#it doesnt have to be perfect it just has to be DONE so my brain can move on

[4lbon]

i'm just accepting that parts of the fic might be confusing with needing to use he/him pronouns for both of them. i've accepted it yall will hopefully figure out who i meant as it goes

[yanderefarm]

Honestly Silvan is so cute, i cant help but think about a master who treats him like their own little dress up doll, the maids might be the ones to bath him, but his master is the one that puts him in the prettiest frills and silks, who does his makeup flawlessly, and styles his hair just so, you mentioned him hurting himself either to get you to drink from him or to punish himself so i can imagine this types of master would do things like expressing disappointment whenever he harms himself before punishing him with isolation, of course putting him in a straight jacket along with his padded cell so he doesnt damage himself any further, maybe if he's particularly bad you'll strap him down to a chair, table, or even locking him in a coffin like putting a doll in their case so he has no choice but to be there completely still, alone in the dark until he understands what he did wrong

doll silvan

cw;; objectification, abuse, hypnosis, angst, questionable comfort, self harm, blood, cruel reader

haha this is so fucked up i love it so much it tickles the part of my brain that says to ruin that twink. the urge to treat silvan like a stress ball.

like i know he'd be so fun to absolutely ruin his sense of self and break him down until he doesn't even realize he's human anymore. and all because you love him! he'd be so grateful.

silvan looks good in anything. he could wear the ugliest colors and still somehow it would compliment his eyes you're sure. not that you would ever allow him to wear something ugly. even when he first arrived in his glorified potato sack you immediately set upon getting him something better. but no matter how many clothes you bought for him it was never enough, he needed more. at this point your tailor had taken up residence in your manor.

every day before breakfast you would go to silvan's room and help his maids wake him up, today was no exception. your tired pet would blink at you with a sleepy smile and a cute blush on his face before you would usher him off to the bath. while he bathed the maids would clean up his room and you would begin the process of picking out his outfit. it was a long and laborious process, plagued with indecision because nothing was perfect!

as soon as your lovely doll was out of the bath you'd set upon him. you stood him in front of the full length mirror, his body shifting as he tried not to get aroused. as much as you love him the fact that he's not one of your other lifeless dolls can get annoying sometimes. you end up compelling him to get him to behave properly, there's always a sick pleasure in watching his eyes go empty and his body become soft and pliant in your arms. you keep him aware of what's being done to him but he can't control his own body, his mind distant and foggy like watching from underwater. you start with wrapping his ribbon for the day around his neck, the ribbon you pick always sets the mood for the rest of his outfit. today you picked a soft pink ribbon which immediately inspired you to grab some matching pink and white babydoll lingerie. your pet always spends the whole day embarrassed and aroused when you make him wear nothing but lingerie, it makes him taste better.

you tie the ribbon around his waist tight like a corset, his breath hitching softly. you run your fingers along his cheek as you admire your perfect doll in the mirror.

"so pretty... dolls don't need to breathe do they?" you're so tempted to tighten up the ribbon too but you can't risk leaving any marks on his skin.

you released your compulsion on him allowing him to return to his normal self. immediately his heartbeat picked up and his face turned the same pink as his ribbon. you offered your pet your hand which he graciously took, his cheeks a burning red as you led him out of the room.

today was special, you were having a few guests for dinner and they were specifically interested in your notorious doll collection. that's why you had been fasting for a week now, any teeth marks on his beautiful skin would be disgusting and unsightly. it was hard to have him sitting there in your office especially with his heart racing every time a servant would come in. a lesser vampire would have cracked but your preference for aesthetics beat out your hunger. he was supposed to be perfect for the evening event.

you should have been keeping a closer eye on him honestly but between work and your admittedly stupid trust in your toy you thought it would be fine. he had somehow found himself a piece of broken glass to make a cut on his arm. that's aggravating. in trying to bring you his gift because you had to be starving he had gotten his blood on his outfit. that's infuriating. and his eyes looking at you pathetically like he knew what was coming. it took everything in your power not to hurt your little doll in anger, choosing instead to squeeze the door knob so tightly the metal bent and the door was pulled from its hinges.

you threw the broken door to the side and grabbed his uninjured arm, still careful not to bruise him. he was sobbing, begging, pleading for you to stop as you dragged him towards his isolation room. his fists weakly beat on your arm as he tried in vain to apologize, soon his wailing was going to start. god he made you mad. you were almost to the tower when you grabbed silvan's face, covering his mouth as you pressed him into the wall.

"you are a beautiful perfect doll. dolls don't scream. dolls don't cry. dolls don't stain their clothes." every word was like venom from your lips.

his tears were pouring fresh from his bloodshot eyes.

"i had plans for you tonight. you were going to do a lovely show. your pretty blood was already going to run." you let go of his mouth and eased away from him.

"but no you just can't help yourself. you enjoy ruining your body. do you hate me?"

"n-no!"

you grabbed his face again this time forcing him to look in your eyes. "do you hate being my beautiful doll? do I not treat you well?"

"master-! im-im so so so sorry im-im so bad i know im not im not good enough im-"

you leaned down and gave him a gentle kiss. "shh... I'm sorry for getting so angry with you, doll. it's ok."

"ca-can i still-still be your pretty-pretty doll? please. please i can i-"

"i could never find a doll as beautiful as you. but you can't go around misbehaving like that. you're going in your case for dinner and then you'll spend the night in your room."

he started to sob again his words failing as he tried to beg you not to do this to him. you gave a heavy sigh as you forced him back down into your compulsion. his tears stopped as his body fell limp in your arms, just like a doll.

you carried him gently to your dollhouse room where you kept everything you used to make your pretty lifeless dolls. you set him gently on the table and he blinked at you like he wanted to start crying again. you shushed him. instead you focused on finding him a new outfit, something white to match the straight jacket he'd have to wear. you found a cute pair of wedding lingerie and a pearl necklace to replace his ribbon. you hummed to yourself as you undressed him. your tone became sour when you got to his still bleeding wound, you licked the excess blood before you got to work cleaning his wound properly.

"this is really ugly work. do you know that I really hate doing this to you?"

blink. you gently wrapped his arm up tightly.

"mhm i hate it. you keep making me do this though. do you realize how much pain you cause me?"

blink blink. you gave his freshly bandaged wound a kiss before you made him sit up straight.

"arms out. i don't like making you miserable, you're my most precious doll."

you gently slipped him into the straight jacket and pulled it tight until he couldn't move his arms at all.

"you're too beautiful to be forced in your box, you know? but if a toy breaks you have to throw it away."

blink blink blink. a single tear fell down his blank face. you sighed again as you pulled his lacey white panties up his thighs.

"we don't want you to break. just accept your punishment like a good boy."

blink. you helped him down off the table before leading him to another full length mirror. you gently placed the "bloody" pearl necklace around his neck.

"if i let you go will you quietly go in your case?"

blink. satisfied with that answer you left him standing there to pull out his case. a coffin with a glass window in the top that allowed you to see whatever was inside. you unlocked the heavy coffin and pulled it open. the interior was a deep maroon and it was extremely well cushioned with an extra pillow for the head.

you released your compulsion on silvan who immediately began to cry again. you clicked your tongue at him.

