#it is so fascinating... because i can see so many of them being true!!
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question for academic discussion: when did mulder realize he was in love with scully? and when did scully realize she was in love with mulder?
#please feel free to cite your sources OR alternatively base your answer off of sheer vibes#disclaimer: definition of âloveâ is to be made by the person responding#personally i love their whole âwhatever the hell we have going on can't be explained in wordsâ dynamic#but i'm really interested in hearing people's different interpretations because it's pretty subjective and reading people's reasoning#it is so fascinating... because i can see so many of them being true!!#ah i love you media analysis#the x files#txf#msr
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Gotta say after having an appointment earlier in the week with a âspecialistâ who looked like she worked for the reagan administration and whose top tier medical advice was weed is evil in all ways and âtough it outâ âŠ..seeing my surgeon for post op later like the way he seems happier to see me every time and heâs so easy to talk to and having a genuine doctor/patient relationship was especially delightful đđ
#I have such major beef with doctors I am ready to throw hands with any doctorâŠ..except my surgeon and GP saw them both this week love them#very grateful for both of them bc I continue to experience so many fucking vipers in the medical field!#when my GP joked that she's the only one I've got......I am genuinely afraid it's true#I love my surgeon more each time too idk he gets a kick out of me! maybe in part because of my love for medicine#like how I was excited for the pathology report out of nothing but fascination#he's such a good doctor I think he's aware I'm autistic and yes duh it's in my chart my doctors can see#but my point is that it's not relevant at all to my surgeries with him so it's a testament to him being a good doctor#that he took the time to study my chart and see that and make the connection of like#OH that's why she's beyond just an informed and smart patient she's a nerd bc this is a special interest#and that's why he goes into unnecessary details because I think it's FUN đđ
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GIRL DAD OR BOY DAD? - sunday, boothill x reader
- or more clearly, to what gender would they want to have more, and general headcannons of them as papas âșïž
- brainrot brainrot brainrot BRAINROT AHHH... i love these guys and i can do a part 2 for others later but godd theres absolutely not enough dad stuff for these men (especially sunday... if there is its all yandere) so never fear novas here! ahem anyways enjoy
- warnings none! pure fluff!!! wc 711
Sunday is so a girl and boy dad.
Reason why I say this is because he likely needs an heir to take over his position when he gets too old to do so, but he also wants a baby girl he can spoil as well.
Donât worry! He loves both of his kids the same! Theyâre the greatest things that have probably ever happened to him and he cherishes them with his whole life. He thanks the stars above every single day for the opportunity he received to be a father to multiple beautiful children, and thanks you for granting him the chance.Â
Dunno, but I could see this man wanting a handful of kids. He wants at least one girl and at least one boy, but I could see him shooting for 3-4. Will he be around to care for them? Not all the time, but he tries his hardest (and he definitely has the resources to care for that many).
Considering theyâre half halovian and half human, they look pretty much just like their father! Some have your eyes, but they all have his hair. His hair and his gorgeous wings. They have your features though, such as your face, body type, etc.
His favorite part of the day is when he gets to collapse on your shared bed, his kiddos following behind him to cuddle their dad, and most of the time you all fall asleep together. Normally, you wake up just you and him because heâs good about putting them in their own bed once they fall asleep.
Once his kids get older, heâll teach his son(s) combat and good form. He wants them to protect, and wants to raise them to be strong and independent. With his daughter(s), if they ask to be taught combat, then he wonât see much of an issue with it. He also wants to teach them independence, but in a more subtle form.Â
Just expect that his children as teenagers are going to be the prettiest kids around holy shit. Theyâre obviously enrolled in a private school due to their fathers high status but they always come home and list the compliments theyâve received that day. Thankfully you two have raised them well enough for them to realize that itâll be bad if all of these get to their head and stroke their ego too hardâŠ
Supportive father asf! All Iâve gotta say here
Donât play Boothill is SO a girl dad hello have you met the man
Heâs so excited when his little girl is born ahh heâs always dreamed of being a father to a girl and his dream has officially come true!!
Obviously, if you had a boy, heâd love him the same. He just wants children of his own tbh lol
His daughter knows western culture fresh out of the womb my friend. Itâs like she was born for little cowboy boots and the cutest little cowboy hat. Sheâs even got a western name, he brought it up and you liked it, so the name you two settled on was Cassidy.
She has his hair! Itâs absolutely gorgeous once it starts coming in- a pearly white color with little black streaks stemming from the roots. She has your eyes and your face, and his slimmer body type (before he was turned into a cyborg. This isnât canon I actually have no clue what he looked like pre cyborgification lmao).
Oh lord, your daughter is so spoiled. On every mission he goes on heâs always bringing something back for her. It could be a super fancy necklace or even just a little trinket he picked up from a street vendor, but she has a whole shelf full of the things her daddy gives her.
She thinks itâs so cool he has a metal body. She asks about it alot but sheâs really fascinated with it tbh. She likes to call it âdaddyâs special feature!â and he always melts to that sentence gosh
He probably teaches his daughter how to use a gun when she gets older. He, similar to Sunday, wants his daughter to learn self defense tactics and learn how to fend for herself when necessary.
She totally has his accent. Change my mind period.
#honkai star rail x reader#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr x reader#honkai#honkai x reader#sunday#sunday hsr#boothill#boothill hsr#boothill x reader#sunday x reader
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Breaking The Rules
Five x Plus Size Female Reader, Words: 8,159, One-shot
Warnings: Smut, slight Daddy kink
So I received a very lovely request from someone I won't name, but they asked for something very specific:
"There aren't that many Five x plus size reader fics, And I think that should be changed"
I immediately jumped on this idea, because yes, this does need to change. Body representation is very important. I fully admit that I normally write Five with petite women, and that's usually because he's not a huge guy himself, so I tend to make them smaller. That's kind of the standard formula I suppose: bigger guy, smaller girl? But it doesn't have to always be that way. Everyone should be represented in a positive way.
Anyway, I have tried my best to fulfill this request and hopefully I do it justice. đœâ€ïžâïž
You had just been transferred from Records to Case Management. It was a pretty big promotion, but you had worked hard for it and deserved it. You were excited to be out of the stuffy records room and into the main population of employees since you were by nature a very social person. At one point you had thought about training for an agent position, but decided against it. Even though thatâs really what you dreamed of doing. Instead, you figured vying for an executive position would be the best route, but that would take a few more years in the machine.
Part of your job was taking the data that you put together and assigning a particular agent to the case. You were good at solving puzzles, which is why you were put in this department to begin with, but you were also very good at reading people. You loved getting to know new people and their personalities, and what made them tick. People in general were fascinating to you, and the Commission had plenty of personalities.
As usual, you had no problem fitting in with your new coworkers. You had some sort of energy or charisma that drew others in. Maybe it was your infectious laugh, or your inappropriate sense of humor. Or just that way that you had of putting everyone around you at ease. Whatever it was, it was a source of pride for you. You liked being the one people gravitated to.
There was one person that did not seem as smitten with you as everyone else, and that was Number Five Hargreeves. You knew of him, of course. Everyone did. He was a legend among legends and there was a reason for that. You hadnât been there the first time around, when he was fresh out of the Apocalypse, but when he came back years later as a younger version of himself, it was all anyone could talk about.
Five had a reputation for being aloof and if you caught him on the wrong day, heâd cut you down with some biting insult that was just as powerful as any physical harm he could do. He was smart, agile, and brutally honest. He was also hot as hell.
There seemed to be no end to the line of women that would purposefully parade past him on a daily basis. You couldnât blame them, though. Youâd caught yourself staring a few times, as you watched him read over a file with that serious expression of his, before he nodded a curt thank you and disappeared in a flash of blue. But you werenât really that interested in him and you knew for a fact that he didnât date inside the office. You admired that about him, actually, because neither did you.
Just because he wasnât sleeping around the Commission, however, didnât mean he wasnât getting some action elsewhere. When you work for an organization that can see anything and everyone across all timelines and at any point in timeâŠwell, rumors are bound to start spreading. And you had heard a lot of them.
As with all rumors, it was hard to determine how much of it was true, but you could at least believe what you heard about his usual taste in women. Petite, thin, perky boobs, a flat stomach, and a small, tight ass. The guys at the switchboard loved to give descriptions of Fiveâs latest conquests, and they all sounded about the same. But hey, good for him, everyone has a type.
So, even if you were somehow interested in him from a romantic standpoint, you wouldnât have made the cut anyway. You didnât fit that stereotypical mold of those other women with your wide hips, slightly bigger breasts and butt, and a stomach that had never been flat. You doubted his usual dates had stretch marks on their thighs and hips, or even a small amount of cellulite on their ass. Not that you cared. Everyoneâs bodies were different, after all.
Being a bigger sized woman didnât bother you. You were confident in your body and made no apologies about it. Just because you couldnât fit into the size negative two jeans that were constantly shoved in your face on every clothing store mannequin, didnât mean you werenât going to wear what you wanted. Short skirts, tight blouses that hugged your chest, or low cut, strappy dresses. If you liked it and it fit, who the fuck cared what anyone else thought? You liked yourself and your body, and if someone else didnât, then that was their problem.
You liked sex, too, and you had no problems in that department either. Youâd had many boyfriends, and a few one-night stands. Currently, you were unattached, but that was ok. There would be another man along at some point and you werenât going to settle for someone you didnât like. In the meantime, youâd ogle the eye candy at work.
It was a typical day when you had your first real interaction with Five. Sitting in the breakroom with your lunch, laughing loudly with your coworkers, the room suddenly became very quiet. You looked over to see Five strolling casually in, heading for the coffee station. He didnât speak to anyone, or really even look in their direction, but there were nervous glances all around. One by one, your friends quietly made some excuse and got up to leave. Eventually, it was just you left at the table.
âArenât you going to flee in terror with the rest of them?â
You looked up, surprised to see that he was actually talking to you. You pointed to your salad in front of you. âIâm still eating. And you donât really scare me, sorry.â
Five looked thoughtful for a second and you saw the glimmer of a smile before he took another sip of coffee.
âNice work on the Edinburgh case, by the way.â
You nodded. âThanks. I didnât think you even knew who I was.â
Five shrugged. âI pay attention. Especially when I see real talent.â
You frowned. âSo, youâre stalking me, is that what youâre telling me?â
Five almost choked on his coffee. âWhat? No! Why would youâŠâ
âIâm kidding!â you laughed. âIâm just messing with you. Thank you, though. I appreciate the compliment.â
âOh,â Five said, clearly uncomfortable. âYouâre welcome.â Then he cleared his throat. âWell, Iâll leave you to finish your meal.â
âYou donât have to go, you know,â you said as he headed for the door. He stopped and looked back at you and you gestured to one of the empty seats. âItâs ok to relax sometimes. Maybe be social? And I donât biteâŠat least not without prior consent,â you added with a wink.
Five stood there for a few seconds in thought, and you figured he was conjuring up some perfectly crafted insult for you. Instead, you saw his mouth twitch up at the corner and he gestured to you with his coffee cup.
âWell, that is very good to know. Consent is always important.â
With that, he turned on his heel and walked away.
A few days later you were standing with your friends in the hallway at the end of the workday, talking about the upcoming Commission pickleball tournament you were all playing in. One of your best players had been injured on a job and now you were down a body. As you were discussing options, you saw Five walking in your direction.
âHey, Hargreeves!â you yelled. âYou up for some pickleball?â
Five stopped in his tracks and actually looked around, as if there could be another Hargreeves standing right behind him. Then he looked back at you, thoroughly confused.
âWhat the hell are you doing?â whispered one of your friends.
âWhat?â you replied. âThe guyâs like a hundred years old, he probably fucking loves pickleball.â You turned back to Five. âWe need another player, you game?â
Still rooted to the spot, Five shook his head slowly. âThanks for the invite. But Iâll have to decline.â
There was an audible sigh of relief from the rest of your group. You rolled your eyes. âCome on! Itâll be fun. You know what fun is, donât you?â
Five narrowed his eyes, but you could see there was no bite to it. âYes, I know what fun is.â
âWell, I promise this will be all sorts of fun.â You gave him a big smile. âAnd as a bonus, youâll get to watch me run around in a short skirt.â
Your friend next to you slapped you on the arm. âWhat is wrong with you?â they hissed.
Five actually smiled for a second, you were sure of it. âTempting, but again, I have to decline.â Then he continued on his way down the hall.
Over the next few weeks, you made it your personal mission to try and get Five to loosen up. Whether you personally delivered case files to him just as an excuse to talk to him, or purposefully followed him into the breakroom, you wouldnât leave him alone until you got him to at least smile at something you said. After a while, you noticed he was much more relaxed around you. Eventually, you and he were officially friends, much to the amazement of everyone else around you. He even started seeking you out on his downtime.
