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livelaughlovesubs · 7 months ago

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To be an otherworldly being, another species, someone who goes against all laws of nature, how wonderful that’d be

Humans fear you if you show your true self, they run and wish to get rid of you

Yet here is this one particular human who doesn’t seem to mind

He, who loves you unrequited, unconditionally:

Who trusts you with ever Fieber of his soul and body

Who allows you to carry out your instincts on him

Who doesn’t mind being your prey for all of enternity

Who is jealous when you carry out your carnal needs on other humans

Who turns a blind eye to all the disasters that comes with being with you

Who gasps in awe when you show him your abilities

Who smiles when you turn to him for solace, showing all these vulnerabilities you never dared to act upon

Who makes you wish you could tear your heart out and gift it to him

Who is helpless with you yet strong at the same time

Who feels safe in your embrace

In the embrace of a monster

#I’ve been reading too much stuff about monsters #nobu you started this I blame you #ngl this kinda love is so pure and beautiful #it makes me wish I could love normally #to give and to love without expecting anything in return #without it being forced - tiring - lustful #something I’ll never be able to have for myself #nini!rant #monster x human #y/n x character #reader x character #monster reader #idk man I’m being kinda sentient here #but I’m not sad about it dw #Welp this was just a rant post cuzzzz yea

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kouraissant · 9 months ago

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The Sun is dead and love is an unbearable thing (On Yudrein Aile & Grief)

(Above) KOURAISSANT / (Aeschylus: The Oresteia, Aeschylus & The Oresteia: Agamemnon, The Libation Bearers, The Eumenides, Anne Carson) / Things Haunt, Joshua Jennifer Espinoza / Chapter 514, Turning, 쿠유 / Morning in the Burned House, Margaret Atwood / The opposite of a haunting is something very lonely, heavensghost / A Rosario Castellanos Reader: ‘Memorandum on Tlatelolco’, tr. Maureen Ahern / Sue Zhao / The Song of Achilles, Madeline Miller / The Empress Yamato Hime, tr. Kenneth Rexroth / Spring and All, Cathy Park Hong / UNDER A STAR CALLED SUN / there is no absolution for the fallen, only the dying, p.d / Chapter 1, Turning, 쿠유 / Lesbos (From Ariel), Sylvia Plath

(Below) The Haunting of Bly Manor (2020), dir. Mike Flanagan / 6CHO1

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ghastlyaffairs · 10 months ago

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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

#hs #homestuck #dirk strider #eye strain #probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags #so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse #and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol #also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold #though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk #speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least #the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an #and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you #imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting #and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive #uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember #and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags #do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts #beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it #also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa #sigh poor thing #this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm #also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week #(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic #this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah

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lostandbackagain · 22 days ago

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valkyrie moodboard part 4 🎉🎉🎉

pt. 1 pt. 2 pt. 3

#the first half of kotw is so fucking good for her #you get her being an asshole about work failing to get the boy she went after wishing she could play horses with china #the whole 'well you shouldve worn a coat' thing in the alps the 'come back i just want to hit you' bit in the other dimension #getting sick when skulduggery without hesitation saying he'd give up the rest of his life to take care of her #'this is not an invisible railroad i can see it right there' 'well the train is invisible' 'that's not what you promised me'#need to start eating the book i think #only way ill be satisfied #says kenna #skulduggery pleasant #valkyrie cain #i had to go through my tag for her on here to flesh this out... starting to struggle finding posts on insta for her #it's easier for china bc at her core china is a very normal relatable person #book loving lonely homebody horse girl in unrequited love with complicated relationships with religion and parenthood #while so much of the story asks 'who is valkyrie outside of skulduggery'#she's got minimal if any hobbies her status as the final girl means she ends up with almost no relationships #she's unpleasant to be around but not in the quirky needy way instagram meme people say they are #like do NOT get me wrong she's one of the most complex fascinating characters in the world to me and her personality is very well developed #but not in a 'haha relatable this is who youre being mean to--' kinda way. do you understand me #people don't very often make funny posts about how theyve been groomed #kenna's sp screenshot folder

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anna-scribbles · 7 months ago

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anyone else up listening to robin by ts on repeat while thinking about how no one who loved adrien agreste ever told him the truth 🤨⁉️ just me?

