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livelaughlovesubs · 5 months ago

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To be an otherworldly being, another species, someone who goes against all laws of nature, how wonderful that’d be

Humans fear you if you show your true self, they run and wish to get rid of you

Yet here is this one particular human who doesn’t seem to mind

He, who loves you unrequited, unconditionally:

Who trusts you with ever Fieber of his soul and body

Who allows you to carry out your instincts on him

Who doesn’t mind being your prey for all of enternity

Who is jealous when you carry out your carnal needs on other humans

Who turns a blind eye to all the disasters that comes with being with you

Who gasps in awe when you show him your abilities

Who smiles when you turn to him for solace, showing all these vulnerabilities you never dared to act upon

Who makes you wish you could tear your heart out and gift it to him

Who is helpless with you yet strong at the same time

Who feels safe in your embrace

In the embrace of a monster

#I’ve been reading too much stuff about monsters #nobu you started this I blame you #ngl this kinda love is so pure and beautiful #it makes me wish I could love normally #to give and to love without expecting anything in return #without it being forced - tiring - lustful #something I’ll never be able to have for myself #nini!rant #monster x human #y/n x character #reader x character #monster reader #idk man I’m being kinda sentient here #but I’m not sad about it dw #Welp this was just a rant post cuzzzz yea

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ghastlyaffairs · 8 months ago

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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

#hs #homestuck #dirk strider #eye strain #probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags #so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse #and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol #also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold #though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk #speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least #the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an #and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you #imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting #and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive #uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember #and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags #do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts #beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it #also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa #sigh poor thing #this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm #also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week #(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic #this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah

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kouraissant · 8 months ago

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The Sun is dead and love is an unbearable thing (On Yudrein Aile & Grief)

(Above) KOURAISSANT / (Aeschylus: The Oresteia, Aeschylus & The Oresteia: Agamemnon, The Libation Bearers, The Eumenides, Anne Carson) / Things Haunt, Joshua Jennifer Espinoza / Chapter 514, Turning, 쿠유 / Morning in the Burned House, Margaret Atwood / The opposite of a haunting is something very lonely, heavensghost / A Rosario Castellanos Reader: ‘Memorandum on Tlatelolco’, tr. Maureen Ahern / Sue Zhao / The Song of Achilles, Madeline Miller / The Empress Yamato Hime, tr. Kenneth Rexroth / Spring and All, Cathy Park Hong / UNDER A STAR CALLED SUN / there is no absolution for the fallen, only the dying, p.d / Chapter 1, Turning, 쿠유 / Lesbos (From Ariel), Sylvia Plath

(Below) The Haunting of Bly Manor (2020), dir. Mike Flanagan / 6CHO1

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anna-scribbles · 5 months ago

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anyone else up listening to robin by ts on repeat while thinking about how no one who loved adrien agreste ever told him the truth 🤨⁉️ just me?

#nino is exempt from this post i love you nino #also i’m not throwing shade at any characters im just contemplating how uniquely awful adrien’s life is #you know. as i do #kept hallucinating an animatic today. lord knows i cannot draw an animatic rn #but the images plague me..#i kept wishing i could make an edit(not that i know how to edit) but then i would remember #that all the emilie scenes i was envisioning were not actually real and i made them up. whoops #strings tied to levers slowed down clocks tethered all this showmanship to keep it from you in sweetness……#way to go! tiger!!!!!#miss swift if you could stop writing about adrien agreste for just a second😭😭😭😭😭#buried down deep and out of your reach the secret we all vowed to keep it from you in sweetness😭😭😭😭😭#shut uppppp #anyway i’m having a normal one.#and don’t even get me started on the bolter #ml #anna rambles #ts

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deoidesign · 4 months ago

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I am so so so happy with my patreon merch designs for August...

I seriously love getting to design things every month and send them out...

You can get these stickers if you sign up for one of my merch tiers before the month is over!

#sorry I have to self promo sometimes #I promised my friends I would #but also. I legitimately just extremely like these stickers so much #I might make these designs available for sale eventually (normal style)#and I also want to do more designs in this kind of general aesthetic...#its. I really like it hahahahhahaha #and I like how these came out a ton #so I think I wanna do some more like this! at least for a bit #anyways yeah if you like these then you can get them as a patron #but also just my merch tier is my favorite patreion thing and I love getting to design and ship stuff out every month. its so wonderful..#MY FAVORITE THING.... DESIGNING MERCH...#great way to support me while getting something out of it lmao #I mean you can also just look at my patreon in general #I wish sooo fucking bad I could post updates early there but it's against my contract #so. just previews for now...#next comic for sure though.#stickers #patreon #self promo #ugh I am just so happy with these....

