#writing the POVs made me tear up a little bit ngl

[ink-flavored]

soft asks! 🥀🌾 im so torn between saying pride and justice (and) or feriha just cause i love hearing about her too hehe

thank you!! i will help your dilemma and do one of each! :3

🥀 How would your OC decorate a notebook or journal? What kind of things are written in there? Could you give an example of a nice entry?

I'll do Feriha for this one. I think she'd decorate it with physical things, like dried flowers or scraps of paper as keepsakes, bird feathers, etc. etc. She'd use it like a daily journal, cataloguing her day and the things that happened very matter-of-factly.

🌾 Describe your OC through the eyes of someone absolutely head-over-heels in love with them

This one is for the P&J fellas. Because they are in love <3 And I kinda wanna write this in their voices so here we go--

Pride, about Justice:

Oh, where do I fucking START? For a dude who flipped Heaven the bird, you'd think he'd have less of a stick up his ass. Can't go two minutes without getting a lecture about "manners" or "common sense" or "basic public decency." Yawn. Over it.

Like, I'm just saying. He's NOT in Heaven anymore, right? But he's still so fuckin' nervous about being a perfect little angel, can't go two steps without dropping everything to fix some random person's issues. Helping people is fine, whatever, but it's like he never gives himself a break. I want to shake him sometimes, you know? Lay off the personal responsibility for five minutes, you don't have Gabriel checking your quarterly reports this week, or whatever the fuck.

I don't know. Maybe him being nice to literally everyone isn't so bad. He's nice to me, even though he probably shouldn't be. It saved my life, so I guess I should thank him for it. He's also a huge nerd, which is hilarious. I can't believe he got fake glasses for fun, what a dork.

Justice... makes me feel like I suck. But in a good way? I want to... suck less, so I'm worth it for him. That's probably dumb. But I don't know what else to say. He makes me feel like it's possible for me to not suck one day.

Justice, about Pride:

Pride is... a handful. He's very loud, he can be inconsiderate, he can't ever admit he was wrong, and no matter how many times I tell him not to smoke in the house, he seemingly can't help himself from wearing his horns to bed and making everything in his room stink. Sometimes I wonder if he even listens to me.

He's been through so much pain, though. I try to remember that. No matter how annoyingly stubborn or impossible to talk to he can be, it's all because he thought for centuries he would always be alone. I can feel it all the time, this... constant guilt and rage in him. I can't hate him, I can't even try. It takes a lot of patience to understand him, but I don't regret a single second of it.

Because he's also fiercely protective of people he loves. He's passionate, he's encouraging, he does whatever he likes without thinking about what other people might tell him. All his choices are his own, for better or worse, and I admire him for that. He's slow to trust, but once he feels like he won't be hurt by you, Pride is a beautiful person. Someone worth abandoning Heaven for.

[send me a soft OC ask]

[ohmotherwhereartthou-if]

Another Mini Update (9/9/24)

Okay I know you all prefer big updates rather than a bunch of small ones but I can only write in small segments lately and I get a bit anxious if I don't share my current progress in a while. Gets worse when I don't have all the time to answer requests either. 😭

The IF is now at 55,817 words without code and 61,102 with code.

If you haven't read since the last official update, then this is a little more than a 5k word update.

What warranted this update is that I added a June POV in the end, I don't know how I feel about keeping it because I feel like it's too revealing about June's past.

I think I'd prefer to keep June's past a completely mystery for you all to learn about later but at the same time, I wanted to do a deep dive on how the character would be feeling at that exact moment. What was meant to be a little blurb turned out to be a much longer passage that made me tear up a little bit ngl.

Although me crying could just be me fully knowing the backstory lol.

Anywho, I left her POV as optional and I wanted to know your thoughts! Feel free to comment or submit your thoughts to the inbox so I can know to keep this in or not! 💙

Quick Link to Story: Link

Enjoy! Sorry it isn't more! 😅

[myloveforhergoeson]

reading round up REDO!

sorry for the double tag, first post didn’t save properly and i wasn’t able to give you all your flowers. please find them under the cut. i’m so embarrassed.

original here:

fic list:

assorted works of @ceruleanmusings <3

Blood Diamond; Year Five

ahh!! the blood diamond one shots are always so enjoyable to read and that make me think so much about my own characters and their backstories and childhoods as well. this one in particular really got to me; there isn't much room for childhood discussion in btrtv and the way you characterize young kendall and james made me MELT. so accurate to real kids, first of all, but there was so much shared about each other with just a few lines of dialogue. katie tugging james' hair at the end is like. the perfect precursor to their relationship as they grow older too lmao! i always look forward to your work :) <3

2. assorted works of @partiallypearl / @praetoravila <3

adorable kaela blurb

lolive ghost blurb

mighta found the one (but i need you too)

'cause i don't wanna keep you guessing

ipod shuffle challenge

all over again

pearl... darling.... there is nothing i love seeing more than your lovely works! from our dms to your full works, you are truly so creative it blows my mind! this month was no exception. the kaela blurb already had me by the throat... those two mean the world to me i mean it! and the various lolive blurbs and all over again... lord you had me crying with the last chapter of that one... and of course... the wag au one-shot... you are so sweet to me and my baby girl roxy, and that blurb had me literally giggling and kicking my feet hehehe. tysm for the sweet gift for my birthday <3 and your iPod shuffle challenge was so interesting! i love all the stories you chose to tell and how every word in the small drabbles packed a punch!!!! lovely as always <33 tysm for sharing :)))

