#it feel nice to do something for myself and it makes me happy but I'm still getting used it to doing it = v=)b

[dollyforever]

my void success story!!

I'm feeling inspired and I just had a yummy lunch with my brother and the sun is shining so let me tell you about my manifestations and my void state journey from 5 days ago.

so, I made a post about a ritual I made to let go of your old reality, and allow endless manifestations to flow into your life effortlessly. I decided to wait some days to try it myself, because I wanted to feel very sure of my decision. As I said, this ritual is for real. Once you decide you are stepping into a different, new life and version of yourself, life won't be the same as before. Anyway, 5 days later (i miscalculated before sorry) I said, okay, let's do this. and so I did. As I was falling asleep, I meditated, and it was like nothing I've ever felt before. It was like... I don't know. something shifted inside and outside of me. For a split second, I entered the void and I forgot to manifest anything specific, so I just wished for a lucky life. when I was done, and as I fell asleep, I noticed how a massive weight had been released from my body. Like, any possible issues and worries I had before, were gone.

the next morning I woke up and I made coffee and the birds were chirping louder than usual and the house was quieter than usual. no parents screaming, no brother being annoying. and I felt so light, and so peaceful and so immensely happy. It's a feeling I can't put into words. and so, I posted on Tumblr, because I was excited about my new life.

That same day, just one hour later after that post, I found my dream apartment in my dream city where I'll go to study next year. I saw it just 4 minutes after the sweet woman renting it posted it on the apartment app thing. I texted her, and talked to my mom, and to my satisfaction, my parents instantly agreed, since the price was absolutely perfect. the apartment is sooo dreamy and big and it's in such a safe area, and ALL of the things in my manifestation list (I had made a list months before to manifest this apartment) were crossed.

ok, so I was absolutely ECSTATIC because finally, I had found my dream apartment and I said, alright, now let's search for my dream vintage clothes for uni next year. Let me tell you. I found the CUTEST rarest Abercrombie and Hollister pieces for SO CHEAP!!!! And I bought them obviously. and I sold so many clothes I didn't want anymore. I also found my dream discontinued perfume getting sold for a fraction of the original price.

Anyway, since the day was going so well, I decided to call two friends who I'm not super close with to ask them to hang out, and so we did that same afternoon. I don't want to go into detail, but basically I came out of that hang out feeling so incredibly happy and grateful for my new close friends.

Then, I got a message from a boy I met a year ago in the summer saying he was coming to my city in a few days and that we should hang out. And we did!!! It was so nice, we went to different museums and talked about art and literature and painted with watercolors in the old part of the city.

And now, around bit less than a week after this whole thing, my parents surprised me with a MacBook Air (I'm typing from it right now!!!!) my old computer was sooo laggy and horrible, and I was really hoping for a new one, specifically from apple. And they gave them free AirPods for buying it, which my brother kept :).

okay. I seriously did not make this post to brag or anything at all in that matter. I want to tell you that before this, I had been feeling super stuck and unmotivated in my journey. I feel unstoppable now. and I am so excited to manifest even more things and enter the void again. I'm still super interested in shifting (obvi) but life has felt so beautiful, I don't even wish to leave. Though I am excited to enter new realities, of course. That's a story for another day.

love, doll

[eveningcherryblossoms]

Loving the betaverse! I'm curious tho, I've been feeling like it's unavoidable for Rei to be trapped with the bats, now, what happens if they don't fulfill their role as beta? Bc they obviously DON'T want to do it.

And, what would happen if Rei just snapped and told the bats that they don't want to be part of their pack and that they don't consider them family or something alike? I'm curious. Mainly bc I would NOT have that mental strength of not snapping when they get up in my business after leaving me by myself all my life lmao.

Also, would Rei ever want to be part of a pack at all in the future, if they do are able to escape? I've read that children who are neglected tend to either be super clingy or not be interested in deep relationships at all (super simplified, I know).

Rei seems to be the latter rather than the former to me, is that like a viable situation in this universe? Can people live a normal happy life without a pack?

Glad you like it!

Well, a pack beta's duties vary depending on the pack. In the BatWayne case, the beta needs to diffuse tension between the pack members but that's it. The presence of a beta already suffices to subtly calm down the alphas and omegas, so technically Rei just has to be with the pack 😶

Oh, Rei definitely would snap and tell the Batfam that. Unfortunately for them, it'd be as effective as arguing with a brick wall. The Batfam are infamously stubborn–err, strong-willed after all, they wouldn't budge about making Rei their beta now that they knew they were one. Expect ropes and chains if they want to be blatant, bribery and blackmail if they want to be 'nice' 🙂

Lmao I do like the thought of Rei living as a free beta all their life, guess my preference leaked on the story 😅 But tbh Rei is more, unsure? The concept of a pack is lovely but Rei knows how one (1) pack has treated them, could it be that everything they've heard about a pack untrue, at least when it applies to them? So chances are they'd choose to stay alone.

It's not exactly normal, especially since they're a beta. They have their inheritance, but if not? It'd be more of a struggle to live independently of any pack bc of harassment from packs looking for a beta, other packs' caution about the danger of betas living packless. High-paying jobs are not unavailable for betas, sure, but most betas are stuck on the bottom ranks with the lowest salaries. Even renting a place could be difficult with landlords skeptical of a lone beta's ability to pay. Long story short, it's not impossible to live without a pack but it won't be either normal or very happy.

