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Basque Grand might be the character who changes the most between FMA 03 and FMA manga. He appears so little on BH that I keep forgetting he's not supposed to be the unhinged villain we see in 03.
For context, in FMA 03 Grand is one of the masterminds of the Ishvalan War, he thinks little of people's lives (Amestrian or Ishvalan), he's the one that orders Roy to kill Winry's parents, and he's very critical of Marcoh leaving the military and tries to hunt him down.
Meanwhile, manga Grand is doing his best to protect lives, charging to the front to protect his subordinates, being pissed at the way they're using them as cannon fodder, and even trying to stop the war without further bloodshed. He takes a big personal risk by committing mutiny and killing his superior officer, all so that he can arrange for Supreme cleric Lowe to meet Bradley for peace negotiations.
Too bad Bradley stomped all over Lowe's and Grand's efforts.
Furthermore, he — not Mustang, not Armstrong — is the one to approach Ed after he gets his State Alchemist certificate and asks him: Did you know many State Alchemists quit after Ishval due to anguish? Which is short from him telling Ed to run because the title isn't worth the trauma.
He was obviously not happy with the Bradley administration, and seems to have fundamentally disagreed with the decisions taken during the war (enough to kill a superior officer to circumvent his orders). It's a shame we didn't see any of these scenes in BH.
His death at the hands of Scar was probably more detrimental than anything in the long run. It's extremely likely he would've sided with the "heroes" against the homunculi, considering his past decisions. They could have all benefitted from his abilities and experience during the Promised Day.
#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#fullmetal alchemist#fma 03#fma brotherhood#Basque Grand#fma meta#my work#I have a meta about ishval in the works#it made me think a lot about Grand
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people actually went on about how game of thrones made it socially acceptable to be a fantasy nerd, as though the lord of the rings movies hadn't been released less than a decade earlier and left far greater cultural ripples and i am just
got may have made the adults feel better about liking fantasy, but lotr got into the kids' heads when they (we) were just young and impressionable enough to be absolutely transported and emotionally rewritten by don't you leave him, samwise gamgee and my brother, my captain, my king and and rohan will answer
lotr was rewriting entire generations' brain chemistry long before asoiaf and so obviously it's not fair to compare any post-lotr fantasy novel to it, and each book series was trying to do different things within their own spheres and so that also is not a fair comparison, but in terms of the cultural impact of the adaptations that came out within a decade of each other, saying that it was game of thrones that made fantasy mainstream is baffling
game of thrones could only run because the lord of the rings movies laid the path, and i will die on this hill
#lotr#lord of the rings#lord of the rings movies#i started this post because ''may it be'' came up on my playlist but now i think i'm going to start my nth rewatch of the trilogy#there is a lot to discuss about it re: comparison to the books but it's like...#for all the changes they made - good and bad and neutral - everyone involved in making the films *loved* the source material#they all *wanted* to do justice to it and believed in it and it shows#i think of some posts i've seen about how frustrating this modern push towards tongue-in-cheek irony over sincerity#so afraid to be corny or cheesy that you have to tack a joke onto every real emotional moment#like no fuck that#give me sam hauling frodo onto his shoulders saying ''i can't carry it for you but i can carry you''#give me aragorn gently kissing boromir's forehead as he dies#give me merry and pippin throwing themselves at the uruk hai to distract them from frodo#give me theoden's grand speeches and gandalf's pained expression when frodo says he'll carry the ring#tbh i think that sincerity is a large part of *why* it has such staying power even now#because it is a story you are meant to get deeply emotionally invested in and not hold yourself a little ironically apart from#it isn't meant to sell merch it's meant to bring you to middle-earth and capture your heart and make you believe that the war can be won#with love and loyalty and hope and fellowship and fidelity and integrity and just... just refusing to give in to despair#it is earnest. it is unafraid to be melodramatic or corny because it believes in the story it's telling.#and so it imprinted onto a whole generation growing up right at the cusp of a barrage of apocalypses#anyway. i have Feelings about these movies and their impact and how that mirrors and enhances the books' own impact
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Thinking about them again and realising that I don't like the idea that Greylock was practically a bully to Cedric in their schooldays or that Cedric hated him. To each their own, but I think they're just two dorks with a bit of rivalry who get super competitive at times. They get along quite well together when they're not competing! Well, and when Greylock's not pranking him. He's just the annoying friend, I guess. I don't want Greylock to ever stop being annoying, and I want Cedric to be seriously concerned if he does stop.
