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luxwing · 2 months
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Can't sleep so, like a normal person, I'm lying in bed deciding what nicknames I'd call all the characters in smash bros by if I hung out with them
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nicohischierz · 7 months
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call it what you want: tyler duke
tagging: @ivy-34, @francesfarhadi, @hzstry8, @cixrosie, @itsnotgray, @estapa94, @trevs-swiftie, @heartz4hisch
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two months.
that's how long you and tyler duke have kept up your fake relationship.
two months and you've got squat for your side of the deal.
"tyler this isn't really fair. you've got your biology grade up and i am no closer to talking to will," you pointed out.
tyler didn't really say anything. he just stared at you and shrugged before trying to take a bite of his ice cream.
you slapped his hand away and made him look at you. "the others would want to know how our ice cream date went," you reminded him.
"fuck, why did i say we were dating again?" he mumbled.
"i wish i knew," you replied.
“so why are we at this ice cream shop?” tyler asked.
"they have my favourite ice cream" you answered, giving him a shrug.
tyler stared at you before eating his ice cream.
he wanted to say something to you but one of the waitresses came by with a banana spilt.
"the guys over there wanted me to give this to you," she gestured to the counter where luke and dylan were standing.
you groaned and hit your head against the table as tyler rolled his eyes at the older boys.
"what are you doing here?" tyler asked, his voice laced with annoyance.
"ice cream," his brother replied, lifting the cone he bought.
luke happily took a seat next to you whilst dylan sat next to tyler. the former took a spoon from the bowl and ate a good chunk of the banana split he bought.
"i also know what day it is and knew you'd want someone other than mini duke to keep you company," he added.
tyler looked between you and luke in confusion. he then looked to his brother with raised eyebrows. "it’s my birthday," you told him sheepishly
"what? y/n/n i’m such a horrible boyfriend!” he exclaimed. truth be told tyler knew your birthday was this month, he just couldn’t remember the exact date.
in his head, he had planned a dinner with you and an amazing night to celebrate your birthday.
you smiled at tyler and held his hand. “it’s okay ty. i didn’t want anyone to make a big deal out of it,” you told him.
luke then proceeded to hand you a small teal bag. you looked at the bag sceptically before peeking inside.
"luke warren hughes, how did you afford this?" you asked.
inside the bag was a teal box which contained a dainty bracelet, the tiffany blue heart dangling on the end.
a small piece of paper caught your eye next "oo, there's a little card!" you squealed.
luke was quick to slam his hand over the paper. "this is personal. it's between me, you, jack and quinn," he emphasised.
your heart melted.
the hughes brothers always wished you for your birthday as soon as the clock struck twelve. it had been a tradition since you could remember
it was definitely more of an effort than your own siblings had made.
tyler could sense that your emotions were running haywire so he intertwined your fingers with his. you looked up sat him and smiled before leaning on his shoulder.
"i really just came to give you this present and wish you happy birthday munchkin," luke wished you once more before leaving the shop.
you and tyler stayed seated at the shop for another twenty minutes before he drove you home.
the next day, after your study session with tyler, the boy had given you twenty minutes to get changed before calling you back to his car.
"are you going to tell me where we're going?" you asked. tyler had told you to get dressed in your best dress and refused to elaborate any further.
the two of you arrived at a fancy restaurant and tyler acted as the best gentlemen he could. "I hope you know I didn't forget your birthday y/n/n. i just got the dates mixed up," he explained.
you smiled and kissed his cheek. "it doesn't matter ty,"
but the duke boy shook his head. “you’re my girlfriend y/n/n and i want to spoil you,”
you never got to ask what he meant until he pulled out a little gift bag, the same colour as the one luke got you.
“i know you like that one taylor swift song where she talks about wearing a guys initials on her neck so i umm thought you would like this,” he mumbled.
“but if you don’t like it then that’s fine cause i can get you something else!”
you leaned over and kissed tyler on the lips.
“i love it ty,”
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midnightanxietytm · 5 months
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Kitana muses about her creator
A/N: I'm back lovelies, and this time with a Mortal Kombat snippet. I had this one laying on my docs since like a month after release so enjoy! Requests are open btw
Summary:
"The man tilted his head at her with a smile, standing beside her on the balcony. She turned back at the horizon, resting her arms on the railing and pulling one of her fans, absentmindedly spinning the blades. “Why did you make us?” She asked, finally.
Liu Kang looked at her, puzzled."
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Kitana doesn't really know how to feel about the alternative versions of herself and Liu Kang.
Contents: Liutana mentions, MK1!Kitana thinking about Titan!Kitana, character study, introspection, Kitana pov. Listen she's been my main since forever im lowkey obsessed with her.
Word count: 699
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For as long as she could remember, Liu Kang has been there.
Officially, she was very young when she first met him, just old enough to start mingling in court business, what earth realm would define as a teenager.
She remembers he was polite, that he had intense eyes and that he never looked down on her, not that anyone ever dared to, but Liu Kang had something in his eyes that resembled a mixture of pride and pain, as if he was mourning what she could become. He had told her things about earthrealm then, about its champions, its people, then about the outworld, the places she didn’t really step into as a princess. He always had a lot to say. Now she knows why.
"You and my Titan version seem awfully close!" She had mentioned it once, and he refused to elaborate.
Not that he needed to, Kitana had eyes. 
The definite confirmation came in training with an alternative version of herself; an idea given by Liu Kang himself. 
"A god?! He's my consort!" She heard her own words with muted shock, but it made perfect sense now.
It was weird to think about; the fact that in multiple timelines, her and Liu Kang were… together. And it explained the weird glint in his eyes every time he looked at her. The protector of earthrealm had been mourning the lover he thought he lost, while staring at a perfect copy of her. How painful it must have been, she thought as she stared at the sunset.
“Ah, good evening, princess.” Said the subject of her musings, in his usual polite tone. “Am I disturbing you?” 
She turned to face him, the remaining sunlight casting shadows on her face. Liu Kang was a handsome man, and he had always been polite and kind… “Not at all, In fact, I was thinking about you.”
The man tilted his head at her with a smile, standing beside her on the balcony. She turned back at the horizon, resting her arms on the railing and pulling one of her fans, absentmindedly spinning the blades. “Why did you make us?” She asked, finally.
Liu Kang looked at her, puzzled, so she continued; “It brings you pain, I can see it. You look at us and you see eons of history, yet you know it wasn’t really us there, at least not the ones you knew, we are constant reminders of everything you lost, or worse, everything you could have had.”
The god turns away from her, once again silent. He wasn’t angered by her question, that Kitana knew. The silence drags, the sun is almost gone.
“It pains me, yes.” He said, finally. “But it brought me a certain peace, knowing that I could give those I loved a better, more peaceful life. Even if it was in a completely different reality.” Liu Kang looks down at his own hands, Kitana does too. Those hands had created the universe, the realms, created her. “I won’t exactly tell you what happened in the previous timelines, but trust me, it was nothing but pain for all of those I loved, every ounce of happiness we achieved was snatched from us…”
The princess touched the tips of her fan blades. “From us…” she quotes him in a whisper, and again the silence engulfs them for a heavy moment. “I know about you and… the titan me.”
Her creator only let out a soft laugh, almost tender. “Every version of you is too smart for their own good.”
“You are the one who could have made me less smart.” She laughed too, and they turned back to face the last rays of sunshine disappear. “Can you at least be with… the one you love?” Be with me, or titan me, a version of me, was what she taught at first, but it felt too intimate to say, too confusing, she wasn’t his Kitana, and he wasn't the one for her either, not in this reality. 
“Not all the time, as I would wish, but it’s already better than nothing.”
And that’s comfort enough, she thinks, for all of them.
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Thanks for reading! My request are open and i added some fandoms including MK, the lists and rules are pinned.
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stupidsketchpad · 1 month
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hey guys. im here to rant about how 2econd 2ight 2eer (second sight seer) by will wood is secret life bigb's song because god its eerie how similar the song lyrics are to his character. AHEM (also spoilers for secret life)
My grip on my secrets slipping while I'm speaking in tongues
ok. this is a really good start lol. basically bigb's task don't mean much when he does weird shit anyway for fun and, quote from grian, "writes his own tasks"
Screaming at the top of my lungs in the confession booth
he's saying stuff that litterally makes no sense. even after his task is done he wont tell anyone (confession booth is kinda like people asking about your task after it's done. your confessing your task to someone)
Take it with a pillar of salt, H.A.L.T., it's not my fault
i got nothing man
The devil made me do it, but I also kinda wanted to
THIS LINE AHSHDHSHAH. THE SECRET KEEPER GIVES HIM THE TASKS CAUSE HE HAS TO BUT HE WANTS TO DO THEM ANYWAY ANDDDD MAKE THEM AS CONFUSING AS POSSIBLE. SECRET KEEPER COUNTS AS THE DEVIL HERE
I'm cut from a different kind of meat
More than you can chew, hard to swallow me
"what the hell are you doing??" is a common question he gets asked. hard to swallow. y'know
Forget bored stiff, I got rigor mortis, call it morbid curiosity
How I cannot commit to reality, when my third eye's open and I like what I see
he's doing shit for the sake of doing shit.
Baby, I may be crazy but I didn't lose it, no I set it free
AAAAA THIS LINE TOOO!!! ok so he didn't just randomly start lying in secret life. it was weird before that too! i cant speak for double but LIMITED LIFE he was also confusing people about being the boogeyman. basically that one meme with the "guy weird about everything but its drowned out by how weird about everything the other people are"
I can't ignore what's under dance floorboards, the rhythm of my heart a dead-as-disco beat
But I still move my feet
To slip out of this groove, I'm free
dont got much here but i think this is just him having fun, yknow
Now to row, row, row my boat over the falls
And maybe wake up from but a dream, yeah
"but a dream" is the games. there are three rows in the line. lose your lives to get the game over with.
