#in spite of being rlly quiet

[itsbebebe]

what i took from tallulahs book is that she actually rlly does need to spend more time w/ the other eggs/parents cuz she doesn't realise that they all fucking adore her and are clamouring to look after her and think shes amazing but just dont know her well enough. Its not that they have misconceptions about her, its not that bbh forgot her birthday, its not that dapper and pomme purposefully triggered her abandonment issues. its that they dont know/remember cuz they never see her and thats why its actually kind of important that her and chayanne get to hang out with ppl like forever and stuff more regularly ("if they are actually willing to" she mutters, eyes trained on chayanne).

[moddestmouse]

At least I've become wiser for it

[vamp0rivm]

𝙱𝙴𝚈𝙾𝙽𝙳 𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴 𝟶1

summary: - a prologue of sorts - you and ellie will never be the same. the words you exchange are so deep seated and visceral, an accumulation of all the hurt. hers are telling; the love she gives is nothing like yours, nowhere near as intense, nowhere near as desperate. she’s closed off to you, and she may never be open again. she’s leaving town before it is even given a proper ending, to go on tour now that her music career is taking off. this is the end. at least for a few years.

warnings: not rlly proofread bc i ball too hard, angst with no comfort yet, dw it’ll come, ellie is dealing with trauma, references to sex.

an: this shit is reaaaaally short cuz it’s just some context for the main story. unfortunately for me, bc whenever i start a story i get rlly anxious until its over, the next one prolly won’t be coming for a while since im gonna be travelling for a bit and i got quite a lot of stuff going on: love you guys, stay safe, never stop talking about palestine. do your clicks. :-)

masterlist

When you first saw Ellie, there were embers in her eyes - front of the pub, she didn’t even need a stage as she sang her heart out. Her captivating nature was enough to elevate her. Everyone else in the room faded to grey in the background, nothing more than a lively buzz punctuating the atmosphere. You were enraptured.

And she was too.

Hesitant glances from across the room at the same time each week, the music and the feeling was electric. The flush of her cheeks melted into the splotches of red from the sweltering heat each time she met your eyes. You sat on that same barstool; she stood in that same spotlight.

And when you started seeing each other, there were so many moments where you felt like your love for her was uncontainable. It spewed out of your pores and overwhelmed your senses every time she was near, even in spite of her soft and reserved demeanour.

It had a hold on you. Each time your lips met, it always became visceral for you, slow and sensual movements transforming into borderline aggression, tongue desperately searching her insides and tearing all the petals off the rose that was in her mouth. You wanted to consume her, suck her up and hold her in the comfort of your rib cage. She was everything to you.

And she was bound to fame. You knew it would come. She was made of stardust, and an aura so golden it would burst if confined in small town pubs any longer.

Sometimes, you gently trace the ridged edges of the polaroid pinned to your wall and feel a pool of warmth gather inside you at the feeling of familiarity her younger face brings. Her face, back then when her eyes seemed greener, her cheeks seemed fuller, her voice seemed clearer. It’s a sick feeling: nostalgia, remembering the way your intensity felt and what it has become.

If you stare too long, you’ll watch the grainy photograph melt and churn, the hues of her skin becoming duller and sunken inwards.

The house is quiet. It’s a silence so dense, you’re almost fooled into thinking Ellie isn’t home. But she is. She’s there, like a ghost lingering in the cracks of your walls.

It feels cold, with a lingering scent of whiskey and a heavy silence that creaks in the hollows of your ears, even for the weeks at a time that Ellie is home.

Maybe it’s a sick thought to have about the woman you would give up your life for, who you would do anything for, who you love more than anything in the world millions of times over, but you prefer it when there’s a distance between the two of you these days. Playing into that constant facade of everything being okay drains you of all your worth and for no return. Ellie gave up on it a while back. It’s just you prancing away solo on that stage now, like some jester.

You’ve become a slave to it, lost yourself out at sea trying desperately to make things okay, whatever that means. She'll never talk to you about it. There’s only scraps left to hide but she clings to them like they’re her lifeblood, tearing them away from you as if you’re just some stranger. Some stranger who watches her crumble to pieces and put herself back together, like she’s a damn mix and match, each time the memories come back to surface in her mind. You beg for more, for crumbs of her resolve but she’s gone. Not coming back.

Nothing has been okay. Nothing has ever been the same since Joel died. Ellie has never been the same. That day, he left and took a piece of her with him. A piece you know you’ll never get back.

There’s no room for argument, what is between the two of you is like glue that barely sticks, so you keep yourself deathly still and hold your breath with a pounding heart and complete desperation, not wanting to ruin anything further. But there’s so much you have to say, and no time to say it.

Instead, you watch her pull further away, see her eyes become duller, notice her absence get longer, feel the sex get colder, watch everything warp and twist and writhe until you’re beyond the point of no return. Until you’re not sure you trust her, or yourself, or the concept of anyone truly loving you the animalistic and self destructive way you loved them at any point in time.

It’s lonely on that island, watching her drift away, the person you thought completed you, she felt incomplete regardless of your presence.

You know the glue has faded when she turns to face you from the foot of the bed, looking so far away as she speaks.

"What? You're moving to LA?" She looks down at the fingers she’s twiddling, and takes a deep breath before continuing.

"Yeah, Max said it wa-"

"Well, how long?" You cut her off, already rising from the bed and moving closer. She meets your eyes but the look she gives doesn’t satiate your anxiety in any way, despite how you beg it to.

"... About that, we were thinking it might be… indefinite for now..."

Your heart stills in your chest and the blood rushes from your head. She can’t even look at you.

"Ellie. What the fuck… How are you just gonna dump this on me now? W-what about us? What are we gonna do? I already barely see you anymore,"

"I... I'm sorry but, I gotta do this. You know I do, if I'm gonna make a caree-"

Desperation takes over, your palms quivering erratically beneath you,

"Ellie… I know you care about your career, but, God, we've been together for so long. I love you so much, please don't do this to me,"

She raises her gaze to the ceiling and forces the lump down the dry, tight hollow of her throat,

"It's not forever, babe, I’ll come home.”

But you’re already shaking your head in dismissal of her blatantly dishonest words,

"You and I both know that that is not true. You’ve been desperate to go since it happened and I know I’m just an obstacle now.“

"That’s… That’s not true. I really can’t do this right now."

"You never can. And it’s because I fucking know you're not coming back, Ellie! And I'm not gonna sit around, waiting for you to call, only ever hearing about you through other people when we’ve been together for so many fucking years! I want you to be happy more than anything-“

"We can call.”

"But you fucking won't! And you're always drunk! You need to talk to me, Ellie, we're never gonna be okay if you don't!”

“I can’t be okay when I’m trapped here! All I can think about is him! I don’t eat, I don’t sleep!”

"But this isn’t gonna make anything better! We have something here! We said we would start a family together, Ellie… LA; you would never have wanted this… Okay? Joel would never have wanted this!"

She gets up and turns without a second thought at the sound of his name and your blood pressure spikes in complete desperation.

"Ellie, Ellie, please. I'm sorry. We can work through this, I promi-"

“I have to go.”

“No, you don’t! You aren’t being fair! You shut me out! You shut everyone out! I’ve been trying so fucking hard!"

"I know, and I’m fucking sorry, but I can't stay here, there's nothing left for me! I love you-"

Your voice is quiet and quivers with emotion that lulls her in, begging her to see that you need her - that she has always come first to you even if you’ve become secondary to her,

"Then prove it. Stay."

But her mind is already made up.

"… I can’t…”

You’re shaking your head,

“I have to do this.”

No, this is seriously the end.

“I'll come home."

You stop shaking your head and look at her.

“No. I can't wait around for you, Ellie, not when we’re like this. If you do this, it's over."

"That's up to you."

The rest of the night seems blurry to you. A deep despair festers to the brim of your skull. You can’t bring yourself to move once she’s gone, can’t bring your mind to calm itself down.

But once you do, the house is plunged into the darkness you encounter. The weight of Ellie still hangs thick in the air and lingers like a whine in the creaks of cold floorboards. As you leave the house you shared with Ellie, you pass through each room, switching the light on and then off, from top till the bottom, until you reach the last.

Click,

and then you leave, once and for all.

