#is like one of the best break up songs
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modern au zosan thoughts to nina nesbitt’s the best you had
i don’t know if i’m gonna flip the pronouns but maybe sanji is bisexual? so it’s post break up and sanji is with a new girl. it’s only three weeks but why does sanji look so happy. why does he look so happy, so, so soon. they were together for six years. six years, and three weeks was all it took for sanji to be posting about his new girlfriend, happy and wonderful, and soft and gorgeous in ways zoro isn’t.
is that why he broke up with him? because zoro can’t be soft in the way he needs softness, because zoro can’t love the way sanji needs to be loved? because god knows sanji was loved, zoro aches for him with his mind and soul now, his body unable to maintain the rigid form instilled into him over years of training as a swordsman, the values of maintaining his inner strength wavering, and he cannot breathe.
(he pulled himself up. but he couldn’t breathe)
sanji needs words, and zoro was a man of action. there was never a thing sanji needed or wanted that was not done. and sanji, despite having the same love language when it comes to being a giver, really, really needed words when it was his time to receive. and zoro tried. he did, but sometimes trying isn’t enough, he supposes. if it were, sanji would still be with him.
zoro tries not to keep up with sanji’s social media, he’s doing a good job at no contact (a man with few words ought to be, right? it’s not, zoro aches. he looks at every corner hoping it’s sanji coming to pick him up because he got lost again, he looks at every aisle in the grocery store they frequented, he aches in ways when his friends obviously split their time between sanji and zoro). and he wants to move on, but sanji’s social media is the only way he can keep tabs on him. he just wants to know if he’s okay! and if a stab to the heart whenever he sees her pretty brown locks that fall down her shoulders, well that is the price he must pay for playing games he should no longer be allowed to play.
when he’s staring at the ceiling during lonely nights, angry and malicious and so, so hateful, he thinks viciously that at least she won’t be able to hold him down like zoro is able to. sanji liked it so much when zoro held his precious arms captive above his head, when his lips would trail from his ears to his throat and back to his ears and instruct to keep his hands right there for me baby, don’t move, and sanji would huff and puff but his hands would never move. not even as zoro glides lower and lower, leaving a trail of bruises, purple pink in the pale skin that reddens so easily, even as zoro gets a little mean with his teeth around his nipples, even when zoro holds to that tiny waist, his large hands leaving circle marks when they tighten around his waist. his waist was so small, is still, and zoro thinks vindictively, she won’t give it to him. she won’t worship his body like zoro did.
he wonders, if sanji thinks of zoro when he fucks his new girl. he hopes sanji realises she won’t be able to give what he could’ve, what he would’ve, what he had been giving.
as long as he’s the best he’s ever had, zoro is okay, he thinks. or he will be, but he knows. he knows deep in his heart, that he’s the best he’s ever had. so he will be okay.
when? he doesn’t know. in the meantime he will keep filling the void with bodies, (he wondered if this was what it was for sanji too (he soon realised it wasn’t))
the best sanji’s ever had. zoro’s sure that’s him. he’ll be okay.
(maybe if he repeats it enough, it will be true)
#one piece#zosan#nina nesbitt’s best you ever had#is like one of the best break up songs#and also so so heartbreaking#anyway i just had some zosan thoughts and i don’t know if i’ll ever develop it into a full fic#so i thought i’d just write some rambles here#so that the zosan can get out of my brain and i can rest#roronoa zoro#sanji#zosan fic#my bad if there are spelling errors maybe i’ll fix them later idk
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Okay, I've just gotta say though...
Imagine that you think you've fallen in love with some evil mastermind that only ever pretended to love you to gain power for himself!
Then, shortly after, you hear some sniffling coming from the corner of a room while searching for your family, and randomly find said "evil mastermind" looking like this:
Radovid's main casting requirement: being able to look so small, vulnerable, soft, lost, and hurt, that it'll have some members of the audience yelling "Jaskier, you better fix this right now, you big meanie! Or I'll never forgive you!" at their screen!
Basically,
Me, before season 3: "I don't think I'll ever be able to feel as protective of any character in any TV show ever as I do of Jaskier."
Radovid: "Hold my wine bottle, I've got this!"
