#im tryna do all the colors of the rainbow

[moonysfavoritetoast]

Cosmo quesiton where do you buy kandi im tryna g et into it :<<<

And i mean like

The kandi beads

i’ve gotten bags in bulk off of amazon and at joanns

you get more on amazon tho i think

as for cases ik my main rainbow one is off amazon

this is the first one i got, for chrismas ^^

i got two bigger cases for my birthday

this is the main one i’ve been using since birthday

i’ve used these mostly for cuffs ^ but the lid doesn’t properly close cuz it doesn’t have. like the close thingys yk

the stuff i got for christmas came with letters but those are easy to find anyway without sets

and then the string most people use is cloth covered cord bc it doesn’t dry rot :3

this is the string ^ i got what i’m currently using at joanns but this is the same

ive also gotten beads at michael’s but overall its all the same stuff :3

other than that i just go on amazon and look for whatever i need like letter beads, certain colors of pony beads, and stuff like that

you can also get beads in bulk per color for CHEAP on beadtin :3 i haven’t ordered from there yet but im going to because i need a bunch of beads for a project im doing soon :3

[blushingreid]

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[pinkypromiseplaylists]

playlist masterpost to pass the time :)

a dip in my daydream - dreamy songs for when you can’t go to sleep but you don’t want the night to end and you feel like you’re floating so you lay on your bed and the ceiling starts to spin 

a is for angst - very very very angsty songs

and i love ya baby - emo pop punk stuff ??

and the livins easy - were your parents grungy teens in the 90s ? then this playlist is for you and your nostalgia

angry girls club - songs for girls with anger issues that need to scream and kick stuff sometimes

a quarter for the jukebox - songs for your slow dance in a 50s themed diner

aurora borealis - songs for when you’re sad but you’re a highway away from home and you know you won’t make it through the drive without crying but all you can think about is getting home to the safety of your room

baby blue - blue bedroom pop

blueberry eyes - meadow music for cherry pies and picnics with your friends

breezy - songs for warm summer road trips with the windows down

buzzcuts season - songs for post apocalyptic teens

carpet burn - songs that remind of amy winehouse’s eyeliner

coffee brown curls - songs for your 2 am slow dancing in the kitchen moment

crystalline - songs that remind of the rainbow of colors that come out of a crystal when the sun shines through it just right

delicate - paper-thin songs that sound as fragile and as gentle as moth wings

dont be shy - big and loud songs to be big and loud to 

earth girls are easy - space songs that would play in a diner on mars

eyes like rain - absolutely heart wrenching songs that can floor me and have me crying in 15 seconds

floating down the street - songs for when the sun is setting and you feel like floating down the road like a leaf in a stream

happy frog emoji - happy songs with happy vibes and happy feelings

i might be dreaming - dreamy songs that make me feel like im in a fairy tale where nothing can go wrong

IMPOSTERSYNDROME - emo teen vibes but aged like a fin wine

just tryna play it cool - songs that remind me of casey and izzie’s dance scene in atypical

koala corsage - songs for the 80s prom we all wish we had

krovvy - songs that would play in my murder montage if i was in american psycho instead of christian bale. alternatively, songs that would play if i was the main character getting killed in the season finale

language of averted eyes - songs that sound like sad boys crying

lava lamps - bedroom pop to dance around to knowing no one is watching

liability - songs for your indie coming of age film full of parking lot shopping carts, sneaking out, and having fun

loser girls - Cool Girl music that makes me feel fucking lame and wish my life was more exciting

love, theoretically - these love songs make love sound so so so so so nice , in theory

lovers as sad as you - songs for the sad slow dance

midnight low - songs for the neutral night drive

midnight mania - high energy songs for your manic night drive

my angel baby - love songs about adoration and lovely things

original sin - songs that have no business being so hot ! like wow the vocals are ungodly

pink bubblegum - songs for going to the fair with your high school crush and getting icecream and fries after school

pretty are the simple few - songs for happy dances in the kitchen at 2 in the morning. maybe with your cat or dog or maybe with the love of your life or maybe with your best friend

reeling through the midnight streets - songs for your night time commute when time doesn’t feel real and the taillights of passing cars are all blurring together and the oncoming cars blind you a little bit

sanctuary - songs that remind me of old churches and staues of angels covered in moss and ivy and graveyards at night

shes a mani(a)c - manic songs for manic girls

slow dance to rock music - songs to slow dance to with your edgy rock n roll babe

slow dancing with ghosts - songs that remind me of that scene in the haunting of hill house where nelly thinks shes dancing with her husband but really hes dead and the house is just haunted and its all in her head

spiral staircases and winding halls - classical songs for studying and pretenting that you’re a regency era scholar studying in a library centuries older than you

summer lovin - soundtrack to your summer fling

swimming pools of sadness - sad songs for being sad

the codeine scene - songs that make me feel like a chain smoker even though the closest i get to breathing in smoke is smudging my room every now and then

theres comfort - songs that give me the same enveloping feeling of comfort as sitting at the bottom of a swimming pool at night when the only light around is coming from the underwater lamps

the weight of something - songs for when you look out of the window in your room and everything is illuminated by the moonlight and you know theres billions of people in the worlds but this moment feels so uniquely yours and theres this huge weight on your chest because the universe is so big and your whole life is in the palm of your hands and you can do anything you want but its 2 am and all you really wanna do is go back to sleep

we could be heroes - songs that make me feel infinite and evoke the same feeling as the tunnel scene in the perks of being a wallflower

we felt the rush - songs that are hot hot hot

where the moonlight lit your face - songs for looking out of the window in your room and admiring how everything looks under the moonlight

[crackcrocs]

DEATH WILL ONLY BE THE BEGINNING #3

3. Transformation Central

the entities of my personalities would like to come together in one voice that speaks through me, we or I call this collection of words from the mustiest corners of my brain to this note page to voice something that might come close to what I feel underneath the skin I wear. In all my unorganised words- I might even go as far as to call this a poem, titled:

‘TRANSFORMATION CENTRAL’

sub characters in my head would appreciate if this could be visualised & understood through as deep a lens as humanly possible. even I confuse myself so if you can decode or relate to any of this, wonderful. If not, I’m locked in my own mind, swallowed the keys to my soul.

SIMILARITIES & INTERCONNECTEDNESS BETWEEN HUMAN & PLANT CONSCIOUSNESS EXIST! if you look closely at my nose freckles you’ll see the resemblance of the constellations above. if you look at the human veins & the layout of a tree, this is further proof.

{VISUALS THROUGH A SEPIA WINDOW STARING @ THE AUTUMN LEAFS; IMAGINING THE SEEDS UNDERNEATH, THROUGH NUMB ROOT VESSELS THAT PERMEATE THROUGH EVERY MEMBRANE OF MY EXTERNAL TO INTERNAL ENVIRONMENT}

~FEATURING THE VICIOUS CYCLE OF DEPRESSION & PERFECTIONISM.

here goes:

What is this part of my mind ?

If you want; delve inside-

I may look sweet like Alice,

but underneath it all

I deteste looking in the mirror

-cos I see the mad hatter.

my inner child needs a platter-

full of care not distortion & abuse pls.

less fibbin would’ve been a breeze.

now following the dead fish in the stream!

HOW on EARTH do I fit with the cod & the Haddock?

I’m the rainbow fish- beat & battered.

dim my own light cos I’m too afraid to shine.

alone.

thieves tried to steal my shiny scales.

I sat and watched them grow.

In the sea realm they were mean gargantuan selfish whales, with poisonous shark fangs & alligator tails. scorpion hands. (gremlins)

and still they make me feel like the alien-

I cant take it.

Make it make sense ?

I can’t.

controller in my hand-

Off balance stance.  

anxiously I move round like a wobbly jelly.

where’s the button to balance my chi & shut out the ego ?

the teLLIE telling lies to our vision!

change the channel aura terracotta orange- daily dosage of vitamin D & C.

catch me sun gazing by the sea

head buzzin like a bee.

speaking from a dusty box

stuck on top of a forbidden shelf

cos I dunno how else.

I’m tryna delve deep but forgot how to dive

How can i visualise? scenery foggy-

the establishment man with the glue gun got me xD

inner monk burning but at peace

Cos I refuse to believe

If the only way is the American dream

Interconnected; like the frog in science -let’s dissect it!

down to every floating atom spirit neighbouring your door

subcategories & divisions, it’s more!

than the rich and the poor -prism that’s been built

do we all feel like a performance monkey on stilts?

will my data be extracted & used to mould a robots personality some day?

well obviously not.

does the price of our lives all amount down to slave ways?

LABOUR YAY!

but morals & values it seems we’ve forgot.

sO If i don’t speak its cos I’m lost.

or maybe i’m enlightened-

Standing at the edge of the porch;

watching TRYING to understand how the flowers grow.

questioning eVERYTHING man made!

I’ve stepped out of the perfect picture frame

I can see the coal pollute the sky

I need to hop on the train-

but I’m comfortable

Sunset to sunrise statue standing still.

what’s the ingredients to life’s yucky pie?

I’ve exceeded mental lotteries.

Sanity n universal peace would be a trophy.

TIL then I’ll be crafting & shaping a solid pottery reality,

with a few pence, gum, and a bandana of belongings tied to stick.

thinking one day I’ll be laying the bricks

& building a kingdom of bliss.

guess for now I’ll use the intricate delicate materials in my tool box- that’s all I’ve got.

might have a long way- maybe worth a shot.

I observe, cruisin in the sky.

dunno why..

I jus look @ the hills.

Only time & history reveals.

no thanks mr men-

I don’t want your prescription pills.

there’s enough propaganda as it is.

I won’t jump on the merry go round-

til my core trusts & envisions we’ll actually feel safe!

