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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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Mikey and Leo episode centered around Mikey wanting to push Leo and Draxum together since Leoâs the most reluctant to give Draxum any grace (for good reason!) But, thinking on the spot, Leo says heâs gotta go do something for Hueso and âjust canât hang out right now đâ (yes, he says the emoji out loud.)
Mikey calls his bluff and now the three of them (Mikey having grabbed a weary Draxum along) go to Huesoâs to find that yes, he actually does have a job for him. Said job asks for Leo to go with Hueso to deliver multiple pizzas to this giant yokai quite a distance away, and Hueso figured it would probably go better with Leoâs help (emphasis on probably.)
Well, Mikey decides that this would be a great bonding opportunity for them and basically invites he and Draxum along. Unfortunately for Leo, Hueso doesnât care enough to wave away more help, though he does side-eye the wanted criminal Baron Draxum coming with them. But who is he to judge? (This choice has consequences.)
The journey goes about as terribly as youâd expect, but at least the pizzas get delivered on time.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt leo#rottmnt draxum#rottmnt hueso#listen you donât understand#imagine mikey trying to get leo to accept draxum as a father figure only for this to push leo to purposefully turn to Hueso instead#idk I love when this accidental flaw of Mikeyâs is explored and I think it meshes well with Leoâs own AND fits nicely with their dynamic#100% this ends with Leo & Hueso bonding and Mikey & Draxum bonding and Mikey & Leo bonding and even Hueso & Mikey a bit#but notably only a little Draxum & Leo - because itâs important that Leo isnât forced to accept him imo#Leo realizing during all his denials of Draxum that oh you know who he DOES think of as family? Hueso#Draxum is trying mainly for Mikeyâs sake#Hueso is too tired to care about all this family drama but is reluctantly worried about Pepino#Mikey just wants one big happy family because - thatâs just easier yâknow?#he tries so hard to work with everyoneâs emotions that he just wants things to be easy for once#he wants love and family to be easier than it is - than has BEEN lately#gimme that heart to heart Mikey & Leo moment in this regard#by the end Leo DOES raise Draxum up a bit from âcomplete distrustâ to âmild side-eyeâ#but itâs a long ways off if he ever gets pushed into the family tier#and also#SO MUCH SLAPSTICK COMEDY and sarcastic comedy in this episode fr#and if youâre wondering-#yes they DO fight the Yokai monster theyâre delivering the pizzas to#but they get paid so itâs whatever#kinda wanna attempt to copy the style of the show and make fake screenshots of this âepisodeâ ngl
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She came up with a new activity
#snake#snakes#Hognose#hognoses#pets#In her defense I also didn't realize the reason she couldn't move it at the end was because her tail was no longer under the basket#So instead of sliding over her it just bumped into her and was stuck#to her credit she did listen to me and follow my directions! But neither of us realized the problem.#ah it was cute while she did it#she was going a bit before I started recording#she comes up with silly fun activities#i should let her play with the hammock again#it's funny when she found it she'd gesture to me with her head when she wanted me to lift it and put it down#and it was like a weird elevator parachute game#i think she might have been extra delighted she was able to communicate her wants to me and I did them#We both got practice with that the other day when we played climbing ball#I misunderstood a few times#she is much more patient and less easily frustrated than her sister#she was asking for climbing ball and I thought she was asking for kisses#i did eventually figure out what she actually wanted#i suppose it helps she likes kisses too#when i say kisses I'm not putting my lips on her#I let her flick her tongue at the tip of my nose and make little kiss sounds at her#she either understands this is affection or otherwise likes it#Because she will often go to my nose and I'll give her kisses like this#I don't kiss her because the bacteria and stuff in my human mouth could be dangerous for her#I know reptiles and such can also have salmonella#But I'm really not worried about that part tbh as I keep my girls pretty clean#They are princesses#And know it
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Okay some of these I had written down before chapter 43 but I finally found the time to sit down and make a bingo sheet for the last few episodes. Ranging from Legitimate Predictions to Things I Want to Happen to You Know What? Sure đ€
Template if anyone wants to make one of their own:
#the silt verses#the silt verses spoilers#had chekhov's withermark written before episoe 43 so I'm giving that to myself#though I wish I had phrased it as chekhov's crab nuke#intentionally writing final word for val instead of last word btw#listen midnight burger had a three hour season finale ALL I'M SAYING IS JON WARE MUNA HUSSEN YOU CAN DO ONE TOO!!#also i think the finale will end in silence BUT we'll get some sort of skippocalyptic song before that perhaps#ngl i'm actually hesitant in saying that the last two eps will lead up to a dramatic this is the place moment#mostly because that was what s2 led up to by the end#with the homesick corpse#listen most of these won't happen but for some I can dream#edit: in case this isn't obvious the bottom right one is my marco polo square#We End Where We Began...wading through the water...marco...polo..
