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adult cartoons r so crazy cos its like "its just a silly show idk why ppl take it so seriously" and then it will literally be a canon event that the teenage protagonist/s have been sexually abused. etf do u mean I'm not supposed to take it seriously at all "its a joke" i know it was SUPPOSED to be a joke , howeveer...
#im like 80% out of my body rn and like#im not even targeting one particular adult cartoon with this#it happens on sooo many of them#and if they havent been then they r usually otherwise traumatized#like basically no its not very deep and ur bot meant to think abt that element after the episode goes off#but also i get why ppl get brain worms abt it#if u said 'theres someone out there drawing pictures of chris griffin crying' id be like well yeah makes sense to me#i mean i got on this train of thought cos of vbros#which does have more emotional depth than ur family guys#but like ykwim#i get why ppl latch onto these characters#even if i dont always think theyre worth it#theres def ppl who would think my devotion to the venture bros is dumb and unstable#which is true and not true#i lost the plot on this one
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'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'
#cw blood#SUUUPER SCUFFED LIL WIP THATS BEEN RRRROTTING IN MY FOLDER. OUT!! GET OUT!!!#its almos 2 am and imm gettin high as hrothgar. spruced this up within an hour so i could be shared n eaten#its SUPPOsed to be part ofa bigger doodly page so ofc theres the chance this changes between now n then#fuuuuck shoulda made her dress sparkly. fuckit ill fix it laterrrrr. i havnt posted art in YWEARRS i needed to post something#also i uh. well you see i started losing followers on twitter bc im sooo inactive and i KNOW that shouldnt matter like it should be whateve#but. you see. i lkike when number go up and when it go down i get MMMADDD.we all get our dopamine from somewhere#ANYWAY so i actually havnt touched the suckening in so long. been workin on oc stuff.BUT WELL. ARTHUR AND MARY. STILL MAKE ME WEEP#THEYRE SO CUTE N TRAGIC...whadda fuck is it with grizzly n charlie characters being so in love and so doomed#kian and becky then arthur and his various exes like CMAHn.stop doing this to me#from what i remember of the episode.she seemed so.tired.disconnected.like she had been wandering a dream#and yet she seemed so positive.reasonably concerned and yet.content.she warmed up to arthur as soon as she recognized him#she speaks so gently and so sweetly and she keeps the conversation so light.even though shes dead and shes gone and she#is doomed to wander an odd limbo for the rest of time.and yet she seemed so at peace.i can see why arthur liked her.what happened?#what caused them to separate?arthur seems so jaded and so tired.marys company seems like such a gentle place to rest.#how did he squander such a blessing?was it a blessing?OHH what i would give to crack open their minds and peer inside.#yknow wat im runnign out of room i think so ill add a last thought here at the bottom of my tags. I AM MORE CORRECT ABT ARHTURS UGLY LOOK#I WANT THAT MAN TO BE BEASTLY AND GROSS AND STRANGE AND SCARY AND EEWWW I SEE THINGS SQUIRMING IN THE DARK.ther are bugs#LETTING HIM HAVE HOT HOT ABBS AND STUFF WAS A COP OUUTTTT LET HIS WHOLE FORM BE DISTORTED OR UR NOT A FUCKING 0 APPEARANCE BITCH#THE BONES SHIFTED BENEATH AS IF TRYING TO HATCH. MANY OTHER THINGS HATCHED ASWELL. THE DEAD IMMORTAL FLESH SOURED#TOO GRAND TO ROT BUT TOO CORRUPTED TO KEEP CLASSIC FORM. MMMONSTER MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER#oka y im not going to bed but im gonna go. uh. do miore drugs or something. maybe ill work on more jrwi stuff. or oc stuff.#i hope ur day goes swimmingly thankyou for reading my tags i love you so so so so so much
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Hi borderlands fandom. im here to spread propaganda (bonus doodles + single images under the cut)
#borderlands#my art#zer0 the assassin#fl4k the beastmaster#fl4k/zer0#i know theres not really anything happening in the first pic#but youve got to understand me#theyre so in my brain rn#please send me asks or wtv about them i have sooo many thoughts
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Sorry I'm not over the Flower Husbands thing yet, what bothers me a particular lot is interpretations that say Jimmy can just leave because he's an adult, he's smart. So that means he would never get caught up in an abusive relationship, that just doesn't happen to smart adult people. Jimmy would just say that he's unhappy. And the implications that this happening to him would make him inherently stupid or incompetent (because it feels like some people are really against the abusive interpretation because it paints Jimmy in a bad light (It doesn't))