I don’t want to take part in this faux fur, sweet nothings & a jack in a box punching blur, so called future.

oh and genuinely thanks quarantine-for once again, I can hear bird sounds!

guess this is me tryna speak out loud!!!...

it’s not thrilling

system  time killing everything-

mother nature’s oxygen

everything is nauseating

clock ticking, I better start creating.

they should write a book on how to be free when the system set us up to believe that we’re tied to the cut down trees that gives them a currency of greed that they breed.

If blindfolded, I don’t wanna eat what they feed.

Whilst they profit of us -tell us smile and the bandits don’t wanna see us happy.

they’re too busy robbing all our hoods.

In exchange for the silence, they’ve granted us with a 21’st century fashion garment of a slave muzzle! labelled conform.

More delusion to add to the already desensitised norm.

zootonic diseases, welcome covid 19 to your plastic kiddy tea party!- apologies for questioning your motive!

Been handed too many hot plates with a post it note saying HOLD THIS.

we’ll be okay just hush.

Same Shan message told to every generational seed.

If we don’t TRY overpower-

we’ll never succeed!

it’s getting even more scary.

Artificial intelligence.

Societal negligence..

my canvas isn’t clear-dunno am I schizo ?

finger painting, cos it makes more sense.

struggling to blend.

borderline conspiracist pretending to be fine;

moving the goal post, hovering above the race line.

who made the chalk? who set the lanes?

I wanna know it all, maybe¿ far past insane.

I can fit all I need in the palm of my hand,

Maybe even less! cut a finger off not sure it’ll even add stress.

hi from personality Peter, even sober- always away with the fairies.

Pass the pixie dust, I’m in a rush

Found shelter in the comfort of pan physicists timer, no not the one on your phone!

Ring ring, skeptical! is it my demon or my mommy on the phone?

I’m stuck in the airspace of an infinite glass filled with beach particles trying to form myself standing up still attempting not to slip through the hands of my very own discovery.

time is running out & ill go when I go.

I’m sitting inside the fly trap -

stardust, chakras can you feel the sensation colors like a starburst.

deep emotion is a curse.

still entrapped in the sand dune of nothingness-

flipping a domino monopoly of solidified thoughts as I sway with the wind.

I’m the trapped sandbox in the playground & the slipping sand in my own hands.

Inhale chronic but I wanna enter the quiet realm of white noise

-color of a wife beater vest, calmer than the ease in ignorance of a red neck.

sadomasochistic, messes.

but oblivion, seems like less stress.

Unfortunately I can see, with all eyes

empathetic paralysis, gets me vexed.

Punching truth into the core of your chest!

It’s not funny, neither is the one on the receiving end..

My limbs are numb

& im done playing octopus alchemy.

I want minimalism & life can be simple,

Evil entities have made it hard.

Maybe I’ve got stars above my head like an old cartoon character.

But I can’t make it make sense, are they out to get me. worse all of us? Or have I bottled myself tryna re mesh the broken shards,

I feel glued to the floor cos there’s a pretty price to pay if you want more.

I see life through a different lense, maybe born downside up, Benjamin button I came out the back door-

Outside looking in, digesting confusion.

Is to be a product of environment a sin?

rummage through my messy brain.

personalities sardine packed in this tin

I’m the wizard of my mania

Scaring & attracting the black crows-

they’re my friends.

Sometimes still a cowardly lion

Roaring pain & true riddles at the wrenching wicked witch posse of the west.

will my voice ever be loud enough to shed light wit my words and grate the sweet zest

In to the cake i’m baking?

Probably not.

Got more thoughts than the autumn leaves collected by the garden rake. alone.

gathering & storing the pains of yesterday.

sometimes I stay in line

Other times in my head Im on my hands juggling out of time.

but I really don’t mind if I lose or win.

we all have a pace

I jus don’t want the 1% to win the race.

It’s unfair!

Humanity does anyone care ??

Half lady

half fairy

Good  MOOrning-

from my anagrams.

no I’m not a cow.

twister fidget spinner brain in the flesh-

form of expression this time around lyrics.

feel I’m jus a silly rubix

& still mourning

I don’t like dairy

pass the oat milk.

Are you aware the industry are sabotaging our diets?

we want peace!

the powerful elite-

perceive & deceive

the scene they want us to be.

chuck the narcissistic psychopathic pie back in our face-

every time we almost found & addressed the Programme & Control man in the maze.

evil & extroverted- he said that the anarchists have to be the cause of riots.

working isn’t class. I said let’s switch roles- he said pass.

It’s piss! Who’s got the bomb & the guns?

Who got the land? off wit OUR heads 4 fun!

it’s pure scary.

Pharmaceutics handshake.

with the cooked up suppliers, also crooked wack liars.

I’d rather shot a gallon of bloody blubbery infused slaughter house milk

If it meant we didn’t use cocoons for silk.

why not add a drizzle of bleach to the concoction & maybe that’s a reach.

every time I guzzle fakeness, it taste peak.

I want real fruit, what next-

a seedless peach ???

what’s the difference between a weirdo & a freak?

layers & levels to the shit.

Magnifying tapping the window of society, I’ll be puffing green til I get to the land of Oz.

sponge soaked soaking up emotions

Suffocated by deduction of care in life

feel entrapped in this paradigm

what am I thinking ?

got the verbs & a cuppa tea

It’s mixed with torment & desire to be free.

I’d rather be awake than asleep

When I get too comfy I feel weak

Demons they reap

underneath

rip the seems as I bleed

Concrete

Solid

Emotions

Is all you’re getting

It’s all sad scenes in the imagery I’m setting

people need care we seem to be forgetting

why are we in debt wit

a posse of clowns

pay the price so we can get a frown

here’s some seratonin

quit ya moaning

life is all sound

aw yeh¿  if you’re not an over thinker!

product of environment- Sirius flickers

theyve done a ritual like it’s Wicca

now here’s your gold sticker..

for managing to co operate.

In this world fuelled off of evil n hate

waking ups a bloody disgrace

I am not amazed.

Man I love my fam n my friends

Just hate this part of my brain that feels the need to play pretend

sometimes I feel insane

but I’m calm

need to escape so I don’t do harm

Gold lioness in the sky by the sea

with puff the magic dragon

fire out my mouth, fuel helps me breathe

I will shine bright

Promise imma be alright

even tho I’m not sure why

I function like this

I wanna be myself

It’s just hard to find the comfortability

To feel happy and pretty

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Ring around sing about overdose emotions

Sorry dunno how to communicate

Heads in a constant debate

Should I go or should I stay

My head clashes

Burnin the next ciggy as my thoughts become ashes.

[sweetestmonotony]

I compared niall's albums to shawn’s and WOW

So I always felt like Niall and Shawn were writing about each other but only casually listened to Shawn so I never made any hard connections, but I just went through and listened to/read the lyrics to niall and shawn’s past two albums and WOW. they basically tell the same story but from each other’s different perspectives. SO  I went through and wrote a little summary for each song and then compared their albums. Feel free to read or completely ignore!

Shawn: ILLUMINATE 2016

SUMMARY: shawn very much loves this person but he isn’t sure how they feel about him/ he also makes it clear to this person that they can’t actually be together not because he doesn’t love them but because of other unsaid circumstances (i.e. can’t be openly in love with a guy)

There’s nothing holding me back: Confident girl that keeps him guessing, makes him crazy- wants to confess love for her

Ruin: Questioning if the other person thinks about him/remembers their time together, believes he’s the only one for this person but doesn’t know if person feels the same way about him

Mercy: YOU’VE GOT A HOLD ON ME DON’T EVEN KNOW YOUR POWER///EVEN THOUGH YOU DON’T MEAN TO HURT ME YOU KEEP TEARING ME APART//like every lyric of this song screams hopelessly in love with a friend

Treat you better: pining for someone-- again believes he’s the only for this person

Three empty words: sad about a relationship ending/going through difficult time

Don’t be a fool: telling this person that he isn’t worth it “a mess you won’t want to fix,” saying that they both love each other but circumstances keep them apart

Like this: Trying to move on from relationship but cant stop thinking about this person/ still picks up the phone for them I CAN TRY TO STOP IT ALL I LIKE HANDS DOWN IVE LOST THIS FIGHT CANT HIDE THE TRUTH –I read this is as he cant hide his feelings any longer-he is definitely in love and can’t hide it

No Promises: does not want to complicate relationship/ can’t make promises because there will be consequences

Lights on: wants to have sex—biggest takeaway is another mention of being in a hotel, lots of hotel mentions from shawn and at least one from niall (meet each other in other cities)

Honest: can’t give person what they need/there is no other person but shawn cannot be with them---extenuating circumstances once again in the way

Patience: person can’t make up their mind about shawn/keeps him guessing about their relationship/shawn knows this person makes him crazy but he keeps coming back

Bad reputation: this person has been with other people/shawn doesn’t care and claims to know more about this person better than others

Understand: trying to find peace/acceptance with himself

Hold on: basically love song for his dad—again about finding himself/peace

Roses: wants to know if this other person loves him -- he needs to know

 Niall: FLICKER 2017

SUMMARY: in love with this person who constantly pulls away, niall is always reassuring and wants them to be together despite things that try to keep them apart, including the other person’s worries and doubts

She’s on the loose: alluring woman, she’ll meet niall wherever, loves attention

This town: can’t move on from a loving relationship

Seeing blind: someone took him by surprise/he can finally see

Slow hands: they both want each other

Too much too ask: can’t forget about this person/wonders if this person thinks about him or stills loves him-imagines this person coming back to him

Paper Houses: they tried to hold on to their love but just couldn’t-outside circumstances/ he could feel this person slipping away—can’t forget them

Since we’re alone: knows this person is hiding feelings—they are afraid/running—niall tries to reassure them, tells them he is trustworthy and will not break their heart

Flicker: relationship is rocky but he is still hopeful/not giving up—begging this person not to leave him

Fire away: niall can tell that this person is upset (similar to since we’re alone)/again tells this person that they can trust him—person keeps him at a distance

You and me: promises this person that they will end up together even though things are against them/asks this person to wait for him

On my own: embraces his being alone/insists he’s happy on his own

Mirrors: reassures girl who is unsure of herself and who wants love

The tide: don’t let the tide wash us away!!! He doesn’t want their relationship to end, something always tries to keep them apart but niall wants them to stay together/wants to hide them away

 Illuminate VS Flicker

Both love and care about each other but Shawn feels the pressure of society much more than niall, making him always pull away in the end. This leads the other person (niall) to most likely hook up with/hang out with other people confusing Shawn. Shawn constantly asking for reassurance that this person loves him, even though he cannot make any promise. On flicker Niall feels this person (shawn) pulling away and tries to be there for them/comfort them and promises that he can be trusted. Very much wants to keep their relationship together and reiterates this multiple times.

