#istg they are soulmates in every universe

[sillystappen]

i downloaded both max and daniel from the gallery from someone named ‘all.good.all.ways’ (not sure about the dots and i cant check it out now :( ), but if you find them, they have more amazing f1 driver sims! so they are not LOST lost, but even tho i can download the same sims again i still feel too attached emotionally to the lost ones, i have been through so much with them! 😩😩😩

anyway its so crazy that they gravitate towards each other even in a life simulation game lol they were meant to be together

hehe go girl(gender neutral) unleash the lion, let them match each others freak!

i had a save where after a few rounds of unprotected sex daniel got max pregnant but istg dont even remember setting him to be able to become pregnant 😵‍💫 so you can imagine how surprised i was seeing the ‘eating for two’ pop up lmao

sorry i keep on rambling, go full send!

I made Daniel and Max myself and I'm lowkey proud of them. They aren't perfect but they are mine, so I get being emotionally attached. Plus it gave me and excuse to look at Max and Daniel photos for ages. But if I ever make a new save I will definitely check them out!

I do think that whatever bond Max and Daniel have is soulmate-ish. Platonic, romantic, whatever - they were meant to exist around each other. I think it's beautiful.

I will let them progress with their romance bar slowly but surely, partly because I like slow burns and also because their work schedule means they have a limited time together. I hope they don't get pregnant though because we do not have the funds for that :') (and I don't particularly like mpreg so...)

I don't mind the rambling at all - I love interacting with the maxiel tumblr community because y'all are so nice and it makes me really happy to be able to talk about and share these things.

[dissectedgrrl]

okay so a while ago i mentioned a the good place rtc au

n so i finally made one :D

keep in mind this is j kind of a rough idea thing so not every detail is there but here are my ideas !! this also includes some headcanons for the characters so dont mind certain parts

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so it kind of follows the same plot as the show

karnak is like michael and he tells the choir where they are, what happened, etc

he got their names right + the fact that they were the choir n referred to as "the six saints" in the news

but he got their personalities mixed up with other students

he thinks they volunteered, helped out a lot of people, etc.

he doesnt know about mischa stealing wine, ocean bullying literally everyone, etc

but the choir knows its all wrong n have to find out what went wrong, how to get out, etc (just everything eleanor went thru)

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cast of characters :

Ocean O'Connell Rosenburg

she/her , lesbiaB, learning 2 languages, can speak 5

Ocean is in COMPLETE denial that she doesnt belong in the good place. i mean why wouldn't she ? shes ocean o'connell rosenburg. shes perfect. shes supposed to be here.

she tries to remain as perfect as possible while in the good place

she keeps calling karnak "god" no matter how many times he tells her there is no god in the good place. sometimes she does it on accident

the soulmate she got matched up with is constance

^ when she was told that she blurted out "WHAT ? WE ONLY KISSED ONCE !!!!" and everyone just kind of . . . . stared at her

most likely says the "all neutral people should go to Cincinnati" joke

Constance Blackwood

she/her, bilingual and bisexual

Constance doesn't want to leave the good place but she knows it isnt right for her to stay

she loves ocean, but being her soulmate takes a lot of patience (that constance sometimes doesnt have)

she got SO excited about the free froyo flavors

"mmm . . . . warm laundry flavor 😍"

when ocean said the kissing thing constance was j kinda like "🧍"

Savannah

("jane doe")

she/they/it, pan demisexual demiromantic (i swear im not projecting 😭 /srs)

i have a lot to say abt her 💀

since she doesnt know who she really is she tries to learn as much as she can in the good place

^ she always has a "why" to ask n gets frustrated if she cant figure something out

^ it LOVES learning

^ whenever something interests them they get really excited

karnak gave them their doll n when they asked why all he said was "shes nice"

^ ever since then shes LOVED dolls n just toys in general

its favorite thing to learn about is toys

it has a lot of toys n keep all of them in a toy chest

when she learned she could eat food she just didnt stop 😭

^ they LOVE food but their cooking skills arent the best . . . .

^ its favorite savory food is pizza. dont ask why they just like it . . . . all kinds of pizza too

she really really likes music as well

^ favorite artists are frank sinatra and edith piaf !!

its soulmate is ricky

^ she LOVES him like theyre so close (i havent decided if theyre gonna be platonic, romantic, or both, but for now lets j say theyre best friends !!)

^ her and rickys relationship kind of confuses her bc all the other souldmates kiss n hold hands n what not but her n ricky just kind of . . . . watch star trek and talk about their interests together

they HATE being photographed and recorded, the smell of smoke, big rollercoasters, and anything people use to smoke (weed especially)

it hates being called creepy and having people afraid of her

shes really nice and smart but no one (expect ricky n the rest of the choir) rlly gives them a chance :/

Mischa Bachinski

he/him, bi, speaks same languages as he does in canon universe

soulmate is noel

he loves music (we all know this) and listens to any recommendation he gets

has to try and keep calm while in the good place so no one gets suspicious

his weakness is animals . . . . show him a rabbit n he will cry istg

^ hes a dog person but tries to hid it bc noel prefers cats

he doesnt rlly like sweets but hes okay w the free froyo (only SPECIFIC flavors tho)

he asked karnak if his mom was also in the good place, but didnt get a straight answer, but karnak hinted at a yes

^ his goal is to find his mom while he has time in the good place

^ hes doing everything he can to find her and is convinced he gets closer every day

Noel Gruber

he/she, gay (and maybe bigender or genderfluid ? idk yet), speaks english n french

he rlly likes black coffee like . . . . a lot

^ mischa says he hates coffee, but hes never tried it so noel is determined to make him drink it

noel sees the good place as a second chance at life

^ she hopes to get to live out her monique dreams here

secretly hates mischa's music taste 💀

noel introduced jane to edith piaf !

Ricky Potts

he/they, pan + trans demiboy, can speak english n pig latin (when jane asked why he just said "itsyay ustjay oremay unfay anthay englishyay !")

he loves living with jane because he gets to ramble n he gets to hear her ramble as well

^ him n jane have cats ! :D

^ every other saturday night ricky n jane watch spiderman movies while eating pizza. they look forward to that saturday every week !

he actually CAN cook

he claims he doesnt have a favorite cat but Captain Butterscotch is always with him . . . . suspicious

one of their favorite pastimes is looking out the telescope thats in their backyard at night

^ he likes to name stars (even if they already have names)

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okay thats all i got so far ! if you have any suggestions or anything feel free to tell me ! srry if there are any spelling errors i wrote this down so fast bc i had to get these idea out or else i would implode 💔

[justalildumpling]

moots as nct members

I'm not sure if uve already done this sorry if u have/ don't want to do this

ahh i love love love moot games like this hehe ty for sending this in💗

(i’m realising that a lot of my moots that i mostly interact with are from deobiblr😭 i’ve only tagged ppl who i am certain they stan nct but if i forgot i’m sorry!! this was written at like 3am delusion)

@sungbeam - mark

miss ma’am works herself as much as sm overworks the shit out of mark lee istg😭 TAKE A BREAK MA'AM IT'S OKAY. ok besides from that, i feel like mark is universally a comfort person for everyone in the nct community and beam is literally MY comfort person, my soulmate, my best friend (yes, she's mine. no buts😤) she's so talented at what she does, an absolute sweetheart, she cares so so much about her peers and i rlly just admire her as a person outside of tumblr. i could literally write an essay about how much i love her but i'll save everyone the read😭

@jaeminvore - jaemin

chaos. the both of them. OK BUT besides from that, nics gives off like hot girl energy like jaemin. he's is like woah he's so sexy and he knows it type vibe and nics is the same! i remember first seeing her blog/works and being like girl. im such a fan (and i still am, she's fucking hilarious and amazing) i folded for nics as much as i did for jaemin fr. it's always so fun talking to nics about literally anything from plain old thirsting over korean men to throwing irl ppl off a cliff and like jaemin she makes any scenario so much more enjoyable!!

@polarisjisung - jisung

LOOKLOOKLOOK yes he is her bias BUT the amount of rizz the both of has😭 UHM HELLO ALSO BOTH MAIN DANCER ENERGY nah i folded fr😩 ok but besides that, we all know jisung is the most wholesome bean ever and I JUST WANT TO PROTECT HUA YK?? idk she's such a cool person to talk to and i feel like we just clicked from the first time we met. jisung gives off like ride or die energy and i can def say that hua is the same💗

@winterchimez - xiaojun

THIS ISNT CHEATING ISTG ITS A COINCIDENCE THAT HER BIAS HAPPENS TO BE HIM AS WELL OK????? Both ally and xiaojun are literally the biggest sweethearts and can get along with everybody!! I always thought that xiaojun would be such a great conversationalist and no joke, ally and I got along so well as soon as we met and now we're forever emotional support buddies🥹🤞

@sehunniepot - jungwoo

literal golden retriever energy, like ball of sunshine. the most sociable and friendliest person i’ve met. i literally fell in love with nikki’s personality as soon as we met just like I did for mr kim jungwoo😔😔 I just feel like if I were to be in a room with her, she would be the lighting everyone up like idk how to describe it. She’s just someone that I feel like everyone couldn’t help but adore.

@jaehunnyy - taeyong

I LOVE THESE TWO PPL SO MUCH ALSNFOAFEI ok. i've calmed down. but fr tho like u CANNOT hate both taeyong and chip. LIKE she's literally a beam of positivity and she cares so much for her peers and always checks up on everyone when she can🥺 our bubu is a great leader and residential cutie and i feel like chip fits that to a tea

@wuahae - haechan

something about cat always screamed haechan to me idk why. just her mannerism/texting/talking style. as soon i started talking to her on the deoboyznet chat like i knew she and i were on the same wavelength just like i felt with haechan LMAO cat may seem playful and fun all the time but she's firm when she wants to be and she knows her boundaries/morals/values which is very admirable.

@mosviqu - ten

for some reason bar and ten just makes sense. both insanely talented, sarcastic and has strong opinions which they’re not afraid of expressing. lowkey intimidating to approach at first due to how highly i thought of her work, but was literally the most down to earth, loveliest person ever. I always love when she talks about the process behind her pics because they blow me away every time just like ten’s dancing.

@daegall - renjun

yes. I know it’s literally illegal for me to put anyone else other than lee donghyuck for sunny BUT IDK MAN SHE JUST GIVES OFF RENJUN VIBES!! we all know renjun is like the cutest little ball of sweetness ever and sunny is always so lovely and whenever she gets giddy like i get giddy too😭 and her expression of emotions towards haechan is portrayed thru capitalisations, keyboard smashes and typos which reminded me of renjun's little spits of anger yk??

[desertfangs]

Love your love for post-canon Armand/Daniel, I’m the same 🫣 In part because I love reading different interpretations of what their relationship is like in the present, what has changed and what has remained the same over the years. It seems like people agree on most things but I love how certain things simply come down to personal interpretation. And look, I know that Anne should’ve included WAY more armandaniel content in the last trilogy but I appreciate the fact that she had a plan in mind for them, or at least a theme: them wanting to spend as much time alone together as possible post-reunion, which is a thing every time their names are mentioned together (them sneaking out in the rain, them wanting to go back to Trinity Gate). They’re in their “run away with me/anytime you want” era and I really love that for them 🫀

I’m so into post-canon Armand and Daniel and I'm so glad you are too! Anne didn’t need to tell me they’d get back together for me to believe they would���I firmly believe they always will, they’re soulmates and two sides of the same weird coin, plus Daniel is Armand’s only fledgling. They have a bond in love and bond in blood. And they’ve always been so absolutely feral for each other. I just can’t imagine them staying apart for long without extenuating circumstances. I believe they’re that couple who will have their periods of being apart (either because they’re doing different things or because they had a fight, lol) but they’ll always come back together. They’re magnetic and they love each other so much.

But I am glad Anne did give us little mentions that they were in fact doing things together and, correct me if I’m wrong, as far as we know Daniel and Armand are living together when the series ends. Which is good enough for me. Of course I would have loved Daniel to get more screen time. I mean aliens are involved! Let the guy talk about that! I want his perspective on that stuff! Or just to be included in the ending because he is such a vital character. He’s the reason the series exists! He’s the one who started it all. I mean, come on! ISTG Anne.

💖💖 THEIR RUN AWAY WITH ME ERA 💖💖 Listen anon, I love that so much I want it on a throw pillow or a t-shirt! 😭😭😭 I’m going to refer to it as that from now on, it’s perfect, no notes. 

I love that you’ve pointed out how they seem to want to be alone together when they are mentioned in the last trilogy. I hadn’t really thought of it that way and now that’s my happy thought. Because it does seem in line with my prevailing in-universe theory for why we don’t get more of them together and that’s because they want their privacy. 

We know Daniel never wanted fame. He published Interview with the Vampire under a pseudonym. I can imagine he was vaguely uncomfortable with his story being out in the world once he realized people he knew might find it. (Which is a funny thought given how eagerly he devoured Armand’s story in TVL but like.. I don’t blame him there.) 

But also Armand and Daniel have been through a lot. Armand tried to end his life and has had to spend time recovering and then got saddled with two kids because Marius thought it would tether him to the world. Daniel thought Armand had died and he’d lost him and went mad for a while. Like they’ve been through some shit. I can absolutely see them deciding that they want some space and for their story to be kept off the published pages of Lestat’s books as much as possible and Lestat acquiescing because he clearly does love Armand. 

If they want some peace and their time together left out of the books, if they want to disappear together or run off alone for long periods, or even just sneak off to Paris when they’re at Court, or hole up alone in Trinity Gate with a “No Vacancy” sign on the door, frankly that’s beautiful and they deserve it. I love that for them.

Thank you so much for the ask! 💖💖 I’ve had a horrible week and this has greatly improved my night. I hope I wasn’t too rambly, my brain is very fried. 

