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Basque Grand might be the character who changes the most between FMA 03 and FMA manga. He appears so little on BH that I keep forgetting he's not supposed to be the unhinged villain we see in 03.
For context, in FMA 03 Grand is one of the masterminds of the Ishvalan War, he thinks little of people's lives (Amestrian or Ishvalan), he's the one that orders Roy to kill Winry's parents, and he's very critical of Marcoh leaving the military and tries to hunt him down.
Meanwhile, manga Grand is doing his best to protect lives, charging to the front to protect his subordinates, being pissed at the way they're using them as cannon fodder, and even trying to stop the war without further bloodshed. He takes a big personal risk by committing mutiny and killing his superior officer, all so that he can arrange for Supreme cleric Lowe to meet Bradley for peace negotiations.
Too bad Bradley stomped all over Lowe's and Grand's efforts.
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Furthermore, he — not Mustang, not Armstrong — is the one to approach Ed after he gets his State Alchemist certificate and asks him: Did you know many State Alchemists quit after Ishval due to anguish? Which is short from him telling Ed to run because the title isn't worth the trauma.
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He was obviously not happy with the Bradley administration, and seems to have fundamentally disagreed with the decisions taken during the war (enough to kill a superior officer to circumvent his orders). It's a shame we didn't see any of these scenes in BH.
His death at the hands of Scar was probably more detrimental than anything in the long run. It's extremely likely he would've sided with the "heroes" against the homunculi, considering his past decisions. They could have all benefitted from his abilities and experience during the Promised Day.
#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#fullmetal alchemist#fma 03#fma brotherhood#Basque Grand#fma meta#my work#I have a meta about ishval in the works#it made me think a lot about Grand
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for those who have NOT seen the 55wad05da0722 maid eito + bookumo arts , i implore you to Behold;;:
And the nsfw followup:
#this artist was where the association started for me#[foggy nostalgic fadeout] it was the time of the maid event...#a time when everyone was making parfaits#fighting one of the 3 maids for messing up on the parfait sundaes (usually rei or dante)#and i was so wonderfully overwhelmed by eiden in his jaunty lil maid miniskirt#what a poofy lil skirt! and his leggings!! he was so sporty and fun!!!!#MAID ON MAID ACTION NOW THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKIN BOUT#'twas No time to be thinking about yakumo. certainly not#but somehow.... perhaps according to someone's grand keikaku#these images float past me#and i go Huh? what is yakumo doing with maideito? HE's not in the event#i do a doubletake and backtrack to the pictures#wait.... BOOKWORM NERDKUMO WITH THE BIGGEST FATTEST CRUSH ON MAID EIDEN????#NoW HOLD ON.#ohhhhh you're onto something OP#this is not a connection i would have made but now that it stands before me#...............there's a lot to be had here#*points to the drawings*#THIS IS WHERE IT STARTED. WHEN IT STARTED#AFTER WITNESSING THESE ?? THAT WAS WHEN THE HAUNTEDVISIONS STARTED#the PERSISTENT PROJECTIONS of pathetic student yakumo accidentally courting Radiant Maid Eito#I CAN NEVER RETURN TO THE BEING I ONCE WAS#seriously. what a username. just droppin magic like it's nbd then dissipating into the aether. LEGENDARY!!!#yakuei
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i'm not crazy about the wording right now but i am surprised that i got close to what i think is one of the cores of lemony's character in, would you believe it, a fucking au
#also i name my screenshots of fic after characters usually and i didn't have one of lemony before this???????? sacre bleu#the [LOCATION] was originally schenectady but i misremembered it as synecdoche which is actually THE most snicketverse mistake in the world#LEMONY'S GRAND PLAN OF FAKING HIS DEATH IS IN FACT (MOSTLY) PLAYED FOR LAUGHS IN THIS AU OR BY GOD I'M TRYING TO PLAY IT FOR LAUGHS#IT'S GENUINELY FUNNY IN CONTEXT BUT WRITING IT I'M STRUGGLING WITH THE TONE A LOT#i say this like i have pages of this fic written i do NOT but yknow#shaping this fic is like. i have made the bread dough. but i cannot get it to look right#CAN YOU TELL IT'S AFTER MIDNIGHT AND ALSO THAT I KEEP THINKING ABOUT MAKING THE FUCKING BABKA#by god since when is it 12:41.#me earlier: I AM AN ADULT WHO CAN STAY UP HOWEVER LATE SHE WANTS#me right now: ohhhhhhh but girl. the conses be quencing