#nino is exempt from this post i love you nino #also i’m not throwing shade at any characters im just contemplating how uniquely awful adrien’s life is #you know. as i do #kept hallucinating an animatic today. lord knows i cannot draw an animatic rn #but the images plague me..#i kept wishing i could make an edit(not that i know how to edit) but then i would remember #that all the emilie scenes i was envisioning were not actually real and i made them up. whoops #strings tied to levers slowed down clocks tethered all this showmanship to keep it from you in sweetness……#way to go! tiger!!!!!#miss swift if you could stop writing about adrien agreste for just a second😭😭😭😭😭#buried down deep and out of your reach the secret we all vowed to keep it from you in sweetness😭😭😭😭😭#shut uppppp #anyway i’m having a normal one.#and don’t even get me started on the bolter #ml #anna rambles #ts

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deoidesign · 6 months ago

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I am so so so happy with my patreon merch designs for August...

I seriously love getting to design things every month and send them out...

You can get these stickers if you sign up for one of my merch tiers before the month is over!

#sorry I have to self promo sometimes #I promised my friends I would #but also. I legitimately just extremely like these stickers so much #I might make these designs available for sale eventually (normal style)#and I also want to do more designs in this kind of general aesthetic...#its. I really like it hahahahhahaha #and I like how these came out a ton #so I think I wanna do some more like this! at least for a bit #anyways yeah if you like these then you can get them as a patron #but also just my merch tier is my favorite patreion thing and I love getting to design and ship stuff out every month. its so wonderful..#MY FAVORITE THING.... DESIGNING MERCH...#great way to support me while getting something out of it lmao #I mean you can also just look at my patreon in general #I wish sooo fucking bad I could post updates early there but it's against my contract #so. just previews for now...#next comic for sure though.#stickers #patreon #self promo #ugh I am just so happy with these....

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lemongogo · 7 months ago

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just thought of stamps treatment of elendira again ..no .. NOO

#what the hell did she ever do to them #i saw a twt abt trigun stargaze (?) stamp s2 (?)#and how its 2 yrs after season one and i first got sad bc i was hoping for her og design revival #but then i remembered they made her a CHILD????#& not even that but the ?? what was it . changed her into a half plant prototype ?#canonical trans woman changed into child laboratory experiment like what compelled you to do that.why #no i cant even think ab it too much or i legitimately get upset HELPP #LIKE SHES ONE OF MY FVAORITE CHARACTERS EVER AND THEY RUINED WUITE LITERALLY EVERYTHING THAT I LOVED ABT HER #ugh.xAIHHGGHJHG #elendira #sometimes i wish . soo hard that i could j be normal and like things and have fun #but im such a stickler abt consistency w characters and stories such that any deviation makes me like .no #i cant deal w it HELPPP we need to adhere by character bibles again . we need to maintain the general chronological order of events #wlfwood characterization is a mess across the board and introducing late stage concepts / characters / plot devices early #just messes w the story in irreparable ways imo😭#yess ‘stamp was never meant to be max’ i get it .. but 98 accomplished what stmp couldnt #with 16% the published og materialHELP #all of this AND u made legato ugly as fuck LIKEE GIVE ME SOMETHINGG.? rem too omg..

