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Thinking of Bruce downing like a sizable amount of pain meds due to tolerance and abnormal levels of pain so he can still function and because he's normally so quiet and now he's buzzed quiet there's no outwardly apparent difference unless you're Alfred or one of his kids or Clark. And while Bruce's favourite thing to do in this state is attend WE board meetings, he occasionally has to head to the Watchtower.
Emergencies sober him up fast, but the second a need for coherency ends he lapses back to mellow. Nobody notices that he's been nodding continuously because Clark keeps subtly coughing or lightly kicking his chair.
Works perfectly until Clark kicks it out and Bruce goes down like a stringless puppet.
#Came to me in a vision#Because maybe I took my migraine prescription meds lmao#But shhh#batman#bruce wayne#Watchtower shenanigans#Shitpost#Batposting#Personal#crack post#tw drugs#Tw pain medication#Lmk if there's something else to tag
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i want floyd to get high at a rock concert and start a fight in the moshpit
#trolls#trolls band together#trolls world tour#floyd trolls#riff trolls#fliff#fliff trolls#im of the firm belief ringpops are a hard drug for trolls#also of the firm belief floyd gets fucking crazy when he's high i think it contrasts with his timid personality so well#my art#i stayed up all night making this shit im so tired
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and it went down in history as the fattest bong rip of all time
#he made his own personal hole in the ozone#boku no hero academia#bnha#present mic#kaminari denki#ashido mina#yamada hizashi#my art#tw drug mention
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DC X DP PROMPT #15
Despite what most people would think, Danny was an excellent driver. It took a lot of hard work and extra classes, but he is by far the safest driver of the family. So safe in fact that others often make fun of him for it.
'You'll get there eventually with Grandma driving!' 'It's like going even a fraction over the speed limit is gonna give you a heart attack or something'
It was fine. Danny was proud about being a safe driver. It's what he worked for! His family already contributed to enough property damage.
Driving in Gotham was a very different experience from driving in Amity. His new friends made fun of him even more now.
It was one of these playful ribs that he shot out his favorite reply (one he hadn't gotten the chance to use since moving).
"Well, you know what they say; you should only do one illegal thing at a time!" Danny thought he was hilarious (as his species was still technically illegal), the Batkid (you decide) overanalyzed (as usual).
#dc x dp#dpxdc#danny drives really well#danny is a great driver#he drives like a grandma#this has spawned from personal experience#danny moves to gotham and befriends some of the bats#danny thinks hes funny#he is#but bat paranoia is strong#misunderstandings#miscommunication#batkid: what illegal things is he hiding??? drugs?? weapons??? MURDER?????#danny 'my existance is illegal' fenton
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I have what you're looking for. High quality. Befitting a man of my tastes. I have a room over on Divisadero, not too far a walk.
#iwtv#interview with the vampire#iwtv amc#daniel molloy#louis de pointe du lac#danlou#iwtvedit#tvedit#dailyflicks#*#dont know if i can articulate my thoughts well#but something about how daniel at first is so closed off from louis when he sits down near him#doesnt really want to talk at first but starts opening up pretty quickly#then louis is buying him a drink and it's easier to talk. mostly what he wants to talk about is his journalism work#because its so important to him. but when louis starts getting too personal (i know what you're here for danny) he starts backing off again#maybe some combo of shame for how quickly he felt attracted to louis and the flirting and the diminutive louis uses#the bartender uses it when asking if hes got money tonight. hes used to exchanging sex for things he needs but cant afford#above all it's like a sharp reminder of what louis wants & what daniel wants too even before the offer of drugs#and he's trying to hold onto the denial and excuses. it was a good place to score he did what he had to#sex with men has to be in exchange for something he can't just want it on its own#the lie he tells himself about himself#also these tags are getting long but i think you can see the moment louis decides he might not just fuck and kill this guy right away lmao