  Shawn: SHAWN MENDES 2018

SUMMARY: Shawn and this person (niall) have decided to be friends but inevitably hook up with each other/ become friends with benefits but it is not easy because they obviously love each other but feel they can’t actually be in a relationship with each other. They both try to date others, causes jealousy/more confusion but makes shawn realizes this is the only person for him.

In my blood: obviously depressed/upset “just take her home and you’ll feel better” “Its isn’t in my blood”—needs someone to help him

Nervous: is always nervous/excited about this person—knows this person wants them too

Lost in japan: LOOKING THROUGH YOUR TIMELINE ALL I SEE IS RAINBOWS –KNOW THIS IS MORE THAN A FRIENDSHIP—will fly anywhere to meet them for one night i.e. friends with benefits

Where were you in the morning: Person did not stay the morning after but made shawn think there was more to their relationship

Like to be you: fighting with this person—trying to understand them/ still loves them and wishes things were better

Fallin all in you: only supposed to be one night but they’re falling in love/making him rethink himself “Baby you are bringing out a different kind of me, there’s no safety net that’s underneath im free fallin all in you, FELL FOR MEN WHO WERENT HOW THEY APPEAR trapped up on a tightrope now we’re here WE’RE FREE fallin all in you”

Particular taste: YOU’LL BE BEGGING HER FOR MERCY

Why: every lyric in this song screams niall but to sum up: they know they both love each other but neither will speak first/ I PRETEND THAT IM NOT READY WHY DO WE PUT EACH OTHER THROUGH HELL/WHEN I HEAR YOU SING, IT GETS HARD TO BREATH CANT HELP BUT THINK EVERY SONGS ABOUT ME —so obviously this is about a person who is a singer/songwriter! (NIALL)—AND EVERY LINE EVERY WORD THAT I WRITE YOU ARE THE MUSE IN THE BACK OF MY MIND—no further comments but this song is for real and he only wrote it with two other people SO

Because I had you: shawn is trying to move on but says he will never love anyone else/ takes someone else out to all the places they had been too (trying to recreate their relationship with someone else but it doesn’t work)

Queen: angry at this person for brushing him off or pretending like they don’t have history

Youth: society won’t get him down

Mutual: person keeps him guessing—wants all of this person but doesn’t know if this person can commit/ believes it’s a game for this other person

Perfectly wrong:  says this person is “perfectly wrong” for him but still loves them anyway, they were never gonna work out

When you’re ready: only ever thinks of this person, ANYTIME YOURE READY IM WAITING (this makes me think of you and me when niall asks the person to wait for him, you and me is the last song on flicker standard addition and when you’re ready is the last song on this album= an answer to niall’s question) –shawn tries to be with others but is always disappointed because it is not this person

BONUS: IF I CAN’T HAVE YOU 2019

Shawn obsesses over this person—reads their texts constantly, only writes songs about this one person/only wants this one person CANT MOVE ON IF WE’RE STILL GONNA TALK/IM GOOD AT KEEPING MY DISTANCE/EVERYTHING MEANS NOTHING IF I CANT HAVE YOU—this song screams in love with his friend he hooks up with ALSO its co -written with the same two people he wrote Why with

 Niall:  HEARTBREAK WEATHER 2020

SUMMARY: (keep in mind that niall said to listen to this album start to finsh to “feel the storyline”)

Niall is in love with this person and wants to be with them forever but the other person pulls away. They both see other people but niall can’t get over them. In the meantime, they continue to hook up with each other but niall can’t change the fact that he loves this person. He finally comes to the conclusion that he wants to be with them and asks them to take him back because he’s still in love with them. This album really feels like it tells the whole story of niall and shawn’s relationship start to finish.

Heartbreak weather: niall feels happy/content with this person

Black and White:  IN ALL YOUR GORGEOUS COLORS/ I WANT THE WORLD TO WITNESS WHEN WE FINALLY SAY I DO—promises that he’ll never love anyone else, pictures them together when they’re old

Dear patience: trying to tell this person how he really feels/is nervous but needs to say how he feels

Bend the rules: worried this person is seeing someone else, is worried/upset and misses them, feels crazy

Small talk: Hooks up with someone else SHE’S NOT MY BABY SHE’S GOT THE WRONG CRAZY

Nice to meet ya: Meets someone new, wants to take them out

Put a little love on me: thinks about this person, wonders what they’re doing/ how they are -- ARE YOUR TEARS FALLING DOWN WHEN THE LIGHTS ARE LOW ANOTHER FRIDAY NIGHT TRYNA PUT ON A SHOW (shawn playing concerts/ being sad about niall in between performances) WE WROTE AND WE WROTE TILL THERE WERE NO MORE WORDS (both writing songs about each other) heartbroken about not being with person

Arms of a stranger: he was in love with this person and they left him with nothing, he’s “in the arms of a stranger but why do I think of you?”

Everywhere: Tried to forget about this person but sees them everywhere

Cross your mind: ITS YOUR SHOW IM JUST WATCHING IT/ IF YOU LEAVE AND DON’T COME BACK TOMORROW AT LEAST YOU CAME TONIGHT – friend with benefit—knows this person sees others and believes this person doesn’t know how much they affect him—loves this person anyway, person says they love them too but he doesn’t know how serious they are

New angel: is always thinking about this person and is looking for a distraction TO SAVE ME FROM MYSELF I NEED A NEW ANGEL—hopes this new angel will help him forget the other person

No judgement: (makes me think of since we’re alone and fire away) will not judge this person and is here for them/ I GET US BREAKFAST IN THE MORNING OR YOU CAN SLIP OUT IN THE NIGHT/ EVEN THOUGH WE DON’T TALK FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS ITS LIKE WE DIDN’T LOSE ANY TIME I CAN BE YOUR LOVER OR YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON/ I HOPE WE NEVER CHANGE EVEN THOUGH WE’LL BOTH MOVE ON AGAIN ILL KEEP YOUR SECRET SAFE TILL WE FIND OURSELVES ALONE AGAIN—he obviously has a lot of history with this person and knows things about them, is always there for them, they may not see each other all the time (on again off again) but they always love each other and come back to one another

San Fransisco: wants to be with this person but thinks they can’t last—makes up his mind to be with this person and asks them to take him back/ SAY IM DONE RUNNING FROM THE ONE I WANT SO BAD

Still: Niall is sorry for what he has done but wants to make it work with this person, he is still in love with them/they have been through a lot and broken up but have come so far and IF HONESTY MEANS TELLING YOU THE TRUTH WELL IM STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU/ tells them it’ll be alright

 SHAWN MENDES VS HEARTBREAK WEATHER

On each album they sing about becoming friends with benefits with someone they love. They both try to move on and see other people but only ever think about each other. They both come to the conclusion that they want to be with each other despite all the hard times they have been through.

*Extra side note: Teddy Geiger co-wrote almost every song on illuminate and shawn mendes and now co wrote a few songs on heartbreak weather. also, niall and shawn have the same group of people (different groups of people for each of them) that they write songs with on their albums which makes me think that these people know the storylines and are people they trust/maybe confide in. 

[turtle-steverogers]

alright babe heres the first 5 I saw: "why are you covered in neon body paint?" "best not to ask" and "I cant breathe, I cant-" and "I cant walk just go on without me" and " ive had a rough day and honestly all I want right now is a drink and someone to cuddle with" and "hey guys im here and im ready to bitch"

hey guys, saph and i were facetiming earlier and she dared me to finally answer this ask she sent in like fall 2018 except i had to use all the prompts and the result is…well, i’m not sure what it is.  but its got criminal race and spot and a cryptic ass albert who makes lava lamps for his niece.  so yah. enjoy!

warnings: its pretty much crack, but there is a brief anxiety attack

ship: platonic race/al/spot

word count: 2490

editing: no

Something a Little Off-Kilter

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Race was nine years old when his ma grabbed him by the chin, turned his face towards her and told him in all her harsh Italian-mother sternness, “We do not run from people, Antonio.  You have Mancini blood in your veins and Mancini’s do not run!”  And Race, with eyes blurred from tears and nose dripping with blood from the fight he’d just fled, nodded vigorously before trudging miserably to his bathroom to clean up (and cry a little more).

But he’d learned two things that day.  One: what a maiden name was and that his ma’s is Mancini and two: running is for losers who never want to stop running.  And he’d more or less kept up that sentiment, even if it cost him a black eye and some dignity in some circumstances.  Like that one time in eleventh grade when Spencer Reiding called him a fairy and in turn, Race had beat the living shit out of him until his little entourage had shown up and knocked him out cold.  But seriously, ‘fairy’? It’s not 19-fucking-50.