Me, after season 3: "I now have this strange urge to throttle that bard if he ever hurts that one again... What the fuck is going on?"
#Radovid#Radskier#Seriously#Jaskier#Don't hurt the tiny gentle little 6 feet tall likely technically most politically powerful person on the Continent if actually allowed#to rule his kingdom newly crowned against his will king#You're supposed to wrap him tightly in fur blankets and feed him soup...#I assume...#I mean look at him!#He's such a spoon it hurts!#It took him 0.5 seconds to start showing you genuine interest and appreciation and seek to find ways you two could fulfill#each others' needs and okay#Although people shouldn't be loved back based on merit or because they deserve to#You were immediately deeply intrigued and crushing hard and you do love him back#So as soon as you're sure Geralt's got all the help he needs to go rescue Ciri and do his Witcher thing#Go help Radovid and do your bard thing!#Seanchai said you're related to them...#Those celtic bards were considered scarier to those in power than any army!#They could make or break kings with a song!#Go do what you do best and use your voice to help him out of that corner he's been dragged into and lead him back into the light!#He'd have sold anything of value he has and given up his title to go help you rescue your family if he could have#Don't sacrifice or risk your family for him but don't leave him behind either...#Because I can't jump into that TV screen (believe me I've tried) to go help and rescue him#And I need to believe in you and trust you'll do the right thing and protect and take care of him like one should properly look after him...#BECAUSE LOOK AT HIM!!!#Look at those eyes and that face!!!#He was made for love and extraordinary things for fuck's sake!!!#You're supposed to feed each other porridge not cut each other open!#Be gentle with him!#My Posts
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i need brownies so fucking bad rn
#⠀ᶻᶻ⠀turn it up!⠀#unrelated croomf has pissed me off to immeasurable amounts. reduced back to oomf#overthat#anyway#DY piece tn i need it to go#and also this song is soooo minhui i threw up everywhere#decided for better or for worse that kit will be implemented here instead of in the group w kyun.. kyun works best on his own for me idk#he’s not gnna have a massive part (for now) and i dont plan on him leaving 127 to join BB or anything so he’ll def stay on the side#buttttt i did start up a little gogo piece through his eyes#i rly like the idea of never writing in gg’s pov does that jst make me sound rly lazy#BECAUSE!!!!! IM NOT!!! well i am but not w this hear me out#he puts on so many faces with everyone and even if with some he’s more ‘him’ than with others he’s never really actually#gone the whole way bared his soul the whole shebang to everyone bar like one person. so he’s kinda lonely AS EFF!!!#and idk i js like the idea of him being (when u get down 2it) a stranger. he doesnt even wanna show himself to the narrative IJBOLLL#sooooo yeah. it does kinda sound like a cop-out 4 if he acts like a different person in every piece but i think ive been p consistent so#that one person was in dream btw.. he left partly because he was bored and felt like he’d end up going nowhere and#partly because he was HUMILIATED by doing all that he needed to pack his bags and get the fuck out its kinda funny#mention ** to him and he’ll look like that pic of that one 2000 yard stare soldier its serious#worse than saying ‘hyeonmin and jaehee are in the same room rn haha’ to yijun.. but barely anyone will ever find that out#ANYWAY! i like to think kit + cherryade are the closest to seeing minhui as he is right after redacted explosions gunshots#‘im on fire and i’ve got to break out’ + ‘i've had enough of this got to break it through’ LIKE ITS HIMMM!#and dont even mention the ‘got to leave all trouble living life on the double’ I HATE THIS OSNGGGG#They made it for him. IDGAF if it came out in 2001.#ok sorry for yapping i might go make toast
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living in the inbetween hell where I dont hate or love ttpd enough to agree with anyone on the dash so im just sort of flinching whenever I see a post about it from any side
#barry.txt#taylor swift#im not disappointed bc i didnt have the highest expectations for ttpd#but im also not wowed#a lot of the songs are fun and interesting but the writing on most of these tracks structurally is hanging by a thread#a lot of the rhyme schemes are bizarre and awkward#in my least favorite taylor style where it feels like shes barely stringing them together into these sort of purple prose poems#where she really just wants to fit in words she likes to the detriment of the lyric itself#a lot of jacks production feels unfinished and unimpactful esp compared to waht we know he can do#it feels like a lot of interesting songs that only got like one or two drafts before getting recorded#and it just doesnt hook me#however i do like the songs other ppl hate#and i love that she gave a massive middle finger to the fandom even if its 100% not going to stick#and i love florence and a lot of the second album#i like i hate it here even if its weird and bad#i dont think its her most honest vulnerable or human album but it is her vent-iest like shes just letting it all out#idk#i hope she wraps up eras ant the TVs and then takes a looooong break and does intensive therapy and gets into TTRPGs and chills#anyway the black dog and the manuscript and clara bow best tracks. my final message#probably not bc j have so much to say but
