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Closer - Masterlist | KNJ, JJK
Pairing: Namjoon x Reader x Jungkook
Genre: smut, friends to lovers, there was only one bed!, Reunion!AU
Rating: M (18+)
Series Warnings: unrequited crushes becoming requited, 190811 Jungkook and platinum blonde Namjoon are the visuals, also both are gym rats so…. think “thick,”excessive use of “Noona,” needy Jungkook, “baby girl” Namjoon agenda, poly relationship, each chapter will have specific smut warnings
Word Count: 5k so far
Disclaimer: NSFW, obviously I don’t own BTS - they just inspire me
Summary: During your college reunion weekend, one unbelievably hot evening brings you and your old friends Namjoon and Jungkook together, in ways you've only dreamed of. Weeks later, you can't let the memory of that night go. Can the three of you get closer?
A/N: Thought I should make a little ML for this miniseries to keep them all together! 💕
Part One: No Regrets
One hot night spent lying between your friends Jungkook and Namjoon brings old feelings to light. “Do you have any regrets, Noona?”
Part Two: Together
There’s no holding back tonight, as you and your old friends Jungkook and Namjoon decide to do something about your regrets. Together.
Part Three: No Looking Back
You can't forget the memory of that night. Neither can they. Can the three of you get closer?
Masterlist 💜 Find me on AO3 💜
© 2022-23 by sunshinerainbowsbts/minisugakoobies. Crossposted to AO3. Please do not copy or repost.
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Insomnia is letting up off and on, but I'm still super jelly brained from it case in point, I want to continue back with posting WIPs for the aired pages, but I can't remember what page I left off on now lmao (guess I'll have to dig through my blog to check... eesh. at least it's decently organized by tags?) Not a result of goo brain, really, but equally "AUGH" is that I let my screen protector go for too long without replacing it and now it's slick as snot and I don't have a replacement handy to put on it. This isn't a resulting consequence of goo brain but it does mean I'm going to be trying to draw without any traction while I'm already loopy. Good times ahead!
#shut up pu#I"ve had problems with insomnia my whole life so I'm sadly used to this#it comes and it goes#and right now it's in the middle of a big angry come#what do you mean that wording is atrocious??#it gets the point across#ordered a new screen for the draw slab so I've at least been proactive in fixing the problem#the only other problem is I hate drawing on brand new fresh screens too lol bad finger feel#only the middle screen is good for both fingies and pens#anyway the parts of chapter 3 I really love are coming up over the horizon#part of me does wish I would have tweaked the pacing of chapter 3 a little when realizing the usual posting schedule wasn't going to work#after real life delays all butted into production time bc chapter 3 was still paced for the 2 - 3 pages a week schedule#reading it all at once it still carries that pacing but I do feel a bit bad about the way it has felt at once a week#very occasionally twice lol#but I'm just a stickler for pacing so it bothers me personally probably more than it bothers literally anyone#knowing what it's meant to feel like on the proper release schedule vs. the slower release schedule is largely my own problem#and I'm feeling that extra hard right now because I'm having to do prep work for designing and asseting a new set#which saves a huge amount of time in the long run but slows things down in the immediate now#aka: I want to draw characters and story wahhh why am I making set pieces#also hey where the fuck's that stupid fox at he's even in the story synopsis write up where is he#get in the story proper you piece of shit#hello I am sleep deprived and rambling about comic production how are you doing
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i was watching a music video for a japanese song and it had built in youtube english captions so i went to turn those on but then i saw that there was like an option for "English" and then a second option for "English (Canada)" and i realized in a few seconds it was just a workaround to having two sets of english captions, one with colour changes in the lettering and one without for accessibility (the canada one was the non-fancy lettering) but for a moment i was living in a world where they were making dedicated canadian english translations for things..... measuring temperature in celsius and height in feet...... paying with loonies and toonies... going to the WASHROOM
#pencil crayons for colored pencils is a favourite but its mostly just an ontario thing tho from what ive heard LOL#calling electricity hydro is another good one. although that also depends on province <3 ontario and i think BC? and maybe more#sorry im ontarian. you can make fun of me for it its okay.#you know sometimes i think about attempts at 'canada english' settings in word processors and stuff#they always suck ass. because every person in this god damn country uses whatever word and spelling they want LOL#like theres some general likelihoods like colour and favourite are common. but centre or center? its like 50-50#i personally use both. depending on i dont know. context? the phase of the moon and stars?#theatre and theatre i see both as well and also personally use both but i have like specific rules for myself for some reason#i use theatre for playhouses and theater for movie theaters. i dont know why#and dont get me started on measurements. thats another combo of context and personal preference#people who work more in like trades switch a lot because of product labels but tend to lean more imperial#people who work in like i dunno. chemistry or something probably use a lot of metric#the average person working in neither? honestly they'll probably say both in the same sentence at least where i live#when installing art basically everyone uses both inches and cms depending on which ones more convenient on the ruler LOL#our drivers licenses in ontario say our heights in cm but literally no one can picture it with the cm measurement because#colloquially everyone says heights in feet and inches. its fine. its fine#edit: WAIT i got so distracted by measurement bullshit i forgot to mention the song. it was insomnia by eve#good tune as usual of eve and also a really beautifully animated and emotionally intense music video
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To anyone who's ever read my story: Thank you, and I'm so sorry I haven't posted anything in ages. I really, really, really want to keep working on it, I just kinda hit a wall with where to go next, and that has been killing me for months now.