âHey there, handsome,â you joked as Five strode up to your desk one day. âSomething I can do for you, or did you just miss me?â
âYou know, I could report you to human resources for sexual harassment,â he said as he perched on the edge of your desk, folding his arms across his chest with a smile. He had a standard manilla file folder in one hand.
âItâs only harassment if you donât like it,â you replied, pointing a pen at him.
âIâm not sure thatâs accurate.â
âSure it is,â you said as you jabbed him in the arm with the pen, laughing when he frowned and rubbed at the area. âBut seriously, did you need something?â
âMaybe. I just wanted to run this by you.â He slapped the case file on your desk.
âWhat is it?â
âA case I was assigned to. I read it over though, and I donât think itâs right. I wanted your opinion.â
You raised your eyebrows. âMe? The legendary Mr. Five wants my lowly opinion?â
âJust shut up and read the fucking file.â
With a laugh, you opened it and started reading. He watched you, rather intently you noticed, while you read. You frowned and shook your head, pointing at a paragraph. âRight here, this isnât true. The clockmaker didnât take a carriage to work that day. He walked.â
Five nodded. âThat makes this whole case pointless, then. Iâd be targeting the wrong person.â
âShit, youâre right.â You looked up at him. âGood catch.â
âIt looked off somehow, but I couldnât figure it out. I knew you would, though.â
Normally youâd say something snarky to bust his balls, but he was being truly sincere and his compliment meant a lot to you. âThanks, Five.â
He shrugged and grabbed the file off your desk. âAlright, see you later.â
As he turned around to leave, you couldnât help yourself. âHey, Five?â
He stopped and turned. âYeah?â
âI hate to see you go, but I love to watch you walk away.â
Five shook his head while you cackled at your own joke. âCanât even make it ten seconds without treating me like a piece of meat. Youâre hopeless.â
The following day, you were in the breakroom getting some coffee when you overheard a conversation by some of your coworkers.
ââŠyeah, I heard itâs not good. Took a shot right to the chest.â
âI heard it was a head shot; that heâs barely alive.â
âNo way, I donât believe it. Not him.â
You turned toward the group, coffee cup in hand. âWho are you talking about?â
âYou havenât heard? Your buddy was shot up pretty bad today.â
You frowned, lowering your cup. âWho, Five?â
âYeah. I only heard bits and pieces so far, but it doesnât sound great. They brought him directly to the infirmary when he came back. There was a trail of blood in the hall and everything.â
âWhat?â you cried, slamming your cup on the counter. âThat canât be.â
Your friend shrugged. âIâm just telling you what I heard.â
âShit,â you hissed, before running out of the room.
You didnât slow down the entire way to the infirmary, dodging people in the halls, and almost knocking a few of them over in the process. How could Five be hurt? And why was just the thought making you sick to your stomach?
You burst into the infirmary just in time to see several nurses scurrying away, and a very angry and bloodied Five sitting up in one of the hospital beds.
âGod damnit, if you touch me one more time, I swear to god, I will strangle you with my IV line!â
âOh my god, Five!â Without even thinking about it, you rushed up to him and threw your arms around him, hugging him tightly to you. âHoly shit, I thought you were dead!â
His body stiffened at first, but then he relaxed and put his arms around you in return. You heard him laugh and you pulled away.
âI bet youâd like that. Then youâd finally be able to molest me without me fighting back.â
You realized a few tears had slipped down your cheek and you hurriedly wiped them away. You gave him a half-smile. âYou wish.â Then you looked him over, noticing the blood on his head and the IV in his arm. âAre you ok? What happened?â
He sighed. âNothing, just a minor mishap. Iâm fine.â He spoke louder and in the general direction of the nursing staff. âBut these jack-holes wonât let me leave!â
You huffed out a laugh. âI can see youâre fine by your usual lovely attitude. You should hear the rumors going around about you, though. Pretty impressive.â
âGood. I need to keep up appearances.â
When you sat down on the side of the bed, you took one of his hands in yours and squeezed it. âIâm glad youâre ok, really. I got really scared there for a minute.â
Five smiled shyly at you and gave you a squeeze back. âIâm glad someone here was worried about me.â
You tilted your head to the side and brushed a stray piece of hair off his forehead and tried to wipe away a smudge of blood. âI doubt Iâm the only one.â
âI think you are,â he said, looking you directly in the eyes.
You averted your eyes for a moment. âIs there anything I can do for you?â
âMaybe just one thing.â
âSure, what do you need?â
He grinned. âGo on a date with me.â
You werenât sure you heard him correctly. âDid they check you for a concussion because I thought you just asked me out on a date.â
âI did. And no, I am not concussed.â
âFiveâŠâ you started, blinking in confusion. âI donât understand. Do you mean like a date date?â
He huffed and rolled his eyes. âJesus. Yes, like a date date. Why is this so hard to believe?â
âUh, wellâŠbecause weâre friends. Also, Iâm not really your type.â
His eyebrows creased together. âYouâre not? Youâre funny, smart, and sexy. Not to mention you flirt with me every chance you get. Whatâs not to like?â
âI do not flirt with you.â You smiled when you saw his incredulous expression. âOk, yeah, I do. But that was just having fun and trying to make you laugh. I didnât think youâd be into me.â
âWhy not?â
âOk, how do I put this? I have heard all about your little conquests and I know you have a running theme. Skinny, tiny, Barbie dolls that probably have never eaten a sandwich before. And not that thereâs anything wrong with that. Everyone has a type and thatâs ok. Hell, normally I prefer blond guys, butâŠâ
âNormally?â he cut in.
You blushed. âWell, I do make some exceptions for certain grouchy, dark-haired men.â
Five nodded with a smile. âSo then go out with me. I promise the only type I have is the type that I happen to be attracted to. And donât believe everything you hear around here. Remember,â he pointed to the small abrasion on his head, âI was almost dead a couple of minutes ago.â
Hesitating, you shook your head. âI donât date anyone from work.â
âGood. Me either,â he said, still grinning.
You laughed. âAlright, then, you wore me down. Itâs a date. But only if you promise to stay here for at least another hour without verbally or physically abusing these poor health care workers. Itâs not their fault youâre an asshole.â
âFine, Iâll stay, but only because I want to go out with you.â He raised his voice so the rest of the room could hear. âNot because I need to be treated like a child who fell off their tricycle!â
The next Saturday, you and Five went on your date. When he saw your outfit, he was speechless for a few seconds. He was used to seeing you in your work clothes, which was always the same boring gray pants suit, but now he got to see you in your preferred style. A form-fitting, teal blue dress that stopped halfway down your thighs and had a keyhole neckline to show off a bit of cleavage. You paired it with some gold jewelry and black, strappy heels. You laughed at his face when he saw you.
âYou lookâŠâ he stammered. âThat dressâŠjust wow.â
âThank you.â You looked him up and down, liking the way his tailored pants fit his lean body just right and his casual button-down shirt that was rolled up at the sleeves accentuated his sculpted chest. You had never really noticed how strong he looked. âYou look really good, too. Much better than the stuffy suits.â
âAgreed,â he said distractedly as he continued to stare at your chest.
âExcuse me, but my eyes are up here,â you joked, pointing to your face.
He looked up briefly, then back down at your body. âYeah, yeah, Iâll get to your eyes in a minute.â
âWow, I had no idea you were such a pervert.â
He looked up at you with a devious smile. âOh, yeah, huge pervert. Iâm surprised you never picked up on that.â He laughed along with you and then offered his arm for you to loop yours through. âShall we?â
At dinner, the conversation came easily. It was nice to be able to chat without having to cut it short due to work. Your stories were much duller than his, obviously, but he still seemed genuinely interested in anything you had to say. You made him laugh with your sarcastic comments and you loved knowing you were just about the only one that could crack that veneer of his. Over dessert, you finally worked up enough nerve to ask him what you really wanted to know.
âSo, how come youâve only dated thin girls before?â
Five looked surprised and he shook his head. âI havenât only dated thin girls.â
You cocked your head to the side and raised your eyebrows. âReally?â
He coughed, embarrassed. âOk, fine, thatâs true. But it wasnât a conscious decision. Like I said, Iâm attracted to who Iâm attracted to.â He paused. âButâŠâ
âBut what?â
âBut what I am most attracted to is confidence. I like a woman that is sure of herself and assertive. A woman that knows what she wants.â He looked guilty for a second. âUsually, at least in my experience, those are the women that happen to fit into the societal standards of beauty. I hadnât really thought about it until now, though. Sorry.â
âYou donât have to be sorry, itâs not a bad thing. I was just curious.â You hesitated, not sure you wanted to keep pressing him for information. âWhat was it that attracted you to me, then?â
He looked surprised again and then he laughed. âAre you kidding? Iâve never met anyone as confident and self-assured as you. Plus, youâre funny and easy to be around. And almost as smart as I am.â
âAs modest as always.â
âIâm just kidding,â he said with a smile. âYouâre incredibly smart, obviously. I wouldnât waste my time with someone who wasnât. AndâŠâ He reached across the table and placed his hand on top of yours, rubbing the back of it with his thumb. You felt a warm, tingling sensation ripple through your body. âYou are also incredibly sexy with your shameless flirting.â
âWell, Iâm glad you noticed,â you said, taking your finger and brushing it over his. âAnd just in case you didnât know, you are also incredibly sexy.â
âI did not know that.â
âOh yeah. I made a lot of enemies once word got out that I was going on a date with you. Lots of jealous women back at headquarters right now.â
âIs that so? Can I get a list of those women, just in case this date goes bad?â
Taking your foot, you dragged it up his calf, all while looking him in the eye with one eyebrow raised suggestively. âI donât think itâs going to go bad, do you?â
He shook his head. âI donât now.â You saw him swallow hard and shift in his seat. âHow about we get the check?â
When you got back to your place, you were almost falling through the door as you struggled to get inside while aggressively making out. Neither of you had even made it out of the car before you started groping one another, so that by the time you had made it home, you were both on fire.
âYou know,â you mumbled between frantic kisses as Five slammed the door closed behind him with his foot. âI donât usually put out on the first date.â
âMe either,â he said as he grabbed you around the waist to pull you in closer, kissing you along your jaw.
âOk, I lied. Yes, I do,â you exhaled breathily as your hands wound into his hair and he moved his mouth to your neck.
âGood, because I lied too,â he said, stopping to look at you with a sly grin.
After letting out a short laugh, you were back on his mouth again, breathing hard through your nose and pressing your body against his. You could feel his arousal building as he pushed his groin into your hip. Your hands fumbled as you started to unbutton his shirt.
âFuck, you are so hot,â he breathed against your neck. âI want you out of this dress.â
As you finished undoing the last button and pulling his shirt out of his pants, you nodded. âYeah, good idea.â When you reached down to pull at the strap of your shoe, he put a hand on yours to stop you. When you looked up, he shook his head.
âI said the dress. The shoes stay on.â
Well, if you hadnât been wet before, you were now. The tone of his voice and the seriousness of his face only added to the hotness factor and at that point you would have followed almost any demand he made of you. Leaving the shoes on, you pulled the dress over your head while he watched. Even though you hadnât really been anticipating your date progressing this far, you had still prepared with a pair of satin panties and lace bra that matched the same jewel tone as the dress you dropped onto the floor.
Five didnât say anything, just eyed you up and massaged the back of his neck. Then he let out a long, shaky exhale.
âAre you ok?â you asked, suddenly a little concerned he might not be liking what he saw.
Five nodded, his gaze not leaving your breasts. âYeah, just give me a second. Iâm trying not to come in my pants.â
Your astonished laugh was quickly cut off when you found yourself pinned against the wall on the other side of the room, the fluttery sensation of one of Fiveâs spatial jumps lingering in your stomach. Your squeak of surprise was swallowed by his mouth on yours, as he pushed hard against you, his hands on your tits.
When he flicked his tongue across your bottom lip, you moaned and closed your eyes, jerking your hips into him. Your hands found their way to his hard chest and muscular arms, feeling them tighten and relax with each movement. He let you tug his shirt the rest of the way off and you wrapped your arms around his shoulders as he pressed his face into the side of your neck and lifted one of your legs up to his waist. His hard cock was grinding into you as you drew in a ragged breath. When you felt his lips against your skin and his warm breath as he brushed his mouth over your neck, you let out a loud whine.
âThatâs right, sweetheart. Let Daddy hear you,â he groaned, his fingers digging into the flesh of your thigh and holding you tightly to him.