[chikoyama]

so, my chi has been crying a lot about the fact that she’s destined to not have a soulmate. i couldn't bear to constantly imagine her being all sad, so i went to look at some of my wips to see if there was an oc fit for her. only had this guy… and then a fairy mafia boss who seemed even more ill-suited for her. this is how the convo went: me: "uh, u sure u want him? he's kind of…" :| chi: "YES, he's perfect!" owo *runs to hug him around the neck* ziggy: *surprised* "ooh?" *has no idea who she is but circles arms around her waist regardless* "hi babe" owo me: "i- okay…" ig this is how it goes, LOL

istg their interactions in my head are so weird. literally borderlining on insane. (reminds me of mine and sae's interactions. literally, yesterday she talked about deboning her lover when they die so she could put their spine on display at her home. being her first lover, i asked if she’d debone me too in the hopes of a yes, and she said she’d bone me instead). anyway, ziggy is not really designed to be part of the jjk universe. my original thought when i drew him was actually for him to be some sort of immortal dimension hopper with the ability to warp reality. he’s op and really, he’s meant to be an annoying dimension troll. so, maybe one day he just lands in whatever universe chi is in and coincidentally stumbles upon her. because she’s sweet and he likes her, he sometimes returns to visit her to hear about her life and smooch. he wipes her memory of him every time afterwards and gives them back when he sees her again. mostly, he just lets chi live her life until she dies. that’s when he promises to come back for her and bring her with him so they can stay together… until he gets tired of her, but she vowed to stay with him for eons so he wouldn’t have to be lonely and to entertain him. c:

[lettherebemonsters]

Your love and dedication to make both canon characters and original characters with so many details, love and lots of stories and extras is such an amazing experience. You're really inspiring! Also to know that every interaction with you as a writer is very pleasant and not pressured at all, just here to have fun and write. I just feel grateful to be a mutual of yours!

@disasters-of-dbd

I love your dedication to your slasher muses :) you do so good with bringing them to life..

@verratensduo

I AM NOT ONLY SLIDING IN, BUT I AM WIPING OUT FURNITURE IN THE PROCESS. Spooky, my clown sibling in crime, I ADORE seeing you on the Dash and all of the conversations we've had together! Your approach to Ken as a character takes a previous one note, and frankly pretty underdeveloped idea of a character (I'm sorry the devs haven't given him enough exploration, I wish the tomes covered more than they did!) AND MADE HIM INTO THIS WHOLE PERSON WHO IS UNDERSTANDABLE-

But not forgivable! You've made Ken into this character who I can really understand the cause and effect for, who I can feel empathy and pity and shame for! ISTG you've main me a clown main fr /lh. ALSO LIKE, the plotting we've done and the relationship we've built up between him and Sally just goes to further show how far and how much you can write and adapt and make so engaging! I live for it! AND THAT'S NOT TALKING ABOUT YOUR ORIGINAL STUFF

I will just come out and say it! Ringmaster is one of the best, most compelling and frankly awesome original monster characters I have seen in far, far too long! Someone here explained it better but they harken to the best parts of classic Universal monsters and I could listen to you info dump about them for hours without getting bored!! You're just such an engaging story teller and such a sweet mun and I'm so glad I get to call you my pal!

@dcwnthercbbithcle

Best friend! My darling! My platonic soulmate! You’re amazing. You’re so creative, both with your OCs and the headcanons you write for your canon muses. You’re so talented. Both in writing and drawing. You’re amazing and fun to talk to. I adore you! I’m so glad we found each other here.

@songbirdsandsugar

I love your monster designs! I love all the little details that tie back into their story. Your idea are always super interesting to read and I love how they always feel classic universal monster at times. It's really fun.

@bells-of-black-sunday

(*aggressive excited clown honks*)

I've been holding onto this post JUST so I can react to all the feedback and I just????? Love you guys so much.

And I love how everyone caught the influence of the Universal Monsters on my muses. I'm a huge fan of the classics and many of my characters are straight up based on Mr. Hyde (yes I know he's Paramount but shush he still counts meh), Frankenstein (don't even start with me on the bullshit about Frankenstein being just the doctor) and the Wolfman (doggo!)

So obviously the influence is DEEP and I love using them along with literary monsters, games, etc. Like sometimes I love mixing slashers with universal monsters lol.

Honestly y'all rock and here's me sending you interact XO's!

[therhythmafterthesummer]

Noticed how space rebel Chan and his gf and mechanic Chan and his gf both had sex for the first time on some sort of table? Forever supporting the soulmates thru every universe agenda😘

bruuuuuuhh... i noticed after i finished writing herbie pt 1. i was reading it to edit it and i was like "wait a damn minute..."

my mind will always make them find each other, istg

[every-aj-needs-an-angel]

oooh interesting, okay...

Age gap:

0, unless it’s underage. I don’t fuck with that. (Keeping your answer babe bc I couldn't have said it better myself)

Codependency:

+5, because like only to a point yk? Like sometimes it's goes too far and then it's time to back tf out

Obsession/possessiveness, jealousy:

+5, same as above for jealousy but if they're possessive in a I'm yours/you're mine way I eat that shit up

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine, etc.):

+10, love love love love love!! One of my faves

Enemies to lovers, enemies with benefits:

+10, there are very few of my ships that didn't start out enemies to lovers so ig I love it a lot 😂

Friends with benefits:

+7, but only with the happy ending tag

Sex to feelings:

+7, same as above

Fake dating/relationship:

+8 but only if there's a happy ending!! I love the hijinks that come with this trope!! Just peak comedy for me

Friends to lovers:

+10, I love it, I need it, the beauty of the slow burn and the pining, the wanting to cross the line but not wanting to fuck up what they've got, ugh perfection!!

Found family:

+10 my favourite of all time. Being someone who only ever had two blood relatives but a massive family, found family is everything to me

Hurt/comfort:

+8 only with the happy ending tag or certain authors (the ones I know will be gentle with my heart) or if I need a good cry 😅

Love triangle:

0, I mean it has the potential to be amusing if it's a perceived love triangle I suppose, like when character A is saying "you should date character C they'd be good for you" and character B is just looking at them like wtf are you talking about

Poly, open relationships:

Nope, like good for you if that's your thing but I know far too much about my sister's poly relationship, sorry it's a hard no for me

Mistaken/hidden identity:

+7, great concept, comedic value, the shocked pikachu faces, just a good time all round

Monsterfucking:

+5, istg had to look that up (I look forward to the related google ads 😂) like I ain't hunting it down but I ain't running screaming either ig

Pregnancy:

+5, depends how descriptive were gonna get like the emotional roller coaster or surrogacy or whatever sure but if we're getting into details I'll be in the corner crossing my legs 😅

Second chance:

+7, depends what they did wrong, if it's doofus behaviour maybe they can be forgiven but if I'm screaming at the screen for them to run it's just more stress than I need

Slowburn:

+10, yes yes yes yes yes yes!! Always!! The slower the better 😂

Soulmates:

+10, I'm all in, in all forms, the idea that we all have someone that finds us in every life in every universe, doesn't even have to be romantic soulmates just 🤷‍♀️ we're all made a stardust right? Separated particles and all that, it just makes sense if you think about it

no pressure tagging @hbyrde36 @penny00dreadful @mentallyundone @auroraplume @ilovecupcakesandtea @manda-panda-monium and anyone else who wants to join in 💖

Trope rating game

tagged by @just-my-latest-hyperfixation (my wife must be trying to kinkshame me or something that's okay I'm into it)

rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic? -10 -> very dissuaded  0 - don’t care either way  +10 -> very enticed  nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged.  Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

Age gap: +3

It definitely isn't a make or break for me, but sometimes when I'm on the cusp of not clicking something and I see it, especially with certain authors, the temptation is too good to ignore.

Codependency: +5

It's about the toxic love for me. They just NEED each other SO MUCH.

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: + 7

There are the occasional times when the obsessive/possession is too much, but it is RARE at this point. The more "you're mine, I'm yours" there is the better to meeeee.

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): +4

I like it as a background feature most of the time (said as if my most popular written work didn't start as grumpy/sunshine based).

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: +10

I kiss every author who writes it on the MOUTH.

Friends with benefits: +5

I love it when it ends in requited feelings, but I have read it where it turns ugly and stays ugly and I do not ever wanna read that! Please! I'm a big baby.

Sex to feelings: +6

See above pretty much. But also in cases where they were just a hookup and then just fall in love quickly? That's my kryptonite.

Fake dating/relationship: +4

I am alllll for fake dating/relationships, but it absolutely has to lead to the real deal. I can't be edged like that for it to just end. I especially love when it's slow burn for this, so if the slow burn tag isn't there, I may not click it.

Friends to lovers: +2

Something is broken in my brain that this doesn't get me hooked the way any other blank to lovers does.

Found Family: +8

I don't click on stuff BECAUSE of it alone, but it definitely does help with fics I'm on the fence about.

Hurt/Comfort: +10

Yes. I want them to hurt and then be so so comforted. Every time. All the time.

Love Triangle: -8

In any ship, I absolutely hate it. Just be brave and make them polyam instead.

Poly, open relationships: 0

I personally love Steddissy as far as polyam goes, but open relationships are super difficult for me to read. I know that works for a lot of people, but if it's a tag, I'm probably not reading that fic.

Mistaken/hidden identity: 0

For one shots, sure. Anything chaptered, I think it gets into unbelievable territory without very specific other tags with it and I have never seen one that hits the spot.

Monsterfucking: +10

Yeah well. No words necessary.

Pregnancy: 0

I'm never reading a story BECAUSE of the pregnancy tag, but it fits in some cases (the good omegaverse shit if ya know what I mean). I lived it, hated it, don't wanna read too much about it.

Second Chance: +3

I don't know that I have ever read a Steddie second chance fic, but I don't know if this particular trope would make me dive in.

Slowburn: +10

I loooooove a good slow burn. I will read just about anything if it's got a slow burn tag.

Soulmates: +7

Steddie is really the first ship where I was like all in for this trope, so if it's got this tag, I am so so in.

No pressure tags: @wormdebut @wynnyfryd @messessentialist @steves-strapcollection @starryeyedjanai @thefreakandthehair @scarcrossdlvrs @patchworkgargoyle @vecnuthy @corrodedbisexual @stobinesque @legitcookie @matchingbatbites @judasofsuburbia @sidekick-hero @spooky-stevie @inairbinad @simplebtromance @estrellami-1 @zerokrox-blog

[anotherhellchild]

more fic recs please!!! i feel like i've read every bakugou fic on ao3 :(((

ohh yess of course!

I actually just posted this before i saw your ask but i’ll add this one again

- Hop to it, hero 

This one’s about baku going to miruko for an internship and he chills and kicks ass with miruko and hawks! so far its very lighthearted and i’d def rec this if u wanna laugh :DD

- Lost In The Darkness

This one’s really long! its 124k and 25 chapters in and still ongoing! but i really really like it!! Quite angsty but also super lighthearted and funny, basically some things go wrong after the league kidnaps baku and then baku and shiggy get stuck together for a while and they kinda gotta not murder each other if they wanna survive. lets just say things get kinda complicated and Stockholm/ lima syndrome may or may not be part of the problem.

(also shiggy and baku are both gamer nerds)

- Scent of the broken written by @katutsukushii

Really good! set in an a/b/o universe (yknow with alpha’s, beta’s and omega’s or something) and i honestly dont really read stuff like that because i dont know a lot about it and therefore im never sure what the hell is going on but yeah! this is really good and also angsty. im very excited to see what happens next tbh but its about an omega katsuki who gets rescued from a Not Good place and then he gets adopted by the erasermic fam (with shinso). Make sure you read the tags if you wanna read this one cause it can be triggering. 

- Blame it on me

Foster care au! Again, baku gets adopted into the erasermic fam! There is angst but also quite a lot of fluff. Also this ones already finished, it has 20 chapters but i do believe its been made into a series and there’s another fic thats just started in that series. 

- Spiteful written by @lawgrain 

omfg this one is sooooo good i love it!! it baku being the beautiful petty bitch he is but its completely justified!!! hatsume helps him too and everyone is being an asshole and its honestly just some prime baku angst!! its so good seriously

- Social media 101

Okay at this point im literally going through my bookmarks and thinking “!!!!!” everytime i find another fic i can’t not add but this is So Good!! It deals with baku and the media and baku is honestly suffering so damn much it brings me pain istg if he doesnt get help soon in this fic i Will riot.

- A soul made of cinders

for my fellow tdbk simps out there. This is just A+

it has angst and two idiot soulmates who can feel each others pain and have been able to feel each others pain throughout their entire lives, both these idiots have shitty parents btw and of course only not-emotionally constipated people would know how to deal with that, unfortunately, the idiots we’re dealing with do not posses the happy childhoods needed for that skill.... what else do you need?

- A trip to remember

Okay im going overboard and I need to stop but i needed to add this one real quick cause guys!!! THIS IS SO GOOD! still ongoing and its been awhile since the author has updated (which isnt a problem of course, im not complaining) BUT ITS SO GOOD!! Some serious bakusquad angst and they are suffering and its straight up not a good time cause theyre kind of maybe dying and we dont know what exactly happened yet but we’re slowly finding out. 

Phew alright i’ll stop now but if anybody reads any of these and they like it then maybe leave the authors a comment? It can seriously make someones day and as a person who writes stuff sometimes too I know its always appreciated so so much! 

[alfredolover119]

zukka fic rec list (post-canon)

howdy! i’ve been collecting zukka fics i like since uhhh june and now i am sharing my lists with the world. i’m splitting it into three posts so it hopefully wont be too long. this is the second one: post-canon fics! the other two will be canon era and modern au. [side note!! if youd like a specific type of rec list,, i.e. soulmate au, fake dating, ambassador sokka,, hmu and i’ll post a list !!]

within this post, the fics are in word count order! also, if you’d like a soundtrack for your reading, i might recommend my zukka playlist :^) happy reading!

speak ill by @moonsongdotmp3

-4111 words, teen

-developing/established relationship, ozai hate <3

"I hate your dad so much,” Sokka considers for a second. He tries to mix it up as often as he can when they play this game. “That I have considered starting an official petition begging Aang to reconsider his commitment to nonviolence.” // It’s quiet for a beat. He’s afraid he’s miscalculated, but Zuko laughs, broken and sincere. // (Or: 5, 8, 15 years after the war, Sokka talks shit about Ozai.)

Friends Don’t Let Friends Fake Date Each Other by @d-naggeluide

-5349 words, general

-fake dating, coming out, kinda crackfic

Toph demands that Zuko fake date her. This goes just about as well as can be expected. Sokka steps in to show them how it's done, and this goes a bit better than expected.

Oh, How We Find Our Way by @donvex

-6043 words, teen

-bed sharing, hurt/comfort, domestic fluff

In which Zuko doesn’t sleep nearly enough once he takes up the throne, and Sokka isn’t having it. And maybe they get to fall in love on the way, as a treat.

(let me be) there for you by @bisexuallsokka

-8471 words, teen

-friends/idiots to lovers, mutual pining, getting together

Sokka pulls out a clean piece of parchment and starts to write: Reasons Why Sokka Would Be A Great Bodyguard for Lord Zuko // He smiles in satisfaction at the title. Seeing it in writing only makes him feel more confident in this brilliant, two-minute-old idea of his. Zuko is one of his closest friends, and Sokka is a great fighter, he would be the perfect bodyguard! He has the entirety of his trip in the Fire Nation to prove it to Zuko. This is going to be a piece of cake.