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EVERMORE by taylor swift (feat. bon iver) â âand i was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. and i couldnât be sure, i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldnât be forevermore.â
my #swiftiegiftexchange2024 for @lovesickallovermybed!!!! đ«¶đœđ«¶đœ
#HIII HII HII how are you <3333 SO sorry for being slightly to the party but HII#i saw that you are currently recovering from surgery and iâm wishing you all the best and =a faster recovery đđ i hope youâre okay and#are feeling and getting much better every day đđđ#iâm your anon swiftie and it was really nice to get to know you!! đ«¶đœ youâre super super talented and your gifs are so so STUNNING#it was such an honor to be your anon for this event and i had such a fun time making this !#i was SO excited when i saw that some of your favorite ts songs are evermore and idsb. really really sorry i didnât have the time to make#something for both because my laptop went dead for sometime and i ended up only having the time to make this đ#evermore the song is something i hold and cherish deeply in my heart too and it was something that has seen some of the worst of my days#and so i decided to do this song for your gift instead!#i canât really gif much and couldnât even try#because my laptop in which i had installed ps in went rip so i decided to make you this#(slightly messy sorryy) scrapbook of my view of the song! i tried to incorporate some of the descriptive lyrics and the objects mentioned i#the song and i hope you like it đ!#and because i think evermore is also something that IS meant to be incredibly personal to the people that listen to it#i decided to include some photos (+added highlights on every lyric that has ever touched me which is almost everything as you can see đ)#of some of my journal pages on which i rewrote the entire lyrics (except bon iverâs addition đ
) in â21 when the song meant to me the most!#i hope you're having a great dayy love đ«¶đœđ«¶đœ#SwiftieGiftExchange2024#taylor swift#tswiftedit#evermore#*my edits#nadine.mp3
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he really didnât think itâd end like this
#reguriweek2024#reguriweek#champion red#trainer red#blue oak#green oak#does it count if hes just haunting reds thoughts (me too bro)#reguri#namelessshipping#gurire#altho this is more friendship than anything tbh. YEARNERS RISE!#don't you hate it when the plans you dreamt up as a kid living and traveling and spending the rest of your life with your best friend#don't come true and instead you aren't friends anymore because he hates you and you ran away to live on a mountain#you're never gonna get him back!! you'll never see him again!! (he doesn't know blue's thinking the same thing)#anyways go listen to anthems for a 17 yo girl and come back to this#I maintain that redâs mt silver adventures started as an extended weekend getaway/training session#and ended as the wilderness equivalent of bedrotting#he was DEPRESSED. AND COLD#this art is when he just got there so heâs still connected to the world enough to have Blue Thoughts(tm)#millidrew#art#my post
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And I forget sometimes I'm just flesh and bone.
As he stands in the ruined bathroom, all Rook can think is, At least now I can breathe.
#ts4#ts4 edit#the sims 4#sims 4 edit#my edits#ts4 render#my renders#blender render#oc: Rook#dnd sims#ts4 dnd#please I beg of you open this in a new tab and look it it. it's 2080px across and I spent way too long on tiny details.#(like the blood on the shards of glass on the sink. and the mirror alone took well over an hour...)#augh I love my boy so much#he's really going through it right now tho#poor bby#but when he's going through it I'm having fun playing him so...#yeah#blood tw#tw blood#so this is scheduled to go up right as we're starting our session picking up from exactly this point.#I thought that would be thematically fitting#please listen to this song it's so good and it's very Rook.#I almost put the lyrics right after this line (''I saw my reflection on the street that night / he said I got something to change your life#/ he said you don't look wrong but you don't look right'')#bc yk mirror shit. But I ended up going with this line instead because it's VERY VERY fitting for the conversations going on w/ Rook.#specifically about his reckless endangerment of himself to the point where some of his party members consider it to be self-harm.#(and obviously punching a mirror intentionally is self-harm.)#but like Rook doesn't see it that way and he's so confused as to why the party is so upset with him. (esp. his mentor and the gunslinger.)#god I could talk about this ridiculous man for hours so I'll stop here.