#Not shutting up about this I have too many feelings#Jimmy is very open about his feelings and Scott has shut him down over his worries before when he did voice them#with stuff like “well what did you except to happen”#Dont think Jimmy would keep trying to express his woes around him#blabber#And to me again this make's Jimmy's character sooo compelling#his progression through the series after s1. How Scott continues to have something out for him#and him actually finally properly opposing Scott in LimL and taking enjoyment from attacking him in SL#fuck yeah go my son
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sideyshowy bobby
#sideshow bob#robert terwilliger#simpsons fanart#my art#self insert#me#self insert shipping#thedorfmirrin#s/i and fandom blogs may interact lols#i knew he existed as a kid but its one of those situations where i instantly fall for a character many years later-#the moment i look at them again#like with maleficent and ursula :33#so exactly 1 week ago#i met sideshow bob#how do i even begin?? i cant remember how it even happened- i was looking at someone's tumblr notes bc i like to look at comments sometimes#then i saw someone's username which i liked the ring of#then i saw more images of this guy#and now u know the rest#why is he so cute and funny#the dichotomy of a snooty thespian who loves to play up his villainy (because he cant do ANYTHING without going above and beyond to get the#attention of the whole world#while also having goofy clown tendencies#im head over heels for him#so is my partner mirrin (thanks to meeeee >x3 )#and hes a simpsons character. not at all in a bad way bc i do not ever judge anyone's f/o crushes-#it was just. SOOO unexpected for me bc i tend to not pay attention to that show for personal reasons#just goes to show that theres a character to love for everyone in every piece of media#also this guy made me appreciate the show and its art direction a lil more than before despite my harbored feelings#and some of its silliness like genuinely it can be so funny (when there isnt a fat joke thrown in every 5 seconds anyway..#so everyone winz
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HELLO ONE PIECE WATCHER are u obsessed yet
YAYA ITS SO AWESOME GAHH IM SO INVESTED 😭!!!! i actually just caught up in the manga to where i am in the anime!! (on ep 81, and on chapter 134!!!) i've shed lots of tears, laughed, and had my heart touched many times since starting it- i'm totally in love!!! I even cried at the same places i did while watching it when reading manga, ahaha!!!
the characters, the world, the designs, the dreams and ambitions everyone has is SOOOSOSO fun and like, inspiring.. just so good-feeling, i'll even wake up and be like "man, can't wait to watch/read one piece today"
the friendships/bonds created between everyone feels like, so strong- its really beautiful! I love how much fun the fights are, and i really adore the small moments between everyone (like when sanji brings out foods/drinks and everyone kinda just, chills and eats?? the food component of things feels so important too, I love seeing what they eat, idk why haha!!!)
i feel like other shows i love don't have enough time to just see everyone hanging out... it makes me so happy, im really thankful for those moments
also i would take a bullet for any of the strawhats in miliseconds!!! an instant!!!! anything for them!!
#ask#ask reply#text#vonchatty#like i've seen a lot of the character designs from it and always thought they were fun!!! its so nice to get to see them in action!#SO ITS SO EXCITING to see who interacts or like#whats happening with them or what their whole deal is#like there's characters im super intrigued by that havent even shown up yet!!#OH AND THE POWERS ARE SO FUN#also luffy is in my top list of MCs#he's incredible!!!!#also the middle aged men romance potential is sooo awesome#so many hot men in it.. good day to be a man enjoyer#OH AND I CANT WAIT FOR THE LIVE ACTION its gonna be covering everything i know so im SUUUPER SUPER excited for it#it looks super fun and i love how much heart has been put into it like everyone looks like they had so much fun and loved making it!!#i also think in modern times dreams feel impossible to reach so its so wonderful to see a story where people are able to#follow their ambitions to a full extent#long post
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Hi so me being me I've decided to hyperanalyze the conversation Qrow and Raven had in Higanbana practically line by line bcus I have Many Thoughts and this is the best way I can think of to get them all out. If you can't tell I'm absolutely obsessed with these two. Btw.
Thanks to the RWBY wiki for providing transcripts for every episode, otherwise I definitely would have missed smth despite having just watched this scene recently lol
I put it under the read more for easier scrolling due to how long this post got!
I immediately noticed smth in the very first lines of the interaction:
Raven: "Hello, brother." Qrow: "...Raven."