Race supposes, though, that all good sentiments meet their maker at one point or another.  Self-preservation over morals and all that, right? 

“Floor it, Christ, are you flooring it!?”  His grip on the ‘oh shit’ bar is white-knuckled and he can hear himself panting as he twists in his seat for what’s probably the hundredth time.  The blue and red flashing of the cop car that had been following them is nothing but a speck at this point, but Race isn’t really keen on taking any chances right now.  Tonight had been a close fucking call.  

“Yes, I’m flooring it, asshole!” Spot shouts, swerving around a lone subaru that had seemingly appeared out of nowhere on the otherwise empty stretch of desert highway.  Normally, Race would be surprised at the sheer lack of cars that are out, but he supposes 4 am in buttfuck Arizona is not prime time for travels.  

Letting out a little whine, Race turns to face forward again, stealing a quick glance at Spot as he does so.  He can see the faint worry lines on his face, reflected from the miniscule lights of the dash.  They’d opted to leave the headlights off for optimal covertness, but the moonlight over the desert proves to be more than sufficient.  

Spot’s anxious, Race can tell.  He remembers a year ago when the two of them had first met in that dingy bar in Brooklyn.  Spot had been nothing but a stoic mask at that time, only showing faint hints of amusement every now and then.  It had been incredibly disconcerting, especially to Race who wears his heart on his sleeve, to behold such utter passivity, but Race had since learned to read him.  Spending everyday together for twelve months is really the best lesson in a person’s tells, Race has found.  And really, when he spares a second thought to it, their situation and relationship therefore, is a strange one.  Two broke college grads down on their luck and bearing fuck all from their families meeting by chance and somehow finding themselves stuck in a loop of money laundering and identity theft in order to stay above ground.  Maybe not the best solution to their problems, but hey, Race never claimed to be smart with his choices.  And the rush of adrenaline is as much of a drug as the coke they sell on the side.

“God fucking damnit, is he still following us?” Spot says, eyes flitting to the rearview mirror.

“Dude, he caught us balls deep tryna break into a fucking bank.  He ain’t gon’ let us off that easy.” Race says, “Jesus fuck I told you we should stick to the other stuff.  We were making big cash just fine pulling paychecks from easy civvies.”

“Yeah, yeah, you can tell me ‘told you so’ when we get somewhere I can think.” Spot sounds exhausted and on-edge and Race himself is looking forward to this whole ordeal blowing over so they can find a place to ditch this car and grab a new one and maybe crash at some shitty inn no cop would think to look.  Yeah, laying low for a couple of days sounds perfect right now.  They don’t even have to leave the room.  Denny’s orders in, right?

“Oh, I will.” Race says, sighing an internal sigh of relief as the distant lights of a small town come into view.  Thank god.

Spot mumbles something that sounds like, “Fucking finally,” and eases up on the gas, turning abruptly once they enter the city perimeter.  

They’ve gotten good at this: losing tails, but Race still holds his breath as Spot loops around the backroads of the town, looking for a place to dump the car.  It’s a few minutes until Race can see the lights of the cop car reflecting off the drug store they’d passed upon first entrance and he hisses out another curse, jabbing Spot in the arm.

“Stop here,” He says, “If he finds the car, fine, but he sure as hell ain’t finding us in it.”

Spot looks like he wants to fight back, but instead, he surprises Race by pulling to a surprisingly quiet stop by an old auto-shop.  He gestures for Race to get out and swiftly grabs their duffels from the back seat, tossing Race’s to him, both pausing when the cop car cruises in front of the alleyway closest to them.  Inaudibly, they let out synchronous sighs of relief when it continues on. 

They cheat behind the auto-shop and are barely settled into identical crouches when a quiet, “Psst,” captures both of their attention.  Race jumps violently, only barely recovering in time to slap a hand over Spot’s mouth as he begins to shout in surprise.

“Over here,” the voice whispers again.

The two of them turn to look at where the auto-shop’s back door is now open and Race squints as the silhouette of a man comes into view.  He can see the man waving a hand in front of him, beckoning them closer, before exchanging a look with Spot.  A silent conversation passes between them, we’ve made bad choices before, what’s one more? And Spot shrugs a little before hoisting his duffel back onto his shoulder and tiptoeing towards the man.  Race follows behind warily. 

Now that he’s closer, Race can see that the man is about their age- young and a little rugged looking with hair that curls towards his jaw at the nape of his neck.  His face and arms are splattered with- well, Race’s first thought is that it’s blood, but upon further inspection, he sees that it’s paint.  Bright yellow and orange neon paint.

He has a lot of questions.  Like, how the fuck did you notice us lurking behind your building at four am? And, why did you think it was a good idea to interact with two obviously suspicious looking men? But all that comes out is, “why are you covered in neon paint?”

Spot drops his head in a groan and the guy laughs somewhat maniacally, “best not to ask, it’s a long story.  Well, actually it’s not.  You see, it’s my niece’s birthday tomorrow and she really likes lava lamps so I’m hand making a few for her and that includes painting the bases and she’s going through that quirky eight year old phase where everything rainbows and neon is super cool, so I’m making them neon tie-dye,” he says it all in one breath and Race finds himself struggling to keep up, “anyway, the names Albert.  You two look like you need some help.  Wanna come in?”

The whole situation’s fucking weird, but Race and Spot exchange another look, this one holding the quick debate of, what other options do we got? And a moment later, they’re hustling into the dingy auto shop.

The lights are dim on the inside, but it’s a surprisingly cozy set up.  The side dedicated to cars is immaculately organized, with a few hanging from the ceiling and others lined neatly on the ground, propped up on floor jacks where necessary.  On the other side is clearly where Albert lives, with a couple curtains sanctioning off a twin bed and desk, where sure enough, three lava-lamps, varying in color and size, are set on a few sheets of newspaper.  

Spot frowns as Albert locks the door, turning to them with a smile, “I’m assuming the cop car out there’s for you guys?”  When Race and Spot don’t answer, he continues, too lighthearted for the situation, “Yeah, figured.  Feel free to lay low here ‘til the threat’s passed.”

“If the police are clearly after us, aren’t we the threats?” Spot asks, “Wait, no, hold on, aren’t you gonna ask us what we did?  Aren’t you put off at all?”

Albert waves a hand, “Nah, I do this all the time.  Just don’t try to murder me and we’re good.  You look like nice enough people, just a little down on your luck.  I don’t mind you camping out here while ya need.” He sets off towards his desk, seemingly to finish the lava-lamps, “The door across from the supply closet is technically an office, but I stuck a mattress and some blankets there for people like yourselves.  Feel free to crash.  If the bull comes by, I didn’t see anything.”  With that, he’s gone.  Behind the curtain as if he’d never been there.

Race blinks, bemused, and looks at Spot.

“What the fuck did he mean, ‘I do this all the time’?  Who the fuck is this guy?”

Spot shakes his head, looking more lost than Race has ever seen him, “Hell if I know.”

The office-turned-guest-room turns out to be more spacious than Race had anticipated and he and Spot are sitting on the mattress, munching on granola bars that were placed unceremoniously in a bowl by the door, when they hear a knock from outside.  

Race feels a pit of dread form in his gut and he lowers his granola bar, appetite lost.  It’s the cop, it’s gotta be.  Who else would be knocking before dawn?  And oh god, they’d left the car right out front, how much more obvious can they be?

Race glances at Spot, who’s also stopped eating, and hisses, “If he catches us, run.  Go on without me.” 

He means it, but Spot just huffs out a bitter laugh, “As if.  Now shut up.”

They strain their ears, listening as Albert opens the door, feigning sleep they know he hasn’t gotten in his voice, “Officer.  Is there a problem?”

They can’t hear what the cop says, but Albert’s side of the conversation is fairly clear, “Hm? Oh, the paint?  I was working on a project for my niece and must have dozed off before cleaning up.  Anyway, how can I help you?”  There’s a pause, “Two- what? I haven’t heard anything about no bank robbers, that’s terrible! I- oh, that car, that’s…strange, that wasn’t here when I went to sleep.  Sure, you can check around back, but I doubt ya’d find anything.  I’da heard if someone were moving around out there and I didn’t hear nothing last night.  Yes sir, I- oh?  Nah, I’m afraid I can’t letcha search my shop.  Not without a warrant.  Mm, sorry officer.  Yes, I understand the caliber of the situation, but it is my legal right to deny your entrance to my home without substantial reasoning.  Mhm, but see, that’s a hunch.  I don’t see no warrant.  Okay, officer.  Yes. just around back.  Go ahead.  Alright, officer, okay.  Nice chat.  Goodbye.”

The door closes a second later and Race lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding.  All at once, the adrenaline of the night hits him.  They’d almost been fucking caught, Christ, what if they’d ended up in jail?  What if they still end up in jail?  He couldn’t survive jail, fuck, he wouldn’t even be able to afford and lawyer and shit-

His body is shaking, vibrating really, and a weight is steadily growing on his chest.  Involuntary tears prick at his eyes and he brings a hand up to the front of his shirt, tugging as if that would release some of the pressure from his lungs.  

“Race?” Spot sounds distant and Race turns to him, knowing he looks panicked, but having no capacity to change that, “Are you okay?”

“I don’t know,” Race says, voice high and pitchy, “I can’t really breathe, I can’t-”

“Shit, hey, it’s okay.  I think you’re having an anxiety attack,” Spot says, sounding uncharacteristically gentle, “I know a lot happened tonight, but we’re okay,” He places a comforting hand on Race’s shoulder, “Just breathe, it’s okay.”

Race nods, closing his eyes and focusing on Spot’s touch, allowing it to ground him.  A few moments later, he’s feeling calmer, if still a little shaken.  

