#it made me tear up a bit ngl

[cvfegg]

i believe that Intrude by Thene on archive is one of the best snox fanfics I’ve ever read (and because there isn’t a lot unfortunately). hands down is THE one that I will reread. has so so much angst and bitter sweetness, i can’t get enough of it lmao

[witchwhaat]

sometimes, a movie that was randomly playing on tv on a tuesday night will break your heart a little in a best possible way

[sanji-screenshots]

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[unironicallytes]

btw if you haven't been listening to the new Skyrim OST replacer mod by Young Souls you really should be. It legitimately inspires emotions in me.

(Nexus link is in the video description. It works on the old vers of Skyrim too, just do manual install and uncheck the Creation Club options during set-up)

[winterlogysblog]

Overanalyzing King's POV

Part 2

Link to Part 1

Let's talk about Adoption

So Kiane adopted Mertyl and it's pretty obvious that it's a kept secret and that only a few people know the truth. Which is fine, in adoption parents tend to keep it a secret until the child is ready and prepared to know the truth.

And here's the deal, if King and Diane were just a normal Fairy and Giant couple that's all they have to worry about, but that's not the case here. King is the well the King and Diane is the Queen, they're royals and I don't think the fairies would be too pleased to know that their first prince is actually a human oh and not just any human. The human that was switched with their actual fairy prince.

Realistically, if Kiane we're to have told Mertyl that he's adopted. He'll still be in same situation, probably even worse. Fairies are already on his case, questioning his relation to Kiane. "Are you really their kid?" "You don't look like them at all!" Just imagine if Mertyl being their adopted kid is common knowledge. Their quips would be worse and would hurt Mertyl more. Kiane is trying to protect Mertyl from this, that's why they kept it from everybody.

At least now, yes they say these things to Mertyl but they acknowledge him as their prince because that's what they've been told and that's how he acts. They're actually really cool with Mertyl it's just to them, Mertyl is weird looking. So, even if the truth were to come out it wouldn't matter to them cause yes Mertyl is human but he's still Mertyl he's still their prince.

Now, why didn't Kiane tell Mertyl anything even though it's been 18 years. Cause Mertyl isn't ready yet, I mean based on Diane's expressions she knows that this secret is long overdue but in a way they can't do it cause it'll only break Mertyl.

Mertyl has always been insecure about himself and Kiane is trying to make him feel secure, shower him with love and affection in the best ways they could so that even if the truth would come out Mertyl knows that his parents loves him literally no matter what.

And they've done this, as shown in Mertyl's flashback but Mertyl still feels the way he does.

In a world where Mertyl is secure in his place, that he knows the love that his parents, siblings and everyone has for him. There will be no conflict between him and Nasiens. In this world Mertyl would actually feel happy that Nasiens is at their doorstep and would actually help and guide Nasiens into learning about their true identity.

Unfortunately, that's not the case here.

Mertyl saw King gave the Drug of Yore to Nasiens. Now this scene is just filled to the brim with misunderstangs that my only hope is for Sixtus to use his brain and talk it out with his pops.

Mertyl felt betrayed at this moment. This is his worst nightmare came to life.

There's this medicine that in his mind can cure him, can help him and Sixtus reassured him saying that their father is a kinder King than anyone out there and he'll give it to him.

Notice the phrasing here, they know their father's responsibilities as King, they can differentiate between his two roles. Yes, he's their father and he'll do anything for them but he's also the Fairy King, a being that has immense responsibilities and power. They're aware that there are some things that he can't do for them because he's the Fairy King.

But there he saw, his father giving the very thing he came there to ask for to Nasiens just like that. This is the ultimatum for him, so he ran off. Without knowing the full truth behind his father's actions.

Then, we have Nasiens, I love you but baby you kinda messed up on this one. He just jumped to his assumption here.

When King gave the drug, Nasiens refused and claimed that he's rather cruel for letting him run around and make medicine for Percy and fail everytime for the past 2 years only to give this to him now and argued that he should have given it to Mertyl.

Granted, Nasiens doesn't know that Mertyl is human so I guess good on you for having Mertyl's back. But Nasiens you can't just assume these things without knowing the full story, let the man explain. Regardless of King's reasons (I already made a post about it check it out if you wanna know my thoughts) in my eyes he made the thoughest decision a father could ever make here.

At this very moment, King is letting Nasiens go.

