#it literally says no phone conversations

[zerogravityinq]

whoever perpetuated the idea that libraries are the free version of WeWork I wanna have a talk with them. Like 5 minutes. I have a device that literally has one very loud word to say to them

[one-winged-dreams]

didn't even make it to FUCKING midnight

[such-a-happy-mess]

how to explain to my mom that she can end a conversation if she wants to

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

[strawberrysweater]

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[erandri]

My villain origin story is the fact that delivery drivers now call your cell phone to say they've arrived instead of just ringing the fucking doorbell

[nexus-nebulae]

it's so dumb that we still feel awkward about creating willogenic headmates in our sys when we literally found out we were plural through the tulpa community

[ourceliumnetwork]

it is not slacking off to write or create it is not slacking off to do things that are fun i am not slacking off or procrastinating right now i'm allowed to do things i enjoy doing for fun including playing games and writing and such

[pondscummy]

so me and roommate L talked on Sunday and I finally like aired some of my grievances and was like hey you really hurt me w how you treated me during my recovery and I realized I actually really don't feel like I can safely communicate with you and I haven't felt like I could for a very long time. and they did apologize and we decided to just be polite roommates and not friends at all and that's a big relief honestly bc now I'm not carrying around this tension the way I was before bc I know there's not expectation from either side but like. it's also freed me up mentally where I'm not thinking about all the immediate stuff anymore and instead I'm like remembering various random things that pissed me off but weren't big enough to focus on before lmao

the one I'm stuck on rn is how insistent they are that I'm on the spectrum. idk they do a lot of explaining myself to me that makes me like. bro shut Up you don't know what my lived experience is like lol you have no concept of anything. which. for context I have a dx and I thought I was on the spectrum for years and years but weirdly enough going to therapy and working through my ptsd made a lot of those symptoms just.... start vanishing. and one of my friends had been undiagnosed for the same reason so it got me thinking about it and talking to my therapist at the time and like. ptsd can present rly similarly. like I was neglected and abused as a child and I literally did not learn social skills, and I was very fearful of other people. as I like worked through the stuff that had instilled that in me and found my stride w stepping out of my comfort zone and getting comfortable being uncomfortable I really don't find it particularly hard to talk to people. I retook the RAADS and I got that I have tendencies but am not anywhere near diagnostic level. I'm literally moving states bc I find the idea of being in a new place and starting from scratch socially rly exciting and I want to like go out to events on my own and meet people both through apps and more organically and I want to get to be in the office with my coworkers like. obv there's more to a dx than just social anxiety but the things that my dx was primarily based in (social anxiety, need for stability/routine, aversion to connection, even sensory issues) are so easily linked back to trauma for me and like. being on the spectrum doesn't go away w therapy?? also I've found it harder and harder to befriend other people on the spectrum; I find I have less in common as time goes on and that my communication style is more focused on like small talk and less directness etc. and I don't tend to get special interests at all anymore like I find it a little difficult to discuss interests w people for long periods of time.

anyway idk my experiences just make me think that it was an incorrect dx but a rly understandable one. I'll probably always have tendencies and get along pretty well w others who do or who are on the spectrum but like I just don't think that I am. and whenever I tried to talk about this with them they'd shut it down and be like um I'm pretty sure you are lmao. and when we talked Sunday I made a comment about making some assumptions about their facial expressions at one point and they were like well we're both on the spectrum so. and I was like my guy I can read facial expressions just fine. if you're saying I can't read yours accurately bc You're on the spectrum then fine. sure. I actually think it's bc you're always so fucking stoned that every muscle in your face is dangling from the frame, personally, but like. i don't have this probably of misreading anyone else dude. like ffs stop armchair diagnosing me and acting like bc you said it then it's law. UGHHHHHHHHHGGGHHHH. it would be one thing if I thought they were saying this stuff bc they think I'm distancing myself out of internalized ableism or something. but it really seems more like they bring it up only to tell me how bad I am at things. which like I'm sorry lmao but. if I'm not giving this vibe to anyone else and I'm not displaying symptoms predominantly in my day to day life and if they're rly seeming to be correlated to my ptsd, maybe you're literally just triggering for me to be around. asshat

[theradicalace]

how long do you think you'd have to be in a time loop before you noticed because i DEFINITELY would not notice on the first dayloop

[trans-yllz]

I thought that I rlly liked my boss but the way that she tries to guilt trip ppl when they can't come in and tries to make it Their problem is rlly rubbing me the wrong way like. yes it is my responsibility to show up to work when I am able. but it's not my problem that we are under staffed and so unorganized that someone calling out sick is a disaster

[saintvampe]

—   𝐌.   |  IT COMES EASY, EASIER THAN BREATHING, WANTING THIS WOMAN. as if the woman were a part of her... a kidney, a liver, an artery of her beating heart. for the first time in a month, they are separate from each other, " –– A whole ocean between us," whispered against the phone's receiver. the Saint ( ! ) finds herself reclined in her lounge chair, legs propped against one arm; she shapes her nails with a black glass file and the phone sits between her shoulder, her ear; she listens to the woman on the other line and pretends... Anya is talking of her day, of the research she had completed, all those words Seraphina admires her for loving. her response comes quick as a bell –– "I've still got those papers you sent me.. I'm working through, I promise." –– and her eyes drift closed when the woman laughs, her voice a melody this woman [ this damn lovestruck woman ] commits to memory.

the static between them turns away from voices. it gives way to silence, to scratchy noise. she [ @lunaccult ] speaks again, the way she holds her words different than what the Saint is used to. her mouth goes slant as she hears: I miss you. Seraphina laughs, I miss you too, –– and the woman on the phone interrupts, speaks again: ❛ i miss you. it feels like a piece of me has been torn out. it hurts. it’s physical. ❜ and her mouth goes slack.

❝ oh, darling... ❞ like melted snow, words soft against the static air. grief swings as a strung bell, hollow and heavy in the center of her chest. loss is a swallowing tar pit, she thinks. she has been being pulled under its black for too long now. there is no need to accelerate its tug. a short breath is taken before she tries her hand: ❝ i miss you, too, i ( ... a pause, a jumbled tongue ... ) when can i see you again ? ... i think of you every day. every hour. my bed's boring without you in it. ❞

[orcelito]

Pet peve of mine is ppl who genuinely call Akechi stupid. Like yes he makes some Real stupid mistakes & yes he faked most of his "solved" cases. But his wit in Sae's palace is real, & also he's like top of his school lol u can't forget that.

Akechi's smart, he just has a terminal case of Being A Fucked Up Teenager

[mx-paint]

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[firstluvlatespring]

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[littlelambii]

no amount of witnessing my mom struggle financially my whole life could have prepared me for the 4 hours of begging my bank to give me a small loan so i can buy food for the rest of the month