"there's no reason to cry, doll. come get in your case."

"ple-pleash- hic don-dont throw-throw me aw-away- hic" he was sobbing so hard he couldn't breathe.

you pulled him into a hug. "you're not broken, are you?"

"im im ba-bad hic an-and im ug-ugly and hic- i can-cant be-be go-good-"

you rubbed your hand on his back. "you're not a bad doll, you're so good at being my doll. you get confused sometimes and think you're still human and that's when you're bad. but i forgive you. even if it takes me 500 years I'll train you into the perfect doll."

his head nuzzles against your chest as he sobbed and whimpered and hiccuped. his words were too broken to understand anymore. you held him for a long time, letting him get all his tears out onto your shirt. when he finally calmed down enough to breathe properly you guided him to the mouth of his case.

"please- please come get me tomorrow ma-master..."

"I'll get you first thing in the morning. we can even go out tomorrow if you don't misbehave anymore tonight."

he nodded as he sunk into the comfortable coffin space. his heartbeat immediately picked up as soon as the lid closed over him, a sense of claustrophobia washing over him. you could hear him trying not to panic even as you locked the coffin tight.

"be good."

[ffredmujkic]

Spellbound -Siouxsie and the Banshees (thoughts underneath)

I hate edward twilight so much but im fucking obsessed with his fucked up dynamic with shilo. Shilo is very narratively treated like a girl. In fact he's the perfect girl in his helpnessless. hes a prince stuck in a tower, he always needs a man to come to his aid (deacon, arthur, emizel), he is characterized with stereotypical female traits (not wanting to get dirty, cant fight, a smooth talker, innocent in ways that makes him sweet and naive, he wont assert himself)

it makes me want to go insane with how much edward takes away Shilo anatomy. A theme constant throughout shilo life, his mother forcing him to live in a tower, deacon taking him away from the arthur and emizel, arthur taking a protective role in shilo life which leads him to thinking he has authority over shilo shown in the midnight circle when he says they didnt ask for his permission . Edward drugs shilo for shits and giggle presumably to ruin his night and to embarrass himself because it was a hallucinogen. The drug being administered when he forces shilo to drink from a body, a form of drinking shilo's body doesnt accept. Edward kipnapping shilo into his bed changing his clothing (pjs and later outfit). The entire blood bond, first drink being when he was unconscious and the second under false assumptions.

Going back to shilo’s lack of control its done to him by adults far older than him. Shilo gets treated like a child, one that needs pampering and protecting. While frustrating for shilo he is only 18 within the story, barely an adult. These adults being, his mother, deacon and arthur (to a lesser extent) all of which are people he seeks out for protection. he leans heavily on them to provide him with food, blood. And Edward in his second appearance tells shilo he can teach him, be a guide for him in the strange lands of LA. Edward tries to liken himself to the level of care taker that arthur is to him, while also maintaining a romantic aspect to their relationship. The trope of waking up healed in ur love interest bed. this older man the age of his mother taking card he’s fed (with edwards blood)

Sorry i dont have an end to this, if u want me to tag this with something please say what and i will. Just need to get whats haunting my brain out

[expfcultragreen]

So in terms of using telepathy to make someone do what you want, there are a couple options. If you find that sometimes when you think something but dont say it outloud, other people hear it and assume/react like you DID say something out loud, maybe you could be heard by a specific person by directing your thoughts to them. Like think about them hearing the specific thing you want them to, essentially remote-view them hearing it. A starting place is seeing if you can pass yourself off as their own inner voice eg "i dont want to be scrooge without the morally-valid pivot, ive got to make a morally-valid pivot". Lets say that doesnt work, but, they hear it...it just doesnt sound like them to them and/or it feels weird like its coming from someone/somewhere else. You could opt for staying in character as something they'd love to believe like, an angel, an alien that wants them in particular to do well, whatever. Probably wait a while so the phenomenon of their inner monologue being hijacked by someone pretending to be them isnt obviously connected.

If they wont react as directed to any of that, you could opt for just disabling them ie yelling "sic semper scrooge" in their head so incessantly its maddening, etc.

Now, most people are so full of drugs and other chemical/material interference that its not very easy to manipulate them in this way, probably by design. And the people who are on drugs that do the opposite, thats also not the most useful....lbr, because of the stigma around these drugs, usually people who do them have nothing to lose, not financial empires to micromanage...john mcafee notwithstnding lol. Unless musk upgrades from bumps of k to big fatty hits off the bubble pipe, it doesnt really matter if you can convince people on meth to do stuff....we're trying to undo centuries of economic junk-philosophy used in place of religion by the 1%, not rob a mcdonalds or finally dig out that one whitehead (do not do meth and try to dig out that one whitehead, this is how people get flesh eating bacteria-filled sores).

Of course, most people in positions of power are like jabba the hut, jedi mind tricks dont work because of their extreme congenital narcissism but, you can just use the basic toolkit for manipulating narcissists in-lieu-of*.

I suspect most "psychotic" people never let on that theyre aware of or attentive to anything like "i kept silently yelling the answer and it appears to have been recieved because it was kind of an obscure/unique phrase or whatever and now the person i was thinking it at is saying it seemingly apropos of nothing"/"someone told me to guess or deduce an answer and were surprised i got it right because it was really obscure/unique" happening in their day-to-day......because the thing is, as ive maybe illustrated above, its obviously so easy to abuse that ability or be abused with it. (Something to keep in mind about people who are clearly dealing with The Voices; it seems like the MAIN reason anyone is open about it as something theyre dealing with is theyre experiencing abuse by it directly or are otherwise disoriented....but whether the distress is obvious or not, it can be hard to help even if someone wants help.... its of course unclear where the other voices in your head are ever coming from even if youre very astute about affect/motive/vibe/etc clues.....so it could be anyone around, or not around.... it could be anyone they see, it could be that when you express concern to them thats just a cruel paradoxical joke at their expense and they need to fight you for it, or it could be that by trying to avoid eye contact and avoid them youre doing exactly what a voice told them The Devil would do...that youre hiding from them so they cant archangel you and save the world....whats scary about this shouldnt be "crazy people are sooo unpredictable" because most genuinely crazy people started out normal and so dont want to fight and dont particularly know how anyway all of which is pretty predictable, but rather whats scary is "any day could be my own gregor samsa day" and we're still pretty much in the soup on the matter of intervention....the best case scenario is getting on and off an effective brain-shrinking neurotoxin fast enough to decrease symptoms without permanently damaging your whole brain, while having the necessary supports to go through that whole process...but the people who can put you on these pharmaceutical interventions are often so opposed to you going off in a timely manner that they get someone to legally compel you to stay on them, possibly under observation and in confinement...nominally because people are so freaked by the unpredictability factor in every psychotic person having their own kaleidoscope of inner-world that might cause them to lash out unexpectedly, violently, etc...but actually predictability is more or less as easy as getting to know the person and their framework, even if its very fluid ...but laypeople are resistant to doing that [imo due to the pernicious belief/attitude that its pointless to "indulge" the "unreal" or engage with anyone who does "indulge" the "unreal" with a stance of anything like credulity or good faith] or else arent given the opportunity...and people working in clinical settings--who fwiw certainly DO have the opportunity every time they encounter a patient with psychosis--should have pieced together that point about overarching predictability from longitudinal observation hundreds of years ago, BUT based on my experience, they have no interest in doing anything that would actually be useful and are, i think consciously and acutely, concerned mainly with how permanently they can disable the psychics who have been identified and subsequently driven their way, as opposed to worrying about how humanely they can "treat" "psychosis"...presumably some professionals arent in on the whole thing of "actually these people are telepaths being targetted to discredit/distract/disable them from doing anything with their telepathy and our role in that is, we dispense the brain-shrinking poison that keeps them out of commission...a lot of them ASK for it, literally...the onslaught is too much otherwise...now medically its best for them to get off these drugs as soon as theyve stabilized but we dont tell them that, we tell them they have to stay on the drugs, forever" )

