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Laurence really enjoys eye contact. It unsettled people but he adores staring into the eyes of those he loves.
He commits every little detail and feature to memory.
He can remember it all. Even years later when he’s left them all behind, he recites the little details to keep himself from losing the one piece of humanity he has
#he loves Garroths eyes the most#when they meet again in the nether years later everygg th img comes rushing back to him#it reminds him of everything human#he remembers the way the sky brightened and the way birds flew across it#how the oceans pulled and pushed daily#the sounds that echo up from the shores like a lullaby#it makes him nostalgic#he really likes looking into cadenza and Aphmaus eyes#cadenza reminds him of his childhood and the way the blue orchids liked to thrive in the swamps#Aphmau reminds him of the earthy scent lingering in the air after rain#of the fresh baked bread and the wood of the forests they walked#he misses it all#mcd#minecraft diaries#aphverse#aphblr#mcd laurance#laurence zvhal#somnas.rambles#somnas.writes#mcd headcanon#mcd headcanons#minecraft diaries headcanons#mcd hc
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I want to help her. I want to become someone.
#bangel#bangeledit#buffy summers#angel btvs#btvsedit#btvs#dailybtvs#buffysource#filmtv#THE TEARS IN HIS EYES AS HE WATCHES HER CRY#he felt so deeply about the pain she was going through and the hardships awaiting her that he decided to become someone that night#she's literally the reason he became who he is#he had given up on himself and humanity#and just one look at her was enough to be reminded that it was actually worth something#and while he didn't even expect more than that she went as far as make him feel human#put her trust in him and more than anything loved him#without her there's no foundation to build upon#she gave him a purpose#she gave him a reason to fight#she's simply everything
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something that always gets me about klavier is that he is so clearly just like. friendly. he cares so much and he cares too much. he's one to tease simultaneously but he so clearly just like. loves and loves and loves, even when it puts him in harm's way, he likes people and he likes being around people enough to be desperate for it and for friendship like. ough
#goober.txt#klavier gavin#kristoph gavin#aa4#this is also partially why I am such a truther of nuance in klavier+kris's relationship#I think it mixes well with prev just in like. how much he cares is both part of his core and a byproduct of#being desperate for all the connection he lost + that was plenty dysfunctional on top of that (but all he had)#I think it actively hits harder if he's conflicted for missing someone who was terrible because it was still his brother and like.#I think kris having been good to klavier sometimes (adding to the dysfunction of the bad) is something that I've always liked#because like#I think klavier having a 'is it wrong to want him dead' and 'am I terrible for missing him badly' thing happenin at the same time is!!#so good and also very sad and I love you gavin brother things that capcom didn't give us. love you klavier gavin#I like the idea of him having that confliction alongside his grief :( ow#I literally don't have the right words to properly express all my thought cereal on this. other people have done it though so it is ok haha#I love when fictional grief has the confliction of 'being reminded the monster was also human and that makes everything worse' it's so good#like I hate you. I miss you. the way you were nice to me was so very you and it makes me soft and sad and tired. I miss you.#you were awful in unspeakable ways. I miss you.#sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like without you and it comforts me as much as it terrifies me. I miss you
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litany of the martyrs (click for better resolution!)
