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Self-inserts (long post)

So, since we (you and I, Sam) have discussed this topic, I thought it’d be ✨fun✨ and a bit daredevil-like to publically share my (possibly controversial) opinions on self-inserts in writing, because stirring up shit is my main, if not only, talent in life.

To be entirely honest, I don’t mind self-inserts too much, and I think it’s outright depressing that so many people in the writing community actively shun it. In some ways, I think it carries notions of being hypocritical, because writing a character will always (to an extent) be a reflection or projection of yourself, whether you want to admit it or not. (It’s something else if your self-insert is poorly written, then it’s understandable if there’s a lack of interest in interacting, lol).

But basically, even if someone is writing a canon muse from a fictional world, they cannot convince me, they’re not writing them because they can’t at all somehow relate to, or empathise with whatever version they’ve fabricated of the character in their own mind. Because everything written essentially tells a story about the author too — how they interpret and perceive people with these specific kinds of traits.

Also, if someone claims they’ve never written a character as self-insert at some point in their life, I feel like they’d be lying directly to my face. Because at the center of every piece of writing, there will always be you. It’s inescapable, and as much as someone may wish, anything written by them can never not be detached from their own point of view.

All fictional works are in my opinion self-inserts. Maybe you’re writing a character that you wish to be, or look like. A glorified version of yourself, or you if you were the opposite gender or another ethnicity. You if you were an outlaw or worked in a specific field. You if you were born a high-elf in a magical forest. You if you were athletic or popular etc.

If the written character is not an imaginary, suppressed, selectively isolated or exaggerated part of yourself, then how the fuck would you even be able to write them to begin with? “Oh, but I wouldn’t ever kill anyone like my character!” Babe, I’m sure we’ve all at some point felt like we wanted to bomb society because of all the injustices of this world, or literally been seeing red to the point of wishing to commit unspeakable crimes. (I’m sure if you have siblings or been bullied, you’re familiar with that feeling). It’s just that most people (luckily) have enough self-control to not make that a reality.

If your character kills for fun, and you tell me you’d never do that, let me tell you: During world war II, the Japanese conducted some of the most heinous human experiments heard of in history on Chinese captives. They did that without displaying an ounce of empathy, because they didn’t view them as human, but bugs to play with. It was absolutely horrendous. Anyway, my point is that it’s 100% possible for people to “shut down” the part of their brain that controls empathy, or become brainwashed to the point of believing that people with a specific demography or background aren’t like them. It’s the same kind of mindset that you (or your character) woule be applying here. The direct opposite of having a parasocial relationship, I’d say.

Okay, sorry, that was a sidetrack. Well, personally I support any form of creative self-expression and exploration, whether it be labelled ‘self-insert’ or not. I think it should be celebrated rather than condemned. The main issue that can occur with these ‘self-inserts’, of course, is when people aren’t mature enough to be able to separate ic from ooc interactions, but perhaps the solution to that would be to address such boundaries accordingly. (I guess kind of like when people do aftercare after participating in rough plays in the bedroom, but like the opposite if that makes sense, lmao? Maybe we call it reality check instead, lol).

(But honestly, how many people haven’t fallen in love and become a couple irl, because they started out roleplaying online? Surprisingly, more than you might think! I did a bit of desktop research, and a childhood friend of mine recently disclosed to me that she met her husband through roleplaying as hobby! I was like damn).

Back to the topic of self-inserts. Anyway, please, if you’re someone who view yourself as… I don’t know… superior because you’re supposedly not writing a self-insert, please get down from your high horse, champ. Self-inserts are unavoidable — unpreventable — so stop thinking you’re better. You’re goddamn not, and it clearly suggests an unsupportive attitude and lack of deeper self-awareness.

Aaaaand, now I take a deep breath, because of course, my inner Chiyori is coming out to remind me to display understanding and patience too, because argh, it’s sad that people don’t really know any better — how should they, anyway? I, too, used to be an uninformed sheep who simply followed the herd until I realized how toxic the world we live in still are.

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She’s the type who never makes her bed.

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wishlist (updated: october 25, 2024)

genres

hurt/comfort

angst/tragedy

slice of life

absurdity/comedy (not crack)

survival (battle royale or squid game-like scenarios)

coming of age

budding romance

dynamics/tropes

master/guard dog

wolf/bunny (x)

mutual pinning

star-crossed lovers

and they were roommates

just two idiots

friends to lovers

childhood friends

aus/other

group roleplays

squid game/the hunger games/battle royale au

fantasy au

vampire au

omegaverse au (has to be discussed though)

college au

zombie apocalypse au

royal au

specific scenarios/events

airplane trip

beach trip

hot springs visit

ski trip

going on vacations in general

first times (first kiss, first date, first time doing the deed etc.)

