thumb up to stroke your lip. Mind racing, your brain starts to piece together what you should do to alleviate this stress. You're going crazy, you recognized that, and youâre certain a distraction is needed for you to get your thoughts cleared.
As you think back to all that has you feeling so jumbled, a sudden surge runs throughout your core. No. You know what your body is attempting to do. And itâs not going to work. Even as another hits you and makes your thighs clench unwillingly, you hold on to your determination.
You canât do it, you tell yourself. Especially when Sunghoonâs downstairs. Itâs ridiculous. Unfathomable. There is no way you wouldâŚ..
Moments later, you find yourself completely and utterly naked in your bed, deciding the best way to calm down is by having aâŚ.release. Your pulses started became too unbearable to ignore, leaving you with only one option. This option.
Is it the most convenient method of stress relieving? Well, probably not. But, truly, in times where youâre free to strip bare and dish out a quickie, you always find it leaves your mind feeling blissful.
And you desperately need that right now, because in all honesty, you arenât sure what the hell youâre feeling right now due to Sunghoon.
As your brain is beginning to wonder, you absentmindedly brush the backs of your fingers against your lower stomach. Park Sunghoon. The name is like poison in your head, and you canât find the damn cure for some reason.
Your hand drops a little lower. Thinking back on your most recent argument, you remember the eye contact you two held, before forcing yourself to break free from his gaze. You tilt your head, the memory becoming even more clear. That damn gaze.
âŚ..if only he could use it from a different angle.
A sharp exhale flies out of your mouth as you realize youâve made contact with your clit. Youâre lighting swarming around the area while it continues to throb enticingly. A different angle? LikeâŚ.one where heâs in between your legs, staring at you with those stupid fucking know-it-all eyes.
Your body responds well to that imagination, your hips slightly bucking into your hand to garner some friction. Would you two be on the bed? No, you think you like the idea of getting him on his damn knees and making him eat you out nice and slowly while on floorâŚa whole lot better.
Heâd tried to take control, you already know his arrogant ass would. Yet, in reality, you will be the one calling the shots. If he starts to suck a little too much for your likings, one hair tug and heâll slow down. Cause heâll listen to you, youâll make sure of it.
A small smile cracks out onto your face, focusing deeply on your sprouting pleasure. Yeah, you like the Park Sunghoon in your imagination a lot better than the one real life. Your fingers are now circling the bud, producing ripples of sensation that keeps your movements and thoughts going.
Heâll keep his attention fixed on you the whole time heâs devouring you, you assume. Because if thereâs one thing about Sunghoon, heâll love to see you come undone at the cause of him. Would love to see that sexy ass face you make right before you orgasm.
And the way your thighs will squeeze around his cheeks so perfectly, oh fuck him. Heâd get so fucking horny from just tasting your sweet, sweet pussy.
Shutting your eyes, your vision explodes with images of your lewd thoughts, playing out your ideal fantasy. You can hear yourself start to whimper while your pelvis becomes more sporadic in the way it chases the coming feeling.
At the minute you tell him youâre close, heâd latch onto your clit, no plan on stopping. Scratch that, he probably couldnât stop himself from finishing you out. Youâve been treating him so well up until this point. Letting him cum inside you, in your mouth; the least he could do is give you a head-splitting orgasm.
You rub your soaking cunt all over the palm of your hand, desperation coursing through your veins. Imagine annoying little Sunghoon, whoâs only wish is for you to cum. To cum all over his face, down his own throat. Heâs on his knees below you because he wants the full effect of seeing how much youâre letting yourself go from his tongue.
Then, with one long sucking motion, youâd fall apart. With your orgasm hitting you dead on your clit, youâd start to quiver on top of him while screaming out, âSo fucking good, So fucking good. Fuck, youâre making me cum.â
Your hand speeds up to have you cumming alongside your scenario, your own real orgasm washing over you deliciously. It leaves your body stuttering and eyes rolling back into your head as you continue to work at your pussy during the duration. And all you could think about was how much you fucking hated stupid Park Sunghoon.
Once your high comes down, you firstly lay in your bed to recover. That had to have been one of your best and strongest impromptu session. Fuck, did you enjoy every part of it.
True to nature, as well, your mind is so foggy from the haze that you canât even recall your earlier fury, which is now replaced with a more simple feeling: lust. You bask in the warmness thatâs spreading and also give your cunt a chance to get desensitized, before swinging your legs off of the bed and walking over to your dresser.
It was starting to get hot with your thick layers on anyways, which is why you opt for thinner clothes. You pull out a pair of cotton shorts that stop upper thigh on you, and then a cropped T-shirt for simple comfort.
Needing to wash your hands quickly, you swiftly run into the connected bathroom to your room, lather your hands in soap and soon youâre rinsing yourself off. When finished with that, you smile contently as you walk back to your bedroom and flop down stomach first onto the mattress.
You really did feel better. Your anger has subsided by now, the orgasm keeps your mind still a bit dizzy, there were no complaints to be had. Now, you planned on spending the rest of your evening locked up in here so you can continue feeling as such. Boom, simple as that.
A loud buzz from your phone on the nightstand has you scrambling to reach it, that giddy feeling not once leaving. Though, once you flip it over to reveal a text from your mother, you feel your smile drop immediately.
8:09 PM
Mom:
Hey sweetie, just wanted to do a quick check-in on the two of you. I hope everything's going okay.
You begin to type out a borderline aggressive message back, something along the lines of how everything was not going okay, but another message swooshes in before you could even finish your own.
After doing some rethinking, you donât need to ask Sunghoonie for help anymore. It wasnât fair of me to put you in that position without asking you first. Youâre old enough to make your own decisions now, and if you think youâll be okay without asking him for help, then you can decide that. Iâm sorry for making you feel as if you never had a choice.
You stop your rant midway, and look closer at the message. Oh. Oh. OhâŚ.
âMomâŚâ With a frown, you watch as yet another message flies across your screen, and you find that youâre a bit more accepting of this one.
8:14 PM
Mom:
But, I do want to make sure that you are trying with Sunghoon. I understand as of right now, it may be difficult to do so, you two are apparently quite hostile. However, Iâm asking if you can extend the white flag, at least for tonight. Make sure heâs not hungry, maybe you two can put on a movie downstairs. Just try and be cordial, thatâs my only request. Can you do that?
Stomach churning, you begin to gnaw on your bottom lip right now, those complex emotions rising up again. Dammit. You seriously thought nothing more would come out of this situation tonight. You thought once you had yourâŚ.release, you would be able to relax freely without any stressors.
But then you reread her latest text, and guilt surfaces in your heart. MaybeâŚyou havenât been putting in as much effort as you could have; you did just leave the boy downstairs to fend for himself. Is it possible for you to set your very, very strong feelings and justâŚsuck it up for the sake of your mother?
You were accepting of this feat earlier.
A quick scroll up has you revisiting the first large paragraph she sent you, the one that acknowledges your feelings. Your mother is trying right now, and you register that it would be unfair of you to not try as well.
8:20 PM
Y/N:
okay mom, i can do that for you.
You're downstairs before you know it. After many, many, many mental preparations, you now feel ready to be within the same space as the devi- Park Sunghoon.
Approaching your living room, the pale yellow lighting illuminates Sunghoon's backside, giving you a clear view of him. With one defined arm stretched out on top of the cushion, Sunghoon seems entranced with the movie playing on T.V, not appearing to have noticed your presence.
You shuffle your feet against the floor until you slow to a halt. In the span of your waiting, not once does he turn around. The movie must be drowning out your existence. Pivoting, you opt to round out the couch and stand in the middle for visibility. Sunghoon keeps his eyes trained forward. Surely, he feels your presence now, even if he may not be acknowledge it.
Sticking your hip, you gently clear your throat, "Ahem."
He throws a cruel glare over his shoulder before reverting back to his previous position, no comment to be left from him. You're standing still, okay then...
You dart your eyes away to view something else, then sweep them back over to his body, âAre youâŚhungry?â
A look of bewilderment dawns on his face as he shoots you a perplexed look, âWhy are you asking me that? Wouldnât you rather have me starve?â
âI-â you try to rebuttal his claim, but incriminatingly you start to avoid eye contact with him, âNo. Not necessarilyâŚâ
Yeah-fucking-right. He highly doubts that's true. Instead of replying, Sunghoon turns back towards the television. Silence remains. You follow his eyesight to watch a couple of seconds of the movie. Well, so much for trying.
You continue to stand awkwardly, wrapping your arms around your torso and rocking yourself back and forth slightly. Just try. Just try. Just. Try.
"Park Sunghoon." You mumble out and he snaps his attention towards you. If not for your eyes lurching up to look at the ceiling, then maybe you would have noticed the surprise once over he does to your outfit.
âWhat?â
You look down again, and try to shake the embarrassment thatâs clawing at you. Just try, âC-Can I watch this with you?â Holy fuck that felt harder to say.
Sunghoon squints his eyes as he tries really hard to figure out what the hell is your deal. Merely an hour ago, the two of you were having a screaming match, and now youâre fidgeting and asking to be in the same room as himâŚ.willingly?
He doesnât buy that for a second.
He drags his pupils up and down your frame, his greedy eyes wanting to drink in more of it, but at the realization of what he was doing, he forces himself to look away. Willingly? Yeah, no. He figures your mother would be the cause for this. Only reason he says this: his own mom sent a text not too long ago telling him to try harder with you. AndâŚit appears you are at least doing something.
With a rough sigh, Sunghoon decides to not say anything else, but rather signals you to sit down with a single quick head tilt. Your face grimaces at his cave-man like gesture, and although you went slowly about it, you do as he says and take a seat.
You snuggle deeper into the couch cushion, and allow your body to relax. Youâre so used to being on guard whenever around Sunghoon, it feels almost natural to stiffen up. Letting yourself relinquish this tension built up in your muscles, you find it easier to keep your cool.
Dropping your arms to your side, you start to focus harder on the movie and less on the boy sitting next to you. Does it slightly freak you out that his fingertips are only centimeters away from your shoulder? Yes. But for the most part, you can sense this isâŚ.tolerable. As if for once, you donât feel like biting Park Sunghoonâs head off.
Minutes turn into over an hour this movie has been on, and both you and Sunghoon have managed to not get into a single argument. You arenât sure when the last instance of this was. Elementary, maybe? Regardless, youâre at ease.
Your arm is propping your head up as you watch the characters on screen. The movie, though you never asked for its name, was some romantic comedy. You picked up on this fact a few minutes into watching it. And, wow, were they intense on the romance.
You couldnât even count the amount of make-outs that has happened since youâve been watching. You almost want to say 8 so far- oh, make it 9 now.
The lead characters are on their 9th kissing scene, stumbling around and fondling one another in the bathroom at some house party. You watch closely, part of your brain now heightened. The male actor is kissing the female until her ass touches the sink, and then heâs hoisting her up so she can sit on the counter.
Your face contorts unpleasantly. The scene further plays out to where the girl is begging the man for sex, desperate to have him inside of her, and you feel your mouth go dry.
This is beginning to hit a little too close to home for your likings, with a dusted memory you swore to bury attempting to resurface. You push the thoughts aways. Not now.
Trying to ignore the random squeeze your legs do, you tell yourself to ignore the familiarities and simply focus on the movie. However, at the moment the man grips the the womenâs throat and she moans intensely, you nearly freeze. Yeah, you canât watch this anymore.
With an airy voice, you keep your eyes fixed on the T.V to seem passive, âChange it to something else.â
âWhat?â Sunghoon doesnât glance over to you, also keeping his gaze forward, âWhy?â
You scoff lightly. Why canât he just listen to you? Whatâs with the interrogation? âYou always ask so many questions. Just change it.â
To that he responds with nothing. Youâre not giving him a proper response, so why should he listen to you? He remains engrossed in the movie.
When a few notable beats pass, you crane your neck over to his direction with a scrunched faced, âYah. Did you hear me? I said put on something else.â
He briskly whips his head to meet your eyes, his dark eyes boring harshly, âI donât care what you have to say. Iâm not changing it.â
Fed up with him, you reach over to grab the remote when he obtains it first. You glare menacingly at Sunghoon, while he mocks your expression, then holds the remote high above, taunting you. His slender fingers harboring it only fuels your anger, which grows hotter by the second.
âDonât piss me off.â You warn with undertones of a threat, as you climb over him to reach for the device. He extends it further away from your grasp.
âOr what?â
Bobbing the remote over your head, he just knew you were going to lose your cool at some point. Thatâs what all whiny brats do when they never get their way; they throw tantrums.
âJust fucking put on something else!â You scream, fighting him for the remote.
You donât care if you can feel your shorts start to ride up into your butt, or if your boobs are being shoved up against Sunghoonâs body. You donât care that youâre basically on top of him, trying to win this remote, because all rationality has exited your head.
You ask him to do one simple thing, and he fucking couldnât. Then, he wants to tease you and make fun of you? You tried, you think back to your motherâs message, and in your mind the exchange begins to burn. You really fucking tried, but thisâŚarrogant bastard just always makes it so damn hard.
He shakes the little strands of hair away from his face as he narrows his eyes brutally towards your squirmy body, âWhat the fuck is your deal? Youâre telling me your whore ass canât handle one god damn sex scene?â
This time you donât say anything back to him, instead your intention remains on getting the fucking remote. He takes your lack of response as an opportunity to dig further at you.
âReally? Youâre going to act like that?â He spews out more comments while continuously keeping the control from getting in your reach, âI find it hard to believe youâre freaking out-â
âDamn brat. Youâve been needing this fucking for a long time, havenât you?â
At the line of dialogue, Sunghoon shifts his attention towards the scene being played out, one of which the girl is now bent over the sink with the man pounding roughly into her backside. And with the combination of the manâs words and the stimulating scene, his eyes widen as he finally realizes what the core problem is.
A wave of deja vu hits him. A few months ago, he had you in a damn near similar position to that on the TV, even saying similar phrasing. The two of you had been drunk off of your minds, resulting in the memory being blocked from his head.