You'll notice throughout the whole conversation that Raven never calls Qrow by his name, only condescendingly referring to him as "brother" this one time and never calling him anything else. Meanwhile, Qrow directly refers to Raven a total of three times throughout the conversation, and only one doesn't call Raven by her name (which we'll get to shortly)
On the other hand, Qrow doesn't bother with even so much as a greeting beyond simply stating Raven's name
It's different ways of communicating their distance. While Raven holds her relationship with Qrow over his head — never once, even outside of this scene, does she call him "brother" with affection iirc, only derision and condescension — Qrow doesn't seem to rly know how to greet her. He hesitates before saying her name and approaching her, as if trying to assess the situation before acting
Qrow: "So, what do you want?" Raven: "A girl can't just catch up with her family?" Qrow: "She can, but you're not. Now how 'bout we get on with it? Unless you plan on keeping these [drinks] comin'."
Again, Raven seems to bring up her familial ties with Qrow as a tactic to get him to do what she wants — in this case, stick around to talk to her despite him not seeming to rly want to. Frankly, it feels manipulative. We're gonna put a pin in this for now and come back to it in just a moment
Additionally, Qrow already knows that Raven's not just here for a friendly chat between two siblings, and sees right thru her facade that it is. Raven is here bcus she wants smth from him. But interestingly, it is Raven in V5 that says, in an almost frustrated/disappointed tone, "Family. Only coming around when they need something." There's another pin; keep both in mind
Raven: "Does she have it?" Qrow: "...Did you know Yang lost her arm?" Raven: "That's not—" Qrow: "Rhetorical question, I know you know. It's just obnoxious that you'd bring up family and then carry on like your own daughter doesn't exist." Raven: "I saved her." Qrow: "Once. Because that was your rule, right? Real 'Mom of the Year' material, sis."
Qrow dodges Raven's question about the Relic and instead brings up her hypocrisy in how she treats family. And it's a good point. Here she is lording her siblingship with Qrow over his head while simultaneously defending and upholding her rule that she is only obligated to help her own daughter a single time. Another pinpoint on our little conspiracy board
Also, here's the one time in this conversation Qrow refers to Raven as "sis". Like Raven's use of "brother", Qrow's use of "sis" is very pointed and with intent. But it's not to manipulate Raven, it's a snarky jab meant to rly hammer home Qrow's point
Raven: "I told you Beacon would fall, and it did. I told you Ozpin would fail, and he has. Now you tell me. Does. Salem. Have it?" Qrow: "I thought you weren't interested in all of that." Raven: "I just want to know what we are up against." Qrow: "And which 'we' are you referring to?"
A few things of note here. At some point in the past, Raven expressed an outright disinterest in Ozpin's inner circle, at least to Qrow. Qrow also feels excluded in the "we" Raven mentions being against Salem. To me, there seems to be a distinct possibility here that it wasn't that Raven felt personally disinterested in Ozpin's operations, but that she somehow felt excluded and feigned a lack of interest in order to protect herself. An idea that is further supported in my eyes by the following dialogue:
Qrow: "You should come back, Raven. The only way we'd beat her is by working together. All of us." Raven: "You're the one who left. The tribe raised us, and you turned your back on them." Qrow: "They were killers and thieves." Raven: "They were your family." Qrow: "You have a very skewed perception of that word."
And there it is. Raven's problem is laid out here for us, loud and clear: She feels like she was the one abandoned, not the one running away. She says it outright! "You're the one who left." To her, Qrow is the traitor, the one who left their family behind. If you ask Qrow (or, for that matter, Tai, Yang, and even Summer based on the scene in V9), it's the opposite
Bcus they have different definitions of family
Another thing to pin (I promise this will all become clear soon)
Raven: "I lead our people now. And as leader, I will do everything in my power to ensure our survival." Qrow: "I saw. The people of Shion saw, too." Raven: "The weak die. The strong live. Those are the rules." Qrow: "Well, you've certainly got someone strong on your side. I've seen the damage." Raven: "We couldn't have known the Grimm would set in as quickly as they did." Qrow: "I'm not talking about the Grimm. And I'm not talking about you, either."
Notice Raven's shift from "the tribe" to "our people". More of that guilt tripping!
Additionally, Raven is *obsessed* with rules. One save. The weak die, the strong live. Raven lives and breathes rules, even seemingly arbitrary ones. Guess what this is? Another pin!