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'Cause it's a knife when you're finally on top 'Cause logically the next step is they wanna see you fall to the bottom

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"if you're guilty, i'm guilty ."

Fillory & Further Sentence Starters | Accepting

So rarely, Chiyori would ask anyone of favours, so rarely she’d entrust anyone with herself, let alone the growing struggles that she faced. Calling it a favour, perhaps, was a stretch even, because placing such a responsibility on a 17-year-old boy could hardly be considered a favour in the first place.

In its very own sense, it was probably considered more of a curse than anything else. A burden even, one Chiyori wished she hadn’t felt the need to put onto her kohai. Though, who else existed that could handle it? No one else, Chiyori thought, her inner voice filling with a sense of regret, because ultimately it wasn’t fair. Not to her kohai. Not to anyone.

At Yuuta-kun’s words, Chiyori paused simply, amber gaze shifting downwards, jaw tightening. There was an aura of weariness about her, dark circles under her eyes from the many sleepless nights she’d had to endure; voices and nightmares haunting her like vengeful spirits. She could barely remember the last time she’d had a proper night’s rest.

It’d come to the point, where even in her waking hours, horrid images would flash before her vision. And there were whispers, whispers, whispers in the back of her mind, telling her to give up; to let go control, to release the abominations that she held trapped inside of her very soul like inmates. These days, it barely felt like she could hold onto the tearing ropes that somehow still kept them secured within their confines.

And the sorceress thought about his words for a while, hand tensing around his shoulder from when she’d pushed him against the wall. Guilt. Why had Yuuta-kun had voiced it like that? Like it was some kind of shared feeling between them — as if it was a shared fault when it wasn’t? And she would object to it, vehemently… though didn’t. Didn’t have it in her to argue with his unbending nature right now. Instead, she remained silent. It’d been hard enough to make him promise to do everything in his power to stop her if things ever went out of hand.

Her gaze remained fixed on the ground. Truly, Chiyori didn’t know what to tell him. “I…” She began slowly as she backed away, hand slipping off his shoulder. She wasn’t sure about the appropriate thing to say here — the right thing. Even if she reassured her kohai, it likely wouldn’t make him feel less different, would it? Could she blame him for it even? Not really, she thought, because had Chiyori been in his shoes, she likely would’ve reacted in a similar manner. Then, she lowered her defenses, shoulders dropping in defeat as she whispered: “I’m sorry, Yuuta-kun…” There existed no other real solution to this, did there?

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(( Oh yeah, let me know if you want to plot, or discuss dynamics. Chiyori will react differently to situations based on her age. So, if there’s a specific genre we want to write, she can be easily accommodated. ))

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THE SOUNDS OF NIGHTMARES SENTENCE STARTERS .

a collection of roleplay / writing prompts , lifting quotes from " the sounds of nightmares " podcast based in the little nightmares universe .

" the look on your face says there's more on your mind . "

" would you like to talk about it ? "

" how are you feeling today ? "

" do you remember your nightmares ? "

" i remember ... everything . "

" i'm not sure that's true . "

" i woke up somewhere i didn't belong . "

" i don't quite follow . "

" can you try to explain ? "

" you can't understand . not unless you were there . "

" hey ! where are we ?! "

" they aren't children . not at all . "

" my mind was divided , and that's not fair to you . "

" everything is going to get worse from here . "

" help me ! please help me ! "

" who brought me here ? "

" i'll do everything i can to help you . "

" there's nothing bad inside you . nothing . "

" we're in this together . "

" take your pick . "

" sweets for my sweet . "

" do you know a way out of here ? "

" what are you working on ? "

" we're friends . friends tell each other things . "

" i'll play with you . "

" don't overdo it . "

" you were right there ! don't tell me you did nothing ! "

" you're upset with me , aren't you ? "

" are you going to leave ? like all the others ? "

" whatever you desire , it's yours . "

" everyone needs someone . "

" don't leave me alone ! "

" are you still angry with me ? "

" i'll protect you . "

" i hate being alone . "

" i understand more than you think . "