3. assorted works of @selangkir <3

promptober one-shot!!

aughauifafvaibie there are never enough words to describe how well you write katie and the knights. even if this was just a short story reworked to be in kendall's pov, the strong ties between them are evident and i love the little quirks and rituals they all have that you sneak in there. how kendall instantly knows something wrong with katie, how katie pushes back against him, everything is just *chefs kiss* excited to read katie's pov if you ever wish to share that as well!!! <33

4. assorted works of @inkameswetrust <3

date night

god. in kames we DO trust. everything about this one-shot had me going through like. every single emotion possible for a person to feel. lyn is the character of all time + i love how james (and kendall, reluctantly) got to participate in a scheme akin to their youth to make sure her date goes perfectly :)) and the dual line between what was going on with lyn and Nathan helped kendall and james learn more about each other - even after being together for so long!! thought about this one for days ngl and the drawings you made live in my head rent free. im just 1000% obsessed thank you so so so much for sharing :)

5. assorted works of @naquey / @ithinkyouhealedmyheart <3

ghostwriter ch 3-8

AHHHHH RONNIE MY SWEET MY LOVE MY EVERYTHINGGG god the story you are weaving her for and kendall have me (affectionately) tearing my hair out. the way these chapters set up her relationships with most of the main characters is just so special. though everyone is just a little bit different than one another, and all the teens have their own special quirks, they're all still able to get along and make friends. i imagine in the tough Hollywood industry, that's all they have. ronnie slowly getting to know and opening up to the other girls, the band, guitar dude, and everyone else is so sweet! each chapter brings a new understanding to her character, and i love every little thing about her :) getting to read her and kendall's story is a privilege!! so excited for their future heheh <33

6. assorted works of @icegirl2772 <3

Take A Shot In The Dark Ch. 16

eee kaelyn!!! my sweet sweet girl!! this chapter follows one of my favorite episodes, and i love all the special additions you made for kaelyn and her story. so happy to read that she and neil are over... now james can step in and pick up her broken heart!! akifaiufaiufbaie i can't wait for them to get together, you've got me on the edge of my seat :))) <3

7. assorted works of @fiyero3305 / @fiyero0533

promptober one-shots!!

MY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!! thank you so much for using my prompt list, i'm so happy you were able to find inspiration from the things i put together this month :) though i am just a casual fan of the umbrella academy, from my two seasons of knowledge, i'm confident in saying i love your version of the characters even more lol! each blurb brought in a new sibling dynamic, something of your own to bring to the table. just blew me away, truly. my favorite was the cemetery prompt you wrote with ben. got my heart squeezing harder than ever before! and the one with the psychic and klaus and allison was soooo so so good. so happy you were able to get these out and share them ;) looking forward to more in the future

8. assorted works of @bunnyfern

a field of blooming tulips

ahh!! my lovely crowe!! i love her and james' story so much :)) the bad boy chapter never disappoints... crowe getting hints of home and talking to luka in the middle was so great! i love getting little glimpses of her life back home :) her ever-evolving relationships with the others at the palm woods is so adorable too!! always a pleasure to read <3

[reaganridleyenjoyer]

Reagan Ridley X Neglected! Child! Reader Oneshot

Ok so y'all know that Reagan x neglected child reader headcanons I made, right ? I couldn't help but feel an urge to also make a oneshot about it.

This will follow a similar scenario as the headcanons one so I advise you read that first (not required to understand where I'm going with this plot though.)

Enough blabbering, it's showtime !

Trigger warning : This one-shot will contain mentions of neglect, mental abuse and nearly fainting. If any of these things make you uncomfortable, please scroll past this post. You have been warned.

3rd person POV

In the middle of an alleyway you desperately searched for some kind of food, but alas anything you found was either disgusting or simply not enough to fulfill your hunger. With a sigh you leaned against the nearby wall as you swore you could feel your vision get blurry. All you could do now was close your eyes and pray someone will come by to help you. Not like that will happen though... Right ?

Reagan's POV

As I drove back home, I spotted out of the corner of my eye a kid. At first I didn't pay much attention but I soon noticed something very wrong with them. The kid looked skinny, TOO skinny to be exact. They also looked to be nearly fading into unconciousness.

I thought about what I should do, I couldn't just leave them ! That'd be heartless of me ! But I have quite a busy job so... I'm not sure about taking them in.

..Ah what the hell.

"Hey ! Need a place ?" I shouted at the kid, they turned around and their tired expression turned into one of happiness.

"Y-yes please !" The kid shouted back at me as they instantly got into my car in the back seat, I instantly drove back to my home.

Small timeskip

After putting on my regular clothes and giving the kid some food, I figured it was time to ask them about what was going on and why they were all alone in an alleyway.

"So kid, I got some questions for you. If you're comfortable answering them of course." I gently said.

"O-of course ! Ask me anything, it's the least I could do to repay you." The kid replied.

"Ok good, so, why were you alone in an alley ?" I asked, the kid's mood seemed to dip a little.

"I- I ran away from home." The kid revealed to me, I grit my teeth a bit before speaking up again.

"Why did you run away ? Did something happen between you and your family ?"

"My p-parents never cared for me, they always either i-ignored me completely or they would constantly insult me. Telling me I'm w-worthless and stuff like that." The kid answered.