Raven: "If you don't know where the Relic is, then we have nothing left to talk about." Qrow: "I don't know where the Spring Maiden is, either, but if you do, I need you to tell me." Raven: "And why would I do that?" Qrow: "Because without her, we're all going to die." Raven: "...And which 'we' are you referring to?"
Qrow's "either" here implies that he also doesn't know where the Crown of Choice is, which is... interesting. He's one of Ozpin's closest lieutenants, and is in the dark on where Beacon's Relic is? Wherever it is, it is such a closely kept secret that even Ozpin's best spy doesn't know where it is (maybe so that in the event Qrow gets captured by Salem he can't be forced into giving her the information?)
Meanwhile, Raven's "And why would I [tell you]?" implies that she does know who the Spring Maiden is (obviously. Raven's the Spring Maiden lol) but refuses to disclose to Qrow
A lantern sputters out after Qrow says "Without [Spring] we're all going to die." Now, I genuinely can't remember if this is headcanon or canon, but iirc Misfortune seems to act up when Qrow's upset. He's clearly tired of this little game of dancing around topics that Raven's been playing with him
And once again, Raven indicates a feeling of exclusion from Qrow's life in the iconic final line. She gets the final word in before leaving
We've finally reached the end of the conversation. Now what does all of this tell us?
And here is where all of those pins I wrote down are relevant. As I mentioned, the twins view family very differently
Qrow's view is pretty obvious: he views family as the ppl in his life who matter most to him. Unlike Raven, he does not view the tribe as family despite the fact that they raised him, disgustedly referring to them as "killers and thieves". It's implied that he was, in fact, neglected and/or likely abused by the Branwen tribe, saying in V6C4, "No one wanted me... I was cursed..." further explaining his distaste for them. Furthermore, despite not being related to Ruby by blood, they clearly consider one another family throughout the series, and he even seems closer to her than he seems to his niece who's actually blood related to him (I personally headcanon that he keeps more of a distance from Yang bcus she reminds him too much of Raven, who he feels abandoned and hurt by, but that's neither here nor there). Bloodlines and debts are secondary compared to loyalty, if they're considered at all. He is obviously furious that Raven only insists on saving Yang once and never directly interacting with her beyond that, despite Raven constantly guilting Qrow over abandoning his so-called "family" of the tribe. And yet. And yet. He still offers Raven a place back in his life, even if only to unite against Salem
Raven's view, to me, has been an enigma for a while. But after hyperanalyzing this conversation, after noting down all of those points of interest, I feel like I've finally cracked the code. Raven views family as an obligation, an exchange that always has an ulterior motive behind it. She seeks out Qrow only bcus she desires smth from him despite showing distaste when someone does the same to her; condescendingly calls Qrow "brother" more than his actual name and calls the tribe their "family" to try guilting him into doing what she wants; and feels fierce loyalty to the tribe but barely interacts with her daughter, only seeming to count one of the two as true family. She views the concept of family with cynicism and seems to feel an obligation to the tribe, as if she "owes" them for raising her
I think the two's perceptions of what defines family are all to do with the way the tribe treated both of them. This crosses a bit into headcanon territory, but as you can see by the above quotes and analysis, I rly don't think I'm just making it up entirely
As I already mentioned, I think it's implied that the Branwen tribe neglected/abused Qrow. In fact, we could probably blame their treatment of him for the deep self-loathing he has due to his "cursed" Semblance. But what about Raven?