" you mean to escape , don't you ? "

" you're being unfair . "

" i can't help you if you hide things from me . "

" why did you bring me here ? "

" what do you want ? "

" why didn't you tell me ? "

" you promised me . "

" i don't feel like talking . "

" you never listen . "

" we can face these monsters together . "

" i need you . "

" i have nothing more to give . "

" take my hand again . "

" you abandoned me . "

" the more time you spend with someone , the harder it becomes to hide who you really are . "

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🐝  *  ―  𝑻𝑾𝑶 𝑾𝑶𝑹𝑫 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  act natural.  ❜ ❛  be careful.  ❜ ❛  but why?  ❜ ❛  calm down.  ❜ ❛  come here.  ❜ ❛  do you?  ❜ ❛  don't ask.  ❜ ❛  don't cry.  ❜ ❛  don't go.  ❜ ❛  don't move.  ❜ ❛  for what?  ❜ ❛  good idea.  ❜ ❛  guess what?  ❜ ❛  hurry up.  ❜ ❛  i forgot.  ❜ ❛  it's nothing.  ❜ ❛  join me.  ❜ ❛  keep quiet.  ❜ ❛  leave it.  ❜ ❛  let's go.  ❜ ❛  not bad.  ❜ ❛  not now.  ❜ ❛  now what?  ❜ ❛  shut up.  ❜ ❛  take care.  ❜ ❛  take this.  ❜ ❛  that's impossible.  ❜ ❛  then when?  ❜ ❛  think quickly.  ❜ ❛  time's up.  ❜ ❛  try me.  ❜ ❛  wake up.  ❜ ❛  watch out!  ❜ ❛  well done.  ❜ ❛  what happened?  ❜ ❛  what now?  ❜ ❛  who knows?  ❜ ❛  why me?  ❜ ❛  your turn.  ❜ ❛  you're wrong.  ❜

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noticing.

"You're really happy."

"Your laugh is so... I missed it."

"So when did you meet them?"

"Hey. Want to talk about it?"

"That's not your usual order."

"I didn't think you liked (item/flavour)."

"Since when?"

"You're in loooove."

"Those scars... [Name]."

"How long have you been hiding it?"

"It's your favourite."

"I thought I'd find you here."

"This is your spot, right?"

"When you're upset, you do this... disappearing thing. You're doing it right now."

"Where did you go?"

"How are you feeling?"

being noticed.

"How did you find me?"

"It's been a pretty great day."

"I didn't know you knew that."

"That's... my favourite."

"Yeah, I've... I think I met someone."

"It's not like that!"

"It's just -- I fell."

"Oh my god. Lay off, okay?"

"I like to come here when I need to think."

"I don't know. Just needed some air."

"How do you notice this stuff?"

"You're not my mum/dad/parent."

"I didn't think anyone was coming."

"I didn't know if you'd actually show up."

"Thank you, by the way."

"Thank you, for being here."

"I don't know what I would have done if I'd been alone tonight."

"Better. Now that you're here."

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tell my muse what your muse thinks of mine on anon! Anything goes!

bonus points if you leave little hints

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(( New era, new theme. ))

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𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 .    (  a  collection  of  100  nonverbal  action  prompts .   mature  and  potentially  triggering  themes  are  present .   add  “ + reverse ”  to  swap  assigned  roles . )