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#mentally unhinged#mentally exhausted#i hate my existence#i wanna kms#bipolor#tw sui implied#tw self destruction#tw drugs#drug abuse#alcoholism#absolutely deranged#tw depressing stuff#tw self destructive behavior#tw s3lf harm#tw vent#personal vent#depressiv#dead inside#tw depressing thoughts#venting#tw trauma#trauma#i cant handle this#actually bipolar
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(edited, still weird, just gonna live with it)
(Also omg I've had the song stuck in my head all day, holy shit)
#my art#interview with the vampire#lestat de lioncourt#daniel molloy#playing on sex&drugs&rocknroll by ian drury#a song ive played too much recently#look eb made the lou reed comment and i just ran with it#may have run a bit far#but that is unfortunately my entire personality
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Lucifer x Reader - Trying to hide his demonic traits from you (Hurt/comfort; slightly spicy)
This is for @citrusbatsandhoneybees and @rosen-und-mondlicht because I love them <3
You and Lucifer have been dating for a little bit; he is always the perfect gentleman and there is never a hair out of place
At one point, things start to get a little hot and heavy during an intense make out session between the two of you as you slowly start peeling clothes off of each other
After a few minutes of feeling his tongue forced down your throat while his hips shift against yours, he suddenly gasps and pulls away
You're about ask him what's wrong but his hand is quick to hop out of your lap and cover your eyes
This was the farthest you've ever gone with him, so you assume he's a bit nervous but Lucifer seemed fine up until this point; what changed.
"J-Just give me a minute, darling, I'm sorry..."
"Lucifer, what's wrong? Are you alright? Is this too much?"
"N-Nothing! Nothing's wrong! You're perfect...I just...during situations like this, I have a hard time controlling...certain changes..."
You laugh a little. "Isn't that the point, Luci?"
"Not those kinds of changes. When I fell, I gained new...features...Typically I can hide them easily but when I lose too much control...I just don't think you should have to see them."
"Oh. But why?"
"..."
"Lucifer?"
"Because I'm a monster..."
You go to lift his hands off of your eyes but he uses his other hand to stop you.
"Please, don't...the last thing I want to do is scare you away..."
"Lucifer, do you think I'm with you because of the way you look?"
"I-I...no, but..."
"You're not going to scare me, I promise. I love you for you, I need you to know that." You once again try to lift his hand out of the way; Lucifer doesn't resist much.
"Love, please..."
You remove his hand from your face and finally see what he was trying to hide from you
His eyes were now a crimson red with yellow irises, demonic horns had sprouted from his temple, and a thin black tail flicked back and forth behind him
He buries his face in his lap, his tail wrapping around himself
"Lucifer, will you look at me?"
He shakes his head
"For what it's worth, I think you're beautiful."
"You can't mean that..."
"Of course I do! I love everything about you, it doesn't matter to me. I know you may not like these parts of yourself, but they are a part of you. And if you can't love every part of yourself, I will."
You lean in and plant and kiss on one of his horns and start to caress the tip of his tail.
He lifts his head in utter disbelief at your actions, tears forming in his eyes. He clings to you as he begins to sob quietly, and you hold him close to your chest
"I'm sorry if I made you feel like you had to hide this part of yourself from me."
"No, no, you did nothing of the sort. This...this is my fault. My insecurities. I never once doubted your love for me. Even after all these years, I could never fully accept myself as I was...I just didn't want to mess this up..."
"You haven't, and you won't. I love you, Luci, all of you."
"And I you."