#at some point i wanted to make an illustration for each character but in retrospect maybe each is multiple song-coded..#drew the sketch for a quincy thing after a chat with a mutual reminded me this song existed dfsghjkl and then spent weeks rendering this#quincy cynthius martin#adamandi#i'm finally done with this! the saints especially were joys to paint and the halo a menace.... this has been the most ambitious one so far.#but it also took quite long because i only worked on it <engages with quincy> when mentally okay to deal with the themes. i'm not religious#but i do identify with the irrational(?ish) guilt + family legacy + academic achievement + disregard for self. also more complex thoughts#about love [but depsite quincent being a large part of quincy's character this piece deals with mostly the Rest of it. so another time..]#anyways! in the original sketch- the saints had heads bent towards quincy so the halo spikes pointed at him. but this worked better! halos#of the saints implying/creating one for quincy was a concept from the start though. in the show they don't touch him directly here but#differences in mediums i think- i don't have time in an image to craft a narrative so everything has to be happening. also artistic liberty#misc inspiration for this includes stained glass windows. i might have maybe misinterpreted the saint costume but i think i logic-ed it out#as the cloth part following a nun's habit w the hood. and then halo above. the material is also more transparent originally but i had. um.#too much fun painting fabric folds.. if you look closely you can see the basis of faces though behind the cloth; but only the vague shapes#because smth obscurity + inhumanness// cassian is the only one i gave a mouth though. that stems from melliot's post about the saints and#st cassian as spokesperson (<- did research teehee!) that's also how i found out which costume = which saint. speaking of which.#left to right: 'st lucy take my hand' // 'st lawrence give me strength' (presses quincy forward; but hand on shoulder connotates guidance)#/'st cassian help me smile' (quincy's mouth is btwn a grimace and a smile; tilts up at side. also no direct touch bc added insidiousness.)#//'st jude [...] i hope your causes burn' (jude's hand is in two places to show movement- nearing the flame and then snatching back; burnt)#other notes: at the midst of the flame the core is shaped like a human heart /the saints and their wax are all melting like the candle for#fun visual effect and also this way they are even less tangible <real>. perks of painting as a medium i guess. // also insp from icarus?#wax and burning imagery; looking at the halo and rays as parallel to sun that burns. too close to the sun; melting; hurting; hurtling //#candles at bottom are a nod to the frankly gorgeous set// also the entire composition kind of stems from the lyric <what use is a candle if#both ends aren't burning>; the two sides between the concepts of catholic guilt and academic perfection that spur quincy#the halo above (saints and guilt; litanyofthemartyrs) and the 'halo' below (academic papers; insp from choreo for perfect at school)#the papers were originally supposed to be more glowy. but i like the idea of it now being a reflection of how quincy's priorities shift#also of note is that <candle> in centre = quincy; w burning candle + aforementioned heart in flame -> most human; idea of love + passion#last thoughts: kneeling + hands close tgt = prayer //wax dripping onto the red As make an effect that looks like blood. because i like#hiding that within the adamandi pieces :OO continuity!! // i've run out of tags but yeah! had fun with this one! every so often i go a#little insane in making art and the final result astounds even me. ngl i'm quite proud of this one. pretty colours <3333
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Irondad fic ideas #137
Fic where Tony doesn't just use the time travel device to go into the past. Before even setting out on the heist, he uses it to travel into the future
He does this because, no matter what happens next, he's pretty sure he's not going to survive. He wants to see his daughter all grown up. He wants to see Peter again, see the kind of man he's become
Tony travels forward to some time after NWH. He witnesses what his death has done to his family, to the world. He learns that nobody remembers Peter, that the kid he's about to risk everything for is now all alone
Then, we have a few options!
For maximum angst:
While in the future, Tony speaks to Peter, who at first doesn't believe that he's real. They both get some kind of closure, with Tony finally getting to share how he loves Peter like a son. Then, they go their separate ways. Tony goes back to the past and follows through with his plan
Medium angst:
Same as the first option, but Tony also makes sure to fix some stuff while he's in the future! He reconnects Peter with Pepper, Morgan, Happy, Karen, and FRIDAY, gets the kid a proper suit, and so on
Happy ending:
After witnessing how bad everything is in the future, Tony alters his game plan for fighting Thanos. He does something to make sure that he will survive
Also, after his discussion with Peter, he's even more determined than ever to tell the kid how much he means to him. He can't let the kid keep stewing in insecurities and doubts
Combination!
Medium angst timeline happens, but then Tony also decides to fix things when he gets back to the present, creating a branch in the timelines!
#irondad fic ideas#tony after crying all over nwh!peter and doing everything he possibly can to comfort and help him#then returning to his own timeline like:#when you can do the things that I can and you don't-#irondad and spiderson#iron dad and spider son#tony stark#peter parker#ironfam#irondad fic idea#fic idea#queueueueue#weekly reminder that i love you all but am too busy to be human :)#fic ideas still postponed but you can send asks if you want i just won't see them for a while#see announcements
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c3e99 @ 33:24: "the only thing I know how to do is just hold Imri in this moment in what feels like a hug"
imagine being a creature so innocent that you have literally never experienced reality and then you are faced with the terrifyingly real concept of death and all you have is what you're made of and the only choice you have is make order out of chaos, real out of possibility, so you can maybe survive.
