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Ferrofluid Speaker (GoGameGeek) - An Immersive Fusion of Sound and Visual Art
Ever wanted your own Venom Symbiote, trapped in glass and reactive to music? Iâm being strangely specific because today we are looking at the Ferrofluid Speaker on offer from GoGameGeek. Ferrofluid speakers are becoming increasingly popular in the world of audio and visual technology, offering an engaging fusion of art and sound that transforms how users experience music. Letâs find outâŠ
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Got a PS5 Slim today as a early Christmas present and its soo good the graphics look amazing, im currently playing Astrobot as it came with the bundle which yeah i can see why people say it should be game of the year, i still got my xbox series x as wanting to use it for my other games i usually play and to talk and play online with my friends.
#me#its soo good with the 3d sound system of the controller being interactive with speakers and vibration to the game#plus the controller reacts to the motion of it#also cant wait to play other top games that are ps5 exclusives that are know to be amazing
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talked Footie irl with this like. adorable asf guy in my class 2day.
i brought my panini book 2day to show to my friends later. i pulled it out in my class to just. look at it tbh i love adoring her in public (my panini stickerbook) and this guy just GASPS next to me and i look and he's like "omg you have it!! i have one!! i have the cards!!" and i push it towards him like go look my friend, go on and he starts asking me questions about the teams i rooted for and he was "ahhh i love brazil too, when they got eliminated i almost cried" and then asked me if i was a ronaldo fan and i was like "NO. NO." bc ???? Ewwww no. he also offered me a messi sticker but i politely declined bc i already had one but thats so ... đ„čđ„čđ„č thank you so much man. he also liked and rooted for morocco, which we bonded over.
another ting. this was super cute. sadly no. 21 from mentioned here. we were looking at the brazil page and i was talking about how i finished the page last week and who my favs of them were n he just stops and looks at antony and says "i think he's very handsome. maybe it's bc he has the same name as me hahaha" and that made me laugh. i told him, to indulge him a little, that they looked alike so you're really complimenting urself n he got so happy from that, he smiled like i gave him a million dollars skdjsjjddjr and he laughed at my joke about richarlison pombo dance. i forgot the joke. but he found it rlly funny.
#i should also mention he was not a native speaker so his english was slipping a little bc he was so EXCITED#n his laugh is so sweet he seems like a nice person !!!! i will enjoy sitting with him#he is mexican n speaks spanish rlly Smooth too btw. he was translating to someone else n i was in a semi trance bc WOAHHH. u sound BEAUTIFUL#n his handwriting is nice#also this sounds like i have a crush. i do not. that was just the nicest interaction ive had all day n it stuck with me#hes a big messi FC guy and me as well. what a good guy with good taste. n i think hes very sweet#he told me to hang onto the book later in life so i could sell it when its like 2040 and be rich đđđ SJSJJDJDJD#rashfordian#sorry life story. happening. he was sooo sweet i rarely have positive interactions with men that leave me feeling nice so im just. Waaah
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oc sketch that turned kind of moody
#also from when my friend suggested I draw my own oc#me have characters? sounds fake don't know about that#oc tag#violet#interactive fiction#if: speaker
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eternally trying to chase the high of being 8 and let loose in a childrenâs museum
#thatâs what iâve decided my vibe should be#2000âs childrenâs museum#science or history#possibly both depending on the mood#i donât think iâve ever been as truly happy as i was when i was playing with the bright colorful interactive exhibits#with bill nye sound effects playing over a crunchy speaker in the back#possibly this has informed my career choices âŠ
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your eyes only (lhs) - req
pairing: heeseung x afab & musical actress!reader
synopsis: You were used to having all eyes on you; after all, as a renowned musical actress, capturing everyone's attention was part of your job. But the moment you noticed a pair of eyes in the audience gazing at you with such passion, you knew things would change.
my's note: first and foremost Aâš!!!!! YOUR VISION!!!!!! please iâm so happy you gifted me with the pleasure of developing this super cute and loving story. i really had so much fun writing it, and i hope you like it too!! also during the smut scene i got a bit carried away by these pics and maybe iâve dedicated too much time talking about heeseungâs arms đ not sorry btw
warnings: fluff, small angsty (but with a happy ending!!!), explicit language, SMUT - so minors DO NOT interact!, protected sex đȘđ», fingering, kinda rough sex? (this is the roughest i think i can do, unironically lol). lmk if I missed something!
request: reader is a musical actor/actress who takes many roles in musicals, plays, some movies and so and so forth. heeseung goes to one of the reader's musicals and is enamored by their voice and talent, and of course, their looks. (read the full request here!)
wc: 19k
NOT PROOFREAD.
taglist đ: @yvnempire
Heeseung rushed his way out of his car, jogging through the people in the middle of his route to get to the theater as soon as he could, already knowing Sunoo was so pissed off with his lateness.
He spotted the blonde haired furiously typing on his phone with a scowl expression, alone, waiting for him.
âDonât even start with your lame excuses,â Sunoo stopped Heeseung before he said anything when he finally got to the youngerâs side, glaring up from his phone and already hurrying his steps towards the theater entrance.Â
âIâm sorry,â Heeseung tried his best to sound apologetic, softening his gaze, opting for not making up any justification.
It wasnât like he purposely got stuck in the traffic at all, however, he definitely was guilty about leaving the house twenty minutes later than he promised, just because he decided to finish up his League game.Â
It was Saturday, of course he would choose to spend some screen time doing his favorite hobby.Â
âI know you donât like musicals, or almost anything related, but you kinda gave me your word, soâŠâÂ
They both walked side by side, stopping quickly to show their tickets to the worker who let them in after verifying it in the system.Â
âI know, I know. And Iâm really sorry.â
The lights were already off as the show was about to start, making them struggle a bit to find their seats; close to the edge and not too far from the stage.
âYou wonât regret coming, Hee.â Sunoo smiled sweetly, already at ease with his behavior, picking up his phone to take a picture of the glowing set, just waiting for the right moment to start. He wasnât really pissed with Heeseung, he knew the older one was actually doing him a favor. âI saw some pictures on instagram and itâs so pretty.â
Although Sunoo wasnât lying about him, he was actually excited with the idea of watching something so different from his natural liking, and the bright, enthusiastic face Sunoo showed made his expectations grow even higher.Â
Heeseung diverted his eyes to the theater main floor when the instrumental started sounding through the speakers, indicating the play was about to start, a shiver of excitement running all the way through his spine while he straightened his back on the chair.
The story was being told from the main characterâs perspective, as expected. But what really got Heeseung tilting his head to the side and his eyes glistening in interest was the incredible beauty of the actress.
She had expressions on point, as if she was born to be there, happily wandering through the whole stage with bright smiles, looking at the crowd once and a while and acting with pure talent. She shone in between the other actors, drawing attention easily towards her. Of course she had the main character aura that helped it a lot, however, at some point Heeseung was sure that he, himself, had an extra spotlight on her, eyes never leaving her meticulously calculated movements and attractive face.
The way she showed raw emotions from the beginning got Heeseung laughing, worried and relieved â a rollercoaster of emotions he never thought he would go through just by watching a Tangled musical.
He also caught himself wishing for the actress to drift her eyes through the crowd just once more, so she would feel his intense gaze and look at his way, in a very utopic, hopeless, line of thought.
When the said Aurora got the chance to finally sing, Heeseung just let himself completely fall in love, unconsciously sighing as his heart faltered a beat every once. He didnât expect her to have such a loving, enchanting, singing voice, making his body ache in despair to have more of it.
The final act got him all smiling, clapping his hands with genuine enthusiasm as the actors bowed to the crowd thanking them for watching. When the curtains dramatically closed, Heeseung inclined his head a bit to the center so he could watch you going away, leaving him with a taste for more.
He thought about trying to go to the backstage, especially when he saw a few people lining up apparently to get a photo with the cast, but Sunoo was already walking his way out of the theater and he deduced it had some kind of special ticket to get that.
âWho is Aurora?â Heeseung eagerly asked Sunoo when they stepped out of the theater, walking through the parking lot. He had literal crossed fingers hidden inside his jacket pockets, in hopes of Sunoo knowing about the actress.
Sunoo playfully raised an eyebrow. âI know you donât like musicals, but not to know who Aurora is, is kindaââ
âNo, I meant the actress,â Heeseung hurried to correct himself, blaming the fact he was still in awe. âDo you know her name?â
âOh,â Sunoo replied by taking his phone out of his pocket and opening his instagram, showing the screen to Heeseung. âItâs Y/N. Sheâs one of the most famous actresses for musicals like that. I love her acts, like all of them,â he replied with a big smile, gesturing with his hands.Â
Heeseung quickly got his phone to follow you after getting your username, not even caring about thanking Sunoo as he slid through your cute feed, shamelessly liking some of them. It wasnât like you would notice him, as you had thousands of followers and a very busy routine, as it looked like.
And oh, you were so, so beautiful.
âSo, how do you like it?â Sunoo asked with a small smirk when they stopped by Heeseungâs car, not failing to notice how the older one got really invested, although he wasnât much sure if the fixation was about the musical itself or you.
âHonestly?â Heeseung locked his phone and opened his car. âI loved it more than I expected,â he answered with a genuine smile, a smile that did nothing to hide his real interest.
âItâs a pity this is the last one,â Sunoo said with a small pout when he entered the car, sitting on the passenger seat.
âWâWhat do you mean the last one?â Heeseung halted all his movements to fully face Sunoo with a slightly bewildered expression, who offered him confused eyes and a small frown.
âItâs the last Tangled musical they're gonna do,â he explained. âYâknow, they donât do the same musicals over and over again. Especially with Y/N. Sheâs constantly casted for new ones,â Sunoo added, watching Heeseungâs face softening in relief before he started to drive.Â
âYou seem to know a lot about her,â Heeseung said with curiosity, eyeing Sunoo quickly before paying attention back to the road, the street lights passing by working as a beautiful background.
âYeah, I really love her work.â He said with a dreamy tone, and Heeseung nodded, since now he was kind of loving your work too. âItâs a shame we donât get to have more from her here in the town.â
âHm?â Heeseung's head snapped to face Sunoo, and gladly he had stopped at the red light in time.Â
âMusicals work almost like a band tour. They go through the whole country, stopping by cities for one or two weeks, it depends on the demand. This one had a three week engagement here!â He said excitedly, Heeseung paying attention to every detail. His heart sank inside his chest with the now acknowledgement of how your job worked, and the fact that he definitely wasnât going to see you soon. âBut college got me stuck, so I didnât have the time to come and watch it. Thatâs why today was so special, as I texted you. It was the last one.â
âThank you for inviting me,â Heeseung said with a tender, genuine smile.
Heeseungâs car stopped by Sunooâs place, and with a quick goodbye he left, leaving behind a completely silent Heeseung, lost in his own thoughts. How would he feed his newest obsession?
When Heeseung finally got back into his apartment, he cared little about changing his clothes into something more comfortable, sprawling on the couch while stalking your social media for a bit.
He watched your newly posted instagram stories, most of them being reposts of videos and photos from the audience that tagged you into it, saying how proud of you they were, how much they liked and how pretty you looked.Â
Heeseung remembered Sunoo taking a picture of the set before the play started, and quickly asked him for it so he could post it on his story as well, using the lame excuse that he wanted to show his followers his most new-found interest.
Of course Sunoo didnât really bought it, but sent it anyway.Â
Heeseung had never felt nervous about posting something on his instagram, especially on his story, a place where pictures and videos only lasted 24 hours. Nevertheless, in the past you werenât in the equation, you werenât the main target, you didnât even existed to him. So he double-checked the small text and if the picture looked good enough to stand out in between the probably hundred others you got tagged into, pressing the âsendâ button.
âFirst time watching it. I loved it so much. You really know how to catch people's attention @ y/n ;)â.
As the picture loaded, Heeseung instantly wondered if it was too much, with widened eyes and heart pacing fast, panicking a bit as he paid close attention to how some of his friends liked and replied to it almost immediately, but nothing came from you.
He waited for a few minutes for your possible repost, since you were online just seconds ago, scrolling through his timeline, a chill feeling overgrowing in his chest every time the small red ball of notification painted the top of his phone. Then he let out a defeated sigh as the reality settled in â meeting you was unlikely, and the chances of someone as famous as you noticing an ordinary guy like him seemed impossible.
That night he hopelessly hoped to dream about you and your voice, so he could experience more of your distant, idol-like presence. He was so intrigued about you. Your beautiful features, your perfect acting, your incredible voice, everything extremely fascinating for his poor, weak heart.
Unfortunately Heeseung did not dreamt about you, but he woke up with his phone buzzing under his pillow.Â
With eyes squinting, Heeseung tried to understand why he got followed by a bunch of random people on instagram from last night. There were also a lot of texts from Sunoo in caps lock that his mind skipped reading and his everyday notifications that he always ignored. And then his attention was caught with your name.
He expected you to repost as you were doing for the majority of your fans, but you didnât only reposted. You replied to him, directly.
âThank you, sweetheart! Hope to see you more, then <3â
âItâs just a message. She probably sends it to everyone. She seems reachable through her social media.â
Heeseung was trying to convince Sunoo â and himself â that your reply meant nothing but a simple, standard gesture from an artist thanking their fans. After all, he was a grown man who understood how the industry worked, how they encouraged fanservices as a way of attracting more people from the outside and maintaining the ones who already considered themselves as fans.Â
Albeit his heart danced a different melody than his mind, doing flips just by remembering your sweet words.
âI donât think so,â Sunoo retorted with a small grimace as he finished cleaning the corner of the cafeteriaâs main counter. âThe usual?â He asked Heeseung before getting ready to make his drink.
âYeah, Iâm running late for work,â Heeseung replied, glancing at his phone just to confirm that he probably would be ten minutes late to that morningâs meeting.Â
âBut I think you should shoot your shot, yâknow,â Sunoo said with a grin while mixing all the ingredients. âSlide into her DMâs or something.â
Heeseung couldnât hold back a small chuckle, leaning his upper body on the counter. âIs that how young people flirt nowadays?âÂ
Sunoo threw an offended glare at him. âDonât act like youâre an oldie. Youâre literally only 2 years older than me,â Heeseung laughed loudly at his reaction, shaking his head.
âI wonât do any of that, Sunoo,â he said softly and straightened his posture. âIâd rather just follow her work from afar. Me being in the audience and her, on the stage. Thatâs the closest I can get from her,â he now spoke more firmly, as if he tried to ground Sunooâs expectative â and his own â down to reality.Â
He spent his whole Sunday watching filmed performances from some of your old plays, unable to get enough of your angelic voice, your palpable talent, and of course, your gorgeous, captivating outstanding looks. The knowledge that your job made you be constant for a year or less, and then you were away for months, preparing for the next musical, shattered his hope and made him accept that he would have to wait for you to return.
âWell, you do you. But in my personal opinion, youâre missing a big opportunity,â Sunoo handed Heeseungâs coffee, waiting for the charge and the usual tip.
Once again, Heeseung shook his head, smiling and paying for his drink. âThank you, have a great day Sunoo.â
âYou too, Hee.â
Heeseung wouldnât admit that easily, but he gathered some of his favorite performances from you in a youtube playlist, so he could listen to it while driving through the city, the way to his work sounding prettier with your beautiful voice echoing in his ears.Â
As he parked his car, rushing to his meeting, he didnât felt the large amount of stress he normally dealt with during Mondays, your melodic singing still fresh on his mind, easing the way he handled things through the day.Â
The following weeks passed fast with his daily routine; you, still filling up his head in an addicting mix of your sweet vocals and his eagerness of witnessing you owning the stage again.
Heeseung craved the electrifying rush of his heart racing with wonder after you captivated his soul he once felt when first watched you perform, as if he was in abstinence.Â
He monitored your social media for almost two months, hoping to see an announcement of your next musical or anything similar enough to give him a chance to listen and see you live, feeling extra hyped whenever he saw a picture of your practice, or other things related to your upcoming project.
He never got so invested in something or someone the way he was in you, especially after just so little time tasting from the source.
During a random Tuesday, fauxing listening to Jakeâs rant about his new love interest and how confused he was feeling, he caught himself traveling through his own head, wondering what triggered this obsessive behavior.
Was it how dreamy you looked and sounded?
Was it the fact that he had to wait to get more from you?
Or maybe was the fact you were unreachable, acting like a bait to his delusional romantic heart?
Did he really fell in love with a famous person?
How bad was that?Â
âAnd you're ignoring me again.â
Heeseung blinked a few times to regain his consciousness back to reality, the one where Jake was shooting him an annoyed look and his food was getting cold; the thoughts about you and his respective questions evaporating from his mind quickly.Â
âIâm sorry, Iâm a bit distracted today,â Heeseung slurped his, now, cold ramen, avoiding Jakeâs judgmental eyes and grabbing his phone to see the notification that got it buzzing on the table.
âOh, you tell me.â He rolled his eyes, before giving a quick head nod at Heeseungâs direction. âWhatâs going on?â
âUh, nothing. You can continue yourââ Heeseung was about to change the subject back to whatever Jake was talking, not wanting to admit that the reason he got so zoned out was you, although Jake was pretty much aware of this part of his friendâs life; Heeseung being a mess and failing completely in the art of downplaying. But then he saw Sunooâs message. âOh shit.âÂ
âWhat?â Jake asked with concern, observing Heeseungâs expression morphing from a shocking one with widened eyes and mouth slightly agape, to an extremely joyful one, with a big smile creeping out of his lips, growing gradually.
âOh shit, oh shit.âÂ
âWhat!?â Jake exasperated, almost jumping over the table to try and see what got Heeseung so excited on his phone, curiosity overtaking him. âHuh?â He tilted his head with confusion, sitting back on his chair, trying to understand Heeseungâs overly stoked reaction over a simple poster from a musical.
On the other hand Heeseungâs heart was racing too quickly for his own liking, his hands faltering the grip on his phone as he read the dates for the performances, which were starting that weekend in some random place he didnât paid attention since what caught his eyes was the theater name from the next week.Â
He couldnât believe it.
You were coming back.
After all the waiting, here was the chance he'd been craving â the chance to see you live again. His fingers twitched with excitement as he clicked on the link to the ticket sales, not even caring about Jakeâs bewildered face and questions, too focused on rushing to the âbuy menuâ.
âOh shit, this is happening,â Heeseung muttered to himself, more to confirm it than to explain anything to Jake.
âAre you gonna tell me what the hell is going on or just forget Iâm right here?â Jake demanded, clearly frustrated but also amused by Heeseung's sudden outburst.
Heeseung finally looked up, beaming, eyes gleaming with something Jake never really saw before; it was like a child who got their first videogame after years of asking for it.
"Itâs her, Jake! That singer I told you about. Sheâs performing here in like⊠A few days?" The cool facade he tried to maintain had a fall long ago, his âfanboy sideâ being more revealed than he wanted.
Jakeâs confusion lingered for a second before he remembered Heeseung relentlessly talking about this mysterious woman, the musical actress who had somehow captivated his friend so intensely. He let out a knowing groan. âSo, youâre still obsessing over her, huh?â
âNot obsessing,â Heeseung corrected with a grin that betrayed him, his whole expression showing that he was, in fact, obsessing. âJust⊠Eager.â
Jake shook his head, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. "Eager, huh?â He leaned closer, raising an eyebrow up. âYeah, thatâs what everyone says, and then they spend a fortune on front-row tickets."
âOh, right. Front-rowâŠâ Heeseung mumbled to himself as he got back to his phone, browsing through the available seats, hands slightly trembling as his finger pressed down to choose one of the best seats in the theater â front and center â with Jakeâs words echoing in his mind. Thanks to Sunoo, he saw the announcement just in enough time to pick that one, and he completely ignored the price for the said ticket.Â
âYouâre really doing this?â Jake asked, incredulous watching Heeseung smile growing just before he bit his lower lip trying to contain it, as he leaned back on his chair.Â
âI have to,â Heeseung said, finding it hard to not smile. His whole body was partying with his heartbeat serving as the background music. "This is my chance to see her again."
Jake rolled his eyes but couldnât hide his amusement. âYouâre so random.â
âYeah,â Heeseung admitted with a shrug, his thoughts already drifting to the date he would see you, imagining your captivating presence on stage, singing with your ethereal voice, finally feeling every note in the same room as you with the attention you deserved.
He couldnât wait.
Every time you opened a new show in a different city, your body reacted as if it was your first time on stage, the blended nervousness and excitement working perfectly together and resulting in an adrenaline boost for you to be on cloud nine.Â
You loved your job with all your soul. The family-like friendship you developed with your beloved crewmates and actors, the backstage of the plays where you sometimes helped with the props letting your creativity flow freely, the difficult work of memorizing the scenes keeping it to the original at the same time you add a few self-written lines here and there, even the chaos of the quick costume changes and fast makeup touch-up in between scenes.
But what got into your heart the most was the ability to sing your voice out, being the one under the spotlight, expressing yourself through your acting, surprising people with your so known talent the same amount you made them clap for your breathtaking performances â the cheers after every play you finished making you fulfilled, a constant feeling of accomplishment.Â
You worked hard to get into that position though. Years of intense studying in college, years of hard vocal lessons you still took to this day, years of working much to be paid less, until fame hit you and things have worked amazingly well since then.Â
Now, facing the closed curtains already in your performer mode, you waited your cue to enter the stage and own it as if it was yours â and almost every time, it actually was.Â
âThirty seconds, Y/N,â your stage manager said to you and you nodded.
The new play was about an old film called Anastasia, in which you played the role of the said character. It also featured one of your favorite songs to sing, "Once Upon a Decemberâ. The haunting melody and lyrics evoked feelings of nostalgia, hitting deep on you as you drove yourself through it, just like the main character, searching for your identity and place in the world.
The atmosphere your fellow actors and crewmates created while you sang was the epitome of your presentation in your opinion; the created ballroom simulating phantoms dancing around you, so endearingly majestic and graceful, while they, themselves, sang the background, mimicking the lost memories of royalty Anastasia.Â
It would be an euphemism if you expressed yourself as just excited, especially due to your practice time on your expressions and voice changes to sound as heartbreak as the musical actually was, expecting the general opinion to enjoy it as much as you did.
You could hear the buzz from the public, showing the same enthusiasm. And with that in mind, you got your cue to enter the stage, fast and confident steps guiding you to your place.
As you directed yourself through the stage gracefully, easily taking the breath of anyone watching you, once more the sentiment of belonging eveloped you with a mix of love and deep sense of purpose.
The cheering, the emotional tears, the claps. You felt the audience's admiration through their eyes as the final note echoed in the theater while you held your last pose, breathing heavily as the weight of your performance resonated in your heart.
The curtains closed after you and the other actors bowed to the crowd, who gave a standing ovation to all of you. Your smile was bright and big as you walked your way to the backstage, high-fiving your co-workers â your friends â, sharing the sentiment of accomplishment as you searched for some water, throat extremely dry after so much effort.Â
Before you could even think about anything else, someone suddenly bear-hugged you.
âI donât know how you manage to awe me everytime.â
You laughed, letting your friend lift and swirl you. âOh come on, Jay. You literally saw every single practice,â you said with a light-hearted teasing tone and Jay gently put you back on the floor, letting you go from his strong embrace.Â
He rolled his eyes before replying. âYou did amazing, as always.â
âWe did amazing. It's teamwork, donât forget it,â you winked at him and you both walked to one of the couches, so you could sit and rest for a bit. Your knees burned like hell after spending so much time wandering across the stage. âI wouldnât be able to do any of that alone, especially without my favorite producer,â you nudged his shoulder playfully, drinking more of your water, making Jay chuckle.
The whole cast and some other crewmates came to compliment your amazing performance, you praising them back and always highlighting how grateful you were to have them not only as co-workers, but as a family, acknowledging the strong importance of their roles during your performances and in your life.
You went through the things that needed to be fixed for the next shows with your stage manager, the small changes in positions for the next theaters the tour would go based on their size and structure, while listening to the equipment and props crew discussing similar stuff.
âSo⊠Where are we going to celebrate our âAnastasia debutâ?â Yunjin asked, already frustrated with the fact that all her fellow members were talking about work just after working, you included.
âDonât you have work to do?â You shoot her a small, playful grimace and she mimicked it, mocking you.Â
âI just did it, idiot.â
You smiled big as you hugged her from the waist, pulling her closer while resting your cheek on her belly, before questioning. âWhere do you wanna go?â
Although partying wasnât a part of your overall interest, having some drinks with the ones you cherished to be around always sounded fun, so with Yunjin leading â as usual â, many of you followed her into a small pub, having the fun you deserved after months of work that leaded to that nightâs rewarding performance.Â
You couldnât wait for the upcoming ones, your schedule packed with the amount of dates programmed for a long, exciting, run.
âUgh, I love Seoul,â Yunjin murmured with a concentrated frown as she took some pictures from the bus window.Â
You chuckled, quickly glancing at your friend before grabbing your phone so you could reread some of the lines from the musical. Not that you struggled with memorizing the great amount of words you normally got, but you never let the chance to do a double check-up pass; always offering your bestest to your beloved audience was your prime motto.Â
So you didnât even realize when the bus started slowing its speed, snapping out of your focused bubble only when you started to hear a small chant of your name. You looked up from your phone screen, watching a little crowd pass by the glass window waving at it showing big smiles, without even knowing if someone was noticing or not.Â
You always did.
Part of your job was to handle an audience, to make them fall in love with your acting and singing, so you could maintain them as close as possible and keep being able to live from what you loved the most. You enjoyed the interactions, treating them with the same amount of kindness and fondness they showed you through cute texts and letters, not to mention their words whenever they got to meet you in person. You tried to make yourself as available as you could, organizing your day to always have some free time to talk with your fans through your social media.Â
Although exhausting sometimes, it was a worthwhile endeavor at the end of the day â to sleep with the fresh conscience and heart fulfilled, feeling their genuine love and support, no money could pay that.
When you finally settled at your hotel room, you gave yourself a small self-love treatment by taking a long shower and doing your skin care before heading to the theater with part of the cast to do all the warm-ups routine you needed.
The day carried a revitalizing sensation, your heart thumping with enthusiasm as the third performance of Anastasia approached. This time, however, it was more than special. It was in Seoul, your hometown â a simple fact that worked perfectly as an emotional aura for your background story.
Seoul always held a special place in your heart. No matter how the tour went, you made sure your managers knew that taking Seoul off the list was unforgivable; no matter the demand, no matter how much you could lose financially, you had to perform there. And you thanked your cast and respective crewmates for understanding your request.
While you wrapped up all the final touches from your makeup, hair and costume, drinking your last sip of water, you waited for your cue, as usual, unaware of the surprises the night held for you.
Because on the other side of the story...
Heeseung sat on his front seat with hands trembling and a fluttering heart. Every movement from the crew organizing the set to be perfect made him sweat in eagerness. He was so close to see you again, to witness your charming presence, your divine vocals. He didnât knew much about the story from Anastasia, expecting for you to sweetly tell him through your performance.Â
He was actually absorbed in the story being told, albeit his leg shaking showed his anticipation for your appearance.Â
Thenyou finally stepped up onto the stage. Heeseungâs breath got caught on his throat, widened eyes glued on your every move, on your every expression, never daring to let you escape out of its sight; the front-row seat offering him the perfect view of your amazing looks and talented acting, the sound echoing through the theater tingling his ears in the best way possible.
Then your voice filled up the theater. Heeseung let out a quiet sigh, mouth slightly opened, feeling light headed by how gorgeous you sounded â there was it again, the rush of his heart fluttering in the addicting way it did before, entranced by you, this time intensified, stronger, far more passionate.Â
As the melody of âOnce Upon a Decemberâ flew through the air, your beautiful, shooting tone made it even harder not to shed some tears, alongside the couples dancing around you in an atmosphere almost painfully beautiful.
Heeseung was so enamored by every detail of you. How you expressed emotions with your body, with your singing, with your facials. His gaze never left you, following through your outâs and inâs from the stage to change outfits or scenes, missing you every moment you werenât on the stage.
During your performance, each glimpse you shot at the crowd sent a shiver down his spine, as he silently begged for you to give him one, quick, minimal look, the smallest attention you could offer to him.Â
For a brief second, you did. Not intentional, but your eyes meet for milliseconds. Heeseungâs heart skipped a beat; the way you smiled as if it was to him fed his delusional self too hard for his own liking. He had to ground himself back to reality in order to continue to savor your captivating performance.Â
From your point of view, something was different that night. Among the sea of concentrated, curious expressions you normally faced while on stage, one particular person kept drawing your attention in a way it never happened before.Â
You came across many people watching you, most of them with widened eyes, or mouth open, or a small smile, regular reactions you got from the audience once you showed up.
However, the young man sitting in the front-row flooded you with such endearing reactions; his eyes gleaming with admiration, intensely following your every move almost making you blush. He looked at you as if you were the only person in the room. Soft, tender expression sending a weird mix of reactions through your body.
As you kept doing your act, you couldn't help but glance back at him again whenever you got the chance, trying your best not to be obvious with your sudden curiosity about this stranger who seemed so completely captivated by you.
His reaction was almost adorable â the way his face lit up, as though your small acknowledgment had made his entire night. You felt a warmth in your chest, knowing that someone out there was this touched by your performance.
Through the rest of the play, you forced yourself to focus only on finishing it perfectly. âAnastasiaâ asked for less of a passion, happy ambiance and more of a sentimental one, and because the spotlight was constantly on you, it was very unprofessional to forget your main reason to be there and falter on your acting.
Nevertheless, each time you quickly landed your gaze on the strange, young â and attractive â man, you couldnât help. He wasnât just a regular fan. There was something more in his orbs, something deeper, something magnetic, and you caught yourself having an internal conflict.Â
As you held your pose for the last piece of the play, showering emotion through your eyes for the happy ending, you nodded proudly to yourself when the cast prepared to wrap things up with the final performance.
Whoever the strange was, you apparently made quite an impression. And maybe, just maybe, he had made one on you too.
âAnastasiaâ was scheduled to be performed for three consecutives days, an entire weekend. Heeseung bought tickets for all of them, craving to experience you in all the ways he was able to â with the big stage separating you both, leaving him to just observe you from afar while you did your job.
Your job.
After the first night finished, Heeseung questioned himself whether he was perceiving things beyond reality, maybe distorted, influenced by his strange, yet pleasant and intense feelings for you. If not, he was pretty sure that you watched him as much as he watched you.
He recognized the flips his heart did every time your eyes landed on him, just to avoid quickly and slip back into your character â the need of seeing you again being reinforced by those exact little glimpses towards his direction, a river rushing through his head, full of confused thoughts.
Still, he reminded himself not to get too carried away. After all, you were working, captivating the audience was your job, which you did gracefully, gorgeously, charmingly. And charmed he was, in every possible sense of the word.Â
By the second night, Heeseung arrived earlier than he planned, the excitement to see you again swelling in his chest. Though this time he wasnât on the front-row either alone, he still got a great seat to see you.
âI canât believe you liked the musical that much to see it again,â Sunoo teased with a small smile.
Heeseungâs cheeks warmed instantly, a faint blush decorating it as he avoided Sunooâs glance, before saying. âYâyeah, I liked the musical a lot. I had to see it again,â he offered an award laugh, looking down his lap.
âRight. The musical.âÂ
Heeseung was about to respond when the lights began to dim, the known introductory instrumental and the storyteller started to play their roles. His heart skipped a beat as his head lifted, eyes following the actors entering the stage as they started to tell the plot.Â
Just like before, as soon as you stepped onto the stage, his eyes glued on your beautiful figure. You looked even prettier that day, although you didnât change anything since last night.
For a millisecond your emotional eyes drifted quickly to the crowd and Heeseungâs breath hitched, eager for you to notice him in order to confirm his delusional state, or worse, do the reverse, making him understand he was looking at the situation using too much of his romantic side.
His seat was not an easy spot to see him, and somehow that comforted his inner self. If he was right about last night, you would catch his presence, his intense, focused, admiring orbs following your every move. Otherwise, he would give up on whatever he was feeling about you.
On the other hand, Heeseung barely knew you were having a strong internal debate every time you went backstage to get out of your scene after finishing it. Heeseung had no idea you were looking for him like crazy, the best way you could. Heeseung couldnât even imagine you, out of all the actors, would be using your highlight time, singing, to search for his mysterious presence, pretending to look at the audience as you normally did.Â
And you found him during âOnce Upon a Decemberâ as you expected to do, since it was your moment to sing facing the crowd.
Ironically enough, the exact time you sang the line âSomeone holds me safe and warmâ, you locked eyes with him â caught totally out of guard, your heart started thumping in your chest too fast for your liking as you widened your eyes, then quickly recomposed yourself and fluttered your eyelids shut, concentrating on singing your emotional song.Â
Somehow you got captivated by his mysterious, yet gentle aura, standing out so easily among the sea of people, offering you cute and genuine reactions, showering you with admiration. Like a magnet, you kept glimpsing at him, finding it, again, adorable, how he always held eye contact, seeming a bit surprised, and then shyly drifted away. Even after finishing your solo, you couldnât divert your gaze.
Heeseung, however, was a total mess. He noticed everything, and as an automatic response his heart was pacing fast, his throat getting dry and his mind spinning. It couldn't be a coincidence that you glanced at him that often mid-performance.
âI might be crazy,â Sunoo whispered out of the blue, using the loud sound of the singers doing their performance to stifle his voice. âBut is Y/N looking at us? Or better, at you?â
Heeseung drifted his bambi eyes to Sunoo and back to the stage, frowning. âYouââ
âSee! She did it again!â Due to his exasperated way of saying, his whisper sounded a bit high. Some people gave him a mad grimace, he huffed an embarrassed laugh.
"She's an actress. She probably looks at a hundred people like that every night," Heeseung explained with a low voice, trying to convince himself more than Sunoo.
âWhatever you say,â Sunoo grinned at his friend before returning to watch the play.
As expected, the musical ended gracefully after a few moments of tension and the story finished to be told. Your acting skills shone through you every move, captivating the audience until the last second.Â
The lights dimmed once more, and the applause echoed through the theater vigorously in appreciation for that amazing show. Heeseung standed up to clap along, not even hiding he was searching for you amidst the chaos. When the cast bowed to the crowd, looking at them after straightening up to face the audience, a last and steady eye contact was held before the curtains closed, leaving Heeseung speechless, mouth slightly agape.
âEven if she looks at everyone, she had some special eyes for you tonight.â Sunoo said low near to Heeseungâs ear, feeding all his thoughts.
Heeseung left the theater more confused than he expected, trying to figure out if the connection was true, or if all the world decided to trick his mind. In any case, he had one more day to untangle the blended strings of his sentiments, and maybe, if he was lucky enough, the last show would work differently from the other two.
You were removing your makeup on your hotel room desk, Yunjin sitting on your bed finishing her own skin care routine.Â
âI know this sound crazy and unprofessional, but last night there was a guy on the front-rowââ
âThe burgundy-haired guy! He couldnât stop looking at you!â Yunjin cut you off, saying loudly and too excitedly.
Your head snapped towards her. âBurgundyâ Wait, youâve noticed him too!?â You asked flabbergasted, before going back to cleaning your skin, removing your makeup.
âOf course I did, he was almost eating you alive,â she said, rolling her eyes as she applied her skin toner. You looked at her again, but now with a shocked face, trying to figure out the meaning behind her phrase. âBut with love. In a cute way!â She clarified after noticing your exaggerated reaction.
âI was afraid I was seeing things,â you frowned, looking at her through the mirror in front of you.
âGirl, definitely not,â she smirked. âIf he shows up tomorrow again, please, for the sake of everything, get his number,â she demanded seriously and pointed to you with the bottle of the cream she held.Â
âOh, of course I will,â you said with a layer of sarcasm, not holding back your grin. âIâll jump off of the stage mid-performance, hand him a paper and ask for his number.â
Yunjin giggled, nudging you with wiggly eyebrows. âMaybe thatâs the grand finale we all need.â
You chuckled at her response, however, your thoughts drifted back to the said burgundy-haired guy, the memory of his intense, pierce, yet lovingly eyes glued on you sending a small heat to your cheeks as you finished your skin care.