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Some doodles of Alice, the Soul of Patience. Featuring also LĂ©o (Bravery) and Charlie (Perseverance).
#UTDR#UTDR OC#Patience Soul#Bravery Soul#Perseverance Soul#Alice#LĂ©o#Charlie#Doodles#Been wanting to give my girl a doodle page for a while now!!#Alice is not just extremely patient but she's also a very good listener and good at keeping others company#She also has a talent for sleeping just about anywhere at any given time thanks to how comfy her Sweetie Bear is đ„șđ#Also yes Sweetie Bear did belong to Chara first lol#But Chara didn't appreciate it much when they were alive due to finding it too 'dumb and childish'#If Chara were alive to see Alice ended up adopting her instead during her time staying with Toriel they would be DEEPLY JEALOUS#That's THEIR bear! Not Alice's!!#But at least the bear has a new friend that likes to hold her and hug her every second of the day
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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you
#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what#allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of#the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than#to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do#im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt#take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was#mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their#mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that#explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain#direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in#arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to#engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out#theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive#a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked#picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing#sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example#for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war#is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old#wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for#steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with#especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can#look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never#treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time#but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made#feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them#accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me#yapping#diary
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wait, that elias?
#huge shoutout to @sepezzz elias design this is very much inspired by it. go look at it#im so serious if i never draw another person manspreading in a fucking office chair itâll be TOO SOON#anyways.#the juxtaposition truly is crazy hahaaha right people change in the weirdest of ways#i like thinking about how they both present themselves. elias understands he works at Important Academic Research Facility so he still#sooort of tries to look somewhat official. but well he also gets away with what he can#he has that vibe of Yeah i work here and im kind of important but iâm chill. i know how to chill#meanwhile that other freak is just like i am going to make this body look presentable or so help me god.#heâs the Head of the Institute he can no longer have whimsy okay. and listen itâs not because i think jonah is that boring and would#dislike piercings and funny socks or whatever. i think heâd like those. but see he needs to make this believable that elias truly has#changed okay. and also like i said he is the Head of the Institute he needs to look Super Normal And Unremarkable#anyways i think itâs funny how eliasâ whole thing is that he tries to distance himself from his family image and tries really hard to Not#end up like a rich asshole. and then. well.#(looks around) So i think about this man a normal amount.#i could write like 20 thinkpieces on both of them but instead theyâre gonna make me do college essays about like language and shit.#myart#the magnus archives#tma#elias bouchard#oh my god it is actually un fucking believable how much i think about him every day#if this becomes a daily elias blog yall will just have to deal
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what's the worst thing you watched and kept up with (at least for a while) because you were gay and begging for scraps? mine was probably pretty little liars
#what was her name? emily? whatever it was i was a simp for the lesbian character on PLL#and put up with three seasons of fucking Nonsense for it#words and things#i say 'probably' because there are worse shows i watched for various girls that i had crushes on over the years#but thats a different kind of simping. i didnt watch them for girl kissing i watched them for a girl who i knew was probably straight#gay#lesbian#bisexual#<- yall got it the worst half of these things were subtly biphobic too#oh god does anyone remember that show where the MC was a succubi but didn't know about monsters#so she thought she was just a freak and was always on the run until the monster world finds one of her kills and hunts Her down#and she ends up. idk working at a monster bar and helping her Monster Cop boytoy hunt runaway monsters? or something?#listen what i remember from that is how badly i wanted her and her simp (female roommate maybe?) to fuck instead#and i swear they queerbaited me a little. but i might have just been delusional tbh
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i still can't believe merlin chose to reveal he had magic to the most random person on the planet who he had only known for a day (gilli in "the sorcerer's shadow") but NOT to morgana when she needed it most... by the time morgana figured out she had magic, her and merlin's friendship was already at a point where he could trust her with something like this, and he had already seen her stance on magic through the way she risked everything for mordred (a DRUID, aka a magical being). hell, she straight up said "what if [magic] chooses you?" to his FACE. he really had nothing to lose and morgana had everything to gain by him telling her he had magic too, and being there for her when she needed it. but nOoOoo merlin just HAD to listen to the overgrown basement gecko and keep it a secret. which i wouldn't really mind had he not gone and revealed that very same secret to a perfect stranger a season later. it just makes no sense whatsoever that he'd keep his magic a secret from morgana and refrain from helping her then turn around and show GILLI of all people that he had magic.