∗ o1﹕ sender  tucks  hair  out  of  receiver’s  face . ∗ o2﹕ sender  offers  receiver  a  bite  from  their  fork . ∗ o3﹕ sender  places  their  feet / legs  in  receiver's  lap . ∗ o4﹕ sender  offers  receiver  an  earbud  to  share  their  music . ∗ o5﹕ sender  comforts  receiver  in  the  aftermath  of  a  nightmare . ∗ o6﹕ sender  gives  receiver  company  in  the  hospital . ∗ o7﹕ sender  wraps  their  arms  around  a  hysterical  receiver  to  calm  them . ∗ o8﹕ sender  shows  up  at  receiver’s  home  late  at  night . ∗ o9﹕ sender  falls  asleep  leaning  against  receiver . ∗ 1o﹕ sender  wields  a  [ gun / knife ]  at  receiver . ∗ 11﹕ sender  runs  their  fingers  through  receiver’s  hair . ∗ 12﹕ sender  invites  receiver  to  dance . ∗ 13﹕ sender  takes  a  [ picture / video ]  of  receiver . ∗ 14﹕ sender  places  their  head  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 15﹕ sender  and  receiver  make  eye  contact  across  a  busy  room . ∗ 16﹕ sender  pushes  receiver  against  a  wall  to  kiss  them . ∗ 17﹕ sender  and  receiver  cook  together . ∗ 18﹕ sender  comes  to  receiver  after  being  injured . ∗ 19﹕ sender  sits  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 2o﹕ sender  lifts  receiver's  chin ,  invoking  eye  contact . ∗ 21﹕ sender  overtakes  receiver  in  combat . ∗ 22﹕ sender  finds  receiver  [ injured / bloodied ] . ∗ 23﹕ sender  straightens  an  article  of  receiver’s  clothes . ∗ 24﹕ sender  crawls  into  bed  with  receiver . ∗ 25﹕ sender  rolls  their  eyes  at  receiver . ∗ 26﹕ sender  lights  receiver’s  [ cigarette / joint ] . ∗ 27﹕ sender  is  caught  wearing  receiver's  clothes . ∗ 28﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  with  a  pillow . ∗ 29﹕ sender  writes  a  note  on  receiver’s  skin :  [ note ] . ∗ 3o﹕ sender  wraps  a  blanket  around  receiver’s  shoulders . ∗ 31﹕ sender  runs  and  jumps  into  receiver’s  arms . ∗ 32﹕ sender  shoves  receiver  out  of  anger . ∗ 33﹕ sender  hovers  over  receiver’s  shoulder  as  they  complete  a  task . ∗ 34﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  somewhere  they  shouldn’t  be . ∗ 35﹕ sender  curls  up  against  receiver  in  their  sleep . ∗ 36﹕ sender  is  found  drunk  by  receiver . ∗ 37﹕ sender  throws  an  item  of  sentiment  bitterly  at  receiver . ∗ 38﹕ sender  joins  receiver  in  the  shower . ∗ 39﹕ sender  is  caught  following  receiver . ∗ 4o﹕ sender  traces  one  of  receiver’s  [ scars / bruises ] . ∗ 41﹕ sender  twines  their  fingers  with  receiver’s . ∗ 42﹕ sender  barges  into  receiver’s  home  unannounced . ∗ 43﹕ sender  kicks  receiver’s  shin  beneath  a  table . ∗ 44﹕ sender  aggressively  shoves  past  receiver . ∗ 45﹕ sender  kisses  receiver’s  [ forehead / cheek ] . ∗ 46﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  out  of  harm’s  way . ∗ 47﹕ sender  is  found  sobbing  by  receiver . ∗ 48﹕ sender  locks  receiver  out  of  their  room . ∗ 49﹕ sender  brings  receiver  [ coffee / tea ]  in  the  morning . ∗ 5o﹕ sender  rests  their  forehead  against  receiver’s . ∗ 51﹕ sender  plays  a  song  for  receiver  that  reminds  them  of  them :  [ song ] . ∗ 52﹕ sender  takes  a  [ punch / stab / bullet ]  meant  for  receiver . ∗ 53﹕ sender  buys  receiver  a  drink  at  a  bar . ∗ 54﹕ sender  needs  receiver’s  help  getting  in  the  bath . ∗ 55﹕ sender  and  receiver  cross  paths  in  the  kitchen  late  at  night . ∗ 56﹕ sender  twists  receiver’s  arm  behind  their  back . ∗ 57﹕ sender  winks  at  receiver . ∗ 58﹕ sender  is  found  collapsed  by  receiver . ∗ 59﹕ sender  prevents  an  injured  receiver  from  getting  up . ∗ 6o﹕ sender  claps  a  hand  over  receiver’s  mouth  to  silence  them . ∗ 61﹕ sender  cages  receiver  against  a  [ wall / the floor ]  with  their  arms . ∗ 62﹕ sender  storms  away  from  receiver  during  an  argument . ∗ 63﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  sleeping  in  receiver’s  bed . ∗ 64﹕ sender  [ applies / touches up ]  receiver’s  makeup . ∗ 65﹕ sender  throws  receiver  into  a  wall  during  combat . ∗ 66﹕ sender  dances  sensually  with  receiver . ∗ 67﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  across  the  face . ∗ 68﹕ sender  places  their  hand  on  receiver’s  leg  while  driving . ∗ 69﹕ sender  pulls  a  chair  out  from  under  receiver . ∗ 7o﹕ sender  catches  receiver’s  wrist  when  they  turn  to  leave . ∗ 71﹕ sender  leaves  an  intimate  mark  on  receiver . ∗ 72﹕ sender  beats  receiver  in  a  video  game . ∗ 73﹕ sender  and  receiver  stand  in  stunned  silence  after  a  fight . ∗ 74﹕ sender  cares  for  receiver  while  they’re  sick . ∗ 75﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  on  a  hike . ∗ 76﹕ sender  is  caught  snooping  in  receiver’s  things . ∗ 77﹕ sender  and  receiver  cuddle  while  watching  television . ∗ 78﹕ sender  throws  something  aggressively  at  receiver . ∗ 79﹕ sender  creeps  up  behind  receiver  to  scare  them . ∗ 8o﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  shopping  together . ∗ 81﹕ sender  helps  receiver  [ dye / style ]  their  hair . ∗ 82﹕ sender  draws  receiver  into  a  kiss  by  the  back  of  their  neck . ∗ 83﹕ sender  is  discovered  having  a  panic  attack  by  receiver . ∗ 84﹕ sender  accidentally  injures  receiver  during  sparring . ∗ 85﹕ sender  grabs  receiver  roughly  by  the  hair . ∗ 86﹕ sender  brings  receiver  to  their  knees  during  combat . ∗ 87﹕ sender  shows  receiver  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ∗ 88﹕ sender  winks  [ seductively / mockingly ]  at  receiver . ∗ 89﹕ sender  yells  at  receiver  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air . ∗ 9o﹕ sender  helps  receiver  patch  up  a  wound . ∗ 91﹕ sender  holds  receiver  as  they  cry . ∗ 92﹕ sender  silently  and  angrily  points  receiver  towards  the  door . ∗ 93﹕ sender  gestures  for  receiver  to  sit  down . ∗ 94﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  into  their  lap . ∗ 95﹕ sender  cradles  receiver’s  face . ∗ 96﹕ sender  tackles  receiver  out  of  the  way  of  danger . ∗ 97﹕ sender  has  hidden  an  injury  from  receiver ,  and  receiver  finds  out . ∗ 98﹕ sender  confronts  receiver  about  their  unhealthy  behavior . ∗ 99﹕ sender  proposes  to  receiver . ∗ 1oo﹕ sender  has  just  died ,  receiver  finds  out .