This Isn’t My Idea of Fun by @khaleeseas​

-8921 words, explicit

-royalty/moon spirit!sokka, childhood friends to lovers, no war au, mutual pining, fluff and angst

If you asked Zuko, he and Azula saw far too much of Chief Hakoda of the Northern Water Tribe’s children growing up. It wasn’t until they were older, and Azula pointed out that - duh - their families were trying to set them all up, that he realized why. // He was told by his mother to be polite. These people were their friends and allies, and though their nations were as different as they came, harmony between nations was the most important thing. // It wasn’t his fault the Chief’s children were so annoying.

the thing about dancing by anodymalion

-9713 words, teen

-trans sokka, family angst

The first time a attendant spills Zuko’s tea and doesn’t immediately fall to her knees, begging the Fire Lord’s forgiveness, it is not anger but a resounding warmth that fills his chest.

Will You Fake Date Me (But This Time For Real)? by AlyssiaInWonderland

-10520 words, not rated (teen, i think)

-fake dating, mutual pining, idiots to lovers

Zuko is determined to convince his Uncle that he is not, in fact, pining after Sokka. // Sokka is desperate to convince Katara and Aang that he is not, in fact, pining after Suki. // When Sokka's scheme to avoid pity means Zuko and him must fake date for an entire diplomatic event, shenanigans, realisations and confessions ensue.

i could (never) give you peace by @zukkababey​

-10540 words, mature

-ambassador!sokka, friends to fwb to lovers, angst with a happy ending, miscommunication

Zuko almost said it. He almost said the words I think I’m in love with you, but he choked them back down at the last second. // Zuko would never be able to be what Sokka wanted. They might have needed each other during the summer, when two boys with too much weight on their shoulders found comfort in each other in the only way they knew how. // But now Zuko was Fire Lord, and Sokka was leaving.

Operation: Get the Fire Lord a Boyfriend by @rejectscanon 

-10679 words, teen

-established relationship, attempted matchmaking, fluff, hurt/comfort, 5+1

5 times the people of the Fire Nation tried to get Zuko and Sokka together, and 1 time they realized they already were.

a study in matchmaking by @verdanthoney​

-12218 words, general

-friends to lovers, mutual pining, idiots in love, bg bakoda and kataang

Zuko and Sokka try to play matchmaker, but things don’t go exactly as planned.

Always read Your Peace Treaties Carefully by preciousbunnynoiz

-14039 words, teen

-arranged marriage, miscommunication, found family, fluff, non-linear narrative, angst with a happy ending

Zuko and Sokka have been engaged to be married since the peace talks. Only they were the only ones who didn't know. // Everyone else thought they not only knew but that they had already been dating the entire time. // This is also news to Zuko and Sokka who have definitely NOT been dating but maybe they aren't as uninterested as they are protesting.

this love burns so yellow (becoming orange and in its time, exploding) by @meliebee​

-18767 words, teen, major character death (NOT ZUKO OR SOKKA OR ANY OF THE GAANG)

-found family, slowburn, fluff and angst, hurt/comfort, mutual pining

Ten months after Zuko is crowned at seventeen, he faces his first coup.

All the Little Things by @voidcenturyscholar and @romancedawning

-23575 words, general

-fake dating, friends to lovers, mutual pining, bed sharing, fluff, miscommunication

Sokka receives an offer of an arranged marriage from the Northern Water Tribe. On the one hand, accepting would strengthen ties between their tribes. On the other hand, Chief Arnook has suggested Hahn as a potential match, and Hahn sucks. But with the future of the Southern Water Tribe Reconstruction project relying heavily on the good will of the North, Sokka doesn’t know how to say no. // (Katara doesn’t have to deal with this. Katara is dating the Avatar.) // Zuko has a solution. Sokka just wishes he’d realized he was in love with the Fire Lord before he agreed to pretend to date him.

isn’t this the vision that you wanted by @goldrushzukka​

-34633 words, teen

-pining, matchmaking, coming out, friends to lovers, bed sharing, internalized homophobia

Firelord Zuko - ender of the Hundred Year War, ruler of the Fire Nation, payer of respects and reparations - takes advice and counsel from representatives of every nation, division, and specialty. // But teenage boy Zuko - friend of turtleducks, wielder of fun looking swords, stumbler over words and feet in the presence of cute boys - only listens to two people, and they are conspiring together to ruin him.

(do you take this jerk to be) your one and only by @jatersade​

-55855 words, teen

-enemies to friends to lovers, (not actually) unrequited love, slowburn, sharing a bed, alternate universe, arranged marriage, huddling for warmth, fluff

Under the leadership of Fire Lord Iroh, the Fire Nation has made every attempt to restore peace and make amends for the harm they inflicted during the Seventy-Year War. Their newest proposal is a literal proposal: a marriage to unite the Fire Nation and the Water Tribes. // The Fire Nation offers Prince Zuko’s hand. // The Water Tribes offer Princess Yue’s. // Sokka is apparently the only person in the world who has a problem with any of this.

Wooing the Water Tribe by @dameferre​

-56839 words, teen

-didn’t know they were dating, i mean IDIOT idiots to lovers, ambassador!sokka, mutual pining, himbos istg

Zuko is courting Katara, and with every passing day finds new and insane ways of showing that he would quite literally move the spirit world and earth to make her happy. // In hindsight, it probably would've been better if Sokka had realised he was in love with Zuko at literally any time before this. Or preferably, never fallen for his best friend in the first place.

In the Soft Light by @voidcenturyscholar and @romancedawning​

-83901 words, teen, graphic depictions of violence

-moon spirit!sokka, ambassador zuko kinda, hurt/comfort, slowburn, pining, canon divergence, miscommunication, sickfic, huddling for warmth, angst with a happy ending, enemies to lovers, underage drinking

As the newly appointed cultural liaison to Northern Water Tribe, Zuko is the first Fire Nation Citizen to step foot inside the city's walls in nearly a century. He's determined to prove himself—to the Fire Lord and to his father—even if the Water Tribe's spirit-touched prince seems to want nothing to do with him.

[hyunjinspark]

so……that was a lot…..,,.need to find a way to transport myself into the slwy universe so i can knock some sense into everyone that’s being mean to yn. i love that you used sorry i love you lyrics as the title. i think the song as a whole really encompasses what hyunjin and yn are currently going through

first of all, hana i have a bone to pick with you girlie. i just need her to fuck off for a bit and focus on her own issues (bc CLEARLY there’s a lot) instead of always meddling in yn’s damn business. don’t even get me started on felix he’s so 📈📉📈📉 at first, i was happy that he came to the store to apologise and you could tell that it was genuine as he’s never come into the store before. but then ???? boy started acting like a bratty child when yn didn’t instantly forgive him after his shitty apology (if you can even call it that) i REALLLLYY hated hana and felix for (once again) painting yn as selfish and disregarding her feelings. and also the fact that everyone assumed yn was in the wrong and that she would apologise ??? leave my girl alone wtf ?? they claim to be her best friends yet continue to perceive her as this placid one-dimensional person they can step all over. eagerly waiting for the day yn gives them a piece of her mind 😌 yn said that they like the monotony of daejeon, and i think this is reflected in their desire for their relationship with yn to go back to the way it was before. they hate anything that disrupts their routine (and in felix’s case this can also be applied to hyunjin)

3RACHA AND YEONJUN MY BELOVEDS aka presidents of the hyunyn fanclub !!!! “i can take the next flight to daejeon” CHANGBIN REALLY FLIRTING WITH HYUNJIN AT EVERY GIVEN OPPORTUNITY IN EVERY UNIVERSE 😭😭

talking w hyunjin makes her feel better no one touch me hyunyn soulmates confirmed 🥹🔮 play with fire has permanent residence in my mind so i’m not even going address the fact he answered the door shirtless otherwise i’ll start thinking about the belly button piercing and then i’ll lose my mind 😵‍💫😵‍💫 BUT HE FINALLY GOT TO SHOW HER THE PAINTING !!!!!! i loved his description and i adore that you incorporate things hyunjin has said irl (paints to avoid unhappiness and the vase of dried flowers) istg sometimes i’m half convinced slwy and irl hyunjin are the same. i wanna talk about art with him so bad pls we’d have the best conversation he’s so 😭😭 also how tf do u write him so well ??? like some of his mannerisms and the things he says i’m like “you mean he hasn’t he said this on bubble before” ??? bc how is it even possible to characterise someone so fucking well ?!!!

both of them trusting each other that they won’t be judged and feeling comfortable enough to discuss their feelings 🥺🥹 and 3racha love hyune so much i almost bust into tears when he was talking about his convo with chan. the fact chan told him to “go home” to daejon bc he knew that seoul had become stifling for hyunjin AND YN APPLYING FOR THAT APPRENTICESHIP LOVE THAT FOR HER NEED HER TO LIVE HER BEST LIFE IN SEOUL I NEED HYUNYNJUN TO HANG OUT THERE AND FOR YN TO MEED 3RACHA AJHDKSSM hwang hyunjin continues to be the epitome of love and the embodiment of boyfriend material 😭😭 he continues to raise the bar every chapter i fear i will remain single for the rest of my life bc how can i possibly move on when he exists. the pure domesticity when she played with his hair literally a scene out of a kdrama 🥺

and when he gave her the tickets despite being told it was a bad idea HE KNOWS HER SO WELL AND THAT SHE WOULD ENJOY IT 😭😭😭 them being the epitome of soulmates once again. funny how hana claims hyun hasn’t known yn/them for a long time yet he’s the one she feels comfortable telling about the chateau and apprenticeship

i just……i love them so much ???? i didn’t think it was possible to love words on a screen this much but you prove me wrong every chapter. “for trusting me enough to tell me the truth” “i could never hate you” “even if you were selfish, i don’t care. you can be whatever you want around me, and i’ll never make you feel bad for it” “what matters is if you’re happy. that’s what i care about” where can i find a hyunjin is he available on amazon

AJHDSJSKS AND THEN THE SUDDEN 180 GAVE ME FREAKING WHIPLASH IDK IF I WANTED TO BE YN OR HYUN DURING THAT SCENE IF I DWELL ON THIS TOO MUCH IM GOING TO GO INTO CARDIAC ARREST BYEEE lee minho ily but seriously u couldn’t wait 2mins we were so close to a kiss wtf dude. the slowburn is KILLING ME (in the best way possible) and just know that when they finally kiss, i’ll be typing from my grave

“you heard his voice, your favourite voice” and when i sue you for emotional damage, then what

him running after her in the cold to give her the tickets bc he was really happy she accepted and it was really important to him bc he now has a chance to hang out with her doing something they both love 🥲 i ADORED this chapter and i can’t wait for their date !!! lix has developed a nasty habit of interrupting them at crucial moments so if he shows up unannounced at the event, i will not hesitate

once again, tysm for such a beautiful chapter 💗💗 i went from wanting to beat the ever loving shit out of everyone being mean to yn to giggling and kicking my feet bc of domestic hyunyn to fighting the urge to scream/throw my phone when they were about to kiss. i’m super excited for the next chapter i know it’ll be incredible 💗💕

- 🎐

hi ! wow. i loved this so much. i read it so many times :(

im glad you like the use of the song. i also think it fits hyun and yn, and what they’re going through almost perfectly 🥺

you’re so right :/ they love the monotony of daejon, and it definitely reflects in their relationship with her. and everybody assuming yn is in the wrong did not help how she already felt like she was at fault :( yongbok definitely came in genuinely to apologize, but once again, let his emotions get the best of them, especially when hyun came into the store.

3racha and yeonjun hyunyn shippers confirmed 🫡 oh but you should think about the bellybutton piercing and him answering the door shirtless, think about it some more. ☺️

thank you ! i love characterizing hyun, and sometimes the stuff he says on his lives resonates so much with the things i *think* he would believe. makes me smile so much that you think of them as the same person, and his dialogues in the story make you think he’s said it on bubble 😭

i love that you love them, and every scene between them in that part :( 3racha love hyune so much indeed, and im happy it resonated with you about why he came back home. ☹️🫶🏻

the epitome of soulmates, always. he knows her so well. i wish a hyunjin was available on amazon hahah, you made me laugh.

minho being a cockblocker but its okay :( because if they did something; its possible that they regret it. and yessss hyunjin’s voice is now her favorite voice and you can sue me for emotional damage go ahead.☺️

thank you for this review, it made me smile so much, and warmed my heart. i love you for sending me this, and for commenting on every single thing you liked ! when people point out specific stuff from my stories, it makes me so happy that they notice the details because i put everything with intention <3

[moonbeamsung]

hey! this has been getting popular recently, so pair your moots with an nct fic trope or/and ship them with nct?? i love your works too!! can't wait for the next one :)) heh

(anon, i’m so sorry this took so long! thanks for your patience! this also kinda turned into association instead of ships but i also base ships on similarities? so it works out hehe)

🎄dear moots: think of these ships/mini fics as a small christmas/holiday/end of the year gift from me to you! i sincerely hope you like them, it’s not much but it’s the least i can do to express my gratitude for all the love and happiness you’ve made me feel this year, even if we’ve just recently met! i’m so thankful for all of you and i love you very much!🎄

hi lovely anon!! <3 omg you love my works? that means so much to me, i hope you’re having a wonderful day!! thank you so much for sending me this, i had been hoping to do something like it for a while🥺

for my closer moots, i’m gonna combine these, so i’ll outline a fic trope/idea and the pairing will be who i ship you with! hopefully this won’t become an essay lol. warning: it does

i don’t want to leave anyone out, so for those of you that i’m not quite as close with or have met more recently, i’ll just give you a ship! i hope that’s okay🥺and if i’m still forgetting someone then i’m really really sorry, please let me know and i’ll make sure to add you next time!

read more cut because this is a looooot. open at your own risk and prepare for many many MANY blocks of text... also these are in alphabetical order by url!!