Brennan is once again fucking me up with the Greek tragedy-level storytelling
#that moment was maybe the most human out of the whole ep for me#Luz holding Imri in her warmth hoping it will save him#Aru reminding his family that they have to live and giving them light#Coru and Edam making order out of chaos and giving them a path forward#it was so hopeless and hopeful all at once because they have nothing but they need to save everything they have and that is each other#they keep going because they have to#what is more human than that#critical role#downfall#cr spoilers#downfall spoilers#cr downfall#brennan lee mulligan#nick marini#noshir dalal#abubakar salim#laura bailey#ashley johnson#taliesin jaffe
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sometimes i think about daigo interacting with the mundane and thinking about mine and i throw up a little bit ngl
#snap chats#yk what i mean. By Design the first thought that should come to mind with mine is money and expensive things#but instead of seeing expensive watches or flashy cars and thinking of mine i hope daigo thinks about how he liked his coffee#maybe daigo sees an interesting piece of art and wonders what mine wouldve thought of it#maybe daigo tries to read a little more on his downtime- what if mine always had a book on his desk when he'd visit#does daigo listen to classical music more nowadays ? maybe he stares at pianos a little too long now when he spots them#just. remembering the human aspects of mine instead of him being just a piggy bank#it's easy to do when he was/is also in a position where he was only valued for his money or authority/relation to authority#he's haunted! allegedly. in my opinion. haunted by anything and everything that reminds him of him#theres a time and place to be haunted but work hours is not it. until a mfer come into your room and be like#'lol remember that clan.that went under after its patriarch killed himself' and then you have fight the demons not to kill someone#anyway. im gonna sit on a fic of this for nine years while i work good bye everyone#i love it when daigos haunted its so rude#i try not to imagine daigo as solely a grieving widow for until the end of time. however he can have his moments#i think he's allowed to be melancholy about losing his ''''''''best friend''''''' sometimes
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remember what the dormouse said.
#fh: bel#fallen hero#how it feels to chew 5 gum#uhhh i think this is technically#body horror#this definitely isn't a unique idea but something about the way sidestep feels like the only way to “fix” what happened to them is to-#become a villain and dismantle the establishment that did this to them and/or enact revenge by any means necessary on those they feel-#wronged them all while grappling with ptsd from fucking being yeeted out a four storey building + dealing with the lingering-#effects of isolation and experimentation all because you're a hashtag empath (telepath) +#being a regene and the rhetoric that you aren't human#ALL of that compounding into feeling like youve “lost your head” so to speak#and my sidestep in particular being a self rival and struggling with insane amounts of impostor syndrome in conjunction with-#survivor's guilt and depression#while also desperately wanting to believe he's a self actualized person and not the rhetoric they seem to think he is#is trying so hard not to “feed his head” as it were. he's trying very hard not to give in to the thought that#everything he made up in his head - that his friends hate him that ortega abandoned him that he's really all alone - is true#especially when they've proven on multiple occasions that that's not the case#and by “feeding” it he would be succumbing to a reality that doesn't exist.#but the thing is minds rely on what they THINK they know. but the truth doesn't care about you or what you think#simultaneously it's very easy to feed it what it wants when everything just serves as a reminder of what u lost#that being YOUR life that YOU forged all your own beyond what They wanted you to be#hence we sort of come full circle: he's losing his head (struggling) but if he could just lose his head (literal)#he could stop feeding it#or something. idk im not a professional#ik white rabbit is about tripping balls on shrooms and lsd but actually “and the [pills] that mother gives you dont do anything at all”#this also is not the first time i have decapitated bel#i love him severely btw#the regene markings r based off a circuit board and took some time but im rly happy with how they turned out#fhr sidestep
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Plwease consider Belos having his “oh fuck I’m the bad guy” moment and IMMEDIATELY THE GG ghosts/hallucinations start dunking on him
It's funny you say this cause he does in fact have a break down after finally having it click in his brain. And you know what happens when old man Phil experiences intense emotions!
BIG GOOP MONSTER COMES OUT
Goes a bit crazy, a bit cooky, the rage goes over into sorrow and my dude just kinda passes out due to exhaustion after his temper tantrum.
And then he dreams, but this time it's a LOT more worse than usual.