“You alright?” Spot asks, not removing his hand.

“Yeah, I dunno, man,” Race says honestly, “It’s been a rough ass night and all I want right now is something to drink and someone to cuddle with,” his eyes fly open as soon as the words are out of his mouth.  He hadn’t meant to say that.  He’s not sure why he said that.  It’s not even like he and Spot have that sort of relationship, nor is he particularly seeking that out.  But now that it’s out there, Race wouldn’t say no to some good old physical comfort.

Spot seems to sense that and laughs a little as he removes his hand from where he’s still gripping Race to sling his arm around his shoulders.  It’s a little more intimate than they usually are, but friendly and comfortable nonetheless.  Race takes a deep, shaky breath and rests his head back against the wall, leaning into Spot’s side.

“Yeah, it’s been a fucked up night and I think I’m still deciding whether or not it’s real or just some weird fever dream,” Spot says, “Like, who even is that guy?  What the fuck is his deal?”

“Lord even knows,” Race says, “But I think I got my fill of crazy for a while.”

“Yeah, me too.”

They lapse into silence and Race is just starting to drift off when the door to the office opens and Albert pokes his head in, somehow covered in even more paint than before and holding up a bottle of tequila, “hey guys, I’m here and I’m ready to bitch.  The cop is gone now, though I wouldn’t recommend skipping town just yet- better safe than sorry.  Also, bank robbers, huh?  Haven’t had your kind in a while.  You’re a fun type, though the arson that I met last week was pretty spicy.  Anyway, drinks?  I know it’s early for alcohol, but I get the feeling y’all need it.”

Spot doesn’t even try to lower his voice as he says, “Yeah, I don’t think our fill of crazy is over yet.”

-

don’t ask me what that was about, i genuinely don’t know

thanks for reading, chiefs

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[heart-holes]

mlm asks under the cut bc im tryna wake myself up to do homework

Are you in a relationship? nooo but i have a boy who i love and whomst loves meee....its complex

Do you have a crush on someone? If you do tell us about them. mhm he’s really smart but about things i dont understand and he’s very kind and goofy and has a voice that melts my hearttt

What’s your ideal boyfriend/enbyfriend? someone who understands me intellectually and can learn to understand me emotionally 

What is your ideal perfect date? april fifteenth because-- no um  i like going for walks in the woods as a date. one of the best dates i’ve ever been on we just went to a junk yard and wandered around and then found a lil spot to sit and make out for a while it was cuuute

Have you ever smooched a boy/enby? oof these are for people much younger than me aren’t they. yes, i have smooched quite a few boys and nonbinary people (but actually no girls, i think?)

If you went on a movie date what movie would you go see? i don’t really like movies tbh, this is like the opposite of my ideal date bc you can’t talk or touch or do other things while you’re watching...

What video games would you play with your boyfriend/enbyfriend? my ex and i played all sorts of things together (planescape torment in particular </3) but right now? i’m not sure. maybe co op games? overcooked? smash? 

Are you a hopeless romantic? no, i’m a very hopeful romantic

Do you daydream a lot about your crush or boyfriend/enbyfriend? yep! im a daydreamer 4 sure

If you were going on a dinner date where would you go? hm...depends on how fancy i’d honestly just prefer to have my boyfriend buy me ingredients and then cook a nice meal 4 him  otherwise maybe kim’s? that’s the cheap korean restaurant near our college lol

Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue? i used to be able to but i’m not sure anymore, i’m out of practice 

Have you been to pride in June? If not would you like to go and if you have gone how was it? yep! been three times, once in high school and twice in college. in high school it was a little weird bc i was really sick, but i was the head of the GSA at the time and it was the first time we’d ever made it 2 pride as a school, so it was a big deal. last year my friend’s ex came along and kind of ruined the day for us lmao. this year we had a GREAT time, we went for one of my friends’ birthdays and it was their first time ever going to pride and being like out-ish in public. i made some chalk art, we took photos, we yelled at the rainbow washing corporations and got to ask a leather dom if we could pet their dog (a person in a fursuit). (they said yes!) 

When did you realize you weren’t straight or cisgender? i’ve been not straight for goddamn ever like, i probably knew i liked girls by the time i was in like sixth or seventh grade. and i remember considering that i was not, myself, a girl, in like...second grade, and then not dealing with it again until high school lmao

Would you consider yourself an affectionate person? to a select few, yeah

What’s the most romantic thing you’ve ever done for someone? ooh, hard to say. i took someone for a middle of the night walk that led us to a river full of frogs once, and we had our second kiss there and i’m sure i’ve made a lot of romantic gestures for various other partners but i’m like, having a hard time remembering them oh one time the junkyard date person and i had a really nice date where we just went and sat in the woods and drew for a while and that was like, really great 

If you had to cook for your partner what would you cook? depends on what they wanted! i’m very good with stir frys, i can make steaks, i can do various kinds of chicken...

Where would you travel with your partner if you two could go anywhere? i don’t have a partner so i dont really know  the boy i’m seeing (TM) has visited finland before so maybe there...

If you wanted to get your partner a gift what would you get them? i like to make art for my partners tbh

Do you write love letters to your partner? i love writing letters in general so yes!

Do you write poetry or songs? not generally For People but yes to both, more poetry than songs

Favorite Lgbt+ movie? i haven’t seen very many of them to be honest...the Favourite was excellent, though! saw that in theaters! 

Favorite Lgbt+ show? also haven’t seen very many of those! lmao degrassi had a trans man on it way the fuck back in the day, but that’s not great representation, nor are renly and ser loras...ya i got nothing  o wait does Moomin count

Favorite Lgbt+ fictional character? slkdfjsldkfj i really cannot think of any of them ser loras of the flowers is deffo up there for me whoops sorry

Favorite Lgbt+ youtuber? skip

Favorite Lgbt+ singer? ryan beatty!

Favorite Lgbt+ meme? lmao it’s moominpapa with a glock

Favorite Lgbt+ book? always gonna b a soft spot in my heart for Annie On My Mind lmao

Favorite Lgbt+ artist? keith haring, dubiously basquiat 

Favorite Lgbt+ celebrity? kevin abstract or kristen stewart 

Favorite Lgbt+ tumblr blog? uhhhh peteseeger

Favorite MLM/NBLM tumblr blog? cowboymlm

Favorite petname(s)? sunshine, baby, daddy lmao 

Favorite date spot? woods

Favorite dessert? really good baklava will drive me insane tiramisu is good too but reminds me too much of my ex

Favorite love song (or favorite song)? favorite love song: a nightingale sang in barkley square favorite song: hm rn it might be...cupid? by ryan beatty 

Favorite thing to wear? my favorite sweatshirt and some black jeans

Favorite animal? frog, probably? 

Favorite type of Milkshake? chocolate! 

Favorite month? september :3 

Favorite mythical animal? hmmm i love me a big foot or a loch ness monster 

Favorite flower? dandelions or marigolds or roses 

Coffee or tea? coffeeeeee 

Sweater or Hoodie? depends! i have a lot more sweaters but i do love hoodies

Fall or Spring? both! 

Winter or Summer? summer, i think

Frozen yogurt or Ice cream? ice cream plsssss

Cuddles or hugs? hmmmm hugs 

Little spoon or big spoon? little spoon unless i am comforting the other person, in which case i am big spoon 

Gazing at the stars with your partner or watching the sunset together? oh both of these sound lovely

Movie theater or park date? PARK

Forehead kisses or kisses on the cheek? cheek kisses are kinda hot forehead kisses are cute 

Sitting on their lap or laying your head down on their lap? laying my head down! pet my hair!!!

Circus date or fair/carnival date? kind of neither tbh but like, i guess fair? 

Strawberries or cherries? ooh hard question. strawberries i think, but i looove cherries also

Peaches or plums? peaches!!!

Matte or glitter? GLITTER

Dunkin Donuts or Krispy Kream? dunkin lmao i’m a northeast boy

Flamboyant or reserved? flamboyant usually, sometimes reserved

Pastel colors or dark colors? neither give me that neon 

Cats or reptiles? B O T H

Doughnuts or Bagels? oooh both. doughnuts maybe a little more tho

Pastel rainbow or regular rainbow? regular rainbow

Cowboy partner or Goth partner? either but i tend to lean a little more toward goths

Yeehaw or be gay do crime? i say both, but i say yeehaw more often

Video games or board games? board games pls god i love a board game

Plushies or figures? plusHIES

The sun or the moon? the sun!!!

Bears or dogs? BEARS

Red roses or white roses? pink or yellow roses are myy faves actually 

[eye-raq]

Pandora’s Box Chapter Five

Erik x Black Original Character

Raven pushed herself backwards on the bed watching Erik take off his shirt. He rested on his knees in front of her on the bed removing her boy shorts. Raven pulled her top over her head exposing her titties with hard nipples. She yanked her srunchie out of her hair as well trying to smooth her hair out. Erik took notice and reached forward pulling softly at her curls. Raven smiled at the gesture noting that she would definitely want scalp massages from him. Erik leaned back on his knees playfully swinging Raven’s legs open and closed staring into Raven’s hazel eyes.

 “I just gave you some head and watched you go limp on me now you got some stamina to fuck me?” Teased Raven. Erick only chuckled with his deep dimples peeking through.

 “You got any condoms?”

 “No worries, I’m on birth control we can go raw.”

 Erik bit his lip with a smile playfully smacking the side of her ass before spreading her legs wider resting in between them. He lowered his hand between Raven’s legs making circular motions with his fingers all up and through her pussy coating his fingers. He licked at Raven’s neck placing a sharp bite on her neck. She winced and then shuddered when Erik kissed slow and longing.