Well, it's simple: I think she was abused, too, just in a different way. While Qrow was likely shown and told on a consistent basis that he was unwanted, unloved, undeserving of good things, Raven may have been shown and told she was wanted, loved, and deserving of good things... if she did what the tribe told her. If she repaid them for raising her and her brother, for being her "family". The way she uses her familial ties with Qrow as almost blackmail may be exactly the way the tribe treated her. Her obsession with following rules may stem from the fact that she had to follow the rules the tribe set for her in order to be accepted and deemed worth smth
As for her distance from Yang... honestly, I wonder if Raven is aware that Yang deserves better and keeps her distance as her way of doing that. When Summer confronts Raven in the V9 scene, Raven says, "...You're better at that life. Better than I was." She seems to have a fear and insecurity about being a good family member, a good mother, and maybe that's why she fled. Maybe she was scared of being like her abusers due to how she emulates them as a self-preservation tactic in so many other ways. Not entirely sure about this point tho
And I think too this is why the twins don't rly understand one another. They may have been unaware of the different ways in which the other was treated. Qrow, constantly unwanted and loathed, can't understand why Raven sticks around with the tribe; Raven, who obeyed the tribe and, in doing so, garnered enough of their favor to even eventually become leader, can't understand why Qrow can't just be "good", earn respect, and stay
This dissonance between the two experiences may also be completely intentional on the part of the tribe; abusers will often eliminate their targets' support systems in order to make them completely reliant on the abuser, so it's highly likely that the wedge was intentionally driven between the two siblings so that they could not find support in one another. This would also tie into why the twins seem to feel excluded from one another's lives and abandoned by one another: bcus they were made to feel that way by their common abusers, and did nothing to challenge these assumptions bcus they saw no reason to — and only seemed to keep proving one another right if they did
Which rly has some disturbing implications about how the Branwen tribe works. Like, do they just pick orphaned kids up off the street and abuse them into being perfect little bandits, molded to be of the greatest possible use and discarded if they're deemed worthless? Plus Qrow says his Semblance is how he got his name, which implies that the tribe also renames the kids they scoop up (possibly as a form of control or a way to make sure they can't be tracked down by any remaining family)? Plus there's the whole thing where Qrow and Raven were originally sent to Beacon to learn how to kill Huntsmen, which carries with it the implication that the Branwen tribe grooms literal orphan children into becoming stone-hearted murderers? What. The heck.
And if I'm right, if the Branwen tribe is that severely abusive, then like... wow, no wonder Qrow and Raven are Like That. They're both very deeply hurt people expressing it in different ways
I was considering adding their conversation at the Battle of Haven to this post, but I think that would be better as its own thing. Also I haven't gotten there on my rewatch yet so I may miss some details if I try to analyze it rn; it's better to wait overall methinks
But I have reached the point of my rewatch where we see Weiss and Whitley interact, and I think it would be very efficient to sum up what Qrow and Raven's relationship seems to be by using those siblings as a point of reference. Qrow = Weiss, actively trying to break free from and fight back against their abusers in different ways, while Raven = Whitley, continuing to do as their abusers want and have wanted as a method of self-preservation. Only, unlike Weiss and Whitley, Qrow and Raven have yet to come to a point where they can understand one another. I think that's a good way to briefly summarize the uh. Absolutely massive post this is.
In conclusion, I may have cracked the majority of the Branwen twins' pre-Beacon backstory purely by hyperanalyzing a single conversation. Oopsies
#original post#'hey hira why are you so obsessed with these two—' autism. i hope that answers your question!#ok but srsly. i've genuinely worked rly hard on this post for the past like. 3 days?#i didn't think it'd lead to me deducing all of this about the twins' pasts but here we are lol#this'll probably flop due to the length but like. i don't mind tbh! this is mostly to satisfy my own silly brain [affectionate] anyway#i'm genuinely looking forward to seeing them in v10#since the storyboard for the scrapped v9 epilogue had raven in it#i hope they somehow reconcile and come to understand one another like weiss and whitley did#tho. i have a bad feeling that even if they do it will end in one (or both?) of them tragically dying before the other's eyes#but that's not rly relevant lol#anyhow i am not sry for inflicting you all with my branwen twin brainrot. it will happen again#i'm having sooo many thoughts on this rewatch and they just keep on coming#rwby#qrow branwen#raven branwen#branwen twins#rwby9 spoilers#i hope there's no glaring errors here. i read thru this post multiple times to be sure but it's so huge i may have missed smth irjnfbpbne#character of all time tag
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Without colors or context, this simple and stupid comic of mine feels so, so tense; It's ominous. The difference from the tone of my last doodle is low-key hilarious though. But please, *insert ace joke here* cause I swear this is nothing serious. I don't even know why I gave in so much effort or show ya'll my progress before finishing, yet here we are. -Bubbly💙
#hazbin hotel#husk#alastor#spacebubblearts#doodles#wip#current wip#I have sooo many art wips like you guys have no idea#plus the backlog of stuff I have to draw#this is why I use too much dialogue#hazbin#fanart#my art#work in progress#amazon prime#I usually never sketch as well#why am I even putting so much effort into this???#ah well practice is practice#and since you're reading the tags still anyway for some reason#might as well let you know some stuff about me#my favorite power of friendship trio here are Alastor Husk and Niffty#I want them to vibe so much I know Husk is on a leash#but as the calmest out of the three it's like he ties down the feral murderers he's bound too at times lmao#he's so tired#same husk... same#wow I've been very active online recently what's happening to me#and yet I have so much homework to draw for school ugggghhhhhhh#can't I just pass my fanart??? ugggghhh why do I have to animate my original characters#okay I think I'm straying too far from the post#once again why did I do this???
