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astralis-ortus Ā· 2 days ago
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when it's less-than-ideal
āœ± boyfriend!bc x gn!reader
ā€” you can't judge a relationship only based on its good days.
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w.count ā†’ 0.9k genre ā†’ comfort, a dash of comedy at the end warning ā†’ chan referred to as chris, babe, my love; reader referred to as baby and babe; kind of sad but it ends wellā™” a.n ā†’ basically i'm projecting what kind of relationship-slash-communication style i want in a relationship, so... yeah. think i'll be on my own for quite a while, lol. anyways! i also have an announcement here about requests, commissions, and fanart shop, do check it outā™” ā‹† see masterlist
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chris has been acting weird lately, and you don't know why.
you're usually not one to mindā€”given the way his schedules these days barely even spare the time for him to rest, you understand that your boyfriend is bound to be less like his usual self. you've sat down with chris to talk about it early in your relationshipā€”the expectations, the ideal and less-than-ideal situations, the how-tos, and 4 years in, everything has all worked out just fine.
lately, however,
chris has been acting really strange.
"babe, i'm home," chris' voice softly echoed through the apartment, followed by the rustling of what you could assume is the layer of jacket and hoodie you got him to wear to battle the dropping temperatures of november seoul. "where are you?"
"kitchen!" you chirped, swiftly rinsing off the pots and pans you've been battling against for the past 10 minutes, "i'm still washing the dishes. are you hungry? i made some curry for dinner, it's in theā€”babe? are you okay?"
the cheeriness in your voice immediately turned into worry when you felt chris' arms around your waist, holding you tight as he allows himself to melt onto you, face buried in the crook of your neck.
after all the years of being at the receiving end of chris' special mix of physical affection, you've naturally learned to differentiate the meaning in your boyfriend's touchesā€”is he just being affectionate? or is he trying to tease you? is he jealous of the interaction you had? or did he sense something and is trying to keep you safe? you have always been able to read chris just from the way his skin grazes upon yours, and so far you've barely ever been wrong,
but god, you sincerely hope you're hitting far from the mark this time.
"hey," you softly called out upon the absence of chris' response, quickly disregarding the dishes to rinse your soapy hands before turning to face chris' tired features, "is everything alright, my love?"
instead of an answer, chris simply leaned onto your touch as soon as your hands came to cradle his cheeksā€”ones freezing from the cold weather he just escaped moments ago, and only then, you realized just how long it has been since you've properly seen your boyfriend.
how come you haven't noticed the dark, looming shadow in his eyes? or the way his skin had lost its usual glow and instead grew dry with the season? how come you didn't see the way the corner of his lips had grown heavier, or the way his curls you oh-so adored had adopted its long forgotten frizz?
how come it took you so long to properly see chris?
"i'm sorry, baby," running the pads of your thumbs across chris' cheeks, you forced yourself to swallow the lump of guilt lodged in your throat, "i just realized i've been too inattentive to you, and i'm sorry. have you been wanting to talk it out with me?"
and only then, you saw the faint glimmer you fell in love with, peeking between the grey clouds in chris' eyes.
"yeah," despite the hoarseness in his voice, you could hear the warmth returning in the words chris uttered as he nodded, "but i justā€¦ i didn't know how to bring it up since i knew you've been dealing with your own stuff as well."
chris quietly exhaled, soft breath grazing your lips when he leaned his forehead onto yours and let his eyes fluttered close, allowing his walls of self-protection to finally crumble as he speaks, "i'm sorry, baby. it was never my intention to let this fester for this long or to make you feel bad in any way. i just didn't know how. i promise."
you know you're not perfect, and neither is chrisā€”but you also know chris has always made it his life mission to make sure you're the happiest you've ever been when you're with him. one honest mistake will never erase the efforts and sacrifice chris has ever made for you, and you'll never let that happen.
"i know, baby," you hummed, lightly dragging the tips of your nails against his scalp when your fingers found the dark locks of his hair, "i don't blame you. i shouldn't have assumed about your condition and let it slip too. i won't let it happen again, i promise."
and you can feel the way chris' shoulder relax at the words you utter,
because just like him, he knows you'll do everything in your power to keep every single one of your promises.
"thank you, baby," chris pulled you into his embrace, completely engulfing you in his warmth while he pressed his lips on your forehead. "i promise i'll try to be better at this too, and thank you for being patient with me. i love you."
it didn't matter how many times have you heard chris whisper those three words in your ears, or how many times have he held you like you're everything that ever mattered to him,
chris will always make your soul feel the most alive it has ever been.
"i love you too, baby," you finally allowed yourself to smile as your arms found their way around your boyfriend's waist, holding him close as you listen to the rhythm of his heartbeatā€”
"ā€¦babe?"
"ā€¦yeah," chris sheepishly nodded while rubbing his stomach, "i haven't had lunch too, actuallyā€¦"
a protest involuntarily slip past your lips along with the forming lines of frown between your eyebrows, perfectly portraying your disapproval of chris' course of action.
"go sit down, i'll fix your plate for you," shaking your head, you turned towards the pot of warm curry on the stovetop in faux disappointment before you continued,
"and we'll talk about whatever's been stressing my christopher out, okay?"
oh, you can definitely confirm,
the sound of chris' soft chuckle will never fail to bring a smile to your face.
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poguehearted77 Ā· 3 days ago
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Lights, Camera, Action!
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Summary-> It's your first day on set and your nerves are through the roof but the cast makes you feel at home. You practice your lines, but the sparks between you and Drew are unscripted.
Belongs to my: OBX Season 5: Payback for Maybank Series
These can be read in any order!
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You're jet-lagged, but your body has no idea. Too distracted from the abundance of nerves pumping through your veins as you walked around the enormous film lot toward the set.
You stand on the edge of the bustling Moroccan set, heart pounding as you clutch your sides. The scarf draped over your head feels both like a costume and a shield, helping you blend into the character youā€™re about to bring to life. Even with the months of preparation and the script readings under your belt, this moment feels surreal.
Everyone hustled across the set with purpose, knowing exactly what their job was and how to do it. You had only a fraction of that confidence as you were approached by a familiar face, one of the directors, Josh Pate.
"I can sense your anxiety from a mile away." He teases and it pulls a smile and a small breath of relief that he was friendly. With a comforting hand on your shoulders, "Take a deep breath, go grab a muffin from craft, have some water and I'll see you back here for your scene in 20, alright? I don't need any more faintings on the clock."
Once the words process, he's already gone. Fainting?? More??? With dazed eyes, your eyes scan the environment, dozens of people dressed just like you. Some sitting on the sidelines while others got into place on set. You'd even spotted Madelyn off to the side, a make-up artist lightly padding her face to protect it from the lighting as she prepared for her scene.
You took Josh's suggestion seriously, and promptly, or at least you tried to. You had no idea where to find crafts services or even if you'd be able to find your way back. "Craft Services is the first door on your left." Your head whips around with a face of slight terror in your eyes at the mind-reader from behind you. It's JD.
"How did you know?" It's the first thing you say, slight amusement and a hint of awe evident in your voice. He shrugs, "You were either looking for craft or the bathroom. It was a 50/50 shot, to be honest." He laughs and it calms your nerves a little. After a little while and a good conversation with JD, you glanced at the clock on the wall.
It became apparent you didn't have much time left. Quickly you end the conversation and head inside the room he'd directed you to. The studio was warm, credit to the Morrocan heat that surrounded you on the outside.
"Cups, cups, cups.." You mutter to no one in particular as you desperately scan for the item you need. "Here you go," A big hand is outstretched in front of you with a new cup dwarfed in its palm.
Your eyes followed up the length of the arm until they met those famous ocean-blue eyes that owned your TikTok feed for months last fall. Drew. He has the infamous buzz and soft smile as he looks down at you.
"Thank you," It's a simple response but it's the best you can do in a situation like this. Turning away from him, you fill your cup and finish its contents in nearly one sip before tossing it and rushing back to set not wanting to be late.
You rush back to set, still feeling the phantom warmth of Drewā€™s presence. For a moment, you wonder if this strange mix of tension and excitement is something all new actors feel or if itā€™s just you. The scarf draped over your head has now become a makeshift security blanket, as much for your nerves as for your character.
Josh greets you with a reassuring thumbs-up as you step into position, the antique shop set sprawling around you with meticulous detail. Dusty shelves lined with ornate trinkets, cracked pottery, and rusted brass figurines fill the space, dimly lit to convey the musty atmosphere of a forgotten bazaar. The air smells faintly of incense, which only adds to the immersion.
As the Pogues enter the set, Madelyn offers you a friendly wink, her playful energy making the tension in your shoulders ease. You remember bumping into her at one of your meetings with the writers. She's as pure as her character and it was relieving to see a friendly face on set.
Chase gives you a nod of encouragement, while Jonathan seems almost shocked to see you, probably since you'd never mentioned who you would be playing. He sends you a motion of acknowledgement anyway and you smile back.
The cameras start rolling, and suddenly, you are no longer you. As though it were a chemical reaction to the words 'Action', your brain switches to the character you've studied for months in anticipation. No longer Y/n, now Piper.
You busy yourself behind the counter. Attending to the tasks that depend on you as the owner of your antique shop. Your focus is set on the vase in your hands as you sweep over its rim with a cloth.
The bell of the shop chimes as six foreigners enter the shop, standing in a crowd with some of the most grim expressions you'd ever seen. "Vases on the left, woodwork on the right. Let me know if you have any questions." The phrase sounds ingenuine as it has only been repeated every day for the last three years.
"We're not here for some fucking pottery-" Rafe claps his hands down on the counter, you don't react. Sarah corrects him, "Rafe." You look back to the bunch, now standing at your full height,
They were filthy, covered in sand, dirt, and essentially any other grime that could find them. "We need supplies." Sarah says and you shrug, "What did you have in mind? Glasses? Lamps? Clocks?" The group lets out a frustrated set of sounds.
Pope clears his throat, "We need weapons, and we were told to come find you... the pied piper." You tug down the fabric that'd been covering your face to the bridge of your nose. Unveiling the full length of the scar that begins in the center of your forehead, runs down over your left eye and reaches your cheek.
John B whispers, "Just like he said," You make him speak up, "Just like who said. Who sent you?" He steps closer, "Mr. Alami, the merchant from Agapenta. He said you would be able to help us." Your expression elicits a sign of understanding but quickly returns to disinterest.
"I don't help foreigners." The explosive one outbursts again, "You sound just like we do, clearly you're not from here either, so stop shitting us and give us the guns." Those cobalt orbs penetrate the window of your soul but only bring out the sinister grin on Piper's face. "Fine," Swiftly reaching behind your back, revealing the weapon they so desperately wanted, you hold them at gunpoint.
"-And Cut!" You place the gun down on the counter and Drew approaches the counter once again. "That was really good, I even got caught up in it." He places a hand on his chest to add sincerity.
"Thank you so much. I was really nervous for today, I had no idea what to expect." Someway somehow your conversation moves off to the side of the set, seated on those acting chairs.
You laugh as he brings up your fleeting encounter earlier, "I had no idea you were playing Piper. One second I handed you a cup and I turned around and you're gone." Your stomach hurts from laughing. You take a deep breath of air to stop yourself from dying. "Stop stop stop," You beg, neither of you sure what you were laughing about anymore.
There wasn't much time until you would resume the scene but in the short time, Jonathan and Carlacia invited themselves over, giving a proper introduction, sparking a lively group conversation. Being 26 put you somewhere in the middle of the cast's ages, but no one got treated any differently because of it.
This current moment was proof. You and Carlacia posed for a selfie she insisted on taking, honouring the 'newest member' into their family. Both leaning in over the image on her screen you share a hearty laugh. JD is captured in the background in the middle of a gnarly yawn.
"Give me the phone, Lacy. That picture is a federal offence." He threatens, not an ounce of seriousness to be sensed in his voice. "I demand justice." You're almost certain you'd have a fully developed six-pack by the end of filming just from all the laughing.
Before you knew it the break was over and you were back where you'd left off. Went through the scene once more, adjusting anything that needed to be altered and carrying on. "I'm only going to ask you once, what do you want?" You've got a tight grip on the weapon and a crazy look in your eyes.
For the first time, Kiara breaks her silence. "Chandler Groff killed our friend! We can't let him get away with it." Her pleas pique your interest, and it's evident in your expression. "Chandler Groff, The conman?" They nod slowly and you begin to fume.
"Come." You wave them over, whipping open the curtains and entering the back of your shop. Four walls filled with various weapons from swords to machine guns. "Feeling like a kid in a candy store." Cleo beams, looking at the options, nothing but revenge in mind.
"Is that a canon?.." Pope trails off, "You've gotta be ready for anything. Expect the unexpected." Pope wholeheartedly agrees while John B begins questioning your knowledge about Groff. "He wronged some friends of mine. He got away before I could get to him, and that was a good call. I would've blown his brain to bits if I got my hands on him."
Kie smiles at that mention, "That's the dream," John B mutters. "Last time he was here, he was after some magical relic, a mythical one might I add. The blue... crest?" The item is lost on you when Sarah fills in. "The blue crown." It dawns on you at the mention.
"It's real," Kie admits and all the pogues turn to her with horror at her honesty. "Groff has it and god knows where he could be with it." You think, "If what you're telling me is true... then that crown is worth hundreds of millions of dollars. He can't just sell it at any auction. There's only one person with money like that. Mr. Finch."
"Where can we find him?"