 “Rest your legs on my shoulders.” Raven shifted under Erik lifting her thick legs to rest over Erik’s toned shoulders, curling her toes. Erik jerked his dick a couple times before placing himself at her entrance. Raven looked up at Erik anxiously before taking a lick of his lip drawing him closer

 “Come on Erik I’m so anxious.” whispered Raven.

 “I gotchu baby, trust me I need it just as much as your ass do.”

 Raven could feel Erik push himself inside of her and she felt so stretched out. Raven threw her head back pressing it further into the mattress as Erik slowly pushed out then back in in slow deliberate strokes. It was mind blowing and she was moaning like a like crazy. Erik began to pick up the pace pumping hard with each thrust causing Raven’s body to jerk and he left behind a soreness that felt oh so good. Raven wrapped her arms around Erik’s neck locking her fingers as his thrust began going deeper. She could feel it all the way in her guts.

 “Daddy its so fucking big.” Raven felt so stretched she could feel every bit of him and she was greedy for more. Her walls began to quiver like they were trying to cave in.

 “Yeah? Its too much for this tight fucking pussy? I know it gotta be too much.” replied Erik breathlessly. Erik leaned forward on the palms of his hands to get a deeper thrust, plus a better stroke because he needed to be deeper.

 “ahhhh yeah oh fuck” Moaned Raven in a husky tone causing Erik to go impossibly fast. Raven stared down between them as she watched Eriks dripping dick disappear then reappear. It was too fucking good and she felt herself grip him every time he entered her.

 “Fuck baby girl I’m tryna kill your shit.” Erik had sweat glistening his forehead down to his defined core as he pounded away watching his dick torture her tight pussy. “I’m fucking wrecking your shit, I’m fucking-” He couldn't even finish lost in the feeling. Raven was spread so wide and Erik just wouldn't let up. Raven tapped on Erik’s chest shaking her head from side to side as she arched her back cumming on his dick.

 “mmmm this is so fucking good, your pussy is loving this.”

 Erik watched in amazement at the faces she made placing soft nurturing kisses on her knees. He pumped into her tight pussy with a grinding motion grinding his hips into her like he was digging for gold. He lifted himself a little biting his lip, gold caps showing as he stared down at the way he fucked her pussy up.

 “Fuck it up daddy fuck it up mmm” Raven could feel herself slipping again. “Damn that dick! Imma cum on this thick dick again fuck!!!” she rubbed at her clit roughly as her cream seeped out of her entrance giving Erik more lubrication.

 “You a nasty little bitch with a nasty little pussy.” (well damn Erik)

 The only sounds that could be heard was rough slapping flesh and the slushing sounds of their sex. Erik could feel his self getting closer again so he lifted Raven the bed off the bed and stood up to thrust into her fast and that meant impossibly fast. Raven through her head back chest bouncing, gripping on Erik’s shoulders for leverage.

 “oo im gonna cum all in yo shit oh yeah its cumming.” Erik threw his head back pressing his body into hers roughly. He squeezed with all his might, abs flexing as she felt his cum release inside of her. It was perfect. Great sex wasn’t even a proper description for how good this sex was. He was surely someone to remember in the bed room.

 Erik released his body from Raven’s, cum oosing out and layed next to her on his belly, head facing towards the floor mirror. His eyes were closed with his lips parted as Raven stared at him longingly.

 “Man Erik that was- damn that was good.” Erik only hummed in approval too tired to speak.

 Raven leaned her body into his kissing his back. She drew back running a long slow stripe up his spine causing him to shudder. He reached back to grip her hand causing her to stop.

 “So your ticklish huh?” Raven said teasingly. Erik lifted his head looking at her through the mirror.

 “Don t worry about it girl.” Erik was smirking turning towards Raven laying on the side of his face. His eyes were beautiful pools of brown and Raven was completely lost in them. His hand reached up to brush her away so she wouldn't try anything.

“Ohhhh so you are ticklish? Okay I’ll keep that in mind then.” Erik pinched her booty.

 “Don’t make me spank you girl I promise I will.” Raven made herself comfortable in the middle of the bed ushering for Erik to come closer. Erik crawled over placing himself in between her legs resting his head on her belly. He playfully nibbled on Raven’s belly causing her to giggle. It sounded so innocent and soft in his ear causing him to smile.

 Raven was deep in thought about the situation she got herself into. She just got out of a breakup with her longtime boyfriend, only to have casual sex with a guy she only knew for a week, not to mention having growing feelings for. Raven felt Erik go heavy on her and she looked down to see him sleeping. The cool air from his nose felt soothing on her skin. Raven turned off her side lamp and closed her eyes, drifting off into sleep as well

   The Sun beamed through Raven’s bed room causing her to open her eyes. She scanned the room then down to her naked body. She looked over to see Erik missing wondering where he could be. She heard someone clear their throat from the bathroom and the sink being turned off. Raven sat up, rising from the bed stretching her aching body. She walked up to her mirror that had a rainbow gleaming off of it. She rubbed at her neck noticing purple bruises and a bit mark. She fluffed her hair turning to the side and seeing some bruises on her hips. Was Erik really that rough with her? She rubbed at her temples feeling a slight headache from the drinking she did last night.

 Erik exited the bathroom fully naked scratching at his dreads that were all over the place.

 “Damn good morning” Spoke Erik with sleep still in his voice. He approached Raven from behind palming her ass and squeezing in a vice grip. Raven swatted his hand away pouting her lip in slight pain.

 “Stop Erik my body is aching.”

 “So? What you thought was gonna happen when we decided to fuck? I leave my mark on everything.”

 Raven motioned for him to look at her body through the mirror pointing at all the marks that he made last night. She couldn't feel much last night except for the bite, because she had mellowed out off of that 1800. She noticed Erik growling with a dark look in his eyes.

 “That shit looks good on your brown skin.” Said Erik circling his toned arms around her waist. He rested his chin on her shoulder, “My skin.”

Raven turned to face Erik quirking an eyebrow at him with amusement.

 “So, you claiming me now? We just met like a week ago Mr Erik.”

 Erik grabbed at Raven’s curvy hips running circles, “Um, yeah? I thought I made that clear last night in the kitchen. I feel drawn to you, I wanna know more and feel more is that a problem?”

 Raven bit her lip, finally shaking her head, “No it’s just… I just got out of a rocky relationship with a guy that I knew for so long. To tell you the truth it was over a while ago I just couldn't bring myself to realize that.. and he couldn't be the bigger person to tell me straight up that it wasn’t the same.”

 Erik studied Raven’s eyes finally reaching up to cup her face.

 “I don't plan on hurting you like that. I’m not perfect, I can promise you that. There is some shit with me that I rather not share but if you let me, we can grow from being new found fuck buddies and trust me you wont be disappointed.”

 Raven wanted to know what he meant about his imperfections and mistakes but she decided against it, thinking it too soon to ask.

 Erik placed a reassuring kiss on her forehead before switching back to his demanding ass ways

 “Now a nigga hungry go whip something up for me.”

 Raven drew back with a surprised look, “I’m not your personal fucking chef you go whip something up!”

 Erik raised his hands in surrender as he backed away and out of the bedroom.

 Raven followed him into the kitchen, watching him search around. He pulled out a few pans then some eggs, texas toast, and some turkey sausage.

 “It’s time for me to show your lil ass how I throw down.” teased Erik with a smug look.

 Raven crossed her arms placing herself on one of the stools. She turned on her Pandora and Post Malone drew out of the speakers. Erik ran back to the room returning with his shorts hanging low on his waist. He reached into his pocket and with drew a blunt. Raven squinted her eyes giving him a “mmmhmmm” look

 “I knew your ass was a weed smoker too”, Raven rolled her eyes.

 “Thanks I’ll take that so called L as a compliment.” He reached into his shorts again drawing out a bick lighter with African colors. He leaned against the stove, lighting his blunt for a few seconds before taking a long drag from the blunt between his thumb and pointer finger. He drew back staring down at the blunt in approval before turning back to cooking.

 “Look nigga I don't wanna look down at my food and see ashes in my shit.” Protested Raven.

 “You don't like me smoking weed?” replied Erik

 “No, its not that at all. I used to smoke but ever since I graduated and became a part time nurse, I don't take that risk anymore. They could ask for an unexpected drug test at anytime and I wanna be prepared.”

 Erik turned around eye brows raised with a smirk showing those killer dimples.

 “Damn you a nurse? that's wassup. You pretty and smart that shit is a turn on.” Erik took another drag from his blunt before he went back to whisking the french toast mixer.

 “What do you do for a living?” Asked Raven. Erik didn't reply instantly and Raven didn't let that go un noticed.

 “I graduated from MIT with a degree in engineering at the top of my class. The military paid for my education so I took that shit seriously. I needed it, it was something I needed to accomplish.”

 Raven nodded in approval, but that still didn't answer her question about what he did.

 “So your an engineer then I mean with an engineering degree you would be right? That engineering shit is complicated I dont how you did it Erik-”Pushed Raven.

 “If you want something REALLY bad, and I mean BAD, then you go for it at all cost. I didn't have much else to loose at that point so I put my all into it.” replied Erik quickly and bluntly giving Raven a stern look out the corner of his eye. His gaze was sort of dangerous so she quickly changed the subject sensing that he really didn't want to get into it.

 “Let me take a hit, I’m sure a few hits wont hurt.”

 Erik raised an eyebrow at Raven questioningly, “You sure? cuz you seemed pretty stern about not smoking ever again.”

 Raven shrugged her shoulders motioning for him to pass the blunt. He leaned forward and handed it to her watching intently. Raven met his eyes and took a drag, taking in the smoke then releasing it through her lips slowly. Erik smirked at her as he watched her do it again, a smile forming on her lips.