âWhat the fuck?â He mumbles, letting his guard down, giving you the chance to swoop upwards and snatch the remote away. All scattered-brain, you press the power button and watch as the TV powered down.
âSee.â You grit through your teeth, throwing the remote down in the meantime, âI told you. I told your dumbass to fucking change it. But, no. You didnât want to listen to me.â
His own chest starts to burn with aggression at your words, and he looks over to you angrily, âWill you just shut the fuck up? My god, youâre so annoying.â
âWhat? Mad because I was right?â You fake a pouty voice, your eyes going all doey while regarding him before swiftly fixing your face, âI never want to think about that night, and here you go, basically parading it in my face. And based off of your reaction, I can tell you hate thinking about it too.â
Sunghoon sits up from off of the couch, and brings his forearms to rest against his knees. That night was full of mistakes. Jake inviting him to that dumb ass party, Heeseung feeding him back to back shots of some sort of alcohol. The kind of of alcohol that forces you to act on thoughts that otherwise would've been suppressed.
The memories all rush back to him. The moment he saw you at the party, laughing and dancing around in that tiny fucking dress. It was like right then and there, his views on you changed. Instead of dismissing your presence, he found himself drawn to it. Instead of ignoring the silhouette of your body, he allowed himself to watch every single part of you.
When throwing all caution to the wind and deciding to walk up to you, he remembers you being equally as wasted as himself. That hadnât stopped you from throwing an immediate snarl at his approach, however. Although the interaction started with you two bickering, as always- the evening had ended so much differently.
He remembers it all. Moving from the main room to the bathroom, still jabbing insults at each other. How from one second to the next, your dress was now hiked up above your hips. The touching, the teasing, how hard the two of you came. The whole scene plays out in his head, and for some reason, Sunghoon canât stop it.
You snide in another comment which breaks his thoughts, âYeah, I guess Iâd be mad too if I were you. You basically threw yourself at me and begged to fuck me. Itâs pathetic how desperate you were.â
Now, youâre really heated. You rise to your feet in seconds and march over to stand above him, feeling reminiscent of your previous imagination. At the noticeable imbalance, the same satisfaction from earlier mixes with your current anger.
It spreads across your chest as you lour down at him, watching him bring a hand over his mouth, âFor a change, you donât have anything to say, is that why youâre silent? Did I finally get you to shut up?â
At the quietness that lingers in the air, you press further to elicit a greater reaction. Bursting out more and more taunts, you knew this is where you found enjoyment, watching him spiral and be confused by his own thoughts. Youâre proud to make him feel just as perplexed as you were the whole night.
Youâre ready to throw another insult his way when his tall body shoots up into the air, looming over you. His eyes are rage-filled, you can see that, and reactively you backpeddle just as he rushes closer to you.
âY/N, I swear to fucking god. Youâre going to make me lose my mind.â
For a brief second, your hard exterior falters. His warning is low- almost growl like. It intimidated you initially, but then swiftly you regain composure and stand your ground, âYou make me lose my mind all the time. So what? Youâre not special.â
You audibly hear his breathing, and it begins to sync up with your own heavy pants. Both of you are pissed, that much is clear. Itâs just about who is going to crumble first. And surely, it wonât be you.
Heâs got a crazy look to his eyes, âIâm telling you right now. Shut. Up.â
You knew better than to challenge him. You knew you should walk away and storm upstairs. Exit the situation before matters get even worse. Quite literally anything else should be done, than the actions you decide to take.
You close the distance between you both, smiling the whole time as he brings his head in to regard you. At the recognition of that sick, sick smile youâre showcasing, he too knew it would be over.
Your voice starts off quiet, whispering out a, âWhat will happen if I donât?â before absolutely losing it in his face, âJust face it, Sunghoon. You're not the perfect person you portray yourself to be after all. I mean, fucking the person you hate most at a party? Even that's a new low for you."
You hover below his face, stretching your body tall until your noses are almost touching, "I'm tired of you pretending to be higher than everyone else. Always treating people like theyâre twenty feet below you. Youâre vile and I think it's time you realized.....maybe you're the fucking problem. Hmm? Did you not think of-?"
Sunghoon doesn't know what came over him. One second, you're throwing words after words at him, and next thing he knows, he's pushing you up against the wall, knocking the wind out of you.
His veiny hands are curled around your neck, and your mouth hangs from shock at the sudden movement while he holds you firmly in your place. The pressure he's applied is not enough to significantly hurt you, he made sure it didn't, but was definitely enough to finally get you to stop talking.
You gasp lightly and your head feels faint.
"Do youâŚremember how that night started?" His tone is dark with his focus solely on you. You try bringing your hands up to pry him off of you, but he doesn't budge, instead going to answer his own question, "Because if memory serves me right, you were the one who was desperate. Desperate for this.â
This referring to the minor squeeze his hand does around your throat. He continues, "You were the one who kept testing me. Wanted to see what would happen if you made me angry enough." The gap between you two closes when he draws himself inwards, making sure you heard this next part clearly, "Someone needed to shut that bratty ass mouth of yours up then," He drops his gaze to briskly look at your lips then jeers, "And right now."
While you're left to wear a poor, helpless expression, Sunghoon couldn't help but eye you curiously. It should be laughable the new state you're in. So completely different from your previous attitudes.
Using his hand to guide you, he roughly brings your head forward, so his mouth can brush the outer shell of your ear, "You really pissed me off, Y/N."
You get shoved back against the wall with a wince. "And... maybe that was your end goal with all of these arguments. You wanted to get me to this point." At the recognition of his own words, the wheels begin to turn in his brain. His eyebrows dart upward and a devilish smile tugs at his lips, "And to that, you're going to regret saying even one word tonight. I'll make sure of it."
Before you can react, Sunghoon crawls his hand up until it rests below your chin. As his thumb releases from your skin, and slowly works his way up to your lips, you think he'll be gentle in the way he's getting ready to touch you.
Oh, how wrong you were.
The moment his thumb comes in contact with your mouth, it's being shoved into your wet hole. You gag on the digit as he begins ordering you to suck, "Just needa fuck the bratiness out of you, then. Remind you of how much of a fucking slut you were for me that night."
He instructs you to go harder, and faster, and leisurely, you do so. Tingles start to form all around him, "Yeah. I'll do that. I'll just have to fuck you dumb myself, starting with your loud mouth."
You squeeze your eyes shut at the motion, coughing hard against his skin as his fingers move to tangle within your hair. Sunghoon always knew how catty you can be, this fact evident from what happened that night at the party.
However, what's also true, is that you do it for your own guilty pleasure. You purposely bring this upon yourself.
He yanks his thumb away and in return, you're inhaling harshly for air, "-what the fuck?"
Sunghoon dismisses your worries. Without warning, he has you falling to the ground with one swift push, his own desires now starting to throb inside his sweats, "Go on. Pull down my pants, brat."
He murmurs those words with a tilted face. In contrast, you look up at him as fear and lust begin to cloud your vision. Even with the menacing face he sports, you know you're not one to fully give-in. Especially when it comes to Park Sunghoon.
You aren't sure what it is about the defiance, but it makes you crazy, "Like hell-"
The grip in your hair tightens and your mouth drops from the pain. He regards your expression, "Really? Do you think you're in a position to object me right now?"
Lips parted, you shudder out a sigh while staring at Sunghoon's deep gaze. The stance he has you in makes your stomach erupt into butterflies.
"Pull my pants down." He repeats once again and after a pause, you eventually do so. With a tremble, you begin to bring both hands up and fondle the waistband, struggling to remove the barricade.
A tiny smile breaks out onto the boy's face. It's amusing how you pretend as if this wasn't the end prize. He watches you react disgustingly to his finally freed cock that springs forward, and it takes all of his power to not ram it into your ungrateful little mouth.
"What are you looking like that for? Aren't you a whore for my cock, Y/N?" He derides and thrusts himself towards your face. You try to create distance, but the hand in your hair keeps you in place, "Letâs go. Stop acting like that and take out your fucking tongue."
You hate yourself for listening to him.
With a small shiver, you unhurriedly extend your tongue from your mouth, and immediately he slaps his dick onto your muscle. He's had a great amount of pre-cum built up for some time now, starting from the minute you came down in that skimpy ass outfit. So, as soon as his dick hits your tongue, your taste buds are drowning in the liquid.
He's gasping lightly from the immediate sensation. He rubs his head all over your surface, then gradually does he start to slip himself in and out of your mouth. Your eyes go nearly white from trying to take his full length, but thatâs something that only makes Sunghoon hornier.
Youâre gargling around his skin as he proceeds to go faster, his base smacking against your chin every so often. Spit and his thick liquid mix to form a froth that starts to spill from the corners of your mouth, and Sunghoon groans lowly at how filthy you look.
âOhâŚfuck.â It feels too good, the rocking of his hips speeding up. Heâs enjoying the aggressive way he bucks himself harder and harder inside of your throat. And even as youâre thrashing beneath him, straining to get air, he finds that he didnât want to stop. It just turns him so damn much to see you take his fat cock.
He throws his head back, âKeep it open for me. Fuck- just keep that nasty mouth open.â
Youâre sick. Sick towards him for using you in such a degrading way, for letting him nearly cut off the circulation to your head. Right now, youâre nothing more than a fuck toy for him, and he doesnât even seem to care. Not when he has you as the perfect fucking stimulant.
Yet, youâre also sick at yourself. Itâs embarrassing that you notice your pussy clenching around nothing the longer he keeps this up. The fact that youâve become so dilated in your core that gravity has slick juices leaking from your entrance. All because of this asshole thatâs abusing your mouth, you're becoming aroused like never before. Itâs humiliating, really.
His movements begin to stutter with a vibration to his eyelids. Oh, fuck. He can feel his cum wanting to shoot out. Sunghoon continues to push your head into him as he internally debates at what the outcome should be. Thereâs still so much heâs wanting to do to you, to prove.
When you canât take the torture anymore, youâre soon hitting his leg to get him the hell away from you. Your reaction makes him realize how intrusive heâs starting to be, but he's so swirled with the immaculate pleasure that he almost didnât let go. Before he knows it, heâll be cumming down your throat at any moment.
Ripping himself from your suction, Sunghoon relinquishes you two from the torture. Ragged breathing emits from you as hungrily you take in the surrounding air. He, on the other, holds quieter breaths. A part of him is surprised that he was even willing to let himself finish so quickly. You were going to make him finish quickly.
With a few additional huffs, and after a moment of silence falls into the atmosphere, heâs ready to address you. Because heâs not done with you just yet.
âYah,â Thereâs a gasp to his tone while you glare up begrudgingly, âYou finally changed that attitude of yours?â
With your chest heaving up and down, you continue to stare angrily. Sunghoon cocks his head to the side while he awaits for your reply, though judging by the look you sport, he doesnât think itâll be the answer he wants.
âEat a fucking dick.â With a hoarse throat, you spit the phrase at him.
And. Snap.
Before you know it, Sunghoon is grabbing you by the hair and yanking you over to the couch with a stumble. He tosses your body face first into the cushion and you land with a soft groan.
âJust canât stop, can you?â He sees your ass recoiling from the previous motion and he swears it makes him go feral, "I'll just have to keep reminding you then."
In a flash, when you tried to push yourself up, he strikes a hand down to your cheeks. Your flesh jiggles with the audible slap and you're falling back down with a much louder moan.
âDid you like that?â Feigning stupidity, Sunghoon uses one arm to grab at your tiny shirt from the back, flipping you around till you laid chest-up sprawled out on the couch, "Do you want another?"
Eyes glossy with anger, you canât help but whimper as he lands a harsh smack to your clothed cunt. He repeats the motion in a harder manner once again, and this time youâre fighting back. You wriggle to close yourself off from him, but heâs fighting to keep your legs open. He's clasping your clit.
Your arms move in for attack, though heâs able to immobilize your hands by taking them with one grasp and holding them above your head. Youâre stuck now.
You squirm around, âI hate you.â
"Really?" unfazed by your words, Sunghoon simply gives your wet core a hearty squeeze, âWell, Iâm feeling that might not be true.â
Staring smugly, he keeps his eyes locked on your frantic gaze as he sweeps your shorts to the side. Wetness coats the tips of fingers in an instant and he hasnât even fully touched you. Fucking hell.
âRight. You hate so much.â Sarcasm oozes from his lips with every stroke his fingers give your pussy, and youâre left to do nothing but wiggle. He towers over your contorted body, loving how quickly he was able to put you down.
His fingers circle your lips teasingly before moving into your dripping entrance. He doesnât waste another second in shoving his digits in and out of your hole, eyeing the way you struggle to keep a straight face.
âS-So fucking annoying.â You stutter out, trying your absolute hardest to not slip and give him any further satisfaction of knowing he got to you.
Sunghoon takes this as a challenge. Leaning in closer, he changes the angle his fingers hit inside your squelching walls. His fingers gradually increase in pace until you're seeing stars. He continues to ram his digits inside of your pussy as they grow wetter and wetter. He keeps this up. And soon, your face morphs from that of resilience to a more natural state, your eyes lowering.
Oh, god. Your bodyâs succumbing to him. Itâs taking the pleasure produced by him and using it against you, dammnit it. What becomes worse is how your body begins to rock alongside his fingers, chasing the high thatâs ever growing in your system.
You howl, âFuck!â
His fingers feel like theyâre hitting your g-spot and now youâre a mess. Thrashing and twisting below him while he finger fucks your way to an orgasm. Your toes curl in the feelings thatâs wafting over you. Youâre losing control.
âGod, I hate you. I hate you so fucking much.â You grit out through clenched teeth, eyes now tightly shut as you concentrate on his wicked pounding, âCanât stand you. I-â
âYeah? Yeah?â His questions are disingenuous. He wants you to keep going. Keep digging yourself a grave.