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I didn't lose it babe
There wasn't much to find
once again, this wasnt the first time he was being weird!!!
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I'm only passing through
say weird shit, refuse to elaborate, leave.
Oh, oh, o-o-oh
If you knew what I knew, if you saw what I see
You'd look through illusions, hallucinations, and lucid dream
And I know that meaning can be such a pretty thing to keep
But I got facts and I'm not afraid to use 'em, take the good with the bad, take off the back you make a new front
evo, anyone? anyway this man knows about watchers and doesnt care. he knows! he just doesn't give that any meaning.
Some days I'm glad that I am a madman and I'd rather be that than
An amicable animal, mild-mannered cannibal
red lives and how bigb doesn't have the same bloodlust as they do. this guy doesn't kill much, he's like the most passive on the server. /srs
But I'm more level-headed and clever than ever and I'm getting better one forever at a time
how many people guessed any of bigb's tasks? that's right, zero! (if i remember correctly.) he's getting better at the games (btw the games being referred to as "forevers" is just ahshahdghs)
And if sick is defined by what's different, well then pull the plug out and let me die
not much here
Vice-versa, vice versus virtue
Well who I am I choose through all the things I do
AAAAAAAA HE CHOOSES HOW HE IS PERCEIVED BY THE OTHERS BY SAYING HIS STUFF YA GET WHAT IM SAYING
And if it rhymes, it's true, but I hate poetry
contradicting himself. easy peasy analysis here folks.
Now with my moral compass pointing south, I'm going down
With no-no-no-no-no-no-no-no-no respect for reality
could say this is going red! but also. "going down?" LIKE A HOLE? HE MADE A HOLE?????
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I didn't lose it babe
There wasn't much to find
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I'm only passing through
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I didn't lose it babe
There wasn't much to find
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
same stuff
A tourist passing through
Well that was fun, goodbye
he died. but hey, he had fun!
anyways thats all thank you for listening to me ramble about songs and minecraft i WILL do this again. sorry if this is incoherent i wrote it at 10:00 pm.
psst... moot... @bigb-enthusiast... would you like this?
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missnight0wl · 2 months
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Probably too late, but I just had a theory. What if it wasn’t Rakepick who killed Rowan? I remember that time we used a polyjuice potion to become Rakepick - someone from R who didn’t like her probably could have done the same. What better way to ruin her life than cost her her job and taint the young wizards who love her, by framing her for murder?
I don’t know lol. I just feel like suddenly killing her favourite students’ best friend for seemingly no reason makes no sense in her plot line. At all. JC could at least elaborate on why if it were the case.
Also, I lobe her and refuse to believe she’s guilty and evil lol
The problem is that when we meet Rakepick in Azkaban, she basically admits that she killed Rowan. For your idea to work, we'd have to assume that we saw Rakepick's imposter during the night of Rowan's death, in the Sunken Vault, and therefore later in Azkaban. On top of that, for some reason, the imposter decided to keep their cover and not to reveal they're not truly Rakepick - which technically is possible, but if you ask me, it doesn't really sound like a great story.
That being said, you're right that Rakepick killing Rowan makes no sense. In fact, in the sane route in Azkaban, she implies that it wasn't Rowan whom she wanted to kill - which actually does make sense because we're supposed to believe nobody knew Rowan was even there before they jumped in front of Ben. But who did Rakepick want to kill then? Ben? MC? And why? As you said, none of it was ever explained, and it's not like it's obvious without explanation.
I said it in the past, and I'll say it again: my problem is not that JC made Rakepick evil. My problem is that they claim it makes sense when it doesn't. In Y4 and Y5, Rakepick is an intriguing, super intelligent, always-two-steps-ahead-of-everyone character. In the Portrait Vault, she turns into a parody of herself, and NOTHING in her plotline makes sense anymore.
If all she ever cared about was returning to Hogwarts to get her hand on the treasure in the Cursed Vault, why she waited until Y4 to return, when we know for a fact that Dumbledore was actively searching for her since at least Y2?
Why she betrayed us in the Portrait Vault instead of waiting until the Sunken Vault? I know we're supposed to believe it's because she thought Jacob would tell us about her betrayal after being freed, but it makes no sense. She just had to knock MC and the gang down, kill Jacob, get rid of his body, modify the kids' memory, and claim that Jacob was simply not there. Also, it's stupid that she even agreed to take so many witnesses to the vault, to begin with. She'd be fine with just MC and Bill. Why take Merula, Ben, and Charlie/Penny?
Why kill anyone in the Forest in Y6? Like, her main problem at that point was to get to the Sunken Vault before MC. Killing anyone didn't make achieving it any easier. In fact, it only made her a more wanted criminal (as the authorities were already looking for her), so... what exactly did she want to achieve here?
If anyone wants to make Rakepick a villain in their story, you do you. But for JC's version, it just doesn't work. You'd have to rewrite a big part of the first five years, and that's actually when the story was good.
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watari-apologist · 5 months
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top 10 attractive traits of watari, GO
ON IT, BOSS
10. extremely rich
the man is Absolutely Fucking Loaded. like if we take "L: wammy's house" as canon, we are talking multi-millions or -billions kind of rich. he owns real estate. if you're going to fuck him for no other reason, fuck him for the fact that he will shower you with expensive gifts
9. impeccable fashion sense
every outfit we ever see him wear in canon is FIRE. the trenchcoat + hat + mask combo? mysterious. alluring. if he had only ever worn this in canon, the death note fandom would have been shipping him with L from DAY ONE and never stopped. his suit? simple yet effective. he knows it's a classic for a reason. whatever the fuck that attack helicopter outfit during the higuchi chase was? literally So Cool. my man CANNOT MISS
8. good manners
he's a gentleman through and through. will keep your secrets, discreet as all hell. unfailingly polite even if he's torturing you for information
7. tall
according to "how to read 13", watari is 5'9" (175cm for people like me who don't know the imperial system) which makes him slightly shorter than L, but i categorically disagree with that. like, this book also tried to tell me that he weights 51kg/112lbs compared to L's 50kg/110lbs estimation and i REFUSE to believe that watari, a well-built elderly man, weighs only slightly more than a 24yo twink with an eating disorder. like come the fuck on. those numbers are all made up. watari has the vibes of a man who is 6ft, and tall men exist only to be climbed like a tree
6. loyal
he will die for you without question or complaint, and otherwise protect you with his life. anyone who tries to harm you will end up mysteriously disappearing within a week tops, never to be heard from again. no amount of money or persuasion would ever convince him to betray you. it's like marriage, but more romantic
5. the voice
i don't know how to explain this one to you. if you don't already get it, i fear you never will. but an endlessly calm, soft-spoken british accented voice can be Everything - and it is. to me. ALSO since we are on the topic of voices, this is my chance to mention lutz mackensy, who plays watari in the German Death Note Audio Drama (reset the clock, i mentioned it again). he obviously doesn't have a british accent, but he DOES have the sassiest and most INEXPLICABLY HORNY watari performance to ever exist. the heavy breathing and Forceful Dom Voice "Komm schon" during misa's torture scene have been living rent free in my brain since the moment i first heard them and i will Never Recover
4. really good cook
sweets, pastries, cakes, chocolates - you name it, the man can make it. according to "L - the prologue to death note: spiraling trap" (or whatever we're calling it these days), he makes ALL of L's sweets and is in fact so famous for his sweets making skills that he has a whole mysterious alias associated with it (phantom patissier my beloved). feeding L sweets to gain his affection is LITERALLY a game mechanic in communicator mode and watari has been doing it for like a decade before your fbi agent showed up on the premises. seduction via food is his modus operandi
3. really good cock
some people say that sex with an older man is gross, but those people are cowards. don't let them fool you. watari has decades of experience under his belt (literally) and will gladly show off his skills. he knows where the prostate is. he knows where the g-spot is. he KNOWS where the clitoris is. additionally, he owns two hands and one mouth and a wide variety of expensive sex toys if the dick isn't quite the right thing for your pleasure. you are not walking away from that encounter without At Least three orgasms (unless you're into that, in which case he will edge you within an inch of your life and then just fuckin leave lol)
2. handsome
i mean...
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i could elaborate, but i don't feel the need to. as brian david gilbert once said: "i don't know what to tell you. if you're not attracted to this, you're wrong"
and finally, the NUMBER ONE ATTRACTIVE QUALITY that watari possesses:
1. problematic
he owns orphanages all over the globe and at LEAST one of them is a front for a super-detective training agency that traumatises children. he works for L, a guy who has zero qualms about violating human rights, and is in fact not only complicit in kidnapping, but is seen actively participating in ACTUAL TORTURE when ordered (watari_pulling_on_gloves.gif my beloved). he shoots a sniper rifle at an occupied, moving vehicle in the middle of tokyo without a SECOND'S hesitation. something is Deeply Wrong with this man. i couldn't fix him if i tried, but honestly? whatever is wrong with him is way more fun and interesting anyway, so i might as well hang around to watch the ensuing train wreck <3
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itsamenickname · 1 year
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Okay, so do you guys remember how I talked about how both @jelixpo and @deckof-dragons/@anomander-dragnipurake inspired me to write my story, To Break the Bonds Within Two Kingdoms back in the Ao3 chapter 11 notes?
Well, what if I told you that there was another Bowuigi story idea I had in mind while brainstorming TBTBWTK?
That's right, what you are about to read is another rough Bowuigi story idea I had that actually originated back in late April-early May 2022 (right around the same time TBTBWTK was first born). While I ended up choosing TBTBWTK to flesh out and actively work on, I felt bad for keeping this WIP hidden within my computer files for almost an entire year (okay, I kind of told one person about this idea back in mid-November 2022, but it wasn't to the extent of what you're about to see).