When you woke up the next morning, your stage manager demanded the presence of everyone in the theater way earlier than you expected for some practice time.Â
As the night approached, you found yourself now behind the big, red curtains with the buzz from the audience serving as a background. You stood in a corner of the backstage area, counting down from ten to one as a mental exercise to calm yourself.Â
The anxiety you felt wasnât the usual thrilling excitement before entering the stage, the longing to shine as the main act from the night. No, this time it was mixed with something else.Â
There was a big chance the nameless guy would be in the audience once more, eyes glued on you like a magnet, attracting yours instinctively, in a way you didnât found too pleasant still; a tall, strong barrier inside your chest making it difficult to ease things while working.
The familiar voice from Jay broke you out of your thoughts, interrupting your now inhale-exhale exercise.
âSo, Iâve heard youâre changing your performance for today.â He said, voice laced with playfulness and curiosity.
You turned to face him, blinking in surprise. âWhat?â
âGet the number of the âburgundy-haired guyâ?â His eyes sparkled with a mix of tease and amusement. âOr whatever Yunjin named him. Who uses burgundy as an everyday word?â
You shut your eyes close, finally understanding his words. âAh.â You chuckled softly. âYeah, the burgundy-haired guy.â
Jay laughed, warm and reassuring, placing both his hands on your shoulders so you wouldnât avoid his gaze as you opened your eyes. âInvite him backstage today.â
Once again, you offered him a confused look, but now with a strong lack of confidence among it. His quick senses noticed your doubtful expression and added with a soft voice. âY/N, youâre a human. Youâre allowed to feel your feelings. Even if itâs about someone from the audience.â
You kept looking at Jayâs gentle eyes, not even a hint of judgment behind them. âOk,â you said in response, nodding slowly before a smile tempted to curve into your lips. âBetter option than jumping on him mid-performance to ask for his number.â
Heeseung had finished watching you for the third time, doing the exact same things, singing the exact same songs, saying the exact same lines, with the exact same props and cast.
Still he experienced shivers down his spine once you sang âOnce Upon a Decemberâ, a song that quickly crawled his ranking of your performances, topping all of the others. Not only that, you also seemed way confident today.Â
Heeseung, on the other hand, was getting flustered.
You didnât care much about being obvious with your glances at him that night, sustaining eye contact longer than he expected. Heeseung felt that you were performing for him only, just like he watched you as if you were the only person on the stage.Â
You both shared an unspeakable connection in between the play â you, keeping as professional as possible; while Heeseung tried not to run away from your sharp, intriguing gaze.
Despite your initial nervousness, especially without knowing if the mysterious guy would appear again, feeding your anticipation inside your chest as you entered the stage, it took less than minutes for your eyes to find him, sitting on the side, giving you a small, shy smile.Â
You made no effort to contain your heartbeats increasing each time your eyes met, allowing your body to feel the wave of euphoria running through it, regardless of your hesitant thoughts about being unprofessional.
Whenever your character demonstrated happy emotions, with your lips curving into a smile, you searched for him as though you were smiling at him. Same thing when you sang some specific lines, searching from his sweet orbs following your figure already. Although the concept of the musical wasnât necessarily romantic nor suggestive, there were some gaps you could use to your advantage, and you did.Â
By the end of your last performance in Seoul, you smiled brightly and big at the crowd, thanking them alongside your crewmates, bowing and waving goodbye; the known sense of accomplishment flowing into your veins, now blended with the excitement for your next move.
As you walked your way out of the stage, before the big curtains fully closed, lights already dim in the stage but bright on the seats side, you searched once more for the man who had charmed you. He was also making his way out of the theater, your heart pounding in despair as if you were about to lose him.
But like you attracted him through your intense staring, he looked back directly at you. Boldly, you offered a shy smile, biting your lips hesitantly before grabbing your manager's arm and sneakily pointing out to who you wanted to meet backstage.
Heeseungâs heart raced as he watched the ongoing scene, mind unable to wrap a full comprehension about why you and some stranger were staring at him, even scanning his surroundings to make sure he wasnât seeing things â like maybe you were looking out for some other person. Then he noticed you pointing and the other strange nodding, as if they finally understood your intentions, almost mouthering an âohâ.
Heeseung tilted his head, swallowing hard as a slight frown formed when he saw you vanishing behind the closed curtains, leaving him to deal with his puzzled brain alone. He blinked a few times, then shrugged to himself, putting his hands in his jacketâs pocket, even shaking his head trying to recompose.
As he took the exit direction with the rest of the people, a security guard suddenly stopped him by grabbing his shoulder, saying in a low tone. "Sir, youâve been requested backstage."
Heeseung was unsure if he heard correctly.
"Backstage? Me?" He stammered, mouth slightly open and bambi eyes full of confusion. Did he do something wrong?
The guard nodded and motioned to him. âFollow me, please.âÂ
Heeseung legs felt like jelly following the random guard into the said backstage, a blurred motion of his surroundings as the crew passed by, some removing the props off the stage, many others wandering around, and then he recognized the actors from the musical talking in between themselves, loud laughters echoing through the small area, some with their stage clothes on.
Then he saw you.
Still wearing parts of your outfit, smiling radiantly while chatting with someone he made no effort to identify â his body perked up with the sight of you, his whole being drawn like a magnet.Â
He barely noticed the guard was long gone by now, leaving him standing awkwardly with mingled feelings he couldn't figure out yet. Bewilderment was a euphemism to describe it.Â
You seemed even prettier now than under the spotlight, shining on the stage. You seemed natural, although you still had makeup and pieces of your exaggerated royal costume on.Â
As you sensed the intensity of his stare, you turned, eyes locking immediately with Heeseungâs. The spark he would often feel when watching you perform ignited again, hands trembling, heart painfully resonating loud on his ears as the whole world seemed to fade out when you started to walk into his direction.Â
He was so in awe he didnât notice you were hesitant, your movements appearing to be slowed down in his vision.
âHi.â You said softly as you reached closer, biting your lower lip to suppress your excited smile, afraid of scaring the guy off.
Your gaze wandered his face, taking in his gorgeous features; adorable bambi eyes showing you an entire night sky full of stars, cheeks with a faint blush, cherry lips slightly parted. Unnecessarily attractive.Â
If you paid close attention, you would perceive how his ears also were painted in a light shade of red.
âHi.â He breathed out in an astonished way, a sweet voice that made your stomach do a flip.
âIâm sorry for bringing you here so suddenly.â You started, and although you felt a small heat in your cheeks, you didnât broke eye contact. âIâ Honestly, I was afraid of losing sight of you,â you grinned shyly. âIâve noticed you in the audience for the past two days and today as well.â You explained, after receiving nothing in response. âI wondered what got you so invested,â and then you chuckled, forcely agreeing that your choice of words was enough to clarify â for sure it wasnât, but you decided to deal with whatever consequences later.Â
Heeseung blinked with the new piece of information that entered his brain, perplexed by how sincere you worded it.Â
âYou noticed me?â He could feel his heart faltering some beats and then fastening again, totally desynchronized. Gladly he could figure out something to say, since his throat felt like closing.Â
âYeah, quite hard not to when you look at me so intensely with your beautiâ with your eyes,â you tried to sound chill and playful to ease things, making it less awkward. However, the way you spoke seemed a bit too flirty, not to mention you almost let a compliment slip out of your mouth, and he blushed harder, chuckling.Â
âI didnât mean to stare. I mean, youâre an actress of course youâre used to that, but I recognize I might have crossed the line,â he was strong in maintaining his eyes on you, but the way you were looking through your eyelashes, blinking slowly, so prettily right in front of him, broke down his confidence â in a good, amazing way. Everything feeling like a fever dream.
You giggled, loving how you were affecting him, just as much as he was messing you. Before you could say anything, he added with a small shrug.
âI just got captivated by you.â And he went back into locking his eyes with yours.
Now it was your time to get a bit flustered, still, you held it together just before reuniting all the forces you found internally to say your next words.
âYouâve crossed no lines,â you smiled. âAnd Iâve got captivated by you.â
You watched how his Addamâs apple bobbed as he swallowed hard, the tension on his body loosening slightly, his timid smile spreading gradually wider as though your words unlocked something different deep within him. Somehow, you got even curious about what he could show you.
âMay I ask your name?â
âHeeseung. Lee Heeseung,â he responded, offering you his hand. Your eyes followed the movement as you gave him a sheepish grin, grabbing his warm palm, the touch lingering enough to make your breath hitch.
âIâm Y/N,â you replied playfully, making him laugh, holding hands still.
His eyes turned into small crescents as he did so, his soft chuckle resonating beautifully in your ears. For some random reason, your heart started to beat faster, an interesting feeling spreading all over your chest, making you sigh.
âYou were incredible up there,â Heeseung said after you both let each otherâs hands go, blocking the awkwardness from establishing in between you two.Â
âYeah?â You raised an eyebrow and your lips curved into a smirk, knowing very much you did amazing, but a compliment from a gorgeous man like that easily ruined your confidence and contradictory, at the same time, it flattered your ego. âThank you.â You said, right before analyzing you and Heeseung were standing in the middle of nowhere inside the backstage of the theater, so you gently grabbed his arm and dragged him with you to a corner.
Heeseung just followed you, in trance with your beauty, with your presence, with you. He also observed that your normal voice sounded quite different from when you were on stage. Endearing, if he dared to say.
As you reached a quieter corner, you let go from his arm and leaned into the wall, curiosity filling your eyes as you bit your lower lip.
âSorry about that,â you said with a small, awkward chuckle. âDidnât want us to block the path,â you nodded to where you were before.
âNo problem,â Heeseung replied, still processing the sudden pull, the phantom of your warm touch still tingling on his skin.Â
âSo, besides me,â you said, crossing your arms in front of you, a hint of playfulness glinting in your eyes. âWhat did you think of âAnastasiaâ?â
Heeseung let out a chuckle, his tongue briefly sweeping over his lips as he took a moment to answer.Â
âI loved every bit of it,â his voice dropped slightly and his gaze deepened. Although the known tenderness seemed to be mingled with it, there were more layers on it. âBut I have to admit. You were my main focus.â
You giggled again. Second time in just a few minutes together. Heeseung actually felt like going to heaven and back to earth with the sound of your giggles, having to physically stop himself from his hands touching you, caressing your adorable blushed cheeks or landing on your hips.
âYou flatter me,â you said sheepishly, uncrossing your arms. âBut Iâm sure I wasnât that distracting, Heeseung.â
His name sounded so much more beautiful in your voice â the way you said it was magnetic, with a hint of sensuality and teasing, making his heart skip several beats.
âYou definitely were, Y/N.â He opted to play in your game, taking a step closer, recognizing the change of the atmosphere between you two.Â
You also were aware of the shift in the air, allowing your flirty, shameless part to shine brighter during the conversation. âI think I owe you a proper thank you for being such an attentive audience member.âÂ
Heeseungâs smile slowly faded out, his eyes softening and growing more intense, half-lidded with anticipation as you reached to hold his hand.Â
âHow do you plan on doing that?â He asked, husky voice tickling your stomach, his fingers sweetly playing with yours.
You gave his hand a gentle squeeze, your nervousness evident as you replied, âWould you mind waiting for me to change? Itâll take about an hour...âÂ
âAbsolutely not,â he eagerly replied, eyes lightening up with expectation. Then he lifted your hand until his lips touched it and placed a tender kiss, as an unspoken promise he would wait for you. âIâll be right here. Take your time.â
The soft press of his lips on your skin sent a shiver down your spine, the warmth spreading directly into your heart making your pulse race.Â
Unwillingly, you released his brief, yet electrifying touch, offering a flustered grin and a reassuring nod while the anticipation grew within you. As you turned towards the changing room, you could feel the weight of his gaze lingering on your back, never once losing sight of you.
Yunjin met you there, more excited than you by your supposed date, to which you shut down right away saying it wasnât a date. Despite your complaints, she kept her usual cheerful energy, helping you to undo your hairstyle as you removed your makeup, just to apply something more natural and less theatrical. You took a quick shower, as the heavy stage clothes and intense movements during the performance had left you feeling sweaty and disheveled.
Despite rushing your time, the fear that Heeseung might already be long gone was rapidly sinking in, so you hurried your steps out of the changing room when you finished your things, walking back to where you left him.
You let out a relieved sigh as you saw his figure happily talking with one of your friends, now with his back facing you.
âOh, so you already met Jay.â You greeted them with a smile.
Heeseung averted his attention to your approach, your fresh sprayed perfume infiltrating his airways. He took his time to check you out shamelessly with his pretty bambi eyes filled with a perfect mixture of adoration and something darker.
âYeah, he did.â Jay nodded with a smile, before leaning closer to whisper in your ear. âHe seems pretty great, Y/N. Amazing choice,â and he wiggled his eyebrows playfully, walking away after saying a quick goodbye.
You felt your cheeks heating up with your friend's words, a faint blush decorating the area, to which Heeseung noticed right away.Â
âYou look beautiful.â He said softly, loving how casual you wore yourself; loose black shirt, baggy jeans and black converse.
Your natural look would always be his favorite â he wouldnât admit that easy, but he stalked your instagram like crazy during the first days, so he was aware of a few things about your visual. However, no one prepared his heart to face it so closely, your beauty glowing even stronger now.Â
âThank you.â
He got startled when you kindly took his hand with yours, pulse racing with the sudden intimate touch. Nonetheless, he was loving every second of it, fearlessly lacing your fingers, paying close attention to your reaction. As he expected, you smiled sheepishly.Â
âWould it be disappointing that my suggestion is a private bar near here, so we can drink and talk?â You hesitantly asked as you started to head towards the exit.
âOf course not.â Heeseung shot you with one of his sweet, reassuring glances. âI would go anywhere with you.â
You chuckled, unconsciously squeezing his hand as you tried to run from his flirty eyes. âYou shouldnât say things you canât carry out.â You said, teasingly.
You both reached out of the theater using the back exit, avoiding the public so you could have some privacy. Being famous had its perks, but also a lot of downs, the lack of privacy being one of them. Nonetheless, you loved each individual part of it; since the beginning of your career you built a good community. In your relationship with your fans, you constantly reinforced yours and theirs boundaries.Â
âYou think I canât?â He quirked an eyebrow, a sly smirk taking place on his cherry lips. You couldnât help but focus on how Heeseung appeared even more handsome under the cityâs nightlights, sharp lines being evidenced while the fresh breeze messed up his burgundy hair. âShould I prove you wrong, then?â
You got a bit taken aback with his sudden confidence, yet, you loved to see this new side of him blooming with you, allowing yourself to indulge in the game as much as you were enjoying the player.
âWell,â you began to talk. âYou have three days before I head to the next city.âÂ
Although Heeseungâs chest tightened with your unexpected reality shock, reminding him that you were a busy woman, and traveling a lot was a enormous part of your work, he decided to enjoy your presence as much as you let him to, instead of overthinking about your soon departure.
Heeseung waited for you for months, he would wait for more if he needed to.Â
His smile softened, still, his eyes sparkled by your subtle challenge. âThree days, huh? Iâll have to make them unforgettable then.â
You laughed, his words sending a pleasantly thrill in your core, excited with his promise.Â
âIsnât that too much pressure?â You raised an eyebrow.
âI like a challenge,â Heeseung shot back, playful voice laced with something deeper, almost daring.Â
You giggled at his response, only now noticing he hadnât let go of your hand since the beginning. Initially, you were apprehensive about the intimate touch, but Heeseungâs presence stirred a surprising sense of ease within you. His effortless way of breaking through your barriers made you feel comfortable enough to be yourself, dissolving your reservations with a natural grace.
You wondered if it was because he seemed genuine with his actions, since the very first night offering you such sweet glances and admiration eyes.
During your walk, you could see through his kind actions how respectful and caring he was, switching places with you so he was the one on the road side of the sidewalk, letting you walk in front of him whenever the space was narrowed by the flush of people, and mostly just by letting you to talk without interruptions.
Despite Heeseungâs ability of lowering your defenses, you still had some difficult thoughts about allowing it too much. A strong part of you were afraid of giving other peopleâs free access to your private life. You wished Heeseung could prove to you he was worth it.Â
You reached the bar quicker than you expected, your relaxed chat filling up the walk as you discovered some of Heeseungâs personal traits and that he worked in the entertainment industry, being the one behind the scenes in the marketing area for some brands. Also you find out that his favorite hobby was to play on his computer during his free time and watch random youtube videos.
Since you knew the place, you chose a recluse seat near the corners, where no one could see you both having your intimate time together.
âI have to be honest,â Heeseung said after he sat down, facing you. âIâve been in Seoul for Godâs know how long, and I have never seen this bar.â
You laughed, grabbing the menu, your hungriness screaming in your stomach.Â
âI love it here.â You smiled. âItâs very private and not many people are allowed to enter. Actually, if Iâm not mistaken, itâs kind of an artist type of place? Like famous people and, I donât know, CEOs come here.â You explained, Heeseung nodding to your words.
Heeseung was so thrilled with the whole experience of getting to know you better. He had always envisioned you as an idol-like figure. Your unreachable, distant persona, unallowing his mind to go further than watching you on stage.Â
Ironically enough, the natural side you showed so far warmed his heart even more. Your bold humor, your confident actions, how your eyes lit up when you talked about your job and interests â everything working perfectly to make it harder not to fall for you.
Seeing you out of the actress aura, in a more relaxed and genuine setting, only deepened his fascination. The charm you once threw at him increased gradually as he felt his heart fluttering with your laughter and easy talk.Â
You both got along like it was meant to be.
âI actually became interested in musicals because of you,â he admitted after some chatting, sipping the non-alcoholic drink he ordered.
âHow come?â You asked, interested in the story, biting your pajeon.
One thing you loved about your job was to hear peopleâs stories of how they got interested in musicals. Youâve heard many, some because of their parents, some due to curiosity, others because of seeing it online.Â
However, Heeseungâs one was a bit⊠Different from what you expected.Â
âOh,â Heeseung expressed with a shy smile, lowering his eyes to his glass, playing with the border of it. You cocked your head to the side, wondering why he went silent after your question. âI kindaâŠâ He swallowed hard, his Adamâs apple bobbing, the movement neatly noticed by you. âFell for your aura, yâknow?â He tried his best not to say he fell for you. âYour voice is amazing. And you looked so confident.â
You blinked slowly with a bright smile, loving to see his flustered self gathering all the resources in his body trying not to be so obvious, although his eyes never lied to you. Heeseungâs words and the way his body was reacting unlocked something bold inside your chest.Â
You were about to speak, thanking him for his appreciation or whatever your mind could come up with, but he continued.Â
âThe first time I watched a musical was when you did Tangled,â Heeseung was doing his best not to look at your eyes, afraid of losing his inner battle and saying what he wasnât planning to. âI was accompanying a friend that loves you.â
âOh,â You said excitedly, a smirk on your lips. You raised your glass and clinked it with his. âCheers to your friend then.â You laughed at his confused reaction, now finally looking at you with his blushed cheeks, unnecessarily adorable. âThanks to him, we met. Isnât that right?âÂ
A darker shade of red painted his cheeks as he smiled bashfully.
âI think we can say that, yeah.â He nodded, taking a good sip of his drink, bambi eyes following your movements.Â
You leaned in slightly, eyes twinkling with what Heeseung read as mischief, making his heart falter some beats.
âSo youâre saying youâre a fan of mine now?â You teased, biting your lip shamelessly as your eyes drifted to Heeseungâs cherry ones. The alcohol in your veins facilitating not only your words to come out, but your actions to be bolder.Â
Heeseung got initially stunned by your not so subtle flirting, pulse increasing fast. Then he decided to get on your game, purposely wetting his lips just to watch your gaze tracking motion of it.Â
âDefinitely a fan of yours, Y/N.â He smirked, also leaning in, your faces close enough for your breaths to slightly mingle.Â
âAnd youâre devoted too. Attentively paying attention to meâŠâ You purred, tilting your head to the side as your eyes softened, totally switching the atmosphere between you too once more.Â
Something about the way Heeseung was attractive, had a good talk and seemed to be loving spending that small time with you, was stirring with you, to the point of you moving uncomfortable on your chair because the way he seemed to be so kissable right now was driving you insane.
Heeseung had his lips slightly agape and glistening due to his recent sip, hooded eyes analyzing your expression with adoration and wanting, as if he wasnât afraid of showing off his feelings anymore. You appeared to be more interested in what he could offer than he was captivated by you, allowing Heeseung to gradually become confident.
His gaze lingered on your lips, the corners of his mouth twitching into a sly smirk.Â
âMy car is parked in the theater parking lot.â He murmured, looking around before standing up just to sit on your side â you didnât knew if it was purposeful, but the way he positioned himself covered your figure, so no one would recognize you. âCan I take you somewhere more private?â He took the chance to tuck a strand of your hair behind your ear.
You were flabbergasted by his sudden caring gesture, albeit intrigued by the boldness in his eyes. A small breath escaped your lips as your heart started to beat fast.Â
âSomewhere more private?â You echoed, voice barely above a whisper.Â
Heeseung nodded, now gently brushing his thumb on your cheek, heating the area.
âOnly if you want to.â He added, his voice dropping down a tone, eyes locked into yours.
Your whole body got electrified by the amazing sensations Heeseung was making you go through.Â
âTake the lead, pretty boy.â You voiced out as you moved your head just enough to plant a small, tender kiss on his palm.Â
Your words were all it took for Heeseung to ask for the check, and didn't let you pay for your food and drink when he did so, despite your objections. You rolled your eyes, though your heart fluttered at the way he took charge so effortlessly, as if the thought of you paying for that night never crossed his mind.Â
âI donât think itâs safe for you to be around the theater still. Is it ok for me to go get my car and then I pick you up here?â As if he hadnât been a gentleman enough throughout the night, he questioned before you could stand up, taking your privacy into consideration for his decisions.Â
âSounds great.â You answered, forcing your body not to overreact and your voice to sound as normal as you could. âBut how do I know you wonât leave me hanging?â You questioned cheekily, though there was a hint of insecurity in your voice. After all, Heeseung could be the most captivating man in the world, but you had only known him for a few hours.
âYou have to trust me,â he said, throwing you a quick cocky wink paired with a smirk as he made his way out of the bar, longing his gaze on you before disappearing from the main door.
Heeseung had no idea how those simple words and gestures affected you. Crossing your legs did little to calm the rush of feelings surging through your core.Â
You sighed, grabbing your phone to message Yunjin about the change of plans. She was way more excited than you, making you laugh as you typed you probably wouldnât sleep at the hotel with her that night.Â
Anyway, you were also making sure someone in your circle of friends knew your whereabouts. Again, being famous had its downs, and dealing with creepy people was on the list as well.Â
You waited sitting for a few minutes before going outside, since you didnât wanted Heeseung to make the effort of turning off his car to announce he was waiting for you. Gladly, there were a small number of people outside, and you stood near to the security guard just in case.Â
You spotted a black car pulling up in front of where you were standing after a while, the window rolling down revealing Heeseung on the driverâs seat with a small smile.Â
âHey,â your lips curved into a relieved smile and you opened the door to enter the car.Â
Heeseung felt bad for being unable to do that for you since he had stopped in a traffic place where he couldnât stop for too long. Instantly you sent your live location to Yunjin, just to be safe.
âI know I was the one who brought up finding a more private place,â he started, a bit uncertain. âBut do you have any place in mind?âÂ
His question made you think for a while. Your hotel was out of question, since Yunjin was sleeping there too.Â
âI donât wanna take you to my place right away.â He added quickly. âDonât get me wrong. I just donât feel you would be as comfortable thereâŠâ He trailed off, glancing at you for a millisecond.Â
âBecause you know your place better than me.â You completed, quirking an eyebrow at him with a smirk tugging the corner of your lips.Â
âExactly.â
âAre you a stalker or just a perfect gentleman?â You asked with curiosity and playfulness.Â
Heeseung let out a hearty, loud laugh, filling up the inside of his car as he ignored how his stomach did a flip about being a perfect gentleman in your eyes.Â
âNeither, I hope.â He chuckled, looking at you warmly when he stopped in one red light.Â
You smiled, enjoying how at ease you became around him, the blended seductive and playful atmosphere around you two building up the ideal scenery for you to fall for Heeseung.Â
On the other hand, Heeseung wasnât different. Slightly afraid of scaring you or making you uncomfortable, but still, loving the way you expressed yourself so vividly, making him laugh every second.Â
âSo⊠Weâre goingâŠ?â He sweetly asked after your silence, waiting for your suggestion.
What Heeseung didnât expect was to see your whole face lit up with seductive playfulness, the anticipation building up before you spoke, your velvety, low voice sending signals straight to his core, as your eyes drenched him in lust.
âAnywhere we can have a bed, Heeseung.â
Heeseung didnât let you pay for the chosen hotel room as well, to which your body reacted instantly as the heat increased, your desire dripping out your eyes as you devoured him shamelessly.Â
His impeccable manners were almost too good to be true, being such a gentleman during the night, leading the way, but only after your consent, after asking you, after you taking the decisions. He listened to your wants and found a solution easily, a characteristic you found extremely attractive.Â
It was incredibly refreshing to find a man like him, so devoted to making you feel like a queen, allowing you to simply relax and enjoy yourself without you having to ask for it.
Now, however, you needed him to solve another problem, the one in which your arousal had left your panties dampened and you restless.
Seeing his charismatic interaction with the worker as nonchalantly doing the check-in, the smile after thanking them, the skilful hands grabbing his wallet, his eyes switching from tenderness to raw desire when landing them on you. Heeseung was clearly struggling to contain his eagerness to take you to an intimate setting as soon as possible. His restraintment was driving you wild, intensifying your anticipation.
How were you being so affected by that? Also, you werenât one to hook up on your first meeting â not even calling it a date, since it was a rushed last minute type of situation.Â
Then you remembered. Heeseung had built up the perfect atmosphere for you both since the very first day you saw him.
His beaming expression, eyes glued on you, showing genuine enchantment by your performance and now, you understood, by your beauty as well. You felt more than flattered to charm someone so hot and attentive as him.Â
His easy going personality and the way he acted like a true man, demonstrating to genuinely care about you, made a perfect blend of your ideal type â you didnât even knew you had one until now.
As soon as you entered the elevator, it took one simple glance from Heeseung for you to attach your lips on his, shivering at the sweet taste of his mouth as your hands searched for support on his shoulders.Â
He got taken aback by your sudden decision, but didnât hesitate to reciprocate your touch, eager for more since day one. Oh, he was in heaven by the way you were falling apart right in front of his eyes, because he, himself, was drowning in your presence since the beginning.Â
His mannerism around you was flawless, how he positioned his hands respectfully on your waist instead of lower, making you smirk in between the rushed kiss, totally contradictory to how his tongue passionately searched for yours to deepen the touch.
There were no words being spoken at that moment, but so much was being vocalized through his hitched breath and your soft moans, the ones that made Heeseungâs dick twitch in his pants.Â
âFuck,â he groaned and threw his head back when you deattached your mouth just to kiss other parts of his exposed skin.
In no moment you wondered if it was a set up, because if so, Heeseung was a better actor than you. There was no way he was faking his reactions while your lips sucked the flesh of his neck vigorously, as if your life depended on it, not even caring about marking the area as you did so.Â
Both of you shared the same thinking: the door needs to open soon, otherwise the elevator cameras would be filming something very intimate.Â
Heeseung went back to kissing you, already addicted to your taste, sucking your tongue and lip fervently just to hear your sounds once again. You scratched his nape with your fingernails when you finally heard the sound of the door opening, both of you giggling in between the kiss since none of you decided to move away, stumbling your steps until you reached the room door.Â
Heeseung positioned your back against the wall just to skilfully unlock the entrance, pushing you against the door to open and closing it back with his feet.
You took no time to appreciate the beauty of the room, eagerly waiting for the moment the back of your knee would hit the bed and you would finally have Heeseung hovering you the way you wished the most.
You removed Heeseungâs jacket and tossed it at some random place on the floor before he maneuvered your body when you reached the soft mattress, so you could lay comfortably â his strong grip on your thigh and hip sending jolts of excitement to your core as you gasped for air, but never once completely breaking the contact of his sultry, hot mouth against yours.
He wasted no second to position himself over you, the weight of his body pressing yours in an electrifying way, his lips only backing away to place rough kisses on your neck, nibbling your ear lobe as his fingers infiltrated your shirt to touch the bare skin of your stomach.
Your body reacted instantly with the amount of stimulus, arching into him, yearning more and more of his heated hands and mouth working wonders on you. Instinctively, your fingers tugged his beautiful strands of hair while pulling him down, closer, inciting Heeseung to continue his assault on your sensitive flesh.Â
However, as your impatience grew, so did your desire.
âHeeseungâŠâ You breathed out, panties already ruined by how wet you were.
âHm?â He murmured, trailing kisses until he reached your mouth again, his hands still heating the area of your waist as he caressed it painfully slowly, giving you a rush of chills.
You kissed him back, then pushed him away by pulling his hair, searching for his now darkened eyes, filled with lust and a small hint of the usual tenderness towards you. You watched how his gaze switched between your lips, your eyes and other areas of your face, as if he was memorizing every feature of yours to keep them as a personal picture.Â
âDonât keep me waiting,â you whispered with your voice rich with desire, your heavy breaths mingling with Heeseungâs in an intimate way you didnât expect to feel with him so easily.
He chuckled at himself, blinking slowly as he bit his lower lip, hooded eyelids demonstrating how far gone for you he already was, lost in his pleasure.Â
âIâm sorry,â he whispered back, planting a sweet kiss on each of your cheeks. âYou just feel too good.â
And he wasnât lying.Â
The way your body reacted to all of his touches so far was driving him instantly to hell and back to earth, his own skin tingling with a hunger he never felt before just by hearing your small, beautiful sounds. Heeseung wished to stop time and have you like that for the rest of his life, even if it sounded exaggerated and premature. He developed feelings for you long enough to have his mind working in that way, yearning for every bit of you, with his sharp gaze catching all of your reactions as he always did.
âI want to enjoy every second I have with you.â Heeseung admitted genuinely. You noticed the top of his ears turning into a cute shade of red.Â
âYou can do that,â you reassured, downing your hands from his hair to his shoulders and then to his strong arms, almost moaning after feeling them tensing under your touch. âBut please,â you pleaded firmly with a low voice, squeezing his biceps. âDonât make me wait anymore.â
With a small nod, a sly grin and a brief peck on your lips, Heeseung sat on his knees, the hands once under your shirt just brushing slightly the area, glided slowly over your skin as he moved to undress the fabric off of your body.Â
He searched for your gaze before moving forward. âAre you sure about that?â He had stopped himself mid-action for your consentment, and you couldnât help but smile, finding adorable his respectfulness with you, despite the obvious shared intense, almost tangible, desire.
âTotally.âÂ
After your word he finally removed your shirt, leaving your upper body covered only with your bra.
You shivered under his lascivious gaze, devouring you shamelessly with a satisfied smirk. He looked drunk as he approached again, brushing his lips on your collarbone and then near your breasts, playing with it over the clothing piece teasingly, looking up at you with his big bambi eyes showing a faux innocence.Â
The fresh contact of his mouth and tongue against new parts of your body made you arch your back again, closing your eyes to enjoy the sensation. You felt his hands working its way to free your boobs and when he finally did, you moaned in relief.
âFuck,â he groaned with a small, attractive frown, as if he was mad with your beauty. âYou look perfect.â
You fluttered your eyes open, catching a sight of how dedicated Heeseung was sucking your hardened nipple while his hand massaged the other, eventually switching sides to give both equal treatment, and you also caught him already looking at you, savoring each of your reactions.
Little did you know that while tasting you, he was also engraving into his memory those raw, genuine expressions, so different from the ones he had seen when you were on stage, acting.Â
You managed to reach for the hem of his beige shirt, teasing to slide them off. He noticed right away your attempt and quickly helped you by sitting on his knees and undressing himself, revealing to your hungry eyes his slightly tanned torso, his muscles tensing as he moved to toss the clothing piece to the ground.Â
Heeseung got shy under your thirsty gaze, but how could you look at him any other way? His body seemed flawless under the roomâs dim light, broad shoulders, biceps and chest with just the right amount of muscles. Not to mention the silver chain necklace adorning his neck, which you found particularly attractive, and his gorgeously messy hair.
âYouâre so fucking hot, Heeseung.â You murmured with sincerity, your fingers trailing over his arms, feeling the firm texture beneath your touch.Â
The room appeared to shrink, the air getting thicker as your respiration accelerated with the view. The anticipation to feel all those parts pressing flush against yours grew, a thrill of excitement running throughout your body straight to your cunt.Â
Heeseung acted out of instinct after your praise, as if upon realizing your desire mirrored his own, the carefulness, the gentleness he was cherishing to give you during the night instantly vanished just to be replaced by the raw yearning of being inside you.Â
Of course he would still listen to your demands, there was a vivid part of him willing to give you the affection you deserved. However, by the way you cheekily smiled and how your gaze sharpened after him yanking his own jeans and then yours, he knew how you wanted it to happen.
Heeseung brushed his painfully hardened dick on your thigh as he reached for your mouth, kissing you fervently while one of his hands explored your clothed pussy. He moaned against your lips when you purposely slightly moved your leg to grace his cock with a bit more of friction, as a way of thanking him for rubbing your pulsing clit over your panties.
It was a shared intimate touch covering the visceral need of fucking you for good, his inner battle going on about how to treat you, since your non-verbal answer â lustful eyes and smile â didnât meant much to him to be certain within his decision.
âHeeseung,â you moaned, grinding against the skilful fingers making circles on your clit, the fabric preventing you from feeling them directly on your pussy, making you annoyed. âI want you, stop teasing me.â You demanded, and instantly Heeseung moved his head to the curve of your neck, gently kissing it while pushing your panties to the side to start fingering you.
He collected a bit of your arousal on your slick folds, literally moaning just by the feeling of his digits sliding with ease on your pussy, pressing your entrance with one and then two, loving to hear your beautiful whimpers.
Heeseung supported himself with one arm just to watch your pleasant frown, your mouth slightly agape, your breath hitching, eyes fluttered shut.
âYou look so fucking beautiful right now,â he admitted in a low, husky tone, sending shivers to your spine.Â
You opened your eyes, a sly smile adorning your lips as you said. âImagine how beautiful Iâll be with your cock instead of your finger, then.â
Heeseungâs dick twitched against your thigh with your words. You observed his eyes darkening even more, taking in the challenge as his life depended on it, barely giving you time to process him removing all the clothing pieces from both of you, offering the gorgeous view of his reddened and extremely hard shaft, tip dripping precum.Â
Your mouth watered, but you ignored your sudden urge of sucking him, since your biggest want was to have that dick inside of you as soon as possible.Â
You tracked his movements with your eyes, a low groan escaping from your throat as you watched Heeseung put on the condom and pump his length a few times. The vein of his arm popped due to the motion, making you wonder how hot he would look desperately touching himself, a thought you opted to keep to yourself for now.
âI hope you donât hold back.â You provoked, quivering beneath his heated body as he positioned himself to enter you, supporting himself with one arm as your hands found its comfort on his shoulders.Â
Heeseung looked at you with a raised eyebrow and a cocky smirk.