Pass round the bend and then by the sea. Watch the waves rise and then crash into each other, right where Ellie used to plant her feet beside you.

more pics of my cat bc she’s just so adorable 😩

[blorbopostingtime]

Alr so maybeee this is a bad opinion but tbh I rlly can't keep it in anymore so imma just say it.

WE NEED MORE ANGRY BRANCH CONTENT!!!!!

Like sure in the first movie he could be classified as angry but. ITS SO MUCH MORE GRUMP AND ANNOYANCE THAN ACTUAL ANGER?!?!?!?!?!??!

I want more fics, more comics, more fanart, more everything, where Branch just flat out looses his fucking shit.

At anyone, everyone I do not have a specific thing.

Get this grump ass bitch angry at the way the village treated him for fucking years when he was grey, get him fucking angry at his brothers for leaving and abandoning both him and their grandmother, get him angry at the bergens who he lived in fear of for so so so fucking long (SINCE HE WAS BORN TILL HE WAS ATLEAST FUCKING 20. THAT IS ALL HIS FUCKING CHILDHOOD. TEENAGE YEARS, EVERYTHING. AND FOR ALL THOSE YEARS MINUS 4 IT WAS ALSO HIS BROTHERS, THE VILLAGE AND HIS GRANDMA), his grandmother for sacrificing herself to save him and leaving him grey and alone (HE WAS A CHILD. FOUR OR FIVE AND HE WATCHED HER DIE FOR HIM. DO NOT TELL ME HE DOESNT HAVE ANY SURVIVAL GUILT OR RESENTMENT AT THE FACT THAT THIS CAUSED HIM TO TURN GREY AND BE AN OUTCAST IN THE VILLAGE. I DO NOT GAF ABT HOW MUCH HE LOVES HER YOU DO NOW MOVE ON FROM SHIT LIKE THAT WITHOUT IT), his parents for never being there (whole other thing but! Still think it should be a bigger thing.): EVERYONE.

"Oh, but he got angry at his brothers in the 3rd movie!"

NOT FOR FUCKING REAL.

YOU TELLING ME THAT MOSTLY CALM ASS, SAD AND A BIT SPITEFUL SPEECH WAS PURE UNFILTERED RAGE FROM 16+ YEARS OF BEING ABANDONED, BULLIED, ALONE, AFRAID AND DEPRESSED ?!?!?!?!?!?

HUH?!?!?!?!?!??

CUZ ITS FUCKING NOT!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THATS NOT EVEN MENTIONING THE FACT THAT HE LIVED OUT IN THE WILDERNESS FOR THE FUCKING MAJORITY OF HIS LIFE TOO!!!!!

Let Branch go feral with rage, let him scream at all the ways people have failed him from the top of his normally quiet lungs, let his vision go tinted red with rage, let him fight and punch and kick and elbow and growl and bite and hurt all the people who left him, like an animal gone abandoned in the wilderness and left for dead, who manages to not only survive but fucking THRIVE as a feral beast.

Show me a Branch who screams a sound so primal the nearby birds fly from the trees, let him be louder than any other troll in the village from living in the wild surrounded by creatures that the trolls were still learning about anf befriending who may or may not havr wanted to kill him, and yet talk about how afterwards he could barely speak because after 20 years of quiet speech if that his voice still isn't used to being loud.

Show us how much Branch is ready, able and willing to to use all the weapons he makes, the rocks he collects as projectiles and bluguons, the whittled stakes and knives, the sheer everything that comes with having lived on his own in the wilderness, angry and scared and so fucking alone.

... Ahem.

Anyways, thanks for listening to my rant and

ANGRY, FERAL AND APESHIT BRANCH PLEASE!!!!!!

[stealingpotatoes]

askposting except its just one ask that was 924 words long

which i think is internet-jesus getting me back for the obscenely long ao3 comments i leave LOL

(also for the sake of my own screenshots im not. putting the whole paragraphs of text in but i did read them!!!)

@thedynamicworm thank u!!! ur idea of them meeting on coruscant is fun but leia doesn't sneak away on any missions!! she may have her father's inability to follow orders, but she knows where to draw the line and draws it pretty solidly at "things that will get me killed and/or grounded for a year". she sticks to tatooine and rebellion bases and the few planets her family takes her to for jedi training or little trips!

the closest she gets to meeting luke before age 15 is thru force dreams and the like

gaslight girlboss gatekeeping! Padme is VERY quiet about Luke's birth for the first few months (is just on Naboo w her family) and 1. pretends Luke was the result of a secret Naboo husband and 2. manages to hide when his birthday is so it looks a Bit Less Suspect. the handmaidens create this insane papertrail so convincing that Palps, had he not known otherwise, probs would've fallen for loll.

so deep down he does sorta know that Luke's Anakin's son, however comma he can't prove it for shit and Padmé never lets him get close enough to try prove it loll. + he can't rlly openly act against such a popular senator so theyre essentially fighting a shadow cold war

Luke meets Rex (eventually)!!! the closest there ever would be to codywan would be Obi-wan wistfully staring at his commander like he's in a period drama remembering before remembering he's not a hussy and thats forbidden lol. cody's just up to his canon shit unfortunately ):

same as canon, being a spiteful bastard, yelling kenOOOBIIII, and blinding dilfs <3

again same as canon (or potes-brand-canon) lolll she's out there vibing w quinlan!!!

they meet after the reunion when Padmé and Luke are staying on a rebel base w the Skywalkers and the Ghost fam visits! Ezra obvs goes to see his bestie Leia and she's like EZRA I HAVE A BROTHER NOW MEET MY BROTHER HIS NAME IS LUKE ISN'T IT COOL I HAVE A BROTHER and with a very fifteen-year-old twinge of worry that he's going to be replaced, Ezra goes to meet Luke. and the twinge of worry is replaced with a twinge of "oh no i'm gay" bc wow ok. he's cute. are people allowed to be this cute??

Luke's first opinion is "wow this guy's cool! and he has um... very uh... mm facial structure" the former of which is definitely ruined when Ezra does some stupid shit like 3/4 of a backflip and eats shit on the hangar floor

[nightcolorz]

The first season is very sexually charged with the objectification of Armand (Rashid), did you notice that too?

Literally the way Daniel and Louis discuss Armand in front of him, as if he is not in the room with them: his taste, weight (damn... Armand is literally a little shocked with his quiet “what?..”, Louis offers to try his blood, and it sounds ambiguous. If you don’t know the context, the question “would u like to sample” sounds with sexual overtones. Daniel refuses, citing medication. And all this time no one asks Armand what he wants. As if, if Daniel had agreed, Armand would have had no say in the matter. Like... Wow

YES OMGG!!!! Thank u for this ask, I think about this literally all the time. Obviously Armand is my favorite character so before s2 came out the only thing I rlly liked about amc iwtv was this specific aspect lol. (I rewatched the would u like to sample scene more then any scene in the first season). I actually had a theory before s2 came out that the reason they act like this with “rashid” is bcus Louis and Armand are doing this strange bdsm public humiliation thing that Louis is dictating as a form of spite against Armand for their shitty relationship, and Armand is participating bcus of his trauma that tells him he is meant to be in a sub dynamic like that, and boy I was wayyyy more right then I thought I would be.

I think the rashid thing was an incredibly genius way to both set up and foreshadow Louis and Armand’s dynamic, and to set up how Armand’s trauma functions before we even truly knew who Armand was. It’s honestly so smart.

I’ve always thought the way Louis treats and talks about Armand as rashid was fucked up 😭 and I’m so surprised and delighted to see my interpretation validated. Right it’s so objectifying and hard to watch, the way Daniel is clearly kind of participating is awful too (rent boy cough). Clearly Armand is not into it 😭. I don’t think him being uncomfortable was in some way part of the act.

my theory is that Louis and Armand’s relationship had become very hostile and cold pre interview (which prompts Louis to want to do the interview). And Armand is entirely against the idea of the interview and it rlly makes him stressed and upset and angry, bcus he is afraid of Louis uncovering memories and leaving him, he’s afraid of Louis publishing the book and being put in danger, he’s afraid of himself being put on display for ppl to read about, etc. Louis is rlly mad about Armand being so against smth that means a lot to him, so I image he tells him to just mf leave if he is so bothered by it. And Armand is immediately like NO NO NO ILL STAY, bcus Louis doing the interview without him there to supervise is just sm worse. And Armand is Like, I refuse to be on record that’s my one boundary. And Louis is like well I have just the idea actually, that would prevent u from being on record and allow u to snoop around and watch. Enter bdsm role play/stupid human disguise that is purely spite driven. Amazing show wtf

[tempestvista]

ok I promise I'll stop screaming for two minutes after this but heyyyy. some dream game/frozen soul + forge and the crucible headcanonnnsss... mostly random

I'll eventually do more for other characters later maybe (ilovy, blue john, GVR, WeGottman, Anton (forge), etc..)