And since the Mario movie is coming out today, I thought what better way to celebrate the momentous occasion than by sharing this fun little Bowuigi story idea? :)
Also, before I forget, if anyone wants to do something with this idea, then by all means go for it. (Just let me know if you have done something with the idea so that I can see it.) :) As I just mentioned, this was something I've thought of back in early-mid 2022, but because I want to not only finish TBTBWTK, but also work on a second (and bigger) Bowuigi story after TBTBWTK is done, I figured that it would be better to at least share this rough WIP/idea than to leave it in my computer files for no one else but myself to see.
Anyway, I apologize in advance for the extremely long post (and for any grammatical errors), but I hope you guys like the idea all the same! :D
(Adding a cut here to help make this post shorter.)
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Okay, so imagine a time in the Mushroom Kingdom where Bowser is living a good life. He and Peach recently signed a peace treaty together (and by recently, I mean like 1 month ago), not to mention that he's been dating Luigi for about 6 months now and has never been happier (per Luigi's request, they are keeping their relationship a secret which Bowser doesn't mind at all).
But on one mysterious night in the Dark Lands, Jerry (yes, the same Jerry from TBTBWTK) informs Bowser that he has a surprise visitor waiting for him in the throne room. Well, this didn't make much sense to the Koopa King. If it was Luigi, Mario, or even Peach, Jerry would've explicitly told him, but the fact that the Hammer Bro. not only refused to elaborate about the visitor, but also seemed kind of hesitant and nervous when Bowser asked for more info about the said mysterious visitor? That just seemed really weird to Bowser.
And oh boy was he right when he stepped into the throne room and saw the one and only King Boo.
Now, even though Bowser wanted nothing more than to kick the ghost king out of his kingdom, Luigi's kindness actually rubbed off on him just enough to where he instead angrily asked King Boo why the hell he's here. When Luigi talked to E. Gadd last month, the professor said that the ghost king was still trapped in that canister from the adventure of The Last Resort, so it didn't make much sense that the ghost king who he thought was trapped is floating right in front of him.
So King Boo explains to Bowser about his new plan. He rants on and on about how he is just so sick and tired of getting defeated and captured over and over again, so King Boo devised a new plan. He figures out that the best way to defeat the Mario Bros. (especially Luigi) and take over the Mushroom Kingdom/rest of the world is by teaming up with Bowser. Sure, King Boo understands that Bowser may not have a good track record when it comes to defeating Mario, but he figured that as long as Bowser distracts Mario and Peach just long enough, King Boo could use that stall to trap Luigi in a painting.
Bowser, of course, shoots down the idea. He explains to King Boo how he just recently signed a peace treaty with Peach and he doesn't want to do anything that would break Mario, Peach, and especially Luigi's trust (although he doesn't mention Luigi to King Boo). And even if he and Peach hadn't signed a peace treaty, he has very well learned from his past mistakes and knows deep down that Mario and Luigi can, and will, easily defeat both of them.
But before Bowser can leave the throne room, King Boo manages to stop him in his tracks by explaining how he knows that he and Luigi are dating.
King Boo also blackmails Bowser by saying that if Bowser doesn't agree to team up with him, he won't hesitate to posses Bowser and force him to kill Luigi with his own hands.
As much as Bowser wanted to call on King Boo's bluff, he's inwardly really scared to. If King Boo was making threats to him, Mario, Peach, or anyone else (should point out that the Koopalings & Jr. don't exist in this timeline, but I'll leave that up to reader's discretion), Bowser wouldn't care about the idea of King Boo possessing him. But King Boo was making an indirect threat to Luigi, the one person Bowser would not hesitate to lay his life down for. If anything were to happen to the love of his life, it would kill the Koopa King (no matter if it was his fault or not).
So Bowser grudgingly agrees to King Boo's plan as the ghost king is excited to finally set his plan into motion. But before he forgets, King Boo mentions one little important thing:
This new alliance they have has to be a secret. No one, not even Kamek and Kammy, can know about it. Everyone has to believe that whatever is about to happen is Bowser's ideas and his ideas alone.
And if anyone finds out about their alliance/plan on their own (or if Bowser tells anyone about their plan), King Boo will kill Luigi himself and force Mario and Bowser to watch.
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So time skip to around 2 weeks later where Bowser has caused so many problems to the MK to the point to where Peach is sick of it. She sets up a royal meeting with herself, Mario, Luigi, Toadsworth, and the royal court about what they should do with Bowser. The royal court is honestly spilt on either declaring war on the Dark Lands (they have a justifiable reason to declare war because Bowser has broke parts of the peace treaty) or try to reach out to Bowser and meet with him peacefully.
Eventually, the arguments get so stressful and out of hand that Peach gets mad (and I mean really fucking mad) and orders the royal court to let her, Mario and Luigi discuss this in private. While the royal court (especially Toadsworth) are hesitant on this, they eventually follow her orders and leave the brothers and Peach alone in the room. When it's finally just the three of them, Peach just takes this time to calm down and take a few deep breaths (which Mario and Luigi don't mind and allow her to take as much time as she needs).
Once she is really to talk about it again, she explains to Mario and Luigi how she is kind of dead set on declaring war on the Dark Lands. As a few Toads pointed out earlier in the meeting, Bowser broke parts of the peace treaty, not to mentioned that she had actually privately reached out to him on multiple occasions, but has never received as response back.
Now Luigi (who had been mostly quiet throughout the entire meeting due to his anxiety and his tough decision on whether to stand by Peach or Bowser's side) tries to defend Bowser by explaining how both the MK and the Dark Lands had worked on the peace treaty for almost 3 months (not to mention that they've officially signed it last month) and theorizes that there has to be a reason that Bowser is causing so much trouble that they don't know about. Luigi begs Peach to give him time to talk to Bowser before she decides to declare war on Bowser's kingdom.
Now here, I should point out that both Peach and Mario know that Luigi and Bowser are friends, but they don't know that they're dating. So obviously, when Luigi begs Peach to let him talk to Bowser, Mario (being the protective older big brother that he is) hates the idea. He still doesn't trust Bowser and is afraid that allowing Luigi to talk to Bowser (especially right now) will ultimately get his little brother hurt or worse, killed (it would destroy Mario if anything happened to Luigi).
But despite Mario's protests, Peach makes a deal with Luigi: He has one week to talk to Bowser and make him change his ways. If Luigi succeeds, then she won't declare war on the Dark Lands. However, if he fails, Peach will declare the treaty null and void and declare war on Bowser's kingdom.
So over the course of the next 5 days, Luigi tries to reach out to Bowser in multiple ways. He tries to write him letters, meet at their usual spot on the usual days they hang out together, little things like that. However, none of his ideas work. Now, that's not to say that Bowser hadn't received Luigi's letters. In fact, Bowser has actually received every single one of his boyfriend's letters (at one instance, Bowser started to tear up as he carefully touched Luigi's handwriting, which led to King Boo taunting him on whether he should respond to Luigi's letter or not.), but...Bowser is honestly scared. He wants to tell Luigi that he hates doing what he's doing, he wants to tell Luigi about King Boo's ultimate plan to take over the MK and the rest of the world, but...he can't. He doesn't want to put Luigi in any form of danger, so he figured that the best way to keep Luigi safe is by completely shutting him out.
But that kind of backfires on Bowser because on the afternoon of the 6th day, Luigi gets a new idea.
He gets the idea to sneak over to Bowser's Castle (without Mario, Peach, or anyone else knowing) and talk to Bowser face-to-face (for the first time since Bowser's alliance with King Boo) in hopes of forcing his boyfriend to talk about why he's doing all of these bad things.
But as for what happens when Luigi finally arrives at Bowser's Castle?
Well, I'll leave that up to you. ;)
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No, my problem w/ S&S is that the building blocks of Companionate Marriage - chemistry, compatibility, conflict-resolution abilities - are repeatedly shat upon to make way for the concept of worthiness. Marianne finding Brandon’s company boring and him sexually repulsive are silly, shallow reasons to not marry him! It’s not like she’s going to spend the rest of her life living in his house and needing to be turned on by his personality or the rest of her life!
I always thought the themes and message of Sense and Sensibility were really clear, sometimes on the nose, even, but apparently they are not.
Appearances deceive, and sometimes, specially when we are young, we are guided by considerations that are shallow, and ideally, as we grow older, our perspective changes and gains nuance. My 7 year old nephew is a great reader, but he likes newly printed books and dislikes old prints. He isn't old enough yet to appreciate the beauty and sort of mystery of a book that has passed from hand to hand and provided comfort, solace and entertainment to several people.
Treating attraction in terms of raw physical beauty is reductive and unrealistic. Our patterns of attraction are influenced by many, many factors, biological, emotional, and intellectual. Saying Marianne's taste could never change is more or less like saying Lizzy's taste could never change and therefore her marrying Darcy is a matter of worthiness and gratitude. Which is ridiculous.
Marianne's marriage is not a matter of gratitude and worthiness, not at a theme level. Willoughby and Brandon represent two ways of being and behaving in relation to others, while having similar inner oriented dispositions towards sentimentality and romanticism, represent radically different ways to relate to others.
Willoughby embodies selfishness and meanness; he's always a "me, first" person, who cannot be bothered to care about anyone else's feelings. He doesn't care for Eliza'a feelings or her family's, and he doesn't even care for Marianne's feelings and her family's. He engages Marianne's affections for fun at first, and even when he is "in love" with her, his money comfort comes first, and his comment upon leaving Sussex is about his own feelings: “It is folly to linger in this manner. I will not torment myself any longer by remaining among friends whose society it is impossible for me now to enjoy.” He is mean to the Barton people for no other reason than his thinking them beneath him. When Marianne is with Willoughby, she also turns into a selfish, mean person; where she at first had compassion for Brandon, now accuses him with Willoughby of lying to them all and making an elaborate ruse to avoid a picnic. She no longer cares about cheering up or talking to anyone on her family with consideration, and refuses to try and compose herself for their sake, or to communicate with them.