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lemongogo · 6 months ago

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just thought of stamps treatment of elendira again ..no .. NOO

#what the hell did she ever do to them #i saw a twt abt trigun stargaze (?) stamp s2 (?)#and how its 2 yrs after season one and i first got sad bc i was hoping for her og design revival #but then i remembered they made her a CHILD????#& not even that but the ?? what was it . changed her into a half plant prototype ?#canonical trans woman changed into child laboratory experiment like what compelled you to do that.why #no i cant even think ab it too much or i legitimately get upset HELPP #LIKE SHES ONE OF MY FVAORITE CHARACTERS EVER AND THEY RUINED WUITE LITERALLY EVERYTHING THAT I LOVED ABT HER #ugh.xAIHHGGHJHG #elendira #sometimes i wish . soo hard that i could j be normal and like things and have fun #but im such a stickler abt consistency w characters and stories such that any deviation makes me like .no #i cant deal w it HELPPP we need to adhere by character bibles again . we need to maintain the general chronological order of events #wlfwood characterization is a mess across the board and introducing late stage concepts / characters / plot devices early #just messes w the story in irreparable ways imo😭#yess ‘stamp was never meant to be max’ i get it .. but 98 accomplished what stmp couldnt #with 16% the published og materialHELP #all of this AND u made legato ugly as fuck LIKEE GIVE ME SOMETHINGG.? rem too omg..

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hplonesomeart · 1 month ago

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Whoops hand slipped here’s some TADC character fanart. Apologies for the severe lack of Pomni in this one idk where she went off to…maybe she got lost on her way to find the exit. The lines are incredibly choppy & rushed, I know, but it was still fun art practice! I don’t draw these guys nearly enough anyways so this is a nice change of pace. Support indie animation :3

#you wanna know a secret? don’t like how I draw Ragatha I wish I could do her better 😔#like I don’t know if I make her hair straight or if it’s kinda wavy?? and her eye too idk how to draw it in a satisfying way :((#but that’s a normal dilemma when I’m trying to blend my artstyle with the shows artstyle #keeping the characters on model/recognizable and consistent but also my own style ya know?#making those adjustments takes time and usually I need to draw a character 7+ times before it looks good #JAX ON THE OTHER HAND—OH BOY GOODIE HE IS SO COMICALLY EASY TO DRAW HALLELUJAH LOL #I think the Puzzle toothy grin & toon eyes just automatically agree with me #then Kinger I also struggle with personally #Gangle’s mask shape is confusing at first but then you adjust fairly quickly #Caine is neutral party to me—I know how his design is but I’m not confident without reference material #and then the artstyle translation is another hurdle to juggle <<#his top hat especially like HOW U DRAW 😭 I can manage Puzzles bowler hat just fine but NOT top hats man #Zooble is lovely Zooble peace and love they did nothing wrong just pleasant to draw uwu #Jax & Zooble conflict oh noooo the bitches are fighting /j #Actually this initially started only with Caine & Zooble but I just kept adding others lol #Ragatha & Kinger we’re the very last additions #hplonesome art #tadc characters #the amazing digital circus characters #NOT GONNA PUT ANYMORE TAGS BECAUSE THEN IT’LL GET SWEPT UP AND PEOPLE WILL ASSUME I DRAW THEM ALL THE TIME 🥲#I can’t be held liable for serving TADC fanart content because that isn’t me right now sorry

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shallowoak · 3 months ago

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Sanji & Lil' Sora Whether you're baking or drawing, art is sweeter when shared!

Fanart for @foxglovefantasy 's incredible fic, 'cut the lifelines'!