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the thing about closer by nine inch nails is that it DOES fit The Secret Ship very very well and frankly better than some of the other songs i have on their playlists. it's even in one of the genres i tend to enjoy listening to & actively seek out way more often than otherwise, even if i'm not listening to my favorites. however even with all this i still can't put that song on either of their playlists at all because the thing is i genuinely fucking hate it
#▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬ ▬▬▬▬#an unhealthy dependence on sex as an escape from self loathing and to avoid self improvement? very good and perfect yes that is Them#but every time i try to listen to it i'm like wow. this sucks. this is just a straight up unpleasant experience and i'd like it to stop now#i cant STAND the instrumental and how wibbly wobbly the bassline is idk how to describe it but It Pisses Me Off#it sounds like it could be a sound effect for the way those rats walk in that one movie Ratatoing. niche reference but its the best i got#i'm still not wholly unconvinced it isn't just one of those songs that sucks so bad but the joke is everybody pretends it's a banger#like i'm being so genuine when i say that's what i figured must have been going on the first time i listened to it#but i can never find anybody else breaking the bit and saying “yeah this sucks” so i'm just like???? what are you people HEARING
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okay so someone posted some parts of the official sv timeline and it's extremely good to know, here's the details i got from it:
ku.ro was born and lived in the 13th century. he was resurrected somepoint just before the 14th century.
ku.ro meet's gear in the 14th century.
both hu.gh and jej.e live / are resurrected in the 15th century, they introduce themselves to ku.ro at this time too.
frey.a is resurrected at some point in the 16th century.
lawl.ess and il.dio come visit ku.ro in the 17th century, it's safe to assume they were resurrected at that point too.
in the early 18th century, lil.y is resurrected and visits ku.ro. this is also the century in which ophe.lia lives and dies (hers is specified to be around 300 years ago)
between the 18th-19th century, tsubak.i is created. (i couldn't translate the date so this is a rough estimate :()
it is the 19th century ku.ro leaves gea.r and the serv.amps have their official meeting. also when lawl.ess looses his mind. (couldn't translate the date but it has a new title after the previous point)
and that is the final event in sv until 20 years ago where tou.ma rescues tsuru.gi.
#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜.#THIS IS SO INTERESTING ... 13TH CENTURY BABY AKA 12-1300's... living his best life#ku.ro being the only sv in the 14th century ... thats interesting to me#lawl.ess being alive for like 100 years before ophe.lia is so interesting to me too ...#sv officially starts on june the 15th in what i assume to be 2012. so ... the more you know FGDHSJAJSDHJ#ku.ro being alive in that state for maybe almost 600 years at most. im cryin guys ... im an emotional fool#playing that one song in up at the beginning of the movie and now its making me feel even more tearful#im burying myself back into my askbox took a small break to see what was happening
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Pointless playlist of the day: Maybe someday I’ll listen to these feat No Surrender by Judas Priest and Can I Play With Madness by Iron Maiden
#Judas Priest x Iron Maiden#no surrender#can I play with madness#judas priest#iron maiden#yeah these are two songs that I feel like I rarely listen to because they rarely turn up#seriously every time in the last few months I listen to Can I Play With Madness I joke it’s been forever#and No Surrender turns up even less frequently#ironically both songs are in my Top 6 [band] playlists for those bands#but both of those playlists are out of date#I think Breaking the Law has slipped down and now a few other Judas Priest songs are competing for my fave#Rock Hard Ride Free seems to have been overtaken by its demo version of all songs#Freewheel Burning I just don’t really listen to that much anymore#possibly because I like the knowledge I can lip-sync to the quick bit#(all four of the songs on that album I’d already warmed up to before the challenge are rarely listened to)#Bring It On occasionally gets listened to but it doesn’t feel very frequent#it honestly feels like No Surrender and Locked In are the only songs that still belong on the Top 6 Judas Priest playlist#meanwhile the Iron Maiden playlist was created just before Futureal became a runner up for the best one#(the six on the playlist tied in first place at the time)#but now Futureal is my favourite Iron Maiden song#and I’ll be honest Rainmaker and Different World belong on that playlist now
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"Just One of Those Things" - lyrics to a jazz standard by American songwriter Cole Porter (1891–1964), famously performed by artists such as Frank Sinatra, Ella Fitzgerald, Blossom Dearie, et cetera.