I wasted no time and instantly hugged them, I knew the pain of having unloving parents, a shitty childhood...

There was something in me, telling me to take care of this kid. I- I needed to ! I wasn't gonna let them potentially be taken by another scumbag family !

"You're staying with me !" I declared to the kid as I ended the hug, they seemed surprised.

"H-huh ?" Was all they muttered.

"You're gonna be staying with me, I'll be adopting you. You won't have to go back to that shit- terrible family of yours."

Tears of I presume joy, ran down the kid's eyes as they once again wrapped their arms around me for a hug. Was what I doing here the best decision ? Probably not... but I made this choice, and I was gonna be sure to be the best mother I could to this kid.

I had so much fun writing this ngl.

Reagan I feel would be that type of mom who tries her best, she's not the greatest but she does try to make her kid(s) happy.

Alright, that's all for now.

Sayonora~.

[teecupangel]

*finally sits down to read Marriage Interviews this evening*

Damn, Clay’s shins are black and blue now. Desmond’s are a little too actually. Lucy better watch out tho, Desmond might put salt in her coffee for making him do all those interviews even if it was good in the end. Sappy happy fic was sappy, and I definitely teared up a couple times🥺 so good♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ I loved the back story in there too and all the references to the other kingdoms being different video game universes, I really loved that (mushroom kingdom rabbids reference made me snort out loud). And the ending!! Gosh. It’s like if this was 6 years ago I would keysmash……. Fuck it, aljdhdhdkalakfjfj.

Now. Now I shall put Zero Eclipse on my kindle and binge it. (I have read the first eleven chapters I think??) I have been putting it off for too long! I actually want to read it I don’t know why I haven’t 😭. Maybe that will be my Christmas read. I always need a good fic to read while recovering from the holiday overstimulation, so maybe I’ll read it these next couple nights.

I read the other updates too, and I think Continuous was my favorite update; not like the others where bad, in fact I really really enjoyed finding out the back story from Altaïr’s pov in fiat, but i actually kinda did a little squeak when Desmond realized he was bleeding Maria with Giovanni, lol. And ngl, I teared up a bit reading the first chapter of Persisting.😞

Thank you for the updates🙇🏼🙇🏼🙇🏼🙇🏼

Honestly, I think Lucy would have her hands full preparing the wedding with Kadar. And Desmond wouldn't have time to add salt in her coffee because he'll have his hands full as well.

I'm glad you loved this sappy happy fic. Honestly, I was planning on writing a mostly crack fic, the characters are the ones who decided to make it sappy. I'm not complaining. I liked how it ended up.

The other video game references were definitely because I made Ubisoft an actual shadowy character so it just made sense to add more video games into it (the Mushroom Kingdom Rabbids reference definitely made it there because I actually enjoyed playing that game... it's a solid strategy game).

You're planning to read Zero Eclipse while recovering from the holiday overstimulation? Uuuhhh... maybe I should warn you that Zero Eclipse can get quite... well... angsty so be careful? I really made that Angst with a Happy Ending tag work its ass off.

Oh, thank you! Altaïr's POV was fun to write. I honestly like writing in Altaïr's POV. Who knows? Maybe I'll finally write a multichaptered fic on his POV one of these days XD I feel bad saying I'm happy that the 1st chapter of Persisting made you tear up but that means I did a good job writing the angst there too. I am sorry for those who just wanted to read about Bayek fucking Desmond. And, yeah, full disclosures. I absolutely kept it vague who he was bleeding in the latest Continuous chapter 'cause I wanted to see if people would guess it was Giovanni before the 'big' reveal hahahaha

Thank you for reading them and taking the time to send this ask! I hope you enjoy reading Zero Eclipse! :)

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

1. Maybe this is just me, but in every story where Hades is the bad guy, you actually end up seeing his POV and why he’s the way he is, maybe even siding with him over the good guys, yet something like LO, which is destined purely to “make him the good guy”/“redeem” him while tearing everyone else down for his benefit actually makes him look downright evil, worse than any villainous depiction. Sorry, no amount of having daddy issues (which conveniently neither Poseidon or Zeus have) excuses him owning countless slaves, thinking he’s above the law, violently oppressing and abusing his citizens over any little slight or want he has, his greed, and creepy love for controlling young, impressionable women who he throws away when they finally grow a personality, and many other issues. Rachel wants us to look at this greedy, violent capitalist and see a good guy? That’s laughable at best, insulting at worst.

2. I kept up with the fast pass episodes just to see the train wreck but it’s so bad I can’t even bother anymore. There’s another Webtoon I read with good representation, romance, colors, and character designs and reading that masterpiece to then painstakingly read through Lore Olympus was like my own personal hell.

Like imagine making the past 7 episodes or so telling the audience how stupid they are for criticizing Hades and Persephone, and not using the basic knowledge of how court systems work in the court scene. I’d love to see her go to court and try to tell the judge he’s stupid and she’s justified for killing a bunch of people because she feels bad.

3. Okay the ask about Thanatos cucking his foster father is gold.

4. ngl, kinda funny the post saying the FAN voted ringo awards (so its basically a kids choice award, not a legit award by actual people in the comics industry) voted lo persephone "best hero" and the comments were almost entirely people questioning why shed be called a "hero" when shes a mass murderer and a bunch of people agreeing she doesn't deserve the title. idk if the tides are turning but critique/dislike of the series certainly seems a bit more present than it has in the past.