Design notes on Sora in the tags below ⬇️

#At times like this I wish I could draw people- but we work with what we've got 😤#I'd be remiss not to try to express how much I adore your work and what it means to me ❤️#CTL is such a huge comfort read I've been back to countless times and I can't express my love for it enough #all I can say is thank you for being a fuckin awesome writer 🫂#quick design notes on Sora!! his hair looks more windswept to match his name ❤️#his normal tail and being an earth pony come from his other 'parent' as one of the things sanji always remembers is his size and strength #the white patches are from the germa genes (the siblings all have white coats) as it's been hinted he's got a little something going on...#plus it helps make him distinct from sanji and zeff! white hoof sora!!#one piece #my little pony #mlp #ponified #ponify #black leg sanji #sanji #monkey d luffy #roronoa zoro #one piece nami #usopp one piece #tony tony chopper #nico robin #unicorn #straw hat grand friends #mlp crossover #one piece fanart

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heroesriseandfall · 2 years ago

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Oh yeah sure Bruce made a glass case with his dead son’s clothing in it and that was weird and all. But what about when his next son copied him and made FOUR glass cases, one for each person he was trying to resurrect and/or clone? That. that was weird.

Teen Titans (2003) #43

Teen Titans (2003) #44

#STOP looking at Bruce to learn coping mechanisms!!! bad idea!!!!#tim drake #kon el #stephanie brown #bruce wayne #tim that was so weird. it’s weirder when it’s just regular clothing not even a dramatic vigilante outfit #all those fanfics about Tim stealing Kon’s t shirt to WEAR and comics Tim is out there stealing Kon’s t shirt to put on DISPLAY?#and fandom wonders why dick’s first thought was ‘Tim is grieving very badly’ when Tim said Bruce was alive.#makes me wish even more that Bart was back to normal at this time so he could properly go apeshit too. that would’ve been so fun :(#jack drake #janet drake #bat mental health #batfam #teen titans (2003)#heroesriseandfall #guy who got this job by reprimanding Bruce for his bad morning skills: who should I learn how to mourn my loved ones from…Bruce. yeah.

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lucksea · 11 months ago

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yknow what ill post this too. i was planning to do more with it and clean it up but this is how i play cotl/interpret the characters most of the time. whenever i watch the trailers im like That Lamb Does Not Want To Be There Huh

#cult of the lamb #cotl narinder #i love it when narinder works at the bar bc i always imagine him just drinking it all himself #I WISH HE DID MORE SPECIAL STUFF LIKE SOZO DOES. NARINDER AND WEBBER SHOULD DO SPECIAL SHIT #sozo doesnt work he just wanders around and occasionally asks me to bring him people to eat. narinder shouldnt be normal #null havoc damage #scrolling back through my tag. should i make this brie. this wasnt about penitence mode but i think this could be brie.#half-god brie against the world #< tag

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ryanthel0ser · 11 months ago

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Tek It ~ Cafune

#yeahhhh i did it again #“did you really change the lyrics at the end” yeah i did deal with it #the hypothetical animatic in my head for this song was driving me crazy i had to do SOMETHING #i got nerfed by God because if I could make animatics you'd all be ruined #once again gifset versions of this are fine #hell i'd love to see people actually make the animatic i wish i could make #im clearly having a very normal one about Vash the Stampede <333 #trigun #trigun stampede #tristamp #vash the stampede #millions knives #trigun vash #trigun knives

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llitchilitchi · 1 year ago

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setting off for a long journey

#dnf #oblivion au #sketchbook #ert #do I even tag this? should I tag this absolute mess of an au with any of the participants?#this was simply me wanting to draw the view of white gold tower after like a 5h obliv sesh #yes I know that theres only two towers at the side shut up #this isnt even a real location I imagine this would be in jerall mountains but it doesnt make sense #this is like. cheydinhal view at best. probably more south idk I made it up #just needed to have these two kiss in the early morning hours before dream has to leave for a mission #Ive been playing more obliv so there Might be more idk #done with like 10 colouring pencils cause yeah #the blue looks eyestrainy but trust me its worse irl I love that colour #wish I could get the colours more true to life #anyways thank you for reading this rant I am here to talk about this silly au that I am very normal about

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hsslilly-blog · 10 days ago

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huntclaire divorce au. everything is exactly the same but wait i was going to make a joke here but i’m actually very invested in this