King knows what Nasiens is here for and he knows that the moment Percy wakes up they'll leave. King and Diane have suspected and confirmed to themselves that Nasiens is their kid. But Nasiens doesn't really need them, he's fine, he has friends that cares for him, he has hopes and aspirations, he grew up to be such a great person. To King, seeing Nasiens the way they are now and being able to take care of him for 2 years and help him with his goal, that is more than enough. King is letting Nasiens go because he knows that Mertyl needs them the most.

And here's the thing, I have a huge feeling that King decided on this a long time ago, that's why he didn't explicitly tell Nasiens anything for 2 years. And look at King's face here, he seems content, happy even.

King is willing to let Nasiens go without even saying that he's their father, without saying that they're family, without a hug, without a good heart to heart, not even a chance to hear the word Father from them, without any closure. None of that. Because King chose Mertyl

King chose Mertyl cause that's his son

King chose Mertyl despite the fact that he has finally found his firstborn

This is a sacrifice he's willing to make because that's how much King loves Mertyl

[ifwebefriends]

RIP Quincey P. Morris you were a real one 😔

Thank you for slam-dunking that undead bitch back to hell where he belongs

Say hi to Lucy for us 👋🥲😢😭

[pechaberriesandsoju]

Putting this under a read more just in case but gOD

I wonder if Wade and Logan would let me bite them when I get the urge to bite something in a violent manner and we're not near anything like a burger shop or something that I usually use to get rid of it. They'd just give me their arm and reassure me that they'll be fine. They'll calm me down as my teeth sink into their flesh, and tears of frustration and anger stream from my eyes. They'll ease me through it as I sit there and just let the urge out. Let it fade away. They know I mean no harm but always reassure me when I pull away because I'm worried about hurting them too much. But they remind me that I couldn't hurt them too much. Logan knows what it's like when your teeth and jaw just ache to sink into something. He knows what it's like to feel the way your anger just consumes you, and it gets so hard to get rid of when you need something physical for it. They get it. They understand.

They'd understand.

[robinsnest2111]

ahh how I love getting reprimanded for mistakes at work that have far reaching consequences for the entire business in the public eye <333

how to deal with intense suicidal thoughts as soon as you get a serious reminder how much you fucked up? asking for a friend

[jasonsbones]

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[stellar-collective]

Just sending anon love because I'm a bit shy. /silly

I love your art and I love how you do expressions. It's always a treat to see them when I do.

Please continue as long as you want to. I look forward to it. /gen

I honestly feel inspired to share my own creations whenever I see people like you enjoying what you do. It's contagious and I want you to know that.

i got this message a little while ago and i’ve been hanging onto it bc it made me smile every time i opened my inbox :] truly the artist’s dream to hear something like this!!!!! the sweetest thing EVER thank you so so so so much

[schizodiaries]

i just want to thank you because i’ve not found as much support and respect and help as i have from you, from any other nonprofessional person since i first had my psychosis. i’ve felt so alone, and your blog, your kind and generous and informative replies and your art as well has helped me feel stronger and more in control of what’s going on in my life. thank you for bringing light and kindness to us. i hope you get the right support yourself and that you get as much as you give to us!

Thank you anon, for your heartfelt words. I’m so happy that you’re able to find the strength to overcome your troubles, and I’m honored to have helped you find that strength. This is all I could ever ask for from the schizospec community, for everyone to have faith in themselves and not be afraid to exist, regardless of how the rest of the world sees us.

Wishing you all the best, and have a great day.

[paradoxgavel]

hi hello. i saw your tags and, as someone who lives very close to the ocean and has a parasocial relationship with it, i feel it is my moral duty to take you to the sea even if i can't actually take you there physically. so take a deep breath and close your eyes (metaphorically speaking, you do need them open to read this) and let's get you to the beach.

It isn't always this amazing, scenic destination like you see on postcards. Often times it's cold, it's windy, the sky is gray and the water is too loud. Sometimes the sun really beats down on you and the sand is pokey and itchy against your feet and there's too many people. Sometimes the beach just sucks.

But today you're stepping foot on the shore for the very first time, so today, it is perfect.

The sky is a blue so sharp and vibrant. It's dotted with clouds, a gentle scattering of pillowy white that shields you from the piercing sun. There's a breeze that soothes away the day's heat and sweeps handfuls of wildflowers to your nose, tangles of fresh seaweed, and a salt so potent it lands on your tongue.

You kick the shoes away from your heels and let your toes sink into the warm sand, and the soles of your feet are met with thousands of shells worn with time that cushion your weight with each step forward. The feeling is admittedly a little odd. There isn't a sting, but its course texture demands your attention, only easing into a softer hold against your skin as you near the water's edge, and your feet begin to sink, ever slightly, as the water laps with wide arms to call the sand underfoot back home.