...unless you're Rei probably uwu

[zestyzigzagoon]

holy shit wait, happy first birthday to Chasing Sunsets!!!

[bunnyboy-juice]

OH MY GDD I FORGOT TO TELL YALL MY WIFE CAME HOME YESTERDAY AND JUST. WOOP. PICKED ME UP LIKE NOTHING. AND THEN DID IT AGAIN LIKE 20 MINUTES LATER AGAIN LIKE NOTHING.

[sysig]

Red Eyes and Evil Time, practically the same thing right (Patreon)

[hyenasfnafaus]

...I need to try and learn Blender again, so I can make models, to try and make plushie patterns off of, so I can try and learn sewing and plushie making again, so I can just, make, all the FNaF plushies I want, both canon and AU... I just need to try and get back to learning to make plushies again.

[pinoruno]

😁

[adore-gregor]

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[that-one-guy-nobody-remembers]

bone bandit enrichment for the soul and the mind, she is pondering the orb and admiring/entranced by a bracelet that loves very much as you can tell because her pupils are all big like dummy.

I wanted to share these as I don't draw much or at least much for myself nowadays but I was randomly spurred on by that dumb spherical dragon plush I reblogged (it was stuck in my brain/haunting me for a while too), and it reminded so much of bandit the more I thought about and then it led to this dumb silly drawing and other drawing is based off a bracelet one of good pals made based off of bandit (I had to draw it of course and bandit's reaction to it) but these were surprisingly nice to draw and might do this more often!

[elegyofthemoon]

If you're asking why I came back only to rb a billion PGR memes.

I'm plotting. Shhhh.

[novelconcepts]

i don't make resolutions, but if i did

it would be to finish this fic

(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)

[sally-mun]

Since I've been settling back into Tumblr I keep thinking about the fact that this is where I did most of my writing. About all kinds of things.

I haven't really written anything in a couple of years. It started as a bit of burnout but got exponentially worse due to a very bad thing that happened. My therapist has been trying to help me find that piece of myself again. It's been lost for a really long time, and is probably a big part of why I have so much trouble being 'me' anymore, or even knowing what 'me' is. It's really difficult to like 'me' now. On the off-chance I actually do, I feel guilty for having done so, because I still haven't quite shaken the instinct that shouldn't like 'me.' I should be ashamed of 'me.' Maybe that's a big part of why my writing disappeared. I always really liked that about me. Writing would threaten my the paradigm where I can't and shouldn't like myself.

But I mean... I do really miss it.

I hope it comes back.

Maybe being here again will help with that.

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Wondering if I feel weird about jobs bc I have almost exclusively worked high stress high turnover jobs

[catcatb0y]

I hate being in my brain. Get me out of here.

[starburnedkisses]

it's kinda funny seeing my ex vague about me. "another day of being glad i dodged a bullet" last i recall i wasn't the one pushing you into a box with regards to your gender identity, or drawing you in clothes that expressed a gender identity you didn't feel comfortable with, or even express wanting to break up with you if you ever wanted to change your identity or want top surgery. OR EVEN THINK ONCE ABOUT BREAKING UP OVER NOT FUCKING WANTING SEX!!!!!! like---it's already heinous enough you angrily said "how many partners will it take for you to be happy?" to lash out at me for wanting poly, but the fact is you Barely treated my identity with respect because you wanted a Cis Woman to date not a person with issues related to gender binary. fuck man your BEST FRIEND is nonbinary and yet you treat them better than you did ME over the two years we were together. the fuck's that all about, huh? yes, you apologized but your actions did Not show you were improving really. you are not without blame. yes, i'm sorry i wasn't the most attentive, loving partner in the world and i will own up to that. i'm sorry i hurt you. however, that's No fucking excuse for your behavior toward me as well.

[i-am-a-fish]

Sex Ed Time

ok I'm gonna tell you about some things that might happen if you are transitioning m->f. this is not a comprehensive list just my own experience, be sure to do your own research I just really wanted to voice how this affects me because I think open discussion about this type of stuff is just more helpful for everyone rather than keeping it private

BOOBS HURT WHEN THEY GROW

your sex drive (libido) will probably go down a lot

facial hair is very hard to get rid of

my go-to gender affirming clothing is high-waisted jeans. I suggest going to a goodwill or some sort of cheap store that lets you try on clothes to figure out what you like

muscle mass will go down, fat will be redistributed

boobs do all sorts of crazy stuff when you run / exercise

overtime your skin will get softer, you also might smell nicer, and I've been told it can thin body hair but I don't really see it all that much 🤷

your brain chemistry can change when you reduce testosterone and increase estrogen, there are lots of factors that contribute toward any changes to your personality, but hormones can have an impact as well. for me this is a good thing because I struggle with allowing myself to feel emotions sometimes, no matter how hard I tried I was never really able to get myself to cry. I've gotten closer to being able to cry since I started transitioning though and that makes me very happy

this is a slow process that can take several years, ultimately you're going to be in your body for several years regardless, so if this is something you want it's definitely something you should try to pursue if possible. the time will pass anyways, and it does feel nice to work towards something that can make you happier.

also this is very important, you don't need to do any sort of hormone replacement therapy in order to be trans. not everybody can access HRT, and for those who can access it, not everybody wants to take on all the changes that come with treatments. you don't have to chemically or physically change your body in any way in order to deserve respect

all right that's all I have for right now feel free to add anything in the comments, I would especially like to hear from trans men what your experiences have been, I think openly talking about these types of things can really help some people