——ships + fics——

@astroboy-lele: a best friends to lovers au with chenle, no doubt about it. furou is one of my closest friends on here and our conversations are almost always chaotic, but when they aren’t, they’re full of love and appreciation for each other because she deserves it! major chenle vibes, they’re both so adorable too. her humor is great, all the jokes we have together make me absolutely wheeze oml. i really don’t know what i would do without her kindness sometimes, when i want to give up at something she’s so quick to reassure me. furou, thanks for encouraging me and for always being such a strong source of happiness🥺also, i hope you never doubt your amazing talents because they are a gift to this world!! but enough with the super deep stuff because this is way too long, so the plot would go something like this: you met one day when you heard him practicing piano in the band room by himself. you’re both shy at first so it’s a blush fest when he notices you’ve been listening to him play the whole time, but one not-so-awkward introduction later, you realize you have some things in common and that you share a class or two. you come over for study sessions & work together on partner projects, conversations lighthearted and full of endless laughter. in addition, you also show your support for each other’s talents and dreams, with him attending your dance performances and clapping louder than anyone else in the audience, and you attending his recitals, heart swelling with more pride and appreciation than you thought was possible. any time that you spend together usually ends with you asleep on his chest while he taps away at a piano app on his phone because he knows it calms you down, humming softly by your ear. as the sunlight streams in from his window and illuminates your face, he takes one look at you and decides that you’ve become so much more than just a best friend to him after everything you’ve been through together in such a short time. but will he ever find the courage to tell you how he feels?

@danishmiilk: i can’t really explain it, but i just picture late nights walking through city streets in a strangers to lovers au with doyoung by your side. xing-yi has a lot of love to give to others and so much to offer the writing community, and also she’s somewhat of a social butterfly, at least i think so! it makes me so happy seeing her interact with her moots and she always looks out for others! i also imagine that she has a cute bunny smile but also maybe not HAHA anyway i just love xing-yi a lot. here’s the fic: doyoung, the one who always seems to know everything, is forced to ask for directions in a foreign city. shamefully standing on the sidewalk, he stops you mid-step with a small hand gesture, because even though he doesn’t know you at all, you look like you probably won’t walk away or dismiss his questions with a shrug. being as friendly and willing to help as you are, you oblige. with an embarrassed scratch to the back of his neck, he admits that he might forget the sequence of lefts and rights you had given him, but you’re unfazed and simply offer to walk him there yourself, since it isn’t terribly far anyway. doyoung, lightly flustered since he’s not quite sure how to thank you for your trouble and feeling bad for taking the time out of your day, fumbles with asking for your number. he’s cute, you think, and before you part you insist on showing him around the city some more before he leaves, glancing at the sheepish but smitten man over your shoulder with a smile as you turn to walk back home, leaving him eager to see you again.

@daybreakx: my first thought was a hogwarts au with kun! ale’s talent in writing is a beautiful hidden gem on this site, and she truly deserves so much more recognition for it. i’m so grateful for how kind she is and i want the best for her and her work always! also, the love letter network that she created to help more writers receive love, feedback, and appreciation from readers is such a generous and selfless thing to do, it shows that she has such a caring heart! all of these qualities make me think of kun, and i chose a hogwarts au because i think she just writes those especially well and hers are some of my favorites! so for the fic: the fates are definitely not on your side today, because all the friends you made on the train ride to the castle have been sorted into different houses than you, not to mention you have almost no classes with any of them. at the same time, you seem to have every class with this one boy, kun. he’s in hufflepuff, the same house as you, and because you’re always paired up as seatmates, you find yourself warming up to him throughout the year. conversations become easier during projects, you start to have study sessions in the common room when exams come around, and as first-year students, you both love experiencing all the new and exciting things that the school and the magical world has to offer together. now, you couldn’t be happier that you were sorted into hufflepuff, because otherwise you might not have become friends (and maybe more..) with him!

@donkey-hyuck: vy is way more hilarious and talented than others give her credit for, and not to mention the way everyone adores her for always being so loving and showering them with her affection and support😭i’m thinking of a sci-fi au with jeno! she’s just so hardworking with her writing and on her collabs, & i think she’s strong-willed because she always pursues her goals no matter what! she has such a bright personality and also, like jeno’s her smile is just the CUTEST thing ever!!!! i will never be over it istg🥺fic: in a world full of new technology and controlled by a government unwilling to remember the past and all its traditions, a band of rebels come together and take it upon themselves to go back in time and discover what their reality used to look like long ago. one fateful day on their quest to uncover the mystery of the past, they stumble upon you, unaware of their cause but eager to join them. you take after one of the boys particularly well, lee jeno. though he’s assigned the role of warrior, he’s well-rounded and could easily succeed at any task the group may need him to complete. extremely passionate about the group’s goal, the two of you share a dedication that only brings you closer with time, working together and just being complete badasses. when you aren’t navigating through streets full of neon signs and angular buildings, you fall into the rhythm of a relationship. though you may not know much about each other’s pasts yet, one thing’s for sure: you can definitely see a future with one another.

@fairvtale: a soulmate au with jisung! i mean, keia is just the peak of cuteness, love, positivity, and everything sweet and nice!! how could i not ship her with the adorable park jisung himself😭she’s so full of compassion for everyone she meets and is so loved and appreciated for not only her great personality but also her talents! now, in this soulmate universe, you and your soulmate share the same preferences! so when you hear someone standing in line ahead of you at the ice cream shop order your favorite flavor, your heart skips a beat. of course, it’s not the first time it’s happened, but something feels different today. when you see who the voice belongs to, you just know that the tall but also shy boy is meant for you, and being brave, you approach the small two-person table he sits down at, making small talk until you both realize that you have a little too much in common for it to be a coincidence... :D <3

@ferie-anon: i’m picturing a bookstore au with shopkeeper!taeil, you just give off really insightful but also curious vibes!! both you and taeil make me think of wisdom(especially with your astrology knowledge! it amazes me so much omg), and also, you both have hearts of gold🥺💝fic: a new book shop opens up in your town, and eager to find a new story to dive into, you enter one day to find taeil behind the counter with a smile on his face that’s so bright you don’t even notice his smaller but adorable stature. he guides you, his first customer, through the rows of books to find one that interests you. since the store has multiple copies, he finds himself reading the same ones that you buy not only to enjoy them for himself, but also because it allows him to discuss them with you when you come in the next time, eager to hear each other’s thoughts and knowledge. your equal love for learning and discovery makes you a perfect match!

@flirtyhyuck: kitty is a literal ray of sunshine into my life, so who else would i ship him with than haechan? (i know i once said jaemin but shh) he is so encouraging, always makes me smile and my heart burst, i’m really thankful for all the times he checks in on me and i just feel very loved talking to him. he deserves all the love in the world, really and truly. for the au, maybe a strangers to lovers with barista!haechan! your favorite cafe has a new worker that’s attracting all the attention lately. haechan makes the funniest jokes and comments at the register, and everyone asks for him to ring them up just so they can laugh at his sarcasm. but he’s also so attentive to each and every customer, making sure the order is nothing short of perfect and exactly what they wanted. you always sit at one of the bar-style seats as you enjoy your favorite drink, legs dangling from the elevated chair as you watch him bustle about behind the cashier station and among the machines & supplies. one day it’s closing time, he’s cleaning up for the night but he lets you stay a few more minutes, something he wouldn’t do for anyone else. leaning over the marble countertop that your cup rests on, he swipes a fingertip through the whipped cream on top of your drink and lightly taps your nose with it, making you giggle endearingly at the ticklish sensation and giving him the courage to ask you out. with a smile, you agree. ‘sure, but let’s go somewhere other than a coffee shop, please.’

@fruityutas: emily (pt 1 HAHA) seriously cracks me up SO MUCH, not to mention she has one the best laughs i’ve heard and it’s super lovable haha. i don’t know what else to call it but i’d give her a wedding date(?) au with hendery! even when i didn’t know her very well and we had just recently met she was super friendly and inviting. for some reason i feel like hendery would also play the sims lol, anyway! onto the fic: when given the opportunity to bring a ‘plus one’ to a friend’s special day, your other friend hendery swoops in with an arm around your shoulder as you reread the invitation out loud, wondering who to ask. not so subtly, he offers to accompany you, and not wanting to be the only one without a guest, you agree to his proposal (no pun intended). dressed in your best formalwear and with stiffly linked arms, you navigate through the ceremony, only loosening up a bit at the reception. hendery is determined to make you smile with his exaggerated dancing, twirling you and making you more than glad you brought him along. you do get a few comments from other guests on what a ‘cute couple’ you are, leading you both to exchange glances before bursting into laughter. it starts to become less and less implausible, though. you catch hendery’s eye right after you find the bride’s flower bouquet in your grasp, suddenly realizing there could be more between you than you realized...

@jenojam: i was totally not influenced by your preschool series at all haha, but a preschool au with teacher!kun comes to mind! vina is always there for me, she’s so caring and attentive to everything i tell her!! i get mom friend vibes i guess, she’s just so sweet and i feel super loved and cared for whenever we interact, i’m really grateful for her endless support🥺for the fic, kun is a coworker of yours at the preschool you teach at. you both have such a strong passion for teaching and it helps you bond, leading to many days spent side-by-side, fondly watching your students play with their friends at recess or do activities and play games in class. even the small children in your class can see how much wider you smile when you’re in the same room. with the sweetest and most innocent of intentions, shenanigans ensue of your well-meaning but slightly mischievous students trying to get kun to confess to you, whether it be by writing a message in sidewalk chalk or making a bracelet out of craft beads for him to give you.

@jisungsmochi: hm, i’m thinking...a high school/college au with theatre kid!xiaojun🥺i ship nat with xiaojun because she’s just the sweetest, she has a hidden chaotic side (imo lol) and just a great sense of humor as well! she’s so fun to talk to and you can’t help but love her🥺picture this: you’re both in english class together, and one day there’s a mix-up. he accidentally grabs your essay and you end up with his script for the school musical. you have no choice but to go to one of his rehearsals to swap them back, but as you’re standing in the doorway, you’re captivated by his performance! little do you know, he’s absolutely in awe of your writing, even in a simple literature paper. your admiration for each other’s talents leads to you sitting in the back of the theater doing your homework every day after school, listening to his voice ring out across the large room, and he gets a confidence boost knowing you’re there watching him act, dance, and sing. he always winks at you from onstage and you’re beyond starstruck every time, your english paper quickly becoming forgotten as soon as he meets your eyes with a charming smile.

@lebrookestore: well, a royal au with prince!/childhood friend!taeyong comes to mind. brooke is a lot like taeyong because she’s so considerate and generous but also can be very professional and calm when she needs to be! (i think i told you already but you have this ~duality~ in a way, like ty haha.) so..you both grow up in the castle, scampering away from the staff in the large hallways and just enjoying the excitement of life. one day when you’re a bit older, you come across a stranger in the forest as you’re exploring. they turn out to be from the next kingdom over, but something about them is familiar: you’re sure you’ve seen a ‘wanted’ poster with their face plastered on it. you manage to warn taeyong in his ear before you hear the stranger’s footsteps speed up, and you both start sprinting as fast as possible. quickly working together since you know each other so well, you devise a plan to get them caught in a tangle of vines you remember seeing on your way into the forest, so you can bring back reinforcements to arrest the dangerous criminal. it works, but instead of turning to give taeyong a high five in celebration, he’s already in front of you and thanking you for your quick thinking with a hug, suddenly realizing that how much he loves you after seeing your brave and clever side emerge, just two of the many traits that made you win his heart.

@navyhyuck: vee’s name has basically become synonymous with happiness at this point, hearing from her in my inbox/messages or seeing a post/work of hers on my dash is so comforting and makes me smile more than she knows. since she’s the epitome of sweetness, i’ll say a bakery au with jaemin! i really appreciate knowing someone like her, and the encouragement she gives me is so heartwarming🥺the way she sends asks in the mornings makes me feel so ridiculously loved and at ease, her presence in itself is a gift to this site. tumblr really doesn’t deserve her!! i’m so happy that we’ve grown close and i don’t know what i would do without her and her kindness in my life. fic: you sign up for a baking class at a quaint, local pastry shop to learn how to make desserts and treats, since baking was a hobby you had enjoyed as a child with your family and now you hoped to learn how to do it on your own. little did you know that your instructor would be even more saccharine than the sugary treats you were making. his flirtatious nature leads to many mishaps in the kitchen as you get distracted while trying to follow along with the simple directions, instead making a mess of the icing and sprinkles and nearly confusing the measurements of ingredients. he finds it adorable, though, and towards the end of the session he sneaks a bite of one of the french macarons you put together, a bright smile lighting up his features as he compliments you on it. he teases you by reminding you to pay more attention next time, and with a comeback so quick that even you’re surprised, you take him up on that offer, implying that you’d be back for another class soon. “good. we’re making crème brûlée next week,” he informs with a wink as you both part ways. boy, was he sweeter than sugar.

@orange-nimon-cross: yunha deserves someone who knows the true her and has always been by her side, so i’d say a neighbor/boy next door au with winwin/sicheng. her personality is unique and complex like sicheng’s, and like him i also admire her for lots of reasons, such as her honesty and the pride she takes in writing as well as her passion for it in general. she’s very sweet, so supportive whenever i need it, and deserves so much more recognition for her beautiful work!!💕fic: your neighborhood holds a classic and oh-so-cliche summer block party every year, the smell of smoke and sounds of laughter moving through the air and into your open window. when a bad day gets you down and you hesitate to join in the festivities, sicheng is the only one who can get through to you, not forcing you to talk about anything and just sitting beside you on your bed in silence, which seems to be the most comforting thing anyone can do at the moment. when you tell him you’re ready(which he asks you to confirm many times, because that’s just how much he cares about you and wants you to be fully comfortable and okay), he takes your hand and leads you outside and onto the burning asphalt of the street with other friends and families, the blissful feeling of summer putting you at ease and the gentle evening breeze carrying away your cares with it. and like a springtime flower, although one season late, your relationship begins to blossom into one full of even more love and consideration for each other than it was before.

@radiorenjun: a doctor au with renjun! angie is slightly (okay, very) chaotic but also very lovable!! i don’t know if she’s an aries but she gives off serious aries energy. she’s confident and optimistic and really approachable! i’m so happy she reached out to me one day and we became friends from there🥺in the fic, renjun is a resident at your hospital studying under you and learning the ropes of being a doctor. when you first met each other, you actually mistook him for a coworker with how professional he seemed, but the confusion made a small, adorable blush rise to his cheeks. shy and timid at first, he takes notes and helps you do your job without complaint. when you offer part of your routine to him, he gratefully accepts and does the task perfectly, growing more comfortable in his position and relationship with you as he receives more opportunities to show his skill. sharing stories and experiences from medical school on your lunch breaks and smiling when you finish each other’s sentences about patients and their prescribed care, you realize that you’ve fallen for the soon-to-be doctor, and that no stethoscope could possibly measure the beating of your heart around him.

