#it is so fun to me and I enjoyed this exercise hehe

[swordmaid]

so sad my og tags on the shri’iia drawing is gone!! but here’s my comprehensive Thoughts on her clothing bc I wanted each piece to reflect on the narrative I have for her 🫰🫰🫶 shri’iia’s clothes (especially the upper half) are mostly costumes for her since her original assignment was to track down the drows who went missing (like a baenre noble and her entourage goes missing and shri’iia was assigned to figure out what happened maybe kill them if they betrayed lolth) but then she gets abducted by the nautiloid before she ever reaches the surface. so more thoughts under the cut!!!

• underwear

obvi based off the default underwear elves get BUT I like recolouring it to black/red because it gives a more ~sexy vibe, and that’s intentional since even her underwear is a costume! it’s what you expect drows to wear! and the only scene where you see her naked in her underwear is in the act 1 romance scene and in that point she has JUST broken her oath and she’s lost, delirious, kind of drunk. I didn’t add it but shri’iia is also supposed to be wearing a choker necklace that has the sigil of her matriarch’s house in the pendant - like a dog collar !!!! - and in the romance scene, she’ll be naked but she refuses to take off the choker since she’s still in denial about losing lolth’s favour, she wants something that she finds comfort in close to her. anyway, her underwear is a sexy looking lingerie and she’s probably wearing a thong and it’s very in line with the stereotypical sexual attire drows are known to have, and it’s part of the ‘surface costume’ that she wears — it’s not entirely her own style, she doesn’t have one yet.

camp clothes

the design of her camp clothes (besides it being based off the ones in game and makes her cleavage look so great hence why I always give it to her lmfaoooo) is also similar to her underwear where it’s mostly like a costume and not her own entire style. it’s a sexy corset that makes her look sm snatched and I imagine she went for that vibe in the off chance that she’ll need to seduce anyone—and she’s thinking that she might because she’s heard how the surface thinks drows are exotic and sexy so she’s using that to her favour.

it looks too tight on her and it looks uncomfortable which is intentional. she’s more concerned with the image that she gives off than actual comfort. overtime when she’s not wearing her facade anymore, she loosens the corset so it’s not as tight and I can see her getting new camp clothes altogether when they reach the city because she has no need to wear that costume anymore.

act one

her paladin costume!!! even though she’s a real paladin…. she doesn’t explicitly share the nature of her oath, only that she is one. she’s supposed to be an oath of the crown paladin of lolth as well but that’s not available in game so I just make her vengeance lmfao. but it’s very important that compared to her other outfits, her act one armour looks cleaner, obviously unworn. there’s no blemishes on the armour and the metal still shines. it’s very clear that it’s recently bought, and the tabard she wears under the cuirass doesn’t bear any sigil and the pattern is unassuming. the image that she is going for is a drow paladin who lives in the surface, and the costume is her idea of one. as act one goes on I can see her backstory becoming more convoluted as more questions come in, and there will be things that are conflicting like how she’s a wandering paladin adventurer but then her boots are too clean with no signs of travel.

as for her hair, im not sure if it’s canon or not (I want it to be!!!!!!!) but I like the idea that hair is a symbol of beauty amongst drows and they favour long hair in intricate braids that resemble spider webbings. I like the idea that in the first night her hair is done in an intricate braid behind her but they get simpler throughout the act 1 journey since she has no time to braid it and in the end, it’s just in a single plait she wears around. she cuts off her hair after she becomes an oathbreaker though, so the long haired shri’iia dreams are short lived 😮‍💨

act two

this is when she got over her denial and every existential crisis that came with it and embraced her oathbreaker title + her newfound freedom. she is dressed more like a knight now, and the armour is supposed to look pretty generic like something you’ll get from a standard forge, and I imagine she got it from last light where there’s more access to better equipment compared to the grove. anyway it’s still more of a costume to her since she’s in this stage she’s trying out her new oath, and she’s actually being more ‘knightly’ now in a sense that she’s now willing to do more good deeds just for the sake of doing good, and she’s following her own intuition rather than relying on a higher figure (like her matriarch) to make choices for her. i also think that’s the first time she wears heavy armour since drow gear usually leans more on light/medium weight so she def looks and moves a bit clunky and awkward.

it’s a transformative period for her appearance wise and in her own story! now she is tasting this freedom she’s left with and she’s seeing what she can make out of it, and what will happen to her. she’s free more or less, but she doesn’t know if that freedom is something she’ll want to pursue because the future is so new and unknown to her. I also think this is the start of her becoming her more genuine self and she’s peeling back the facade bit by bit but she’s not entirely there yet. it’s def a halfway point in her story

act three

this is when she’s becoming more genuine ! and her real self is coming out ! and she’s becoming a more fully realised version of herself and she’s learning what her new oath means entirely and the lengths she’ll go for it! there’s patterns in her armour, and different outfits, and the silhouette of the armour looks more flattering on her compared to her act 2 gear and it’s also supposed to resemble a butterfly…!! metamorphosis and all that, a change of self, etc. the set is also more detailed since she’s now learning what she personally likes, and she’s not wearing a costume anymore or concerned about presenting a certain image of herself. and in her story, it’s like the climax of her whole redemption / self reflection arc and it’s when she understand what this freedom actually means to her. the armour’s appearance is very her personality I think it’s kind of playful and bold but the edges of the armour is curved/soft. it’s the self she abandoned when she swore fealty to her matriarch and the self she has recovered throughout her journey.

the halberd is also much more intricate! but there’s not really any reason behind that only that I think it looks cool and it fits with the outfit lmfao

epilogue

this is shri’iia in a dress!! it’s whimsical and fun and sexy but in a more teasing way. her silhouette is based from male theatre costumes in the 1900s which is kind of like a callback to how she used to ‘perform’ or wear costumes early in the story but now it’s taking that concept and making her actual dress. the colour scheme is also inspired by tangled rapunzel bc her backstory is based off rapunzel lmfaoo and purple is so cute on her 🫶🤭 and the boots are based off actual prada boots which is so fun to me because they look ridiculous irl but it fits the vibe here.

anyway this is her 6 months later and she’s developing her own sense of style..!! I like the idea that though she’s technically a drow exile now, she’s not completely divorced from her culture and she likes meshing the usual drow style to what the surfaces wear. the off shoulder/plunging neckline with the skin tight leather boots is very drowic fashion to me but the colours and the airy shorts is influenced by what surfacers (or bards) wear. she’s a more realised version of herself 6 months later, and she has eyebrows now bc she’s growing it out and clock the promise ring ehehehhe 🤭🤭🤭 hag romance real!!!!!! 🤭🤭🤭🤭

[sysig]

Scriabin and Edgar eating crepes for requestober !!

Day 8 - Delicious silence

[gloomwitchwrites]

What If 141 and the best enemies to lovers line of all time...

"Who did this to you?"

Cue protective instincts and sexiness

hehe I am giggling!! Okay. Listen. I am fully aware that this is an enemies to lovers trope, but I don't think it applies to all of the 141 guys in that manner. Is there protectiveness? Yes. Is there a bit of spice? Yes, if you squint really hard. Is there also some sweetness thrown in? Absolutely there is. I had lots of fun with this one. I hope you enjoy it!

Presented in four double drabbles.

For the masterlist and how to submit your own request, click HERE

Task Force 141 x 141!Reader

Content & Warnings (per the warnings MDNI): swearing, brief blood and injury, hurt/comfort, brief suggestive themes, protectiveness, light angst

Word Count: 800

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Kyle "Gaz" Garrick

“Who did this?” Kyle bends forward at the waist, pressing a bag of frozen peas to your face. His concern is genuine. You can see that, but it’s strange. The two of you get on, but this is something else.

Kyle looks…angry like your injury personally offends him.

“It’s nothing,” you murmur. “Things happen during sparing. It’s fine.”

Kyle’s frown only deepens. He doesn’t believe you. And why should he? The person you were placed with took it too far. And it was all to impress him as if putting you in your place would somehow grant his favor.

It’s clearly done the opposite. He could care less about your sparring partner.

“It was your sparring partner, wasn’t it?”

You don’t answer. Just press the peas to your forehead a little harder.

This time, Kyle’s frown turns slightly upward. “Jokes on them, ya?”

You glance at him sideways. “How so?”

Kyle is grinning. It’s stunning. All pearly white teeth.

“Because I have my eye on someone else,” he says simply, as if that answers everything.

Though you cannot see yourself, you feel your face growing hot under Kyle’s gaze.

“You shouldn’t say thing like that,” you reply.

“Why? It’s true.”

John Price

“Who did this?”

“Why do you care so much, John?”

You attempt to pull your face out of his grasp but he holds firm.

“Of course I care,” he replies. The two of you stare into each other’s eyes, chests heaving. John is close. Too close. So close he could easily brush his lips against yours.

“I don’t know why,” you murmur.

“You do,” he affirms, authority in his tone.

Do you? Maybe. Perhaps. Deep within yourself you truly know the reason but can’t decide to speak it to the air. That would make this real. Whatever this is between the two of you.

‘Tell me who did this?”

“And do that what?”

“What the fuck I want to them, love.”