"He's far. A two-day journey at minimum. You'll be forced to cross enemy territory and only locals know how to navigate the oasis under the radar. If you really are set on killing Groff, I'd be happy to lead you."
You notice an exchange of various looks between the group. "We need a second." Suddenly there's an exclusive huddle that leaves both you and the tall man at odds. He was sending daggers towards you. "Too cool to be part of their little club, are you?" Rafe stalks towards you, long intimidating strides. Displeased with your little joke.
Your faces were close enough that you could see his pupils dilate and contract now in the light from the window. "Listen. I've heard everything you said, and I'm not buying it. I don't trust you, and if you think for even a second I'll let you get in my way, you've got another thing comin'."
You noticeably gulp, it was unscripted but your nerves propelled it. He towered over you, your dark brown eyes searching his blue ones for any signs of insincerity but none was to be found. Every word he said, he meant it.
"And Cut! Drew, Y/n, amazing," Josh adds, and it's only when you hear your names called that you both back away from each other. However, it felt a little harder than normal, as if something was drawing you in.
Madison calls you over, and your feet are already on the move. With one last glance over your shoulder, your eyes meet his for just a moment.
His piercing eyes hold yours, a mix of curiosity and something unspoken flickering behind them, making your chest tighten with uncertainty. You can see itā€”he feels it too.
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remxedmoon Ā· 3 days ago
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You should tell us about color psychology that sounds cool as hell
YESā€¦ HA HA HAā€¦ YES!
GGGOD I WISH I WASNā€™T OUT OF THE HOUSE RIGHT NOW. but iā€™ve been thinking about colors literally all day so you all get to be subject to my madness! sorry this is long and rambly wauaua. nightmarishly long post under the cut.
okay. first things first, a few basics. color theory and color psychology tend to get confused a lot in discussions, but they usually refer to different things. color theory is more about we physically perceive colors (color wheels and color schemes the like), while color psychology focuses on our emotional response to colors. if youā€™re familiar with the childrenā€™s hospital color theory post, that poster wasnā€™t actually talking about color theory, but color psychology (and also itā€™s incredibly surface level and heavily misunderstands the subject because in what fucking universe does the quantity of positive associations with a color matter more than the context itā€™s used in and sorry i have personal beef with this tumblr post).
color theory is also a special interest of mine but iā€™m not gonna touch on it too much here because itā€™s not entirely important. mmmaybe another timeā€¦
essentially, certain colors (and color combinations) have associations in our brains and that affect our behavior and emotions. these associations are also very much affected by the context a color is used in. colors donā€™t exist in a vacuum! so while red can symbolize passion and love when used in something like a dress or a bouquet of flowers, it has a very different connotation when itā€™s, say, splattered on the walls or smeared on the ground in a snail trail.
or for a less Childrenā€™s Hospital Themed example, iā€™ll put my euphrasie and king designs here!
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(of course the saturation and brightness of these blues play a massive part in how theyā€™re perceived but this is not a post about color theory this is n)
and, of course, combining colors in a piece can also change their meanings!! iā€™m about to get real fucking normal.
iā€™m gonna be focusing on the color combo of red and yellow here because itā€™s the one thatā€™s most relevant to my art (and also itā€™s really interesting.) basically, seeing these two colors together activates the part of our brain that controls our appetite, making us actually feel hungry. this is why so many food companies use red and yellow in their branding! itā€™s neat stuff!!
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also, if youā€™re familiar with it, this is why the mv for butcher vanity uses this color palette!! along with redā€™s general associations with danger and blood, the color combo also physically induces hunger. pretty fitting for a song about cannibalism!
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(there is also redā€™s association with lust and passion and how that intersects with the double meaning in the lyrics but i cannot derail this post into being an analysis of butcher vanity iā€™m sorry. weā€™d be here all week. maybe another day... wipes a tear from my eye)
and i think this might be the reason why some people feel hungry when they see my art, even when iā€™m not drawing food. while i donā€™t tend to use red outright, most of my art has very warm undertones (red-oranges and yellows especially), which could be activating that hunger response??
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(ah fuck color theory managed to weasel its way into this post again)
admittedly this part is just speculation on my end. i think my rendering style and Shapes also play a role in it, but itā€™s interesting for me to think about!!
this is only scratching the surface of how complicated colors can get. i was going to go on an entire tangent about color grading and how green lighting can make a scene feel unnerving but this post is already Too Fucking Long. aaaa super sorry if this is Rambly or hard to understand!! iā€™m not Entirely sure how much the average person knows about color theory and psychology so if thereā€™s any confusing terms here iā€™m fine with adding stuff for clarity!
wauauuaa thank you so much for asking!!!! i love talking about colors.
tl;dr colors have a bunch of different emotions and meanings tied to them, but youā€™ve gotta pay attention to the context in which itā€™s being used. so maybe take a step back before you put that thick red trail on the floor of your childrenā€™s hospital.
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crescenthistory Ā· 3 days ago
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hi there love! i hope you're doing well šŸ¤ if it's okay w/ u, i'd like to request a regulus fic (are we surprised? no-) with an animagus! reader. maybe reggie and reader got into a fight about something and reader's still holding a grudge. they refuse to change out of their cat (or any animal u choose!) form and regulus is trying everything to get them to change back. ending in fluff probably :D
~šŸ“
i'm quite alright darling, hope the same goes for you<3 this little drabble is written with the same cat!animagus!reader i've written for reggie so far in mind (whiskers, my love) since she's known to be petty...
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Warnings: fem!reader, minor fight (lighthearted), embarrassment, you're petty, regulus grovels, black brothers have poor people skills, make-up, background wolfstar and (judgemental) bsf!remus
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"How long has she been like this?"
Sirius was eyeing Regulus funnily, seemingly drawn between wanting to laugh at him and wondering if maybe he should comfort him. Remus felt none of the latter sentiments and all of the former.
"Since our last class on Friday," Regulus replied miserably from where his face was buried in his hands, resting atop his knees. "She shifted immediately after."
"So... for over 24 hours," Sirius surmised.
That was apparently the wrong thing to say, based on how Regulus lifted his head from where he was practically bent in half, just to glare at his older brother. "Thanks for doing the maths, Sirius. Not the problem I needed solving, though." Throughout his sentence, his eyes increasingly narrowed at his brother as if his irritation grew with every word.
"No, your problem," Remus volleyed. "Is whatever the hell you've done."
Regulus groaned and buried his face once more.
Across the common room from the trio, a white and grey cat was pettily walking back and forth along whatever furniture it could reach. Its tail was standing up straight, whipping about in annoyance.
Remus poked Regulus in the ribs to get a response. "What'd you do, Baby Black?"
"I may or may not have corrected her in Potions in front of Slughorn, even though she may have been working on gaining his respect all term," Regulus murmured.
The chuckle that escaped Remus was finally one of understanding. "Ah," he said through a smile. "I believe that is what we in the business call a rookie mistake."
Regulus sat up with a jerk, hands moving emotively as he made his case to his brother and brother-in-law, where they were sat on top of each other in a plush chair. "But I've apologised! Profusely, and several times! I don't know what else to do?" The last sentence was voiced as a question, though it was not formulated as one. Perhaps the closest the younger Black brother could get to asking for help.
"Maybe you should give Slughorn a speech about how great she is."
Regulus quirked up at that, eyes zeroing in on Sirius. "You really think that would work?" Remus could have burst out laughing at the lack of sarcasm in the younger boy's voice.
"No," Remus said softly, while chidingly patting Sirius' knee. "Don't listen to him, you lot have the same amount of people skills. Do you know your girlfriend, Regulus?"
"Yes?" Regulus' voice was uncertain, looking between the boys with furrowed brows.
"What usually motivates her to hold a grudge?" Remus prompted then, ever patient.
He was quiet for a minute as he thought. "When she feels wronged. Like when Evan apologised for her 'interpretaion' of what he said instead of for him hurting her feelings, and she disliked him for three years."
Remus nodded solemnly. "And is there a reason she might still feel wronged by you now?"
Regulus' gaze finally fixated on the cat across the room, nodding too as the puzzle pieces slowly assembled in his mind. "I apologised for correcting her... but not embarrassing her. She probably feels like I was lording over her or something."
"Meaning..?" Gods, Remus was really laying it on thick here. The curse of the Black family.
"I should go tell her as much." Regulus nodded and moved to hurry over towards you, swinging around at the last minute to give the two boys an almost-smile. "Uh, thanks Sirius. Remus."
Then he was off.
Sirius turned his face into Remus' cheek. "No idea what he's thanking me for; you did all the talking."
Remus sighed, melting further into his boyfriend. "That's what I've been saying."
Regulus tenderly approached you, sitting down somewhat gingerly in a chair beside the table you were currently parading around. "Hi, amour," he said softly. "Can we talk?"
You just wagged your tail in response, in a fashion Regulus has come to learn means displeasure.
"Please love, I want to give you a proper apology. It would be best to do so face-to-face, no?" He reached his hand out towards you, an open invitation. You stopped for a moment to regard him, but then lightly slapped at his hand to get it out of your face. Regulus decided to take it as a victory that your claws were retracted at the very least ā€“ you weren't out for blood.
ā€œOkay,ā€ he said through a breath. ā€œI guess Iā€™ll justā€¦ talk to a kitten and look crazy.ā€ Upon your quiet hiss, he amended, ā€œTalk to a cat, sorry. Gods, Iā€™m sputtering today, arenā€™t I?ā€ That final part you seemed to agree upon at least.
ā€œAmour, I am truly deeply sorry for embarrassing you like that. It was such a little thing, and Slughorn has been so unfair towards you this year. I didn't mean to set you back in your progression with him, though frankly, he is in the wrong there, not you. As am I. For someone who feels like he can go around correcting people, that was quite air-headed of me, yeah? The one person keeping me grounded is you, amour, please would you come back to me? You can give me a proper scolding if youā€™d like, I can take it.ā€
Regulus was pouring his heart out, and if he dared to hope, he thought your feline face might have softened. You walked closer to him, seemingly studying his face.
Then, you jumped off the table and ran away.
He sighed heavily, letting his forehead fall down to the table with a light thump. If you were going to keep giving him the furred shoulder, he might just stay here. It was hard work being a tosser whoā€™s missing his girlfriend.
Before he could wallow further in his sorrows, he felt a soft hand be placed on his shoulder. A touch he would recognise anywhere.
His head flew up from the table to look up at you ā€“ standing above him, smiling softly and somewhat sheepishly. The hand on his shoulder grew bolder, squeezing, while the other came up to cup the side of his face. Regulus ignored any instinct to cower away and instead happily melted into your touch.
ā€œHi, baby,ā€ you whispered, and he knew he was mostly forgiven.
Emboldened by this new development, he turned in his seat so that his body faced you, slotting you in between his thighs and letting his hands come to rest heavily at the top of your hip. ā€œHi amour,ā€ he breathed out, reverent. ā€œThank you.ā€
ā€œFor what?ā€ you laughed, and he knew you knew what. He indulged you anyway.
ā€œComing back to me.ā€ His voice was murmured, eyes hooded as he stared up at you. ā€œI miss you when you remain as Whiskers, you know?ā€
ā€œI do know,ā€ you teased. ā€œThatā€™s kind of the whole point, yeah? Make you think.ā€
He shook his head and leaned his forehead tentatively against your stomach. ā€œA cruel punishment, but an understandable one. I truly am sorry, I didnā€™t mean to.ā€
Regulus sighed when your hand migrated to scratch through his hair. ā€œI know, baby. I just wanted to hear you say it. Andā€“ā€ at this point he could hear the blush in your voice ā€œā€“ at some point it just became principle. Too late to back out.ā€
Laughing against the fabric of your shirt, he moved to rest his chin against you, gazing up at you at an angle that was slightly uncomfortable but definitely worth it. He let a small grin slip. ā€œStubborn minx,ā€ he whispered.
ā€œOi!ā€ you chided gently. ā€œYouā€™re in no position to levy such accusations, mister.ā€
ā€œI canā€™t imagine loving you more,ā€ he said through a sigh, not even thinking over the words. They were just right, and demanded to be brought up.
If the way your body melted against his was anything to go by, you didnā€™t mind.
A booming voice cut the moment short. ā€œYou two are painfully dramatic,ā€ Sirius yelled from across the room, clearly having paid attention to the whole make-up conversation. ā€œPlease never fight again.ā€
ā€œAnd thatā€™s coming from Sirius Black,ā€ Remus added solemnly, earning himself an indignant swat from his partner.
ā€œHeā€™s right,ā€ Regulus whispered conspiratorially to you. ā€œI cannot be the most dramatic Black brother, that would be blasphemy.ā€
ā€œThen I suggest,ā€ you said before giving him a light peck, ā€œyou be on your best behaviour from now on.
A grin. ā€œYes maā€™am.ā€
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sparrowlucero Ā· 7 hours ago
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i enjoy ur bird abode thoughts! I was a genuine enjoyer of the show when it was airing, Iā€™m no die hard fan though and love to see ppls personal takes on the overall story/plot. Im curious if you also would agree or have any thoughts on the impacts The Mouseā€™s cancellation had on the shows ability to be more than it was? srry im not super eloquent with my words, but basically ur response to that ask got me wondering if part of the reason the show like genuinely wasnt all that ground breaking or unique in the end plot wise (other than the villain faces consequences in the end ig) as far as YA/Teen animation goes, was because of The Mouseā€™s inability to let the writers flesh out the show before gutting it? i have a negative bias toward The Mouse franchise and obviously dont know anything about how writing a show under the eyes of a franchise that big would work, its just smth that rattles around in my head and wanna know what u think!