#influences#i think of cole porter as one of the best jazz poets. sorry but his lyrics are so perfectly metrical it drives me CRAZY#i purposefully broke up every line where it became catalectic bc emphasizing those breaks is. so fun#cole porter#jazz#song lyrics#poetry#twentieth century#and since this is queued for new year's eve... i hope you're all out there having your just-one-of-those-things tonight#have fun go crazy get wild it's just one of those things#fun fact this is my first time putting straight-up song lyrics in my influences tag but it's kinda long overdue#but im going to be very select when i do post song lyrics on this blog. they cant just be song lyrics i like#but song lyrics i enjoy in the same way i enjoy poetry#this may be (and is) a very unpopular opinion but i do not think songwriting has very much in common w writing poetry#by necessity that is. and that is bc ive never been able to write songs#for some of us they can be very very very different skills#the modern arts of music and poetry are very diverged from each other in terms of what it takes to write a good song or a good poem#they are NOT as overlapped as some ppl try to make it seem sometimes#it's not like drawing versus painting anymore it's more like drawing versus sculpting#ps my favorite version of this song is blossom dearie's
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WHY?, “Sin Imperial" // Car Sear Headrest, “I Can Play the Piano”
#Whywithaquestionmark#Car Seat Headrest#trigger warning for eating disorders I'm sorry I don't know the best way to tag them I never had to before#I was having a conversation earlier about how I have a very specific relationship with fasting#in that for me specifically I feel like it’s just slow-burn starvation#because it gave me an eating disorder#this idea that if I just stop eating then I'll lose weight and if I lose weight I'll be better#that eating was a moral failure on my part because if I just held out a little longer then I'd be beautiful#so when I'd eventually break fast because it had been days and my vision was fading#I'd make myself throw up afterwards because I had failed#that morphed into all the different little toxic relationships I have with food#I still consider myself a monster for eating#I still lie about how much or how often I eat#and after I stopped forcing myself to throw up after every meal all the consequences hit#my hair started falling out my teeth started falling out all the weight I lost came back#and there was this voice in the back of my head that said that if I had kept going none of that would have happened#and that's kind of true because either those delayed consequences wouldn't have hit#Or I would have actually succeeded in starving myself to death#anyway I relapsed after dinner tonight and purged again and the why? song came on shuffle on the drive home#and I thought it was a little ironic haha#and I ate some more when I got home and I'm really struggling with this one right now haha#because I told myself I wouldn't have anything else to eat tonight but I did and now I feel like I have to pay for it#I think people forgot I was bulimic a few years ago or I just thought I told them and didn't#because it seemed like news at the dinner table lmao#I don't talk about it a lot because it's really upsetting to people I care about#But I haven't made myself throw up in a long time so this is kind of scary I think#Or maybe I shouldn't be scared and instead I should just force of will this#back myself into a lose-lose situation where I either hate myself for eating or hate myself for starving/purging#that's the only way my brain knows how to function I guess#whoever wins we lose haha whatever
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I'm so crazy about buddie because I've just had a dream where anytime Eddie mentioned something about his dates or were trying to go on a date Buck just sat on his laps and fall asleep like that immediately. Like Eddie's personal cat, but also really jealous bestie (who don't understand he is in love)
And yes Eddie were surprised, a little annoyed, but were sitting like that until Buck woke up
#I know people love and talk a lot about jealous Eddie#and I love him too#but something about jealous Buck is soooo amusing for me#baby boy I believe more jealous he just earlier couldn't really show his emotions about Ana or Shannon#because he couldn't let himself ask for what he wants#and even tho we had really jealous scenes#like#wow when's the wedding#2x17#sounds serious#5x1#and best one#that enough#or how I love to call it#buck's version of the song break up with your gf#5x2#BUCK IS JEALOUS TYPE#buddie#eddie diaz#evan buckley#911 spoilers#911 fox#evan buck buckley#911 on fox#911
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Apologies to the One Mutual who is about to have All of my Tim Drake Thoughts. Didn’t even realize I sent you like 8 paragraph messages at like 9am until it happened