#make it make sense#another example to show morgana was doomed by the narrative from the start#merlin stop listening to the DUMBASS dragon challenge#kilgarrah stop hating on morgana challenge#they both lost the challenge#merlin should've revealed his magic to morgana in âthe nightmare beginsâ and i will die on that hill#she just needed someone to guide her and that someone ended up being her evil sister#really it's all the fuckass dragon's fault#but also kind of merlin's fault too#should've just told her my dude#instead of fkn GILLI#morgana pendragon#bbc merlin
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in your au does creek ever like... reconcile with poppy? or does he mostly hang out with garde and avoid pop village? and/or what are garde's feelings on the whole betrayal thing regarding creek's (presumably) old best friend being sold out... if he finds out about the details at some point? (sorry these might be loaded questions im just so curious. i love this little thing youve come up with!)
BROTHER it's the loaded questions that i'm looking foward to answering !
Garde has only existed in this world for about 30 days (and already generated approximately 47 drawings and counting but i digress) so i haven't had the change to tackle a LOT of the actual nitty gritty... so i might aswell share it here !
I'll just... put a read more here because i'm expecting this to get quite long
First things first, he DOES reconcile with Poppy.... but it takes a very long time and it's a messy process, if anything Poppy is the one troll that he hurt the most, he didn't only betray her trust as a friend but her entire village that she was trusted to protect, it's going to take a LOT for him to make up to her. Eventually Creek is able to prove that he's trying..... he's not perfect by any means of the word ! But he's trying... By volunteering to do community service (Mr Dinkles episode) and overall attempting to understand other's point of view, Poppy can't help but realise that holding onto that bitter memory isn't going to help anybody. She doesn't forgive him of course, their relationship is never going to be the same, but she does accept him, and they're both able to move on with that (i do like to think that the reason Queen Barb was so easily forgiven is because of their acceptance towards Creek) (fun fact Poppy even gives them her blessing during their queerplatonic wedding !)
Garde does find out about Creek's betrayal eventually (although not from Creek directly) and let's just say he has a hard time coming to terms with that. Of course their first reaction is to ignore it, like most of the problems they've been dealing with, why should Creek's past dictate his future anyway ? THEIR past doesn't dictate anything about THEM ! So why should it matter ??? But that excuse only starts getting harder to chew as time goes on. Garde has a lot of sympathy for Creek, as they find themselves in similar situations (although for different reasons), and he doesn't WANT him to leave, he's one of the very few trolls that's bothered to talk to him for so long even if it was out of desperation, he WANTS to understand why he did it, but he'll never truly understand, he's never been in a life-or-death situation before ! He's never had to pick between the lives of everyone he's ever known or himself ! And that only makes things so much more complicated. Once the rock starts rolling though, and they find themselves having to talk about their pasts, it all comes out so suddenly, like a waterfall that's been plugged for centuries, they realise that they DO see each other differently now, but it's not a bad thing, there's an amount of trust there that they've both never had for anybody else, and they find themselves getting closer for it.. It's not perfect, but some of the cracks have started to heal, and that's good enough for the moment.
#saturn speaks#dreamworks trolls#trolls creek#trolls oc#oc x canon#they make me insane#i find myself wanting to draw all of the important parts of a story#which makes things go so much slower#especially when i'm a mouse artist and drawing too much makes my wrist hurt#so i end up just drawing the fun parts i want to draw instead of the actual nitty gritty that i want people to see#because text posts don't normally get as much traction#but y'know what man whatever it's gonna take me 50 years if i keep going with my old plan of draw everything#might as well share some of the meatier details to those who want to listen
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Thinking about how Maxâs habit of shying away from help or talking about things is because throughout that whole week she had to only rely on herself essentially. How she had the whole world on her shoulders and felt she had to carry it, not because no one else could, but because no one else would.