Well to an extent, but I think it's much more the effect the studio had on how the owl house started out as rather than it not getting a full season at the end - It didn't escape my noticed that the show was initially announced as being a "horror comedy" when it doesn't really seem like either, especially by the second season, and yeah, the original pitch bible is obviously aiming for that much more than the show proper is as it goes along (and is honestly seems quite a bit more funny, weird, and dark, with an overarching plotline about a giant bug being used to religiously suppress people, eda able to cure her curse by killing luz, and one of the major characters being a teen boy awoken from a sleeping curse who ends up being a weird little bigot because he's from the 13th century, among other things)
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(side note, i just noticed they actually specifically describe the thing i assumed the show was gonna be about here. huh.) but ultimately the bulk of the show that was actually made seems very influenced by a writing team that was genuinely interested in making a tropey YA fantasy story rather than just being mandated to. I mean even in what aired you can see the show sort of settle in ways that feel less like studio interference and more like, you know, art students creating their ideal fantasy show, like how King is clearly Eda's roommate who's funny because he looks like and sounds like a little dog despite being an adult man at the beginning but by the end they've made him her adopted sad backstory son who's explicitly a child. While I think a third season would have made the show as it existed better, because they clearly didn't get to finish the plot they wanted to (frankly to the point where some major aspects of the show are a bit confusing, I'm still not sure what a grimwalker is), I don't really fault the show for that but also don't think that hypothetical season (which pretty clearly would have been mostly about the magic school teens going to normal school) would suddenly flip around into something that I personally found interesting and subversive. Nor should it, really; again, it being Queernorm Harry Potter thing is clearly the intended appeal of the show, it's not really a flaw but just not a genre I'm personally interested in when compared to what I initially expected the show to be.
HOWEVER I will say they robbed little weird girls of their representation and that can't be forgiven
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blueblossomrose Ā· 2 days ago
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Pairing: Fellow Honest x Fem!Reader
Summary: Fellow sees you in Playful Land with your friends, thinks you're a rich girl by the way you act and the fact that you study at Night Raven College, and tries to get money from you, only to end up falling in love.
Notice(s): Inspired by "The Lady and the Tramp", Female reader, Reader is the MC, but Yuu(ken Enma) is also here, not nsfw but slightly spicy? We kinda have a french kiss here.
Request?: No.
Notes: I refuse to call him Ernesto, except in a specific Rapunzel-like fanfic where he is Eugene.
Comments and reblogs are very welcome ā™”
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He could have sworn you were a rich girl. I mean, look at the way you carried yourself! Like a true lady. Eyes wide open, paying attention to everything and everyone, with a polite and kind smile on your face. Your excitement was restrained but evident. You always sat with your legs crossed.
As if your good behavior wasn't evidence enough, you were still wearing that damn uniform. Night Raven College. An elite school.
He didn't think he needed more. He has his conclusion.
Even if you are not extremely rich, some money you must have. And he will get it from you. He and Gidel need it more than you do, anyway.
He thought about how he could do this. First he had to separate you from your friends. Leave you alone with him.
Fellow approached slowly, like a predator carefully observing its prey. He adjusted his posture, donned an unassuming smile, and gave you a slight nod. He knew he needed to be strategic, charming, but not invasive. After all, winning over someone like you required delicacy.
ā€œExcuse me, miss,ā€ he said, his voice as smooth as silk. ā€œI couldnā€™t help but notice that youā€™re enjoying our park with such enthusiasm. Itā€™s always a pleasure to see such a charming visitor here.ā€
You looked at him curiously, a glint of surprise and interest dancing in your eyes. He knew he had your attention.
ā€œOh, yes, itā€™s a wonderful place!ā€ you replied, your voice polite but with a touch of excitement. ā€œI didnā€™t know it would be so much fun!ā€
Fellow made a gesture of slight mock indignation, placing a hand on his chest.
ā€œAre you saying you underestimated our Playful Land? Oh, that breaks my heart!ā€ He let out a light, relaxed laugh, as if you were already friends. ā€œBut Iā€™m glad youā€™re enjoying it. By the way, let me introduce myself: Iā€™m Fellow Honest, one of the parkā€™s managers.ā€
ā€œManager?ā€ you asked, tilting your head slightly. He nodded, as if carrying a weight of responsibility on his shoulders.
ā€œOf course. Not only do I help take care of the park, but I also make sure our guests have the best experience possible. And speaking of whichā€¦ā€ He glanced around, as if searching for something. ā€œI noticed your friends seem a little scattered. Itā€™s a shame to leave you alone.ā€
You shakes your head, showing that you were comfortable on your own. ā€œThey went to explore some attractions. I preferred to stay here for a while.ā€
It was exactly the break Fellow needed. He gestured with his hand, as if he were putting on a great show.
ā€œIn that case, perhaps I could be your companion? I can show you the secrets of this place that no one else knows about. After all, itā€™s not often we have such special guests.ā€
You hesitated for a moment, considering the offer. There was something in his eyes, in the way he spoke, that was hard to resist. ā€œOkay, of course! Why not?ā€
Fellowā€™s smile widened, and he offered his hand, like a gentleman ready to lead her. Inwardly, he cheered. This was the first step in the plan.
But as they walked together, something unexpected began to happen. As he talked about the park, making jokes and telling charming stories, Fellow noticed something he hadnā€™t expected. There was something in your laughter, in the way you responded to his words, that made his heart race. It wasnā€™t the kind of racing that came from getting what you wanted, but something more genuine, more dangerous.
He tried to ignore it. He tried to remind himself that this was a scam, nothing more. But with every step you took together, with every smile you gave him, he felt the plan begin to slip away from his control. Why, suddenly, couldnā€™t he stop looking at you?
It got to the point where the two of you finally arrived at the location Fellow had so carefully planned. It was a corner in the back of a restaurant, near one of the parkā€™s quieter attractions, where there was little traffic. Despite its modest location, the place felt cozy. String lights hung unassumingly, illuminating the space with a soft, golden glow, creating a curiously intimate atmosphere.
Fellow pulled out one of the chairs for you, giving you a slight theatrical bow as he spoke. ā€œMilady, allow me to offer you a seat in our 'VIP area'. Not all visitors are lucky enough to experience this!ā€
You laughed softly at the act, accepting the chair. Fellow seemed pleased with your answer, but there was a hint of nervousness in his smile that he quickly tried to hide. He discreetly signaled to Gidel, who was hiding behind a nearby dumpster, waiting for the right moment.
As you looked around, taking in the peculiar surroundings, Fellow quickly took the chair next from you, leaning slightly closer to you. He propped his elbow on the table, resting his chin on his hand, as if he was completely absorbed by your presence.
As soon as Gidel brought the food, you couldn't help but just eat it. You liked to eat a lot, and personally you stopped holding back.
Fellow watched in shock as you shoveled a spoonful of spaghetti with meatballs into your mouth.
You ate... a lot. He was surprised to see that graceful young lady eating an entire plate so quickly, but what surprised him even more was... how charming you still looked, even with your cheeks a little stained with sauce.
ā€œYouā€™ve just so cute...ā€ Fellow complimented as you ate.
"Hmm?" you lifted your head, your cheeks puffed up with food.
He chuckled, gently poking your cheek. He was quite amused by your innocent behavior. It was an endearing quality that drove him crazy. He set down his silverware and looked over at you. A smile on his face.
ā€œYouā€™re even more beautiful when you eat, yā€™know. Like a chipmunk.ā€
You can't help but blush, laughing awkwardly as you swallows your food. ā€œI-Is that so?... That's so kind of you!ā€
ā€œItā€™s honest too.ā€ He said, almost with a wink.
You can't help but laugh at the slightly joke.
He smiled as you laughed before going back to eating his food. Every so often, his eyes would flick up to look at you. He let out a mental sigh before deciding to get cheeky. He reached over with his foot, brushing against your ankle before slowly traveling up your leg. He was testing his luck, seeing how youā€™d react. Would you kick him? Move away? Let it continue?
You didn't seem to take it as flirting, so you just smiled and looked at him, thinking he wanted to say something.
He wasnā€™t expecting you to not notice. How dense could a person be? He almost wondered if you were actually doing this on purpose. Or maybe you just don't understand indirect flirting?
He decided to test the waters a little more. He moved a little closer to you, and when you were a little more distracted, he took the cutlery out of your hands with a smooth, light pushing motion.
"Huh?" You looked at him, with some confusion.
He simply placed a finger over his lip in a shushing gesture. He set the cutlery down before grabbing a napkin. Then, with a smile, he reached over to your cheek and wiped away a small sauce stain. "What about... we try something different? In some places, it's refined to eat without cutlery..."
"Eat without cutlery?"
He gave you a sly smile as he nodded. He took off his gloves, picking up a strand of spaghetti. "Try it. I promise it's not as barbaric as you think."
You shyly picks up the end of the spaghetti and puts it in your mouth. Fellow hums in approval at your action. He leans forward a bit more as he take the other side of the spaghetti.
Fellowā€™s expression was sly, his eyes slightly half-lidded as he let your faces get closer. He slowly started to close the distance, using the excuse of eating the spaghetti. His face was only inches away from yours, to the point he could feel your breath on his lips.
You didn't even move away, just standing there, your breathing becoming sporadic.
He inched closer, a smug smile on his face. He got you right where he wanted. When the distance was only centimeters apart, he licked some sauce off his lips, using it as an excuse to run his tongue right over your bottom lip.
You shivered, widening your eyes.
Fellow chuckled a little when you shivered, knowing exactly what effect he was having on you. He licked his lip again, now only a few millimeters from your own.
ā€œYou tasteā€¦ even better with sauce...ā€ He mumbled out, low.
"M-Mr. Honest..." You stuttered.
His smile grew at your breathless words.
ā€œHm? What is it?ā€ He teased. His tone, the way looked at youā€¦ it was like a hawk that found its prey.
"W-Why... y-you look at me like that?..."
He chuckled to himself. He moved one hand up to your cheek and cupped it gently, his thumb running over your cheek.
ā€œCanā€™t you tell, darling?ā€ He purred out. "You look like a bunny right now, you know?... and... I guess you know what foxes do with bunnies."
...
"Where the f*ck is MC?" Ace questions Yuuken as the two are heading towards the cotton candy stand to find Floyd, Jade, and Lilia.
"Now that you mention it, I haven't seen her since the prize booth..." Yuu says thoughtfully, and soon becoming desperate. "OH MY STARS! We have to find her!" Yuu was about to run away, but then he turned back and grabbed Ace to go with him.
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hauntedjellyfishwitch-blog Ā· 3 days ago
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Ok I have a request thatā€™s been brewing in my brain, what if Daryl and reader were out on a run and reader finds a mixtape in the car and plays it, and one of the songs is Creep by Radiohead and she starts singing along and heā€™s never heard her sing before and heā€™s like totally enamored by it. But when he starts to listen to the lyrics it maybe hits too close to home and he starts to get insecure and think heā€™s not good enough for her and heā€™s kinda standoffish for a bit and when he finally tells her whatā€™s wrong she shows him how much he means to her and how special he is to her AHHHH
Ps ur writing is amazing I love it sm šŸ«¶šŸ«¶
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Creep
Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader (No use of Y/N)
TW: Anxious!Daryl. Alexandria Era. Allusions to sex.
A/N: I cannot tell you how much I LOVE this request, thank you Anon! I'm sorry its taken me a while I have been ill as hell, but I'm hoping to get a few bits uploaded today when my heating kicks in and my fingers start moving again!
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The dashboard is dusty. The kind of dust that seeps up your nose and makes you smell damp. The car is cramped and the road is bumpy as all hell, but heā€™s content, almost peaceful as she smiles over at him. He quirks a corner of his mouth upwards in response, knowing heā€™ll get lost in her smile if he lets himself, and the last thing he wants to do is crash the car when its so full of wares.
Itā€™s not new, not really, theirā€¦.relationship. Itā€™s the culmination of the electricity thatā€™s been thrumming underneath the surface for a while. So itā€™s not new, not really, but it is tentative. Everything with Daryl is tentative except killing walkers and hunting; thereā€™s a sick sense of irony that it took the world ending for him to be confident in something. Heā€™s not confident when it comes to her, even now. Even now sheā€™s sitting there holding his hand as he drives back to Alexandria. He could have initiated the hand holding, probably, maybe, sheā€™d like that, but the fear that heā€™s going to be rejected for trying is always overwhelming.
This run was simple, thank god, neither of them are bruised and battered though Daryl did smack the side of his head rather painfully against a door trying to block a walker. Theyā€™re taking three boxes of canned goods, some jumpers for the colder weather and a large handful or seven of treats back to Alexandria. He feels good. Better than he has in a long time; he can almost forget that his shoulder hurts every morning and his brother is dead and the dead are, you know, eating people.
He glances at her out of the corner of his eye, fighting the quirk of his lip that tries to sneak up on him again and failing miserably. She clocks it anyway, picking his hand up to her lips to press a kiss to it before dropping it out of reach in a way thatā€™s so very her. Sheā€™s careful with him, never overstepping the boundaries she guesses he has because he hasnā€™t actually told her, but she offers affection like most people offer hellos. She never pulls away without reassurance.