Clarence Iron

Fan of margaritas and pineapple flavored stuff. Does not rock with the artificial things, though.

Also has a mild allergy to pineapples (mouth goes slightly numb) but he doesn't care.

Insane spice tolerance too.. would def outlast anyone in a korean noodle competition, even Clovis (hc Clovis has decent spice tolerance).

Doesn't like closing his eyes in the shower. that one Horse image iykyk

Would prefer flip-phones over modern ones

Would get canceled on social media (if he used it) for being right

Loves dogs. specifically Dachshunds and Beagles

Sun-bathes 100%

Floppy disk enthusiast

Has an absolutely WRETCHED computer that is on fucking life support and everyone begs him to get a new one. It sounds like a wind turbine

Great with long-term memory stuff, absolutely shit in the moment however

Openly a fan of stuffed animals

Clovis Bealdhild

CHUFFING A FAT FLAG

On a real note he doesn't smoke often however when he does he really likes to indulge .. will go the extra mile to get nicer ones

^ Passed on this mannerism to Nash (even if she doesn't know it)

Knows how to use chopsticks rlly well

Big fan of Thai and Vietnamese food. On the flip-side he does not fw Greek food

Initially not very great with social cues, had to build up an understanding of them. Partially contributes to strangers viewing him as "stoic" when instead he's just really .#autistic .. Though I will say he's . ok I don't know how to explain this but he's outgoing except in the quiet sense. It's akin to those meme images where it's like "really excited (silent and/or neutral face)

Well-versed in languages, even if he can't speak in some, he's picked up on a variety of things from fixating on historical and linguistic books (also interested in anthropology). I would say if there were things similar in universe or if they existed in FS/DG that he would know Spanish, Latin, Hebrew, and Arabic (English + Meladze is a given).

And as for languages he can understand but can only speak broken parts of / typically won't attempt to speak: French and Portugese.

Likes specific puzzles. Very proficient at sudoku and word searches.

Can solve Rubik's cubes but he doesn't rlly like them all that much

Enjoys those maze balls where you have to maneuver them constantly to get the ball to its destination.

Otherwise he hates mazes and especially loathes being in them. Not because he's bad at navigation per se but I imagine there's just something that makes them displeasing 2 him.. maybe I'm projecting 2 hard

Noden

Would harbor a fugitive for an unspecified time in some circumstances unless it was something egregious. Mostly out of curiosity I think.

Generally desires interaction and holds profound interest/curiosity in spite of his hesitancy, especially since he isn't easy to reach.

Cracks knuckles really loudly. Not even to be obnoxious he just has weird hands

Big jacks and marbles fan.

Jock Stuart

Likes the word "pinnacle."

If there was something that was slightly more religious than agnostic I think he'd be that. Probably fond of absurdism.

Likes the look of ouija boards and pagan religion(s) artifacts, though he won't really dabble in it beyond just.. looking and admiring, I think.

Enjoys seeing people's shrines in their homes, respectful of all religions and similarly to last point likes seeing people's practices and their methods of devotion.

Lets out a very shrill / "girly" scream if u scare him hard enough

Does not fuck with grocery stores. Too bright

On a similar note probably has light sensitivity of some sort and might wear glasses on worser days

Play-fights / The kind of person who would rustle your hair or shove you lightly as a sign of affection/enjoyment

Black coffee enjoyer

Blue raspberry flavor enjoyer

Keeps his phone in the blue-light protection mode + dark mode + 9/10 will have the light percentage at 0

Has GAD

Previously addicted to energy drinks now he's (somewhat) normal and his fix is black coffee

Dry humor

Toa Zuku

This isn't to say his house/residency (if any/assuming) would be dirty but he would probably instinctually clean another person's house just . because. you know like that one friend at a sleepover who just decides to do your dishes at 3 am.

Bibliomaniac

Minstrel Bloxxer

Not a big fan of EDM music or anything hyper-techno. Willing to give it a go but it's not his preferred genre(s).

Of course ghosts exist in FS/DG lore but in the more "our world" sense he'd probably believe in them and would indulge in stereotypical "spooky stories."

Able to admire/understand fashion but he doesn't care to go all out for the most part

Has quite literally no romantic preference/limitation, I think he's comfortable with just about anyone gender wise regarding that. Slightly aromantic though

Has full on conversations in his sleep

Also a hard sleeper and snores loudly LMFAO.. Sleep apnea sufferer

Likes silent films + black and white ones

Amazing posture / Probably has the best spinal alignment and no neck pain compared to everyone else (looking at you Xigeris)

Finds soda to be downright disgusting. Mtn dew (equivalent) especially

^ Not a big fan of overly sweet stuff.. Savory >>

Would call memes "meh mays" (not maymays) probably

Nashatra Bealdhild

Secretly big fan of glittery gel pens. Not a unique thought but I just find it to be fun for her specifically

Probably not a new headcanon here either but has very pronounced eye-bags. Like. Intensely noticeable

Does not like waffles 🙏🙏

Chronic nail biter

Despises Christmas music since it seems to haunt her in particular in excess

Insanely bad at romance/negative charisma that somehow works. Her way of flirting is giving someone (cough: Eunoia) a really cool rock and then trying to awkwardly explain why / just move on as if she didn't. Just bring a rock in.

Has thalassophobia

Piggybacking off the Thalassophobia thing- If it were to be specifically tied to an event and not an oddly specific phobia, I'd say she'd possibly have fallen into a river or gone too far into the ocean and now she's like Urggh… Did not enjoy that lengthy ass boat-ride to get to Lesmosyne ill tell you that much

-Relatively okay with hugs but very bad at reciprocating them / just goes stiff usually

Physical appearance . I'd say she has broad shoulders, sleeper build.

Knows MMA but never finished learning it

Two defaults of hers are an insanely strong hook and violent round-house

^ By hook (unspecified left or right) I am in fact also saying she is ambidextrous- which also contributes to her being able to pull out items quickly + use them fast

EMDR therapy would scare the shit out of her

Leans more into abstract art compared to traditional styles. Eunoia likes her art 4 this

Xigeris

Kenophobia . Specifically just fear of large voids, not spaces (unless it's an abandoned mall or something)

Afa other fears I would say he isn't fond of severe thunderstorms, hurricanes or tornadoes. Not in the regular sense like . intense distress over the mere possibility

Severe acne + slight eczema. someone save this guys skin

Enjoys biology as far as subjects go.

^ Would actually excel in an academic setting if given the proper accommodations

Regularly has nightmares. Wakes up in a cold sweat on occasion

Would enjoy walking in parks and/or hiking . Rocks w/ the idea of picnics

Suffers from IED (disorder)

Enjoys folklore and holiday stuff. Especially the sillier/dumb kind . Whatever the in-universe equivalent of Santa, Leprechauns, Cupid would be.. so on

Fan of peppermint (candy+scent) and eucalyptus

Hesitant on this headcanon but if he had an accent it'd be . Vaguely like a Hungarian one

Restless leg syndrome

Dude would chow down on a black forest cake

[bunji-enthusiast]

nanashi anon reporting again, can I request a small scenario with nanashi and his gn! s/o cuddling in a rlly stormy night? (this can be either nsfw or sfw) 🧍🩷

Ooo alrighty!

(suggestive implications, but sfw nonetheless)

Shadows and wells, thunder and lightning. 

It all equates to a normal night, not anymore less as it is for the earth to be ravaged with adoration by the stormy clouds, in spite of every bit of scarring and wounds. How loved is Mother Earth for her children to heal her, he finds himself envious of these proclamations, nature endowed him with reality otherwise. 

Silent, calm, and ready to enrage.

I envy you, my deity. 