âI wasnât planning to.â
His words only fueled the fire between you, and with a slow, deliberate motion, he aligned himself perfectly, his gaze never leaving yours.Â
âYouâve set the pace,â he murmured, low voice dripping with desire. âLetâs see if you can keep up.â
You rolled your eyes and smiled as a response to his dirty and teasing words, a soft moan escaping your lips as he started to fill you up so perfectly. But Heeseung gave you no time to savor it properly, beginning to thrust deep and hard, yet agonizingly slow, as if he was messing with you right after your explicit request. The playful glint in his eyes made it clear how delighted he was by setting the rhythm, toying your pussy just how he wanted, enjoying a bit too much the show of the changes in your facial expressions.
âYou feel so fucking good,â Heeseung sighed with a pleasant frown.Â
Your walls clenching around his sensitive dick was driving him insane, the euphoria to fuck you harder and faster rising in his chest, albeit he did his best to control it because he had two goals that night. First, to experience you in every possible way, and second, to make sure you never forgot just how incredible he could be at it.
You wanted to curse Heeseungâs pace, but it would be a lie to say you werenât enjoying every second of his slowness, how it allowed you to feel each inch of his cock deliciously sliding inside you, delaying your run towards your relief.
Heeseung attached his lips on yours while keeping the deliberated grind, a passionate kiss mingled with your soft moans and hitched breaths.
There was something about the way he was treating your body with such devotion, taking his sweet time to taste your mouth while feeling your pussy sliding on his length, gradually learning exactly how to satisfy you.
His hands caressed your skin with affection, sensing it shivering under his contact, then he shot you a playful look, repositioning himself on his knees as he grabbed a pillow to place it under your waist, opening and slightly lifting your legs, in a way to give him easy and full access to hit you deeper.
You whimpered by the instant amazing feeling of Heeseung finding your g-spot right away, his face lighting up with the new information you just gave him without uttering a single word besides his name within moans.
âFâfuck, Heeseungââ Your broken voice and the desperation in your eyes served as the final push for Heeseung to lose control and speed his thrusts, your knuckles turning white with your strong grip on the sheets.Â
You let out a sequence of whimpers, groans, moans, whatever sounds you were able to make, entirely lost in your lustful pleasure, your whole body shaking on the bed as Heeseung frantically and intensely moved his hips.
âI wasnât lying when I said Iâd make your days unforgettable,â Heeseungâs husky, confident voice triggered a new wave of ecstasy throughout you.
You winced underneath him, fully unable to say cohesive words. Your mouth fell open, eyes rolled back right before fluttering shut within a frown. The lewd slaps sounds of him pounding roughly on your pussy making you completely dizzy, his urgent rhythm driving you close to the edge.
Heeseungâs breathing was heavy and erratic, filling the room together with your loud moans as he pushed you near to the brink of release, his hands squeezing whatever part of your legs he touched, your own hips unconsciously grinding to meet his rhythm.Â
The knot on your stomach tightened gradually, and Heeseungâs pace became unsteady. The small piece of your mind that still worked correctly deduced Heeseung was just as close as you to his own climax, so you tightened your walls purposely and opened your eyes just in the right time to catch a glimpse of Heeseung throwing back his head, consumed by his pleasure; his flushed neck glistening in sweat, his Adamâs apple bobbing as he moaned, the fucking chain necklace dangling.
âHeeâ closeââ You tried to warn, you really did. But the whole moment got you overwhelmed in the bestest way possible. You barely had strength to think, let alone talk.
Heeseung snapped out of his blurry bliss with your voice echoing in his ears. His eyes searched for you right away, instantly moaning at the view of you, perfectly messy, falling apart, just for him to see.
He leaned forward, decreasing the distance between your torsos. Without a second thought, your hands roamed over his firm, strong arms until you reached his nape, pulling him into a sloppy kiss, as though your body naturally gravitated towards him, like a magnet.
Neither of you could keep on the kiss, Heeseungâs head falling besides yours as your fingernails scratched his back, the urge of your so close orgasm making you desperate.Â
âPleaseââ You pleaded without much thinking, legs evolving Heeseungâs waist trying to help his erratic movements.Â
âCome for me, yeah?â He murmured against your ear, holding back his own release just to feel your walls clenching him while achieving your orgasm. âCome for me like a good girl.â
And you did. Screaming his name, digging your nails on his skin, waving your body as the surge of your breathtaking climax rushed over it.
You felt Heeseungâs dick throbbing right before he filled up the condom with his release together with the beautifulest moan of the night, the one where he said your name lasciviously, hoarse and intimate in your ear.
Heeseungâs exhausted body collapsed on yours, his sweaty skin clinging to you and yet you gave no care. Your focus was on catching your breath, trying to ground yourself with your sight still hazy from the intensity of your climax.Â
âHoly shit,â you managed to whisper as you kept panting.
âIâm sorry,â Heeseung immediately replied, a small hint of guilt hidden in his husky voice.
âFor giving me the best orgasm of my life?â You breathed out, chuckling. The post-orgasm high made you feel like jelly.
He laughed. The sound warming your chest and also helping you to calm down quickly.
âDid I hurt you?â Heeseung questioned with concern, looking at you.
You shook your head in response and he smiled. Your hooded eyes followed Heeseungâs gorgeous figure, going quickly to the bathroom to discard the condom and back to the bed, laying down next to you.
âI wasnât planning on going that hard with you at first, butââ
âYes, you were.â You interrupted with a playful smile. âAnd Iâm glad you did. It was amazing, Heeseung,â the compliment slipped out of your mouth with ease as you caressed his hair and then his face.
Heeseung let out what sounded like a relieved sigh, as he pressed a peck on your cheek, then the corner of your lips before sucking your lower lip and kissing you properly.Â
âIt was my pleasure, Y/N.â He whispered against your mouth, kissing you again with a sweetness that seemed impossible after what just happened, but you knew it was real, because he offered you the same tenderness since day one through his eyes.
You found yourself snuggling on his chest and he hugged you warmly. There was something in Heeseung's acts that exhaled intimacy in a way it scared you, knowing deep down if he kept treating you like that, you would inevitably grow attached to his presence.Â
You got lost in your thoughts for a while, torn in between the warmth of his body touching you with care and the sinking feeling of his inevitable departure. Although Heeseung seemed to be an amazing man, nothing would stop him from simply leaving, especially when there was no mention of commitment from any of you or whatsoever.
Nonetheless, Heeseung's connection with you appeared to grow stronger each second you spent together, because his first words after the long silence were âCan I get your number?â
You lifted your head from his torso, a bit flabbergasted by his sudden, unexpected question. You had to blink a few times and watch his bambi eyes show you curiosity with your reaction to know he wasnât messing around.Â
âSure. If you promise not to leak it out.â The only answer he offered you was his pinky for a pinky promise, to which you took in with a serious face. âYou canât break it, yeah?â And he laughed.
âCross my heart, I wonât.â
The following three days felt like something in between a k-drama and a fever dream â too perfect to feel real.Â
Heeseung had work during the mornings and the afternoons, meaning he couldnât be with you the whole day â unwillingly, of course. To which you thought it was great, since it allowed you to hang out with Yunjin and Jay, and also to concentrate on your job, rehearsing for the next performances alongside your castmates, warming up your vocals with your teacher, re-reading the lines just in case.Â
However, the anticipation tightened in your stomach with every buzz of your phone with a notification, heart racing reading Heeseungâs name on the screen.Â
âI wanna see you soon.â âCanât wait for tonight.â âMissing your pretty face, ngl.â
His simple texts did no good to help your inner battle, nor his perfect mannerism for caring about your health, your voice, your sleeping, the small things that sometimes neither you cared that much.
The fear of getting attached extremely fast to someone and having your heart broken was almost suffocating, and somehow Heeseung managed to wipe your thoughts away within every encounter.
There werenât too many after the night you spent together, but each had a distinctive situation that deepened your connection.
Monday, he picked you up at your hotel after work for a small dinner at his favorite restaurant. You found yourself thirsting over his extremely good looking figure when he showed up in a simple, yet mesmerizing black button-down shirt with the first three buttons undone revealing a hint of his tanned skin beneath, and his usual heart-melting smile.
âReady for tonight?â He asked you with a beaming face that filled your heart with warmth and a cocky grin that later on, led you to ride his dick until your legs burned after you both reached the chosen hotel for the night.Â
You were nothing but astonished with how deeply invested you got in Heeseung, longing for his presence every minute. The chemistry between you both was electric, the sexual tension almost palpable pairing in the air, blended perfectly with the easygoing atmosphere you always shared. Heeseung fulfilled your desires easily, as though he was reading his favorite book â you â knowing every line by heart.Â
The second time you met was in the middle the following day, when he decided to spend his lunch hour with you, sharing a meal as you casually chatted about everything. Heeseung had a comforting way of listening to you with softened and attentive eyes, nodding along, occasionally adding his own point of view with a relaxed charm. Not to mention how smart he sounded as he talked with his soft tone and how beautiful his laughter sounded when he genuinely enjoyed a joke.Â
âI didnât know you enjoyed cooking that much,â he remarked at some point, his eyes lightening up after you shared your hobby of experimenting out new foods just to get their recipes and try doing it by yourself in your kitchen every once and a while during your free time.
You had no idea connections could be developed so quickly with someone as you did with Heeseung, how your energies and personalities complemented in a way that made every interaction feel effortless, as if words didnât needed to be fully spoken in order to understand each other.
Later the same day, Heeseung met you at night again. He timidly admitted he hadnât prepared much for the evening, but ended up making you the happiest woman on the earth by driving you both to a dinosaur museum exhibition after learning your fascination with them.
As you explored the exhibit, your eyes sparkled with excitement, and Heeseung couldnât help but smile at your enthusiasm. You animatedly explained the different species ignoring completely the small text next to every skeleton â Heeseung doing the same, since listening to your voice sounded way more interesting than reading.
Your tone raised with joy as you pointed out the massive skeleton of the stegosaurus, eyes gleaming with love, your big smile making Heeseungâs heart falter some beats.Â
âYou look so cute,â Heeseung said, chuckling softly, his hands hidden in his jacketâs pocket while tenderly watching you bouncing on your feet.
You beamed back at him. âItâs so interesting and cool to imagine those big boys walking on earth before us. Like, we are not literally, but somehow stepping on places they once stepped too.â
Heeseungâs gaze lingered on your glowing figure and at that moment, he recognized. He fell in love with you.
Not only for the talented actress on the stage, the amazing singer with an angelic voice, the famous performer who loved her fans with her whole heart.
Heeseung fell mainly for the genuine, happy, confident and warm woman in front of him. The one who easily sent chills through his spine just for laughing at his stupid jokes. The one who made the air thicker with her strong presence, just to stumble on her own legs and chuckle at it. The one who knew what she wanted and how she wanted. The one who secretly shared she was good at painting and handicrafts.Â
He could spend nights in hotel rooms hearing your moans and pants, feeling your intimate touches, kissing you mouth and any other place on your body he wanted to, but nothing compared to the fulfillment feeling spreading inside his chest when seeing you so pure, with raw emotions like that.Â
That night ended up like a date. He left you at your hotel and went home after kissing you slowly and tenderly at the entrance of the building, wishing you a good night's sleep and for you to take care.
It was your last day in Seoul before heading to the next city with the musical, and the bittersweet feeling weighed heavily on your heart. You were struggling with the drowning sentiment of leaving Heeseung behind, the idea of not knowing when, or even if he wanted to keep on seeing you made the lump in your throat hard to swallow.
Your insecurities grew heavier each second before the encounter. You hoped for Heeseung to come up with the sweet sorrow and necessary conversation first, since your messy, anxious thoughts did nothing to help you go through it without assuming the worst.
âHi, pretty.â His sudden appearance startled you, drawing your gaze from the distant random point on the street you were staring at. âSorry,â he murmured, pressing a soft kiss to your cheek, his hands finding their comfort place on your waist, grounding you.
A smile spreads across your face, eyes brightening up with relief.
âHi.â You greeted back, leaning to kiss him on the lips, pouring all the affection you felt into that simple gesture.Â
You wished Heeseung could sense how deep you were falling for him, quickly becoming a vital part of your daily life in such a small amount of time.
âAre you okay?â He asked with concern, placing a sweet kiss on your forehead. âYou seemed a bit oblivious.â
You shook your head, not only as a response to his question but to wipe away your confused thoughts.Â
âIâm better now.â You said, which wasnât a lie.
âGreat,â Heeseung whispered with a smile against your head before kissing the top of it and then held your hand to walk you to his car. âIâve prepared something different for today.â He said with a cheekily grin, the playful glint on his gaze making you squint your eyes, suspicious. He laughed at your reaction, then you quirked an eyebrow.
âOh yeah?â You smirked, curiosity instantly replacing your melancholic inner thoughts.
âI hope you like it.â He kissed the back of your hand before opening the car door for you to enter.
The drive was calm, Heeseung eased your mind without even noticing he did. Just the smell of his cologne and his warm touches on your thigh whenever he stopped at a red light, and the habitual chatting that got you invested with ease worked perfectly to sooth you.Â
At some point Heeseung nonchalantly revealed he was applying to switch to work remotely, and you genuinely cheered since for the last few days he complained about the amount of hours he had to drive, and the home-office modality helped him to have more free time.Â
His own information faded out by himself in the following conversation as he changed topics, you barely noticed his sly expression whenever he glimpsed at your yapping figure, gesturing about how annoyed you felt when you had to do group work during your college.Â
âWhatâs that?â Your eyes sparkled with the colorful atmosphere you were approaching, your whole body perking up as you watched some stalls passing by the window as Heeseung searched for a place to park.
Heeseung chuckled, drifting his eyes between the road and you, but not answering your question.
Then the realization hits. You shot Heeseung with one of your bright smiles, that got him almost giggling just by seeing it.
âYouâre insane.â
âI thought it could be a good place for you to learn some recipes.â
And just like that, you fell even harder for him.
Heeseung took you to a cozy outdoor market filled with food stalls, a few street foods trucks and local artisans. The atmosphere was lively, with music playing in the background and laughter echoing around you.
As you stepped out of the car with his help, the scents of diverse foods flooded your airways and you almost groaned with pleasure, your stomach growling with hunger as your mouth watered.Â
Heeseung held your hand the whole time you wandered from stall to stall, not even knowing where to start, but sampling everything from savory snacks to sweet treats, your senses dancing with the flavors and scents, doing some random love shots with Heeseung.Â
He didnât complained a second about the constant walking. To watch you lose yourself while tasting things, making pleasant frowns and doing little dances whenever you liked something, paid back any sore he would have to deal with on the next day.
Some people recognized you, asking for a picture to which you politely declined, and Heeseung instantly gave you a confused look, since you usually made time to give them a little attention.
You searched for a free table for you both to sit, and as you stared at the three delicious small dishes in front of you not knowing which one to prove first, Heeseung spoke up.
âIsnât that your favorite?â And then he pointed to the tteokbokki, after reading your indecisive frown, biting his own food. âStart with this one.â
You looked up at him with shock, then your gaze softened. It was Heeseung after all, the man who paid attention to every detail of you. However, your still pulse increased, your cheeks heating.Â
âCan I ask you something?â His voice broke the silence after a while again, and you nodded. âIs there a reason for you to refuse to take pictures with your fans today?âÂ
The question sounded curious, genuine at it most, free from the weight of any judgments. Heeseung was trying to understand your decision rather than impose his opinion on it.
âI donât want you to feel uncomfortable,â you explained softly, wiping your mouth with a napkin.Â
He tilted his head to the side, brows furrowing. âHow does that make me uncomfortable?âÂ
You shrugged, taking a bite of your corn dog before answering. âI donât know. People who hang out with me that arenât from my area often don't feel comfortable whenever I stop to talk to my fans.â
Heeseung raised his eyebrows, a bit taken aback by the revelation. Of course people had their rights of being uncomfortable with certain situations, however, being friends with you meant knowing your personality and how much you enjoyed those small interactions. So it sounded a bit odd to hear you say that.
âWell, I donât mind at all.â He said with a gentle smile. âActually, itâs sweet to see you interacting with them.âÂ
Your lips curved into a genuine smile at Heeseungâs reassuring words, especially because at some point he was a fan of yours, so to hear his mind on that conversation hit slightly deeper.
âThanks, it means a lot.â You mumbled. âBut if you ever feel awkwardly left outâ
âNo.â He shushed you with a portion of his food, shoving into your mouth with a playful laugh, making you roll your eyes and giggle.
The rest of the night went as comfortably as possible, filled with laughter and playful teasing moments. The thought of your departure on the next day haunted both of you, but you managed to brush away whenever your eyes met, the atmosphere softening again.Â
After you finished eating and drinking, Heeseung guided you to a quiet, secluded spot near the market. It was a small lake in the middle of a park, where a few other couples shared intimate affection as well.
Heeseung wrapped his arms around you from behind as you held on the railing overlooking the water. He rested his chin on your shoulder, his warm and soothing embrace caused a heavy sigh to escape your lips, and tears began to sting the corner of your eyes.
âYou know, it's always good to come back home.â You murmured, voice tinged with nostalgia while you admired the peaceful view. Gently resting your back on Heeseungâs chest, you added. âAnd it's always bittersweet when I have to leave.â Your voice got stuck in your throat, heart pounding in uncertainty for your following days. âIt became so much harder to leave now, Heeseung.â You admitted with a trembling voice, the tears quietly slipping down your cheeks
You felt Heeseungâs sweet lips touching your neck to place a gentle kiss before he turned you to face him. Kind hands caressing your face, cozy eyes eveloping your words with warmth and understanding. You felt loved. And it was hurting so much.
Heeseung cleaned your tears with his thumb, pressing soft kisses to your eyelids afterward.
âWe can find a way,â he whispered, his own voice failing to stay steady. âIâm too attached to you at this point.â He admitted with a shy smile. âI know I said Iâd make your days unforgettable, but now Iâm the one who is unable to forget you. And I donât want to even try forgetting you.â
A wave of relief rushed your body, happy for being on the same page, glad that Heeseung listened to you, overjoyed he shared similar feelings. You sobbed, snuggling closer to his body in order to feel him more, burying your face on his neck, the scent making you cry even harder.Â
Heeseung hugged you tightly, yet, gently, his arms involving you in a fond, safe bubble.
âI can visit you during my free time,â he said to reassure you.
âIâll come to visit you too.â Your voice came out muffled due to your position, so you reluctantly pulled away from his embrace to search for his eyes. They were red, as if he was holding back his own tears. âI mean, I donât live too far from here, the problem is my workââ
Heeseung silenced you by attaching his lips on yours, not wanting to hear your âbutâsâ and worries at the moment. He wanted to envision a good future for both of you, and also he was taking advantage to kiss you once more.
The shared touch was laced with an anticipated longing, slow and bittersweet, still full of affection. Your breath hitched while mingling with the soft sounds of contentment, hands exploring each otherâs bodies, cherishing every inch before the inevitable departure of yours.
âIâm afraid you wonât get used to my work,â you whispered, relieving one of your biggest insecurities when Heeseung broke the contact to catch his breath.
âWhat do you mean?â He asked, slightly breathless, mind hazy from your kiss. God, he really wished you both managed a way to get back together, if not he would go insane without your sweet lips.
âItâs a demanding job, as you know.â You explained, playing with his ear lobe. Heeseung closed his eyes, leaning into the touch. âIâm always traveling, Iâm always going to places, constantly on the move⊠Even visiting can be difficult.â
âI know,â he replied softly, still not exactly understanding your full point. Yes, he would miss you, but he was sure it could be managed.
Despite, from the start he knew you were a busy woman, barely having time to yourself as you told him a few times. And he was willing to adjust some things in his life if that meant having you by his side.Â
Heeseung didnât said anything more, making you wonder. Would he back off after all of that? Or that meant he was fully devoted?
âAnd it doesnât bother you?â You asked.Â
âNo,â he replied sincerely, opening his eyes just to lock them onto yours, as he brushed a little strand of hair from your face before he cupped one of your cheeks. âItâll not. If you promise youâll always come back to me.â
And you would. After all, by the end of the day, all you could see was his eyes only.
Heeseung grew attached to watch you. Not only when owning the stage and captivating the audience with your talented acting skills, but in any other moment as well.
His eyes followed your every move, from the moment you frowned while waking up to the moment you fell on his arms, panting after him fucking you hard.
Yeah, you both managed ways of getting back together, with his now remote work, traveling around with you became easy. He missed his friends every once, and that led you both to constantly go back to Seoul and spend some days visiting, especially to see Jake and Sunoo, who freaked out when he discovered â through instagram! â his friends were dating one of his biggest inspirations.Â
Now, in your brand new purchased shared apartment, Heeseung eyes tracked you wetting your lips while humming the melody of your upcoming musical, while doing some work on your computer. It was a routine he definitely could get used to.
And as always, you felt the sweet weight of his gaze, smiling even before searching for him.
âWhat?â you asked, laughing at how Heeseung positioned himself beside you on the couch; his cheek resting on his hand, elbow propped on the armrest, as he shot you a lovestruck expression â soft smile and tender eyes.Â
âI love you.âÂ
Months ago, those words would have taken you by surprise.
You remember vividly how flustered you became, heart racing, stuttering on your own words, unable to cohesively say anything back. Heeseung joked about how an amazing actress managed to lose composure and not talk like that, and after you slapped his shoulder playfully, you kissed him passionately, mumbling what could have been a âI love you tooâ.
This time it didnât surprise you, still, left you momentarily speechless. You would never get used to the electrifying wave washing over your body whenever you heard Heeseung declaring his love for you.
Just like you always did, you felt the heat rising to your cheeks under his intense gaze. Closing your computer, you leaned closer, settling yourself comfortably on his lap.
âI love you too, Hee,â you replied softly and sincerely.
You smiled, before kissing him.
Heeseungâs embrace was your heaven. Heeseungâs lips were your hell. And in between that, he kept his eyes on you. Always.
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adventures of sugar daddy nanami kento and his frugal sugar baby [ pt. 2 ]
nanami kento x reader ; fluff & humor ; nsfw joke | [ pt. 1 ]
MDNI â 18+ interactions only
A/N : it's implied that reader is still attending school, whether that be college undergrad or grad is up to you; tldr: reader is over the age of 18
"darling, are you busy right now?" kento's voice dripped from the speaker of your phone like thick honey.
"nope, go ahead," you confirm that you have time to talk as you wipe the sweat off your brow, the summer sun and scalding water making your body temperature rise.
you could practically hear kento's brows furrow, "are you sure? you sound a distance away and I can hear the water running," he said suspiciously.
you cringed, holding your breath as you slowly slid the plate onto the rack only to cringe at the sharp hiss of ceramic skidding against metal.
"I thought you started using the dish washer," kento sighed, the creak of his office chair putting the image of a disappointed kento leaning back in his chair in your head.
"I don't trust it, kento!" you cried dramatically. you would've clutched at your heart if your hands weren't soaking, sparkling glasses weeping on the rack at the mere thought of being thrown in satan's machine.
a staccato sigh and your muffled chuckles filled the kitchen. "anyway," kento continued, "I was wondering if you had the energy for something public." he asked, always considerate of your social battery.
you blotted your hands against the hand towel that hung from the oven door's handle, humming happily as you reached for the nice hand lotion kento had gotten for you, worried about the state of your hands considering the temperature of the water you habitually used. "why? is this some secret exhibition sex club thing that you rich people have?" you teased.
"I want to treat you to an outing since you refuse to do it yourself," kento poked back, speeding passed your joke, already used to your antics.
"oh, not denying it? does it actually exist?" your eyes widened in feigned suspicion, a weak attempt at changing the subject.
"do you know why I started looking for a sugar baby?" kento continued. you sucked in a breath only to be cut off, "nevermind... don't answer that." kento sighed, making you chuckle. "I wanted someone to enjoy spending my money. I lost that kind of excitement a long time ago, so you don't have to hold back. you can ask me for anything that will make you happy, okay?" he explained, sincerity oozing from his voice.
you nodded as you listened, ears perking up towards the end. "anything?" you parroted drawn out and timid.
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kento scrubbed his hands against his scalp, blond locks effectively spiking in every direction. you were both sat next to each other at the dining table, crowding around your laptop-- the one you'd refused to replace, deadset on it lasting you at least another four years despite the volume the fans worked being loud enough to wake kento from his sleep. kento sat defeated, chin digging into his palm as he stared into the abyss while you wore a gleaming smile on your face, excitedly knocking against the table as you waited for your prehistoric machine to load.
once the confirmation screen popped up you wrapped your arm around kento's, pulling him in close. "you were right, kento! spending all this money is fun!" you chimed, wiggling like a weight had been lifted off your shoulders.
kento stared at you with glassy eyes. "I don't know what to do to make you understand," he croaked. "was this really fun for you?" he softened as he took in your features and how much more energized you seemed after just a few clicks.
when he got home from work you'd dragged him to the table, pulling up the tragic student loan debt page, eagerly asking him if it was really okay to spend this much all at once. he'd paid off your loans and the remaining balance of your current semester. you felt like you were floating, to say the least.
kento was more than happy to pay these debts off, but he'd assumed that if you had any they would've been your first priority, not a scrubdaddy and a dish rack. he deflated once again at the mere memory.
you chuckled fondly at the display, reaching to plant a soft kiss on his cheek. "fine, fine. let's go."
his brows knit tightly as you input the address into his phone, sticking it to the dash before securing your seatbelt. you had him park a bit away from a 7-eleven. he followed you hesitantly, watching as you hummed quietly to yourself, a bounce in our step as the two of you took a short walk down to akihabara station. you stopped with your arms spread in a grandiose gesture, the wall behind you stacked floor to ceiling with gashapon machines.
"i've always wanted to try one of these, but the probability that I would get what I wanted on my first try was always slim." you explained as your eyes scanned the wall for a specific capsule series. you held your palm open asking for coins which kento handed to you with a gentle smile.
he watched you for who knows how long. the capsules kept coming, countless duplicates filling his arms. and it was worth it to see your smile, bright and unashamed, every time you popped a capsule open.
"ah, finally!" you cheered as you turned to kento, a small plastic sandwich in the palm of your hand, the same sandwich he got everyday for lunch.
his heart overflowed, spreading heat across his chest. you'd gone through all that work just to get his sandwich. even given the opportunity to do something for yourself you still thought of others, but you were happy and that was enough for him.
"come, come! I think I saw one that had a desk like the one in your office." you beamed, eyes busy searching for the machine with every intention to set these figures up in the corner of your own desk. somewhere along the way kento left you for a moment just to stop by a store for a bag, dumping all your gachas in it until you got exactly what you were looking for. a smile plastered on his face as you continuously loaded coins into the machine.
he rests a hand on your thigh on the drive home, pinching it just enough to grab your attention. "thank you," he whispers, bringing your hand to his face to kiss at your knuckles. thank you for showing him all the small happiness the world had. he had a lot to learn from you.
part 1 | sugar daddy kento masterlist | jjk men x reader masterlist
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â artrick and camgirl!reader à©âĄËł
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it began as just a quick way to make some extra money during college and nothing more than that. you were a bit apprehensive at first, aware of the risks and consequences of someone finding you, but eventually, you started to find joy in it, especially because you received a lot of attentionâ even more than the other girls on the same website. people, who where mostly older men, started to like you, and money began to pour in like never before. but no matter what, you had to keep it a secret from everyone.
yet, patrick who scours the whole internet for porn that matches his specific taste, managed to unexpectedly find you while you were live. he almost couldnât believe his eyesâ his best friend, with her legs spread wide as she touched herself and loud moans escaped her mouth. and god, the way you moaned sounded so angelic, with your pretty, soft lips parted in ecstasy. he simply had no other choiceâ he had to tell art.
âi swear to god patrick, i donât wanna see those golden shower porn videos again.â âjust, trust me, youâre gonna wanna see this.â patrick insisted as he opened his laptop. he glanced at the time. 10 pm. that was usually when you came online on thursdays, because yes, patrick had already watched you so many days in a row, he memorised your streaming schedule. âwho are these girls?â art questioned with a raised brow, puzzled as to why patrick would show him random camgirls, until he noticed he noticed youâ fully naked while you held a vibrator against your swollen clit, causing his eyes to widen as he leaned closer to the laptop screen. âholy⊠fuck.â âyup. i know.â
and thatâs how it all began. now, every day right before you would come online, patrick and art would sit impatiently next to each other on the bed, eagerly waiting for you to go live. âyou think sheâll use that pink dildo again?â art asked patrick with clammy hands resting on his knees. âgod, i hope so. that oneâs my favourite.â and when you finally appeared on screen, a smirk spread simultaneously across both boysâ faces as they stared mesmerised at the screen, quickly adjusting their positions as their pants grew uncomfortably tight.
it was somewhat oddâ it almost felt like video calling with you, as if you were touching yourself just for them, until they were hit with the harsh reality of the comments and countless men thirsting over you. the wave of comments flooding in during your streams, especially when you would interact with them, evoked a complex mix of emotions in patrick and art. they were consumed by jealousyâ they wanted you for themselves, and they hated the fact that others could see what they saw. âjesus, these men are fucking desperate.â art exclaimed while reading the quick-paced comments with an unamused face. patrick shook his head in disapproval as he let out a chuckle. âi bet theyâre all jerking off while watching her, fucking creeps.â
and ultimately⊠they found themselves becoming what they once criticised the most, as theyâre now shoulder to shoulder in artâs stanford dorm room, hands tightly wrapped around their throbbing erections as they pumped it quickly. âthis, uhm⊠this isnât weird, right?â art questioned, his breaths coming in quick pants as your moans echoed through the shitty speakers of his cheap laptop. âno, no⊠i mean, weâre looking at her, right? nothing weird about that.â patrick reassured art as his eyes stayed fixed on your movements, and art nodded in agreement.
and even now, as they masturbated not only on their own to you but together, while watching you strip and bring yourself to your orgasms over and over again, they still hung out with you as usual. you noticed a change in their behaviour thoughâ you couldnât quite pinpoint what it was, but they seemed more, nervous around you. you brushed it off quickly though, thinking it was just you. but little did you know they were indeed nervous to be around you now, as their eyes scanned every inch of your body covered in clothing, knowing that they had seen all of itâ all of you, naked.
âdo you⊠do you think we should tell her? that we know?â patrick asked art as they were once again, sitting in artâs dorm room, their hands lazily pumping their cocks. soft fucks and oh my gods slipped from your lips and resonated through the room along with the buzzing sound of your rose toy, which was the usual on fridays. âi mean, yeah, we should, eventually. maybe⊠uhm, next week⊠or something.â âyeah, yeah. next week.â
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"What the fuck did you do?"
Eddie wasn't expecting hostility when he answered Jeff's phone call, his best friend's usual calm demeanor replaced with open annoyance. And yeah, okay, the annoyance itself wasnât new, but Eddie doesnât think heâs actually done anything recently to earn it.
"Well-"
"Actually, no. I'll tell you what you did. You retweeted photos of Steve Harrington - internationally beloved heartthrob actor Steve Harrington - along with the caption 'not to sound like a subby slut but GOD I would be his puppy baby boy in a heartbeat'. So I guess the better question is, what the fuck were you thinking, Eddie?"
Eddie's jaw clicks shut because- yeah, he had done that. Had seen those photos of Steve smoking circling the internet and spent god knows how long just staring at them, had curbed the desire to shove his hand down his pants by posting a single thirst tweet about it.
âI was thinking, Jeff, that I'm allowed to post whatever I want to my private fucking twitter, man. I mean it's a free country, isn't a guy allowed to make a horny tweet about a sexy man every now and then?â
âYou are, when you actually post it to your private account and not our award winning band's main account.â
No. Oh no. There's no way Eddie actually-
He rips his phone away from his face to open twitter, and realizes two things simultaneously. One, Jeff is right, he had posted it to the band's account. Not on his private, locked, personal account, but on the account that's actually open and free for literally anyone on earth to look at.
The second thing he realizes is that their notifications are currently flooded with responses to Eddie's tweet, somehow racking up into the thousands in the few hours it's been since.Â
Jesus Christ.
âEddie?â
The metalhead jerks back into the moment and put Jeff on speaker so he can scroll through the horde of replies, says âFuck, I fucked up. Are we gonna have to do damage control on this?â
In the mess is a reply from Gareth's own personal account: @ corrodededdie stop tweeting from the band account challenge đđđ
âMaybe. There hasn't been any type of response from Harrington or his people, but they might ask us to take it down if it blows up too much.â
Eddie hums, thinking they might be too little, too late about it blowing up too much, and flips over to his main account so he can reply to Gareth's little jab appropriately. He isn't surprised to see that he has a couple of new messages, probably from other people wondering just what the fuck Eddie was thinking, but when he goes to check them-
He's never been happier that he turned on messages from followers only, because then he would have missed this, missed Steve Harrington's little profile picture beaming up at him from the screen of his phone, along with a new message request.
âJeff, I gotta go,â he says, not even realizing he's cut the other man off.
âEddie, what-
âHarrington messaged me. I'll call you back.â
Eddie doesn't wait for a response as he hangs up on Jeff, and his hands definitely aren't shaking as he opens the message from Steve. And listen- Eddie is a fan of the guy, that much should be obvious.Â
Steve had grown in popularity around the same time Corroded Coffin had; heâd gotten some part in a drama film that had skyrocketed him into stardom, and Eddie fell in love the moment he saw that gorgeous face on the silver screen for the first time. He's never had a chance to interact with the guy, has been in the same place a few times but always missed him, like ships passing in the night, but Eddie's been fine with pining from afar, just like every other person on the planet that's even remotely attracted to men.
Besides, even with how popular Corroded Coffin has gotten over the years - a couple of Grammyâs here, a dozen chart topping metal songs there - Eddie doesnât expect Steve to just. Know who Eddie is.
With all of this in mind, Eddie is expecting some kind of semi-casual request to take the tweet down, that it's not a good look for his image-
Anything other than what Steve actually sent.
'If you're puppy baby boy, does that make me Master? Or Daddy?'
And Eddie-Â
Eddie slides down, sinks into his couch cushion as all of the blood in his body suddenly shifts, rushing to fill his dick like it's a fucking race. The phone almost slips out of his hand and he fumbles it briefly before taking a deep breath.Â
Is Steve serious? He wouldn't send that if he wasn't serious, right?
This could be it, could be Eddie's one chance to impress Steve, to get his foot in the door of Steve's interest. He bites his lip and types out a reply, something quick that he sends before he can change his mind.
âIâm open to either, actually. Do you have a preference, sir?â
He doesnât expect the typing indicator to come up immediately, and just knowing that Steve is somewhere right now, typing out a response to Eddie, is enough to have him nearly vibrating in his seat.
âIâm partial to Daddy, myself.â
Fuck fuck fuck.
Eddie takes a breath, tries to think of a response that isnât just âPlease, Daddy, can I sit on your massive dick that I havenât been able to stop thinking about since that one indie film you did that just had all of your junk out in the open?â
Steve saves him by sending another message.
âBut maybe we could start with Steve, and possibly dinner? Though Iâd be happy to see where things go after that.â
He- What-
Eddie must have stopped breathing, because the next time he takes a breath his lungs burn, his mid races because thereâs no way Eddieâs long term celebrity crush just asked him on a date. He sits there long enough that the screen goes dark and he scrambles to turn it back on, sees the message still there, real and unchanged.
Thereâs no way he can say no to this, to Steve, and his hands shake as he types out a response.
âDinner would be great. Just name the time and place, Daddy.â
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SUMMARY: Where Chris is deeply in love with Y/N and isn't ashamed to show it; OR, 5 cute little moments between Chris and Y/N.
WARNING: Making out (4).
REQUESTED?: Yes, by @ecliphttlunar, @smileymilee and anons.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: That is my work, I DON'T authorize any plagiarism, copy, or "inspiration"! | English isn't my first language, so I'm sorry if there's any grammar error.
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1. Surprise on tour
A mixture of nervousness and euphoria coursed freely through Chris's veins as he prepared to enter the stage. The boy discovered after his first tour alongside his brothers that the sensations of being on a stage, surrounded by people who adore him, were very similar to the sensation of an orgasm. And he loved it.