5. i severely doubt RS is keeping track of the plot at this point. Not only does she not have character sheets to keep colors or designs consistent, she also openly writes the week of for episodes, meaning it's very likely that minus basic ideas (hxp end up together. minthe "dies", etc) that everything is almost entirely made up as she goes, and it shows. the fact even the dedicated readers often can't tell what the plot is or what time it is is a bad sign in how she presents this information.

6. i agree with that other anon. LO already had a lot of issues, but it seems especially obvious now Rachel insisting she be a part of the fandom has seeped heavily into the actual comic, and it's gotten worse for it. Don't get me wrong, there are real criticisms Rachel should hear and hopefully fix, but instead she sees the critique and uses her weekly episodes to make up any excuse she can to justify her writing choices instead of fixing what she can. It's not just a waste of time, it's annoying.

7. LO stans are the wildest, they'll say every fiction has its share of flaws and then turn around and harass people who make even the mildest (yet absolutely valid) criticisms. You can be a fan of something and still criticise it, y'all know that right?

Also it's just hilarious that they'll complain about us 'antis' apparently just blindly shitting on this series and going out of our way to do so when in actuality, taking your blog as an example, I've seen nothing but a wide variety of criticisms and sometimes discussions.

There are both fans and non-fans choosing to make their opinions known here because you can't make a criticism of LO anywhere else without being talked down to, called stupid or something along those lines, or harassed, all of which I've seen on the webtoon comments and reddit.

I've seen and been part of my fairshare of toxic fandoms and LO stans really make this fandom one of the worst with everything they've done. 

8. This is like the most mild of criticism but why does lo have so many goddamn typos??? I saw someone mention this on reddit and another person come in saying RS had dyslexia and like okay well if she were still on discover then that's excusable but she's not? She's being paid for this? She's got an editor? She apparently has a proof reader? They should be catching all these typos before the chapter goes live.

Like there really shouldn't be an excuse to this amount of typos especially when you consider the fact people pay money for this

9. Y'all I'm gonna lose it, someone posted an info graphic of LO's timeline in the reddit and it's literally only been 4 weeks in canon and some people are commenting how that can't be right and it's not accurate because 'there have been so many scenes implying the passage of time' or how we just don't see them on their off days but??? There are literally so many people rereading to accurately gauge out the timeline and all coming to the same conclusion that it's been only a month????? Hello????? I am so close to just losing it this is so funny oh my god

10. When comparing Persphone vs Thanatos I’m being qualified in their fields verse nepotism, Thanatos was clearly a young child who couldn’t make his own decisions for his next step of life, his mother literally just dropped him in Hades’ Lap and left. Hades gave him that job and has complained about his performance, but like it seems like that is what he is the god of like idk of hades can fire him.

Persphone was technically a teenager  who did have choices. Hera signed off on it giving her approval but did that approval have to go through? Isn’t hades the king of the dead? Couldn’t he call Hera and he like “this isn’t a good idea since I have feelings for her” (which should be his first green flag out of the ocean of red ones to show he’s got half a mind not to mix business and pleasure AGAIN). But not just there, she gets the job winning at chess, (according to the gods is fine) she doesn’t know how to use a computer. Sure her training wasn’t the best, but Hecate said she was expecting more done by the afternoon and then we haven’t seen her work until after she kissed Hades and asked Minthe for help. (So we only see Persphone needing help for a job or just talking to someone but never actually working efficiently). And then to add another layer, she gets to see hades whenever she wants, she gets paid (which other interns haven’t been paid) but the narrative still says it’s not special treatment. Hades hasn’t even checked her work, or even made her work in probably over a year in real time. She’s just there.

Thanatos (child servant who has a bad relationship with foster father not doing the best at work) vs Persphone (handed mostly everything to her)

Yeah these two “special treatments” are the same. 

[phersphantum]

This is an ussop x male reader

This is my first time writing something like this so please take it easy on me but other then that please enjoy

Background info: - pronouns he/him -no devil fruit powers -you and usopp have been together for a couple months by now -you like to jump off of a lot of shit no matter how high sometimes you do get hurt but since you've been doing it for so long it doesn't faze you and doesn't hurt that much anymore

This will not be going in the same timeline or path as the anime/manga sorry kiddos

(S/t) skin tone (p/c) position on crew (y/n) your name (m/n) male name (h/c) hair color (h/t) hair type

Warnings: lil bit of angst

POV No one (author POV)

Y/n was chillin in the crows nest and then he realized that he never jumped off of it (he made it a point to jump off of everything in and on the sunny). Screaming "here I goooo" y/n jumped off onto the grassy portion of the Thousand Sunny. He tumbled and rolled as he hit the grass, then layed flat on his back. He sighed contently, but his head hurt a little and his was a bit dizzy too. Most of the straw hats (zoro was napping) ran towards the (s/t) boy frantically asking if he was ok. Luffy was the exception who went around screaming "SUGOI!" Even though y/n had been with the crew for sometime now, they couldn't seem to get used to the (h/c) boy jumping off of anything and everything he could. Poor Chopper-he had heart attacks every single time. He was always running after y/n with his little medical gear to make sure the poor boy wasn't on the verge of death.