âWoahâŠDaddy?â you breathed out.
Five nodded, moving to the other side of your neck. âIs that ok?â
âFuck yes, Daddy,â you moaned, running your hands greedily down his back.
You felt him smile against you and his kisses turned into small nips that he trailed down your neck and onto your shoulder.
âI want you. I canât wait,â he said, his voice husky with desire.
âThe bedroom is in there,â you said, pointing to the room just on the other side of the wall.
Five let your leg down and you pulled him by the hand into your bedroom, falling onto the bed and propping yourself on your elbows as Five stood there staring again.
âWell, come on, Daddy,â you teased. âI thought you couldnât wait.â
A slow smile spread across Fiveâs face as he immediately started to undress the rest of the way, until he was crawling over you, completely naked. He rubbed his cock against your inner thigh, making a quiet growling noise in his throat before looking you in the eye.
âAs much as I love this little bra and panty combination youâve got going on here, Iâm going to need those to go, too.â
When you nodded eagerly, he reached behind you and expertly unhooked your bra, tossing it off the bed before immediately moving farther south and ripping your underwear off. Once you were completely nude, Five sat back to take you all in. You assumed he liked what he saw, because it was only another second before he was covering you with his own body, attacking your full breasts with frantic sucking kisses.
âDamnit, honey, these titsâŠfuck,â he moaned as he buried his face in your cleavage.
âI take it that youâre pleased?â you giggled, threading your fingers through his hair.
He lifted his head, holding himself over you while he shoved your legs further apart with his knees. Then he lowered himself to kiss you tenderly, caressing your face with one hand. You let out a soft sigh.
âIâm more than pleased. Youâre beautiful.â
He leaned in to kiss you again, this time using his free hand to travel down your chest and abdomen, and along your inner thighs. His long fingers met the soft, wet area between them, and he slowly ran them up through your pillowy folds, making you even wetter.
âFiveâŠâ you moaned as you rocked your hips up to match his strokes.
âWhat do you need, sweetheart? Tell me,â he asked, only slightly condescending as he continued to watch your face for your reactions.
Five entered you with two fingers, pressing in slowly and then backing out again before repeating it in a slow rhythm. You chased his hand with desperate thrusts of your hips, biting your bottom lip to try to contain some of the noises that threatened to escape your lips.
âFuck me, please,â you whined, throwing your head back.
He gave a quiet chuckle and you felt his hand move away from you. Then he was positioning himself between your legs and lowering himself so that you could feel his dick rubbing against your slit.
âGod, I swear Iâve never been this hard in my life. Iâm going to fuck you like you want, gorgeous. Daddyâs going to take care of you.â
âOh, shit,â you gasped when you felt him enter you, just slow enough not to be jarring, but not drawing it out, either.
When he was fully inside, you angled your hips so he was at just the right spot.
âHowâs that?â he whispered as he slowly pumped into you.
âThatâs goodâŠâ You grabbed at his shoulders and back. âKeep going.â
Five continued his slow and lazy thrusts while holding himself over you so he could look down at your face and body. His hair fell forward over his eye and he made quiet groaning noises that were punctuated with soft kisses.
âYou feel so damn good,â he moaned.
âFive?â
âWhat do you need, darling?â
âI need you to really fuck me. Hard.â
He looked down at you, momentarily stopping his movements. Then he laughed quietly and you smiled back. âWell, I did say Iâd fuck you like you wanted, didnât I?â
When he pulled out, you let out a soft sigh and watched as he crawled back off the bed, his dick still hard and wet from being inside of you.
âWha--?â you started to ask, right before he yanked your legs sideways, so that you were laying across the width of the bed.
Five positioned himself between your legs, holding them up under your knees and settling them on either side of his waist while he lined himself up and slammed into you again.
âIs this what you wanted?â he snarled, continuing to thrust into you hard and fast.
âYes!â you cried, clutching at the sheets beneath you.
Every time he pounded into you, you got to feel the intensity of his strength as your entire body moved back and forth, your tits bouncing enticingly in front of him. He gave your voluptuous ass a hard slap that made you cry out again. You instinctively covered your mouth with your arm.
âOh, no, I donât think so,â Five warned through clenched teeth. âUncover your mouth. I want to hear you scream.â
Everything he was doing and saying was driving you quickly over the edge, and you did scream for him, just like he wanted. You couldnât even help yourself.
âYesâŠpleaseâŠkeep goingâŠharder, please! I need more!â
You were begging and pleading while he railed into you as hard as he possibly could, thrusting his thick cock deep inside of you while slamming his pubic bone right into your clit every single time. All while completely supporting your lower body, angling it up and off the bed so he could fuck you relentlessly and perfectly.
Soon, you felt your muscles start to twitch and your head fell back, your mouth wide open as you repeatedly asked him to fuck you harder. When you finally hit that wall, you completely lost yourself, screaming his name while bucking and thrashing wildly against him.
Your orgasm was still coming in waves when Five released himself inside of you, his head tipped back and jaw set, growling obscenities while his muscles contracted and he dug his fingers harder into your thighs.
When the intensity had passed, Five let go of your legs, setting them gently down, and he leaned over the top of you, his hands on either side of your head. He kissed you tenderly, still trying to catch his breath.
âFuck, that was good,â he said with a heavy exhale.
You nodded, laying a hand on his cheek. âSo damn good.â
After another minute, you both moved so that you were lying longways on the bed again. Five held you against his chest while he kissed your forehead and traced his fingers down your arms and back.
âIâm not sure why we havenât been doing that all along,â he joked.
âBecause you needed to get to know me and my sparkling personality first.â
Five rolled his eyes. âSparkling? I donât know, that seems a bit much.â
When you giggled, he pulled you close to him. Your lips pulled to the side in thought and after a few seconds you decided to just put it out there.
âAre you sure youâre ok with my body? I mean, I am, but I just want to make sure you are, too. Because if this is going to continue, and I really hope it does, then I need to know youâre going to be ok with my size and not try to change me after a while. Iâve dated men in the past that said they were ok with it, but then a month or so later, theyâre encouraging me to go to the gym or making comments about my diet. They all got kicked to the curb, because I donât need that kind of negativity in my life. I am who I am and I love my body. I just want to make sure you do, too.â
Five was quiet for a moment, then he held your chin in his hand. âLook at me,â he said quietly, while tilting you face up. âIâm sorry if I ever gave you the impression that body type or looks matter to me, because it doesnât. I just had the most mind-blowing sex I have ever had, and I wouldnât change one single thing about you. Youâre perfect.â
âWow,â you said with a smile. âFive Hargreeves just called me perfect. Wait until I spread this rumor down at headquarters.â
âIâm serious,â he said. âYou believe me, donât you?â
You nodded. âI believe you. And thank you.â You gave him a soft kiss and smiled. âSo, does this mean I can keep sexually harassing you at work?â
âI hereby give you permission to harass me as much as you want on a daily basis. I will welcome it.â
After that first date, you and Five couldnât get enough of one another. It was like just being in the same building with him set your body on fire. You would find yourself staring off, lost in a daydream about what his mouth felt like and then someone would clear their throat or say your name, and youâd realize they had been talking to you without you noticing.
Obviously, everyone knew that something was going between you two. You hadnât exactly spread the word, but you also hadnât denied it. You didnât really care what anyone thought, anyway. The only problem was, there was a strict policy of no relationships between case managers and field agents in place. This was done to protect the agents, and to avoid any favoritism with assignments. A few casual flings here and there were overlooked, but serious relationships were usually squashed. Not that you would describe what you had as serious. Yet, anyway.
You did love spending time with one another, even without the sex. You even made Five join you at lunch with your usual group, much to the shock of your friends. It was awkward at first, but when Five cracked a very dry and cutting joke about someone in upper management, the table went silent for a second before bursting into laughter. He looked at you in surprise, like he couldnât believe he was having this type of positive social interaction. You just smiled and shrugged, mouthing âI told you soâ.
Despite the fact that you spent a lot of time together outside of work, that didnât stop either of you from taking advantage of your proximity at the Commission. You had lost count of the number of times you two had stolen away somewhere in the building for a quickie during the day. With Fiveâs status plus his convenient teleportation powers, you could hide anywhere you could think of that would give you at least a few minutes of privacy.
You would be sitting there, attempting to work on a case, when Five would come strolling in. Just the sight of him striding into the room, all confident and sexy with that tiny smirk on his face, made you want to jump on top of him. He would approach you with some made up problem he had and ask you to go with him so you could help straighten it out. It was pretty apparent what was going on, and your coworkers would exchange glances around you, but you didnât care.
Once you were safely down the hallway, Five would grab you and blink you into some abandoned storage room where you were immediately attacked. You had told him to stop being so aggressive while at work, because the hickeys he was leaving on your neck were clearly visible. But that didnât stop him from shoving you against a table or a wall, all while kissing you fervently and telling you how much he wanted you in that deep, growling voice of his.
Dropping to his knees to eat you out while kneading the flesh of your ass. Spinning you around to bend you over a table before fingering you and then fucking you from behind. Biting and sucking at your tits and stomach, leaving marks that would be hidden by your clothes, but were still a reminder of who you belonged to. All of it was expertly done, as only Five could do, and you couldnât get enough.
The servicing wasnât a one-way street, though. You liked to flip the tables sometimes and push him against the wall, sliding slowly down his body until you were kneeling in front of him, hands already clawing at his belt and zipper while you called him Daddy. When you would take all of him into your mouth, he would hiss through his teeth and groan loudly, his hand resting in your hair while he praised you for being good for him. He wanted you to look at him while you sucked him off, and tell you to finger yourself while you did it. Youâd be choking on his dick, a hand shoved into your panties, and both of you moaning until you came; all while the throngs of Commission employees were passing by right outside the door.
It was quickly becoming apparent that your relationship was evolving into something more. You were starting to spend more nights together, sleeping in one anotherâs beds, curled up together and waking up happy in the morning, just to be near each other. Five loved cuddling up with you, pulling your soft body close against his, and nuzzling into your neck or hair. He told you how happy you made him and thanked you for pulling him out of his shell. Heâd idly stroke your arms and thighs while you would lie together in the dark, just talking quietly. In the morning, heâd trace patterns over the white, jagged lines that criss crossed your abdomen and hips, reminding you how beautiful you were as the sunlight spilled across your bed.
Your feelings for Five were starting to seep into your everyday routines and the work you normally prided yourself on. You found yourself worrying about every assignment he went on, even though you knew he was a professional and could handle it.
After a while, the cases you started assigning him got easier and easier, whereas before you would have given him the most difficult and dangerous ones. He finally called you out on it when he received a total rookie assignment while another agent that was not nearly as skilled received a much more complicated one.
He sat on the corner of your desk, a smug grin on his face, as he dropped the file in front of you.
âWhat the hell is this?â he asked you, still smiling.
You glanced down at the file, then back at him. âWhat do you mean?â
He tapped the file with his finger. âThis garbage. Itâs a case for a newbie. Hell, you could probably hand this to any random person off the street and they could do it. So whatâs going on?â
You sighed, crossing your arms over your chest and frowning. âMaybe I thought you just needed a break, thatâs all.â
He studied your face and shook his head. âNo, thatâs not it. Every case I get from you these days is getting simpler and simpler. I just havenât said anything until now. Are you losing faith in my abilities, is that it?â
Your eyebrows raised in surprise. âOf course not! Itâs just, you knowâŠâ Your voice trailed off and your eyes flitted away from his.
âNo, I donât know. Tell me.â
With a heavy sigh, you dropped your hands onto the desk in front of you, looking up at him. âFine. Iâm scared to give you anything complicated because Iâm afraid something will happen to you. And I donât really want my boyfriend being gunned down or stabbed or beaten all to shit, ok? Especially not in another timeline where you might not even be able to come back.â
Five took a second to absorb that information, then he looked down with a smile. âYou really worry about me?â
âYes, I worry about you. Is that so bad? You might not be as amazing as you think you are. Youâre not infallible, you know.â
Five made a face like he hadnât actually considered that before, which was mildly infuriating, and then he looked at you with that gentle smile of his that you knew he saved only for you. He leaned in and gave you a quick but tender kiss full on the mouth, even though you were still in a roomful of people that could see. When he pulled away, you felt your face flush, but not from embarrassment.
âThank you,â he whispered earnestly.
Then he flashed you that arrogant smirk again, the dimple on his cheek deepening, before snatching a much thicker file off your desk, and blinking away without another word.