Brandon embodies generosity and kindness. In the vein of the famous Mr Rogers' idea that in crises you should look at the helpers, Brandon is always helping as he can, giving of his time, knowledge, and wealth to others, from simple small things like listening to Marianne's playing with respect, helping deviate the conversation when Mrs Jennings and sir John are grilling Elinor, to giving a complete stranger a living just because he feels Edward has been wronged by his family in a cruel way. We are told and shown that he "was on every occasion mindful of the feelings of others".
Marianne not only grows similarly melancholy in her romantic loss, but she also, slowly grows into a more considerate, kind person herself as time passes. She grows to understand and confide in her sister more and more, and to try and be a comfort to her family. Her marriage to Brandon is the joyful conclusion of this arc. They have grown alike in personality, temperament, and ideals; and the fruit of it is restored joyfulness to him, and such love to her as she never thought she could feel again.
Honestly the "this sign cannot stop me because I can't read" attitude towards Austen positively, explicitly saying that Marianne loved Brandon as much as she ever loved Willoughby, and that she was very happy in her marriage is becoming very, very tiresome.
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Let's (re)Read The Great Hunt! Chapter 14: Wolfbrother
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If Robert Jordan can reuse chapter titles, I can reuse post images even if they make absolutely no sense in this current context! Anyway. Yadda yadda yadda, spoilers for the entirety of the series, blah blah blah, do not continue if you don't want that, something something something, by clicking Keep Reading you agree to agree with everything I say, hmm hmm hmm, all very standard and completely enforceable not that anyone could possibly object to those terms, let's get started!
So since I'm not in the groove, last time I forgot to do the chapter icon. This time I won't do that: the icon is wolf. This is probably not a surprise considering the chapter title. It certainly won't surprise anyone to learn that this is a Perrin chapter about Perrin doing Wolfbrother things. Last chapter involves even less surprises! It had an all-new icon, the Portal Stone. I refuse to believe any of you need me to elaborate on what it stands for or why it was used last time. Thank you!
“Gone?” Ingtar demanded of the air. “And my guards saw nothing. Nothing! They cannot just be gone!”
Rand's channeler madness is infectious, what with Ingtar trying to have a conversation with the sky. Then again, I'd wonder if I was going mad under these conditions myself: three dudes all gone, two of them incredibly conspicuous, horses missing with them, not a single track.
Mat shrugged. “I don’t know. Rand was. . . .” Perrin wanted to throw something at him, hit him, anything to stop him, but Ingtar and Uno were watching.
Perrin doesn't often get to be a bro to Rand (and frankly even fewer chances to be one to Mat), so it's always very sweet to see that he actually is very much best friends with the guy, even if Rand's acting stupid.
“Why would Hurin leave like that, in the middle of the night, without a word? He knows what we’re about. How am I to track this Shadow-spawned filth without him? I would give a thousand gold crowns for a pack of trail hounds. If I did not know better, I would say the Darkfriends managed this so they can slip east or west without me knowing. Peace, I don’t know if I do know better.”
Ingtar is pretty sure he knows the capabilities of the Darkfriends they're chasing since he let them in, but after this it's not unreasonable to doubt. And frankly, with Fain being Fain, he does not know better at all.
Serves me right for what I told Rand. I wish I could run.
Another reason nobody talks to anybody else in this story is that every time they do, everyone takes each other's advice in the worst way possible. Rand has literally run away from the timeline, which is one step less reasonable than trying to launch himself into orbit. I wouldn't talk to him after that either, I'd be worried my suggestion he should eat something be followed up by finding him with half his horse in his stomach and the other half not having had time to die yet.
His thoughts drifted, feeling for what must be out there, what was always out there in country where men were few or far between, feeling for his brothers. He did not like to think of them that way, but they were.
Really another big problem Jordan had in his Perrin plotting is that he stopped forcing the kid to escalate his power use the way that Rand and the Wondergirls had to. Like, this book he willingly talks to the books, next book he'll willingly run through T'A'R, and by the end of book six he's commanding an army of wolves... and then he just stagnates. He does get to run away from being a werewolf for the rest of Jordan's books, so Sanderson has to do an absolute rush job to make Perrin able to play at everyone else's power level.
It was a faint picture of a man dressed in clothes made of hides, with a long knife in his hand, but overlaid on the image, more central, was a shaggy wolf with one tooth longer than the rest, a steel tooth gleaming in the sunlight as the wolf led the pack in a desperate charge through deep snow toward the deer that would mean life instead of slow death by starvation, and the deer thrashing to run in powder to their bellies, and the sun glinting on the white until it hurt the eyes, and the wind howling down the passes, swirling the fine snow like mist, and. . . .
Weirdly, the first time I tried to copy this segment my computer decided that I clearly instead wanted to copy-paste a screengrab of a Discord conversation that hadn't been in the clipboard for some time.
We should not let my computer's clinical insanity distract us from appreciating how awesome Elyas's wolf name is (though "long in the tooth" meaning what it does, it feels a bit inadvertently mean).
It was not the image he had made, a young man with heavy shoulders and shaggy, brown curls, a young man with an axe at his belt, who others thought moved and thought slowly. That man was there, somewhere in the mind picture that came from the wolves, but stronger by far was a massive, wild bull with curved horns of shining metal, running through the night with the speed and exuberance of youth, curly-haired coat gleaming in the moonlight, flinging himself in among Whitecloaks on their horses, with the air crisp and cold and dark, and blood so red on the horns, and. . . . Young Bull.
Perrin's wolf name is better though, which is 50% why he hates it. The other half is the way it immortalizes his trauma, but boo hoo Perrin learn to love killing Whitecloaks now, you'll be better off in two books if you do.
The one time he had gone to the dungeon, with Egwene, the smell of Fain had made his hair stand on end; not even Trollocs smelled so foul. He had wanted to rip through the bars of the cell and tear the man apart, and finding that inside himself had frightened him more than Fain did. To mask Fain’s smell in his own mind, he added the scent of Trollocs before he howled aloud.
It is a damn shame you didn't kill him while you had the chance, Perrin.
Howled aloud. Those poor Borderlanders, horses, and also Mat I guess. They're worried about three dudes disappearing without a trace, some of them are probably convinced channeling was involved, and now one of the foreign hangers-on is howling.
Their fury infected him. His lips peeled back in a snarl, and he took a step, to join them, run with them in the hunt, in the killing. With an effort he broke the contact except for a thin sense that the wolves were there. He could have pointed to them across the intervening distance. He felt cold inside. I’m a man, not a wolf. Light help me, I am a man!
Dude is going crazier than the male channeler in the party is. Kind of a shame he didn't have a real madness arc like Rand's; maybe Jordan kinda planned on it but ditched it for various reasons including redundancy?
“I have heard of things like this,” Ingtar said slowly, after a moment. “Rumors. There was a Warder, a man called Elyas Machera, who some said could talk to wolves. He disappeared years ago.”
That's hella convenient. You'd think they'd try to hush up Machera's disappearance as much as possible. Who told?
A few of them looked skeptical—Masema went so far as to spit—but Uno nodded thoughtfully, and that was enough for most. Mat was the hardest to convince. “A sniffer! You? You’re going to track murderers by smell? Perrin, you are as crazy as Rand. I am the only sane one left from Emond’s Field, with Egwene and Nynaeve trotting off to Tar Valon to become—”
I mean, Masema and Mat aren't technically wrong in that Perrin's feeding everyone some bullshit, but really I would like Mat to look at the man whose side he's sharing and pick literally any other side. Also don't be mean about the gals.
Vultures flapping, their white wings stained red; bloody, featherless heads tearing and gorging. He broke loose before his stomach emptied itself.
I always picture vultures as desert birds thanks to cartoons and stuff but I just looked it up and apparently they like used to be in France and whatnot. Never woulda guessed. Sadly their modern range in the Old World is a little diminished, but I guess they did pretty well for themselves between the nuclear apocalypse and the magical apocalypse. Good for them!
Mat turned his horse eagerly. “Maybe it’s Rand. I knew he wouldn’t run out on me.”
Cauthor shippers resurrected after their brutal demises last chapter. Also it's great that Mat knows that even after their pissy fights with each other they're still friends.
“Moiraine Sedai sent me, Lord Ingtar,” Verin announced with a satisfied smile. “She thought you might need me...”
Well obviously this statement is 100% true and certainly not a bald-faced lie. Even if we wanted to pretend that for some reason Moiraine didn't immediately induct Verin into her inner circle off-screen, Verin has every reason to think that Moiraine sent her. Remember this little bit from Chapter 7?
“Then we must find the dagger, Sister. Agelmar is sending men to hunt those who took the Horn and slew his oathmen, the same who took the dagger. If one is found, the other will be.”
We must find the dagger. By "we", it's obvious Moiraine meant the three women in the room at that moment and not the good guys as a general concept like most people would mean in casual conversation. Further, "must" was definitely being used in the sense of "this is an order that you must obey" and not just "it is imperative that this be done". Literally any other interpretation of this sentence is crazy talk, because Verin is obviously bound by the Three Oaths as a good guy and it's how she interpreted it, and definitely not to further her own ends by twisting someone else's words to the breaking point. Once she saw that neither Moiraine nor Siuan were in any hurry to recover the dagger and the horn, she was morally obligated to do so as the only other party of the "we" Moiraine so obviously meant.
Obviously. She is not suspicious at all, @checkoutmybookshelf.
“The Ogier, Lord Ingtar? And your sniffer went with him? What would those two have in common with . . . ?” Ingtar gaped at her, and she snorted. “Did you think you could keep something like that secret?” She snorted again. “Sniffers. Vanished, you say?”