Usopp POV

I ran up with the rest of the gang worried for my boyfriend. I got irritated with Luffy, because he just kept screaming "SUGOIIII!!! ✨✨✨" I ignored him and tried to get to y/n to see if he was ok but everyone crowded around him. They pushed me out of the circle and talked over me. I was so over it, so I yelled louder then I have ever before, "COULD YOU ALL SHUT THE FUCK UP!?! GOD I JUST WANT TO SEE IF MY DUMB BOYFRIEND IS OK!!!" The rest of the gang moved out of the way shocked at my tone. I stomp up to y/n and he smiles and waves and says "Hiiiii babyyyyy" in a kind of loopy voice. "How are you dummy?" I ask. "My head hurts some and I'm kinda dizzy" he replies. I sigh, then start talking softly "ok well bubba let's take you to choppers room and he can fix you up. Then we can spend the rest of the night cuddling. How's that sound?" Y/n tried to get up but I stopped him with my hand, and he says "yessirrrr".

Nobody POV

Usopp then proceeds scoop up y/n and take him to Choppers room, Chopper follows them.

Time skip (brought to you by Sanji's one eyebrow

After Chopper gave y/n a diagnosis Usopp took him back to their shared room. Usopp then layed y/n down in bed and straddled him pouting (it ain't goin that way ya nasties 😤). Y/n looked at Usopp confused, "what's wrong my little sharpshooter?" Usopp blushed but still pouted, "You have a fucking concussion! Why? Cause your dumb ass decided to jump off the crows nest like a fuckin dare devil!" Y/n started to get a little upset, "ITS NOT LIKE I'M FUCKING DEAD! I'M STILL ALIVE AREN'T I?!" Usopp finally let his anger out, "YOU COULD BE DEAD!! YOU'RE NOT LIKE LUFFY OR ZORO OR SANJI!! THOSE GUYS ARE SUPER CRAZY POWERFUL MONSTERS!! THERE'S ONLY ONE OF YOU! WHAT IF ONE TIME IT'S WORSE THEN A CONCUSSION" Y/n felt insulted that Usopp had tried to compare his strength to those three. He screamed, "FUCK YOU I MAY NOT BE AS STRONG, BUT I CAN HELP AND DO THINGS THEY CANT!! I CAN HANDLE MYSELF!! DON'T THROW YOUR INSECURITIES ON ME-JUST CAUSE YOU'RE WEAK DOESN'T MEAN I AM!"..."I GET IT... I know, I'm weak. I know that when it comes down to it I can't even protect you... I mean look at you... you're hurt and I can't even help... I can't do anything to make sure you're ok y/n..." Usopp had tears in his eyes. As he turned away to get up y/n grabbed his wrist and pulled him into a hug. "Whatcha talking bout silly? You've saved me so many times with your amazing sniper skills. I'm sorry about the insecurities thing, I lashed out, and that wasn't ok. But remember no matter what, you'll always be my Sogeking" y/n gave a warm smile. Usopp smiled back "I'm sorry for yelling at you. Just don't scare me like that anymore please?" Y/n nodded "got it boss" Usopp kissed y/n's cheek. "Now my lovely first mate, as per the doctors orders-you need to stay in bed." Y/n laughed "nahhh I'm fineeee". Usopp shakes his head, "if you don't I'll tell Nami and Chopper and they'll give you more then a concussion" Y/n sweat dropped "jeez Sogeking is scary sometimes".

This was pretty fun to make ngl it's not edited yet but my editor will be editing soon tho I bet she probably won't be too happy cause I can't spell for shit lmao 😂 so until then I apologize for anyone reading this rn but until next timeeeee byeeee

My editor killed me for how bad this was but here it edited

[chubsonthemoon]

tagged by @storybookprincess!! (thank you!!) here are some of my fave fics I’ve written! tbh this was kinda difficult; I am very aware that nothing I write is neither perfect nor very polished (it wouldn’t be even remotely fun for me if I tried to do that), but mostly everything I’ve written I’ve written for the sole audience members of me myself and I (and also sometimes a friend :3), so these are some of my more recent faves. under a cut because this got kinda long, whoopsie!

tagging! @superish, @dodici12, and @owletstarlet! <3

Letters from Heaven: haikyuu!!, kagehina, 60k

this fic was written for last year’s kghn big bang and it was so fun! It’s the longest thing I’ve written yet, and boy oh boy it was such a challenge to juggle a bunch of different things that I hadn’t done on this kind of scale before, like longer character arcs and, especially given that this is a violet evergarden AU, describing things in a way that fits with kyoani’s style and VibeTM. My last longer fic, thy kingdom come, was about half this length and almost made the list simply because of how bonkers it was (like I hadn’t written at all that year and suddenly signed up for a big bang and then had to take a month long break in the middle because of school stuff, and then boom I ended up writing the latter half of it a few days before the deadline LOL), but anyway. It’s not perfect (nothing is!) but it’s chock full of recurring metaphors and long-winded descriptions about the sky and pining out the wazoo (basically: all wildly self-indulgent things catered to me and me alone) and I love it all the same. (also bajillion thanks to janine for this one heh she is to blame for most of my kghn madness)