“It’s nothing. You shouldn’t worry about it,” you reply, again trying to escape from him.

But John isn’t having it. His other hand hooks around your upper arm, and then you’re pressed closed to him. He is so warm. All strength.

“Let go,” you say, but there is no volume behind it. It is weak. Not even a protest.

“Tell me,” he repeats, head dipping slightly.

Yes. Close enough to kiss.

“Tell me,” he says again, this time softer.

Simon "Ghost" Riley

Simon’s blood beats heavy. It is tinged with metal. A lace of fire that cannot abate.

His boots slap against the linoleum floor. The overhead lights are bright. Clinical. He is a shadow here. A dark specter.

No one stops him. No one glances his way.

And why should they?

He is a man made fury.

There were hands put upon you. A training exercise taken too far. Simon was not there. And he doesn’t know why. Not exactly. But he’s furious. Protective. The fact that he could not stop this only infuriates him further.

To him, this is a failure.

He doesn’t come to a stop. Doesn’t knock. He barges right on in.

The nurse yelps. Spins suddenly. Face red.

You glance up, eyes wide at first but soothing slightly as they land on Simon. You’re bruised. Stitched up.

Fucking hell.

“Out,” barks Simon.

The nurse leaves but stares him down the entire time. He approaches the table, and lightly brushes the backs of his fingers against the wound on your forehead.

“Who did this?” he asks.

“Simon—”

“Which fucker?” he growls, bending forward slightly to look into your eyes.

“Should see the other guy,” you joke, smiling.

John "Soap" MacTavish

Johnny shouldn’t feel this way. He shouldn’t. You’re not his. Even if he wishes it were so.

Every swing of his fist sends the building frustration outward, shooting into the massive boxing bag before him. It’s a poor substitute for the face he truly wants to smash. Several faces that is. Two specifically.

Who did this?

The words slipped from him unbidden. An instant anger. You had only scowled. Told him you could handle yourself. And you can. Johnny knows this. But he’s still fucking pissed about it. Still seething.

All the fucker got was a quick slap on the wrist. A promise to not do it again.

That sits sour in Johnny’s belly.

But you didn’t cave, no matter how much Johnny insisted that he’d take care of it on your behalf. So he is here, punching the shit out of something that isn’t flesh.

He wishes he could take away your pain. Take away the memory. Give it to himself to carry. You don’t turn on your own. There’s no honor in what happened.

But as much as he wants it to be true, Johnny can do nothing.

You are not his.

Even if he wants to be.

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[clavissionary-position]

Ikeprinces As Ranked By Gilbert

**Best enjoyed after reading Gil’s route. There are also spoilers of varying degrees from some sequel routes (Chev, Licht).

1. LUKE

Luke: I’m surprised I got the top spot. Don’t you and Chevvie go way back? Gilbert: That’s true, but you’re my adorable little kid brother. I’ve carried you on my back. You’ve carried me on your back. Good times. Luke: Aw, Dad… (bear-hugs Gil) Gilbert: (pouts as he struggles to breathe) Did you even… hear a word of what I said… Luke: I heard ‘kid’. That makes ya my dad, right?

2. CHEVALIER

Gilbert: So? What do you think? Chevalier: (ignores him and continues doing paperwork) Gilbert: (high-pitched voice) “Please, oh please, Gil! Please trample my country to the ground, rebuild it in your image and then run it for me!” Something like that, right? Gilbert: (dodges pebble) Ahh, sorry, sorry. It would probably be more like “Please, oh please, Eyepatch!" Gilbert: (dodges another pebble) What is going on here? Do you roll around in the garden before coming to work every day?

3. CLAVIS

Clavis: (stiff smile) I baked you one of my most sought-after creations as thanks. I’d be honored if you’d try it, Lord Gilbert. Gilbert: Hmm, it looks as unappetizing as I expected but smells delicious. Oh, and... (sniffs) ...you even infused it with my favorite poison! Clavis: Hahaha! Well, I didn’t want you to get the idea that I’d learned nothing about you during all our years working together. Gilbert: Of course, of course. Would you like to share this with me Clavis: (stiff smile) No, no, no. It’s best enjoyed alone. Please, I insist.

4. RIO

Rio: If you’re trying to use me to get to my mistress, then I’ll— Gilbert: You misunderstand me. (Sets down two plates of pain perdu and places his hand on Rio’s) I really do commiserate with you, you know. It’s not easy seeing the one you love go off to be with another man. And yet you gladly sacrifice your own happiness. As though it were someone else's joy to give away. Rio: It is. My joy belongs to my mistress. Gilbert: Hmph? Let's see. Pain perdu means ‘lost bread’, right? Poor, poor abandoned little toast, molding under the table. Gilbert: Oh, by the way. I asked the little rabbit if I could bring these to you on her behalf. (Proceeds to eat all the pain perdu himself) Rio: (smiles brightly) So I’ve heard you love exercising!

5. SILVIO

Silvio: (kicks down the door) Where's the list? Gilbert: (innocently sips tea) So you can tear it up? Did you think I didn't make copies to send to every one of your little merchant friends? Silvio: My real friends know what's up. Gilbert: What a hurtful thing to say. I’m just honoring our friendship. And buttering you up for future manipulation. Silvio: Tch. I don’t know what game you’re playing— Gilbert: Human chess. Silvio: —but I’ll buy up every damn piece before you can get your filthy little mitts on 'em. Gilbert: Hehe, splendid. (Sits back with a smile) What’s more fun than controlling someone who controls everything else?

6. KEITH

Keith: Picked me over the other guy, did ya? Gilbert: Oh, he’s on the list too, of course. But I can’t stand how much of a do-gooder he is. And besides, you’re much more fun to play with. Keith: That right? I’m usually the one doing the teasing around here, though. Gilbert: (looks around dramatically) Around here? Where only a handful of people even know you exist? Tell me, if a tree falls and no one’s there to hear it, does it make a sound? Keith: >:0

7. KEITH

Keith: (hangs head) So you know… about him… Gilbert: Ahaha, there's no need to look so down! You haven’t done anything wrong, have you? It’s all him, right? If only he’d just disappear and stop taunting you from Spot #6. Keith: N-No! I don’t want that! I don’t… think I want that… Keith: Yes, I’m sure of it. He and I can share our friends. Gilbert: (stops smiling) Sharing only works if you can fully trust the other person to not take advantage of your kindness. You may think you can do that now, but people change. Circumstances change. The galette must one day burn. Keith: :’(

8. JIN

Jin: (thoroughly unamused) How kind of you. Gilbert: Isn’t it? But you should know that I’ve got nothing against you personally. Whatever enmity there is between us stems primarily from you. If you weren’t royalty, we might have even co-brothered Luke together. Jin: (throws up in his mouth) I don’t see how that has anything to do with this. And you’re the most detested royal figurehead on the continent. Gilbert: (shrugs) I’d say I’m sorry you can’t see past that, but I’d be lying if I claimed there was anything there to be seen in the first place. Thanks for the lollypop. Jin: What? HEY—

9. SARIEL

Sariel: (stops as soon as he enters his office) What are these vermin doing here? Gilbert: (sitting in Sariel’s chair) Just a little gift I brought so I could congratulate you for making it onto my list. Would you like to do the honors? Sariel: (plucks him up by the fur) Am I to understand you’re giving me a chance to correct my oversight before you take things into your own hands? Gilbert: (brushes himself off) I expect you to do most if not all of the work since my hands are tied while I’m a visiting guest here. But I’m happy to take them under my wing if you can’t even do that much. Sariel: “Kill them, or be forced to kill them,’ is it? (glances at the tied-up assassins) I wonder which one of us they would consider a fate worse than death.

10. LEON

Leon: (glares) I take it you only stuck me on here out of diplomatic courtesy. Gilbert: Haha, maybe. But there’s something about you that’s always reminded me of someone I know. Leon: Whoever it is, I feel bad for the guy. Gilbert: (bittersweet smile) You might be right. Maybe I need to do better by him…

11. LICHT

Licht: Do I know you? Gilbert: I was wondering the same thing, to be honest. But I’ve seen you around the palace enough times that I figured I might as well throw you on here. Gilbert: Nice eyes by the way, hehe. Licht: Oh no you don’t. My only family is Nokto.

12. NOKTO

Gilbert: Oh. There are two of you. Must be nice having an identical twin. (Resting his chin in his hand) Do you two switch places a lot? Nokto: You never noticed before today? Never received a report from one of your spies about it? Gilbert: Oh no, what sort of boring activities do you think I have my spies do all day? Nokto: Well, for starters, you sure seem to have paranormal insight into the contents of our kitchen at any given moment. Gilbert: So you'd rather I left all the carrots where they are? Nokto: ...

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Yves: Prince Gilbert!

Gilbert: (stops but doesn’t turn around)

Yves: I saw your list, and I couldn’t help but notice—

Gilbert: No, I believe you noticed everything you were meant to.

Gilbert: (leaves to go find the little rabbit to fix his bad mood)

[yujinnieswifeu]

Hey...