(Basically, I have the entire last half or third of the story plotted out, but aside from a few scattered plot points, I don't know how to do the setup to get there. And the harder I try to brainstorm the emptier my brain gets. So I've kinda just stalled.)
#oh to have the same level of awesome inter-character interactions and cots....#I'm just really bad at coming up with scene ideas that lead to those kinds of inter-character interactions aside from one-on-ones w/ Fallon#anyways. enough late night / early morning thoughts.#who knows maybe someday soon I'll have an insomnia week where I fix every single problem with RTQ/ATQH.#that'd be nice.#knowing me it will be during a week where sleep is critical tho.#since my last productive insomnia week was during my fall semester exam week lmao. very funny but also annoying as hell.#morrigan.txt#delete later#I make too many posts at odd hours.#I need to go the fuck to sleep. It's after 2am and I have to be up around 9am.
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about the last thing i reblogged, the stress one
YOU GUYS
i've always been a sensitive human bean in terms of allergies and having sensitive skin, AND i already knew im basically a little walking bundle of stressed out angry nerves
but my body literally decided to rebel against me and let me tell you, one more problem and im going to wrap myself in bubble wrap or become the modern real life bubble boy
#my body: im so stressed im going to start making myself sick so you'll calm the fuck down#im getting allergies and rashes from anything and everything#fucking tooth paste guys#food i eat today does nothing but tomorrow makes me go to the hospital because it triggers my immune system#cleaning products? i cant even be in the same ROOM as them#me cleaning the house is like those doctors in infection movies#i just wanted to vent a little because yeah#like the literal sunlight allergies and all the respiratory ones and the non pure gold or silver jewellery and amoxicillin#and goddamn BANDAIDs and surgical tape and anything adhesive werent enough#i guess thats what having a literal clusterfuck of a year and not getting treatment or talking to anyone about it and having consistent#insomnia for about 7 months does to you
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#hello darkness my old friend. I have insomnia again#it seems i wont get back to sleep. making this the 4th night in a row of 4 to 5hrs sleep. woof#is it insomnia or am i on the bleeding edge of hyp0mania? idk its weird. i can feel the strain in my head#my thoughts dont connect as well. its like im being pulled in two directions. my brain becoming spaghettified. growing thin around the#middle. but im not as tired as one might expect. ive been pretty productive and optimistic but anxiety and internal restlessness are up#like im tired but also i need to get up and pace around. maybe jump up and down. maybe run in circles.#the energy comes in waves. sitting in lectures or sitting for the extended addition of l0tr has been somewhat unbearable#bc im so contained. i would not ever get up and walk around while those things were happening but i desperately wanted to#ugh. whats my problem? who's to say. could also b the medication. i see the psychiatrist next week and i think ill beg to b put back on#lam1ctal. just bc when i was taking it on a super low does i had a week or feeling the most normal i think i ever have in my life#anxiety and evil thoughts were so small and i felt happy in a way im not sure i ever have been#like i think under normal circumstances i just have a low capacity for joy. at most i feel neutral. like i was telling my friends how i#might do some field work in winter and they were enthusiastic abt it and i kno y bc it sounds cool but idk i just dont feel anything abt it#i cant see past the pain it will take to get there. and i mean mood wise i feel alright on 4bilify like in a nutral way but stable isnt#the same as feeling happy. but maybe its all just in my head. 25mg lam1ctal shouldnt b enough to b effective#but idk i think im just sensitive to the chemicals in my body. including hormone fluctuations. idk. i hope she lets me switch.#itll b a pain in the ass to readjust in terms of going off what im on now and it might not work#but theres literature on retrying lamicta1 and they say to avoid inflammatory reactions in the first 2 months. which i did not do. oops#not that i was trying. i didnt think abt it until id had a million holes poked in my skin and was experiencing a mild tatt00 allergy#ugh. anyway. tbh id prefer this being hyp0mania vs insomnia bc then at least i can continue to function a bit during the day#ive never done anything that wild while hyp0manic aside from injure myself from over exercising and make bad choices in how i spend time#ie become insane abt something and not b able to think abt anything else. ugh. and i guess at this point ive tentatively accepted the idea#of being bip0lar. so i swear to christ if i was misdiagnosed ill b so mad. its just that if i fill out an 4dhd and bip0lar checklist. i#get a way heavy positive with bip0lar and the 4dhd is meh. so i think i just have overlap in symptoms due to dyslex1a and 4utism#ugh. me and my collection of diagnoses. so it goes#unrelated
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Not me hiding from my moots at 4 in the morning because I can't sleep.