ā€œCan I see whatā€™s on this?ā€ her voice breaks him out of his thoughts, holding up a crappy mix-tape sheā€™d found atop one of the boxes. She doesnā€™t even know if it will work, but sheā€™s trying to be appreciative of the small mercies that come with this impossible life and by a stroke of luck theyā€™re driving a car old enough to still have a damn tape slot. She doesnā€™t expect words to accompany his nod.
And suddenly sheā€™s blaring out the words to a song he vaguely remembers from before, dancing in her seat whilst she lowers her voice for comic effect.
She can sing, he knows she can so sheā€™s doing this for his benefit, to make him laugh. Heā€™s heard her voice in the shower, echoing through their new home, melodic and soft and beautiful. His whole body is warm, bursting at the seams with affection, with the knowledge that she thinks of him even in the tiny moments; that even when sheā€™s doing something sheā€™ll enjoy sheā€™s still trying to entertain him.
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doin' here? I don't belong here
Maybe itā€™s the words that set his brain off. Maybe its that the dust reminds him of a home that had never been a home. He thinks back to all the times heā€™s watched her from a distance, the times he was too afraid to talk to her but wanted to keep her safe, following her from behind like a fucking stalker. He flinches as the memories of the kids in the playground flood him, the ones whoā€™d called him weird and creepy, the voice of his father saying nobody would ever love him, the southern twang of his brother saying the same, ā€˜nobody is ever gonna love ya except me, baby brotherā€™. But she does, doesnā€™t she? Or at least something close, sheā€™d made that clear.
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doin' here? I don't belong here
Hadnā€™t she made that clear? Hadnā€™t she kissed him of her own volition? Had he stayed too close until she had no other choice? Had he made his feelings too obvious? Had he been weird and creepy? Had he forced his affection on her until sheā€™d just given in? Maybe people in his previous life had been right about him.
He pulls through the gates on autopilot, doesnā€™t even remember who was on guard duty but someone had to have let them in. He unloads the car, mind simultaneously numb and in overdrive, hands the boxes toā€¦someone and slams the door shut hard enough he makes himself flinch.
ā€œHey, whatā€™s wrong?ā€
Her soft voice barely registers through the muddled thoughts, she sounds far away and out of reach.
ā€œNothinā€™ā€
He shakes off the warm fingers against his arm, turns to trudge back to their shared house, ignoring the way her footsteps follow in time with his, trying to ignore that he knows sheā€™s got shorter legs than he does and he knows sheā€™s trying to catch up.
ā€œYouā€™re a terrible liarā€
ā€œI ainā€™tā€
ā€œDaryl-ā€œ
ā€œI canā€™t do thisā€ he pauses, doesnā€™t dare to look her in the eye as he scuffs his toe against the asphalt. He hasnā€™t thought far enough ahead to realise she has to follow him home as she lives there, he just needs to flee ā€œUsā€ he clarifies as if she hadnā€™t worked it out already.
ā€œYou were fine five minutes ago, I donā€™t-ā€
ā€œI ainā€™t good at this shit. I dunā€™ want itā€ he lies through his teeth.Ā  Heā€™s never wanted anything more in his life.
Her footsteps donā€™t resume as his do, and he takes her not following as acceptance, as proof his brain is right, as confirmation she never wanted him in the first place. Kicking off his boots as he seeks sanctuary inside their home he leaves the front door open for her. Heā€™s never been inconsiderate on purpose.
Body freezing momentarily when he finally hears the front door click shut, he breaths a small sigh of relief that sheā€™s home before guilt gnaws at him. Chewing his fingernails, he half expects her to come to his room, but he hears her upstairs closing the door to hers before the boiler kicks in to tell him sheā€™s taking a shower. His head throbs at him, but the painkillers are in the bathroom upstairs and he avoids taking them unless he really has to.
Itā€™s a testament to how fucking awkward he is that he hides in his basement bedroom until the sun has set, as if he hasnā€™t wanted a cigarette for the past two hours. Carol wonā€™t let him smoke in the house, a rule implemented months ago, before sheā€™d left for her own smaller house. Heā€™s yet to break it out of respect and if heā€™s honest, fear. If anyone could sense something wrong from buildings away it would be Carol, and he doesnā€™t trust his partner housemate not to tell Carol just for a laugh. Daryl both loves and hates how close the two women are, by which he means that itā€™s lovely until he is the target of their anger or humour and then it is significantly less so.
ā€œThought you might want some companyā€ her voice startles him out of his thoughts as she sits gracefully next to him on the front step of the porch.
ā€œDonā€™t need ya pityā€
ā€œGood, ā€˜cause Iā€™m not pitying youā€ She tries to keep the anger out of her tone. She doesnā€™t know whatā€™s going on but if sheā€™s confident about one thing its that Daryl wants her and sheā€™s not about to let him sabotage his own happiness by being hard on himself ā€œHowā€™s the head?ā€
ā€œSoreā€
She shakes the small bottle of aspirin at him, pulled from the pocket of her pyjama pants.
ā€œTake a painkillerā€
ā€œBetter spent on someone elseā€
ā€œWhatā€™s that supposed to mean?ā€
ā€œMoā€™ important people ā€˜ere than me, I ainā€™t ever been worth nothinā€™ā€
ā€œDaryl-ā€œ
ā€œNah, I ainā€™t, I werenā€™t worth shit before, didnā€™t even have a fuckinā€™ job, ainā€™t worth shit nowā€
ā€œDonā€™t do that, donā€™t act like youā€™re not important, just fucking donā€™tā€
Thereā€™s such fierce disappointment under the ire in her tone that it stops him for a beat. He raises his gaze from the smooth wooden steps to look at her face, takes her in properly since heā€™d walked off earlier in the day. He catches the worry in her eyes, the wobble in her bottom lip sheā€™s trying to bite away, chewing nervously.
ā€œWhy? I dunā€™ deserve ya, dunā€™ deserve any of thisā€ voice cracking, splintering at the edges around the emotions heā€™s so used to burying. He canā€™t bury them when sheā€™s looking at him like this.
ā€œIā€™d die for you and you donā€™t even think you matterā€ she laughs sadly, but its wet, squishy, it doesnā€™t sit right on her face through the water thatā€™s leaving her eyes. He wonders if sheā€™s aware of the magnitude of what she just said, but she isnā€™t done, doesnā€™t show a sign that he can interrupt to point it out ā€œWhat did I do wrong? How have I failed to show you that? I donā€™t understandā€
Daryl has spent his whole life thinking he is in the way, that heā€™s a burden no matter how much he tries to prove his worth. Heā€™s never been anyoneā€™s first choice, but here she is crying at the thought of losing him, taking his ridiculous issues as a way sheā€™s failed and he canā€™t have it, he just canā€™t. He reaches over, linking his fingers with hers, looking down to watch the way her thumb rubs over his fingers.
ā€œDid I push this on ya?ā€
ā€œDaryl noā€
ā€œWhat if I didnā€™t give ya a choice?ā€
ā€œDaryl, look at meā€ she waits patiently until he turns his head to her ā€œI chose this, I chose youā€ she keeps her hand in his as she eases up off the porch steps, tugging his hand until he complies, stubbing out his cigarette on the way up ā€œCome insideā€
She looks the door behind them, dims the lights before letting her hand drop and standing facing him in the middle of the room. He stands stock still, lost and confused as she strips her clothes off, purposeful but not rushed. He feels the heat that floods his cheeks.
Finally, when sheā€™s completely naked she locks her eyes on his
ā€œThis scar, the one on my side? When I was seven I fell out of a tree, had a stick go right through, it was gross. This one on my shoulder? Argued back once with the wrong man, put me through a door. This one? See it? Put my arm through a window three sheets to the wind on bad tequila, think I wanted to end it allā€
He swallows hard, never having had the stories behind the scars heā€™s seen. Theyā€™ve been intimate, a handful of times since this thing started, but sheā€™s hidden almost as much as he has so this bravery is new. Astonishing.
ā€œDo you see me, Daryl?ā€
ā€œYea-ā€œ the crackle in his own voice cuts him off.
ā€œLook at me and tell me I donā€™t look like I have a choice right now. Tell me you made me do thisā€
ā€œI canā€™tā€
He doesnā€™t realise heā€™s stopped closer until her fingers are toying with the collar of his button down.
ā€œPlease take it offā€
He wants to protest, shifting on his feet in discomfort but the look on her face is so fucking soft, so open and vulnerable as she stands bare in front of him and he tries to keep his eyes on her face. Heā€™d never deny her anything, so he undoes the buttons with shaking fingers. Hers follow, easing the shirt off his shoulders.
He shudders as she traces her fingers over the scars that litter his torso, reaching forward to place his hands around her waist, grounding and solid. Her skin is warm under his touch.
ā€œI wish you could see yourself how I doā€
ā€œWhat dā€™ya see?ā€ He whispers, kneading the flesh under his palms absentmindedly. Heā€™ll deny himself the pleasure of his base urges as heā€™s done throughout the years, but even heā€™s not strong enough not to trail his hands up and down her skin, knuckles grazing the underside of her breasts with each upward stroke.
ā€œStrong, kind, decent. Youā€™re beautiful, Daryl Dixonā€
He sucks in a sharp breath as she continues.
ā€œBlue eyes, the way they look at me" she didn't need to look up to his gaze to know it was there, but she does anyway, sees the admiration, the pleading that's always behind his eyes "Look at your hands on meā€ she lays her hands over his, marvels at how much space they take up on her ribcage ā€œBig, warm hands, safest hands Iā€™ve ever knownā€
He clenches his eyes shut, shaking his head in disagreement, opening them again when he feels her palm against the stubble on his cheek.
ā€œTheyā€™re safe, Daryl, I donā€™t know whatā€™s happening in here right nowā€ she taps his forehead with a finger ā€œBut I see you. Let me love youā€
ā€œYa love me?ā€
ā€œYesā€ makes sure she looks at him when she says it, simply and firmly, no room for argument ā€œEyes wide open, knowing who you are, knowing what youā€™ve done, seeing you. Yes. I love you. Let me show youā€
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beauvandalen Ā· 2 days ago
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An open letter on the rising pirating situation happening to indie authors and their books.
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I am a self-published author and some of my books have now been pirated more than they have been read on their official sourcesā€”I am not talking hundreds but thousands and thousands of reads that I will never get a dime from because they were read on illegal websites who I am not affiliated withā€”some of these illegal pirate websites are even asking readers for donations on the page where my book is being pirated, I have also found a site paywalling a pirated copy of my book and again, this money will never go to me because this was all done without my consent or knowledge. If this pirating problem continues I will not be able to publish books anymore.
My books being illegally reuploaded is disheartening enough, but knowing that thousands of readers are fine with stealing my book is heartbreaking, and it is affecting my livelihood.
The other day I was sitting alone in my living room, thinking about my next release in regards to this situationā€”it is a horrible feeling to realize that I will work for months on my next book, invest money, time, late nights and weekends simply to get my work out there, knowing now that once I publish my book someone will be waiting to illegally reupload it without my consent on a website where my book will likely be stolen thousands of times again, and itā€™s only getting worse with each new release.
Sometimes I am able to get these pirated copies taken down, but in most cases when thousands of people have already stolen and illegally read my book before itā€™s taken down, the damage is already done.
Please, if you are one of the thousands who read pirated books, please... stop pirating my books if you want them to continue to exist, please read my books on their official sources, the careers of so many creators have ended before because of pirating, this is not a hypothetical scenario, this is a very real and scary possibility that I am facing as an author because thousands of readers have chosen to pirate my books.
The books we publish as authors are our livelihood, especially indie authors who are completely dependent on royalties and do not receive advancesā€”if our books are not read on their official sources we do not get paid. Please understand what you are doing by supporting these eBook pirating sites instead of the actual authors and creators.
Pirate websites are responsible, but readers also have a responsibility to read the book on its official sourcesā€”when you illegally read a pirated copy of a book, you are stealing the book not ā€˜reading it for freeā€™, and by doing so you also show these pirate websites that there is a demand for pirated books, which further worsens the problem.
Your actions as a reader and where you choose to read my books directly effect whether I will be able to publish my next book, whether I can pay my bills or not, and it is the same for many other indie authors. If you care about marginalized creators, authors writing ownvoices books who are so often the people who self-publish, please read their books on their official sources.
Please think twice before pirating.
If you want a direct example of how much these losses in royalties can affect an author, here are some average numbers: a self-published book can cost between S1500-S4000 to publish, sometimes even more. An author would need to sell approx. 500-1500 copies (depending on their royalty rate) just to make back the costs they put into publishing their book, but if the majority of readers choose to pirate that book, then the author will not make those costs back and will constantly operate at a loss, especially if readers continue to pirate each new book.
To use a more personal example with real numbers, my most recent book that was pirated on its release day had approx. 500 readers read the book on its official sources, and was pirated approx. 2000 times in just 20 days... I donā€™t think I need to explain why this is bad and how it has affected my livelihood, the numbers speak for themselves.
If you are not sure whether a book is from an official source or not: if you find a book that is normally not free for ā€˜freeā€™ on a website the author isnā€™t affiliated with, you can assume it is most likely a pirated copy.
If you have doubts on whether a source is official, please feel free to message me, I am always happy to clarify: some pirate websites have been claiming to be ā€˜publishers/distributorsā€™ or pretend to ā€˜offer the same service as a libraryā€™ recently to cover up the fact that they are actively stealing and running websites which actively ruin the livelihoods of authors through illegal means, so please be wary.
If you have read an authorā€™s stolen book from an unofficial source, it is not too late to get yourself an official copy to support the book.