Nanashi finds himself bare for the first time in a while, he is dressed appropriately within the darkness. The swordsman doesn’t find any embarrassment welling in his chest, in short closeness and proximity it was only you. Your hand laid tenderly upon his back, tracing through each crevice and valley of memories, you were completely astounded that you could admire him in such a way. 

“Nanashi..” You murmured, finding your face flushed as your hand settled unto the very scars that marked his descent, a fall that had long past had been gotten over. “How do they feel now?” You asked, voice wavering with hesitance—perhaps it was silly to question. 

He pauses, then moves so little it almost scares you. A quiet sigh is heard, as if he were contemplating the way he would answer. You wait, thundering roaring in the encompassing silence that created a dear pause that allowed you both to take a breath you dare not breathe should the other be scared away. 

“They ache.” Nanashi says finally, a moment passes as he takes in the feeling of your touch upon his burning skin. “But it doesn’t hurt me any longer.”

“I see.” You replied with careful nonchalance, still a little amazed with how faded the scars were as if they were there for the longest time (well, they were). This situation still felt far too delicate, like something being presented to you that you were not meant to set your eyes upon just yet. 

You languidly lifted your fingers, ghosting the felt of his skin. Nanashi could feel goosebumps and shivers following in the wake of your touch; cold, hot, nothing and forever throughout time. He wondered how far you’d stray with those gentle hands of yours, triaging into endless memories of battles and dishonored enemies.

Though you tried to suppress it, a small smile betrayed your demeanor. You were glad that Nanashi could not set his eyes onto you from where he sat, you dare not stray from your position. 

Like each and every touch, it sears and burns. So cold all at once as well, so longingly you had traced the muscle of his back all the way to the right where the nape of his neck starts. You could hear his breath hitch as you began applying pressure, your finger trailing over the nape, eliciting even more shivers from your touch. “Sensitive?”

“Yes.” Nanashi replied simply, shaking his head to compose himself. 

You waited for a moment, then took the action of actually kissing the nape of his neck. Which had surprised Nanashi, but not as much as any other time, your affectionate gestures brought him peace. Something he had always wished for, and he had hoped you’d never stop. 

You leaned forward, lifting both your arms and wrapping around the broad frame of his being. Closing your eyes as you rested your head in the crook of his shoulder, right in the inset between the muscle bone and his neck. 

Hearing the content sigh from you was alleviating to the swordsman, letting him rest his eyes as they came to a close. 

So high, and yet so far. Yet it was only minutes ago, thunder roaring for all those awake and asleep to hear. He wonders how long and in between that he needed to fall asleep, though he could consider that answer later.

[nebulacollege]

hello!! I love yalls twst stuff and I'm rlly excited to see/learn more about these ocs!! would you be able to give maybe a rundown on which characters are in which house and why? or maybe a general explanation on how the houses work in this college :0

Thank you very much for liking our twst stuff and for your interest in these boys! <3 And thank you very much for reading the info post about them! Fighting with tumblr to make it work was exhausting, and it’s still not going to work in the app after all orz I’ll add some of these facts to the info page later, but for this reply I can write much more than what I’m going to say there.

Now to your question. Each of the characters are were made to “represent” their corresponding house, to somewhat be the embodiment of the animal, so they go like this:

Niall is in the Unicorn house;

Ned is in the Dragon house;

Edmund is in the Raven house,

Liam is in the Snake house.

The houses group boys based on their personal qualities, but, ofc, there are no strict rules as which factors will definitely put you in one of the houses.

The Unicorn house is known for its dazzling, charismatic students with a strong tendency for leadership. They are determined, strong-willed, and often arrogant to an extent. They’re good at dealing with social issues, people in general, and can manipulate both people and the information they have as well. Still, despite being natural leaders, they have to have a sense of community and know how to form alliances.

They have good manners, good style, and overall have a high-society aura around them. Members of the royal families usually end up in this house. Because of that, it is considered the most prestigious (and rich lol) of the houses.

The Dragon house is the next in line in terms of being prestigious. Students there are loud, impulsive, have a very big “presence” whenever they’re around, while still being surprisingly responsible and well-behaved. They’re good and strategy and tactics, and have the best results in sports out of the bunch because of their good organizing abilities and discipline. They have their own order inside the house and dormitory, so they tend to work on the “survival of the fittest” principle. Just like Unicorn students, they are very proud, so they’re not ready to listen to just everyone, so they sometimes have conflicts inside their house in spite of their strong sense of unity. You have to deserve their respect to be... well, respected. On the negative side, they are quite greedy, loud, as I’ve said, and slow.

The Raven house is both the opposite of the Unicorn house, yet at the same time they’re the ones they cooperate with the most. Students of the Raven house are quiet and just don’t seem all that remarkable. They’re the first to react to different events, but the most “useless” in terms of solving things. The least ambitious of the bunch, they are rather perceptive, know a lot of rumors and information, good at making suggestions and predicting future outcomes, but at the same time secretive and not very talkative with other houses. Nobody really knows what they think, so they’re the creepy ones and the “freaks”, although not in such a harsh manner as one might think. They’re here to just do their job silently, or to complain a lot and still do their job lol If the Unicorn house can be considered the facade of the society, these students are the underground part of it. Metaphorically, that is.

The Snake students are also quiet, but their presence is much more prominent than that of the Raven students. They’re perfect on the surface level, but are ready to take any means necessary to achieve their goals without being caught. They seem perfect from the outside, but students from this house have the strongest sense of individuality. They’re cautious and ready to give way to others just to be safe and sure, they’re not the ones to rush anywhere without thinking. They’re careful, and a little bit slow in order to process events around them accordingly and to take the best possible route.

Phew, I think so far that’s enough lol

[kiwikiswia]

hey @9617saphs totally didn't forget about this but, sighs

first of all, *them (blasts you with spelling mistake gif)

second of all, you SHOULD'VE TELL ME THIS IN THE ASKBOX dumba dumma I literally just found this from scrolling the tags of the post (i don't usually check activities <- scared) and found out you rb'ed my post which i'm sorry for noticing it late but then again you should've send this to my ask it's literally an ask game!!!! dum

(/lh /nm at the fullest i hope the way i word it kinda funny/unserious makes me actually sound not mad at all, I just feel like this funny)

anyway back to the answer,

I actually kinda expect someone will ask this 😭but at the same time I have to thought of the answers like "how do I make you know that this character mean so so much to me" since wooooords are hard and idk if anything I say is comprehensible to people but aight I'll try.

ok what was the questions aga- okay.

long post ahead whoops!

1.) How do I feel about this character?

short answer, I have uncountable arts and comics ideas about them what do you think i feel about this character

long answer,

the "they look cool but tf is that goofy ass hair tie brah is that a feather duster 😭" -> "grumpy cold freak /neu" -> "wait actually. I need to learn more about them" (no reason, but full of spite and curiosity) -> "FFUCKCKFUFUXKCUDK WHY ARE YOU SO COMPLICATED" (trying to figure things out) -> "ough this is not normal I'm not normal actually. /pos" -> "self projection beam go" pipeline.

can a character I used to mock on turn into character I've written and theorized on a lot? Into a character I self project onto? apparently engel from the hit game pk2 can do this to me, and as one of the most mysterious character in the game engel gave me so much headache long time ago it's making me insane (still am) but worth it! but I can't escape now! i might be forever staying in this regalle hellhole! wow!

2.) /r pair you like of this character

Need I Say Anything next question

3.) /non r pair you like of this character

the above answer goes too here actually. i've ever mentioned somewhere they're like. a secret fourth thing to me. their love is something incomprehensible to the world it *can't* be classified as merely and only romantic. sure it can be seen as such but I don't rlly want to strict the two's relationship under a status.

but for other answers is of course the other two of the main 4, leif and especially evelynne

don't get me wrong I do am insane more about zefirengel and the writing I have about their dynamic is a lot more (yes i'm biased thanks to the past me and how I want to bring back that old spite. sorz), but

never forget that evelynne is canonically the only person in regalle that engel has positive relationship with. they're friends and lynne mentioned engel helped her since the early days she became a merchant and said multiple times they're nice despite that cold cover of theirs. how'd they get along in the first place? that's the question. there's so SO many things I thought of about their friendship story and her perspective prove a thing that engel isn't always a very quiet cold and meanie person and can be soft and nice if you actually get them right.