*anyone less prone to brainwashing than grimes wanna try? No one seems to be willing to take the hit of being seen with these dudes, highkey seems to be how we ended up here, with them in their bubbles & on their pedestals & bombarded with assurances that its not possible to be happier and that they should never change course in pursuing their own happiness regardless. Experience tells me these dudes were prone to pathological/antisocial degrees of selfishness prior to being rejected by all good company, so from that pov its moot whether more and better friends/lovers would have helped or would now help. So, i guess since there's really no fixing these guys (i mean, feel free to try; put on some binurals and astral project as hard as you can over to whichever oligarch is your preferred secret moe-blob, why not) .....we could just let the weirdo fash girlies keep running at them for golden child support tickets, proving exactly how paint-by-numbers the behavioral control playbook is ...what does daisy say, "be a beautiful little fool"? Theyll never think anyone could outsmart them and arent looking to feel outsmarted, right now theyre in a race against revolution but theyll all get tired eventually..its probably tiring already. Someone could probably lift ashley at clair's script verbatim and have it work on any oligarch, even musk, again

[tonycries]

hai im the same anon who told u choso would be prince eric and toji would he aladdin.... i have done further digging i hope u dont mind me going by 🐾🐕anon or my horrible written rambling...

upon further review, i think either higu or nanami have a bit of a silly streak so he could be Cinderella's prince charming !!! Silly streak is that scene in cinderella 3 when he jumps out the window but i need u to imagine him kissing up your leg until he gets to your pretty cunt DO U YOU HEAR ME!! oh they are perfect swoons sorry i just dont dig prince philip all that much 💔

sukuna as the beast.... but.... but his physical form doesnt change, he simply grew a bit hairer and had ears and a tail... longer nails and a knot perhaps (while uraume and his other servants were turned into objects, he could care less about majority of them but yk he somewhat cares for uraume so now he has to break the spell for EVERYBODY).

geto as li shang is so canon its not even funny. he will get back at you for deceiving him about your identity but truth is he doesn't care about your gender or what you got, he see's how you interact with kids after you both save your country and he decides he needs to make you a mama and the night will either him putting you in the meanest mating press or you showing him just how powerful you can be as you have him whimpering and on the brink of tears.

Gojo as naveen.... he's so annoyingly charming and he wants you so bad the moment he sees you working, cleaning off tables and shrugging his attempts to make you swoon by playing a pretty tune on his ukulele and he wonders why he keeps thinking back to you, how lucky he feels when he sees you, his princess, on a balcony and honestly wasn't all that mad when kissing froggy him didn't work and you were both stuck together. by the time your both human again, he's relentlessly pounding into you nd babbling about making an heir. how he knew the moment he saw you he wanted to make you his so bad.

i want to continue w aladdin toji but i fear brain juices ran out.... but walk w me tony 🐾🐕

Wahhh helloooo 🐾🐕 nonnie <33 And OH MY GOD YEAH I SEE NANAMI BEING THE SILLY PRINCE FROM CINDERALLA (I forget his name 💔)

OUUUU THIS IS ALL AJHASJHKA~!!! Sukuna as the beast is PEAK WRITING (oh gosh I really wanna write this now I'm gonna I'm gonna I'm gonna-)

AND HELL YEAHHH GETO AS CANON BI LI SHANG NGH 🤤 I JUST HEARD MY PUTHY AGREEING, TOO 🤤 Ooooo love him being mean on both the battlefield and bed <33

I'm just rotting in all these hornknee thoughts and it's all your fault </3

[anonymouscheeses]

Nobody seems to dicuss this scene enough like HELLO??

This is such a good scene that doesnt get enought attention and praise for how much it describes and fleshes out Red's character. (And even hints to her PTSD altho pretty obvious i would say by now) Im just gonna basically walk you through it because i NEED to talk about this. BADLY.

Right before this shot, Cinderella says "even your daughter knows this is wrong, she can't do it." (sentence her to punishment) But immediately, Red looks up as if that were an insult (despite previously going against her mother at all opportunities). Because despite how much she denies it, she's fallen victim to Bridgette's manipulation she's tried to defy for forever.

I csnt put the entire scene but Cinderella, after that look up Red makes, slowly makes a kind of terrified look, like she's honesyly SHOCKED by how quickly Red just... snaps when faced with the assumption she's too weak to send punishment to someone.

Red here looks to her mother for guidance. Somrthing like a child would do when met with a hard decision e.g. ice cream or candy. When faced with a stressful situation she's in, Instead of trying to make her own decision, to fight back against her mother. She just regresses into a child again and lets her mother's manipulation take the wheel in her brain.

And out of the impulsive stress of it all, and maybe a bit of anger at Ella, she goes ahead and sends Cinderella to be beheaded. BECAUSE she felt attacked and stressed and needed anyone to guide her. Something Red hates the MOST out of anything, is being looked down on, or even doubted. Which is what lead her to try and deflect that or to shove off the way people perceive her as.

Ok sort of random tangent? but this scene here is so heartbreaking like oh my goodness. Poor Chloe she was TERRIFIED her mom was gonna die and that's just horrible ☹️ (PLUS THE SCREAMS? HELLO?) Other way to say, Malia Baker is an amazing actress i love her +Kylie ofc ofc

And after what i would argue is Chloe's screams plus the realization of the situation, Red INSTANTLY regrets her decision. Even SHE is so shocked by what she's done that she can't even make out words. Because the absolute stress of everything is inevitably bringing her down and she doesn't know what to do about it except listen to her mother through it. Basically, when she's stressed and has no where to turn or can barely speak out against her mother, she instead just listens to her... cuz that's all she feels she can do.

And here. Especially here. She realizes she's turning out to be EXACTLY like her mother. (And after this scene, everyone in the crowd says the same thing) Whether or not that is true doesn't matter SHE feels as if she's going down the same path as Queen Bridgette, the same path she's fought years and years to avoid. But no, her trauma beats her down until she no longer can decide for herself what her future is going to be. She's going to live and die Red Hearts

And honestly this scene is perfectly compositioned, say what you want about the movie THIS scene is amazing. And tbh i just wanted to speak out against those people who think "Red would have never done this. She's too rebellious to do this." But do you even understand what trauma is? Clearly not. Because this IS what a victim would do. Having trauma, dealing with trauma, it makes you do things you usually would never do. Not all of course, everyone deals with their trauma differently, or the lack of dealing with it.

