#is this what katie feels like 110% of the time

[the-way-astray]

i'm getting keefe asks at a faster rate than i can answer them

[alesandraelin]

𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚒𝚍, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚔𝚒𝚍 - 𝙰𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚆𝙵𝙲 𝚡 𝚃𝚎𝚎𝚗!𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛

Description: reader's parents kicked her out and she is struggling. The team is always there for her.

awfc x teen!reader Kim Little x teen!reader

*Homophobic parents, self worth issues, angst with a happy ending

Kim was the first to notice. Kim is always the first to notice if something is wrong, especially when it is something to do with her protégé.

The sun was barely peeking over the horizon when Y/n trudged onto the football field, her heart heavy with the weight of the previous night's events. Her parents' harsh words still echoed in her mind, each syllable a reminder of the home she no longer had. The field, usually a place of solace and escape, felt foreign and unwelcoming today. She tried to shake off the feeling, but it clung to her like a second skin.

As the team gathered for their morning warm-up, Y/n forced a smile, hoping it would mask the turmoil inside. Her teammates chatted animatedly, their laughter ringing out in the crisp morning air. Y/n moved through her stretches mechanically, her mind elsewhere. She was grateful for the routine, something familiar to hold onto amidst the chaos.

Jonas blew the whistle, signaling the start of a new drill. This one involved quick footwork and passing accuracy, requiring each player to move swiftly between cones while maintaining control of the ball. Y/n took her position, determined to push through the haze of her thoughts. She moved with the group, her feet dancing around the cones, but her usual grace was missing. The ball slipped away from her, rolling out of bounds.

"Come on, Y/n! Keep your head in the game!" Jonas called out, his voice carrying across the field.

Y/n nodded, forcing herself to concentrate. She retrieved the ball, her cheeks flushed with embarrassment. As she resumed the drill, she caught sight of Viv and Beth, her teammates and a couple, working together seamlessly. Their movements were in sync, a testament to their understanding of each other both on and off the field. Y/n felt a pang of envy mixed with admiration. The ease with which they expressed their love was something she had always longed for, yet it was the very thing that had driven a wedge between her and her family.

Nearby, Katie and Caitlin, another couple on the team, were laughing as they practiced passing the ball back and forth. Their joy was infectious, and Y/n couldn't help but smile despite herself. Yet, the sight also served as a stark reminder of her own situation. While her teammates were embraced for who they were, she had been shunned by her own family for loving women. The injustice of it all gnawed at her, threatening to overwhelm her composure.

Jonas called for a water break, and Y/n gratefully took the opportunity to catch her breath. She sat on the grass, sipping from her water bottle, trying to steady her racing heart. Kyra and Vic had both attempted to talk to the girl only to be met with annoyed mumbles and blank stares. Teyah got the same treatment when she tried.

Kim watched on with a frown on her face, Jen coming to check on what she was so worried about.

"Just look at her, it like every bit of light has been sucked out of her. I can't bear it." Kim sighed as she watched you zone out, kicking at the ground aimlessly.

"You know her better than anyone Kimmy, go talk to her after practice." Jen encourages before they are all called back onto the pitch.

Training didn't get any better for the remainder of the day. Poor passes, sloppy in possession and way off target when shooting. It just wasn't good enough and Y/n knew that. The words of her parents from the previous night going through her head with every failed attempt on goal, every time she lost possession by making a silly mistake.

All the girls saw it, they noticed how sloppy her play had become. A stark contrast to her normal 110% effort every time she trained. It worried them all. They all made an effort to try and boost her up with pats on the back and words of encouragement but they were met with silence and no improvement.

Training ended as the afternoon air came in. The girl made their way off the pitch and back into the locker room. Y/n lingered back as she watched them all converse. Beth & Viv walked hand in hand into the locker room in front of y/n. This made her chest pang, it was jealousy, it was longing, it was sadness.

All the girls chatted as they got changed and packed up their stuff whilst y/n sat in her cubby trying her best not to cry. She was approached by Leah who knelt down to her height in her cubby.

"You alright chick?" The blonde asked, her brows furrowed in worry.

Y/n looked up at Leah, putting a small smile on. "I'm alright, I slept really rough last night thats all, I'm sorry for not being at by best today Lee."

"Don't apologise y/n, we all have off days. Try and get some sleep so we can get our happy girl back yeah?" Leah patted the girls shoulder as she stood up to go home.

With Leah gone, y/n looked around the locker room spotting no one there, she let her guard down and broke. Tears streamed down her face as she replayed the harsh words of the night before. Her parents' anger and disappointment had cut deep, leaving her feeling raw and exposed. She hugged her knees to her chest, seeking comfort in the small, enclosed space she had created for herself.

What y/n didn't know was Kim hung around to talk to Jonas about something and had just reentered the change rooms as y/n was crying. Kim quickly made her way over to the small girl, wrapping her arms around her, pulling her close.

"Y/n?" Kim's voice was gentle, filled with concern. "What's going on sweetheart?"

Y/n quickly sat up, wiping the tears away from her eyes. "I'm fine, just tired." She tried so reason as her voice cracked and tears continued to well in her eyes.

Kim shook her head, squeezing her a little tighter. "You don't have to pretend with me. I can tell something's wrong. Do you want to talk about it?"

Y/n hesitated, the words lodged in her throat. But the kindness in Kim's eyes coaxed them out. "My parents... they kicked me out last night. I finally worked up the courage to come out. They don't love me anymore Kim." The last sentence broke her as she cried again.

Kim's heart ached at the vulnerability in Y/n's voice. She reached out, placing a reassuring hand on Y/n's back. "I'm so sorry, Y/n. That must be incredibly painful."

Y/n nodded, her tears flowing freely now. "I just don't understand why they can't accept me. Seeing everyone else so happy and accepted... it just makes it hurt more."

Kim nodded, understanding the depth of Y/n's pain. "You deserve to be loved and accepted for who you are. And you are, Y/n. By all of us."

Y/n looked up, her eyes searching Kim's face for reassurance. "But where do I go now? I don't have anywhere else, I'm 17 I just want my parents."

Kim's expression softened further, her resolve clear. "You can stay with me, as long as you need. You're not alone. The team loves you and I love you. You are so incredibly brave and strong."

The offer hung in the air, a lifeline extended in Y/n's darkest moment. Gratitude surged through her, mingling with the sadness. "Thank you, Kim. I don't know what I'd do without you."

Kim smiled, her own eyes misty with emotion. "We're a team, Y/n. We look out for each other. Arsenal is a family. You're part of our family."

Y/n leaned into Kim's side, drawing comfort from the warmth and solidarity. The locker room, once a place of routine, had become a sanctuary—a space where she could be herself without fear of judgment.

"You're so strong, Y/n," Kim continued, her voice steady. "And we'll get through this together. You've got a whole team behind you, ready to support you every step of the way."

[fictionz]

I posted 1,417 times in 2022

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316 posts created (22%)

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I tagged 1,189 of my posts in 2022

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#video games - 110 posts

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#horror - 54 posts

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#this is what a deceiver offers you as they come upon you shivering in the frost fields after you've passed through the dresser in the attic

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Pardon me while I think about how much I love Outer Wilds.

136 notes - Posted May 1, 2022

#4

341 notes - Posted July 25, 2022

#3

Good for drama, bad for everything else.

665 notes - Posted July 11, 2022

#2

Time loop video games and why we love (or hate) them

Some essays about time loops in video games:

“Time Loop Narratives Are About Love” by katy (cw: incest)

“Growth is a genuine change in you. Growth is seeing the world differently than you did before because you’re someone different now.”

Games highlighted: The Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask, DEATHLOOP, Twelve Minutes, Oxenfree

“Time loops are a weird genre for an anxious time” by Jenna Stoeber and Polygon

“Part of why they’re regaining popularity is because the world is a mess and we either don’t know how or don’t have the power to fix it.”

Games highlighted: The Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask, Elsinore, Outer Wilds, Undertale, Inscryption, The Stanley Parable, The Forgotten City, Twelve Minutes

“Time Loop Nihilism” by Jacob Geller (cw: graphic violence and incest)

“I eventually came to realize, if I’m going to do this all again, if there are few real consequences for failure... why would I play in a way that’s so boring?”

Games highlighted: DEATHLOOP, Dishonored, Hitman 3, Bloodborne, Twelve Minutes

"Clockwork Games and Time Loops" by Game Maker’s Toolkit

“Every decision you make matters because you’re always spending your most precious currency: time.”

Games highlighted: Outer Wilds, Dead Rising, The Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask, The Sexy Brutale, Elsinore, Minit, Vision Soft Reset, Twelve Minutes, DEATHLOOP, Hitman 2, Deus Ex: Human Revolution

"Why Time Loops Work Best in Video Games" by Extra Credits

“Failure doesn’t feel like an inconvenience or a punishment, but is instead a natural and necessary part of the story.”

Games highlighted: Elsinore, The Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask, Undertale, DEATHLOOP, Returnal

"The Problem with Time Loop Games | 12 Minutes Analysis" by Ozzy II (cw: graphic violence and incest)

“This is the point I was talking about earlier, where the first half of the game is just worthless.”

Games highlighted: The Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask, Outer Wilds, Twelve Minutes, The Sexy Brutale

“Dying Rules in Time Loop Games” by Inside Gaming

“When the sun began to glow and implode, I knew I had no choice but to put down whatever I was doing and accept what was about to happen.”

Games highlighted: Outer Wilds, Into the Breach, Minit, Twelve Minutes, DEATHLOOP, The Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask

"The Best Time Loop Games" by The Gadget Show

“Its black-and-white design and funny writing make this one memorable way longer than the minute it takes to complete a loop.”

Games highlighted: DEATHLOOP, Outer Wilds, The Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask, Minit, Elsinore

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[bisluthq]

The Vibes I Get From Taylor's Exes:

I get a passionate vanilla vibe from Travis like you do. I also kind of get it from Jake. Like I can't see him being into anything that weird, but whatever he is into he's SUPER into.

I get a "was that good for you?" Vibe from purity ring era Joe. He's said that he's into leather and shit but the idea of JOE JONAS trying to be dominate genuinely makes me laugh. I also kind of get a "was that good for you" vibe from Martin, except HE really thinks it was even though he was absolutely no idea what he's doing.

Calvin just seems like an asshole. A hot one (at the time he dated Taylor) but still. I don't think you were far off with your sex doll comparison from way back. Feel like the dude's ROUGH.

I have for the longest time gotten very small dick energy/bad at fucking energy from Harry. He seems to love eating pussy, but I just don't think he's good at fucking it, yk? I feel like he just kinda... Lies there. I know you've mentioned the shit about the animal roleplay and shit, and honestly I buy that. I quite honestly find him quite strange. Now that I'm thinking about it I kind of get the feeling he isn't that into PIV.

Taylor Lautner seems like he would be the most boring lay of all time. Like he's apparently a nice boyfriend, but I genuinely feel like eating pussy would feel too risque for him. A lot of people think/thought he was really hot so he never had to like... Learn how to get them off. Do yk what I mean? Has never had sex outside of his bedroom or the missionary position (not that there's anything wrong with that, this is just speculation).

Tom seems like he would be VERY into the whole "love-making" thing. I also feel like he would be like... Subby. I cannot see him being dominant at all. I feel like he was quite literally kissing Taylor's feet as she walked him all over the globe. He's like the anti/twin of Matty. So willing to do so much shit that it's almost concerning but he is not suggesting ANY of it.

Joe seems quite bland, but like idk the guy, and based on the songs he's life changing. I don't know if that's fully true though. Just feel like he was the right combination of "knows what he's doing/isn't an asshole about it" for her at the time. Also I feel like you can only be so horny on main about a dude you're no longer fucking, which to me explains why we didn't get anything to reputation levels of horny til reputation.

John is weird. He's a weird dude but I think he was the range to be quite good. He seems to go on a lot about how long sex with him takes "this is bound to be a while/fake love for an hour or so" and according to Katy he's really good, and Jessica said he made her feel "sexually powerful" because he was so obsessed with her and her body (ya body is a wonderland). I feel like if he's really into you he's really into fucking you and will be like attentive and shit and will then pat himself on the back for getting you off, and will in turn expect that you blow him for the rest of time. if he doesn't like you I genuinely feel like he'll pull a Leo and "fantasize" as he talked about in Playboy/Rolling Stone. In which case he will just.. not treat you like a person. Feel like he'd been the kind of dude to be like "why would you break up with me when I'm THIS great (in the sack).

There are no limits to what Matty Healy does in bed. I personally choose to believe that when they were fucking Taylor was very aggressive because the idea of him being treated like shit makes me smile. I really don't want to think about what they were getting up to.

Conor was like a... A literal child so, obviously it wasn't great. But she wasn't there for the cock, she was there for the connections & the compound xx

This made me smile so hard (not quite ijbol because there were nuggets there that made me go “huh I guess”) but tbh I could’ve written this also. Endorsed 110%.

[helloyoucreatives]

Breast Cancer Now, the UK’s leading breast cancer research and support charity, is releasing a powerful and emotional film portraying the reality of living with incurable secondary breast cancer. In the film, titled ‘If I had more time’, nine women share the ways they would spend more precious time if they could, highlighting the urgent need for more research to extend people’s lives.

The film explores what it feels like to live with a secondary breast cancer diagnosis and the one word that lingers in the minds of those affected - “If” - as they look to an uncertain future and the precious moments that they may tragically be deprived of by this disease. 

Breast Cancer Now is working tirelessly to change the outlook for people living with incurable secondary breast cancer, recognising research as the one ‘currency’ that holds the potential to ‘buy’ them more time with loved ones and to do the things that matter to them. And with an estimated 61,000 people in the UK currently living with the disease, there is no time to waste in making this happen. 

Created by creative agency BMB, the “If I had more time” campaign asks people living with secondary breast cancer what they would do if they could be afforded more time. Their heartbreaking answers include wishes to see their children grow up and get married, dreams of traveling the world and hoping they’ll have the time to tell all those closest to them that they love them, before it’s too late.

Shot in a documentary style, the film is raw and very moving, showing these women in their own homes, talking in their words, and revealing to us both their vulnerabilities and their strength in dealing with their diagnoses.

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month and Breast Cancer Now is shining a spotlight on incurable secondary breast cancer, launching the month of activity with “If I had more time”. Secondary breast cancer is often overlooked in mainstream discourse around breast cancer, and Breast Cancer Now are committed to putting this right both during Breast Cancer Awareness Month and beyond.

A 60” TVC will debut on ITV on 25th September and run for a week, followed by a 30” edit that will run until 22nd October 2023. 

The campaign will be supported across Radio, Social and Digital, with a long-form 110” edit sitting on the campaign landing page. 

The Social and Digital Display features striking portraits of the women in their homes, alongside their thoughts of what they would do if they had more time.

The campaign was directed and photographed by Katie Burdon through Academy Films. Media planning and buying was handled by AMI.

[livefuntravelposts]

The Best Tiger Safari's in India

In the jungles of India, we sit quietly waiting and hoping a tiger will appear.  We have tracked it to this location finding footprints on the road and hearing warning calls from other wildlife in the forest.  This is both the fun and frustration of tracking tigers in India.  You can do this all day and never see one of these elusive creatures. Kati and I have been lucky.  We have seen 19 tigers in four and half days.  We have also tracked and seen nothing for hours.  How indescribable seeing a tiger for the first time. We have traveled to India during the hottest time of the year, May.  Temperatures approached 115 degrees.  We have flown from Miami to Lisbon, Portugal then onto Paris, France.  From Paris we flew over the Himalayas into Delhi, India.  From Delhi we flew to Jabalpur and then drove 4 hours.  After 3 days we drove another 4 hours to a different tiger area.  We have had 9 safaris (5 evening and 4 morning) and we have met with people in the same lodge that have seen nothing or just a glimpse of a tiger.  We have known people that come for a longer time and see only 1 or 2.  As I have said, Kati and I have been lucky.  

Seeing your first tiger is an amazing feeling. Like Africa, India has many iconic animals.  Tigers.  Elephants.  Sloth Bears.  Lions.  Rhinos.  Leopards.  Unlike Africa, where you can drive and see many of the iconic animals fairly easy, nothing is easy in India.  The elephants are dangerous and need to be avoided mostly.  The Sloth Bears and Leopards are seen very rarely though we saw tracks for both.  Tracking wildlife in Africa is harder than in India but seeing the iconic wildlife in Africa is easier. Here is our guide for the best chances to see Tigers in the wild in India:

When to go to India to track Tigers

Choosing when to go was probably the easiest for us.  We decided to go in May.  We knew the temperatures would be high.  Up to 115 degrees but with little humidity.  Coming from Florida we can handle that.  In fact, we found it easier to handle 110 degrees with little humidity than 90 degrees with a lot.  Also, May saw less tourists, and more locals traveling as well as because of the heat, the tigers would be moving towards the water holes or be in them.  We knew that almost all websites tell you to go to track tigers February to April.  A piece of advice, when all the websites tell you to go to a place during a certain period of time, that is the reason not to go.  We were right and loved being there in May. Just remember, just because it will get to 110 degrees by about 11AM doesn't mean that it won't be cool in the mornings.  A sweater or longer sleeved shirt is a necessity as well as sunblock for mid-mornings.  The mosquitoes were not bad, but there are a lot of flying bugs around that can be a bother.  So, some bug protection should be taken.