#glitchrambles.txt#Insomnia you bitch#How dare you make me productive at UNGODLY hours of the morning!
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Fuck, I love it when my cooking groove comes back. No dog around my feet cause he's sleeping in the sun, ma out the way so there's no burn risk in the tiny kitchen.
Maybe I'll see if I can modify all my baking to do in the air fryer rather than the oven. Then things will really be getting tasty 😈 shortbread buttons/rhubarb crumble/gingerbread loaf, anyone?
Stir fried noodles with "what protein doesn't require prep?" (chicken already cooked and batch shredded for a few days meals) and "what veggies cook quickest so I don't need to pay attention to order?" (mange tout, baby corn, red pepper, spring onion) - featuring a dash of "allergies are torture, save me spices" (gochujang)
#the life and times of limi#its extra funny cause i love to bake and I'm good at it but...not much a fan of eating it 🤣#whip up a decadently chocolate but light as air birthday cake at a few hours notice? no bother. 😎#middle of the night crumble for someone's gaming sesh? coming right up#and then there's me... baking bread at 3am cause BREAD but also insomnia isnt a problem if i make it productive ���
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It's currently 3:40 am on a school night, I'm tired asf, and I have tried to go to sleep for the past 4 hours. I haven't been able to sleep properly for the past like 3 days. I have given up on sleep at this point. I love being an insomniac 😍
#i will put a gun to my head if it will make me fall asleep#im so fucking tired#i think its bs that doctors say to avoid electronics before sleep because as im writing this im beginning to feel sleepy#FINALLY#anyway#im gonna go do smt productive#insomnia#insomniac#insomnia on a school night 😍
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Curly Hair Routine with Changbin
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ summary: Teaching Changbin how to take care of his curls. based off this post/request!
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ word count: 1k (how did i do this.. i thought it was like 500)
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ warnings: none really :3 just fluff and mentioned that reader has longish, curly hair
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ notes: i saw a few moots repost that prompt and i have curly hair (like 3A/3B?) that i've been learning to take care of the last few years so :3 thought this was cyuuute!!! also probably gonna write chris' later today/tomorrow! (my insomnia came back so.. we'll see when it gets done LMFAO)
@chaeryred (also @httpdwaekki cause hehe) i hope you guys like it >< thought it came off a little messy but i still think its pretty cute
DO NOT republish or translate+post my work!
"YAH! IT'S TOO COLD"
"SIT STILL! I JUST HAVE TO WASH IT OUT-"
"NO!!!! MOM!!! HEEEEEEELP-"
After wrestling your boyfriend like a cat taking a bath, you managed to wash the rest of the conditioner out of his hair and wrap his head up in a towel. You sent him to sit on the floor in the living room while you went to grab all your products from your bedroom. Once you returned, you were met with the biggest pout you've ever seen mixed with the nastiest side eye known to man. His head is almost completely wrapped up in a towel, minus the big circle where part of his face peeks out, and his arms are crossed sassily.
You couldn't help but smile and chuckle, shaking your head as you dropped the products and tools on the couch. You sit directly behind him, putting your legs on either side of his shoulders and leaning him into you. He shivers and your heart pangs a little, but you lean forward and wrap your arms around him and rub them soothingly. A quiet 'hmph!' comes from him and you laugh again.
"I'm sorry, baby. You said you wanted to do my hair routine just like me. And I always end it off with rinsing with cold water." Your fingers sneak into the hole in the towel and pull it back some, exposing his cheeks more as well as some of his wet hair. He makes the angry noise again and throws a small fit, turning away from you and tugging the towel back to its previous position in defiance.
You peck his cheek a few times and combine it with a mumbled apology. Then a small smile forms on his face and you start ruffing the towel, rubbing your hands back and forth and using it to poke fun at him while also starting to dry his hair off. Giggles erupt from the both of you as he drops the tough act and reacts to the ticklish feeling, his distinct giggle ringing through your ears in the best way possible.