@rouiyan: so you know how you said you were excited for my wip that’s a strangers to lovers au with animal shelter worker!jeno? that’s what this is(loosely anyway)!!🥺ree reminds me of jeno in the fact that she’s such a sweetheart in every interaction with anyone, it feels like you’ve been her friend for ages! and then you look at her writing that’s just so damn good and sophisticated and i’m always so amazed with everything she puts out, just like how jeno’s talents amaze me as well! now for the fic: your beloved dog runs off in the park, but luckily a boy walking nearby lunges for the leash as it drags behind the animal. you thank him repeatedly, and he explains that the little puppy might have tried to leave your grasp only because she wants to make a new friend. the park is full of other dogs, after all. he mentions that he works at the shelter nearby and suggests that maybe you should adopt a second one to keep her company. not seeing any reason why you shouldn’t, you meet him the next day and spend time together picking out a new puppy. many more days are spent giving the fluffy little animals lots of pets and scratches behind the ears, and playing with them. you’re not sure what’s cuter: the dogs, or jeno’s eye smile.

@ru-lin: (the fic was kinda inspired by what you told me about your job in our messages the other day hehe) i’d say a christmas au with mark! ruth is so considerate and a pleasure to talk to, we actually have a lot in common! she’s very warm and caring and always looking out for others. i can tell she really values her friends and they’re so lucky to have her, she’s just so sweet all around! talking to her makes my day a lot brighter whenever we interact🥺fic: during the holidays you always work at a christmas market, helping customers pick out pretty much anything they could ever want that’s associated with the chilly month and all its festivities. when a shy boy that’s adorably awkward and clumsy stumbles into the shopping area, you bite back a small laugh at his endearing hesitation to ask for assistance. speaking up first, you ask if there’s anything he needs and he explains that he’s looking for the perfect tree. with a knowing smile, you lead him down the rows of tall pines and firs and any kind of christmas tree you could possibly imagine. when his eyes land on one that he likes, his eyes light up with excitement, and you help him load it into his car. as mark is halfway home he curses, realizing he forgot to pick up a wreath as well. he knows it’ll earn him a playful scolding from his group of friends, but if it means another chance to return to the market and see you, it’s worth it.

@rvse-hvvck: i feel like i ship so many people with jaemin but it’s just because they’re so especially full of kindness and love for others, and ana is no exception! i’d give her a matchmaker au with jaemin! ana is so incredibly selfless and her heart is so compassionate, it’s crazy. i really look up to her in a lot of ways! the first impression she made on me was already a great one because i saw so many writers receiving her beautiful love letters, and from that moment alone i could already tell how much she strives to be kind and generous in everything she says and does. i hope she knows how much everyone truly adores her and is grateful for her, because she really makes the world a better and brighter place. (if you’ve seen the movie clueless i guess this fic is sorta similar!) so, you’re the resident expert on relationships among your school community, always trying to pair up people with similar interests or that have a lot of chemistry together. it brings you joy because you love seeing your friends laughing and smiling with their partners, but you feel a twinge of sadness at the same time. when jaemin, the boy you’ve liked for a while, comes to you for advice, you push down your feelings for him and send him on dates with anyone you can think of. the whole time though, he’s only had his eyes on you. he has always admired your altruism and your dedication to making others happy. it hurts him to see that you’re not even giving yourself a chance, so with a simple but heartfelt confession in the school parking lot at sunset, he helps you realize that you deserve a love like you’ve helped so many others find.

@sly-merlin: talking to simmi is always something very healing (like yuta’s smile hehe) so i’d definitely give her a secret agent/spy au with partner!yuta! she is so friendly to anyone and everyone, she gives off this warm and loving vibe like that of an old friend🥺she’s also extremely dedicated to her studies and works so hard. everyone adores her, and seeing her talk about things that make her happy is just the cutest thing ever! simmi, you truly have everyone’s heart!! now for the fic: you and yuta are both spies, partnered up for a very important and serious mission. only problem is, he’s never been the serious type. he teases you for being so uptight, but you genuinely don’t know any other way to approach a mission. along the way though, he manages to teach you how to have a little fun with your job, even if it means lots of close calls and sticky situations that force you both to begrudgingly (well, you more so than him) pretend you’re an oblivious couple in order to escape suspicious eyes. eventually, you find yourself becoming less and less unwilling to throw a casual arm around his shoulder, even when you aren’t at risk of being caught on your mission. maybe he isn’t so bad after all... :)

@suhpressed: a strangers to lovers au with theatre usher!johnny. so you know how johnny’s like an older brother to mark? i get major comforting and warm big sis vibes from elaida!! i would ship her with johnny because they’re both such selfless and caring people! she’s not afraid to speak her mind, and she always looks out for others with kindness and encouragement! as for the fic: you’re finally attending a broadway show you’ve been dying to see since, well, forever. this really cute usher helps you find your seat, but in a rare stroke of clumsiness, he bumps someone with a glass of wine in their hand that ends up staining your blouse a dark red. like the gentleman johnny (you can see it on his nametag) is, he promises to buy you a new one, and writes his phone number on the show’s program. you enjoy the musical, but the digits scribbled down next to the performers’ names prove to be more distracting than you anticipated. throughout the show you’re really jittery, excited to get back home so you can text him. in addition to replacing your ruined shirt, he also invites you out for coffee over the phone, you agree, and you both hit it off. the rest is history! the way that you met becomes a favorite story among your friends and families, & they never miss a chance to tease you two about spilling drinks.

@tyongxnct: elida, where do i begin🥺right away, i think of an idol au with taeyong. she is just so caring and supportive, she likes or comments on my posts and can make me smile with just a few words!! i remember one time that she said she was lucky to have me as a moot and it really warmed my heart, i’m so so lucky to have her too! i can tell she’s passionate about writing and that it brings her so much joy! i wish her only the best in life always <3 in the fic: during a tour, nct 127 stops in your country for a few nights of concerts, and in the midst of the excitement on the way back from the venue, taeyong gets separated from the rest. in an unfamiliar environment, he begins to panic as he remembers that he left his phone on the tour bus and has no way to contact his manager or fellow members. you, while familiar with and respectful of the group but not an avid follower of their music, catch sight of the lost and more than frazzled man as he frantically paces along the sidewalk, trying to recall his surroundings when he exited the bus hours ago. had it not been for your observant gaze, you may have missed the small group logo on his white shirt, letting you know who he was. determined to ease his obvious nerves by helping him find his way back, you lend a hand by approaching him and asking what he remembers. despite only being given a few details, you know the area he describes, quickly leading him there and reuniting him with the rest of the group. more than grateful, he offers you a ticket to the last show there, and hopes that it won’t be the last time he sees you.

@yo-ddream: a childhood best friends to lovers au with jungwoo! emily (pt 2/granny okay sorry i’m done) also feels like somewhat of an older sister to me, she gives great advice and always seems to have a story to tell from her working adventures lol. she’s very witty and extremely kind!! i guess i get jungwoo vibes because at first she seems quiet, but once you get to know her and she opens up a bit you see her fun personality and humor shine through when you talk to her :) she’s also honest about what she thinks and doesn’t sugarcoat it, something that’s very much needed in a person! okay, onto the fic: you and jungwoo grew up in the same neighborhood, going to the same school, getting your first part-time jobs at same store a few blocks down from your street. your lives have been intertwined from the start, but when a family matter pops up, it threatens his place by your side in almost everything you do and puts your friendship and undisclosed feelings for each other at risk. both working up the courage to confess as time ticks down and it gets closer to the day he’s meant to move away, you spend every moment with each other enjoying life’s little moments, the simple things like watching the sunset on a park bench or taking a walk down the sidewalk of the town shopping center. in an extremely convenient stroke of luck, he gets word that things have been sorted out, and the move is off. in both of your delight at the news, you feel like nothing can stop you. you blurt out the same three words at the same time before launching your arms around one another. if it’s you and jungwoo against the world, so be it, because not even the universe had the heart to separate the bond between you.

@zzzzzcakes: zel🥺she’s always been super supportive of me and my work, i’m happy she left feedback on a fic of mine because i might not have reached out to express my gratitude for her words and gotten to know her otherwise! she’s very kind and positive, and seeing her posts and reblogs make me laugh all the time :D i’d say a grocery store au with sungchan. (hear me out i know you must be going ‘huh?’ but trust me on this one! in that recent post you made you said something about shopping carts, and it made me think...see where this is going? haha ANYWAY!) so sungchan is the newest employee at the supermarket where you work. he’s the go-to person to call when someone can’t reach an item on one of the highest shelves, earning bewildered stares from customers and coworkers alike. he always has a joke up his sleeve or a clever remark to make about the many challenges of working in retail. you take a liking to him for how down-to-earth he is and despite all the occasional sarcasm coming from him when you’re both in the break room, he’s very helpful whenever he’s needed. he also admires how focused you are on the job, ringing up endless items and bagging groceries until your hands hurt. whenever he strides down an aisle near the register you’re working at that day, he doesn’t hesitate to send a wave and an endearing grin your way. it’s the moments like that with him that get you through your shift and keep you going. it’s no surprise when you reveal to the rest of the staff that you’re dating. of course, the perks of being employees mean that you can spend many late nights racing each other in shopping carts at the back of the store near closing time and other mischievous activities of the sort, laughing when your manager scolds you over the loudspeaker system without a care in the world.

——ships——

@badwithten: zoe is someone full of both humor and heart, a combination that immediately reminds me of lucas, so i’d 100% ship her with him! she’s given me really good advice and encouragement to stay true to myself, something i can also see lucas doing, and i’m very grateful for her wise words :) and like i said, her heart is full of love and she’s so kind to everyone!

@bucchinct: i’m not sure if we’ve ever interacted, but i always see your posts on my dash and you reblog so many artistic and pretty things/pictures, which makes me think of jaemin and his hobby of photography! so i would ship you with him ^_^

@du0tine: i’d ship solange with ten, for a number of reasons! one, the fact that she mountain climbs for a living and is so dedicated to/passionate about it is something extremely admirable and amazing, so she comes across as very brave and adventurous! also, she’s not afraid to tell others her opinions and that honesty is really refreshing to see! and her blog themes are super artistic which reminds me of ten as well. she just seems like a great person in general and i hope to get to know her more!

@ethaeriyeol: i haven’t really talked to bea much, but i know she is good friends with a few of my other moots so i think that says something about the kind of person she is! i would ship her with jaehyun, she seems really professional (and lowkey intimidating but you didn’t hear it from me) but also very sweet and welcoming and i imagine they both have the cutest smiles, with or without dimples, hehe.

@euphoricdreamies: i’d ship maddy with chenle! she has such a great sense of humor and it’s so much fun to read about her oc’s, i love keeping up with the plots! i’ve followed her for a while but we just recently started talking, she’s very friendly🥺maddy’s just been nothing but nice to me, and i feel like she has a sarcastic and witty side. also, she deserves so much more recognition for her talent and i think everyone deserves to read her amazing work!

@felixn-recs: it’s been a while since i talked to you, but i’m really thankful that you left some of the first feedback i ever received on my writing! i know for a fact that authors really appreciate you and the kind feedback/support that you show their works. this eagerness to show writers your encouragement and praise makes me think of mark for sure, so i would ship you with him!

@fullsuhnny: angelina seems like the type to be somewhat reserved, but still very generous and selfless towards others, reminding me of kun! when she interacts with people she’s humble and sweet, and i enjoy seeing her reblogs pop up on my dash. i think she’s a wonderful friend to everyone and i hope to become closer with her in the future! also, her blog theme is so cool and aesthetic hehe :D

@gowonhatesyou: renjun all the way, krystal always makes me and others laugh so much with her humor and her entertaining personality. but at the same time, while she can be chaotic and sarcastic, she’s also extremely loving and sociable. i can tell she cares a lot about those around her and wants only the best for them! i really value her friendship🥺

@heartyyjeno: i’d ship alesha with jaemin, she’s so much like him to me. first of all, because she would do anything to make her friends smile or brighten their day! she has a warm personality that makes others feel very loved. she’s also very determined and perseverant, because when things get tough she doesn’t give up and continues to pursue her dreams and do what she loves, even when it may be difficult. i’m positive that everyone she knows appreciates having her and her endless kindness in their life! <3

@injunified: nathalie is really sweet and generous, and i’m really happy that she’s started posting more of her works recently, they definitely deserve all the recognition that they’re getting and more!! i don’t know her super well but she’s a great friend to have, so I’d ship her with winwin/sicheng! i hope she can continue writing because she definitely has a lot of talent for it🥺

@jaeminscoffee: lyra is very warm, friendly, and she was eager to get to know me when we first met, so i would ship her with johnny! i really enjoy talking to her, and she’s also very down-to-earth! she never hesitates to show her appreciation for her friends and followers, and i really look up to her for it🥺

@lovelygalaxy333: lilly is so so lovable and sweet, i would definitely ship her with shotaro! my heart literally threatens to explode whenever i talk to her, and she reblogs the cutest, kindest things! like shotaro, i just wanna protect her because she’s such a special soul and also very positive! even if she just sends a simple ‘hello’ in my inbox from time to time, it puts the biggest smile on my face and i’m so grateful for her!

@meraki-mark: li is very humble and friendly, so i would ship her with xiaojun! she also seems somewhat quiet and calm to me, i was almost intimidated when we first interacted haha. something i admire about her is that i believe she’s the kind of person to truly be dedicated to writing what she wants and not just for the sake of notes! that kind of commitment is really nice to see :)

@minyusa: whenever i see miku on my dash, she always seems to be showing her support for a work or conversing with a friend. she’s there to lend some encouragement and sweet words to those that need it! her good-nature and pure thoughtfulness reminds me of jeno. she’s so nice to talk to and deserves love, no questions asked! you’re a very genuine and warm-hearted person, so i’d ship you with him~ （＾ν＾）

@moonlightjeno: we don’t know each other very well but just from looking at luna’s writing, i think the types of fics and aus she writes are very diverse and unique! her well-rounded work makes me think of haechan, so i’ll ship her with him! i believe we have some of the same moots so she seems very kind and social as well!

@neonun-au: okay, maybe it’s because ‘multitudes’ has been on my mind ever since i read it but my first thought was to ship mads with taeil! her writing is so elegant and beautiful, i’m so glad her work gets all the recognition that it does! as silly as it sounds for me to say, even her sh*tposts seem sophisticated for some reason hahaha. she’s just so sweet, talented and always so gracious!

@peachjaem00: lou comes across as very laidback and charming, two things that remind me of yangyang! she’s a pleasure to interact with, and i feel like she has a lot of friends, i mean, who wouldn’t want someone like her in their life? she’s such a supportive and inviting person by nature, and i can tell she works hard and puts so much effort into her writing because it’s so good!!