“A new sniffer, just when you lose your old one. How . . . providential. You found no tracks? No, of course not. You said no trace. Odd. Last night.”
Verin is absolutely the best kind of Aes Sedai just for stuff like this, by the way. "Yes I know all about your dumb secrets and no obviously I'm not going to try and arrest the man, I'm not even going to try to arrest the Dragon Re-- I mean, tell me about Perrin. That's a crazy coincidence, isn't it?" Verin's not allowed to spend too much time onscreen because if she could she'd have had everything solved in three books.
They started off in a jingle of harness and armor, Verin riding close beside Ingtar and questioning him closely, but too low to be overheard. She gave Perrin a look when he tried to maintain his place, and he fell back. “It’s Rand she’s after,” Mat murmured, “not the Horn.”
Seriously, the only mistake she's made so far is letting Mat and Perrin get suspicious of her, but even then she's got them obeying her so she's doing just fine. They're not even the wrong kind of suspicious.
Perrin nodded. Wherever you’ve gotten to, Rand, stay there. It’s safer than here.
"Dramatic irony exploits the device of giving the spectator an item of information that at least one of the characters in the narrative is unaware of (at least consciously), thus placing the spectator a step ahead of at least one of the characters. Connop Thirlwall in his 1833 article On the Irony of Sophocles originally highlighted the role of irony in drama.[25][26] The Oxford English Dictionary defines dramatic irony as:[12]
the incongruity created when the (tragic) significance of a character's speech or actions is revealed to the audience but unknown to the character concerned; the literary device so used, orig. in Greek tragedy."
I left the now-useless footnotes in so it would be very obvious who I was quoting, thus exempting me from having to source them properly. Alas, this has attracted the attention of the University of Chicago Press Enforcement Bureau, so I must bid you all adieu until the heat blows over.
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I'd really love to hear more about this scene (it's 340 words, I checked), but totally understand if it is too dark or whatever for you to hyper analyze or whatever 🙈
Bucky tosses the pillow to the ground and slips off the cushion. He means it to be languid and sexy, but it probably comes off as jerky and unsure. His muscles still hurt every time he moves, and going too fast sends a painful, nauseating shock of pain through his head.
“What are you doing?” Steve asks in a high-pitched, surprised voice. “Hey, Buck, you don’t–”
Bucky stares up at Steve through his lashes, hands finding the elastic waistband of his pants of their own volition. “I’m just tryna’ pay you back,” he whispers hoarsely. “I don’t have money, so…”
“No, no, Buck,” he says quickly, wrapping his hands loosely around Bucky’s wrists and pushing him away as gently as he can. “You don’t need to pay anything back. I’m not going to any trouble, my couch is here whether you sleep on it or not.”
A humiliated heat deepens the nervous flush already pinking Bucky’s bruised cheeks. “I thought you… I thought you wanted me to… like, the way you were sitting…” He blinks away the glaze of tears that obscures his vision. “Shit, I’m so sorry…”
“Hey, hey,” Steve murmurs, helping Bucky back onto the couch. “No, I get it, I’m sorry if I…”
“No, I’m the one who’s all… all messed up.”
“I can promise you one thing, Bucky. I will never expect you to read my mind. I’ll never ask a question with a right answer in mind, I’ll never… I’ll never slam a door so you know I’m mad, nothing like that. I’ll be completely, totally honest with you.”
“Okay,” Bucky says hesitantly.
“I really like you,” Steve says slowly. “I care about you. A lot. Like… a lot. I’m not doing any of this out of… of a sense of obligation, or anything like that. I’m doing this because I care about you, and I want to see you safe, and you deserve it. This isn’t an exchange, it isn’t… a hierarchy, one of us holding the power.”
“Okay,” he repeats, quieter this time.
OOF OKAY this was a hard scene to write because it makes me so embarrassed for both of them (and I get really bad second-hand embarrassment, to the point where I had to scrap about three versions of this scene before I was comfortable with this one), and it makes me so sad to think about how messed up Bucky's mind is, that he genuinely cannot fathom that someone could just be nice for the sake of being nice.
This point in their relationship is so difficult to navigate because I think neither of them wants to make the first move, but for such different reasons. Steve is terrified of being pushy and accidentally forcing Bucky into something he doesn't want to do, and Bucky is terrified of being in a relationship with someone new (and he's definitely still in love with Brock), but at the same time, they're both so scared of rejecting the other person and ruining their chances of being together later on.
I wanted to really illustrate that Bucky is still so emotionally and physically messed up from Brock ("His muscles still hurt every time he moves, and going too fast sends a painful, nauseating shock of pain through his head." "he whispers hoarsely." "Bucky’s bruised cheeks.") that he literally is incapable of understanding the concept of bodily autonomy or being able to refuse consent. It is literally incomprehensible that 1) he doesn't owe anyone his body, and 2) that someone could simply want to spend time with him without it being some elaborate ruse to fuck him or excuse to punish him.
I was actually kind of nervous that Steve reassuring Bucky would come off slightly condescending (because he's so matter-of-fact and almost uses the kind of clarity you'd use when talking to a child), but it just goes to show that everything Bucky knows about consent and relationships, he learned while Brock was grooming him. He literally needs to unlearn everything and start at the beginning, like a child. That's how badly Brock fucked with his head.
I also love the trope of the victim/survivor's friend slowly coming to understand the extent of the abuse their friend went through, it's just so painful to watch Steve realize just how horrifically Bucky was treated.
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Knowing is Safe CH.2
Chapter 2
Fandom: Redacted ASMR
Couple: Geordi/Cutie
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90% angst 10% comfort ( I actually did the math)
Intilizised words like this are cutie's thoughts. and the way there formated is important so pay attention ( if you have questions don't be afraid to ask)
Also, the beginning might seem a little confusing because I was trying to keep cutie gender neutral which was hard considering the subject.
For the TW I'm putting a lot of it in a category, still listed but I want it to be clear that the things aren't actually having and are just cuties paranoia and anxiety
TW/CW: Paranoia (Robbery, kidnapping, home invasion, intruder, murder, death, blood, being followed, being stalked, being attacked, abandonment)Cursing. Hinted homophobia and transphobia. slef doubt and hatred.
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You looked at the page, unsure why it was so enticing. One of the people looked like you. Or what you want to look like.
Beautiful!
Handsome!
Cool!
Confident!
The other person, the same gender as the other. They were, attractive, you focused on their lips, the ones connected to who you wish to grow up to be.
I want that.
The love?
The kiss?
the body?
All of it.
You want to kiss someone.
Yes.
Anyone?
I think so…
You could experiment!
Experiment?
Kiss girls!
Kiss boys! 
Kiss people who want to kiss you!
Do people want to kiss me?
There has to be.
I can kiss anyone, of any gender?
I can kiss anyone, of any gender!
I can be anyone, of any gender.?
I can be anyone, of any gender!
If it'll make us happy!
I want to kiss-
“Pumpkin! We need to talk!”
Shit!
Was she listening?
She's always listening.
I hate her.
I love her.
She protecting us.
She's spying on us.
You make your way down the stairs, your mom has a sour look on her face.
“Pumpkin, you can't be having those thoughts. It's umm- those thoughts are not good for you.”
“Why?
“BECAUSE!”
Your father's hand lands on your mom's, calming her.
Thank you, dad.
“Because they lead to… experimenting, and we don't want you to get caught up in that kind of stuff. It’s not for you.”
PRESENT
“Everything’s normal. Human, unpowered normal. Our relationship went back in time, we both kind of ignored that I'm a telepath, that we’re just two normal people in a normal relationship. We’re happy."
No, we're not.
Yes, we are.
We have to be.
For Geordi.
It makes him happy.
So it has to make us happy.
Does it make him happy?
It has to.
“But what about those thoughts you mentioned last week? You mentioned how you don't ever feel safe. Could you elaborate on that?”
He remembered?
Of course, he remembered it was his job.
But we don't want him to.
Then lead him away.
Say it was an accident.
Say it was a lie.
Tell him the truth.
DON'T!!
Tell him you forgot your meds!
“Oh, did I say that? I actually forgot to take my anxiety medication, so we can move on from that.”
He sighed.
Why did he sigh?
He looks disappointed.
I should read his mind.
NO!
Geordi hate’s that.
Hates you.
Just focus on the session.
Wait whys is he on his phone?
He's texting someone.
Does he know?
Is he going to tell someone?
Will I be fired?
I'm gonna be fired.
That doesn't make sense.
They don't trust me.
What if they see me as a threat?
What if they lock me away?
Then Geordi wouldn't be safe.
He'll miss me.
Not if they erase his memory.
They wouldn't.
They would.
If they did it'd be good.
Good?
Geordi would finally be free.
Of you.
Of your powers.
Of the magical world.
You hear that?
What? 
You zone back into the world, hearing your work-assigned therapist clear his throat.
“ Even if that's the case your supervisors have started to take notice of how you've changed. Your paperwork is hard to understand and when speculating on a case you jump to wild conclusions that hurt the case. You're less social than before and you've become very panicked by the smallest things. You've also refused to use your powers. These actions have been recorded by D.U.M.P for the past two months. It's clear to me that your recent mood isn't the cause of missed medication but something else.”
Your breathing rises, you try to steady it, hide that what he's saying bothers you, your thoughts are so jumbled you can't make much out other than panic.
“ And from what you've told me I think the cause is the absence of using your power. Up until 2 months ago, you were in constant use of your power. And from what I understand that was the result of your mother's abuse-”
“She didn't abuse me!”
Did she?
No.
But he's the expert.
He didn't live it.
He doesn't understand.
Maybe that's good.
What?
She was protecting us.
That's what you think.
Because she taught you that.
He's right.
NO, HE'S NOT SHE LOVED ME!!
Yes, she did.
Still does.
But what she did is still wrong.