#this entire mentality of âno one else is going to fix things if I donâtâ#like. everyone else was failing Chloe. David gets to the bathroom too late. no one was there but Max#she had to be the one to save her#no one was going to be there for Kate. when she was about to end her life everyone was down there taking pictures#and no one thought to follow her up to the roof when she was supposed to be in class. no one else was going to try to help her.#Max had to do it.#no one comes for her in the dark room#and when David does he gets knocked out instantly and itâs Max instead of the ADULT that has to save herself#thereâs a world out there where without her rewind powers Max is dead because no one could successfully save her#she had to do it herself#chloe even if reasonably blinded by her grief does not listen to Max when she tries to warn her#Max is the one whoâs gotta make her see reason#and at the end of the day#making a decision that affects so much#girlie is EIGHTEEEN!!!!!!!!!! SHES SO YOUNG#IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS THATS A CHILD MAKING A DECISION TO KILL THE ONE PERSON WHO HELPS HER SHOULDER THE WEIGHT#OR HER ENTIRE HOME TOWN FILLED WITH FRIENDS AND PEOPLE SHE SEES AS FAMILY#AND CHLOE HITS HER WITH THE âONLY YOU CANâ!!!!#LIKE FUCK MAN!!!#time and time again she has learned she can only rely on herself that fucks people up!!!!!!!!!!#snails ramblings
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uhhh yo i'm thinkin about. tommy and eddie not Getting each other but Dealing with each other becos of billy. but then somehow without even realising, they actually become pals too. hashtag billy's impact.
then ofc billy + eddie + tommy bestie-ism. becos i want it.
anyway. rewind becos we need to talk about billy + tommy and billy + eddie first before we slap tommy + eddie together
billy initially hating tommy when he first rolled into town, thinking he was kind of pathetic for how he was acting about harrington ditching him, and thinking he was just genuinely like. trying too fucking hard. trying to hard to be liked, to get attention, to get his fucking peers approval. billy already knew. high school didn't fucking matter. other kids approval and opinions didn't mean shit. everyone was fake as fuck. he just had to make it âtil graduation, then he'd be fucking gone.
but then. he somehow ends up getting roped into joining tommy and his family for dinner one night, becos he's unable to say no to tommy's mom who asked him, and suddenly, he's seeing tommy in a whole new light.
he didn't know that tommy had a fucking baseball teams worth of siblings, and was the 3rd eldest. he watches as tommy cuts up his baby sisters dinner, pulling faces at his little brother next to her the entire time to make him laugh. listens as the entire table actually talks and interacts with each other, how his twin little sisters ask about when carol's coming over next, and how his mom cuts in and asks if carol's appointment went okay the other day and if she was feeling better. watches as him and his older brother clear the table without even being asked, their mom moving to start bath time for the kids under six. can't remember the last time he sat at a dinner table with an entire family and felt warm. like what dinner's look like they feel like in the movies.
after, when he's walking down the hallway to tommy's room, he sees all the pictures of him and harrington. they're all over the the wall, some not even having tommy in them, just steve and other members of the family cheesing at the camera from basically fucking diapers all the way up til last year. that's when he realises. tommy and steve weren't just school friends. steve was fucking family. and he left. over a fucking girl.
suddenly, billy gets it. he fucking Gets it. gets what it's like to have a family member walk out, with little to no explanation or reason, or for the worst fucking reason of all. to have everyone in the world expect you to just be fucking okay with it, like your entire world hasn't just changed, like you aren't eating dinner with one less plate setting now, like birthdays aren't suddenly forevermore gonna be one person short. he fucking gets it.
tommy looks embarrassed, though, when he catches billy eyeing the pictures, the red so obvious on his cheeks, and it feels like this is the first time billy's seen him without the act he puts on at school. billy just gives him a slight nod, then walks past the bathroom and flirts with his mom, feeling good about the way tommy groans behind him.
billy makes more of an effort after that, and tommy stops trying so hard.
maybe one night, after a slightly wild party at some cheerleader's house, him and tommy split to get some food from benny's, walking the whole way cos they're both not in any condition to drive, and tommy ends up spilling the details of what actually happened between him and steve. not just the shit that's been spreading around school, either. the real shit.
billy listens, still slightly drunk and definitely fucking high, and ends up vaguely mentioning his mom. he cuts himself off quickly though, cos even when he's wasted he knows not to expose himself like that. but tommy looks at him, and he nods, and he moves the conversation along.
they get close, after that.
they don't cling to each other at school, with tommy usually floating between anyone and everyone, carol leading the way, and billy only gracing the basketball table with his presence maybe once a week, the other days ditching to his car or hiding out under bleachers becos heâs sick and tired of people, but out of school, they're a bit more attached.Â
tommy's mom loves billy, and apparently, so do his siblings. wellâthe younger ones do, at least. the teens and the two older two seem unfazed by him at best, and wary of him at worst. that's probably fair though, considering his reputation.Â
it takes less than a month for billy to clock the fact that tommy doesnât seem to âgetâ music. tommy says he considers it something you put on in the background while you do shit, just to have some noise, and billy pulls the car over immediately and gives him a wild look. he pulls out a mixed cd from the glovebox that has a decent chunk of his favourite songs, and when tommy says he's never heard a single one, billy loses his fucking mind for fifteen minutes straight before promising him that before the years out, tommy will understand music.Â
tommy just agrees, having learnt early on that billy's gonna billy, and he's expressive and passionate about so fucking little, so seeing him get so worked up about something tommy considers so small is like. kind of fucking adorable. he sits there and listens as billy explains the difference between one band and the next and thinksâhe's never actually heard billy sound so genuinely happy to be talking about something before, like his love for it is roots deep.