*This open letter mainly addresses the ways in which pirating hurts indie authorsā€™ careers as it is what I am most familiar with, but it goes without saying that pirating a traditionally published authorā€™s book can also prevent their career from flourishing: this is especially true for debut, marginalized or ownvoices authors, for whom it is already difficult to break into the industry, if their first book does not sell enough copies then they may not be signed on for a second book, pirating hurts us all. My thoughts go out to the authors who are currently facing the same problem, I hope we can get through this.
Finally, thank you sincerely to every reader who reads my books legally, it is thanks to you that I have been able to continue publishing them, your support means the world and I promise I will try my best to continue publishing these books for as long as I feasibly can. I appreciate you all.
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gabessquishytum Ā· 2 days ago
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(Human au) Chubby Hob going to meet his boyfriendā€™s siblings for the first time, and heā€™s nervous.
At this point heā€™s quite settled and comfortable with the fact that Dream finds him and his size incredibly sexy, but Hob is fully aware that this is not universally agreed with. Heā€™s worried that Dreamā€™s family will judge him poorly for his attraction to someone like Hob, or even use Hobā€™s weight as the start of some sibling shit-stirring.
Except when they arrive to the Endless family home, the first one to greet them is Desire, who gives Hob a very blatant once-over, before stating with unmistakable envy ā€œDream, you lucky bastard.ā€
Thatā€™s the most vocal response he gets, but to Hobā€™s bewilderment (and Dreamā€™s pride), itā€™s made clear very quickly that every single one of the Endless siblings also finds him and his size incredibly sexy.
Itā€™s up to you if this visit results in Hob x Endless Siblings, or if Hob simply leaves afterwards having very complicated feelings about the fact that apparently his boyfriendā€™s attraction to his fat is somehow genetic. Either way, Dream is disgustingly smug the entire time about finding Hob first.
-šŸŖ½anon
We love chubby Hob, we love chubby Hob being appreciated!!!!
This is such a nice idea. I'm imagining that at some point, Despair ends up talking to Hob and she's like "yeah I had to educate all my siblings on fat liberation and I swear to god if any of them were fatphobic I'd start smacking them, I just didn't anticipate that my lectures would make them appreciate fat people quite as much as this........ welcome to the family lol." And Hob is nothing but grateful for the fact that Despair has apparently hardwired all her siblings to be very respectful and admiring of his body type.
The best thing is none of the siblings are weird about him being fat. Nobody explicitly comments on his body at all. Which is nice, because Hob has been with people in the past who were attracted to his fatness in an almost creepy way, like it was the only interesting thing about him. The Endless siblings aren't like that at all. They just make him feel desirable and sexy and welcomed, making sure that he has a nice time, that he has lots of nice food and drinks. They all pay him attention in a way that makes him blush... but he's not uncomfortable in the least. He kind of likes how he feels when the siblings sigh that they're all still single, while Dream has found such a gorgeous man...
He feels right at home there on the sofa, with Dreamā€™s arms possessively wrapped around him (and hands sneaking under his jumper to enjoy the soft pillow of his belly). Despair and Destruction are squeezed onto the sofa too and its warm and cozy. Death pats Hobā€™s head in a friendly gesture as she hands out drinks. Destiny tries to teach Delirium how to play a card game. Desire actually has their head in Hobā€™s lap, as they're splayed out all across the sofa like a contented cat.
Hob feels safe. And he knows for sure that he is loved. If Dream wants to show him off in the future, well... he certainly wouldn't be opposed to that!
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I Am Your Destiny (Yandere!Rio Vidal x female!reader)
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Summary: You had recently gotten engaged and you couldnā€™t be happier. But someone youā€™re close with has taken it upon herself to ensure that that will never come to pass, that you are hers and hers aloneā€¦.
Prompts taken from the Yandere Writing List by @yandere-daze
67. " Nothing can separate us now."
38. "Only look at me with these pretty eyes of yours."
(CW: Kidnapping, forced kiss, potential murder implications, (kinda up to interpretation) restraint, (just on the ankle) possible drugging)
Authorā€™s Note: I actually managed to get one of my ideas out of my head and into a story, holy shit!
Reader is, of course, 18+.
Your eyes shoot open as a soft breeze brushes against you.
ā€œWhere the hell am I?ā€ you whisper fearfully as your eyes dart around. It looks like a clearing in the moonlight surrounded by a thick forest, butā€¦.it feels unnatural.Ā 
The last thing you remember is preparing your wedding invitations. Your partner of seven years had proposed to you and youā€™d been nose-deep in preparations despite the date being far off. But thereā€™s bigger fish to fry.
Your heart pounds, your breathing quickens; is this a kidnapping? You try to stand up, but somethingā€™s keeping you down on your knees. Looking behind you, you see a rope of green light surrounding your ankle, the other end tied to a tree. This escape clearly isnā€™t going to be easy.
Suddenly you hear a familiar chuckle from the forest.
ā€œFinally, youā€™re awake, my love.ā€
Your blood freezes as a shadow slowly strides out of the forest, unveiling their identity; dressed in a black off-shoulder gown with a crown on her head, her dark hair flowing in the light breeze.
ā€œR-Rio?!ā€ you gasp out.
Hearing this, her smile grows.
ā€œAh, my little birdā€¦.how I love hearing you say my name.ā€
She glides closer until sheā€™s hovering above you, like a hawk hovering over its prey.Ā 
ā€œWhatā€™s going on?ā€ you choke out.
She doesnā€™t answer, instead slowly kneeling down in front of you.Ā 
ā€œWhatā€™s going on?ā€ she repeats before shrugging. ā€œNothing much, justā€¦..claiming whatā€™s mine.ā€
The drop on her volume at the end sends chills through you.Ā 
ā€œWhā€¦what are you talking about?ā€ you gasp out.
Rio coos in response. ā€œOh darlingā€¦.donā€™t tell me youā€™re really this clueless.ā€ Reaching out, she slowly tucks a bit of hair behind your ear. ā€œItā€™s so obvious; you and I are meant to be together.ā€
Upon hearing this, you have to do a double-take. Noā€¦.thereā€™s no way you heard that right; Rioā€™s your best friend, the first one you told about your partnerā€™s proposal, the one you told all your secrets to. Of course you know sheā€™s Death, that sheā€™s the original Green Witch, but you never considered her as anything more than your best friend.Ā 
ā€œRio, donā€™t talk nonsense,ā€ you chuckle nervously, praying that this is just a joke, just a terrifying joke.
ā€œā€¦.Who said itā€™s nonsense?ā€ Her face betrays no sign of deception, that just makes you feel even more horrified. ā€œWhatā€™s nonsense is believing that youā€™re not meant to be mine, by my side for all eternity.ā€
ā€œOkay, thatā€™s enough, Rio,ā€ you pant. ā€œJustā€¦..cut the bullshit and let me go.ā€
Hearing this, her eyes harden.Ā 
ā€œLet you go?ā€ Her tone drops as she leans in close, her face only a few inches from yours. ā€œDo you think Iā€™d be insane enough to do that? When I have what I want here and now? Donā€™t make me laugh. Besides Iā€™ve waited long enough for this moment, and when things arose, I decided to take matters into my own hands.ā€
Once again, you try to stand up, but within a millisecond, youā€™re back on the ground.Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t even bother, itā€™s cosmic-grade magic,ā€ she huffs. ā€œI canā€™t have you running off; besides, you wouldnā€™t even know the way out.ā€
A lump forms in your throat as you remember just how powerful Rio actually in.
ā€œWhy are you here?ā€
She doesnā€™t answer for a hot second. ā€œWellā€¦.itā€™s pretty simple; I want to ensure this destiny is fulfilled, and one way to do that is soul-binding.ā€
ā€œSoulā€¦.binding?ā€ you gasp out.
ā€œSoul-binding,ā€ she repeats. ā€œA ritual that connects the souls of two people to the point where the mere thought of being separate from them gives one a sense of absolute dread. It is a bond that nothing is able to sever.ā€
Gently she cups your cheek, brushing her thumb against it in a slow circular motion.
ā€œOnce the ritual is performed, our souls will become one. Weā€™ll sense each otherā€™s thoughtsā€¦feelingsā€¦desiresā€¦weā€™ll develop a deep desire to be with each other, a desire that will grow into a compulsion. Weā€™ll sense each otherā€™s wants and needs, weā€™ll be able to communicate telepathically, among many, many benefits; best of allā€¦ā€
She slowly cups both sides of your face with one hand.
ā€œā€¦.Our life forces will be connected,ā€ she whispers.Ā 
Your blood goes beyond frozen; Rio, being Death herself, cannot die. If you become connected to herā€¦..
ā€œRio, youā€™re insane!ā€
She just grins and nods.
ā€œInsanely in love, in particular.ā€
ā€œThis isnā€™t love, itā€™s obsession!ā€
Rio merely chuckles. ā€œI see them as one and the same. Anyway, letā€™s not waste anymore time. Our souls will soon be one.ā€
Youā€™re in the biggest panic of your life.
ā€œRio, you canā€™t do this; you know about the proposal!ā€
Upon hearing this, Rio gives a bitter chuckle. ā€œOf course I knowā€¦..why do you think Iā€™m doing this now? They donā€™t deserve you. Theyā€™re not your destiny; I am.ā€
ā€œButā€¦..theyā€™re gonna wonder where I am!ā€ you stammer.
She sighs. ā€œOh, my loveā€¦..youā€™re truly so naive. Did you think I wouldnā€™t be prepared for that? Iā€™ve already taken care of the problem.ā€
All of your trembling that youā€™re trying to hide freezes at that moment. ā€œā€¦.what did you do to them?ā€ you gasp.
ā€œNothing to worry your pretty little head about, my little bird,ā€ she says. ā€œEnough diversions; itā€™s time to bind.ā€
In an attempt to avoid the ritual, you turn away, but Rio grabs your head and yanks it back to face her.
ā€œThereā€™s no use fighting it, my love,ā€ she purrs. ā€œThis is whatā€™s meant to be.ā€
ā€œIf you do this to me, Iā€™ll hate you forever!ā€ you snap.
However Rio just laughs. ā€œOh, I beg to differ, my love. Once the ritual is complete, youā€™ll be so enamored that youā€™llĀ only look at me with these pretty eyes of yours.Ā I guarantee it.
Keeping her hands on both sides of your face, she leans forward and locks her lips onto yours. You try to pull away, but Rioā€™s grip on you is too strong. Her lips give off the taste of mint, one thatā€™s almostā€¦.alluringā€¦.
You begin to feel your mind fog up and your muscles begin to loosen. But you know you need to get awayā€¦..right? The mint taste and scent is beginning to overtake you; at the same time, you feel a strange sensation enter your body, which brings back your alertness slightly. You sense yourself torn between the need to break out and the desire to succumb. However the more youā€™re exposed to this delicate but intoxicating aroma, the more you lean towards the latter. The strange sensation strengthens, but itā€™s strange in a euphoric way. Even as that little voice in the back of your mind tries to bring you back, the euphoria and mint both nearly have you. The voice is slowly fading awayā€¦.until all there is is the euphoria and mint.
You reach up and grab Rioā€™s face, burying yourself deeper into the kiss. A deep primal desire awakens in you, a desire to be closer than humanly possible; and the more you two kiss, the stronger the euphoria becomes until itā€™s one of the only things on your mind.
After some time, Rio slowly pulls her lips away from you before giving a chuckle. The two of you lock eyes and you feel as though everything else has faded. As far as youā€™re concerned, nothing exists but your beloved Rioā€¦.
ā€œThereā€¦.Ā Nothing can separate us now,ā€ she whispers.Ā 
Reaching over, she places her hand just above your chest, the touch making you feelā€¦whole.
ā€œYou can feel it too, canā€™t you?ā€ she chuckles. ā€œOur souls are now one, bound together eternally.ā€
You focus, and sure enough, you feel as though your souls have practically merged into one, and you love it. It just feelsā€¦..right. Seeing this, Rio releases the bind on your ankle and brings you in close. Her warmth immediately puts you at peace as your head settles on her chest.Ā 
As you settle in, Rio whispers in your ear, her warmth breath caressing your ear. ā€œYouā€™re safe with me, my love. Iā€™ll protect you, cherish you, treasure you as the precious gem you are. You will want for nothing. All you have to do is stay with meā€¦.can you do that for me?ā€
Without hesitating you nod, an enamored smile forming on your face, and Rio chuckles.
ā€œThatā€™s it. Youā€™ll stay with me like the good girl you are. You donā€™t need anyone else. I am all you needā€¦..ā€
As her warmth encompasses you, you feel your eyes begin to flutter shut, the echoing sounds of the waterfall, along with the rise and fall of Rioā€™s chest, lulling you into a peaceful slumber. Nothing can make this more perfect for you. You know youā€™re exactly where you need to be, where you want to be. You simply canā€™t imagine being anywhere else, except with your beloved Rio. And just before you drift off, you hear her whisper into your ear.
ā€œI am your destinyā€¦.ā€
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evilghostwizard Ā· 23 hours ago
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Rating TMA Fears
Rating Criteria:
how many shivers i get (shivers)
amount of icks i get (icks)
if i audibly react to it (reactions)
is it cool as fuck (intrigue)
notes deconstructing the fear cus I like to talk about it
These are based off of personal opinion and not factual. Fears definitely effect different people differently.