As for why Cedric wouldn't consider him a friend: this is Season 2 Cedric. Literally his whole arc is about friendship.
#dude if i wasn't using the neighbour's awful wi-fi right now i'd rewatch the episode#i already have most of the clips of them saved to my phone#but i missed the one when they're in the castle#ALSO I DO NOT CARE IF I AM READING THEIR INTERACTIONS WRONG LET ME STAY BLISSFULLY IGNORANT#just kidding do tell me#also one reason i think they were never actually on bad terms is because them working together is not exactly made a huge deal by them#posting this because the more i actively think about them and write down my thoughts#the better ideas i get for my wip#and i just now got one that will definitely ease along the plot a lot better#and will also make cedric a bigger part of the plot#because currently his role is very tiny#anyways i'm open to criticism (not hate)#i love a good enemies to friends/lovers or whatever but they don't exactly seem like that to me#something much milder than enemies#greylock the grand#sofia the first#cedric the sorcerer
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If you're putting dni banners or bright dni wording on the bottom of all of your posts in 2024 believing this will actively stop people from interacting then we are on entirely different wavelengths and I'm automatically determining that you do not have critical thinking skills and blocking you regardless of your self-proclaimed stance on anything.
This is the internet. The internet is a free-for-all, always has been, always will be. People are going to interact with content regardless of their age, regardless of their stances vs your stances. In fact, the more you draw attention to not wanting attention the more troll attention you are actively inviting in.
It is up to you to curate your own online experience and use your block button when you are uncomfortable with people interacting with your content. And you are under no obligation to offer an explanation to anyone as to why you've blocked them.
#proship safe#paraphile safe#endo safe#tulpa safe#kink safe#okay to reblog#plus your banners are not accessibility friendly; and for a lot of nd people like myself they are just a huge eye sore to look at.#this is *not* about people with dnis listed in *one* place on their blog. (i.e. info or pinned)#that's called *setting a boundary for yourself* wherein you've made it perfectly clear to others what you will not hesitate to block over.#that's not what I'm complaining about here at all.#this is me complaining about people posting *all* content behind what they perceive as a purity wall by adding a dni banner image to it.#( I mean I also think dnis are *also* useless in the grand scheme but tomato tomahto. )#ambers.txt
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I think the neat thing about minimal world building surrounding Jin Guangyao's watch towers is that it puts us in the perspective of the common people. Like, we know they were effective, we know what his reputation was before the reveal, and we know his reputation after the reveal, and that's it. We don't know if they were built out of altruism or if he was trying to become the next Wen Rouhan and we never will know because we'll never be inside his head and he wasn't sect leader long enough for us to see any kind of long term plan working (assuming there even were any long term plans and "long term" means "takes longer than 10 years" in this case). The only thing we really know is that we'll never have a solid answer, and all we can really do about it is speculate and gossip
#mdzs#jin guangyao#mo dao zu shi#grand master of demonic cultivation#been seeing a lot of jgy possitive stuff on my timeline recently and its made me realize how many of my assumptions are colored by nmj#like idk if I fully agree with the jgy positive analysis but they've made me go “oh ya- thats also an option”#ex: i kinda just assumed for awhile that he was following his dad's orders to gain favor and become the hier#but the filial piety reading has been pointed out to me recently#and idk that I'm convinced that it's *the correct* reading but I'm certainly adding it to my list of possible valid readings#cuz i very much think a major point of jgy is that he's as much of a victim of shifting public perceptions at wwx#and that we'll never know the truth cuz we're not inside his head#but its nice to find out about all the possible options
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my brain has finally found a new source of serotonin via my gender swap gta 5 au and i just love it so much. im not super great at writing or the intricacies of what an au like this would entail, and some things might be a little ooc/too original, but i have a few ideas so far:
- michelle/michael is a lesbian with comphet. in her youth, she slept with a lot of men in an attempt to convince herself she was straight, including while dating andrew/amanda. in fact, she isn't entirely sure that travis/tracey and jackie/jimmy are her husband's.