@prettyjaems: i believe i said it once before so pardon the repetition, but whenever i interact with mona i feel loved and cared for like nobody’s business😭which immediately makes jaemin come to mind. she doesn’t hesitate to show kindness to anyone and everyone, but also has a quiet and focused side at times, and i think as a person, she has so many great qualities that balance out and make up her considerate personality! she’s also really motivated and organized with her writing, i hope to learn a thing or two from those work habits of hers :)

@rueyins: one fateful day when i was craving some good old interaction, rue reached out to me just to say hello and ask how i was doing, something that makes me think of taeyong! i really love how caring she is towards everyone she knows, and also her music taste is great, which also makes me think of taeyong, haha🥺the way she looks out for others is such a special quality to have, i’m so glad we’ve become friends!!

@vitamarkie: i would ship kay with mark! i see her interact with her moots a lot, and she just seems very loved all around by everyone that knows her! also, she writes the softest, prettiest, fluffiest stories, and for some reason i think of the fact that mark once said he wanted be an author when he grew up. her skills are seriously amazing and, just like i admire mark for his talent, i admire kay a lot for hers!

@whathamelon: hmm you have a good sense of humor and also seem very friendly because we have some of the same moots! you’re also not shy about showing appreciation to your favorite fics and authors, so i would ship you with johnny!

@yunwoo: i feel like anna is on the soft-spoken, quieter side but still very very sweet, so i would ship her with jisung! she’s really lovable and so comforting to talk to, even though we don’t know each other too well yet. just from her blog she seems so adorable and i want to hug her and talk to her more🥺also her aesthetic is the softest thing EVER i love it so much!!😭

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Fic Writer Interview Meme

Thank you for tagging me, Dora!

Name: sea/nostalgicatsea

Fandoms: Marvel. I’m into some other stuff as well, but I don’t know if I can say I’m in the fandom. 

Two-shot:

I don’t have any unless you count a two-part series and companion fics as two-shots. I’m going to count them so I don’t leave this section blank:

All These Half-Tones of the Soul (G, MCU, 22,888 words)

In lieu of the “summary” for the series, which is just a book quote, here are the summaries for the two fics:

Multitude of One (G, MCU, 4,277 words)

Summary: "So was I," his soulmate would tell him one day, and what it would mean was that they loved him.

Leaving Promises Against Your Skin (G, MCU, 18,611 words)

Summary: “Someday, someone will choose you, Tony,” his mother had said, her hands back to cupping his. “And no one, not your father, not anyone, can ever take that from you.”

Notes: I wish I could change the name of the series because it doesn’t fit completely, but oh well! This series was grueling to write, but it was by far the most rewarding because I didn’t think I could do it. Even if there are things I wish I could fix (I think that way about almost every fic I write), I’m proud of what I accomplished. I wrote the story I wanted to write and did something I never thought I could. I felt like I was running a marathon and at the end, that level of euphoria was probably the closest I’ll get to a runner’s high. I want to feel that again. 

IW companion fics:

The Great Silence of Loss (G, MCU, 1,075 words)

Summary: There was no reason to keep the phone, not when Tony didn't have his, not when Tony was gone and all keeping it would do was hurt him, but Steve held onto it anyway.

Signals Between Two Satellites (G, MCU, 2,290 words)

Summary: He hadn't allowed himself to dream of this, of Tony returning to him. Not when he had lost so much. Not when dreaming of the impossible would destroy him. But Tony was here, and for the first time since Thanos had wiped out half of the universe, Steve felt hope. Notes: After watching IW, I thought I’d have the same dry spell as I did after AoU. I didn’t think I had anything to write about, but it ended up being my most prolific era! I don’t know why or I do, but I don’t have the space to talk about it here and I’m not sure I can express myself accurately. There’s something about unspeakable loss sweeping you out to sea, making everything else before both insignificant and magnified. Every regret, every love. When you’re so lucky so as to hold onto or regain something you lost, there’s so much power in that love and hope even when you’re not sure things will ever be okay again.

I have two other fics that are companion pieces to each other but not officially so I’ll leave them off! In case you’re wondering, they’re “Thunder Hurried Slow” and “Leaving You Forward.”

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Multitude of One (G, MCU, 4,277 words)

Summary: "So was I," his soulmate would tell him one day, and what it would mean was that they loved him.

Notes: The clear winner when it comes to hits, kudos, and comments, but when it comes to bookmarks, the sequel, LPAYS, surpasses MoO in numbers. I love soulmate fics, but I wasn’t sure what to write (other than that one soulmate fic that I’ve been trying to write since 2014 which hasn’t happened yet). I read some angsty CW soulmate fics, and then this idea struck me because I loved them, but I wanted to see something different.

I wanted to explore the idea of idealization and romanticization of a soul mark, especially when your assumptions of its meaning turn out to be completely incorrect, and the significance of soulmates. Is your soulmate important because you love them, or do you love them because they’re your soulmate? What happens if you can’t see who they are, even if they’re in front of you the whole time, and fail them because you’re so focused on the idea of them? I also wanted to try and see if I could bring the iconic 616 “It wasn’t worth it” line to the MCU in a way that made it organic to the universe here. Again, shoutout to the fics I read before this idea burst into my head, specifically “Zugzwang” by the great Woad.

Actual worst part of writing:

Most of the time, I know how the story begins and ends, but I don’t know how to get from A to C. Sometimes I have fragments in between, but I don’t know how to connect them! I get bogged down in plot holes or issues I don’t know how to fix and I get stuck for a long time. 

How you choose your titles:

Everyone moans about coming up with titles—and understandably so, as it’s the worst when you can’t come up with one—but oddly enough, titles come really easily to me. They just...float to the surface of my mind. In some cases, they’re there before I start writing. Other times, when I start and I’m at the beginning of the story. It’s almost like I feel the story/feel the titles as though I’m searching for the story’s true name which sounds SO obnoxiously pretentious lolsdkfjdas, but that’s the only way I can explain it. It’s almost a sensory experience for me. They have to be right (there’s this moment where it feels right, whether it’s this quiet recognition or a “YES! That’s it” eureka moment) and there has to be a meaning behind them that explains what the story is about in some way. Otherwise, I get stuck. There are a few titles that I’m not particularly fond of because nothing really came to me, but I had to go with what I came up with due to time constraints. They still rub me the wrong way when I look at them.

Do you outline:

I usually know the start and end of a story before I write, and most of my stories are short enough so that means I don’t have to outline. Longer stories, though...I probably need to outline. That’s where I struggle and why I haven’t written anything really over 6k other than LPAYS (I was a mess writing it, but I can go into that separately if anyone’s interested). :’) I’d say that I half plot and half fly by the seat of my pants; I leave enough room on a bare-bones outline in my head to improvise. 

Ideas you probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice:

MY ENTIRE LIST OF WIPS LMAO ESPECIALLY THE ONES THAT HAVE TO BE LONG FICS. :’))))))))

Callouts @ me:

STOP TWISTING YOURSELF INTO KNOTS TRYING TO FIGURE EVERYTHING OUT. You only need to know the big stuff, but you always think you need to know how every tiny thing works before you start. Shut up and start writing! You spend most of your time saying you’ll write and then getting distracted by going online, saying you want to write, or complaining about how writing is hard. Just write something! Learn discipline! ALSO, YOU ARE SO OBSESSED WITH NATURE, EYES, SMILES, ETC. PLEASE LEARN TO USE OTHER METAPHORS AND PRACTICE HOW TO EXPRESS MOVEMENT, EMOTION, AND PRESENCE THROUGH OTHER WAYS TOO.

Wait, I’m not sure I’m supposed to be yelling at myself here. I can do fun callouts! @ self, you’re so weak for anything related to home and the concept of together....istg, that’s all you write about.

Best writing traits:

I’m good at atmosphere and rhythm although the latter has become less of a thing over the years as I started writing longer stuff. But still! 

Tangential opinion:

This can be difficult to believe and it can take time (I certainly didn’t start out like this in my first fandom pre-Marvel), but honestly, write for yourself and your friends and/or write for yourself without expectations on how you’ll be received. I would say write for yourself first and foremost, but you’re in fandom because you want to be part of a community so I’m not going to say to write for yourself only unless you want to. When you find a close group of a few friends, you’ll realize that the most important thing is you guys having fun and everything else is a nice surprise—or if you’re more of a lurker, then it’s nice just seeing a few people respond to you especially if you start to see it’s the same few people the more you write. A lot of the times, they become the people you befriend too.

Tagging: @kiyaar, @ishipallthings, @citsiurtlanu, @welcomingdisaster, @no-gorms, and anyone else who wants to do this!

[percywinchester27]

@caughtaghostsomehow​ I’m just going to put it all underneath the keep reading, picking things from all of those reblogs cause why not!

Part 27: 

I understand why Max trusts Sam so much... Even after he initially failed him, he still kept his promise later on and he's been keeping it since.

The scene when Sam finds Max in the cell... Oh man.. I was angry at first, just like Sam but then my heart broke for this little boy. Sam and him needed each other. I think they may be soulmates.. The universe destined them to help each other out.

Yep. The reason why Sam is just so insanely careful about Max is because he how what it feels like to almost lose him. And the prison scene changed a lot since it was conceived. But I knew I wanted Max to start out as a physical kid and then grow out of it. He and Sam really were destined.

I'm so glad we got to see how Jody found out about the whole situation and I just love her more after finding out that she helped with the adoption (by the way, I love how thorough your research is 🧡).

I knew Dean would never give up on his brother but it just made me really emotional when he kept calling and Sam finally picked up and the first words out of Dean's mouth were "are you alright?". It got to me for some reason...

I thought it was logical to go to her for a lot of reasons- cause she is a legal writings professor, a close friend AND has experience with adoption as a single parent in the very same state. 

Awww... all the Dean parts get me. ALL of them. Especially here because they are so far and in-between in this story.

But Sam wanted his wife to trust him the same way. Unconditionally. He wanted her to trust him with fixing their life, dealing with their loss and grief and wanted her to trust him with rebuilding their life from before the accident.

This is you using my braincells by the way. Cause later on, someone points this EXACT same thing to the reader

I know I've said this before but it just keeps coming back to this in my head, she knew things couldn't be fixed because as much as she probably trusted Sam with her life, she understands that some things just aren't in anyone's control... And Sam wanted her to believe he could mend the wounds all by himself... It's sad and frustrating but I can't wait for them to have this conversation

I know you’ve read part 30 already and you know they touch on this very very briefly but they don’t really resolve this. It gets addressed specifically eventually. His ‘i could fix us’ vs. her ‘I knew you couldn’t.’ Does such for them though.

Chapter 28

Why do I have a bad feeling about that party?

Because. Same. Braincells. Lol.

I really wanted for someone to say that and Sam certainly needed to hear it and I'm so glad it was Chase who opened his eyes about this. He's absolutely right too, let the woman speak for her damn self instead of assuming how she feels.

Chase was me! Yelling at all these characters for not fucking listening to me haha... remember how I told you that people were suspicious of Chase? Yeah, after this chapter, everyone’s kinda adopted him. 

My emotions have been all over the place lately anyway but reading how Sam needed to compose himself before speaking about his son's death... I swear I don't have tears in my eyes while typing this- that was hard to read.

I'm glad Max knows... I don't know how much of it he understands but he's a clever boy, I'm sure he has at least a little bit better of an idea why this situation is so delicate.

Awww I’m so sorry I made you cry :/ But, well... Sam doesn’t grieve his son’s death the way the reader does. He’s always been more stoic. Besides, he had to deal with two griefs back then not just one... but I am sure it still hurts too much. 

I’ve left it to everyone’s imagination how much Max understands. He knows the concept of death for sure.... but his birth father had orgies at his house. We can all only hope that Max is completely shielded from that since he was using to hiding in closets when there were strangers in the house.

I was surprised by his question too but Sam's response was so... Loving. My heart can't take this.. He's such a great father...

Yep. I mean how else could he have reassured Max? His no lying policy is a great way to raise a child tbh. My sister does that with my nephew. That’s how I know.

Chapter 29

I really like Maddie, she's a genuinely sweet person, I love how helpful she tries to be and that she honestly wants her friend to be happy. I wonder what exactly went wrong during that party for her to look so dejected...

Maddie is nice. I was hellbent on making all of Sam’s canon Exes nice in this series. Cause I’ve had enough of reading the evil ex and current gf pitted against each other trope (Though I’ve never written it myself. Maybe I should and see for myself why it is so alluring lol.) I don’t know, maybe it was little a double prank thingy? Throw the reader in the water and be as mean to Madison as you can?

I really fucking hope that Brad gets what he deserves and that is to be kicked in the balls. Ever fucking heard the word boundary? Consent? I hate people like him with a burning passion and that whole situation infuriated and scared me in equal measure.

Yeah. That asshole needs to go down! His endgame has changed more than anyone elses in the story lol.

The fact that all of it came back to her the instant she hit the water made me sob. She wanted to protect her baby but there was no one there... I just- oh fuck.

Kay that part was HARD to write. All of it. Poor reader!

Was Sam the one to pull her out? If so then I don't even want to think about what would happen if he wasn't there, if they haven't made plans...

The way she started crying for their baby when she found her breath again made me cry even more... I don't know why I feel such a strong connection to this story and characters but I don't want them to ever feel pain like that again. It's heartbreaking 💔

Yeah that was Sam... I mean the pool was visible and all that. I mean of course you know. You read the next chapter. Why am I being a dumbass :/ 

Something had to trigger her trauma. It wasn’t going to come out on its own and And Sam loves her too much to force her to grieve. He barely held it together when she did grieve so well...

PS.: I'm really sorry you experienced drowning, it's a horrible thing to go through. I don't do pools- or really, any body of water, either. There's just something about the idea of drowning that unsettles me more than I can express.

Yeahh... God bless that lifeguard. Seriously. He’s the only one who noticed that I wasn’t coming up. It was night time and the pool was pretty dark so. I am so sorry that you don’t like pools, either. It’s terrifying.

Chapter 30

Firstly, Ria, you’re TOO GOOD to me, seriously! The fact that I could have you speechless is about the biggest complement you could’ve given me.

If you can call it that and at first when she asked him about the ring, I was surprised but my heart just sunk. I don't think either of them were in the right, I don't think they were both wrong either... I don't believe I'm good enough with problem solving to know what advice I'd give them but I do know that I have never experienced a feeling more cathartic than this one when reading. Twenty nine chapters leading to this moment... All the questions and pining and heartbreak. .. And sure, there's so much more they could say and there's so much more you talk about and figure out but as of right now... This is the beginning of the rest of their lives.