over the edge (of all our knowings): hunter x hunter, killugon, 13k

okay this one almost went to my other killugon fic again bc everything I write is so self-indulgent but!! this fic is probably one of the few fics that I set out to write very intentionally? that sounds weird, hmm how to explain. I tend to write fic mostly to let out Emotions but tbh it’s so much easier and way more fun for me to do that through reading other people’s works--less work for me to read abt my faves than to write them, after all! so most of what’s on my profile before this fic is exactly that: I sat down at like one in the morning with my notebook and fever-dream scribbled out a oneshot that I spent maybe the next two or three days typing up, reading over once, and then yeeting it up onto the archive. but not with this fic! I had already written my Vent fic for the boys in question, but my goals with this fic were more deliberately geared towards examining and changing up my approach to writing: 1) I really wanted to explore gon after the world tree and what his healing might look like, but gon is Really Hard for me to write (the boy is so!! ARGHSLKDFJ). So: deeply inhabiting unfamiliar character pov practice. Asking myself, after every single line of dialogue and event and inner monologue, how this character would react and why. How will this impact their next action? How will it impact their relationship with this other character? How about this? and this? and so on and so forth 2) I wanted to find a balance with my metaphors on both a sentence by sentence and an overarching basis (I tend to just go for the first--I can’t help it I love purple-y prose jslkdfj). 3) Time!! I also went a lot slower with this one. Every night for over a month, writing a little bit at a time in my notebook. And I found that going slower...is actually really nice? Takes a lot of the stress away. tldr; this fic was basically one long exercise in me examining my writing (also ngl my creative writing professor’s feedback on my work for class really kickstarted this LOL) and boy oh boy was it satisfying to see it posted when I finished. I learned a lot! Also I got some of the kindest comments that made me tear up, which was so wonderful. god this got long okay moving on.

your heart, bright heart: natsume yuujinchou, tanunatsu & gen, 7k

after over a year of quarantine I’ve read more fic than I ever have in my LIFE and I have figured some stuff out about what makes me go absolutely bonkers, writing-wise. this fic was an attempt, after several months of reading literally hundreds of fics across dozens of fandoms and relationships and pairings (like geeze! hxh, run with the wind, hq, yuri on ice, the great pretender, ouran highschool host club, snk, mdzs, final fantasy xv, and yes natsuyuu too LOL), an attempt at making myself go bonkers, if you will. and I still can’t quite put my finger on what it IS but I know it has something to do with the naming of things. like an author will Name a Thing, very specifically, whether it is an action or a character thought or something very simple about the environment--and that something speaks volumes about the character and their relationships and the core themes of the series and it’s like. it’s like there’s a moment of understanding between that character and the reader, an oh! I know what that means. it’s wonderful and I’m butchering the explanation here but anyway. I still have no idea how to do this myself yet but goddammit I’m gonna get there one day. This fic was my first attempt in the Naming of Things. idk if there are any oh! moments in it myself, but natsuyuu is the perfect series for the kind of quiet that I think you need for those small moments. 

holy SHIT this got long uh. if you’ve made it this far--thank you?? this was also useful for me to articulate what the hell I’m doing in hamsterland. Recently a visiting poet came to one of my classes at university and talked about language-making as a physical art. Language has a physical existence, she said; it leaves the body and enters another and causes a physical reaction in both speaker and listener. She talked about how writers are creators of physical things, and how writing is mostly thinking before the creating. The physicality of language. To say it made me lose my marbles is an understatement!! tldr; there’s so much inspiration everywhere, and I wanna write more!!! So I’m gonna!!

[sailorhyunjinz]

Part 10 of Hyunjin and Me Fantasy:

*Hyunjin's POV*

I knew Laila was having a hard time with this whole situation going on. It's been tough trying to comfort her through it all when even I can barely keep myself composer. We both had a little bit of a breakdown that night, but once we went to sleep Laila woke up in tears and told me that she had a nightmare about me. Judging by the details she told me, it seemed like she was terrified of even the thought of me going away for so long. She wanted to go take a shower which I let her do because I knew it would be good for her even though I didn't want her to leave my side. Based off everything that happened in that one night I was starting to think about whether or not I should've done this and almost considered terminating my contract for the show, until Laila came out the bathroom.

She laid back down on the bed with me and said, "Baby listen, don't cancel your role on the show just for our relationship. Trust me, I know we'll miss each other a lot but we need to do this so that we build boundaries for ourselves in this relationship so we could stay together for a very long time. And this show is getting you closer to achieving your dream of becoming a famous singer, remember?" My eyes lit up as she told me this. "But I just hope you understand this and realize that this is just part of growing up as well.", She continued. Once I realized that she wanted me to follow my dreams, even when I was willing to give it up and for the both us. I embraced her in my arms. "I'm just happy you took all of this into consideration and that your ready to part ways for a while." She squeezed me tighter after that. We went back to sleep then woke up the next morning and got ready for school.

*My POV*

Almost two weeks have past since that night we finally came to an understanding. In that time me and Hyunjin made used of the days we had left. We spent that time remembering old times and new times and made plans for what we were going to do when I visited him. The both of us started thinking about what it be like if we got married and had kids together, I told him I couldn't wait for those days to come. It's the day before Hyunjin leaves and we were in his room packing his stuff for Korea sense his whole family was moving back with him and were going to be living there permanently. All was left was his bed and comforter set, in the last few hours we had, Hyunjin started kissing me while he laid me down on the bed. I already knew what was going to happen but when it did, he was thrusting slow and softly which I was surprised at first but then quickly started to enjoy the closeness we felt in that moment and overall it just felt different. So I guess in a way we made love, now don't get me wrong this isn't the first time sex has been like this but considering this was the last we would for a while, it was something very special and meaningful.