#lyric speaks#look i have a lot of feelings about tim drake#this was your mistake Mouse#I was already pretty parasocial commenting like 4-5 paragraphs on every one of your fics#and then you WILLINGLY gave me your tumblr after I bullied you about not having one#and like posting tumblr links in my fic comments#really it was over for you the second you said you thought i died#you activated my Tim Drake Complex where I immediately became attached and parasocial#showing up and breaking into your apartment like you’re Dick Grayson rn#anyways i sent Mouse like 8 messages about a Tim Drake CMV i wrote in my brain like 2 minutes becore#none of my irls are mentally ill enough abt Tim Drake#(though im working on it my best friend legit sent me 2 Tim Drake posts (he has never interact with DC))#and I realized i can just tell Mouse all abt the Tim Drake Songs and Ideas they give me#anyways shout out to theresamouseinmyhouse you the real mvp#also go read thier Where The Bats and Birds Roost series#Ultimate Fav frfrfr
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screaming myself hoarse til I pass out we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you about your career your whereabouts!!!
#not about j we're good - about the friend who i haven't shut up about in the 14 years i've been on the hellsite#the fun part is that i know his forever career and his forever whereabouts and it will break my heart into shards for the rest of my life!#and goddamnit we weren't romantically together but instead together as part of a weirdly codependent friend group of four and we were#near identically weird and fucked up emotionally and in our humor and how we spoke and how we meshed and i will NEVER fucking get over it!!#i'm still agog that i sent you a last chance hail mary sort of letter like the lyrics in this song about how i think about you often and#have always believed in you and been rooting for you like all the rest of us who knew you before things got really bad because you were and#are such a fucking incredible person and musician and friend and so smart and creative and LOVABLE! i said that in the letter without#realizing alanis said that in one of THE best lost love songs of all goddamn time!#i wish i could tell you one more time - right now today immediately or better yet five years ago - how i have always loved and admired you#and everything about you. even now. all the way out here in iowa i am still loving you with everything i have in me every single day#knowing i will never speak to or see you again [i think about you all the time but i don't need the same] and i finally started to admit#that to myself and my friends and my therapist in 2021 and i'm more at peace with it than i ever was or thought i could be in 2019 and 2020#but i know it's gonna take my whole lifetime to get a grip on it and accept it. and it'll stop hurting one of these days. i know it will#i don't think i've ever loved a friend as much as I loved you. i think you were the best friend i've ever had#and that's one of the nastiest parts of it - we were good friends and you did seem to like me plenty#but i think i was the w-h-auden_morelovingone.txt by a mile. i was a weird obsessed stage 10 clinger.#and that's surely a large part of the dwelling and the fixation. if things had been more equal then maybe it'd be very different now.#guess i'll die because i sure ain't finding out!!#HELLO LOVES HAVE SOME RICH NUTRITIOUS ANNIE LORE ON THIS FINE FREEZING COLD SUNDAY AFTERNOON!#love letters
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fuck i should go to sleep cause ive got school in the morning but. listening to 30/90 by andrew garfield got me fucked up
#i first heard the song from the greatest showmen kareoke.. i still remember that day vividly#it was the only one of the offcollab week streams i was able to catch and i was listening to it while going to the doctor w my father#shit man..#not to mention that one of the last magni streams in was able to catch was the kareoke w bettel after his 1.5 debut#that stream helped me calm down abt my finals#then the final magni stream i caught was his turning lines into drawings stream#and i watched that during the lunch break on the second day of my finals#its been 2 weeks since their graduation announcements but i still cant let go i think#cant fully comprehend it#like. sure i can watch their PLs but their content there simply isnt for me. it feels different ykno#im still mourning the loss of what couldve been and all that#i wish the both of them the best but i cant help but feel conflicted and bittersweet abt it#i dont feel like going further on my thoughts#but know that i will support holostars till the day i die. i swear on it#edit. not to mention how earlier this year i had to go through some of the most stressful dance practices ever#and during the breaks i ended up watching a couple vesper clips to calm me down. like that one staz clip where he#talked abt his uncle and brother
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Day 102
Title: “midnight rain.”