So, I think what she meant to ask was why did he just not give up on her, but she was tired and spontaneous and the ring question just tumbled out instead. I tried so hard for all their conversations to sound spontaneous and not rehearsed you know? Where they ended up touching on every aspect of the past? Cause that wouldn’t happen. It just wouldn’t. 

And THANK YOU for saying that. I swear to God, this chapter wouldn’t have made that impact if it hadn’t had a backing of 29 chapters. It would have royally fallen flat. Everyone was invested in the story by now and I was counting on it.

I didn't like how Sam got angry at first because I put myself in her shoes but the truth is, someone needed to get angry about something. One of them had to feel some type of overwhelming emotion to get here and it just so happened that it started with pain and landed on anger.

This is and SPN finale type of dilemma though. Like for the writers, they had to Kill of Dean first cause only Sam had the slight ability to move on. Sam way, I didn’t think the reader would have ever gotten angry first. She is so burdened by her own guilt (undeserved tbh) but she wouldn’t just lash out first. Sam had been angry at the start of the series and absolutely livid in their time apart. I just thought it would be easier for him to get mad first. Not defending his choices or whatever, just why I chose to make that decision as a writer. I would have been plenty mad a reader, too.

But the way they got angry wasn't a bad thing, their anger was based in how much they care about each other. Like the anger I would feel when one of my dogs ran just a little too far from me and a car was coming - took like fifteen fucking years off my ife istg. But I wasn't angry and screaming at them to make them feel bad, I was angry because I was so fucking scared that they would get hurt. The anger wasn't based in resentment, it was based in love. It's the same here and you can see it.

Jesus, I’m so sorry that happened with one of your dogs. Seriously. That sounds scary AF. I’m glad your dogs are okay.

Their anger isn’t destructive. It just isn’t. That much I’m pretty sure of. They’ve dealt with so much shit, and truly love each too much to actually hurt one another with words at this point. And it’s a good 10 chapters of journey where they deal with one issue after another to effing solve it like adults and not teenagers in throes of passion. I was like, nope! Not doing the passionate way. These two don’t get to be smart enough to get into Stanford and then be dumb like that and scream and yell and be jealous or irrational. It added a few chapters, but if I can be patient, so can be everyone else :P

The story she told about the cactus was not only a brilliant way to show her mindset and how people saw her over the years but also so fucking heartbreaking. On one hand you have this coworker who saw her and thought, "that person needs something low maintenance if they can care for something at all" and on the other - you've got this woman who tries her best to nurture this plant and help it grow and it ends up dying anyway.

That cactus one is inspired by real life event. And it seriously broke my heart to go through. Hoping each day that the last pod might live through :/ Like you said her co-worker wasn’t being mean, but it sucks that the cactus died anyway :(

Girl, you made my morning today. I woke up to your love and I just... you had me speechless. That chapter took a lot out of our branicells and I rewrote it so many times just to get it right for it to be respectful, vulnerable and cathartic at the same time. 

But may I ask you, WHY YOU WERE UP TILL 5:30 in the morning to read it? I have a timestamp thingy going for me, okay? I knew what time it was over there! And you gave yourself a migraine crying? OMG! I am so so sorry :/ Gosh. If I knew, you were going to binge it straight, I’d have warned you!

Seriously, Ria! Thank you seems like a small phrase. I will tell you this, I love you! So much!

[wwounu]

to the moon | wen junhui

—it’s a small world, an even smaller universe, and meeting junhui made it all the worthwhile. through dreams, wishing stars and memorising constellations, with him, everything felt alright.

alternatively, a soulmate au where you can meet and interact with your soulmate in your dreams, though for you, you always meet your soulmate on the moon

pairing: junhui x reader + soulmate!au

word count: 5.3k

warning: mild angst, happy ending

note: so this was the 5.3k mess i’ve been on about a week ago! i can’t remember when i’ve written this much, i’m so exhausted after writing so much... dedicated to @letsseehowhappyyouare ~ i’ll keep my message short to save the emotional-ness, but happy birthday and one year friendship anniversary!! i still remember when you wrote junhui’s name on the window while you were going home, kinda makes me emotional thinking about it hehe... you mean the world to me, i hope you know that! i and junhui (and hao!) love you so so much — thank you for being in my life bella, i hope you stay safe and happy just as you deserve and i hope you enjoy this if you go out drinking i will come and personally fight you istg

The boy on the moon, you recall his name.

You gave him that name upon the first meet, hoping — waiting — for his name to be said. The night was crystal clear like your memory, the air feeling a little different.

Pitch black horizons, auroras, delicate lights you could prick with your finger, a plain surface of grey, that view of the earth that took a while to get used to.

“Beautiful isn’t it,”

His first words were, fascinated as he was confused, sat on the pearl rock as his legs kick themselves.

“What are you standing there for?” Asks he, not turning around to confirm your presence. “Come sit next to me.”

A force pulls you closer to him, legs working themselves to take a seat next to him. The boy sighs contently, staring at the view in front.

“Are you surprised? By me, I mean.”

Closer inspection on him, you note the youthfulness in his eyes, the colour vibrant, skin radiating a slight glow — your friends told you it was the soulmate effect, a made-up term that was usually a slight filter to ‘lure’ you to your fated one.

His face was delicately scattered with tiny moles, cheeks round and bangs falling over his eyes. “No,” you answer, “I’m pretty content with what I see. What about you?”

He shuffles a little, leaning back a little as two fingers reach his chin, processing. His fingers shift to make a rectangle shape like a picture frame.

Staying in that position, his lips curl. “I wish I would take a picture right now.”

With you speechless, he shuffles next to you, staring straight ahead. That hopeless look takes up his face once more, admiring the starry sky.

“You just missed it,” he calmly exclaims, “there was a meteor shower — you should’ve seen it, those don’t happen often.”

“Seems like you know this place pretty well.” You decide to say, fiddling with your fingers.

Only a sad smile plays on his face. “I’ve been waiting for you.”

“I’m guessing you’re older than me?”

The boy nods, “By a few years.”

“How long have you waited?”

“Enough,” his short answer, followed with a soft grin, takes you by surprise. In sorts, it seems almost relaxing; reassuring. “Doesn’t it matter that you’re here with me?”

Your silence serves as an agreement with him, staring down at your planet rotating.

The boy calls your name, causing you to turn. He remained looking forward, eyes fixed to the dark void. By the glance of his arms, he was tense, but his voice remained with a watery flow.

“Happy birthday,” he says quite weakly, “I’m so glad I found you.”

And it faded to black, and you woke up.

Fast forward to two winters later, where the boy on the moon lost his name.

“I don’t know a lot of people who get to meet their soulmate on the moon,” confesses the boy, tufts of hair a faded purple, going through his hair-dye craze.

“Really?”

“Do you know anyone who meets their other half on the moon?”

After some thinking, you shake your head. “Seems like we’re the only ones. It’s our universe.”

“And ours for a long time,” smiles the boy, his grin everlasting, “Y/N and Junhui’s universe… Pretty.”

Before you agreed with him, your heart picks up pace, head turning to your soulmate like an owl. “That’s your name?”

The question’s execution was similar to an exclamation, resulting in Junhui’s face to look as dumbfounded as you. Shyly, he stammers, “I’ve never told you my name?”

“I’ve been waiting since day one,” dazed, you stare at him.

“You should’ve told me…”

“It only took me two years, I’ll be patient.”

You gently punch his arm, leaning to his side. He points out an area of the world where clouds are bundling themselves to create the first snow, observing those areas.

Junhui.

Pretty.

For the boy on the moon, he never understood why there were skies without stars until you came. He connected the dots and realised that for you, they happened without a sky.

But the moment you fluttered your eyes and revealed the celestial scene, you meet eyes with your soulmate’s back, the black void splashed with blue and purple hues, making your world feel less lonelier.

On cue, Junhui turns his head, blonde hair sprinkled with stardust, eyes speaking to you. He stares at you as if he can seep into your consciousness.

At this stage, he doesn’t even need to tell you to come — you just do.

Once sat, he swings his legs. Like routine, he asks, “How are you-“

Your head hides into his chest, a pain too heavy to bear. Tears spill, heavy as they fall and heavier as they drop to Junhui’s shirt.

“Please tell me I’m enough,” a weak plead escapes, “tell me it’s going to be okay, Jun, tell me I’ll be okay…”

Junhui’s hand protectively hugs you, pulling you closer. His other hand rests on your head, playing with strands of your hair. They move, however, coming down to your ear, then delicately tracing your jawline, creeping up your cheek, a thumb caressing tears away.

“You are enough.” Junhui says quietly, loud enough for you to hear. “Say it,”

“Say what?”

“‘I am enough’. I want to hear the words from you.”

“But…” Your voice fades as you take a deep look into Junhui’s eyes, all the reassurance and care within, a galaxy of its own forming. “I… I am enough,” you repeat, frail.

“Again. ‘I am enough’.”

“I am enough,” this time you try to give some energy, tears still forming through saying the words.

Junhui gets closer, noses being hairs-width from touching. “You are enough. Everything will be okay in the end, I’m sorry for everything that’s going on right now, you don’t deserve it. I wish you knew how valued you were, because you are.”

Inhaling a sharp breath, you hold onto Junhui longer, desiring that this dream world of yours could be permanent.

“Do you think I can stay in this dream forever?”

“You’ll have to wake up one day.”

“What if I don’t what to?”

“Sometimes waking up could be for the better… Hey, look.”

You reposition your head to look at the blackness, a shimmering line flying past, tearing that darkness away.

A wishing star.

“It’s a wishing star,” Junhui states, “make a wish.”

Wishing on stars was considered as something childish, though you found yourself with eyes shut, stuck in silence. Opening your eyes, Junhui helps you to sit upright, his hand above yours to reassure his existance.

“What did you wish for?”

I wish that you were my reality; I wish that you were mine.

You gaze at him and he’s gazing back, a rare moment to capture. His eyes slanted, he waits as you process your answer, conflicted.

“Something I can never have,”

“Never?”

“Never.”

“Never ever?” Junhui’s eyes bulge wide.

“Alright, you’re sounding like a child,” groans you in a bad attempt to hide that twitching smile, which Junhui could only grin at.

He looks back at the darkness, fingers tracing the moon’s surface. “Whatever it is, it’ll come true. I know it.”

To be honest, you had some hope too, because this sky without stars turned out having a star after all.

And the wishing star was an added bonus.

It was the first meteor shower that you experienced when the boy on the moon stole something precious.

“I wish we had popcorn,” states Junhui, the show in front taking his breath away, “or would sweets be nice? I’d like something sugary.”

“Junhui, you are seriously a five year old.” You laugh at his childish state, in the same awe as he was in.

The male shrugs, passing the comment with a grin, “And yet you’re still here.”

“Of course I am. I can’t change that… Unless I never sleep-“ Junhui and you begin to ponder that idea, questioning if insomniacs get to see their soulmate often.

It opened up a lot of odd topics.

Soon, you distract your attention to the shower of stars shooting past, every shimmer and twinkle in high definition. Nothing could ever beat a moment like this.

“Beautiful…” Your lips speak for you, immersed in the sparkle of lights.

Junhui nonchalantly replies, “Yeah,” not looking at the meteor shower but at something else, just as dazed as you were, “so beautiful…” His lips spread into a grin as he watches your smile.

“Did you see the constellations over there? It looked a little bit like frog! Jun-“

Turning, your smile dissolves into a choked gasp judging by the close proximity you were to Junhui. Breath hitched, you could only notice the way he was staring at you.

Naturally, your hand moves to thread your fingers between his hair, an ash grey illusioned to look like silver strands peeking under. He nuzzles his head into your hand like a kitten, content with the touch.

You were scared he was going to disappear when his eyes remained closed until they open themselves slowly, more hesitant but trying their best to control his emotions.

“Can…“ He stammers, scared to raise his voice a little higher. “Could I?”

Without a hint of hesitation your head nods, the moment feeling more real than anything in your life; Junhui’s lips kissed against yours.

You learnt a few things through that kiss. Although it felt like practically nothing, the flutters in your chest still erupted, not able to contain themselves. How could an unreal kiss feel so… Real?

It’s one kiss, then another, spreading into small innocent pecks, not knowing how to act afterwards. But you were sure happy.

Like that, years flew with a breeze.

The eclipse was stunning — with the boy on the moon it felt beautiful — but the collision of two celestial bodies meant danger.

He’s all grown up; your boy on the moon has grown up.

Junhui matured — sort of — over time, his life finally waiting to happen in his dream college. He told you everything about it, plans, facilities, teachers, his responsible adult-self being able to buy chocolate bars whenever he wants at 2am.

On the outside, there were things that have changed, but inside? He was still yours.

He still swung his legs every-time he sat down, his expression never changed whenever he saw a rocket or asteroid, he never stopped being clingy either.

You smiled at his every word, comforted him through every cry, laughed at every joke. You knew each other inside and out at this rate, no barriers or obstacles.

Sad truth was, you were growing up.

You weren’t the giddy, head-in-the-clouds high-schoolers anymore, nor die-hard fans of something together because there was nothing else to worry about in the world.

“Care to tell me what’s on your mind?” The male’s chin props against your shoulder.

“You.” You answer, some grey area surrounding the thought, but you didn’t go further.

“About my handsome looks? My amazing charm? My intimidating gaze?” He quickly sits up, squinting his eyes to make a point. Snorting, you push him away slightly.

“Go write yourself a fanfic,” you heave, staring at your planet that you never got used to looking, watching every change and every weather change from a strange viewpoint.

Junhui settles into your side again, trapping you in his arms. “It’s the eclipse today.”

“How do you always know what’s on in the universe every single time?”

“I look at the sky often.” You react with a disapproved look. “It’s true! I love reading about astronomy and stay up to date with the moon’s cycles… Before you say anything, I’m not a nerd, I simply just love the stars!”

You break into laughter, you feel some relief in your chest through how well Junhui knows you, reminiscing old days when you were too shy to speak a single word because he did most of the talking.

“I wasn’t going to say you were a nerd,” by the pout on Junhui’s face, you could tell he was expecting it, “I think dreamer would suit you better.”

“Make that the two of us…” He replies, the kindest smile you’ve ever seen on him. “I’ve wondered what the moon looks like during an eclipse.”

“I’m guessing it’ll be dark, some would say it would be red, wouldn’t it?”

“True… But you’ll be here with me through it all, right?”

Eyes placed on Junhui for a while, your smile wobbles, eyes turning sad as his face begins to turn dark from the eclipse beginning to merge.

“Yes,” you linger on your words, the moon completely sinking into darkness, “yes I will.”