“I'm sorry for using that word. Let me restart. Your mother raised you with a toxic belief, that you could only be safe if you knew what others were thinking, she used this as an excuse to constantly be in your head, not giving you a moment of privacy. When you applied this belief to your relationship you learned how this belief hurt others, so you tried to stop, cold turkey. This has caused you to become extremely anxious and paranoid. As your therapist, I think you do need to become comfortable in your own head, comfortable not constantly reading people's minds. I would also suggest you talk with your partner, I think couples therapy would benefit your relationship. Oh, it appears that our time-”
You were out of the room before he could say goodbye. You rushed to collect your stuff. You always had therapy right after work so you could leave right after. You rush to the parking garage. 
Car? car!? where’s my car!?!
It's over there.
Where?
I don't see it.
It was stolen.
It was broken into.
No, it's there.
I see it.
 Hurry!
Wipe your tears.
Call Geordi.
No!
Wipe your tears.
Calm down!!
It's not that serious.
Wipe your tears.
You can't drive like this.
Slow your breathing.
Call Geordi.
Ask him to pick you up.
Phone, where?
Purse.
Dial his number.
No contacts are faster.
Wait!
What if the car is bugged!?
It’s not.
But it is!
All your gonna do is call Geordi.
But that's how he knows.
The therapist.
He's listening.
He's not a telepath.
Isn't he?
No, he's a stealth.
So he’s watching.
No!
He's not doing anything to you!
I can't drive.
Take a taxi.
No, I'll be kidnapped.
Train!
Ok.
Where's the train station?
Right.
Left!
I look lost.
You look like an easy target.
There! train station!
Did you lock the car?
Yes.
No!!
Someone will break in.
Steal your car.
I locked it.
No.
You should have driven home.
I can't.
I'm…
Crying.
Not trustworthy.
With? 
My self.
So? You don't matter.
SHUT UP!
People are looking.
No their not.
Read their minds!!
No.
They want to hurt us!!
No.
You missed your stop!!
When!?!
 Just now!!
No.
map! map! map!
I didn't, it’s the next one.
People hate you.
You should run away!
Just start taking random trains!!
No.
Why?
Because people care for me.
Do they?
Geordi-
He doesn't.
My coworkers-
Are just co-workers.
You don't even have friends.
It's our stop!!
Get off!!
Go left!!
Right!!
Are we lost!?!?
No!
I know this place.
Behind you!!!
What!?!?!
Were being followed!!!
Don't look!!!
Read their mind!!!
No!!
Keep walking home.
Grab your pepper spray!!!
I can't find it!!!!
Hurry they're getting closer!!!
There’s another one!!!!
In Front of you !!!!!
They're gonna attack you!!!!!
Hurry!!!!!
I got it!!!!!
Wait
Their friends.
Meeting each other.
Of course.
Stupid.
Stupid.
What a fucking selfish idiot.
Not everything is about you.
Nothing is ever about you.
Wipe your tears!
Look.
Geordi’s car.
He’s home!
Is he?
“Geordi?”
Nothing.
Silence!
He’s not here!!
But his car.
He was taken!!!
He's dead!!!!
You couldn't protect him.
You killed him.
You ruined his life.
No! He is alive!
He's alive.
You yell out for him again, your voice shaking heavily as you walk toward your bedroom door.
Open the door.
Don't!
His dead body is behind that door.
Blood everywhere.
NO!!!
He's here!
He's alive!
I know it!
How? 
I just do.
No, you don't.
You don't even know if there's an intruder in your house.
Is there an intruder?!
No.
Yes!!!!!
How else would Geordi die?
Open the door!
Wipe your tears!
You open the door, relaxing for a second when you find it empty, but then your brain starts working again.
Where is he?!?!?!
He's hurt!!
He ran away.
He was taken!!!
He left because he hates you and couldn't stand to be around a selfish idiot freak
Selfish idiot freak.
Selfish.
Idiot.
Freak.
Unlovable.
Alone.
Alone.
Don't wipe your tears.
You deserve this.
You are a monster.
Monster.
Disgusting.
You're so far in your head you're unaware that your thoughts are now words. Unaware of everything happening around you. You don't hear the door to the garage open of Geordi talking to you.
“Cutie, is that you? I heard you come in, but I didn't hear your car. I passed a farmers market on my way home earlier, I got a deal on your favorite fruit. I went to go grab it from the garage. Where are you? Oh there yo-”
Your trance loosens when you hear a wooden crate fall on the floor, wiping your head around to see your boyfriend quickly trying to get over the fallen boxes. He's rushing to you.
He's going to kill you!!!!!!!
No, he wants to help.
Why?
You ruined him!
Ruined everything!
I love him!!
He loves me!!
He's safe.
He's my safe space.
He not gonna hurt us.
He is safe.
You fall into his arms when he gets close enough, your arms wrap around his squeezing him as you cry into his chest, repeating his name.
“Cutie, cutie? What- what wrong?”
“I thought you were dead. That, someone, broke in, and killed you, and- and I couldn't- I- you were dead.”
“What, babe, what made you think that!? Were you threatened? What happened?”
Geordi tries to look for any sign you were harmed. the movement is sudden, startling you into raising your voice, trying to let out your frustration, trying to shut the voices up.
“I Don't Know! I just - they- I just- nowhere is safe- I can- it hurts! I don't want to hear it anymore- it hurt so much i- I can't stand it- i- please- please help!”
“Okay- okay cutie, why do I do, what do you need?”
“I don't- I don't know-maybe-no I can't -i - but it hurts- he hates it-but it hurts. I-can I? In your head?”
The worry that stained his face started to blend with surprise.
“Yes, yes, go ahead.”
You look into his eyes wanting so hard to just jump into his head, to leave your thoughts behind, but you can't.
Don't.
He'll hate you.
Don't!
He'll hate you!
Don't!!
He'll hate you!!
Don't!!!
He'll hate you!!!
Don't!!!!!
He'll hate you!!!!!
You start to slide down Geordi falls you down, gently holding you, not controlling you just supporting you. You cry harder.
“Ok- ok cutie, I've got you.”
“I just- I don't - I'm so lost- I can't- i- fuck!”
“Shh, it's ok, love- I'm here ok? You don't need to talk. I- you can tell me everything when you- when your calm down and you're ready.”
Geordi gently places his hands on either side of your face, lightly guiding your face to his. You can see how his eyes water and the way his lip quivers.
You did that.
You hurt him.
You try to look away but Geordi prevents that.
“Cutie, don't go there. I don't- I don't know what you thinking but- but don't. Stay here, I've got you. Okay”
You nod as tears sting your cheek hot. Geordi moves his hands, engulfing you in a hug. His arms on your back, moving up and down. You focus on it, the feeling, the sound, focus on Geordi.
He's here.
He's holding us.
He's here.
Here.
Here.
Safe.
Home.
He's home.
He loves us.
Your eyes drift closed, exhausted, you let sleep take over, finally feeling safe enough to be vulnerable.
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temporarilyunstable · 10 months
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Hi, I like your cover pic. Are you a fan of ShizuAka? Do you think the show is pushing them as a couple? Since they have a not so big age gap? Compare to Kogami?
Hello! Yes I am a HUGE fan... I shipped them since this scene when PPFI premiered:
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I was alone for a bit and was a little afraid to talk about them and then a few months later some fans started to notice it too (@oatbrew answering a bunch of asks a few months after PPFI aired, one of which was anon sent by @shikkokans who is probably my closest sounding board when it comes to shizuaka these days whoops I went on a tangent). Anyway, Jay's answers and the awakened interest in it gave me a bit of courage to be embarrassingly annoying about them and began using the tag shizuaka (chose that over akashizu bec it sounded weird lol), then I began writing fics and shoving it down everyone's throats (this is mostly on twitter but i do occasionally do it here as well 🤪).
To be honest I think it's too early to say anything about shizuaka, but I'm not gonna lie, the possibilities are there— I can talk about them so much especially the supplementary materials (novels, deleted script, profiling 3) that I think were purposely removed from the show (OR intentionally added bec these were published after the show aired— could be either) but for now it's nothing. And, well I always like to say there's nothing there, but there's everything to jump off from, if that makes sense. Doesn't take a lot for me to ship but for me to ship this hard it's because there's solid potential and I can't unsee the connections... sorry for being vague! It's because shizuaka is such a small ship right now and I have so much fun with it, I have already seen some fans who mock it because it's a threat to koaka if it does happen. I never stopped shipping koaka, just been shipping them differently from before and with shizuaka I truly don't mind sharing with people who are genuinely interested and not here to yuck my yum, know what I mean?
I will say this. If last March 27, 2020 I called it a crack ship, I cannot, in all my capacity as an audience and a PP fan be able to say the same about them with the information I have now. I'm sorry for the long non-answer but you got me started and I just love them so much so sorry if this is annoying to read... if you're still interested please send me another ask and I'll be happy to elaborate 😊.
As for the "pushing", I think that anyone who walks into psycho pass expecting romance and specially those really seeking validation through "canon status" is setting themselves up for disappointment (not saying you are by the way, this is just a general observation). PP is really not that kind of show. The best any ship fan could hope for is screen time - and meaningful screen time at that. This is why koaka is the most popular ship (in non-JP speaking countries), because despite the fact that creators can say what their intentions were (eg koaka are platonic comrade buddies) and the audience absolutely refusing to see otherwise, the story has already established koaka's relationship to be the most important of the series so far. The audience can make of that what they will, the creators are not stopping fans from doing so buuuuut I also get this feeling they're the kind of team who do not want their intentions to be brushed over by fans hence the "course-correcting" that happened in the midst of promoting PPP (note: THIS IS JUST MY INTERPRETATION).