âPiss me of so- ah! Fuck! Donât stop, donât stop.â The words topple from your lips without a thought. Your hips rut harshly into his fingers, so greedily, so close to basically squirting. By any second youâre going toâŚ.youâre going to-
Your body goes cold the minute Sunghoon snatches his fingers from you, abstaining you from the arousal you'd been subjected to. Screeching, you bellow out a desperate cry from how empty you feel.
He bores a look of apathy, indifferent to your flailing, "What? Did you think I would actually let you cum? After your shitty attitude all night?"
Reaching down, he adjusts your rigid body into a more elongated position, then he's straddling you, "I just needed to get you ready. Cause now I want to destroy you."
You want to slap him, your face growing hotter by the second. This night, you've spent it feeling nothing but rage and lividness because of the boy on top of you.
But then he's working to uncover your breasts, playing and squishing them with both palms, and momentarily your facade begins to fade.
He's hunched over in the way he's needlessly gunning for your neck, biting and marking every spot he could. You squeal from the pain, and that only pushes him further.
He circles around the same throat he held previously to leave splotches of red staining your skin. It's in this moment of daze, his rapture begins to enthrall him, causing his cock to throb and throb until it's hurting.
Sunghoon works his way up, passing by your chin until he's aggressively making out with you. All of the pent up tension and conflicts feels as if they're being spilled out within the rough kiss, and you wrap an arm around him and mewl needily into his breath.
You still hate him, even if his annoyingly perfect lips mold deliciously into yours. You still hate him, even as he expertly touches and grabs at your tits, providing more stimulation to your already horny self.
But even you can't deny the desperate longing your body seeks as his thick, hard skin prods at the entrance of your shorts right now. And he can't wait anymore.
"Mmm, ready for me?" He mumbles against your mouth, though he didn't necessarily care for a response. Because even if you were to protest, he knew it would just be another ploy at deflection.
He's back to kissing you. The aggression that's brought along with it could be mistaken for passion and it makes you weak. Right before he darts the fabric off to the side and ready to take you whole, you pull back slightly, wanting to say one more thing.
"I h-hate you so much," you whine and he could only laugh. You truly never know when to shut up.
"You've told me that a couple of times." Muttering back, he recaptures your mouth and without wasting another second his cock finally plunges into your deep pussy.
Your walls immediately grip him, and the two of you groan simultaneously into each other. He did a good job at prepping you; you're beautifully slick and warm, just the way he likes it.
His cock starts to thrust rhythmically, relieving the ache you both were so full of. You can't help the string of grunts that fall from your lips, all chopped from each hit he gives your pussy.
"S-Shit." Sunghoon detaches his mouth from yours to completely bask in the arousal that's coursing throughout him. It brings him back to that night.
The night where you bent your sexy ass over for him, and watched yourself in the mirror as he smashed into your backside. He was on Cloud 9 then, but now coherent and in the right head space, it's like the pleasure has doubled.
You, meanwhile, are having an internal battle with yourself. Holy shit. It feels so fucking good when he's pounding inside of you. You swear you're gonna cum at any point. But, there's still this sense of revulsion that bubbles in the pit of your stomach- because of the fact that you're allowing Park Sunghoon to fuck you so roughly.
"H-Hope you know- mmrgh! This is a-all your fault." You stammer out, eyes shutting forcefully on themselves, "You always c-cause problems. You're in the- you're in the-"
A hand comes down over your lips and shuts you up, your face relaxing into a state of bliss. You aren't sure why you always jumble out nonsense when in moments of euphoria. It's just as if....he's...
"I said I would fuck you dumb," Sunghoon sighs as his back lurches over to grind into your cunt at a different angle, "Guess I actually did."
Your response is muffled and buzzes into his skin. There are no intentions of uncovering himself, either. No way will he let this indescribable sensation be override by your loud ass, bratty ass mouth.
His hips continue to drive harshly into your liquified cunt, squelching and dripping the more he fucks himself into you. He only gets faster while you begin to grow limp. Your own pleasure starts to consume you until you don't have the willpower to move.
Sunghoon feels his cock start to twitch, "About to cum," he moans near your ear, "Can feel myself about to cum inside your dirty pussy. Are you close too?"
You shriek into his hand a multitude of yes's as you feel yourself so close to snapping. It's only a matter of time before you're losing control all at the hands of your actual worst nightmare.
He weighs his options, "Mmm....but should I? Do you deserve to orgasm with me?"
You'd despise not only him but yourself if you didn't. You're too far gone. The pleasure is catching up to you closer and closer, the more he buries himself damn near into your cervix. Waves after waves of ecstasy release into your core and you almost want to cry from how amazing it feels. So there's no fucking way you're going to miss this.
You never thought you would do this, but it's only a matter of time.
What sounds like your yes's transforming into pleads, Sunghoon scrunched his eyebrows, going to remove your hand. Are you....?
The moment your mouth is free you yell out a whimper, "Please. Please. 'm so close, Sunghoon. Sunghoon, please. I can't, I can't. I need this so bad."
Oh, fuck.
He'd never thought he'd see the day. He's never heard you beg before. The way his name sounds so good when you're pleading, how it squeals out from your lips. It makes his cock twitch once again and he's clenching his ass cheeks to stop him from popping a load right into you.
"You really want to?" He speaks quietly and more to himself, before deciding to give you what you want. Even brats can be rewarded.
He's pushing himself up and is now hovering over your face, his pelvis driving brutally into your core, "Okay. Okay, just let go. Cum for me."
You're so grateful you could kiss him. You let the slaps his skin produce fill you ears as you give yourself some slack for even letting this happen. You were about to cum because of Park Sunghoon, and there was nothing you wanted to do to stop it.
Sunghoon can't help but stare at your wavering face. Going from tight tension to relaxing and belting out a moan, your expressions keeps his eyes trained on you.
"Here, here. Faster, need you to cum right now." And almost like a present for you, Sunghoon brings a hand down to start massaging your clit, getting you to the very last point you needed to before exploding.
When his fingers circle rapidly against your nerves, combined with his pounding that has you babbling out nothing, your orgasm hits you so hard, starting from your pussy and running up into your head, making you dizzy. The moment causes you to starting quavering sporadically and mewing out, 'I'm cumming!'
That was what Sunghoon needed. Your orgasm causes your insides to start squeezing, pulsating around his cock so perfectly. At the third time he feels his cock beginning to twitch, he grants himself permission to let go. Next thing he knows, he's shooting out viscous ropes of cum into your velvety cunt, groaning about how perfect of a brat you are for him.
'Finally fucking listened'
'My perfect brat'
'God, you're amazing'
All is being said as you two finish out your orgasms. As he stutters above you, and you're quaking below him, you both seem to have finally found peace within being close to one another.
Which brings to an end this dirty, filthy night.
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Your mother and Mrs. Park hadn't intended on being back at the house past midnight. But, how were they supposed to know the company gathering would be such a blast!
The event had the women interacting, mingling, dancing, singing with every single one of their coworkers until around 11:30 PM! And that was only because the event was over around then, they surely still had some more juice in their system.
By the time the two arrived back at your house, they'd been laughing hysterically to one another, unbeknownst to the absolute chaos that had ensued just hours earlier.
Your mother unlocks the door with her keys, and as they swing it open, they're met with a surprising scene in front of them.
Sunghoon, all wide awake, and sitting on the couch by his lonesome. The T.V is there to keep him entertained, but other than that, there were no signs that you were around. As Mrs. Park goes to greet her son, your mother stares at the boy with worried eyes.
"Oh, Sunghoon. Were you down here by yourself this whole time? Did Y/N not come down?" She walks up to him, though is quickly mollified when he's giving her a small smile.
"No, she did. We watched a film together, though half-way through it, she started to doze off. I had to carry her upstairs; she was so out of it." He nods softly at the end of his sentence and your mother reciprocates his delicate response.
It warms her heart to hear that you tried.
"Oh, Hoonie! I told you things would work itself out if you would just be nicer to the poor girl. You know how timid she can be." His mother pats at his shoulder, "Come on. Grab your shoes and I'll take us home."
"I'm happy you guys were able to have a nice night together." Your mother beams while walking alongside Sunghoon towards the front door, "Are you two okay now? Should I be expecting you back here more often?"
Sunghoon regards your mother, his own brain thinking at how to properly respond to that. It's not until he's slipped his shoes and coat on, and holding the door open for Mrs.Park to exit, before giving a proper answer.
"Yes, Miss, I believe we're just fine now.â
At the last second of his departure, his eyes catch sight of movement on the staircase. Having awoken from your slumber, you heard voices from downstairs and decided to investigate. Creeping around the top stairs, all you were met with was Sunghoon talking to your mother with one foot out the door.
You attempt to remain hidden behind the wall, waiting for him to leave. But, soon, you find his gaze moving slowly until it lands onto your face. He holds eye contact with you one last time, your stomach in knots from how compelling his essence is.
âI'll try to come back here more often," He steps his other foot outside as a faint grin overtakes his cheeks.
"Iâll make sure of it.â
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AITA for divorcing my vampire husband because he lied to me about his human job?
I (542 vampire) and my husband (260 vampire) have been together for a little over two centuries. Thereâs a saying in the vampiric community that it takes a century for a tryst to become an enduring partnership and another century to become soulmates. I thought that was true and that Matthew (using his real name because fuck you, Matthew) and I would be together foreverâŚuntil this week.
First, let me explain a few things to the mortals here. I donât mean that negatively â I came here specifically to get the opinion of those with a finite lifespan. However, I want to be fair to Matthew as much as possible and some of his decisions are very immortal-minded.
Both Matthew and I are vampires who have chosen to forsake some of our powers in exchange for the ability to daywalk. We made the transition together on our 100th anniversary almost 115 years ago. It wasnât an easy transition for me. I was very dependent on human blood and I spent the first twenty years in almost constant sleep as my body adjusted to running off of less lunar magic and more solar magic.
It really felt like I was losing everything. My body got physically weaker and my powers began to disappear one by one. It felt like every time I woke, another part of me was missing. One day I could turn into a wolf, the next I could barely turn into a vapor. I could command a legion of undying servants, and then I could barely convince the mailman he didnât see me levitate down from the second floor.
Matthew, however, took to daywalking like a werewolf to a sheep farm. He barely seemed to feel the pain of losing his power, maybe because he was so much younger than me. Whatever the case, he was out all the time once he stabilized. He would be gone for days sometimes and when he came back it was with fantastic stories about the humansâ new inventions or the new structures being built in whatever town we were in.
Iâm not saying I regret transitioning. Just that Matthew and I had very different experiences. It felt like he barely changed at all while my entire being got rewritten. Being immortal makes you comfortable in your own skin. I never doubted myself or my power after I turned 100. But becoming a daywalker made me feel like I was being born as a human again. It was humiliating and vulnerable. I have to admit there were times I resented how easily Matthew did it. I blamed him for not supporting me like I thought he should. I would daydream about draining a human in front of him, showing him what I thought of his fascination with them. I had all sorts of vile and vengeful thoughts. Iâm not proud of the person I was and now Iâm grateful Matthew wasnât there to see the lows I sunk to.
Despite all my awful thoughts, I didnât quit. I donât know why, but I didnât. I stuck with it and, day by day, things got easier.
After 26 years I began to stabilize. The benefits of being a daywalker slowly blossomed before me. Now I can say that I am completely happy with my daywalker status and all the changes itâs brought.
I am the most mentally stable I have been since my Turning in 1482. Itâs like Iâm awake. The fits of rage that used to consume me for months at a time have completely disappeared. I donât experience the same level of obsession I used to which has freed up a lot of my time that I used to spend stalking my victims.
However, that drastic of a change would be challenging in any relationship. Matthew and I ended up together because of my obsessive nature. Our relationship became strained when that part of me went dormant. He expected me to follow his immersion into the human world just as I had followed him in his revenge quest against his Master. He expected me to support him wholeheartedly and with everything I was. He wanted sacrifices from me that I used to not even flinch at before making. But something was justâŚdifferent. We wanted different things. I wanted different things.
Matthew was obsessed with being the perfect human. He craved full immersion. He still makes it a point to get a human job every twenty years or so. Me? Iâm happy to live off our investments and some mild mind control while enjoying the art and theater community the humans have evolved.
It got bad. Some years, we spent like ghosts in our own house, drifting by each other without a glance. Other years, it was like we were spies behind enemy lines. He would do whatever he could to thwart me and I would go out of my way to ridicule him. Our vitriol poisoned the earth. Matthew didnât speak to me for a full decade when that poison killed off an entire town.
About twenty years ago, it all came to a head. We had a serious sit-down talk about our relationship. It wasnât easy. What they say about teaching an old dog new tricks is sometimes true. Matthew wanted me to be as involved with the humans as he was. He wanted me to care about them like he did. I wanted him to travel with me like we used to and not just hop from town to neighboring town (which he did to maintain a human identity with references so he could keep working). When it became clear that we were at an impasse, I brought up the idea of separation.
Separating in the vampiric world isnât easy. There are a lot of alliances and blood oaths to be considered. Over the two centuries we spent together, we became known as a unit to a number of supernatural entities that we maintain an uneasy truce with. Separating would mean creating new oaths and alliances with the same individuals. And there was no guarantee that those individuals would make new pacts with both of you. A LOT of vampire couples end up in blood feuds while separating. Neither of us wanted that.
There was also, of course, the emotional side of things. While a lot of immortals tend to only feel muted emotions (especially vampires as old as me), Daywalking had made both of us more sensitive than weâd been before. We were both attached to the memories we shared and neither of us could imagine life without the other. After 200 years together, it felt like Matthew was my right arm, and I his. When I brought up separation, we both felt it like we were discussing an amputation.
After about a year of talking, we finally reached an agreement. We didnât want to separate, and so we would compromise. I wouldnât interfere with any of Matthewâs human jobs for the 15-17 years if he could hold them without arousing suspicion. In exchange, he would take a year off to go traveling with me before finding another town for us to live in. In between my trips, he would go to plays and galas with me to enjoy human artistry at least once a month.