1.) Buried
Shivers: 5/5
Icks: 3/5
Reactions: 5/5
Intrigue: 5/5
TOTAL SCORE: 5
Notes: Before witnessing TMA I did not know I had a fear of being buried alive. TMA taught me the earth can be devious and hungry. When before I viewed it as lovely and protecting. The buried doesn't mean to be deceptive which I think is the most terrifying part. It's alluring petrichor and earth scents are meant to be warnings. Warnings I saw through rose tinted glasses. I used to visit local caves a lot around my local area. I no longer wish to do that anymore. It freaked me out so bad it has irreparably changed my life. Very good writing. It is simultaneously my favorite and least favorite. Well done rusty quill.
2.) Corruption
Shivers: 3/5
Icks: 5/5
Reactions: 4/5
Intrigue: 2/5
TOTAL SCORE: 3.5
Notes: Ew ew ew ew ew ew... Bugs are cool but not in me or my house thanks. Horrible, disgusting, terrible little creatures. Do not touch my skin, thank you. Wonderfully done to put it in the focus of the first season to draw in all the horror fans and cortisol addicts. The corruption puts much emphasis on emotional responses that should not be had in the context they are had in. Love replaces repulsion. Comfort stands while disgust falls. All while it digs in your skin and tears through your life. The desolation destroys your life out of anger while the corruption festers in your bones because of its affection for its victims.
3.) Dark
Shivers: 2/5
Icks: 1/5
Reactions: 2/5
Intrigue: 1/5
TOTAL SCORE: 1.5
Notes: The dark in TMA has only ever spooked me when there was fleshy or stranger bits involved. I do however enjoy the idea that there is something in the dark that's desires are beyond my knowledge. Beyond even the knowledge of the Eye. Not a favorite that I am rather indifferent too. However, there is the interesting theme TMA uses when utilizing the dark. It touches on the concept of what hides in the dark. As well as how it claims those writhing with despairing as it's own and desperately asks them to worship. It begs them to work in it's name. It grasps for control that only the web can have by manipulating hopeless people.
4.) Desolation
Shivers: 2/5
Icks: 2/5
Reactions: 3/5
Intrigue: 3/5
TOTAL SCORE: 2.5
Notes: The desolation comes off as almost helpful in some cases. It causes truths to be revealed but comes with a hint of destructive mystery as well. The fact that it assists the Eye is a fascinating choice of writing that left me wanting more. We have all lost important things to the lightless flame so it is a very relatable entity. The combination of terror and power is a lovely touch drawn by the writers. I do enjoy the gasps I get when skin melts or when the beloved are ignited. Interesting. Almost liberating to be destroyed beyond recognition. Not the spookiest of the lot but still good.
5.) End
Shivers: 4/5
Icks: 1/5
Reactions: 3/5
Intrigue: 5/5
TOTAL SCORE: 3.5
Notes: One of my favorites despite its score. I love the motifs of chance and gambling. I love the tendrils. I enjoy that it is a passive entity. It does not need to chase you because you will always run to it regardless of where you go. I enjoy the dream themes as well but I have always enjoyed to concept of dreams. To think when we dream we are grazing the finger tips of the end is delicious to think of. Very mysterious yet so finite and sure. The duality is written perfectly and I honestly wish there were more episodes of this entity. But maybe the mystery of it is what makes it so tantalizing and alluring.
6.) Extinction
Shivers: 4/5
Icks: 1/5
Reactions: 3/5
Intrigue: 4/5
TOTAL SCORE: 3.5
Notes: Very close to home for this one. My parents were dooms-day preppers so I'm very familiar with the feeling of mass extinction. I enjoy this one because it comments on how humans have terribly effected our world/civilization. It is a fear we have placed upon ourselves, much like the slaughter. It is not natural for a great change like in TMA to happen without human intervention. Interesting and compelling writing overall but unfortunately does not spook me that much because of my background. I am desensitized to it. Although it is still on the horizon always. Peaking it's head to make us pay for what we have done.
7.) Eye
Shivers: 2/5
Icks: 1/5
Reactions: 4/5
Intrigue: 4/5
TOTAL SCORE: 3
Notes: The eye is stimulating. The eye takes a role no other fear takes in TMA. This entity is prideful and almost appears to have a hero complex. It knows all, it sees all. But it doesn't understand all. That is clear whenever the eye interacts with other fears. Particularly the dark or the corruption. It isn't scary because it is watching me. It is terrifying because it thinks it knows what is best for me. Even when it clearly doesn't. The eye and the web sometimes work together for this commonality. It doesn't ick me out to be watched like it once did. The eye may see me. It may know me, but it does not know how I experience things. And despite its seeming all-knowingness. It'll never know everyone's experiences. It just sees them.
8.) Flesh
Shivers: 5/5
Icks: 5/5
Reactions: 4/5
Intrigue: 3/5
TOTAL SCORE: 4.5
Notes: I think this one got me bad for two reasons. The first reason being, body horror. It is intriguing and horrible. The flesh is a reminder that despite our intellect that we are piles of biomass. We can face disfigurement at any turn that can forever change our experiences. The second reason taps into our primal roots of fear. Most animals don't want to be someones lunch and the flesh reminds us of that fear. You are made of the same material as the meat you have on your dinner plate. Our biology is fragile and easily torn. It genuinely makes my stomach sick every time a flesh episode comes up. The only reason this one isn't a 5/5 is because the more I think about it, the less I desire to think about it. Fantastic writing. I will stop thinking about it now.
9.) Hunt
Shivers: 3/5
Icks: 1/5
Reactions: 4/5
Intrigue: 2/5
TOTAL SCORE: 2.5
Notes: The hunt is interesting. It makes me feel similarly to how the desolation makes me feel. It is terror but it is also power. Like the flesh, it sinks into our primate brains and reminds us what it is like to experience being prey. It doesn't often feel great to be somethings food. However, the hunt doesn't just rule the prey. There is horrible panic and dread in being the hunted but there is pleasure and satisfaction from being the hunter. It embodies what it feels like to be the predator. The thill of hunting is truly exciting when you aren't the prey. The power dynamic of being the predator makes you feel sadistic gratification.
10.) Lonely
Shivers: 3/5
Icks: 5/5
Reactions: 2/5
Intrigue: 5/5
TOTAL SCORE: 4
Notes: Another fear that calls to my life experiences. To be lonely is to be numb. Apathy is a roadblock for drive. To block drive is to exist adrift to no where with nothing to do. What is the purpose? There isn't one. It is bitter and dissatisfactory entity. The lonely does not scare you until you are in it. Forced to face the fact that without others you are nothing. You are surrounded by people but they care not for your existence. So much to the point where you feel alone despite the people around you. This fear lightly draws from our fundamental human need for companionship. It seems harmless but you won't know it's true horror until you've experienced it yourself.
11.) Slaughter
Shivers: 5/5
Icks: 4/5
Reactions: 5/5
Intrigue: 5/5
TOTAL SCORE: 5
Notes: The slaughter has to be my favorite of the entities. It is another fear conjured by humanity. Its existence is evoked by meaningless carnage just for the sake of violence. The imagery of war instruments like drums and pipes give an incredibly cool and eerie vibe. There are NOT enough slaughter themed episodes in TMA. In spite of the minimal amount of time put into this entity the few episodes focused on it are so gorily and beautifully written. The Piper episode is my favorite episode. The imagery that captures "The War" is perfect. The wrath, terror and determined stoicism descriptions will stick with me for years. The slaughter is meaningless and yet it must happen. It must continue. It must bleed.
12.) Spiral
Shivers: 5/5
Icks: 2/5
Reactions: 3/5
Intrigue: 5/5
TOTAL SCORE: 4
Notes: I enjoy the spiral for its concepts of unreality. What is, isn't. Insanity has always been a captivating idea. Fractal patterns and impossible realms are fantastical enough to draw me in to engage. Mystery with no answer is alluring to puzzle solvers. The parts of the spiral that infect me with horror are the deceptive friendships. It is a terrible thought to think those who are closest to you are lying to you. It hits very close to home. Gaslighting is terrifying. What are you meant to do besides trust the people you have invited into your circle. Betrayal is a parasite. It feeds off of love and trust. Who can you trust now?
13.) Stranger
Shivers: 5/5
Icks: 3/5
Reactions: 3/5
Intrigue: 4/5
TOTAL SCORE: 4.5
Notes: The unknown is the most universally feared entity I think. The stranger is something we have all experienced fear for at least a little bit. Many of us were warned about the stranger as children. The unknown makes us wary and confused. It doesn't gaslight us as much as the spiral but it does lie. It does tell us to ignore the uncanny valley reaction you get when you see it. It is human but isn't. The unfamiliar familiarity in them is the most terrifying. Especially because I don't experience uncanny valley often. Even when I should.
14.) Vast
Shivers: 5/5
Icks: 1/5
Reactions: 3/5
Intrigue: 5/5
TOTAL SCORE: 4
Notes: I am already written a paper about the vast. I adore the concept of the void. It does not ick me as much as the other fears because of my massive interest in the concept. It is scary to feel small, it can cause hopelessness. I have found in some people, like myself, it causes euphoria. It relieves the pressures of human life by letting us know those worries that seem so important are actually not really that big of a deal. I think the episodes exploring the concept are beautiful and anxiety ridden. I still think there should be more of the vast in TMA.
15.) Web
Shivers: 4/5
Icks: 3/5
Reactions: 4/5
Intrigue: 4/5
TOTAL SCORE: 4
Notes: The web is an entity that easily draws you in with a false sense of security. It allows you to be free of the need to make decisions. It is peaceful to be controlled. Although we are often blinded when we are controlled to the motives of the controller. We are deceived into believing the puppet master means us no harm. You lose who you are as you perform the spiders assignments. You drift away into peaceful sleep. Just to be eaten when you are at your most vulnerable.
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helloalycia Ā· 9 hours ago
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one / three / masterlist / wattpad
summary: as you and Skye try to relearn how to be friends again, you realise itā€™s harder than you thought.
warning/s: mentions of injury, substance abuse, poor mental health and basically everything Skye goes through oof.
author's note: hereā€™s part 2! so sorry it was delayed, iā€™ve been stuffed with cold for the past few days so didnā€™t have chance to share it. Hope this makes up for it anyway :)
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"...and I'm just outside your building now," I said to Skye over the phone, lingering outside.
"I was just about to call," she said in a rushed voice, sounding apologetic. "I'm running late, but I'm almost there. Give or take ten minutes. You can head straight up. The doorman knows to let you in and the spare key is in the same place as always."
I hesitated at her response.
It wasn't a big deal, I'd been to her apartment many times, but it had also been a year since I'd last been and it felt strange to go up alone. Especially because I was just supposed to be meeting her to go out, not actually going inside.
"Oh, I can just wait outside, it's okay," I said, maybe a little too quickly, but she didn't seem to notice.
"No, it's fine, you head up, I'll be with you soon," she assured me, before I heard a sound in the background. "I gotta go. See you in ten!"
I chewed my lip before putting my phone away and heading straight inside. As Skye said, the doorman recognised me and let me straight up, and it felt odd. The last time I'd been in the lift, I was crying on the way down from that awful argument between Skye and I. I hadn't been back since ā€“ I'd had no need to. But now...
It wasn't the same, I had to remind myself of that. She wasn't the same. None of this was.
Over the past few weeks, we'd somewhat returned to how things used to be, but it was all baby steps. Being each other's friend was second nature, and yet moments like this sometimes had me stumbling in the dark.
I found her door at the end of the hall, digging out the spare key from behind the framed painting next to it. A stupid place to keep it I'd always thought, but the whole place was guarded anyway so it didn't matter.
After opening the door, I returned the key to its spot before letting myself in. Everything looked the same as I last remembered it, and I didn't want to admit it to myself, but I'd missed it. I still remembered when she bought it and moved in, after her career picked up overnight. We'd had countless movie nights here, sleepovers that lasted days sometimes, and it just brought back so many memories. Good, as well as bad, but I tried not to focus on the latter.
I began to walk around aimlessly, waiting for her to return, eyeing the cabinet full of awards, the framed albums, admiring the penthouse view from her living room, and then I came across some framed photos hung on the wall. Some were of her and her mum when she was a kid, others were as she grew up, and then I spotted a familiar one.
It was a photo of Skye performing her first ever single on her first ever TV appearance years ago, and it was a photo taken by me, one of my first professional gigs as a photographer. A small smile tugged at my lips, realising she hadn't taken it down. I was touched that she kept it.
The door opening made me glance away and see Skye rushing in, looking a bit dishevelled. When she spotted me, she smiled with relief.
"Hey, sorry, I didn't mean to run late," she said as she closed the door behind her.
"It's fine," I said dismissively, before joking, "You know, you're a little too trustworthy. It's been a year. I totally could have come up here and, like, I don't know, robbed you or something. Sold your shit on eBay."
She tossed her bag to the couch as she laughed quietly, quirking a brow. "Oh, really? A year and you've suddenly turned into a criminal?"
"I could've."
"What a personality change."
I laughed as she stopped by my side, nudging me in the arm slightly, before her gaze fell to the photos hung on the wall.
"Ah, going through memory lane, I see," she teased lightheartedly.
I glanced at her with a slight smile. "It's cute that you've still got it. Even if it is a terrible photo."
"It's not," she said with a chuckle, looking at it with pride. "It's a two in one, I had to keep it. My first TV appearance and the day I met you. It just makes it extra special that you took the photo."Ā Ā 
My cheeks grew warm at her words, and I found myself staring at her profile as she smiled reminiscently at the photo. We'd come so far since then and yet I still did a double take whenever I looked to her. Maybe some things hadn't changed...