In any case, PP never explicitly depicts romance, and you can count with your fingers ON ONE HAND the actual romantic scenes—by this I mean literal canon— not romantic as interpreted by fans. So no, I don't think the show is pushing for any ship at all, regardless of any age gaps. What I can guarantee is that the marketing team will sure as hell use that sweet sweet shipping fuel to earn a bit more money from merchandise sales 😉.
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next question
i think you will like this one...
what parts of hanekawa makes her your favorite? give me the full blorbo thoughtdump 😈
OH so you want it to be go time? It's go time? I suppose it's go time.
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Note I am NOT a writer or well articulated so this is going to be ALL over the place fdjkhds.
So just to begin, Hanekawa is such a fun and mysterious character for a lot of Bakemonogatari. She's literally the first character we're introduced to properly other than Koyomi. And their very first scene already establishes that they have some history together, what with her seemingly being Koyomi's only friend. And shows us a couple flashes of Black Hanekawa but refusing to elaborate. And the season just continues to drip feed us that there is just something UP with the sweet little glasses wearing student council president. Allusions to spring break, and Something happening during Golden Week that Koyomi and Meme don't really elaborate on much. Her genuinely offputting comments about the way Koyomi hitting Mayoi and how he's "supposed" to do it, combined with the fact she could see Mayoi at ALL once it's revealed what exactly Mayoi is and how her mechanics work. The fact that whenever she's on the phone she's NEVER at home, always wandering the streets. It builds up so much subtle intrigue in what the hell is going on with her behind the scenes, given that Koyomi basically outright idolizes her and talks up how amazing and perfect she is in most cases.
I'm a very big fan of these kinds of setups for characters and their arcs. It's why i'm currently so fascinated with how information and scenes regarding Ougi are being dripped out and revealed across Second Season. But I digress.
And then Tsubasa Cat rolls around and begins to shed some light on just exactly how NOT okay she is by revealing information on her home life, as well as the beginnings of exactly what the hell went down during golden week. It's at this point that the narrative starts to pick at the part of her that it's kept hidden so far. How much of her Good Girl act is a raw self defense mechanism for her. She's never had anyone she could actually open up to like Koyomi before. She just so...casually talks about the abuse she's suffered to him.
To go on a small tangent, a character trait about Koyomi that I like is that he's really willing to throw himself under the bus for the sake of cheering others up if need be. During the talk where Hanekawa talks about her father hitting her, he realizes that he can't really...do anything about it, and can see that she's getting really upset and desperate when she asks him not to tell anyone. So he starts going on a goofy little pervy bit to cheer her up, since she likes his weird sense of humor. It's a really sweet moment for them.
Anyway, back on topic. Not to detail my own life all too much but, the way Hanekawa defends herself from her environment and the world around her hits VERY close to home with my own experiences. As someone who's had to constantly mask and people please her whole life, it hits so close to home seeing how she handles all of that and...the consequences it has, in the form of Black Hanekawa.
This is just me speaking entirely from my own experiences but, learning from the Nekomono Duology that ultimately even with the influence of the Sawari Neko, Black Hanekawa is STILL Hanekawa, hit really close to home, in the way that when stresses in my life build up like this, due to my own masking and outright rejection or ignoring of them, it manifests in....destructive episodes. I start thinking, talking, and acting erratically in a way that doesn't feel like Me at all. I've ended up nearly permanently damaging very close and important relationships to myself several times because of this. I don't feel like myself at all, like I become a totally different person. And, I dunno, I just...I really felt something seeing Tsubasa be pushed to her breaking point and lashing out at everything around her in a similar way. It made me really...invested. In seeing where her character would go after that.
Augh and speaking of where her character goes like...I've mentioned it in past posts but I love how absolutely dynamic of a character she is too. Like, we've gotten to see her ENTIRE journey through this story. From her mysterious introduction in Bake, seeing her chronological introduction in Kizumonogatari and just...seeing how MUCH her and Koyomi went through together. With Kizu you can just...it's SO easy to see how Tsubasa fell in love with him. Their budding friendship and complicated feelings for one another through the story arc are SO sweet and precious to me. Like. For every part of her that's a front, she really is just a sweetheart underneath it all. She just isn't able to express it all healthily. I mean, her persistence and care managed to break through Koyomi's shell at his MOST soggiest and cringiest. And then Nise...while she doesn't appear much, I REALLY like how she's shown here, taking the aftermath of Tsubasa Cat where everyone just kinda...puts a bandaid on the situation.
Okay doubling back to talk about that, something that I think makes Tsubasa Cat stand out compared to the other 4 Bake arcs is that each of the other arcs resolve themselves pretty soundly? Like yeah we know that down the road more complications arise but, looking at the story in the order it's written, pretty much all of the arcs have a solid and happy end. But that doesn't really happen with Tsubasa Cat, because the issue of Hanekawa being unable to express her feelings just isn't addressed at all. We just go back to ignoring it and hoping for the best. And I love how Tsubasa tries to give off the air that something has changed. Wearing contacts and cutting her hair. Hair cutting being a pretty common symbolism of change and all. But...it's both superficial. It's another act, and I love it. I've been there myself so many times. Acting like i've made a big change to fix something going wrong when really...it's a lie i'm telling myself and to others.
And then there's the Nekomono Duology just, making EVERYTHING come full circle. The full explanation of just What Black Hanekawa is and how she relates to how Tsubasa is. Tsubasa spending time with Hitagi, who helps her start to break down some of the barriers she's put up, with their discussion of cooking among other things. Kako manifesting at a time that Koyomi is NOT there anymore for her to fall back on and depend on, forcing her to take what she learned from spending time with Hitagi, Karen and Tsukihi to heart and just...coming to terms with herself. ALL parts of herself. Tsubasa, Black Hanekawa, and Kako all together. Finally coming to change herself for REAL and make REAL steps towards healing and growth, symbolized far more proper by Black Hanekawa and Kako's white hair mixing with her natural black....it all comes together so wonderfully. And it's really helped me start to figure myself out in a similar way and make real, ACTUAL changes for the better for myself.
It's the narrative in Monogatari that has hit me the absolute hardest to date and I love every second devoted to it.
...and on a much less personal level, I just think she's really funny and cute in how she bounces off of all the other FREAKS in this cast. It's hard to call anyone in Monogatari "Normal" but I think she plays a hilarious straightman in most situations she's thrust into.
Gods and I've barely even talked about Black Hanekawa or Kako have I? Silly cat and Angy cat. The fact that Yui Horie can have such a distinct range for Tsubasa and Black Hanekawa is amazing, on top of the fact she has to pepper all those nyas into her speech too. I just love that the manifestation of Tsubasa's repressed stress and feelings is just acting like a silly catgirl who fucking GETS you. I wish that's how my stress manifestations were.
I've been typing this for like, an hour and I still feel like there's more I can say jdkhdf.
Basically. I love her so much. All of her. And she's been helping me understand and come to love all of me too.
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can I hear your headcanons about judas, big james, simon zealot and andrew please (whenever you have time this is just me expressing an interest in reading them at some point)
anon you have a special place in my heart. judas coming soon. he's got a bit of work to him.
80s jesus 'verse disciple headcanons pt. 2 (big james, andrew, simon)
BIG JAMES
john's brother. he works in their father's book shop and is trying to make enough money to open his own business
which is either a coffee shop or a record store. or both in one. he's a people person and he's great with costumers, he'd probably do well either way
he refuses to just take money from his parents for it he's gonna work for it
not as sheltered as john was. more of a protective older brother type. john and james had that typical family that was overall very loving and they were very lucky to have their parents but that doesn't mean they did everything perfect
which led james to sort of being treated like a third parent at times, and others just being treated like a little kid and not being taken seriously
he's still very close with his brother, though. and his parents.
very tall and very wide. brick wall shaped guy. hence the name.
adopted a kitten off the street. her name is aretha and she's an asshole and grows to be the chunkiest cat you'll ever see and they all love her
he does this a lot. he always lets cats in the shop, takes in injured strays until they're healed (of course he'd love to keep them but he can't have a dozen of animals in his apartment) (even aretha's not technically allowed they kind of smuggled her in and pray that she's quiet)
along with the strays he also takes in simon. but i will elaborate on that later.
is this guy aro? i dont know. i recently realized that all of these characters are aro unti proven otherwise so we'll just kind of leave it at that.
big flirt though. he's just very charming and very open
he hates the human race but he loves people and talking with people and making them smile and learning about them
has gotten him into very awkward situations at times. cause he is also stupid.
overall a very well rounded guy. prefers tea over coffee and has opinions on classical music and soul and punk.
but Watch Out! he's impulsive and at times aggressive and also has no sense of self perseverance cause he's the shape of a wall. which is not a great thing to be when you spend so much of your time at protests. in the 80s.
not that he would ever harm anyone who didn't have it coming. but unfortunately when you're as politically outspoken as this bunch was a lot of people do, in fact, have it coming.
jesus kinds of just shakes his head at him and he's like tsk tsk tsk james. punching people in the face is never the answer. but if you're going to do it then yes do punch racists.
when he does open his record coffee shop it quickly becomes a very popular anarchist hot spot. a lot of people already know him as a friend of jesus' so he's got a lot of support and he's trying to make the most of it to give back from what he gains.
not kitchen banned. not easily trusted with the stove because there's always a chance he'll get preoccupied with something else and burn the house down, but great at making drinks.
ANDREW
peter's younger brother. 'rebellious little sibling' who ended up just being the one who managed to unlearn their parents' conservative beliefs the fastest.
worked with john the baptist way before the two of them met jesus, and he completely cut off their parents but not peter. cause peter wasn't a bad guy, he wasn't full blown conservative either he was just taught to think in a certain way so andrew was like yeah i can help him out
he did. they didn't get along as kids, but when they grow up they're very close. even if peter's always scolding him about how he's reckless and he doesn't think ahead yadda yadda yadda
they're just very different
group's token guitar guy...
big james always makes fun of him for it. and tells him to listen to good music.
it's all lighthearted teasing they get along great and they love to talk music together
the first to meet magdalene and introduce her to the group. they're both mostly focused on intersectional feminism so they'd met at various protests and gatherings before, at a pro-abortion protest someone fucking decked magdalene in the face so he took her back to the team to fix her up
he's roommates with philip, who also worked with the baptist so they've known each other a long time.
he wants to be a teacher. he loves to work with little kids.
not kitchen banned at all. good at cooking.