Once you both have calmed down, and he's no longer feigning distress, you start to gently dry his hair. "I brought a mirror too." His hair is mostly dry and you grab your brush before realizing that Changbin's eyes have been glued to the show on TV. This was supposed to be a learning experience so you wanted him to watch, but it was also endearing to see him trust you so blindly that he resorts to iPad-baby tendencies.
"Are you gonna watch me do it so you can learn, or was this just an excuse for you to get pampered?" You tease, tilting his head back gently so he can look you in the eyes. He smiles apologetically and reaches for the mirror, "Sorry, Bunny. Got a little distracted hehe. I am your apprentice tonight! Teach away, Jagi." You smile widely and lean down again to place a kiss on his lips. One he reciprocates it before fixing his posture and placing the mirror in position.
He then lowers the television down and sits there patiently, allowing you to take him through the steps and using the mirror to peek at what your hands are doing. You start it off by showing him the products and explaining what they do and then tell him how you're supposed to use them, using a strand of his hair as an example.
Each step doesn't take long, thanks to the fact that he memorized the first few steps of your routine; the brushing and cream application. What you did explain was the styling techniques. He could have just left it as is and not done anything, or he could do what you do and finger-coil each strand.
He had seen how you slaved over your hair for over an hour each time you finger-coiled it and was dreading his experience to be similar to that. But thanks to how short his hair was compared to yours, it was a cakewalk. However, when he tried to coil one strand himself, his fingers did manage to get tangled in each other a few times... but you have to experience something to really learn from it! And the texture of the gel you used seemed to drive him crazy, but he got used to it eventually.
Then it was onto drying! You had brought out the diffuser attachment- or.. what Changbin called the "claws of death," for your hair dryer. He had seen you use it countless times before, but it looked like a jumbled mess of things from the outside and he never knew if there was a technique to it or if it was just random movements.
After teaching him the tips and tricks you used for extra volume and just how to diffuse his hair in general on a small section of his hair, you watched proudly as he dried the rest of his hair on his own with little to no problems. You did a dramatic reveal, wiggling your fingers and adding a "Tada~" when he looked into the mirror for the final time.
He stared for a while, eyes tracing the unfamiliar, defined curls on his head. They were pretty, and you have literally never seen his hair like that before. But what really made it worth it was his reaction. A big smile grew on his face and he turned to you, crawling up the couch to give you a big kiss. "Thank you, Bunny."
"Of course, baby. You look good like this." You smiled and admired your handiwork for a while until you remembered that today was supposed to be your wash day in the first place.
"Okay!! Time for me to wash my hair now." You peck him on the lips and playfully shove him onto the couch, running away after. The pitter-patter of his steps chases after you and he wraps his hands around you once the water is turned back on.
"Wait. I want to do it!" He smiles widely despite the unsure face you make. But he's your Binnie, so it's kind of hard not to cave in. You agree and resume the same position he had earlier, sitting on the tile with your neck resting on the edge and your head hovering over the big bowl of the tub. He steals another kiss before gathering your hair products and directing the water to your head.
"Don't worry, Bunny. I'm a professional at this~"
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armando headcanons for when it’s that time of the month ? 😫
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𝐀𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎 𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐀𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍!
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᯾ synopsis. it’s that time of the month, what would he be like?
᯾ theme: fluff with a little bit of crack and suggestive.
᯾ format: headcanon.
᯾ warnings: the topic of having a period?
᯾ authors note: thanks for requesting! i’ve got such a good story that im doing for you guys, stay tuned!!
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[🕷️] 𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋: 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐜𝐭.
♡︎ Armando would initially be surprised at the level of pain that would occur from your period, he’s obviously went through a lot too but nothing could apparently amount to this.
♡︎ He would at first stare at you, trying to figure out how severe the pain really is.
♡︎ That wasn’t until you shouted at him to go get you some painkillers was when he stopped analysing you.
♡︎ In his mind, he didn’t think the pain was AS bad as you were making it out to be. (men..)
♡︎ Nevertheless, he got you some painkillers and returned back home. Giving you them along with a glass of water.
♡︎ After an hour, you felt better, relieved even. Apologising got him for your aggressive behaviour, he shrugged it off. Not fazed at all.
♡︎ He would then begin to stock up on sanitary towels, any period product you needed, he had. You found it unnecessary but he called it being prepared.
♡︎He set you baths, had a section of painkillers in the kitchen, even did face masks or skincare with you whenever you had acne on your face due to your hormones.
♡︎ And one night, he asked. “¿Significa esto que podemos dejarte embarazada ahora?”
♡︎ You nearly spat your drink out.
[🕷️] 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋: 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥.