"I'm just gonna change my clothes and then we can head out," she said after a moment. "Won't be long."
"It's cool, take your time," I said with a nod, watching as she went to her room, before looking back to the photo and finding myself smiling all over again.
ā€”
Becoming friends with Skye again made it easy to remember all the best parts of having a friendship with her, so much that I almost forgot what led to everything being ruined in the first place.
Of course there was the substance abuse, but the reason for that was the anxieties and stresses that came with being one of the most popular celebrities in the world. And it definitely didn't help that Skye never had a lot of support from her team, who only ever saw her as a commodity. Clearly that hadn't changed.
I'd just finished some work one morning and had plans to hang out with Skye after, maybe catch a movie or something as she had the day off, we hadn't really decided. But when I called her, she answered groggily.
"Hey, Skye, you good?" I asked jokingly.
She made a sound like a yawn before humming. "Yes, sorry, I was just napping. Just been tired."
"Oh, I was calling to say I'm free now, but we can rearrange ifā€“"
"No, no, I want to see you," she cut me off with assurance, forcing herself to sound more lively. "A movie, right? Or lunch?"
I tried not to snicker. "Skye, it's your day off and you sound exhausted. It's alright."
"I'm fine, honest," she said confidently, or an attempt at it. "Please, I was looking forward to seeing you."
I sighed, debating whether or not to listen to her. Then, I thought of a solution. "How about we stay in? I can come to yours and we can watch a movie there?"
"Yes, I'd love that," she said with a hint of relief. "Thank you. I'll get the blankets warmed up in the dryer, ready for your arrival."
I laughed quietly. "Sounds good. I'll bring some snacks and be over soon."
And just like that, we both kept to our word and got comfortable on her couch barely half an hour later. Snacks were laid out on the coffee table whilst two fluffy blankets covered us completely. Still, we leaned against each other for warmth.
Skye was definitely burnt out, her general enthusiasm diminished temporarily and her movements sluggish, but she was smiling all the same as she spent time with me. I knew she meant it, but it still worried me that she wasn't getting enough time to simply rest.
"How's tour stuff going?" I asked as she loaded up a film on Netflix.
She shrugged as she focused on the task at hand. "Alright. Been busy. You know how it can get."
I glanced at her. "I do."
She must have noticed my staring as she stopped what she was doing and looked over at me with an amused smile. "What?"
"Nothing," I said nonchalantly, looking to the TV. "Just remember that you can take a break if you need to. It's important or you'll risk burning out."
She sighed, leaning her head on my shoulder and playing with the blanket mindlessly. "I know. I am."
"Enough breaks," I clarified, watching her hands play with it. "I mean, your team are supportive, I'm sure, but they don't always know what's best for you."
She snorted with amusement, glancing up at me. "And you do?"
I met her gaze, half playful and half serious. "Maybe. Maybe not. But I'll always be an advocate of you taking a freakin' break."
She suppressed a smile as she nudged me appreciatively. "You're right. I will. I guess I've just been busy making sure everything is perfect. It has to be, you know? Especially after everything."
"I know," I said sympathetically. "I get it. Just... take care of yourself. Please."
She nodded, though sunk further into the couch as she laced her hands around my arm to get comfortable, almost like she was ending the conversation without saying so. I took the hint and looked back to the screen.
"Picked a film yet?" I asked.
"Almost."
ā€”
Despite how easy it was to fall back into everything with Skye, there were still topics we didn't discuss. Like we never brought up our friendship-ending argument again, or her time in rehab, and she never talked about the accident. It wasn't that I didn't leave that space open for her to discuss, but it was definitely her way of keeping that separate by not bringing it up. And naturally, I didn't want to force her to relive it by bringing it up either.
But not talking about it meant I didn't always know how to help her.
We were walking around a park near her apartment one evening, enjoying a stroll at first, but then we started to mess around on some of the playing equipment since the place was deserted.
"You really think you can clear it in ten seconds?" I asked her with a laugh as she looked up at the monkey bars.
"I do, yeah," she said, mirroring my laughter as she glanced at me. "You just watch. Go on. Grab your phone. Timer at the ready please."
Curious, I pulled out my phone and stepped back, finger hovering over the timer. "Ready when you are, idiot."
She grinned before standing beneath the monkey bars. Looking up at them, she took a deep breath, about to jump up, but I intentionally interrupted to throw her off.
"You sure you don't wanna stretch first?"
She jumped and glared at me playfully. "Shut up. Just get ready."
I laughed and waited patiently, watching as she readied herself once more. And then she jumped up to grab the bars and I started the timer.
She managed to move down three bars before faltering at the fourth one and then letting go all of a sudden. My eyes widened when she landed on the tarmac with a sharp gasp, and I forgot all about the stupid timer as I rushed to check on her.
"Shit, Skye, you okay?" I asked quickly, kneeling down beside her.
Her face contorted in pain as her hand clutched her back. She was leaning on her elbow, clearly hurt.
"I'm fine, I'm fine," she muttered quickly, though she winced and her eyes were squeezing shut to suppress the pain.
I noticed she was holding her back ā€“ not really putting together that it was from her existing back pain from the accident ā€“ and tried to help by reaching for her jacket to see if she'd hurt it from the fall.
"No!" she suddenly shouted when she saw me attempting to touch her, and I jumped.
"Okay, sorry, sorry," I apologised, not wanting to overwhelm or upset her anymore than she already was.
I moved my hand back, but she grabbed it and squeezed gently before I could, an attempt at an apology for her outburst. A shaky sigh escaped her lips as she breathed out the pain, and I didn't say anything more as I held her hand, waiting patiently. Though my heart was clenching with concern the longer she took.
"It hurts sometimes," she finally spoke, avoiding my eyes, "from the accident. That's all."
When I realised it was much more than just falling from the monkey bars, I felt stupid and spoke without thinking. "Do you have medicine?"
She tensed her jaw as she glanced at me.
"Stupid question, sorry," I realised, grimacing.
She let go of my hand and shook her head, expression softening. "No, it wasn't."
Something was bothering her, more than the pain, but now wasn't the time to ask, so I settled on helping her stand up.
"Maybe we should call it a night," I said carefully. "It's getting late anyway."
She nodded, still avoiding my eyes, and we both walked back to her apartment in an awkward silence. A million things were running through my mind, mostly out of concern for Skye, and acknowledging my utter stupidity. For once, I couldn't read her.
When we reached the lobby inside, we paused by the lift.
"Are you okay?" I asked, trying to dial down my worry for her sake.
"Yes, sorry," she muttered.
"It's fine," I assured her, eyes scanning her expression as she purposely looked at my shirt and not me. "I didn't mean to overstep before. Sorry if I made you uncomfortable."
She shook her head, eyes flickering to mine briefly, sad, before looking down to her shoes. "You didn't. I justā€“"
She paused, a moment too long, enough to make me wonder what had her so uneasy.
"It's not pretty," she finally spoke, quieter than usual. "The... the scar. It's..."
"You don't need to explain," I said, when she didn't speak anymore, though my heart ached with concern, soon realising her uneasiness was embarrassment. An unnecessary embarrassment at that, as if I'd care about a scar when she was still here, alive.
I gave her a moment, hoping she'd say something more, but she didn't.
"Will you be okay?" I asked worriedly, not wanting to leave her tonight if her back was flaring up.
She nodded. "Yeah."
I nodded too, though was unsure how to say my goodbyes. Usually I'd go in for a hug, but she was already uncomfortable with me touching her before and the last thing I wanted was to do that again.
But then she finally looked up, eyes meeting mine gratefully, before she hugged me.
"Thanks for not thinking I'm weird," she mumbled into my shoulder, arms wrapped around them tightly.
I returned the hug gently. "I could never."
She didn't let go straight away and neither did I, not until she made the first move since clearly she needed this hug more than I did.
Finally, she pulled apart and offered me a small smile. "Goodnight, Y/N."
"Goodnight," I said, returning her smile, before reluctantly leaving her.
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It was the first time we'd even come close to talking about the accident and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried. She wasn't opening up and I wondered if she felt like she couldn't. But maybe that incident was the key, because things changed soon after.
About a week later, I was fast asleep when I woke up to my phone vibrating on my bedside table. Confused, I cracked an eye open, wondering who could be calling in the middle of the night, but then the vibrating stopped. I considered if I cared that much, before deciding it could've been an emergency and checking who it was.
When I saw Skye's name, I woke up a little more, overcome with concern since she'd never called like this before. Immediately, I rang her back. It took two rings before she picked up.
"Hello?" she answered with confusion.
Still half asleep, I answered groggily, "Why are you confused? You just called me."
She sighed. "I did. Sorry. I cut it off when I realised."
She sounded different, her voice hoarse.
"What's wrong?" I asked, sitting up in bed and rubbing my eyes.
"Sorry, I justā€“" She tutted at herself. "It's late, Y/N, go back to sleep."
Even half conscious, I knew she wasn't okay. "Skye."
It went quiet, but she gave in, to my relief. "I had a bad dream," she admitted quietly. "I just wanted to distract myself. I didn't mean to wake you."
I frowned to myself. "Are you okay?"
A shaky sigh escaped her lips. "I will be. Really, just go to sleep, I'll be fine."
"I can't sleep knowing you're by yourself," I told her, too tired to hide my worry.
She paused, and then her voice came out guiltily, "Sorry."
"Don't apologise," I said gently, before asking, "Do you want me to come over?"
"No," she answered quickly, before adding, "It's late. I don't want you up and about this late into the night."
I was already pulling my duvet off and sitting at the edge of my bed as I said, "It's not a problem, Skye." It went quiet on her end, so I prompted, "Skye?"
"You don't mind?" she asked hesitantly.
Realising she did in fact want me there, I tried to reassure her. "No, of course not. I can come now."
She practically held her breath. "I owe you."
"You don't."
Exhaling softly, she said, "I'll send a cab to get you. I'll cover the cost. I don't want you on public transport in New York when all the weirdos are out."
I cracked a small smile. "Okay, Skye, see you soon."
Sounding relieved, she said, "See you soon."
I yawned as I hung up, trying to move quickly but still trying to wake up and so unintentionally moving at snail speed. After packing a small bag, including a change of clothes and some toiletries, I pulled on my shoes and a jacket before leaving for Skye's.
The taxi ride wasn't long since the streets weren't busy, and I found myself at Skye's door in less than twenty minutes. As soon as I knocked, she opened up.
"Hey," I said with a tired smile, before hugging her in greeting. "How are you?"
She hugged me back and let me in, closing the door behind me. I noticed she was wearing her pyjamas, hair dishevelled and eyes a little red.
"Better now," she admitted, before frowning. "I'm sorry I woke you up. But I'm glad you're here."
"I'm glad you did," I told her, before leaving my bag by the kitchen counter. "So, what do you want to do?"
"You're tired," she noticed.
I waved a hand dismissively, trying to look more awake. "I can stay awake if you want, Skye."
She sighed, shaking her head, before wordlessly grabbing my hand and dragging me to her bedroom.
"Come on," she said as she climbed into her queen sized bed, so I got out of my shoes and jacket and followed suit, settling in beside her.
We laid on our backs, staring up at the ceiling in silence. I chewed on the inside of my cheek as I glanced at her, her expression dimly lit by the moonlight and lights shining through her blinds. She was weary, though attempting to hide it.
"Do you have bad dreams often?" I asked curiously.
She swallowed visibly. "Not as much as I used to, but... sometimes, yeah." She paused, as if stuck in an internal debate, before admitting, "It was about the accident."
At the mention of the accident, the air in the room felt charged with uncertainty, and Skye's jaw tensed slightly.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked tenderly, and when she didn't reply, I quickly added, "Or you don't have to at all."
Her dark eyes flickered to mine, surprisingly calm. "It's okay. It's justā€“ it's a lot. And when I'm alone, it's..."
"A lot," I finished for her.
She nodded, looking back up at the ceiling. "Yeah."
I found her hand between us, squeezing it gently in support.
"I remember how difficult it was after," she muttered. "That, and the withdrawals, and all of it ā€“ it was a lot. Being in the hospital... I had my mum, but it felt so lonely."
I frowned as she recalled the experience, hearing it for the first time from her lips. And then she looked over at me and I looked back, realising there were tears in her eyes.
"Why didn't you come?" she asked, voice cracking and eyes welling up. "I wanted you to visit so bad. Iā€“ I thought you would."
Not expecting that, I struggled to speak. "I told you, Skye, I thought you wouldn't want me there. I..."
She let go of my hand and wiped her eyes shamefully, looking away. I sat up slightly, leaning on my elbow to look down at her, not wanting her to bottle everything up now.
"I waited," she whispered. "Every day, hoping you'd come to see me."
My heart crumbled at her words, guilt pressing down on my chest. "I'm sorry."
She squeezed her eyes shut. "It's not your fault, I know that. But I just..."
With the nightmare still fresh and her recollection of the past at the forefront of her mind, I knew her emotions were heightened and she was overwhelmed, and it hurt to witness.
I pulled her into my chest for a hug, rubbing her back gently. "I wish I had. I wanted nothing more than to see you then, Skye, truly. But I'm here now. I promise."
She didn't say anything, but she didn't pull away either. Her sniffles were heard in the silence of the room and she kept a firm grip on my tee shirt, and I didn't know what else to do other than continue to rub her back soothingly.
At some point, we must have dosed off like that because when I opened my eyes next, it was morning. I yawned as I rubbed my face, confused to where I was at first. And then I recognised Skye's room and it all came back to me.