- michelle and andrew are both still having their affairs, with andrew cheating because michelle cheated first. the first time michelle cheated in los santos, it was with a mechanic, since i've decided to mostly leave the strippers/prostitutes female. andrew caught them and started cheating. however, after the mechanic incident, i could see michelle picking up a prostitute that was offering despite the pair being the same gender. she'd still claim she's straight, but become a regular of this prostitute into the start of the game.
- michelle was a very skilled cheerleader. it was less temperament issues and injuries that led her to quit, and more than there weren't any cheerleading scholarships or careers awaiting her, so she just moved on with her life.
- dennis/denise isn't a "new age feminist" but an "alpha male" type who expects francine/franklin to be the caretaker of the house, instead of running around "trying to be a gangster." he doesn't want her to move out, but also wants her to get a proper job since he doesn't consider her his responsibility, often talking about not even being sure francine is his niece, since i also swapped the parents around. dennis is francine's paternal uncle. her mother dropped her off with her dad shortly after her birth, and her dad passed away from an overdose.
- michelle never picks up hitchhikers, not wanting to risk becoming a victim. francine only helps when they're in immediate danger, like antonio/antonia and thiago/tatiana. on the other hand, trina/trevor picks up any and everyone because they'll never be a greater threat than her.
- in terms of fashion, michelle is probably the most feminine. comphet lesbian who leans pretty hard into gender roles now that she's settled down in los santos. if she were honest with herself, she'd realize she's much more comfortable in androgynous/masculine attire. trina will wear any and anything if it's in the clearance bin. instead of ill-fitting dresses, she runs around in giant ill-fitting suits, but still often wakes up in random places in nothing but her underwear and some boots. francine is the opposite of michelle, leaning hard into masculine attire to maintain an image, when she'd be just as comfortable in more feminine attire. no matter what, she definitely prefers more baggy clothing, saving dresses for easter and christmas
- the gangs are still primarily male, save for the named characters like stretch and slim.
- francine will walk around with ancient natural twists or month old box braids, only redoing them if someone comments on it. at this point, she might just get dreads.
- diane/devin and genevieve/steve are practically the same, except there's a lot more "us girls have to stick together" from diane. it makes sense to me.
earlier today, i had so many thoughts on how a gender swap would work in the gta v universe, but i waited right before bed to try and get them all out. now, i must suffer the consequences :(
might start writing it out, though it's probably just going to be a play-by-play of the game, straight up plagiarism interspersed with a hundred pages of inner monologues because i love an inner monologue. maybe i'll focus on the dynamic between michelle/andrew, francine's feelings about being a gangster, trina's whole deal. idk. it's just something that's been making me really happy, even if these notes are all pretty basic and disjointed.
#please share any thoughts you might have on the topic#should've written this earlier when my head was a bit more coherent and had more interesting ideas#working on this au just really made me think a lot about gender roles and dynamics in gta v#maybe i'll express my thoughts better after i've had some sleep#anyway#moth speaks#michael de santa#amanda de santa#franklin clinton#trevor phillips#devin weston#steve haines#denise clinton#grand theft auto#gta 5#gta v#will do whatever i must to continue my agenda that at least one of the de santa kids isn't michael's#i guess it'd be not amanda's in this au#but whatever#a six for nine situation#or whatever americans call it
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Since everyone is posting Rooks, wanted to show off mine:
Yarina "Found In a Crypt, Raised In a Cave, Who'd Have Thought That Human Connection Is Something I Crave" Ingellvar, who is apparently the protagonist in a story about a sheltered introvert forced to interact with people, only to suddenly find out that this shit is actually pretty easy.