Could you please write Chubby shy reader x perv Yujin please and thank you. (I love your writing btw I appreciate your content❤️)

Pairings: Chubby shy sub!fem reader x pervy dom!yujin

Warnings: smut, fingering, pussy eating 🤤

a/n: anonn you have no idea how happy i am to hear that!! Not only me, but every writer loves it when their works gets acknowledge so really thankiew so so much🥹. Also, i added a plot to it, and i know it’s common but come onn, just imagine athletic Yujin, she’s so hawt😫!! Btw, my writing style might be a bit diff here cause im just trying out a different style so that i can cut down on my words, so don’t mind me hehe🫡, hope you enjoy this one too!

You always had this huge HUGE crush on Yujin, so what if one day she found out about it? The shy and nerdy reader was interested in her? It just boosted her ego, every time she walks into the classroom, and she sees you, she would wink, and see your reaction which she always find so cute. All flustered, looking at your desk instead as you played at your fingers.

Oh how entertaining you were. Yujin really was having fun playing with your mind, so when one day, during her basketball practice, she sees you, as a cheerleader, she was shocked. She did not expect the once nerd to even try out to be a cheerleader, but here you were, and gosh, how the outfit just sticking onto your skin was making Yujin go feral. Even though you were a little plump, she did not find it unattractive one bit, instead, she liked her girls a little thick. It just makes her wonder how it would feel to be stuffed between your legs, as you strangle her with your thighs, begging her to not stop. It just makes her imagine how when she fucks you with her fingers or maybe a strap on, how your boobs will jiggle, oh she was just throbbing at the thought of you.

So just imagine after your cheerleader practice, when Yujin comes up and actually talks to you. She was so cool about it too, her eyes shamelessly checking you out and you swore you could just faint right there and then. But you held that back, your legs feeling a little weak as she stares into your orbs. “Hey y/n-ssi, i didn’t know you take cheerleading.” She parts her hair back with her fingers, keeping eye contact with you and it takes it all in you to not run away. Gosh, Yujin really had you wrapped around her fingers, and she was grinning behind those eyes, glad she was seeing you struggle to keep your composure in-front of her.

“H-hi Yujin, yea..i-i just thought it was a good exercise so i just started cheerleading.” You curse yourself for stuttering in front of your crush, and Yujin just nodded her head. “Yeah, you know..i can show you a better exercise.” She takes a step forward toward you, while you stood frozen, feeling your heart race. She only dared to be this bold since it was pretty late and you two were literally the only ones in the court, you staying back to do some more exercise and her to keep the equipments since she was the captain of the team.

“Wha..wh-what do you mean?” There was a sudden tension between you two, your head tilting up slightly for her to stare at you with a predatory gaze. “You know what i mean right? I know you have a crush on me.”

。。。

“H-hah Yujin p-please slow down!” You cried out. Yujin had you against the shower walls, the water dripping down both your bodies making everything more erotic as she plays the scenes out that was in her head earlier. Her head between your thick thighs, feeling you wrap your legs around her shoulders, trapping her as she eats you out hungrily, lapping at your tongue as her fingers abuses your now puckered hole.

You were a moaning mess, your eyes rolling to the back, the knot in your stomach only intensifying as she continues her assault on your pussy. Moaning against your wetness, it has your body shaking, wanting to come so bad but she pulls away instead. You gasp, a whine leaving past your lips.

“I’m not done with you yet baby girl, spread your legs for me.” She orders, you, which you comply to. The sight of you so obedient for her, so ready for her, and how a nerdy and shy student was being a slut for her was making her go insane. “Fuck, you’re so easy you know? I just had to flirt a little and look at you now, so fucking needy little slut.” She lands a harsh slap against your core, it makes you whimper, your legs shaking slightly from the pain and pleasure. Without any warning, she enters three fingers into you, watching as your face twists into pleasure, your mouth agape as your eyes rolls to the back.

It has her throbbing, watching as your tits bounce with each of her harsh thrust, she couldn’t help but land a slap on your tit, watching as it jiggles more, a red print now visible on the spot where she slapped, grabbing at it roughly with her spare hand before she dives into the other, only hearing your moans getting louder. Feeling your walls tighten around her fingers, knowing you were close, she kisses you deeply, silencing your moans. Her fingers curls when she thrust back inside of you, hitting your sweet spot that has you cumming all over her fingers.

She pulls her fingers out afterwards, sucking on her fingers as she tastes you off her fingers, keeping in mind of bringing her strap next time to fuck you like the slut she knows you are.

[ramayantika]

Since I am newly nineteen now, here are 18 things I learnt hehe

1. Sometimes life is shit but you got to hold on with all your blood, sweat and tears, with hopes still illuminating your eyes in the darkest night, because better days do come. My world did not end when I did not crack those entrance exams and saw the house be so disappointed with me. Another course and college chose me, and I found my calling and happiness.

2. Grinding is needed. Youth demands hardwork if you want to make it big, but listen fucking listen to your body and rest at times. Your dream life will never let you enjoy if you do not have the health for it. Exercise, be hydrated, eat and sleep well. As students, I understand it gets hard at times, but try maintaining a habit slowly. It pays well later.

3. It is okay to not know shit about what you want in life. If you know, amazing! If you do not, good, because life is going to surprise you with some real amazing things. You will find your story. Wait.

4. For young girls, for my younger self, you are amazing, smart, talented, wanted, admired and a beautiful human. You can be anything you want, and no matter what the world says about you, what your family says about you, you absolutely have the power to build and live the life you want for yourself. It's hard, but it can be done.

5. Just because you are naturally a quiet and reserved person, it doesn't mean you are boring, less confident and no fun. You value your energy and people. It's good. You are a good listener and a good observer. People need listeners too and your observation skills do actually help you socially when needed.

6. Just because you are extroverted, it doesn't mean you are loud, cringe and irresponsible. Heck the quiet ones like me need you all and of course we do need someone to keep the party and conversation interesting. But even then, you can absolutely be vulnerable and have someone to share your mind and heart too.

7. Follow your HOBBIES!!!! dancing, painting, singing, writing, sports etc whatever is your pick, keep doing it. You need them. You don't have to monetize it or be so skillful to make a job out of it. You can follow it because you love it and it makes you happy and not because you must make a career out of it. Life gets busy, and even difficult at times. Hobbies will help you take you mind off from difficult things. Do it for 15 mins or 30 or even an hour. But DO IT.

8. For young people, do NOT get into romantic relationships because everybody else is getting in to. Life doesn't comprise of romantic relationships. Learn to build and value friendships, relationships with classmates, older people (relatives, teachers, seniors) and with people near and around you.

9. Money is needed and money does help buy happiness. You get to watch your movies, buy your favourite pizza/momos/biryani, go to your fav cafe, buy books and art supplies, buy that lip gloss or that new shoes model with money. Paisa bhai sab kuch nahi hai yes but paisa bahut kuch hai.

10. Cherish little moments of peace and find gratitude for the things that you have. You are alive, you get to do art, play a sport, read that fanfic on the internet, afford eating at a good restaurant, afford an education etc. There is still so much you need but at least you get to have some good things in life. Some don't and have to struggle immensely for things which we have.

[jounosparticles]

reply to the tags of your reply to my previous ask: PLEASE RANT TO ME ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP!!!! i want to hear. they rot my brain too and im glad that i found someone who's also suffering the suegiku takeover

OKAYOKAY YAY!!!!! this will be fun >:)

a huge suegiku analysis:

okay in the last ask you mentioned how tetchou stabs jouno for fun and sillies and stuff which happened to make me think a lot about how tetchou acts decently different around jouno than others.

tetchou is typically rather formal in the way he acts in a way? as in he's very straightforward, generally composed and calm in his words, and polite to anyone he's dealing with.

an example of this is when he still treated the cafe owner kindly despite him being an "accessory to terrorism" in jouno's words.

basically, in most situations, he remains very composed. even when he's up to his sillier antics (like when he was watching ants or doing pushups during a meeting). he's direct and straight-faced almost always around most people. he doesn't act that way to be seen as silly, it's just who he is (and i love it).

i would imagine he could act this way for many reasons. it is most likely him being professional, likely as a reference to the irl tetchou who had samurai lineage; making him act with the tone and professionalism of samurai.

despite his professionalism, maybe he has difficulty being expressive around most people, or maybe he doesn't want to be expressive around people by choice.

but this is where he's different around jouno.

firstly, i'll talk about the times he's stabbed jouno. this has happened twice, and both were to de-escalate jouno from his tendancy to mentally torment people.

the wording in these panels implies this is a regular occurrence. which is a little funny to me hehe.

anyway, we see by the way that he acts around others that usually he de-escalates situations by talking first instead of acting. he will turn to violence if he believes it's needed, but typically he talks first. we see this when he confronts kenji verbally before attacking.

yet with jouno he doesn't bother to tell him to stop first, instead opting to jab him. remembering that the hunting dogs have enhanced physical strength, a small stab wound probably isn't a huge deal for them.

because of this i think the stabbings are tetchou partially teasing jouno. him messing around like that isn't something he does with anybody else but he seems to enjoy pissing off his partner.

also. stabbing him directly in the ass? gay as hell. jouno following up by saying "don't poke my ass every single time" implies that his ass specially gets jabbed a lot. hmmmm

anyways

another example of this is when tetchou smirks/chuckles at jouno insisting that he's the greatest hunting dog. the small laugh was most definitely to bother jouno.