I looked beside me, seeing Skye fast asleep, face smushed against her pillow adorably. She looked a lot better than she did last night and I was glad for it, seriously worried about her. Hopefully she'd gotten some sleep after everything.
Trying not to stare too long, reminding myself that it wasn't very platonic of me, I looked away and carefully clambered out of her bed to freshen up. After doing so, I went into her kitchen to find something to eat.
I was eating from a bowl of cereal at her kitchen island when I heard footsteps, looking up to see her leaving her bedroom.
"Good morning," I greeted. "How are you feeling?"
She hummed tiredly, yawning and running a hand through her dishevelled hair. I couldn't help but smile at how cute she looked.
"Better," she finally spoke, brown eyes meeting mine across the counter. "Thanks, Y/N. For coming last night."
I shrugged. "It's okay."
She sighed, shaking her head, and looked down thoughtfully. After a moment, she said, "I know I haven't talked to you much about it all."
My expression softened. "I don't expect you to."
"I know," she said quietly, before meeting my gaze. "I want to. I do. Otherwise the way I am, how I act... it doesn't make sense and I don't want you to feel confused or think I'm insane orā€“"
"Hey," I cut her off, furrowing my brows. "I don't think that, Skye."
She chewed her lip momentarily, eyes flickering to the counter top. "I want you to know. Eventually. I justā€“ it'll be bit by bit because I can't go through it all at once. It's too much."
I frowned sympathetically. "That's alright. You can tell me as little or as much as you want, whenever you want. Meanwhile, if you just want the support, I can give you that too. It's what friends do."
She smiled a little, nodding. "Right."
I studied her expression, unsure what to make of it. "Did you get any sleep? Last night?"
She nodded, looking up. "I did, yeah. Thanks for coming. I know it was late. And I'm sorry for breaking down on you."
I gave her a knowing look, offering a small smile. "You need to stop apologising."
She exhaled. "Sorry."
I rolled my eyes playfully. "Never mind that. You want breakfast? I can make whatever you want, providing you have it of course."
She smiled as she took a seat. "That would be nice, yeah. Eggs couldn't hurt."
"Eggs it is then," I said, eating the last bite of my cereal before standing up. "Give me five minutes.ā€
She nodded and watched me, relaxed for even the smallest of moments, enough to put me at ease too.
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typewritingyip Ā· 2 days ago
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For @keferon mecha AU, my sister and I have been talking about this for days.
Pardon any use of OCā€™s or of any characters seem OOC, I am trying my best.
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September 17th of 1984 was the first time anyone saw one of those bastards, it had been small and seemed non-threatening off the shore of Honolulu. It had made the cover of a handful of newspapers and got looked at by someone in the US government before they chose to leave it be.
Weeks had passed and it was forgotten, just as passing day of news for most people. It wasnā€™t until they hit the California coast that people became concerned. When they started to kill people and cause property damage to the extreme was when there was government response.
Then they started to attack other countries and eventually inland cities. Basic military response was not cutting it. There needed to be a bigger and more coordinated response, though the powers that be kept that off the table for a while. Cold War and all.
Most of the first generation pilots are either long dead, generals who can hardly move, or in long term care facilities. The first few generations of ā€œMechanical Enemy Challenging Housingā€ were terribly ineffective and highly dangerous. Over a thousand people took the challenge and didnā€™t live to see the end of that first generation of war.
Even now the suits are incredibly dangerous to operate, but they learned a great deal over the years. It took almost a decade for the US to start tying up the fight, and now there is some chance at success.
Back when the fighting first started, the world knew every pilots name. There was a sense of glory in it, for you and your Mecha to be known by the masses. The first hundred or so pilots will always be named in history textbooks, whether locally or for the bigger international battles, everyone watches the footage in school and every child dreamed of being those pilots.
Only now though do they realize how pilots drop like flies, a man whose call-sign was Zeta, was one of the first pilots ever. He made it barely through that first year and died on national television with millions watching; no one would forget how blood poured through the chest seams in his Mecha. It turned that shining white to pink and red. Most of them died on the news, so the government began to realize that making these heroes into idols might not be the brightest of ideas. The suits though, those could be re-used after the death of the pilot.
Now the numbers painted almost haphazardly on the front of the Mecha are to identify the pilot, for the sake of any family they may have watching. To know whether your family member is alive or dead, or what suit theyā€™ve been assigned to. Rather gruesome when you think about it long enough.
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The program was going on for decades when they finally started to have to properly hire people and stop taking volunteers off the street, the volunteers were wanting in more often for the wrong reasons and were getting killed in their first fight. Finding pilots, actual pilots, became a lot harder when their standards went up. For every program and organization across the globe, it was getting harder to find the people whoā€™d be able to go the distance.
An organization based out of the United Stared called Mecha became the top performer, above the US government and its military units, above Japan, and every other private company especially. They hired the best of the best, the ones who could become one with their suit. Of course, a great deal of their funding came from the United States government contracts, so they had to answer to them to an extent, but when both organizations were willing to pay out the nose to your family to become part of Mecha, why not go with them?
They had some of the most ambitious projects and most advanced suits the world had ever seen. A company that preferred to stay in the shadows with their geniuses and all stars, for what reason, who knows or cares. They dressed everyone up in BDUā€™s and hid behind the cover of their command structure with the US. But they were the ones ready to end this fight and that was good enough for most of the pilots to hear.
When you have government contracts, plus private funding from who knows where, you can hire the best in their crafts for whatever you might need. Whether bringing in the pilots from the military, scientists from their think tanks, engineers from national labs, or who knows. You can start to do some pretty amazing things.
Like space travel, to bring the fight to them and hopefully get it off Earth. The first space suit that went up lost contact just two weeks into their mission, pilot 1061, call-sign Jazz. Heā€™d been inside his custom to him Mecha when theyā€™d lost contact, his vital signs cut first followed all other connections, as if the reaction had simply just died.
Most of the active pilots had known Jazz in some way, especially the pilots at Mecha whoā€™s trained and tested with him. One of the current longest standing pilots and someone a lot of other pilots looked up to. When he went mission, a group volunteered it be the recovery team whenever Mecha was ready to send another suit and pilot to space.
His loss was swept under the rug and kept from the media, he didnā€™t have much in way of family and those he did have were either in the world saving business or happy to take a check to keep their silence. The family that he did have that cared were the ones willing to risk their lives day in and day out to fight the same bastards he had. To take the weight of one of the suits and go out there to save the planet.
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It took five years for the first team to be ready to head for the stars, to where ever those things were coming from and this time the media was invited. NASA was supposedly running the operation, giving it the title of the Arcturus mission. Arcturus One, though most of the pilots felt that they were more so Arcturus Two, biting their tongue whenever they wanted to mention Jazz and his sacrifice. Remember the big checks that would be sent to their families on the first of the month for the rest of time practically, if they kept their mouths shut and accepted to being team one.
The plan was to send up four suits, all attacked to a shuttle that held all the necessities the pilots would need. Not terribly different from how the ISS function with the attached pods, though instead of pods it was giant Mechā€™s that were made to kill aliens.
A crew of four people, whose names would be known along with their numbers, for the first time in over a decade.
Call-sign: Hound, pilot 1124
Call-sign: Breakdown, pilot 1457
Call-sign: Sunstreaker, pilot 2450
Call-sign: Sideswipe, pilot 2451
Actual names would not be released until a later date to protect their families, it was already a deadly job that they were now taking to an unfamiliar environment, they didnā€™t need reporters following them everywhere. It was certain that theyā€™d be in the history books no matter the outcome of their mission anyways.
Launch day was scheduled to be the same as when these things chose to attack Earth, a day that each person who ever stepped into a mech suit hoped that theyā€™d make these freaks regret.
Hound was the primary pilot for the shuttle, with Breakdown as chief engineer, then the twins were the primaries for battle, come to be known as the front-liners. They were likely to remain in their suits the most. It was an imperfect mission, but one that theyā€™d take on just as they had all those on Earth.
The night before take off, the four all sat together in Mechaā€™s barracks, unable to face what little family they each had left as they prepared for their fate. One of no return and if not most certain death, coming to accept that didnā€™t take long but it was still needed. After a while, they raised their glasses to Jazz, determined to find whatever one of these things that had taken the great pilot from then and tear it apart.
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A/N: Alright, itā€™s the day after I initially posted this and realized I made a lot of spelling/grammar mistakes while typing on my phone. So I took it and re-typed it and now had put it back here with the slight updates. Sorry for those who read it before I fixed it. Look out for a part 2 soon though, hopefully.
Also, I did think about putting First-Aid on Arcturus One, but I felt heā€™d fit in better with his haunted suit on Arcturus Three so.. yeah. Heā€™s coming, promise.
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rbvcdeluxe Ā· 12 hours ago
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wanna know an example of GOOD DARRKKK comedy???????????????' THE SONG KILL YOURSELF BY BO BURNHAM.
first of, id like to show what bo says before starting the song.
"i dont love my fans. i have to be- I dont. you dont want that. you dont want that desperate, sort of cloying thing from an entertainer. 'my fans, oh, they stick with me through everything, through thick and thin.' do not stick with me through thick. if I stop entertaining you throw me to the curb. you wouldnt stick with your mechanic if he stopped fixing your car. im in a service industry, im just overpaid, okay? and a lot of- i feel a lot of artists, pop artists especially, sort of infringe upon responsibilities that just arent theirs, in terms of their audience, maintaining their audience at an emotional level. some of you might be sad and going through things. i feel for that. life is tough. im not gonna fix that with a song. like 'brave' or 'roar.' you know these inspirational- what im trying to say is, donā€™t listen to a song like this."
And thats when he starts the song, a song where he just tells you to 'kill yourself over and over again'. its a juxtaposition, he sings about suicide and encouraging it just to end it by saying "Dont kill yourself!" right immediately after the song.
and the song in general is just peak dark comedy. and honestly i think everyone should listen to it, its fucking amazing. the song its not just 'you feel terrible? haha you should kys'. hes telling you to not commit suicide BY telling you to kill yourself. this is something he tells you to not listen to.
the dark comedy comes from being the exact opposite of what he is trying to say and the way he expresses it through it. the lyrics are completely exaggerated, theyre supposed to be over the top, they switch between suicide and prevention of it, going from 'i sound unempathetic, i sound mean and rude. suicide is an epidemic and i dont wanna be misconstrued' to 'but if you search for moral wisdom in katy perrys lyrics then kill yourself'
the song is a joke about suicide. thats dark comedy.
people dont even make good dark comedy anymore
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ruporas Ā· 5 months ago
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need to exist in your warmth (id in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#blood tw#ruporas art#love u when i get to cuddle u and love u when i get to feel ur blood soak into my hands#being this close to one another means the eternal suffering of trying to separate love and mission. love for one and love for humanity#i like to think of pre-vol8 vash as someone who struggles with his feelings for ww bc as equal and as trusted he is -#vash knows his responsibilities and he knows/expects ww wouldn't let him stray from it either. for that he can't take to any romantic incli#and i think itd make him view ww in a stricter non-personal way... If that makes ANY sense.#for ww - take someone who youv gotten close to and ended up liking more than you expected#someone who has a belief and follows it stubbornly - someone who'll get into more fights and trouble more than youv had your entire life#ww thinks of him as a monster but he knows theres a limit he himself can take - i feel like hes considered what might be the limit for vash#for Safety measures. just in case. yknow. whenever he himself might have to load the bullet < him hyping himself up as if he could do it#my point being that the thought of vash being dead crosses his mind more than he'd like. i think its a simultaneous dread drop in his stoma#for failure of the mission - but also an Ok? They can be killed? and also a disastrous gunning of his own heart. considering how much they#both live in their own heads some days are Just the worst ever for them in each others company. but also they lov each other :[ sooo much
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factual-fantasy Ā· 4 months ago
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About your Welcome Home AUā€¦
Do you have any intentions to draw Julieā€™s true form? If itā€™s not too much. (If not, can I ask for a drawing of a wholesome hug between Julie and Frank?)
Also, does anyone else know that Home isā€¦ alive? Was Home there the whole time before Wally started to live in the house?
Or does it justā€¦ appear?
I was originally going to bundle this ask up with this post here due to the Julie questions.. but the second question about Home really got me thinking.. :00 I ended up brainstorming all night and came up with some kind of mysterious backstory for Home :))
I was thinking that Poppy was the very first neighbor that moved into the neighborhood. Her family bought a plot of land and built a barn when Poppy was very young.
Nearby their property, on an abandoned lot.. was this dilapidated little house..
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No one knows who built it, how long its been there or who it belongs to now. Judging by the peeling paint and brambles engulfing the backyard.. it must have been there for a while. But the building style of the house doesn't look too old.. strange..
Growing up nearby this old house gave Poppy the creeps. She would always make sure to close the curtains of her bedroom window so she couldn't see the house..
Years would go by and Barnaby would come along and buy a plot nearby and build his house. Then sometime after that, our good friend Wally bought the manky old house, completely restored it and moved in.
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After Home got a make over, Poppy felt a lot better about it and didn't feel the need to keep her curtains closed to avoid it.
It seems like what made the house so creepy to her was the fact it was so dead and empty.. pitch black on the inside, weeds engulfing the property.. it would give anyone the spooks..
But now that the house was all cleaned up, glowing with life and surrounded by flowers? AND it had a delightful friend of hers living there? It looked more inviting than ever. Thankfully she wasn't scared of the cute little house anymore. :)
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Though she should have been.
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