 “I’m not gonna lie, I do miss this shit. It was a stress relief two years ago in nursing school.”

 “I can relate. Hittin’ the books without weed was a no brainer I needed that shit to ease my mind.”

 For the rest of the time Raven mellowed out to the music that played watching Erik make breakfast in the kitchen. The way his messy dreads stuck up in different places on his head, and the way his shorts hung loose on his hips put Raven in a trance. By the time it was done, Erik pulled out some silverware and plates.

 “Aiight take that ass in the dining room. Prepare to be amazed.” Raven let out a full blown laugh as she walked to the dining room sitting at the head of the table. Erik entered with two plates and some syrup in the crook of his arm. Raven smiled up at him folding her hands patiently on the table. He placed her plate in front of her and she already loved the smell, hearing her stomach growl.

 “Okay, you can eat now I heard that stomach.” Erik laughed and it sounded so hearty and it made her stomach do a summer salt. Raven waited for him to seat his self and she watched him take his fork and knife in hand cutting a big piece of french toast and stuffing it in his mouth. He hummed in approval being extra clapping his hands loud with a smirk.

 “This shit.” was all he said as he swallowed the rest. Erik pointed his knife at Ravens plate.

 “You gonna eat or waist my fucking food.” Raven picked up her fork and knife rolling her eyes as she cut into her french toast as well. She placed the piece in her mouth chewing, and lets just say the saliva formulated some more. Man it was good she hummed in approval closing her eyes.

 “Erik wow its really good yum.” Raven continued to eat and so did Erik. He finished first and sat back watching her finish her plate. Raven was just about to start on her scrambled eggs when she noticed Erik slide back from the table and crawl under. Raven put the fork down covering her mouth to talk so she wouldn't spit food on the table.

 “Erik what the hell?!”

Raven felt Erik’s dreads tickle her knees and she peered down meeting his eyes and his smug grin.

 “Erik, what are you even up to now?”

 “Finish your food I told you not to waste it.”

 That was all he said before Raven felt Erik lifting her legs over his shoulders. She somehow forgot the fact that she was completely naked and soon after she felt Erik take a long lick on her cunt. Raven squeezed the fork in her hand jerking forward a little from the contact. Erik took his hands and pried her pussy lips apart licking with a swirl of his skillful tongue up and down, side to side.

 “mmmmmmmm”

  Raven responded with approval. and this drove Erik even more over the edge. Raven couldn't finish her eggs because it was too much. Raven scooted back from the table, slouching in the chair wrapping her fingers in Erik’s dreads. Erik had his eyes closed moaning into her pussy as his tongue lapped at her entrance. Raven grind into his mouth putting more pressure on his head pulling him closer. Erik gripped her waist for balance as he alternated between sucking and licking. Raven rested her head on the back of the chair scratching at Erik’s scalp with her tips. Erik removed his right hand and placed two fingers inside of her Raven bit down on her lip hard eyes watching as Erik sucked her clit and fingered her at the same time.

 “Ooo daddy im so close I can feel it it’s coming.” whispered Raven as her stomach began to twist in a knot.  Erik picked up the pace, causing Raven to grind harder into him. She felt the knot in her stomach snap and before she knew it, she squirted on the edge of the chair and on Erik’s mouth and chin. Erik released Raven’s legs crawling from under the table stretching out his limbs before picking up his empty plate. He turned to Raven watching her come down from her high rubbing at her glistening body. Raven was lifting up from the chair wobbling. Erik stopped her in her tracks, causing Raven to stare at him confused.

 “Where you think you going?”

 “I’m a mess Erik and so is your face.” Replied Raven with humor.

 “Nah, finish those eggs girl.” It was more of a command he wasn't asking.

Raven laughed loudly walking pass Erik. Erik reached out pulling her over his shoulder causing Raven to gasp. She didn't like being lifted up like this, scared that she was going to fall face down.

 “Erik!! chill I can fall and buss my face open.”

 Erik smacked both of Ravens ass cheeks rough causing her to squeeze them in response.

 “When I tell you to do something, I mean that shit.”

 “Over eggs though.” snapped Raven.

 Erik smacked her ass again, “I don't give a fuck. I slaved over that stove your gonna enjoy my fucking meal.”

 Raven went still sighing in defeat. This nigga was so damn demanding! But Raven couldn’t lie and say she didn’t like it. She loved a man to take charge over her body.

 “We need a shower.” was Erik’s final word as he walked towards the bathroom with Raven still thrown over his shoulder.

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Character Question Tag!

tagged by @yuutfa

sorry for not doing this earlier it slipped my mind;;;

Rules: Answer the following questions for one of your characters and then tag people!

I’m going to go with my character Ace Lawlis because ??? i Can??

1) What was the first element of your OC that you remember considering (name, appearance, backstory, etc.)?

Ace wasn’t even my character lmao, he was made by my brother and he was some kind of monster or android? He was also a pilot at this time. Me and bro started doing joke rps with him and another character Guts. My bro abandoned Ace so I picked him up and ttly rewrote his story

2) Did you design them with any other characters/OCs from their universe in mind?

He naturally contrasts Guts the other title character from his origin. I don’t think this was a concious desicion tho just how he ended up

3) How did you choose their name?

My bro chose ace because its a cool name I gave him the last name Lawlis because he’s working for law enforcement and i thought that was hilarious

4) In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in played the most influential parts?

The fact that he’s the only human in a monster crime protection division plays a huge role in his story and backstory. Plus he has conflicting feelings about his relationship with monsters

5) Is there any significance behind their hair color?

I wanted him to have light/blondish hair because I have a thing where I have to have at least one oc with every hair color in the rainbow and i decided ace would look good as a blonde, i’m prob gonna change that soon tho since i think the blonde looks a little weird on him now

6) Is there any significance behind their eye color?

there is actually! So one of my all time favorite mangas “FAKE” had a half Japanese main character and the way everyone would tell/guess he’s half Japanese is because he had black eyes. I thought this was super cool and since my character is half Chinese I decided he’ll have black eyes too

7) Is there any significance behind their height?

i’m horrible with heights i have no idea how tall ace is so im gonna say no no signficance

8) What (if anything) do you relate to within their character/story?

complex feelings about internalized racism and fear of fetishing others

9) Are they based off of you, in some way?

not really

10) Did you know what the OC’s sexuality would be at the time of their creation?

yea i always knew he’d be bi he was bi even when my bro made him 

11) What have you found to be most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: writing, drawing, edits, etc.)?

his hair;; hence why i’m thinking of changing it. it always looks unnatural to me and doing this extreme part is hard;;

12) How far past the canon events that take place in their world have you extended their story, if at all?

his story is slice of lifey so i don’t have a definite end in mind 

13) If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?

1. his interactions with monsters

2. his prosthetics 

14) What is something about your OC that can make you laugh?

the origin of his story was comedic so i always laugh thinking about those old rps and im tryna keep that humor when i maybe one day start doing his story 

15) What is something about your OC that can make you cry?

a bad ex of his that really messed up his social life for a while

16) Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?

the fact that he’s a sort of cop? That’s not just tied to him but tied to the entire story. I thought its be super cool for monsters to have their own subsection of law enforcement but im struggling with figuring out the mechanics of it

17) What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC?

he thinks food stands make the absolute best food and would take it over a resturant any day 

18) What is your favorite fact about your OC?

his love of rollerblading. Even tho he lost his legs when he was very very young he still found an activity he enjoys and doesn't let his disability stop him from it

I’m tagging anyone @m0dw01f and anyone else with OCs who wants to do this!

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Get To Know Me Tag

Get To Know Me Tag! I was tagged by: @youngjaesloudlaugh​ (thanks for tagging me!) Rules: Answer the 20 questions in a new post and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better. — Nickname: CJ, Tin-Tin (by family) Gender: Female Star Sign: Pisces Height: 5'2″ Time right now: 18:15 Last thing I googled: BTS concert tickets because ya girl is tryna go to the Anaheim concerts for not extortion level nosebleed seat prices ya feeeeel Favorite Bands: Kpop: BTS, GOT 7, KARD, Blackpink, and this isn’t really a band but basically everyone on the AOMG label Non-Kpop: I just realized I don’t really listen to a lot of bands lol, I mostly listen to solo artists, duos or DJ’s. I’m just a fan of music in general Favorite Solo Artists: SO MANY TO NAME but I basically like R&B/hip-hop/soul especially from the 90′s-early 00's, K-Pop, country music and a bunch of DJ’s but nothing too EDM/house Song stuck in your head: BTS Outro: Wings because of that J-Hope breakdown Last movie I watched: Sing! Last TV Show I watched: I don’t really watch TV shows on the regular or keep up with any series but I just watched an episode of Fixer Upper (I love Chip and Joanna). But I do like Game of Thrones, The Mindy Project, New Girl, Criminal Minds and Law and Order: SVU When did you create your blog: I’ve had my main Tumblr since 2008 but this K-pop specific one I just started this year What kind of stuff do you post: on this one: BTS and other K-pop related things with over dramatic/super extra tags lol. On my main one: aesthetic things, inspirational quotes, photography, memes, the occasional personal post, music When did your blog reach its peak: lol, what peak? Do you have any other blogs: I have so many sprinkled everywhere. Multiple Xanga and LiveJournal accounts in addition to my personal Tumblr and my other Tumblr sideblogs like this one Do you get asks regularly? No :( I need Tumblr friends lol so hi everyone, leave me asks/talk to me! I don’t bite =P Why you chose your URL: because *heavy siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh* I wasn’t even checking for Kpop, I was just minding my business during Thanksgiving break but then Jay Park pulled me in with his All I Want To Do choreography that I saw on my Instagram feed, which led me to his music videos, which led me to Kpop reaction videos which led me to BTS which led me down this rabbit hole of being BTS trash and now I’m here looking at my life and life choices because I feel like I’m too old for this sh*t (not really, I’m in my late 20′s; also not saying anything older than being in your 20′s is old but you know what i mean) but welp, here I am :) Following: around 33? I just started this so please send recommendations! Posts: maybe 250-300? Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff Pokémon Team: Idk, never got into Pokemon like that Favorite colors: I don’t know how to describe them but dark and/or muted colors? Like blush, maroon, navy, black, forest green, grey and the occasional bright color like coral, fuchsia or mint green Average hours of sleep: Probably 4-5 but I need to be better at getting a good nights sleep (>_<) Lucky Numbers: 3 and 7! Favorite Characters: STABLER AND BENSON 4 LYF,  Reid from Criminal Minds, Jon Snow from Game of Thrones. I also love Rainbow Rowell’s book characters. Animated characters are a whole different list with too many to count What are you wearing right now: pajama bottoms, shirt, hoodie How many blankets do you sleep with: 1 comforter, sometimes a fluffy blanket if its cold Dream job: travel blogger/photographer, marine biologist or be the female version of Anthony Bourdain or Andrew Zimmerman aka eat and travel around the world Dream trip: somewhere tropical with good food and cool things to see off the beaten path because I’m a lazy introvert and I just want to eat, relax, go to the beach, nap, eat, participate in the occasional activity like snorkeling or 4-wheeling, go out and dance for a little bit, sleep and do it all over again

