#it was 2am too

[nounaarts]

This is what my notes app was made for

Drew these from memory too

[minimanuke]

This image was MADE for them

[biboomerangboi]

Saw something about Hua Cheng always being able to sense his ashes so he can always sense Xie Lian and I just think it adds a hilarious take to him giving Xie Lian his ashes. Like yes it’s a beautiful and romantic ghostly tradition but there is something so funny about him given them to him the moment he has to leave so he doesn’t lose him again after 800 years of searching like someone tagging a bird to track their migration habits. He is not taking no fucking chances.

[mithrun-house-of-kerensil]

Lately, I've been thinking about Mithrun and the ways he is dehumanized in canon.

Before I get started, we know that elven society is incredibly afraid of death and illness. This is obvious in how they look down on the short lived races and see them as weak and childlike. We also know that Mithrun himself had ableist views toward his brother and these values did not leave him once he, himself, became disabled. He is a product of the society that raised him, but I also think how Mithrun is currently being treated contributes to his view of himself.

Mithrun has had three different caretaking groups over the years. The first are the ones his brother hired for him. From what we can see, they did the job, but we can understand that they did not know what to do with him. No one had ever recovered from having their desires eaten so the focus was less on rehabilitation and more on keeping him alive.

Later we see Milsiril take an interest in him because of his desire to return to the dungeon. Since she did not bother to visit him for decades after finding him, we can assume that there is an ulterior motive here. Timeline-wise, this was when the majority of the canaries had just been wiped out. They needed more men, and Mithrun is set up to be the perfect single-focused soldier.

Honestly, we can assume that Milsiril doesn't really care about him or see him as a person. Mithrun is just a new project for her to play with. We can see this in how she's focused on superficial level concerns like the fact that he doesn't look nice and wanting him to be overly grateful toward her. She also talks about him like he's not in the room and can't hear her. This is a dehumanizing trait shared by many characters when talking about Mithrun.

When he finally does recover enough to return to the canaries, the military does not make any effort to accommodate his needs. We know the canaries are understaffed and the ethics are already bad, but they really did not even try to care about Mithrun's safety at all.

Entrusting a criminal with his care was questionable at best, especially when Cithis immediately took the opportunity to abuse her power over him and no one stopped her.

While acknowledging the light-hearted nature of the manga, it's uncomfortable that Mithrun was treated like a child and an animal by Cithis for her amusement. Regardless of her 'learning to respect him' later, the point is that Mithrun was taken advantage of and degraded because she believed he couldn't say no. No one bothered to do anything about this until Pattadol yelled at her.

Truly his treatment is summarized well by Milsiril here. Mithrun is extremely vulnerable to being abused by those taking care of him because he won't advocate for himself. He has one desire so he won't fight for himself in any other way.

It is obvious that Mithrun was not treated well by his caretakers and this has resulted in him identifying his needs through a disconnected and frankly, infantilizing lens.

I understand that it may have been a translator's decision, but I always thought it was interesting that Mithrun says that he's "not sleepy" which is a childish term. Otherwise, he speaks like everyone else, if not rather posh.

This, followed by the fact that he is responsive to Kabru treating him like a literal infant to get him to eat, paints a clear picture of the fact that Mithrun is not unfamiliar with being treated like this. He responds to it because he's used to it and has no desire to argue with being treated this way. When we consider the fact that the chapter started with Milsiril treating an older child Kabru in the same way, it is likely that she also did the same thing to Mithrun when he was under her care.

In these panels, we see that Mithrun does not believe that he can sleep without magical assistance, even though it is immediately refuted when Kabru takes the time to bundle him up and help him relax. Not only does he fully believe he can't sleep without external assistance, but he states directly that there is no point in him getting comfortable.

As Kabru observes, Mithrun's inability to recognize his needs applies to needs such as hunger and exhaustion, but it obviously also applies to emotional needs. Kabru just wanting to feed him something delicious and not wanting him to give up on life is the most consideration someone has given Mithrun in years.

The relationship they form over the course of a single week is enough to shape Mithrun's behaviour completely. Mithrun ignores Cithis's demand in favour of asking Kabru's opinion. It is Kabru's hand Mithrun takes to pull him out of his defeated state. It is Kabru Mithrun confessed his true desire to.

Do you realize how depressing that is? All it took was the new perspectives from Kabru and Senshi to make him consider the fact that he should keep living despite no longer needing to fulfill his duty. Being treated well could have helped Mithrun much sooner and this shift in the way he sees himself contributes to his recovery going forward.

TLDR: Mithrun has no desire to be respected, but why does that make people feel comfortable acting like he doesn't deserve it? Someone not caring about being treated well doesn't give you permission to treat them poorly. This feels like a playschool-level consent lesson: just because he's not saying no to a humiliating or degrading act doesn't mean it's a yes and therefore okay to do. Acknowledging this is the bare minimum of treating him as a person.

[mango-ti]

[satandoesntwannabehere]

erm hallo 👋👋

have some doodlez !!

[cozylittleartblog]

New Family Speedrun 00:09.12 (World Record Not Clickbait???)

[noisyghost]

sketches of ark's werewolf form except based on the designs of some other funny dogs i like

[unamusedyams]

hello..

reference pic:

[newttxt]

apartment shenanigans

from utilities included, ch. 9 (mind the tags and rating!)

masterpost

[xxplastic-cubexx]

this dang helmet gonna be the death of me

[katabay]

some sam drakes :)

nate's theme 4.0 came up on my playlist while I was working on commissions and oh boy. that piano line about a minute in to it still gets me emotional shshdshs

[iid-smile]

content — suggestive, making out, very subtle hints

imagine making out with sae while you're sitting on the hood of his car...

he just has a random urge to do so. there's no reasoning behind his actions at all, nor does he care that he's out in the open for literally anyone to see the two of you. you could've literally had the most boring errand run and be wearing the scruffiest pyjamas and he wouldn't care.

sometimes sae is just a little... spicy. one hand is on your waist to keep you from sliding off, and the other is planted at your side, slightly behind you. occasionally, his touch drifts down to your thigh, rubbing the outside and then hooking his fingers underneath your knee, pulling you just that little bit closer. he always loves it when you wrap your arms around his neck, but he can't put his finger on as to why he does. is it the warmth? the closeness? or is it a mix of everything from you?

he's the type to make you lean back, no matter if you're above or below him. if he doesn't express his desire love for you through words, then it definitely shows through how rough and passionate his lips can be. you'll be struggling to keep up with him, trying to make some sort of noise to get him to slow down, but all he does is make it worse by slipping his fingers underneath your shirt, feeling at your lower back and slowly drifting higher and higher...

something's telling you that he wants the paparazzi to see you, especially like this, but he knows there's no way you'd willingly show yourself to the world like this in broad daylight.

bllk m.list

[justa-regularuser]

Late night doodles ✨

[kyouka-supremacy]

Atsushi arriving to a bar to help Akutagawa after the latter got wasted (can't hold his alcohol) and finding him sobbing, his head lying aimlessly against the counter, a pool of tears underneath his face, and Atsushi is already mentally preparing his “you're worthy of love even Dazai-san believes that” pep talk when he suddenly notices the abandoned phone lying besides him open on a web search of “how long do tigers live”

[toanw]

@aceaeite bullied me (politely) for months into designing these after the concept showed up on a very old backlog lmfao Sushi Ninja Cures Real