♡︎ he would be very tuned in with your emotions.
♡︎ as a guy with not many words and just likes observing, he would completely tell when you’ve started or it’s about to come on.
♡︎ the mood swings, increased irritation and insomnia that you was having a week before? yeah, he knows.
♡︎ so, when it does happen, he’s genuinely prepared for all the emotions that come with it.
♡︎ he can be a quiet person but he’s always ready to have a good, deep conversation if you desperately need it.
♡︎ If you’re having a bad day and you come back home crying, he’s already got your back. Embracing you in a warm hug while you cry on his chest.
♡︎ after you’ve calmed down, he would surprise you with a bouquet of red roses and your favourite food.
♡︎ it was almost as if he knew you was feeling this way.
♡︎ you guys cannot convince me otherwise that he isn’t a soft person when it comes to the people he loves.
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[🕷️] 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒:
“¿Significa esto que podemos dejarte embarazada ahora?“ - Does this mean we can get you pregnant now?
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Insomnia ♡
— taylor x gf !
summary: taylor suffers from a terrible insomnia and takes the opportunity to write a song about her girlfriend.
That Taylor Swift suffered terribly with insomnias wasn't news to anyone, not even for her most recent fans.
Usually, her insomnias reflected in miserably unhappy thoughts or in new songs for her albums. At that moment, laying next to you - who were sleeping peacefully - Taylor could only smile.
— This happens once every few lifetimes. — the blondie whispered and took her hand to your face to gently caress you.
And as most of her songs emerged, her sentence was the motto for a musical idea. That and the sudden urge to write about her girlfriend.
Taylor kissed your forehead while you were still sound asleep and got up. Benjamin, that was sleeping in your bed aswell, also got up to follow Taylor downstairs.
Olivia jumped from the couch hearing Taylor come down and Meredith lifted her head but was sleeping again in the next second.
The blondie went to the music room in her home and sat on the pouf with her guitar and her notebook on her lap.
She started to write the line she whispered to your ear minutes before and added some rhythm. The lyrics came up in her head and she would ocasionally get up to get to the kitchen and eat or drink something.
You eventually woke up in your room after not feeling Taylor's warmth beside you. You rubbed your eyes a little and yawned a few times before you could make yourself get up to check on your girlfriend.
Meredith got up when she saw you and started to ask for cuddles. Taylor felt a little jealous that Meredith clearly prefered you over her but she couldn't judge the kitty.
— Tay? — you called her when you didn't see any lights on.
Taylor didn't answer but after some efforts, you could hear the guitar playing in the sound proof music room. So you just followed the music while holding Meredith in your arms.
— Hey, babe. — Taylor smiled when she heard you.
— Did I wake you up? — she asked and tapped her lap a few times after dropping the guitar on the floor.
You and Meredith went to sit on her lap then.
— No no, I just can no longer sleep without feeling you by my side. And then I got worried so I wanted to check if everything was okay.
— Everything's fine, babe, I just couldn't sleep for the life of me and I had an idea for a song. — Taylor pointed at her notebook laying on the floor.
You grabbed the notebook and read the loose lyrics that were written. You were still a little sleepy to be able to interpret exactly what Taylor meant but you had no more doubts that song was about you when you read "'Cause the sign on your heart said it's still reserved for me, honestly who are we to fight the alchemy?".
— Hey, this is about me! — you proclaimed smiling and Taylor just laughed. Then, she planted a little kiss on your lips.
— Do you wanna hear how it sounds?
— Why are you asking? — you left Taylor's lap and put Meredith down. You sat beside her on the floor to hear her sing.
Taylor sang what she had wrote. Of course the final product would be slightly different but that was the sketch. You were quite emotional hearing your girlfriend sing about you with so much passion.
— How does it sound to you? — Taylor asked a little frightened.
You answered by grabbing Taylor's face to kiss her for a hot while. And then you just hugged her.
— I love you. — you murmured.
— I love you too, my love.
THANK YOU FOR READING ♡
#taylor swift#taylor swift x you#taylor swift x reader#taylor swift imagine#taylor swift fanfiction#taylornation#imagine#the alchemy
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Fixed this one too, after 1.5-2 hours of early morning work. (Can't sleep? Fight blender for 2 hours!! It won't help you sleep, but it does pass the time!)
Assuming I test this in-game tomorrow/today and it works, then Carrion will finally have an outfit to wear!!!
Opening my game to look for an outfit for Carrion turned into me opening blender and making a mesh edit... The things we do for our OCs.