and thenâthere's eddie.Â
he fucking hates billy on principal alone, at first. heard the talk and rumours about him from day one, his name even being whispered about by hellfire members, and instantly judged and stereotyped the fuck out of him. knows it's pretty pot, kettleâthe whole hating each other becos stereotypes etc but like. no way this new california basketball guy isn't gonna tear eddie to shreds. there's no way.
so, he doesn't wait to see how billy treats him, just expects that he's gonna fuck with him the same way all the other assholes do, and writes him off as a waste of time, just like all the other jocks are.
gets the surprise of his life when billy not only acknowledges him publicly at a party, but also knows him by name and talks to him at school. usually, his crowd treats him like his social status is contagious, and keeps any interaction to a quick and private arrangement. except then he's walking down the corridor at school and his name is being yelled across the hall, and suddenly billy hargrove's standing in front of him, a kind of terrifying look on his face.
eddie rolls with it though, figures his buddies will catch him up to speed and explain the rules that keep things flowing around here, and billy'll never speak to him again.
that's not what happens, though. what happens is one of jason's dipshit besties throws an arm over billy's shoulder and laughs, calls eddie a freak like it's the funniest and most original insult to ever exist, and tells billy that they don't actually have to talk to him, that they can get anything they want from samson's older brother who's back from college.
billy shrugs the guy off, "you mean that shit that you were sharing around at patrick's last week? yeah, fuck that. at least munson's shit is good."
eddie watches the scene unfold with slight interest, but writes billy off again when he walks away with the crowd, having gotten the information he needed.
charges him double and a half when billy eventually tracks him down behind the school, and billy gives him a flat look but still hands over the money.
"that the standard price, or you just being a little bitch about it?"
"whatever you wanna tell yourself, short guy."
billy rolls his eyes, but takes the baggie eddie hands him and walks away, flipping him the bird over his shoulder as he goes.
eddie watches him leave and shakes his head. thinks, at least that'll be the last of it.
feels his eyes widen slightly the next week when billy rocks up again, money already in hand.
"price has actually went up this week, sorry man. must've forgot to send you the newsletter," eddie shrugs, walking straight past him and dumping his bag on the table.
"fuckinâseriously? you seriously pulling this shit?"
eddie gets his little tin lunch box out of his bag, not even sparing him a glance.
"supply and demand, gotta make a buck, you know how it is," eddie shrugs again and waits to hear billy's footsteps walk away. that doesn't happen. instead, he hears billy take a deep breath, mutter a fucksake under his breath, then hears his footsteps approach.
"well, how much is it this week, then?"
eddie looks at him over his shoulder, then turns around fully, a slow grin growing on his face. "how much you got?"
watches the flash of anger and frustration cross over billy's face before he seems to reign himself in.
"justâjust give me my fucking shit, munson, i swear to god."
eddie just watches him and waits, letting him sweat a bit, before grinning at him, all teeth, then turns back around.
he grabs some things from his little stash then slaps three baggies in billy's hand.
billy clenches his fist around it, before taking another calming breath, then nods.
"how much?"
"same as last week."
billy gives him a look, and eddie snorts.
"supply and demand," he shrugs again, twirling his hair.
billy huffs, slapping the money down on the table.
eddie winks at him.
billy becomes a pretty regular customer after that, even though he looks at eddie like he thinks heâs batshit crazy most days. doesn't stop him from asking for his phone number though, complaining that sneaking notes in lockers is fucking corny.Â
next thing eddie knows, billyâs rocking up at his trailer and banging on his door, inviting himself in. eddie would like to pretend to give more of a fuck, but honestly, billy isn't actually that bad. and uncle wayne fucking loves him for some reason.
billy clocks his guitar on his second visit, and sniffs out his fucking heart wide crush on chrissy cunningham on the fourth, and eddie never knows peace affer that.Â
itâs a bright as fuck day when billy finally figures out a way to merge his two worlds and get both eddie and tommy into the same place at the same time, and it happens purely by his own intervention.