So yea , you're pretty spot on with that idea lol
#the golden guards aren't as malicious since Philip has been mostly chill with the few he has made#however caleb...#since it's not actually ghost caleb in my au and more hallucination caleb#it all goes downhill fast when he passes out#he's come to the conclusion that his brother did in fact not love him as much as philip did him if he was so eager to run away#all his misery in the village alone obsessing over witches was for nothing#all the pain he had caused was for nothing since humans are chill now with witches#everything is his fault - everything is worse because of him#caleb left because of him#yea shit's not too great with grandpa at that moment#SORRY I KNOW THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DUNNY ASK BUT PFFBDJX#reminded me of one of my au plot points#defanged philip au#lore dumb blegh
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[ID: an uncoloured drawing for a panel next to the publicized version. They're both from the comic Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #194. In them, Batman is shown from the waist up. He's looking at Jim Gordon, who's off panel, with a penitent expression after being accused of something he secretly did do. He has his palm pressed against his chest and is blocking the bat emblem as his other hand is clasped ontop of it. In the initial drawing, there's a halo floating above his head as well as several tiny hearts mixed in with the lights that surround him. In the publicized panel, the hearts and halo has been removed and two speech bubbles have been added. He's in front of a terra rose background and is starting to say, “Jim, I don't even know what you're...” But Jim cuts him off, saying, “Stop it. I'm tired of this.”
The third photo is a description of the drawing from the artist's (Seth Fisher) website. It reads: This is another page that the DC editors changed: no halos or hearts around Batman, no matter how (disingenuously) contrite he is. In the final edition, the halo and heart in the center bottom frame have been excised.]
#happy sad boy sunday !!!#this counts because he's getting broken up with and because im sad bc they removed the halo and hearts#included the link to the website on the word too :3 in case any of u wanted to see his unpublished work too#deleting a big ol rant that no one cares about but basically:#hate seeing how much creativity and personality gets edited and removed despite it being the artist's job & how you have rememberable#and remarkable art. i get the editors got an important job but at the same time at what point do you allow art and personality to exist#just to make comics more fun to read/look at instead of basing everything on a capitalistic stoic reputation that#youre responsible for creating?? turning batman into a symbol of unwavering compassion and empathy and the reminder theres always stars#even on the darkest night if you remember to look up. him going from being a symbol of hope and humanity to being a character#that cant fucking have a heart or visual compassion out of fear they cant market him more or ruin that fragile reputation.#they make editing decisions based on it as a product instead of it as a character/story or an artform and god does it show.#happy sad boy sunday bc shutting down artistic freedom and expressionism for capitalistic reasonings is making me want to shoot myself 🥰🥰#c: batman: legends of the dark knight | i: 194#crypt's panels#batman#posts from the crypt
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attention please in werewolf au Vimes & Angua are even COOLER!!!
#i love their dynamic in books i want more of it now that they are both 'dogs' not just figuratively#AMD NOW VIMES HAS A GOOD REASON TO DISLIKE VAMPIRES!!!#wooo#OO OO I REMEMBERED AN IDEA TOO#so#fifth elephant & they meet Angua's family you know#BUT THIS TIME VIMES LIKE HE CAN BE EVEN ANGRIER??#LIKE BRO IM A WEREWOLF TOO WTF ARE YOU DOING YOU'RE A BITCH (<-Vimes to Angua's brother)#they can mock him for being from a disgraced werewolf family#DO YOU THINK HE'LL BE ABLE TO SAY 'BATH' AND EVERYTHING STILL#like he's been hiding for so long and REPRESSING THAT BEAST IN HIM OMG THAT FITS#so he's more human that wolf now#more like a dog really...#ofc he can say 'Vetinari' he does that like. everyday#I WONDER IF IN THIS AU HE GETS REMINDED OF STONEFACE TOO#like “ahahah remember that one your ancestor? the werewolf that killed the king#yeeea thank god you're not a werewolf. but you're still a bitch just like him tho“#nah that'd be soo sus like wait what if you ARE a werewolf...#now that i think about it i think there'll be a moment when he doesn't have to hide that anymore? i guess?#but when#MAGPIESKETCHINS CMERE#need your thoughts but too shy to likee askk#des-shitpost#discworld#discworldwerewolf au#A TAG!!!