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"I don't mind pop music," Chiyori returned in earnest, a subtle smile on her lips as she let Jangmi-chan lead the way outside, arm extended in front of her as she followed behind the pinkette. In fact, Chiyori much preferred listening to pop music. Their upbeat songs usually made her feel good and would put her in the mood to dance around. “It has to be good pop music though,” she added then. “Like Taylor Swift or YOASOBI”.

Jangmi laughed softly, shaking her head in a way that said I knew it. "Well~ I like to go to places with pop music, but if that's not your style, just let me know. There are a few different clubs packed in the same area." With a grin, she reached back to grab hold of Chiyori's nearest hand and began to lead the way out of her apartment to the subway station. She flashed Chiyori an expectant look as they walked, hoping she would weigh in on the idea of dancing to pop music all night.

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ROSÉ & Bruno Mars — APT.

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Update: JJK OC —> Fandomless OC

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jesus , you didn't tell me you were dangerous . (from vitya?)

Fillory & Further Sentence Starters | Accepting

“You were underestimating me, weren’t you?” The half-vampire was sounding surpisingly calm as she glanced down at the hunter. A small pout was visible on her face as she kept him pinned to the ground. She was straddling his lower back, forcibly restraining him by keeping his arms locked behind him.

While the fight, admittedly, hadn’t been entirely smooth sailing, the young hybrid couldn’t help but appear slightly disappointed about the outcome of it anyway, even if the purpose had been to simply test her strength.

Results? Well, In terms of power, Chiyori didn’t quite match that of a pureblood vampire, but the output had still been rather unexpected — enough take on a full-grown man by herself despite her size. Not what one would’ve expected of a rather ordinary-looking woman. However, it probably would’ve been more of a challenge if her sparring partner had chosen not to hold back.

“Please, don’t do that, Viktor,” Chiyori added simply, intonation gentle despite the request. Though, she had no real intention of hurting him, she decided to press her weight further into his restrained form. She was obviously trying to prove a point here. Because, well… it worried her — if things went awry, and Viktor couldn’t stop her, who could then?