  Traveling to and within India

Keep in mind when that you are traveling to a location that is a long way, problems happen.  Kati and I missed our connection in Paris and had to wait for the next flight which was an 8-hour delay.  Also, while in Jabalpur, our flight was delayed for 4 hours getting us back to Delhi late.  Luckily, we had planned and had a buffer in our schedule.  There was an extra day built into when we got there and before we left.  This allowed us to not miss anything that we wanted to do.  We were ablet to adjust and our tiger safaris were safe.  When traveling internationally, always keep in mind that delays and cancellations sometimes happen.  For weather.  For mechanical problems.  Because you have made a mistake or just because a change in flight schedules.  Don't let these things ruin your trip.

  What company to use in India

Now that we have decided to go to India and when, we had to decide where to go, where to stay and how to get there.  Having done a lot of research we finally decided to use Pugdundee Safaris. It was difficult as there are many choices, but keep in mind.  In the jungle areas that we chose to go, there are huge differences between 4-star and 5-star accommodations.  And there are even bigger differences between 3-star and 5-star accommodations. We chose Pugdundee for a number of reasons: - They had great lodges in the tiger areas that we chose. - They were highly rated by a large number of visitors. - They had a large number of options and areas you can travel to. - They would pick us up from the airport and return us and drive us between areas (about 5 hours).  Everything was included. - All the tigers' safaris were private - meaning only Kati and I would be on them. - They were reasonable as far as cost. - They are eco-friendly. They had many options to choose from and we chose Bandhavgarh and Kanha Tiger areas to visit with safaris both morning and evening. Asked why not Ranthambore since it is driving distance from Delhi, because it is driving distance from Delhi is the exact reason that we did not choose Ranthambore.  It has become over touristy with little regard to speed limits and limits on the amount of people going in to see Tigers. Both lodges put on documentaries every evening showing the work in the areas and the work with tigers.  It is amazing the behind the scenes work that the tiger area rangers do that you would never know about. Bandhavgarh has the highest tiger density in India and Kanha is a huge area but absolutely beautiful and on the Kipling Trail. Were we right?  Absolutely.  The accommodations were top notch and very comfortable.  The food was excellent.  And the management and staff were incredible.  In Bandhavgarh we stayed at the King's Lodge and in Kanha we were at the Kanha Earth Lodge.  Both are jungle lodges but would rate 5 stars anywhere.  They are very accommodating to your food preferences and if there are any issues, they immediately addressed them.  We cannot say enough good things about Pugdundee, its' management and staff.

A Tiger sleeping in the Jungle

It all comes down to People

When you are traveling so far and especially in Africa and India where you depend on others (mainly for safaris), people are everything.  Will they work with you to see what you want to see?  Are they organized and experienced?  Do they make sure you have everything you need and if  you don't can they accommodate you? Do they have the experience you want and need?  The answer to all of these questions with Pugdundee was yes, and we got the most out of our time. The General Managers at both the lodges were outstanding and the safari drivers/naturalists were the best.  The drivers/naturalists got us in the position to take the best photos and see the most tigers.  They stopped and gave us time to see other wildlife like birds (think of owls, eagles and dancing peacocks) and just the beautiful landscape.  If we wanted to stop but there was a potential tiger sighting, they would tell us, and we would go back after tracking the tiger.  They were top notch and with only Kati and I on the safari they were very accommodating as far as when we wanted to stop for breakfast and pointing out birds and other wildlife.  They had the knowledge we needed and were not shy on sharing.  Overall, they were great. We saw other safari vehicles with up to 6 people on up to larger vehicles with more than 20.  We wanted to make sure that we had the most autonomy as possible. By the way, the safaris and guides were always on time to the minute.  And when they have to leave the area, even if you just came across a tiger, you have to go.  You cannot be 5 minutes late or the guide will be penalized.  Be considerate of your guides and naturalists.  They are doing everything they can for you.    

Remember you are in a Foreign Country

Remember when traveling to India that you are no longer in the United States or western Europe.  India is different.  Yes, there are cattle walking all over the place.  On roads, in houses, near breakfast stops.  Remember that the cow is a revered animal in Hinduism.  Also, there is a level of poverty that you see and experience in India.  With almost 1.5 billion people, India struggles.  And not everyone speaks English.  But none of these should ruin your trip or adventure.  India we found to be very environmentally friendly as far as the lodges and hotels that we stayed in.  Also, the people were warm and welcoming in every place we went.  The airport seems so chaotic but somehow it works.  We never had a problem in any Indian airport.  Just remember to have your boarding card ready to show like 6 times before you get on your plane and we had to unpack our carry on luggage over and over again so give yourself time.  Always be to an airport at least 3 hours in advance of  your flight.  Frankly, we found the airport in Delhi, which seems so chaotic, actually was easier to navigate and faster to get through check in and security than Miami and Paris.  

Our Final Word

As with all trips, when traveling to India you need to have an open-mind and it will come down to your attitude.  We had an 8-hour delay in Paris.  We had a 4-hour delay in Jabalpur.  We didn't care for all of the food (but most was outstanding).  We even had a mouse in one of our rooms.  But we were on an adventure.  Our own jungle book.  We were there to track and see tigers.  We were there to visit the Taj Mahal and explore Agra.  And we did all of that with very little disruption.  Would we go back?  Absolutely.  And it would have our highest recommendation to visit and explore.  There are many tiger reserves and Project Tiger, started 50 years ago has been a tremendous success.  It has doubled the number of tigers in India. India is an incredible place to visit, and tigers are an animal that few get to see.  We hope that more and more people travel to India and see these magnificent creatures.  And who knows, you might just see us there.          

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Secret’s Out || Oliver Wood

Character: Oliver Wood

Word Count: 3.2k

Requested: Yes @jensenslight​

Summary: After a few drinks too many at a party, you end up drunkenly confessing your feelings to Oliver Wood.

Warnings: Underage drinking, mentions of sex, swearing

Disclaimer: I did not make this gif, credit to the creative person who did

A/N: Holy crap, 9 freakin pages. I never expected it to get that long but it was honestly so much to fun write. Let me know what you think, your comments always make my day and keep me encouraged to continue writing <3

Please do not copy or steal my work. Reblogs are just fine :)

You laughed loudly with your friends, pushing through the crowd of students after the quidditch match. Thousands of footsteps thundered down the stairs of the stadium, the air filled with shouts of excitement and frustrated groans at the results of the game.

Gryfindor had won 230-110, crushing Slytherin and deflating their heads after the way they had pummeled the red and gold the year before. You stepped out of the stadium and almost instantly deviated away from where the rest of the mob was moving towards Hogwarts. Instead, you made your way towards the locker rooms, waiting for your friends Alicia and Angelina to come out. 

The locker room opened with a bang and you instantly stepped forward, ready to congratulate the girls, but instead found yourself face to face with Oliver Wood. 

He took a step back in surprise. “Hey, Y/N,” he said, sending you a small smile. “Waiting for Spinnet and Johnson?”

Involuntarily your heart raced and your cheeks burned red. “Uh hi,” you replied back awkwardly, “and uh yes, y-yes I am.” 

You wanted to slap yourself. Why did you always have to clam up around him? Why couldn’t you just speak like a normal person?

Oliver shot you an odd look, his brows furrowing in concern.

“Game good- I-I mean good game,” you quickly stuttered, your cheeks only darkening more. “You played well.”

His mouth quirked up in a smile. “Thanks,” he said, a slight spark of amusement in his eyes. “You going to the party later?”

You nodded, deciding that it would be safest if you didn’t speak around him. 

Whenever Gryfindor won there was almost always a wild party in the common room to follow. But the ones after Slytherin were always the biggest, loudest, and had the most alcohol. With your best friends being on the team, you never missed out on the after parties.

“Well I’m going to head up and shower,” Oliver said, running a hand through his hair.

You tried to keep yourself composed but couldn’t help but stare gawkingly at the way his muscles tightened against his shirt, which was slightly damp and see through with sweat. Oh how you wished you could be the one running your fingers through his air, kissing the lips that were turned up in a slight smile. You wanted him so bad, yet he could never know. You could never tell him the secret that you had been in love with him for the past three years. Only Alicia and Angelina could ever know that.

“I’ll see you later then Y/N,” Oliver said with a slight wave, before turning and heading up towards the castle, leaving you flustered, red faced, and heart racing, leaning beside the locker room door.

You watched him go, so drawn up in your fantasies and daydreams that you didn’t notice the locker room door open once more with Alicia and Angelina loudly stepping out. They on the other hand noticed you instantly, shooting each other a knowing look when they saw the direction in which you were staring.

“Did you two have a nice chat?” Angelina asked, causing you to jump violently.

“Merlin Ang, you scared me,” you said, placing a hand over your racing heart. “I didn’t even notice you two come out.”

Alicia threw a look in the direction Oliver had gone. “I wonder why,” she teased. 

“Oh him?” you asked, a bad attempt to feign disinterest.

“Don’t play dumb, Y/N,” Angelina said, rolling her eyes. “Your face looks like a tomato and when we came out you were all but drooling over him.”

“I was not!” You defended.

Alicia raised an eyebrow. 

“Okay, fine, maybe just a little,” you conceded.

“Or a lot,” Alicia muttered, laughing loudly as she dodged your shove.

“Shut up Spinnet,” you grumbled, knowing she never would.

“If you would just get the guts to talk to him…” Angelina tried.

“You know I can’t do that, Ang,” you said, the three of you beginning to walk back towards the castle. “I clam up and can barely form words when I’m around him.”

“We know,” they both said, having had to jump in for you and talk their way out of many awkward conversations with Oliver.

“Then you know why I can’t talk to him,” you said in exasperation.

“But what if he likes you back?” Alicia asked, “you’ll never know if you don’t woman up and speak with him.”

“Alicia,” you said pointedly, “he only ever sees me when I’m stuttering, red faced, and can barely form a sentence.”

She shrugged. “True, but stranger things have happened.”

~

Oliver stepped into the common room a half hour later to loud cheers and music. It seemed the entire school was there, somehow managing to fit into the small space.

Lights were flashing, music was pounding, and Oliver really hoped the quieting charms they had but on the walls of the room were working or they were sure to be busted.

Someone ran by him and he stretched out his arm to block them. He looked down at the third year, her hand clenching a red solo cup filled with whatever crazy alcohol concoction Fred and George had whipped up.

“I think you're a bit under aged,” Oliver said, plucking the drink from her hand.

Her eyes narrowed. “So are you,” she snapped back.

Oliver gave a slight nod of agreement. “Excellent point, but that sign over there says fifth years and above, and last I checked you don’t seem to reach those requirements.”

“Well I don’t give a fuck,” she spat, stamping her foot. 

“That doesn’t mean anything,” he sighed. “Head on up stairs before a prefect finds you. In a couple of years you can make your own rules.”

She sent him a rather rude gesture, before storming up the stairs. Oliver didn’t doubt she would try to sneak back down in a few minutes.

Angelina raised her eyebrows as a girl angrily shoved past her on the stairs. She looked out, noting Oliver standing there, rubbing his forehead with a sigh.

“Ruining the fun for someone already, Wood?” Angelina asked, plucking the drink from his hand and taking a sip.

Oliver turned, noting you and Alicia were a few steps behind her.

“It was a third year,” he said in exasperation.

Angelina raised an eyebrow. “You let us in back then.”

“Because you were on the team,” Oliver argued, “and like the deal we made with Potter, you weren’t supposed to drink.”

“As if we ever listened to that,” Angelina scoffed.

She took another sip from the drink. “Damn, the Weasley’s really out did themselves this time.”

“Y/N, Alicia, wanna go get a drink?” Angelina asked.

“Sure, why not,” you said, as Alicia nodded beside you.

The three girls stepped past Oliver, with you shooting him a small smile. He smiled back, causing your cheeks to flush red. Oliver noted that with a slight grin. He always found it cute when you blushed.

You reached the makeshift bar with Alicia and Angelina. Alicia, never one for drinking, grabbed a butterbear whilst you Angelina went straight for Fred and George’s jungle juice.

“You’re right Ang, it’s not bad,” you said, taking a sip. “Definitely better than that one they made after the Hufflepuff match.”

Angelina laughed. “That one was horrible! I swear I vomited all night.”

“All night?” you snorted. “You kept at it in McGonagall’s class the next day. I’ve never seen her so mad.”

You finished the rest of your drink and refilled. “Let’s dance Ang.”

Alicia sighed, she was always the one that had to chase after you two all night. Just a couple weeks ago she had to prevent Angelina from stripping, much to Fred’s dismay, when she got particularly drunk one night. She watched as the two of you ran out onto the small makeshift dance floor, swinging your hips and laughing loudly.

Almost an hour later Alicia began to notice the alcohol set in. She grabbed Angelina’s arm, preventing her from falling into the bar as she came over to refill her solo cup.

“I think that’s plenty, Ang,” she chidded, steadying her friend on her feat.

Angelina stuck out her lower lip. “Just one more?”

Alicia gave her a pointed look. “You’re drunk.”

“I know but I really really really really want to make out with Fred but I need another drink to do that.” She argued drunkenly, before bursting out in spontaneous giggles.

“Angelina…” Alicia tried halfheartedly.

“One more mom-” she let out another string of giggles- “just on more.”

Angelina reached an arm over Alicia’s shoulder, her now terrible balance almost sending them both tumbling into the bar, and grabbed a bottle of Firewhiskey.

“Alica, make sure-” Angelina paused, gripping her friend's shoulders as she swayed from side to side. “-that if we end up have sex it’s not in front of too many people, okay?” She broke into another round of giggles, before hobbling back towards the dance floor.

Oliver watched from a few yards away, silently shaking his head at how bad his players looked right now. Both the twins were beyond wasted, and Katie Bell had passed out a few minutes ago. Even Harry, who Oliver had thought would be somewhat smart, had been convinced by the twins to take shots, and after a few cringes, had eventually gotten himself just as drunk as everyone else. Oliver almost had sympathy for him, as he wouldn’t want to be in his shoes when Hermione discovered him hung over the next day.

Oliver sighed, taking a sip from his butterbeer. Like Alicia, he didn’t drink.

Oliver heard a loud catcall from the other side of the room and turned back towards the dance floor where Angelina and Fred were kissing aggressively, seeming to almost be sucking each other’s faces off. He heard Alicia let out a groan.

Upon realizing he hadn’t seen the third musketeer in a while, he scanned the room, silently hoping you hadn’t taken after Angelina and were swapping spit with another guy.

Fortunately that wasn’t the case, and he instead found you stumbling back towards the bar, clearly struggling to stay up right.

You turned, feeling eyes on you. Your heart began to race upon noticing that Oliver was staringing at you. Changing course, you instead stumbled towards him, your brain not entirely aware what you were doing.

“Hi Oliver,” you slurred, “I haven't seen you since I got here.” 

Oliver raised an eyebrow. “Were you looking?”

You giggled loudly. “Maybe I was, maybe I wasn’t,” you said coyly, poking his cheek.

Oliver’s eyebrow shot up in surprise by how forward you were.

“Are you okay, Y/N?” he asked, eyeing you in concern.

“More than okay!” you exclaimed drunkenly. “I’m talking like a normal person. Did you notice?”

You are beyond drunk, Oliver thought, but if he was honest with himself he did think your overly bubbly personality was rather cute. He did miss the constant blush you usually had though.

“I did notice,” he said, trying to bite back a smile.

“Good, because I’m not usually like that, it's just when you-” You swayed violently, causing Oliver to reach out and steady you. “It’s just when you’re around.” You finished, taking another sip from your drink.

Now this had caught Oliver’s attention and, as bad as he felt about taking advantage of your drunken state, he asked, “Is that so?”

You nodded vigorously. “Believe it or not I’ve been in love with you since Angelina and Alicia joined the quidditch team, I just never had the guts to tell you.” You laughed loudly as if the action of spilling your deepest darkest secret was actually humorous. 

That was a lot more than Oliver had expected. “In love with me?” He managed to gulp out.

“Yeah,” you said, resting a hand on his shoulder to steady yourself. “Angelina said today that I should talk to you, guess she was right.”

Oliver's eyebrows shot up. “Clearly you have had way too much to drink,” he said.