It was only a matter of time, you supposed, before Corporate caught wind of your relationship. Especially when you were making erratic decisions with your cases lately. Both you and Five received a notice from senior management requesting a meeting. You were a mess of anxiety and nerves when the time came. Your career was important to you, and it was not in your nature to just throw that away for some man. But Five wasnât just any man, was he? If you were going to have to choose between your job and your relationship with him, you had no idea what you were going to do.
Sitting in front of the executiveâs desk, your leg bounced up and down with nerves as you waited for Five to join you. When he arrived, he had the absolute audacity to look calm and unbothered as he sat down in the chair next to you. He greeted the manager and then turned to give you a wink and a small smile. You really had no idea how he could be this nonchalant. Maybe he didnât care if you had to end things.
âAs Iâm sure you know, the reason you two have been called here today is ââ
Five cut your manager off mid sentence. âYes, we are fully aware. According to section 64, subsection D of the Commission Code of Conduct, we are prohibited from being in a romantic relationship with one another.â
The executive paused. âWell, yes, thatâs correct. And so ââ
âAnd so you have to inform us that we either have to end our relationship or resign from our positions.â
There was another moment of perplexed silence from across the desk. âUh, yesâŠâ
âBut that is only because of the current departments we work for, due to conflicting interests, correct?â Five continued.
âThat is correct, yes. Butââ
âSo, if we move to the same department, that shouldnât be an issue?â
âWellâŠyesâŠI supposeâŠâ
You looked at Five, completely confused. âFive, what are you doing? You donât want to work in case management. I know you donât.â
He nodded. âYouâre right. But you can train to become a field agent.â
Your mouth hung open. âWhat?â
âYouâve only mentioned that you were interested in being out in the field about 50 times, so why not? They can always use more agents,â he turned to the manager, âIsnât that right?â
The man cleared his throat. âOh. Well, yes, thatâs true.â
Five nodded again, as if that explained everything. âAlright then, so move her to my department. She has the determination and skill. And you have my official recommendation, which as you know, holds a lot of weight around here.â
There was another look of bewilderment in your direction. âYes, Mr. Hargreeves, thatâs true. I suppose we could do thatââ
Five stood up with a smile. âGreat! Itâs all settled then.â He turned to you, still sitting in your chair and trying to make sense of all of this.
What he had said was true. You had told Five many times that you wished you could have his job. But you figured that was outside of your skill set. Five didnât seem to agree. He knew you were highly intelligent, strong, and had the right personality. You just needed the proper training.
He reached out a hand to pull you up. âIs this all ok with you, darling? Do you have anything to add?â
You shook your head slowly. âUh, noâŠI mean, yesâŠI mean, yes Iâm ok with it and I donât have anything else to add.â
âGreat!â Five turned to the manager. âJust send me the paperwork we need to fill out and we can call it good.â
The manager shook each of your hands and it appeared that the meeting was over before it began. Five guided you towards the door with a hand on your back. You looked over your shoulder, still unsure of what exactly just happened, but you let him push you outside into the hall.
âWhat the fuck, Five?â you demanded, hands on your hips. âYou want to tell me what is happening right now?â
âItâs pretty obvious, isnât it? They werenât going to let us keep dating if we were working in our current departments, so one of us had to move. And I know this is what you really wanted.â
You thought for a moment. âSoâŠyou didnât think of breaking up with me just to keep things the same?â
His mouth dropped open and then he snapped it shut again, his brows furrowing and creating deep creases between his eyes. âNo. Of course not.â He took a few steps closer to you and took your face gently into his hands, gazing into your eyes. âI love you.â
You drew in a sharp breath. âWhat?â
âI love you,â he repeated, this time with a smile.
You answered him, your own grin spreading slowly across your face. âSay that again.â
Five laughed, leaning down to kiss you and you hugged him around his waist. âI love you,â he said again after breaking away.
âI love you too, Five. I donât know if I realized it until just now, but I do. I love you so much.â
Five nodded. âWell, thatâs a relief. Because I would have looked like a giant asshole if I did all that and you shot me down.â
Laughing, you reached up for another kiss that quickly turned very heated. When you pulled away, Five was breathing hard and he tugged your body harder against his.
âThereâs an empty room down the hallway over there,â he said suggestively.
You shook your head. âSorry, honey, but we have to get to work. I have a lot of training to start on.â
âI think you forget who your new boss is,â he said in that serious tone of his.
Five pulled you in tightly again, kissing you hard on the mouth and flattened you against the wall. His hand roamed down to your chest and he gave your breast a small squeeze while pressing his knee in between your legs. When he heard you moan softly into his mouth, he backed away with a grin.
âYou know, I can report you to HR for sexual harassment,â you said with a crooked smile, even though you were having a hard time controlling your heart rate.
âItâs not harassment if you like it,â he shot back before giving you a loud smack on the ass.
Then he turned around and walked away, leaving you flustered and hot; but also with that amazing feeling in the pit of your stomach from knowing you had found the perfect person to love and that loved you just as much in return.
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being in true sexyman nostalgia mode today (on account of. IT'S BEEN ONE YEAR BABY.) i think one of the most fascinating things about it is that we will never manage to do that again. like, not in a "we couldn't organize it better" way; there were better ways to do the spreadsheet, we would just turn off comments on posts and anon asks from day one so that we wouldn't then get people accusing us of censorship while we tried and failed to control the tide of things that ended up in the comments and inbox, we'd definitely have a WAY higher non-hermit contingent, both thanks to qsmp and thanks to the sexyman blog and medusa now having MUCH wider reach to other corners of the fandom and the original spread not all rooting at me, etc.
but the reason we couldn't do it again is that i don't know if we could ever replicate the exact circumstances that lead to it blowing up quite to the extent it blew up.
it was while tumblr polls and doing tumblr poll brackets on tumblr itself was still new-ish, and people were still excited about them. the idea of a mcytblr bracket was basically brand new; i won't claim we did it FIRST (because i have no idea if we did and doubt we did), but certainly we did it big first. so there's that; we can never again invent in real time "shit people are sending us threats about fraud lets legalize fraud because its funny, we can't stop it, and that neutralizes that drama as a thing anyone will take seriously", and then in turn accidentally invent a fandom culture of. um. wide-spread voter fraud.
(i don't know if we should apologize for, uh, causing the specific way mcytblr voter frauds. i still think it was better than the alternative at least, especially after seeing how so many other polls crashed and burned after us. there were MANY things we could have done better but i have seen SO MANY ways we could have done things worse since then so i think we came out looking pretty okay.)
but also: february 2023 was a very different time in mcytblr. we were in a hermitcraft dead period, where most of the hermits were either on vacation or playing tcg (which was fun, but didn't end up generating that much fandom activity by that time in february). the former dsmp crew was very much doing Nothing (and in that awkward space when the entire fandom knew dsmp 2 was never happening, but also people were still claiming it would happen, so it was just... busy waiting). qsmp didn't exist yet. there was no ongoing life series and wouldn't be for some time. i think even the dominioners and lifestealers were in a fairly dead zone. there was very little new for people to be excited about, mcyt content-wise.
enter: our poll. our poll which cleo then thinks its funny to call out on twitter. our poll, which was not only new mcyt content for the fandom to interact with (thanks to the fact we KEPT GETTING CC INTERACTIONS???), but participatory.
for about two weeks, we were the mcyt event de jour.
and like. the thing is. now we're in february 2024. mcyt is BOOMING. a new hermitcraft season JUST STARTED. we came off of vault hunters before that. meanwhile, qsmp just restarted and is, if i'm understanding correctly, booming. they just added a new guy! the two current juggernauts of the fandom are in FULL SWING. i honestly think we'd be somewhat overtaken by the fact things are actually happening in fandom. there's stuff to do that ISN'T go insane about a poll.
and it's not new, and we've seen it all before now, and frankly, it's hard to cause a mass hysteria event TWICE. lightning in a bottle, as they say.
i think part of the reason we all just REMEMBER mcytblr sexyman so much is that we could never, ever recreate it, so it remains crystalized in a single moment in time, impossible to replicate, forever memorable.
anyway: HAPPY ONE YEAR TO THE JOE HILLS SWEEP BABY,
#mcytblr sexyman#sorry i'm in nostalgia mode and feel like rambling. o7 happy one year to joe's victory
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I think something that's fascinating in the AI discussion is how non-creatives perceive AI versus how many creatives perceive AI.
For example, years before AI was a thing--I spoke with someone about my creative writing projects and they expressed to me how they found it unfathomable that I could just make up entire worlds far removed from our reality of existence. To them, it was like magic.
To me, it was the culmination of countless hours spent playing with words until they flowed into semi-coherent lines of thought and emotion. I remember being ten years old and laboring away on my "biggest" novel project ever--it was 5k words full of singular sentence-long paragraphs and garbled heaps of grammar atrocities to the English language.
If I hadn't written it, I wouldn't have come to learn how to create the basic foundations of a story.
But I do get the "it's magic" sentiment a bit--I'm that way with music. Theoretically, I understand the components of a music composition but it feels like magic to see a musician that can listen to a tune for the first time and play it perfectly due to years of honing in their craft.
That's the premise of that quote from Arthur C. Clarke: "Magic's just science we don't understand yet."
When it comes to anything we don't have countless hours of experience with, it feels like magic. It feels like something that's outside of our feeble human capabilities. It's not until we start to put in the time to learn a skill that it becomes more attainable inside our heads.
Generative AI presents a proposition to the non-creative: "What if you could skip past the 'learning process' and immediately create whatever art of your choosing?"
It's instant dopamine. In a world that preys upon our ever-decreasing attention spans and ways of farming short spikes of dopamine, was it ever a surprise that generative ai would be capitalized in this fashion?
So for the non-creative, when they use generative AI and see something resembling their prompt, it feels good. They are "writing" stories, they are "making" art in ways they could never do with their lack of skills.
(It is, in fact, really cool that we have technology that can do this. It's just incredibly shitty that it's exploitative of the human artists whose works were taken without permission as well as its existence threatening their livelihoods.)
What I think is equally concerning as the data scraping of generative ai is the threat that AI imposes on the education of the arts. More and more, you see an idea being pushed that you don't need knowledge/experience in how to create art, all you need to do is feed prompts into generative ai and let it do the "work" for you.
Generative AI pushes the idea that all art should be pristine, sleek and ready for capitalism consumption. There is no room for amateur artists struggling like foals to take their first steps in their creative journeys. We live in a world where time is money and why "waste" time learning when you can have instant success?
It's a dangerous concept because presents a potential loss in true understanding of how art works. It obscures it and makes it seem "impossible" to the average person, when art is one of the freest forms of expressions out there.
It's already happening--Nanowrimo, the writing challenge where the entire point was writing 50k original words in a single month regardless of how pretty it looked--coming out and saying that it is ableist and classist to be opposed to AI is the canary in the coalmine of what's to come.
For the non-creatives who enjoy the generative ai, it feels like a power fantasy come to life. But for creatives concerned about generative ai?
We're living in a horror movie.
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Aziraphale and Crowley's relationship dynamic fascinates me and what fascinates me even more is how people perceive them, partly because I seem to have a much more optimistic view of their dynamic than a lot of what I read suggests they do.
With that in mind I started trying to unpick how I see their dynamic and why and what I ended up with was a series of rambles on various aspects, including confidence, trust, silliness and what they ask of each other. This one is about what they ask of each other and why their relationship isn't some weird one-sided thing where Crowley gives Aziraphale everything he could possibly want or ask for.
I see a lot of posts and things suggesting Crowley always rolls over and does anything Aziraphale asks of him. I donât know to what extent most people really believe this or if itâs just a fun joke (and Iâm not saying thatâs bad, I think itâs a fun joke too, I love reading all that stuff and it makes me laugh). The point I wanted to make here though is that I donât think itâs true and also why I donât think itâs true.
Everything from here on out is my opinion, but I wonât keep stating that in order to make it more easily readable, just take it as a given. If your opinion is different thatâs absolutely fine, I love that we can all see this stuff in different ways depending on our experiences and personalities, itâs why the fandom is so fun. (Itâs also why my opinion on so many things in season two ricochets wildly from one theory to another).