He kisses you passionately once more, emboldened by your comforting and sincere words; but then he pulls back and smiles
"Now, where were we?~"
#hazbin hotel#lucifer morningstar#hazbin lucifer#hazbin hotel lucifer#lucifer x reader#lucifer smut#comforting lucifer is my own personal drug tbh
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in shock hearing people say that babel only takes a turn and becomes heart-wrenching at the end because that experience is so incomprehensible to my chinese diaspora ass that felt like their heart was being torn from their chest in the very first chapter likeeeee babel is underscored by such immense amounts of tragedy and loss and horror around colonialism and imperialism from the very beginning it's so crazy that white people can just read the first half of babel and not feel like every bone in their body was being dissolved in acid by the centuries of unspoken grief written in robin's experience SORRYYYYYYYY. average poc reading babel vs average white person reading babel truly LMFAOOOO
#sam speaks#this is incomprehensible but do you understand me it's like. babel is about so so much fucking loss#a part of robin literally died when lovell found him and that is why we never find out his chinese name#even the cohort's relationships dont escape this like the empire literally brought them together to destroy each other.#this is what ramy tells robin on the bridge. they're turning my country into a drug factory to kill yours.#we have been thrust together by empire to kill each other and our countries. do you see it now do you see me?#ITS A FUCKING TRAGEDYYYYYY AND IMO IT RLY DOES MAKE IT CLEAR FROM THE BEGINNING#seriously though like. goes to show how people's personal experiences really do shape their interpretations of media#babel
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"according to this you're already dead"
#Finally watched Jacob's Ladder and it's in my top films already#Such a good film. I love the open ended ending too. I personally like to think it's ptsd and gov experiments#But the idea he's a restless spirit is perfect too (perhaps still w gov drugs in him anyway)#Reminded me of Cry Of Fear ofc. Anyway Tim Robbins ily#Jacob's Ladder#Jacobs ladder#jacob's ladder 1990#fan art#art#sketch#character art#horror#gore#Psychosis#Tim Robbins#Jacob singer
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Leslie, glaring suspiciously: "And this is all the medications you're on?"
Batkid: "Well."
Leslie: "You know this doesn't work if you're not honest right?"
Batkid: "No I know, it's just I don't know the names of all of them."
Leslie:
Leslie: "Are you kidding me right now? Where did you get them?"
Batkid: "Some of them are from B's utility belt, in some random pocket."
Leslie:
*moments later*
Bruce: "What was so urgent--" *sees look on Leslie's face* "--how are you doing today Lesl--"
Leslie: "Save it. What are these?" *gestures to assortment of meds*
Bruce: "Well I'm not--"
Leslie: "Do not lie to me."
Bruce: "I wasn't going to, Alfred buys them."
Batkid: "Alfie's buying the drugs?"
Leslie:
Leslie, sighing deeply and reaching for the phone:
#Sorry this wouldn't leave me#So it's your problem now#Devoid of any relation to canon#I can believe Bruce Wayne would do random drugs to power himself up but also he has the rare and supercool ability to identify meds on sigh#Dick can lick heroin there's canonical precedent#So this is mostly jokes#Leslie being done with all of them is one of my favourite tropes soooooo#Idk sorry?#Batfanon#Batfamily#Texpost#Batpost#Shitpost#personal#batman#bruce wayne#leslie thompkins
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actually i think it's interesting that practically everyone's interpretation of valentino is that he has severe substance abuse issues & is high 50% of the time, when in the show he's shown disparagingly talking about addicts in a way that implies he doesn't see himself as one. and i'm not using "interesting" as a substitute for "oh boy do i fucking hate this" i just genuinely think it's fascinating. the juxtaposition of him looking down on addicts while refusing to acknowledge his own substance abuse problems is direly under explored and it's like, Right There. it's prime character study material
#at the bare minimum he has a nicotine addiction but i (like seemingly everyone else) walked away thinking#that he does a lot of drugs in general#valentino#though it is interesting so much of the audience read him that way despite#not canonically doing any drugs#unless i'm misremembering#or there is some offhand Q&A remark made two hours into a livestream once that is now treated like fandom gospel#but i disregard like all of that stuff loool#anyway i think this tracks bc i feel like he's the sort of person who does NOT think he's at the behest#of his impulses. he indulges in them but he sees himself as fully in control#and this doesn't just encompass drugs but things like anger issues#ofc the alternative is that he's just a chain smoker#which isn't my read but (chin propped on folded hands) i'd hear it out#i have more thoughts but i have to drive somewhere now rip