“Don’t worry about me, I have a high alcohol tolerance,” you slurred proudly.

You swayed on your feet, stumbling to catch your balance. Oliver quickly reached out to stable you, holding tightly to your hips.

“High tolerance my ass,” he muttered, deciding that he better get you sat down before you actually fell over.

You let him guide you to a chair, enjoying the feeling of his hand on the small of your back and the tingling sensation that came with it.

“See, I’m fine,” you stated, sitting up right in the chair. You took a long sip from your drink and toppled sideways, giggling madly.

Oliver lunged over to catch you. Propping you upright, he took the cup from your hand. “You are definitely done here,” he said, a light smile playing on his lips.

You stuck out your bottom lip. “Party pooper,” you pouted, “why did I have to fall in love with someone who ruins all the fun?”

He stared at you, the girl who had just confessed twice, without really knowing it, that she was in love with him. You were always the cute girl, the friend of Angelina and Alicia, the one who always seemed to be red faced and unable to speak without a stutter. How had he never seen it before? How had he been so oblivious? The way you looked at him now, lips pouted, eyes feigning sadness, he wanted to kiss you so badly.

“Are you okay Oli?” you ask, reaching out to touch his cheek.

Your words brought him back. “Oli?” he asked, quirking an eyebrow. “That’s new.”

“It’s cute,” you said, grinning proudly, “cute like you.” You poked his nose, but in the action of moving forward fell straight into his chest.

Oliver let out a chuckle, pushing you back into the chair. You gripped his arms for support.

“Damn,” you whispered, feeling his tightened biceps under your hands. 

Oliver looked down at where you were staring and couldn’t help but smile. He looked back up at your face. “You good?” he asked, once he made sure you wouldn’t fall over again.

“Yeah,” you breathed, “but…”

“But..?” Oliver prompted.

“But I really want to kiss you.”

Oliver took a small step back. If he had had any alcohol in his system that would have definitely sobered him up. 

He looked at you, the way your eyes were so hopeful. But he also knew you were drunk, and as much as he wanted to, he knew he couldn’t do anything with you. At least not until you were sober.

“Let’s rain check that, Y/N, okay?” he finally said. “Wait until you’ll at least remember it happened.”

~

You woke up the following morning to a pounding headache and sudden need to vomit. After you came out of the bathroom you finally noticed Alicia, who was fixing her hair in the mirror.

“Where’s Ang?” you yawned flopping back onto your bed and trying to shield your eyes from the light. Everything was so bright.

“With Fred,” she replied simply.

“You didn’t stop her?” You asked, surprised. Alicia was usually the one to keep you two from doing anything stupid.

Alicia shook her head. “She told me not to, plus I was too busy watching you.”

You groaned. “Please don’t tell me I tried to give Jordan a lap dance again.

“Fortunately not,” Alicia giggled, before simply saying, “You were talking to Oliver.”

You shot up right then grabbed your head. Your pounding headache did not like the quick movement. “I did what?!” you exclaimed.

Alicia smiled. “It wasn’t that terrible. He even carried you up here afterwards for me.”

You looked down at your pajamas. You had not been wearing those last night.

Alicia knew what you were thinking. “Don’t worry, I put you in those after he left. I think the shirt you were wearing though is ruined, it had the jungle juice of Fred and George’s spilled all over it.”

“Damn it, damn it, damn it,” you cursed, though you weren’t upset over the shirt. “Please don’t tell me I said anything bad to him.”

Alicia sighed. “Promise me you won’t freak out?”

“Oh Merlin,” you groaned, “don’t tell me I did it.”

“Yeah,” she confirmed, “you kinda spilled the beans.”

“I could barely even talk to him before, now I can’t even be in the same room as him,” you moaned, hiding your face in your hands. “Why didn’t you stop me Alicia?”

“I was going to Y/N, believe me I was, but the way he was looking at you, caring for you, I knew he had to know, and there was no way you would have told him in any other way,” she sadly.

You turned to Alicia, wanting to be angry with her, but her sincere expression, the hope in her eyes, you couldn’t be mad at her for that.

“Cross your fingers your right,” you said quietly.

~

You stepped into the common room shortly after, a pair of sunglasses perched on your nose.

“Hey, Y/N.”

You jumped violently before turning with a feeling of dread to face Oliver.

“Hi Oliver,” you said quietly, falling into step beside him as he walked towards the portrait hole.

“No Oli?” he joked, letting you step through first before following you out into the corridor.

“I’m sorry, what?” you asked.

Oliver shook his head with a smile. “Nevermind.”

You sighed. “I called you that last night, right?”

His face lit up in hope. “You remember?”

You shook your head. “Alicia filled me in this morning,” you said, cheeks flushing in embarrassment.

It occurred to you then that that was the first time your face had turned red since being in close contact with Oliver. You hadn’t even stuttered once. Why that was the case, you didn’t know. 

“About that…” he said, trailing off, shoving his hands into his pockets.

“You don’t feel that way? I know, it’s okay,” you said, shaking your head at the sheer awkwardness of the conversation. “I’ll get over it. Like Alicia said, at least you know.”

“Well, that’s the thing, I- I do.” 

That last part came out real quiet and you turned to him, eyebrows shot up in surprise, heart suddenly racing. “You do what?” you whispered in disbelief.

Oliver looked down at his shoes. “I do like you, Y/N,” he said quietly, “and have for some time.”

“Even when I can’t talk straight around you and was a drunk babbling idiot last night?”

His lips quirked up in a smile. “The babbling idiot part was actually rather entertaining for that matter.”

You stared at him, hope swelling in your chest as you looked at the boy you were madly in love with.

“You told me last night you wanted to kiss me,” he started, and your face turned red as the memory came back to you. “And I said-”

“Raincheck,” you finished, your heart rate quickening. “Such a gentleman to do that.”

Oliver took a step closer. “I’d like to cash that in now,” he whispered softly.

“Please do,” you breathed, looking up at him as he moved closer.

Your eyes fluttered shut as he gently pressed his lips against yours, his hands resting on your waist whilst yours looped around his neck.

This kiss was a thousand times better than you had ever imagined. You barely even heard George’s wolf whistle when he walked by, or when Angelina turned to Fred with a grin, saying, “That’s five Galleons, Weasley.” It was just you two, in the middle of the hall, and Oliver’s mouth moving against yours was all that mattered.

[wiypt-writes]

Stark Spangled Forever

One Shot: There Were Six In The Bed, And The Little One Said��

Summary: It’s Steve’s birthday…and the bed feels a little crowded.

Warnings: “Language!” SMUT (NSFW, No under 18s…)

A/N: You can thank @sweater-daddiesdumbdork​ for this… HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEEBY, and Happy 4th July to all of you over the pond!

CONTAINS SPOLERS FOR STARK SPANGLED BANNER.

Disclaimer: This is a pure work of fiction and classified as 18+. Please respect this and do not read if you are underage. I do not own any characters in this series bar Katie Stark and the other OCs. By reading beyond this point you understand and accept the terms of this disclaimer.

Stark Spangled Forever Masterlist // Main Masterlist

July 2028

The Rogers household was quiet. Kids all in bed, well three of them anyway as the eldest one was out gallivanting at a concert, with friends and instructions to be home no later than 1 am, something which Steve wasn’t overly happy about but had been talked into by his Katie who had reminded him that Emmy was no longer a child, hell she wasn’t even a teenager anymore. Steve hated it. He hated the fact that every year that ticked by his kids were getting older, and so was he. He’d commented just before they had climbed into bed that he was convinced his beard was looking greyer than it had that morning, something Katie had scoffed at and then told him she liked it anyway, before distracting his thoughts from the fact that tomorrow he would have completed yet another circuit round the sun by gently leaning up and nipping at his jawline, her mouth ghosting over the hairs that adorned his chin.

It was an action she knew he loved, especially when she traced her lips down his neck and throat, over his Adam’s apple and back up again before she slid her lips to his and the pair of them became locked in a furious, deep kiss, Steve’s tongue fucking Katie’s mouth. He pulled back just long enough to pull Katie’s top over her head before his lips returned to hers and Katie’s hand slid into Steve’s hair, one hand gently winding into the longer locks on top, her nails on the other dragging against the hairline on his neck.  His hands moved, one gently cupping the side of her face, the other, gently skimming over her breast, her nipples already hardened. He gently teased one with the pad of his thumb and his mouth moved down to the other, his tongue and lips working in tandem. Katie gave a little involuntary twitch against his thigh and once more his lips quirked up into a smirk.

“So needy baby girl…” he mumbled and she let out a soft whimper as his hand slipped into her sleep shorts, a little groan slipping from his mouth as he felt her slick. She wriggled against his hand and he began to work her gently, watching her face as her expressions changed as her pleasure mounted, a sight he would never get tired of seeing, ever. As her breathing became even more ragged, he shifted slightly and hooked his fingers into the sleep shorts she was wearing and worked them down, before flipping down the waist band of his boxers. Katie bent her legs, as he shuffled upwards and worked into her, the pair of them letting out a sigh each at the contact, trying to keep the noise to a minimum so as not to disturb their sleeping children who occupied the rooms over the hall. Steve’s hands fell to either side of Katie’s face as he held himself up on his forearms, kissing her deeply as he flexed his hips forward, again and again, slowly and deeply before Katie shook her head, her nails dragging down over his back to his bare ass and she urged him deeper.

“Harder Stevie…please…”

“Oh, you’re in that mood?” He teased, pushing up into her harder and she let out a low keen, nodding as his hips became faster as he acquiesced to her request. He reached down, grabbing her leg behind the knee and hooked it over his shoulder, her hands fling to his arms. Her fingers dug into his skin as he started pushing a little harder, a little faster, then faster, until he had reached a relentless pace. Katie’s hands flew above her head as she used them to brace herself on the headboard of the large bed as he continued, making her curse and leaving her short of breath, eyes closed in utter pleasure. Steve groaned himself at the pleasure that he was feeling as she fluttered around him and he slowed for a moment, making her look at him, letting out a noise of protest. “

Don’t stop…” she begged, “please Stevie…”

He grinned, and it was a wicked grin, and coupled with the mischievous flash in his eyes it made Katie’s eyes widen even more. As she stared into those baby blues, his pupils blown with desire, he slowly pushed himself up so he could put her other leg over his other shoulder and picked up the pace once again, pounding into her over and over and it wasn’t long before his name and another plethora of curses tumbled from her lips as her orgasm ripped through her, and her back was arching, fingers digging into his back as he coaxed her through it, low words of praise being mumbled into her ear. But he didn’t stop there. He kept going and going until she was coming again, her face turned and pressed into her shoulder, attempting to stifle the noises she was emitting before she gave a soft squeak of surprise as Steve pulled out of her completely and used his large hands which slid round her back and flipped her onto  her front. 

The sensation of being manhandled like she was a rag doll made her groan and shiver again and she surrendered completely to him as his hands gripped her waist and hauled her ass upwards, and she gasped as Steve sunk back into her with one fluid moment, a grunt slipping from his own hips as he drove deep into her, bottoming out. The room was filled with the sounds of skin slapping skin, muffled moans and pathetic whimpers as Katie felt another wave building in her stomach. 

“C’mon doll, I know you got one more in you…” Steve said, his voice low as he bent over so his lips could trace the curve of her spine, his hips snapping back and forth “Baby, let go.” The thick Brooklyn drawl dripped off his tongue and Katie gave a muffled groan, her face pressed into the pillows of their bed. He continued to piston into her, hitting her spot over and over before he let go of her hips with one hand and reached down to stroke at her clit. She trembled and then the coil in her belly snapped and she cried out as she squeezed around him. It was almost feeble this time but it made her knees and hands give way. Steve looped an arm round her waist to hold her up, as he bent over, lips gently kissing at her neck.

“That’s my girl.” He praised gruffly, his own hips began to falter, his relief coming with a surge. He let out a low groan, nipping at his wife’s neck and then as gently as he could manage he set her down on the bed before he collapsed over the top of her. Aware of his weight pressing her into the soft bedding he rolled over and she gave a soft groan, her face still buried in the sheets. After a moment she peeked up to find him led on the bed, arms behind his head and he gave a low chuckle as she pushed herself up to lay her head on his chest.

“You okay?” he asked and he gave a chuckle as she simply buried her face into his chest with a low hum, utterly spent.

“I’m getting too old for this.” She breathed out and at that Steve laughed.

“I’m the one that’s turning 125 tomorrow.”

“Nah ah, 110.” she peeked up at him “Those 15 years don’t count as you weren’t with me.”

Steve chuckled and dropped a kiss to Katie’s head before she stirred and sat up, running a hand through her long hair, sweeping it over her shoulder before she swung her legs over the side of the bed.

“Where you going?”

“To pee.” she looked at him as she slipped on her cami-top and shorts. “And then to check on Harry, he was a bit gripey before, I think he has more teeth coming through.”

She bent over to peck him on the lips before she headed into the en-suite. Steve shimmied his boxers back over his hips, laying back on the pillow and then smiled at his wife as she left their bedroom, returning a few minutes later.

“He okay?”

“Fine.” She yawned, settling down besides him as he flicked off the lamp. She snuggled into him, her head resting on his chest as he gently rubbed her back, the two of them drifting off into a comfortable and sated sleep.

*****

Despite their earlier activities, Steve still woke a few hours later when he heard Emmy come in. He glanced at the clock, it was one minute past one in the morning. Katie had shifted and was now led with her back facing him, her hair fanning over the pillow. He listened and heard Emmy go into the kitchen, before her soft footsteps headed up the stairs and her bedroom door shut. Happy that his daughter was safe he settled back down and felt Katie stir besides him as she turned over and snuggled up to him, seeking him out even in her sleep. He looped an arm around her as she nestled her head on his chest, and he closed his eyes before drifting off again.

His super charged senses woke him again when the whispers of a certain 4 year old that should be in her own bed, but was actually stood by the side of his bed, hit his ears.

“Daddy. Daddy wake up…”

A finger slid to his eyelid, trying to lift it open and with a groan he blinked and then sat up as he focussed.

“Princess? You ok?” he asked, his voice groggy with sleep.

“Yeah.” she smiled “It’s your birthday.”

Steve looked at her as she grinned at him, before he looked to the digital clock on the night stand before he let out a groan. What felt like five minutes since he had heard Emmy come in was in fact three hours.

"It’s four in the morning!" 

"Four is the best number.” Rori replied seriously. “Four like how old I am and four like the 4th of July…”

Steve shook his head, Jesus fucking Christ.

Katie mumbled something and turned over, facing away from him as she continued to sleep and Steve looked back at Rori who was beaming at him in the dim light of the room.

“Ok, yeah, I get it just, come on.” He shifted slightly so Rori could scramble into their bed, thankful that he and Katie had actually bothered to pull on some clothing after the ‘early birthday celebrations’ the night before.  As Rori clambered over him to get to the space between her parents, her knee dug him in the stomach, causing him to exhale sharply as she got comfortable and he settled on his side facing her. Rori snuggled into his arms, pressing her face into his chest, her little hands tangling in the chain around his neck.

“Are you not excited for your birthday Daddy?” she whispered again.

“Not at four in the morning, no.” He deadpanned, his eyes closed.

“Sorry.” She whispered quietly, her tone despondent. Steve cracked an eye open and looked at her, shocked to see her green eyes full of tears.

“Hey,” he said gently, brushing her hair back, “Princess, what’s the matter?”

“Are you mad with me?”

 Steve sighed. “No, I’m not.” He kissed her forehead. 

 "Pinkie Promise?” She sniffled a little bit and Steve nodded, twining his little finger with hers.

 "Pinkie Promise.”

 She shifted in his arms again, her face now tucking into the space under his chin. “Daddy?”

 "Yes Rori?” His tone was patient even though he most certainly was not feeling that way.

 "Uncle Bucky said that if we put a candle on your cake for each year you have been alive there would be enough wax for Madam Two-swords to use, who is she?”

 "No-one" He snorted, shaking his head.

 "But why does she have two-swords?”

"No it’s Tussauds.”

 “What?”

“It doesn’t matter, Uncle Bucky is a jerk"

 She giggled. “That’s naughty.”

 "So is he.“ Steve yawned. "Now come on, go to sleep.”

 He felt her shift in his arms again, settling down as he gently rubbed at her back. Before long he felt her relax and her soft little snores hit his ears. Kissing her head he was just dozing when a soft crying noise hit his ears from the baby monitor.

 Katie sat bolt upright, it was almost like a 6th sense to her, always had been hearing their kids crying. 

 "Honey,” Steve started and she gently rubbed his arm.

 "I’ll go.” She replied and Steve lay back down, listening as she padded over the hallway

 "Oh baby!” he heard Katie soothing him over the monitor. ”Do your teeth hurt?“

 Steve listened as she gently shushed their boy, frowning. This was quite out of character for Harry in all fairness. He continued to listen as Katie bustled around their son’s room before eventually her voice grew quiet on the monitor and she appeared back in their room, Steve glancing at her just able to make out the fact she still had Harry in her arms. 