But Red? For Red's character I would say this scene actually IMPROVES upon her character, she's not just a one note "rebel teen type of character" she's a hurt teenage girl who isn't perfect and has a lot of baggage she needs to unveil. Of course criticism for this movie is welcome, but some critiques in general go against what human beings would do, what's realistic. Not to mention, Red is a CHILD, a traumatized child for one, she's not perfect and she's never going to be.

[starzzmissthesun]

i think you should totally drop whatever hc/ideas you have lying around honestly...i would love to see more into ur brain...pls <33

:DD

Hi!!!! Sorry this is a little late, I got so distracted with an animatic im working on(😈) and then a stupid essay😭😭 being honest rn... Almost all of what I've been thinking about is my fic.. 😔

But!! I can still go a little into that without spoilers. I've finally figured out The Perfect ending for this story that I feel fits with the overarching themes I wanted to tell. I've been making sure that every little detail fits with the themes I wanted to show, I wanted it to overlap Regulus and barty's characters and their overarching themes with PD. I also didn't want to just replicate PD cause I feel like that doesnt have the depth or commentary I want to out into it. Idk ive always thought it's super fun to put everything as some sort of symbol or metaphor or foreshadowing. I'm like literally so close to being done drafting and then I can actually talk about it a little more😭

Anyways! I've also been thinking about barty post regs death 😔(when am I not) But more specifically how every memory he had would almost be tainted, everything now would have an air of questioning and unsureness. Even memories where Regulus isn't there, just wondering where was he? What was he thinking? Am I remembering this right? What could've I changed? What was the domino that caused all of this to happen? Eventually finding it hard to accept the way it really was, having the "I guess it was" and feeling it, but overintellectualizing it. His logic and reasoning is his downfall in this situation, that's what makes him go crazy. (Side note I NEED to make a little post about his intersection between intelligence and madness) Hes doing a complicated version of when there's a task that seems so simple that you think it's a trick, but it's not, it's just that. What happened with Regulus was just that.

Also, I've recently self reflected and realized that a lot of my barty characterization is similar to how I think of Leonard Cohen's art(who I LOVE LOVE LOVE) Idk if you've listened to him or read any of his work, but I HIGHLY suggest it, it's perfect for fall. Anyways, a lot of his songs and poems carry themes of having a twisted self image, not completely self deprication though it may seem, but something else. It's closer to understanding and knowing that you are. Different. And unconventional. It's an uncomfortablility he has with himself. Being soemthig twisted from what you should've been. A lot of his stuff is also to do with tragically losing someone, out of their own choice, and still feeling very loyal yet bitter. Also of loving something so much that it turns dark, or it goes too quick, it spirals. Also his love songs are very barty's perspective on bartylus to me. And like, obvious war mentions. I could give some specific recs similar to barty or them if you'd like.

Another thing is of Regulus and his relationship with his dad. Though I see it completely reasonable if his dad was just kind of, not there and neglectful, it could give very interesting implications to his character, I like it the other way around. Orion seeing what a more carefree attempt at raising a child does and keeping Regulus even closer than he did before. I think Orion always liked Regulus more, despite him being the second, because he was a model son. I don't think he wanted this life or even to have kids, so Regulus being so complacent and in line with what he was supposed to be as a pure blood made him the decided favourite(as much as he could have one). He was always keeping a close eye on Regulus and he could feel it, but he didn't do anything out of place anyways. Orion could tell when he was even thinking something he wasn't supposed to. I believe that, no matter how much she tried, walpurga was too caught in her own head about her duty as a mother to see S+R as anything other than Her Kids, as property that she was supposed to care for and tend to, she obviously loved them, but couldn't see through them. But Orion was there around every corner looking through regulus' eyes into his soul to search for any thing out of his perfect kid.

Anyways.... That's all I can think of rn😭 but if you have questions about ANY of them lmk!!! I love yapping about my little thoughts 😁😁

[sniper-gihun-xix]

2, 21, 22, 23, 26

Gi-hun!

YIPPEE!!

2. Favorite canon thing about this character

His overflowing, and always full cup of empathy. He always stops to help others, even if it puts him at a disadvantage. He’s so kind to other people without judging them or expecting anything in return from them. He’s also not perfect either, so he gets mad at people when they dont listen or when they hurt him/others. He retaliates, he bites, and that’s so human of him. He loses his temper. Thats humanity in its finest form. I oh so very much adore him for sticking to his morals through out this entire show. He’s just like me frfr (okay so maybe that was a few things BUT BASICALLY I LOVE HIS EMPATHY)

21. Favorite thing to do when writing for this character? Least favorite?

I like writing his reactions to whump. I love putting him in situations and having him react in ways that are either hopeful and optimistic or skeptical and disheartening. Either way, he’s reacting in a way that is entirely him and I love getting into character in my mind for him, it’s like picking apart my kin character’s brain and seeing every individual lobe. Fantastic stuff.

In smut (I write a lot of smut) I like having him be attentive to the details of his partner. Basically, what they like and dont like, what makes them louder and what doesnt, and he always gives proper aftercare and even care during. Kinda ties in with his overflowing empathy, i feel. Even in my fic Loaded Gun, he had empathy for Salesman, who he hated. Thats just him, I feel.

And one more thing i really liked that I want to find a way to do again, was him twirling pens to substitute smoking. I want to hc him as a pent twirler SO BAD for some reason idk LOL

I dont really have a least favorite thing to write about him. I lob heem 🥺

22. Favorite thing to read about in fic? Least favorite?

I love when people mention his hair style/color. Give me the era! I must know! Hehe~

It also makes me cheer when Gihun is spiteful. If horrible things are happening to him and he gets up and says “fuck this i dont deserve this” and he fights back?

Least favorite however? I dont like when we make Gihun so submissive to conflict that hes helpless. Like if something happens and hes just like “oh ill let someone else handle it”??? WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH SEONG GIHUN????? But thats just imo idk i feel like hes a problem solver through and through

23. Favorite picture of this character?

Aww do i have to pic just one??? Okayyyy….

I think this one bc his hair and eyes are so GOD AWFULLY PRETTY and i think about this scene a lot, it reminds me of how gay I am every time I see this scene….

26. Something the character has done that you can’t get over?

Oh lord…playing russian roulette with Salesman, or honestly, handling guns in general. One, he was the last person I expected to touch a gun after the first season + what he had been through, but two, GUNS ARE SO HOT What? Who said that?

Also that whole scene was LOADED (heh…heh….) with TENSION and SUSPENSE and I was on the edge of my seat the entire time. Holy fuck Gihun, what was that for? How do I get you that mad at me???

Anyways, hope you enjoyed this!!!