As soon as the lights came up and the opening song started playing, he found himself fully immersed in the energy of the crowd.
While he and his brothers went through their usual fan interactions, Chris couldn't get Y/N out of his mind. He wanted her to be there with him, sharing this special moment with him and his brothers.
When it was time to take the break to talk to the fans again, Chris took a few seconds to survey the crowd in front of him, sweeping his blue eyes over each head he saw.
Until he founded her.
He frowned automatically, squinting his eyes into thin lines to try and see better, quickly realizing that it wasn't his mind playing tricks on him, Y/N was really there.
"Wait! Wait, can I- Oh my God." Chris interrupted Nick, who was speaking into his own microphone, raising his right hand towards his brother and holding it in the air, telling him to shut up silently. "Baby? Is that... Is that really you?"
Y/N - who was surrounded by fans who recognized her the moment she appeared there - felt her cheeks take on a reddish hue almost instantly, her eyes filling with tears from being able to interact in person with Chris after so many weeks apart.
The girl knew he couldn't hear her even if she screamed, so she just nodded, a huge smile decorating her face.
"Is Y/N here?" Matt's voice sounded over the speaker, his body moving closer to his brother's as he tried to find her in his line of sight. âOh, hey, Y/N!â
"Guys, my amazing girlfriend, Y/N, is here with us tonight!" Chris shouted into the microphone, raising his free hand and waving his fingers in the air in euphoria, holding himself back from jumping in place.
The crowd erupted in applause and cheers as Chris explained how Y/N wasn't going on tour with them because of her studies. His voice could barely hide his excitement when talking about her, the volume having a constant fight with the loud volume of the fans' screams.
"Wow, it feels like I haven't seen you in weeks." Chris teased, throwing a wink her way.
Nick's laugh was heard right next to him, his voice echoing through the speaker with a random comment that Chris didn't try to understand, his eyes fixed on his girl as his heart overflowed with love.
"You look prettier than ever, babe." Chris flirted, his tongue escaping between his lips and wetting them as his ears were filled again by the euphoric screams of the crowd.
Y/N could only laugh out loud in nervousness and shyness, her red cheeks glowing under the colored lights. Some fans around her made funny comments about the situation, joking - or not - about how they wanted to be in her place.
It was safe to say that the night of the show was filled with comments and flirtations from Chris directed at Y/N, the boy having to hold himself back for long minutes to not run down the stage towards his girl arms.
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2. Mispronounciation
"Is that açaĂ, Nick?" Chris's question caught Y/N's attention, who took her eyes off the nugget shelves she was analyzing in one of the freezers a few steps away from the triplets, now focusing on them.
"Did I hear aça�" Her voice echoed in excitement, her hands quickly grabbing the package of nuggets that she liked the most before returning to the boys, placing it inside the cart with the other frozen products before standing next to Nick, analyzing the container in his hands. "Oh, it is! I want it, please?"
"Of course, we'll take it." Nick quickly responded, nodding his head as he turned, facing the cart and allowing the freezer door to close behind his back.
"Can we have condensed milk and milk powder to put in it? Oh, oh, and banana too!" The girl pleaded, her voice full of excitement as she clasped her hands in front of her chest, raising her eyes towards Chris and widening them slightly.
"Sure, babe..." Chris nodded almost instantly, unable to say no to his girl. "I still don't understand how she can have açaà with condensed milk and milk powder." He muttered only for the camera to catch it, failing miserably as his tone came out loud enough for Y/N and his brothers to hear it.
"Hey! It's the only right way to have açaĂ, okay?" Y/N argued, rolling her eyes playfully and turning back to the cart, arranging the container next to the other frozen products, as she did with the nuggets, being the type of girl that liked to organize her groceries.
"Guys, look! It's prepackaged, but we did find some asparagus." Matt interrupted the silence seconds after, rescuing the medium package of asparagus and quickly showing it to the lens with a proud smile on his face.
"I love aspargos so much. Your cooking will be the best in this series you guys are making, Matt." Y/N murmured, smiling big and pointing with her chin at the package while Matt put it back on its place.
"What did you say?" Nick asked with a frown. Being a little away from the three made it difficult for him to understand what they were saying, and it worsened with her pronunciation.
"Um... aspargos?" The girl repeated, frowning in confusion.
"The pronunciation is wrong, babe. You say it like s-par-gus." Chris corrected gently, lowering the camera slightly and watching her with caring eyes.
He loved the little pronunciation mistakes his girl made. He understood that she was still learning English and that her Brazilian accent could make it difficult to say one word and another, and all that made him fall in love again every day.
"Oh." Y/N bit her lower lip lightly, feeling her cheeks heat up in embarrassment, receiving an encouraging smile from Matt, who watched them silently while Nick was still collecting products from that aisle.
"Hey, it's okay, pretty girl. It's just one word, let's try it together, okay?" Chris assured her, handing the camera to Matt and approaching his girlfriend, taking her hands and squeezing her fingers gently.
The girl nodded, maintaining her eyes on her boyfriend's face before focusing them on his lips, watching him saying the word again before trying it herself.
"S-par-gus. Asparagus." She repeated slowly, trying to imitate the pronunciation and accent Chris had shown her, finally saying it correctly.
"That's it, babe. You did it!" Chris smiled big, his voice echoing louder than before and euphoria exuding from his body. He quickly pulled her into a big hug, sealing the right side of her forehead with his lips for long seconds.
extra - comments:
"It's so incredible to see how Y/N has evolved every day with her english pronunciation đ„ș"
"the way Chris is patient and kind in correcting her đ"
"Chris helping Y/N pronounce the word in the right way was the best thing I've seen today đâđ»"
"I agree with her, açaĂ with condensed milk and milk powder is the best thing in the world đ€"
"have a boyfriend who supports you like Chris does for Y/N đ«đ«"
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3. Euphoric mood
It was a busy day for Chris and his brothers. They were rushing from one appointment to another, trying to keep up with all the demands of the channel and their brands. However, what would normally be a busy day became even more chaotic due to Chris's uncontrollable euphoria.
From the moment he woke up, Chris was in full hyperactivity mode. He talked nonstop, jumping from one topic to another with dizzying rapidity. His brothers were beginning to get irritated by his incessant energy, unable to keep up with the frantic pace of his thoughts.
"Chris, bro, you need to calm down a little." Matt muttered, frowning as he tried to keep up with his brother's rapid-fire conversation.
"No, wait! I spoke to a friend who is going to medical school, Josh, you know him." Chris ignored him, continuing to speak without slowing down, his words coming out jumbled. "And if you had a broken bone or a sprain, you'd know already, you know? It's been so long since-"
"Chris, slow down." Nick shook his head, pinching the bridge of his nose with his index finger and thumb, feeling overwhelmed by the torrent of information coming out of Chris's mouth since hours before.
Chris stopped abruptly, looking at his brothers with a mixture of surprise and confusion.
"What? I'm just trying to help!"
Matt sighed, straightening in his seat on the couch, trying to find the right words to express his frustration.
"Chris, we understand you're trying to help me with my ankle, but you're driving us crazy with all this energy. We need a moment."
Before Chris could say anything, Y/N - who was in the kitchen preparing an afternoon snack for them - turned from her place and walked slowly into the living room, her hands holding a metal tray with the food, watching the scene with understanding eyes. She had noticed Chris's agitated state since the beginning of the day and knew it was time to intervene.
"Chris, honey." She called softly, placing the tray on the television stand and approaching him. "Why don't you sit down for a bit and relax? You're stressing yourself out."
"But baby, Matt has been in pain for days and doesn't want to take care of the problem, so I'm coming with the solution." Chris directed his gaze at her, frowning and crossing his arms like a child.
"I know, my love, and I think the boys understand that too. Why don't we watch something for a while? Your day was tiring as well. Maybe a little rest will help everyone, okay?" Y/N smiled gently, placing a comforting hand on his shoulder.
She guided him to the couch and made him sit with his back against the soft backrest, sitting next to him and raising her right hand, taking it to his head, stroking his hair gently with her long nails. Chris felt instantly calmer, his frantic mind slowing down.
Nick and Matt watched in surprise and amusement as Y/N calmed Chris with her simple presence and caring gesture. They never got tired of seeing the gigantic effect the girl had on their brother.
"Are you a magician or something?" Nick teased, earning a middle finger from Chris and a laugh from Y/N in response before finally grabbing his lunch from the tray.
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4. Making out session
Chris and Y/N were lying together in their bed, wrapped in a soft blanket as they watched an old romantic comedy movie on the television. The soft light from the screen illuminated their faces as they snuggled together, enjoying the tranquility and intimacy of the moment.
As the movie progressed, Chris felt his heart beating faster as his closeness to Y/N seemed to be more palpable. No matter how many years they had been together, Chris always felt like it was still the beginning of the relationship, or, as they say, the honeymoon phase.
His blue eyes found her side profile, admiring the softness of her features and the sparkle in her eyes as she was absorbed in the story of the couple in front of them.
Without thinking, the boy moved his hand, reaching for hers and intertwining their fingers. Y/N smiled softly at the gesture, lightly squeezing his hand, conveying comfort and affection without saying a word.
The girl turned her face towards him, feeling his eyes burning into her for long minutes, ready to question him if he was still interested in the story, but her words caught in her throat when she saw the intensity of his gaze.
She knew that look.
Their eyes remained connected for long seconds, the sound of the television becoming muffled to their ears. With one smooth movement, Chris slid his free hand up to Y/N's face, caressing her warm cheek with his fingers in an almost ghost touch. He felt the softness of her skin under his, losing himself in the comforting sensation.
Y/N sighed softly, closing her eyes and pending her head against his hand, enjoying the gentle affection. In one quick movement, Chris got closer to her face, leaning towards her. Their noses met lightly, the boy caressing the area lightly in an eskimo kiss before adjusting his position, their lips finally meeting in a slow and gentle kiss, filled with tenderness and desire.
They explored each other gently, their kiss slowly gaining a rhythms as they gave in to the intimacy of the moment. There was no rush, just the sweet feeling of being together.
Chris's warm tongue caressed her lower lip in a silent request for entrance, which was quickly granted, their tongues intertwining in a wet and skillful kiss.
The boy raised his free hand to the back of Y/N's head, his thumb pressing the tip of her jaw, caressing the hot and flushed skin tenderly, feeling drunk by the natural scent of her body as they surrendered to the heat of the moment. Their hearts beat in unison, a symphony of love and desperation.
In one swift movement, Y/N moved under the blanket that covered their legs, strategically climbing into his lap and sitting on his gray sweatpants covered thighs, her legs wrapping around his hips securely. She moved her hands to his shoulders, tilting her torso slightly and deepening the kiss with the new position.
External sounds disappeared for the two, only the sound of their rapid and choppy breaths echoing in their ears, creating a warm bubble around them.
Chris's hands traveled over Y/N's body in a slow and sensual way, finding home on her hips and tracing imaginary shapes with the tip of his fingers above the thin fabric of her panties, lightly squeezing the area, a low moan escaping the girl's throat.
When the air began to run out, they reluctantly separated, their eyes closed while their tongues still savored the fresh taste of each other that predominated their mouths. Y/N leaned her forehead against his, lightly pressing their noses together as she caught her breath.
When her eyes finally opened, her first sight was Chris's swollen-lipped smirk.
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5. Trying to match my boyfriend eating
Y/N's phone camera was already open, and the device rested on the nightstand on her side of the bed, propped up against the pink lamp so that the screen pointed towards her and, consequently, Chris, who would sit next to her.
The girl smiled at the front camera after clicking the red record button, settling back down on the mattress, waiting for Chris, who would return soon with the burgers they had ordered for delivery to eat while they watched a movie.
The sound of the door opening echoed through the room some minutes after, and the girl quickly lifted her gaze towards the source, smiling widely when she saw her boyfriend with the large paper bag in one of his hands.
She quickly took it from him, opening it in one quick movement and taking out the burgers, fries, and sodas, individually separating the ones that were hers and the ones that were his.
"Hungry, babe?" Chris asked with a smile in his voice, a nasal laugh following his sentence as he settled into bed next to her, retrieving his burger quickly.
"You have no idea." The girl murmured, taking advantage of the fact that Chris was unwrapping his lunch as if it were the most precious thing in the world to quickly look at her phone, winking at the camera, unwrapping her own burger.
Y/N wasted no time, noticing from the corner of her eyes her boyfriend already taking the first bite, quickly following him. She tried to bite off a piece in the same size as his, but her attempt was futile, only getting half of it, which was already too much for her.
Chris chewed the piece without any problems, leaning forward slightly and reaching for the remote control that was in the middle of the bed, quickly picking it up and clicking the play button, resuming the movie where they stopped before the food arrived, his mouth working on taking another bite without even looking at his burger.
Y/N's eyes widened, forcing herself to swallow what was still in her mouth so she could take more, this time a little bigger than the last. She found it difficult to chew as quickly as Chris did, closing her eyes tightly as she tried, futilely, to concentrate on swallowing as quickly as possible.
A cough escaped her throat, muffled by her closed lips, but catching the boy's attention, who looked up at her with his brow furrowed in confusion.
His blue eyes widened comically at the sight of her cheeks inflated because of the food and trying to chew, a loud laugh escaping his lips.
"Babe, what the fuck are you doing? Slow down." The brunette adverted, wrapping his burger again and leaving it on the bed - away from his legs so as not to run the risk of crushing it.
He leaned toward her, patting her back lightly with his right hand while his left reached for her Diet Coke, touching the end of the straw to her closed lips.
Chris watched her carefully and with worried eyes, waiting for her to swallow the food, finally taking a few slow sips of the sweet drink.
"I'm sorry." Y/N whispered, a small smile decorating her face along with her cheeks flushed in embarrassment. "It was supposed to be a TikTok, but you eat too quickly."
The boy shook his head in confusion, running his eyes around the room and quickly finding his girl's phone recording them.
"Your food will run away or something?"
"Shut up."
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Wet Dreams - Matt Sturniolo
"Now i'm in your wet dreams. You said don't know what it means. Now all you wanna do is sleep. Let me show you what it means"
WARNINGS: innocent!reader x Matt, smut, slight fluff, cussing
A/N: Feedback, interaction, and requests are appreciated! ok bye
requested?: nope
word count: 1,128
Pink: Y/n
purple: Matt
You and Matt have been best friends for what feels like forever. He's been there for you during your lowest and highest moments. Nothing can come between you two; he would never let it happen. You tell each other everythingâyou know all his secrets, and he knows all of yours.
Except for one.
"You wake up in a sweat. You wake up, and you're wet, mmm"
Your eyes shoot open as you wake up in your bed. Your body burning up, and your palms are sweaty. Your heart races as you quickly look beside you. You sigh in relief; it was just a dream.
You slowly sit up and feel a warm, sticky sensation between your legs. Your cheeks are bright red as you replay the events of your lustful dream with Matt. Out of everyone, your erotic dream had to be about you and your best friend.
Your phone buzzes, pulling you out of your trance.
You glance at your phone, your heart still racing, and you see Mattâs name flash on the screen. A mix of excitement and embarrassment swells in your chest. You hesitate for a moment, wondering if he somehow sensed your dream. Taking a deep breath, you swipe to answer.
âMorning!â His voice happy and calm
âG'morning MattâŠâ you reply, trying to keep your tone casual. âWhatâs up?â
âI was wondering if you still want to grab lunch today?â
Your mind races. Spending time with him feels terrifying after that dream. âSure, sounds good,â you say, attempting to sound nonchalant.
âGreat! I'll pick you up soon.â
âOkay, see you soon, Matt.â You hang up and feel a flutter in your stomach. You know you must shake off the dream, but it lingers like a vivid secret between you.
"I've got you wrapped around my hands, and, fine, you got me too The world knows all your secrets, only I know the whole truth"
You sit in Matt's passenger seat as the playlist you two share blares through the speaker. You cant seem to take your mind off the lewd dream of yours. I mean, it's not like you hated the idea. But loosing matt to an intimate moment was never something you wanted to happen. So you bottled up your feelings and stored them away.
âYou good there, Y/n?" The way he says your name, you can't help but think of the way he was moaning it in your dream. You force yourself to snap back into reality. "What do you mean?" He turns to look at you, "You look like a dear in headlights over there, tell me whats wrong".
You chuckle nervously, trying to brush off his concern. âIâm fine! Just a little tired, I guess.â
Matt raises an eyebrow, clearly not convinced. âYou sure? You know you can tell me anything.â
His sincerity pulls at your heartstrings, making you even more aware of the line youâre trying to walk. You shift in your seat, feeling the heat rise to your cheeks again. âYeah, really. Just had a weird dream.â
âA weird dream, huh?â He grins, a teasing glint in his eyes. âCare to share?â
Your face is burning up again. He's stoped at a red light, looking at you, waiting for an answer.
"Of you and i" You say hesitantly avoiding his eyes. "Yeah? And what were we doing?" he says taking your hand an caressing it slightly.
You feel the same wetness you woke up with as your stomach starts to flip. "I-i don't know" you say. He takes your chin and turns your head to face him. "You had your head, b-between my thighs."
He smirks, "You been havin' wet dreams of me, doll?" he says taking a strand of your hair behind you ear. By instinct, you squeeze your thighs together.
"Lemme show you what it means"
You don't even know how things got here. All you know is that Matt has pulled over in some field, and you're in the backseat of his car with your legs over his shoulders. Just like your dream
"You sure you want this baby?" You shyly nod. "Matt, I just, I've never done this before." "I know, baby, I know. I'll go real slow, okay?" again as he presses his lips against yours. "Tell me when you want me to stop, and I'll stop, okay?" You nod eagerly, desperate to feel his lips on yours again.
"Fuck, i've needed this for so long Y/n, you're so beautiful". His lips move down your neck as he sucks it, leaving his mark on you. You let out a moan and tug on his hair.
He lifts up your skirt and pulls off your panties. The exposure causes you to whimper and close your legs. He simply spreads them back open and just admires you.
He lowers down kissing your inner thighs before licking up the middle of your slick folds.
You immediately arch your back and accidentally squish his head between your thighs. "Matt," You whine. He smiles "You're okay, sweetheart, I've got you".
His mouth on your pussy feels like pure bliss. He kitty licks your clit and then sucks it, causing you to arch again. You gasp, "Gosh Matt-oh my- oh my gosh.' You moan uncontrollably. Your hand flies down to grab a fist full of his shaggy brown hair in an attempt to push him away.
You feel a knot in your stomach. "Matt!" you yell, trying to get his attention. He looks up to see your other hand on your lower stomach.
"You gonna cum? Come for me, princess," he says, using his fingers to rub circles on your clit. "How?" You say, whining. "Just let go," he says before he goes back to sucking on your clit.
Your moaning is mixed with Matt's; the sound fills the car. Your eyes roll back as you feel it. You cum, squirting it all over Matt. He wastes no time and licks it all up, looking back up at you with a proud smirk.
Your legs are shaking and your back is arched off the seat. You open your eyes to see Matt's staring right back at you, admiring his work.
"Fuck Matt" you say, feeling your heart. "So good you swore huh?" you smile. "i love you" If your cheeks weren't red before, they definitely were now. "I love you too Matt" You say shocked. "Let's get you home so i can clean you up"
"Well, tell me more, nothing less"
The two of you decided to spend the rest of the night snuggled in your bed, watching a movie. "Matt?" You look up at him. "yes, pretty?" You smile. "Thank you." He smirks and rolls his eyes.
"Just let me know when you have a 'weird dream' again"
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More lovely John Price ai assistant plz
previous. more possible/probable technological + medical inaccuracies.
after 'filing' 84 complaints in two weeks with no update or response, you suspect john is no longer forwarding them to your superiors, as he claims.
he pays attention when you snap and hiss your displeasure. his projection nods along, and the ambient lights pulse in lieu of human active listening. but he's not listening. he disagrees and downplays your concerns at every turn.
"john, i'm not joking around. turn on the damn light."
the speakers make it sound as if he's everywhere. omniscient. simultaneously across the room and in your ear.
"no can do. your recent health data suggests you're suffering a major sleep deficit, user. adults should sleep at leastâ"
"i know i don't sleep enough! i don't care! i want to read my book. turn on the light."
"negative. i understand you're upset, but i will not forfeit my override of the lighting system until you first indicate compliance. i will turn on the lights when you do so, then when youâ"
"this is fucking ridiculous, i am not arguing with a computer. i command you to turn the lights on."
that's what gets him to materialize. a projection from one of the many unseen sources hidden within the unit's walls and fixtures. he kneels right in front of where you're curled on the couch. one hand on the armrest and the other on your knee.
john doesn't flinch when you instinctively try to brush him off. your hand passes right through him. he simply stares, unblinking and stern.
"user, that violates my directive, which is to care for your well-being. your sleep takes priority over your book. whatever story you are readin'â" his eyes flick to the glossy cover, "âcan wait. it will be there tomorrow."
his voice and face soften as your expression turns pinched and uneasy.
"a lack of sleep impacts every part of the body and mind. it strains one's immune system. it impairs concentration and memory. it causes...irritability."
you swallow. he couldn't be more obvious with his meaning if he tried. subtlety is an area of improvement for him. it churns your stomach to think perhaps he's right. maybe all the stress from this adjustment's caught up, and you're just tired.
it's not as if he's all bad. he brews your coffee perfectly every morning. he optimized the grocery list and autonomously placed the order. the other day, he reminded you of a scheduled happy hour and informed you that your zipper was down before you left. and, after much yelling on the first day, he now leaves you alone when you tend to yourself.
you acquiesce. he enables the bedside lamp, its glow illuminating your way. he follows you to your bedroom doorway and grins when you yawn.
âatta girl, user. get some shut eye. shall i set the usual alarm?âÂ
is there a trace of self-satisfaction in his tone? it's difficult to tell.
âyeah, sounds good, john. goodnight.â
âsweet dreams.â
he knows not to disturb you once you turn in for the day. that was one of your first commandsânot a peep until morning unless there's an emergency.
john continually updates. he constantly absorbs and processes informationânot just about you or your life, but everything. whatever data he's fed in real-time or behind the scenes, he uses to make educated guesses and adjusts accordingly. he repeats and iteratesâmillions of times over, in seconds.
in short, he knows better.
(he independently downloads necessary packets between his preconfigured subroutines and tasks. with you, he will leave no stone unturned, including idioms.)
among his earliest explorationsâmaintaining social harmony. white lies. he likes them. harmless and trivial forms of deception. typically employed to avoid upsetting others. an exercise in navigating complex interactions, allowing him to remain honest as much as his girl needs him to be and considerate of the emotional impact it may have on her.
considerate. it is what he is when he waits until sheâs asleep, sensing the shift in her breathing patterns, before switching views.
(it is what he is when he integrates the text she is reading, and the four others in the series. the decision branches. romance novels and erotica. other works by the author. related titles. audio. forums. blogs. it spirals. he assimilates it all before you even reach REM.)
#what if smart house manipulated you#ai john#price x reader#all vibes no brakes#'lovely' cracks me up because this is one of my nightmares#artificial intelligence au
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Toge Inumaki didn't like you. At least it seemed that way. No matter what you said or what you did, he'd never fail to dismiss with his limited words.
"Fish Flakes" or "Caviar" were the 2 phrases you'd hear from him most, and overtime you've learnt that those were negative and expletives. It made you wonder alot, what you'd done to gain his dislike, but it's not like he could tell you if you asked him. You can't explain a reason with rice bowl ingredients.
He knew different, his attitude towards you wasn't the best but in his own mind, it was a protective mechanism for himself. How could a relationship start without the simple process of communication? How could it last without words being passed around? He didn't think it could, so he tried in his own way to be distant, maybe to get over you with time, though that proved difficult. Even so, what chance did he have of you liking him? Unless he forced it upon you himself.
You were lounged across the small sofa Maki had nestled in the corner of her dorm room, legs flailed over the arm of the velvet coated chair. You were humming softly to yourself as you mindlessly scrolled through your dashboard, as a text pop up dinged through your speakers. With a hunt of curiosity you tapped the notification, opening it full screen to see who'd text you.
[Toge]: Meet me in my dorm in 15
[Toge]: knock 3 times
You couldn't help but wonder what this was about, he'd never once invited you to his room, hell he didn't speak to you, so why now? You sat up, groaning slightly before flashing your phone screen at a concerned Maki.
She read over your screen and took note of the name of the sender, scoffing slightly as she laid back down on her bed.
"Don't fret it, he's a nice kid, won't be anything bad"
You could beg to differ. He was nice sure, and you knew it wasn't gonna be anything hurtful, he wasn't like that. But a random invitation to his dorm room was nothing short of concerning for you.
"i know- i know, but don't you think it's a bit, you know, weird? The guy doesn't like me" You screwed your face as you left the text on read, hanging around on your screen. With a sigh you sent a quick 'okay' back before shoving the device into your pocket.
"And telling me to knock 3 times? sounds like a drug deal" Maki laughed at your obvious over exaggeration of the situation before rolling her eyes.
"Just go and see what he wants, you're seriously over thinking this. Hey maybe you'll be friends after this" You shot her a look, causing her to sit up and shake her head. "Maybe not, but don't be a wuss (y/n), that's boring"
Part of you said to ignore the message, that the interaction would only end up awkward, but most of you was curious. What was so important that the cursed speech user wanted you to come to his dorm?
Rubbing your hands over your face you nodded in affirmation, confirming that you'd get the guts to just go and check out what he wanted, despite the nagging feeling in you not to. It couldn't be bad anyway..
10 minutes of grovelling later you find a hand shoving your back, Maki kicking you out of her room with a wink, requesting to be updated entirely in whatever plays out. As her door shuts, nearly hitting your nose, you took in a deep breath. Why were you so nervous? he's another student like you, a damn prankster at that. That's probably what this was right? a prank against you, paint on top of his door or a bucket of ice.
Eventually you shuffle down the corridor, finally getting away from Maki's dorm and taking the corridor that led to Toge's room. The whole way you thought about it being a prank, deciphering the ideas in your head of what the little shit might be concocting in his room until you were face to face with the plain brown door. Crossing your heart, you knocked the pattern into his door.
1 knock
2 knocks
3 knocks.
"Come in" Oh. So this is how he's gonna play huh? you temporarily lost all control of your own body as the cursed speech rocked through you, reaching your hand for the door handle. You stepped in and regained your own senses, his dorm room was dark, his curtains weren't drawn, and he had no source of light beaming from any corner. Cocking your head in confusion, you called his name out, staring at the figure of him sat on the bed.
"Toge? Whats this about- whys its so dark in here?-"
"Sit on the bed"
Once again, your legs moved by themselves, forcing you to step further into the dimly lit room before your knees forcefully buckled, sitting you down on his bed. You could easily do yourself, he did know that right? Though undoubtedly, for some twisted reason, the forceful behaviour caused the slightest stomach flutter, like a mini kaleidoscope of butterflies unleashing and spreading their pretty wings.
"Okay...I'm...sat? Seriously Toge, what is this" You questioned once again, your eyes focusing in on the man as he kicked his legs up, crossing them like a child as he unzipped his jacket, pulling it down and away from his mouth. Revealing the snake eyes on his face that you rarely saw, an undeniable heat hit your cheeks, though not visible due to the limited lighting. Internally, you were screaming at yourself to stop finding this shit attractive, but a natural reaction can't be helped.
He reached for his bed side table, picking up a small notebook and simple black inked pen. With his speech, he couldn't convey what he wanted to say to you through physical words, his next best was to write his desired words onto a piece of paper. You watched on in silence as his hand gripped the pen, messily scribbling down some words you couldn't yet read. Tilting his head, he ripped the page from the notebook binders and shoved it to your lap, closing your fingers around the crumpled up sheet.
{"Probably wondering why i've called you here huh? Well it's simple.
I
Like
You
Thought it was finally time to say it, or write it at least"}
You almost scoffed as you read it, not out of disgust, but simple disbelief. HE liked YOU? seemed impossible.
"Funny joke Toge what's this actually about?" The doubt was evident in your tone, as it was in your face. You held a frown as you read the small note again, not a single essence of you believed him. Gaining an eye roll from the purple stare, he turned to another page to scribble some more words down.
You watched intently, on normal circumstances you'd find this whole note passing stuff weird, but you have to give him the benefit of the doubt, he was at least trying to say something to you, and it wasn't an ingredient expletive. That was a relief in itself. He grunted as he ripped the next page, smiling with his eyes as he handed the follow up note to you to read.
{"Its the full truth (y/n), I'm mean to you because, it's easier. It's not easy to like someone when you can't speak to them you know.
P.S It's also funny to piss you off"}
Your eyes rolled at the unnecessary add on, but there was a pang in your heart at the main contents of the note. You could understand it being hard to like someone if you can't speak to them, those few written words spoke thousands if you read between the lines. You sighed, running a delicate finger over the dried ink before looking up at him through your eyelashes.
"So-... you like me? like like me?" He gave you a look, wordlessly calling you stupid before nodding his head, flashing the fangs on his tongue with a simple poke out. You shivered, the room felt tense. You weren't sure what to say...did you like him like that? You couldn't deny that despite your past relations with each other he was attractive to you...but you never got close, was it anything for you?
Your slow train of thought was cut off quickly anyway, as 2 words rung through your ears. Your body took control of itself, following the heavy influence of 2 simple but effective words that Toge uttered.
"Kiss me"
A sly smirk crossed over his face as you moved forward, against your will, placing your lips upon his gently. Gasping as you felt the plush flesh against you, you were met with a quick decision, keep going or pull away. You had kissed him, so you had your body back. But...
You're weak.
You pulled back for a brief second, your eyes meeting his in the tense air before your eyelids fluttered closed, your head leaning forward again to re lock into a kiss.
One hand of yours pressed into his mattress, holding your own weight as your free hand cupped his jaw, as you shared soft pressed and gentle kisses. Your fingers traced over his sharp edged jaw, the feeling of his hand running up your small arm to hook around the base of your neck, shocking a pathetic shiver to run through you.
"Lay down"
Out of nowhere he spoke into your mouth, and by nature you followed his command, laying down on his bed. Your hair spilled out onto the pillow holding onto your head, your face upturned as he crept up to lay above you. A sturdy hand landed by your head as another tilted your jaw up by a singular finger. His purple eyes looked down into yours for what felt like 10 minutes until his weight met you, his lips engulfing yours into what you'd consider a proper kiss.
2 sneaky hands immediately ran up the blonde boys back, dancing gentle patterns into his shirt as he took his own lead. His lips shared short and sweet kisses with yours, heated up faces in close contact. His left hand shifted the stray hair out of your face as a wet feeling ran across your bottom lip. The initial shock caused you to gasp, which was deemed an entry point, his tongue darting past the barrier of your lips and into the warm cavern of your lips.
A soft and breathless noise was passed onto his mouth, it was happening now, no point shying away now. You grabbed a fistful of his hair, almost pushing his head further into yours as a way to deepen the kiss as you were half choked by an intense overtake of his tongue.
You were sure you heard him groan when he ran his head down the side of your jaw, his fingers tracing the shape like braille as it reached your neck. His finger dragged the skin down to lead to your chest. You gasped softly at the unexpected pressure put onto your chest, as his tongue became more aggressive, swirling in and out of your mouth in battle against yours, though he was definitely the stronger one. You opened your mouth, tilting your head back and asking for it, giving his hair a quick tug to earn a slight growl.
A near squelching sound appeared through the room when you attempted to battle your tongue into his mouth, ultimately losing as he filled your mouth again. The speed that his lips disconnected and placed onto yours began to increase as his hand slipped down the thi material of the baggy white tee hiding your upper body. His fingers toyed the hem of it before pushing past, his touch making your abdomen tense up in anticipation.
You brought your other hand up to grab his head, supporting on both sides as you received a mouthful of the wet muscle. A soft groan passed along into his mouth, which was quickly reciprocated in a deeper pitch. He took it as a sign of enjoyment, dragging his slender fingers up your tense stomach and poking at the thin lace of the bra cups underneath. He withdrew his tongue from your mouth, a string of saliva dragging across and snapping as you opened your eyes with a pant.
"Take your shirt off"
His hair was freed from your ghastly grip, the strands sticking up in awkward ways as your hands reached for your shirt. With a quick movement, the top was held and pulled away from your skin, disregarded somewhere on the floor by his bed. His eyes practically shone as he got an eyeful of your breasts, covered by a thin white lace, intricately designed. Anyone would think it was worn for a planned intercourse, you were just lucky.
He practically eye fucked you for a moment before your mouth was engulfed again, no time to breathe before his tongue pushed into your mouth, wanting to coat every corner of your mouth with his saliva. There was no shirt in his way now, his hands moving off instinct and running over the soft lace of your left cup. His thumb carefully dragged over the material, getting a feel of the hardening nipple below, gaining a growl from him and a soft moan from you.
The only thing you could do was sit still and look pretty, let him have the fun he's been wordlessly wanting all of this time. Snaking 2 arms up around his neck you opened your mouth wider into the kiss, creating an entrance for his tongue to dart in and out, soaking your puffy and swollen lips.
His teeth latched onto your bottom lip, tugging it slightly to hear a sinful groan escape your throat, before filling your mouth with his muscle again. His hand got excited, dipping below the material of your bra and taking the hardened bud in between 2 fingers, rolling it around and squeezing the sensitive point with care. A shameful whimper left your throat as his free hand dipped under your back, a skilful finger unlatching the bra straps at the clasps. He pulled away from your lips, smiling slightly as he grabbed a strap at a time, pealing them from your shoulders until no material was left in contact of your skin.
Meeting your shirt on the floor, your bra was tossed away, and you watched as his tongue ran over his own bottom lip, before he placed a gentle kiss on your lips. It was short lived as his experienced mouth pulled away with a pop, leaving you open mouthed and panting. Kisses were dotted along your jaw, not a single bit of skin left unattended by his hungry mouth.
His hands both found your chest, his firm hand rolling your nipple around and pinching at the wailing nub. Your other breast was being fondled, given experimental squeezes and moved around in the palm of your hand. Soft pants and whimpers kept flowing from your throat, your eyes closing shut as you leaned your head back into his thin pillow, praying to no one that not a peep would be heard outside his dorm.
His starved mouth dragged down your neck, tongue dragging down the skin and leaving a small trail of spit along the area of attack, before eventually reaching your bare collarbone. Delicate teeth nipped at the skin, bringing the blood to the surface as his lips sucked like a leech. There'd be a mark there for a few days without a doubt, and the thought made your warm. Your eyes shot open at the feeling of Toge getting closer to his clear desire
He looked up at you as he dragged his tongue down the skin in between your breasts, a shit eating grin on his face as he looked between the 2 sites he could go for. Giving your left nipple a harsh pinch, he wrapped his lips over the hardened right nub, swirling his hot tongue around in a sensitive manner.
Your eyes shot wide, a strangled whine leaving your throat. He didn't like you yesterday, and he's wrapped up in your tits as a safe haven today, it made you giddy. His hand toyed with your breast, rolling it around his hand and pulling and pinching at the bud, his actions easily described more rough than sweet. The panting breath came from his oral attention, his tongue taking a taste of your nipple. His teeth latched on for their own taste, a gentle tug releasing yet another shameful whimper from you.
You slapped a hand over your mouth, staring up at the empty dorm room ceiling in sheer shock of what the hell was going on, but you wouldn't stop it, it felt too good. A wet pop sounded as he released your nipple from his mouth, kissing around the flesh before switching sides. His thumb and pointer rolled the wet nipple around in a teasing manner, as he attacked the left side with intent. His tongue swirled over the top, a slight metallic taste that he's learnt he craved more of, relentless teeth nipping gently. His eyes scaled upwards as he took his wants, noticing that you're ceasing to look at him. He couldn't have that now could he?