So back to Crowley and Aziraphale â I donât think Aziraphale walks all over Crowley, or certainly not to the extent that people sometimes think he does. Also Crowley doesnât and wouldnât allow himself to be walked all over anyway. Why is this even relevant? Because Iâve seen people say that in the final 15 minutes Aziraphale finally asked Crowley to do something that pushed him over the edge and that Aziraphale was shocked when Crowley didnât roll over and do it because Crowley always does what Aziraphale asks. This isnât at all true for a start, but also this view tends to include a second assumption, which is that their relationship is one-sided and Aziraphale never does anything for Crowley, that he dismisses him and takes him for granted, which also is not true in a lot of ways. I think itâs a fundamental misinterpretation of their relationship dynamic. Â
First of all why can Crowleyâs actions be interpreted as just rolling over and doing whatever Aziraphale wants? Well, the answer to that is three-fold â firstly Crowley is a genuinely unselfish in many ways, he does things for people because thatâs the way he is, it doesnât make him a pushover, it just makes him nice. Secondly he loves Aziraphale deeply. Whether he knows it or not doesnât matter, he cares for Aziraphale and wants him to be happy. This isnât the same as being a complete doormat, itâs simply compromising with the person you are in a relationship with and occasionally prioritising them over yourself. Both these things come together in the third thing, which is that Crowleyâs love language is acts of service â he enjoys doing nice things for Aziraphale, he enjoys rescuing him, or going along with him and letting him have his own way, so why not do it? The point is heâs never railroaded into it by Aziraphale, itâs always a deliberate choice. He is literally saying, I will do this thing for you because I love you and I enjoy making you happy and this is something I feel I can give to you.
How does Aziraphale see this behaviour?
Well thatâs a tricky one, because in many ways Aziraphale is the more complex character, not least because he changes the most over the course of their history together. Is there a slight element of him taking Crowley for granted in some of their interactions, especially in season two? Possibly, but mostly I donât think thatâs it at all. When someone gives you things because their love language is acts of service you develop a (mostly sub-conscious) confidence in that relationship dynamic and if you also have confidence in yourself (which Aziraphale absolutely does â Iâll write more on this another time) then when you want something you ask for things. You ask not because you learn to expect, but because you think youâre worthy of asking and you think that your relationship is strong enough to stand up to the ask. I ask my husband for things all the time, sometimes theyâre things I know heâll give me â these are easy asks (I donât just mean physical objects, I also mean acts of service such as helping me with something), sometimes though Iâll ask for things knowing he probably wonât give me that thing or without having a clue what his answer will be â these are harder asks, the sort you donât do early on in relationships because they might break it either in one go or over time. Sometimes a hard ask results in me getting what I want, sometimes it results in a bit of back and forth before I get what I want, sometimes I get a no and Iâm temporarily annoyed or upset, sometimes I get a no and I accept it because I knew it was the most likely outcome.
The point is that I ask, and so does Aziraphale. You ask because you have confidence that you are worthy of the ask and also that your relationship is strong enough to bear the request, even if the answer is no. Can a no still be annoying or upsetting? Yes absolutely. Can a no still be wrong on the part of the other person? Also yes. The point is that sometimes the no isnât wrong and it doesnât necessarily break the relationship. By the time season two comes along Aziraphale is confident enough in his relationship with Crowley to feel it can bear the weight of him asking.
So what happens when he asks? Does Crowley roll over?
Well no, he doesnât. One big example of this is right at the beginning of the series, in episode one. Here Aziraphale makes a massive ask of Crowley and he knows itâs a big ask. Even before he tells Crowley what the problem is heâs aware of the possibility of a no. âIs it something I can help you with?â Crowley sayss, and Aziraphale merely shrugs. Itâs not because Nina is there, sheâs gone by that point. Itâs also not because he doesnât have faith in Crowleyâs ability to help him, he always has faith in Crowleyâs abilities (this is a whole other thing on trust). What heâs doubting is whether Crowley will help him. Itâs why theyâre meeting in the cafĂ©, not the bookshop. He wants to break this one to Crowley a bit at a time â thereâs a problem and I need help. I want your help, itâs why I called you, but you arenât going to like it and Iâm not even sure whether you will help so Iâm establishing that I need help first, rather than showing you Gabriel immediately, so that you arenât completely surprised when I present the whole problem to you.
Once they go to the bookshop and Crowley is confronted with Gabriel he offers the help he feels able to give by saying that heâll drive Gabriel somewhere and dump him. Heâs stating his willingness to help (which is important later), but for now heâll only help in one specific way. What he isnât willing to do is any more than that, not even for Aziraphale.
Help me take care of Gabriel. Help me sort this mess out, Aziraphale says, and what does Crowley say? No. Absolutely not. Youâre on your own with this one. Even after Aziraphale practically begs him for help, complete with puppy dog eyes and the magic word, âIâd love you to help me,â Crowley still says no. That is not the reply of someone who lets themselves be walked all over or who rolls over every time the angel theyâre in love with flutters their eyelashes.
Okay so what about the fact that he returns? Well, the stakes have been raised: for a start Aziraphale is now directly in danger, which alters the balance in favour of helping him, and remember he was already willing to help, he said as much, but he was previously only willing to help in one way. Now thatâs changed. Doing things you wouldnât normally do for someone you love when the stakes are raised is a perfectly normal rection in a relationship and does not indicate an unhealthy dynamic. Crowley has now realised that getting rid of Gabriel is no longer an option - his preferred plan (dumping Gabriel somewhere) will no longer work, so the only choice is now Aziraphaleâs plan of keeping him in the bookshop and taking care of him.
This is why he returns.
A quick note on the call
Just backtracking a bit here â when Aziraphale calls Crowley to ask him for help Crowley agrees to be over in two minutes. Itâs instant, no questions asked and at first glance looks like Aziraphale calls and Crowley comes running just because. But nope. Later we are very clearly told that Crowley knows something is wrong the moment he picks up the phone and Aziraphale starts speaking, âThis was your âSomethingâs Wrongâ voice.â Crowley already knows thereâs a problem and what do you do when your closest friend calls you and tells you about a problem? You try to help. Whether thatâs advice, comfort, physically going around to help out or whatever the situation calls for. Of course Crowley says heâll be there in two minutes, he doesnât exactly have anything else on and his friend has just indirectly told him something is wrong. Heâd be a pretty shitty person/entity if he didnât agree to drop round and try to help.
So what about the 'I was wrong' dance?
This whole interaction, that many people say indicates how under the thumb he is actually shows us the exact opposite. Whatâs the first thing Crowley says when Aziraphale asks him to do the dance? âI donât do the dance.â This tells us a hell of a lot about their relationship dynamic up to this point â for a start Aziraphale has clearly done the dance before, at Crowleyâs request, and he lists off the occasions. The dance is silly and slightly demeaning and Aziraphale has done it several times for Crowley, whilst Crowley has never done it, yet somehow we read this whole scene as Crowley being the whipped one? Um. No. Also heavily implied in Crowleyâs, âI donât do the danceâ statement is, Youâve asked me to do this before, Iâve always said no because I donât want to. Youâve always accepted my no before and I want (expect!) you to accept it this time.
But this time Aziraphale doesnât accept the no. Just like Crowley wouldnât go along with his plan earlier, Aziraphale now wonât go along with Crowleyâs no. Clearly he has done so in the past, but this time their dynamics are different. Theyâve been much more open about their friendship for the past four years, theyâve both accepted that they are at least close friends, if not more. Theyâve saved the world together and saved each other. They both acknowledge they âcarved (this existence) out for ourselvesâ and that brings strength to their relationship. Now that Aziraphale has more confidence in what they are to each other, he takes that confidence and tests the limits of what Crowley will do for him, to push them more towards equality. Why should he always be the one to do the dance? Crowley responds by acquiescing not because he would just roll over and do anything for Aziraphale but because he recognises three things. Firstly that Aziraphale is pushing and that this is new and that this means something to him in the context of their relationship, secondly because he reluctantly accepts Aziraphaleâs point that it isnât really fair that he never does it, and finally because the request for him to do the dance isnât about him refusing to help (Aziraphale was never certain he would), itâs about the fact that heâs broken Aziraphaleâs trust by refusing to help (which is a slightly and very subtly different thing). To illustrate this, right before Crowley does the dance, just after he says âfine,â he gets this very brief, soft look on his face â this is him acknowledging to himself that Aziraphale deserves this dance, that he loves the angel and that heâs doing this because of both those things â he could have continued to insist on a no, he clearly has before, but this time he chooses not to.
I will do this thing for you because I love you and I enjoy making you happy and this is something I feel I can give to you.
All right, what about the car thing?
What about it? Lending your car to the person you love is very normal. Ok so the car means more to Crowley than a normal car does to us, but the point still stands. Aziraphale is making a reasonable request here. Does he expect a yes? Absolutely, because he also knows itâs a reasonable request given where their relationship is. Does he flirt to get his own way? Hell, yes. Does Crowley know exactly what Aziraphale is playing at? Also a hell yes. And Crowley totally plays up to it, heâs not as opposed to it as he claims. Heâs playing up his ânoâ and his grumpiness for effect, to encourage Aziraphaleâs silly flirtiness. Look at the difference between this no and the no he gave Aziraphale earlier. Thereâs no anger here, thereâs no real sense that he thinks Aziraphale is asking too much, heâs playing a role in their relationship and theyâve both played this game before. Look at that little slap of the hand, which Aziraphale responds to equally playfully. The game even continues after Muriel turns up at the shop, when itâs already quite clear that Crowley is going to let Aziraphale use the car (heâs already taking the plants out). Even in the back-room Crowley still teasingly grumbles about trains whilst Aziraphale smiles flirtily, and Crowley playfully withholds the car keys when Muriel interrupts them. They both know Aziraphale is going to end up with them, thereâs no point to him not directly handing them over in spite of the interruption, itâs just an excuse to tease Aziraphale back. I mean, look at him â he spends the rest of the conversation wiggling his hips, grinning smugly and confidently handling the Muriel problem by talking about love. Aziraphaleâs very overt reaction tells you all you need to know about the dynamic of this one.
Two can play at this flirting game, angel.
But he follows him around like a little puppy!
Well, yes and no. Sure he follows him around whilst he goes around asking all the shopkeepers to the meeting, but he does that because itâs fun for him. Heâs curious, Aziraphale is acting oddly, doing something heâs never done before and Crowley wants to know what it is. Heâs always found him fascinating â what silly and ridiculous thing is the angel up to now?
Also wanting to hang out with the person you are in love with isnât at all strange or a sign you are in some sort of weird relationship where only one of you calls the shots. Itâs normal. Crowley knows Aziraphale has a tendency to be silly or do unexpected things and he wants to watch him do them and also flirt with him whilst heâs doing them. Looking grumpy and reacting to Aziraphaleâs silliness with disbelief is how Crowley flirts-without-flirting. Both of them know, understand and like that dynamic, and he has that role not because heâs unhealthy levels enthralled with everything Aziraphale does but because of the levels of trust they have spent millennia establishing.
What Crowley doesnât do is wait around for Aziraphale. Look at the scene where Aziraphale daydreams about Job. In that scene heâs aware Aziraphale has something else to show him (the record clue), but he doesnât stick around whilst Aziraphale ignores him. He could have sat down somewhere in the shop and waited â heâs got an eternity, waiting an hour or so is no big deal, but waiting around like that would suggest he really is a doormat, just waiting for the next time Aziraphale shows him any attention. He doesnât do that, instead he goes off and does⊠well, something. Thereâs a lot of speculation over what it is, but whether he goes off to read Pride and Prejudice or just wanders off to find something more interesting to look at than the back of Aziraphaleâs head, heâs clearly saying here that he has a life outside of whatever Aziraphale wants to do.
Also side note - you know what else he doesnât do for Aziraphale? Adjust his driving style. Aziraphale clearly hates it, it makes him nervous and he even asks Crowley to change several times whilst theyâre in the car together, but Crowley never does. This is how I am angel, accept it or donât, but this is the line and Iâm not changing this for you. Related to this is his refusal to accept Aziraphale altering the Bentley. Aziraphale tries to persuade him, âBut itâs pretty,â and Crowley really isnât having it. Itâs another hard line and heâs not going to let Aziraphale cross it.
Anything else?
Thereâs a few other examples that Iâve seen listed in the, âCrowley does whatever Aziraphale says/wantsâ evidence piles. Things like Aziraphale assuming heâs going to get the drinks in the pub. Well, someone has to get them, and it makes perfect sense that they both assume itâs Crowley here because heâs the one more comfortable with pubs. Having a role that you take on within certain situations in a relationship is healthy and normal, imagine how exhausting it would be to debate who is going to do every little thing all of the time.
In the first series the coat cleaning is another example often cited, but this is something Crowley is perfectly happy to do. Aziraphale is flirting, which is delightful, and heâs not being asked to do anything difficult or dangerous. I will do this thing for you because I love you and I enjoy making you happy and this is something I feel I can give to you, which is totally different from, you always ask, I always give, and you always take.
What about Aziraphale. When does he give?