[souredoughbread]

Date Night part 2

dragging me up the stairs as you praise me for how good i was during the movie

as we cross the threshold of the door you spin us around almost as if we were dancing, letting go of my hands and and giving me a slight push onto the bed

you practically leap on top of me, pinning my hand into the mattress and with a slight smirk as you stare into my eyes, you use your knees to pry my legs apart

usually you would cuff my hands behind my back or bind me to the bed but my mind is still in a haze as its only been a minute for us to find ourselves in this situation

as you slip off the gorgeous red dress you decided to wear for dinner, just to tease me, i attempt to speak but youve already prepared for that, stuffing your panties into my mouth and my eyes shoot wide open at the taste of you through lacy fabric

on your knees, you hover yourself over me close enough that i can practically feel how wet you are but far enough that i cant thrust up to reach you

you slowly lower yourself until you feel my tip, nod your head back in pleasure and adjust until your clit meets me. you look back down and smile, taking one hand and controlling me in circles to please you

i attempt to use my now free hand to touch you, but your words are quicker than my body. you tell me that because ive been so good im being allowed to control myself, but if i cant behave that can be easily changed

my mind drifts back into a haze as you continue to praise me for being such a good toy for you, calling me pretty and the thought of the acts were committing. i let out loud whimpers and moans which a stifled by the fabric still in my mouth, but even though im not inside you, you still feel so good rubbing against me

after you orgasm twice from using me like a personal vibrator, i feel your weight on me lessen as you get up. you stand beside the bed and look at me while im panting and sweating from the now hours of edging ive experienced. you say nothing but smile at me as you grab one wrist and bind it the the bed, slowly walking to my ankle and doing the same, repeating the cycle on the other side

you remove your panties from my mouth, lean over and give me a kiss and tell me youll be right back as you giddily run downstairs.

you peak around the door frame with something held behind you back, but never reveal what it is, you make your way back on top of me, and slowly insert me inside you. as i let out a gasp at the sudden surprise of feeling inside you, you drop an ice cube in my mouth and push my jaw shut.

the cold puts me into shock and before i can understand whats happening i feel that same cold sensation fondling my balls as you start to move up and down on me. im instantly back to step one, like i was never on the edge to begin with.

as one melts, another ice cube replaces the last, and when that melts i feel the familiar feeling of silicone rubbing against me. my eyes widen and i plead with you between subtle moans and breathy pants to give me rest, after all i was fucked only an hour ago.

without a word you slip the strap inside me again and at that moment, with the perfect combination of you dropping your weight on me, i explode deep inside you

im immediately flush with embarrassment as you glare at me. in a slightly condescending tone you tell me that if i cant follow directions and wait for you tell me im allowed to cum, youre going to make sure i dont have any left for this to happen again.

you push the strap deep in me and tell me to keep it in place as you start riding me at full speed. im squirming and thrashing around trying to get away, not understanding that im still bound to the bed because my brain as been wiped of any logic or thoughts

as we both cum over and over, tears start to roll down the sides of my cheeks. you gather a big grin and coo at me for taking my punishment so well, stating one more just to make sure im dry and then we can be done

finally after what has felt like forever, time doesnt seem to exist for me anymore, you suddenly stop and slowly remove me from inside you. my dick aches and throbs as you glance over your shoulder to look at the art youve created. you straddle up onto my chest, stick your fingers inside you, covering them in loads of my cum and then slowly separating my lips with those same finger, telling me once your clean inside and out my punishment will be over

you remove the restraints, take off my shirt and slip us under the covers after turning off the lights. peace and tranquility rush over me as you wrap one leg over my hip and the other under my knees, taking an arm over my should and around my chest

finally calming down from our ever exciting date night, i start to drift off, nodding awake at the shifting of your skin against mine, just to nod off again.

right as my heartbeat calms and im practically asleep, i feel your hand start sliding down my chest towards my stomach. even knowing whats to come with that motion, i cant stay awake anymore and i drift off to sleep

[rouge-the-bat]

Hey I hope this isn’t rude but as a black person sometimes your takes make me uncomfortable. It feels like you struggle with staying in your lane on the subject of race and I don’t say that with disrespect, I enjoy your blog a lot. It just feels like a lot of the time you go to saying it gives you anxiety when people discuss that and I’d much rather you would listen to when poc give their takes on subjects rather than go to form your own judgment instantly. Idk. I hope this makes sense. I’m sorry if this is offensive, I just felt the need to give my two cents. Again, so sorry if this is troubling.

i just woke up so maybe im just in too much of a brain fog to remember, but i genuinely dont remember any race-based takes ive made anytime recently besides on that one ask about aave usage (which, this just reminded me i never got back to that second ask i got from someone else who had commented on the subject generally agreeing with me, oops)

also... when the hell did i ever say it gives me anxiety when people discuss race ??? im so confused. and idk your intention bc obv youre on anon but "listen to [group] rather than form your judgement instantly" feels like a senseless jab at me, who repeatedly goes on about how i like to look into stuff and listen to varying viewpoints Within Groups before forming my views, because i do NOT allow myself to be pressured into views im not well-versed on, and hate when people try using the tactic of "if you dont agree with me then youre Not Listening To [people of identity]" on me or others (which ive predominately seen around in the queer community in my experience).

like obv im not perfect and can still fall into reactionary stuff without realizing or whatnot, but ive said on occasion that if anyone has an issue with my stances im willing to hear people out (if theyre respectful. and also not just being like This Is Why This Queer Identity Isnt Valid). im down for conversations, im down to learn, im down to hear people out.

but you have GOT to be more specific about shit ive done if you want to talk with me about it. i literally have no idea what youre even talking about. maybe i have done these things, idk! my memory is shit! but they really dont seem at all like something id say or do. just like, point to the times you mean, for both of our sakes. otherwise this isnt gonna go anywhere

and honestly doing it through anon asks doesnt feel very adequate for trying to talk with me on stuff bc so often it just feels like people coming up going "I Have A Problem With What Youre Doing. okay bye." like, okay are they even going to read my response? are we even going to be able to both share our viewpoints with each other, or are they just gonna drop their stance on me and go? what if they forget to check or happen to not ever see i responded? are they even wanting a conversation or just trying to convince me to their side and not care about my reasons for my current views? is it worth my time and energy to even respond if this conversation isnt even gonna go anywhere? i swear i may have a biting kink but im not gonna bite if people come off anon or message me in dms to try having a conversation with me on stuff. just know that my social energy is not the best so just be patient with me.

[anzuhan]

hi anzu !! i have a question (●´ω｀●) anzu's art really inspires me a lot and motivates me to keep doing my best with art. i'd like to know how often anzu draws, or if there's anything that helps anzu with motivation to draw ? ♡

anzu draws as often as anzu possibly can. on days when anzu is free, anzu can make up to 3 drawings per day, but anzu just generally draws fast (1~3h per each piece); anzu has been a bit busy lately so there are/were days when anzu didnt draw at all or just a fast sketch under an hour

anzu's motivation behind art is a hard thing to answer. not like anzu doesnt have an answer, moreso it's very personal..? anzu has never met anyone else like anzu in this regard at least, so that's why.. w

anzu has been drawing for as long as anzu's known anzu's self. of course, this is also anzu's job now but it's not like anzu could ever get tired of it..? anzu fears a bit the future because anzu wishes to change a lot how things are and be an independent creator full-time.. and anzu wishes to do things in other art fields as well (namely idol activities, hence music), but anzu hopes anzu will keep on having time to draw just as much if not even more really.. w; but thing is just anzu never wishes to leave illustration making behind.