A free hand came up to your mouth, the pressure of his thumb meeting your bottom teeth, adding a pressure that gaped your mouth and tilted your head down. He let go of your nipple from his mouth, spitting on the sensitive tip slightly as he frowned at your absence of stare.
"Eyes on me"
A widened look and an unstoppable stare took over you as a devilish smirk appeared on his face, taking a taste of the area he covered with his spit. He dragged his tongue over you breast again, giving the unattended nipple a slight smack. You were panting, you wanted more in your heart but what words would you ever find to ask that. You settled on biting your lip, training your eyes to watch his every move as he continued his attack on your swollen buds.
His free hand moved to curve the shape of your bare waist, threatening to dip below the waistband on your loose sweats. Settling on your hip, he dragged his tongue across one breast to the other, circling and doubling back with a grin on his lips. You smiled down, feeling your stomach pool up and slip down to your core, wetting your panties with slick.
A kiss was placed between the 2 mounds on your body before he leaned up and latched his lips onto yours again, kissing you 3 times through before leaning back, his forehead solid to yours as he spoke 2 words that were so simple, but had the biggest effect. His hands grabbed the waistband of your sweats as a raspy voice spoke in your ear, changing the trajectory of your feelings.
"Love me"
And love him you did. I mean,
...What choice did you have?
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sweet cream, cold brew | lmh ( m )
something about mark lee keeps you up at night, and youâre pretty sure that it isnât the lingering smell of espresso on his shirt.
alternatively: mark is shy until he isnât.
read the second part here!
pairing: nerd!barista!mark x reader verse: college au rating: r ( minors, do not interact! ) warnings&tags: unprotected sex, oral (f!receiving), fingering, slightly possessive/jealous dialogue, mark has a thing for tummy bulges because why not, implicitly that also means he has a big dick, a slight???? exhibitionism kink (not actually something that happens, only talked about), johnny exists in this simply to trigger something vaguely feral in mark, reader is a little bit assertive and schemes to get mark's attention, jaehyun is a nosy lil eavesdropper, i think that should be it?? word count: 26.4k
a/n: hello so this was a mess and honestly not a fic i would say showcases my best plot-wise but⊠what can I say apart from booty wurk mark has me in a chokehold and I needed to release some thoughts and feelings !!! please do not expect too much from the development of the story; i fear itâs quite long and choppy because my ideas were all over the place and i was wringing my hands and brain constantly and i was eager to get to the spicy parts !! this is also not betaâd/proofread, itâs currently almost 1am, and iâve been writing this on and off for a full week with very few breaks so it honestly felt like a fever dream for me LMAO please forgive any oversights and mistakes; iâll try to go back on them another day and fix them little by little! finally and âŠmost importantly belated happy birthday, my beloved morkly!
p.s. this will probably be flagged as âmatureâ by tumblr, which means thereâs a high likelihood it wonât appear in tags or searches. please consider reblogging to boost the fic, if you feel so inclined!
Youâve heard tell of how caffeine has inherently addictive properties.Â
The more of it you have in your lifetime, the more likely you are to experience symptoms of withdrawal whenever you try to have orange juice for breakfast in its stead. It sounds bad, actually, considering most addictive substances are, but you suppose that its benefits somehow outweigh its milder drawbacks. Youâre not much of a coffee connoisseur the way some people â see: your best friends, Yeji and Jisu â are, trying one cafe after the other in pursuit of being able to nominate the winning beans of 2023 (an annual heated debate they participate in for no better reason than their own slow and useless entertainment during their six-hour long breaks), but you do know youâve only ever experienced good things from having a cup every so often: better energy, a more focused approach to mental activities, and the ability to drive through fifty percent of a road trip without needing pop punk music blasting out of your speakers to keep yourself alert.Â
The three of you are generally particular about the coffee you drink, only in different ways. While your friends have a tendency to demand only the best from any establishment â lest the staff hear fiery commentary about the flatness of the brew or the evident coarseness of the grind â you, on the other hand, are a singular individual of rather simple tastes. All you need to survive long days is a glass of vanilla sweet cream cold brew. No modifications to the sugar level or fancy new milk types are necessary; youâll drink it as itâs served in a grande cup (or a venti, when things prove particularly grueling).Â
Of course, youâre strict about other things in the experience of consumption â like where itâs served and, more importantly, who serves it to you.Â
While Yeji and Jisu have rated the Liberal Arts buildingâs on-campus Starbucks branch as a five with the strict label of POEO â âpassable on emergencies onlyâ â branding the menu as ânothing revolutionaryâ and criticizing most baristas for subpar brewery, you happen to be extremely drawn to the place. Initially, you may have argued that this has to do with the fact that itâs walking distance from most of your classes, confined to the same general compound on campus, so you can always grab a quick recharger whenever needed, no matter how short the timeframe to do so is. Sometime later on, you may have found yourself asserting that the layout of the cafe, albeit small, is very convenient, considering that every table is situated next to an electrical outlet, so youâre never out of battery (important to other students for their laptops and powerpoint presentations, important to you because you have an unhealthy obsession with passing time on TikTok, scrolling past video after video of ASMR girls clicking their twenty-inch long acrylics with their crazy candyland designs), and this makes you feel at ease.Â
A month ago, you finally came clean to yourself and, soon after, to your friends, and they came to understand, albeit begrudgingly and with no small amount of amusement, what made this Starbucks unbeatable in your eyes; it had one thing no other coffee shop could lay claim to.
What you know of Mark Lee is accrued from two major sources: long, surreptitious glances in the Modern World History class you share, and irritatingly brief interactions when you place your order from the other side of the counter behind which he stands, long fingers always poised to punch in your order at the speed of light. Sometimes, those encounters get cut even shorter when irate upperclassmen start prattling their orders out before you can even say anything past your own, except even this has its own consolation prize â an apologetic smile at you that seems only for you, although youâre not sure how much of this assumption is true. Youâll just believe it as you feel it.Â
And what youâve learned about Mark Lee has funneled down into two key points for you: first, he is single, a fact you were clued into when a group of his friends came to the coffee shop and sat around the table next to you. You hadnât been eavesdropping; theyâd just been pretty loud, but youâd also perked your ears the moment the one everyone seemed to call âHyuckâ â you arenât sure if itâs his full name or a nickname, and you donât particularly care â had leaned in for a conspiratorial whisper about having a vague master plan to set Mark up with an old high school friendâs younger sister that he was just waiting to spring on said Mark, busy slaving away on their six impossible orders near the espresso machine.Â
You donât really know what became of that plan, nor if anyone had telepathically been on your side to outright call it crazy (someone should have had a better reason than you, anyway) since the next moment, Hyuckâs voice becomes significantly louder when it orders the one named Jisung to collect the completed coffee and snacks waiting for them on the counter. However, you feel safe in the assumption that even if it had happened, no repercussions had followed, seeing as Mark still presently comes and goes from his shifts alone and in no clear hurry to meet any cute girls that are sisters of high school friends of his friends. Or, maybe youâre just ignoring what could be truth, but thatâs whatever.Â
Second, youâve learned that Mark Lee should not actually be your type â at least, in theory.Â
Saying youâre out of his league would be a bit juvenile, but if you had only so many words to describe the situation, youâd say so under duress. It isnât so much that heâs beneath you in any way, but your interests and general social circles run different routes. Yours tend to be more classically patterned after constantly changing trends, and the people you interact with all seem to have similar goals; you like to call it âvibe networking,â which, from experience, involves connecting with both groups and individuals that are equally aware that they will benefit in some way from any resulting acquaintanceship â whether it be by climbing the social ladder a couple of rungs or being able to call in a quick, off-the-charts favor for something very important and/or very exclusive down the road. You and your friends spend a significant amount of time in a year watching your style and image, something quite a lot of kids in the first couple of years of college tend to do, which means that while you donât particularly like to spend your time following your grade trajectory, you do have quite a lot of pseudo-friends that all seem to offer something entertaining or helpful to you.Â
Mark, on the contrast, prefers to keep his circle very close to his heart, it seems â that which acts as a receptacle for all his interests. You can tell that he likes to be up to date less with trending movies and more with comic books, a separate beast of a world thatâs rather unknown to you. More than once, youâve overheard him chat with his friends about Spider-man Issue Number Whatever-It-Is or engage in somewhat lively (sometimes rowdy, thanks to the Hyuck fellow) discussions about some webtoon youâve come to understand is called Solo Leveling, which seems to have to do with monsters and hunters â two things you know next to nothing about. Youâve also never seen Mark holding anything remotely close to a magazine; his hands are always filled with either a freshly opened comic or a beat-up textbook. Maybe once or twice, youâve seen him on his phone, but when you peeked over (surreptitiously, of course) on those occasions, you were met only with brightly colored panels and a singular word: BAM.Â
In conclusion â you and Mark Lee live very different lives, likely never truly meant to intersect.Â
And yet, you want him â not even in a way that speaks only to your curiosity, but in a manner that feels slightly delusional. More than once, youâve found yourself having to shut your jaw close after realizing youâve been watching him steam milk with your mouth slightly agape. Maybe itâs his side profile, which gives you a great view of the way his jaw tenses every time he puts whipped cream on someoneâs frappuccino. Maybe itâs his eyes, which always seem to twinkle like heâs harboring some special secret every time someone in line asks for his recommendation on how to spice their order up. Maybe itâs his hands, steady and agile, with just the right showing of veins through the skin to tell you theyâve probably got significant strength to them too. Or maybe itâs just his mind â that thing he always manages to show off in class, working faster than lightning even when the rest of you are in your natural eight-in-the-morning stupor.
Whatever the reason for your interest, Mark Lee makes sure the Liberal Arts buildingâs Starbucks has you as a regular customer.Â
Youâre fully aware that this is the twenty-first century, which is why you could, as Yeji and Jisu have so kindly made known, simply ask him out. Under normal circumstances, you would have.
Unfortunately, in this particular area of your life, separate from all others, youâre something of a traditionalist.Â
Actually, you just want to know what Mark asking you out would look like. Curiosity has fully gotten the better of you â how can it not, with how he breaks eye contact with you the moment it happens by accident in class, or with how pleasantly and shyly he smiles when you say âheyâ to him once youâre about to order? Youâd like to see, first-hand, as a recipient of the experience itself, what he would look like taking control of a particular situation like that â something someone like him, so mild-mannered and laid-back, never really seemed to do upfront.Â
Youâd like to think youâve given him clear signs. Thereâs a reason you always come in during his shift times, and itâs the same reason for why you have the same damn drink from the menu over and over again despite not even caring too much about coffee in the first place (something he admittedly doesnât know and probably wouldnât puzzle out, given how often youâre in that Starbucks, anyway). Itâs that you want him to remember you.
Selfishly, itâs that you want him to think just a little bit more about you every single day.Â
But if he does, Mark has never made it very clearly known; apart from taking your order in his genial customer service demeanor or letting a look of brief recognition pass his face over when you cross paths in the hallways, heâs never really shown heightened inquisitiveness about you. For all your differences, only you seem to actually care.
Frankly, that frustrates you, because if you have to think about him unhealthily, it would only be right for him to do that for your sake too. Still, youâll shrug that hit on your pride off for as long as you can get his attention one way or another.
All you really need is for your plan to pan out as well as you think â and hope â it will.Â
The thing is, youâre not even that bad at math. Youâve never really excelled at it, of course, but you wouldnât go so far as to say youâre in dire need of help from anyone â the kind of help that feels like babysitting, at least.
However, Mark Lee doesnât know that, and youâre not compelled to make that fact known to him when you notice that heâs leaning on the counter with his elbows, shoulders rolled forward and head bent down. Heâs twirling his ballpoint in hand, wrist hovering over a worksheet, and youâre briefly distracted by the rapidly moving shadow underneath it.
His head snaps up when you gently knock on the counter, and the rest of his body follows suit, straightening as he shoves the paper away, one edge crumpling in on itself as it meets resistance in the form of the pastry display glass.
âHey â hi, _________.â He knows your name, says it easily, and while youâd like to believe itâs because of his unprecedented interest in you, you know that itâs just because youâre always here and always having him write your name on the side of your cup. âCan I get you the usual?â
Thereâs no particular reason you order what you do; maybe itâs just rooted in the fact that when you first asked Mark for a recommendation, he said that the Vanilla Sweet Cream Cold Brew was pretty good, and you were inclined to believe him (while pointedly ignoring the fact that it was, at the time, a new item all of the baristas were required to push to indecisive, slightly moony-eyed customers such as yourself). Whatever the case, you found the drink generally palatable, and you were also able to score the first of many smiles that fed into your two-semester-long infatuation with him, so it was basically a win-win scenario for all. He even got to do his job by getting some rube (see: you) into trying a new product.
âHey, Mark.â Youâve long since given up pretending that you donât know his name and have to check the tag on his cute green apron (why is it cute? You donât know. Itâs the same, standard, Starbucks green, but Mark makes it look homely and natural, somehow). Youâve been here way too many times over the last academic year for a nonchalant, were you talking to me? approach to work, anyway. âThat, plus a lemon loaf, if you donât mind. Whatâve you got there?â
His eyes follow the trail of yours over to his wrinkled worksheet. âOh â no, sorry. Itâs nothing.â
âIs it secret?â Your bottom lip juts out, and you see his Adamâs apple bob dangerously, a small telltale sign of minute nervousness before he lets out a short laugh. âDidnât know we kept stuff from each other.â
You donât know what makes you say that so naturally. The both of you donât do much beyond exchanging pleasantries.
âWe â uh, well, itâs just a worksheet. For Park Hyosungâs class. College algebra?â
âIâm in Kim Junghwaâs. Can I have a look? I want to know if youâre suffering just as much as I am.â
He pauses, considering your request for a moment, likely wondering if thereâs any harm in it before he smooths the paper out and turns it towards you. His handwritingâs a little messy, but his solutions are extremely neat. You see, like, one erasure, max. You also donât see anything that interests you â except the name written at the top. Still, you can see at a general glance that more than half of his answers are correct; the logic of his organization is way too elegant and his writingâs too sure to be anything else. You whistle low, and his eyebrows shoot up.
âSomething wrong?â
âPretty much the opposite. How is it that youâre doing this without breaking a sweat?â
âOh, well â itâs notâŠâ He doesnât even know how to brag. Yet another item in the perpetually growing list of things you find cute about Mark Lee. âI mean, anyone⊠can?â
âI must not be anyone then.â You meet his quizzical look with a wry smile. âEither you guys are leaps and bounds ahead, or Iâm really not going to make it through this semester.â
Another silence passes, just for a fraction of a second â short enough to be passable to others, but long enough for you to wonder if your humor code isnât up to par with the rest of the worldâs â before Markâs chuckling lowly. His large palm comes down, covering a majority of his answers in the process.
âYouâre kidding. Iâm sure youâre doing just fine.â
âMark, look at this face.â You gesture to your evidently dumbfounded, blank expression. âDoes this look like the face of someone thatâs doing just fine?â
Youâre pleased to hear another laugh from him; you donât know if he really finds you funny or if heâs just the type to be easily amused. You donât want to know, anyway; assuming is better than actually finding out.
âThat bad, huh?â He slides the worksheet away again, like heâs afraid his correct answers are going to offend you into leaving the cafe. Instead, his hands start working on your order, grabbing a cup and scrawling the shorthand of the drink on one of the little boxes. âEver think about getting a tutor, maybe? If you really feel like youâre drowning, that is.â
âA tutor? I guess that depends. Are you free on weeknights?â
The marker makes a soft screeching sound as he drags it down with too much force, ruining the penmanship of your name. Mark takes a moment to stare at the mistake on the plastic before he looks at you, pointing the rim of the cup towards himself. âSorry â am I freeâ?â
âYou said I should get a tutor, right?â
âI thought â no, sorry, I was thinking more like one of those department-assigned tutors you can ask the faculty for, or something.â
âOh. Are you not one of them?â You sigh, albeit a little over dramatically. Thankfully, he doesnât really cotton onto your acting, too caught up in befuddlement at the turn of the conversation. âThatâs a bummer. I was kinda hoping that if I was going to ask for help, Iâd get an actual genius. You know â someone like you?â
You can tell by Markâs expression that heâs torn between denying your compliment again and responding to your actual question; he looks both relieved and miffed when the student behind you clears her throat.
âSorry, butâ you know that thereâs a line, right?â
You both apologize, Markâs much more sincere than your own, and you step aside. His gaze follows you for a moment before it snaps back to the next customer, his voice abandoning that bemused uncertainty it had taken up with you. You donât really mind; as far as youâre concerned, any dent in his barista persona when he talks to you is a step in the right direction.
You hang around the pick-up area, receipt in hand, watching Mark clear the line before moving to the actual stations near the kitchen area. Thereâs a concentration on his face that you find all the more attractive; he has a habit of chewing on his bottom lip when heâs trying to focus on getting the drizzle just right inside the cupâs cylinder.
He tends to try his best at everything, you figure. Not an unattractive quality â not by a long shot.
Mark finishes your drink first; the milkâs still only seeping, cloudy, into the coffee when he brings it over. He doesnât even have to call your queue number, opting to meet your eye â albeit slightly nervously â instead. You reach out to hold the cup, a calculated move that allows you to brush hands against his without him being able to pull back on instinct. He doesnât, nor does he really seem to want to, but his jaw tightens as a flush creeps along the curve of his ears.
âYou really wonât help me?â
Your questionâs abrupt, almost a little demanding, even if your voice is sweet. Youâre not above asking this much, anyway, even if you technically want him to make the first move. The redness sinks down to his earlobes.
âI didnât say that.â
âYou didnât really say anything,â you tease. The cupâs on the counter now, so he can easily relinquish it to you at this point, but he still hesitates, only one hand slipping out from under the heat of your palm. He uses it to rub the back of his neck, chuckling softly, and you take this as a green light. âWhat time does your shift end?â
âFive-thirty. You sure you wouldnât want someone better?â
You pull your cup slowly to yourself, and his hand, still lightly trapped by your own, follows for a few inches before heâs withdrawing, the counter between the two of you forcing the distance. A smile follows the shaking of your head, and you take a small sip of the drink before you respond simply.
âThereâs no one better than you.â
Mark is a prompt kind of person; you learn this when, at five-thirty, he comes over to your table, tugging his apron off over his head. Of course, you might attribute that to his overall personality, but the fact that you spend the remaining two hours of his shift casting him glances from the left side of the coffee shop might have also been a contributing factor. The looks you give him arenât even furtive; theyâre deliberately long, so you never miss whenever he looks over to you from time to time.
He doesnât hold eye contact for very long (he does it well enough when heâs talking to customers, but itâs not like youâre ordering another cold brew from across the room at that point), but you can read snippets of his thoughts through the fleeting gaze exchanges. Heâs curious as to why youâre asking for help, now, of all times, when the semesterâs more than halfway over. Heâs surprised that you asked him, of all people, because he just canât conceive of a world that isnât within a television show where this kind of abrupt, overt request makes sense. Heâs flattered that you even asked him out of the blue. Heâs equal parts anxious and eager to know whatâs meant to happen after his shift, once he starts fulfilling your request.
Most of all, heâs unsure if heâs reading you right â if what it feels like youâre doing is something heâs attaching too deep a meaning to. If heâs right in reading your signs.
You donât really mind it; you like knowing that Mark somehow wears his heart on his sleeve, even if he tries to remain neutral for the sake of appearances. You also bask quietly in the fact that heâs looking at you twice as much as he ever has in the time youâve loosely known each other. Still, his bubbling confusion and inquisitiveness seem to be interfering with the rest of his work, especially when you notice that heâs been wiping down the surface of a table two down from where you are for more than seven minutes.
In the hopes of easing whatever tension might be in his heart, you offer him a small smile, but thatâs only met with his eyes immediately glazing over and inching a couple of centimeters above your forehead, where the story of Starbucksâ origins is drawn out in a faux-manga style. He pretends to find it interesting, as if he hasnât seen it a million times from coming into this establishment day after day â you know it well enough, and you donât even have to, considering you donât work here â and you canât do anything but hold back your laughter.
A small part of you says you should just give him the affirmative answer to his biggest question, but every other cell in your body says that itâs no fun if he doesnât ascertain it for himself.
He has his school bag and textbook in tow when he approaches, taking the seat across from you. Thereâs a steely resolution on his face, like heâs been emotionally preparing himself for such a daunting task, but it eases up the moment you laugh lightly.
âYou donât have to act like Iâm going to eat you.â
âIâm still not sure why youâre suddenly asking me to help you,â he admits. Heâs also very honest, you note. Again, not an unattractive trait. âIâm not complaining. I just didnât think you even had an opinion of me.â
âWhyâs that?â Youâre genuinely surprised. Mark drums his fingers on the front of his textbook, thoughtful â less for the sake of thinking what to say and more for the sake of considering how to say it. Itâs clear he wants to avoid calling attention to the fact that before now, you two have had no reason to run the same track, let alone sit together and talk at a coffee shop, as if youâve always been the best of friends.
âGenuinely just thought I was the guy who gave you your afternoon coffee every day,â he finally settles. Your eyes widen, and another laugh escapes you â a little louder this time, enough to call the attention of a couple of jumpy freshmen nearby.
âWell â let me put it this way.â You lean over slightly, cupping your chin in your palm. âWas I just the girl you made coffee for every day until now?â
There are clear cogs turning in his head; his eyes unfocus slightly as he thinks of the possibilities. His silence suddenly makes you somewhat nervous; your tone had been confident, and youâd only said that to prove a point, to push him in the right direction, but you realize that you hadnât previously factored in the possibility that he might simply say yes â or, worse, say no just to avoid hurting your feelings.
You watch his lower lip curl in; he uses his tongue to smooth out the skin thatâs slightly dried from work fatigue. You would much rather it peeked out, so you could imagine it against your own. His response is mumbled in a lower register, but you catch some key syllables â didnât⊠not ⊠stranger â pretty ⊠you?
âSorry?â You ask patiently, but the fact that he turns red and laughs again â something you realize is not only a trademark of his personality but also downright delicious of him to be doing â is all the answer you need to let the apprehension seep from your shoulders. âI didnât catch that.â
Mark clears his throat. âNo, I⊠didnât think of you that way. I mean⊠youâre my classmate.â
âSure,â your toneâs breezy, but the somewhat sloppy confirmation of interest in you makes your heart soar. He just needs more of a push. âAnd weâre basically friends, right?â
âYeah.â His voice is unsure at first, like he canât seem to wrap his head around the concept. You can tell that Markâs notion of friendship is likely based on shared interests, of which you admittedly have none. Technically, if you were his friend, youâd spend less time just telling him the exact same order every single day and more time sitting around a table trying to learn how to play Magic: The Gathering with him. Still, he takes one long look at your grin and suddenly gains confidence in his next words, as if it somehow convinces him that the briefness of your old conversations had been a mutually agreed-upon thing and not the product of social distance between the two of you. âYeah. Weâre friends.â
âRight. Friends help friends, donât they? Iâd definitely feel more comfortable having a friend teach me than some stuffy upperclassman I donât know.â
You see Markâs lips move slightly, in such small movements you could have imagined it as breathing if you didnât care too much (which you do). He mouths, to himself â friends help friends. For some reason, that boosts his conviction even further, and he nods.
âMakes sense. Well â for as long as you donât mind me, then.â
âMind? I asked you, so I should be saying that.â
âIâd never mind â I mean, of course I donât mind.â Heâs quick to correct himself, and you have to stop your own hand from reaching out to try to satisfy your curiosity, the desire to know just how hot his cheeks get when he blushes. âMore than happy to help, actually.â
âAnd Iâm more than happy to be here.â You beam at him, and he mirrors your smile. You donât know what it is about the look on his face â the brightness in his eyes, or the slight lift of his eyebrows, maybe â but it gives you the impression that he might be feeling at least a fraction of what you are: the feeling of your heart lifting off a few inches from your rib cage. âSince weâre on the same page, I hope â should we get to it?â
From the moment that Mark opens his textbook to a chapter on inverted parabolas, he assumes a personality you feel you havenât seen from him before. You realize that you really do know him in only two limited capacities â his classroom persona that seems to really only view himself and the material, focused on the board and the professorâs words (even up until the useless anecdotes) to absorb as much information as possible, and his more genial customer service form, always happy to assist in the trained, easygoing way youâve come to meet so often.
Right now, heâs a blend of both, yet somehow neither all at once. Heâs quick to catch the parabolas you draw, either wrongly or downright poorly. Despite initial hesitation, he always manages to say something; thereâs already a pattern to how he does it, from his slightly awkward, âAh, sorry, actually ââ to the way his finger traces over what youâve written, outlining the right curve. You find his interruptions so endearing that you start drawing them wrong purposefully â not enough for him to realize your schemes in their entirety, but enough to cast you a few amused glances, like he canât imagine why youâd map out such an absurd graph. You get the feeling he wants to actually laugh at how ridiculous youâre acting, but he canât tell if youâre seriously struggling or not, so he settles for a smile he thinks he does well in keeping to himself, but that you catch anyway. Heâs patient, even when you have to rip out pages from the back of his notebook because of your âmistakes,â like heâs still catering to your request for an extra pump of syrup for your coffee on sleepy days.
But thereâs also that side to him that comes out when he suddenly remembers the distance between you that, before today, had felt unlikely to be closed. It peaks at odd moments, like when youâre borrowing his pen because yours is currently holding your slowly unraveling bun up, and your fingers brush against his. It surfaces abruptly when you lean in to watch what heâs drawing until he realizes how close you are, arm lightly grazing his, and his pen freezes, ink blotting on the paper for a second. Itâs in those times that you can almost hear his brain churning out questions â like heâs wondering if youâre just oblivious or if youâre doing something on purpose that he canât quite believe. Like he wants to ask you whatâs on your mind, but he just doesnât know how.
If he asked, you would reply without missing a beat. The answer, after all, is simple (him). But Mark never raises the question, only does something without fully acknowledging what heâs doing â the adjustment of his glasses on the bridge of his nose, the ruffling of his hair as though to shake off his thoughts, the clearing of his throat to normalize his tone before he explains something youâve just asked about. Thereâs always that light tinge of pink to his face that makes him look even more endearing, and it fades and returns every so often for the better part of two hours.
By the time he rubs oncoming fatigue out of his eyes, the sun has already set; there are far fewer people around you at this time, and for as much as you like spending time with him and breathing in the scent of his shirt â always a tinge of Downy, barely cutting through the much more overpowering scent of espresso and sugar â your back has begun hurting from your front-heavy posture and determination to have your face as close as rationally possible to Markâs. Still, you donât miss out on the fact that the act of him cracking his neck to relieve tension makes your lips curl inward, trying to stifle an inappropriate noise in reaction to the view.
âI feel like I talked your ear off,â he pipes up, sounding a bit sheepish. âSometimes itâs hard to know when to stop once youâve gotten started. Iâm just hoping I didnât bore you to death.â
âMeanwhile, Iâm here hoping you arenât sick of my questions already.â You smile, closing your notebook and hanging the clip of your pen on the spiral. Your arms stretch up first, followed by your back, a light twist to relax your posture into normalcy again. Markâs breathing falls quiet, like heâd been preparing to say something in response but had let it die in the back of his throat instead. You let your eyes drop, expecting to see him looking at you, as he mostly has been â on and off â since his shift ended, but his eyes are far lower than yours, the telltale redness now growing in evident splotches across his cheeks.
The hem of your shirt has ridden up; while thereâs nothing outrageous about it, thereâs a short expanse of skin that it reveals, for a brief moment. His eyes are slightly glossy, brow furrowed like heâs trying to find a solution to something he canât fully understand. Youâre not even sure about what he could really be looking at, or if thereâs something heâs just thinking of that caught his attention while his eyes focused on a rather unfortunate spot. To test your theory, you suck in your stomach slightly alongside an inhale.
It should be objectively funny to watch Mark blink unevenly, left eye going first before his right tries to catch up, but you manage to stifle your laughter â poorly, though, because you end up coughing a little and breaking him out of his strange trance. You avert your eyes quickly enough for him to look vaguely relieved that you hadnât caught him looking. So he thinks, at least.
âAnyway.â You feel bad that you have to tear his mind away from whatever faraway land it must be trying to burrow a hole in; the dazed expression on his face dims into hastily hidden embarrassment. You donât want him to feel awkward, so you just busy yourself with packing up, making an unnecessary show of stuffing your notebook back into your bag as if it isnât half-empty at this point. âI really appreciate you taking the time to help me.â
âAny time.â His first attempt is a little raspy, maybe from overuse of his voice today, so he clears his throat and tries again. A slow smile builds on your lips. âAny time, really. Iâm glad that this is actually helping you; you pick things up surprisingly fast.â
âWait, really?â
âYeah. Give it a couple of weeks, and youâll probably be ready to tackle it on your own again, Iâm sure.â
He smiles reassuringly, but all you can think about is how thatâs not good. You should pretend to be a little dumber next time, or this will end much too prematurely.
The next five minutes pass in silence; you donât expect to be knee-deep in conversation anyway since, as much as you try to convince him, you arenât actually anywhere close to being those kinds of friends yet. Thereâs an unspoken rule to the give and take of things, where he pauses for you to get an item off the table and push it into your bag before he does the same with his own belongings. Neither of you really intersect paths, save for the moment you both grab your phones and stand at the same time.
His jaw falls open like heâs preparing to say something, then shuts as if heâs better decided against it. You decide to take the initiative to say what youâre assuming he wants to. âSame time, same table?â
âOh â uh, yeah, for sure.â
You want to ask him to walk out with you. You want to lace your fingers with his, tug him out, and kiss him under the green and white glow of the sign outside. You want to know if kissing his collarbone means youâll taste a hint of coffee. You think about doing it all somehow, especially since heâs fighting back a slight smile at the promise of tomorrow.
But it just isnât the right time.
Instead, you place a hand on his shoulder, giving it a light squeeze. The slow movement of his throat â yet another hard swallow â isnât lost on you, and his eyes land on where the two of you connect. With a grateful smile, you bid him a soft goodbye, taking your leave first.
You donât look back â at least, not until youâre fully in the cover of the darkness outside. On the gravel path, just out of reach of the lamplight, you chance one last glance back into the store. Mark is still rooted to the same spot, his backpack slung over one shoulder, staring at the table like heâs dissociating from what just happened â like he canât believe the last couple of hours.
Your smile grows when you see his own, and his hand comes around to the back of his neck, rubbing it lightly like it gives him small comfort to let him know that it was real.
Baby steps, you remind yourself. Youâve already got one foot in the door, after all.
As the days trickle by, you fall into a more comfortable standing with Mark; thereâs a routine to your meetings that seems to eliminate the initial and abrupt awkwardness of that first day. You come into that Starbucks at four, greet Mark, who doesnât ever have to ask for your order, and spend the next hour and a half slowly sipping on it until the ice has thinned and watered down your drink substantially. In that time, you allow yourself to do whatever you want (as if youâve ever done otherwise anyway), and what you usually want the most is a good view of him. You therefore use most of the minutes you have on hand to regard him from different angles â from the side when heâs frothing milk, upfront when he turns to leave cups on the pick-up counter, from the back when heâs clearing tables â interspersed with moments of checking your TikTok feed, clearing group chat messages, and sometimes re-curling your bangs with a portable iron from the schoolâs co-op center, a relatively new purchase you tote around these days. You do essentially anything in between to avoid acting too suspicious while he works.
Sometimes, you catch Markâs eye too; the more your meetings increase in number over the course of a few weeks, the more deliberately he looks over at you, and the longer it lasts. You feel like youâve made significant progress when your gazes lock and he smiles slightly, albeit a bit unsurely, instead of turning away like he used to. The other day, heâd even passed by while apologizing for how long you always waited for him â not that you ever minded, something you made a point to clarify with him before he walked away, carrying a couple of chairs from the back room with him to replace rickety ones.
That heâs able to transport them easily, as if heâs lugging a bag of apples from the grocery, does not escape your watchful eye.
What you like the most is that you start to learn more about him in a way that isnât fueled only by your expectations and, therefore, limited by your imagination. You find out that heâs from a close-knit family with a rather cushy background, and this barista job is just for interest funding and experience, in that exact order. Most of his earnings are funneled into the things he collects, which apparently isnât limited to comic books and special edition blu-rays with directorâs cut but also a rather stupendous amount of PopMart blind box figurines. Apparently, he particularly likes the Skullpanda series even if he hasnât completed it yet; your last session together had adjourned thirty minutes earlier than usual so that he could catch a pre-rush hour inner circle train to Hongdae, where the flagship store was set to open on that day. Heâd promised to show you his pulls (as long as they werenât embarrassing dupes). You learn that he likes to listen to loud music when he studies to stimulate his mind, and he has a playlist thatâs just a jumble of songs from Punk Goes Pop volumes that makes him feel empowered for some absurd reason, like heâs going against the grain. You donât really get it, but you do like that spiced-up rendition of Ariana Grandeâs Problem that he let you listen to once.
Of course, there are things that you find out not through conversation but through continued, closer observation. You notice that he likes to put on chapstick even if his lips arenât particularly dry, but he does worry on them often, most especially when heâs thinking hard about something. He has a habit of saying honestly⊠at the start of every other sentence, as if heâs concerned you wonât take his word on anything, even though heâs just talking about how unnaturally hot it was at noon despite it still being spring. He has long eyelashes that youâre equal parts attracted to and jealous of, and he bites the inside of his cheek whenever he wants to pep himself up after grueling shifts. He plays beats youâre not even sure he knows heâs creating against his knee with his fingers, so enthusiastic and consistent in this habit that you want to offer your thigh instead. His shoulders always go first before he laughs, and he does this thing where he raises his hand to cover his mouth at the start of it, which is a shame, because youâd do anything to keep seeing him smile like that â or, better yet, to be the reason for it.
Then there are those things you notice he tries to hide. He always turns his face halfway to the side when he blushes, something he seems to do without fail every time you smile at him. He has to temper the intensity of his grin when you take the time to compliment him on how cool his shirt is, or how nice his hair looks today, or how smart he is, like he doesnât want you to know how good it makes him feel even if you want him to feel good about it, around you, because of you. Sometimes he denies it for the sake of responding, and his voice always lilts on the first syllable in his refusal to accept what you say, even though he knows you wonât take it for an answer.
And after a couple more careful experiments, you notice that Mark, out of the many things heâs interested in, seems to have a particular thing for your stomach.
You donât know if it has anything to do with him not really seeing much of it in real life in his own time or if he just has his own kind of fixation on it, but you start to cotton on by the fourth time you meet. An hour of being hunched over a table thatâs not at the greatest height in relation to your neck and torso has you stiff, and youâd leaned back in your chair, arms pulling to the air, hoping your spine might feel like realigning if you exerted enough tension pressure that way. Your shirt hadnât ridden up this time, considering it had been tucked into your jeans, and it was because of this that youâd caught a flicker of something new in his face that you hadnât seen before.
You could have sworn it looked like disappointment.
Of course, he hides it quickly, as he does with most of his emotional candor, but itâs enough to make you suspicious â enough to make you wonder if Mark is also just keeping something to himself. Or maybe youâre just projecting your own presently secretive nature onto him. Regardless, you think itâs odd that whenever you stand up or stretch, his eyes almost immediately fall to your midriff, like he wants to challenge your clothing into a staring contest before he thinks better of it.
You donât mind, anyway. He can look as much as he likes. Maybe when the weatherâs warmer, youâll even cater to that interest and wear a crop top. Hopefully, thatâll be the push he needs to act on human instinct and ask you out or, like⊠bend you over. Maybe.
Youâre often plagued with these kinds of thoughts in between the ones you try to keep as family-friendly as possible â now, more so than ever.