All the damn time. We just donât notice it as much because Crowley asks different things of him. His love language is acts of service towards others, but he doesnât really ask or require them in return. Sometimes he gets them from Aziraphale anyway (Holy water anyone?) Also notably in the Globe Theatre when heâs clearly the one pushing the Arrangement, and Aziraphale more or less agrees to do his work for him (âThat doesnât sound like hard workâ) even before heâs asked, before theyâve gone through their little dance of Crowley pushing and Aziraphale supposedly-reluctantly agreeing.
The other things Aziraphale gives Crowley are much more nuanced, and much less measurable to us as the audience, but he gives them constantly, or more or less constantly, throughout their relationship. He gives him acceptance (although he occasionally partially withdraws it, such as in the bandstand scene), his silliness (which is more important than it first appears), a safe space (not just the bookshop, but also a safe space for Crowley to air his real views without fear of consequence, which is important irrespective of whether or not he persuades Aziraphale to agree with him), his physicality (by 1826 heâs really in Crowleyâs space so much of the time) and most importantly he gives Crowley himself. Crowley constantly pushes Aziraphale to grow as a person, itâs one of the original reasons he entertains developing a friendship with him. What he asks of Aziraphale is for Aziraphale to think â really think â about what he believes. And Aziraphale does so, but only for Crowley. Humans have constantly questioned religious beliefs throughout history, theyâve written books, made speeches and even had wars over religious doctrine and the problems, inconsistencies and absurdities within it. Crowley is saying nothing to Aziraphale that he wonât already have indirectly heard from humans and dismissed or ignored. But when Crowley says it, he thinks and he changes. Thatâs what Crowley asks of Aziraphale and itâs what Aziraphale gives him.
What was the point of all this waffle?
Well, honestly there isnât much of one. Only that their relationship is much more balanced than some suggest and I think I just wanted to spell that out. It also has an implication for the final 15 minutes. Thereâs no way Aziraphale goes into that with some sort of fake confidence that he can persuade Crowley to follow him to heaven simply because Crowley always follows him â Crowley doesnât, he has very clear limits that he enforces with Aziraphale and Aziraphale knows this. He might feel confident for other reasons (such as thinking Crowley will be happy to be an angel again) or something else entirely different might be happening (so many theories!) but Iâm pretty sure itâs nothing to do with thinking Crowley always does what he asks, because he very clearly doesnât.
It's also why Crowley waits around afterwards to watch Aziraphale leave. Itâs a way indirectly of saying one final time, I love you and I enjoy making you happy⊠but this is something I cannot give to you.
#good omens 2#good omens#good omens meta#apology dance#ineffable husbands#ineffable fandom#acts of service#crowley loves aziraphale#aziraphale loves crowley#aziraphale#crowley
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this is probably shaped by my limited frame of reference, but im really fascinated by witnessing the real-time development of adhd as a diagnosis. people attribute so many symptoms to it now or maybe they always did? i was wondering if you have any thoughts on what is the use of adhd specifically as a category within psychiatry. I'm esl so sorry for any confusing wording
no you're right imo; diagnostic categories are always somewhat in flux ofc but ADHD is one that has seen a particularly pronounced shift in the last couple decades. obviously this is multifactorial but my observation goes something along these lines:
'hyperactivity' has been dx'd in children since about the 1950s (also when Ritalin hit the market) but the ADHD dx doesn't really take off until the 90s (also when Adderall, a 2nd-gen reformulation of the 'obesity' drug Obetrol, hit the market). so, it's not all that surprising that 20 years later you see increased patient awareness of the diagnosis, increased popular interest in it, and shifting / expanding ideas of what it means and what ADHD 'is'. it's a relatively young dx.
part of the reason it's young is because it's basically a 'biopsychiatric' dx, meaning it diagnoses certain behaviours as being a 'brain problem' rather than having social causes or context. in practice this is complicated because psychs do use pharmacological approaches in conjunction with psychodynamic ones all the time; nevertheless, the central promise of DSM ADHD and its pharmaceutical treatments has consistently been that the ADHD subject has a physiological, neurological disorder / dysfunction / aberration, and that the drug treatments on the market fix it. that none of this is actually empirically supported is conceptually inconvenient and entrenched by the research process.
the biopsychiatric narrative is worth paying attention to because the context here is one in which it has become commonly accepted that behavioural 'disorders' and affective distress of various kinds can be, basically, either of pure biological origin, or else Your Fault. in the case of childhood hyperactivity, Your Fault historically also included Your Mother's Fault; part of the reason many mothers embraced Ritalin in the 50s and 60s was because the proffered pharmaceutical narrative explicitly challenged the idea that these mothers had done something 'wrong' to result in their (mostly) sons exhibiting disruptive and hyperactive behaviour.
this dichotomy of biology vs personal failing is very overtly present in quite a bit of discourse around ADHD today. if it's my brain being 'wrong' or different, then it's not something I've done wrong but a disease with a simple chemical fix. in this context I don't think it's surprising at all that a lot of popular and patient conceptions of ADHD have seen a considerable widening over the past few decades. often people like to blame this on pharmaceutical companies, and it's true that industry benefits from these discourses and frequently invests in them (eg, via instruments like ADDitude mag). however, that's a pretty simplistic explanation on its own and doesn't really account for the ways in which patients and potential patients also find this diagnostic category personally useful, for reasons ranging from identity-formation to the desire to access prescription amphetamines. ADHD increasingly shows up as a biologised explanation for behaviours ranging from 'eating too many sweets' to 'postural sway' and so on. you can see in such examples how invoking the idea of an aberrant ADHD brain is both reassuring to people who have been made to feel ashamed of certain behaviours, and provides a sense of shared identity and community with others.
all of this is to say: I don't find it surprising at all when I see a relative broadening of notions of ADHD, almost always expressed in biological terms (the 'ADHD brain' operates differently, 'seeks dopamine', causes this or that). ADHD is in some ways a particularly blatant distillation of this general trend in popular psychiatric discourses, for reasons relating to expectations about childhood and child behaviour, and the historical and present relationship between the ADHD label and the regulation of amphetamines. but much of what's happening with ADHD in terms of popular discourses about it can also be seen with many, many other psychiatric diagnoses, to varying extents and in various ways.
my experience writing about ADHD on this website leads me to close by explicitly stating the following: I do not think any ADHD behaviours / symptoms are people's 'fault' or an individual failing; I do not think using drugs for any reason is morally bad or needs to be justified; the fact that I do not think ADHD is a 'brain disease' does not mean I think people are 'making it up' or exaggerating wrt any difficulties they experience personally, professionally, emotionally, &c.
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One thing that really fascinates me about interview with the vampire (the show) is this sort of tension between power and powerlessness in all of the characters. Because it doesn't present becoming a vampire as something that just gives you power and magically makes you completely detached from all human concerns and struggles.
And that seems to be something Lestat does very much want to believe, and he's in enough of a position of privilege that he's able to convince himself it's true, and it's a fundamental area where he just cannot understand Louis because Louis CAN'T pretend even if he wants to. (And of course Lestat cannot ACTUALLY separate himself from "human troubles" the way he likes to think he can, he just has an easier time pretending than most). Because as much as becoming a vampire grants these characters supernatural power it doesn't just magically take away the very tangible human ways that they were previously vulnerable or powerless.
Becoming a vampire doesn't negate Louis' struggles with racism; in some ways it amplifies them with how he is alienated from his own family and community; his closest connection becomes Lestat. He loses his economic independence and becomes socially dependent on Lestat in a way he wasn't to anyone as a human because in some ways becoming a vampire made him MORE vulnerable, despite granting him physical strength/speed/etc. The promise of freedom in vampirism Lestat presents to Louis (that I do think he does genuinely mean, but "freedom" means very different things to Louis than it does to Lestat) is never fulfilled.
Likewise Claudia learns the hard way with Bruce and later with the coven that she may be a vampire but the world still looks at her and sees a vulnerable young black girl and that will always put her in danger.
Claudia rescues Madeleine then turns her into a vampire, but rather than protect her from future harm the "crime" of turning her becomes the very thing that gets her killed by yet another angry mob.
And 514 years as a vampire will never be enough for Armand to truly trust or believe in his own power. Because the first 200 or so years of his life he was literally never once allowed any agency at all over his own identity or his own body (child slave sold to a brothel, sold to an abusive master, captured and violently indoctrinated into a vampire cult for centuries). No amount of material strength and power is going to undo the psychological effects of that. (And I know some people like to read his frequently passive demeanor as simply manipulation and a way of catching people off guard (because how could someone so old and powerful possibly feel a genuine sense of fear/vulnerability/etc đ) but to me that's an incredibly disingenuous reading of him. But that's a different rant for another time!). Being a vampire does not save him from being horrifically abused, nor does it save him from the lasting emotional effects of that abuse.
And I think there's something interesting to be said about the way that, in order to survive safely, they have to feed on the most vulnerable members of society (people undesirable and therefore least likely to arouse suspicion) in order to go unnoticed. If they want to live they have to prey on those vulnerable in possibly the same ways they themselves once were (and in many ways still are).
There's a frequent argument I dislike that we shouldn't be viewing any of these characters through too human of a lense because they're literal monsters (to be honest it's an argument I see most often made when people simply don't want to talk about the show's complex depiction of racism/misogyny/abuse/etc and used to dismiss those as issues "too human" to be relevant to a story about a bunch of monsters with a supposedly alien sense of morality), but I think the show itself makes a huge argument that for these characters there is no escaping or separating themselves from the very human struggles and vulnerabilities that marked them before they ever became vampires. It's like a sort deconstructed power fantasy.
#interview with the vampire#louis de pointe du lac#armand iwtv#claudia iwtv#lestat de lioncourt#madeleine eparvier
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Crowley admitted his feelings in Season 1
This specific quote is in reference to Act II, Scene 2 of Shakespeare's play "Antony and Cleopatra." Which canonically had not even been written yet in the series, which IMPLIES that when Shakespeare heard Crowley's words, he interpreted them as what they truly meant and transitioned them into the play. So basically Crowley has been absolutely besotted by Aziraphale from the beginning and Shakespeare agreed so much he put it in one of the most famous romantic plays of all time.
The original quote by Shakespeare read as follows:
âNever; he will not: Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale Her infinite variety;â
This quote is spoken in the play when a follower of Mark Antony describes the appearance of Cleopatra, Queen of Egypt, as she rode her barge down the river Cydnus; and how Mark Antony first lays eyes on her then immediately falls head-over-heels in love with her. "Age does not wither her" means that her beauty and allure do not diminish with the passage of time. It implies that as she ages, she remains just as attractive and enchanting as ever. "Nor custom stale her infinite variety": Here, "custom" refers to familiarity or routine. The quote suggests that even familiarity or habit does not make Cleopatra's qualities or personality seem boring or less interesting. "Infinite Variety" implies that she possesses an inexhaustible range of qualities, moods, and aspects that keep her intriguing and unpredictable---Sound like someone familiar?
Now keep in mind that when Crowley said it, It was never originally about Cleopatra
Crowley said âAge does wither nor custom stale HIS infinite varietyâ because AZIRIPHALE is the subject.
Crowley has admitted to being captivated by Aziraphale since he first laid eyes on him; since the first ever rainfall. Through thousands of years, Aziraphale hasâquite literally never aged nor withered butâremained a consistent and magnetic presence in Crowley's life; Aziraphale company never stales because he is infinite variety, the angel with 100 contradictions, who gave away their sword without hesitation and rebelled against heaven beside Crowley; who keeps surprising him at every turn. Aziraphale himself bends the effects of time and routine because no matter how many years pass Crowley will always find him as gorgeous and fascinating as he did before the light was even born.
Aziraphale obviously doesn't really understand Shakespeare or the depth of poetry at this time, (as interpreted by his reactions to the play) and Crowley realizes this and grasps the moment to confess his feelings knowing that Aziraphale likely would not look too deep past it, you can see the shift in him when he recognizes the opportunity and the sudden morose tone he has when saying it to no one in particular.
The Good Omens writers are absolute saints, nothing they do is lazy in the least and I am positive that effort went into finding a quote that encapsulated the true depth of relations between the two.
#good omens#good omens 2#aziracrow#neil gaiman#anthony j crowley#aziraphale#crowley#good omens theory#good omens crowley#go2#good omens season 2 spoilers#ineffable idiots#ineffable husbands#ineffable partners#ineffable spouses#azirafell#crowly x aziraphale#aziraphel#azirowley#shakespeare#Shakespeare is a rite of passage for immortal gays#I'm looking at you sandman/hob tag#Love u Neil#and u too terry#ma boys
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As many people have pointed out already in chapter 106, the Forgersâa fake familyâact more authentic than the Desmondsâthe actual family.
But reallyâŠthe Desmonds arenât a ârealâ family, not to me. Not in a way that matters...