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Omg??????? OHmg????????!!
#SO MANY COMMENTS TO MAKE BUT I WILL REMAIN SILENT#the beautiful world we would be living in if jean scott and warren were still a thing....#jean and warren are sooo cute my god why is this happening to me#xmen#xfactor react#anybody want to scream about them together???#comics panels#x factor#jean grey#scott summers#warren worthington iii#cyclops#angel#naarniaa
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oh my go i just watched the virus sbemail for the first time and oh my goddude i feel like i just had a like 8 course feast put together to feed hundreds oh my gosshness. IT HAD SO MANY THINGSI LOVE…… the way sb sounded so actually distraught and truly scared from the moment the error screen appeared and the way he tried to get to cheat for some form of help or comfort and also at the end he didn’t even hit or insult or do ANYTHING to bubs that was how messed up he was he just ran off and cried.. ive noticed that’s just what sb does when he’s truly upset and has no idea what to do. just run run run . and also more of?????? Homestar seeming to know more and be more aware of where they are than any other character!?????? bubs took the direct approach of destroying the compy itself - which can we talk about how cool that in itself is. the way, since the in-universe hsr world from what im seeing is a digital world, the way it can all be affected by a computer inside of it rather than a computer outside of it or rather hosting it, the same way an irl virus would spread from a physical thing… that is So fucking cool to me. oh my god dude. but yeah bubs had a more direct approach like a more hands-on solution for it but homestar…. ive noticed other instances of this too where he seems to know stuff the others don’t. and obviously they all know they have a website they all bring it up sometimes but like. homestar seems to know it isn’t THEIR website they’re in. as in they didn’t make it themselves. idk just the way he was calmly plucking the menu buttons while sb was SO disturbed by the mere sight of him doing that, and the way the popups were of him out of anything. idk its very cool to me. to imagine homestar beinf the only self aware one.
#should i Tag this Even though it’s a horrible lawless ramble and i know sooo much less than other hsr fans and probably look like an idiot#of course i shoudl#homestar runner#also my mission of watching/reading/playing/finding hsr is going strong! its been ermmm#its been goin on since the 27th of decembet and im currently up to late 2004#ill probably be up to 2005 by morning#again. this series hits me in such a way i want so many things from it but obviously i don’t expect them to be fulfilled at all#but that’s why when i see stuff like this its so much better like oh my god. this actually happened. it’s not something i just#self indulgently daydream about…. cringe scenarious with these dumb joke characters from Dumb Joke series…..
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I want to write I want to make girls be weird about each other in MY word docs I want to have creative projects and goals againn :/
#but i am. so tired#i also don't want it to be something i'm forcing myself through because i feel like that always backfires#this year to me has really been about figuring out what is actually important to me and in what ways i can push myself to grow without#sending myself back to square one again#i can kind of feel myself gearing up to create things again and have wants and goals again but it is sooo slow#absolutely everything wipes me out mentally which i guess it always did but now i can like. comprehend it!#i know what is happening in there but i am so clumsy at working around it. i hadn't practiced that a lot before#it's taking like multiple years to recover from stuff that other people seem to recover from easily#it's sooo annoying and it's not really about feeling like i wasted my 20s anymore#i am where i am it was my life and i spent it the way i did so far. i just can't change that#it's more about like Wanting to do so many things and feeling like there is the potential for so much and feeling held back by my own self#there are so many things i want to try now that i'm doing more than bare minimum surviving and it's like i want them all at once#but i can't possibly do them all at least not yet there just is not time or energy or money to do them all right away#i have trouble prioritizing
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cant stop thinkinng about this in paticular. yay!