Maybe our deal was in his favor. At the time, it felt practical and fair. A year of traveling wouldnât undo Matthewâs string of connections. We would still see each other frequently by going on dates that I liked. Matthew would get to stay immersed in the human world at the level he wanted, and I could stay within my comfort zone.
Which brings me to my current problem.
We are currently at the start of one of Matthewâs work cycles. Heâs been everything from a fireman to a politician to a subway worker to a barista. He craves knowledge and connection to a terrifying degree. If it werenât for how we move every 20 years and he goes without protest, Iâd call it obsession.
This cycle, Matthew told me he was going to be a teacher. I was hesitant. While the humans have become more tolerant and less violent over the years, that doesnât mean they will tolerate us near their young. Enough humans know about vampires that staking in the modern era is a real possibility. Matthew could incite an angry mob against us or, heaven forbid, get a vampire hunter on our tail. I have yet to be shot, but I hear that they have silver bullets that hurt like Hell.
When I voiced my protests, Matthew reminded me about our agreement. He said that I wouldnât interfere with his jobs and heâd go to all the plays I liked. He even pointed out that, as a teacher, he could get us into high school plays and expositions. I was uneasy, but agreements are penultimate to immortals. I silenced my objections and let him get a job as a science teacher at a local high school.
When Michael has had jobs in the past, Iâve never really paid attention. One time he was a state senator for ten years and I never even heard him speak. I didnât consider it worth my time to hear whatever his facsimile of a human would say. Real humanity is in the art they create, not in the parody Michael enacts.
But this oneâŚI couldnât ignore this one. Maybe it was because I was still uneasy about his proximity to human young or maybe I could sense his lies even at the beginning. Whatever the case, I watched him.
The first thing I noticed was the hours. He would go to work early and would often come home when it was time for us to sleep. When I asked him about it, he said that he wasnât used to grading and that he had underestimated what it took to put a good lesson plan together. I visited some online forums and thatâs apparently reasonable for first year teachers.
He would also sometimes go in on the weekends. He missed one of our dates because there was a âgrading emergencyâ that needed his immediate attention. Something about a studentâs test getting lost and then found and he needed to input their grade before the deadline which was on Saturday. Humans like silly rules like that so I didnât even look that one up. I just reminded him that he couldnât miss our dates again or else he was breaking our deal. He apologized and said it wouldnât happen again.
Then about three months into his new job, the phone calls started. We have a private room in our house for when we need to talk without any visitors overhearing. Michael moved all his school supplies in there, saying that he needed a silent space to concentrate on his grading. Whenever he got a call, he would never answer it in front of me. Instead, heâd say âSorry, workâ and just go into his office.
I also noticed that he didnât dress very professionally. Human fashion changes quickly so it didnât register at first. A sweatshirt here and there slipped past me, and also the Gucci slides. When he started wearing baggy jeans and jerseys to work, I noticed. I may not be up to date on all the newest fashions, but I do go to classy events. I know what a slob looks like and it didnât sit right with me that he was wearing that to school. When I asked him about it, he always had an excuse. âThis is what everyone wearsâ and âItâs a theme dayâ or, bafflingly, âItâs spirit week!â
I tried to leave it alone. The reason we have stayed together for so long is because of our agreement to not interfere in each otherâs lives. But between his hours, the phone calls, and his appearance, something didnât add up.
Then, last Thursday, he missed another one of our dates. We were supposed to go to the Nutcracker together. Even though I prefer matinees (when the cast is fresh), I agreed to get us tickets for the evening show so that he wouldnât have to leave work early. When he wasnât there at 7pm, I called him and he didnât answer. Then, when I called him again, his phone was switched off.
I was furious. I spend nearly two decades in these tiny towns so he can live his human fantasy and he canât even show up for one two hour show? It was the first time since becoming a daywalker that I felt that angry. I was scared about what I might do, so I made myself go home to wait for him.
Only, he never came home that night. At 3am, he sent me a text apologizing and promising to make up our date on Saturday. But the Nutcracker was only playing until Friday and that would be too little, too late. To be honest, it already was. I texted him that and he never responded.
He never ended up coming home last weekend. I texted and called him probably a dozen times and he never responded. I got angrier and angrier as the days dragged by. Did he think I was someone to be taken lightly? Did he not realize that the fragile agreement between us was all that was keeping us from separation?
Yesterday (Monday), I couldnât take it anymore. If he wasnât going to come home or respond to my messages, then I would go to him. If he was so obsessed with this new job that he would ignore me for it, then I knew exactly where to find him.
I arrived at his school at 10am. I researched enough to know how to go to the office and sign myself in. I asked the office assistant which room Mr. Duetto was in.
The lovely young woman looked confused. âIâm sorry, but I canât give that information out to anyone but family,â she said.
âI am his only family,â I said.
She clicked a few more keys and looked more confused. âHis paperwork only shows his mother, Delilah Duetto.â
Thatâs right. His mother. But I still didnât understand then.
âThatâs me,â I said.
âYou are not the mother of 17-year-old.â
âIâm his wife,â I said.
She was upset by that. I wonât bore you with every detail, but I had to alter her memories so she wouldnât call the police. I may not look like someone who has a teenager, but I also donât look like a teenager. I ended up having to alter her memories so she wouldnât call human CPS on an apparent adult swearing she was married to a minor.
I went home and broke into his office. There werenât any lesson plans. There were no graded papers. There were syllabus from different classes, homework with his name on it, and a few polaroids taped to the bottom of his desk of him at a party with children.
Human children. I donât honestly know which is worse.
(EDIT: I know the child part is the worst part. I misspoke because of my anger. Itâs not the humansâ fault that my husband is a pervert.)
I broke into his laptop and used that to check his text messages. Heâs been texting like a high schooler. Heâs been to parties with them, listened to their problems and even fabricated a few of his own. Heâs caught in some sort of weird love triangle where a freshman girl likes him but his âbest friendâ likes her. He has texted both of them about it, promising his âbroâ that nothing is happening and then turning around and leading this girl-child on.
Some choice quotes: I should know better than to get close with you. You and I come from very different worlds
To which she replied, lol maybe we should let our worlds collide
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I find the entire situation disgusting. Matthew is several centuries older than them and he definitely knows better. Heâs literally wearing the sheepâs fleece amongst the flock. He has no business forming relationships with human children and even less pretending to be one of them. Heâs not a baby. He is over two centuries old!
What is he doing flirting with a child? Itâs vile and disgusting and I was set to kill him for it.
I confronted him about it when he came home last night. I told him that he was sick and dangerous and if he loved humans then he needed to stop immediately. I told him we either left town today or I would make sure he never set foot back in that school in a way he really wouldnât like.
 He threw a huge tantrum over my invading his privacy. He shouted at me that I had broken my promise to never interfere in his job. He called me controlling and crazy.
I told him he was the crazy one for chatting up a child. He told me he wasnât, she was just his friend. I asked him to read their texts out loud if he was being so friendly. I also pointed out that there was no way a 260-year-old vampire is a childâs friend.
He told me I was a hypocrite because I basically cradle robbed him (weâre almost 300 years apart.) He said if anyone was disgusting, it was me for taking advantage of him.
I pointed out that he wasnât a child, he was over 60 and had already been a vampire for four decades. He argued that that was basically being a child in vampire terms.
I was so angry at that point that the house was shaking. I told him if he felt that way, then we could get divorced right then and there. That that was what I wanted to do anyway because I couldnât be married to a pedophile.
He asked me if I was seriously going to start a blood feud over him immersing himself in human society. I said no, Iâm starting a blood feud because heâs become every predatory stereotype humans have of vampires.
He called me a hypocrite again and told me he was leaving. He said not to call him unless I was ready to apologize. I told him that the next time he sees me, heâd better run before I showed him the real difference between us. And it wasnât just 300 years.
When I calmed down, doubt started creeping in. From an immortal perspective, what heâs doing isnât really wrong. I hate to say it, but most immortals donât view human lives as significant. I know a few vampires who would say that divorcing because heâs playing with his food is idiotic.
Plus, thereâs the agreement to consider. During our fight, Matthew pointed out that being a student is a job to humans. So therefore I didnât have the right to interfere. A big part of me thinks thatâs bullshit, but a small part of me wonders if heâs maybe right about that?
I also have to ask myself why this even bothers me. Iâm the one in the relationship that is aloof from humans. Iâm the one thatâs always saying we are from different worlds (Yeah, he stole that from me) and for good reason.Â
But over the years, Iâve become fond of humans. No immortal makes art like them. I may not remember my time as a mortal, but there are works that give me a sense of nostalgia. Sometimes I think I can remember being a child myself, standing in a field like in Monet painting, staring at the wheatstacks and waiting for the miller to come.Â
The thought of Matthew playing with them makes me sick. Itâs like even after all the years of him living amongst them, he thinks of them as props in his twisted play. Itâs even worse that heâs doing this to children.Â
I canât help but think something went really wrong with my husband when I wasnât looking. At the very least, Iâm planning on divorcing him. But would I be the asshole if I killed him too?
 Separating from him will be violent and messy. There will likely be human casualties. But I donât see any other way. So, I ask.
AITA for divorcing my husband for lying to me about his human job?
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#so i got a job offer today but i donât think iâm going to take it#itâs for a writing tutor for my department but i donât feel comfortable being a tutor#like i know two other people in my class whoâs also in the tutor center and theyâre way more better at writing than me#and even if i was on their level i just donât feel comfortable giving out writing advice to others#apparently my prof recommended me which is wild because i was not doing well on her essays#i remember they mentioned that theyâll need to replace people soon so maybe theyâre just getting whoever they can#but it sucks to say no because i really need a fucking job#and i just canât find anything out there that doesnât need years of experience or something else#i donât know itâs just like i started my winter break barely a few days ago and now im stuck being anxious because i have to reject the#only job offer i got in months#god itâs frustrating#ale rambles
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it's like this
in this case the knowledge being your expectations for how you want your art to look. it comes and goes in waves
How do people learn to draw without losing confidence in themselves 95 times a day
#and it takes a lot of practice! trust me ive been drawing since i could use a pencil (about 24 years)#and i still feel like i fall short sometimes. its part of why any art takes me so long#because i keep nitpicking at it to get it Perfect#also dont be like me. ive been drawing VERY little lately. and have been stuck in The Confort Zone for quite a while#which like isnt the worst thing but i know im not really improving much if at all rn#consistent practice will help a lot#years ago i realized i hadnt been drawing much so my mew years resolution was to draw something every day#even if it was a little doodle#and the first few looked like TRASH#but after a week or two my muscle memory had returned and my hand was a lot steadier#also a useful practice: draw in pen. with no pencil sketch. draw it in pen first#it forces you to be more careful and confident with your lines bc if you're not itll look shaky and messy#sketching is important for big detailed pieces but it takes a lot of skill to draw something without a sketch that still looks correct
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â đđđđ, đđ đđđđ đđđđđđ ! â
â PROF. GOJO SHOWS YOU JUST HOW THE LAWS OF ATTRACTION WORK !! â
⧠pairing: professor!gojo x f!reader (part one of the prof gojo series)
⧠summary: satoru gojo was only stuck at this weeklong conference to appease his new boss, so what happens when he finds you at the bar and can't stop thinking about just how attractive you are? and what happens when the conference is over?
⧠warnings: 18+, nsfw, smut, hooking up at an academic conference, reader is a professor, fingering (f! receiving), oral (m! receiving), gojo getting very horny around you, so much flirting, amateur's take on physics, art by found on Pinterest (pls let me know if you know the og artist)
⧠wc: 10,878
âCome here often?â
If someone had asked Professor Satoru Gojo that a few months ago, he would have saidâno he would have scoffed and asked if he looked like a professor who had to beg for funding â and he didnât. But now, he swirled his drink, ice cubes clinking against the sides of the condensation-ridden glass â who knows?
His new department head might have his termination papers drawn from the moment he returns to the university from his very extended research trip â with no results to show for it. Normally he wouldnât be worried â not with his renowned academic record, but he had extended this trip twice â and one of those on the universityâs payroll.
And it wasnât a cheap payroll.
To top it off, the new department head was doing a lecture here today at this conference hosted by his university, He had heard the new head was a real hard ass, a person who had straightened out the department while he had been away â garnering more grants, but also cutting funding to continual failures. And he and his research had been asked about.
Fuck. He downed his fruity mocktail, the sweet syrupy fruit juice doing little to soothe the bitter aftertaste of failure that lingered on his tongue.
He usually wouldnât be so worried. He was Satoru Gojo â he had been the youngest in his field to achieve a Ph.D. in the field of Quantum Physics, a respected expert and renowned lecturer, and one of the scientists most likely to win a Nobel prize within the next few years or so. Or so his biography on LinkedIn said.
But that had gone up in smoke â his research on the potential curvature of quantum space-time as a method to slow or speed up time between two points of matter had been a complete failure.
One of his first major failures.
He sighs, and here he was feeling sorry for himself â alone. Or relatively so. His glass clinked against the sticky bar top of the tacky bar of the hotel they decided to hold this conference in â the rings from long-gone drinks lining up and down the relatively empty bar, other patrons having left for their rooms.
But not you.
He hadnât met you before â not really. Although it was not as if he had made a habit of befriending people at any academic event, he knew if he had seen your face before, he wouldnât have forgotten. He stole a glance as he sipped at his drink, eyes flickering over your form as you approached the bar.
Honestly, if he had, he wouldnât forget someone like you.
He had seen you earlier during the conference, a particularly biting question asked during a keynote presentation that had wiped the obnoxious grin off the pretentious guyâs face, his reply then ripped to shreds in seconds with a smile on your lips.
And you had left so quickly he didnât get to thank you for your daring rescue of his captive audience as he finally ended his victory lap with a scurry out the door. But maybe now, he could thank you with a drink â eyes flitting to those pretty lips that hid your sharp tongue â or something more.
