#it usually didn’t work

[jenjensd]

So this is important. I had to train myself to recognise hunger. When I was younger, I would try to starve myself for hours, it would have been days if I could have. This led to me retching from hunger (weird I know). This was incredibly bad for me. I remember how awful I felt but I hated myself enough to keep doing it.

Eventually I realised I wasn’t losing weight that way so I started trying “healthier” options such as the suggested only eat when hungry, but eat specific things. Problem was I didn’t recognise what hunger was outside of stomach pain and nausea. I tried those hypnotism tapes, slimming world, weight watchers, and more before I even turned 16.

When those didn’t work I did eventually give up trying to lose weight and felt so much better. I would try eating a fruit plate when I woke up, and eating lunch and dinner when it felt like a normal person would eat. There were still days I only ate dinner but it was better than starving.

Eventually I noticed at periodic times a weird feeling in the stomach area. I had never noticed it before, so I thought it was a problem. It wasn’t too bad, slightly uncomfortable, like a low grumble if enough time had passed but mostly just a feeling like my stomach wasn’t happy with me. I tried talking to someone and they said “are you sure it’s not just hunger?”

It kind of hit me then. This weird tummy thing was probably hunger. So I went to get food when I felt a little weird in the tummy and I actually felt better. It was like a switch flipped in my brain and I finally recognised all those hunger feelings before they got really bad. I didn’t have to fit exactly to a schedule and I didn’t have to wait until it became painful.

Ever since I’ve been able to mostly tell when a weird feeling is hunger, kind of like a small emptiness in the stomach area, or just not feeling how it would when I’d eaten. I still get easily distracted and have trouble for various related and unrelated reasons actually acting on it, but I can mostly tell when it’s there now.

So I guess from personal experience the easiest way to tell would be either: every few hours check in with your body, feel if your stomach feels weird or empty or ‘sloshy’ and if so maybe try eating something, even something small. Or, try eating at regular times and try to focus in on how you feel internally before and after eating.

I still haven’t figured out the pee thing though. I still mostly have to wait until I’m desperate, unless I have a long journey or whatever ahead and then I try to go to the loo and use my kegel muscles to try and see if I actually need to go by trying to gently force something to happen. If it doesn’t, I can probably wait a while before I actually need to go.

For years I would look at posts and questionnaires about neurodivergence that takes about being so focused on something that you forgot to eat and be like, "Couldn't be me. Being hungry is so uncomfortable! Your stomach is growling and cramping? How do you ignore that?"

Then someone informed me that neurotypical people have a whole bunch of "hungry" sensations before they get to that point.....

[skautism]

if you spend the entirety of my life that i can remember not respecting how much i hate being tickled you shouldn’t be surprised when i reflexively jump away from you and scream bloody murder when you start anyways because it was the ONLY thing that ever had ANY chance of making it stop

[inthehouseoffinwe]

Finarfin Fades.

No one expects it, no one’s faded in Valinor since Miriel. The War of Wrath is won and he comes back, waving off the courtiers, well wishers, and congratulators with his usual grace, and walks into the palace of Tirion. To rooms abandoned since their owners left so long ago. Winding deeper and deeper his feet take him to what was once Finwë’s favourite garden.

He’s so tired.

He’s fulfilled his promise to Fëanaro and Nolofinwë, to avenge them. To make the agony of their final moments - agony Finarfin felt, falling to the floor screaming as fire and darkness consumed his spirit - count for something. Now Morgoth is finally gone, but he’s not the only one.

His brothers, larger than life, larger than death, are gone. With them his sons. Niece. Nephews. Grandchildren. His daughter is never to return. He Saw little Nelyo’s death in his dreams and is sure hopes for the child’s own sake that Makalaurë will be close behind.

Little remains. Even less on these golden shores.

So Finarfin sits on a bench long overgrown with vines and weeds, and watches the sun filter through the thicket, wishing the ghosts he sees in his father’s garden would flesh out.

He sits. He waits.

And by the time anyone finds him, it’s too late.

…at least he’s smiling again.

[astrobei]

more jurassic park au !! (inspired by me and my friends clearing out the jurassic park section at universal this week)

+ also:

[karlyboyyy]

Halloween party! 🎃👻🖤

[mossymandibles]

Posting this for vday I guess

And a detail crop cuz I like how Jago is just sort of smooshed in there.

[what-the-fuck-khr]

what-the-fuck-khr’s most popular sky is tsunayoshi! he won with 38.6% out of 10 characters!

[baladiumsdrive]

💫☁️✨ Dreamer! ✨☁️💫

[pepperpixel]

💖STRANGE LOVE!💖

“the lightening’s not frightening when u r w me, oh cuz love is not always what u think it’ll be!”

CROMA!!!! Croma art!!!! Cuz I forever and ever adore these two together….. they’re so good…! 🥺

[splootdoolies]

pspspspsps hello kanamafu nation

[pixelatedraindrops]

Shinigami: Kyaha I win~✨

Makoto: …

Yuma: Ow…

Never accept a challenge from the ghost of a death god to doing a candy eating contest. It’s Halloween, she’ll win every time 👻🍭

Happy Spooky Day Everyone! 🎃

Hope you got a nice haul tonight~ But don’t eat too much candy, or you could get a stomachache!

[fishy-strawberries]

I want her, Lark 🤍

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I know I’m slightly late to the I Prefer Girls redraw trend but consider, Ilsalanna is good for my soul ☺️

(This is on my main blog instead of my art blog on purpose! It just feels better here)

[juniperhillpatient]

it’s just like. how many captain holt lines of dialogue live rent free in my head? how many scenes have made me get emotional & watch & rewatch & ponder over them? it was such a big deal to have an openly gay black male character whose gayness was never the butt of the joke on tv in the early 2000s. then rosa diaz was literally the first character I ever recall hearing say the words “I’m bisexual” on a popular network tv show & captain holt’s compassionate support of her was this thing that just was just simply not often a thing portrayed quite how it was on b99 on television in my experience at the time among multiple lgbt main characters. not only that but I don’t want to reduce raymond holt’s influence to his sexuality. he was funny in a unique, dead pan way that again just totally manages to cement itself in so many peoples consciousness. how many people can hear “BONE?” bellowed in disapproval in their heads? 😂 or picture the pineapple slut shirt? & how many people with complicated relationships with their dad latched onto the jake & holt found family dynamic that was just so beautifully written & acted? brooklyn has constantly been on in the background of my life because it’s one of those shows you can just watch endlessly & never get tired of. hundreds & hundreds of hours of my life have been spent chuckling at this show. & I’m just one sit com fan. we’re talking about one of the most influential sit coms of the modern age. I hope andre had some idea how much he meant to so so many people.

[zytes]

odds n’ ends

[mayabishopgold]

You know, in Gibson-speak, that almost sounds like a thank you. Fine. Even though you were super annoying and super insensitive...Thanks. Maya & Jack | Station 19 - 2x10 "Crazy Train"

[scrumptiousstuffs]

I know we all mostly focus on Khaotung but were there any questions about Kant or was First as pointless in the interview as his character is in the show?

Here is my answer - FUCK OFF

I have tried to ignore these sort of ask so many times. But it just keeps flooding my inbox. The amount that I keep deleting or ignoring these stupid asks is making me want to hire Bison and Fadel just to murder you lot.

You won’t get what you want from me. Just block me. I don’t know why you insist on trying to push your own narrow-minded views on me but like I have said before, you will not see me shading any of the boys here.

Get a life anon.