anzu loves art and creation and expression of self more than anything. anzu sometimes always felt like anzu had it hard with expressing things in words or talking it out, but anzu always had it better with seeing anzu's soul and emotions within song, for example. furthermore, anzu's even illustration making is extremely hardly intertwined with music.. anzu has been asked about it before, it's really hard to explain or moreso to 'teach others' this, but anzu's main inspiration behind arts is sincerely music. anzu listens to music and anzu's brain conjures a very clear image that anzu then draws out. it's why anzu draws so fast, with no sketch beforehand when anzu has an idea... because anzu knows exactly what to do.

but back to the main topic, anzu really really really REALLY just loves art and anzu has never met anyone close to anzu in this regard. anzu loves observing art for absolute hours on end. anzu loves having high quality scans or artbooks on hand to just stare at them and observe and try to think how things were done in case anzu wants to give it a try as well. anzu was so happy to obtain the original psd files for some of the len arts for lenhai MVs just so that anzu can open them, zoom in and stare at all of them, all there is to them. anzu really just has a neverending fascination for this sort of thing.. so of course, anzu wishes to also put out what anzu's learnt on a canvas and share it with others, right? w

anzu obviously has preferences much like anyone else, but when anzu finds someone with a style anzu really likes, anzu will end up looking at their art and try to find as much of it as possible online and just save it and look at it. for hours. for full days. anzu has been saving satoi's arts (mainly 2010-2015ish ones) for 3 days now.. and anzu wishes to still look for more of it.. w. anzu loves screaming to anzu's friends about how perfectly imperfect pieces anzu loves are. anzu absolutely utterly is in love with pieces of art that anzu believes reflect the artists souls perfectly.. and it's also why anzu is more keen of arts from the 2010ish period far more. people back then were more free even on the corporate side... their arts were still imperfect in the most beautiful way that shows out their way of being, living, breathing, creating. anzu sincerely really hates it, making any form of art has become so accessible nowadays compared to then, and yet everyone now is expected to be perfect right off the bat.. it's incredibly frustrating. no one can really just mess up, dare you do so and you'll annoy a hoarde of people or get your art compared to genAi. it's terrible. anzu hopes anzu will be able to change this one day, after anzu will have a voice that is... expression of self may be one of the most important things to make people connect and showcase their very soul in the most raw way it can be to then show it to others... anzu believes so! after having had observed art for so long in any form..

'motivation to draw' is a concept that's become alien to anzu; anzu cannot live without art, and it just so happens illustration-making is what anzu is best at out of them all, and also easiest one for anzu to make for now, so anzu sticks to it.. but anzu also does have a higher interest in visual arts most of all. anzu gets more indulged in art, creating, looking at it, singing, and so on more than talking. anzu sincerely very hardly talks and sometimes anzu feels as though anzu forgot how to do it really... but anzu is still completely fully able to sing.. w

and so on. anzu hopes anzu answered your question well enough? in case you didn't know, again, anzu is a professional that also works in this space so it's also anzu's job, but anzu could never get tired of creating for as long as anzu lives. anzu feels empty without it

[sapphire-weapon]

I know it's normal to obsess over a character and defend them like they're real, nothing new there, but I just can't fathom the fact that fandom claims to be woke af and yet refuses to acknowledge flaws in character writing/design, especially when it comes to female characters. Like they're all written by MEN, it doesnt matter if the character is a WOC, be critical!. Also the whole copaganda discourse surrounding RE, why do you even play the game then like 😭 I just dont understand this behavior of hating sth and still consuming it while at the same time being blind to other flaws just bc they like a character. It's all so performative. Is this new in fandom?

yes. this is very new to fandom. this is very, very new to fandom.

this is what happens when an entire generation of people aren't taught how to engage with fiction and literature. anyone who entered middle school after 2009 never had a teacher that said to them

"what do you think the author meant by this?"

"what was the author trying to tell the audience by including this scene?"

"what does this character symbolize in society?"

"this is a metaphor for..."

it's just not done anymore.

my generation and the generations before me learned that any work of fiction is born from an author's intent. i have it burned into my memory, my 8th grade teacher saying once, "authors are very deliberate with their word choice. every chapter, every paragraph, every sentence, every word was chosen on purpose for a very specific reason." and it's burned into my memory because it terrified me at the time, as a budding author, because i didn't write stories that way, which must mean that i'm a hack and i'm doing it wrong and i'll never understand how to write as well as the greats.

what i didn't understand at the time was that she wasn't saying that authors have the entire dictionary memorized and they go through the pages in their brain to consciously pick out and use the best and most perfect word for every sentence. what she was saying was that every word in a story comes from somewhere, even if the author doesn't consciously realize it. what she was saying was "if they didn't mean it, they wouldn't write it." she was talking about unconscious biases creeping into prose -- and she was saying that the truly great authors are ones who are aware of their biases and either take steps to consciously mitigate them, or they only write stories that truly reflect how they feel and what they want to say.

so the older generations were taught to look for those biases in fiction. we look at a character like ada and go "you know, she embodies some pretty racist anti-chinese stereotypes. kinda says something about the dudes who made her."

but the younger generations? for them, media just is. it just exists. it's a thing that happens. it is a Product to be bought, sold, and consumed. and authors only exist to provide quotes to use as ammo in fandom fights. and when you pair that with the fourth-wave feminism take of "all representation is good representation" you end up with a bunch of media-illiterate morons who think that ada just is and her flaws are valid -- so anyone who criticizes her must be the actual racist in the equation. because, from their perspective, ada is a neutral vessel for asian representation. she came from a sterile game publisher corporate lab. she just is.

and since this is a generational problem (instead of just the influence of one or two bad actors), and gen z is the current dominant voice in fandom right now because they're the ones who have enough free time to be that fandom voice, it's only going to get worse over time.

and, as a result, media on the whole has become dumber and dumber to accommodate this increasingly illiterate audience.

it sucks.

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dystopian novel but its tumblr

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ok but can we seriously talk about how effed up things have gotten that people are actually being arrested for saying swears? like they aren’t that bad that peoples lives should be ruined over them…saying swears is a human right imo��

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no it’s literally not? why do you need to swear its literally vulgar and rude. how is not being able to say horrible words a human rights violation? Literally unalive yourself op.

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thats not the point of the post you idiot. of course nobody here is saying that saying swears is moral or justifiable. people who say swears like **** and **** should all be unalived immediately, what op is saying is that the oppressive right wing government is trying to control our minds using sanitatized shows like steven universe that have secret hidden homophobic messages so that they can have a perfect word and make us do their bidding like were all sims! its not about the swearing, god, get some reading comreheion. compernmientoln. copresenion. whatever I dont have to pander to this literate-normative society.

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prev obviously doesnt live in the US because saying g** is literally illegal too. “boo hoo we cant ssy swears anymore :(“ try living in the states for one day? honestly making a post like this is so insensitive like. did anyone here even consider that its harder for me? did you even remember america when you were making this post? non-americans are so selfish.

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pretty sure op is actually referencing when in 2036 over half the population of america all collectively shouted “****” in protest and then a bunch of people briefly went to jail? obviously op is opposing the new laws theyre only saying that that one time in america was pretty messed up…

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WHAT!?! what are you all talking about!?! I am literally word for word saying that yes!!! I think people should be able to swear!!! why not?

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lol. “why not” ha. are you actually that stupid op? do you even understand the extend of the damage that swearing has done? my grandma literally UNALIVED herself because somebody sweared infront of her. how can you be so brain unalive that you cant see the harm of words that were literally INVENTED to be bad?