You order your drink, sitting a stool away, the creak of the rusty seat catching his attention, as your eyes slide to his, âAnd another of whatever he was having,â Satoru tilts his head as you shrug, âlooks like you could use it,â
He gapes at you in mock offense, âEh? Iâll have you know Iâm the most excited person here,â he replies as the bartender places both drinks in front of you, âwho wouldnât be excited to be in some hotel for this prestigious academic conference?â
âAlmost every sane person?â and he chuckles, swirling his drink with his straw, âand the good news is that itâs only just begun. We still have the whole week to be bored to tears and have our brains turn to mush when pretending to be interesting to get funding from stingy donors,â
âI donât need to pretend â I am interesting,â his lips curl, and you snort, downing your drink, before setting it down, ice rattling at the bottom.
âWell, Iâll say your face is more interesting with a smile on it,â you take money from your bag and pay off the tab with a tip.
Youâre slipping from the stool with ease, stepping past his stool, nearly brushing against his back, as you make your way out of the bar, and it almost feels as if you're slipping from his fingers, âIs that a compliment?â
You pause, looking back over your shoulder, âYouâll know when Iâm complimenting you,â and your smile is far better than his is, a heat settling over his cheeks at the sight of it, âsee you around,â
And youâre gone, and heâs left dumbstruck, bitter taste in his mouth slowly beginning to fade â but he knows that the only way it would completely sink into sweetness is if he could have your name roll off his lips â maybe something even sweeter.
He paid for his drink with a tip, sliding off the stool himself, running a hand through his hair.
He could only hope you came here often now.
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It was pathetic how often he had found himself frequenting this bar over the weekend. How frequent? The bartender had learned his name by memory the third time he showed up, his order already known and being prepared by the time he walked in.
So his drink was present â but you werenât.
He hadnât seen you around, but he had walked the floors of this conference and hadnât seen even a glimpse of you. But why was he so desperate for a stranger that he met once? He wasnât one for people â even from when he was a kid. People always saw him and his intellect as something they could take, they could use â an attraction that he only wished he could repel just as magnets did. He always had been shelved as a commodity in his field, but never trotted out for events because he never wanted to bother kissing up â he was better for a blunt word than mindless dribble.
Fuck him.
And now here he was â possibly at the end of his career and all he could concern himself with was this mystery woman he met at the hotel bar. Maybe because it was easier to think about â motion was the only thing he knew how to keep doing. Easier to keep in motion after a force acts on him than to keep still.
And you were a force.
âYâknow when I asked you if you come here often, I didnât think Iâd have come here to see you again,â the now familiar squeak and groan of the bar stool makes him want to bite his lip, âhow long youâve been here?â
He bites back his own grin, hoping not to look so desperate as he felt â was this a distraction from his own impending problems? Yes. But you were a welcome one.
âOne drink, about fifteen minutes,â he replies, âI havenât seen you around either â get stuck inside a conference room?â And you order your drink, âput it on my tab,â he tells the bartender, and the man nods wordlessly, but adds a raised eyebrow when youâre looking away.
âSomething like that,â and youâre wiping the counter with napkins before leaning against it with your arm, âbut more like I was always doing somethingâIâm not one toââ
âStand still?â you raise an eyebrow, as the bartender sets your drink in front of you, âstaying in motion is the only thing I know how to do, especially these days,â
âStaying in motion?â you repeat, and Satoru shakes his head.
âIâm the type to go from thing to thing â my best friend always joked that I was no better than the first law of motionââ
You snort, cracking a smile, âBeing in motion is better than being at rest,â you sigh, swirling the liquid in your glass, toying with the straw stirrers in your drink, âitâs easy to get used to stay still once you are,â
âSounds like you speak from experience,â and youâre sighing, downing the rest of your drink, as the ice clinks against the bottom of the empty glass.
âEver have a failure that feels so deep it feels like thereâs no going back? Not even a failure â just even a gap, and it feels as more time passes, the chasm widens before you and it becomes harder to see yourself making it to the other side,â you order another drink, turning to face him again, âsoon you become more preoccupied with the abyss than thinking about how to make it across,â
âIf you asked me a few weeks ago, I would have said no, but now,â he sighs, as he asks for a refill himself, ânow Iâm in that sinking ship with you,â
âWho said I was still there?â you reply and heâs gaping at you, before a laugh escapes your lips, âI got to shore, you will too,â
âAnd how do you know that?â And you only shrug, a smile on your lips that makes something in his heart stir that hasnât in far too long.
âYou donât look like the type to drown,â and he tilts his head, âyou look like the type who stubbornly figures out to swim, despite the odds,â and he snorts, as his drink is placed in front of him, âso maybe donât give up so easily, after all the first time is the hardest,â
And he chuckles, âPersonal experience?â You shrug, tracing the rim of your glass, âNo, I always get what I really want the first time,â as you pause to catch his eye, a smile on your lips.
âAnd if you donât?â
âThen I didnât really want it,â you smile, as you get to your feet, âI have a dinner to get to, but Iâll leave you with this,â you wrote something down on the napkin you had gotten with your drink, folding it and handing it to him.
He takes it, but his eyes remain on you, âYouâre always disappearing â want to keep me wanting, Professor?â
âYouâd want me anyway,â and Satoru is turning in the stool to watch you walk off, a glimpse of a small smile on your lips, as he looks at the writing on the napkin.
âbecause he knows youâre right.
~~~
âYou want me right, Professor?â you murmured in his ear, hot words said as your warm breath fanned across his skin, but your lips were more sinful than your words â pressing torturously chaste kisses along his jaw, your front pressed to your back, as your hands ghosted along his chest. One of your hands toyed with the top button of his shirt, while the other traced along his collarbone, âyou followed me after all.â
And he did, Satoru had caught you by wrist, a graze that had your head flicking back, finding his blue, and your lips curled â and he just knew he was fucked.
He just didnât know how well.
You had him sat on the couch, back to the armrest, biting back needy noises that he refused to let leave his lips, not yet at least, âYâknow I want you, sweetheart,â a small shiver crawling up his spine as your lips graze the soft skin of his ear, âIâm not exactly playing hard to get by coming up to your room, am I?â
And your hand drags lower, brushing against his growing bulge, a low groan in his chest, âOh Iâd say youâre fairly hard, Toru,â and your forefinger presses teasingly against his clothed slit, âso hard already, wonder what would happen if I got you in my mouth, flicked my tongue over the length, made you moan my name as your cock fucked my throat?â And fuck, maybe he was wrong â maybe your words were worse, his dick twitched against your touch, desperate as he felt for more of your touch, âwhereâs that mouth of yours now, Satoru?â
And youâre rounding him, guiding his legs so heâs sitting properly on the couch now, feet on the ground, but he certainly wasnât clear-headed â not when you climbed into his lap. A grunt left his lips, a weight thatâs a comfort rather than a burden, something he welcomes because he only needs you closer and closer until thereâs no space left between you at all.
âMy mouth is desperate to do something other than talk, baby,â and his fingers winding their way through your locks before resting against the nape of your neck, and the other trying to slide down the swell of your hip only for your hand to stop him, âbut only if youâll let me I guess,â his lips curl into a smirk, one that you drag your thumb down.
âI will,â your lips are barely a breath away from his own, noses bumping, as the anticipation grows thicker than honeyed molasses one that seems to consume every one of his thoughts at a snail's pace as he remains stuck on two things â you and your lips, âonce Iâm done teaching you my lesson,â and your lips brush.
âSir?â The bill is slapped down in front of him, as he snaps back to reality, the sounds of bar stools thumping against the counter as they are mounted on top jars him, as he shakes himself free from his thoughts, âbar isnât for sleeping, go to your room,â His cheeks burn.
Satoru pulls several bills out and leaves a generous tip, before sliding off his stool with a shake of his head, and a distinct ache between his thighs, that he quickly hides with his suit coat draped on his arm in front of him.
âNot anything you serve here.â
~~~
Youâre like a daydream, Satoru realizes when heâs making his way to the hotel bar again. One that heâs using as a distraction â but a lovely daydream all the same. His conference days are spent waiting for a respite at the bar in the evenings â the only time he felt intellectually stimulated at a mechanically orchestrated event like this.
And one that he couldnât get out of his head. The daydream he had was so vivid, he could swear it was reality if he hadnât been so rudely awakened. And right when it was getting toâ
Oh, what the fuck was he thinking? He shakes his head as if it would rid his head of his thoughts (it doesnât).
He ran his fingers through his hair, what was it about you? You were gorgeous, sure, and brilliant enough to match him barb for barb, but you were just â- gravitational. He could feel him pulled in by your orbit and he found himself not resisting your force in the slightest â only hoping to accelerate.
Was this the phenomenon of quantum entanglement? He knew it was true for the tiniest of particles, the very same forces that pulled him close, he knew were pulling you close too â doomed in the same downward spiral without having to spare a glance. But did he?
He didnât know the first thing about you â he only knew you were someone related to the field of physics â you had to be a professor, far too smart to be a generous donor. He only knew your first name, and you knew the same about him â and there was a part of him that preferred it that way. He had grown used to the attention given to him for simply his name â and he felt as if it was as if he had been placed on a pedestal that no one would dare to climb to speak, but instead only looked up. He almost chuckled at the thought of you ever doing that â but you were more the type to kick the pedestal out from under him, and force him to meet your gaze.
And he much preferred that â and you.
And now, he glances at the bar as it came into view, a double take almost warranted at the sight â was he dreaming again, even before his head had even attempted to hit the pillow? Or was it true that you were sitting at the bar nursing a drink alone? Pretty eyes glancing at the time on your phone and he bit back a smile, stepping towards you â eager remark about how long youâve been waiting for him? Even though he wasnât one to talk â as he had spent his whole day waiting for this.
Waiting for you, rather.
He stopped when another man approached you â Satoru paused, and he supposed he had to wait longer. Who was this now? You didnât seem to know him, leaning away as he stood near you, not too close, but he seemed to be talking shyly, and yet his words never seemed to stop. Even though it seemed you wanted them to.
And when he caught a glimpse of the manâs face, he realized just who the man was.
Well, well â he knew just what to do to get rid of him â appear.
âHey,â Satoru walked over, leaning on the bar, meeting the manâs gaze with a smile, before his eyes slid back to you, âmake a new friend?â He orders his drink with the bartender as he slides his gaze back to the man lingering, whose face had grown both soured and pale all at once.
âSort of, yes, this isââ
âI actually must go, please excuse me,â the man abruptly says, bowing politely to the two of you before shooting a glare at Satoru before heading off towards the elevators.
âNice seeing you too, Gege!â Satoru called after him, smirking at the manâs flinch just before he turned the corner, âthat guy hates me,â he orders his drink, taking a seat beside you, âdonât know why,â
âI can see that,â you chuckle, glancing back where the man had disappeared off to, âheâs some sort of author?â
Satoru nods, as the bartender places his drink in front of him, âHe is â a mangaka fascinated by physics, he pestered me with questions, but he didnât like when I did the same,â
You snort, only imagining what kinds of questions he had bothered the man with, âYou freaked out the freak?â
âWell, he couldnât match me,â you smirked, as he leaned against the counter, sipping his drink, your head tilting, âcan you?â
âWeâll have to find out, wonât we?â you raise an eyebrow, as he grins, âthink Iâm doing a pretty good job so far,â and you shrug, a wry smile pulling at the corners of your lips as he pouts, âso cruel to treat the man that saved you from an uncomfortable conversation,â and he sighs dramatically, âmaybe Iâll call Gege back down,â
You raise an eyebrow, âHe wouldnât come if you called,â
Satoru pauses, âHe might if I promised to leave,â
âIs this your way of trying to get me to ask you to stay?â You were far too quick-witted for his own good.
âNo this is my way of getting you to tell me that you want me to stay,â but lucky for him, he had the same biting tongue to match.
And you laugh, and he wants nothing more than to make you laugh again and again â a better achievement than any academic accolade that graced his walls, âWell I do owe you one,â you order another round.
âI think I earned more than a round of drinks,â and you raise an eyebrow, as you down the rest of your drink.
âAnd that is?â
~~~
âWhen you said we would be doing research, I assumed we would be doing research related to your speciality in physics, notââ
âThis is important research,â Satoru led you through the streets, the stuffy halls of the conference growing more distant, âcrucial to the furthering of our goals, our destinies,â
Satoru grinned, his smile somehow brighter than the sun itself, and even more obnoxious â but begrudgingly charming. He truly was a paradox incarnate â somehow bright but blinding, sweet but sharp, and enticing yet out of reach. Even more so in the casual white t-shirt and dark blue jeans he had opted for today, sunglasses perched on the tip of his nose as he looked at you over the rim with that irritatingly endearing grin.
And that grin must have been hypnotic because how else would he have convinced you to skip half a day of this week-long conference that you had been preparing for months to attend (that and you had grown tired of simply chugging your drink of choice between workshops and keynotes and skipping almost every meal except for some stale pastries offered at one of a dozen talks).
âAnd this crucial research is the best sweets shop in the areaââ
You snort, as you eye the crowd of people in front of this particular shop, âBecause thatâs a question the physics community has been pondering â not dark matter or Baryon asymmetryââ
âWell, I know your specialty is astrophysics now,â and you roll your eyes, as his hand finds yours, fingers laced together, as he pulls you into the throng of people in front of the shop, âdonât wanna lose you there,â
âIs that your excuse to hold my hand?â You reply, lips nearly pressed to his ear with how loud it was.
He leans closer, his body pressed against your side, lips brushing your ear, âwas I that obvious?â He grins, and pulls away as quickly as he had come, fingers parting yours as you both reach the front of the line. And why was it â your heart sinks ever so slightly at the absence of his warmth â that you mourned his touch as if youâd had it all your life instead of the first time?