mmmm theyre both so pretty.

once again, tetchou pushes aside his composed self and being intentionally silly only really happens towards jouno.

arguably, this can be shown again in the pushups scene.

tetchou acting unbothered and then calling jouno's weight "just right" while he continues to exercise seems like a combination of him trying to (jokingly) annoy jouno as well as his tendency to not acknowledge his own actions as bothersome or odd to others.

anyway to sum up this segment: tetchou is only seen intentionally bothering and teasing jouno and nobody else. he acts much differently towards others but seems to let his professional guard down around only his partner. this shows a great layer of trust and comfort between the two!

oh. but im not done talking about this. not at all.

the other huge display of emotions for tetchou was everything that went down with kenji.

as displayed throughout most of tetchou's appearances, he's incredibly justice-orientated. he has a tendancy to put justice above everything. here's a couple panels showing this:

ooog tetchou is so pretty. i love that left panel so much

using his own logic here, he should have went after bram after having found him. tetchou even admitted that, but there was one other thing more important to him than that. jouno.

starting here, this panel takes place after bram and aya escape. at this point, tetchou had assumed the agency was using bram to control people; meaning it wasn't just kenji he technically had business with at that time.

i will also preface this by saying the book's influence likely had an impact on tetchou attacking kenji before they could finish talking.

however, the book's writing didn't stop tetchou from insisting on finding jouno before taking down the agency. his worry towards jouno's whereabouts made him change his stance on justice as well as deterred him from prioritizing taking down the agency.

now that he's talking to kenji, i'd like to start it by showing that he seemed genuinely grateful and happy when kenji initially offered to help him find jouno.

as well in the anime, his eyes soften when kenji offers to help.

after talking to kenji for a brief moment, he opts to attack instead of continuing. this seems out of character for tetchou; he even apologized to kenji before saying he needs to find jouno as quickly as possible.

the fact that he apologized, combined with how we've seen him treat people in the past shows that this isn't typically what he resorts to.

also, in the anime we can see the gloss his eyes slightly shaking as he says this line, which could display worry, sadness, or anger towards whatever could be happening to his partner.

he seems almost distraught, which is a huge contrast to his typically-composed self.

and, of course; there's the fact that mid-fight tetchou had to tell kenji that jouno is a good person despite what people think.

he looks genuinely sad here, as if he's speaking from his heart. jouno has very-clearly put up a tough exterior that he uses around everyone, but tetchou goes out of his way to defend him even when he absolutely doesn't need to.

he could have stayed silent or just said he wants his coworker back, but he insisted on stating that jouno is a good person.

it's also important to note that nobody else tends to speak kindly of jouno, which puts a lot more depth on their closeness to each other. tetchou sees through jouno's words and actions and knows that he is heavily misunderstood.

and of course, we have tetchou directly saying that he will place jouno above justice despite knowing what the right course of action should have been.

he is putting jouno above the very thing he basis his career as well as his morality on. that's how worried he is. that's how much he cares.

and in this panel, we see he's extremely angry towards kenji's lack of response.

lets compare this to the first time tetchou fought the agency.

in chapter 61, when he was fighting the agency alongside jouno; he kept a more menacing/intimidating look as he attacked. when he was not attacking, he kept calm-looking despite being pissed off. compared to when he was fighting kenji in chapter 100 and looked infuriated. even the different fonts used for the dialogue puts further emphasis on this.

now, i'm going to jump ahead to the end of tetchou and kenji's fight. tetchou recognizes his mistake and asks kenji to kill him.

it's important to note that his reasoning as to why he should have chased justice was because he doesn't think jouno would have condoned his choice.

he specified it again, even opting to call jouno his friend. also note how white his eyes are here, meaning his intent was pure and he genuinely felt awful for misjudging what jouno would have wanted. he cares so much that he was asking to be killed for misunderstanding what was the correct course of action.

and then after kenji insists on helping him find jouno instead, he smiles in relief before the two pass out.

one last small note is that we've only ever seen tetchou smile three times throughout the manga so far, and all of them were mentioned here and involved jouno.

to sum it all up: tetchou, who is typically very composed and justice-orientated, is willing to throw aside his entire stance on justice for jouno. he lets his professional guard down around his friend, allowing them to tease each other and be silly as well, which he doesn't appear to do around others often. this shows that the two have a close bond and genuinely care so much about each other.

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as for jouno, i don't have as much to say however there definitely is a few things i'd like to touch on.

firstly, despite claiming to hate tetchou a lot, jouno still uses a respectful honourific (-san) whenever he refers to him. i'm not a japanese speaker so please feel free to correct me if i'm wrong but there's a good chance jouno would opt to not use an honorific at all if he genuinely detested tetchou as much as he claims.

and when it comes to teasing, jouno does it much more often than tetchou does (however he also messes with more people, it's just a personality difference between the two).

clearly with the way they act around each other, jouno does not actually hate tetchou. i think they like to bother each other by play-bullying.

also, noting on jouno's criminal past, he was given an easy oppurtunity to be thrown into the DoA where he could be incredibly powerful and would likely not face any consequences for his actions had he joined.

we know he declined fukuchi's offer because he found joy in saving innocent people. but i would the influence of the other hunting dogs helped set him into that place of mind. tetchou seems to be the one he works with most, so there's a good chance he takes a lot of inspiration from how tetchou handles justice.

another thing i noticed with jouno is that his displaying of emotions is almost an inverse of how tetchou acts. jouno keeps smiling a lot despite who he's speaking to. in contrast, he can keep a straight face when interacting with tetchou a lot.

of course, that could make it seem as if jouno is unhappy around tetchou, but i would argue it's the opposite.

some people will force a happy expression to appear unassuming or kind (or in a lot of jouno's cases, intimidating). so him allowing himself to maintain a straight face around tetchou could mean that he is comfortable enough around him to not feel the need to express everything. he doesn't need to keep his guard up around tetchou.

jouno almost always keeps a very happy or calm composure around enemies, likely as an intimidation factor. yet he allows himself to express frustration and annoyance around the hunting dogs in general, and most often with tetchou. i'd like to imagine this just shows his security in his partner.

jouno talking to an enemy, for reference ^ i also just really love this page hehe

the last thing i'll mention here is a lot of speculation on my behalf. however i think that jouno seems like the type to push away those close to him. i kind of perceived his supposed hatred towards tetchou to be a combination of joking around as well as possibly a defense mechanism to try and avoid keeping people close?

my main reason in stating that is that he's claimed to not like any of his coworkers yet still opts to not betray them and still works well with them. if he truly hated tetchou, he probably wouldn't allow them to work together. he likely says such things to avoid being liked too much, and these actions proved to work since tetchou acknowledged that everyone sees jouno as cold.

yet through all that tetchou still knew he was good despite the exterior, which makes them well-suited for each other.

anyways: i feel like these two really do treat each other much differently than they treat the other people around them. that puts a lot of emphasis on their bond and closeness in general. they can be silly around each other, they can get through arguments no problem, they make a great team, and clearly care about each other a ton! they mean so much to me <3

i love my sillies :)

[dyscanthe]

Dreams Grasp Within A Small Fist

Chapter 1: Fun Excursion

This is a rough translation of the story. You may encounter minor errors on the way, please be understanding and considerate (⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠) With that being said, enjoy reading!

ITALICS - Narration; BOLD ITALIC - Dialogues

— Eastern Land of Shanlong —

One day during November. We came to the eastern lands in Shanlong along with a few butlers. In addition to the butlers, there are others who came along with us.

Children: Miyaji-sensei! The atmosphere here is completely different from the Central lands! 

Child 1: I mean, it’s very calm and beautiful.

Child 2: The central lands and the eastern lands… I like both of them

Miyaji: Ah yes, both are lovely places with lots of history. By going to places with a  different culture, you’ll end up learning more about the culture of that place. You can also learn about the good qualities of the culture where you live.

Miyaji: It’s a good opportunity. This time, let’s get to know a lot about different cultures.

Children: Yes!!

Child 3: Muu-chan, let’s go see the other side together!

Muu: Wait! Don’t leave the butlers behind!

Child 3:It’s okay, it’s just right over there!

Tap… tap… tap…

Fennesz: Hehe, the children are very happy.

I’m glad you brought me along.

Nac: Going to a place different from the usual, is just exciting in a way. I’m sure for the children that this trip will be a wonderful experience.

Miyaji: Yes, but… I didn’t think this trip would be possible. Nac-kun, Fennesz-kun, Fleur-kun and Muu-kun, they all accompanied me. Hanamaru and Yuhan decided to guide us too and the Aruji who gave me permission… I’m really grateful for everyone. 

Fleur: Hehe, I’m glad to be able to help you Miyaji-sensei.

Hanamaru: I remember we also skipped work at the mansion… I mean I’m honoured to be of service to you Miyaji-sensei.

Yuhan: Please stop saying “we” all at once, Hanamaru-san. Even I’m like you, it’s uncomfortable for me to think that there’s an ulterior motive to this. 

Fennesz: Now now, both of you.

Miyaji: Anyways, thanks to all of you.