(though smth to note I see them as queerplatonic. I think lynne would shriveled up if she found out she's in a romance with someone for a second and. idk they fit better as that honestly I don't think they understand romance or want to aha)

and leif. goodness. if they interact more perhaps prism may fall into apocalypse they're too powerful. they could be a good student-mentor duo. Leif called them "librarian friend" and I believe he would ask for guidance to engel despite already have gwynelle. engel too would admire his bravery and determination to help everyone and just being so friendly with anyone. how's he's just. a contrast with the so-called arrogant and strict aegles. I can list MANY similarities they have esp like. their mindset. actually If i have to list what things are the main 4 share the same it would be uncountable since each second passes I would thought of a thing then another.

OH AND DON'T FORGET GRETTA THEIR SO-CALLED SISTER i can't even say anything here it would be a lot LOT. God what are you two hiding. what are your motives to hide on places? what. what. what. wh

engel why are you such a complicated character (i AM the one making it complicated) (i give too much a fuck)

4.) unpopular opinion of said character

bitches who call them librarian aegle version of peanut pk1 needs to be executed

(this one is [mostly] for me ->) also people mostly thought they're mean and "annoying" or just see them like "ok sure you exist but you're kinda nothing with that grumpy personality", which I get people see it that way esp when you aren't into the game deeply but you've got to know there's more than that about them and once you learned atleast their origins you realized you can make things up, interpret how they are this and that and how they act that and this, it was so much fun to figure out how their actual personality blend with the others. you can actually have so much fun with them considering the many things about them unrevealed. truly the character to self project onto. it's fun.

5.) what you wish happened to this character in canon (?? smth smth around this I forgot)

grabs kurechii devs' shoulders. hey.

I know they really just seem really want to stay distance and unbothered by the people in regalle but. c'mon. can you develop more interactions of the main 4 with each other. I promise I know how to get it right I can help you I can give you ideas. more things about gretta and engel please. where could this engel enthusiast get other sources to learn about them. hey. can you still make them able to befriend others despite have to stayed mysterious. do I have to stay making things up forever like this. hey. hey. are you really gonna make them stay mysterious forever. that would be so bad you know. hey. can zefirengel become the 2nd sapphic rep of this game. why did you make them terrible. can they be more developed actually whether it's onto the healthy yuri or toxic yuri or tension yuri lead but can you not just left them like that. hey. h

.

ok that's all for now props if you read all that and idk if what I'm explaining is accidentally out of topic or I fully don't answer what the question asked aka I go off with what the question asked or. I actually just yap nonsense or nothing at all but idrc at this point i. certainly talk about things. and. I think my brain's fried from typing all of this. have this little doodle okay bye

[mochinon-yah]

AJDSJKSKKS HI HELLO SORRY MOCHI I JUST SAW THIS NOW PLS EXCUSE MY HAREBRAIN

ahem

man i just got off my break like a week ago hhhhh, but i can relate to being lazy and videogaming lol fdkjskj (me with acnh and genshin coughs) but my sleep schedule is considerably better? i have to wake up early on weekdays bc of my kid brother sadly smh and i spite him for it pretty sure college students are more stressed

JkeKJF THANKIES!! tbh i kind of just kept my bday private for a smaller group of friends (that includes you btw) + my boyfriend, but yea me being 20 isn't much different from being 18 lol. you rlly don't feel different until you hit 30 coughs anyway i return the headpaps and hugs mweeheheh >:D

istg my bf is just like albedo (but make him emo), cuz like he always struck me as the kind of person who will try to out-compliment you but at the same time is genuine? if that makes sense? EHFfdkskSKJFD but yea he's a sweetheart hehehe yes its real healthy couples do exist and i feel like a unicorn

anywayyyy yea i can name a lot of times where people can't catch onto my body language and i do that as well. like a simple question is fine if someone needs to get somewhere, but if it's someone i don't like i'll make it obvious. in general, if i don't know someone very well, i'll kind of just like veer away from them while giving them a dead stare- (and they still don't get the hint or are insanely blind to social cues)

NO CUZ THATS SO REAL?? if i get into a book, then it's usually because of a fanfic or some other form of media?? kind of like the acotar series i wanted to get into but like hesitant cuz i don't know if it's spicy ;3;

andd headpaps accepted nyehehehe

LMAOOO IT'S OKAY THO, NO WORRIES VIVI!! I woke up so suddenly so idk if i can answer this ask with the right mind 😭😭 sorry if there are soem typos or whatever grammatically wrong things lol

Hdjsjsjs a break will literally activates my lazy mode, and i swear i will get so, so lazy it would probably make you wonder why am i even still ali- *cough* anyway, thank god, your sleeping schedule is much better than mine 🥹👍👍 your lil brother is such a menace but i guess helpful too lmao

And YAAA, NO PROB VIVI :3 last birthday of mine was kinda quiet because only some people remembered lol. Then again, i'm a really quiet person irl, i doubt anybody would remember it- okay, this just turns so sour??? I'm gonna stop talking abt it jdjwkiekwk

I'm part of your smaller group of friends? 🥺👉👈 awwhhhh, you're making me blush- (i'm weak to words like that wth, no guys i do have friends too irl, i'm not a loner 😭) BUT LMAO YEAH, I AGREE WITH 'you rlly don't feel different until you hit 30'. Well, i haven't hit 30 yet, but i guess the only different thing would be that you can say you're old now- /jjj

(LMAO I FELL ASLEEP WHILE ANSWERING THIS.... anyway, back to answering vivi's ask :3)

Imagining emo! bedo and you with the dynamic of emo but cute x cute and cuter is so jdnsjkska 😭 i understand why you would feel like a unicorn even in ur own relationship.... for me, i feel like the side character who just saw the main character fall in love with each other lol

BUT LIKE AAAA SO CUTE, YOU AND HIM ARE SO CUTE TOGETHER?????

*cough* anyway-

People should really be attentive to other ppl ☝️ at least they should know if they're making it uncomfy for other ppl. But err, for me personally, i don't mind people gathering close to me, buuuttt it's possibly because of my friends since all of them are a lot, lot more sociable than me hahhaahaha- honestly, they often told me to talk more with people so i can know the latest gossip and just overall have many friends, but i really can't 😭😭 friendship with me is like the slow build-up but overall genuine one, or at least that's what i think....?

But ngl tumblr has help me a lot to be more expressive in public and just overall making me more sociable than in the past <3 i won't thank the tumblr app itself because the one who made me this way now is literally myself and also a whole bunch of amazing people i had met here, including youu!!! <3 whether you and them help me directly by interacting or just endulging in my silly behavior, ily all ueyehhewh (just gonna tag some ppl here teehe -> @beloved-brynn, @meimeimeirin, @leftdestiny-posts, @fishanonishere, @navxry, @calxlu (you) ♡ ily all, all of u are just so amazing, idk what i even did to meet u all, literally so happy if we ever talk or interact here <3)

OKAY 🤚 THE VIBE IS GETTING A BIT MORE.... UN-SILLY, SO UHHH MOVING ON TO THE NEXT BIT-

Fanfic literally runs half of the fandom, and that fandom could be anything lmao. Well, not really half, but a significant amount! I think memes also run a significant amount of keeping the fandom alive too lol

BUT YEAH, I ENDED UP BUYING PRIDE AND PREJUDICE, RIGHT? AND NOW I'M LIKE... "hm, what in the world is this word? who is talking in this part?? what is even happening-" jkjk, my vocabs is kinda limited since i'm not a native english speaker, but i do understand most of what the book is actually explaining

AND YAAYYY MY HEADPATS ARE ACCEPTED <3

[yutamayo]

my tags:

@chiarrara tags:

Reblogging bc we popping these HC out loud babe let the world hear

OMFFGG Yes I def feel u on the growing out hair when he left home! He probs went to jjkhigh super early like 15 I think his childhood was probs rlly boring and semi-restricted BC he was so used to being polite/demure? Geto was playful but kept the reins on Gojo but I think tbh being with Gojo is the first time he allowed himself to be silly 🥲 it just builds another level of their relationship cus I feel Gojo's extremes made Geto more comfortable with playing around which means he probs didn't do that at home.

ESPECIALLY now that I think ab it even when he kept quiet ab how sick eating curses made him and hid his depression omg hiding ur pain is smthn that one learns super young, especially to that extent. Like that's some internalization shit he kept on putting on a smile when he was going thru the most...