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TW: Addiction and alcoholism
Autism and Alcohol
Neurodivergent_lou
#autism#actually autistic#tw alcohol#tw drug use#how alcohol can affect autistics#personally I don’t drink it because of my meds#plus it doesn’t taste very good#but I do vape/smoke weed#it helps with sleep and anxiety sometimes#neurodivergence#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#feel free to reblog
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The way this line kind of ruined me
"As long as there's the mountain and Zayne"
Be it Dr Zayne and the mountain that stole his best friend William, where he watched him die the most agonizing and painful death possible while he struggled and failed to help him and carries that death through nightmares still
Or the Foreseer and the mountain that kept him prisoner by chain and thorn for god knows how long, not only denying him the basic needs of socialization and freedom, but taunted and weaponized his love for mc countless times
Or Dawnbreaker and the metaphorical mountain of bodies and burdens he's forced to shoulder on a psyche and ego that is so paper thin it's almost transparent, just strong enough to do the work that no one else is willing or capable of doing but for how much longer can he sustain it
Zayne and His Mountain
There is a reason this song is my #1 Zayne song 🔗🔗🔗
#love and deepspace#lads#l&ds#lnds#love & deepspace#zayne love and deepspace#zayne#dawnbreaker#foreseer#Special thank you to my beloved Pearl my most precious person for helping me get this bastard bc he was A FIGHTER#drug him home by the mullet 😤#this myth gave me a lot of feelings so bear with me as I deconstruct them all 😩#im late to the party but im here 🥴#he made me slander Greyson before hed come home thats how jealous he was 😭😭😭
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Steve felt like his heart was about to beat out of his chest. The TV at Family Video was turned on to the news station (the tiebreaker when he and Robin couldn’t agree), and a reporter was saying something about a gruesome murder, limbs snapped, teenage boy suspect, and it all swirled and came together until Steve saw the trailer in the background.
Oxygen evaded him. He gasped, trying to remember how to breathe, how to stay grounded, because freaking out wasn’t going to help anything right now-
“Steve!” The front door banged open and Dustin ran in. “How many phones do you have?”
Steve blinked at Dustin. Managed a breath, another one. His brain still felt like it was swimming through molasses. “Why?”
Dustin rolled his eyes like it should’ve been obvious and gestured to the TV. “I’m gonna call Eddie. And, like, everyone. You know what situation this is, right? And that’s Eddie’s trailer. And he doesn’t know anything about this.”
“I know,” Steve murmured, thinking. “Okay, let’s go.” He spared a glance Robin’s direction. She nodded.
Dustin frowned. “Go where?”
“To go find Eddie. I know where he’ll be.”
“How? Steve? Steve, you don’t even know him. Steve?”
Steve ignored the questions. “Get buckled. You got your radio?”
“Yeah, of course.”
“Good, keep it on you.” Still ignoring all of Dustin’s questions, he peeled out of the parking lot, making his way to the place he and Eddie had promised each other they’d go if shit hit the fan.
He pulled up to the shed and gestured for Dustin to follow as he cautiously walked inside.
“Eddie?” Dustin asked. “Eddie, it’s Dustin, are you here?”
Steve should’ve said something, should’ve let Eddie hear his voice, but it’s too late because he touched the tarp Eddie’s under and suddenly his back was against the wall, a broken beer bottle against his neck. “Eddie,” he murmured calmly, even as his pulse skyrocketed. He vaguely heard Dustin saying something about his mother. “Eddie, put down the bottle, please. It’s okay. It’s just me and Dustin. No one followed us here. I know what you saw, I know what happened. I know you didn’t kill Chrissy, Eddie. I know you’re scared and don’t know what’s going on, but we’re gonna help you, okay? You’re not alone.”
Eddie dropped the bottle with a slight gasp, eyes widening as he realized who he’s looking at. “Shit,” he whispered, gently placing his hands on Steve’s shoulders. They were shaking. “Steve. Did I hurt you?”
“I’m fine,” he promised, his own hands finding Eddie’s waist. “And you? Are you okay?”
“Christ, Steve, I dunno.” He let out a weak laugh and dropped his head to Steve’s shoulder. “She just… she was sayin’ she thought she was crazy, paranoid, and then she’s in the air, and the sound, Steve, Jesus fuck, I’m never gonna forget it as long as I live, and then she- she’s dead, and-”
“I know,” Steve promised quietly, pulling him into a hug. “I know. It’ll be okay. C’mon, my house is safe. We can go there, lay low. Want me to get Wayne too? The trailer’s a crime scene right now, he’s gotta go somewhere else anyways.”