#the thing is#while I do not think that in most cases they come from a place of intellectual honesty#I do have to agree with comments about there being almost no real aggressive or confrontational options in Rook's default lines#it does hurt the the experience I think#those are very rarely the options I want to choose but their existence tends to add meaning to the 'nice' ones#so that's a noteable weakness of veilguard's writing imo#however at the same time I find that it is a good thing for me personally#since it ended up giving the bottom option lines - which tended to be the aggressive and self-serving ones for Hawke and Inquisitor#a lot more of 'calmly confident and to the point' vibe#which really made Yarina's personality click for me#Before starting the game I wanted to really lean into the Mourn Watch angle with her#and play someone who spent more of their life among the dead than the living and so#while competent and well-meaning#has all the social skills and graces of a potato#but it very quickly became clear that with the lines available to Rook this isn't really an option#so instead emerged Yarina who is very new to the world outside of Grand Necropolis#but whom her sheltered upbringing robbed not of social graces#but instead of ANY form social anxiety#and who - upon venturing out into the world of Thedas had discovered that it is very big and scary yes#but also that she has the fattest hog and the biggest horns around#and that apparently its possible to be confident and assertive without being an asshole#so I am having a lot of fun with her right now#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age rook#qunari
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For my AU, Holmes isn't addicted to drugs (for reasons I will elaborate on in the tags if anyone demands an explanation) HOWEVER instead, to make up for this, he's addicted to caffeine
This has lead me to imagining him absolutely slamming a heavy energy drink and turning to Da Vinci to sprout his usual nonsense. Da Vinci isn't even phased (all artists has been in a moment in their lives that they've done the same lmao)
#Okay so elaboration (tw for personal trauma ig)#My mom was heavily addicted to drugs when I was younger which led to me and my siblings being heavily neglected#She's been sober for a couple years now And I'm VERY proud of her#However I personally get uncomfortable with the idea of writing an addict for an AU that was specifically made as#Something I can escape into for comfort (hence why it's called the “For Funsies” AU)#Adding on that ig I still angst myself about my youth and I don't want to accidentally trigger myself#I apologize if this makes me seem very dry and unfun. Ig I also worry about myself in terms of addiction#Although I think the in-game canon jokes are funny. I personally just can't get myself to joke about it#So caffeine addiction instead! :D#I also worry about drug addiction a lot because of kinda my whole family being drug addicts at some point#SO ANYWAY#Enough about all that random nonsense of My Trauma! Let's get back to the happy For Funsies stuff#fgo#forfunsiesau#alternate universe#fate grand order#fate go#fgo fate grand order#fgo sherlock holmes#fgo headcanons#headcanon#headcannons#I like to imagine Utterson watching Holmes chug an energy drink and personally having a heart attack
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This right here is what pisses me off the most about qt costing now. This is a Sith Warrior, sitting in Marka Ragnos’ tomb and unable to fast travel back to the Academy bc I didn’t have enough money. There is NOTHING in her inventory. I already sold everything she didn’t currently have equipped.
Normally when I start a new toon I send them seed money, but since this one’s just a throwaway for the weekly I didn’t bother. Wound up fast traveling to the field research area and taking a speeder, which does work, BUT it’s still annoying bc you used to be able to just go all the way back. Yes, it’s a convenience thing. I get that. They don’t have to include it, you don’t have to use it. But they did include it, and it’s a convenience that’s been free for years, and some newbie who has no higher level toons to send an allowance credits to starter ones is gonna be unable to take advantage of that convenience bc BW decided to add an arbitrary and frankly overpriced cost to it. How is Jo Schmo who just started the game contributing to inflation, BioWare? What negative impact are they having on the economy when they’ve only been playing for two hours and haven’t even left the starter planet? How does this help fix the economy? Anyone selling items for fuck you money through the trade channel isn’t even going to feel less than 800 credits, but it’s more than starter toons HAVE after SELLING EVERYTHING IN THEIR INVENTORY.