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people actually went on about how game of thrones made it socially acceptable to be a fantasy nerd, as though the lord of the rings movies hadn't been released less than a decade earlier and left far greater cultural ripples and i am just
got may have made the adults feel better about liking fantasy, but lotr got into the kids' heads when they (we) were just young and impressionable enough to be absolutely transported and emotionally rewritten by don't you leave him, samwise gamgee and my brother, my captain, my king and and rohan will answer
lotr was rewriting entire generations' brain chemistry long before asoiaf and so obviously it's not fair to compare any post-lotr fantasy novel to it, and each book series was trying to do different things within their own spheres and so that also is not a fair comparison, but in terms of the cultural impact of the adaptations that came out within a decade of each other, saying that it was game of thrones that made fantasy mainstream is baffling
game of thrones could only run because the lord of the rings movies laid the path, and i will die on this hill
#lotr#lord of the rings#lord of the rings movies#i started this post because ''may it be'' came up on my playlist but now i think i'm going to start my nth rewatch of the trilogy#there is a lot to discuss about it re: comparison to the books but it's like...#for all the changes they made - good and bad and neutral - everyone involved in making the films *loved* the source material#they all *wanted* to do justice to it and believed in it and it shows#i think of some posts i've seen about how frustrating this modern push towards tongue-in-cheek irony over sincerity#so afraid to be corny or cheesy that you have to tack a joke onto every real emotional moment#like no fuck that#give me sam hauling frodo onto his shoulders saying ''i can't carry it for you but i can carry you''#give me aragorn gently kissing boromir's forehead as he dies#give me merry and pippin throwing themselves at the uruk hai to distract them from frodo#give me theoden's grand speeches and gandalf's pained expression when frodo says he'll carry the ring#tbh i think that sincerity is a large part of *why* it has such staying power even now#because it is a story you are meant to get deeply emotionally invested in and not hold yourself a little ironically apart from#it isn't meant to sell merch it's meant to bring you to middle-earth and capture your heart and make you believe that the war can be won#with love and loyalty and hope and fellowship and fidelity and integrity and just... just refusing to give in to despair#it is earnest. it is unafraid to be melodramatic or corny because it believes in the story it's telling.#and so it imprinted onto a whole generation growing up right at the cusp of a barrage of apocalypses#anyway. i have Feelings about these movies and their impact and how that mirrors and enhances the books' own impact
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Thinking about them again and realising that I don't like the idea that Greylock was practically a bully to Cedric in their schooldays or that Cedric hated him. To each their own, but I think they're just two dorks with a bit of rivalry who get super competitive at times. They get along quite well together when they're not competing! Well, and when Greylock's not pranking him. He's just the annoying friend, I guess. I don't want Greylock to ever stop being annoying, and I want Cedric to be seriously concerned if he does stop.
As for why Cedric wouldn't consider him a friend: this is Season 2 Cedric. Literally his whole arc is about friendship.
#dude if i wasn't using the neighbour's awful wi-fi right now i'd rewatch the episode#i already have most of the clips of them saved to my phone#but i missed the one when they're in the castle#ALSO I DO NOT CARE IF I AM READING THEIR INTERACTIONS WRONG LET ME STAY BLISSFULLY IGNORANT#just kidding do tell me#also one reason i think they were never actually on bad terms is because them working together is not exactly made a huge deal by them#posting this because the more i actively think about them and write down my thoughts#the better ideas i get for my wip#and i just now got one that will definitely ease along the plot a lot better#and will also make cedric a bigger part of the plot#because currently his role is very tiny#anyways i'm open to criticism (not hate)#i love a good enemies to friends/lovers or whatever but they don't exactly seem like that to me#something much milder than enemies#greylock the grand#sofia the first#cedric the sorcerer
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If you're putting dni banners or bright dni wording on the bottom of all of your posts in 2024 believing this will actively stop people from interacting then we are on entirely different wavelengths and I'm automatically determining that you do not have critical thinking skills and blocking you regardless of your self-proclaimed stance on anything.