 "Hey buddy.” Steve reached over to smooth his hair as Katie settled down in the bed with him clutched to her chest. “His cheeks are warm.” he said, the back of his hand gently pressed to his son’s face.

 "I gave him some medicine.“ Katie hummed as his sniffles died down. "He’ll be ok in a while."  Setting him comfortably in the space between her and Rori she looked at Steve.

 "What’s she doing in here?” She whispered.

 "Don’t ask.“ Steve yawned and Katie gave a snort.

 "Hey, soldier?”

 Steve looked at her.

 "Happy birthday.” She smiled, leaning over their kids to give him a soft kiss.

 "Thanks baby.” He grinned against her mouth before they both settled down for what was left of their night’s sleep.

***** There was a jolt on the bed and Steve gave a sudden jerk and sat up to be faced with a grinning Jamie. Katie gave a groan and opened one eye, shaking her head a little.

 "Happy birthday, Dad!” He beamed and Steve yawned, rubbing his eyes. At least this time it was light outside.

 "Thanks son.” He smiled as Jamie hugged him. 

 "Can I get in with you?”

 "Aint you a bit too old for that now?” Katie teased, throwing back the covers as she sat up.

 "I won’t tell if you don’t." Jamie shrugged, scrambling in between Harry and Rori. Lucky then hopped up onto the bottom of the bed, the old dog settling alongside Katie’s feet. Harry shifted slightly and he murmured something as he woke, before he opened his eyes and reached out for his Momma who gently pulled him onto her lap.

 Steve glanced at his kids, then his wife who smiled at him “Told you the big bed was a good idea.”

“Well, yeah, or you look at it as being an open invitation for this lot…” he shot back and she laughed. Rori then began to stir, and she yawned slightly, blinking before she looked at Jamie, then to Harry and her mother, then finally to her father.

 "Why are they here?” She asked indignantly.

 "Same reason you are.” he arched an eyebrow.

 "Oh, yeah…is it happy birthday now?”

 "Yup,” he smiled. “I got all of you…oh, wait..” he looked around dramatically “There’s someone missing.” He frowned.

 "Emmy!” Rori shrieked, as she scrambled out of the covers, flinging the door open.

 "That was evil!” Katie looked at Steve “It’s not even 8 yet.

 "Well she insists on staying out until all hours with Queens” Steve scoffed “1 am…I mean…“

 "She’s Twenty, Steve.” Katie looked at him and he shook his head.

 "Don’t care." He pouted with the air of a petulant child.

 Rori then re-entered the room and she looked at her dad, climbing back on the bed.

 "She told me to tell you to pee off" she shrugged.

 Steve let out a roar of laughter. “Emmy!” He yelled “Get in here!”

 A minute or so later, a thoroughly grumpy looking Emmy appeared, dressed in a pair of Disney Pjamas, rubbing her eyes. 

 "Come give your dad a birthday hug.“ Steve opened his arms. 

 "I hate you.” she mumbled, face planting on to the bed.

 "Aww come on, give your old man some love!” He continued teasing her and she looked up at him, her eyebrow raised.

 "Old is right, what is it this year Pops?”

 "110 if you don’t count his little time travelling vacation.” Katie grinned. "125 if you do.”

“I thought we agreed those 15 didn’t count because I wasn’t with you?” Steve smirked and she shrugged, grinning at him.

“125…” Emmy smirked “And you don’t look a day over 124…”

 Steve tossed a pillow at her head which she caught and threw a Jamie. He gave a yell and snatched it up, hitting his sister with it, and before long the room descended into chaos. The Soldier and his eldest 3 grabbing pillows to hit one another with. The air was filled with shouts, yells, squeals and barks from Lucky as Harry bounced on Katie’s knee and gave a squeal of laughter, clapping his hands. Katie laughed, shaking her head because she could see exactly how this was going to end.

And she was right.

There was a loud ripping noise and suddenly a huge cloud of feathers erupted around them all. The room suddenly went still and silent as Steve and Jamie both sat there, each clutching one half of the shredded pillow.

 "Whoops.” Jamie said, before he started to laugh, which set Emmy and Rori off and Harry joined in, shrieking once more as he snatched at the feathers as they drifted down onto him. He grabbed them in his hands and then made a questioning noise as he showed them to Katie. She snorted and looked at Steve.

 "125 going on 2.” she spat a feather out and arched an eyebrow at her husband who shrugged, grinning.

 "What can I say?” he beamed around at his family, his absolute world, with a genuine smile “You guys keep me young!”

**original posting**

[skkrrrrttt]

Weaknesses - Arsenal WFC

Disclaimer - this is a long ass post. Read this on the toilet or something. Idk. Whatever floats your boat 😌

Ahhh Arsenal 🥲 They really do my mind in because there’s so much quality but they make sooo many mistakes 👀 It’s not like an ungodly number of mistakes but ungodly by their standards. I’ll get into it.

I’ve attempted to quantify their weakness by analysing shots they’ve faced from their opponent. That is, scenarios that caused an attack resulting in a shot or goal. Okay leggo 😄

Arsenal have faced a total of 110 shots. 37.3% were from long shots (I’ll go into what caused them later), 21.8% were from defensive errors, 17.3% were from set pieces, 15.5% were from defensive duels lost (eg. dribbled past, ball protected, poor marking) and 8.2% were from poor positioning (i.e. counterattack and pressures).

Let’s start with the long shots AKA shots outside of the box. Their opponent were able to attempt these long shots from dispossessing the Arsenal defender, dribbling past the defender, intercepting Arsenal passes, being on the end of clearances (set pieces and live play) or simply just passing their way into position. Luckily for Arsenal, only 4.9% of all the long shots attempted have been converted. Arsenal is an attacking team that is quite lethal on the counterattack. At times when they are dispossessed or a pass is intercepted, the front 4/5 would stay higher up the field in the case of a counterattack. If the opposing team is able to get into an attacking position on the wing, a sideways pass or a cutback to a player outside the box is available. That divide between the defense and attack creates space outside the box. A perfect example is Katie Zelem’s first shot vs Arsenal (80th minute).

Arsenal makes too many defensive errors for the team that they are. They made a total of 24 defensive errors, 3 resulting in goals. 4 came from the opponent dispossessing the defender, 6 from the opponent intercepting passes, 11 from poor clearances, 2 from poor touches and well there’s that own goal 🥲 Given Arsenal’s quality idt they should be making so many errors in and around the box. I started taking note of who made the errors but I lost track so I just squashed it. You’ll just have to take my word for it when I say Katie McCabe is the gem of the Arsenal defense in terms of not making a lot of mistakes 💎

Next up is set pieces. They’ve conceded 15.8% of the shots they’ve faced from set pieces which isn’t too bad considering they’ve only conceded 3/19 shots. They’ve only conceded one penalty which was such a powder puff foul 👀 and it was saved! I’d say they’re okay with the set pieces.

Coming in fourth is their defensive duels lost i.e. being dribbled past, being unable to dispossess an attacker protecting the ball and poor marking of an attacker. These usually occurred on the wings with the defender failing to prevent the cross from entering the box. 47.1% of the time they were dribbled past while 41.2% of the time was a result of poor marking. Bear in mind this only shows defensive duels they’ve lost and not how much they’ve won so the FBs could very well be efficient at 1v1 situations 🙂

Lastly we have poor positioning as a result of counterattacks and pressing. As I stated earlier, Arsenal is an attacking team and in attack they have a front 5, the usual front 3 in Foord, Miedema and Mead as well as the AM and an advanced FB. Most of the time McCabe is the advanced FB but sometimes she isn’t. When she advances most of the time there is a vacancy in that position so when a team counters they’re able to run into that space and punish Arsenal (see Man Utd goal vs Arsenal). In the case of pressing, sometimes a defender will try to press an attacker from the opposing team. Unfortunately for Arsenal some teams see the space that defender vacates and are able to exploit it (eg Caroline Weir - 17th minute). No team has been able to convert their chance however, them having a chance is where the problem lies.

No team is perfect and all I’ve pointed out happens to every team. However, the frequency is what makes or breaks the defense. For instance, if Arsenal puts a lid on the amount of defensive errors they make that’s approximately 20% of the shots they face gone, poof, disintegrated 🔥 I think a lot of their defensive woes are really due to their injury problem and not having enough replacements like with Maritz and Catley. Will their stats improve once everyone returns? We’ll see. Also with respect to the advanced FB vacating space, I feel like one of the Walti could easily slot in there to fill the space which would minimise avenues for the opponent to take during a counter. But that’s just me haha.

Since this is the first team I’m doing I have no other stats to compare it to but I will return to this one as I do more teams 😌

Hope I didn’t waste your time 😂 Have a good day 🙂

[nasabeck]

(photo credit: me (@nasabeck)

sing your heart out (pop-punk edition) playlist (spotify)

i love to re-live my pop-punk/emo youth from time to time and sing my heart out until i’m laughing or crying hysterically

1. ocean avenue - yellowcard // 2. undrcover lover - kids in glass houses // 3. warm me up - the audition // 4. hey! walk away - out of sight // 5. everything is alright - motion city soundtrack // 6. ignorance - paramore // 7. all that i’ve got - the used // 8. runaway - cartel // 9. starstrukk - 3oh!3 ft. katy perry // 10. heart heart heartbreak - boys like girls // 11. fisticuffs - kids in glass houses // 12. the dressing room - breathe carolina // 13. beating heart baby - head automatica // 14. grand theft autumn - fall out boy // 15. dear maria, count me in - all time low // 16. mr brightside - the killers // 17. tell me i’m a wreck - every avenue // 18. easy tiger - kids in glass houses // 19. cheatercheaterbestfriendeater - never shout never  // 20. honestly - cartel // 21. i’m not okay (i promise) - my chemical romance // 22. shake it - metro station // 23. sugar we’re going down - fall out boy // 24. whoa oh (me vs everyone) - forever the sickest kids // 25. the middle - jimmy eat world // 26. buried myself alive - the used // 27. we’ve got a big mess on our hands - the academy is... // 28. boomerang - the summer set // 29. face down - the red jumpsuit apparatus // 30. swing, swing - the all-american rejects // 31. poppin’ champagne - all time low // 32. emergency - paramore // 33. raise hell - kids in glass houses // 34. bring it (snakes on a plane) - cobra starship // 35. practice makes perfect - cute is what we aim for // 36. cute without the ‘e’ - taking back sunday // 37. nicotine and alcohol saved my life - deaf havana // 38. nobody puts baby in the corner - fall out boy // 39. jamie all over - mayday parade // 40. the taste of ink - the used // 41. bigcitydreams - never shout never // 42. stay young - save your breath // 43. how you love me now - hey monday // 44. guilty pleasure - cobra starship // 45. give me what i want - kids in glass houses // 46. beverly kills - weezer // 47. streetcar - funeral for a friend // 48. chelsea - the summer set // 49. pressure - paramore // 50. damned if i do ya (damned if i don’t) - all time low // 51. tgif - the secret handshake // 52. friends like these - deaf havana // 53. my temperature’s rising - the audition // 54. shadow moses - bring me the horizon // 55. heregoesnothin - never shout never // 56. black cat - mayday parade // 57. sending my love to the dancefloor - cobra starship // 58. dakota - a rocket to the moon // 59. we love like vampires - sparks the rescue // 60. i caught fire - the used // 61. the boys you do (get back at you) - the summer set // 62. jasey rae (acoustic) - all time low // 63. don’t trust me - 3oh!3 // 64. a little less sixteen candles, a little more touch me - fall out boy // 65. stuttering - the friday night boys // 66. love drunk - boys like girls // 67. bodybag - hit the lights // 68. kelsey - metro station // 69. one of those nights - the cab // 70. the city is at war - cobra starship // 71. matters at all - kids in glass houses // 72. rose-coloured boy - paramore // 73. liar (it takes one to know one) - taking back sunday // 74. vegas skies - the cab // 75. no one can touch us - sing it loud ft. alex gaskarth // 76.  everything i ask for - the maine // 77. you’ve made us conscious - the audition // 78. six feet under the stars - all time low // 79. 1985 - bowling for soup // 80. nothing worth having comes easy - save your breath // 81. nothing good has happened yet - we are the ocean // 82. thanks for nothing - the downtown fiction // 83. girls freak me out - the summer set // 84. aturday - kids in glass houses // 85. shimmy shimmy quarter turn - hellogoodbye // 86. deadliest catch - lower than atlantis // 87. miss jackson - panic! at the disco // 88. alive with the glory of love - say anything // 89. both sides of the story- we are the in crowd // 90. feeling this - blink 182 // 91. check yes juliet - we the kings // 92.  the space between - valencia // 93. teenage dirtbag - wheatus // 94. girls do what they want - the maine // 95. coffee shop soundtrack - all time low // 96. makedamnsure - taking back sunday // 97. the lost boys - save your breath // 98. you’re not alone - saosin // 99. this is gospel - panic! at the disco // 100. when i get home you’re so dead - mayday parade // 101. passion for publication - anarbor // 102. approach the bench - the audition // 103. roses for the dead - funeral for a friend // 104. ain’t it fun - paramore // 105. save it for the bedroom - you me at six // 106. it must really suck to be four year strong right now - four year strong // 107. vegas- all time low // 108. black butterflies and deja vu - the maine // 109. wow, i can get sexual too - say anything // 110. say anything (else) - cartel //

[what-is-your-plan-today]

Stark Spangled Forever: There Were 6 In The Bed, And The Little One Said...

Summary: It’s Steve’s birthday…and the bed feels a little crowded. Warnings: “Language!” SMUT (NSFW, No under 18s...) A/N: You can thank @sweater-daddiesdumbdork​ for this... HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEEBY, and Happy 4th July to all of you over the pond!

SSF Masterlist // WIYPT Masterlist

July 2028

The Rogers household was quiet. Kids all in bed, well 3 of them anyway as the eldest one was out galavanting at a concert, with friends and instructions to be home no later than 1 am, something which Steve wasn't overly happy about but had been talked into by his Katie who had reminded him that Emmy was no longer a child, hell she wasn' even a teenager anymore. Steve hated it. He hated the fact that every year that ticked by his kids were getting older, and so was he. He'd commented just before they had climbed into bed that he was convinced his beard was looking greyer than it had that morning, something Katie had scoffed at and then told him she liked it anyway, before distracting his thoughts from the fact that tomorrow he would have completed yet another circuit round the sun by gently leaning up and nipping at his jawline, her mouth ghosting over the hairs that adorned his chin. It was an action she knew he loved, especially when she traced her lips down his neck and throat, over his Adam's apple and back up again before she slid her lips to his  and the pair of them  became locked in a furious, deep kiss, Steve's tongue fucking Katie's mouth. He pulled back just long enough to pull Katie's top over her head before his lips returned to hers and Katie’s hand slid into Steve’s hair, one hand gently winding into the longer locks on top, her nails on the other dragging against the hairline on his neck.  His hands moved, one gently cupping the side of her face, the other, gently skimming over her breast, her nipples already hardened. He gently teased one with the pad of his thumb and his mouth moved down to the other, his tongue and lips working in tandem. Katie gave a little involuntary twitch against his thigh and once more his lips quirked up into a smirk.

"So needy baby girl..." he mumbled and she let out a soft whimper as his hand slipped into her sleep shorts, a little groan slipping from his mouth as he felt her slick. She wriggled against his hand and he began to work her gently, watching her face as her expressions changed as her pleasure mounted, a sight he would never get tired of seeing, ever. As her breathing became even more ragged, he shifted slightly and hooked his fingers into the sleep shorts she was wearing and worked them down, before flipping down the waist band of his boxers. Katie bent her legs, as he shuffled upwards and worked into her, the pair of them letting out a sigh each at the contact, trying to keep the noise to a minimum so as not to disturb their sleeping children who occupied the rooms over the hall. Steve’s hands fell to either side of Katie’s face as he held himself up on his forearms, kissing her deeply as he flexed his hips forward, again and again, slowly and deeply before Katie shook her head, her nails dragging down over his back to his bare ass and she urged him deeper.

"Harder Stevie...please..."