It was the night Hyunjin was leaving for the airport. Everyone drove to the airport together so we could all say our goodbyes because it wasn't just me and Hyunjin that were close. Our parents have also been a major part in each other's lives. I hugged Umma and Appa away and hugged Hyunjin the longest with little tears in my eyes. "Make sure to call me when you land okay." "I will.", I heard the shakiness in his voice then rubbed his cheek wiping the tear rolling down it away and smiled one last time. Our parents were watching us with visible tears in their eyes as well. The Hwang family then disappeared into the crowd of the airport. And that was the last time I was gonna see Hyunjin for a while.

It was actually kinda emotional writing this ngl so a little praise for this would be good right about now 😢😞

I'll be taking each part of this story and extend them once I start my blog so prepare for that. They will be a lot more detailed😊😊. But I hope you enjoyed this little series I had🌺.

OOOH THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING THIS ON MY BLOG <33 i loved every part T-T

ahhhh i wanna know what happens next,,, i feel like we already know but still- AH IM SO EXCITED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS SO THANK YOU FOR WRITING ONCE AGAIN <33

[my-name-stitch]

Here’s my 2 cents about Infinity War: Vision isn’t going to die in it. 

Marvel wants to hit people where it hurts, and Vision... just won’t.  He’s been in very minor roles for the two movies he’s been in.  There’s actually a (possibly large) portion of people that hate him (I don’t know why?  He hasn’t done much, honestly), so I think the biggest takeaway from killing Vision in IW would be... nothing, essentially.  A lot of people are indifferent about him because he’s such a minor character - people don’t know what to think about him, I’d say.  On top of that, his character arc is still ongoing because it was literally introduced in the end of Civil War (since he wasn’t much more than “oh hey here’s another hero - and he’s neat” in Age of Ultron, especially when compared to Wanda and Pietro who got arcs (rushed arcs because they had minor roles as well, but arcs nonetheless)).  Storytelling-wise, there’s absolutely no reason to kill him.  Yet.  

I don’t remember who said it (Sebastian Stan?), but when the news that a character will die within the first 15 minutes was revealed, people automatically thought Vision.  It’d be poor writing imo, and now we have some Wakanda footage revealing Vision is in the endgame.  We also, unusually, have a lot of Scarlet Vision content (unusual because - well, look at the huge hero roster, and then remember both Vis and Wanda have only had minor roles so far.  Plus, the Avengers films... the most romance I can remember is Tony calling Pepper in the end Avengers and having 12% of a moment, and that bit of Bruce/Nat in Clint’s home in AoU?  Nothing exactly explicitly romantic, and here we have the leaked clip of the Scarlet Vision kiss plus their fights and them so far shown to always have physical contact).  Marvel is setting people up to hopefully like Vision - or, at the very least, people will have an opinion on him by the end of Infinity War.  

The climax of IW will include him (and Wanda) - I can almost guarantee it with the most recent clips and the second trailer.  Originally, the war in Wakanda made no real sense unless the Soul Stone was there, but now I’m thinking the Soul Stone reveal won’t be until Avengers 4.  Infinity War is going to be all about the Mind Stone and the Time Stone (because Thanos has the Space Stone and the Power Stone in Wakanda - those two, especially the Power Stone, will be blow off gets imo.  Thanos will quickly get the Space Stone and I’m betting the Guardians + Thor will go see he’s already gotten the Power Stone after that fight).  Both Vision and Strange get away after the first assault on them (the fight in Edinburgh is 100% the first assault on Earth, and then the scene with Strange, Wong, and Tony in a street is probably the second - might be a little simultaneous, but I think the Edinburgh fight will be the first shown since we now know Gamora could be with Strange and co at that time, which would be before Tony calls Steve on the phone seen in the first trailer).  I’d even venture to say Strange doesn’t keep the Time Stone (because that pointy bit with him looks like torture to me - easier to kill then take the stone, because Thanos knows how to use it already.  Why torture a potential threat and keep him alive to bite you in the ass later?) and hides it/passes it to someone else and act like a red herring so that person has time to hide/escape/do something.  There might even be two climaxes, to to speak (one with the Mind Stone in Wakanda, one with the Time Stone in space - because so far, we’ve seen they’ve broken up the heroes into two teams.  Ex. Tony hasn’t been shown in Wakanda yet (neither has Peter, Strange, Wong, the Guardians, or Thor), but he was shown in space/on a different planet with the rest of the people who haven’t been seen in Wakanda.  The same applies to Steve and co, only the opposite (seen only in Wakanda and not space)).  Probably to try and keep track of all the different characters ngl, though it might make the movie messier/harder to keep track of?  

But yeah.  IW’s climax is going to revolve around Vision, and there will be a lot of screentime for him and Wanda (compared to their previous movies and keeping in mind they’re minor characters).  If they’re going to kill him, it won’t be in IW.  They might leave his fate in limbo at the end of IW tho.  I’d do it.  The build up means something, and there’s no reason to build him up if they’re not going to tear him down (which also doesn’t necessarily mean killing him permanently in the human sense since he’s not human).  Bettany has also helped with the possible limbo situation - he’s confirmed he’ll be in A4 (and he also posted that pic to Insta featuring the Mind Stone when people thought Vision was going to die in Edinburgh, and he also implied Vision doesn’t die if the Mind Stone is taken from him in an interview (which was also at the time people thought Vision would die/the Mind Stone would be taken in Edinburgh)), but he didn’t get flack from Marvel like Sebastian Stan, Mark Ruffalo, and Tom Holland have when they revealed spoilers.  Bettany is also pretty good at public speaking (as in not revealing things) imo?  He never let anything slip before, in any case.  Why start now?