Fleur: Along with the children this time, the purpose of this trip is to experience the eastern land’s culture right?

MIyaji: Yes, and as I said before…It’s very important to know what is it like to lean about another culture. Through these few days of this trip, the things you can’t do in the central lands… I’d be happy if the children can experience a lot of new things altogether.

Nac: It’s going to be a fun and educational trip indeed.

(It’s like a school trip…)

Tap.. tap.. tap..

Child 1: Miyaji-sensei over there! They’re selling interesting food!

Child 2: It’s not just about food! There’s a lot of things for sale that you don’t know about!

Miyaji: I see, that’s interesting.

Muu: Hah.. Haaaah.. children. Everyone’s energetic. I can’t run anymore.

Fleur: Muu’s been overweight lately, I think he should exercise a little more.

Go for it, Muu.

Hanamaru: Now kiddo, don’t be so excited or else you won’t have the energy til the end of the day, right? Later today, I’m going to another city.

Children: Oh yeah! The next city was…

Yuhan: Yes, further down the river from here is a town called Janshi. Since it’s located along the river, it’s also the base for logistics on the river.

I see.

Yuhan: The temperature there is lower than here in Shanlong because it sometimes snows at this time of the year. Before entering Janshi, one should take measures to protect oneself from the cold.

Miyaji: Then it’s okay, I told the children to bring warm clothes too.

Fleur: Aruji-sama’s warm clothes are also here, don’t worry.

Thank you.

And after going around Shanlong for a while, using a ship further downstream to the river, we headed to the town of Janshi.

[wildflower-playground]

❤️‍🩹🧸ways to cope when age regression isn’t an option🧸❤️‍🩹

regression can be a great coping method and can be very healing to your inner child, but sometimes it just isn’t working. whether that’s because you physically can’t regress for a while, you don’t have the time or space for it, it’s activating a particular trigger, or any other reason — it’s important to remember that you always have other options!

it can be easy to feel lost if agere is your main coping skill and it’s suddenly not available or not helpful anymore, so under the cut i’ve compiled some simple de-stressing strategies to try out instead! :]

have a meal or snack and drink some water! physical needs are important :]

speaking of, use the bathroom and take a shower or bath if you need one. sometimes we don’t even notice it’s been awhile!

move your body, however you’re able to! some examples are going for a walk, dancing around to music, stretching or yoga, getting the mail from the mailbox

have a chat with a friend or family member. human interaction is good for us, even if it’s only for a few minutes!

if you’re okay with touch, go hug someone you love (human or animal hehe)

help someone else in a simple way; maybe do a chore for them, send them a little card or gift, or listen to them talk about their day for a bit. sometimes it can be a good distraction while also feeling nice to help!

do something creative! crochet, paint (even finger painting counts!), play an instrument, build something, redecorate your room, put on colorful makeup, etc

do some deep breathing exercises, and/or try a few grounding techniques

clean up a bit! i know it can be overwhelming, but even picking up just a few items or cleaning just one area can help you feel lots better.

journaling can be a good way to sort out what you’re feeling! you can just write whatever you feel like talking about, or you can look up prompts online to get you started

weighted blankets or heavier stuffed animals (or even pets!) can help with anxiety and sensory issues

pay attention to any negative sensory input and do what you can to fix it: is the room too bright or too loud? is your clothing itchy? do you need some time alone?

find some pleasant sensory input: use a scented lotion or candle you like, wrap yourself in a soft blanket, listen to your favorite music album, turn down the lights in your room, watch a sensory video you enjoy

do something to stretch your brain! work on a puzzle, read a book, or start learning a new skill you’re interested in

try something new! getting out of our comfort zone can help us to feel more alive and excited about life. bring along a loved one or a comfort item to give you courage!

do you like to pray or meditate? if you do, make some time for it and try to let yourself really relax into it!

make plans; it’s important to have things to look forward to, even if it’s just a trip to a cafe you like or a video chat with a friend

surround yourself with comforting objects (for instance, your favorite blanket and stuffed animal, a photo book of fun memories, etc!)

age dreaming can often be a fun coping method even if regression isn’t an option. try doing some of the things you’d normally want to do while small, without pressuring yourself to actually regress!

finally, ask for help! it’s always okay to reach out for help. you are not alone, and you don’t have to figure everything out by yourself!

okay, that’s all for now! please keep in mind that i’m not a mental health expert and this is by no means a complete list, but sometimes i need reminders of what else to try when regression isn’t working and so i hope it’s helpful to others in that way too! it’s totally okay if some of these things don’t work for you — take whatever’s useful and leave the rest.

don’t forget that you can always send me an ask or message if you need someone to talk to, little ones. sending you all hugs! 🫂❤️

[mirisss]

Chapter 8

Wordcount ≈ 3.1k

Warnings: anxiety, exercising (dancing + warming up), self-doubt, self-hate, angst, reader being a bit mean to herself (thoughts), almost fainting, mentions of the possibility someone will hit reader, food, eating, mentions of past abuse against (Y/n), 

I apologize for the long wait for this chapter, I’ve been swamped during summer with work and I got my driver's license but now I’m back again! The wait became even longer as I got hit with writer's block. I still hope you enjoy this chapter! 

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(Y/n)’s POV

After we had finished eating, Seungmin and I regrouped with the others before, once again, splitting up as the members had some different schedules up until lunch. “Have you decided who you wanna go with for now, (Y/n)?” Changbin asked while we all began walking to the elevators. “Yeah, I decided to go with Danceracha up until lunch and after that, we’ll see,” “Yes! We got (Y/n)!” Felix exclaimed happily making some of the employees around us look at him with weird looks before they returned to what they did previously. “Alright, Changbin and I’s meeting should be over around 2 pm, maybe a little later. Do you think the rest of you will be ready for lunch by then or sooner or later?” “I can’t really say for us, it depends on how many changes we wanna do to the choreo and how long it takes us to learn it,” Minho answered Bang Chan, it sounded a bit complicated but I think seeing them dance will be a lot of fun. “Our vocal training with the coach is scheduled between 9.00 am to 1.30 pm, so we should be done by 2 unless we run over too but I don’t think we will as the coach is on a very strict schedule,” Seungmin said, he was apparently the one who had booked the training session so of course he was the one who knew all the details. “Mm, okay. Well, when the three of you are done with your vocal training, why don’t you stop by the dance studio and see how it’s going for Danceracha, if they seem to be running late, bring (Y/n) with you and meet up with us for lunch. Minho, Hyunjin, and Felix will just have to eat later unless the other choreographers want to eat too so you can take a break,” “Yeah, that sounds good to us, how about for you (Y/n)?” “Oh, yeah, that’s fine, Jinnie,” “Great, we’ll see you later. We have to go now or we’re gonna be late,” And with that, the group split up. 

Minho took my hand and led me into an elevator with Hyunjin and Felix following us. They guided me to a big room with an entire wall made up of mirrors, in one corner there was a small-ish black couch, and beside the couch, there was something that seemed like a computer - probably where they controlled what song played in the speakers. I looked around the room with awe, it had a somewhat cozy feeling as I turned back to the mirrors and saw how the three dancers were looking at me with love-filled eyes and sweet smiles. “Want to warm up with us, (Y/n)?” Hyunjin asked as Minho walked over to the computer and began typing away. “I don’t know how,” “That’s fine! We usually follow one another, today it’s Hyunjin’s turn to lead the warm-up so all you need to do is face the mirror and imitate Hyunjin’s movements, and if you struggle with anything you can ask any of us for help, but really all you need to do is try your best,” Felix said as he came over and put his hands gently on my shoulders before shaking me lightly to make me smile. “Okay, I’ll try!” “Great, let’s start then. In 30 minutes the choreographer is coming so we need to be ready by then. Jinnie the floor is yours,” Minho said, using a tone I was unfamiliar with, it was stern, leaving no room for arguments. 