Features: exes!YeoHye (Loona)
Word Count: 1,1117
Tags: Angst | Break-Ups: Moving On | Coffee Shop? | Setting Boundaries | Closure and Acceptance
Hyeju only expected the conversation to be civil. They would acknowledge each other’s presence, but wouldn’t force themselves to continue from where they left off. To her surprise, their chat was comfortable and almost natural. Yeojin managed to squeeze in some banter.
When Hyeju returned from the bathroom and saw that Yeojin was by herself, she had half a heart to bail. They had an amicable breakup nearly six months ago, but Hyeju still felt awkward being alone with Yeojin.
Expecting that Hyunjin was going to return, Hyeju decides to stay. Thankfully, Yeojin is quick to make small talk. At first, they were just giving updates about work. That transitions into Hyeju opening up about her video-game streaming side-gig. Attempting to make a connection to the unusual working hours of a gamer, Yeojin tells a genuinely funny story about a time when she and Hyunjin accidentally spent 10 hours at a PC-bang after the release of some open world Pokémon game. Yeojin’s bashful confession of “still likes Pokémon after all this time” opens a deep and insightful discussion about hobbies and passions. They’re a sunset and two hours deep into their conversation before Hyeju realizes that Hyunjin was not coming back.
Never in her life did Hyeju think catching up with her ex-girlfriend would be easy.
It’s almost too good to be true.
Yeojin lets out a blissful sigh. “I miss this.”
The sentence is simple, yet weighs heavy.
Hyeju assumes she’s talking about the conversation. She doesn’t remember the last time they had a lighthearted conversation while the sun set.
It’s calm.
Too calm.
Memories cloud over her. Hyeju does her best to push them away, just as she has been doing so the past few months.
Cheese rolls and hand holding under the table at their favorite coffee shop seems like a harmless memory. She can’t recall who they were gossiping about and she doesn’t remember how they managed to stay until closing, but it’s probably for the better.
Lightning flashes and they’re sitting across from each other. Yeojin can only stare at her empty mug. Hyeju continues to fight her tears. Their meeting was barely 15 minutes long, but Hyeju can’t forget the way Yeojin manages to say the most heart-wrenching words in such a polite and careful manner. She wishes it wasn’t that way. She wishes Yeojin would change her mind so things work out. Maybe it would’ve been easier to move on if the simplicity of unhappiness could numb everything.
There’s another flash of lighting, but this time, Hyeju is across the street. It’s raining, but she can’t find the courage to step foot inside that coffee shop again. She doesn’t fear seeing Yeojin. She fears seeing those cheese rolls and remembering what she lost.
One more lightning flash appears, but Hyeju is back to reality. They’re not at the coffee shop. They didn’t meet intentionally. Like the beginning of their relationship, conversation is easy. Like the end of their relationship, Yeojin is across from her and saying things that hurt her.
Open dialogue and playful banter is lovely, but they can’t exist in a relationship without serious conversations and emotional exchanges. Ideally, they could rebuild a friendship filled with shallow discussions and ignorance.
Hyeju finds that option to be impossible. She can’t erase existential crises in the middle of a study session or passionate nights during thunderstorms. She can’t pretend that Yeojin didn’t break her heart six months ago.
She missed Yeojin when she left. It wouldn’t surprise her if Yeojin missed a part of her, too.
Nevertheless, she doesn’t want to hear about anything that led to Yeojin’s regrets. She doesn’t want to know that despite leaving a hole in Yeojin’s heart, she’s managed to find a sense of happiness. She doesn’t like thinking that Yeojin’s memories have also faded.
“I wish you didn’t say that.”
The words were out of Hyeju’s mouth before she could stop herself. If Yeojin’s statement didn’t regress their relationship, Hyeju’s response understandably did.