In my opinion, if they absolutely insist on keeping the charge for qt in the game, it needs to either a) not kick in til at least either Coruscant/Dromund Kaas(and even then, most places on Coruscant are 5k from the Senate tower. It’s ridiculous, so I’d argue Balmorra/Taris) or b) get cut waaaaaaaaaaaaaay down for starter/home worlds. I don’t care if that means higher level players aren’t paying a lot for travel when they come back to Coruscant/DK. As another example, It cost 8 times as much to quick travel from Kalikori Village to the Jedi temple vs taking the speeder.
#queen in space#this is the first change they've made that actually made me think about quitting#i've been playing since launch day and weathered EVERYTHING ELSE they've changed but this almost did it#they're punishing the wrong people(everybody) with something that's NOT EVEN GOING TO DO ANYTHING#when they were given plenty of feedback tellign them exactly how bad an idea this was and listing about 10-15 BETTER options#i have a sneaking suspicion they'd already started working on the coding or whatever to do the paid qt and belatedly went ''oh we should#ask player opinion on this'' and then didn't wanna scrap their Grand Plan when there was a resoundin YEAH MAYBE DON'T THAT'S A TERRIBLE IDEA#anyway the next round of changes they have for economy balance sound much better/more useful#maybe once that gets into flow they can take back OUT qt charge?#bc i do love this game a lot#there's just some times they get a very emphatic opinion form the player base and do the Opposite of what ppl are saying and it's frustratin#/rant over#it just still annoys me every time that ''fast travel will cost x amount. confirm?'' box pops up
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I think the movie that has impacted me the most was Don't Look Up and I think everyone should watch it but not if they have problems with existential dread
#this movie made me feel so off for like 2 weeks because i just could not stop thinking about it#cause like. this could totally happen#anyways a movie about the end of the world that i DONT suggest is 2012#that shit scared me SO BAD and also i dont like the main actor#like its similar to Dont Look Up but its missing some key elements#like an ariana grande performance#another movie that impacted me a lot was the princess mononoke but for different reasons#(i am madly in love with Sen and Ashitaka)#anyways Dont Look Up is the only movie to have made me feel so utterly hopeless and helpless about our eventual demise#but also angry because of how realistic it was and how they could have done something about it when they first learned about the thing#AND the end made me giggle uncontrollably#it really had everything#and i like the actors of the main characters#also i thought it was funny that they had rich people acting out a scenario where the rich were the problem
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#can't find my headphones going insane#need... music....loud...#back from that meditation retreat/course thingy btw#thank god it wasn't that bad#i think i've made peace with going girlmode essentially full time again#as they say. c'est la vie... i will never win but the idgaf war wages on#other than the whole compulsory aspect of it the mandatory white garb was not so bad : P#observing the 8 precepts for only a few days is basically nothing... v ez#a lot of the lecture/sermon content was pretty legit and imo applicable to my daily life although i had issues w/ some topics discussed#i don't fuck with thought crime/'sin' and I'm pretty resolute about this#i have ocd and if i believed every time i had a horrible thought i let myself think it was reflective of#my inner state and/or karma stats or whatever i'd probably actually shoot myself#ok the relevant#buddhist theory is actually pretty complex but i don't want to misrepresent anything and#i cannot explain. i actively interact as little as i can with this kinda thing. even if you make me to take a course lol in my head I'm#wily and u cant get me. this is my turf and i'm like a ferret#i do beleive i have said my personal philosophies are undoubtedly highly influenced by Buddhist thought#but i can't be all gung-ho about this 'ending suffering' forever business#as nice as that sounds#i don't want to be told the meaning of life like I'm not gonna perservere my entire lived existence to fulfill some grand objective pre-#determined by someone else no matter how well-regarded they are by however many people#I'm rather attached to the things that bring me comfort and joy and meaning...as shallow or illusory they may be#i don't like that i'd feel threatened into trying to escape samsara bc its 'uber rare' that i was born into the right species#in the right religion and right place and time to get chance to do that#like in that one poem#i would like to touch the world with bare hands even it burns you know what i mean?#stop trying to save me; stop telling me to let go of the world#i try to stand my ground you know but I'm aware this is really important to my parents right now#i know people get more religious as they grow older#maybe i just am not forced to reckon with mortality in the same way that they are and therefore am not at a stage in my life where i can