#morrigan.txt#self-reblog#I was appalled to find out that the original mesh for this piece of cc has a HIGHER POLY mesh for the other LODS...#FOR A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT OUTFIT.#this outfit's LOD0 is ~7.5k poly but the mesh that was left as the LODs 1-3 was 17k poly.#my upper LODs may be full of holes (need to experiment with recalculating normals tomorrow) but at least they serve their purpose!!!!#I'm bad at blender and cc making and half the time I forget LODs even exist but I don't think even I would do that lmao.#I mean this is a hella old piece of cc but STILL.#I'm gonna test my version in game tomorrow (aka later today) and also hopefully redo my edit of the arm spikes for Carrion's monster form.#I fucked up and forgot to assign the upper arm pieces to the upper arm joints instead of the forearm ones.#and bc I'm stupid I didn't save a version without the meshes joined. So I guess I'm just redoing it from scratch.#which is fine. It literally took me 10 minutes tops to do it the first time and that was with more trial and error than this will require.#anyways. Sorry I'm being so rambly in the tags and have spammed my blog so much today.#I've been absolutely manic with productivity which NEVER happens to me.#although the downside is that I get no sleep.#it's okay. This happens every few months. I call them my ''insomnia weeks''. I get more work done in 3-6 days than I do in 3 months#but I also get an absolute MAX of 4-5 hours of sleep a night for 3-6 nights.#it's an interesting tradeoff....#luckily for me I am used to being exhausted and functioning on little sleep.#alright bedtime for me. hopefully I can actually sleep for a bit before I have to get up in 4.5 hours.
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Target Lock (John Price x Reader)
Insomnia is a real bitch, except when it is mildly productive.
1.2k words
Kissing only - reader discretion advised regardless
Swearing
Feedback welcome
I have lost control of my life in a very real way and this is helping somehow, I don't know how but it is. Let's not examine that too closely, shall we?
About a month ago you started hallucinating, and you haven’t stopped yet. Your oldest friend, John, turned up to take you on a date you hadn’t realized you had agreed to. When he kissed you after returning you home that night it was like time slowed and a fever dream had taken up residence in your brain. Something in your body chemistry had shifted and it hadn’t returned to normal yet. You were starting to worry it never would.
You can’t help but notice little things about him now that you had previously been immune to. The largeness of his well-muscled body and how close he stands to you. The way his sleeves pull taut over his forearms when talking animatedly. The way his spicy cologne seems to pair with his cigars like a fine wine. Even the way his jeans stretch over his wide thighs when he sprawls on your couch, waiting for you to get ready. You’re pretty sure you are losing your mind, because this is John. John. The same man that used your purse as a sick bag in the back of a taxi one memorable night out.
You are so used to his big presence taking up space in your life that thinking of him in this new light seems vaguely wrong. You can’t seem to stop yourself though, and say ‘yes’, each time he asks you out afterwards. You’ve gone from overly comfortable with him to flighty and nervous when he’s around. You’re not convinced you like the change.
He's on his way tonight to help put up plastic over the drafty windows at your new rental. It’s so dangerously domestic. You spend so long debating about whether or not you should blow out your collection of tealights (too inadvertently romantic?) that you run out of time and end up having to leave them flickering on the mantel. You answer the door with an overly cheerful hello, and John leans down to press a gentle kiss into your flushed cheek.
“You alright, love?” He asks, his familiar and steady demeanour bracing your nerves already. Your affectionate smile is genuine, watching as he locks the door behind him and humming an affirmation for him. He follows you to the kitchen where you’ve laid out your tools – such as they are. Hairdryer? check. Double sided tape? Check. Plastic film? Check.
John’s shrugging out of his lambskin jacket, hanging it off the back of a chair in a habitual motion as you get the kettle going. You can feel the weight of his gaze and inexorably find yourself turning to meet it. He looks uncharacteristically unsure of himself in the middle of your small kitchen.
“What’s wrong?” The words have escaped before you can think. He shakes his head slowly, his eyes staying on your face, locked on like a predator. There’s something in his expression you aren’t familiar with, can’t quite read. His hands find his pockets, elbows pressed in against his sides, making himself seem smaller. You frown at his unusual behaviour, a different kind of anxiety overtaking you now.
“You’re freaking me out.” You warn, your voice warbling as your sentence ends.
“Did I fuck this up?” He blurts out, blue eyes widening as if he’s surprised himself with his outburst as well as you.
“Fuck what up?” You ask for unnecessary clarification.
He gestures between you with his thumb, the rest of his body tense and waiting to hear your verdict.
“…No.”
“Are you sure? Cause it seems –“ He cuts himself off.
“Seems like what?”
“Seems like you’re running scared. Not like yourself, love.”
“John.” You exhale in a breath. You’re startled by his incisive comment, cut to the quick with no retort at the ready.