The anxiety that Hyeju had managed to hold back unfortunately releases itself again. The fear of expressing negative emotions and rejection flow back in. Hyeju remembers questioning how they got to that point. Once upon a time, they used to tell each other everything. What happened? Hyeju knows she won’t ever find the answer to that question. Looking for the answer will just keep her running in an infinite loop of what-ifs and why’s.
Tired of fighting, Hyeju’s flight response kicks into overdrive. She can’t stand being in her ex-girlfriend’s presence any longer and makes her exit.
Astonished by the bold move, Yeojin stands up. Hyeju hates the way that Yeojin is fighting back.
“I’m sorry.” Yeojin was successful in getting her words out before Hyeju left. Her apology is genuine. She never wanted to hurt Hyeju. Even after what had happened between them, she holds onto the same sentiment.
Hyeju tightly grips onto the door hand. She seems to de-escalate.
It’s the first time Yeojin has apologized since the breakup.
Immediately after the breakup, the short phrase was the only thing she wanted to hear. Hyeju could accept that Yeojin lost interest in being in a romantic relationship. To this day, she still admires the way that Yeojin could communicate her feelings—something she couldn’t do. However, she had to acknowledge how painful heartbreak was. Even though the conversation was filled with love and respect, Yeojin was the cause of her pain and the least she could’ve done was apologize for hurting her feelings. Hyeju didn’t care if it was a white lie or an empty promise. The choice to not apologize left a huge wound that Hyeju hated to heal on her own.
There came a point in time where Hyeju stopped caring about the apology. She was moving on in her life. She was healing. She didn’t think she needed to hear the apology anymore. Waiting for it would be a waste of time.
Now that so much time has passed and Hyeju has changed from the experience, she didn’t exactly know how to feel. Was she mad that Yeojin opened an old wound? Was she relieved that Yeojin finally came to her senses? What is her apology even for?
With how numb she feels, Hyeju figures none of her curiosities matter. She didn’t like the way she was feeling, and with her heightened emotions, it was best to leave and sort out her emotions when she felt better.
“It’s getting late.” Hyeju finds the courage to look at her ex-girlfriend. Yeojin seems to be staring at the ground, but Hyeju thinks it’s probably for the best that she doesn’t have to overanalyze the windows to her soul. “Goodnight.”
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#its been about 6 months since the break up and i think im doing well#there are days where i slip back into square one but i try to pick myself up and move on again#i think days like that are inevitable and i just have to be patient with myself#my best friend was inviting me to a party and she told me that my ex was going to be invited#i wondered if i was going to be okay with that and realized that i wasnt#couldnt get out of the funk so i decided to write this piece#i promise ive been writing happier stuff but theyre long fics so i never post them here#i also attended the eras tour and this song kinda crossed my mind when i kept talking about rain#i couldve touched up more about clashing thoughts and incompatibility but decided to keep that vague#its been a long time since the breakup and nitpicking that causes seems useless to me if i never know the real answer#until next time#take care of yourself#littlepanduh#365 challenge#littlepanduh moving on era#olivia hye#yeojin#loona#loona fics#loona fanfiction#angst#breakups#setting boundaries
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hey i'm not too familiar with these bands but i got into ghost because of you and your last post got me curious about rammstein? what do you mean with porn music video? lol??