SIMON
zealotes.
i was very conflicted about what to do with simon z because he can't be a zealot. in the 80s. it doesn't feel right to just treat them like a fictional group and pretend they just exist in the future now so no he's not an actual zealot it's a nickname.
other than that, simon's story is for the most part the same as it is in the original timeline. sort of.
his father is jewish, his mother was nigerian and died in childbirth.
his father hated that his son was half black so in an attempt to like. idk. cancel out his blackness and his nigerian heritage, i guess, he raised him very very jewish. which......a lot of the group are anyways, but simon's father also happened to be an asshole.
he basically provided him a roof, food, clothing, and a set of rules he had to follow.
simon had to do all the rest of his upbringing himself, and as a result had to grow up very fast.
as he grew, though, and developed his own personality and beliefs he aggravated his father.
he started to hit him when he was 11. simon ran away from home at 15.
and as much as i hate to have that whole cliche of oh the Streets made him tough that's basically what happened. he encountered a lot of shit and he had to be cautious
he lived in some shelters. he made some friends. crashed with them for a while
mainly a group of anarcho-punks who helped him a lot and taught him a lot
but that bunch were uh......interesting personalities and had a lot of issues so at some point simon, ever independent, kind of just. let himself out.
he was involved with a lot of sketchy people along the way and he always kind of was in risky territory but he also prioritized taking care of himself. he never drew attention to himself, he tried to save up, never touched anything beyond weed. overall he's weirdly self aware.
anyways. simon meets everyone when he's 26. specifically, he meets james, who's around the same age, maybe a year younger.
and as much as i love how this goes down in canon era where james sneaks up on him and simon actually Fucking Stabs him, it would be a little too much for this verse
so here simon tries to pickpocket him instead. james punches him in the face. simon punches him back and it all escalates.
anyways, james is a very peculiar guy so eventually they stop trying to beat each other up and he's like man what the hell. and asks philip to come take a look at him cause there's a slight possibility he broke simon's nose.
he didn't. it's cool. simon reluctantly lets james help him and besides having beat each other up not ten minutes ago they find they get along great !
james is like sorry no we're keeping him
and simon doesn't really have anywhere else to go so he's like. y'know what sure whatever.
he expected to stay with the group for like a month and then be on his way. that did not happen
he tried, at some point, he kind of just disappeared but then he got arrested at a protest turned riot and realized he had no one else to call so he called jesus
jesus brings james along, of course, who was five hours away from starting a full blown murder investigation
james was like are you fucking stupid actually. does your brain work. why did you leave like that i was worried about you
anyways, he drags him back by force so he doesn't end up in jail. simon is welcome to stay at james' whenever he wants.
which eventually just turns into him living there.
which much like with aretha is not entirely allowed. but somehow by this point james' charm has won his landlady over so she allows it
despite everyone's expectations simon is surprisingly healthy.
he didn't always have the opportunity to be so now that he's permanently living somewhere and finds some stable job and is getting his life together he takes advantage of it as much as he can.
this man gets his eight hours of sleep and exercises and eats three healthy meals a day he does not fuck around
ooh maybe he ends up running the shop with james. yhyh i like that
john is very awkward with him btw. this random guy suddenly moved into his brother's home and their lives are slowly becoming conjoined and he can't even understand the nature of their relationship but at the same time he doesn't want to be thinking about who his brother is fucking. but still he has several questions.
(simon is, too, aromantic until proven otherwise)
simon and philip get along well. they're both very spiritual. which no one expected either.
oh, and also he gets very close very quickly with susanna !!! who is also nigerian and helps him connect with the culture that was robbed from him. it's lovely
not kitchen banned. he can make a decent meal.
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thesherrinfordfacility · 11 months
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IMO Aziraphale immediately starts off on the wrong foot and that conversation never recovers: you're the bad guys. There's something so alienating and condescending in that statement that as soon as I heard it I KNEW this wasn't going to end happily. I love Aziraphale but you cannot hope to give an offer that opens with that and expect Crowley to not argue/refuse. It comes from a place of ignorance and wasn't meant to be hurtful, but its still damning.
The whole offer in the first place is unnerving to me, even though I know logically WHY Aziraphale thinks it's a good thing. I'd never ask my queer friends to try to make peace with their homophobic families that disowned them- and that's the first allegory that came to mind for me.
oh there is no doubt in my mind that aziraphale wasn't also a chump in this dialogue too, anon, quite the opposite!!!
"you're the bad guys" as you mentioned, is a careless and thoughtless statement, especially now it confers a sense of superiority that you'd think aziraphale would have lost the majority of by now... i do have my very loose, poorly constructed argument as to what i think aziraphale actually meant by that line, but it's difficult to defend (because it is in fact largely indefensible), and so all i'll say is that i truly don't think he intended it as it came across - i think by this point in the narrative he is for the most part able to separate crowley as a person and crowley as a demon, and it is the latter to which he's referring to here. but in any case, still a really shit thing to say.
i do think aziraphale thought, whilst naively and in that naivety with carelessness, very innocently in offering what he did to crowley. the crowley he loves, wants by his side, is a good person. and heaven is inherently meant to be the side of good; by aziraphale's account, whilst it's currently a shitshow, its fundamental intention is truth, and light, and good. so why wouldn't crowley want to help him change it back to this? he's already halfway there to being an angel, in being a good person, and he didn't deserve to fall - let heaven make its reparations to crowley and offer the chance to be back in the fold! to help aziraphale remove the corruption and rot, and ensure that they and everyone else never has to hide ever again...?
we know obviously this was never going to happen from crowley's perspective, but we appear to know way more about crowley's trauma and history than aziraphale does. that is a big bit of context missing, and if aziraphale had that too, i don't think he would have even entertained the idea. would have rejected it in the room (or at the table). crowley might not be ready or willing to tell aziraphale that, for many reasons, but that doesn't make it aziraphale's fault either.
i won't pretend to speak as if i have any authority on the queer allegory, and especially its relation to religious trauma; im not queer and im not religious/was raised secular, and i think it would be disingenuous for me to comment on this as if i truly understood it (hope that comes across as i meant it, anon!!!💕)
but i do agree with you; i too would never ask that of my friend, my lover, whoever. but i think - and this may be my failing because of the fact im not queer and have never had this awful kind of thing happen to me - i don't see heaven as being a family. to go into how i see heaven (aziraphale/crowley's allegorical relationship to it) however would make this a very long post, so if anyone is in fact interested id be happy to elaborate on this in a different ask!!!✨
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randomfandomsoup · 2 years
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Okay a thing I wanna ask about is what do you think about the other sakamaki x Yuma, like are you in the every Sakamaki has a crush on him team or in the no one/only one has a crush on him team?
anon great ask ily <33
i am on the team of.... there are a few that have/had a crush on the boy Yuma Mukami
(CW; Slight NSFW for Laito because its Laito, probably very OOC, not proofread because i wrote this while having a migraine 😎)
Also sorry everyone else's is a lot shorter than Ayato i just love them lol
Sakamaki x Yuma HC
* Okay we obviously know my opinions on how Shu feels about Yuma.... lil lovesick baby boy
* They cute, They boyfriends or whatever
* I don't even have to elaborate y'all just go look at my other posts-
* Reiji hates him-
* like- a lot
* Anything that Shu is fond of he is bound to hate anyways
* i mean that isn't the only reason he hates him of course
* but he has hated him forever and will continue to hate him... for a while
* i feel like there may be POTENTIAL for them to grow a bit and Reiji to hate him a little less
* A bonding moment maybe??
* Ayato and Yuma have Bromance
* fight me
* Like ok-
* They just have they platonic Click where to an extent they just... get eachother?!?
* it makes so much sense
* listen if their families weren't bitches...
* I feel like at some point in the past Ayato had a crush on him
* He was starting to question his sexuality around that time and then was like... woah..
* but after a couple months he started to see him more as like i Rival-Friend kinda thingy
* Like he doesn't actually hate him as much as he lets on but he sure does act like it
* I think he would have gotten in a boxing match with him at some point and then afterwords kinda questioned if he likes him still or not
* he doesn't but he still can admit he thinks he is really attractive just more in a platonic way
* and by admit i mean he mumbled it to himself in the locker room afterward and refused to tell anyone else
* but yes i love platonic Ayuma ❤️
* Kanato.
* kanato...
* Kanato......
* Listen he just
* he's special when it comes to people in general
* lets be honest is there a person he does like?
* probably not
* Yeah he doesn't like Yuma
* he doesn't understand him and he doesn't like not understanding things and its just a big mess
* he throws a fit if Yuma gets too close to him
* Yuma doesn't get it and just tries to avoid him cuz he finds him annoying
* Laito and Yuma have fucked
* totally
* it was like one time and it really didn't mean anything to either if them
* they were probably both really intoxicated and just said "fuck it why not"
* Laito was a bottom obviously
* but other than they they chill
* Laito still brings it up to embarrass him sometimes but honestly it doesn't get to his head
* It's not like it was something special to either of them
* Subaru has a crush on him
* It's small and its fading away
* but woah boy
* it used to be pretty bad
* He has the Idolization type crush the one were you like them because you want to be like them
* He's blushy around him and stuff but other than that he really doesn't make a show about it
* his brothers tease him about it though
* it was very obvious at the beginning
* but now its very slight and he kinda just gets awkward around him
* (He wants to go on a gardening date with him)
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