Plus the fact that he went home & killed his parents first lol. Like I don't think they were super shitty or anything given their bodies werent found, I feel if he hated them he'd probs just kersplash n leave the remains where they landed lmfao idk maybe he was being as respectful/polite as his mind & new morals would allow him, given they raised him maybe that was like the most he would thank them? Not even burying them lol just probs tossing em somewhere unfindable like the ocean 😂 somewhere not too far out of his way to the crepe restaurant.

Which means child Geto was probs not all pouty n frowny like Megumi, or wild like Yuji, or salty and bold like Gojo, or physically traumatic like his daughters.

Suguru was probs just composed, and polite, and restricted, and performative. Which is so. Fucking. Sad. That's not a childhood damn he probs got told not to speak too loud or make a mess or smthn 😭 he probs said please and thank you for Everything because that's what he was supposed to do. Even when he was having his mental breakdowns in premature death he kept repeating in his head that he had to follow the rules and do his duty as a jujutsu sorcerer like this guys childhood was probably repressed as hell.

Which might speak even more to why Gojo was so shocked that Suguru hid all the signs of mental illness as Gojo was used to saying what he meant and getting away with it.

Omfg why is my brain thinking this adds another layer to the KFC breakup when Geto asks if he's "the strongest bc he's Gojo or if he's Gojo bc he's the strongest" bc I still don't rlly get the question but I always thought over how those two defined the concept of strong. And maybe being bold & loud & speaking out was something Suguru thought was strength too. Like some kind of spiteful unconscious dig at Gojo for being priveleged enough to go for what he wants. How Geto had to make such an insane move and moral choice and go to the extremes to finally Take What He Wants.

Idk lol it's 3:45am and I'm manic slipping in HC central lol what do u think? Or anyone lmao

Wait a second...

I'm taking in that out of our main faves/important characters the only JJK bitch we've never seen any kind of child visual of is Geto (and Nanami I guess but tbh I don't think he was ever a child fr came out his momma with eyebags and a tie). But like. Genuinely fucking wounded right now realizing I've never ever ever seen Suguru Geto as a kid. What did he look like? Was he tall?? Was he short like Megumi? Did he always have long hair? How often did he wear it down?? What did his smile look like??? Was it wide and care-free???? Did he close his eyes and furrow his brow like he always does when he's really smiling??

Who was he?

Who was he as a child?

[actualbird]

tot ao3 fic recs part 5: character studies or just any fic that made me go, "damn, author knows/interprets this character AMAZINGLY!!!"

previous tot fic recs post can be found at the very bottom of my tot masterlist

these are fave fics ive read that made me further Understand the tot character in question, that opened my eyes or delved deeper into an already visible trait, that well and truly studied tot characters like a bugs under a microscope (affectionate).

all 6 fics here feature no ships and are completed

---

it waits for you by quarterweeb

“I hope you liked the city; it’s a favorite of mine.” Artem nodded, and the old woman smiled indulgently. “Did you visit Vienna, too?” - Inspired by Billy Joel's "Vienna."

focus on artem, outsider pov

this fic is the most recent one on this list that i read and oh my god, it made me actually cry. real tears, yo. in the span of 1.5k words, artem wing was gently pried open and told the exact kindness he NEEDS to hear and also will have the MOST trouble believing. the prose here is so like, beautifully simple, just an everyday conversation that can happen to any of us. but then there are lines of dialog that happen that artem is never gonna forget.

and also im never gonna forget a very specific line here. it's been etched into my BRAIN. i wont spoil it tho, GO READ THIS! ESP IF UR AN ARTEM ENJOYER!!!

---

artblock by quarterweeb

There’s the sound of some slapping, and then a switch flicks on. Cody blinks against the light, although it’s still kinda dim. The whole hallway looks...gross. It looks gross! The walls and the floors are just gray-brown concrete with little posters and stuff hung up to make it look less like a jail. In front of him is a guy with normal clothes on and dog tags. “You look like an asshole,” Cody says, because it's true and his parents aren’t around. - Cody Teller is locked in the depths of the Stellis Art Gallery, when some random guy comes out of nowhere to help him out.

focus on marius, outsider pov

yo, i think quarterweeb is a master of outsider pov by this point. this is another one of her fics and it's SO DELIGHTFUL!! LITTLE KID POV and thru this pov the fic takes us thru this like, rlly sincere snapshot of who marius is when hes connected over something he loves: art. thru just the interaction in here, a very clear understanding of marius shines thru even if the fic isnt going too "deep" so to speak.

all in all, this is funny and very earnest read!!

---

Two Degrees (of Separation) by samandspam

“... After all, I have two doctorate degrees, whereas Artem has only one.” Sure, he only had a doctorate in law, but he had managed to pass an exam that had a one percent pass rate with flying colors. He may have the patience and goodwill of a saint, but Neil and Celestine had honed on his subtle pettiness. But such was the saying: you should always lookout for the quiet ones. or alternatively: Artem is a petty guy who does not take lightly to being called out without reason.

focus on artem, comedy

who says character studies have to be "serious" all the time? not sam cuz this fic is a frigging HOOT. showcases an artem wing that, under what many think is a wooden sign that says No Fun Allowed, is a person who actually is Very Fun Allowed (Because Of Spite). sam is super great at taking what you "expect" a character to do and then turning that on its head in a way that still completely fits, and that specialty is v much highlighted here!

v much recommend if you want something lighthearted!!

---

Penne for your thoughts? by samandspam

"If you really want to make a friend, go to someone’s house and eat with him... The people who give you their food give you their heart." — Cesar Chavez or alternatively: artem makes food for the nxx. a series of three (maybe four) drabbles where artem makes food for marius, vyn, and luke.

focus on all nxx boys, comedy, found family

i like to call this fic "i cant believe pasta counts as therapy!" kJBKJKFGS but rlly, this fic is the 2nd in a series where artem is rlly fucking good at making pasta and each chapter delves into each nxx boys' insecurities or feelings. and then those feelings r met with warmth and comfort and pasta. each chapter shows a rlly wonderful understanding of who the boys are thru what they fear and how to address those fears.

in this fic, you'll get a laugh and also maybe a cry if ur a repressed bastard like me who really kins luke, HAHA. deffo give this a read if u want to feel an ache in ur heart but then like, a hug after that.

---

Despite All Odds, It Seems I've Met My Match by sure_galena

Now that she’s facing him — and at a closer distance — Artem notices there’s something familiar about her eyes. He’s used to seeing them each time he looks in the mirror. “Who—” Artem clears his throat, trying to shove away the pinpricks of fear, the snake’s fangs beginning to poke at him. “Who are you?” The woman stops about a meter away from him, keeping a cautious distance between them. “Artemis Wing, senior attorney at Justitia Law Firm. And I’m inclined to ask you the same question.” * Or: after an NXX mission causes Artem to get transported into a parallel universe, he meets the genderbent counterparts of the NXX Investigation Team.

focus on artem, found family

man mAAANNNNN!!! this fic is such a huge fave of mine!!! the artem wing we know and love ends up in a universe where things r the same but Not Really. that in itself had me hooked but then galena goes the extra mile by using this fantastic premise as a way to make artem realize and confront his flaws and fears. that + some rlly cool plot + SO MUCH FOUND FAMILY FEEEELLLSSSSS //SOBS. artem's pov here is exquisite, it's got this solid/strict vibe in how he handles himself but also this like, looping and almost endless questioning of his faults as a person, IT'S SO GREAT TO READ!!!

artem enjoyers, check this fic out!!

---

In the end, all I hope for is to be a bit of warmth for you by sure_galena

When Vyn is away on a business trip and needs help with his plants, Luke (and the rest of the NXX crew) end up signing up for more than they thought they would

focus on luke, action, found family

nothing brings a team together than fighting a giant evil plant that vyn supposedly ordered!!! vyn, what the HELL?? but srsly, this fic is wonderful and i love it to bits. galena back at it again with a wonderfully absurd premise and then uses that premise to dissect character and this fic's victim is Luke Pearce. take it from me, self diagnosed luke pearce enthusiast, that this fic is incredible. be it through little quirks luke does with his phone contacts or how he strategizes a battle plan or the thoughts only us readers are privy to in his internal monolog, this fic delivers a LOVELY interpretation of who luke is. all the while telling a very entertaining and well paced story.

im pspspsppspss-ing luke enjoyers, come here, read this fic, it's great!!