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killed.

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…what?

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not unalived. killed.

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excuse you? this is the sort of disgusting stuff that comes from opposing the law. it starts with wanting to swear and in less than five seconds op is BLANTANLY advocating for unaliving people

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STOP SAYING UNALIVED IM LOSING MY MIND. KILL. DEATH

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are we just going to ignore the absolutely insane rant at the beginning of this post or…??

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if you reblogged a post with vulgar language like this you’re actually part of the problem. block and unfollow me.

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you literally just reblogged it fuck off

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lol op got unalived by tumblr RIP BOZO

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BREAKING!! EVERYONE REBLOG THIS VERSION OF THE POST OR ELSE IM BLOCKING YOU!!! NEW LAW JUST DROPPED THAT PROPOSES BANNING LEARNING HOW TO READ FOR KIDS 10 AND YOUNGER!! EVERYONE CALL THEIR REPRESENTATIVES!!!!!!!

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im killingmyself for real this time

#tw s****** #illprobably get banned again for this but meh i want to add another digit to my name anyways #DONT check the notes btw lgbterfs (lgbt exclusionary radical feminists) found this post :( #also whats up with that guy who ships the soccer players lol i read some of his fics and its just like all really erotic dentist visits #im kinda into it

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I am a completely normal person who did not spend 1 hour making this tumblr post that will not even get 1 note :)

[callibones]

Whats your favorite version of Revolver Ocelot?

this is the most difficult thing anyone has ever asked me. i know this because i thought "oh! it's obvious" and then changed my answer so many times that i realized id hit ALL of them.

in the time it took me to type that paragraph my favorite changed three more times and im not kidding. im feeling it wildly fluctuate in my brain.

mgs1: ocelot classic. old man loves his revolvers. adore. went to torture university and got a degree in torture and now everyone's saying boo hoo torture's immoral.

mgs2: liquid ocelot. outstanding. hes even better in mgs4 but here hes already wonderful. it doesnt even matter where hes better though because liquid ocelot is one Version. so the only preference ive been able to determine here is irrelevant to the question.

mgs3: baby ocelot. ocelots are proud creatures *spins guns for several minutes and MEOWS*. i understand how he felt when big boss called him pretty good and you could see in his eyes him falling absolutely in love. this ocelot made me adore all ocelots more for having met him. so absolutely a contender. but

mgs4: liquid ocelot again. here hes OUTSTANDING. dude is SO not liquid snake and it SHOWS. hes having so much fun. that one scene where he does the thing with the finger guns. is just. perfect. hes in his element. his boss fight is perfection. but

mgs5: cowboy ocelot. theres no two ways about it this ones hot. sorry. the other ones are just endearing and delightful but this one. i dunno. he still sucks. he pronounces french wrong on purpose because he hates french people. iconic behavior. his design is at his best. the polycule is in fucking shambles. hes in the same game as kaz which would overshadow literally anyone else except venom snake and him. (huey is not overshadowed because he was never a contender for most endearing. hes one of my favorite characters in media for different reasons. this is because he is so patently over the top horrible in such a fun way that hes different.)

after going through all of these in my head i can safely say that like.

i love love love ocelot classic but the others are better. fourth favorite

cowboy ocelot is really fun and fantastic and funny. gets great lines and hates the french. third favorite

between baby ocelot and liquid ocelot i am agonizing. but. but. but.

hold on i just remembered cowboy ocelot does that thing in 5 where he echoes all of the lines from big boss about how guns work and i remembered i loved him even more than i thought and now im stuck between those three again. anon what have you DONE. this is CRUEL.

um

okay im at a loss i was hoping describing each of them in turn would help but im even more dead set in the tie now. liquid ocelot is so different from baby ocelot is so different from cowboy ocelot. cowboy ocelot is, even more than ocelot classic, the Platonic Ideal of revolver ocelot, Fully Formed but not yet in his Containment Breach Form. so as far as who i think of when i think of my "favorite ocelot" it's gotta be cowboy ocelot. you can chart the line from baby ocelot right to him and see how he got even more iconic. with his stupid hat

[jinxpantsu]

..... oh

oh thats sammy and f!kylar thoughts.

dark contents abt uhh mutilation under the cut

its kind of out of my comfort zone to think about this but its suddenly grabbed my brain and wont let go. it itches to not talk about it so lets talk about it

fem kylar is actually sami's kylar. they were best friends before kylar got extremely jealous of sami befriending more people and being popular. things she did bothered kylar because thats not how she envisioned sami to be. especially in her private pass time. sami wasnt supposed to be this angelic girl who only cared about the temple, she was supposed to be this cute girl- an IT girl. So much life and personality... and when she ends up traumatized it gets worse. things happen, sami pulls back emotionally, kylar kidnaps and molests her and says they belong together, and then lets her go out of guilt. they never speak again after that.

i think she would meet sammy by accident. like one of the thousands of encounters where you bump into a rando and they grope you in the middle of the street? yeah thatd be sammy slamming into poor kylar and groping her. and then she holds him at knife point over that and screams that hes a perverted freak and to stay away. and it should have ended at that.

but kylar saw his face. and he looks like sami. not exactly... sami is shorter and clearly a girl. sammy is tall and is by all means a boy. not a huge turn off for kylar but... some work needs to be done. if she cant have sami, then this perverted freak of a boy could be her sami.

it starts with him walking back to his car after a shift at work. maybe a few weeks afterwards. he felt like someone was following him but couldnt figure out who. the why seemed obvious given hes notorious around town for one reason or another. but how he managed to drive his car around, run a few tricks and still feel eyes on him is alarming. that is until he drops his contact case in his back seat and goes to find it. there it is. a little plush he found near his car that he kept. he stares at it for a moment and without his contacts cant tell theres a camera in one of the eyes. he sets it in the back seat though and parks his car by the docks to sleep for the night.

when he next wakes up he finds himself in kylar's basement tied to a chair. hes naked from the waist down and shes not there with him at the moment so what does he do? immediately start trying to loosen his restraints. he isnt crazy about being snatched up and taken away. it doesnt take long for kylar to return and explain everything.

shes the girl he groped a few weeks back. the whole who held a knife at him. he looks just like a girl she loves so much but cant be around anymore. she's too precious, and kylar is too ugly and terrible and doesnt want to dirty her anymore. but him... a filthy perverted fucking groper? he's perfect.

admittedly, sammy would be aroused by the idea. another woman taking advantage of him is fine, but if shes some weird fuckin lesbian (shes not) and she wants him to play girlfriend then thats fine. but its not enough for him to play girlfriend. he has to look and act the part. shes seen his mannerisms from the way he talks to himself to how he does his nails. what he does when he masturbates, how he cries from guilt every time he drops someone off after sleeping with them. for the past few weeks shes learned everything she needed to know about him. including everything she needs to change.

first to go needs to be those disgusting ugly male genitals. he doesnt need something like that, so vulgar and ugly dangling between his legs. and that finally gives him pause. he's done a lot of terrible disgusting things in the name of getting his nut off and fulfilling his or someone elses fantasy- but never something like this. it doesnt matter to kylar that he sometimes pretends he IS a girl. he ISNT, at least not yet, and she'll make sure it happens.

from then on out, sammy is no longer called any masculine pronouns. sammy is kylar's goddess, her beautiful Samantha. she needs to grow her hair out, make it fluffy... she also needs to have wolf ears and a tail- and she's prepared a butt plug with a tail and ears. theres nothing she can do about the height... except maybe cutting her legs off and with time the boyish muscles will fad as well. the adams apple is a pain to look at, she wants to slice it out. shes muttering and mumbling to herself, pacing around him while hes sweating buckets into his uncomfortable chair. shes serious. shes actually serious about mutilating him.

a sick sense of curiosity fills him and he asks how she plans to do something like that.