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you know how Dazai makes references to the princesses? he should now make one about Chuuya and the Little Mermaid:
her natural habitat is water
she's ginger
she lost her voice (and Chuuya is under sb's control now)
she became a different species at one point in her life
she was used for her voice (and Chuuya for his ability)
also Dazai'd laugh his ass off if he called Chuuya 'little'
#also little chuuya didn't know what bread and other such things were#just like Ariel#ariel was curious of the human world and did everything to be a part of it#and when she revealed to eric her real identity he didn't care and loved her the same#DO YOU KNOW WHO THAT REMINDS ME OF? (soukoku)#how dazai didn't look at chuuya any different. even was mesmerized every time chuuya used corruption#in andersen's og story little mermaid wants to marry the man bc only then will she have an eternal soul like humans do#and in sb chuuya said he didn't believe a HEARTBEAT suited him#in the og version the man marries sb else and the mermaid's sisters give her a dagger so she can revenge on him but she chooses not to#in the end she doesn't marry a man so doesn't get an eternal soul#but the spirits? see her selflessness and give her a chance to get the soul changing her to be a spirit#the choice not to kill the prince reminds me of when chuuya had to choose between using corruption or finding out the truth abt himself#(doesn't suit the story but I imagine the sisters as the flags 😭)#back to the disney version:#ariel isn't but wants to be human. eric is mesmerized by her and loves her anyways. both see the humanity in each other#i'll just leave it here#bungou stray dogs#soukoku#chuuya#dazai#additionally: ariel saved eric's life. AND CHUUYA GAVE DAZAI THE REASON TO LIVE OMFG#also the sisters in the og story could be verlaine. yk revenge on the humans#at first i was writing it as a joke#but now if dazai ever calls chuuya little mermaid in the manga you will not her from me again because i will ascend#do other Dazai's princess jokes hide so much meaning? probably yes#mermaid soukoku#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai
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Do u think Karkat and Jade share some sense of loneliness? With both of them not really being able to connect with other people for the first 13 years of their lives because of outsides forces (Being a mutant in Alternia and living in an island alone)
yea
i like to imagine they connect like that, just a small detail. its nice and really depressing, they turned out very differently.
though yes jades isolation is a bit more important (plot wise-ish) than karkats, but its still a very interesting parallel
With both of them not really being able to connect with other people for the first 13 years of their lives
i mean for karkat it was probably a nightmare, not being able to connect with anybody physically for years and just having to deal with yourself and just... with self loathing a part of it? yeah probably really lonely. though karkats life pre-sgrub is a bit more vague than jades, its kind of obvious that he didnt have any physical interactions (other than crabdad) due to the fact that he needed to be protected by well, alternias whole.. everything system. i think about karkats life pre-sgrub a lot, actually
and jade? loneliest girl on earth. she didnt really have anybody (except for her grandpa but .. You know. Dead. taxidermized. or after she was a toddler. i say 2 years old) and she was left on prospit wondering and the only time she was with another person was with a sleeping john in the other tower. and all the prospitians. but that was her main physical interactions (were not using bec because .. Dog. woof bark woof bark)
because of outsides forces (Being a mutant in Alternia and living in an island alone)
and thats the saddest part, it really isnt either of their faults for any form of isolation.
anyways sorry if i got anything incorrect or just kind of got things straight up wrong. its 1:20 am (as im currently re-vising) and i am too tired to correct myself
now i know this is more of a fully canon analysis. but i do want to give my opinions on how it would effect them after the game
using the fact in the credits that they do live together (with d*ve. why am i even censoring his name? because its funny) i think they would prefer to be close to each other. for karkat its more of the fact that i think he still would feel a bit sorry (not in the sense that he didnt feel all that sorry during the game when he was harassing jade, but i mean that the feeling still lingers from time to time) and would try to just stay near her to make sure shes alright
and jade would be near karkat because of the fact of their relationship during the game. i feel like after she did forgive him during the game she did get more curious. like the reactions he had with the passwords. probably just wanting to have someone around that was talking to her for so long and was bothering her while she was still alone, just the concept of someone who was bullying you for maybe.. MONTHS (i.e "CG: HI AGAIN, IDIOT.") (emphasis on again) .. YEARS?? (or on her part) is just.. near you. physically. it brings an awkwardness between them. from how they were isolated and bothering each other and now just... together ??? physically?? it probably is so strange to them . strange to me mostly but it is a strange concept in itself
but i digress this part, i just started rambling about it
#rganswer#its 12am i cant really put my mind to things im sorry#though i do think about how karkat made a secret in the meteor (alterniabound)#but then everyone dumped their shit into his room.. haha loser#but.. maybe im reading too into it but it could be seen as a form of coping (i do not want to use that word but it feels the most correct)#to just remind him of his life pre-sgrub#with how he bootlicked alternia? yeah he probably was taking it all in that he was just being reminded of how he just was stuck in his->#->hive to not get killed for being a mutant#i mean the fact it was 'to cope' feels like a bit too much of a read-in. he probably got in there just to calm down for a minute and get->#->back out#but jade? yeah she does not want to be alone i think thats obvious#yes she self entertains herself pre-sburb with well.. everything#she lives in the perfect place to be isolated#in your own little world to yourself#and a isolated island? its just like some classic fairytale#but instead of there being a prince you just kind of stay there#only communicating with some people online you've never seen#the best connections with humans#sad#isnt it??