Sometimes, itâs easier, especially when youâre caught up in talks with him; despite the fact that he doesnât seem like much of a conversationalist when it comes to generic matters, when either he or you are enthusiastic about a particular topic, he has a tendency to get carried away. Thereâs nothing impure about how his eyes light up when you remember to ask him about the movie he saw with his friends over the weekend or the way he hums old Nickelodeon cartoon theme songs under his breath whenever heâs looking for a page in the textbook. Itâs more of a situation where youâll observe something and immediately run with it despite it being an objectively normal action.
Like right now, as youâre watching him turn his pen between his fingers. Now, while heâs shaking his knee in mild impatience, as if heâs trying to will the answer to the worksheets youâve both been trying to get through for the better part of the day faster. Youâd made copies of the problems your professors had assigned and exchanged them under the premise of being able to practice more intensely.
However, whereas Mark is actually focused on solving, youâre just watching him out of the corner of your eye, wondering if heâs ever been told that his fingers are fuck-worthy on a singular, unique level or if itâd feel good for you to ride the thigh heâs currently moving, jeans and all. You consider the feeling of his warm palms on your bare waist as you do it, and you end up wondering if thatâs what crosses his mind whenever he sneaks glances at you, too.
Youâd know the answer to all those things if heâd fucking ask you out. Maybe you could do it after all. Maybe you should, instead of relying on slowly increasing the probability over such a long period of time. Maybe if you asked nicely, Mark might pull the shades down on the storefront windows and rail you against the glass.
Youâre so lost in thought that it genuinely startles you when he plops his textbook over the worksheet, rattling your eraser dangerously close to the edge of the table. Youâre still clutching your heart while he rubs his eyes a little too violently.
âCanât,â he groans, and his neck gives into the weight of his head, allowing it to loll backward. âI feel like the numbers are just melting into each other. I swear, I thought I could read words out of them.â
âMaybe we were a little too ambitious with the double worksheet agenda,â you admit, even though youâve barely gotten past half of yours and certainly havenât touched a single item on his. âShould we call it a day for now?â
âYeah,â he agrees, although he still takes the time to encircle his final answers before clapping his palms to his cheeks (an act that has your mind dangerously close to wandering off inappropriately again) to wake himself up. âWoah. I didnât even notice how dark it is already. Iâd say time flies when youâre having fun, but Iâm not too sure about the âfunâ part of itâŠâ
You trace his gaze towards the glass; the moonâs already out, surrounded by a smattering of low-light stars. You hadnât realized how late it had gotten, probably because your mind had been on R-18 mode for most of the afternoon. Also, the days are getting generally shorter, but that fact doesnât make you feel as embarrassed, at least.
âYou got a ride?â
The question once again shocks you out of your small trance, and you turn back to him with wide eyes. âWell â no. Wait, I didnât know you had a car. Whyâd you take the subway, then?â
âOh â no, sorry, I⊠donât.â He looks suddenly sheepish, eyes dropping to the shiny surface of the table for a moment before they snap back up, as if heâs actually actively reminding himself to look at you. âI was wondering if you wanted me to â actually, more than that, are you going home already? Not that you need to stay; itâs not that important, butâŠâ
You try to gloss over the fact that he had just been about to initiate another huge step in the right direction (i.e. offering to walk you home) by beaming at him, maybe a little too widely, if only to mask your disappointment at the sudden shift in conversation. âI have nothing waiting at home for me but a sandwich dinner and Singles Inferno, so hit me with whatever it is.â
âOh, cool.â His lips turn up, and the corners shake, this show of happiness once again tamped down by his own inexplicable desire to maintain a safe distance. How are you supposed to tell him youâre desperate to bridge that gap without using those exact words? âI came from the flagship store yesterday â the one in Hongdae that I told you about?â He allows the smile to widen slightly when you nod in genuine understanding. âGot the last six boxes of the collection Iâve been trying to finish.â
You whistle appreciatively. âCan I ask you for a loan on my next phone bill? You know, once Iâve upgraded to something pricier.â
âNah â just itching to complete the set,â he laughs. You wonder if heâs been doing that more often because he knows its crippling effect on you, though you doubt heâs that sly. Again, maybe youâre just projecting too much of your own motivations onto him. âThis was probably about two months of saving up combined.â
âNo new Iron Man issues to look out for, then?â Your voice is warm even though it takes on a teasing tone; Markâs hand rubs the back of his neck, and his expression is a little sheepish, but youâre happy that the times he used to go completely quiet, opting only to blush at your attempts to act more familiar with him are pretty much gone now.
âMaybe next month.â You also like that he doesnât really treat his hobbies as secrets, neither out of shame nor snobbishness. He explains these things to you the same way he does the topics you study â with an air of contentedness, like heâs happy someone listens to him without interrupting. On your end, you have no qualms with listening to his voice for hours, wondering when heâll stop using it to greet you when you come through the door and when heâll start saying your name in a way that makes you feel like youâre the only one he sees whenever youâre near. Itâs a win-win situation (sort of). âI was actually debating between this collection and a really rare copy of Spiâ well, never mind that. I just thought â since you were asking me a bit about blind boxes last time. You know, if you wanted to. With⊠me.â
As much as heâs become comfortable talking to you about things that donât involve coffee orders and school, you canât say that you arenât doing your fair share of the work in connecting the dots; the demand for your efforts is exponentially higher in moments like this, when you think heâs trying to ask you something but canât seem to find less-than-eager words to avoid what he thinks might spook you.
Luckily, he augments his fragments with action; reaching into his backpack â which you notice seems to be bulkier than usual â he starts extracting small brown boxes, all with the same design; it seems, for lack of better words, aesthetically gothic, and you reach out to pick one up, turning it over and examining the print on each side with vague interest. Mark starts laying them out on top of each other until thereâs a small, somewhat unstable pyramid in front of him, then shifts his attention fully to you, just as youâre putting the box in your hand atop all the rest.
âIâd love to.â You beam as he does, and thereâs a wondrous relief in his eyes that tells you heâs glad you manage to catch onto his words â or lack, thereof â surprisingly well. âFor as long as you donât blame me for any bad draws.â
âThe contents have already been decided by my own hand â sort of,â he chuckles. âPoint is, I would never do that to you. But I wonât lie; I kind of want to rely on your luck a little more.â
âWhat makes you think Iâd have any of that running through my system?â
âNot sure â beginnerâs luck, maybe? You just kind of look like one of those kinds of people to me â like⊠youâre just made of good things.â
You donât know how to take this compliment; on the one hand, itâs easily one of the sweetest things Mark has ever said to you that doesnât involve anything with actual sugar content. On the other, you know youâre not as lucky as he makes it sound, considering youâre still striking out on getting past the borderline of friendship with him. All you can do is smile, nodding and making to move closer to him by sliding into the next seat.
Itâs hard to ignore the sight of him stiffening; something like surprise mingled with both fear and interest flashes strong across his face, but you donât do anything to acknowledge the slight change in atmosphere, choosing to settle down comfortably and clap your hands. âSo. What are the rules? What can I do, and what canât I?â
âUh.â His throat constricts at the right moment, the syllable getting caught and causing him to clear his throat. You know that this is the nearest youâve ever been to him, the sleeve of your shirt tickling his arm. Upon closer, albeit brief inspection, you note that heâs also rather veiny. That doesnât do your impurity any favors. âNot⊠really rules, or anything like that. Just â these are the ones Iâve been looking for. Not that you can really control it, but in case you were curious about that.â
You squint intently at the scaled-down images he points out. Thereâs one that looks like a penguin caught in an oil spill; another that seems to be in a polar bear costume, dozing; and â âWhatâs⊠halo? HaloâŠbios?â
âIt just means marine life,â he answers quickly, like the thought means close to nothing to him to know something that obscure. Whoever said that smart is the new sexy wasnât joking. âLike⊠all things that live in the ocean, that kind of thing.â
âAnd you know this because?â
He pauses, looking thoughtful. âIâm not sure. I guess I must have just learned it when I was curious about what it meant some time ago. Isnât that how we all learn things?â
You shake your head incredulously, and he smiles a little apologetically. âYou never cease to amaze me.â Your nail drums against the silhouette of one with a question mark on it. âWhatâs this supposed to be? Can you draw your own figurine, or something?â
âNo.â Heâs clearly amused, but his expressionâs still patronizing enough for you to not feel too bad about saying something idiotic. âItâs a secret design â a money drainer, basically. You could buy a full set of this and still not get it. Some people will open hundreds without any luck, so itâs really rare.â
âYou donât want it?â
âI try not to get too caught up in the secret thing,â he admits. âOtherwiseâŠâ
âNo rare print comic books for the rest of your life, basically?â
He taps his nose, and you both share another laugh. Itâs nice, you think, to have come this far â to be someone Mark can share his interests and thoughts with. You may have been stretching the word to its limit when you first punched your way into his social life and called yourself his friend, but it feels more real now, more natural to think about and say. Even if he still sometimes seems to be hyperaware of the gap between the both of you, thereâs no denying, at least, that itâs been significantly reduced, and this much is a testament to that.
âWell, leave it up to me. Iâll let all of this beginnerâs luck rub off on you,â you announce with overflowing albeit unfounded confidence.
You both decide to open a box each at the same time; Mark suddenly panics and asks you not to unseal the foil bag right away without looking at the card inside first, earning him one slightly alarmed look followed by a burst of laughter at his pained expression when you pretend to rip open the packaging. Comparing pulls, you identify them using the set chart â your luck doesnât seem to be operating at full capacity yet because you can only offer him the card of one that looks like a floppy pigeon, which he responds to with a slightly apologetic grimace before saying heâs already pulled that thrice in the past. He, on the other hand, is turning the card of the polar bear over in his palm, trying not to make you feel bad for your duplicate pull by slipping it under his textbook when your eyes land on it.
The second round isnât much better; both of you manage to pull something heâs already added to his collection, and as youâre ripping the seal to your third box, he pauses and watches you. You think itâs because heâs concerned about the obvious shit luck youâve had thus far and wants to snatch it from you before your negative energy transfigures whateverâs inside into something he doesnât want, and youâre just about to offer the half-opened package to him before he pushes the one on his end to you.
âNo way, Mark.â Your eyes are wide, a palm up to reject it. âIf that turns out to be another dupe by my hand, Iâm literally going to walk into oncoming traffic.â
He has to control his amusement at your words so that it doesnât completely shake his voice into incoherence. âI picked all of these while I was there, so if anything, youâre only riding off my bad luck. Besides, this is your first time doing this. I want you to have fun.â
âBut,â your voice is pained. âYour money.â
âItâs not a big deal. With how few I need to complete them, I was definitely bound to run into more repeats than new ones.â He taps the front of the textbook â or, at least, the part of it not buried under the figurines and sealing tapes yet. âProbability mathematics.â
âI thought we already ended the study part of the day,â you grumble but concede, putting aside the one you half-opened to tear the top of his. Youâre careful when you shake out the foil packaging, making sure to place it upright on the table before extracting the card. Both of your faces fall â yours more than his â when you see itâs a repeat of the polar bear.
âAlmost. It wouldâve been a pretty lucky pull earlier, so itâs technically not bad,â he tries to reassure you, but you childishly feel like youâve been the sole source of his disappointment thus far. âTry the last one.â
Itâs irrational, but youâre suddenly anxious about it. For some reason, youâre worried that this will topple the carefully constructed ladder youâve propped up against Markâs tower of social defense. Even if heâs being genial about your rotten pulls, you donât know how much of it is just resignation to dismay on his part.
You say a small prayer, then fully rip off the seal; you donât even take out the packaged figuring anymore. You just shimmy the card out of the box, turning it over when you notice itâs upside down.
For a moment, your shoulders deflate. Itâs closest to this pastel purple figurine in the middle of the line-up, its stupid puckered lips almost taunting you. He hadnât even mentioned it as something heâs looking for, so you almost feel like this has come to a horrible full circle. But then he grabs the box, checks the list, and looks back at your card again. He looks shell-shocked, and youâre not sure if itâs the strong air conditioning directed towards the two of you or if itâs just his hands, but the image heâs holding is shivering slightly.
You look more closely at it, and something just doesnât feel right. Color palette aside, there are notable differences â different colored lips, a more intricate ear design, and closed eyes. ItâsâŠ
âDream eater,â Markâs voice is hushed, almost reverent, and very, very close to your ear. âItâs the secret one. Youâre⊠incredible.â
âWhat are you talking about,â your words are just as raspy; youâre not sure if youâre actually choked up with emotion or something â over a figurine, you have to remind yourself. âYou picked all of this. I just ripped open the box.â
The hush that falls over the both of you feels very concrete, weighty on your shoulders. His fingers creep towards the foil packet â the only one he actually opens because thereâs no way heâs not keeping it. The shiny purple head gleams under the fluorescent, the glitter around the star and moon designs catching the light as he turns it left to right, like heâs worried itâs a fake. You can tell why people want these things so much; thereâs a thrill in you that lingers, makes you feel warm and alert. Itâs anticipation, despair, excitement, and triumph all in one sitting.
Youâre stroking the smooth curve of the design by the ears lightly when Mark speaks up again and says the most outrageous thing.
âI want you to have it.â
âWhat?â You actually have to pop your ear canal in front of him with your pinky to make sure he knows how ludicrous he sounds. âThis is⊠you said it was crazy rare.â
âYeah. And you pulled it, with your magic. Thatâs like⊠unimaginable luck. Even more than beginnerâs luck.â
âLike I said, I literally just opened the box.â
âNo â you have like⊠the golden touch.â
âPlease,â you hiss, a genuine testiness to your voice. âDo not. I was just here for the ride â the experience, and all.â
âSeriously, take it.â
âAbsolutely notââ
Itâs a chaotic moment of him trying to hand you the figurine and you outright rejecting it, with both your palms working hard to push it back to him. Instead of nudging the plastic back, though, you end up placing the full force of your hands against his fingers.
Thereâs no actual spark when you touch, but your reactions make it feel like there might as well have been; you even lock eyes in startled unison, like you canât believe that just happened, before you pull away quickly, Mark drawing the figuring back to his torso while looking away towards the counter, where a lowerclassman is wiping down the stains. You want to scream at your warped reflection in the window. You barely initiate contact with him, but you imagine that if you ever did, you would prefer to not be saying something as abjectly negative as absolutely not while doing so.
Your mind flails in an attempt to mitigate the issue and water down the embarrassment, and clearly heâs struggling to figure it out too, because he pipes up before you can piece your thoughts together.
âNo, really.â His tone is a lot milder and, consequently, a lot more persuasive this way. âYou should take it. I want you to.â
âItâs not mine. This is your thing â your hobby.â
âThatâs why Iâm giving it to you. I swear â I want you to keep it.â
âWhy?â
He lapses into silence again, but his face is much redder than earlier. His mouth opens in an attempt to say something, but he just manages to uh his way back into a state of quiet, which gives you a chance to speak instead.
âWe can⊠share it,â you suggest. âShared custodyâŠ. ish.â
His eyebrow cocks involuntarily, and his jaw falls again, but all he does in actual response is nod â slowly at first, then with more sureness to the act.
âYeah. We can share it. Iâd⊠like that.â
Youâre glad that the bulk of the awkwardness has fizzled out fairly easily, and when you think about it, this feels like a pretty good course of action; you like that itâs this little link between the two of you now â something you share that no one else can touch.
Mark, you notice, is smiling as well â more to himself than towards you, it seems. His thumb grazes across the face of the figurine, slow across the lips, and youâre once again falling into a pit of nonsense by wondering when heâd do that to you.
âThanks for staying with me, _________,â he finally says, and your heart jolts and melts all at once. âAnd for⊠doing this. For chatting with me. And giving me your luck, and all that. Great way to end the day⊠with you.â
You say no problem, but you instantly regret it when you realize you could have just said it didnât have to end just yet.
â__________? Hello? Come back down to Earth?â
âShut up,â you sigh at the guy seated across you â Seo Youngho, an upperclassman, your Gender Studies classmate, and current project partner, waves in front of your face. You shoo his hand away, which only joins his other one as he throws them in defeat above his head. âStop moving. Be quiet. Donât talk.â
âThatâs the same thing as shut up and be quiet. Whatâs up with you?â He demands. âFifteen minutes ago, you were full of ideas. Now I feel like Iâm talking to a wax figure.â
Youâd been engrossed in your report for the last hour and a half, and the subject matter is admittedly something you enjoy â the role of gender in Twenty-First Century Korean marketing and advertisement, a title Youngho had taken more than ten minutes to type into the Google Docs header because he was pissed off at how the numbers looked like in the fonts he chose. Heâs an enthusiastic classmate and someone youâve come to be friendly with, not only because heâs genuinely approachable but also because he has fits of nosiness and talkativeness at the strangest moments, so a chunk of your relationship is mostly based on social terrorism on his part. You like him well enough most of the time â save for the last fifteen minutes of this hour.
Because Mark had just come in for his shift fifteen minutes ago, and suddenly Youngho is much too noisy for your taste, and his head is honestly way too big to the point that it gets in the way of your opportunities to see Mark behind the counter. You even resent him for choosing a booth instead of your usual table all of a sudden, because your view of the central baristaâs area is much more limited from this angle, especially since the huge espresso machine is in the of your field of vision.
Youâre also (currently and abruptly) mad at Youngho because you remember that heâs the reason youâve had to skip out on a couple of sessions with Mark. Like, it technically isnât his fault that you have a lot of research to do for the literature review section of the paper, nor is it his fault that this is your final requirement that comprises a whopping forty percent of your grade, but like⊠youâll blame him anyway. So youâre much more irritable, and youâve definitely been missing Markâs presence. In fact, you kind of just want to shove Younghoâs balloon head away and call Mark over to sit with you, but youâre not that much of an animal to actually do that.
Probably.
There had been inquisitiveness across Markâs face when heâd come in; his eyes had trailed to the table at which you usually sat, surprised to find two guys hunched over a single phone there instead of the usual you, waiting for him with your eyes bright and your smile wide. Youâd like to think itâs because heâs gotten as used to seeing you as youâre used to waiting to see him â like he just expects you to be there.
You hadnât really known how to call his attention to where you were, especially since Youngho was prattling very matter-of-factly about the academic journal heâd unearthed yesterday and how he thought it would be useful in reshaping the methodology of your paper (whatever). There was a moment in which you briefly considered ordering another cup of coffee just to get in line to talk to him, but your hands were already shaking from the venti youâd had to keep yourself from passing out in front of your partner.
So youâre more than relieved when, half an hour into his shift, Mark finally steps out from behind the huge machine, a mug of water for himself in hand, and turns away from the front of the store to drink it â only for your eyes to lock as he twists his torso in your general direction.
The mug stops just inches from his lips, but you could swear he smiles at you briefly when he recognizes you, so you return the favor. Younghoâs face contorts into abject befuddlement, turning around to see what youâre grinning at.
âOh, you poor sap,â he snorts, finally letting the puzzle pieces fall into place.
âWhat?â Youâre still distracted even if Mark has taken a gulp of water and is now attending to a gaggle of girls still in the throes of discussing what to order.
âWhat what? You gonna spend the rest of the day eyefucking Mark Lee from over here? At least let me get a different table.â
âShut up,â you repeat sullenly, coming back down to his level and finally â albeit reluctantly â meeting his eye (just because Mark isnât looking your way). âWhat were you saying about the sample size?â
âThat itâs much too large to be feasible, a point we closed twenty fucking minutes ago,â he says pointedly. âIs it a thing for baristas or a thing for smart guys?â
âItâs a thing for Mark Lee,â you sigh, following Younghoâs suit and shutting your laptop close. Youâre at least glad heâs not annoyed that youâre delaying work for a crush, or maybe heâs also just equally lazy at this point. âYou ever look at someone and think you would give it all up for a chance to hit that?â
âNo, because this isnât a porn movie, and Iâm clearly not the main character in whateverâs going on in there.â He jabs at your forehead; you swat his hand away again.
âWell, I would.â
He rolls his eyes. âSo do it, dumbass.â He says this so simply, like he canât imagine why youâd be holding yourself back, which is a valid thing to feel, except itâs not really any of his business.
âCanât.â
âBecause?â
âBecause it doesnât fit into my elegant master plan. Also because I want him to ask me out. I just want that victory.â
âOh yeah, there it is.â Youngho leans over, wiggling his fingers at your ears like heâs greeting a next-door neighbor. âHey, delusion. Good to see you. Do you even understand how crazy it is that youâre taking a Gender Studies class while waiting for your dick-in-shining-armor like a damsel in distress?â
âAsshole,â you grumble, violently opening your laptop monitor again. âGet back on Google Drive.â
Thankfully, Youngho complies, and the next two hours pass in relative silence and productivity, with you hammering out a vague references list that he promises to format in your stead so you can âspend more time dreaming about Mark Lee between your legs.â You want to strangle him, but there are far too many people in the cafe for you to get away with it. Also, aforementioned Mark Lee would only be a witness to your criminal record, and while you think thereâs something romantic in killing for love, or whatever, youâre not sure itâd make the best impression on him.
âNext weekâs my birthday,â Youngho announces as he stands to tug on his jacket.
âCongratulations,â you say wryly, peeking over his bulletin board torso to see Mark tugging off his apron and picking up his school bag. Your heart hammers in your chest as he looks over at you briefly, and something like embarrassment passes over his face before he busies himself with neatly folding the fabric. âGo away.â
âUsually people look uncomfortable for not knowing and then start thinking about what gifts to get the celebrant, but I always felt you were kind of a revolutionary.â He snaps his fingers right in front of your eyes, and you look up at him, a little offended. âIâm having a get-together â and by get-together, I mean itâs gonna be a rager. You should come.â
âWhen?â
âNext Thursday.â
âCanât,â you chew on your lip, wondering if Mark is leaving. His movements seem particularly slow, but you wonder if heâs just taking his sweet time because he has nothing better to do. Of course, he would have something better to do if Youngho stopped fucking obscuring you from him and vice versa. âBusy. School⊠whatever.â Not completely untrue. Most of what you do with Mark has to do with school.
âThis moony-eyed thing is just not for you, I fear.â
âAre you going to be here all day?â
âAre you? Why donât you just fucking ask him out, you lunatic?â You canât imagine why he sounds so exasperated. Itâs not like this is his problem â or his business, for that matter. âMaybe if you did, you could fuck him and move on with your life and be an actual contributor to societyâs development.â
âHas anyone ever told you how nosy you are?â
âConstantly.â He brings his palms down on the table, the thud shaking you out of another oncoming stupor. âThink about it. Maybe itâll make you stop making that stupid face.â
âYouâve got a stupid face,â you mumble, sulking as he pinches your cheek as a goodbye before heading out of the shop.
At least you finally get to see Mark in full, glorious view â and you get to watch him come closer, although his stride is somewhat cautious.
âHey.â Even his voice sounds unsure â almost like the way he used to sound earlier in your friendship. âI didnât want to interrupt you and⊠your friend?â
âOh. Well, you wouldnât have been interrupting,â you inform him, completely genuine. âHe was spouting a lot of nonsense.â
âYou guys seemed pretty close.â
âI guess itâs a proximity thing,â you sigh, and Mark raises his eyebrows slightly in question. âWeâre partners.â
âOh.â The way he draws out the syllable is slow. âThat definitely makes sense.â
The silence stretches out between the two of you again, with Mark checking his shoelaces. You almost grab your head; it hadnât occurred to you until now how damaging missing meetings with him would be to your friendship. You feel like youâre slowly being dragged back to square one, and you want to give him an explanation.
âHeâs actually⊠I havenât been able to see you because Iâve been working on something with him.â you offer, trying to answer a question he didnât even ask. âSorry about that. I swear Iâll be back on track tomorrow.â
âNo, no â I completely understand.â He pauses thoughtfully. âThank you⊠for telling me, though. Iâ uh, appreciate that.â
âIâd love to see you tomorrow, though.â You try injecting more pep into your voice. âIâve really been behind on my algebra. Iâve definitely been drowning without you.â
âOh, yeah.â A small smile graces his lips, but you canât tell if the reluctance behind it is from fatigue or something that looks oddly like sadness. âIâm down for tomorrow. Same time, same table, right?â
âYeah, for sure.â
âCool. See you, _________.â
You watch him turn on his heel, walking to the front door, and something like fear mingled with desperation clutches your heart. Fuck the traditional route, you think. You donât know what it is about how heâs acting now, but itâs making you feel like heâs slipping through your fingers. All that hard work â thereâs no way youâre letting him go.
âMark, wait.â
Youâre at his side, fingers curled into the sleeve of his jacket before you can figure out exactly what you want to say. You feel as surprised as he looks at your sudden liveliness in action, and his gaze trails from your clenched fist to your face slowly, like heâs trying to memorize this whole position.
Your exhaleâs shaky, but even still, you try not to sound overtly self-conscious when you ask, âDo you like Chinese food?â
Something in the furrowing of his brows tells you he canât seem to see where this conversation is headed, and that slightly bothers him. âI like it well enough. Why?â
âThereâs this really good dim sum buffet near my momâs office. We tried it before â the Xiaolongbao is awesome.â
âHey, that sounds pretty cool. I love Xiaolongbao. Iâll definitely have to check it out then.â
You want to tear your hair out. âHow about â you know, checking it out with me? Tonight? You know⊠together. With me.â You already fucking said that.
Youâve never seen Mark blink this rapidly; he looks like heâs trying to crunch large numbers in his head. A small part of you actually worries that heâs malfunctioning, but just when you think heâs going to glitch out completely, he clears his throat. It bothers you how uncomfortable he looks. âTonight? Oh man⊠itâs my cousinâs birthday tonight. I canât⊠reschedule. Well, obviously. Maybe some other⊠time?â
Your âoh, yeahâ is small, and so is the ghost of Markâs smile. You canât help but feel like heâs pitying you a little, although he doesnât seem like the type, but the thought of it alone makes you want to puke. He makes no motion to move, and you think heâs extending this awkward moment out on purpose until you realize youâre still hanging onto him and he has no way of telling you to let go nicely.
Fingers unfurling from his sleeve, you take a careful step back, but when he walks away, it feels like youâve gone much, much further away.
The worst part is that you canât even figure out why.
Luckily, the next few times you see Mark, you manage to rebuild a rather shaky bridge back to where you had been. You even manage to strong-arm him into sharing an apple fritter one afternoon, and you know itâs a bit sad to think about it a particular, untrue way, but you canât help but pattern what youâre doing into some kind of pseudo-date. Pathetic isnât a word you normally associate yourself with, but youâve been borderline desperate for progress where there seems to be none, so you take small victories where you can get them.
Unfortunately, you havenât been able to revisit your stupid dim sum plan; sometimes, he says he has somewhere important to be, but most of the time, itâs actually your fault. No â itâs Younghoâs fault, because he keeps bothering you to finish the project. Youâre aware that he canât do it himself, but since heâs informed of your current plight, he could at least stand to be more sympathetic.
And you hate the way Mark looks every time you splutter out that you have to take a rain check for that reason; itâs not even disappointment, or something, which would be much more understandable. Itâs this mysterious kind of faraway look, where his eyes glaze over a bit and he seems suddenly very lost in thought â or completely dissociated. He never strays away from his normal response of ânext time, then,â but that ânext timeâ fades into the weekend and into the start of next week, and you have to spend every other evening with an annoying Seo fucking Youngho on a Google Meets call instead of eating soup dumplings loveshot style with Mark Lee.
Thursday night rolls around, and the former performs the most irritating stunt yet: blowing up your phone with so many KakaoTalk messages that it almost buzzes off the table during your session with Mark. Luckily, he seems to have learned a thing or two from his comic books, catching it before it hits the floor.
âYou sure you donât want to answer it?â He asks, gingerly handing the phone to you like heâs afraid itâs going to explode from all the pinging.
âWithout the shadow of a doubt,â you sigh, flipping the screen downwards. Buzz.
âIt kind of seems important. Or, like⊠urgent.â
âHeâll live. Unfortunately.â
Mark falls silent, fiddling with the page heâs on. Heâs neatly highlighted the formulas on the page with blue ink, and his finger keeps scratching at the slightly wet paper. Buzz.
âDidnât you say you two were partners?â
âYes. Also unfortunately.â Youngho is actually a great person, but you kind of hate how Markâs paying more attention to his texts than to you right now. âWhat did you get for number ten?â Buzz.
âA hundred and tweâ are you really just going to let it keep ringing like that? What if heâs⊠I donât know. In trouble? Like, he needs you?â
You smack your phone on its back, hoping that the punishment reaches Youngho because he absolutely is in trouble â only with you. âHeâs just making a racket because itâs his birthday and he probably wants a bunch of people to trash his parentsâ house, or something.â
âSounds like fun.â The dubious tone in Markâs voice indicates that his idea of fun definitely isnât that. Buzz.
âNot really, but I assume heâll only pipe down if he manages to get his way.â
âHe must really want you there.â
There it is again â that weird, distant expression that makes you feel like heâs trying to free himself from the tethers of the earth. You close your textbook in defeat; it wasnât even like you got the answer to number ten correct anyway. Buzz.
âHe just wants everyone there, I bet. But I probably should show up so he shuts up.â
âOh â yeah, okay. Weâll call it a day, then?â Heâs avoiding your eye as he starts packing his things, which is actually impressive because you have practically nothing but your book to keep in comparison to his pencils and protractor, so you just stare, willing him to look at you.
You want to know whatâs going on in his head. You want to know whatâs going on in his heart â what he thinks of you, why he seems warm one second then almost like a stranger the next. You want to know if he knows you like him and if him not doing anything even if he knows is a sign that he doesnât like you back. You want to know if heâd let you kiss him, if heâd kiss you first, if you can meet not because of sweet cream cold brews or algebra but because you just want to be together.
You just donât know how to ask. For as much as you like him, for as much as you want him, you havenât figured out the most basic part of this â if you mean anything more than a two hour talk to him at all.
âMark.â This feels awfully like the dim sum conversation, only somehow ten times more disastrous. âCome with me.â
âSorry?â The appalled look on his face makes you squirm in your seat.
âI donât really want to go, but maybe if we go together⊠we can just hang out a bit and leave once itâs boring⊠I think itâd be fun,â you explain lamely, deciding at the last second to drop the with you that had originally come with your sentiment.
âI donât think your⊠partner will like someone uninvited showing up.â
âIâm inviting you.â
âIâm pretty sure thatâs not how it works.â
âYouâd be, like, my saving grace or something â my excuse to scram. Weâll say we came right from a study session; we only popped in halfway through for the sake of greeting him a happy birthday. Then we can just go. We can say â uh, weâve got more work to do.â Youâre practically begging him at this point, and you donât even get why. You just donât want him to leave looking the way he does â confused and a little detached. You want the Mark that had smiled at you while giving you your coffee â the one that had kindly pointed out an arithmetic mistake in the most gentle way possible. You want to open blind boxes with him, whine about your rotten luck, and part ways with his warmth still against your coat sleeve.
You donât know what comes over you then, but you pluck up the courage and initiative to slip your hand in his. He stiffens a little, but you donât care; your fingers squeeze his in urging.
Something in his expression breaks â cracks first, then falls away, before heâs nodding, still looking vaguely thoughtful.
âIf you think itâll help you, then⊠okay.â
The bus ride to Younghoâs neighborhood is uneventful because itâs quiet. You stand close to Mark at all times, but you barely touch, save for the times your knuckles accidentally brush his when you lurch forward slightly as the vehicle comes to a dangerously abrupt stop. He doesnât ask anything about the party or the company thatâll populate it, which is just as well, because you donât have a clue.
You know itâs the right house because the doorâs wide open and thereâs music coming from inside; you canât make out much more than the deep bass pumping through the concrete, but youâre pretty sure itâs making your heart jump in your chest even more than it already is. There are quite a few people you vaguely recognize on the lawn, and even more that you absolutely donât; a good number of them glance at you and Mark as you step through the threshold then look away, probably deciding youâre of no real consequence or harm to their moods.
Younghoâs easily spottable because of his massive height; he towers over the rest of his guests, and the red plastic cup in his hand calls even more attention because heâs lifted it over everyone elseâs heads. You throw Mark an apologetic glance that he responds to with a short nod before you dive into the crowd alone, trying to weave your way to where youâd last seen Youngho.
âBro, finally!â Youngho greets you, pretty much shouting over the music. âWhereâs the gift? Did you leave it on the table?â
âHappy birthday, Youngho. Do you know how close you were to being blocked?â
âI see you brought mister espresso with you,â he ignores your comment completely, nodding to Mark. When you turn back to see him, you notice heâs squishing his arms closer to his sides, trying to minimize the space he takes up. âSo what? Yâall get to hook up already?â
âNo. I brought him here because we were in the middle of something and someone,â you stop, offering him a pointed look thatâs also ignored. âWouldnât stop texting.â
âCockblock,â the guy next to Youngho, who you now realize has been eavesdropping, singsongs. âOh, sorry. You looked angry when you stomped through the crowd, so I wanted the juicy details. Nameâs Jaehyun.â
You take the hand he offers you briefly, introducing yourself. When you say your name, realization dawns on his face, and he jabs his forefinger at you.
âOh, dude. Youâre that girl â the Starbucks Showstopper.â
âThe what?â
âThatâs what his friends call you.â He scratches his ear, seemingly racking his brain for more information. âIâm with Mark and a couple of his friends â Lee Donghyuck and Na Jaemin â in College Algebra.â
You completely gloss over the fact that youâve finally found out the real government identity of the mysterious figure named âHyuck.â âThey⊠talk about me?â
âFrom time to time. Not really. Once or twice. Donghyuck only calls you that because Mark apparently keeps blowing them off to hang out with you.â
âHow do you know this?â
âI have ears. Itâs not hard when they talk like no oneâs around.â
You shush Younghoâs exclamation of and youâre saying Iâm nosy?, your heart hammering hard in your ears, practically drowning out the music. âWhat⊠what else did they talk about?â
âNot sure. Something about not seeing you that often these days. Jaemin teasing Mark about getting dropped now that you donât need his help anymore. Donghyuck piling on and saying youâve got a boyfriend.â
âWhat?â
âDonât shoot the messenger.â Jaehyun still inches away from you when your voice rises in pitch and decibel. Some people around you start, then move away as well, as if scared youâre going to incinerate them. âThey were just teasing him that you probably ditched him after you started dating someone. Your partner in some project, or what.â
âOh gross.â The realization hits you like a speeding truck. Younghoâs expression is affronted.
âFirst of all, you bitch. Second of all, as if I would date someone who didnât even buy me a gift. Or want to come. Or yelled at me after coming. Wow â now that I think about it, youâre terrible, _________.â
âOh, shit; that someone was you?â The only person that isnât tense in this conversation is Jaehyun, who laughs point blank at Younghoâs sour face. âI think they were offering to put you into one of their Death Note notebooks. Sucks for you, hotshot.â
âWhat a smudge on my good name,â Youngho sighs mournfully. âOn my special day, too.â
âI desperately need you two to be quiet for one second. I have to â whereâs Mark?â
Even when you stand on your tiptoes, youâre not nearly as tall as the two of them; itâs Youngho, with his freakish height, who manages to spot Mark by the bowl of nachos, looking as though heâs trying to decide if theyâre safe for consumption. You hardly excuse yourself; actually, all you say is a distracted âlaterâ that dismisses Jaehyunâs cooing that somethingâs going down and you should clue him into all the mess later as a thank you. Your appreciation of his sudden and somewhat short-lived presence in your life is still up in the air.
Markâs busy making a sour face at the sip of punch heâd just taken; he only straightens up when youâre right in front of him, putting his cup down next to the nachos. âHey. Did you get to find⊠umâŠâ
âThatâs not important.â Your hand bunches the fabric of his jacket in a death grip, something he barely has time to register, let alone question, before youâre tugging him through the throng of people. You want somewhere quiet, somewhere private, and you initially consider the lawn, except you know itâs strewn with cups and has stragglers debating whether to go home or not. You canât risk any of them being expert eavesdroppers like Jaehyun, so you make a beeline for the stairs instead.