"Oh, you're in that mood?" he teased, pushing up into her harder and she let out a low keen, nodding as his hips became faster as he acquiesced to her request. He reached down, grabbing her leg behind the knee and hooked it over his shoulder, her hands fling to his arms.. Her fingers dug into his skin as he started pushing a little harder, a little faster, then faster, until he had reached a relentless pace. Katie's hands flew above her head as she used them to brace herself on the headboard of the large bed as he continued, making her curse and leaving her short of breath, eyes closed in utter pleasure. Steve groaned himself at the pleasure that he was feeling as she fluttered around him and he slowed for a moment, making her look at him, letting out a noise of protest. “

Don’t stop…” she begged, “Please Stevie…”

He grinned, and it was a wicked grin, and coupled with the mischievous flash in his eyes it made Katie's eyes widen even more. As she stared into those baby blues, his pupils blown with desire, he slowly pushed himself up so he could put her other leg over his other shoulder and picked up the pace once again, pounding into her over and over and it wasn’t long before his name and another plethora of curses tumbled from her lips as her orgasm ripped through her, and her back was arching, fingers digging into his back as he coaxed her through it, low words of praise being mumbled into her ear. But he didn't stop there. He kept going and going until she was coming again, her face turned and pressed into her shoulder, attempting to stifle the noises she was emitting before she gave a soft squeak of surprise as Steve pulled out of her completely and used his large hands which slid round her back and flipped her onto  her front. 

The sensation of being manhandled like she was a rag doll made her groan and shiver again and she surrendered completely to him as his hands gripped her waist and hauled her ass upwards, and she gasped as Steve sunk back into her with one fluid moment, a grunt slipping from his own hips as he drove deep into her, bottoming out. The room was filled with the sounds of skin slapping skin, muffled moans and pathetic whimpers as Katie felt another wave building in her stomach. 

“C’mon doll, I know you got one more in you…” Steve said, his voice low as he bent over so his lips could trace the curve of her spine, his hips snapping back and forth “Baby let go…” The thick Brooklyn drawl dripped off his tongue and  Katie gave a muffled groan, her face pressed into the pillows of their bed. He continued to piston into her, hitting her spot over and over before he let go of her hips with one hand and reached down to stroke at her clit. She trembled and then the coil in her belly snapped and she cried out as she squeezed around him. It was almost feeble this time but it made her knees and hands give way. Steve looped an arm round her waist to hold her up, as he bent over, lips gently kissing at her neck.

“That’s my girl…” he praised gruffly, his own hips began to falter, his relief coming with a surge. He let out a low groan, nipping at his wife's neck and then as gently as he could manage he set her down on the bed before he collapsed over the top of her. Aware of his weight pressing her into the soft bedding he rolled over and she gave a soft groan, her face still buried in the sheets. After a moment she peeked up to find him led on the bed, arms behind his head and he gave a low chuckle as she pushed herself up to lay her head on his chest.

“You ok?” he asked and he gave a chuckle as she simply buried her face into his chest with a low hum, utterly spent.

"I'm getting too old for this..." she breathed out and at that Steve laughed.

"I'm the one that's turning 125 tomorrow."

"Nah ah, 110." she peeked up at him "Those 15 years don't count as you weren't with me."

Steve chuckled and dropped a kiss to Katie's head before she stirred and sat up, running a hand through her long hair, sweeping it over her shoulder before she swung her legs over the side of the bed.

"Where you going?"

"To pee." she looked at him as she slipped on her cami-top and shorts  "And then to check on Harry, he was a bit gripey before, I think he has more teeth coming through ."

She bent over to peck him on the lips before she headed into the ensuite. Steve shimmied his boxers back over his hips, laying back on the pillow and then smiled at his wife as she left their bedroom, returning a few minutes later.

"He ok?"

"Fine." she yawned, settling down besides him as he flicked off the lamp. She snuggled into him, her head resting on his chest as he gently rubbed her back, the two of them drifting off into a comfortable and satiated sleep.

*****

Despite their earlier activities, Steve still woke a few hours later when he heard Emmy come in. He glanced at the clock, it was one minute past one in the morning. Katie had shifted and was now led with her back facing him, her hair fanning over the pillow. He listened and heard Emmy go into the kitchen, before her soft footsteps headed up the stairs and her bedroom door shut. Happy that his daughter was safe he settled back down and felt Katie stir besides him as she turned over and snuggled up to him, seeking him out even in her sleep. He looped an arm around her as she nestled her head on his chest, and he closed his eyes before drifting off again.

His super charged senses woke him again when the whispers of a certain 4 year old that should be in her own bed, but was actually stood by the side of his,hit his ears.

"Daddy... Daddy wake up..."

A finger slid to his eyelid, trying to lift it open and with a groan he blinked and then sat up as he focussed.

"Princess? You ok?" he asked, his voice groggy with sleep.

"Yeah." she smiled "It's your birthday.”

Steve looked at her as she grinned at him, before he looked to the digital clock on the night stand before he let out a groan. What felt like 5 minutes since he had heard Emmy come in was in fact 3 hours.

"It’s 4 in the morning!" 

"4 is the best number." she said seriously. "4 like how old I am and 4 like the 4th of July..."

Steve shook his head, Jesus fucking Christ.

Katie mumbled something and turned over, facing away from him as she continued to sleep and Steve looked back at Rori who was beaming at him in the dim light of the room.

"Ok, yeah, I get it just...come on..." he said, shifting slightly so Rori could scramble into their bed, thankful that he and Katie had actually bothered to pull on some clothing after the 'early birthday celebrations' the night before.  As Rori clambered over him to get to the space between her parents, her knee dug him in the stomach, causing him to exhale sharply as she got comfortable and he settled on his side, her. Rori snuggled into his arms, pressing her face into his chest, her little hands tangling in the chain around his neck.

"Are you not excited for your birthday Daddy?" she whispered again.

"Not at 4 in the morning no..." he deadpanned, his eyes closed.

"Sorry." she said, her tone despondent. He cracked an eye open and looked at her, shocked to see her green eyes full of tears.

"Hey..." he said gently, brushing her hair back. "What's the matter?"

"Are you mad with me?"

 Steve sighed "No, I'm not..." he kissed her forehead. 

 "Pinkie Promise?" she sniffled a little bit and Steve nodded, twining his little finger with hers.

 "Pinkie Promise."

 She shifted in his arms again, her face now tucking into the space under his chin. "Daddy..."

 "Yes Rori?" he said, his tone patient even though he most certainly was not feeling that way.

 "Uncle Bucky said that if we put a candle on your cake for each year you have been alive there would be enough wax for Madam Two-swords to use...who is she?"

 "No-one" he snorted, shaking his head.

 "But why does she have two-swords?"

"No it’s Tussauds." he yawned,

 “What?”

“It doesn’t matter, Uncle Bucky is a jerk"

 She giggled "That's naughty."

 "So is he..." Steve yawned. "Now come on, go to sleep."

 He felt her shift in his arms again, settling down as he gently rubbed at her back. Before long he felt her relax and her soft little snores hit his ears. Kissing her head he was just dozing when a soft crying noise hit his ears from the baby monitor.

 Katie sat bolt upright, it was almost like a 6th sense to her, always had been hearing their kids crying. 

 "Honey..." he said and she gently rubbed his arm.

 "I'll go..." she replied and Steve lay back down, listening as she padded over the hallway

 "Oh baby..."  he heard Katie soothing him over the monitor "Do your teeth hurt?"

 Steve listened as she gently shushed their boy, frowning. This was quite out of character for Harry in all fairness. He continued to listen as Katie bustled around their son's room before eventually her voice grew quiet on the monitor and she appeared back in their room, Steve glancing at her just able to make out the fact she still had Harry in her arms. 

 "Hey buddy..." Steve said, reaching over to smooth his hair as Katie settled down in the bed with him clutched to her chest. "His cheeks are warm." he said, the back of his hand gently pressed to his son's face.

 "I gave him some medicine..." Katie hummed as his sniffles died down. "He'll be ok in a while..."  Setting him comfortably in the space between her and Rori she looked at Steve.

 "What's she doing in here?" she whispered.

 "Don't ask..." Steve yawned and Katie gave a snort.

 "Hey, soldier?"

 Steve looked at her.

 "Happy birthday." she smiled, leaning over their kids to give him a soft kiss.

 "Thanks baby." he grinned against her mouth before they both settled down for what was left of their night’s sleep.

***** There was a jolt on the bed and Steve gave a sudden jerk and sat up to be faced with a grinning Jamie. Katie gave a groan and opened one eye, shaking her head a little.

 "Happy birthday dad!" he beamed and Steve yawned, rubbing his eyes. At least this time it was light outside.

 "Thanks son." he smiled as Jamie hugged him. 

 "Can I get in with you?"

 "Aint you a bit too old for that now?" Katie teased, throwing back the covers as she sat up.

 "I won't tell if you don't" Jamie shrugged, scrambling in between Harry and Rori. Lucky then hopped up onto the bottom of the bed, the old dog settling alongside Katie's feet. Harry shifted slightly and he murmured something as he woke, before he opened his eyes and reached out for his Momma who gently pulled him onto her lap.

 Steve glanced at his kids, then his wife who smiled at him "Told you the big bed was a good idea."

"Well, yeah, or you look at it as being an open invitation for this lot..." he shot back and she laughed. Rori then began to stir, and she yawned slightly, blinking before she looked at Jamie, then to Harry and her mother, then finally to her father.

 "Why are they here?" she asked indignantly.

 "Same reason you are." he arched an eyebrow.

 "Oh, yeah...is it happy birthday now?"

 "Yup..." he smiled. "I got all of you...oh, wait..” he looked around dramatically “There's someone missing..." he frowned.

 "Emmy!" Rori shrieked, as she scrambled out of the covers, flinging the door open.

 "That was evil!" Katie looked at Steve "It's not even 8 yet.

 "Well she insists on staying out until all hours with Queens" Steve scoffed “1 am...I mean..."

 "She's 20 Steve." Katie looked at him and he shook his head.

 "Don't care" he pouted with the air of a petulant child.

 Rori then re-entered the room and she looked at her dad, climbing back on the bed.

 "She told me to tell you to pee off" she shrugged.

 Steve let out a roar of laughter "Emmy!" he yelled "Get in here..."

 A minute or so later, a thoroughly grumpy looking Emmy appeared, dressed in a pair of Disney Pjamas, rubbing her eyes. 

 "Come give your dad a birthday hug." Steve opened his arms. 

 "I hate you." she mumbled, face planting on to the bed.

 "Aww come on, give your old man some love..." he continued teasing her and she looked up at him, her eyebrow raised.

 "Old is right, what is it this year Pops? "

 "110 if you don't count his little time travelling vacation." Katie grinned "125 if you do."

“I thought we agreed those 15 didn’t count because I wasn’t with you?” he smirked and she shrugged, grinning at him.

"125..." Emmy smirked "And you don't look a day over 124..."

 Steve tossed a pillow at her head which she caught and threw a Jamie. He gave a yell and snatched it up, hitting his sister with it, and before long the room descended into chaos. The Soldier and his eldest 3 grabbing pillows to hit one another with. The air was filled with shouts, yells, squeals and barks from Lucky as Harry bounced on Katie’s knee and gave a squeal of laughter, clapping his hands. Katie laughed, shaking her head because she could see exactly how this was going to end.

And she was right.

There was a loud ripping noise and suddenly a huge cloud of feathers erupted around them all. The room suddenly went still and silent as Steve and Jamie both sat there, each clutching one half of the shredded pillow.

 "Whoops." Jamie said, before he started to laugh, which set Emmy and Rori off and Harry joined in, shrieiking once more as he snatched at the feathers as they drifted down onto him. He grabbed them in his hands and then made a questioning noise as he showed them to Katie. She snorted and looked at Steve.

 "125 going on 2." she spat a feather out and arched an eyebrow at her husband who shrugged, grinning.

 "What can I say?” he beamed around at his family, his absolute world, with a genuine smile “You guys keep me young!”

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #368

“whatever doesn’t kill you, is gonna leave a scar”

Have you ever bought a YouTuber’s merch? My favorite shirt is the Day of the Dead design by Cloak, which is Markiplier's and jacksepticeye's clothing brand. Mom's friend/former co-worker also got me a Ninja Sex Party shirt because she knew I liked them. There are SO MANY YouTubers I wanna support by buying shirts. Do you think oatmeal tastes better when made with water or milk? Milk, 110%. Have you ever left a note in a library book? No. What time of day do you prefer to wash your hair? Morning. Has anyone ever spread lies about you? Yes. Have you ever taken a photograph with a celebrity? If so, did it turn out the way you wanted, or do you wish you could retake it? No. If you could move out of your home country permanently, would you? If so, where would you go? If it didn't mean being so very far from my family, I would love to move to Canada. Is there a celebrity that everyone else seems to love, but you find totally overrated? Why is it that you don’t like them? I legit don't know who's considered currently popular, and I especially don't know who they are as people. If you could volunteer for any charity, which one would you choose? Do you think it’s more important to help humans, or are animal and environmental charities equally important? Something relating to animals, and I think they're both equally important. Do you prefer holidays where you relax, or actually do things? I like a mix. Something chill, but you still do some stuff as a family. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? Yes. Has anybody ever told you that you could be a model? Someone has mistaken me for a model in a picture I once took. It was one of the most flattering things I've ever heard, haha. Do you use different kinds of moisturizer for different body parts? ie. hand lotion for your hands, face cream for your face. Or do you just use one moisturizer for all body parts? Yes. Have you ever felt like you were someone’s rebound? No. Has anybody ever broken up with you over something really pathetic? What was it? Have you ever been dumped in a disrespectful way? (eg. through text, through a friend..) I have 100% been dumped in a very cowardly and disrespectful way; after dating Jason for nearly four years and being very serious, he broke up with me very abruptly over Facebook Messenger. His reason was valid, but at the same time, he NEVER talked to me about it. Apparently my depression was dragging him down. If he'd fucking communicated it, I would have explored new treatment options so goddamn fast. But no, he decided to snap his fingers and disappear. That's exactly WHY it was so traumatic, I think: it was so unexpected and sudden. Did you have a lot of role models as a kid? Animal enthusiasts like Steve Irwin and Jeff Corwin for sure. Do you feel like anyone looks up to you? Why or why not? God no. I'm just... not someone to aspire to be like. What was the last thing you found offensive? I'm not sure. Who is the nicest person you know? My mom. Do you feel safe in your country? I feel safe in NC, rather. Like I don't expect an atom bomb or terrorist attack or something in this obscure area. In the U.S.A. itself, sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. America is definitely not loved by every other country. Do you feel safe where you live? Not in this city, no. Have you been falsely diagnosed with something by a bad doctor? Yup. Did y'all know I apparently have ADHD? I know, shocking. Have you ever had a doctor refuse to treat you? No. Name the strangest game you’ve ever played (video game or real game): The first Silent Hill, probably. It took a lot of reading to get it. Do you know anyone who has been struck by lightning before? No. Which cartoon character would you want to keep as a pet? Does Stitch count? Or a Pokemon. Do you like marshmallows? Yes. What is your favorite flavor of candy cane? I really like the Jolly Rancher candy canes, I think they are? Have you ever fostered an animal? No. Do you still take hot showers when it’s hot out? Not as hot, but not cold except on very extreme occasions. When writing $ sign, do you draw one line through the S or two? Two. What animal have you always wanted as a pet but couldn’t have? I'm thankful that my parents were pretty open-minded to what pets I really wanted, but one I was never allowed to have was a ferret because of how messy and smelly they are. List three people you’ve had crushes on: Jason, Sara, and Sebastian were probably my biggest crushes. Have you ever thrown up from cramps? No, but god have I felt close. List three people you had a hard time forgiving. Jason, Colleen, and my dad. Who is the most spiritual person you know? Probably my sister's mother-in-law. Would you ever start a vlog? God no, I'd bore people to tears. Are your dreams coming true yet? I mean, I guess in some ways with my mental health. In my deepest depression, what I have now was a dream, even though current me is very discontent with it. Most of my dreams, though? No. Do you struggle with depression? I've been diagnosed with severe depression since 7th grade. Are you haunted by your past? A few things won't leave me alone. What medical conditions do you have? Just a lot. There are even more that are up for debate. I've talked about my diagnosed conditions enough. Do you use a Magic Bullet? No. What does your apron look like? I don’t have one. What are your favorite spicy foods? Hot Cheetos, Takis, hot wings, jalapeno pizza... Man, I love spicy food. Which do you like better: being an adult or being a kid? Being a kid. Were you excited to be a teenager on your thirteenth birthday? I had very mixed feelings. Did you feel insecure in high school? Shit, I still do. Would you ever be friends with someone who was suicidal? What the FUCK is this question? No fucking shit I would be. Someone being suicidal in no way affects who they are as a person. Who was the biggest bully in high school? I don't think there really was one. What was your favorite class in high school? Art. Would you rather have a daughter or a son? If I wanted kids, a daughter. Have you ever written to an advice columnist? No. Have you ever had a doctor not believe what you told him? Maybe? I did however have an employee at the ER the first time I went try to pry out of me that my self-mutilation was for attention, and it wasn't until I insisted about a dozen times that it wasn't that he believed me. It's odd looking back that I got REALLY attached to him during that stay, knowing now that it was absolutely horrible and extremely unhelpful for him to do that. If you’re female, would you feel uncomfortable having a male gynecologist? I would absolutely refuse to have a male one. Do you like Lisa Frank? Yeah, like can you talk about aesthetic. What gives you nightmares? Boy, I wish I could tell you, given how much I have them. Were you ever hospitalized as a child? No. Did you get senior pictures taken? No. What color is your bicycle? I don’t have one. Did you ever have to take home a fake baby in health class? No, thank fuck. Would you rather wear ivory or white on your wedding day? What color will your bridesmaids wear? I'd rather wear black. I think red will be the bridesmaids' color. Would you rather have a swimming pool or trampoline? I want a swimming pool so damn badly so I could exercise my legs without worrying about sweating, and I can stop and rest whenever I want, unlike going walking or something. I don't think my knees could handle a trampoline. Do you think babies are cute? Some, sure. But a lot, not really. Do you dream about the future a lot? Yeah. Do you think about your past a lot? Way too frequently. How good are you at living in the moment? I'm trying to get better at it. Have you ever questioned God’s existence? Yeah. Vanilla frosting or chocolate? Chocolate. What’s your favorite foreign cuisine? I've actually been exploring Italian pasta lately. I'm not a big fan of foreign food that I've tried, though. Have you ever moved to another state? No. Did you do anything productive today? No. .-. Can you say the alphabet backwards? No, actually. Do you like flowers? Of course; does anyone not? Have you ever thought you were gonna die? I didn't care if I did or didn't. What kind of mood are you in today? I was honestly really depressed through most of it. Just health stuff was really getting to me. I just woke up from what was honestly like a four-hour nap and I feel all right, I guess. What are you craving right now? I REALLY want Domino's jalapeno pizza. Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance? No. What is worse, physical or emotional pain? Definitely emotional. Have you ever walked in on somebody doing something… questionable? When Dad still lived with us, I think he might have been watching... you know... on TV when I came into my parents' room for something. Idk for sure though. I didn't ask, and I don't want to know. If you were to make videos on YouTube, what would they be of? Oh god, idk. I don't want to make any. What I'd have most fun with would be reptile education, but I 1.) have literally one snake, 2.) am not extremely educated on a good number of them and don't want to be misleading, and 3.) I would run outta content fast. So, leave it to Snake Discovery, haha. Posting pictures of yourself in a bathing suit on the internet - ok or not? Yes, it's okay????? If you're talking about me personally though, you won't see me dead in a bathing suit picture. Do you typically laugh when somebody falls down? No, I gasp and see if they're okay. What is the most disturbing movie you’ve ever watched? Paranormal Entity. The ending is... a lot. Your opinion of Katy Perry, please? I like a couple of her songs. If you could say anything to your Mom right now… what would it be? "Thank you for absolutely everything."