âYou coming, sweetheart?â and you snap from your thoughts, and follow up to the counter â brushing your thoughts aside as you occupied your head with the sweets in front of you â instead of the man obsessed with them beside you. You realize what heâs said and youâre not one for pet names, but the way it rolls off his tongue and sticks syrupy sweet in your head almost makes you like it
âNoooo, donât!â You shield your strawberry dessert from his fork, as it prodded gently at the back of your palm, âyou already ate so many desserts, why do you want mine?â
You had watched this grown man down half a dozen different cakes, pastries, and cookies â he was a walking advert for what not to do to contract diabetes. For as sharp as his tongue was, you watched him lick a bit of frosting from his lip, it probably tasted twice as sweet.
âExactly because itâs yours,â he still tried but you caught his fork again with your own, âitâs so much sweeter when you steal it,â
âSo weâre adding thievery to your list of crimes,â and he clutches at his chest in mock shock, âtheft, harassmentââ
He gapes at you, âEh? When did I harass you?â
âGege,â and he rolls his eyes.
âHe loves me, he lives for me,â
âI think he wishes you would do the exact opposite,â and he pouts only to dart his hand out quick and steal a dollop of the airy frosting from the top of the cake on his form, he grins in victory, but you only lean forward, grabbing at his hand and lick it from his fork, âyouâre right, it is sweeter, when you steal it,â
His eyes find yours and fuck, your heart nearly contused itself against your ribs, what was it about him that made you never want to look away? It was a game of chicken for you â stare until the other flinches, because then you could see them and they would never see you â and you had never lostâbut he made you want to lose. But you also couldnât bear to look away all the same.
âSuppose that was my first lesson for you, sweetheart,â and that sweetness seems to stick with you, the pet names growing on you.
âYou do have a way of making me look at things at a different angle,â you admit, and you wonder why a man like this was so lost as he seemed â he was definitely seen, wherever he went, but never understood, âis that a talent of yours?â
âI tend to do my best with my back against the wall,â and you canât help but imagine how heâd look with his back to a wall â itâs not a bad image.
Your lips curl, âI bet you do,â and you continue walking off, taking another bite of your cake, not noticing the way his eyes watched you â the same way you had.
~~~
âI canât believe you donât trust me to choose a place for dinner,â Satoru sighs, as the two of them are seated at the bar for dinner, the tables all full for the night, âI could have found us a place that would have given us an actual table,â
âFor all I know, you would have somehow found a place that only serves dessert,â he scoffs, and the two of you order your drinks, as the waiter parts to bring your orders, âDonât scoff at me, I know you probably know at least one place, if not ten,â
âI donât knowââ and you tilt your head, eyebrow raised, and he shrugs, a small smile pulling at his lips, ânone of them are in the area, but there is a good ice cream placeââ
You snort, not glancing up from perusing the menu, as the waiter brings over your drinks, and the two of you order â and to your surprise, he orders something savory and not sweet, âSurprised you didnât ask for the dessert menu first,â
âWell, I do like to take my time, after all,â his lips curl into a small grin, as he lifts his glass to his pretty lips, âdessert is better when youâre patient,â
Oh? Oh.
âYou donât look like the type thatâs used to waiting for what he wants,â
âYou keep saying I look like this or that, screw that,â he leans back in his chair, âI can wait for the things I really want â and I always get what I want, sweetheart,â
You were toeing a line you shouldnât be toeing â it was Schrodingerâs cat, and a box you shouldnât look inside â because until you did, there was always a chance the cat was alive, and there was always a chance that this wouldnât be a mistake â but once you opened it â there was no going back. But still â the words are pulled from your mouth as if you had no choice, the box tipping open of its own accord.
âAnd what is it that youââ
âHuh? Gojo?â your eyes snap over to a woman â a far too gorgeous woman, in a long black dress that floated down to her ankles, her black heels clicking against the wood of the floor of the restaurant, her silver hair in a tight high ponytail, bangs framing her face.
âMei Mei,â his attention falls to her, and youâre left sitting, fully out of the loop and completely irritated, but you didnât know why, âI didnât know you were in town,â
âFor good reason, then you might have a reason to avoid me,â Mei Mei smiles, âI saw Geto recently. He told me you were coming back soon from your sabbatical,â and you see a flicker of emotion cross his expression and disappear as quickly as it appeared, âand whoâs this?â
You offer your hand and introduce yourself, âAnd are you a professor as well?â
âNo, Iâm a donor,â and you nod, âand what do youââ but then her friend is calling her back, her head turning.
âI should go back to my party, it was nice to meet you,â Mei Mei offers a smile before her gaze slithers its way back to Satoru, âIâm sure weâll be speaking soon, Satoru. Let me know about that night out we had discussed.â Her fingers brush his shoulder, giving you a wry smile before slipping off.
And a sinking feeling settles over you â as he waves at her â a night out? Was this all this was? Another night out?
And your skin crawls as she walks off, Satoru turning back to look at you, your lips a thin line as you force your gaze back to his, âWhat were you saying again? And the waiter comes soon enough with your meals, placing them in front of them.
âNothing,â your lips curl, perhaps this box was better left unopened, ânothing at all.â
~~~
âWhatâs wrong?â This was why Satoru didnât care to get invested in others. When he couldnât make heads or tails of himself â they expected him to make heads and tails of them. It was easier to write people off, put distance between him and them, than it was to draw close. He was used to too many being far too close, gawking as if he were an illustrious painting, unable to make out a single brushstroke much less who he was. But he never cared to explain or have anyone understand and he paid others the same courtesy.
Except you.
âI told you, nothing,â you sighed as you and Satoru made your way back to the hotel that was hosting the conference, âitâs just been a long day,â
And he could let this go, fall silent with a sharp remark that would only push you away, the same distance but eons further than you had ever been â a space-time curvature of his own making.
âYouâre a terrible liar,â but he doesnât.
âWell, my specialty isnât lying I guess,â you snap, scrubbing a hand down your face, âsorry, Iââ
âWhat do you think I lied about?â and you pause, as the two of you stand a few feet from the hotel, people filing in and out of the structure as bellmen and cars pull up to help them in and out of their cars, âabout my brilliance? I know it can be hard to believe how someone can be so handsome andââ you glare at him, and he sighs, âcâmon sweetheart, just tell meââ
âWho is Mei Mei to you?â your question surprises him, but seems to surprise you more, words falling from your lips without a first thought, much less a first, âI-I mean, uhââ
And he canât help the grin that spreads over his lips â âI didnât take you for the jealous type, sweetheart,â and your words failed you for once, âor maybe I should be calling you, Princess, because being jealous isnât usually so sweet,â
âSatoruââ
âExcept maybe when itâs you,â he takes a step forward, and fuck, you look so cute like this â your eyes unable to meet his with the usual defiance or smugness, teeth baring down on his bottom lip, âthink youâd be sweet no matter what you do,â
âIâm not jealousââ
âUh-huh,â he smirks, âMei Mei is just an old friend and tycoon of business â and she tends to have a night out to discuss opportunities and investment into education for a mutual benefitââ
âShe wants a tax break?â And he nods, but your brow furrows, âthen what was with the shoulder touch?â
âThe shoulder touch?â and you click your tongue.
âShe touched your shoulder, intimately,â and he raises an eyebrow, âit was! It was like this,â your fingers gesture over his shoulder, your thumb barely grazing over his shoulder blade.
He tilts his head, âThatâs what you consider intimate?â
âYes! Like,â you step forward, and he refuses to let his breath catch, but your perfume floods his senses, fingers nearly twitching to touch you â but he canât, yet that makes it all the more tempting. Your fingers ghost over his shoulder, featherlike almost, and heat floods his body as if itâs his first time being touched by another â and it wasnât, but it was his first time being touched by you.
âLike this,â and your words warm his skin, and it would be so easy to touch you â give you a taste of intimacy, and show that the only touch he craved was your own.
âI think I missed it, could you show me again?â he canât help but tease when itâs so easy to do when youâre like this, âaw, come on, Professor, isnât this supposed to be a hands-on lesson?â
Your body is far too close, yet too far all the same â had you managed to create the very phenomenon he had failed to study?
Your eyes finally found his, a spark of want that was only another match struck for the kindling, and your fingers drifted to his cheek. And he couldnât help but lean into your touch, flames licking at his skin, but it was a burn he wanted more of, one he wished could consume him.
He leaned closerâuntil a group of people passing by, rowdy and drunk, made you flinch apart. And the moment was broken, flames extinguishedââI should go,â you murmur, and he nods, both of you taking a step back, âbut if youâre not too busy falling asleep at keynotes, come to room 188 at 11:00 AM â Iâm on a panel,â
âAnd you want me to come ask all the hard questions?â A smile graces your pretty lips, one he wishes he could memorize and map with his fingers â because itâs your smile and heâs the one who made you smile like that.
âI expect nothing less,â you turn to go inside as he calls after you.
âWas that a compliment?â and you cast a gaze over your shoulder yet again.
âLike I said, if and when I compliment you, you wonât need to ask that, Professor,â and with a flash of your smile, you were gone, and he was left outside in the humid air of the summer and the distinct sounds of cicadas and faint laughter and chatter of people outside the hotel. His fingers brushed against his shoulder, the ghost of your lingering touch still haunting him in the best way.
The flames were out, but the spark was still there â and thatâs all you both needed.
For now.
~~
Fuck, he was late â and this time not on purpose.
Usually there was nothing more Satoru would like than to be late for a moderated panel â it was an excuse to skip altogether, to get lunch, a treat, a drink â anything other than sit through another session of educators and researchers alike stroking their own egos. But this was different.
It was for you.
He tugged off his crooked and badly tied tie and stuffed it in his pocket, sprinting to the conference room where you said you would be doing the panel. He had to oversleep â but it really was your fault. He couldnât get to sleep, not after last night. The scent of your perfume still clung to him tauntingly, the phantom of your touch still haunted him, and the sight of your smile etched onto his eyelids each time he closed them.
He was so fucking screwed.
He wasnât the time for sentimental bullshit. No, the world had bullied that deep inside of him, softness only reserved for the few friends he had and his students. But you had ripped it all to the surface. And now he was stuck moving at the same pace you were â a quantum coupling without the couple.
He gets to the door and he bursts in, a dramatic entrance much too loud for a conference. The room fell pindrop silence as all eyes stared at him. But his eyes, flitting like comets, finding their landing with you, and he would burn up in your atmosphere all the same with the glare on your face.
âSorry, got a little lost,â he offers a small smile, before taking his seat, his eyes unwavering from you.
The moderator clears his throat, turning his nose up at Satoru, âWell, let us continue,â he turns to you, âyou were saying, Doctor?â
Oh, a doctor.
He leans back in his chair, how was it you got so much hotter? If that was possible somehow.
âI was explaining our current understanding of Hawking radiation, the theoretical thermal black-body radiation that releases out a black hole and its theorized to cause black hole evaporation,â and yet as you spoke, he felt himself grow hot, a slight flush settling over his cheeks â he was right when he guessed astrophysics was your specialty. And he should have known you would have been an expert while he was at it â how could you not be? Even now your lips and tongue formed sentences he could only dream of making, and he did dream of your lips before.
âThere are many unknowns about quantum fields and electromagnetism, especially regarding black holes in particular â one of the counters to electromagnetismââ the other speakers go on to interject and bristle at one another, but Satoru barely hears any of it all â too preoccupied with you.
You were far too pretty for your own good â how was no one else completely distracted, shifting in his seat as he carefully adjusted himself â and turned on.
âAnd now we open it up to the audience,â
The first few questions are fielded by the others and then the one of the last questions is for you. A person stands from the audience, fiddling with the question card they had in their hand, âwhen you were speaking about electromagneticism, you said there are many mysteries still â there is a theory called the law of attraction,â thereâs a few distinct murmurs and even a few chuckles, but even so Satoru still finds himself looking at you, âthey say the energy you put out into the world is electromagnetic waves, and when that interacts with the quantum field, which helps you attract what youâre looking for, what do you think of this theory?â
And for the first time, your eyes find his, the corner of your lips tugging upwards, before your gaze settles back on the audience.
âI donât think thereâs anything in physics that can explain what brings something or someone into your life,â you lean back in your chair, âif it were that simple, I think a lot more physicists wouldnât be married to their labs,â Satoru snorts, and you garner a few chuckles from the audience, âbut although all that stuff about quantum fields and electromagnetic waves isnât rooted in physics, I think thereâs something to figuring out what you want and letting yourself have it,â and he found your eyes on him again, and he wondered if he could let himself have you â even if he felt like he didnât quite deserve you.
And his phone buzzed in his pocket, he glanced at the name and groaned â why was Ijichi calling him now? He lets it go to voicemail, but then messages come through.
Four-Eyed Annoyance: please reply. I have some news for you about the department head.
He bites his lip, but hauls himself to his feet, slipping out right as the panel wraps up. He presses the callback button and grumbles as Ijichi picks up, âthis better be good or Iâll slap the shit out of you when I get backââ
âHuh?â Ijichi cried, aghast, âyou told me to call once I had news,â and Satoru groaned.
âJust spit it out,â he sighed, rubbing his head.
âThe department head said they would like to see you attend the mixer for professors in the department â a chance to meet you more informally â itâs the day after you return,â and Satoru scrubbed a hand down his face, and a chance to grill him about his failed research, âI thought you should know so you could prepareââ
He spots you disappearing around the corner, and hes curses under his breath, âIjichi, youâre in for a serious slap later,â and the man doesnât have time to react before Satoru cuts the phone. Great, not only was his career definitely in jeopardy, without a buffer to bullshit, but now â he rounds the corner, following after you, but in the throngs of people he doesnât see you â he had lost you.
He shoves his phone back in his pocket. Not that he really deserved you.
~~~
Satoru doesnât see you for the rest of the day â he didnât know how long he spent waiting for you at the bar, About how long it takes him for the bar to close his tab and the bartender to shoo him away, until he meanders back to his room. Were you upset? You had noticed he came in late and then he left before it was overâand now he hadnât seen you. And he couldnât even ask you because he hasnât seen you and he doesnât even have your numberâ
Because he was an idiot, who wanted to play coy, instead of being direct.
