#is my mom just talking out her problems

[bijoumikhawal]

Hiiii. My apartment will accept my application but they want two months of a deposit upfront by Wednesday, and because I've had to do repairs on my car that's stretching my money tight. So I am again bumping my Kofi (ko-fi.com/rosebijoumme) and making mention that I am willing to short fanfic writing commissions of properties I am familiar with (say, 500 words for $15). If you appreciate the funny words I say, drawings, or my research posts about Egypt, helping me out with this is a nice way to express that. I do hate to rattle my tincan but they want around $90 dollars more than I have on hand, and I do need gas back and forth until my next check on December (which is often around 150-200$, it's been on the lower side lately and having to pay so much is why I'm moving).

[cimacally]

"omfg I need to let go of my only friend who's slowly moving on from me and has better friends"

*proceeds to not let go of her only friend who's slowly moving on from her and has better friends*

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[the-maddened-hatter]

So I've mentioned before that my irl friend and my partner got me to watch HoTD, but since we got caught up to the season finale of that we're now watching GOT.

So during a Littlefinger & Varys scene one of them mentioned how the two of them could both just absolutely kick Larys' ass as whisper masters and just now all I can picture is Larys just fucking full on snot crying after they've been bullying him at like 1/10th of their power for one (1) day and he's just like "Alicent can you come pick me up? I'm scared."

[lilaccatholic]

Physically I'm here but mentally I'm clawing the eyes out of everyone who talks crap about their children on the internet and posts them in their most vulnerable moments for clout

[sandpapersnowman]

I had been worried that cutting my dad off and distancing myself from him would put me in a difficult position with his side of the family but I've actually reconnected with a couple family members over how shitty he's been and it turns out I'm not the first one to stop talking to him, he's been blocked by like two of my aunts And my cousin

[thelovers-thedreamers-and-me]

the downside to being a sitcom neighbour sort of person is that when rough things happen and emotionally fuck u up a lil bit, it also sounds completely made up

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

forcing myself to function through anxiety feels like im piloting an animatronic of myself

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[lightless-danny]

Pro tip when someone is venting to u about something stressful, the last thing you should do is give them advice

Just fucking give them a hug, tell them you love them and that you understand why they're upset

[itspileofgoodthings]

like. Nina listens to Taylor, moderately keeps up with the front-facing aspects of her life, enjoys her quality, has her minor critiques, recognizes her place in the current culture, can set her down and do other things when she wants to, and most importantly knows who Taylor is through her art.

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

havent watched the pjo series & not really sure i want to but when season 2 happens i will be watching the tag like this to watch how they depict my sweet baby boy tyson and hope they don't fuck it up

[insipid-drivel]

"Biz, what would you like for your birthday this year?"

"For nobody to misgender me for a day."

Turned out too much to ask (:

[happywitch416]

The snow is beautiful, I am making coffee and I am going to spend the rest of my day enjoying it and playing video games.

Because I started my morning with my mother going hey I will be there in 15 minutes and heres a list of things I need from your basement and then was trapped for two hours.

[irlkokichiouma]

(sending an ask instead of reblogging that post again)

Assigning you Just Evil. I feel like you'd be a discourse character.

oh bro you are so on the money its insane. like not to hashtag traumadump but i had a bit of an Unusual Disposition surrounding my abusive mother in my teenhood (read: i would hit her and actively wanted her dead and be very open about the fact that i never loved her)

this was legitimatley a contentious topic among various friendgroups ive had over the years. to this day i dont understand why (shes my mom not yours, at least im not a doormat unlike you people, she treats me like shit so why cant i treat her like shit back, etc) other than "violence and murder is scary so people have a knee jerk reaction to it"

but it was legit A Topic Of Discussion, so much so that once someone started a whole argument IN A PUBLIC SERVER about how since i had detailed fantasies about killing my mom, that i a) would 100% do it without a doubt and b) this was a bad thing. like bro i wish but unfortunatley the police exists

and that's just a) the historic stuff that b) anyone with sense will agree is a total banger move on my part. i feel like ive gotten even more contentious over the years. the stuff i do with soulbonds would curl toes (but most people dont think that shit is real or it matters so i get away with it 🎉)

all this to say that u are 100% right and i would be the kokichi 😔

[aria0fgold]

I was wondering a lil bit bout when I got sent to my sister's place alone and I was in such a peaceful state despite the lack of a pc for nearly a week but then I got back to my mom's place and it feels like my patience was shorter for whatever reason. And now that the whole family is at sister's place I get it now. I understand what's different. My mom.