#just imagine how WEIRDER they’d be about each other. this is crazy #i need them to divorce and then hunt makes a movie immediately after and he casts claire as the lead. and the movie is weirdly personal #and everyone in the cast is like. is this movie about the divorce. no it is not. but yes it also is. hunt and claire are unaware #there's a brazilian director who divorced his wife and then cast her in his next movie andthe movie is the greatest love letter ever.to her #this is what i'm aiming for here. do you see my vision? okay so they argue all the time on set. she does NOT follow his direction #this is why i divorced you by the way you were always like. saying stuff. you're always saying stuff! you're annoying and pathetic and stup #they cannot even be NEAR each other. need to talk to either of them? do not do it while the other oneis in the room.they WILL make it weird #they will start bickering and they will forget about you i am so sorry. if they try to be civil it's like. this was so thoughtful of you!#i wish SOME PEOPLE were like this. i was actually very thoughtful you were the one who was always demanding attentionWHATof COURse I WAS!?#hunt keeps his wedding ring in his side pocket. claire loves calling him her stupid ex husband. ew my wretched ex husband.#whole time they can't keep their hands off each other. which could mean anything #why did they get divorced? no one has any idea. no one knows anything about these two actually. why would he cast her. why would they marry #why are they torturing everyone. is this like A Thing to them. yes. claire gives him cold coffee every time and he drinks it every time jus #so she doesn't get the satisfaction. also you should NOT interfere if they're arguing because then it's going to be YOUR FAULT #you may ask. hsslilly! what's the difference between this and canon huntclaire. well they're actually divorced here. see.#this means something to me. and to them too. plus they actually mean this on some level. normal huntclaire are doing a very convoluted bit #here claire would choke hunt with his tie if given the chance. and then they would make out. this happened like twice.#okay i'll stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#huntclaire #wait the blood necklace should still exist in this au

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javierduffy · 13 days ago

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please give me javieran thots and ideas (drawing ideas or otherwise. just talk to me about them pleasw) pelase lelase pleas e i miss them so bad but my head has been so empty layely because of depression

#overdosed tuesday and i think my blood pressure is now permanently dangerously low 💔#that or it just gave ne. brain damage or something.#not like i didn’t have any but whatver #trying to find things to hold onto and currently the only thing that makes me feel anything as of late are my loves javieran #i wish i could have gotten hyperfixaedd on a normal ship but alas #i must feed myself and i am starving so please talk to me #idc if u actually care abt them just indulge me a little bit #rdr2 #text #hero's talking to himself again #javieran #my ask box is always open for everything and anything even if it’ll take me a million years to respond and itll always be a novel when i do

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months ago

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examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard*#I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details #of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point #but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag #of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there #are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance #but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly #doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. )#the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead #of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like #you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image #or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i #wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol)#hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe #I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing #that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc #eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that #this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently #wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj #Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU #CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN #MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie*#Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol #I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it #with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits #and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit #out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the #unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh #re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI #art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA

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multishipper-baby · 19 days ago

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Not publishing the ask yet because I want to reply with the playlist but I have to comment on it because

Anon. You just gave the biggest neuron activation.

IT'S 2 AM. BUT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SLEEP WHEN I'M THINKING ABOUT THEM.

#I have so many thoughts and none of them are coherent #srmthfg #it's just- they make me a little insane sometimes #especially after ghost in the machine (was that what that episode was called. I think it was that)#what if you had a crush on the second in command for ages but never had the guts to actually confess #because he's always focused on the bigger picture and the job and all the things that are More Important #AND THEN HE FUCKING DIES RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES. WITHOUT YOU BEING ABLE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT #listen to me. I don't usually have many problems with the show. but I do think the semi comedic tone of savage lands part 1 #was kind of weird sandwiched between all the serious stuff. I understand wanting some levity but everything is in the shit #so. allow me to make it angsty in a gay way. let me indulge for two seconds #WHAT IF YOU SO DESPERATELY WISHED HE SAW YOU AS HIS THIRD IN COMMAND #even if it doesn't matter now that he's gone. you want to think he'd give you that. that he saw you that way #and then he comes back... and you find out that he didn't #but also- he came back a robot. so is it really him? can you trust this illusion just because it talks and walks like him?#even if he isn't... could you ever leave him behind?#WHAT IF HE HELD YOU SO TENDERLY AFTER YOU SAVED HIM AND CARRIED YOU BACK TO SAFETY. WHAT THEN #(blatantly ignores all the spove in ghost in the machind)#WHAT IF YOU GOT TRAPPED IN A MUSEUM AND BECAME COWBOYS. I LOVE COWBOYS #I'm sorry. I'm still kind of sick and thus not fully sane #I promise I'm normal about the monkeys

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