... yeah that’s it lol.  I’d be way more worried about A4 than IW for Vision’s fate imo.  But I could also be thinking too much about it since I’m definitely not looking at this from a movie screenwriter’s/director’s POV, which is different since they’ve got 3 hours, max, to tell a story with 30+ heroes (with arguably 6+ main characters being forced together) with clashing storylines that all have to be tied together in some sort of coherent fashion. (I have done this before because my favorites always end up being the side characters that, by ending act, get pushed to the side for the main characters no matter how much they were built up around the middle acts.)  I also personally think all of this might end up being a jab at Wanda and not Vision - possibly to expand her powers.  Depends on where they want to go with her since she can’t very well say, “No more mutants.” ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[nobravery]

This Isn't GoodBye

a Shawn Mendes Imagine.

A/N: ngl i cried like 752 times while writing this. this isn't a happy story at all. if y'all want to be even sadder, read this while listening The Portrait and Never an Absolution from Titanic (James Horner) on repeat, i did it and i'm still sobbing rip. PS: there's actually no real dialogue so there aren't my weird inverted commas lol. — TRIGGER WARNING — mentions of depression, suicide (i tried to be soft with the terms as much as possible). WordCount: 3,952

Several days later, I was back from tour, which had just ended. Finally. This was the only thing I’ve been waiting for. This tour was probably the longest and the worst one. Pretending to be alright whereas I was completely destroyed inside, smiling falsely… It was really hard to bear the whole. It was hard not to cry in front of everyone. It was hard to hold back my tears. My eyes were filled with tears constantly. Whether it’s in the streets or while performing. And it’s still the case today. It was four in the afternoon now and I was driving to the cemetery. Once I arrived, I didn’t get off my jeep right away. I waited one or two minutes before. I eventually reached the entrance. The place was deserted. I walked to her grave, a bunch of hydrangeas I had bought earlier in hands. They were actually her favourite flowers. I brought a red rose too, in reference to my song Roses, one of her favourite ones. I finally reached “her”. There were quite a lot of flowers around the headstone. Some faded. Delicately, I put the bunch in front of it. I still had the rose in my right hand, twirling the stem with my fingers. I sat on the ground, and smelled the rose, as red as it might be. This rose was so reddish, full of life. I glanced at it before laying it just in front of the hydrangeas. Then I rubbed my hands together, nervously, trying not to bite my nails. She has always hated that, when I did. Afterwards I noticed small tears hitting my wrists. I kept silent for about three minutes, before eventually breaking it. I reached out my hand to touch the cold marble headstone. I started rubbing it, as if I was actually stroking y/n’s skin. “I miss you, y/n.” I declared. “My life means nothing without you. It’s a mess since you’re gone.” I fell silent, like if she was about to reply. I was facing the headstone. “The tour was great. But definitely the worst one, you know. I tried to act as normal as possible, but I won’t lie to you, it was really hard to seem alive in the others’ eyes.” I paused, taking a breath. “As regards tours, I’m gonna take a break. I’m not saying I’m having a career break, I’m just talking about touring. I just can’t for the moment. But I promise, I’ll start again later. I need a break now. You understand… I need to stay with you… I—I regret that I wasn't–” I was interrupted by sobs. Meanwhile, my fingers were nervously playing with blades of grass now. It was just horrible to know that she was just a few feet underground. I wanted to hold her in my arms, more than ever. “I read your letter every single day. I almost know it by heart. This is crazy. I promise you, I remember every single thing you wrote on it. I think about you all the time. Without exception.” I’ve been talking for almost three quarters of an hour, telling her my life-story—at least what’s left of it—, giving some news of the crew—the guys truly missed her as well—, still this lump in my throat, still this knot in my stomach, still the same pain. “I hope that you’re at peace just like you said. I’m sure you are. I miss you… Everyone misses you… Your parents, mine, Aaliyah… Everyone. Absolutely everyone. I miss you so much, darling… I wish I could still hug you…” And thus I talked again. And again. Then it was getting dark. Night fell quickly in December; it was only five to ten. Still sitting, I raised my eyes to heaven. I gazed at the sky, remaining silent. I felt as if y/n was observing it with me. I imagined she was just next to me, her arm around my neck, her head on my shoulder, our fingers intertwining. I watched the sky attentively. My look stopped as I noticed something particular. Something shining. Something was actually sparkling. A little star. The littlest one among the others already out, and yet the one who was sparkling the most. At five o'clock. I didn’t smile. I probably looked neutral. I was still sad, distraught, destroyed, hurt. And that was an understatement. But I remembered the letter. “This isn’t goodbye.” I murmured, my eyes wet with tears staring at this unique little star.

A/N: i hope you survived. just to let you know that… never do bullshit and stay alive. don’t kill yourself. you are loved. don’t hurt your circle, don’t destroy your family, your friends. i know it’s easy to say but i’m myself struggling with chronic depression and i often want to die tbh. but i’m still there. for the loved ones. my friends and my family. think about the loved ones. don’t make them suffer. think about the consequences. nobody deserves this. get help from somebody if you need to. and if ever you need to talk to me or smth, my dm are always open, i’ll help as best as i can. ‹3