"well duh." she says, pulling out her knife. "ill just saw it off!"

[zukosdualdao]

Im glad to read the takes of a fellow zuko stan :)

Honestly, it feels like people just hate on him way too much lately. The posts ive seen on twitter, on tik tok, on tumblr... Do people just not like him anymore? Why did everyone turn against him so suddenly? I've been hoping it's something temporary, just a trend, but. I don't know anymore. People mock his disability, spit on his trauma, wish death on him and interpret everything he says or does in the worst possible way. I saw someone crying about how entitled he was because he took aang's seat when watching the play just the other day lmao. Another person wrote about how mysoginistic he was because he didn't remember katara's name when asking about kya's death to sokka? There are those who even call him a colonizer on the same level as iroh lmao. It seems their justifications for all the salt they throw his way are along the lines of "he's been loved for too long, aang stans have suffered way more, people just watched the show again and realized how bad he actually was, he's catching strays since his fans keep setting him up, his fans paint him as perfect and erase every bad thing he's done" etc etc. I'm all for criticism and deeper character analysis, but this is just said in bad faith. I also think it has a bit to do with how different engagement has become in fandom spaces recently (things people support in fiction need to be morally correct) and well, zuko was the perfect target. He's done bad things, sides with the villains for a good portion of the series, redeems himself but there are things he still has to work on... I don't know, it's been getting to me. There are many other harsh things ive read said about him (like implying how every single member of the gaang hates even after redeeming himself), but i honestly don't have the energy to delve into each and every one. His arc was poorly executed and his development was badly written now, apparently. I kind of just ranted here, i apologize. Im very happy to read the posts of someone who genuinely likes him and doesnt throw him under the bus to defend or elevate other characters...

hi! i'm glad you're enjoying my blog <3 and no need to apologize for the rant, i'm always happy to talk about zuko!

about to theorize a bit as to why it seems like maybe zuko has become a more contentious character, but it should be noted i have not been exceptionally, actively involved in the fandom very long. i loved atla as a kid, have retained fond memories, have witnessed some discourse from the fringes over the years, but only recently has it overtaken my brain to the point of making a whole blog about it. lol. so, like, grain of salt, etc.

i think a big part of it is what you said - in the last few years of fandom in particular, it feels like there has been a huge upswing in purity culture, moralizing liking/not liking certain ships or characters, and an overall increase in very black-and-white thinking. there's also an emphasis on "holding people accountable" (good in theory), often without specifying what, exactly, that looks like (less good). the idea then becomes that if you've done harmful things, there's no way you can ever make up for them and should just, like, hate yourself for all eternity and also die, probably, which is not actually helpful to anyone.

so, i think for those who ascribe to that mindset, zuko is a prime candidate for them to criticize. and while there's nothing wrong with criticizing a character or their arc or writing if you truly have a problem with it, as you've said, a lot of the time, criticisms against zuko don't seem to be made in very good faith. after all, a big part of zuko's arc is having to unlearn some very black-and-white thinking. also, zuko is not a real person. he is a character, and therefore a narrative tool, and if we want him to be 'held accountable', we need look no further than the story itself, in which he is probably the character the narrative holds the most accountable for his actions due to his prior status as a villain.

(it reminds me a bit, actually, of another favorite character of mine: alec in the tv series shadowhunters. he starts out the story already in a heroic role, unlike zuko, but a big part of his narrative is unlearning some prejudiced cultural mindsets and challenging not only his previous ideologies, but his conception of himself and the people in his life as well. as a result, alec can look sometimes more obviously flawed than the other main cast, but the point is that the narrative asks him to examine those flaws and change and introspect and grow in a way that it doesn't always ask of other characters when they are showcasing their own flaws. which does make me thing about zuko vs. aang in the atla narrative.)

the other thing i think is contributing to zuko's more contentious status in the fandom is how long atla's been in the cultural consciousness, and how common it is for things that used to be popular to cycle through to people starting to criticize or actively hate it to people saying "no, actually, it's still pretty good, you just don't want to like a popular thing" (this is me rn), to maybe eventually getting popular again/at least in certain subsects of the audience. zuko was probably one of the most talked-about aspects of atla for a long time, and while i can understand how that could get frustrating (because there are some other really great characters and aspects of the story!), that's not, like, for no reason. people connected with and admired his story for a reason, and many still do, and (in my humble opinion) that is because it is one of the most thought-out, intentional, and nuanced character arcs of the show.

the ableism, i think, really gets to me because like... even if every criticism from the people who hate him were 100% accurate and said in good faith (they're not, but let's pretend for a minute)... that still wouldn't be an excuse for ableism against a character with a prominent facial difference (or making fun of abuse survivors for the permanent injuries they sustain from abuse.) if zuko had never redeemed himself and stayed a villain, it would still be wrong to talk about his scar and abuse the way some of his detractors do. and the show agrees with me! you know how i know? the only two characters to ever make fun of zuko's scar are villains in the narrative: zhao and azula. ("make fun of" might not be quite right for zhao, since what he said - "you have the scar to prove it" - is far more matter-of-fact than azula imitating him by covering her eye or "make sure they get your good side", but he's absolutely being a huge jerk about it.) other characters react to zuko's scar in all sorts of different ways, even when he's still in a villain/antagonist/anti-hero role: zuko's crew is horrified to learn how he got the scar, song sees a point of connection and tries to reach out to him, but, while i think well-intentioned, she breaks a major boundary by trying to touch his scar when he hasn't conveyed he's okay with that, jet makes assumptions about his background because of it, lee, the kid from zuko alone, asks with curious, childish naivete how he got it, only for his father to reprimand him for asking, aang reacts with annoyance/boredom to azula's ableist joke, and katara trips over her words to correct him when zuko thinks she's essentially calling him "scary to look at". not all of these interactions are positive, but the characters (all of whom are written as pretty sympathetic, even if also flawed) aren't outright trying to make fun of him for it, and the narrative never implies he deserves to be treated as less than because of it, even before his redemption.

anyway. if people don't believe in characters' (and, hell, irl people's) capacity for growth and change and don't want to have nuanced discussions about how trauma can impact these things, i mean... that's their prerogative, but i don't understand why they enjoy the show, because those are big parts of it (and not just wrt zuko.)

i know it can be frustrating, anon— trust me, i get very frustrated. but i promise you, there are plenty of people out there who a) still love zuko and his story and b) are capable of and willing to talk about things with nuance and in good faith. i'm happy to be part of that corner of fandom, and i bet you can manage to carve out a space where more people like that exist, too! <3