It's here where something magical happens. When your toes curl into the muddy texture beneath and foam threatens to embrace you up to the ankles. The water — when you finally allow it to greet you — is cold and sharp like taking a deep breath on the first day of winter. This, unlike the sand, does have a bite. It's a feeling you don't mind — not after the second time the small wave dances against your ankles, or the third time, or the forth. It's a chill that tickles up your skin and reminds you that you are alive.

And the world continues to move. The wind blows petals from the trees and sweeps an umbrella from its place a few paces away, the birds overhead are circling with conversation, the ocean reaches for you with hands of cool seaspray. A child to your left is giggling and showing their mother the shell they just found. A dog barks from the walkway bench in the distance as its owner greets an old friend. The ocean stretches on before you, a blue more brilliant than even the sky, for miles and miles, as far as the eye can see and even past that.

You remember things that you thought you lost. Memories of being warm, of being cherished, of being alive and a part of life and you think that here, at what feels like the very edge of the world, that everything will be alright. You will be alright.

But maybe that's just the ocean talking.

Aww, Muzz, this was absolutely lovely! :'0

You have such a beautiful way with words, I swear. I really really loved this. Thank you so much!! ;v; 💕

[bibibifemme]

vvv proud of u!!! getting any chores done when ur brain is hating u & the world, is wicked :)) v well done

this is so nice of you 🥺 thank youuuu!! <3

[ink-flavored]

soft asks! 🥀🌾 im so torn between saying pride and justice (and) or feriha just cause i love hearing about her too hehe

thank you!! i will help your dilemma and do one of each! :3

🥀 How would your OC decorate a notebook or journal? What kind of things are written in there? Could you give an example of a nice entry?

I'll do Feriha for this one. I think she'd decorate it with physical things, like dried flowers or scraps of paper as keepsakes, bird feathers, etc. etc. She'd use it like a daily journal, cataloguing her day and the things that happened very matter-of-factly.

🌾 Describe your OC through the eyes of someone absolutely head-over-heels in love with them

This one is for the P&J fellas. Because they are in love <3 And I kinda wanna write this in their voices so here we go--

Pride, about Justice:

Oh, where do I fucking START? For a dude who flipped Heaven the bird, you'd think he'd have less of a stick up his ass. Can't go two minutes without getting a lecture about "manners" or "common sense" or "basic public decency." Yawn. Over it.

Like, I'm just saying. He's NOT in Heaven anymore, right? But he's still so fuckin' nervous about being a perfect little angel, can't go two steps without dropping everything to fix some random person's issues. Helping people is fine, whatever, but it's like he never gives himself a break. I want to shake him sometimes, you know? Lay off the personal responsibility for five minutes, you don't have Gabriel checking your quarterly reports this week, or whatever the fuck.

I don't know. Maybe him being nice to literally everyone isn't so bad. He's nice to me, even though he probably shouldn't be. It saved my life, so I guess I should thank him for it. He's also a huge nerd, which is hilarious. I can't believe he got fake glasses for fun, what a dork.

Justice... makes me feel like I suck. But in a good way? I want to... suck less, so I'm worth it for him. That's probably dumb. But I don't know what else to say. He makes me feel like it's possible for me to not suck one day.

Justice, about Pride:

Pride is... a handful. He's very loud, he can be inconsiderate, he can't ever admit he was wrong, and no matter how many times I tell him not to smoke in the house, he seemingly can't help himself from wearing his horns to bed and making everything in his room stink. Sometimes I wonder if he even listens to me.

He's been through so much pain, though. I try to remember that. No matter how annoyingly stubborn or impossible to talk to he can be, it's all because he thought for centuries he would always be alone. I can feel it all the time, this... constant guilt and rage in him. I can't hate him, I can't even try. It takes a lot of patience to understand him, but I don't regret a single second of it.

Because he's also fiercely protective of people he loves. He's passionate, he's encouraging, he does whatever he likes without thinking about what other people might tell him. All his choices are his own, for better or worse, and I admire him for that. He's slow to trust, but once he feels like he won't be hurt by you, Pride is a beautiful person. Someone worth abandoning Heaven for.

[send me a soft OC ask]

[starman-waitinginthesky81]

[d0d0-b0i]

I started T recently and i just read your post where you talk about how much happier youcurrently are, and it made me so happy and hopefull….

hell yeah man! to be honest, it wasnt just starting t that has made me happier (i've had support all-around from family and friends, plus a bunch of quality-of-life improvements just in general), but this is a very big step in the first place. im proud of you <3