SxF is really good at showing relationship dynamics and how blood doesnât always make a family. This is so true now that you read chapter 106 and compare the Desmonds and their interactions to the Forgers and how they act with one another.
With the Desmonds, there is no warmth shown in how they interact. I'd say there's barely any love either (we know Melinda does care for Damian despite the conflicting thoughts, but it seems she's not allowed to show it). Damian tries to form connections but no one in the family is receptive of it. The parents have a hands-off parenting style. The older brother keeps to himself and doesnât open himself up. Damian literally finds more affection in his dog and butler than his actual family and thatâs so heartbreaking!
The Desmonds may be a family in all sense and purposes, but they don't present in a way that all families are meant to.
On the other side are the Forgers. Loid and Yor married for convenience. Anya is adopted. Theyâre only together because of Anya due to her mind reading abilities. Itâs all a sham for WISEâs mission and to lower suspicion from the secret police.
But despite the intentions behind forming this persona of a perfect family unitâŠyou can tell that there is a genuity to their relationship with one another. You see love, care, emotion, respect, and protectiveness. The family may be fake but the feelings they exhibit are so real despite the motives not exactly being pure. Loid, Yor, and Anya experiencing life together led to them forming bonds that they cherish. They Forgers managed to create a warm place they can comfortably call home.
idk I just find it so fascinating to see how a family brought together for convenience and ulterior motives can develop true familial bonds compared to an âofficialâ and ârealâ family. I want to write a thesis paper about it lmao
I do wonder what the future holds for the Desmonds. In Damian's case, I hope he and Anya can grow more together so she can show him what a real loving family is. If Donovan really is as evil as the narrative is making him out to be, my hope is that he can be taken out of the picture so the rest of the family can heal from their respective traumas, then grow back together on what little familial love is left over. But we'll just have to wait and see when it comes to that...
#spy x family#sxf spoilers#super reads spy x family#my attempt at a meta#mostly rambling though especially at the end#i just want to put the desmonds under a microscope and study them okay?#and them being foils to the forgers is SO GOOD TO ME
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Astro Observations đ±
Disclaimer: This is my first Astrology post! I tried to do this earlier this year but tumblr lagged and it deleted all of my hard work lol. But now Iâve gained the courage to give it another go! Iâm not a professional astrologer. I just study it in depth when I have time. Still very much a beginner. Please be kind and if Iâm misinformed let me know! If you want to repost my work please credit me. This also has personal opinions in here donât take it too seriously babes!
đŸ I donât typically think Leoâs and Scorpios go together romantically BUT any other relationship outside of that exudes power team. For ex: Kylie and Kris Jenner. Scorpios are known to love power and Leoâs love the spotlight! Kylie was bound to be a favorite after her « ugly duckling » phase. Kylie rolls in the dough and Kris keeps that empire going. Iâve seen many Scorpio parents with Leo kids and they really seem to love them the most lol
Letâs talk about underdeveloped placements real quick!
đż Having a parent that is toxic or underdeveloped and has placements that fall into your second house can obliterate your self worth. ESPECIALLY if you have planets in that house and their placements are exactly conjunct 0° or 1-3°.
đŸ If your mars sign is exactly square one of your parents mars or 1-5° orb⊠đ take the steps to move out if you havenât already itâs for the best.
đż Capricorn moons I wish I could hug all of you. You had to grow up so fast and got handed some of the worst cards. But nevertheless resilience is your middle name. As you age things will get easier if you stand on business! Integrity is key.
đŸ I know libras are known to be superficial or whatever and Iâm kinda one of them lol. I literally live off of aesthetics and I typically have nice skin but when I have a massive break out? I literally want to hide until theyâre gone. My stress is next level when I donât look my best.. Iâm also a Leo Venus đ
in the tenth house at that and have cancelled plans when I look and feel shitty.
đż All of the air signs almost always value intellectual stimulation first from their partner. Someone they can have great rapport, banter with. Someone thatâs witty and knows a wide variety of subjects or has many interests is very hot. Sagittarius is the air sign of the fire signs so Iâll loop them in on this too.
If we lost any zodiac element, it would bring chaos to the entire world.
đŸ Air brings logic and reasoning, water brings compassion and empathy, earth brings grounding and patience, fire brings passion and vitality. Life is about interconnectedness.
đż I remember reading a blog that the gods put the constellation of Libra in between Virgo and Scorpio because they were too much alike and itâs so true lol. Both signs can be so compulsive and itâs overwhelming from what Iâve heard from Virgo and Scorpio placements. I can also see this easy going equivalence being the case for Sagittarius being in between Scorpio and Capricorn. The benefics happy go luckies in between the malefics drained and over it.
đŸâŠ moon 3rd house overlay is addictive especially combined with 7th/8th/12th overlays in that synastry. I donât think I can ever do that again unless we both have it overlaying each others charts. Someoneâs moon in your 3rd house, their mind fascinates you and itâs easy to communicate with them you feel seen and heard. You dream about them, you think about them all the freaking time. It is the most annoying thing because why are you taking up my brain space like that bro? I had this with someone and I still think about them itâs been over for quite some time now. Another person thatâs in love with me, my moon falls into their 3rd house and they tell me how much they think about me and day dream about me. I had said issue of daydreaming with the other guy. 2/10 would not recommend unless moon person is developed.
đż When the moon transits your first house youâre more likely to be more emotional and make drastic changes to your physical features! When Doja Cat shaved her head the moon was transiting her first house and I literally did mine the next day when it was transiting my first house.
đŸ Opinion but I love Pisces placements they are so helpful and loving when developed. I think the underdeveloped ones are too but they expect something out of it where the developed ones are just really selfless. Iâm a Pisces Stan! I have so many in my life lol I have no Pisces placements. My 5H is in Pisces lol
đż Degree theory is that gworl. It helps you relate to the planet and itâs placement more depending on what the degree rules. For example I was dating a Sagittarius Venus in the 9th house at the 9° and he embodied that free spirited nature of Sag Venus fr. Another example, you can be a Pisces Venus but itâs in your first house at the first degree and the way you love embodies a more aries way of loving. Fiery, passionate a bit aggressive but very deep and tender to the core.
đŸ Iâve also heard the theory of when you reach the age of certain degrees of the placements you have you unlock that placements characteristics. Something significant happens to you during that age or you might master that placement regarding the planet and house placement.
đż The degree of your rising sign is more than likely the age of something significant happen in your physical life/to you physically. This is tea yâall.
đŸ You most likely share placements or degrees in your chart with your siblings. My sister is a Scorpio sun, Aries rising, Virgo moon and Iâm a Libra sun, Scorpio rising, Aries moon. If I was born two days earlier I wouldâve been a Virgo sun and if she was born one or two days later she wouldâve been a Libra moon. So I think thats pretty cool. Weâre also both Venus dominant and she has a Libra stellium đ. You really choose your family for your next life lol like thatâs so crazy to me.
đż Ima say dis with my chest. STOP doing wrong by Saturn ruled placements!!! Saturn is ruled by Capricorn, Aquarius in traditional astrology and we cannot forget about its exalted sign in Libra. As a Libra, I receive karma with the quickness but also people that have done wrong by me their quality of life decreases and or whichever house Saturn is in their chart is deeply affected in the worst ways.. daddy Saturn donât play bout his! Be fair and follow the golden rule. âDo unto others as you would have them do unto you.â
đŸ Having heavy Sagittarius placements in your chart makes you open to learn different languages or different cultures.. just always wanting to learn. Whatever house itâs in you want to master in life.
đż The mutables Gemini Virgo Sagittarius Pisces love their niches, they are the teachers and preachers of the zodiac.
đŸ Geminis have the gift of gab more than any other zodiac. Sagittarius could possibly go toe to toe with them
đż If anyone ever tries to degrade you for studying astrology and eggs you on to prove this practice to be true, get their birth info and read them their Chiron sign and house placement. Hit âem where it hurts!
đŸ Scorpio and Libra placements are usually the generational trauma breakers of their family. Honorable mention- Saturns children, Capricorn and Aquarius
đż An undeveloped Capricorn placement that enters your life is literally satan reincarnated to torture you for whatever you did wrong in your past life. And I (if u were raised around Christianity) believe Jesus was a Pisces/Aries! I can argue about this all day! In tarot Capricorn rules the devil! Like hellooooo
đŸ Sixth house/Virgo placements are pretty good at taking care of pets and plants. They feel the most sane around nature and animals.
đż Personal planets harmoniously aspected to Neptune make the person seem very angelic like. Very soft souls, earth angels. Hard aspects have people having an even more distorted projection of you.
đŸ Personal planets harmoniously aspected or not to Uranus gives you that shock factor some people will be repelled and some people will be very intrigued.
đż Aries placements especially sun and moon are really loyal! Iâm talking mostly platonically. Once they see you as their person they are truly ride or die.
đŸ Cancer placements can be one of the most loving and giving when developed. Some spiteful mfs when underdeveloped omg.
đż I realize cancer placement women get treated with the cutest romantic gestures. I think they lovers want to do these things for them because they give off ethereal or princess vibes but theyâre also real nasty in the sheets lol
đŸ Cancers donât really get a bad rep even when they do shady things. For example: Selena Gomez when she dated Abel even tho she was cool with Bella was super weird. And I think a lot of people forgot how Kevin hart cheated on his wife like it was nothing lol. Ariana grande with the donuts and now the Ethan thing chileee. Itâs like they get a second of backlash and then everyone adores them again lol.
đż Having a grand trine in your chart can make you so damn lazy in the houses those planets/figures are in đ„čđ„Č. Itâs crazy cuz that talent(s) will come natural to you and youâll over look it! Please donât.
đŸ Grand squares are TOUGH but it pushes you to break cycles and overcome so much in your life. Same with t-squares
đ± Astrology is really a map. It shows you which path you can take and where you can end up when you include discernment and discipline into your daily life. Itâs never an excuse to behave the way you do. Ultimately it helps us reach our most aligned and enlighten self! I hope you all enjoyed. đ±
Idk why I canât figure out how to delete this question thing so letâs do a cute lil questionnaire!
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I just realized.
Hiccup loves Toothless but he doesn't have a reason for it like everyone else.
Like, everyone in-universe loves Toothless right?
The antagonists are fascinated by him and are obsessed with him because he's a night fury. Pre-redemption Dagger loves him because of same reason and post-redemption, he likes Toothless because of many other things that have to do with Toothlessâ personality. Stoick loves him as a son, yes that is very true, go rewatch the series if you don't believe me, all of the Berkians are in awe with Toothless because of his capabilities, the kids adore him, the dragons listen to him (because he had protected them for a long time), the animals stopped being afraid of him because he was protective and kind, and the Gang loves him for a lot of things, for his capabilities and his fun personality and intelligence, he is their friend just as much as Hiccup is. And we viewers love Toothless for a lot of things, we can make a very long list of reasons.
But then you get to Hiccup, the one person who loves Toothless the most, out of anyone in the whole franchise.
But then you think about which quality of Toothless does he love him for? His intelligence? His protectiveness? His loyalty? His speed or stealth?
Everyone has a reason to love this dragon, what is Hiccupâs reason?
And I thought back to the movie and the short movies and the series and realized, Hiccup doesn't have a reason.
He just loves Toothless, and he would love Toothless even if he weren't a powerful, fast, kind and intelligent night fury, he would love Toothless even as a tiny terrible terror (he has in fact, maybe in another universe).
Hiccup saw Toothless, saw his eyes for the first time and saw his own soul staring back.
Hiccup saw Toothless, saw his eyes for the second time and saw his own curiosity and intelligence staring right back.
Hiccup and Toothlessâ friendship grew slowly, gradually and strongly, they love each other for no reason other than the fact they learned to trust each other, no ulterior motive.
And Hiccup moved on so fast from an overhead sketch scribbled hastily for scientific record to scribbles in the dirt of eyes full of life, the one thing occupying his mind as he stays within the same space as the one whom his people considered the offspring of death itself, feeling unworried and safe.
And Toothless, sharing his fish, even though he doesn't share with other dragons, napping in the same space as the human, letting down his guard enough to fall asleep, unaware of time passing till evening arrives, seeing a figure of himself being drawn in the dirt and allowing the human to reach out and touch him.
He comes to care about Hiccup just as much, enough to protect him from everyone and everything, even the rudeness of other vikings.
He doesn't have a reason to love Hiccup. One would think it's because Hiccup gave his flight back but no, Toothless broke the new tail that allowed him to fly free, he jumped into an inferno with no guarantee of survival, he ate an eel, he broke an alphaâs command when he heard his best friendâs voice, for Hiccup.