This is the internet. The internet is a free-for-all, always has been, always will be. People are going to interact with content regardless of their age, regardless of their stances vs your stances. In fact, the more you draw attention to not wanting attention the more troll attention you are actively inviting in.
It is up to you to curate your own online experience and use your block button when you are uncomfortable with people interacting with your content. And you are under no obligation to offer an explanation to anyone as to why you've blocked them.
#proship safe#paraphile safe#endo safe#tulpa safe#kink safe#okay to reblog#plus your banners are not accessibility friendly; and for a lot of nd people like myself they are just a huge eye sore to look at.#this is *not* about people with dnis listed in *one* place on their blog. (i.e. info or pinned)#that's called *setting a boundary for yourself* wherein you've made it perfectly clear to others what you will not hesitate to block over.#that's not what I'm complaining about here at all.#this is me complaining about people posting *all* content behind what they perceive as a purity wall by adding a dni banner image to it.#( I mean I also think dnis are *also* useless in the grand scheme but tomato tomahto. )#ambers.txt
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I think the neat thing about minimal world building surrounding Jin Guangyao's watch towers is that it puts us in the perspective of the common people. Like, we know they were effective, we know what his reputation was before the reveal, and we know his reputation after the reveal, and that's it. We don't know if they were built out of altruism or if he was trying to become the next Wen Rouhan and we never will know because we'll never be inside his head and he wasn't sect leader long enough for us to see any kind of long term plan working (assuming there even were any long term plans and "long term" means "takes longer than 10 years" in this case). The only thing we really know is that we'll never have a solid answer, and all we can really do about it is speculate and gossip
#mdzs#jin guangyao#mo dao zu shi#grand master of demonic cultivation#been seeing a lot of jgy possitive stuff on my timeline recently and its made me realize how many of my assumptions are colored by nmj#like idk if I fully agree with the jgy positive analysis but they've made me go “oh ya- thats also an option”#ex: i kinda just assumed for awhile that he was following his dad's orders to gain favor and become the hier#but the filial piety reading has been pointed out to me recently#and idk that I'm convinced that it's *the correct* reading but I'm certainly adding it to my list of possible valid readings#cuz i very much think a major point of jgy is that he's as much of a victim of shifting public perceptions at wwx#and that we'll never know the truth cuz we're not inside his head#but its nice to find out about all the possible options
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what the FUCK do you we mean we get more agreste family lore
#I still haven’t watched season 5 because I got so overwhelmed by the leaks and airing out of order#and then some things happened in my personal life to drift me away from miraculous#plus also I just don’t like some of the writing decisions they made like#I still think the idea of adrien being a sentimonster is a questionable piece of worldbuilding#that takes away a lot of his agency and hosts a lot of weird implications about the magic system#and I don’t even wanna unpack gabe dying lol#but god fucking damn it#I’m still such a sucker for learning about emilie#this might be the thing to finally pull me in#my lil eminath shipper heart can’t take it anymore#will my ml hyperfixation make a grand return??? we shall see#miraculous ladybug#miraculous spoilers#fandom thoughts
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Since everyone is posting Rooks, wanted to show off mine:
Yarina "Found In a Crypt, Raised In a Cave, Who'd Have Thought That Human Connection Is Something I Crave" Ingellvar, who is apparently the protagonist in a story about a sheltered introvert forced to interact with people, only to suddenly find out that this shit is actually pretty easy.