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I have sooo many thoughts about Rouge. Of all the main Sonic cast we know the least about her. She's a stealthy spy. She worked for the president despite being a thief and probably a double agent in that case?? She's extremely cunning. She's capable of detecting the emeralds despite not having that innate connection with them like Knuckles can.
In her theme there's a persistent sense that she doesn't like to be helped or controlled, possibly. She's searching for something she can call her own and that can only be hers. Nobody else can take it from her.
There's this sense in sa2 that she doesn't trust who she's working with, exactly. She doesn't show it by being cold like Shadow would, for instance, but she puts on this air of professionalism despite sometimes not thinking ahead (Giving herself 5 minutes to find 3 chaos emeralds despite it originally being fifteen and getting her locked in a vault as a result.) And this shows in her empathy and compassion. She doesn't show it as openly as somebody like Amy but she clearly cares and finds herself affected by the relationships she's gained since her introduction. She's probably told herself that she doesn't need anybody, that she can do everything by herself, she doesn't need to lean on anybody for help but she forms Team Dark herself.
#longpost#going bonkers. Love u guys <3#Shes seen as the most mature of the sonic cast despite being a teenage girl (18) and so clearly silly. Look into her eyes the silly#Is in there.#Anyway yeah.#da aura of mystery around rouge t bat <3333333333#be nice to me I dont usually talk abt sth lore bc its so. everything#but I LOVE coming up with backstories for characters that dont have one <3#I also think white jungle is the turning point in her character for sa2. as I always do#This little weird bioweapon kid risked everything to save your life off an island set to blow up#Despite the circumstances being your fault#sure he needed the emeralds. but something about rouge reminded him of maria. his best friend. his family.#Rouge may not know that exactly. but at the end the first thing she says when sonic comes back after the boss?#'wheres shadow?'#she doubts the perception of his original purpose. to destroy humanity. because thats not what shes known of him.
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VoxVal + ache
@sashab4e
Decided to take advantage of my post-high lack of focus to write from Vox's perspective. Played kind of loose with the prompts and just let the letter take me wherever it ended up. Hope the themes still came through though.
Might come back and redo this later in an approximation to Vox's handwriting as opposed to just my own.
#just as a reminder#val writes back and forth with vox using one of his human names as an alias#it's the only way he can build a relationship with vox without him forgetting everything after every interaction#vox (ram)#valentino (ram)#writing#randomly accessed memories#neutral#dark#anonymous#sashab4e
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FALLEN IDOL WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! THE BROTHERS ARE FIGHTING!!!
#FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!#MY HEART#EVIL EVIL EVIL JAIL 100 YEARS#I always love an episode where Hawkeye crumbles under the pressure#me when the jokey coping mechanism facade falls away#me when its easy to be confident in your abilities when you’re operating on people you dont know#but as soon as its someone you love you’re reminded of the gravity of your work and what could happen if it goes wrong#PLUS knowing you’re the reason he was out there to get hurt in the first place#and even though everything goes well the guilt makes you act as badly as you feel you are#leading to my next point. I love when character’s perception of another also crumbles#Ah Radar sweet naïve starry eyes Radar#Hawk always has a joke a comment a remark. he laughs in the face of the war#even if he’s scared he doesn’t let it get to the steadiness of his hands. nothing could rattle him#and that makes it all easier to keep going to not be scared yourself#but thats a lot to put on someone’s shoulders to be fearless at all times#so its a cold shock when he snaps after you try to uphold him to your idealised view of him. showing hes just as scared as you are#maybe even more so#this whole episode was so thich as thieves brother’s first fight#God… GOD!!!!#Fallen idol….. hawkeye…. radar…..#literally head in hands#its all so human…. putting someone on a pedestal helps no one….#all because Radar has no rizz…#the way everyone went to yell at Hawk after he snapped at Radar was classic#Mulcahy really put his whole christussy into kicking that heater#Potter and Margret’s whole how dare you yell at your little brother like that dont you know he looks up to you?!’ shtick was great#urgh…#they’re brothers your honor#theyre so important to me#mash
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