---

if you enjoy these fics, make sure to support the story with a kudos, comment, and/or bookmark!!!! feedback is the best way to make an author happy :D

[masterwords]

Mortch anon is back! Could you write a drabble where Morgan and Hotch have crushes on each other and Hotch accidently slips that he loves him and they both are rlly quiet until Morgan says he loves him too.

Oh, Mortch anon, anything for you! <3 A soft little blurb that takes place at the end of the Roadkill (4x23) episode.

~1300 words

***

“Hotch, you're coming to dinner right?” JJ called, standing in the open door to the police station. He glanced up from the box he was stuffing with files and regarded the question seriously. He wasn't hungry, didn't feel like doing anything but lying down after the day he'd had but there was something about the way she looked at him, so optimistic and expectant and he couldn't help nodding.

“Yeah, I'll be there,” he replied in spite of himself. Morgan sauntered by JJ and walked out the door behind her, chatting quietly and Hotch went back to what he was doing. He shoved the lid on the box with one arm, using only minimal pressure with the other to settle it on tight. His shoulder ached, every movement pulling at his strained muscles. He looked up at the sound of footsteps behind him, felt a hand on his sore shoulder. Holding his breath, he closed his eyes, felt his heart flutter in his chest.

“Morgan?” Hotch asked, not bothering to turn around. He breathed deep, settled his heart back into rhythm, smiled to himself. “I thought you'd gone with the rest of the team.”

“And leave you here? No way, man. Come on, I'll give you a lift back.”

“I can drive,” Hotch protested, grabbing the box, screwing up his face at the strain on his shoulder and ribs. A hot shower was all he wanted in the world. Morgan shook his head adamantly.

“You wrecked your SUV, you're sure as hell not driving mine. I don't want that paperwork.”

Hotch rolled his eyes and lugged the banker box out the door, throwing them into the back of the SUV while Morgan chatted with Detective Quinn just outside of the doorway. They watched Hotch move and Morgan wondered at the way Hotch never let on how much pain he was really in. If it were him, he'd be having someone else haul the boxes, hell he'd already be back at the hotel, there was no reason anyone else couldn't handle that task but there was Hotch, always the last to finish the job. He used to find it irritating, now it was almost endearing in a charming but stupid sort of way. He wondered if Hotch had ever had an instinct for self-preservation in his life. Quinn put words to Morgan's thoughts, called Hotch one crazy sonofabitch, while in the same breath touting his bravery.

“I'd rather not need you again, but I'd ask your team back in a heartbeat,” Quinn muttered, striking his hand forward to shake Morgan's. Quinn watched the way Morgan was looking at Hotch, the look in his eye and shook his head, he remembered those days of workplace crushes well. It was a younger man's game, though, and these days all he wanted was a glass of whiskey and his television. “Good to meet you guys,” he said. “Enjoy dinner, have a safe flight home...I'm going to bed.”

The drive back was a half hour and Hotch did his best to relax into the passenger seat, letting his eyes drift shut as he watched the forest slip by the window in a blur of green and gold. He rubbed at his shoulder mindlessly, lost somewhere just outside a concussed nap. Morgan was talking about the case, he liked to get it off of his chest first thing, discuss what he thought they did well and what they could have improved, and Hotch listened to the debrief as intently as he was able but his mind kept wandering back to the pull of his muscles when the car went over a bump, the way his head felt too heavy on his shoulders. Morgan got to the point where he was no longer discussing the case but rather seeing Hotch's wrecked SUV on the side of the road and Hotch raised his hand, he didn't think he could bear to hear how Morgan felt about it – he wasn't in the head space for that, for being told he'd done something stupid and reckless, he knew.

“You did get checked out though, right?” Morgan asked, veering off of the original topic at Hotch's bequest. Hotch glared at him.

“I did,” he said, and elaborated no further. He'd let them give him a once over, but neglected to take the ride to the ER, figured he'd be better off just seeing his own doctor at home if he needed to. A few extra days wasn't going to kill him. Morgan moved on, back to the case, to Gill Bonner and JJ's conversation and finally Hotch was at his limit.

“Morgan,” Hotch grumbled. His eyes were closed against the pain that was increasing by the moment as his body relaxed and the adrenaline wore off. “I love you but please...shut up.”

Silence fell. It was awkward and thick silence, the kind that fills in all of the empty spaces and suffocates you slowly. Morgan stared straight ahead, eyes wide and on the road, taking every switchback turn with precision. He had been blindsided by Hotch's statement, trying to read between the lines, whether it was sarcastic or a slip or nothing at all. Hotch, to his credit, just pursed his lips and opened his eyes to stare out the window, take in the beauty of Oregon and wallow in his own misfortune. That anyone should be as stupid as he was...he couldn't believe it sometimes.

“I love you too,” Morgan announced, just threw it out there to see if it would stick. It couldn't get more awkward anyway. “Just...so you know. I guess.” The silence became deafening. Hotch stared hard out the window, scarcely breathing now.

Morgan pulled the car into the parking lot at the restaurant and both men got silently out and seated themselves nowhere near one another at the table. Dinner was raucous, par for the course after a case that ended with a rush of adrenaline and at least one victim saved. They had to take their wins where they could. Everyone decided they were going to head into the bar before going back to the hotel down the street for the night, but Hotch was done. He'd eaten to his fill and was ready to fall into bed.

“You're not coming?” Morgan asked, standing beside Hotch as he slowly pulled his jacket back on. Morgan reached up and helped, could see the way Hotch's stiff muscles protested every movement. Hotch shook his head.

“I'm ready to call it a night,” he muttered, forcing a smile. Morgan nodded, a little crestfallen. He wasn't sure what he'd been hoping for, but this was definitely not it. He started to turn around, to follow the team through the saloon doors into the bar when Hotch called out to him. “My back hurts...I could use a ride to the hotel. Or you could just give me your keys...”

“Not a chance,” Morgan replied, sauntering over to Hotch with a sly grin, more than a little confused by the turn of events but willing to see how this played out. He followed Hotch out to the SUV and drove in silence the three blocks between the restaurant and the hotel, not sure what Hotch's game was here. Sore or not there was no way he couldn't have just walked, and if this was his way of flirting, it left a lot to be desired. Still, Morgan found the awkwardness charming. He waited, watched as Hotch slowly eased himself out of the vehicle and walked around to Morgan's window.

“Quinn told me there's a spaghetti western marathon on tonight. I've got a six pack if you're interested?” he asked, and Morgan thrust the car into park and cut the ignition quickly, grinning. Sometimes saying stupid things paid off. The idea that he thought this was a payoff was absurd, he knew, and if he ever told Garcia about it she would laugh in his face but the heart wants what it wants.

“Are you asking me up to your room, Agent Hotchner?”

“I suppose I am,” was Hotch's response, and Morgan followed intently. He had no idea what the hell a spaghetti western was or what kind of beer Hotch drank, but as evenings went, he knew he could do a lot worse.