#the thing is#while I do not think that in most cases they come from a place of intellectual honesty#I do have to agree with comments about there being almost no real aggressive or confrontational options in Rook's default lines#it does hurt the the experience I think#those are very rarely the options I want to choose but their existence tends to add meaning to the 'nice' ones#so that's a noteable weakness of veilguard's writing imo#however at the same time I find that it is a good thing for me personally#since it ended up giving the bottom option lines - which tended to be the aggressive and self-serving ones for Hawke and Inquisitor#a lot more of 'calmly confident and to the point' vibe#which really made Yarina's personality click for me#Before starting the game I wanted to really lean into the Mourn Watch angle with her#and play someone who spent more of their life among the dead than the living and so#while competent and well-meaning#has all the social skills and graces of a potato#but it very quickly became clear that with the lines available to Rook this isn't really an option#so instead emerged Yarina who is very new to the world outside of Grand Necropolis#but whom her sheltered upbringing robbed not of social graces#but instead of ANY form social anxiety#and who - upon venturing out into the world of Thedas had discovered that it is very big and scary yes#but also that she has the fattest hog and the biggest horns around#and that apparently its possible to be confident and assertive without being an asshole#so I am having a lot of fun with her right now#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age rook#qunari
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For my AU, Holmes isn't addicted to drugs (for reasons I will elaborate on in the tags if anyone demands an explanation) HOWEVER instead, to make up for this, he's addicted to caffeine
This has lead me to imagining him absolutely slamming a heavy energy drink and turning to Da Vinci to sprout his usual nonsense. Da Vinci isn't even phased (all artists has been in a moment in their lives that they've done the same lmao)
#Okay so elaboration (tw for personal trauma ig)#My mom was heavily addicted to drugs when I was younger which led to me and my siblings being heavily neglected#She's been sober for a couple years now And I'm VERY proud of her#However I personally get uncomfortable with the idea of writing an addict for an AU that was specifically made as#Something I can escape into for comfort (hence why it's called the “For Funsies” AU)#Adding on that ig I still angst myself about my youth and I don't want to accidentally trigger myself#I apologize if this makes me seem very dry and unfun. Ig I also worry about myself in terms of addiction#Although I think the in-game canon jokes are funny. I personally just can't get myself to joke about it#So caffeine addiction instead! :D#I also worry about drug addiction a lot because of kinda my whole family being drug addicts at some point#SO ANYWAY#Enough about all that random nonsense of My Trauma! Let's get back to the happy For Funsies stuff#fgo#forfunsiesau#alternate universe#fate grand order#fate go#fgo fate grand order#fgo sherlock holmes#fgo headcanons#headcanon#headcannons#I like to imagine Utterson watching Holmes chug an energy drink and personally having a heart attack
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This right here is what pisses me off the most about qt costing now. This is a Sith Warrior, sitting in Marka Ragnos’ tomb and unable to fast travel back to the Academy bc I didn’t have enough money. There is NOTHING in her inventory. I already sold everything she didn’t currently have equipped.
Normally when I start a new toon I send them seed money, but since this one’s just a throwaway for the weekly I didn’t bother. Wound up fast traveling to the field research area and taking a speeder, which does work, BUT it’s still annoying bc you used to be able to just go all the way back. Yes, it’s a convenience thing. I get that. They don’t have to include it, you don’t have to use it. But they did include it, and it’s a convenience that’s been free for years, and some newbie who has no higher level toons to send an allowance credits to starter ones is gonna be unable to take advantage of that convenience bc BW decided to add an arbitrary and frankly overpriced cost to it. How is Jo Schmo who just started the game contributing to inflation, BioWare? What negative impact are they having on the economy when they’ve only been playing for two hours and haven’t even left the starter planet? How does this help fix the economy? Anyone selling items for fuck you money through the trade channel isn’t even going to feel less than 800 credits, but it’s more than starter toons HAVE after SELLING EVERYTHING IN THEIR INVENTORY.
In my opinion, if they absolutely insist on keeping the charge for qt in the game, it needs to either a) not kick in til at least either Coruscant/Dromund Kaas(and even then, most places on Coruscant are 5k from the Senate tower. It’s ridiculous, so I’d argue Balmorra/Taris) or b) get cut waaaaaaaaaaaaaay down for starter/home worlds. I don’t care if that means higher level players aren’t paying a lot for travel when they come back to Coruscant/DK. As another example, It cost 8 times as much to quick travel from Kalikori Village to the Jedi temple vs taking the speeder.