[xoxo-nikki-xoxo]

300 followers writing contest!

Before I get into the rules/ guidelines I just want to make some points to you guys. Three years ago, I created this blog, it wasn’t what you think of it as today though. I named this blog something along the lines of fanofallfandoms, something like that. I had recently written on Wattpad and I loved it there, but then I found this app (Tumblr), and to say it blew my mind away when I was 15 is an understate. Now I'm sitting at my computer at 18 writing this.  

This past year and half I've dedicated a good part of my time to my writing. I fell in love with it. I never once thought I would get more then 100 followers now, I'm at 300! Its mind blowing really, it's amazing to have this platform of people who love the supernatural just as much as I do. From Twilight to The Vampire Diaries it's amazing how many friendships I've created on this platform.

I want to say a big thank you again, to everyone that liked my writing, and an even bigger thank you to people that loved it so much they were like “Lets fallow this chick”.  I love you all and thank you again

Now let's get to the writing challenge you have all been waiting for! Here are some guidelines for the challenge

I thought it would be a fun idea to create a creativity contest! The main idea of this is that you'll send in an ask requesting a song or quote. You then write, create a mood board anything creative based on the qoute or song. 1st prize well get to request anything from me! Meaning a series idea, or just a idea you have that you want me to write for you. 2nd I well once again write something for you, but it has to be a fic 3rd place,  well get a shout out and ill spam your account with likes (if i haven't already)

To request for a prompt (song or quote) send me in a ask or message me privately, your choice. After I see your ask or message ill cross it off the list for you so on one well take it

With that being said once a song is crossed off it is taken

The fic can be about any character you want from Twilight, Vampire diaries, Legacy, The Originals and your own OC too! I would apperaite it if you told me which character too

You don’t have too, but I would love it if you rebloged this so more people join in on the fun!

You don’t have to be fallowing me to participate in this but I would the love if you do!

There no word count limit, but if it is long just put the continue reading.

The fics can be smuty (just put a warning on it), they can become series if you want, fluffy, blurbs anything you guys want.  

The Fic can be inspired by the song too, you don’t have to write out the lyrics in the fic either

If the fic turns into a series just make sure to use the hashtag each update.

Make sure to tag me in your writing as well and use the hashtag #Nikkisblogcontest and tag me!

The deadline to have all your fic’s up and posted is  January 1st 2021. So plenty of time! I know people are in school or has work so i want to make sure you all have enough time.

The list of songs is very long so if you think you can handle writing two songs go ahead and ask for two. The more the merrier 

Song prompts

Someone Like you by Adele

Perfect to me by Ed Sheeran

Hold On by Chord Overstreet

My Immortal by Evanescence Jackson×oc×klaus

One and Only by Adele

Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls Elijah mikaelson ×reader

Dive Ed Sheeran

Possibility by Lykke Li

Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish

Young Dumb & Broke by Khalid

Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F) by Katy Perry

Animals by Maroon 5 klaus mikelson ×reader

I Kissed A Girl By Katy Perry

Quotes ( These are random quotes from lots of different shows/movies'.)

1.  I love you, in a really really big, pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me ( Greys Anatomy)

2. “I'm in the mood for chaos.” ( Riverdale)

3.   “I want to marry you. I want to have kids with you. I want to build us a house. I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want to die when I’m 110 years old in your arms. I don’t want 48 uninterrupted hours. I want a lifetime.” ( Greys Anatomy)

4.  “I decided as long as I'm going to hell, I might as well do it thoroughly.” (Twilight)

5.  "I'm not sorry that I met you. I'm not sorry that knowing you has made me question everything. That in death, you're the one that made me feel most alive."   (Vampire diaries)

7. " Love is giving someone the ability to destroy you, but trusting them not to” (Criminal minds)

6.  “No one expects you to change overnight. It’s hard to be one of the good guys. Look, I screw up, too. I’ve made plenty of mistakes believe me. But I don’t quit… and I know that counts for something. At least you’re trying, right?” (Lucifer) Paul Lahote × Reader

8.  “The only time I don’t feel like a ghost is when you look at me, because when you look at me, you see me.” ( Greys Anatomy)

9. "It's Okay. We Met, And We Talked, And It Was Epic, But ... Then The Sun Came Up And Reality Set In." ( Vampire Diaries)

10. “All of us live with a demon inside. Some days you control the demon. And other days it controls you. And it is always hungry. It feeds on lust and longing. And while you may slumber, the demon never sleeps. It tempts you into crossing every line you've ever drawn, all the while it tests you, haunts you. And once it has turned your loved ones into enemies, the demon has consumed you whole.” (The Originals)

[starr-fall-knight-rise]

Humans are Space Orcs,, “The Promise.”

A continuation in the Burg war arc. I especially like where the last part is leading me, super excited to write the next one. 

She could hear the sound of jets overhead, a distant roaring that turned into a scream and then back to a roar as the sleek alien crafts cut overhead. She had landed by shuttle with a group of marines not a few minutes ago, and had already taken over command. As chief weapons officer aboard ship she saw it as her duty to prepare them for battle. 

Off the books she was also an unofficial officer, but in charge of the Delta units (Drev) and the marines. Out of everyone on the ship she may have been second in line , behind her brother, regarding combat experience, but she did know more about human/other relations and their equipment. 

Even so, she brought Cannon with her to supervise and give his advice as they went along. His mechanical leg brace clicked and hissed as they hurried through their makeshift FOB. They were about half a mile outside the city, with Rundi, Tesraki, and Humans landing continuously to augment their troops. The fighting in orbit had drawn to a close with the Gromm retreating to the edge of the system.

Their job wasn’t to cripple the GA fleet though. Their job had been to simply breach the nexus and get one or two ships down onto the home planet where they would be in range of the Gromm capital City. They had done what they had come to do and so withdrew, it wouldn't matter if they managed to cripple the fleet, if they could just appear wherever they wanted without intervention by any other species.

On the ground, the Gromm forces had been mobilized, but looking over the state of their troops, sunny had to admit that she was not particularly impressed. Their understanding of war was rudimentary at best, and their physical constitutions were hardly conducive to war. The Gromm were a sort of gelatinous slime-covered species that required a lot of water to maintain their homeostasis, so their ability for drawn-out conflicts was sketchy.

The roaring of another jet thundered overhead, and Sunny lifted her head towards the sky. The F-90 darkfire roared past them low and on the right. The pilot was taking it risky and cutting very low along the ground, less than  a hundred feet, but as they did gunfire and missiles streaked away and forward completely annihilating an entire  row of advancing burg forces, just let loose from the amber dome that now covered  their original ship.

The jet banked low and to the left, cutting around the side, chased by drones on at least two sides as it tried to find a weakness in the outer shell of the dome. A single missile was fired, and Sunny watched in great interest as the projectile shot forward and then rammed into the shield.

A bright, amber circle erupted from the point of impact causing waves of power to pulse out in ripples.

The missile itself exploded on impact sending shrapnel out and away from the dome giving the pilot just moments for a tight roll.

The maneuver was so fast, that the following burg drones either didn’t have the time or the skill to respond, and both fell to the ground in wave of crashing heat.

Sunny smiled to herself, as much as a Drev could smile.

Despite being a human she was pretty sure that Adam had been born to fly. Perhaps whatever deity or spirit had made him hadn’t given him wings knowing specifically what kind of power he would possess if that was the case.

The jet pulled in a slow parabola around the opposite side of the dome and then came shooting back towards them.

Anti Air artillery took out any of the burg ships that dare venture to far into the friendly zone, and so the commander made it away scott free from harm.

How did she know it was Adam?

She could just feel it.

Also 110% because he was totally the best pilot up there, and the maneuvers he had pulled made that pretty clear. The jet circled once, then twice before slowing, landing deftly on a major piece of infrastructure, now abandoned by all nonessential gromm travelers. Sunny and Cannon jogged across their little base and approached the slowly rolling jet.

A few of the marines had taken it upon themselves to clear a space for incoming aircraft, and though they weren’t exactly trained in such things, they were smart enough to get the ball rolling bringing the commander to a stop just off the roadway. 

Now that the burg had pulled back and were keeping a tight defense around their dome, the other jets had pulled away as well, and a few came in to land. 

The canopy of the et opened just as sunny and Cannon were approaching, and she watched as the commander slipped from the front seat easily sliding down the ladder that had been provided. His companion was somewhat less steady on his feet wobbling down the ladder and then awkwardly tipping onto one knee as he hit the ground 

The commander turned to face them, still wearing his helmet but allowing the oxygen mask to hang to one side as he absently adjusted the hooks and harness  on the rest of his flight suit.

“Casualty report?”

All business, just like their military leaders back home. 

The facial expression he wore, at first, seemed distinctly not-Adam jaw set lips pulled into a hard line head held high eyes hard, but the closer she looked into the single nonmechanical green eye the more she sensed her friend in there.

“Counting all the casualties from the Esperanca, pilots, and ground forces around 211 fatalities and another 100 injuries at least half of those being serious.

Sunny watched carefully, saw as the corner of the man’s mouth twitched, watched the fiery spark in his remaining eye flicker and dim a bit. Though he didn’t show it, not in any meaningful way, Sunny knew him well enough to know the agony those words must have caused him, an internal pain that would be building up in him for a long while silently festering on his insides.

Adam was an amazing soldier.

But he wasn’t meant for war.

He had too much of a heart for it.

“First thing’s first, I want a triage tent set up for our wounded. Get Krill to wherever the most medical action is and make sure he stays there to help. The second place gets doctor Katie, and so on and so forth using all the available medical staff we have on hand. Someone get a message to Conn, and have him come down here. If we can get him close enough to one of these, we may be able to learn about troop movements. Sunny, I want you to make a call to the GA and get in contact with the Drev representative, the burg command ship is pretty large and recruit McCaster, quick thinker as he is, managed to do a scan of the ship as we passed. Looks like they tried to cram an entire army into that thing. I thought I got a good hit on them earlier, but that is less than a fraction of what is inside, and that isn't including artillery, ground vehicles, and drones. I’m hoping the Drev will be willing to help us win a war.”

“If there is one thing you can count on my species to do, it is to fight in a war.” Sunny said 

He nodded his head sharply, “In the meantime, I want to take the lull and set up the camp in the most efficient way possible, I want Artillery and ground forces spread out to greatest feasibility without compromising the line. I want to make sure they can’t take us out with one lucky shot. I want snipers on the ridges over there and there, and I want at least two jetts, drones or UFOs patrolling the sky at all times. See if we can't call into the GA and get ourselves some kind of shield, or the Gromm city for that matter. Just as many shields as possible.” He pulled off the helmet tucking it under one arm as he began to walk, “If anyone knows absolutely anything about the Gromm shield, I want to know about it. How do they go in, how do they go out, how long can it last, and how much firepower do I have to hit it with before it disrupts, or if there IS any firepower than can handle it.”

“We already have our people on it, sir.”

This was another voice sunny didn’t recognize, and the group of them turned around to see another human jogging up fro the interior of the camp.

“Sorry sir, I couldn’t help but overhearing. I was supposed to bring the news to you anyway. We have GA members that say they are familiar with the technology. It’s an energy shield that is designed to incorporate the kinetic energy of a projectile into its own power output. The more we hit it, the stronger it is going to get until there is no way to breach it.

“Than what the hell are we supposed to do.” 

“That’s just it sir, the design is great in theory, but the way it is made, it wouldn’t allow anyone in or out, and that tends to include air particles as well. If you stayed there long enough you would suffocate, so they need holes large enough for ventilation and for their people and weapons to go in and out. Inside the shield  they have collapsible portals that can be opened or closed fro both the inside or the outside.”

“So, theoretically if we were to get close enough, we could just walk right in.”

“Precisely sir, though that would reduce us to close quarters combat on their turf without the assistance of air support also leaving you trapped in an area with alien ship that contains a few thousand or more burg soldiers just raving for blood.”

The commander sighed, “Just excellent.” 

The man nodded and stepped away,

However, the commander held up a hand to stop him, “Tell your scientists to take a look into whatever other technology they might have. I want to know everything we can before we begin a ground assault. Preferably I want them to come to us, and I want  to thin out their lines before they show up.”

“Yes, sir.” The man hurried off leaving Sunny and the Commander to walk together through their little base and towards the operations tent where, seemingly all the officers had agreed to set up camp.

They allotted as the commander entered placing his flight helmet on the makeshift table and turning to his officers.

“Tell me everything we know, and lay it out for me as we know it. Don’t leave anything out.”

The man started with the casualty report and losses. Sunny glanced at Adam, who, again made sure to show no signs of how the news affected him.

“Based on the calculations sent from your scan sir, we reasonably estimate a body count somewhere in five thousand just on that ship alone. Judging from early estimates of casualties based on volume and square space. Maybe 200 of those 5,000 dead. As far as their artillery goes they seem to have one artillery unit per every 100 individuals giving us 50 units five of them having been destroyed out of the ten that were originally deployed. We do not think that this ship is meant to make it out of this alive. Clearly, we are under the impression their job is to get in and get the information by whatever means necessary.” He pointed out towards the looming burg ship, “Everyone on that ship is likely to have been put on a suicide mission. They will have no fear and no qualms about what they are doing. Their best bet is to do one mass attack and push forward through our lines. If they do that, there is no way that we can stop them other than with mass casualties.”

There was silence around the tent.

“What you’re saying is, we have no chance of stopping them?”

“Realistically, commander, not if they are doing what I think they are going to do. They don’t care about the civilians in the city, and they don’t care about us. If they attack all at once we WILL be overwhelmed, and we will be overwhelmed quickly. They will make it into the city, and they will have the warp codes before we can do anything about it. Once those codes are in their hands they will have the ability to attack any target in the known universe within reason. Of course earth, the GA the Tesraki and the Rundi will be difficult targets owing to our defense systems, but other more rudimentary planets will not be so lucky. The Tvek, dead, the Finnari, dead, the Celzex, dead, the Drev, dead…. He paused and looked to sunny and Cannon, you get the picture.”

“We can’t let them get that far.” The commander mumbled.

“No, we can’t. It will, likely, take them a day or two to organize an advance at that scale. So they are vulnerable from now until nearing the beginning of the attack.