Hyunjin faced the mirrors just like the rest of us, though he was standing a few steps in front of us, I stood beside Felix, watching Hyunjin’s reflection in the mirror carefully. “Have fun, (Y/n)!” “Hm!” I nodded my head before focusing on Hyunjin once again. Minho took out his phone and hit play and a second later music filled the room and Hyunjin began moving, with the rest of us following his lead. Minho and Felix had no problem keeping up but I struggled a bit, the other two probably knew what movements would follow one another, I, however, did not. But as I remembered what Felix said before we started I began calming down and stopped focusing on all the mistakes I made and rather focused on just having fun as I tried to keep up with Danceracha. After warming up for 15 minutes I was sweating like crazy and I was very tired, my vision was becoming a bit blurry, and my movements were slower. “Hey stop! (Y/n)’s about to faint,” Felix shouted alerting everyone, even myself, of my swaying body and my weak legs. Felix quickly stepped closer to me before he gently hooked his arm around my waist and helped me walk over to the couch in the corner of the room. Minho and Hyunjin went to get some water and towels. With just over 10 minutes left before they had to meet with the choreographer, and I was taking up their time. This is why no one likes you. This is why no one wants you. An angry, dark voice resonated inside my head. The voice made me shrink back into my shy and shut-off self, I couldn’t look at Felix, I knew he would be angry, I should have been able to do this, hybrids are supposed to be good at exercises, but I’m not. “Hey, (Y/n). Are you okay? Does anything hurt? Can you see me? Are your eyes okay?” His voice was silky smooth, deep, and warm, it was filled with worry and love. He doesn’t actually care. If you look at him you know he’ll hit you. “(Y/n), please, look up at me?” Run away, he doesn’t want you. They don’t want you. They hate you. You’re a waste of space. Felix gently put one of his hands on my chin and then lightly tilted it upward so my eyes would meet his, I froze as soon as my eyes met his. His eyes were full of worry, adoration, love, fright, and anxiety, no matter how hard I searched for any feeling of hatred, I could find nothing alike it. It’s all fake. “Are you okay?” “I, -” My voice cracked as I just noticed how dry my throat was both from the exhaustion but also from the anxiety the evil voice brought with it. I broke out in a small coughing fit as I tried to catch my breath. “It’s okay, look at me, you’re fine, (Y/n), I’m here. Minho-hyung will be back in a few seconds with some water for you,” As soon as Felix had said it, Minho came jogging back into the room with four water bottles in his hands, closely followed by Hyunjin who had some towels in his arms. “Here,” Minho said as he handed a water bottle to Felix who opened it before giving it to me. I gladly took it and gulped down half the bottle, soothing my sore throat. “Feeling better now?” Felix asked as he took the water bottle from me, closing it before taking a towel from Hyunjin’s arms. He unfolded it and carefully patted it against my forehead, wiping away my sweat. “ I’m sorry,” “Why are you sorry? (Y/n), you don’t have to apologize,”

“I ruin everything,” “(Y/n), I’m sorry but I’m going to raise my voice a bit right now. You don’t ruin everything. Anyone can faint when exercising, you don’t mean any less to us because of this, we are the ones to blame because we should have thought about the possibility of this happening. This is not your fault. It could just as likely have been me or any of the others who fainted. We all love you, so so so much, nothing would change that. Okay? Listen to me, WE LOVE YOU” I was startled as Felix raised his voice at me, he wasn’t screaming but he was speaking significantly louder than he ever had before around me. Usually, something like this would have me shivering and crying, yet with Felix my eyes were locked with his, I was frozen as I listened to his warm voice as I saw the tears escaping from his eyes. There was nothing but sincerity in his voice. Minho and Hyunjin had walked out of the room shortly before this to stop the choreographer from stepping inside before Felix and I had calmed down. I could hear their voices as they conversed outside the door, joined by an unfamiliar voice that I assumed belonged to the choreographer. “Please, (Y/n). Don’t put yourself down, we love you, I love you, so please, please love yourself, if not for your sake for ours,” I slowly moved my hand up to his face and wiped away the tears that had streaked his cheeks. “I’ll try, for you,” Felix enveloped me in a warm hug before he took a deep breath and calmed down from his crying.We sat there, our arms encircled around each other, as we were shaking from crying, sniffling, and trying to calm down from what just happened. “Please (Y/n), please believe me when I say that we love you,” I couldn’t answer him verbally so I opted to just give him a tighter squeeze before I let go of him and moved back a tiny bit. I shakily put my hand on his cheek and wiped away some of his tears with my thumb. Felix took a deep breath before wiping away my tears too. “I have to get ready now, we can’t keep the choreographer waiting any longer,” “I’ll just stay here so that you guys can focus,” “(Y/n), you wouldn’t be in the way,” “I know, but I still feel shaky, I don’t think I can stand up just yet,” “Are you sure you want to stay here then? You don’t want to go to some of the others?” “I’m sure, I want to see you and Minho and Hyunjin dance,” “Okay, bunny. Just let us know if you need anything,” “I promise,” “Good,” Felix gave me a kiss on my forehead before he stood up and walked over to the door to let Minho and Hyunjin back inside. 

15 minutes later and I finally stopped feeling nauseous and shaky. My eyes were locked solidly onto the way that Danceracha was moving. The smoothness, the precision, the look in their eyes, it was mesmerizing. “With this move, I would prefer if we could do it like this,” Minho said as he showed what he meant, the choreographer watched closely before discussing it further with Minho going back and forth until they reached a move they were both happy with. All three of them glanced back at me every now and then, when they saw that I was watching them they just smiled and looked away again. Soon a few hours had passed and it was time for lunch, to me though, it felt like only a few minutes had passed from the moment I shared with Felix, as we both cried, holding each other. “Come on, let’s meet up with the others,” Hyunjin said as he waved me over with a tired but happy smile on his lips. Danceracha looked exhausted, quite frankly they reeked of sweat but they had been dancing none stop for a few hours. “Weren’t Han, Seungmin, and Jeongin supposed to stop by when their training was over?” “Yeah, they should be coming any second, it’s only 1.35 pm. The vocal room they had booked is five floors above this one so it takes a few minutes to walk between them,” Felix answered as he tenderly took one of my hands into his before leading me to the door. After we had stepped outside my nose picked up the familiar scent of the youngest Stray Kid.

“Hyungs! (Y/n)! Hi!” “Ya, Innie, you’re not supposed to scream right after training,” Jeongin just turned and gave Seungmin a playful glare in return before he continued smiling and jogging in my direction. “Hi” I waved to the three of them. Seeing them run and smile, being so carefree and happy, it made me feel like maybe there is hope for me too, that one day I can be freed from all of my worries, from my past. As long as I stay with them, as long as I’m with my family I’ll be fine. No more being alone. No more darkness. “How was it? Watching dance practice?” Jisung asked once he too caught up with us. I looked at Danceracha, pondering over whether or not I should tell the others about my accident. “It was fun, I wish I could dance like them,” Minho looked at me, understanding my decision of not telling them yet, or I think he did because he began talking about something else as he began walking toward the elevators with the rest of us following. Seungmin walked beside Felix and me, he tenderly took my free hand into his as we were walking. It wasn’t until he did that that I realized just how cold my hands were, when Felix took my hand into his I didn’t think about the heat difference as Felix had just been dancing for a long time but Seungmin had not and his hand almost felt like it was on fire compared to mine. “Wow, did you take a trip to the North Pole? Your hands are so cold!” Seungmin proclaimed as he laughed. “Oh, I didn’t even think about it, holy, (Y/n), we need to get you some tea or some hot chocolate to warm you up,” As the two began fussing over me Minho looked back, surely after he heard them speak of my icy hands. His eyes spoke so loudly, as he stared into mine, he knew I was cold after the panic attack, even if I had calmed down and wasn’t crying anymore, my unconscious mind hadn’t let it go just yet, it had pretty much shut down.  “I’m sure she’ll be fine after she gets some food, we all need it so come on, let’s move it, Chan-hyung and Changbin are waiting for us by the cafeteria, their meeting ended a little earlier than they thought it would,” Chan had apparently texted Minho that info just now, I didn’t even notice him checking his phone. 

After arriving at the cafeteria we quickly found Chan and Changbin, they had taken a large table so we could all sit together this time. We ordered our food and then Minho told Chan, and the others, about what happened in the dance studio. Everyone looked worried but they were happy nothing worse happened. “Maybe it would be best for you (Y/n) if you went home to rest for the rest of the day. You’ve experienced a lot today and maybe we shouldn’t hurry this exposure too much or things like this will happen. We need to gradually expose you to our hectic schedules. If you want I can come home with you,” “What about the meetings?” “Changbin can handle them, the hardest one is finished already, the last one is just for the name of the album and we’ve never had a problem with those meetings before, besides Changbin has handled meetings like this alone other times too,” “I’m actually feeling quite worn out so maybe going home would be best,” “Uh, hyung, actually, I don’t think I can take this next meeting on my own,” “Huh? Why not?” “They changed the schedule, the album name meeting is tomorrow, and after lunch, we have the meeting regarding the music videos,” Bang Chan let out a loud sigh, he looked really annoyed, but I wasn’t scared of him, because I knew he wasn’t upset with me, and he isn’t like my previous owners, he wouldn’t hit me. “Ugh, why do they change the schedule every time? We always put it like this, then they change it only to switch back to OUR original schedule… ugh. Well, (Y/n), sorry that means I can’t take you home,” Chan looked at me, he looked disappointed. “It’s okay. I think I can just rest on the couch in the dance studio, don’t worry,” “I could take her home, we don’t have that much left to go over for the dances so the part I miss Minho-hyung and Lixie can teach me tomorrow,” “As long as it’s okay with Minho and Felix, it’s okay with me, you know I rarely but in regarding the dances, that’s Minho’s responsibility,” Chan said the last part as he chuckled because Minho gave him a fake annoyed glare. “Mm, take the bunny home, make sure she gets some rest,” “I will,” Hyunjin gave me a smile before we all continued eating our lunches. 

After we all had finished eating Hyunjin called their driver to come and pick the two of us up and drive us to the dorm. “Take care and rest well, (Y/n). We’ll see you tonight,” Jisung said as he gave me a warm and tight hug. “Change into the new pajamas we got for you, you know the one that was so warm and fluffy!” Jeongin said as he then reminded Hyunjin where it was. Everyone either hugged me before saying goodbye or just waved and smiled. Soon it was just Hyunjin and I, as we waited in the lobby for the driver to come. “He’s here, come on, (Y/n), we can go home and watch a movie and maybe draw some more,” “That -” YAWN “- sounds nice” “Haha, tired I see,” And so we got in the car, I barely sat down before my eyes were closing. The last thing I remember is hearing a low humming from Hyunjin as I rested my head against his shoulder before I fell into a deep sleep. 