#queen in space#this is the first change they've made that actually made me think about quitting#i've been playing since launch day and weathered EVERYTHING ELSE they've changed but this almost did it#they're punishing the wrong people(everybody) with something that's NOT EVEN GOING TO DO ANYTHING#when they were given plenty of feedback tellign them exactly how bad an idea this was and listing about 10-15 BETTER options#i have a sneaking suspicion they'd already started working on the coding or whatever to do the paid qt and belatedly went ''oh we should#ask player opinion on this'' and then didn't wanna scrap their Grand Plan when there was a resoundin YEAH MAYBE DON'T THAT'S A TERRIBLE IDEA#anyway the next round of changes they have for economy balance sound much better/more useful#maybe once that gets into flow they can take back OUT qt charge?#bc i do love this game a lot#there's just some times they get a very emphatic opinion form the player base and do the Opposite of what ppl are saying and it's frustratin#/rant over#it just still annoys me every time that ''fast travel will cost x amount. confirm?'' box pops up
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I think the movie that has impacted me the most was Don't Look Up and I think everyone should watch it but not if they have problems with existential dread
#this movie made me feel so off for like 2 weeks because i just could not stop thinking about it#cause like. this could totally happen#anyways a movie about the end of the world that i DONT suggest is 2012#that shit scared me SO BAD and also i dont like the main actor#like its similar to Dont Look Up but its missing some key elements#like an ariana grande performance#another movie that impacted me a lot was the princess mononoke but for different reasons#(i am madly in love with Sen and Ashitaka)#anyways Dont Look Up is the only movie to have made me feel so utterly hopeless and helpless about our eventual demise#but also angry because of how realistic it was and how they could have done something about it when they first learned about the thing#AND the end made me giggle uncontrollably#it really had everything#and i like the actors of the main characters#also i thought it was funny that they had rich people acting out a scenario where the rich were the problem
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BTW they played The Phoenix and Save Rock and Roll and I will NEVER be getting over that
#almost crying thinking of it#I'm thrilled for everyone who go their songs but those were my songs.#The Phoenix was the song that made me get obsessed with music#Save Rock and Roll was the one that even young me would cry to. It meant a lot to me then and it means more to me now#i love the kids aren't alright and im thrilled people got their song with that#but those were mine and im just emotional thinking about it#also where is your boy/grand theft autumn and the take over the breaks over... i used to listen to those on repeat for hours#fob#fall out boy#fob8#tourdust#tourdust spoilers
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Match Game Syndicated Episode 262
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Fannie, in a warbly, tear-streaked voice, to Pretty Girl Betty Kennedy:
I was just sitting here thinking: When I was young and pretty, I used to sit in that seat. I used to wear red dresses, get attention. Now I’m pushed down here. Pretty soon I’ll be in the audience.
Me, playing along at home: Girl, quit lying 😂. Number one, when you were in the Pretty Girl seat (for like three weeks before you were promoted to Weird Girl), never did you ever wear anything remotely sexy. Number two, thirty seconds ago the cameraman decided to shoot you just sitting there doing nothing so America could appreciate your perfect jawline and cheekbones. Number three, you are absolutely Match Game’s Mae West and not only do you very well know it but also nobody’s trying to make you forget it. 😂
#this Betty Kennedy Pretty Girl week has me confused#Brett and Fannie seem to be good naturedly bullying her about how much male attention she gets#but I can’t tell whether she’s in on the joke or whether she’s genuinely uncomfortable#when Brett and Fannie wear the blonde wigs and Betty and Fannie switch seats…#are they being actually mean or are they just doing a bit?#I tend to give them the benefit of the doubt but sometimes Betty Kennedy does seem really put out#I don’t think she’s all that attractive and I find her annoying but if they’re being mean to her just because she’s young and conventionally#(?) pretty and so she gets a lot of attention I can’t truck with it#I don’t think this is the case. I think it’s a bit taken a little too far. but still a little yucky to me#although hilarious at points. Fannie vamping in her blonde wig I’ve always been big it’s the pictures that have gone small moment 😂#just. so weird to me that they’re all weird about this particular Pretty Girl#like… I guess your average Joe blow straight man might prefer her? but what average straight man watches match game?#it’s a daytime program! the straight dude demographic is gonna be retirees shift workers and college students!#and retirees and shift workers are almost always team Brett or team Fannie! Betty Kennedy is not significant competition statistically!#not to mention a lot of match game fans are weirdos anyway. like the baby dude whose 1 wish in life was to kiss 40 year old Mary ann Mobley#idk man I just dk my official postion is that it’s all in good fun but it doesn’t always land#like the Brett somers interview where she said something like ‘Fannie and I went down to the costume department#and got a bunch of crazy stuff and made a grand entrance and we thought it was hilarious but the audience hated it.’#match game#fannie flagg#pretty soon I’ll be in the audience is an objectively very funny line though lbr#Brett and Fannie have acted jealous of the pretty girl before but it was always with someone they very obviously really liked.#happens with Barbara Rhoades a lot and she and fannie are always talking to each other across the way and conferencing on answers#and Brett’s always telling her to hurry up hon the way she does the girls she likes#that’s why this Betty Kennedy week is flummoxing because if the Pretty Girl is lame they usually just leave her alone#and then she comes back to fill in for Brett? instead of putting Fannie or Phyllis diller up there? and there’s very little banter? idk!#what was going on behind the scenes of this show?!