“What are our options?’

“Well, the one good thing about being inside that dome is that they are cramped together in such a tight space that any chain explosion could potentially annihilate them all in one go. Though whoever went in would have to be fast, agile, good at close combat, and almost indestructible.”

The commander sighed looking up at the tent ceiling with a sick expression on his face, “So we have less than two days to come up with a crack team of demolition experts who are fast, agile, and trained in close combat to go in there on a suicide mission and blow up the dome before the burg can mobilize enough troops to wipe us all out, and cause mayhem across the galaxy.”

“Not entirely so, sir. We have access to GA shield technology, so you would have that added protection.”

The commander paused staring out at the field of combat eye burning with the pain of a difficult decision, “If we don’t do this, the entire universe is in danger. I cant believe someone didn’t notice this massive security breach. Giving the groom access to all those condones i none space was foolhardy at best and criminally negligent at worst, and now I have one day to come up with an idea to-” He paused 

And in him sunny saw something.

The fire flared again though his face contorted for a microsecond into a mask of absolute agony, sadness and disgust. He shook himself, “I need to make a call. I think I have an idea.” 

He turned around to march off, “Lieutenant, take command.”

“Yes sir.”

Sunny followed after him, catching up halfway to a shuttle catching his arm with one of her four.

“Adam, are you ok? What’s wrong.”

He jerked his arm away from her, and she stepped back in surprise caught off guard.

He turned to look at her and his expression softened, “I’m sorry, I just. I have to do something that…. I don’t want to do.”

“What?”

“I can’t tell you.”

She was confused now, “Why not!”

The pain in his expression was only growing more palpable, “Because you would never let me if you knew.”

“Shouldn't I just stop you anyway then?” 

His expression was now one of open pain, “Sunny, don’t talk me out of it because I WILL take you up on it, but you have to trust this is the only way.”

“I’m sure you're just exaggerating.”

“Maybe I am.” the man whispered, “But it’s the only solution I have.”

She growled in frustration, “Then just tell me, and we can talk it out together! I can help.

He looked away, “I can’t trust you not to be biased.”

She crossed her arms, “And you can?”

“Sunny, this is going to happen whether you agree or not. So which side do you want to be on?”

They locked eyes, and despite his words of harshness she saw no malice in his face, and to her surprise she could see that.

He was afraid.

Where once pain had covered up fear, she could see it rearing its ugly head.

His cheek twitched.

“Please.” He was begging now, and it made her sick to watch.

It hurt.

“Adam… I, whatever it is you don’t have to do it alone.”

He looked at her with a steady expression, “Do you promise?”

She nodded.

“I promise.” 

[heathneycanon]

okay so i ranked 113 total drama/ridonculous race ships based on how much i like them with explanations below the cut.. fair warning that i’m a lil mean to some of the ships lower on the list.

also i forgot to include dwayne senior and that one girl’s mom from rr because i literally forgot they existed until now, and i don’t want to manually add them in so i’ll just say that i think they’re cute but not super interesting.

EDIT: this has been updated post-roti-rewatch. i switched around the order of a couple ships, and added a new one. if i ever rewatch rr or pahkitew i’ll probably edit it again, but the likelihood of me rewatching either of those seasons any time soon is... ok i was about to say it was slim but it’s probably not

also i’m not ever adding in dwayne and the mom because i like it being a part f the description lmao. an afterthought. as it should be.

enjoy!

113. stephanie/ryan - i HATE the daters/haters. they’re like a weird, shitty mix of tda gidgette and duncney. like, they’re either annoyingly all over each other, or they’re toxic and fighting. tbh, they’re pretty toxic all the time. they stuck around for way too long imho.

112. jacques/josee - I CHANGED MY MIND IGNORE THIS

111. tom/jen - tom is canonically gay, and i hc jen as a lesbian. so i’m not a fan of this ship.

110. nemma - yeahh, knowing me, this is also a predictably low ranking. i hc noah as gay and emma as a lesbian, so again, i don’t vibe with this one.

109. coderra - i can only deal with this ship in rewrites. i’ve seen super well thought out rewrites of coderra and sierra’s character, but as it stands, i really don’t ship this at all.

108. davesky - dave is an incel lmao. anyway yea this ship initially seemed like bootleg zoke, which was kind of bootleg gwent, but then BOY did davesky get worse. i can’t stand dave and i can’t stand pairing him with sky, either.

107. leonard/sugar - why. i hate both of these characters. no thank u.

106. ella/dave - ok so u know i don’t like dave. i also hc ella as a lesbian, she hasn’t realized it and is dealing with comphet. i don’t like this ship.

105. topher/ella - i hc both of them as gay. they are friends tho.

104. macarthur/brody - in case you’re noticing a trend, i do in fact hc macarthur as a lesbian. i also don’t really care about her at all lmao. anyway, not a fan of this one. i really don’t understand why fresh thought this was a good idea.

103. noah/katie - again, i hc noah as gay, but this ship is more funny to me than anything else because these characters were shipped together so often early on, when they both a) barely had any characterization and b) had never interacted? anyway yea i don’t ship it.

102. cameron/sierra - this one’s weird? literally sierra had a crush on him or whatever because he reminded her of cody even though they’re… nothing alike? dude please get sierra some therapy oh my god

101. heather/justin - i knew someone who really, really shipped them once, which is why i’m including it. anyway i cannot see this ship at all, next.

100. amy/rodney - i guess this existed? i barely remember pahkitew, and i know rodney had a bunch of crushes, but this is the main one i remember so it’s the only one i can be bothered to include. anyway this relationship didn’t seem healthy at all.

99. max/scarlett - i don’t like max and i don’t really care about scarlett, but i also hc both of them as gay, so this is a no from me.

98. gwody - creepy and bad. i don’t trust people who ship this or davesky.

97. dashawn - shawn can do better. that one scene where they look at each other when dave has to kiss the person next to him is kinda funny tho.

96. topher/dave - marginally better than all other dave ships just because topher is there and i like topher. again tho, topher can do much better.

95. malejandro - why does this ship exist.

94. ezekiel/bridgette - not my thing at all. i don’t care about zeke too much, and i have a lot more ships with bridgette that i prefer over this one.

93. cody/beth - i only care about cody in certain contexts, and i practically never care about beth. i wouldn’t click off of a fic if this were a background pairing or whatever, but i definitely wouldn’t seek it out.

92. ezekiel/beth - again, don’t really care about beth or ezekiel that much. but in certain contexts, i can see why this would be cute.

91. courtney/jose - the only way this is cute is alongside aleheather, so that courtney and heather could marry into the same family. but also, why is this a ship that exists?

90. scourtney - i love both scott and courtney, but no thank u. they had absolutely no chemistry, and courtney was using scott both in the competition and as a rebound. not a fan.

89. gwen/cameron - is this a thing that exists? i found a screenshot of gwen kissing cameron on the cheek but is that edited? if it is real, i probably blocked it from my mind.

88. courtney/cameron - now i know this one exists in the weirdest, stupidest way the show could’ve gone about it. barely even qualifies as a ship, and it’s definitely not a good one.

87. duncan/zoey - i kind of see why others would like this one, but at the same time, it doesn’t really appeal to me.

86. alejandro/courtney - i love alejandro and i love courtney. but i can only see them as friends, tho i can see them like. kissing just because they’re bored. or to fuck with people. they did that in the show, right? kind of? i forget the specifics.

85. chris/blaineley - while i guess i can see why people ship this, chref is canon and blaineley is a lesbian.

84. katie and/or sadie/justin - why would katie or sadie date justin, when they’re in love?

83. gwuncan - maybe could’ve been good, but literally everything about how they got together and their relationship in canon has tainted my view of this ship. i definitely preferred them as friends in tda anyway. there’s a lotta cute gwuncan fanart out there so i do rb it sometimes tho. i see why people ship this, i get the potential, but for me it’s soured by world tour.

82. laurie/miles - who?

81. mary/ellody - yea ok they’re smart gfs, but also i literally don’t give a shit about either of them.

80. pete/gerry - they’re definitely dating but again i don’t care about them.

79. mike/cameron - not a horrible ship by any means, i just don’t really like cameron that much.

78. alejandro/justin - there are so many superior alejandro ships. and a handful of slightly better justin ships.

77. carrie/devin - wow they didn’t have a storyline that was original in any way! they’re pretty cute tho.

76. sanders/macarthur - would be higher but acab.

75. macarthur/josee - i really like the whole rivals to lovers thing, but again, acab. this is higher than sanders/macarthur because of the rivals to lovers, but mostly it’s because there’s only one bastard cop here rather than two.

74. owen/alejandro - i don’t really mind this one, but i see it as more of a one sided crush on owen’s side.

73. lightning/cameron - i don’t really care about cameron, but the jock/nerd dynamic is kinda good.

72. rockspud - they’re definitely a couple, but as the trend indicates, i really can’t bring myself to care too much about rr ships.

71. lindsay/beth - best beth ship, worst lindsay ship. i like one this better if lindsay is also dating tyler.

70. lindsay/lightning - a crackship i made up when i was eleven. i just think it’s really funny.

69. noco - not a bad ship, it’s just not my thing. i definitely see why other people ship it, i just ship both of them with other people.

68. ella/sugar - i see why people ship this as well, but i just really don’t like sugar. i can bring myself to see past that because this dynamic is genuinely good.

67. sierra/heather - i’ve seen this in au’s and rewrites of sierra’s character, and i see the potential. not bad.

66. bawn - they’re cute i guess? i just never really saw the appeal. they’re not bad by any means, it just seems kind of bland.

65. dakota/zoey - okay so i’m adding this one in as i’m reordering stuff because i rewatched roti. i didn’t have this here initially but their friendship was cute until zoey was all “she’s scary” and voted her off. just saying, if zoey wasn’t written as a hypocrite and was actually written as a COOL character that lived up to the potential of her concept, this would’ve slapped. also i love any combo of dawn, zoey, and dakota, because they’re cute. i’m not including poly ships on here because that’d make things wayy complicated, but i’d be here for a poly ship of these three.

64. scott/zoey - UPDATED. was originally “yea something about this rubs me the wrong way. i feel like if i rewatched roti i would remember what, but i’m not going to do that just for this list. maybe someday.” i ended up rewatching roti for unrelated reasons the next day, and honestly? this one is not that bad. could be cute, potentially.

63. dj/katie - i guess this one’s pretty cute? i don’t really remember them interacting, but i guess i can see why someone would like this.

62. dunhar - i see why people ship this one. i kind of like it? i feel like it would work really well in an au or a rewrite.

61. dott - UPDATED. was originally “i used to kind of like this ship, but now i really don’t. i do love the idea of dawn and scott as best friends who bully each other in the friendly kind of way, though.” but i rewatched roti and... this has potential. i kinda like it. still prefer the bullying friendship tho.

60. scott/mike - again, i see why people would ship it. i’m not sure if people actually do? but it seems like the sort of thing i might have shipped in middle school, so someone probably likes it. but meh, it’s not really my thing anymore.

59. topher/shawn - i don’t remember if these two interacted but i guess this could be cute? maybe?

58. sky/ella - yea it’s cute i guess? i don’t really have an opinion on this one beyond that.

57. dawn/dj - i mean… i get where this comes from. i fully understand. i personally see them becoming close friends, but i also see why people would ship them.

56. dawn/brick - again, i see them much more as friends, but i get why people would ship them.

55. geoff/gwen - this ship kinda interests me because it was originally going to be canon in camp tv, but because of that one gweoff friendship episode in island i see them as unlikely friends.

54. dj/bridgette - maybe you’re sensing a trend here, but i see them as friends. i could probably get on board with shipping them, though.

53. deather - i like them as friends more, but i do think a relationship between them could be fun.

52. ella/dawn - i feel like i’ve seen this ship? it’s not bad! i’m not the biggest fan of ella but this is pretty cute.

51. zoke - i really want to like them, and i wish they were written better. as is, i kind of ship them? there’s nothing wrong with zoke. but both as characters and as a ship, they could’ve been so much better.

50. noah/justin - this one’s interesting! i’ve never actively shipped it, but i can see it for sure. it’s cute!

49. owen/justin - again, not something i’ve actively shipped, but i like it!

48. carrie/kitty - i think they’re both in their late teens? like 18ish? appropriate ages for each other? if so, i like this one. they’d be cute

47. josee/jen - yea i like this. i feel like they would get along pretty well. they’re both successful in their own right. power couple for sure.

46. tom/jacques - again. power couple. i also think they’d go on double dates with jen and josee, which i like a lot. honestly both of these teams are the epitome of mlm/wlw solidarity. i like this one.

45. alecody - i like it! i don’t have much to say about them at all, but i like it.

44. brody/geoff - good ship! putting the romance in bromance. i like this one more when it’s combined with gidgette though.

43. anne maria/vito - originally i put “what is the appeal of this ship? genuinely asking.” as the description, and then an anon sent in this reply: “You wanted the appeal of anne maria and vito? Well here it is; they are both so dumb. Not a brain cell between the two of them. Imagine them trying to do anything domestic like. They could not assemble a bookshelf or make a pot of spaghetti without it turning into a horrible, but memorably fun, mess. They’re soft for eachother but would kick anyone’s ass for so much as looking at the other. Sorry im rambling lmao i just think they are so funny together”. i get the appeal now, so i’m moving this one up.

42. lindsay/courtney - lmao their dynamic is so funny. i don’t know how well a relationship between them would go, but i can see court realizing over time that lindsay is a lot smarter than she initially seems to be. idk courtney’s observant and lindsay is actually pretty smart. i can see it happening.

41. trent/justin - best justin ship, worst trent ship (that i can think of. i’m sure there are more trent ships but i can’t think of them lmao). i can see them getting along pretty well! i bet in universe a bunch of drama brothers fans ship them, because of course they do. i can see the potential here.

40. lindsay/heather - yea this one could be good. i’d like to see a post world tour version of this ship, or an island au where they get together. either way, i like the idea of this one.

39. lindsay/gwen - again, this ship is pretty good. gwen was kind of rude to lindsay at points, but i think after she stood up to heather, gwen gained some respect for her. idk i can see it happening.

38. lightning/scott - is this jock/farmer? jock/asshole? i’m not sure, but i really like it.

37. harzeke - tumblr user harzeke has opened my eyes. their posts are enlightening. the reason i kind of like ezekiel. harzeke is a good ship.

36. sadie/lindsay - remember in phobia factor when they were hyping each other up? yeah. they’d be cute together.

35. dundie - you know, i really didn’t expect them to make this one canon, but total drama dundie came outta nowhere. i wasn’t sure i was going to like them together, but fresh pulled together it’s first coherent plot in years and created a beautiful love story. very well done.

34. chref - chref is canon and u can’t tell me otherwise.

33. katie/sadie - after they got over their comphet, they realized they were in love and they end up having a really cute wedding.

32. ozzy - this ship is cute! they’re both bi and i hc they talk about cute people together because of course they do. also they would be so much fun to be around. i like them.

31. dj/geoff - djeoff? yea i like this. i think they’d both go out of their way to do sweet things for the other, but of course, they’re still geoff and dj. dj would probably bake a lot for geoff, but at least once, he’s gotten nervous and dropped it by accident. and geoff practices pick up lines and jokes before their dates but they’re like. the bad ones. dj loves them. anyway! this ship is good.

30. courtney/trent - i really, REALLY love them as friends, but i like them as a ship too! honestly i just love them getting along in any capacity. i think they’d be cute.

29. dawn/dakota - i made this up five minutes ago and i love it. i have no idea if people actually ship this but they should. just… think about it for a second. think about it and then try to tell me i’m wrong. u can’t.

28. alenoah - noah had a crush on alejandro during world tour, and u can quote me on this. i think they would be a power couple for sure. i like this one.

27. gidgette - season one gidgette is amazing. gidgette in the context of the killer bass five is amazing. season two and three gidgette is kind of meh to me, but not horrible i guess! i like geoff and bridgette and i think they’re cute together.

26. duncan/dj - i like the idea of this one. remember when duncan found dj a bunny? yea. they’d be cute.

25. jock - jock is good. rivals to allies to lovers. that’s the path i see this ship going down. i really like picturing them in any sort of au where they can kick ass together.

24. gwourtney - i used to like this one a lot more, but it’s still very good. i love the idea of them both mistakenly attributing their feelings for each other to duncan and accidentally ruining their friendship in the process. and by love i mean hate but also think is a good interpretation of the love triangle. i can see them together in an au, or after seriously reconciling in the future. or, honestly, in any universe where sundae muddy sundae doesn’t exist.

23. leshawna/gwen - did i hear u say best friends to lovers? no? well you’re getting them anyway. leshawna and gwen would be amazing i’m telling u. it’s a good ship.