#trainofthought#boyd cooper#this reaaallly happens guys btw this is sooorealhappened#friend and crispy are also there in the back ignore them#praying to fuck i got all the accesories right☝️☝️☝️☝️#this makes me really happy okay#howverr drawing tartan makes me want to die . Helpppp… Sooo many stripes. Aahhhhhhhhhhhhh
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it looks like i’ve fallen in love with myself out of all the characters so far (???!!!!! : o)
#zevie plays hsr#am i my own favorite character is this what’s happening ?????#everyone in the game is so pretty#i am so pretty#NO BUT SOME OF MY OWN DIALOGUE OPTIONS MAKE ME BLUSHSHSMMM#OK THIS LAST UPDATE OF THE DAY IVE BEEN SPAMMING A LOT#this side quest btw#the boss has 2 lives (i hate him for that)#i got to 11% on the second life and then died#so ii gave up#and you know what#i even googled a play through to copy#THESE PEOPLE HAVE SO MANY CHARACTERS#EVEN THE F2P ONES IM LIKE WHO IS THAT WHY DO U HAVE HER AND NOT ME#im not far enough in the story probably :((( (jealousy)#(green with jealousy)#ill be back here u poop boss i hate u sooo much u suckkkk#u get two lives and not me why’s that ??????? i don’t like that boss#i mean yes it’s a 4v1 BUT ALSO HE SUMMONS STUFF WHEN U TOUCH HIM#LIKE WTF#SJSNSNN#all /lh /nm#also i said this in a server but#wriothesley & cyno & alhaitham r not in hsr ?? 😃😃 SINCE WHEN#BECAUSE I FOUND OUT TODAY#I WAS LITERALLY EXCITED TO MEET THEM#AND WHAT IS WUTHERING WAVES
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i miss polin already they’re so mean for leaving us hanging like this
#for a MONTH#for a fucking MONTH#yes no i wouldn’t survive during the old tv series era no i wouldn’t#I MISS THEM I MISS PEN I MISS COLIN#it’s THEIR season and we didn’t even get enough of them because there are sooo many other subplots butting in#whatever happened to the main characters actually being the star of the season 😭😭😭😭#i love francesca she’s soooo sweet but why does it feel like she got almost as many screen time as pen 😭😭😭#bridgerton season 3#bridgerton#bridgerants#polin bridgerton#nadine.mp3
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can i say something—
#sorry Lena HRLDJFLSL#shepherds of haven#croelle#oc; perse#(pronounced like percy :3)#not sure if im gonna make them a full-fledged shoh mc they’re just one of my ocs ive been Rotating in my brain recently#ANYWAY. long time no post lol#every time i try to draw lately smth happens#like i was gonna work on this as more than just a warmup scribble but there’s a thunderstorm sat on top of my house so i got scared LMFAO#and ive been having sooo many concentration issues (uh. more than usual anyway)#BUT WE PERSEVERE THRU THE HORRORS to draw blorbos#hopefully can draw/post more soon bc i do miss it 🥹
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thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3
#its thursday quest#god i'm so anxious about it autism style. so many uncertainties that i simply cannot account for alone. but i'm being sooo 'brave' about it#(keeping it to myself. except for posting about it)#taxi company hasn't texted me the drivers' details yet and i emailed them to be like ummmm your policy is to pay before the day#would you like to email me the payment details so i can do that? and they were like 'we'll send the driver details soon' ummmm#there isn't much soon left!!!!!!! it's happening tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!#they're probably just not Organised™ in the way i prefer to be. which is objectively fine it's just challenging for me personally.#i do not think it's Bad but!!!!! i've never taken a taxi before <- guy who Is Scared Of Taxis Specifically but has to face#their fears because they're disabled and have no other choice.#worst case i am down the money and no-one arrives to take me home i guess :P but it'll be afternoon AND my family are there so#in theory i could just get a lift home even though that would mess up other people's plans sooooo bad. UNLESS they have already drunk uhhhh#in which case i guess i'd just ask for help calling a taxi to the place. plany of people who can do such things easily (unlike me)#it'll be fine!!! i can ask my siblings if need be bc they are so niceys and will not get mad at me for being autistic o7#My other worry is being too hot and being in a rush getting ready bc i have to eat a proper meal due to the symptoms syndromes#and we are leaving when my lunch usually is so that's a whole thing. which ALSO doesn't matter and I can do! it's just hard!#where is that post that's like 'managed mental illness can look like absence of mental illness 😅'. NOT saying being autistic is mental#illness i am saying that the specific extreme anxiety i have is for me linked to autistic issues with 'the unknown' and boy. does this#social situation also have a lot of unknown.#BUT I CAN DO IT! and dare i say even have a nice time!!!!! it's just i get so so scared beforehand but i will not express it in a way that#impacts or inconveniences anyone else!!! i can handle it by myself at my house and it'll be fine
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