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hplonesomeart · 3 months ago

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Whoops hand slipped here’s some TADC character fanart. Apologies for the severe lack of Pomni in this one idk where she went off to…maybe she got lost on her way to find the exit. The lines are incredibly choppy & rushed, I know, but it was still fun art practice! I don’t draw these guys nearly enough anyways so this is a nice change of pace. Support indie animation :3

#you wanna know a secret? don’t like how I draw Ragatha I wish I could do her better 😔#like I don’t know if I make her hair straight or if it’s kinda wavy?? and her eye too idk how to draw it in a satisfying way :((#but that’s a normal dilemma when I’m trying to blend my artstyle with the shows artstyle #keeping the characters on model/recognizable and consistent but also my own style ya know?#making those adjustments takes time and usually I need to draw a character 7+ times before it looks good #JAX ON THE OTHER HAND—OH BOY GOODIE HE IS SO COMICALLY EASY TO DRAW HALLELUJAH LOL #I think the Puzzle toothy grin & toon eyes just automatically agree with me #then Kinger I also struggle with personally #Gangle’s mask shape is confusing at first but then you adjust fairly quickly #Caine is neutral party to me—I know how his design is but I’m not confident without reference material #and then the artstyle translation is another hurdle to juggle <<#his top hat especially like HOW U DRAW 😭 I can manage Puzzles bowler hat just fine but NOT top hats man #Zooble is lovely Zooble peace and love they did nothing wrong just pleasant to draw uwu #Jax & Zooble conflict oh noooo the bitches are fighting /j #Actually this initially started only with Caine & Zooble but I just kept adding others lol #Ragatha & Kinger we’re the very last additions #hplonesome art #tadc characters #the amazing digital circus characters #NOT GONNA PUT ANYMORE TAGS BECAUSE THEN IT’LL GET SWEPT UP AND PEOPLE WILL ASSUME I DRAW THEM ALL THE TIME 🥲#I can’t be held liable for serving TADC fanart content because that isn’t me right now sorry

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shallowoak · 4 months ago

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Sanji & Lil' Sora Whether you're baking or drawing, art is sweeter when shared!

Fanart for @foxglovefantasy 's incredible fic, 'cut the lifelines'!

Design notes on Sora in the tags below ⬇️

#At times like this I wish I could draw people- but we work with what we've got 😤#I'd be remiss not to try to express how much I adore your work and what it means to me ❤️#CTL is such a huge comfort read I've been back to countless times and I can't express my love for it enough #all I can say is thank you for being a fuckin awesome writer 🫂#quick design notes on Sora!! his hair looks more windswept to match his name ❤️#his normal tail and being an earth pony come from his other 'parent' as one of the things sanji always remembers is his size and strength #the white patches are from the germa genes (the siblings all have white coats) as it's been hinted he's got a little something going on...#plus it helps make him distinct from sanji and zeff! white hoof sora!!#one piece #my little pony #mlp #ponified #ponify #black leg sanji #sanji #monkey d luffy #roronoa zoro #one piece nami #usopp one piece #tony tony chopper #nico robin #unicorn #straw hat grand friends #mlp crossover #one piece fanart

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heroesriseandfall · 2 years ago

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Oh yeah sure Bruce made a glass case with his dead son’s clothing in it and that was weird and all. But what about when his next son copied him and made FOUR glass cases, one for each person he was trying to resurrect and/or clone? That. that was weird.

Teen Titans (2003) #43

Teen Titans (2003) #44

#STOP looking at Bruce to learn coping mechanisms!!! bad idea!!!!#tim drake #kon el #stephanie brown #bruce wayne #tim that was so weird. it’s weirder when it’s just regular clothing not even a dramatic vigilante outfit #all those fanfics about Tim stealing Kon’s t shirt to WEAR and comics Tim is out there stealing Kon’s t shirt to put on DISPLAY?#and fandom wonders why dick’s first thought was ‘Tim is grieving very badly’ when Tim said Bruce was alive.#makes me wish even more that Bart was back to normal at this time so he could properly go apeshit too. that would’ve been so fun :(#jack drake #janet drake #bat mental health #batfam #teen titans (2003)#heroesriseandfall #guy who got this job by reprimanding Bruce for his bad morning skills: who should I learn how to mourn my loved ones from…Bruce. yeah.