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BTW they played The Phoenix and Save Rock and Roll and I will NEVER be getting over that
#almost crying thinking of it#I'm thrilled for everyone who go their songs but those were my songs.#The Phoenix was the song that made me get obsessed with music#Save Rock and Roll was the one that even young me would cry to. It meant a lot to me then and it means more to me now#i love the kids aren't alright and im thrilled people got their song with that#but those were mine and im just emotional thinking about it#also where is your boy/grand theft autumn and the take over the breaks over... i used to listen to those on repeat for hours#fob#fall out boy#fob8#tourdust#tourdust spoilers
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Match Game Syndicated Episode 262
Fannie, in a warbly, tear-streaked voice, to Pretty Girl Betty Kennedy:
I was just sitting here thinking: When I was young and pretty, I used to sit in that seat. I used to wear red dresses, get attention. Now I’m pushed down here. Pretty soon I’ll be in the audience.
Me, playing along at home: Girl, quit lying 😂. Number one, when you were in the Pretty Girl seat (for like three weeks before you were promoted to Weird Girl), never did you ever wear anything remotely sexy. Number two, thirty seconds ago the cameraman decided to shoot you just sitting there doing nothing so America could appreciate your perfect jawline and cheekbones. Number three, you are absolutely Match Game’s Mae West and not only do you very well know it but also nobody’s trying to make you forget it. 😂
#this Betty Kennedy Pretty Girl week has me confused#Brett and Fannie seem to be good naturedly bullying her about how much male attention she gets#but I can’t tell whether she’s in on the joke or whether she’s genuinely uncomfortable#when Brett and Fannie wear the blonde wigs and Betty and Fannie switch seats…#are they being actually mean or are they just doing a bit?#I tend to give them the benefit of the doubt but sometimes Betty Kennedy does seem really put out#I don’t think she’s all that attractive and I find her annoying but if they’re being mean to her just because she’s young and conventionally#(?) pretty and so she gets a lot of attention I can’t truck with it#I don’t think this is the case. I think it’s a bit taken a little too far. but still a little yucky to me#although hilarious at points. Fannie vamping in her blonde wig I’ve always been big it’s the pictures that have gone small moment 😂#just. so weird to me that they’re all weird about this particular Pretty Girl#like… I guess your average Joe blow straight man might prefer her? but what average straight man watches match game?#it’s a daytime program! the straight dude demographic is gonna be retirees shift workers and college students!#and retirees and shift workers are almost always team Brett or team Fannie! Betty Kennedy is not significant competition statistically!#not to mention a lot of match game fans are weirdos anyway. like the baby dude whose 1 wish in life was to kiss 40 year old Mary ann Mobley#idk man I just dk my official postion is that it’s all in good fun but it doesn’t always land#like the Brett somers interview where she said something like ‘Fannie and I went down to the costume department#and got a bunch of crazy stuff and made a grand entrance and we thought it was hilarious but the audience hated it.’#match game#fannie flagg#pretty soon I’ll be in the audience is an objectively very funny line though lbr#Brett and Fannie have acted jealous of the pretty girl before but it was always with someone they very obviously really liked.#happens with Barbara Rhoades a lot and she and fannie are always talking to each other across the way and conferencing on answers#and Brett’s always telling her to hurry up hon the way she does the girls she likes#that’s why this Betty Kennedy week is flummoxing because if the Pretty Girl is lame they usually just leave her alone#and then she comes back to fill in for Brett? instead of putting Fannie or Phyllis diller up there? and there’s very little banter? idk!#what was going on behind the scenes of this show?!