Let’s face it.

The both of you knew at that point that you would never get to cross paths in real life.

Like a blackhole, you and the boy on the moon eventually became nothing.

Come college, and everything seems to spiral downward from there.

Commitments break, people change, sleep isn’t the same anymore — your new life consisted of things you had no choice but to adjust to.

One of them being how often you saw Junhui.

Piece by piece your dreams lasted shorter, on some days you would only get to see him for a bit, on other days, you never got to see him at all.

The pair of you felt like you were at other sides of the moon, an invisible connection saying that you were there, but never going the full way in hopes to save the disappointment later.

That was the problem. You got used to it.

Maybe there would be a day everything will simmer down and go back to the glory days, but it wasn’t happening soon.

Scarily enough, you loved Junhui — so, so much — yet on more recent occasions during the dreams he wouldn’t be in, you began to wonder if he cared as much as you did.

He was your only one from the start, but who knows what goes on during his day, his other life, his real life, the life without you.

And that’s when you wish to turn back the clock. Where you wished that you were by his side through day one, that you could’ve tried to support him more, wishing absurd things such as meeting in real life, or having that once moment where you two are aware that you’re real — wishing to see Junhui in real life to know that it isn’t a dream but real.

That he’s real.

Yet to wish things like only deserved laughter from others.

So every time a wishing star would shoot past, you would wish that Junhui would come back to you soon. You counted each shooting star from them, in your dreams and in real life — 239 and counting — hoping that one day the moon will grant it.

Even if it took the sun a million years to align with the moon to reunite with the boy on the moon, you were always willing to wait for him.

While he used have you in his dreams, the moon always held fractures of him.

It’s been a year, almost two, since you last remembered seeing Junhui. Pieces would always come into your head, though each time would be a bright blur, like being blinded by a light.

You lost your track of sleep since then. On most days, they’d only last for short amounts of time (naps included) — hell, four hours would be a miracle — hence the other reason why you never got to see him.

Whenever you dreamed, he wasn’t there.

One by one your friends united with their soulmates, only leaving you with meeting yours on an empty moon. The space felt bigger when he was gone, stars dimmed their shine — their light fading — his voice quietly echoed in the back of your head each time you came back.

Tonight was like any other; the moon visible from the cold outside you choose to stop and stare at, shivering slightly. Seated on a nearby bench, hands buried in pockets, your mind lingers on the round disco ball in the sky.

Soon, your legs kick and swing up and down, reminding you of a boy who used to do the same. It took some thought, but your eyes met the slivery light against the night sky.

“Hi moon,” you begin talking, cold puffs of air forming at each huff, “how have you been? I haven’t looked at you in a while, it feels weird looking up at you when I’m so used to looking at the earth from there…”

Chuckling to yourself for chatting with an inanimate object, you proceed.

“Do you think that you can do something for me? Pretty please?” You add a pause, as if waiting for a reply, holding in a breath before saying, “I want to send a message to… Well, you know who. I keep wishing and wishing on stars but then I thought to myself, why not ask where it all started? So here I am. Please send this to Junhui, moon... For me.”

First, you clear throat, heart heavier than ever just as the moon becomes your source of focus, hope, a lifeline.

“Junhui, it’s me. It’s been a while. Are you doing okay? I hope you are, I hope you’re the happiest you are right now. Lately I found myself thinking about you again. I can’t sort them into good or bad thoughts, but they’re of you. I wonder if it’s lonely when you dream, I wonder if you live each day happily without me, I wonder if you’re missing me the way I miss you, I… I really miss you.”

Glossy eyes form through the tears threatening to fall, but you couldn’t strip your eyes away from the moon, it was practically killing you. This burden, this guilt, the feelings you selfishly claimed.

“Every time I look at the moon… I think of you. Always. My moon boy — my boy on the moon — so carefree and full of colour, I don’t understand how you do it. The galaxy must love you, because every time you’d be there, their colours shone the most. Remember when it used to be ours? That dream that happened on a winter’s night, the first time I heard your name? It was all ours. Ours. I wanted it to be you and I until the end, but here we are now.”

Although smiling felt bittersweet, you felt the closure was enough for you. The message was coming to end, feelings tied up in a present box, concealed with a pretty ribbon.

“You were the best thing that happened to me; you are the best thing that ever happened to me, Junhui. God, what do I have to do to see you without it feeling so distant, or like a blur… I hate it. I want to see you, I still want you — it’s so hard to breathe — Come back, please, come back to me-“

Hand clutched on your chest, you hide your face to let the tears fall as you try and settle your breaths, the world shaking underneath you. A face stained with tears, you decide to sit up, the glow of the moon still radiating the same shine as before.

“This is where I have to go now. I think that wraps up everything in my head. Thank you Junhui, for being my boy on the moon, for being my moon, for being the whole world I adored. To another life, my love.”

Formally saying goodbye you now stand, walking away.

There was a change in breeze as you continued, the wind directly hitting your eyes, tears forming for a second time. You curse over this, view blocked as your hands roam around your face, aimlessly walking.

But in doing that, your body hits against another, the shove quite powerful that you almost lose balance as you walk past.

You didn’t have any energy to apologise, though the corner of your eye catches the stranger’s body turn, the sound of footsteps approaching closer to you.

“Excuse me,”

A meek voice, belonging to a male figure, makes you turn. The moon captured his features well, even though you didn’t have the confidence to look at him straight in the eye, only noticing the soft hazel hair shine, the luminosity covering a layer of tiny stars within.

“I just wanted to say sorry for that, and…” His voice fades into nothing, “Are you crying?”

Upon that quick statement, you hide your face once more, sniffing. “It’s nothing. It’s, uh, my fault anyway… I was the one who ran into you.”

“Can I do anything for you?”

“No, it’s alright,”

“I don’t know about you, but I have nowhere to go — I won’t be able to sleep well at night knowing I couldn’t help someone who needs it.”

Going over his words carefully, you take the stranger’s offer, convinced that it would ruin his day if you rejected him.

“We can sit, if you want.”

You can imagine the smile on the stranger’s face as you accept his offer, walking to the nearest bench and facing the moon again. Don’t look at it, you warn yourself, it’ll just remind you everything about him again. Alternatively, you keep your eyes concentrated to the floor.

“So…” The stranger begins. “Not to pry on you, you don’t even have to tell me, but what happened? It’s good to let feelings out.”

Focusing on the way he gently kicked his legs, your mind slowly drifts and your mouth automatically answers for you. “Just… Cutting ties with my soulmate. It’s been pretty rough.”

“Didn’t work out?”

“More like I didn’t make an effort to meet in the middle with him… I let my selfish insecurities take over and it ruined everything. He doesn’t deserve someone so cruel. I got so lucky and I ruined my chances.”

Sympathetically, the stranger sighs, humming slightly. “I don’t think you’re cruel.”

“That’s easy to say when you don’t know me.”

“Hey, you recognised and accepted the thing you found wrong in you and knew it was taking an affect in your relationship. To do that is… Admirable. Was he accepting about you wanting to call it off?”

“I…” Your eyelashes bat to the moon, instantly regretting once you whip your head back down. “I didn’t get a response, per se…”

“Well, I think it’s important to see how he responds. He may be accepting towards it, but he might just be hiding the fact that you aren’t thinking about him when he wants to make it work. But I’m no love doctor, you should just give him that chance to speak. I hope everything from then on goes well between you two.”

You can only hum, considering his advice. It was something you needed to hear after a long time.

Rather than giving him a response, you curve the conversation a bit. “You said something about giving help to those needing it… What’s that about?”

An embarrassed laugh slips out of the male and his legs stop swinging, shyly burying his heels into the ground. “This may sound absurd, but I strongly believe in helping out anyone I see. It’s a bit of a personal thing.”

You don’t mean to snort but you do, intrigued with what this man had to say for himself. “Why do you strongly believe it?”

“Because of my soulmate,”

The comment keeps you silent, chest tightening over the words. Needless to say, the stranger went on, now spilling his feelings on the already messy page.

“My soulmate was a dream, honestly. No one in my life accepted me so much and cared for me the way they did, but at some point everything began to change. My soulmate began to change. I knew them so well that I knew something was wrong, but I didn’t want to overthink it. I trusted and waited for them to come to me.”

“Did they?”

“Waiting was my biggest regret. It only made things die over time, I don’t even see my soulmate anymore. It worries me if they’re taking care of themselves. It worries me that they hate me for not asking them for them to break their walls. I never got to help the soulmate I love so much and I feel like dying everyday over the one action I could’ve done to save the both of us… I related to your story so much because all the things I said to you would probably be what I would say to my soulmate — that you shouldn’t carry all the blame, that as long as we build on mistakes, everything will less messy than before… That… That although all of this happened, I don’t hate them. I’m still waiting for the day I can get to say those words.”

You catch a quiet hitch of breath from the stranger, probably holding in his breath to make it unnoticeable that he’s affected by this.

“How long have you been waiting?”

“Enough,” the man lingers, “but for my soulmate, I’ll always wait.” A smile now is placed on his face, you guess, his tone much lighter. “I miss having dreams of stargazing with them and telling dumb facts about the constellations we see,” he sighs, “I’m pretty sure if we were still together, I’d talk the night away about everything I learnt in astronomy.”

“Really? Where do you meet your soulmate when you dream?”

“Ah, you might not believe me…”

“Doubt it.”

“Space.”

“Space?” You jaw mentally drops in your head, a little shocked that you finally met someone who had the same experience as you, but you decide not to add on. “I heard it’s super rare to have dreams in there. Is it always space?”

“Yeah, which is even more rare, because people don’t have their dreams everyday in the galaxy as often as I do.”

“That’s really cool,” you finally finish, the galaxy making you think again, suddenly quiet.

You feel a nudge, only a faint brush, on your shoulder, followed by the man’s voice again, a little sleepy.

“Don’t you think it’s so divine?” He says, the context not involved as you still stare at the floor.

“What is?” Hums you.

“The moon. This is the first time it shone this bright.”

Now lifting your head, you understand the male’s point. The white light looked like a torch light with bits of silver sparkling through. An easy laughs slips out of the other as if his cheeks were permanently stuck.

“Beautiful, isn’t it?”

The blood in your body turns cold. The moon only shone brighter, the scene looking like one that has been stopped in time; as if time had froze.

Scared. You were scared to turn around. The cold blood turns into a rapid heartbeat, guiding its way into your neck, pulse beating at a dangerous rate.

With caution, you slowly move your head to the right, the situation feeling more unreal as you study the man by your side, his tragic love story just as tragic as yours, or what you both thought.

You could already tell it from the voice — it was at a lower octave than when you heard it the first time, but the breath between words, the small pause, the way it ended on a higher tone as if in delight and admiration.

It was captured in his eyes — you worked your way down from his starlit, shimmery brown hair falling over his eyes — the wide eyes staring ahead, eyelashes long and pupils looking glossy, small beauty marks jotted on his face — under his eye, his cheeks, his top lip — enough to create a constellation, his lips, agape, corners curled slightly to expose his grin similar to a child’s, his side profile finishing with a prominent outline from the light source and jaw that lost fat and grew defined.

“You,” you gasp, another pain coming through your chest.

The stranger turns, confused as to what you mean before you get to the point before he does.

Junhui.

“Y/N?” The other stumbles his words, confused.

“It’s-“ You clumsily reach your hands to his face, cupping his cheeks delicately. Although you tried to keep it in, it was too much to bear, let alone understand. “It’s you, you’re real-“

“I’m real, I’m real,” Junhui reassures, teary face looking like he’s feeling the same pain as you do, “I’m here Y/N, it’s okay...”

“Do you know,” you sob, “how much it hurts?”

“I know and it’s alright, we’re here. You and I-“ He chokes up a hiccup, tears rolling down his face hot when he wipes away yours, “God, it hurts ten times more to see you cry, I wish I was there for you — I’m so sorry Y/N-“

In return, you guide your thumbs across his cheek, moving his bangs out of the way and drying his eyes. “No, Junhui, it isn’t your fault okay? You said it, we see our mistakes and move on from them. We let go of what we hold on…”

“You,” chokes Junhui another time, “wanted to cut ties with me? I was waiting for you Y/N, for so long, I couldn’t last a day without you.”

“I’m sorry, I was being selfish with myself again,” You hold Junhui tight, “you were right, I should’ve made one last effort to make this break or make itself again and instead, I cowered out in both options because the pain was too much… Realising it, an unsaid goodbye would’ve been more painful…”

Your hearts remained to beat rapidly, but the tears came out less, leaving two soulmates hugging on a cold bench, silent as the winds blow. There was no explanation as to why you both cried so much — happiness, perhaps? Sadness? — but it felt like a mutual thing between you.

“What do we do now?” Junhui pushes a hair out of your eyes, sadly smiling through dried tears. His tone, shy, asks, “Can we… Make up for the years we’ve missed?”

Without hesitation you nod more than you ever could, pressing your face into Junhui’s chest.

“We can try that,”

After breaking the hug, your number is exchanged with Junhui’s, briefly discussing the chances you’d meet again, hoping you’d meet tomorrow.

Lastly, you had to say your goodbyes. An emotional night; both holding happiness and sadness. Junhui kisses your cheek, silently translating take care despite saying it constantly and reminding you text him.

Bashful of the action, you greet your goodbyes to Junhui, a grin painting your face.

Maybe this time things will mend themselves.

“Y/N?”

Your body turns once you and Junhui are at a distance from each other. He’s glowing, you first observe, in awe that this was real and not some painting.

You’re certain he wasn’t moving his lips, however the gaze from his eyes spoke from themselves, the message strongly radiating to you.

He didn’t need to say anything; he just knew.

Understanding, your head signals the slightest nod, followed with your curling lips before you break the contact, walking away from the events that happened this night.

Going back felt familiar — likewise, this was always considered as your second home — and there he was, sat on the white rocky ground, legs swinging as he memorises his gallery of stars one by one, observing each.

He turns the same way his childish self always has, as if nothing has happened, staring straight into your eyes. A fond expression; warm, sweet, tender. Loving.

Junhui keeps his eyes on you, every memory of you and him coming back to him. He’s waited for so long, it was time he had his happy ending.

“You’re here,”

Junhui can only smile.

“I never left.”

The boy on the moon had found his universe once more.

[kawaiijellymonster]

The biggest flaw in soulmate aus in when theyre like “awe i have this mark but chances are ill never find the person who has this exact mark” kuz istg just put a pic of that shit on instagram or that universes equivalent and scroll throught the “soulmark” hashtag a few minutes every day to find your soulmate, easy, tech forward, brilliant