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lucksea · 1 year ago

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yknow what ill post this too. i was planning to do more with it and clean it up but this is how i play cotl/interpret the characters most of the time. whenever i watch the trailers im like That Lamb Does Not Want To Be There Huh

#cult of the lamb #cotl narinder #i love it when narinder works at the bar bc i always imagine him just drinking it all himself #I WISH HE DID MORE SPECIAL STUFF LIKE SOZO DOES. NARINDER AND WEBBER SHOULD DO SPECIAL SHIT #sozo doesnt work he just wanders around and occasionally asks me to bring him people to eat. narinder shouldnt be normal #null havoc damage #scrolling back through my tag. should i make this brie. this wasnt about penitence mode but i think this could be brie.#half-god brie against the world #< tag

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himblebo · 1 month ago

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She’s married she’s married she’s married she’s married (to a man to a man to a man to a man)

#I need to stop imprinting on women with PhDs #I need to just be regular friends and colleagues with them #the first one is straight #this one is maybe bi but more importantly married #but god why does every conversation feel so flirty #the women I go on actual dates with are not as affectionate in casual conversation as she is #I really wish I could date normally and I really wish I could make friends/do networking normally #but dating doesn’t really work for me because I really need to get to know someone before I can determine if I have feelings #but clearly I only develop crushes and feelings on women that are completely uninterested in me romantically #my therapist calls that self sabotage but I don’t think she can fully understand how confusing demisexuality is #like I feel a connection with the people I feel a connection with and that has never once happened for me going on dates #it only happens with people I get to know really well platonically first with absolutely no thought or pressure of theoretical romance #I would fucking love it if I could go on three dates with a girl and feel anything other than ‘we get along well and I had a nice time’#I would fucking love if I could just make out with someone casually and it not be incredibly uncomfortable for me #but no instead I just develop really intense friendships with women that see me like a little sister and I don’t a #and I don’t say anything because I don’t want to make things weird #my hormones are all over the place #we haven’t talked in awhile but we’re chatting about what crafting projects we’re each working on #so I’m feeling vulnerable and emotional

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protect-namine · 29 days ago

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#mine musings #not tagging etc etc #i just want to ramble (this is about lc)#do people feel like lg's character is incomplete without a backstory?#like a “past” before he met cxs #i feel like it's a nice-to-have thing (wouldn't be opposed to it) but i don't think his character requires it to be fully fleshed out yknow #his character is strongly defined by his role in the narrative because that's how stories work. but like #i do feel like we've learned a lot about him that would've stayed constant even if cxs isn't in his life though #like idk i just don't understand calling him a plot device i guess #like would he be more interesting if it was revealed he got attached to cxs so easily bc he had some kind of unhappy childhood or whatever?#i mean if it's executed well. sure?#personallyyyyyyy i think it's already compelling if he's just like. some guy #he's just some nerdy kid who made a friend and felt grief and loss for the first time and couldn't take it #like. that's compelling to me. unhappy childhood would be interesting too but like. there's nothing wrong with lg being just Some Guy™ imo😭#maybe it's bc i like the idea that lg could be anyone #and what i mean is like. that could be me. that could be you #all it takes is to find a love and friendship you're not willing to let go of. and as S1 has shown many clients have the same regrets #the only difference is that they never had the ability to change the past like lg did #like cxs said in YE1. everyone would want to have the ability to change the past. it's human nature #and i like the idea that the love and grief lg went through isn't something that's unique to him #like obviously it's unique in the sense that he makes it worse for himself with time loops #but like. the love he experienced could also happen to me. could also happen to you #same with the grief #i'm realizing as i'm rambling here that THIS is actually what i love about lg's character #now i kinda wish i didn't hide this in the tags lmao but whatever #i didn't want to invite debates over this and like if director li wants to give him a backstory that's fine #but the way lg is right now. i don't think he's “just a plot device”#and i don't think he's an incomplete character #i'll accept any backstory but god i really wish he stays being just Some Guy who loved and lost and continues to love and lose #because it's human and normal and everyone goes through it

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roseverdict · 9 days ago

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anybody else ever have the sudden realization that the reason they can never really get a handle on positive character dynamics between parents/guardians/caretakers and children without feeling like they come off as cheesy/oversaccharine is because their own parents kinda lowkey suck ass

because that realization feels wack