“Yeah. Please. Just… gimme a minute.”
“I’ll give you all the minutes,” Steve promised nonsensically. “We’ll get everyone together, figure out how to beat it. We’ve done it before.”
“Um,” Dustin said, “what the fuck?”
“Watch it,” Steve warned, tracing Eddie’s spine with his palm. “Did you really think the former king of Hawkins High didn’t buy from the best dealer in town?”
Dustin stared at him, disbelieving. “You’ve never gotten high in your life. I don’t think you’ve ever relaxed in your life.”
Eddie murmured something in Steve’s ear that caused him to roll his eyes and pinch Eddie’s side, smiling when he twitched. “You shush,” he admonished before turning back to Dustin. “I have gotten high. I stopped when I started watching you and the rest of the ankle-biters.”
Dustin rolled his eyes. “Okay, so explain this. Explain how cuddling your drug dealer is normal behavior.”
Steve tapped Eddie’s back, who tilted his head up again to whisper into Steve’s ear. “You sure?” Steve asked, and Eddie nodded.
“‘S fine.”
“M’kay. If you say so.” He stroked a hand down Eddie’s back again before returning his attention to Dustin. “Eddie’s not just my drug dealer. He’s my boyfriend.”
Dustin blinked. “You’re not gay.”
“Nope. It’s called bisexual. ‘S when you like both guys and girls.”
Dustin narrowed his eyes. “But… Robin?”
Steve rolled his eyes. “Platonic, like I’ve told you a million times before, you twerp.”
Dustin shook his head. “Wait. You and Eddie?”
“Christ, I’d have better luck talking to a brick at this point. Yes, me and Eddie. Is that gonna be a problem for you?”
“Well, yeah,” Dustin said, like it was obvious, unaware of the way Steve and Eddie and both stiffened at his words. “You’re, like, my brothers or some shit. I don’t want my brothers dating each other. Besides, you both could do so much better.”
Eddie snorted and looked up at Dustin. “Not sure that’s how that works, bud.”
“Sure it is,” Dustin shrugged.
Steve rolled his eyes. “Not the point,” he reminded them both. “Eds, c’mon, let’s get you to my house. Dustin, can you walkie everyone? Tell them to meet us there?”
Dustin shook his head, but brought the walkie up to his mouth anyways. “Uh… guys? We’re meeting at Steve’s house ASAP. Over.”
“That’s not proper form, dipshit. Over.”
“Shut the fuck up, how about that? Over.”
“Fucking hell,” Steve murmured, grabbing the walkie from Dustin. “Listen up, twerps, my house, twenty minutes, move it. Over and out.”
Eddie began to grin at Steve. “‘S kinda hot, Stevie.”
“Oh, god,” Dustin said, screwing up his face. “No. Nope. We’re not going there. Just… let’s go. Before I try to bleach my brain.”
Steve chuckled, smacking a kiss to Eddie’s cheek and ruffling Dustin’s hair through his hat. “Glad you’re safe, Eds. Let’s go.”
#throwing my hat in the ring for the#‘Steve and Eddie were together before everything went down’ trope#is the phrase ‘throwing my hat in the ring’#or does that mean giving up#I can’t remember#anyways#stranger things#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#dustin henderson#use your imagination for the other Party member on the walkie#I hope someone likes this. ik it’s overdone but#I had fun#unofficial name is ‘cuddle your drug dealer’#because I am the funniest person ik sometimes#or maybe just the punniest#starambles
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#mentally unhinged#mentally exhausted#i hate my existence#i wanna kms#bipolor#tw sui implied#tw self destruction#tw drugs#drug abuse#alcoholism#absolutely deranged#tw depressing stuff#tw self destructive behavior#tw s3lf harm#tw vent#personal vent#depressiv#dead inside#tw depressing thoughts#venting#tw trauma#trauma#i cant handle this#actually bipolar
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