He strips off his shirt, undoing the buttons one by one, a heavy sigh caught in his throat, as he tosses the button down onto the desk chair nearby, knocking over his bag and spilling papers onto the floor.
Great. Was this supposed to be some grand metaphor for his life? He knelt down to collect them, maybe he should call Suguru and have him give him some philosophy bullshit to make him feel better. He picked up something scrunched underneath the papers, and it was a napkin â but not just a used one.
Well not exactly.
One free pass to take what you want.
He snorts at your scrawled handwriting â for how perfect he thought you were, your handwriting certainly wasnât.
He continues to pick up the rest of the things scattered on the ground until he finds the cover sheet for his research. Messy doodles littered the sheet â ones he had messily scratched in frustration â including one of his own face breathing fire.
He presses his hand to his lips, how was he going to turn this into something remotely useable? The basis of research was that most of it never leads to great revelations or huge discoveries â it was a domino effect of building upon other research and one study tips it over. And research was also about framing â about seeing what was there and making something of it.
He was flipping through his research â and he pauses at a particular page that had the tables of his research, the one he had ruminated over for nights and days, but now â it seemed far less daunting.
You do have a way of making me look at things from a different angle.
Your words fill his ear, as if you were there whispering it to him â a different angle. He pulls his laptop out and gathers the papers in his hands before he pockets the napkin you had written on.
Maybe thatâs just what he needed.
~~~
You had avoided him.
It was so fucking embarrassing. What were you? A rejected teenager hiding from her crush? And you down another drink at the bar, the alcohol burning down your throat as if it could erode away the words you had said during the panel.
But it couldnât.
It shouldnât have happened. The moment the night before, with his lips a breath away that hung like a promise in the air â if magnetism existed between two people, it was in that moment â because you never felt so drawn to someone, as if there were actual magnets between you both. But as much as magnets attract, they could also repel just as well.
And you supposed, as you swirled the bits of your drink with your ice melting at the bottom of the glass, that was what had inspired him to run after your little show. You hated being a fool â but you hated not taking a risk more â you drank the rest of the watered-down drink before setting the glass down â so you had made the right decision.
So, why did you still feel like shit? You hiccuped slightly, the buzz now settling into a haze over your head, clear thoughts lost in a slight fog.
It might be the alcohol.
But even so you ordered another drink, pushing the empty one forward, avoiding the bartenderâs dubious gaze. What was it about this man?
You didnât know the first thing about him â aside from the fact he was a professor, just as you were, and his first name was Satoruâand fuck, you didnât even catch his last name. But you knew how his lips curled into a smile that was far too infectious, that he was flippant to a fault but he only used it to hide his vulnerabilities, and that for someone so intelligent and knew of his own abilities â he found his own failures and shortcomings unforgivable.
But you wanted to forgive all the same â even now.
Even after not seeing him, and avoiding this very bar like the plague for the last day and a half. But now, it was the last night of the conference, and you donât know what possessed you to be here â but you did â it was him.
âCome here often?â your eyes donât need to look up from the drink placed in front of you by the bartender to know who it is, âlet me have what sheâs having,â
You raise an eyebrow, âThis isnât the fruity mocktail you prefer,â and he slips into the stool beside you, his arm brushing your own, as the bartender heaves a sigh at the sight of you two, âthink you can handle it?â
âWell even if I canât, I have you to take care of me, donât I?â and you snort, licking the salt rim of your glass, before washing it down with the drink, âcâmon sweetheart, I thought you were opening yourself up to me,â and you choke on it, a distinct heat settling over your cheeks and it wasnât from the liquor.
You choose your words carefully, as you wipe your mouth with a napkin, âI did, but that was before someone ran out,â and you wish your words significantly less slurred.
He bites his lip, âwould you believe that it was a life threatening emergency and only I, Satoruââ and you cut him off with a glare, and he sighs, âIâm sorry, I got tied up on a call and by the time I had finished, you were gone,â
âAnd here I thought my little soliloquy scared you off,â you mutter, âbut a phone call? Was it a life threatening emergency?â The bartender comes with two drinks for the both of you.
âNot exactly, it was about my research. Found out my department head wants to meet with me right when I get back,â but his lips were curled in a smile, until he lifted his drink to his lips and took a sip, a grimace replacing it.
âYou donât seem like youâre dreading it anymore,â you sip your own drink, pressing the cool glass to your too-hot cheeks, alcohol roasting you from the inside out.
âWell, someone said I had a knack for looking at things from a unique angle,â he gives you a grin, âso I just did what I did best,â
âI see that ego of yours has recovered,â and his gaze catches yours, âIâm glad this conference was good for something at least,â
âI donât think thatâs all it was good for,â and your eyes canât pull away from his â a current that sparked between your gazes that only wished to pull you closer than further apart, âyouâre selling it short â moderated panels, the workshops, the stale coffee, the networking opportunities,â and his fingers brushed yours, âwhatâs not to love?â
And any sluggishness from your intoxication is chased away by his touch, a live wire pressed to your skin, âNetworking?â You repeat, the warm brush of his fingers against your skin feather-like, âwhat chances have you had to network?â
He decides to down his drink, a flinch as he swallows, âNot many, well, not many that hadnât ended without people glaring or fleeing,â you snort, but still liking his thumb rubs across the length of your knuckles, âbut the ones that went well have been more than satisfactory,â your eyes flit to his hand and then to his lips, before settling to his gaze.
âAnd youâre satisfied? With the conference?â you add, and itâs a dangerous game to play, fingers curling around his as if by instinct, a current completed by its circuit, and you were needlessly addicted to the feeling.
He hums, in mock contemplation, as he leans closer, until your knees brush, âNot completely, but thatâs because I donât think Iâve taken what I want yet,â and he pulls a napkin from his pocket, handing it to you, and you see your words scribbled on there.
And you know itâs already far too late for you.
Youâre close. Too close â as you can see the specks of dark blue that you could map like constellations in his eyes and you were sure his cologne was melting every brain cell that told you this was a bad idea, and leaving only behind need â but still you spoke.
Your fingers brushed his as you took the napkin, next words far too breathless for your own good, as if the spark between you had caught fire from your touch and sucked the oxygen from your little bubble â and you were just waiting for it to burst.
But it didnât. Instead, he leaned closer, a breath away, fingers cupping your cheek, âcan I?â And you nod nearly out of reflex, and he kisses you â despite the alcohol, you can taste the hint of sugar from the sweets he undoubtedly had before. Itâs chaste and much too brief, but you two fall into a second as if itâs second nature.
âWell, are you going to take it?â
~~
âThis is a such a fucking bad idea,â you manage to huff out right as the elevator doors close, but not before Satoru has you pressed to the mirrored wall of the elevator, âwe shouldnât do thisââ
But all the same, your hand cupped his cheek, mapping the contours and curves of his jaw until it melted into his hairline, fingers running through his soft white locks with reverence, and his cheeks are flushed red, and even warmer than they look, âdid one drink affect you this much?â you chuckle, and he pouts, drawing a full laugh from your lips, âoh this is definitely a bad idea,â not only because both of you were drunk, but he was far too cute to resist.
His eyes flutter close for a moment at the sensation of your touch, lips parted as he relished in your touch â and when had he been touched so softly before? Your noses bump, as the heat is engulfed in honey for a moment, caught between breaths.
âI have nothing but good ideas, Princess,â his nose brushes your cheek, as he inhales â fuck, how did you smell like everything sweet, even after a full day of conferences and two hours at a rundown hotel bar, âyou may be my best one yet.â
âFlattery, Professor?â And his lips dare closer to yours again, as the elevator finally reached his floor, âyouâll have to do better than that,â
And as he steps forward out the elevator, fingers finding yours, he grins, cheeks warm from intoxication â and whether thatâs the alcohol or you is a mystery. âYâknow Iâd do just about anything for you, sweetheart.â
You follow him out, as he leads you to his room, tugging you along as your lips curl, âAnything?â
He catches a glimpse at the wicked curve of your lips as you grin while he unlocks the door, that curve soon pressed against his neck, and he knew he wanted nothing more than to be pulled into your orbit â because there isnât a thing you could do to repel him.
âThis isnâtââ Satoru bites his lip, as he watches you sink to your knees, a shaky gasp parting those same lips, spit slick from your kiss, as you dragged your thumb down the kiss-ruined flesh, âwhat I had in mind when you said anything,â his words are slurred, and youâre seeing the glow settle over his cheeks, making you only want to litter the red flush with kisses.
âI see why you donât drink often if one drink does this to you,â your nose bumps against his, âwe donât have to do this if youâreââ
âIâm fine, I promise,â he cuts you off gently, his fingers closing around your wrist, before bringing your hand against his cheek, âI donât want to stop, please,â and your thumb rubs along his cheekbone, âdo you need me to solve an equation? Motion? Velocity? Force?â
You snort, your fingers ghosting over his jaw, âThereâs something else Iâd rather do,â and you undo the button of his slacks, âor someone,â and his lips curl â which only makes you want to wipe it off his face, until his lips are only parted with your name on his tongue.
You had stripped him down to his boxers, every button of his shirt undone painfully slow, as your fingers ghosted up and down every inch of exposed skin, âsuch a good boy, Satoru,â you had murmured, as you finally had reached the last button of his shirt, choosing to kiss your way up his stomach and chest â and fuck, it was hard enough not to blow his load then and there, âgonna make you feel good, baby,â your hand slid up his body, dragging over his chest, and onto his cheek until sliding into his hair again, tangling in the locks before you tugged, hard, drawing a pretty gasp from his lips and sending a wave of heat throbbing between his thighs, âbut not before you earn it,â
You take a step back, his hands twitching as they reach for you, âJust watch,â You strip slowly, your jacket already tossed aside, as you undo the buttons of your blouse torturously slow, as your lips curl at the sight of his pout.
Muscles winded and tense like a spring ready to snap at your word, but you didnât let him, and when you step out of your slacks, his boxers strained against his erection, a dark patch over taut pulled fabric, âlook at you, Iâve barely touched you, and youâre already about to rip through your boxers?â You click your tongue.
And your careful steps back to the bed have him swallowing thickly, resisting the urge to bite his lip as he watches you, âPlease,â heâs murmuring, âplease, baby,â
God, he looks too fucking pretty begging, and you were only that much sure he would look prettier with tears in those eyes of his, whimpers and moans parting those pretty pink lips.
âPlease what?â you leaned closer, your knees pressing his legs apart, brushing against his inner thighs, teasingly close to where he wanted them most, âgonna have to use some of those big words you got your degrees with, Satoru,â
Your knee grazes his clothed bulge, âFuckââ your fingers find his undercut with ease, nails grazing the nape of his neck as you did, a delicious shiver running up his spine. He was so sensitive for all the bravado he had â for how intelligent he was, how high he held himself, it only took a few of your touches to reduce him to this.
And fuck, it was so hot.
âNot that word,â your hand draws up and down his thigh, tracing the muscle, before drawing a path over the elastic of his boxers, âtell me what you want â my fingers? My mouth?â Your fingers dip inside his boxers only to snap the fabric against his skin, earning a sharp hiss and a jerk of his hips.
His eyes flicker up to your lips, and you know what he wants, but youâre still waiting to hear the words, âyour mouth,â and you tilt your head expectantly, âplease,â
âGood boy,â you donât miss the way his dick twitches at the praise, as your fingers tug his boxers down, pooling around his ankles. His cock slaps against his stomach, pretty precum dripping down his length â and howâs it possibly that his dick is as gorgeous as the rest of him? Pretty red tip that melted into a blush pink length, lovely veins that wrapped around as if it was made just for you. And you didnât believe in the law of attraction â but you knew youâd welcome his dick inside you anytime.
You sink to your knees, and the sight must be pretty by the way his gaze grows dark, âLike the idea of me on my knees for you?â
âCanât I like the idea of using that smart mouth for something other than a verbal lashing, sweetheart?â And your tongue darts out to lick the precum from his tweeting tip, making his head loll back.
âYou can,â and your fingers ghost over his balls, âbut donât forget whoâs in control, Satoru,â
You press a kiss to his slit, before letting the length slap on your tongue. And already his chest is already heaving, as your fingers curl around the base, slowly pumping and smearing precum along his dick. You hear the crumple of the sheets as he grasps at them.
âYouâre so fucking big â canât wait to feel you inside me, gânna feel sâgood,â and a pretty moan parts his lips, hips bucking into your touch, boneless nearly, as you watch his precum slip down your fingers and wrist, âdoes it feel that good?â your teasing only draws a pout to his lips thatâs quickly fading into another moan as you thumb at his slit, making him whine, âso fucking whiny,â you goaded, but no snark can find itâs way from his lips.
âF-fuck, sweetheart, can you blame me?â And your lips curl, as his tip bumps against your lips, dragging precum along them, âyouâre gonna be the death of me,â
âAnd youâd thank me for it,â and you finally let his cock slip past your lips, and his mouth falls open, muscles tense as he feels his length settle along your tongue, until itâs tracing up the bottom, flicking against the tip.
âF-fuck, baby, you take me so well,â and you do, so fuckinh pretty as your head bobs along his length, messily sucking and licking, cock growing impossibly larger, just as his tip grazes your throat, âshit, ngh,â and heâs threading his fingers into your locks, beginning to buck his hips so that his swollen tip bumps against your throat, even deeper.
His lewd groans send a wave of head straight to your needy core, and you canât wait, a hand slipping up to grasp at his waist, but the other slips into your panties and your fingers brush against your drenched folds.
Youâre a fucking vision when he glances down to watch his white pubes brush against your face, half spit and half pre dribbling from the corner of your mouth. Heâs practically fucking your mouth at this point, tears slipping down your cheeks, heâs not sure if heâs drunk from the alcohol or from his cock anymore. And when he sees your fingers buried in your cunt, fucking yourself because sucking him off was too muchâit was too late.