Everyone who loves Hiccup has a reason for it, be it his skills or kindness or compassion or intelligence or parental pride or hero worship. But Toothless would love Hiccup even if he were being reckless and stupid, even if he didn't win at something, battle or game, even if he becomes sleep deprived and half crazy, even when the boy couldn't fight as he does once grown, even when he was small and hidden and hated by many.
Hiccup and Toothless love each other, without a reason and unconditionally.
#don't tag as a ship please#httyd#hiccup haddock#httyd hiccup#hiccup and toothless#hiccup horrendous haddock iii#hiccup how to train your dragon#hiccup#httyd toothless#toothless httyd#toothless#dreamworks dragons
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Lilia and Agatha: The Comfort of Fate and Death
I've been pondering Lilia's arc in Episode 7 and what it might say about Agatha's arc and the show's exploration of fate, choices, and death, because they all seem intertwined.
Let's take a walk through my thinky thoughts, shall we?
Fate and Agency
Lilia hid from her power because all she saw was death, and she couldn't stop or change it. She had been chased away for trying to warn others of disaster. And because MCU witches can apparently live a damn long time, all this death and loss and sense of helplessness crippled her.
So she forgot herself, forgot her power. And just like Agatha, Lilia also gave up on having a coven because it didn't work out the first time.
But despite everything, Lilia did still try to make a difference in helping Billy using the sigil. She saw the boy needing help and decided to try.
And she realises she did make a difference. He's standing with her now. Despite running away from it for years, her power enabled her to do something that mattered.
And when confronted with a vision of her own death, Lilia decides not to leave the road but to go to her coven who need her. She embraces her fate (her death) and saves her coven.
It's interesting because it feels like Lilia's destiny coming true but it also feels like Lilia is making her decisions and driving her story. Because we're with Lilia as she goes through this journey.
But is it all ultimately a matter of fate? Can fate be changed or are these points fixed regardless of what we do? Because divination means they can be perceived in advance? I don't think the show will give us any definite answers. And maybe there aren't any.
Maybe it doesn't matter if it's fated or not, but what we decide to do with the information and power that we're given in a moment. I like to go back to that quote from the Angel TV series, because it sums it up so nicely:
If nothing we do matters, all that matters is what we do.
The fate and commonality of Death
It is what we all have in common.
Lilia's story also makes an important point about death: Yes, death can be frightening, and lead to pain and grief and sorrow, but it's part of being alive, part of the common human experience.
Death can tear a person apart but it can also bring people together, if you let it. It can be a comfort.
And every living thing's fate will be death, one way or another. We donât need divination powers to know what awaits us at the end. But what will you do, knowing this fate? Not just for you but for the ones you love?
This issue is further compounded for these witches, who seem capable of living for centuries or longer. They can experience the pain of deaths across many human lifetimes and they also deal with death more often as a persecuted or misunderstood community.
Lilia tries to escape the pain of death by isolating herself from other witches and hiding away as a hermit. She doesnât want to see, to keep futilely trying, so she runs from her power.
Agatha, on the other hand, is a creature of ego and hubris. She believes that rules can bend to her power. She refuses death, refutes it. To Agatha, death is a challenge, and perhaps the ultimate mystery â and sheâs big ol' nerd who loves a mystery â so she's fascinated by it.
Complicating things is how Agatha ends up falling for Death and vice versa. And in so doing, she gets emboldened about bending the rules. She's not above manipulating Death to keep herself just a bit more safe.
But the end result for Agatha is still isolation, like Lilia, because Agatha removes herself from that common experience.
There's no one to grieve with her, to comfort her, when Nicky dies. Especially if Agatha's first instinct is to hate and blame Rio for not bending the rules for Nicky (especially if Rio did bend them a little for her).
It's actually a similar message to the Death tarot card: Change will happen. Resisting the change, not letting go, will only make the transition more painful.
Agatha clings to control but there's only so much one can control, and it's ultimately harming her. Lilia struggles with this before she is reminded that her role is only to see.
To see and ask her question to the cards, and in so doing remember herself. What she's missing, what she actually wanted to find walking the Road.
For Agatha, I think she has to come to terms with fate being bigger than her, and with having less control than she wants, than is healthy. And in so doing, open herself to a coven she deeply wants.
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Not my usual Fandom BUT...
You know what would be and always is fascinating/interesting/hilarious? For want of a nail type, "tiny change or little action spiral into great and sweeping change" type fics! ESPECIALLY when combined with my dearly beloved Self Insert troupe!
Because? I DO so love the Self Insert! Not so much for the "I can fix it" or power fantasy, as the ability to wander... a stranger in a strange land. Both familiar yet removed. Known to us yet... not. The major actors, major events, certainly. But the lives of the average person?
The noodle shop owner? The ship salesman? A janitor?
We know nothing about this strange new world from their point of view. What secrets can be found in this or that little shop, well off the common path. And it is FASCINATING! Especially if the Insert wasn't particularly FAMILIAR with the source material. Knew enough to get by, perhaps, too know they are in danger... but not enough to twist events to their favor. Assuming they even had the type of personality to TRY such things.
No, no...
What I? Want to see?
What I think would be FASCINATING?
Is a TRUE carry over. Adult mind to adult mind. Someone settled in their ways. Not bold and terribly adventurous, not willing to recklessly seek out danger and pain. No. They know they are going to die. They know they HAVE died. They are now a Jedi. And can feel the Force... and?
It just... helps.
They let go. Yes, perhaps some plans to protect the younglings. If they can. But their ultimately IS no death, only the Force. It is scary, they acknowledge, frightening even. But they... find calm. Acceptance.
They meditate. Open themselves up to the Force and give up their worry and fears, their regrets. All the terrible burdens they brought with them from their past life. It's honestly a bittersweet sort of relief. Ironic, that such a troubled age should be their most peaceful.
Of course... opening yourself up like that? Reaching out so deeply and with such conviction? It's like painting a "hey! I'm right here! I'm definitely going to listen if you say something to me!" Sign on your forehead, where the Force can see it.
So? It DOES.
But unlike Anikin? The Insert isn't a Fighter. So the Force doesn't tell them to fight. After all, every part has its place in the grand machine of Life. Every actor their place on the stage. Sometimes? To change the galaxy? All you need is someone to be on the right planet, at the right time, ready to hold a door open for the right person.
And that's it.
Not everything needs be grand sweeping actions. It can, instead, be the quiet drip drip drip of medicine applied behind a Sith Lord's back. To undo the damage he has wrought. So when comes the time for his plans to unfold? He does NOT find the support he was counting on to succeed. Instead he finds resistance.
But HOW? How would such a thing be DONE? By a YOUNGLING no less?
A youth with no power? Be it social, political, or physical? AND beneath the Sith Lord's very nose? Without being STOPPED? With said youngling being KILLED? Quite simply! Easily, in fact! By embracing the purest of the Light!
Fun.
Who among us, does NOT know of the parasocial relationship? The feeling of knowing someone, considering them "good" and "something like a friend" dispite never once having spoken to them? Being FOND of them? Wouldn't YOU not defend them? If someone sought to HURT them? KILL them? You KNOW them so very WELL don't you? This person speaks LIES about them!
And what of the Adorable Youngling? Small and Cute? Look at their little cheeks and tiny hands! How precious! Why, we have watched them GROW! They are practically family!
But where does the FUN I speak of come into this? Simple. The Holonet. Crechemaster's trying to corral an adult in the body of a child. The Insert is BORED. At peace, yes. But you can really only meditate so many hours of the day. Lessons only take up so much and class work the same. They aren't at an age where the SERIOUS lessons begin yet.
So they have too much free time.
..........have you heard about "Video Game #55? It's apparently got more Video AND Game then ever!" Intriguing~ But, oh. Playing it ALONE it BORING. And playing with... well, INFANTS, is... an exercise in patience. Plus it's probably not appropriate for them. Hmmmmm..... you KNOW.... Insert really DOES miss? Watching Let's Plays over breakfast/lunch...
They've never MADE one... but they know they general script and idea? And for Some Reason? It feels like a GREAT way to pass the time! Yeah! Let's do THAT! And so the Force nudges. Tiny. Seemingly inconsequential. The Master's try to shut it down, Insert is stubborn and refuses, they talk it out. Because they are Jedi and authoritarian force is not their way. Is it frustrating? Perhaps. But the only cure for ignorance is knowledge.
They ultimately compromise. Insert get to keep their little game thing, THEY make sure Insert is compromising Temple security, putting themselves in danger, talking to dubious strangers, or other such perils. It is? A FASCINATING view into the secretive world of the Mysterious Jedi for most of the galaxy. All lead by an adorable Youngling playing games.
Of course, such a silly, ridiculous thing is BENEATH Palpatine's concern. Fun and games? Not even formal or official ones? The child doesn't even represent the jedi. They represent no one. Clearly not a threat, right?
WRONG.
Because one game? Leads to another. Leads to being recommended another. Leads to "hey check out this music". Leads to "how was your day?" Leads to chatting about Jedi philosophy... as simplified for small children. Easy to understand and then complained over like it's maths homework. And... huh.
You guys really liked when I talked about X? Well, I don't know much about it... buuut? I could probably FIND someone or go to the archives? Make a video? I'll make a poll. Vote down below?
Untouchable and distant? Nah. Jedi play "Crafting Game 73" and whine about their Crechemates being JERKS for eating the last dessert. Jedi, in their head's, are small adorable younglings and the amused adults meditating the back ground who watch over them. EVERYONE knows the Jedi. The Jedi are on our datapads. Are our friends. We've totally met them.
Parasocial relationships.
Or maybe that's just me? I just... God I REALLY want to see how they'd react to a initiate who just? Won't stop fuckin making Let's Plays of all things. Just? WHY. HOW? WHY AND HOW?! No, NO don't you shrug at me and run of, youngling! Get back here! What "skill issue"? Which skill? Initiate!!!
@hdgnj @hypewinter @babbling-babull @the-witchhunter @mutable-manifestation @lolottes @leftnotright @legitimatesatanspawn @nerdpoe @spidori
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i do not think its wrong to ship billford, hereâs why
1) reevaluate the way in which you consume media. no one is shipping something because its their ideal for a perfect, romantic relationship. itâs not that black and white. thatâs never been the point of shipping.
2) these tropes are nothing new, and have been beloved by ancient audiences for the same reasons itâs beloved today. whether itâs an imbalanced power dynamic, specifically god x mortal, a shared history, or mutual obsession.
3) for centuries, people have enjoyed navigating complicated and unhealthy emotional dynamics. especially when said ship can not exist in a healthy way. ford either hates or worships a much stronger, less empathetic, ancient eldritch being that likewise either obsesses over him or sees him as a nuisance/pet. either way, theyâre always on the otherâs mind. they are both deeply flawed, and only they know the true extent of the otherâs ugliness, and they still love them.
but there is that middle ground that weâve seen in the journal pages, some domesticity and genuine, pure love for the other. it exists, abusive relationships are nuanced, they have their good and their bad. and billford had their good parts. why wouldnât people want to make art about it? here is your reminder that creating art does not equate to justifying or fetishizing abuse. it can and has happened, but there are many people incapable of seeing how obvious it would be if billfordâs abuse was actually being fetishized by its shippers. it is so easy to notice. and it isnât whatâs being done here.
that nuance is still present when people make billford fluff. billford did have fluffy moments. there was tenderness, vulnerability, and love in that relationship. itâs okay to acknowledge that. why do you expect all art of billford to be torture porn of ford? not everyone wants to write bill physically torturing ford over and over again, especially when there are other, less gory aspects of their relationship to explore, that only increase the emotional impact of the torture that follows.
the ship is canon and is meant to be acknowledged, alex hirsch has attempted to explore both the messed up parts and the happy parts of their dynamic multiple times. in the show, in the journal, and in the book of bill. why is it any different when a fan does it?
does the art have to be explicitly acknowledge the abuse and remove all nuance from billâs character, reducing him to something simple and one dimensional whose only motivation is to hurt others, for you to accept it? abuse is not that black and white, abusers themselves are not that black and white. bill in particular definitely is not.
it seems like a disservice to the original work.
navigating the ugly parts of a very fucked-up relationship is something fascinating and enjoyable for artists. there is a lot of grief, anger, and probably every other toxic thing in the book for you to work with. itâs the same reason people wait impatiently for whumptober.
exploring their dynamic has also allowed many to put their own abusive relationships into perspective.
i remember someone on reddit saying, âtheyâre both broken people, rub them sharp edges together long enough and youâll get a fire. itâs fun to write.â and i think that describes it perfectly.
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