“Don’t say my name like that if you’re just going to call this off.” His voice lowers an octave and your stomach swoops in response.
“…I’m not calling anything off, I just…” You shouldn’t be surprised John couldn’t watch you struggle without comment. Or pressing the issue. A man of action, through and through.
“You what? Talk to me.” His voice is soft, concerned.
“What if we do fuck this up? Is it worth it? To throw away over two decades of friendship?”
Something passes over his face and he’s closing the distance between you before you can process that he’s moving. His tone is urgent, like he needs to you understand this, and understand it now.
“You can’t fuck this up. There’s nothing you could do that would make me stop caring about you. You don’t know that by now?”
His big hands come up to cradle your face, thumbs swiping over the apples of your cheeks lightly. The nearness of his big body makes your own respond in ways that you haven’t allowed yourself to process.
“John.” You say his name helplessly, unsure what to do with this information he’s placing in your hands. He’s unbalanced the dynamic between you. Your instinct is to duck and hide, to deflect to something more appropriate for old friends, a joke or insult, but that won’t help you now. You know your eyes must be wide with the fear clawing its way through your chest. He’s moving to step back, to let go of your face before you can muster anything else to say.
“It’s alright, if you don’t – “
You know he’s about to backpedal and your heart feels like someone has taken a hold of it and is squeezing for all their worth.
“No.” You manage you squeak out, your voice not altogether steady.
You cut him off with such eloquence that it stops him in his tracks. You’re reaching for his hands, nuzzling back into the space between them before you can think it through. Instead, letting the soft, small animal of your body timidly search out what it wants.
“No?” He breathes, stroking his thumbs over your cheeks again, like he’s scared to jostle you for fear of something shattering.
“Whatever you were about to say… don’t.”
His familiar chuckle is comforting, and then the slightest pressure from his fingertips is angling your face up to his. You oblige his unspoken request, his nearness making your skin prickle and your thoughts scatter.
“Alright, love.” He breathes again and your eyes meet his. This time you can read the want on his face, plain as day. It makes your stomach quiver in anticipation. John’s intense blue eyes are searching your face for something. Whatever it is he must find it, because he’s lowering his mouth to yours in the next heartbeat.
The silken heat of his lips pull at your own until you open for him, pliant now where before you had been stiff and recalcitrant. The tip of his tongue finding yours sends sparks scattering behind your closed eyelids, sensation overtaking self-consciousness. Your hands take on a mind of their own, sliding up his solid chest to press in to the short strands of his hair and clutch at the back of his shirt, a subconscious effort to ground yourself.
One big hand cups the back of your head, subtly steering your movements as he plunders your mouth. The other settles on your hip, strong fingers pressing into your soft flesh. A soft whine escapes before you can corral your reaction and you can feel the response thrum through John’s body. You don’t realize you’re moving until you feel your back press up against the cool door of your fridge. The scattered magnets dig into your back as you slowly give in to his onslaught, willingly pinned in place by his big body. The windows can wait a while longer, you absently decide.
#john price x reader#john price cod#captain john price#john price x female reader#kissing#making out#awkward conversations#call of duty#fanfic#friends to lovers#badly edited
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An honest love reading (general)
Pick a picture -
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Group one
A cycle has just been completed in terms of love and romance and either you or someone else did not this to happen. They're almost like, dramatic about that.someone involved , you or someone connected to yourself somehow, is overly focused on love and it stresses them out and it feels extreme though I can't pick up on any situation extreme enough to justify this. Someone could have insomnia and or hair loss you could also possibly see someone's tiredness in their eyes. Someone's money might be affected. I keep picking up on a a group of, as in multiple, people. Either someone here is polyamorous and if that's the case it has something to do with denial about something or the want to be in control of something or someone, or for others there's a group of people you're dealing with and they're "heated " about something . I also heard " eyeing you" who the hell uses phrases like this if you know that's a confirmation for ya. You have a group of people somewhat obsessed they seem like obsessed people in general they may be obsessed with something to do with you or just you, I'm also picking up on one individual who has something to do with you that (is very weird, and the groups I'm picking up on more or less give me weird vibes,) well connected to this person I'm getting something about childhood and I'm seeing candy this is really weird and I just involuntarily made an angry or confused look with my eyebrows you know I pushed them down I don't know why. This person may have known you for a long time or thinks they do or something idk this is super strange g make sure you're not overly trusting of every single person ever in your life you know. Someone also could be trying to take something that isn't theirs. Lock your doors , literally. Wow.sorry y'all . Genuinely. I also am somehow picking up on someone's long straight hair and something about glitter. I also saw a purple dress.