billy's driving tommy home when eddieâs van mysteriously breaks down, and he calls for a lift. billy eyes his glovebox, where heâs stashed a small but important part of eddies engine, and thinks hell fuckinâ yeah your vanâs broke down.
he smirks into his phone as he listens to eddie stress, quickly checking on his passenger as he thinks about the way eddieâs face always screws up whenever he mentions him, and how tommy always looks downright uncomfortable every time he mentions spending time at munsonâs trailer.Â
but. here's the thing. he doesn't give a fuck. what he does give a fuck about is splitting his time between the two, like a fucking child of divorce, when he could simply just hang out with them both at once, them all chilling together. of course, that involes playing matchmaker. or just like. force them into getting stockholm syndrome about each other or some shit. but whatever. as long as something works. heâs not picky.
he flips his turn signal on and does a u-turn, shrugging when tommy asks where theyâre going.
when he pulls up behind eddieâs van, tommyâs face does something complicated, and billy holds back a snort. he gives tommy one last sideway glance before climbing out and going to find eddie.
âwhatâs the damage?â he calls out, walking up to the front.
âfuck if i know, man. i look after her the best i can, but sheâs old as shit and high maintenance, and iâm fucking broke,â eddie says from the front seat where heâs been waiting, looking at billy like maybe heâll know the answer.
âjust leave it. iâll come back later and have a look. got a passenger though, so. we gotta go,â billy waves his hand dismissively before nodding his head towards his car.
âoh shit, little redâs here?â eddie asks, hopping out and walking alongside him.
billy snorts. âworse.â
eddie opens the back passenger door and ducks down to look before standing straight back up.Â
âtell me youâre joking,â he says, sounding fucking pained.
billy laughs. âget in the fucking car, freak.â
itâs the most awkward and uncomfortable drive heâs had since he got his own car, and he spends most of the time trying to make fucking conversation with them both only for them to give him stilted and one word answers back.
âholy fuck,â billy breaks, pulling up in front of tommyâs house. he locks the car doors before anyone can split and turns in his seat. âwhatâs the big deal between you two? it canât be that fucking bad. youâre both likeâharmless. fucking bitchy, and definitely petty, and both fucking dramatic, but like. harmless. whatâs the beef?â
tommy stays silent, making sure to look anywhere but them, while eddie leans forward to look between them. he looks from billy, to tommy, then back to billy.
âjustâhistory,â eddie sighs, giving tommy a look.
billy stares blankly between them both. âhistory,â he deadpans back.
âwell, we have went to school together for most of our lives, even been in most of the same classes in high school,â eddie reasons, sounding offended that billyâs not getting it.
âboo hoo, he stole your lunch money,â billy bitches back, giving eddie a bewildered look, âmove past it. youâre like, 20, dude.â
eddie gives him an incredulous look right back, and billy shrugs, unlocking the car doors. tommy bolts.
âchrist, man. you donât get it,â eddie starts after heâs jumped in the front seat and theyâve started to drive away, âyou haven't been at the bottom of the food chain.â
billy raises an eyebrow at him, âcause like fuck has he never been at the bottom of the food chain, and eddie fucking knows that. billyâs turned up at his trailer enough times now after a run in with his dad for eddie to have put the pieces together.
âthatâs fucking different, donât even try to compare,â eddie shoots back instantly, throwing his arms out.
âyeah, âcause oneâs fucking high school bullshit, and oneâs my fucking homelife. like, dude. come on, seriously? he bullied you? i fucking bully you.â
âyeah but you bully me because you want to fuck me, he bullied me for likeâfucking everything. living in a trailer, hellfire club,â he starts listing, âmy parents and all that bullshitâmy fucking bandââ
âyeah, and i tried to fuck your uncle last week,â billy cuts him off, sitting there and giving him a blank look.Â
eddie looks scandalised before a smile starts to crack, a slight laugh coming out. âyou are such a fucking asshole.â
billy laughs right back, making an illegal turn and flooring it, âfuck you, iâm your hottest fucking customer. now, letâs go fix your fucking van.â
âtommy ainât that bad,â billy tries again as he puts eddies van back into working condition, pulling the piece he took out earlier from his jacket and putting it back in the engine, eddie none the wiser sitting in the driver's seat.
eddie raises his eyebrows at him when he pops up to look at him over the hood, âuh huh. sure. tommy hagenâs got a heart of gold.â
billy rolls his eyes then bends back over, fixing up the last few things before slamming the hood shut.