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there's a commercial on the local radio station for like at&t or something but it's in collaboration with the wicked movie, so it's a dad basically being like "my whole family is obsessed with wicked, our wifi can barely handle it!" idk it's just. i'm not entirely sure what it is i feel but i just remember how i was obsessed with so many musicals (including wicked) when i was in middle school and it was considered REALLY uncool. like i was a little weirdo for it, and i was always singing and always people were like "ugh shut up already." one time i tried to show my friend "for good" when i graduated eighth grade and her boyfriend (my former friend turned fucking bully asshole) told me "no, don't corrupt her with that!" by showing it to her. which is its own thing but. i don't know it feels weird to hear on the radio someone proudly say their family is obsessed with a musical, even if it is a fake family. it's like ha. in my time i got fucking bullied for that. there is also something strange i feel regarding that specifically as it is an advertisement, which means 1) the point is to advertise the movie (and the wifi) and 2) it's socially acceptable to some level to be obsessed with something that is being hyped up like some big cultural moment.
#i have my doubts about that tbh. i'm gonna be honest im not excited for the movie#i did what i always do when movie musicals and remakes (and any disney movies until they prove themselves otherwise) are announced:#completely dismiss it as something fake or fan made until real advertisements start coming out and i have to accept that it's real#and then i usually ignore it#they announced wicked and my initial reaction was nooo.......#esp w ariana grande ik she sings good i just don't trust her and ive never liked her#then the trailer came out and i had some hope but i'm still extremely on the fence#so yeah im not gonna watch it unless someone invites me or it comes out and actually is good#i don't have that much hope for thag tbh#i don't think it'll be bad but i feel like it really is just gonna be another movie musical (disappointed)#anyways. very very funny and strange to hear this commercial truly#i was bullied for this shit like seven or eight years ago and now it's an advertisement?#it's just an ad it's really not that important. but something about it just feels. strange.#like if someone took something important to you and turned it into a stuffed doll to sell. it feels weird.#like i get obsessed with things. and i still don't tell a lot of people about my real interests or the extent of them#bc im scared it'll be weird#or that they'll give me that look i know way too well#and i haven't gotten it in a while and ive gotten better at opening up#but this commercial just feels. idk maybe im even a little bit and maybe unreasonably angry#like some sort of sick 'why do you get what i didn't get?'#and all for commercialism#hmmmm. hm.#bluebird.txt
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#my brother went to the wedding of a girl that was mean to me in high school#also at the wedding was the guy that was my best friend all through middle school until we fell out#largely due to the fact that he had a massive crush on me on and off that i didnt reciprocate and he made it weird and got bitter about it#and he became really good friends with the mean girl and her friends like he ditched our whole group for them#and it turns out he was really gay the whole time which in hindsight checks out having a crush on middle school me#was as close as you could get to liking a boy without having to admit you were attracted to boys#there were a lot of below the knee shorts and sports bras and large t shirts and unflattering super cuts hair cuts#but yeah that whole series of events probably did something to my brain chemistry#in the grand scheme of things shit happens it was middle school and early high school drama but god at the time it was devastating#and i shouldnt care i didnt think i did but at the same time#fucking ouch?!?!#my brother did say he asked how i was doing and he talked about how im a good skiier and im a nicu nurse and everyone seemed impressed#so theres that#but a small bitter part of me kinda wanted to hear that their lives sucked#and yeah no one wants to or deserves to be remembered as their 16 year old self theres every possibility that shes a really nice person now#she could have grown and changed#and yet#i kinda hope she steps in dog poop next time she leaves the house
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