~ To Be Continued ~

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[taumoebaa]

20 question for writers tag game

tagged by @softodettes (👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩)

1. Total number of ao3 works?

10 (3 are anon because they're just silly little drabbles hehe)

2. Total ao3 word count

104,415 (oopsie get this girl some sunlight)

3. Fandoms I've written in

Just Fourth Wing.

4. Top 5 fics by kudos

Death of a Sun A Safe Place for Change (the couples therapy fic) Good Morning Evergreen (the one where xaden's eyesight is bad) Self Control (liam pining) Solace (the one where xaden is babygirl)

5. Do I respond to comments?

Yes like 99.67% of the time :) comments make me so happy and I love yapping.

6. What has the angstiest ending?

Good Morning Evergreen.

7. What has the happiest ending?

Solace. Xaden literally just gets smooches and tucked into bed at the end. It's the happiest of happy endings.

8. Have I received hate?

Yeah, very occasionally, but I kinda deserved some of it haha.

9. Do I write smut? And what kind?

Sometimes. Mostly really mild stuff. I don't really enjoy writing smut. If it's in there it's to serve some function of the plot.

10. Do I write crossovers?

Nope.

11. Have I ever had a fic stolen?

Nope. I'll probably cry if this ever happens to me.

12. Have I ever had a fic translated?

Nah. But maybe one day I'll translate one of my short fics to Chinese just for fun.

13. Have I ever co-written a fic?

Nope. But I do really want to :) Sounds like fun. I'm just too shy to ask anyone to do this with me.

14. What is my all-time fave ship?

Officially, these are evenly matched in my bookmarks. But my favourite will always be Achilles/Patroclus/Zagreus. Platonically, I also really love Zuko & Wan Shi Tong fics.

15. A WIP I'll never finish

I've been writing Translations in Aretia in the background for months now but I'm a little scared of posting another XVL long-fic where Liam/Violet has a stronger focus. There's also a bunch of canon re-write/missing scene fics that I'm not too motivated to write, a Brennan/Reader fic, and a Max/Tisaanah fic. I'll never finish these, probably.

16. Writing strengths?

Idk.

17. Writing weaknesses?

Dialogue. Especially dialogue between young characters. I have no idea how people in their late teens/early twenties talk. Tairn-speak is easier. I think the Hades fandom did that to me. I struggle with exposition too. Describing things always feels like a bland exercise. Prose is hard. Introspection is a nightmare. Writing is just really difficult.

18. Do I like foreign language dialogue?

I love it. I adore it. Foreign language dialogue and language barriers are among my favourite tropes. It's up there with accidental pet acquisition. My favourite CoD fic has a language barrier element to it. My current favourite book, Daughter of No Worlds, also has that. I just love this trope ruthlessly and indiscriminately.

19. First fandom I wrote for?

Fourth Wing.

20. Favourite fic I've written?

Good Morning Evergreen. I genuinely had so much fun writing this fic. I feel like with all my other works I'm pulling teeth just to get the words out, but with this one everything just flowed and I ended up writing it all in one sitting. I still re-read it from time to time which is crazy because I hate re-reading my fics. I also really enjoyed writing One Gentle Afternoon. Childhood memories are so fun for me :)

tagging @littlefirefox @copperfirebird @shipmistress9 but no pressure!!

omg a surprise cat

[pawseds]

I convinced our Delta Green game master to have a play-by-post (basically text roleplay) section in our game's server and uhhhhh maybe I've been having too much fun with it. Writing is faster than drawing comics, what can I say?

(Long ramble about writing stories below hehe oops)

While we're here! A bit about writing: I like writing! I've written for loger than I've drawn for (because school). I think I'm better at writing than drawing for that reason (I'm more confident at least). I've written short stories. I've written short stories about TTRPG things. I've also written a ~100k word novel by hand for 2 years. While writing it, I had 'writing class' (technically AS/A level Ennglish Language classes). It was the only class I had confidence in and high expectations for.

With those 2 combined, I burnt out pretty quick LOL. Specifically, I had a big perfectionism issue because of the high expectations I had from my teacher and especially myself -- it was the one thing I knew excelled at in school, so I better do it well! After I was done with the novel and A levels, I was supposed to edit the novel. It's been years and I haven't done it yet, and I wouldn't write non-assignment stories (except 2) until now. Writing became more nerverwracking than it was fun, so why would I?

To get back to the PBP thing: I've been in a campaign that was fully PBP. With my mindset being the way it is, hey! This is just one big writing exercise, so I ran along with that and had fun with it. I saw how some players would make their own PBP and essentially monologue/have a scene only with their PC. That was cool to see.

And now, my current Delta Green campaign (tagged 'Helvetia'). Hrothgar (guy in drawing) and his kids were ported over from a previous D&D campaign (the fully PBP one!), so the crew had a very well defined background already. Of course I get tons of drawing ideas for them, except I don't have the time to draw them all (compsci hard). But since the server has a PBP section, I had like 2 weeks to kill between session 0 and 1, and I was bursting with ideas... I made a lot of solo PBPs that were essentially short stories.

It didn't quite hit me until some time ago, but the PBPs actually made me enjoy writing again -- enjoy it a lot more, in fact! I think the format of Discord threads and messages removed most perfectionism tendencies I had. I just had to fire the story away, message by message. It didn't have to be amazing, and it was fun! (Also I really don't know how to shut up with them LOL)

I'll definitely be cleaning these PBPs up and posting them here as stories. Some of them are just silly, fun, slice-of-life character sketches. (These were the stories I wrote after my novel... and yes, they were about my other set of Delta Green characters LMAO) (and I've posted them here under pawsedswrite btw!) But some I see as legitamite short stories that I would edit more heavily and present as a short story. They were the kinds I could see myself writing on a document rather than on Discord.

Well, I lied. 'I would edit' is false. I have already edited one, because I spent like 5-6h writing this one PBP (oops) instead of writing the draft for my short story class/elective (oops 2). I joked to my two friends saying that I could just submit it as my assignment. Apparently, they both really liked it and said the dialogued slapped. So I did!

I procrastinated like hell on it though, because I was very nervous to go back into the PBP with an axe to edit it. Being in a writing class where nearly everyone else has been formally studying writing for some years kinda puts some pressure on ya!

Like the last assignment (which I'll post here after editing), I had a lot of worries. But the feedback and grade I got from my last assignment, the peer review I got from the current one, and also the support from those two friends (shoutout @katastrofish <3) made me feel more confident in myself. And also the fact that I had a lot of fun editing the PBP!

Uhhh this ramble was way longer than expected LMFAO if you've made it this far, damn, thanks for reading! If you also write or have similar experiences, feel free to share em. And have a good day!

(bonus POV editing)

[einsatzzz]

*sliding into your inbox on fuzzy socks, rocking my very own labcoat*

*adjusts glasses*

*whips out clipboard from hammerspace coat pocket*

*clicks pen*

"I HAVE READ THE WIKI AND SOME RANDOM POSTS (which i spam liked) AND I COME BEARING QUESTIONS!!!"

*points pen at Kurumi*

"YOU! You have a sentient, hoverboard great sword! AND IT CAN CHANGE ITS SIZE! That's the coolest shit, literally super hardcore badass, please be my friend so I can watch you smack the shit out of people with your sword. Questions time: How much sentience are we talking about here? Can you get vague feelings from it when you use it or is it just it "chooses its wielder" kind of sentience? How long can you hover? Is there a time limit? Do you ride your sword into battle?"

*strangles urge to ask more sword questions and chooses the next topic/victim aka Yui*

"Heya lab coat buddy! Caused any explosions recently? Set something on fire? Well, never mind that. I've heard you trolled Kurumi by teaching her swear words in foreign languages, which btw nice prank!" *holds up hand for high five* "so ... do you speak these languages fluently? Or did you just look up curse words for the lols? If you do speak them fluently, what languages do you speak? Also, do you have a favourite mechanics project, like is there something you made which you are very fond of?"

*turns to Kana, sees the glare and wisely decides to back off for now*

"Uhhh.... Yeah that's it from me for now!" *quick glance at Kana who's still staring holes into me* "Yes, yes, I'll be on my way BUT! I will come back, just you watch!"

*slinks away into my gremlin cave*

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Well... that just happened *sweatdrops* I should really come with a warning label at this point with the amount of questions I ask. Take all the time you need, pick it apart however you want and please no pressure to answer all of them, I know I can be a lot lol 😅

*crawls out from under a big rock after temporarily escaping the underground stuDYING jail* Thank you so much for sending this ask Lix! I had lots of fun coming up with how to draw this out 😆😆 It actually became my daily (almost) 30 min drawing exercise so that I don't get too rusty jfhdkdhdjd so it took a while, but here it is now! Also I added a smol Chief last minute in there, but I have a different wip planned for him hehe (with how im struggling rn with studying, prob won't be able to finish till july since I'll be a bit semi-inactive after this post dkgdjdgxjx)

Anyway hope u enjoy! Looking forward to other asks you can come up with and send over to Yuipachi-sensei hehe (they're really really good practice tbh!) This even made me finally draw a design for Kanarobo lmaoo it's inspired from Mi/kuda/yo and Ne/nero/bo actually.