HEHEHEH FIRST OF ALL 🤭🤭🤭 GOOD JOB ME FOR BAGGING ANOTHER ONE AND GOOD JOB YOU FOR HAVING TASTE AND I'M A LITTLE BIT SORRY ALSO
secondly i mean rammstein mein teil music video one guy was getting his Dick sucked irl on that set bc the director didn't want it to be Fake he wanted it to be REAL (girl this is not a movie you are directing a german industrial metal music video. it is not worth it) and i also mean most famously the music video for their song appropriately named Pussy can only be found like on the pornhub and the likes bc it's just the band members' heads edited on top of actors who were performing like a bunch of cliches from porn videos or whatever so it's just. porn. can't be on youtube !! + clips of the band performing the song dressed up in the coolest outfits they've ever wore at the same time bc usually at least ONE bitch will look like absolute shit. this was the ONE time everyone looked COOL. and it happened for the PUSSY MUSIC VIDEO. but then i also mean the? or one of the? music video(s?) for the song Till The End (not technically rammstein it's one of the singer's side projects or smth) which is just him having sex w The Girls but it's also like kinda depressing in some ways idk. anyway rammstein weird as fuck but also at the same time they can make music videos like deutschland which is an iconic beautiful stunning masterpiece so if i got you into ghost trust me take the leap and get into rammstein too. it gets better
#rammstein FUCKS! FOR REAL!!! CLEARLY!!!#FUCKS in EVERY way#and there IS a weird pipeline between ghost and rammstein anyway#i remember when i had my big rammstein phase years ? ago i was so scared of ghost bc i was sure it was gonna be the next thing for me#lmao and i was RIGHT TO BE SCARED LOOK AT ME NOW!#there was more shit in the middle but music wise i did go from rammstein hyperfixation to ghost i did i did do that in fact#ask#anyway fr i don't know what this sounds like to u but if any of these turns u off from maybe listening to rammstein. well. turn it back on#i swear to god they're so great like. top 5 fave bands To Me i love them sooo muchhhh you wanna listen to rammstein soooo bad#i recommend watching Every rammstein music video i don't always care enough abt music videos but rammstein is Worth it#they go baaaalls to the walls w their music videos always have always will#zeit most recently? sonne? du riechst so gut take TWO.gif? haifisch? mein herz brennt generated a FEW different SLAY mvs??!#one thing i will say mutter breaks my heart bc it's one of their best songs and i KNOW that if the circumstances around the filming#were different mutter would have gotten a STELLAR fucking music video bc MUTTER FUCKING DESERVED IT#BUT EVERYONE EXCEPT TILL WAS ON VACATION. LIKE A BITCH. AND DIDN'T WANNA SHOW UP TO FILMING. SO THE VIDEO'S LAME#IT'S NOT BAD ACTUALLY NOT REALLY BUT LIKE. IT COULD SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE!!!!! BUT IT CAN'T BE#ALL THAT IT COULD HAVE BEEN IF YOU ONLY HAVE ONE BITCH TO WORK WITH INSTEAD OF ALL SIX BITCHES!!!! BUT I DIGRESS!!!!!
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real talk, fang is sooooooooo close to realizing his big fat crush on the paladin. i think he just needs a moment to Think & then he'll get there, bc there really is a lot going on rn lol
in other news, i got TWO successful counterspells. i also got hit a bunch, dropped down to ONE hp (literally just 1), healed myself, got hit some more, currently pinned against a pillar with a lizard guy biting at me
fang, barely hanging onto life, pressed against a pillar by a lizard guy that's trying to bite him while the paladin (his big fat crush) is next to them trying to keep Fang from dying too, & fang quips, "Wow, buy a guy dinner first." & the dude replied, "I don't take dinner to dinner." & Fang, bloodied as all hell and bleeding from his Ears from all the psychic damage, laughingly replies, "Ooh, kinky."
again, when his crush is literally right next to him & trying to keep him alive. reportedly tho, she found it funny
#speculation nation#fang#d&d#they are my bi4bi beloved blorbos and i love them so much#this is some fuckin SLOWBURN SHIT since fang still hasnt even REALIZED his feelings#he's getting there tho. he's almost there.#lskdjflskdjf really tho i love that fang's like this#he's riding a manic high right now. panicking from almost dying & from hearing his mother's song be sung by these people in a ritual#successfully stopping some powerful spells Twice. being ganged up on from all sides b4 breaking away then getting pummeled into a pillar#he's in wolf mode and his teeth's all bloody and it's all adrenaline and fear at what these people are doing and how it relates to him#he put on the cloak he stole from the guy we killed ages ago. his distant relative whose tooth he still wears on a necklace#and he pretended to be one of them. hoping to intimidate the guy into stopping by thinking one of Them had come around#it didnt work lol. and now Fang is getting beat within an inch of his life while wearing the cloak of the people he hates#& the people he's technically one of. by blood at least.#he's doing his best. he may be struggling for his life. but he sure is making it this mage's problem#tho im out of 3rd level spells now. afraid of that for the next session lmao.#in ANY case: super scary combat but we have survived the first half! we'll see about the next bit lol
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