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ik pretty much 95% of media being made rn sucks and even less is actually original content but personally i would like to see more lgbt+ characters who come out in the most underwhelming way possible. not in a “being gay isn’t my personality 🙄” way but a “oh. thought this was kind of obvious abt me” way. i have spent the vast majority of my time knowing i was Part Of The Community just terrified of the “inevitable” coming out i would have to do. oh god i gotta tell everyone i know and make a whole post about it on all social media platforms. almost entirely bc of how the coming out experience is portrayed (the majority of the time) (in what i have seen)
obv I’m not saying that’s BAD but like. my sexuality and gender are actually no one’s business but mine! lmao. i don’t HAVE to make a grand entrance, i don’t even have to tell anyone outright. and as a matter of fact i think i am just going to continue accidentally telling people in casual conversation and making vague references like it’s common knowledge until the rest of them figure it out. i am not writing a paragraph caption on anything. if my mom sees my pride outfit this year and asks i won’t lie but i am most certainly not going out of my way to make myself uncomfortable bc i feel like i owe people something that i absolutely do not <3
#i am getting a shirt that says ‘bi-furious’ for pride lol#anyway. I’m not saying this is the only right and true way#or that having a Grand Entrance is a bad thing. bc it’s not!#it has just made my life a lot harder thinking that was the only option ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#about 99% of the people I’ve come out to have learned this information abt me by accident (on my end) and I’m not about to stop now!!!#i can only talk about wanting to get railed by women so many times before YOU’RE the dumb one for not realizing I’m attracted to them
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the point of everything is to care
#had a lot of emotions flying around recently#thinking about the grand truths of life that sound like inane platitudes when spoken out loud#nier automata made me have to put the controller down and just sob for a couple minutes#dragon grumbles
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there's a commercial on the local radio station for like at&t or something but it's in collaboration with the wicked movie, so it's a dad basically being like "my whole family is obsessed with wicked, our wifi can barely handle it!" idk it's just. i'm not entirely sure what it is i feel but i just remember how i was obsessed with so many musicals (including wicked) when i was in middle school and it was considered REALLY uncool. like i was a little weirdo for it, and i was always singing and always people were like "ugh shut up already." one time i tried to show my friend "for good" when i graduated eighth grade and her boyfriend (my former friend turned fucking bully asshole) told me "no, don't corrupt her with that!" by showing it to her. which is its own thing but. i don't know it feels weird to hear on the radio someone proudly say their family is obsessed with a musical, even if it is a fake family. it's like ha. in my time i got fucking bullied for that. there is also something strange i feel regarding that specifically as it is an advertisement, which means 1) the point is to advertise the movie (and the wifi) and 2) it's socially acceptable to some level to be obsessed with something that is being hyped up like some big cultural moment.
#i have my doubts about that tbh. i'm gonna be honest im not excited for the movie#i did what i always do when movie musicals and remakes (and any disney movies until they prove themselves otherwise) are announced:#completely dismiss it as something fake or fan made until real advertisements start coming out and i have to accept that it's real#and then i usually ignore it#they announced wicked and my initial reaction was nooo.......#esp w ariana grande ik she sings good i just don't trust her and ive never liked her#then the trailer came out and i had some hope but i'm still extremely on the fence#so yeah im not gonna watch it unless someone invites me or it comes out and actually is good#i don't have that much hope for thag tbh#i don't think it'll be bad but i feel like it really is just gonna be another movie musical (disappointed)#anyways. very very funny and strange to hear this commercial truly#i was bullied for this shit like seven or eight years ago and now it's an advertisement?#it's just an ad it's really not that important. but something about it just feels. strange.#like if someone took something important to you and turned it into a stuffed doll to sell. it feels weird.#like i get obsessed with things. and i still don't tell a lot of people about my real interests or the extent of them#bc im scared it'll be weird#or that they'll give me that look i know way too well#and i haven't gotten it in a while and ive gotten better at opening up#but this commercial just feels. idk maybe im even a little bit and maybe unreasonably angry#like some sort of sick 'why do you get what i didn't get?'#and all for commercialism#hmmmm. hm.#bluebird.txt
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