22. tyler/alejandro - this is the third time i’ve said someone had a crush on alejandro during world tour, but. tyler had a crush on alejandro during world tour. i think they’d make a cute couple.

21. jashawn - this is a relationship built on respect and trust and i am here for that. they’re both a lil weird but neither of them mind, and they care about each other so much… i’m soft.

20. jasammy - i like this only marginally better than jashawn. honestly, i like all three dating the most. but anyway, jasmine was the first person who saw sammy as more than an extension of her sister… she stuck up for her. she was sammy’s first real friend. can i just reiterate… i’m soft.

19. evzy - they would light your house on fire together just cuz they were in the mood. eva bench presses izzy every morning. do not try to challenge them to any sort of competition, they will win by any means possible. eva picks izzy up at every opportunity. whenever they cook anything, they burn it. is this by accident or on purpose? i’m not sure. izzy likes lighting stuff on fire and eva likes eating burnt food for some reason, so it doesn’t really matter. i love their dynamic so much.

18. jomaria - if u were talking shit about either one of them, they would both get together and beat u up. they’re both legends and i love them.

17. gweather - total trauma comic has truly opened my eyes… i really like them in a future setting where they’re both more mature and can understand how they were both in the wrong at times during total drama, and ended up hurting people and were hurt themselves, and work through that together. so basically… in the setting of the total trauma comic.

16. heather/leshawna - rivals to lovers…. au where leshawna and heather get together during tda… i’m telling u it’s a good ship.

15. nowen - imho, this is both the best noah ship and the best owen ship. they complement each other so well. world tour nowen is just. the peak of their dynamic. i think enough has been said about nowen that you can understand why i would like it, so i’m just gonna move on.

14. trody - this one came outta NOWHERE a while back, i’m telling u. but i love it?? i liked their friendship in island, and i just. i love the idea of cody having a crush on both gwen and trent during island, misunderstanding that and thinking he just has a crush on gwen, and realizing after island at some point that he also liked trent. and then trent developing a crush on cody after the breakup with gwen and just… dijfalsfjla honestly i like them in so many contexts. thank u tumblr user gothcody for bringing the trody hype. anyway they’re a good ship!

13. bridgecourt - my favorite bridgette ship! idk i loved bridgette and courtney’s friendship in island, and i can see them having a best friends to lovers type of deal. i just think they’d be cute together, and their relationship would be really healthy and balanced.

12. gwoey - u can try and tell me there wasn’t a little something between these two in all stars, but u would be wrong. their designs compliment each other really well, they’re cute together… i’m a fan.

11. lesharold - SO valid. harold drinks his respect women juice every morning, except for that one time he rigged the votes in island to vote out courtney because he was mad at duncan smh. anyway this is a relationship built on RESPECT and CARE. they’re very cute together, and i love them.

10. dawn/zoey - the superior doey. listen the only reason these two weren’t friends is because fresh decided that zoey was going to think dawn was “weird”? but what if zoey just said that because she didn’t know how to deal with the fact that she found zoey cute… zoey is the epitome of that “i had a crush on a girl and i didn’t know how to deal with it so i sent her a letter that said ‘get out of my school’” tweet. n e way they would be such a good couple.

9. samkota - dafjlsflkaakf i think about samkota and i freak out i’m telling u. like is there anything. ANYTHING. better than a guy loving and respecting his girlfriend unconditionally? and mutual love and respect? … well i mean there are several more entries on this list, so okay, maybe a couple of things, but this shit is galaxy brain right here.

8. aleduncan - ok so apparently something i like slightly more than partners who are soft and even softer for each other is total assholes who care about each other. like alejandro is a gentleman… but he’s a manipulative jerk too. and duncan’s a fucking asshole and i love him for it. anyway when they teamed up in world tour, especially in that episode where they hunted ezekiel (??? what is total drama??) i really liked their dynamic.

7. lyler - ok back to love and respect. tyler and lindsay are so good!! tyler got so excited when lindsay remembered who he was right? and lindsay never stopped asking ppl if they were tyler ok. like she knew she cared about tyler enough to want to be with him even when she didn’t know who he was?? i feel like we don’t talk about the implications of this enough. honestly… i feel like people overlook how much the period in between tyler’s elimination and slap slap evolution must have sucked for both of them? like it was played for laughs but… that shit’s sad :( ok i’m done being sad they’re cute and they love each other and i love them.

6. gwent - yea u got me i still care about them. tdi gwent was really sweet! there was a lil pining. a lil outside meddling. and a lot of cute. and GOD during the finale when trent ran alongside gwen with that boulder? he cared about her so much!! of course action ruined it with the shitty portrayal of ocd and a healthy portion of not fucking communicating with your partner, but before that it was good.

5. truncan - you got me, i like the idea of trent serenading duncan with his guitar and duncan liking it a lot more than he anticipated. i think they’d have a dynamic that’s a little more turbulent than most other trent ships, but less so than most other duncan ships. they’d be a lot more balanced i think. i’m a fan of that.

4. scuncan - okay so u remember how i said i like to ship two fucking assholes together? scuncan is peak asshole/asshole rights. all stars totally missed their chance to have these two team up by dumbing scott down, whatever they did with duncan, and of course, introducing scourtney, i’m just saying. scott was actually playing the game pretty well in roti, and duncan was a veteran of the series. the two of them could’ve dominated the game. those fuckin assholes.

3. aleheather - okay now this ship was like, the only central ship that started out good and ended good in this entire series, except maybe jashawn but they don’t count because they were literally only in 13 episodes. anyway they did rivals to lovers right here. also, they simultaneously gave heather a great character arc and wrote alejandro super well. so the characters as individuals were great at the time they got together, and the couple was great together, so what i’m trying to say is… aleheather was and still is amazing.

2. duncney - in case u couldn’t tell from how high gwent is on this list, i am a fan of the tdi ships. another thing you might be able to tell from this list- duncan and courtney are two of my favorite characters in the series. so of course duncney gets a high placement on this list. not only that, but they go from disliking each other to really liking each other, which is something else that i really like. tdi duncney is opposites attract in the best way, where they compliment each other each other instead of clash. beyond that… ugh. eughhh. i don’t even want to think about that. but duncney in tdi alone earns itself number two on the list.

1. heathney - yes i love girls. yes this ship is pretty fucking basic. and no, there are no heathney fics on ao3. i will be attempting to remedy that. anyway, i could see them pulling a rivals to friends to lovers as well, which is one of my absolute favorite tropes. i think they’d be a total power couple. and to top it off, i love them both. a lot. so much. thank u for ur time.

[birdlord]

Everything I Watched in 2020

We’ll start with movies. The number in parentheses is the year of release, asterisks denote a re-watch, and titles in bold are my favourite watches of the year. Here’s 2019’s list. 

01 Little Women (19)

02 The Post (17) 

03 Molly’s Game (17)

04 * Doctor No (62)

05 Groundhog Day (93)

06 *Star Trek IV - The Voyage Home (86)

07 Knives Out (19) My last theatre experience (sob)

08 Professor Marston and his Wonder Women (17)

09 Les Miserables (98)

10 Midsommar (19) I’m not sure how *good* it is, but it does stick in the ol’ brain

11 *Manhattan Murder Mystery (93)

12 Marriage Story (19)

13 Kramer vs Kramer (79)

14 Jojo Rabbit (19)

15 J’ai perdu mon corps (19) a cute animated film about a hand detached from its body!

16 1917 (19)

17 Married to the Mob (88)

18 Klaus (19)

19 Portrait of a Lady on Fire (19) If Little Women made me want to wear a scarf criss-crossed around my torso, this one made me want to wear a cloak

20 The Last Black Man in San Francisco (19)

21 *Lawrence of Arabia (62)

22 Gone With the Wind (39)

23 Kiss Me Deadly (55)

24 Dredd (12)

25 Heartburn (86) heard a bunch about this one in the Blank Check series on Nora Ephron, sadly after I’d watched it

26 The Long Shot (19)

27 Out of Africa (85)

28 King Kong (46)

29 *Johnny Mnemonic (95)

30 Knocked Up (07)

31 Collateral (04)

32 Bird on a Wire (90)

33 The Black Dahlia (05)

34 Long Time Running (17)

35 *Magic Mike (12)

36 Before the Devil Knows You’re Dead (07)

37 Cold War (18)

38 *Kramer Vs Kramer (79) yes I watched this a few months before! This was a pandemic friend group co-watch.

39 *Burn After Reading (08)

40 Last Holiday (50)

41 Fly Away Home (96)

42 *Moneyball (11) I’m sure I watch this every two years, at most??

43 Last Holiday (06) the Queen Latifah version of the 1950 movie above, lacking, of course, the brutal “poor people don’t deserve anything good” ending

44 *Safe (95)

45 Gimme Shelter (70)

46 The Daytrippers (96)

47 Experiment in Terror (62)

48 Tucker: The Man and His Dream (88)

49 My Brilliant Career (79) one of the salvations of 2020 was watching movies “with” friends. Our usual method was to video chat before the movie, sync our streaming services, and text-chat while the movie was on. 

50 Divorce Italian Style (61)

51 *Gosford Park (01) another classic comfort watch, fuck I love a G. Park

52 Hopscotch (80)

53 Brief Encounter (45)

54 Hud (63)

55 Ocean’s 8 (18)

56 *Beverly Hills Cop (84)

57 Blow the Man Down (19)

58 Constantine (05)

59 The Report (19) maddening!! How are people so consistently terrible to one another!

60 Everyday People (04)

61 Anatomy of a Murder (58)

62 Spiderman: Homecoming (17)

63 *To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar (95) Of the 90s drag road movies, Priscilla is more visually striking, but this has its moments.

64 Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me (92)

65 *The Truman Show (98)

66 Mona Lisa (86)

67 The Blob (58)

68 The Guard (11)

69 *Waiting for Guffman (96) RIP Fred Willard

70 Rocketman (19)

71 Outside In (18)

72 The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (08) how strange to see a movie that you have known the premise for, but no details of, for over a decade

73 *Star Trek: The Undiscovered Country (91)

74 The Reader (08)

75 Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker (19) This was fine until it VERY MUCH WAS NOT FINE

76 The End of the Affair (99) you try to watch a fun little romp about infidelity during the Blitz, and Graham Greene can’t help but shoehorn in a friggin crisis of religious faith

77 Must Love Dogs (05) barely any dog content, where are the dogs at

78 The Rainmaker (97)

79 *Batman & Robin (97)

80 National Lampoon’s Vacation (83) Never seen any of the non-xmas Vacations, didn’t realize the children are totally different, not just actors but ages! Also, this one is blatantly racist!

81 *Mystic Pizza (88)

82 Funny Girl (68)

83 The Sons of Katie Elder (65)

84 *Knives Out (19) another re-watch within the same year!! How does this keep happening??

85 *Scott Pilgrim Vs The World (10) a real I-just-moved-away-from-Toronto nostalgia watch

86 Canadian Bacon (92) vividly recall this VHS at the video store, but I never saw it til 2020

87 *Blood Simple (85)

88 Brittany Runs a Marathon (19)

89 The Accidental Tourist (88)

90 August Osage County (13) MELO-DRAMA!!

91 Appaloosa (08)

92 The Firm (93) Feeling good about how many iconic 80s/90s video store stalwarts I watched in 2020

93 *Almost Famous (00)

94 Whisper of the Heart (95)

95 Da 5 Bloods (20)

96 Rain Man (88)

97 True Stories (86)

98 *Risky Business (83) It’s not about what you think it’s about! It never was!

99 *The Big Chill (83)

100 The Way We Were (73)

101 Safety Last (23) It’s getting so that I might have to add the first two digits to my dates...not that I watch THAT many movies from the 1920s...

102 Phantasm (79)

103 The Burrowers (08)

104 New Jack City (91)

105 The Vanishing (88)

106 Sisters (72)

107 Puberty Blues (81) Little Aussie cinema theme, here

108 Elevator to the Gallows (58)

109 Les Diaboliques (55)

110 House (77) haha WHAT no really W H A T

111 Death Line (72)

112 Cranes are Flying (57)

113 Holes (03)

114 *Lady Vengeance (05)

115 Long Weekend (78)

116 Body Double (84)

117 The Crazies (73) I love that Romero shows the utter confusion that would no doubt reign in the case of any kind of disaster. Things fall apart.

118 Waterlilies (07)

119 *You’re Next (11)

120 Event Horizon (97)

121 Venom (18) I liked it, guys, way more than most superhero fare. Has a real sense of place and the place ISN’T New York!

122 Under the Silver Lake (18) RIP Night Call

123 *Blade Runner (82)

124 *The Birds (62) interesting to see now that I’ve read the story it came from

125 *28 Days Later (02) hits REAL FUCKIN’ DIFFERENT in a pandemic

126 Life is Sweet (90)

127 *So I Married an Axe Murderer (93) find me a more 90s movie, I dare you (it’s not possible)

128 Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner (67)

129 The Pelican Brief (93) 90s thrillers continue!

130 Dick Johnston is Dead (20)

131 The Bridges of Madison County (95)

132 Earth Girls are Easy (88) Geena Davis and Jeff Goldblum are so hot in this movie, no wonder they got married 

133 Better Watch Out (16)

134 Drowning Mona (00) trying for something like the Coen bros and not getting there

135 Au Revoir Les Enfants (87)

136 *Chasing Amy (97) Affleck is the least alluring movie lead...ever? I also think I gave Joey Lauren Adams’ character short shrift in my memory of the movie. It’s not good, but she’s more complicated than I recalled. 

137 Blackkklansman (18)

138 Being Frank (19)

139 Kiki’s Delivery Service (89)

140 Uncle Frank (20) why so many FRANKS

141 *National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation (89) watching with pals (virtually) made it so much more fun than the usual yearly watch!

142 Half Baked (98) another, more secret Toronto nostalgia pic - RC Harris water filtration plant as a prison!

143 We’re the Millers (13)

144 All is Bright (13)

145 Defending Your Life (91)

146 Christmas Chronicles (18) I maintain that most new xmas movies are terrible, particularly now that Netflix churns them out like eggnog every year. 

147 Spiderman: Into the Spider-Verse (18)

148 Reindeer Games (00) what did I say about Affleck??!? WHAT DID I SAY

149 Palm Springs (20)

150 Happiest Season (20)

151 *Metropolitan (90) it’s definitely a Christmas movie

152 Black Christmas (74)

THEATRE:HOME - 2:150 (thanks pandemic)

I usually separate out docs and fiction, but I watched almost no documentaries this year (with the exception of Dick Johnston). Reality is real enough. 

TV Series

01 - BoJack Horseman (final season) - Pretty damned poignant finish to the show, replete with actual consequences for our reformed bad boy protagonist (which is more than you can say for most antiheroes of Peak TV).

02 - *Hello Ladies - I enjoy the pure awkwardness of seeing Stephen Merchant try to perform being a Regular Person, but ultimately this show tips him too far towards a nasty, Ricky Gervais-lite sort of persona. Perhaps he was always best as a cameo appearance, or lip synching with wild eyes while Chrissy Teigen giggles?

03 - Olive Kittredge - a rough watch by times. I read the book as well, later in the year. Frances Mcdormand was the best, possibly the only, casting option for the flinty lead. One episode tips into thriller territory, which is a shock. 

04 - *The Wire S3, S4, S5 - lockdown culture! It was interesting to rewatch this, then a few months later go through an enormous, culture-level reappraisal of cop-centred narratives. 

05 - Forever - a Maya Rudolph/Fred Armisen joint that coasts on the charm of its leads. The premise is OK, but I wasn’t left wanting any more at the end. 

06 - *Catastrophe - a rewatch when my partner decided he wanted to see it, too!

07 - Red Oak - resolutely “OK” steaming dramedy, relied heavily on some pretty obvious cues to get across its 1980s setting. 

08 - Little Fires Everywhere - gulped this one down while in 14-day isolation, delicious! Every 90s suburban mom had that SUV, but not all of them had the requisite **secrets**

09 - The Great - fun historical comedy/drama! Costumes: lush. Actors: amusing. Race-blind casting: refreshing!

10 - The Crown S4 - this is the season everyone lost their everloving shit for, since it’s finally recent enough history that a fair chunk of the viewing audience is liable to recall it happening. 

11 - Ted Lasso - we resisted this one for a while (thought I did enjoy the ad campaign for NBC sports (!!) that it was based on). My view is that its best point was the comfort that the men on the show have (or develop, throughout the season) with the acknowledgement and sharing of their own feelings. Masculinity redux. 

12 - Moonbase 8 - Goodnatured in a way that makes you certain they will be crushed. 

13 - The Good Lord Bird - Ethan Hawke is really aging into the character actor we always hoped he would be! 

14 - Hollywood - frothy wish-fulfillment alternate history. I think the show would have been improved immeasurably by skipping the final episode.