âseriously. heâs like, chill, once you get to know him. he pissed me off too when i first met him. then, i actually gave him the time of day, and nowââ billy shrugs, wiping his hands and smearing some grease around, then walking around to eddieâs door.
âwhy the hell do you care so muchâwhat? you want us to all share friendship bracelets? want us to jam together?â eddie questions, looking at billy through his rolled down window.
billy lets out a deep breath. ââcause. weâre almost graduated, weâre basically fucking adults, and i don't want to spend my fucking summer having to divide my days going between you both because you guys canât get over shit from middle school. we were all fuckinâ pricks when we were twelve. luckily, you two both grew out of it, but i sure as shit didn't. so, either learn to get along, or iâll make you fucking get along.â
billy pulls out a pack of smokes, gets one out, gives eddie a salute, then lights up and walks away.
billyâs words bounce around in his head the following days, and when billy tells him to meet him at his car after school three days later and he rocks up to tommy and carol fucking perkins sitting in the back seat, eddie stops for a minute before standing tall, then throws himself into the front passenger seat.
billy smiles his most angelic smile at him, and when eddie turns around, tommy wonât meet his eye. carol smirks at him and pops her bubblegum. ââsup, eddie.â
eddie didn't even know she knew his name. he lifts his hand in a weird little wave before turning back around and facing the road. âfuck you,â he mutters under his breath, sinking down in his seat.
billy laughs and drops his hand to rest on eddieâs knee, squeezing it. âweâre gonna have fun, baby,â he mumbles back.
after a few blocks, billy pulls up to bennyâs diner and cuts the engine.
âyou said âmeet me at my car, itâs importantâ,â eddie deadpans, looking around the busy carpark in the peak of the after school rush, tommy and carol already getting out.
âyeah,â billy deadpans right back, eyes looking fucking gleeful, âafter school milkshakes. most important part of the day.â
âyouâre lactose intolerant,â eddie breathes out disbelievingly as they both reach for their car doors.
âi know,â billy grins, pushing his door open and stepping out, then turning around and leaning in, ânow letâs go, hot stuff.â
and maybe one day i'll finish this. oops.
#theres more and i have three different au's where they end up in a band together but. too lazy to type more rn#also billy and eddie being the type of friends where everyones like..... are they..... are they together.... wait huh.....#but obviously. eddiechrissy is real and true#and billy. well hes bi as fuck and will obviously meet someone that hawkins could never create#but basically!!!! eddie and tommy finding themselves in situations together all becos of billy#and it being awkward and weird and stilted#until one day they realise it isn't anymore#GOD the idea of them being in a band and having fans and stans#like the idea of them doing interviews and eddie being like. we went to school together. tommy bullied me. i was billys dealer.#billy: i was tommys bi-awakening#tommy: sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i went to community college instead of joining these tools in a band#hello the thought of tommy being the drummer and just drumming over them everytime they dont shut the fuck up on stage#billy and eddie turning to him like ohhhh look whos too good to listen to us now huh. remember when u idolised us#mungrove#hagangrove#billy x eddie x tommy#nqff#m#text
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I've been reading the emesis blue screenplay whenever I have a bit of free time, and it's so interesting to see the small changes they've made to some scenes.
But also, the knowledge that Fritz was supposed to have visions of being mistreated in prison in that one scene when he has a panic attack at scout's house makes me go hhhhhh
#60 seconds till mission begins rambles#If you can afford it; go support Fortress Films on patreon if you want access to the screenplay too; it's just 2 dollars a month#Honestly the script does clear up a lot of things not because the movie is confusing but because I am bad at listening to dialogues and#having all conversations spelt out with descriptions of the smaller details that are happening in the scene is super helpful#like who is seeing what in the corner of their eyes or what is in the black suitcase at the end when we see it open or#that one scene when soldier is talking to the police officers over radio to find out about who stole the black hearse and where it's headed#I didn't realise the guy who goes âroll down the window; I can't see your faceâ is the same guy who does the muffled screams 2 seconds late#there's a surprising amount of smaller scenes that were omitted which would have changed the feeling of some scenes a lot#It's only implied in the movie but Fritz puts Scout into the coffin after he's killed; that's actually described in the screenplay but#Instead of having a solemn moment about it the screenplay has him HURL scout into the coffin and then proceed to FIGHT for his life alksjdh#Screenplay Fritz is a different flavour of Fight and Flight and he has some more nightmares; let the man REST for a second#Ok no more spoilers; go read it yourself >:)
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