âF-fuck, not gânna last much longer, needââ but that only makes you suck around his length, letting his tip hit your throat, and his nails dig into your scalp, as he finally cums, hard, your name on his lips. Thick ropes of his cum paints your mouth, hot release burning down your throat. You swallow every drop, relishing in the soft groan of your name that leaves his lips, enough for you to hit your sweet spot with your three fingers stuffed in your cunt before cumming.
Youâre panting around his cock nearly as you pull your mouth off, strings of spit and cum stick to your lips and his dick, as you hear the creak of the mattress as he lies back against the bed, probably too fucked out to think. And youâre getting to shaky feet after easing your fingers out, ready to have him taste your own juices. But no, you canât.
He was too fucked out to be conscious.
âSatoru?â You asked slowly, but you were only met with soft snores and the easy rise and fall of his chest that told you he was asleep.
Well fuck.
~~~~
Satoru never drank. And it was for good reason.
He always felt shitty afterwards. Headaches, nausea, and body aches. And that didnât account for the side effect that had afflicted him the most â regret. The events of the night flash through his mind, a slideshow movie of the worst kind as he shoots up in bed to find himself alone in bed. He glances around, rest of his body still frozen in place, as if he had stopped moving, you wouldnât see him.
But no, you wouldnât see anything â because you werenât here.
Not a single sign of you. The bedside beside him empty, and no trace of your clothes left behind â you had left. His eyes flickered to the time, 10:00 AM, far too early this morning. But what had you expected? He scrubs a hand down his face, cheeks burning â especially when he had cum down your throat and then had thanked you for it by passing out like a virgin.
And still he woke up hard. He glared down at the erection tenting in the blanket, as if it was the reason for his own downfall, but it didnât have the courtesy of falling down itself.
Oh, he was never going to live this down.
And then the phone rang, and his heart leaped, likely bumping against his ribcage, as he reached for the hotel phone, wondering if it could possibly beâ
âHello? Is this Mr. Gojo?â The receptionist asks.
No, of course. Perfect.
âYes, this is him,â he rubbed the sleep from his eyes, this day could only get better, couldnât it?
âIâm calling to remind you that you had selected the early check out time, and your check out time is in exactly an hour, and we are unable to extend it due to other guest check-ins,â
He shouldnât have bothered to hope.
A frantic packing job and harried check out, he had slumped in his taxi to the train station. He didnât even get your number. And he scoffs at the thought, like youâd give it to him after last night. He leans against the cool glass of the window, eyes fluttering closed for a moment. Maybe he shouldnât have gone to see you that night. Maybe it would have been better to stop. But the two of you were always in motion â night by night rushing by each other, and last night was no different.
But now you both are still in motion â just not together.
And maybe it was better that way. But if so, his eyes open to take in rushing outside, why couldnât he stop thinking about you?
~~~
Satoru forgot how much he hated this department.
Satoru found himself sipping his drink by the makeshift bar again. He had waded through the questions of the other professors, wanting to know the details of his research. He saw the sharp gazes behind plastered smiles, and they were just hoping to learn something to tell the new department head. But he told them nothing, hiding his smirk behind the rim of his glass at their sour glances. He wouldnât give them the satisfaction.
And then he spots a familiar figure.
âOi,â Ijichi tensed at the sound of Satoruâs voice, he makes his way to Satoruâs side, âI thought you said the department head would be here,â
âSheâs on her way. She got stuck in a meeting. Havenât you been checking your email?â
âWho checks their email when theyâre away?â
And Ijichi mutters under his breath, âPeople who are actually responsible,â
Satoru glances at him, âThat reminds me, didnât I owe you a slap?â And Ijichi squeaks in terror, before he takes a step back, as his phone goes off.
âThe department head is on her way now,â and Satoru raised an eyebrow.
âHer?â And Ijichi frowned.
âHave you really not checked your email the entire time youâve been away? The new department headâs name was announced months ago, and sheâs sent consistent emails, and Satoru runs his hand through his hair.
âIâve had all department emails sent to spam,â and Ijichi gapes at him, as Satoru pulls his phone out and opens his spam folder, scrolling through the hundreds of unread emails, âwhatâs her name?â
And just then the doors open, and he wonders if heâs dreaming, if heâs back in that hotel room again and he would wake up any second beside you.
But he doesnât, as your eyes find his, stepping through the crowd of other professors, as Ijichi steps forward, âMaâam, this isââ
âI know,â you smile, before your eyes slide back to his, âcome here often?â
And he knew he was far too deep already.
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Clueless
character: Din Djarin (The Mandalorian)
prompts: âAre you flirting with me?â âHave been for years, but thanks for noticing.â
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You tapped around the usual controls you could reach from the chair behind Din's as the cockpit of the Razor Crest groaned to life around you. "How's the hyperdrive looking?"
Din kept moving his gloved hands along the main console as he answered. "It's online." He gave his helmet a quick tilt as he pushed one more button above his head. "For now."
Din exhaled a heavy breath and wrapped his hands around the joysticks, giving them a squeeze before he maneuvered the gunship off the ground. The breath you let out was one of relief; the two of you had certainly been trapped on worse planets before, but you were glad to see the sight of it fading below you.
"Glad you're confident in your work." You failed to hide your growing smile as you relaxed and let Din take care of the rest.
"This isn't a confidence problem." Din spared a look at you over his shoulder before he lifted his hands to grasp the hyperspace levers. "The Crest just manages to surprise me from time to time."
With that, Din pulled back, and the stars stretched out before you. They then burst into the familiar plethora of blue and white swirling lights, beginning yet another long journey through hyperspace.
Hopefully one that you wouldn't get forcefully pulled out of. Again.
But you were still stuck on what Din had said: This isn't a confidence problem. That drew a pleased hum from you, one that you didn't bother to keep hidden from him. It wasn't like he'd get it, anyway. Not if he hadn't the other countless times you'd done it.
"I like that."
Din, now leaning back in his chair, swiveled in his seat to face you. His helmet was tilted in genuine confusion. "Like what?"
You resisted the urge to roll your eyes as you instead gestured to him with your chin. "The confidence."
Din shrugged. "Comes from experience."
You smirked and kept your arms crossed over your chest. "I'd like to see what kind of experience."
Din didn't move, but his tone spelled out all the confusion you likely would have seen on his face if it wasn't covered by his helmet. "Was getting pulled out of hyperspace hours ago not enough experience for you?"
That time, you really did let yourself roll your eyes as you laughed and stood to your feet. Honestly, the tally of your advances versus Din's own cluelessness was getting difficult to keep track of. "Fair point."
You stepped over to Din and set a hand on his armored shoulder.
"It's been a long day. I'd say it's time for some beauty sleep, but you've already got the first part covered." You gave his pauldron a squeeze and turned around. "And no, rest isn't an option this time."
You could only get a few steps away, however, when you suddenly heard Din stand up behind you. "Wait."
You froze in place and looked at him over your shoulder, lifting your brow as you awaited him to retaliate with some kind of meaningless yet humorous joke.
Instead, you saw him nervously shifting his weight between his feet. Even his gloved hands were pulling tight into fists before he asked a question you never thought you'd hear.
"Are you flirting with me?"
As surprised as you were to hear the words, you didn't miss a beat with your response. "Have been for years, but thanks for noticing." You flashed him a wink and started walking forward again, letting your sudden adrenaline carry you. "See you in a few hours."
You had only just started to cross the cockpit's threshold when Din found his voice again. "What?"
You laughed to yourself but didn't stop your stride as you stepped over the ladder towards the storage space you had claimed as your own private bunk. The door slid open for you, but before it could close, somethingâor someoneâstood in the way.
"Hold on."
Din sounded out of breath, and when you turned around, you saw him leaning against the metal material of the storage room's threshold. His body was still rigid, the same way it looked when he was preparing to leap into battle.
"You can't just... after you..." Din gestured absently behind himself, to the open cockpit.
You sighed and crossed your arms over your chest again as you fully faced him. "I know this incredibly obvious revelation is somehow news to you, but it's not to me, and I'd really like to get some sleep."
Din just shook his helmet in pure disbelief. His modulated voice was lower than usual when he spoke again. "All this time?"
You huffed and looked down at your boots. "What did you think I was doing?"
Din's tone with thick with embarrassment. "Being nice."
You laughed again. You couldn't help it. "Of course you did." You reached forward and tapped your knuckles against his helmet. "Your skull must be as thick as your beskar."
You stood back where you were before and watched Din carefully. His visor was focused on the floor, and his gloved fingertips were fluttering thoughtfully on the hand he had propped up by his head.
You closed your eyes and sighed. His cluelessness was even worse than you thought it was.
"Listen, Din, you clearly need some rest. Just... go to sleep and we can talk about this later. Okay?"
Din's helmet snapped back up to you at that. "No. I'm sorry, let me just..."
He leaned off the threshold but continued to stand in it, keeping the door open for himself. His gloved hand palmed his helmet as his chest rose and fell with a frustrated breath.
"Kriff."
You chuckled and shook your head at him. "Din, it's really not that big of a deal."
Din stared at you before his armored shoulders deflated. "It isn't?"
You let out a softer breath as your chest squeezed. "I didn't mean..." Now you were the one palming your face. "Not like that. I just meant that I'm not offended or anything."
Din tilted his helmet. "Offended by what?"
You shrugged, too overcome by your newfound embarrassment to look at him as your stare returned to your boots. "You not reciprocating."
Din let out a sigh so heavy that you had no choice but to look up at him again. He had changed his position so that his hands were set on his hips as he shook his helmet.
"That's the thing." His visor found your gaze before he nodded. "I've been trying to."
Now, it was really your turn to be shocked. You blinked at him a few times as your heart somersaulted in your chest. All this time, you thought your flirting was just a vain effort to get the attention of a man who would never be open to you or what you had to offer. You were starting to wonder if you had somehow managed to miss something.
You found your voice, but it was only a squeak. "What?"
Din gestured with a gloved hand behind you. "I'm not good with words, so I tried to do things. Like helping you set up this room. And cleaning your weapons." The next part was a mumble you nearly missed. "And making you that blanket."
You whipped around, spotting the blanketâyour favorite, by the wayâthat had just shown up one day on your makeshift bunk. You huffed in disbelief and turned back around to face him. "That was you?"
"Who else?"
It was Din's turn to laugh, though it was only a raspy chuckle for him. He even turned your own question back on you.
"What did you think I was doing?"
And your answer was nothing different. "Being nice."
Din let out the biggest sigh you'd ever heard from him, and you couldn't even blame him.
Oh, the irony of it all. Maybe you were actually the clueless one.
"So..." You clasped your hands behind your back and rocked on your heels. " What now?"
Din shrugged. "Hell if I know." He gestured with his helmet behind him. "I think I just proved I'm not the most qualified in this area."
You spared another glance at the blanket. "Clearly, I'm not much better."
Din looked off to the side the way he always did when he was planning something. After a few heartbeats, he nodded to himself and looked at you again. "I might have an idea."
You lifted your brow. "Yeah?"
Din nodded again. "We should switch."
"Switch what?"
Din shifted his weight and used his finger to gesture between the two of you. "Techniques?" The suggestion came out as a question. "I'll try words, and you try actions."
You hummed in consideration before ultimately nodding. "Okay, yeah. I like that idea." You smirked at him. "You first."
Din, for once in his life, stammered. "What? IâWell, I can't just..."
"You can." You took a step closer to him. "You have something to say to me. I know you do."
It was then that something overcame Din, and you could see it in the way his posture relaxed into something much more familiar and comfortable. His visor gave you a steady once-over as he took a smaller step closer to you.
"I have a lot of things I want to say to you."
You let yourself embrace the flustered feeling even as you let out an impressed whistle. "That was good, Djarin! You're learning." You gave his armored shoulder a pat.
Din gave his helmet a soft tilt. "Your turn."
You grinned, letting your hand fall from his shoulder to instead grasp his arm. You other hand rose to meet it, and gently, you pulled him further into the room, causing the door to slide shut behind him. Din looked back at it in surprise, but when he looked at you again, he didn't seem displeased.
"I'm offering you my bunk." You gestured back towards it. "Because I want you here, but also because I don't want you sleeping on that sorry excuse for a bed down in the hold anymore."
Din chuckled at that, the sound thick with both amusement and admiration as he nodded. "Fair enough."
You helped him get settled into the bunk with you, draping the blanket he had apparently made over both of you as the final touch. Your face was the closest it had ever been to his visor as you laid beside him. Surprisingly, he was the one to break the brief silence.
"This is a good start."
You smiled, humming once more before getting close enough to rest your face against his cowl. "I agree."
The gloved hand you felt on your back was enough evidence of the fact that he was just as comfortable, now, and not as clueless as you had thought him to be.
#din djarin is precious i don't care. my silly sweet pookie#din djarin#the mandalorian#din djarin x reader#the mandalorian x reader#din djarin fic#prompts#dindjarindiaries
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Ive been trying to like. Rationalize my way through it for the past couple of hours and a very big part of me kind of wants to just apply for a few lower stakes jobs I know I could handle, even if the pay isn't exactly at my preferred threshold, and if something works out soon enough I can just drop Horse Job for the rest of the season/maybe ask about only working special events
But the other side of this is still that just like. That job has essentially become my safety net and I don't want to risk the chance to go back to it
#i mean... historically theyve worked with my coworkers very well on like. leaving for so long or only working through certain parts of the#year or whatever#or like my coworker whos basically at the level above me took a whole year off a couple years ago and he's salaried now#im just.. nervous about doing that with only a few more months left in the season#but MAN the thought of just being able to drop it and move on without having to push through until mid-november is.. really relieving#ill figure it out đ¤ˇââď¸#its ALSO that like they keep training me to do higher level stuff and i know theyre wanting me to move up#which is like. i like learning more in that field for sure#but i dont want all the ungodly long hours or all the responsibility/pressure of the upper level jobs#if they really did start putting me in a vital role id feel even more stuck there than i do now#anyway.#im gonna try to clean my house or something <3
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