[bunbeeplays]

The kids have school, and Ophelia and Xander have the day off. Well, Xander does. Ophelia has big plans for her and Miss Lulu.

Lulu has been doing better getting used to Wren, but Ophelia has looked into ways to help Lulu work through her feelings that she thinks will help.

Ophelia: We're gonna have some fun today, just you and me. Sound good?

Lulu: Yeah!

Xander went for a jog after the "twins" went to school, and he took Wren with him so Lulu could have Ophelia's full attention.

After getting her dressed in a fun, comfy outfit, Ophelia takes Lulu downstairs to the basement.

Lulu: What we doin', Momma?

Ophelia: Remember when we did a little yoga on vacation? How would you like to learn more?

Lulu: Okay!

Now that she's had more free time, Ophelia's refocused on using yoga as an outlet for her stress. Maybe it'd help Lulu with emotional regulation as well.

Lulu liked yoga, sounds fun!

Well, not nearly as fun as splashing in the toilet, but getting more alone time with Mommy was definitely a plus!

Lulu: Sweet 'Tato wants to do yoga too!

Sweet Potato: mreow

Ophelia: I'm sure he does. Come on, let's start with some breathing exercises.

What does breathing have to do with anything? Lulu already knows how to do that!

Ophelia shows Lulu how to sit to stretch her legs and guides her through some deep breathing exercises for when she feels overwhelmed, like she did a few nights ago.

Sweet Potato supervises.

Ophelia: Whenever you feel sad or nervous, you can try some of these breathing exercises to make yourself feel better. It took Mommy a long time to learn how to calm herself down but I promise it helps.

Lulu seems receptive. She's glad she can help her daughter self-regulate.

Next, they work on poses.

Ophelia: This one is called Downward Dog.

Lulu: Hehe, woof!

Lulu has lots of pent-up energy, and it seems like she enjoys putting that energy toward something other than toilet splashing.

Lulu isn't exactly as focused on staying still during most of the poses, but Ophelia is impressed by how well Lulu's able to replicate what she's doing.

Lulu wobbles a little but she enjoys staying balanced. It feels good to stretch and move her body!

Ophelia: Okay, this one's a little trickier. Can you try to stay on one foot?

Lulu giggles as she continues to wobble around, but she seems to be enjoying the challenge of staying balanced. Lulu's usually so hard to keep in one place, she's never focused on something this long.

Lulu: Look, Mommy!

Ophelia: I'm looking! You're doing such a good job.

Gemma and Jaden kind of like doing yoga too, but they get bored with it pretty easily. It's impressive how long Lulu's stuck to it. Maybe this is something she can share with just Lulu.

They settle back down on the mat.

Ophelia: Alright, let's try some of those deep breathing exercises to cool down.

Lulu copies her mommy's pose. She knows Mommy's really busy, but she likes getting to spend some one-on-one time with her. She hopes they'll do this again soon.

After attempting to cross her legs, Lulu accidentally stumbles over, giggling like crazy.

Ophelia's glad to see Lulu in higher spirits. She might not be the most focused yogi out there, but she's off to a wonderful start. She's glad she's enjoying herself, at least.

Ophelia: Did you have fun, cupcake?

Lulu: Yeah! I like yogurt, Mommy.

Ophelia: It's called 'yoga', sweetie, but I'm so glad you had fun.

Lulu: Again!

They'd done a full hour's worth of yoga already, but Ophelia would do anything to make her little rugrat happy.

Xander, meanwhile, is doing his body some good too, while Wren's getting some well-earned rest. She did a lot of tummy time this morning.

Lulu gravitates over to her own yoga mat so she can see better to copy what her mom is doing. She thinks she's killing it!

Ophelia's starting to get tired, but seeing how happy spending this time with Lulu is making her, she can't bring herself to call it quits.

Eventually, Lulu gets tuckered out too and goes down for a nap. Willingly! That's quite the feat for a bundle of energy like Lulu.

There's no breaks for Super Mom Ophelia, though, because Gemma asks for help riding her bike. At least that just involves Ophelia standing there.

Lulu wakes up from her nap in time to babble to Jaden all about her day. He's glad to see his little sister in good spirits. And maybe her new interest in yoga means she won't track toilet water all over the house. A win for everyone!

[megumi-fm]

this week on megumi.fm ▸ slowly recovering from holiday mode

📋 Tasks

🩺 Radiomics Projects ↳ BCR: download the ML packages ✅ ↳ BCR: read more papers ✅ ↳ BCR: develop LASSO for parameter redundancy ✅ ↳ GBR: extension + parameters + troubleshooting ✅

📅 Daily-s

🛌 consistent sleep [7/7] 💧 good water intake [7/7] 👟 exercise [7/7]

Fun Stuff this week

📖 Icebreaker by Hannah Grace ✅ 📖 The Mill House Murders by Yukito Ayatsuji ✅ 📖 Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao 🔄 📖 Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon 🔄 🎨 Drew something, still trying to get better at it 📹 The Irony of the Dunning-Kruger Effect 📡 Speaker's conclave at our uni!! Got to listen to one of the most popular authors + philanthropists talk about her work!! she is so cute and super inspirational <3 🎙This really famous desi singer performed at our uni!!! It was a free concert and we had the time of our lives 🍜 Lunch with my best friend! Hung out at her house later xD 🎂 Out for a friend's bday party!!

📻 This week's soundtrack

Songs I'm learning the choreographies of [🌶 / 🚬 / 🐒] Songs I've been vibing to all week [✨ / 💫 / 💎] Jamming with the Besties [💍 / 🥂 / 🚋]

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[Jan 1 to 7; week 1/52 || fun week! this post got lost in my drafts but it's finally here hehe, my internship starts in week2 and that post will be out in a couple days- and it'll be more fun work stuff and less fun fun stuff. but yeah. I'm enjoying this year already. also I think I like these long form posts better. this is much more comfortable than posting every day. my daily tracking is setup on notion instead, and it's been working comfortably for me so far.]

[p5x-theories]

who's ur favorite confidant? (in terms of story)

Oh, good question! Before I answer, let me just start by saying I've only finished Merope, Yaoling, Motoha, Tomoko, YUI, Kayo, Kiyoshi, and Miyu, so those are the only ones I'm factoring into my answer! I don't think it's fair to judge the ones I haven't actually finished yet against the ones that I have when it comes to story, hehe.

So with that out of the way, I think Motoha, YUI, and Miyu have been my favorites in terms of story so far? I'll explain why under the cut, in case anyone wants to avoid spoilers:

Motoha's I enjoyed because I like how her character development came together over the course of it. It was fun to see her go from wanting to get back into the swing of exercising but being a bit too loose with it, to going way too far all-in in an attempt to catch up to Tamayo, to eventually remembering what she originally wanted out of exercising and letting Tamayo win. I think I also liked that it culminated in Motoha having a better grasp of what she wants/needs to focus on, and recognizing that winning or losing doesn't actually matter for a lot of battles, as long as you win the ones that really count? At least as I was playing through it, I felt it was a pretty solid storyline where the events worked well together, and culminated in something satisfying.

YUI's I really liked partially because it brought back the idea of a Confidant you don't actually meet in person for a large chunk of the storyline (like Ms. Toriumi), but in a less, well, creepy way, haha. I think they played with this concept in an interesting way- you get to meet Musubi a few times in real life and see a very different side of her, which makes her feel more fleshed out as a character, and at one point when she's too stressed by both the game and real life, she actually doesn't log on at all, leaving Wonder to tend their fields alone for a bit. I suppose you could consider that more a commentary on the mechanics/execution rather than specifically the story, but I felt like the way they incorporated the fact that she's an online friend into the story events really supported the story of the Confidant itself, if that makes sense.

And Miyu's I enjoyed honestly just because I really like some of the main elements of it, and how it ended. The fact that her parents hired a guy just to steal/break her puppets, and later pulled strings to get the Street Performers Festival canceled, helped it kind of set in just how far they were willing to go to make Miyu come back- and I think in particular the fact that they were doing all this indirectly, rather than sending people to bring her home directly, added to that, too. Throughout the story you get a clear impression of the kind of people Miyu's parents are, and exactly why she's so determined to leave and support herself alone, and it culminates in her kind of vindictively throwing that right back in the guy's face when she and Wonder catch him. And with all that established, it felt very fitting that she doesn't really forgive her parents in the end, even after their change of heart, and doesn't go back to them even when they're more willing to hear her out. Also, I kind of loved that Wonder makes it pretty blatantly obvious he's going to do something to her parents to help get them off her back, but because the Phantom Thieves aren't as well-known here so Miyu can't make the connection of exactly what he did, there's just this sort of mystery she has to sit with now about how the hell he got her parents to leave her alone, haha. I felt like there was kind of a shift in Miyu's perception of Wonder at the end, though not necessarily a bad shift.