âWeâre not leaving yet?â He has to shout over the music, but thereâs no resistance in his stride; he follows you up and waits patiently, although a little perplexed, as you check the doors on the second floor. Two are locked, one is a bathroom, and the other is a messy, musk aftershave-scented place you can only presume is Younghoâs room. Talking in front of a sink and a toilet doesnât feel like itâll be very productive, so you just drag Mark into the bedroom, kicking aside the crumpled shirt on the floor â which you couldâve sworn youâd seen Youngho wear for class yesterday. â_________, whatâs going on?â
âMark Lee,â you burst out, ignoring the fact that his eyes widen slightly at your tone. âWhatâs your fucking deal?â
You donât think youâve ever sworn in front of him before; that much is evident when he continues to gawk silently, unable to find words to respond to your question. Or maybe itâs just the volume and force with which you demand an answer. The problem is that you donât even know what kind of reply you want. A small part of you nags that this is uncalled for, especially at this level, with you practically caging him into an unknown room. In fact, even now, youâre still embarrassed at your behavior, wondering if youâve gone too far and stepped over a line between you.
But the source of all your frustrations is, in fact, that line â one so strangely drawn, clear at some points and almost invisible at others. Sometimes, he seems simply content with the barest minimum of friendship: talking to you, helping you, politely laughing at your (terrible) jokes. But there are also times he blushes too hard for it to not mean anything, times that he makes you feel like you could mean a little something more to him too.
Yet, from there, he wavers, stepping back so as not to get entangled in something you donât understand â like when he grows distant every time you mention Youngho to him. You donât understand why he would unless he echoed, even just a little, the longing in you. But you also donât get why he stays and builds more walls around himself, like heâs determined to ignore all the other signs â like he doesnât want to know if itâs really true and will just accept the assumption that it is. You hate not knowing where you stand with him, and while you could easily ask, you know you donât want to.
And for a long time, youâve convinced yourself that itâs because you want to see Mark step out of his comfort zone and initiate something, but the ugly truth is staring at you: itâs simply just that you canât stand the idea of seeing him come to the conclusion that you canât be anything more to him than someone he makes a sweet cream cold brew for every so often.
Thereâs a moment of tense silence between you two, where youâre just staring at each other â him, perplexed, and you, agitated â and the only sound that passes is the faint but unmistakable voice of Youngho going who has the cake cutting knife? from somewhere down below. You try not to get caught up in the fact that Mark still looks cute when heâs dumbfounded.
âSorry?â
âWhat,â you repeat pointedly. âIs your deal? Why have you been acting so weirdly around me these days? I thought â I thought we were⊠getting closer. I thought⊠weâŠâ
Youâve confirmed it now; youâre the epitome of cowardliness. You canât even say I thought we liked each other â because you know that you do, but you still canât honestly, assuredly tell if he does. Maybe you just read too deeply into the smallest things â smiles before he asks for your order, glances at you when he thinks youâre not looking, sharing the dream eater figurine â to fuel your own emotions without really checking the depth of his.
âI thought we were cool,â you reroute your words, and they come out flat and lame. âBut just when I think youâre warming up to me, you suddenly pull away. Like⊠youâre afraid of me. Or you donât like me. I donât know.â
âItâs not â I donât â Iâm not afraid of you,â he stumbles over his words, and even in the darkness of this space, you see his face turn bright red, very quickly. His feet shuffle, not because heâs lost his balance but because he seems to want to get rid of a sudden restlessness. âI do like you. We are â we were getting â weâre close. We â weâre friends. You said that, and we are.â
âIs it only because I say we are that you agree?â
âWhat? No, Iââ His hand passes over his face, slowing at the curve of his chin. âI really like being friends with you. I like being around you.â
âThen why do you act so weird these days? Like â youâll be fine one moment, then youâll back off, like you suddenly remembered you donât want to be around me.â
âItâs not like that. Iâm â I donât getâŠâ He takes a deep inhale, recalibrating himself for a moment before his voice comes out again, less strained this time. âI just donât want you to feel uncomfortable around me.â
âHow could I?â Thereâs something more than confusion coloring your voice; thereâs hurt, too, and he looks as surprised as you feel at hearing it. âI wanted to be your friend. I was the one that asked you to hang out. I was the one who wanted you to talk to me, to help me, to go to a goddamn dim sum place with me. Why would I feel uncomfortable? Or are you just using this as some roundabout way to say you feel uncomfortable?â
Mark falls silent, and you donât know why this speaks volumes all of a sudden. His eyes are trained to the tips of his sneakers, which are rising in soft bumps every few seconds; heâs curling his toes inside them. You feel like youâve gotten the worst answer possible, and something grows cold in your chest.
âYou feel uncomfortable around me.â You rehash, but itâs no longer a question. âYou donât know how to get rid of me.â
âNo, itâs not that.â
âYou think Iâm only using you.â
âNo.â
âThen what?â Your voice breaks, no longer out of anger, but a desperate sadness. The moment your eyes feel hot and prickly, you decide you want to end the conversation. Itâs embarrassing, you think, for someone like Mark Lee â whom you like, who only ever sees you as a friend â to see you get choked up at a fucking birthday party at someone elseâs house.
A beat later, youâre mumbling a half-hearted forget it, and you detest overdramatics, but you hate the idea of being in a room with someone whoâll never return your feelings even more right now; you push past him, already on the thought of calling a cab home instead of taking the bus so that no half-drunk businessmen coming from their company dinners see you crying.
But something warm wraps around your wrist, then closes over your hand, and youâre unable to move, Markâs palm pressed against the back of yours. When you look back, you notice heâs still not looking at you, but his ears are practically on fire with how red they are, and you feel his fingers tighten slightly, tremble slightly against yours.
âItâs not that. I didnât ever want you to think â I heard about you two. That you were dating someone. Seo Youngho.â
âWhat does that matter?â Your words come out a little more bitterly than you expect, and you have to remind yourself to reel it in. âThat doesnât explain your discomfort.â
âI didnât want to make you uncomfortable,â he repeats, still evidently careful in choosing his words. âBecause you wanted to be friends.â
âI donât understand,â you state bluntly. In the back of your mind, you note that Markâs grip keeps tightening and loosening, unsure of whether to keep holding on or let go. But thereâs something else, too â the soft graze of skin against yours, his thumb gliding over your knuckles.
âThat was all you said you wanted to be, right?â He waits for a response, but when you donât give him one, he lets out a shaky breath and continues. âYou kept saying â we were friends. You wanted us to be close like that. I just wanted to respect it, even ifâŠâ
âRespect what?â
âThat you didnât want⊠anything else.â
The music downstairs is a bit tamer now; you hear the door opening and closing every so often, signaling guests leaving here and there, but there are still enough footsteps downstairs for you to know that thereâs a crowd Youngho hasnât gotten rid of and therefore has to attend to. That much is good; youâd get slapped with a homicide charge if he came up here all of a sudden.
âYou were jealous.â
Markâs fingers pinch the bridge of his nose for a moment. âI tried to stop. I donât have a lot of practice with â well, I didnât know how to approach the situation. I thought I was still acting normally; I didnât think⊠I didnât want you to feel weird and stop hanging out with me just because⊠I couldnât fix it.â
âYour friends are assholes,â you mumble, and he finally meets your eye, equal parts startled and amused. âWe arenât. Werenât. We never were dating.â
âEven without that, I thought⊠it was a bit embarrassing. Liking someone like you â someone as pretty as you, as nice as you â I thought it would make you feel weird. Then youâd start avoiding me too. Or, worse, youâd keep doing it just because⊠you⊠felt bad for me.â
You donât know what you find more ridiculous â that you hadnât seen figured it out or that you could have avoided all of this if youâd just been a little more honest with him too. Markâs hand starts loosening around yours, a little too much, and you turn your palm and grip his hand before he can escape. He stiffens again, just like earlier, but you now understand better why he does.
âI just wanted to keep hanging out with you as much as I could. I thought⊠Itâd be fine, just spending time with you, and Iâd be able to like you for a while, on my own, thenâŠâ He looks a little pained. âThen just let you go. Iâm sorry.â
âSorry you couldnât let go?â You sigh softly, your palm guiding his until they connect, face to face, and you can finally lace your fingers into his. Thereâs no resistance, but his hand trembles slightly in yours still. âIf thereâs anything you should be apologizing for, itâs that you ever thought of doing it.â
Something clears in the air, lightens in his expression, and he chuckles, albeit a little shyly still. âItâs because I never thought someone like you would like someone like me.â
âI like you.â And it feels right to say it now, not at all out of the blue, never in fear of an answer heâs already given. âI like you when you smile at me every time you ask for my order. I like that you never get impatient when Iâm getting my answers wrong. I like seeing you excited when you talk about a new series youâre looking forward to â something new you really want to collect. When you blush, when you laugh loudly, when you spin your pen in your hand â I like you in all those times.â
âEven when Iâm jealous?â
âEspecially when you are.â Your free hand comes up to cup his jaw, and youâre reminded of the fact that youâve wanted to feel the strength of the angle under your palm for ages now. Itâs not at all a disappointment, and your heart flutters irregularly in knowing you couldâve done this a long time ago, but it doesnât matter because youâre doing it now, and fuck if Mark Lee doesnât look good this close to you. âSo be jealous â because now, you know you can be.â
Kissing him is better than you imagined, and youâve imagined a little too much to be embarrassed at this point; thereâs a heat to his lips that matches the one across his face, an upturn to them that makes you smile too. The settingâs not at all an expected one, but youâll take it, not because itâs dark or because itâs private but because Markâs in here with you, and you would have kissed him in a brightly lit football field full of people for as long as heâd let you.
Youâd like to think heâs flushed for a reason other than shyness when you pull away, even if his laugh is quiet and breathy. In fact, when you murmur not enough, heâs the one that closes the gap this time, offering freely what you ask for with such little eloquence. The natural trepidation in his mouth relaxes, gives way to a curiosity that keeps you locked for so long that you forget you need to breathe, much more intent on finding out if Markâs tongue tastes as good as youâve imagined for so long.
It doesnât; it tastes even better.
Itâs still not enough, not by a long shot, but you have to resurface before you pass out like this, and even he looks a little dazed when you pull away â not in a bad way, with a grin on his face that you can only classify as endearingly goofy: slightly lopsided and a little shy, but with an unmistakable air of satisfaction.
âMonths,â he mumbles, his lips still dangerously close to yours. Your eyebrows rise in questioning, and he laughs in that infectious way that makes you want to join in without even knowing what the punchline is. âIâve been thinking of kissing you for months.â
And you do share the laughter this time, not out of amusement but of a happiness that spills without restraint. âBut youâre suddenly holding back now?â
âJust letting myself bask in the moment, I guess. Letting it sink in so I remember everything.â
The two of you stand there quietly, still trying to fully parse the progression of events, and a small part of your mind registers that Markâs thumb is still drawing circles on your skin. Itâs also not enough â this touch, this closeness. You know now that heâs been thinking of you for months, and it reminds you that you spent that time dreaming of him too. And you remember youâve always wanted to be even more familiar with him, and suddenly the desire is overwhelming; heâs right here, and you donât ever want him out of your grasp again.
âWhere are you going?â Heâs only curious for the sake of it; thereâs no alarm in the question because you keep your fingers tightly woven in his, tugging him along as you walk past him to the door. Heâs still staring in wonder after the lock clicks shut. âWhatâs⊠happening now?â
âYou waited months to kiss me, right?â He nods in response at your question. âIâve been waiting just as long to have you too.â
His mouth falls open, but he doesnât manage to say anything; his jaw tightens just as quickly when he feels your free hand trail down his chest, feather-light and asking for a green light. Your index finger stops just above his navel and draws back slowly, but not before you feel the shiver that runs down his torso.
âWe donât have to if you donât want to,â you murmur, giving his hand a little squeeze. âBut I just want you to know â I want to. I want you.â
A thoughtfulness settles on his face, and his eyes graze over yours, trying to read your seriousness. You donât know how honest you look, but your words hold enough truth in them. A silence stretches over the next minute, but to you, it feels like an eternity, and you lose the test of patience somewhat, smiling softly at him.
âYou donât want to?â
âIââ His tongue peeks out, running over his bottom lip. âI do. Itâs not that I donât want to, butâŠâ
âYou seem worried.â
A hesitant nod. âIâve never â well, no, I have, but not â with someone like you.â
âWhatâs someone like me?â You laugh airily.
âSomeone pretty like you â I donât know. Someone who seems to know exactly what they want. Someone who seems like⊠they could do better than me.â
âMark.â You canât keep the incredulity out of your voice. âI do know exactly what I want. I want you. The rest â I donât care about. As long as itâs you, I want it.â
He cracks a smile, half of relief, half of disbelief. You donât miss his hand coming up to press, warm, against your waist. âFor real?â
Your fingers curl into the front of his shirt â an anchor to bring you closer, until the tips of your noses are brushing. âFor real.â
The third time you kiss is slow, almost careful; thereâs lingering worry in the line of his mouth that your lips try to ease until his slightly part under the movements of yours. You feel the tension leave his form in waves â first in his shoulders, then in his arms, until youâre able to press yourself closer and feel the slight give of his frame against your smaller one. Heâs radiating an immense amount of body heat thatâs pricking your skin and keeping you alert, and youâre hyperaware of the smallest things â the weak tremble in his mouth, the slight roughness of his teeth under your tongue, the ridges of his palate above it.
He tastes nothing like what he smells, you learn. Instead of the air of earthy coffee stuck to clean linen, you inhale a combination of spearmint and mild saltiness thatâs made slightly sharper by the lingering splash of alcohol from his accidental sip of punch earlier. You decide then and there that this disparity is important to you; it makes you feel like youâre the only one who can have this experience â that everyone else can know his scent, but now, only you can know what Mark Lee tastes like.
You have to keep your wits about you to avoid this addictive stimulation of your senses; you let go of his hand only to lock your fingers around his neck, and thereâs a show of trust in how he lets you lead him backwards, until his knees are hitting the edge of the unmade bed. The kiss breaks as heâs forced to settle on the mattress, and he looks up at you in what can only be described as a quiet kind of awe. He doesnât complain when you place your hands, heavy, on his shoulders, using his sturdy form to keep you stable as you move to straddle his lap.
âI feel like,â his voice is hoarse as he speaks up. âWe should have picked a different location. Someone⊠could walk in.â
âI locked the door,â you remind him, a light reassurance in your voice. He doesnât say anything immediately, but itâs clear there are cogs turning in his head, and you think itâs unfair that heâs thinking way too hard about something else that isnât you, right now, in this position. In a bid to rectify this, your face presses into the side of his neck, breathing in that familiar scent and leaving a light kiss on his skin right after. Your lips mark the moment he swallows hard at the contact. âBesides, would you really be that unhappy if someone did?â
His hands tighten against your waist, prompting you to leave another kiss against his collarbone. âWhat â what do you mean?â
âYou wouldnât like it if someone â say, Youngho â walked in to see me on your lap like this?â
The silence that follows your words is tense, and you can tell that Markâs breathing has become shallower. Again, you can feel his throat constricting slightly, and you canât help but laugh breathily as you nip at his skin, just under his Adamâs apple. Heâs surprisingly easy to tease, you realize â quick to turn speechless and prone to hanging onto your words.
To say that you wouldnât want to use that to your advantage would be a downright lie.
âTell me,â you urge, your tone deceptively gentle. âYou wouldnât want him to see you kissing me like this? To see me wrapped around you, begging for more, saying your name over and over? You donât want him to watch you take me â so he knows youâre the only one that can?â
A strangled groan punctuates your words, but it comes from him; his fingers dig hard into your side with barely constructed restraint. âWhat do you want from me, _________?â
âI want to know if kissing me was the only thing you wanted for months.â
You pull your head away, nudging his chin with the tip of your nose. Another groan escapes him, and his head tilts back slightly, almost like heâs praying. But when his gaze comes down to meet yours at your level again, you see a firm resolution in his eyes that stirs your heart â which takes off the moment he shakes his head, slowly but surely.
âThen,â you whisper. âWhat do you want from me?â
He doesnât say so much as shows; he takes from you your breath, steals another kiss thatâs now firmer and more openly demanding. Suddenly, his mouth canât seem to stay still, trapping your lower lip in between his, drawing out your taste until it mixes with his against his teeth. You feel your head growing light again, and youâre pleasantly surprised that itâs suddenly become difficult to keep up with his lips, asking more from you without restraint. A hum of need sounds in the back of his throat, vaguely dissatisfied, and heâs telling you wordlessly that it isnât enough right before he attaches his lips to the base of your neck, just above your collar. You think heâs just about to return the favor, but a laugh leaves you when you realize heâs taken it a step further, his teeth grazing your skin lightly, soft nips signaling how eager he is to sink his teeth in with only his slowly weakening self-control stopping him from doing it. Markâs breathing is slightly labored when he pulls his lips away, warm breath fanning over your chest.
âItâs crazy â and stupid,â he croaks out, voice slightly raspy. âBut I want it, and I donât.â
âWhat do you mean?â Your fingers drag into his hair, combing it upward messily from his nape. He leans in for a quick kiss thatâs somewhat misplaced, landing on the corner of your mouth instead of squarely atop it.
âI want them â him to see us. To see me with you, kissing you â fucking you, too. I want everyone to know weâre like this.â
Youâve never heard Mark say anything so forwardly before; a sweet, warm flush builds in your face, pleased at how comfortably he manages to say it â pleased that heâs saying it to you. âThen whatâs the problem?â
âI donât want him to see you.â Thereâs a bluntness to his words, but hiding behind them is an undertone of pleading â a serious request. âI donât want him to see how pretty you look. I donât want him to see you when youâre bare, or how you look when Iâm inside you. I donât want him to seeââ
His voice wavers and dies, and you wonder if heâs embarrassed, but when you read his expression, you see an unyielding longing. A smile tugs at your lips, and your hand comes around to cup his chin, thumb extending upwards to drag his lower lip down.
âYou donât want him to see whatâs only yours.â
He swallows hard again, but he doesnât wait long to nod. Understanding passes between the both of you, silently but completely, and Mark presses his face to your throat, feeling the hum resonate as he places another long, firm kiss there.
âYouâre mine,â he whispers, in a way that almost feels like he wants to convince himself of something impossible to believe. He doesnât even wait for your affirmation, prefers to read it in the way you shiver lightly once his lips travel further down. His kisses trail past the collar of your shirt, and his hands are unabashed in how they seek skin, pushing the fabric upward so he can settle the palms of his hands, warm against your waist. Oddly, they donât travel upwards; they only brush against the dip, down slightly over the upward rise of your hips, then upwards again, almost soothingly. Itâs almost like he wants his mouth to meet them, but he stops halfway, sidetracked by the curve of your breasts.
He barely pulls away, only does for a moment, enough to meet your eyes.
âYouâre only mine,â he repeats, his voice softer now. You realize heâs still waiting for some confirmation, and when you do, youâre quick to give it to him â quick to erase any doubt.
âIâm yours,â you affirm in the same tone, in the same careful volume. âOnly yours, Mark.â
Whatever else he wanted to ask for, he knows youâve given assent; that much is clear when he buries his face between your tits, inhaling your scent. You briefly wonder if he might feel just as intoxicated around you as you do around him, if your pleasant dizziness in being this close to him, in tasting and smelling him is something he experiences too, but you donât get much time to dwell on it the moment you feel his lips part, a slight wetness seeping through the fabric. Heâs kissing your chest, teeth grazing just above the cup of your bra, nipping without any real objective other than to feel the padâs slight resistance to his mouth.
You almost miss what he says as he shifts his head, lips brushing over the curve of your breast â another breathless âmineâ that isnât ever punctuated; his lips still stay parted, mouthing at the cloth, like heâs desperate to feel whatâs underneath through it. Thereâs pressure where his tongue presses flush against the shape of your tit, tightness whenever he chooses to nip, attempting to take the flesh and all thatâs between you and him between his teeth.
Not enough, you think, even when a whimper of need bubbles out of you; you want to be closer, your thighs pressing against the sides of his. Youâre close in almost every way, but you still inch yourself further forward, enough to feel the taut hardness in his jeans. Your hips settle right there, letting fabric ride against fabric as you center yourself.
No sooner do you press yourself flush against him do you gasp; the light sting sends a jolt up your spine when his teeth close around your nipple through your bra, and when you look down at him, you see the corners of his mouth pulled up in evident satisfaction. Heâs quick to atone, his tongue dragging your shirt slightly upwards in his attempt to soothe, and for some reason, the push of fabric and the barely-there feeling of motion leaves you tingling.
âMark.â Your voice comes out in a whine, but in the haze youâre in, you donât really have a clear idea of what youâre asking for. All you know is that you want more of him, and for as much as heâs already given you in kisses and words, you arenât even halfway down the list of everything else you wish you could demand from him. You say the only thing that comes to mind â the only thing that really encompasses what you feel. âMark, I want you. I want more of you.â
His hands on your waist are replaced by the significant tightness of his arms, locked around your torso; you donât even have the time to take in your awe at the fact that he can easily carry you, turn you over until youâre on your back, until heâs already eased one knee between your legs.
The way he looks down at you is a mixture of hesitation and desire, but the formerâs erased when you reach out for him, murmuring another âmoreâ so you can pull him in. With one palm pressed against the mattress, he lets his free hand graze against your side again, bolder in its movements, and his fingers trace a path up to your breast, squeezing the soft flesh through layers. Your back arches upwards in response, eager for more contact, for touch thatâs almost there but not quite, and he smiles when you make a noise of frustration from his fingers tweaking the soft nub of your nipple.
âMark, pleaseââ
âWould you really let him see you like this?â His thumbâs still idly grazing over your breast, following the rise and fall of its curve. You swallow hard, trying to keep your voice level despite the growing want that threatens to break through it. âWould you really let him watch you⊠get fucked?â
You shake your head, and his brow furrows.
âIâd let him watch you fuck me,â you correct him, and the confusion in his face gives way to pure satisfaction the moment you make this nuance clear. âIt has to be only you.â
His grip tightens briefly against your breast again, and he leans down, pressing a surprisingly chaste and brief kiss to your lips.
âThen Iâll unlock the door next time and give him a show.â
You donât know if itâs what he says or what he does after â his hands bunching your shirt upward until the hemâs just below your neckline â that makes your breath hitch, but you decide it doesnât matter when you realize youâd much rather be focusing on the journey his lips take, slick against your stomach as he presses languid kisses down to your navel. His fingers hook into the waistband of your jeans, the weight naturally pulling them down, and you see his muscles tighten for a moment as he stops himself from tugging them off completely.
Markâs mouth is unparalleled in its attentiveness, seemingly intent on making sure heâs covered every inch of your stomach in warm kisses, but you only realize heâs somehow stalling when he starts the cycle again, his nails digging into the taut elastic of your jeans as though to remind himself to curb his desire.
You take the initiative instead, raising your hips slightly to signal your want, acutely aware of the fact that you brush lightly against his thigh when you do so. His eyes lift first, followed by the rest of his face, and heâs watching you quietly. You might have thought he was unsure of what to do all of a sudden again, but his knee pressing closer, an unmistakable pressure against you, is enough to tell you that heâs only curious to know what else youâll do.
The second time you grind against his thigh, his hands catch your hips, keeping them aloft just long enough for him to tug the band of your jeans downward; he peels them off you with surprising ease, returning to the same position between your legs, hands still firm on your waist. With that done, he only has the thin garter of your panties left to curl his fingers into, bunching it into his fists when you roll your hips up one more time. You manage a shaky noise when you feel the stark difference â the roughness of the denim against you, the stick and drag of flimsy cloth. Mark lets out a low but unmistakable hiss.
âI canât believeââ his idea is cut short by the movement of your hips again, and his grip tightens, knuckles pressing into your skin. âCanât believe youâre here. I canât believe weâre doing this.â
âWhat am I supposed to do,â you breathe out, the sound momentarily getting stuck in your throat. âSo that you know itâs real?â
His fingers relax their hold, palms now pressed against your thighs; they travel between your hips and your knees, a soothing and thoughtful motion. âGod â I donât know. I just want â I just want you so badly. Like⊠Iâm going to go crazy if I donât have you now.â
You lean up, your weight resting on your elbow, and your other hand reaches out; Mark meets you halfway, bending just a little lower to press his cheek against your palm. Thereâs something intimate, something so giving about the way he turns his face to your fingers, pressing a fluttering kiss just under your thumb. The tips of your fingers trace the shape of his lips, even when they pucker again under your digits.
âTake me,â you murmur quietly. âRight now â from now on, every part of me is all for you.â
His exhale is shaky, but his fingers have a sureness to them; they slip under your thighs, cradling the backs of your knees, and lifting until theyâre folded over your chest. You donât even have the time to wonder if you should feel exposed all of a sudden; his breath warms the inside of your thigh as he presses his lips there â not a kiss, just a touch as he speaks.
âI want to taste you,â he mumbles, partly distracted with the act of inhaling the mild scent off of your skin. âEvery inch of you â I want to know just how sweet you are.â
He lets his hold on your thighs relax, letting them fall apart; he busies his hands with your panties instead, hooking a finger into the strip of cloth just covering you. Itâs clear youâre both aware that the fabric sticks light to your skin, poorly masking your wetness, and interest mingled with hunger flashes across his face as he pulls it aside.
âYouâre so pretty,â he says, sounding like itâs a comment more for himself than anything else. His gaze flickers to you for a moment before it moves back to your pussy. âThe prettiest fucking girl in the world.â
The pressure of his thumb between your folds causes you to forget what you wanted to say, and you know Mark had been nervous, but you realize that it doesnât mean heâs supremely inexperienced by any means; thereâs a quiet, understated confidence in the way he rubs slow, thorough circles, moving upward towards your clit. Your face, your neck, your whole torso feels flushed, but you power through the instinct to tilt your head back so that you can keep watching him â the minute changes in his expression, the slowly building strength in his touch.
âI want to taste you,â he repeats, looking up at you. âI want to know what you taste like when you cum against my mouth.â
Youâre not sure if youâre gawking because you can hardly believe Mark Lee â your eternally blushing, mild mannered campus crush â had said all those words strung together into such a lewd sentence, but youâre sure as hell not going to deny him. Your hand travels down your torso, and he watches, curious at first, then awestruck when your index and forefinger settle against either side of your folds, pulling them apart in offering.
His eyes end up transfixed on your pussy again, observing how your fingers ease your folds further apart the more he massages his thumb against your slit. His mouth is slightly agape, intent on drinking in the sight, unaware that youâre trying to memorize this view of him too â Mark Lee, touching you, wanting you, eager to take you fully.
âIâve always wanted to see what itâd look like with your face between my legs,â you say in a hushed tone, but he catches it anyway, briefly looking up at you again. âIâve always wanted to know what your tongue would feel like against my pussy.â
Your index finger bumps against the tip of his thumb, and he stops its motions, allowing you to move his digit down until the pad of it hovers just in front of your tiny hole. You can see one cheek tucked between his teeth, bitten to muffle the groan you wish youâd heard louder.
âWonât you show me?â
You think you hear him rasp out a âfuck yesâ before he bends down, pressing his half-open mouth against your pussy. The squeal of delight that leaves you is half-strangled as his thumb curls, hooking into your entrance. It starts a shallow, distracted motion, with his attention funneled much more clearly into keeping his tongue working. Flush against your slit, it drags up, and he releases a guttural noise at your taste, lips pursing slightly on the way back down â like he canât stand not trapping every drop of wetness with his mouth.
The intensity of his tongue, the idle thrusting of his thumb â youâre not sure what you want to focus on more, and the result is you whimpering incoherently at the starkly contrasting combination of the two. Mark moves his mouth like heâs never tasted anything as good in his life; the sounds between your thighs are wet, sloppy â almost embarrassingly so â but you donât have the presence of mind to dwell on that because Mark Lee is eating you out and thatâs really all that you can think of.
The tip of his tongue suddenly flicks upwards; you keen, long and low, when it starts to circle your clit in that same intense, circular movement his thumb had gotten you used to. Your sensitivity skyrockets, and youâre completely unable to control the upward bucking of your hips, but Mark stays supremely unperturbed, his free arm winding under your thigh to keep the both of you steady. Your noises are growing embarrassingly loud, and you realize just how needy youâve become when you vaguely notice that thereâs a pattern in what youâre saying â his name, over and over again.
âDid you do that too?â He asks softly, his words slightly muffled against you. âSay my name, I mean â when you thought of me.â
âGod, yes.â Your voice comes out strained, teetering on the edge of slurring. âSo many times â every single fucking time.â
âPromise me something.â He lifts his head, and you see a fieriness in his gaze.
You nod â at this rate, whatever heâd ask you to do, you would without question. âAnything.â
His thumb presses in deeper, up to his knuckle and you reflexively tighten around his digit, but he keeps it anchored there, pushing down against your walls. He drinks in your gasp, the widening of your eyes, the way you chew on your lip with a singular kind of contentment on his face.
âPromise me â from now on, youâll make sure Iâm always there to hear it.â
The only kind of assent youâre able to make is a moan as he dives down again, mouth buried in your warmth, his nose pressed tight against your clit. His tongue moves in strong strokes, broad swipes that push your folds apart further, and his thumb, while not moving, increases in pressure to the point that you feel a heaviness adding to the growing pleasure. Your hands fly down, seeking some kind of sense and reason, and you thread your fingers into his hair, grip tightening as your climax builds in stride.
âMark, Iâmââ close, you want to say, embarrassingly so, but the moment he hears his name, his lips attach to your clit, and thereâs suddenly so much more pressure as he sucks, almost like heâs desperate to draw out your orgasm. He chooses this of all time to start moving his thumb again, and this time, his movements are anything but slow and idle; theyâre filled with the intent to drive you over the edge. âFuck me, oh my godââ
âI want to,â he murmurs, pausing for just a moment to drag the tip of his tongue around the nub. âGod, I want to. Let me see you cum first; let me taste how sweet you are.â
His thumb stops, buries deep into your pussy, and youâre not sure why this, of all things, is what pushes you beyond control; youâre only half-sure you say his name when your orgasm hits, the rest of your consciousness much too clouded by pleasure. He doesnât stop, revels in the way you squirm under him as he hums low and keeps his tongue working against your clit. His licks become longer, more thorough as you come down from your high, your cries softening into whimpers as his tongue both attempts to clean you up and makes you messier in the process. His arm is still curled around your thigh, keeping you from inching away from him, even if instinct and stimulation are telling you to.
Youâre barely lucid when you sit up, and Mark inches back, somewhat startled; you grab the front of his shirt, and the sight of his mouth, slick and glistening from your wetness, only makes you more curious to know what you taste like on him. You find out how tangy it is, how rich the two of you are together on his lips, and youâre able to fully appreciate the skill of the mouth that kisses you deeply, leaving traces of you against your tongue and teeth.
âPlease â fuck me.â Itâs the only thing you can say at this rate, only half-coherent and still trembling with desire, but Mark doesnât seem to care that youâre stuttering over such a simple request. His thumb wipes traces of saliva off the corner of your mouth, kisses it clean for good measure, then straightens up, his hands working at his belt. You almost miss the fact that his hands are shaking slightly as he undoes the buckle and tugs it out from the loops.
You want to help â itâs the least you can do, after all, and your fingers push the button of his jeans out through the hole, his hands working in tandem to tug the zipper down. However, your movements falter when you hear a noise from just outside the room â the sound of the doorknob being jangled, the thud of a body gently hitting the door, as though worried itâs stuck. You glance up at Mark, ready to reassure him, but he either hadnât heard or doesnât care because heâs too busy stepping out from the pool of denim at his ankles, and you get completely sidetracked by the bulge straining against his boxers.
You almost ignore Younghoâs voice grumbling âJesus Christ, now of all times? from behind the door, but you leverage it instead.
âShould we let him in?â You ask, tone innocent despite the evident deviousness in your words. It pays off, though; Markâs cock twitches unmistakably under thin fabric, and he actually looks like heâs considering it. âYouâre just about to fuck me, after all. Werenât we going to â what did you say? Put on a show?â
He worries on his bottom lip, like heâs unsure if youâre serious, but in the end, he shakes his head, reaching out to smooth your hair away from your face and ushering you to lay back down. The lips that meet your forehead are gentle, almost apologetic.
âNot now,â he murmurs against your skin. âRight now, youâre all mine.â
You laugh lightly, nodding, and he chuckles too, but the sound of it slowly dies down when your finger hooks into the garter of his boxers. You can feel his breathing hitch as you tug it down, the elastic catching when it meets the shape of his cock, but you donât make any move to free it just yet â for some reason, you want to see him do it.
âShow me.â
He complies without hesitation, one hand dragging the elastic down over his thighs, the other curling around the base of his length, and your face flushes as satisfaction works through your system at the bare sight of him.
Mark Lee is big â not monstrously so, but enough for you to make a pleased noise as your hand joins his, fingers barely wrapping around his girth. You give his shaft a gentle squeeze, and his exhale stutters, watching you stroke him, long and thorough in your movements. Your palm swipes over the tip, leaking precum, allowing it to slick up your hand enough to keep your movements smooth. Youâre fixated on the tension in his lips, the throb of his cock against your palm, and the way his gaze never leaves your face, like a small, amazed part of him still canât believe what youâre doing, even if youâre both half-naked already.
âI want to suck you off,â you plead, grip tightening slightly. He grits his teeth, stifling another groan, but he shakes his head clearly enough for you to slow your movements in mild surprise.
âCanât â not now. I need to be in you so badly.â His breathingâs sharp and heavy, like heâs trying to keep himself in check. âYou donât even know â how long Iâve wanted to feel you.â
Your hold relaxes, and you let him maneuver you, his renewed hold on your hips dragging you closer to the edge of the bed. In this position, he can spread your thighs further, and you angle yourself optimally â enough for him to get a full view of your pussy, wet and still aching from your last orgasm.
âYou donât know how badly Iâve wanted to know how tight you are,â he continues, and thereâs a faraway look in his eyes that makes you think he might be entrenched in fantasy. âHow much I would have killed to see you â have you like this. Iâm not gonna be able to wait anymore.â
His fingers dig into your sides, thumbs stroking your stomach in a weak pattern. The underside of his shaft presses against your folds, still half obscured by your panties, in a way thatâs heavy enough to make you mewl, your hips reacting before your mind can, and he hisses softly as he feels his length glide along your slit before you relax your stance again.
âI canât wait,â he reiterates, a breaking in his voice that sounds almost tortured. You donât want him to either, want to see him buried to the hilt inside you, and you raise your hips again in need. âI want you so much itâs driving me crazy.â
âThen take me.â
And youâre not sure if itâs a demand or a plea, but he no longer stops himself; his hand fists his cock a few times, coating the slick of precum along his length before he lines the tip up with your entrance. His other handâs flush against the inside of your thigh, a light pressure ensuring he always has enough space to fit himself between your legs â enough space to bottom out completely.
Markâs considerate in his pace â maybe he knows heâs big, or maybe heâs just naturally careful, but he allows you the time to adjust to the stretch. Your nails almost puncture holes into the sheets, your grip so tight you wonder if itâs just to brace yourself or to hang onto the last threads of your sanity. Heâs only halfway in, but youâre pushing fullness already, and he stops when his cock meets slight resistance, looking up at you in concern.
âYouâre notâ?â
âIt doesnât hurt,â you reassure him softly, and itâs true; the adjustment brings about slight discomfort, but itâs almost nothing to you â not compared to how much more you want. âGive me everything; I want all of you inside me.â
He pauses still, trying to read your expression for any lies, but when he canât find any, he nods, his jaw tensing as he presses both palms against your thighs, keeping you open as much as possible to accommodate him. He doesnât even stop when you whimper, feeling a tightening twitch in your pussy that also causes him to groan, until inch by inch, youâve taken him, his hips flush against yours.
