#in a notebook

[batwynn]

Sometimes I agonize and wonder late at night if my asshole aunt ever told my cousin that the main reason I didn’t finish college (outside of illness) and moved back to Maine was because she asked me to drop everything to come take care of him while she ran off to Arizona to hang out with her long distance rando boyfriend.

So I did. I was so sick but I dropped everything and moved so we could take care of him.

I dropped out of college one semester away from graduating, and we moved back to Maine, and made plans on how to take care of him, and made sure he could reconnect with his local friends and school. But then she changed her mind at the last fucking minute and tossed the kid on a plane all on his own for his first flight ever and when we protested and questioned this she threatened to have us arrested for kidnapping. Or that part of the reason she left the fucking state was the number of abuse reports piling up on her.

So like. Yeah. Probably didn’t mention any of that to him over the years. Or that the reason we lost contact originally was because she kept fielding my calls and starting shit when I wanted to talk to him. Do you think he knows that we dropped everything for him? That we always loved him, even later when he visited and pissed everyone off by riffling through everyone’s stuff and stole shit? Because teenagers gonna teenager. We gave up friends and school and a guaranteed job and everything to take care of him and be there for him because we love him and wanted good things for him, and she was the one who constantly went out of her way to fuck it all up. Or that the reason I didn’t want to stay in contact later was because our precious grandmother started doing the same bullshit and then started demanding I give him stuff that I use for my job as an artist and my only source or income? Because they just do that. They fuck everything up and hurt everyone in the process.

Does he know any of this?

Probably not.

My aunt, the word class liar that she is, probably made up some shit to make him think we cut him off for whatever reason. That it was our fault. Or even his fault.

And I’ll never really be able to tell him this. I’ve got all the screen shots from my conversations with her, but honestly… it won’t help him. Yeah, he’ll know we always loved him. But then he’ll have to look at the shit she would say about him. And the neglect. And the abuse. And the way she isolated him from all of us. But showing him her real face would just hurt him, and at this point all it would do is make things harder for him. And I don’t think I can do that to him. He’s had enough shit.

So I lay in bed at night thinking about it and how nothing will ever be fixed. He won’t ever know. She’ll get away with everything, just like she always does.

[natreads]

I have my first ever exam in a classroom in my six+ years of uni on monday (I always had home exams) and I am terrified, but at least it's open book (I say, realizing I have taken very few notes of my own and I didn't have a single book physically until now because I stress ordered two)

[k-she-rambles]

Anyway, headcanon that the reason Zelda's achieved some fame as a recipe author in totk is that Link actually isn't that creative of a cook. He has half a dozen recipes for every elixir or horse liniment and "horse liniment" you could name, but he doesn’t have the cooking instinct.

He's a good cook when a recipe is involved, but when he doesn't have a recipe he just makes kebabs or greens and mushrooms. Camp food. Satisfying food, but not stellar.

And Zelda knows how much Link enjoys good food.

So she teaches herself how to cook.

And because she's never half-assed a thing in her entire life she gets really good at it.

And because she loves the science of cooking, she starts writing recipes

And so now we have Zelda's recipes as valuable commodities in TOTK, all because Zelda wanted Link to have better food.

[purplepixel]

Pokemon

And I'm still there fyi I just have separate accounts 😉

The one fixation that has lasted my entire lifetime and will never leave me

what was your original fandom. like not the one you first started with on tumblr. the first bit of media that you made content for

[lookwhatijustfound-blog]

Notebook Paper Crochet Blanket

[ironshrikes]

check out the cowboy-wizard hat i made!

[bbugspray]

I love love love all the wall painting options, but this one really stuck w me

[aphel1on]

AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be

[exitwound]

“we look at the world once, in childhood. the rest is memory” miss louise glück you may be right but i’m also determined every day to prove you wrong & that i can look at the world again, anew, whenever i want & these rebirths, alongside love, are what keeps me here, more than any memory, but memories are more precious to me than everything except the present & the future, which is infinite, which is why i will keep looking

[dearlyjess]

my happy place

[zegalba]

Candace Hicks: "Notes of String Theory" (2022)

[obsob]

to be loved is to be held!!! print

[fuckyeahchinesefashion]

He is NOT the CEO of xiaohongshu lmao

The CEO of xiaohongshu is mao wenchao毛文超/Charlwin Mao, he and 瞿芳Qu Fang are the co-founders.

Actually this is a very good example of how western media casually 造谣 nonsense such as saying xiaohongshu (little red book) was named after mao zedong's quotebook lmao. Cnetizens be like:"OH we don't even know that ourselves""With such far-fetched talent and such a high level of political awareness, they could have taken the civil service exam"

The name Xiaohongshu MEANS popular shopping guide. Qu Fang and Mao Wenchao met when they were both in the U.S. shopping for goods. At that time, Mao Wenchao called his family in Wuhan and asked what goods he was bringing, and when Qu Fang heard the accent she felt very close to him, and the two of them got to know each other.

They are both business elites, passionate about entrepreneurship, and deeply sympathetic to the difficulties of nationals shopping overseas. The two founded Xiaohongshu in the hope that it would become a guide to overseas shopping for Chinese people. According to Qu Fang's interpretation of the words “red” and “book” at the time, the three words "Little Red Book” can be translated as ""very popular shopping guide''. It was launched in 2014 when the name is called “Hong Kong shopping guide” (Source)

[galina]

New year, new book

[nightofnostalgia]