Group Two
You guys are easily manipulated and people who are going to want to manipulate you can notice this probably way more than you can about yourself also someone needs to not bite their fork when they take a bite of food it's bad for your teeth I don't know how or why that would come up for me to say sorry. Somebody needs to literally or metaphorically open a window. Um you're on the path to love and it will happen exactly when it's supposed to how it's supposed to with who it's supposed to and honestly unless you really go out of your way you may not have any romance at all until then even if that isn't what you want like for some reason I guess it depends but either your soul wants people in the meantime or you want someone sooner or what I don't know it just don't work like that though you know. I'm generally getting like if you're the type to hope your person isn't with anyone else before they meet you then this is probably for you also. Or your person is like this and I guess they are somewhat powerful cause therefore that's the way it's gonna be and in the meantime I guess you're gonna have to be solo. Somehow this seems better and more productive for your personal development than learning by Interacting with other people and being with "karmics" and stuff.
Group Three
I'm seeing two energies that are basically, literally, nothing alike. Yet somehow they're paired up. You're with this person right now in the past or future or you wanted or want to be with them lol. Some of you it's your soulmate ,though and that's really special and actually really cool and refreshing. Like 99% of you are supposed to at least at one point be with someone like this to you. Or for like very few of you this is just about your signs like fire and water but I really doubt that's as far as it goes you are probably very different either way. You guys are very deep and cool refreshing people very beautiful , good listeners and balanced. Someone has ADHD or something else so you might doubt the good listener thing I'm getting but I think you pay attention to detail or something like somehow this is still infact accurate and you may be don't see it about yourself . I think you all are very deep mentally and have a deep capacity to hold a lot lot lot of information, knowledge, wisdom, n stuff. A lot of people might be drawn to you or notice you and also possibly a lot of different types of people as something about you a lot of different people can still connect with somehow. Yeah also someone's a hater here though and they might tease you with something somehow so I really hope you stay aware of that possibility, realize this about whoever they are and stand up for yourself basically I feel like you have the potential to retaliate and as long as it is nothing illegal I kind of feel like saying I want you to . ????????? I don't know o feel like it would be really satisfying maybe to your guides or it is when you do, fight back or argue cause you're good at it and it would not be easy to win against you or come up with any comeback especially if you plan something. Wow. Hahaha. I'm leaving it here.
I heard desperado and I know three songs called that well two are just remixes of the og you could look up the og or the Mike bars desperado lol . Or just the word maybe is significant, goes with your picture anyway. I feel like most of you that will hear the song will just like the song lol . I can dig it
Group Four
There was a conditional love given and when this was taken away it had someone really stressed out and hurt. Someone was being a complete dick that was giving love conditionally and then stopped . I feel like the shit they do or say is old as f... Like it's ugly and getting old man anyway. This very well could be past energy like long long ago for some of you. This person might have lied. They might be selfish. They may be downplaying your come up or they will when you do come up. Or some , even saying you don't deserve it but I'm being shown you very clearly do. Like this person only gets dustier through time nobody is ever gonna pick up this old kick knack and undust them theyre old and lame. I'm picking up on like, when people say the type of person that peaked in high school. Yeah so this person has their qualities but eventually everyone's like ok whatever yawn. They're definitely super greedy as I just got a card saying " GREED " lol. In terms of future love y'all will be good I'm picking up generally most of you just need to become more comfortable within yourself first and I'm picking up on like cozy night chilling and watching movies and stuff by yourself or with a pet even a friend but you get me just learning to be content also and have good times like that without the need for someone else romantically. Either way somehow some time after you get into that energy a person will come along softly and surely and it will be really nice and happy . Around that time maybe shortly after you will have something happen positive when it comes to work or their work . I also channeled the movie my big fat Greek wedding as I was channeling this last part haha so I thought I should mention that, I know I'm partially Greek and always loved that movie. Someone might like telling stories ? But yeah in the movie she has a glow up and then she sees this guy she thought was cute again and things just worked out and he asked her out and they fell in love it was just simple smooth and sweet and the timing matched up with what I said may happen for you so that's really cute y'all stay hopeful and focus on relaxation. And for some of you if you know this is true though also studying .
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update they didnt fire me and my boss took me aside to explain that he would rather me take random unpaid days off whenever im sick instead of letting me work 30 hours a week instead of 40 hours (something i asked for before i got covid) because if i work fewer hours than my coworkers will want to do it too.
i have covid so im taking an unpaid week off of work. place yer bets
#i hate capitalism#shit doesnt make any sense#wouldnt it be more productive to know when im not gonna come in to work#rather than have me randomly call out because of my insomni#insomnia*#which is why im out of PTO this year already
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