[afrival]

yoyo do you have any ameripan headcanons? currently thinking about them too much - 🐦

HI AGAIN 🐦, yes I ABSOLUTELY have some Ameripan is one of my favorite ships please I love them sm

no warnings

•=======================•

- Okay I am a firm believer in nerd/weeb Kiku

- He is absolutely a gamer please, and so is Alfred so it’s like PERFECT

- They love playing duo games together but at the same time will kick each other’s ass in Mario Kart

- As I said. Weeb Kiku. He and Alfred are def big anime enthusiasts (they’re favorite is attack on titan and I am projecting but I refuse to change it)

- So I mentioned in my RusAme hcs that Alfred is a big superhero movie fan (esp marvel), and I think Kiku would be too so they bond over that A LOT

- Essentially these mfs are the biggest geek couple like. My god

- And they’re both very smart so they will overnalayze any movie, anime, show, or game they consume together and it’s just so fun

- They’re dates are usually staying at home and ya know being dweebs, Kiku doesn’t like to go out in public that much

- Especially in really busy cities LMAO like American cities scare him lowkey

- He holds Alfreds hand whenever they’re in public bc it’s comforting but that is the absolute farthest he will go with initiating pda

- Kiku is a very firm believer in keeping relationships private so that’s like his main thing, but in private he gets rlly touchy LMAO

- Alfred likes visiting Kiku’s house whenever he needs to be somewhere quiet and peaceful

- They cook each other meals a lot but Kiku more so than Al, bc 1: Al loves Japanese food and 2: Kiku prefers his culture’s meals over Al’s PFFT

- Alfred is trying his best to learn Japanese and he knows a little bit but it’s nowhere near perfect

- Kiku is the only person Alfred will sit down and drink tea with bc he just likes spiting Arthur 😙

- Neither of them get jealous that easily, and they don’t feel the need to be protective bc they know the other can handle themselves in an uncomfortable situation

- Alfred is energetic as hell and always seems to be excited and that rubbed off on Kiku a little bit, like he just loosens up the more he’s around the mf and it’s so sweet LMAO

- Like Al in general just brings out the more “childish” side of Kiku, for example he gets VERY competitive during games and suddenly starts cursing just as much as Al does on a regular basis

- Alfred really likes spoiling Kiku on days like his bday, Valentine’s Day, Christmas, etc. Also any important cultural days in Japan he will gladly take part in

- Oh my god I just thought of smth— they listen to anime openings in the car. And they will sing along. Like they get TURNT during Crossing Field and Unravel

- Alfred is usually big spoon and Kiku little spoon however sometimes the dumbass just wants to be held and the other dumbass wants to hold so 🤷

- Obviously I’m a slut for ships where they’re best friends who are also dating, and that’s them in a nutshell. Like they do bestie shit but they got the bonuses of kissing and cuddles and whatever 😤❤️ they are so cute bye

I am absolutely thriving with these Hetalia requests keep em coming guys bc I have immense brainrot 😩

[miiiwu]

these r pretty common here but i love transmasc mike and vyvyan (i think mike would be more like stealth binary trans), transfemme genderfluid rick (tho transmasc rick is also fun), neil being like. plantgender/otherkin nonbinary and the secret fifth roommate being a complete agender enigma with no discernible agab are fun.

i tend to enjoy depictions that r more period + character/voice accurate though so i don't think they would use that exact terminology for it. but basically none of these bozos r cis

i love the idea of Vyv doing diyhrt and possibly his own top surgery (and maybe bottom surgery but he'd probably put like. dynamite in his penis or some shit so maybe he shouldn't be trusted w that kind of power lmao)

i feel like these r all pretty typical stuff other ppl have already said tho, so there's more original (and unhinged) stuff under the read more im so sorry lmao

uhmmmm ok more original stuff uhh i think rick has a brat taming kink/thing where he acts super annoying bc he subconsciously wants to get smacked around bc of some psychological shit about being a pampered upper middle class only child who nobody likes lol. maybe its actually a deep seated self loathing. he thought once he got to university ppl would like him and he'd become super popular, but it turns out he really is just annoying. its not that his peers from childhood were ignorant to his super deep intellectual ideas or whatever lol. i dunno im not a psychologist.

also i think he is both intimidated by and attracted to vyv (not projecting At All)

vyvyan grew up poor without a father figure (that we know of) and with a spiteful alcoholic mother so seeing rick take his parents + other privileges for granted makes him want to kick his ass. i love the idea that vyv and mike r childhood friends also, and mike sort of Was like a father in some ways despite being (presumably?) the same age as vyv. it explains why he’s the only flatmate vyv doesn’t physically hurt and makes it kinda cute when he calls him michael. 2 me

also i think vyv and rick have autism but their specific brands of autism clash with each other (one needs quiet, the other needs constant noise,, that sort of thing) and it drives them both crazy

and i think all 4 of them have some form of ADHD or other disorder that effects executive function bc that's the only way i can see them letting the house get that dirty 💀💀💀

also i think vyv absolutely gets off on humiliating rick but i don’t think he even realizes he’s getting off on it if u know what i mean (he'd never admit it to himself, bc that's 'girly' and gay!!!). like with the virgin sign (and presumably making him wear a t-shirt later too), its meant as typical vyv torment but also um. that whole incident was just gay sex. what do you mean you two shook the bed so hard it fell thru the ceiling um hello???

also i think all four flatmates of some flavor of gay/bi but have comphet/pretend to like girls way more than they rlly do. their masculinity (and by extension heterosexuality) is a performance. especially mike’s. tho tbf everything about mike is a performance. the cool person persona is fake as hell. obvs some of it is related to the implication that he’s somewhat involved in shady dealings (where tf did he get that gun, why was he the one to suggest robbing the bank, he literally tried to sell a nuke, paying off the dean of the college etc). And you know what? I'm starting to suspect Michael “Mike” The Cool Person isn't even his real name.

(also i think the fakeness of his cool guy persona is super interesting from a trans perspective)

neil is treated as the overworked unappreciated housewife/mother, while mikes the father everyone seeks the approval of, with vyv being the violent brother and rick being the socially conscious sister whose pigtails he tugs on (the bart and lisa of the flat lol) they’re basically the Nuclear Family in the form of 4 university students which i guess isn’t even headcanons anymore im just stating the actual intent of the show but im in too deep now and the gender politics of the young ones is interesting 2 me. despite featuring very few women characters i think lise mayer gave the scripts some Sauce.

neil consistently is forced into the traditional/stereotypical role of a woman in a lot of ways (including vyv oggling him in ricks dress) and as a result of this treatment (as well as probably an actual case of major depressive disorder imo) he repeatedly attempts suicide and/or threatens to do so as a cry for help. some of his attempts are so poorly executed it rlly does seem more like an ignored cry for help.

he's passive aggressive as hell, believes ridiculous stuff causes cancer and absolutely would fall for a pyramid scheme. just like a real mum! (feels so weird to type mum when you're american 😭 i feel like those ppl in 2012 who were like weebs for britain. teaboos💀)

neil to me is that one thing moms/mums sometimes do where they r all "omg I'm the only person who does anything in this house" while doing dishes and when u ask if they want help they say no but r like. sighing and sad about it. like perhaps they would like help but don't want to admit it or realize they could have asked this whole time but didn't and now feel embarrassed or ashamed by not realizing this sooner (not that the other guys would ever willingly help with cleaning). honestly i think neil likes wallowing in misery a little. idk

the line where he says he might as well be their mums and they reply that they at least *like* their mums, i don't buy that shit. Vyv has a strained relationship w his at best and you cannot convince me rick doesn't yell at his mum constantly. and mike for all we know could've been created in a government lab for all we know about his family+upbringing. i think they likely all love their mothers but i don't think they 'like' or respect them, and for this, neil really is the mum of the group no matter what the other 3 say >:3

there's probably more gender role stuff a way smarter and more qualified person could go into but that's all i have on that lol

ok back to regularly scheduled horny rivyan psychoanalysis

i think vyvyan's desire to become a doctor is partially rooted in his enjoyment of torturing small rodents (ie. SPG), and to him people are like. Big Rodents. and part of why he targets rick so often is because he reminds him of one (he is my precious rat boy). I've said this before somewhere but rick is like a prey animal to me.

uhmmm also i think if vyv came out as trans to rick he'd be super ignorant but outwardly go “oh yea transsexuality is so anarchic, right on! I dabble in a bit of transvesticism myself…” but he just really really really wants 2 know whats in vyvs pants 😭

and just wait until he does some reading and finds out about tdick and bottom surgery options. he'd probably keep avoiding eye contact but doing his gay little coquette shimmy every time they r in the same room and try to """subtly""" bring it up to him when he thinks mike and neil aren't listening lol

like “gulps is that your p-p-p-p-pussy vyvyan….” behavior.

i think some of vyv's aggression towards rick is just like. why dont i have a penis right now. i need 2 jackhammer this obnoxious twink somehow (oh no i'm projecting onto vyvyan i need to stop before this gets out of hand)

uh ok ok this isn't a headcanon but I'm obsessed with that one scene in Flood where they r all holding down neil to kill and eat him and he asks for a last cigarette and mike gets one for himself and rick instinctively lights it for him. Also in Cash when Mike and Vyv use Rick as a sofa um anyways um uhhh vyv phalloplasty/penis star tattoos/piercings goodnight everypony

what’re your favourite the young ones headcanons ? i need moreeeee