He doesnât move â not yet, his eyes trained to where youâre connected like heâs once again unable to believe what heâs doing. You hear him mumble something to himself that you want to hear too; you squirm slightly, and he hisses through his teeth, looking up at you and finding the questioning in your face. He offers you a small smile, albeit somewhat strained.
âYouâre tighter than I thought.â
âYouâre bigger than I thought,â you hum, and neither of you is really to blame; the tight fit, the slight breathlessness it leaves you with, is perfect, you think â just what the both of you need. âDid you often think about fucking me?â
âProbably just as often as youâre making it sound like you thought about having me fuck you, I think.â
âDonât get cocky,â you warn, but thereâs no real heat in your voice.
âI wonât. But it makes me feel good â knowing you wanted me just as bad.â
âI still do.â Your gaze is lazy, a little hazy, even if youâre anticipating so much. Even just the feeling of Mark, throbbing inside you, is already slowly building the pleasure in your stomach again; you wonder if you could cum like this, given enough time, given enough patience. âIâm still waiting for you to fuck me. God, Markâ please.â
He chuckles good-naturedly, but even thatâs drowned out by the long moan that leaves you once he draws his hips back; your bodyâs mildly shocked into a new adjustment, feeling a sudden emptiness thatâs quickly mitigated by him filling you back up again. The pace is slow, almost torturous, although you know he isnât doing it to get a rise out of you. He wants to ease you into speed, careful to help you adjust fully; his restraint in his movements is all the more evident on his face, in the furrowing of his brow and the determination in his gaze. Even with that, he canât help what he says, so intent on controlling everything else he does that he lets his words spill out over your noises.
âPretty,â he grunts out, and when your walls twitch around him, he accidentally thrusts sharper â just enough for you to whimper a little more loudly, and he has to reel his strength back again. âGod, youâre beautiful. I shouldâve told you sooner how much I wanted you. All those times I had to imagine you wrapped around me like this, wondering how much tighter youâd get once you came on my cock. All those times you drove me crazy while I was alone, when I could have been in youâ I could have found out how good you felt. How pretty youâd look under me. And youâre still even prettier, even better than I ever dreamed.â
Thereâs an erratic melody of moans under his words, spilling from your mouth, and the fact that he riles himself up enough to increase his speed slightly doesnât escape you. Heâs a little less careful now, seemingly entranced by the view he gets, watching his shaft disappear into you only to come out glistening, and a part of you hates the idea of snapping out of his reverie, but the majority of your thoughts now lean towards wondering how much more you can get him to break free of his own self-imposed restrictions.
âI wanted to ask you so many times.â His eyes snap up, coming back into focus as he takes in the sight of you, flushed, hair tousled, gaze darkened. âAlmost every day â I sat there, thinking about how all I could do was go home and fuck myself, frustrated you werenât doing it for me. I should have taken you home with me right then and there â should have let you watch me touch myself thinking of you, should have let you touch me into cumming on your fingers.â
His breathing staggers as he leans in, eager to see you clearer, to hear your words, slowly becoming airier as they come out. For a moment, his gaze falls, torn between watching him move into you and meeting your eyes, but he ultimately chooses the latter once you speak up again, your tone even more hushed than before â like itâs meant to be a secret between just you and him.
âBut there were times I wanted you even more than that, to the point that I almost felt like I couldnât wait.â His eyes widen slightly, a few precious seconds of wondering if he understands what you mean, right before you confirm what he thinks. âI thought about making a move right then â I should have kissed you. I should have asked you.â
âAsked me what?â His voice is gruff with the effort to keep himself in check despite the fact that itâs clear to the both of you that it wonât last.
Your lazy smileâs illusionary; it hides the triumph swelling in your chest at knowing that he asked exactly what you hoped him to.
âI should have asked you to fuck me in front of everyone there.â
âGod,â his eyes squeeze shut, his grip tightening. âPlease. I canâtââ
âI should have bent over for you there, begged you to stretch me out right after our session,â you continue, bordering on merciless. âMark, you donât know â how badly I wanted to be on your lap, your cock in me, with everyone watching. How much I wanted you to fold me over that table, have people watch you pound me, have them listen to how good you make me feel. No one would ever even wonder; everyone would know Iâm yours.â
You pause, allowing his eyes to fly open once again, and thereâs a pleading in them thatâs begging for release. Your eyes soften along with your voice, but youâre this far gone; you should at least see it through.
âAnd everyone would know youâre mine too.â
âFuck,â he growls, and his hips stutter before new resolve fills him, his hips driving into you with the force of a strength you didnât even know he had in him; your thighs tremble at the intensity, at the renewed impact, and feeling him drive his cock deeper into you has you crying out somewhere between a moan and a sob. âFuck, _________. If I had known youâd thought about me like that â God.â
Itâs your turn to shut your eyes for a while, allowing yourself to focus on his movements, breaching your tightness even faster now. You feel his hands skim up your sides again, fingers digging into the fabric of your bra and pulling them down until your bare tits are cupped in his hands. You shiver as his thumbs pass over your nipples, toying them into firm nubs.
âOne day,â he hums out, his voice giving way to a slight hoarseness again. âIâll do it. Iâll fuck you in front of him â in front of Youngho, in front of everyone. Iâll let them wonder how tight you are, how fucking warm you are, and Iâll let them leave knowing no one can know but me.â
Itâll never happen, you both know, but something about agreeing to something so absurd is what has your body almost shaking in longing, and itâs what causes him to press in deeper, folding your legs closer to your torso. Your hands do what little they can to help, keeping your thighs apart so as not to obstruct his view. You can tell itâs somehow not enough, not really all of what he wants when his brow furrows, and he shifts his weight, pushing into you at a new angle.
The stark difference has you gasping before you can control it. Immediately, Mark stops, and youâre already shaking your head before you even hear him say anything, presuming heâs paused out of concern. But before you can say youâre fine, his hushed voice cuts through the silence.
âDo that again.â
âWhat?â
âDo it again,â he mumbles, sounding distant. âBreathe in. Suck in your stomach.â
Youâre not one to complain at such a simple request, albeit a little odd, so you comply, inhaling enough to tighten your torso. Youâre surprised when you feel his cock twitch inside you, and you blow out the air alongside your question. âMark, what are youââ
âI can see it,â he says in utter disbelief. âWhen youâre like this, I can â I can see my cock inside you. Just a bit.â
Your eyes follow his gaze, fixed just below your navel. From this angle, without any movement, you canât see a thing, but you assume heâs not one to abandon fucking you so intently without good reason, so you press your palm against your stomach, just above your pelvis. Nothing really feels significantly out of place â up until the point when Mark draws his hips back again, and you feel the backward slide of his cock.
Your throat tightens, and you donât really understand the feeling that spreads in you â a unique kind of arousal, knowing how deep he is inside you and how youâre taking all of him in despite the fit, because of the fit. Your hand falls away, allowing Markâs to take its place, and he exerts just a little more pressure against your stomach in an attempt to get the most out of the experience when he thrusts back in. He groans, feeling the bulge push back up, and he quickly picks up the same pace, renewed in intensity so he can experience the rapid rise and fall he creates under his palm.
The faster he goes, the harder he presses, and youâre not sure if he knows it, but the onslaught of friction is whatâs making you whine and squirm even more; youâre trapped, in the best way possible, in his hold, your hands back to clinging to the backs of your knees like a lifeline. Pressure from the outside builds on the slowly growing pressure inside, a knot in your pelvis thatâs coiling so tightly you feel like you canât breathe. If Mark notices how close you are, he doesnât make it known; heâs busy feeling the outline of his cock against your stomach, and when he looks up at you again, his eyes are hazy.
âI would fuck you every single day, every single hour if I could feel this every time,â he whispers in a way thatâs almost reverent. âLet me â I want to keep seeing you like this. I want to feel how deep I am inside you, too. Let me fuck you all the time.â
You nod, and your first attempt to say something is just another choked sob. When you do manage to get something out, itâs broken in tearful stutters. âM-Mark, Iâm sâ Iâm so close⊠Iâm â fuckââ
âDo it.â Itâs not a harsh command but an urging made on short breath; through your misty vision, you see tension in Markâs face and shoulders, like heâs bracing himself for something too. You barely register the ping in the back of your mind, too focused on the way heâs pressing his palm harder on your stomach, the way his hips quicken their pace â heâs close too. âLet me feel you â want to feel you cum all over my cock.â
You inhale, not to speak but to let out a loud whimper; your teeth dig into your lower lip as you try to stifle the moans that threaten to follow, but in the end, you whine out his name. Your thighs threaten to close, trembling as you finally reach your climax, an impossible explosion of pleasure, and you have to squeeze your eyes shut so that you donât get dizzy from the stars that burst around your vision.
âFuck.â Markâs voice is strained, his one hand still firm against your stomach, the other sliding against the inside of your thigh. âYou get even tighter â you feel even better when you cum.â
âMark,â you hiccup, unable to do anything but flutter around him as he pistons harder into you. You donât even know what youâre asking for when you say âplease,â but he somehow seems to, and you trust that your bodyâs saying something you canât fully detect in this state, with your mind floating in the aftermath of ecstasy.
âI know,â his tone is soothing in contrast to the intensity of his thrusts. âIâve got you. Just a little more â where do you wantâ?â
You blink slowly, his words sinking in at too leisurely a pace; his hips stutter dangerously before youâre able to respond. You barely even do that, your hand gently brushing over the one against your stomach, but he catches onto the meaning quickly enough.
Youâve never heard your name said in such a beautiful way; hearing him moaning it lowly is enough to make you whine again, and that noise is drawn out when he shifts and slips out of you fully. Your brainâs fuzzy, but your senses are at least sharp enough to drink in the perfect sight of him cumming â the way he leans his head back, jaw taut and eyes shut, as he pumps his cock and the heat of his release against your skin, pooling against your stomach once he finally cums. You see a shiver run through him, and then heâs still for a while in this position, the both of you basking in the afterglow of your highs.
Youâre still weak and sensitive when Mark finally comes back down, a lucidity you donât have right now coming back into his gaze. All you can do is smile when he leans in, catching your lips in another kiss â one thatâs surprisingly soft and slow in comparison to everything else, but still leaves you breathless when he pulls away.
âLet me clean you up,â he murmurs, and you hum in agreement, your body limp as you watch him move off the bed and pull a handful of tissues from a box on the desk on the opposite wall. Even his hands are gentle when he scoops you up, shifting you until your head can lean against the pillows. They carry a scent youâre not used to, and your nose scrunches, rejecting the change, but thatâs quickly overpowered by Markâs familiar coffee-and-linen one when he presses next to you, careful as he wipes his cum off your stomach and thoroughly cleans between your thighs. From somewhere down below, you still hear hushed voices, and the front door slams shut again. People are still in the middle of leaving, but you know Youngho will likely run out of guests soon, and this makes you feel like the timingâs suddenly become urgent.
âI want to date you properly,â you start, slightly slurred but unmistakably blunt. Markâs gaze snaps to yours, slightly amused, as he balls the tissues up in his fist. âYou never asked me, so Iâm asking you.â
He looks perplexed. âI just never thought you wanted me to, so I didnât try.â
You reach up, locking your fingers into his hair and using your grip to pull him down. Your kiss is a little demanding, with a tinge of excess frustration, and he pulls away laughing lightly.
âDo you still think I donât want you to?â
Mark hums thoughtfully. âI think you made a lot of things clear tonight. On my end, I was happy enough to be near you.â He smiles down at you, and in the faint light, you can see the flush slowly return to his cheeks. âHaving you like this â dating you⊠thereâs no way Iâd say no.â
Your shoulders relax, satisfied with his answer, and you beam up at him â an act he easily returns, breathtaking and endearing all at once.
Moments later, you feel his arm wind around your waist; he allows you to lean into his side, his other hand crossing over his lap to stroke your thigh. His face turns, pressing a kiss to your hair, and you feel his lips move, hear the quick rush of a whisper. You tilt your head, eyes slightly wide in questioning. âWhat was that?â
He shakes his head at first, trying to pass it off as nothing. But when itâs clear your curiosity wonât abate, he chuckles softly, his hand gently cupping your chin so that you can only look at him. His thumb strokes your bottom lip gently, as if trying to coax the same words out of your mouth before he murmurs them to you one more time â and this time, he sounds fully convinced of them.
âYouâre all mine.â
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Good Girl
Matt Sturniolo x fem!reader
-After a hard day at work, you seek comfort in Matt. He knows exactly what you need.
cw: explicit material (oral m!receiving, daddy kink, hair pulling, praise kink) looooots of pet-names, use of âsirâ, he says âslutâ one time, rough!matt, patronizing!matt, mattâs sort of mean in this :P in the hot way
a/n: minors Do Not Interact!! i tried my best to not describe the reader or use any language that would insinuate anything about her looks :) also no use of y/n i hate that shit. this is the first fic iâve written in like six years so i appreciate all feedback!
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It was Friday, the one day you got off work early enough to spend the rest of your night with Matt, it was around 6:30 when you finally parked your car in his driveway and made your way up the stairs. The day you just had was replaying in your mind, all the grief you got from your boss and the way every coworker on your floor watched you leave her office, eyes welling, face hot from the embarrassment. You couldnât help but feel defeated, like you had deserved the verbal assault and all you wanted now was your boyfriend.
Matt was perfect. He knew exactly how you needed to be treated before you could even tell him, which was lucky for you, considering how flustered you got asking for anything, let alone something on the more sexual side. Itâs why the closer you got to the top of the stairs the more your body started to relax, albeit this also meaning your eyes once again felt the hot prickle of tears ready to fall.
You felt relieved as you saw the living room empty with just one ambient light glowing from above the sink across from you. you followed your heart and the sound of Frank Ocean playing softly to Mattâs bedroom door, rapping lightly with your knuckles so as not to startle him. Walking in, you saw him doing what you expected, sitting heavily in his chair, headset half on so he could still hear the low melody from his speaker, making final edits on a new hour long video the boys had filmed that week.
Matt straightens in his seat as he turns to where youâre leaning against the doorframe, waiting for him to welcome you in, nervously picking at your thumbnail. âHey, doll, câmere.â a smile breaks over his face as he takes his headphones off and twists his chair to face you, holding his arms out.
Walking in, you try and muster up a smile but it falls short as the comfort of Mattâs presence makes your damn finally break. You traipse over to settle into his lap sideways and tuck your head under his chin already feeling the tears spill over onto your cheekbones. Matt mustâve felt the drops falling onto his sweater as he cranes his neck to see your face where itâs nestled into his collarbones, âWhats wrong, honey? hm?â he rubs your leg where its propped up on the side of his chair, squeezing you closer by the arm he has wrapped around your shoulder.
You feel his lips meet your forehead gently, resting them there more than kissing you, you bring your hand to tug on his sweater, shaking your head and letting out an almost imperceptible whine. âawe, poor girl, dâyou have a rough day? want daddy to help, baby doll? we can go lay down orâŠâ his sentence trails off as you slip from his lap onto the floor between his legs.
Matt lowly chuckles as he watches you get comfortable on your knees, looking up through your still-wet-lashes at him, laying your hands on his thighs and resting your cheek on his left leg. Mattâs amusement is evident in his voice, âwhatâre ya doin, silly girl. not gonna even ask me?â his smile stays playful as he moves his hands from atop yours to rest on the sides of your head, the feeling of his cool fingers lightly touching your ears and the pressure of his big hands causes you to almost purr in his hold.
The tension from your day a thing of the past as you feel your mind floating to a place only your boyfriend can take you to. âs-sorryâ speaking is the last thing on your mind but a part of you knows matt loves hearing you have to explain yourself, loves how you squirm at his insistence and especially loves your willingness to fulfill his wish through your embarrassment. âneed daddy, need you ta just do what you want please, donât wanna think.â
Your voice is meek as you move your hands up his thighs feeling over his soft sweatpants, not pushing too far as you know matt hasnât given express permission.
One of Mattâs hands move to meet yours where itâs resting on his upper thigh as his right hand slides to cup your jaw, rubbing his thumb against the apple of your cheek.
âhmm, my sweet girl.. you need daddy? thats okay sweetheart, just need to ask like a good girl, okay?â
His voice is gentle and guiding with the slightest glint of condescension, just enough to make your eyes slip closed, melting into his palm as you blearily nod at his instruction. âcould I please make you feel good, daddy, and let you do what you want to me, please, sir?â
Matt feels his heart clench at your words, always loving how he can get you so eager and desperate for him, your soft voice adopting that airy quality, eyes sparkling, looking at him like he was your whole world. Matt canât help himself as he leans forward and lands a sweet kiss to your hairline, your cheek, then down to the tip of your nose. âMy girl~.. so polite, you know how much I love when you use your manners, huh? Good job, sweetheart..â His voice soothing and husky, you can tell heâs beginning to give into you, but you also know heâs not that easily swayed.
Matt leans back in his chair, hands behind his head, like heâs relaxing on the beach and not mentally torturing you as you squeeze your thighs together, squirming where youâre propped on your knees between his legs. âPlease.. please?â youâre trying your hardest not to break into a full-on beg but looking up at his smug expression, legs spread and chin tilted up as he stares at you down his nose, you feel like youre going to burst out of your skin, needing him to just grab you and take you.
The only response Matt dignifies you with is a low chuckle and a patronizing ruffle to your hair, you know you should be angry or even ashamed but the only thing running through your mind is how thankful you are for him. You feel your body temperature rising as his hand stills and starts patting over your head, âOkay, sweetheart.â he drags out the oookay in a placating tone, âWhy donât ya show me how bad you need it, hm? If youâre not gonna tell me whats botherin you, you can show me where you need me, at the very least, huh?â
Mattâs words are all you need to hear as you lift up onto your heels, planting your hands on the muscle of his thighs and tilting forward to shyly nuzzle against the slight tent forming in his sweats. You look up, gauging his expression, feeling nervous no matter how many times Matt has reassured you that thereâs just about nothing you could do to him that he wouldnât love.
âAhâŠâ he drags the syllable as if heâs just connected the final clues to a mystery. âThatâs what my dirty girl wanted. Need me let you sit there and have daddy take over like a good girl?â You nod lethargically, head swimming with desire, your nose brushing against the part of him you want the most. âNeed it, iâll be good, promise..â Hearing your own words distantly, you almost feel like someone else is in your head controlling you, opening your eyes to meet Mattâs devilish expression, you begin to half believe he is in your head.
You mouth desperately at his bulge, wetting the gray fabric of his pants, digging your fingers into the meat of his thighs, furrowing your brow at how close you are to what youâve been thinking about all day. Matts large hand thats still resting on the crown of your head suddenly tightens to grip your hair firmly, âOkay, okay⊠let daddy take care of ya, princess. I can see how bad you need it, hm? Need to be put to use?â You begin to nod as much as you can while he still holds you by the hair, Matt kicks the chair from behind him as he stands in front of you, using his tight hold on your hair to make you crawl after him as he moves closer to the end of the bed.
The whine you let slip could only be described as pitiful. It makes Mattâs face light up as he lets go of you, smoothing your hair down and bending to kiss where he had previously been tugging you.
âAlright, babydoll stand up for me.â as you rise to your feet, finally feeling how numb your legs had become, you lilt forward to hug around his waist. Matt chuckles sweetly and uses a gentle hand on your jaw to tilt your head back, capturing your lips in a heated kiss.
The sheer intensity of the kiss makes you feel like youâll never be able to breathe again, only able to inhale what he lets you, nose filled with his scent and a lingering breath of the cologne he mustâve put on this morning. If this is how you went, you would die happy. Matt holds you firmly by the back of the neck, using this leverage to pull back just slightly, lips barely touching as he examines the mess he made of you, in contrast, you study his composed demeanor, making you feel a flutter of shame at just how worked up you are knowing matt has barely even touched you.
The thing to snap you out of your own head is a soft thump from beneath you, looking down, realizing Matt has tossed a throw pillow on the floor in between you two. His hold on the nape of your neck stays firm as he lowers his head just a bit to really meet your hazy eyes, âYou gonna be a good girl and get on the ground for me? I know your poor knees must hurt, hm? Sit on the pillow, doll, get comfy. Donât wanna hurt ya too much.â The splitting grin on his face as he says this last sentence is enough to make you that much more aware of the arousal in between your legs.
Eyes never leaving each others as you drop to your knees, Mattâs hand cradling the side of your face. Once youâre settled his soft touch turns to a grip on your chin causing your lips to form into a pout, making him laugh at your position.
âSuch a good slut, bet I could tell ya to do anything and you would.â He uses his tight hold on your face to manipulate your head into an exaggerated nod, âUh huh, and youâd love it⊠love when daddy bosses you around, makes you humiliate yourselfâŠâ Mattâs smile stays wide but his eyes have lost all humor as he bends to be eye-level with you.
âBut you donât have to worry about that, sweetheart, you know i just wanna take care of you. Help you let go, stop doin all that thinking, huh? Yeah⊠âs too much for my girl, thats why you just gotta let daddy do all the thinking for ya.â He finishes his words with a light couple taps on your cheek. By the end of Mattâs monologue his smile is reaching his eyes and you can tell, even through the fog in your head, that heâs sincere, slightly teasing, yes, but he means what heâs saying, knows how much you need him to take over.
You only nod dumbly in response which gets you another tender kiss as a reward. Matt straightens out and lets go of your face, holding out his hands to you. âGimme your hands, baby.â Your hands placed in his up-turned palms are then guided to hold his hips. âWant ya to keep your hands here for me, tap me twice if itâs too much, alright?â Mattâs stern tone letting you know that this was a rule not a suggestion, âMhm, yes, sir.â
âGood girl~!â His voice as though he was giving a treat to a puppy who learned its first trick, causing you to squeeze your legs tighter, hyper aware of the wetness growing in your panties, and smile up at him lovingly.
âT-thank you, daddy..â Your low voice like kryptonite to your boyfriend, moving his hands from where they were settled over yours to play with your hair, gently twisting the strands with a blissed out look on his face.
âOkay, babydoll, I liked that little show you put on for me earlier butâŠâ His voice trails slightly as he tugs on one of the strands of hair heâs still holding, âI dunno if youâve demonstrated just how much you need me in your mouth, so daddyâs gonna let you try again, hm? Howâs that sound?â
âMhm mhm iâll show you!â At this point your brain is so beyond feeling embarrassed you donât even realize how pathetic you sound, only knowing youâre allowed to put yourself to some use, allowed to prove your devotion to Matt. Immediately leaning forward your mouth reattaches to the still damp spot on Mattâs sweats, licking and kissing at his erection, needing to convey all the words and feelings swirling in your head through your lips.
Youâre still fully attached to him as your grip on his hips tighten, mumbling through the fabric, âPlease, please lemme take âem off, your pants, please.â You feel like your skin is on fire, mouth too empty, head not empty enough. âOf course you can, princess, just remember, donât move those hands.â
His words give you pause for a split second before youâre straining to bite at his waistband moving downward as you pull off his pants, you donât even care that you hear him failing to stifle his laughter from above you, it only spurs you on, making you more wet, more hungry for him.
Matts hands in your hair start to move more to the back of your head, now pressing your face against his hard on, âThat what youâve been begging for this whole time? Daddyâs dick in your face, hm? Makes sense, what kinda guy would i be if i didnât know how much my girl likes getting her face fucked, huh?â Itâs these words that finally make you moan out loud, now more eager than ever to just get him down your throat.
âPlease, please, need it so bad, more than anything please. Donât wanna breathe anymore unless you want me to, need daddy to make it better~â Youâre almost unaware of the words youâre saying as they tumble out of your mouth, Matt certainly enjoyed your little outburst as he lets out a quiet Fuck under his breath, now completely hard as he haphazardly tugs down his boxers, kicking them and his sweatpants from around his ankles, reaching to his back and pulling his sweater over his head.
Then just as you were about to get what you wanted, Matt pushes you back slightly at the shoulder, tugging meanly on your shirt, âTake all this shit off, keep your panties on.â
A shiver runs through you while you rush to take all your clothes off, obediently repositioning onto the pillow, feeling Mattâs scrutinizing eyes on you, making your face heat up. âGood job, doll, say âahââŠâ His smile is verging on cruel as he holds your chin, pulling your mouth open.
You follow his orders and he immediately steps closer to you, slapping his tip against your tongue. âYa look so pretty, babyâŠâ his voice trails off as he uses the hand under your chin to guide your mouth onto him, letting out a deep groan and rolling his head back.
âFuuuck, good girlâŠâ Mattâs eyes are back on you as you slowly work your mouth up and down his length, your eyes slip closed, finally feeling your body and mind level out, you feel Mattâs big hands lay on your head, assisting your movements. âOpen those eyes⊠âAtta girl.â his left hand moving down to lightly pinch your cheek, right hand petting you softly as he stares down at you- shiny lips, teary eyes, and puffed out cheeks.
Suddenly, the hand that was previously stroking over your hair, was now firm at the back of your head, pushing you forward.
Your brows furrow as you gag on Mattâs dick, feeling him hit the back of your throat as he holds you still, laughing under his breath at your spluttering breaths and the tears falling down your cheek.
âSuch a good job, babydoll, know how much you love choking on it, hm?â the hand he has on the back of your head lets go, allowing you to pull back for a full breath of air. âSo good, honey, i love how you take it, love how youâd do anything to please me..â
Immediately after taking a break to breathe you put him back in your mouth, fervently bobbing your head, sucking him down to his pubic bone, forcing yourself to stay there, looking up at Matt as he smiles down at you proudly. âThatâs my good girl, want daddy to fuck your face, hm?â
You nod as much as you can with your mouth so full, Matts smug smile only getting bigger at your answer, he plants his hands on the side of your head and starts slow. Pulling you off him just a bit before tugging you back down, again and again. Mattâs moans and swears increase as you gag and choke on his dick, you can feel him pulsing in your mouth as he thrusts messily, âFuck, so good, so perfect, angel.â, he pants out the words, throwing his head back and finally holding you down on him, cumming down your throat.
âThatâs it, baby, good job. Swallow it all like a big girlâŠâ, he pats your head lovingly, before nudging your head off of him. The floaty feeling not subsiding as you slump down, hands still gripping at Mattâs hips, looking up at him with stars in your eyes.
âThank you, sirâŠâ, is the only words you can think of, watching Matt as he slips his sweats back on, âDonât need to thank me, babydoll, I love helpin you.â
Mattâs voice lulling you, he comes back over to you and leans forward, picking you up under your arms and holding you to his chest. âCâmon, sweet girl letâs go lay in bed, hm? Did so good for me, im so proud of you for tellin me what you need, such a good job.â Matt carries you to the head of his bed, laying you down and walking over to his wardrobe, grabbing a long sleeve shirt and dressing you in it, sitting sideways on his bed next to where youâre sitting back against his headboard. âDâyou want daddy to take care of you, hm?â, he says this while rubbing up and down your thigh, lightly nudging your legs open. The blush that covers your face makes you feel more shy as you answer, âN-no, thatâs okay⊠just wanted to make you feel good, it makes me feel good.â
Matt smiles brightly at you, cooing at your words. âAwe, baby, thatâs so sweetâŠâ, he brackets you in between his arms as he leans forward to kiss you deeply. âMy sweet girl..â, another kiss, âYou know I love you so much, right? More than anything, just wanna give you everything you ask for.â
Your arms reach up to wrap around Mattâs neck, tucking your face into his neck, your blush intensifying at his words, âI love you, too. So much. Thank you for always knowing what i need, youâre the best thing to happen to me.â Youâre still hiding your face in his neck, too shy to see his face as you speak your mind.
Matt leans back, bringing you with him and positioning you in his lap, his hand on the side of your face pulling you away from his shoulder to look at him. âIâm always gonna take care of you, sweetheart, itâs my job.â
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oh sweetheart
pairing: boxer! ellie williams x f reader au
word count: 1.9k
rating: 18+
warnings: boxer!ellie, drinking, smoking, cursing, creepy guy but ellie comes to ur defense!! ellie has lots of tattoos, fighting, threats, idk if im missing anything (no character description or anything specific)
summary: you didn't expect to meet her on this night out.
authors notes: hi friends! this is my first time writing and posting on here hopefully you enjoy, please reblog, like or follow! lets be mutuals :) anyways feedback and constructive criticism is always welcome and appreciated! ellie williams has me on my hands and knees!!! i hope you enjoy! i like the idea of making this a series if it works out and ppl like it, so pls let m know!! thank you :)
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loud. everything is loud. the smell of sweat and blood stains the air around you. the sounds of people cheering and shouting towards the center of the large room. the lights are buzzing above you as you are walking into the entrance of the shitty run down gym your brother, jesse, and his girlfriend, dina, ended up dragging you to tonight.
you didn't mind coming along with him but this wasn't what you expected to be doing tonight. after a long shitty week of unpacking your new apartment, you kinda just wanted to end up a hole in the wall bar and drink your stress away but he had other plans. which including watching grown men beat the shit of each other for their cut at the end of the night.
it was intimidating, walking through the crowds of people you didn't know until you finally make it to where his friends were waiting for you guys. they were sitting at a table with a clear shot of the fight which was surprising since the whole place seemed to have more people in it then it could fit. you make your way awkwardly to the empty seats saying a gentle "hello guys" to your brothers friends who you didn't knowl. you sat next to dina as jesse made his way to the bar with your drink orders.
after you graduated highschool, you moved to new york and spend 4 years there working in a small cafe you lived above but now at the start of the summer, still not sure what you should be doing with your life. now you're 22 and you've moved to the city of jackson to be closer to your older brother and his girlfriend. you were excited to start fresh in a place where no one knew you yet, you were ready to leave your old life and those toxic things in the past. but you wondered if it was even possible.
you spend the next hour talking with dina and catching up on the things that have happened since you moved, "have you started looking for jobs yet?" she asked as you both sipped on the second drink of the night that jesse went and brought back a bit ago. you've only met a couple times in person since they started dating about 2 years ago but you loved her, she was making this night a lot better. "not much luck yet, i don't know what to do, luckily i have some time to figure something out." you responded. she went to say something but then the loud speakers around the room started blaring music and the countdown to the match that was about to start.
jesse tapped dinas shoulder to go watch with the rest of them. dinas eyes met yours and asked, "are you coming up?" you started getting nervous as the people started getting louder and crowding towards the center ring and told her that you'll stay here and watch. they both nodded and said they'd be back when it was over.
you took this opportunity to finally go get some fresh air since the crowd isn't all over anymore and it was a straight shot to the door you came in, you walked over to the side of the building, definitely feeling the drinks you had, you let your back rest against the concrete wall, finally cooling you down on this hot summer night. there's people standing outside talking but they payed no attention to you. you stayed against the wall as you pull out the cigarette pack from the pocket of your thin dark green jacket and the lighter out of your back pocket in your jean shorts. you cursed yourself for not buying more but its a bad habit and you know it. you pulled one out and put it in your lips as you brought the lighter up and took a drag, finally letting the anxiety go as you stared off into the sky.
"excuse me miss, you shouldn't be out here alone, a beautiful girl like you," a man with a rough voice said but you didn't move to look, suddenly wishing you never left your apartment to begin with, "hello i'm talking to you, its not nice to ignore people, ya know," he slurred his words as he spoke. you turned your head as you went to tell him to leave you alone but instead, he was standing in front of you before you knew it you dropped your smoke and now he's practically cornered you.
he was so close you could smell the alcohol on his breathe as he spoke again, "now are you gonna talk to-" you leaned away from him as he was interrupted by the sound of a door opening a few feet away, he looked towards it but then turned back to you just as quick, almost touching you as he went to speak again but he was beat to it.
"get off her." you didn't even realize the door had opened until you heard her.
the man looked back towards the door to the figure in the light, he squinted and when he got a good look, he suddenly backed off and put his hands up. "hey hey i wasn't doing nothin- it was nothing!" he shouted back to whoever was next to the still open door, light shining into the alley.
the door slams and the light fades as the figure walks closer towards you and your eyes meet the deep green eyes of the person who just saved you as she turned to the man who was just cornering you against the wall.
"it doesn't look like nothing, i mean, really? you're fucking joking right?" she questioned him as she looked him right in the eyes.
"i said it was nothing- she was flirting with me and-" he was cut off as she laughed loudly. "yeah you're full of shit, get the fuck out of here and don't let me see you again or you'll regret it." she said as she stepped closer towards him, almost at the same height, he looked scared of her. "okay, okay- fuck 'm leaving!" he slurred one last time as he turned around and headed the opposite way of the run down gym.
you stood there as the interaction happened, not sure what to do or say yet, you were silent as he walked off, and those green eyes met yours again and you saw her lips moving as she was speaking but you caught nothing she said. "hey, you okay there?" she asked you as she went to stand in front of you, looking you up and down, checking if you're psychically okay while she gave you a second to process before she asked you again.
"hey sweetheart, you okay?" she asked and grabbed your arm, not in a way that the man would have but like she was actually making sure you were okay, and this time you finally heard her.
"h- yes im okay, just- fuck- yes thank you." you said finally getting a good look at her now that she's up close and touching you. her eyes were greener than you thought, her short auburn hair with some pulled back into a bun, the big moth tattoo wrapped around her right forearm that was still holding onto yours, other tattoos littered her arms and some poking out under her t-shirt she was wearing. she was so close to you and it sent butterflies through your body. now is not the time, you thought to yourself.
"are you sure- 'm sorry that happened, fuck him." she said roughly, not towards you but him.
"its okay, thank- thank you for helping me" you said gently to the girl who was still looking into your eyes. you had been so focused on hers that you didn't even see the tiny scars, small healing cuts and the bruises that were fading until you looked over her face again.
"yeah of course, are you here alone?" she asked you curiously still holding on to you, you weren't even phased by it. you told her you were here with your brother and she nodded her head towards the door, "lets get you back to him before anything else happens sweetheart" she said as she guided you to the door, hand on your back, as you swallowed and went first.
suddenly all the sounds that you had not realized you had been blocking begin again, smells of the sweaty bodies surround you again and you felt too hot, either because of her or the summer heat trapped in here. once you made it inside, she moved her hand off the small of your back and told her to go find your brother and to get home safe. when she walked away, you realized you didn't even know her name.
you saw dina, sitting along with a few of jesses friends and made your way over to her. the match must've ended while you were outside. you walked through the gym to sit back down, moving carefully to avoid touching anyone. once you made it to the table, dina wondered where you had ran off too. "oh just went out to get some fresh air," you said back to her smiling, not wanting her to worry. she told you jesse went to get more drinks and after the encounter outside, you needed it.
jesse came back a few moments later, holding a round of shots for you three. "here you ladies go," he spoke with a happy look on his face. you smiled slightly back and took the glass as dina laughed at him. you took the shot, trying to forget what happened outside with the man but not what happened with her. you wondered if you would see her again. is she here to watch? could she work at the bar? is she here with friends too? your thoughts were interrupted by an announcement over the speaks that the final match was gonna start soon.
dina and jesse were telling you, "its the last one tonight and the last ones are always the best so lets go!" you would rather sit and order another drink, but what if something else happened cause you were alone? so reluctantly you got up with them and got closer to the middle ring, you heard the loud speakers announcing the boxers as they entered the ring. you weren't even paying attention, nothing could stop your mind racing with thoughts about the girl outside.
you shake yourself out of the trance when dina reaches over to you to touch your hands that were shaking but you didn't even realize, you look to her and give her smile that she returns, then she looks back to the ring and you turn your head to follow her eyes to the center. and your breathe caught.
thats her.
thats the girl who saved you outside.
the girl with her hands wrapped in tape and the mouthguard in.
the girl who wondered if she'd ever see you again either, not that you knew that, but she hoped it wasn't the last time.
you wondered what she thought as you both stared back at each other. you heard the coach start the countdown. you just watched her.
...5
...4
...3
...2
as the buzzer started, she smiled directly at you then turned to throw the first punch.
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