Hi Tumblrs I follow <3 love you all so I’m gonna tag you: @noona-la-la-la @im-too-old-for-bts @bonappejin @jiminniemouse @ktaebwi @sweaterpawsjimin @gotjimin @bwibelle @leojuseyo @namjoons-boba @pawjimin @rapmini @yoonmin @bangtannoonas @bts @gemjin @jiminrolls @jiminiespinky @jinmini @jminies or anyone who wants to do this!

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evens?

ahh thank you!!

2. Do you have a “type”? If so, describe it 

I’m like usually into femme/more feminine girls but thats not a strict rule

4. Describe your style

uhhhh. I dress like a straight girl tbh 

6. Favorite article of clothing?

I have a crewneck shirt that has some colorful stripes right in the middle & they arent in the order of a rainbow but they look rainbow-ish and i wear that shirt all the time i love it 

8. Current haircut?

very long i need to cut it. it has some layers in there somewhere

12. Single? Taken?

definitely single but i do kind of have a friend with benefits 

14. If single, what are you looking for in a potential girlfriend/wife?

honestly im not rlly looking for anything serious rn im just tryna have a gud time 

16. Do you want kids?

yes yes yes yes yes i love kids 

18. Favorite lesbian movie?

but im a cheerleader omfg its rotten tomatoes review is FAKE it’s the best movie ever 

20. Favorite lesbian song?

uhhhh. not really a lesbian song but i definitely associate it with lesbians so heaven is a place on earth by belinda carlisle 

22. What lesbian stereotypes do you fit into, if any?

i dont think i fit into any like physically. do short nails count lmfao 

24. If a woman wanted to woo you, what would a surefire way to accomplish that? 

tbh if ur just like nice to me and make the first move i’ll love u 

26. Are you more of a cat person or a dog person?

both 

28. Turn offs?

shitty political views 

30. What is your dream career?

I’m tryna be a psychiatrist so we’ll see how that goes 

32. What is the most attractive quality a woman can have? 

a sense of humor? 

34. Ever fallen for your best-friend?

nope

36. The L-Word: yes or no? (love it or hate it?)

god i tried watching it but i stopped after like 4 episodes because i hated jenny so fucking much 

38. Coffee or tea?

tea!! 

40. Do you have any pets?

2 cats

42. What is your sign?

cancer

44. Who was your first lesbian crush?

uhhh a girl from school i guess

46. At what age did you come out (if you have)?

i was 14 

48. Talk about how your day went

it was kinda bittersweet lol i hung out with a couple friends for like the whole first half of the day and it was rlly nice but then we had to say bye to one of our friends bc she’s leaving for college tomorrow and i cried but then i went and played with a puppy. but my immune system is also a little bit fucked up rn and im afraid that i have like mono or something so. it’s had its ups and downs

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1-101 ;)

Unusual AsksSpotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? -spotify if i run outta data, but soundcloud ftwis your room messy or clean?-clean bc my mom hates messeswhat color are your eyes?-browndo you like your name? why?-you can ask anyone & they'll say i hate it bc idk i just dowhat is your relationship status? -single bc 🤷🏽‍♀️describe your personality in 3 words or less-outgoing, awkward. shywhat color hair do you have?-dark brown but this shit looks blackwhat kind of car do you drive? -2015 camaro & gmccolor?-white camaro & blue gmcwhere do you shop?-i shop???? jk hmm, vans, hollister, dicks, ross, marshals, not tooooo sure bc i don't shop muchhow would you describe your style?-its literally sweatshirts 24/7 & tryna look as gay as possiblewhat size bed do you have? -i think its called twin size idk its smolany siblings?-i had an older brother, but now i just got a lil bro, who is 11if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?-tbh i pretty do like it here in the city. so many places to adventure, but the weathers shit. so just somewhere w just as good scenery but less bipolar weatherfavorite snapchat filter? -dog one duhfavorite makeup brand(s)-i dont know shit bout makeuphow many times a week do you shower?-i shower everyday but wash my hair every other dayfavorite tv show?-glee??? idk i don't watch many tv shows shoe size?-5-5.5how tall are you?-5'sandals or sneakers? -sneakerssssdo you go to the gym? -nope, im too brokedescribe your dream date-idk tbh i'd be down for everything. i don't need to be woo'ed because i'd already be woo'ed. you could bring me to your house & cuddle & just listen to music & i'd be happy. you could bring me to the beach & chill & walk in the water w me & be happy. anything would do tbhhow much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?-$13 omfg thats so muchwhat color socks are you wearing? -blackhow many pillows do you sleep with?-onedo you have a job? what do you do? -nopehow many friends do you have? -a lot??whats the worst thing you have ever done? -tbh i've done a lot of bad stuff, i'm not sure what's the worse thing i've donewhats your favorite candle scent? -lavender!!!!!3 favorite boy names-luke, jamie, sebastian3 favorite girl names-fuck idk omfgfavorite actor? -uhhhhhfavorite actress? -i dunnooowho is your celebrity crush?-naya rivera / santana lopez 😍😍-malese jow OMFG BOYYYfavorite movie? -perks of being a wallflowerdo you read a lot? whats your favorite book? -not rlly much anymore, perks of being a wallflower is ultimate fave & milk & honeymoney or brains? -brainsdo you have a nickname? what is it? -jelly, jellybean, bean 😌how many times have you been to the hospital?-uhhh 3 times?top 10 favorite songs-down 4 you / blackbear-valerie / amy winehouse-tropicana / topaz jones-ehu girl / kolohe kai-body / dreezy-sunday best / z. woods-sunday candy / donnie trumpet -all we got / chance the rapper-i shoulda left you / chance the rapper -back to black / amy winehousedo you take any medications daily? -iron pillswhat is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)-uhhh idk?what is your biggest fear? -not being lovedhow many kids do you want? -2-3whats your go to hair style?-uh i forget to brush it half the timewhat type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) -pretty smolwho is your role model? -i dunnowhat was the last compliment you received?-FUCK IDFK I NEVER GET COMPLIMENTEDwhat was the last text you sent?"CMON B😩😩"how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?-idfkwhat is your dream car? -i don't rlly have one? as long as it has a skyroofopinion on smoking?-i don't do itdo you go to college? -no i'm a junior in high schoolwhat is your dream job? -as long as i work with kidswould you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? -suburbsdo you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? -fuck yeah i'm cheapdo you have freckles? nahhdo you smile for pictures?-most of the timehow many pictures do you have on your phone? -none, they're all on google photos bc i never have storagehave you ever peed in the woods? -HAHAHA YEAHdo you still watch cartoons? -FUCK YEAHdo you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?-never tried wendy's nuggetsFavorite dipping sauce? -honey mustardwhat do you wear to bed? -either a shirt & no pants or pants & no shirthave you ever won a spelling bee?-hell nahwhat are your hobbies?-tumblr, photography, secret poemscan you draw? -n odo you play an instrument?-yea, what was the last concert you saw? -uh whatever that thing is called at great america w 94.9tea or coffee?-milk teaStarbucks or Dunkin Donuts?-starbucksdo you want to get married?-yeah in the futurewhat is your crush’s first and last initial?-WELLare you going to change your last name when you get married? -we'll seewhat color looks best on you? -blackdo you miss anyone right now? -hell yeahdo you sleep with your door open or closed?-closeddo you believe in ghosts?-meh i dont rlly knowwhat is your biggest pet peeve? -when ppl lie & i already know the truth, when ppl play w others/me, last person you called-kylafavorite ice cream flavor? -chocolate & strawberryregular oreos or golden oreos? -regchocolate or rainbow sprinkles? -i don't like emwhat shirt are you wearing? -none but i got a sweatshirt onwhat is your phone background?-someoneare you outgoing or shy?-both at the same timedo you like it when people play with your hair?-WEAKNESSdo you like your neighbors? -meh some of emdo you wash your face? at night? in the morning?-both lmaoohave you ever been high? -nohave you ever been drunk? -nah just tipsylast thing you ate? -pizzafavorite lyrics right now-"left hand is steering, the other is gripping your thigh" summer or winter? -SUMMERday or night? -tbh i love bohdark, milk, or white chocolate? -milkfavorite month? -i dunnowhat is your zodiac sign-aquariuswho was the last person you cried in front of? -chloe my homebitch